#dopamine fix

[ms-boogie-man]

Satan Asks Democrats To Tone Down All The Evil

Yeah, they’re (makes air quotes) saving the world yo  lmao

🤡🌎

Angie/Maddie🦇❥✝︎🇺🇸

[inkstainednote]

I'm tired of feeling and I'm tired of not feeling.

I'm tired of feeling because sometimes when I'm sitting empty and numb I'll make a choice. And that choice, that little meaningless choice will lead to a spark. This sudden, fluttering spark that is so fragile and so very parodic. I feel it in my blood. How stupid I am to get excited every time I feel the little spark.

I hate feeling because really, I don't feel. The little spark is caused by words or little humans in a little screen in their little separate worlds. I hate feeling because the spark is not real. Every time I feel it I catch my breath, I feel like I need it in my veins, in my bones, in my very brain and soul. I cannot deal without it and I cannot think while it's there. It excites me and scares me, it drains and charges me. Like a battery.

I hate feeling because the spark doesn't belong to me, it never does. It belongs to other people and I borrow it and keep it close but it never lasts because eventually it has to end. There's no more letters or no more people in little screens in little words. The epilogues and the end titles are over and there's just myself and me and the spark that I can no longer feed and that doesn't belong to me so I know it will eventually fade.

I'll find a new spark at some point but it might be less bright or less exciting or maybe it will be more. And then it will fade too and so on. Because they're never mine.

I yearn to feel but I yearn to feel something real. And my own spark just doesn't happen, my life remaining numb and boring. I'm bored. I'm always bored. Why can't I feel a spark?

Every time I borrow one I'll cherish it and crawl to it like an addict does to drugs. Because I am an addict. I'm an addict of feelings because I haven't felt something real and good since I can remember.

I'm tired of not feeling too, I can't just let the foreign sparks go because then all that's left would be me. And I hate being left alone with me.

I just wish I could feel my own spark.

[crowslunasidhe]

I love candles so much. Seeing the flickering flame satisfies that part of my ADHD brain that craves dopamine. Plus it smells good.

[helenwhiteart-blog]

Hyperfocus!

Hyperfocus is a very old friend (sometimes foe) of mine, as alluded to many times before in these posts which, face it, probably wouldn’t exist if it wasn’t for this propensity I have to hyperfocus because writing is both the target and the outlet of this tendency. If I didn’t channel the fruits of at least some of my areas of hyperfocus into writing, I would probably burst! For the early part…

[slavhew]

terminally annoying to kind of endearing

[sluckythewizard]

'I wont cry for you, I wont crucify the things you do. I wont cry for you, see, when you're gone, I'll still be BLOODY MARY'

[mountainsinaboat]

yennefer & tissaia - that's my girl

(inspired by a convo with @chaosandorder46)

[loupy-mongoose]

*sigh*

I wanna try this One Word Sketch thing that's going around.

Heavy emphasis on T R Y.

My art muses have seemingly completely abandoned me. I feel nothing for (my own) art right now, so this could go anywhere between two extremes. One: It could help me spark my mojo back to life. Or two: I could just get no ideas and this flops majorly.

So, I'm thinking of doing it a wee bit different; Others are doing future sketches, but I want to throw in the past as well. AND, if you want to select a character, you're welcome to!

Meaning, my rules are such; 1: Give me a single word, preferably in my inbox, and I'll t r y to doodle something for it. 2: You may specify a character for the word, as well if it's past or future. The less specific it is, the more I'll take it into my own hands. (Keep in mind there may be a chance that certain words don't work with certain characters.)

Whether I do any given word is up to the amount of inspiration I feel, just as a heads up. Really hoping it's more than nothing. Being museless is EXTREMELY frustrating. ;w;

I'll keep this open until I say I'm done with it, lol.

[howly]

i've reluctantly come to realize that i'm kind of a canon purist when it comes to edward and bella. y'all who want to fix them... wyd? it's not like "it's not broken to fix". oh it's very very broken. broken like the crust of crème brûlée just after i tapped it with my spoon and before i devoured it enjoying every second of it. mmph. fucking delicious. i eat that up every time

[grif-hawaiian-rolls]

No thoughts today just veilguard Locus

And my fed ocs for me and me alone

[asclexe]

the house md fandom would be fixed by more femlash

[southern--downpour]

ok rewatched the ending bits, i really dont think sevika joining the council was even meant to be a fix-all for piltover and zauns issues i think it was intended to show just a step in the right direction

[lesbian-elrond]

I don’t want to say “I told you so” about TROP but, I do actually, and I will.

[fixing-bad-comic-art]

wow.... so many beautiful women have sent me links, i can not wait to click on every last one of them on my work computer.

(anyways I'm doing some pre comeback account maintenance, if i block you: sorry i thought you were a bot or just didn't like your vibes)

[delta-hexagon]

i have FINISHED THE ROUGH DRAFT OF MY WARSHIPS IN LOVE SHORT STORY!

[amasiusblog]

MC makes a skirt

mc: *making patterns for a skirt* lucifer: what are you doing? mc: i'm making a skirt lucifer: making- why would you need to make a skirt i can buy it for you. mc: no can do, luci. i need to do something with my hands or else i'll go insane. besides you guys buy stuff for me all the time, it's fine. lucifer: okay, if you say so... [10 minutes later] mc: hey lucifer? have you seen my skirt i swear left it right here a minute ago... lucifer: hm? no i haven't seen your skirt. maybe you just misplaced it. [the next day] mc: !!! mc: how did my skirt get here. how is it done and holy shit these stitches are immaculate. lucifer: you left it in my study. mc: wait you finished this for me? lucifer:...no