#dopamine where are you

[inkskinned]

today i love the red metal crane in her long neck arching her body over the boston skyline, which means i am okay for a moment. when i am unwell, everything is a little ugly. i always tell myself look for the beauty but when it is bad, i will look at birds and sunsets and little ducklings and feel absolutely nothing.

when my brother got his puppy, i was in a deep depression. what kind of monster isn't affected by a puppy. i was gentle and kind to her - i just didn't have an emotional reaction. she's five now and i feel like i spend all of our interactions apologizing to her - i don't know why. i just didn't feel anything. how embarrassing. i feel like if i admit that, i'll seem cruel and jaded. it comes in waves. like, two months ago when i went out into the world - it was like that. life behind a pane of stormglass. a firework could go off over your head - nothing. like dead skin, no reaction. not to ice cream or rainbows or baby chickens. life foggy and uninteresting.

i love goslings again. i love their little webbed feet splayed over grass. i love good food and live music and long walks. i like puppies. i feel like some kind of my soul has been starved - i keep staring at everything with wide eyes, trying to burrow the sensation into my stomach. it's real. beauty is real. when it's bad again, remember this. i stop and smell the flowers, feeling cliche in the moment. i like the white-to-red ombre of my neighbor's roses. i like colorcoding and yoga and cold drinks. i try to pass my hands over every moment, feeling like i'm squeezing joy out of every instant. remember this. for the love of god, it's real - just remember this.

[flowercrowngods]

hi. go say something nice to your favourite writer(s). let them know they’re loved and seen and appreciated, and that their place in this world is not dependent on whether or not they’ve written anything recently. write that comment on that fic you’ve re-read for the fifth time just now. invade that ask box and give them some flowers in thanks. imagine a world in which they don’t write anymore, and be aware of the power that lies in kindness and genuine, random appreciation.

[oneshotgremlin]

Like nothing ever happened

@pizzabox-box holy shit your au has been living in my brain rent free and I must give payment for this disease /pos

Pep was never much of a morning person. For as long as he had been a person, for whatever that’s worth. Regardless, no matter how sleepless the night before was or how groggy he was at the current moment, he had a pizzeria to run.

Firing up the oven, taking out the toppings, prepping for business practically out of auto pilot (he’d ask himself which auto was piloting him but honestly he was too out of it and it was too early to start spiraling into another existential crisis).

(And maybe he should’ve. Really, it was only a matter of time before he’d slip up)

It was when he walked back to the kitchen, sauce at the ready for ladling onto his freshly stretched dough, when he realized said dough had somehow fallen from the  countertop and onto the floor.

A pair of eyes were peering up from it to meet him, the dough crawling closer out of apparent curiosity. 

He now was acutely aware that his bare hand was starting to melt onto the rubber handle of the spoon.

Fuck FUCK FUCK-

Gustavo and Brick would clock in at any second and they couldn’t see this they couldn’t see it they’d know they’ll all KNOW-

Just. He picked it up, cringing as it wriggled in his grasp. Just get rid of it. He laughed a bit at himself. How could he be so stupid panicking over something like this? He’s done it before, all the time! Back in his pizzeria! Just get rid of it! Just bite it and tear it apart! It’ll be like nothing happened!

Just.

He picked it up, and it looked at him with wide eyes.

Just…

He struggled against the limbs holding him, whimpering and begging.

…just…

It bit down, and his screams were cut off with a sickening crunch.

…

The taste of metal filled its mouth. Its hands, its teeth, it was all dripping with red. His red.

…

He mechanically shoved the creature into a pizza box, it giving little squeaks of protest before seeming to settle down. And step, by step, by step, one foot somehow landing in front of the other he left the restaurant.

In a time span that felt like nothing and perpetual static, the rubble of the tower came to view and he lightly set the pizza creature down at the clearing. Thankfully, the moment it touched the ground it turned tail and ran far away from him.

‘There.’ He thought. Trudging back to the pizzeria, excuses and fake explanations swimming in his mind in anticipation of Gustavo asking why he’d been out and any other questions born of well meaning concern that was never meant for him.

‘Like nothing ever happened.’

[merakisphere]

I just recently took a look at my Etsy shop stats, and I was surprised to find out that almost a third of my views/favourites/add-to-carts are from the United Kingdom! Is it the fidgeting aspect that makes this popular over there like it is in the USA, or is it the intricate design, and ornamental nature of it? I'm curious!

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[asclexe]

the house md fandom would be fixed by more femlash

[mewnikisses]

Man why'd I get the f/o autism instead of the useful autism

[lawrencespen1777]

Maybe it’s the writer in me. Maybe it’s the tism prism. But I grow weary of the endless cycle that is mass produced drabbles followed by periods of self loathing.

[rosenfey]

🍂🕯️ you ever just listen to a song and know that you won't ever be the same person again because that's what drumming song by florence is doing to me 🕯️🍂

[clownprince]

less constant bombastic all-out huge stakes events in comics more of whatever the fuck is going in one operation joker

[purpurussy]

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[suddencolds]

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[isdalinarhot]

This August it will be 3 years since I started being in gay autistic love with Dalinar. This is the longest anybody, real or fictional, has held my Favorite Person Ever position. At this point Dalinar and I are straight up married. I am legit just Mr Dalinar Kholin. I think I might die with cosmere/Stormlight/Dalinar as my special interest. Dalinar I love you!!!!!!!‼︎ I know you will never love me back but that’s okay!!!!!‼︎ we can 69 in my mind palace <3

[dumbbullet]

obsessed with the the way these dudes move on stage, so ive been doing figure studies while we're slow at work

[savage-rhi]

[ratwithhands]

your battle addict au has really peaked my interest! it sounds so cool and i’m already invested ^^

Aaaa thank you!! Glad to see people are enjoying the show ^^

Wish I had some more content for you guys since the AU is actually really short and simple 👁👁)💦 It's more slice of life compared to my more story oriented AUs, mostly focused on how perceptions shift and how daily life changes when important information comes to light.

If I can, I'd love to get some short/episodic comics out for you guys, like something about the trip to Sinnoh or the hunt for Garchomp. This AU is mostly just a bunch of small moments bundled into a larger collection, so it's probably better suited for shorter posts/sketches.

Anyway! Thank so much you for your interest :D your support means more than you think ^^ hope you have a good night!

[ivan-fyodorovich-k]

One of the things I have noticed is that for all the articles that extremely concretely explore all the ways that AI make life worse right now, and will continue to make life worse, the things that are "good" about AI not only remain vague. As details of the "good" parts emerge, they make it clear that even the "benefits" of AI are evil.

This article compares the specter of AI relationships romantic and otherwise to pornography incapacitating peoples' ability to have normal sexual relationships with human partners.

The bad parts of AI are bad and the good parts of AI are bad too.