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exhibit A of why Gold should not be trusted around children
#cookie run kingdom#cookie run#crk#captain caviar cookie#Gold Choco cookie#rookie cookie#fan cookie#cookie oc#he's fine!#srry it's just that after a few folks tried pushing the idea of Gold being a parent in any way... The reality was too funny not to draw#He's a bad influence in the safest environments#an active danger even incidentally in the others#just#don't leave your children with him
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Saw a neat Fourcheanult post about the ways in which he sucks but tragically I cannot reblog without at least SOME analysis on how the loss of Louisoix would impact his choices and views on his children's actions
#im telling you like#your dad might even KNOW the end is coming one day but he goes to help Eorzea because it's the right thing to do#and you don't agree that it's a priority (the world will end!!) but your father is smart and he's skilled and you say goodbye when he leaves#and then he dies. he dies and no one knows what happened he is simply gone in a flash. his plan to save eorzea?#it worked in that Eorzea exists but the land is DEVESTATED and will never be the same and he IS GONE#and YES when your kids want to visit the land he saved you let them go (but they better write their mother)#and they are doing amazing things but they are your BABIES and my god! what is happening to them???#do you think he knew about Shadowbringers? do you think he knew his children were in a coma IN YOUR CARE?#and then he tries to disown his kids because maybe this will keep them from trying to save the world#and keep them from throwing their lives away#because all he wants is for them to live. even if they hate him#even if they never look at him again. they'll be alive.
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[TUVOKTOBER: Day 13] Do you have slor-tukh-sa money, Elieth?
#grocery shopping with the family <3#Vulcan telepathy is fun bc you can add a little stir-the-pot comment into a conversation from several aisles away#slor-tukh-sa is a branded sugary fruit cereal I made up. Very popular with children across several federation planets!#As a kid there's nothing you want less than a food that's advertised as being GOOD for you by your parent#also in the end they don't get the sugary cereal but they do all get a coin so they can watch a gum dispenser dispense a single piece of gu#in a flashy and interesting way (they have to beg Tuvok for this as well but he's tired after a long day of saying no#and distracted by the cashier and honestly having them leave him alone for a few minutes while he completes this transaction is worth it)#<- Sek keeps his coin and instead helps his father with the groceries though....show off#[REDACTED] family shenanigans#Tuvok#st voyager#bea art tag#tuvoktober
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favorite part of work today was when i told the kids to get into two lines, n this one guy was like "i don't want to" n then started talking to his buddy in mandarin, n so then in chinese i was like, "hey, come here."
n he n his buddy looked at each other n then looked at me with like that faintly displeased expression that means they've realized they can't get away with not being that good at english (or feel terribly isolated from n indifferent to the adults bc they don't speak their language) anymore
and then when i told them to line up in mandarin they groaned abt it for sure but they did drag themselves into a line
#i walked in n this one kid handed me a book to read like a big hardcover graphic novel type thing n said i could look through it#so for kicks i started reading it out loud with all the silly voices n sound effects n blocking#and so then obviously the other children started to swarm me and god. kids have so much body heat#n you can feel it bc they have no personal space qwq#n anyway so i led them all to a different corner of the room and ended up reading 15 out of the 16 chapters of the book#out loud to a big chunk of the kids for like an hour w/a 5 min break halfway through for water#and when i came back the kids were organizing the chairs themselves into a semicircle to give me enough space to perform#i was sweating more than i have in Quite A While by the end bc again. children are So Warm n also being dramatic takes energy#the same kid who handed me the book today last year handed me some pokemon cards n i ended up spending all of spring camp#drawing pokemon from cards as references for kids to color n stuff bc i didn't want to go to the computer n print out coloring pages#so! i should probably stop spoiling/“yes and--”ing kids at work w/my nonsense but it gives them smth memorable at least#but also i am so fucking tired today lol i had to leave class as soon as it was done dash home to drop off my jacket n backpack#i didn't even have time to take off my shoes before entering the house so I Did An Unforgivable Sin (walked around w/shoes on)#n then put on my work jacket n dash out the door again to go to my 5.75 hr work shift o(--(#i don't regret it!! i did tell my boss i was free for afternoon camp shifts specifically bc i wanted these shifts even tho timing'd be tigh#successfully taught a kid to tie his shoelaces today though!!!!! what's w/kids n always using the very tips of their laces to mimic you tho#when you are very clearly handling the parts of the laces right next to your foot. it did click for him tho eventually#the worm speaks
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so many of you talk about the cruel adults in your childhood that negatively effected you and caused lifelong insecurity yet you're still perfectly fine with being that mean stranger to any kid that has the misfortune of existing around you and thats just really gross !!!
#like i get kids can be overwhelming for a various amount of reasons but its not going to kill you to treat children with basic human decency#adults can be just as overwhelming or annoying—if not more. yet if you talked to an another adult the same way you do to a kid#then ppl would fucking hate you and not want to be around you because youre not being cool and witty—youre just mean!!!#everyone has experienced the frustration of being a kid being mistreated by an adult. some more than others#rather its ignoring your bodily autonomy (from sa and assault to hugging you when you don't want to be touched to not letting you#make your own harmless choices like a haircut or whatever). everyone has been talked down to or had their opinion treated like its nothing#or that their thoughts or input doesn't matter. everyone has a childhood experience with a mean or judgemental adult#yet over and over ppl are fine just repeating that cycle of abuse and hatred#like youre a young adult and youre still getting treated like shit by older ones. but youre able to have a drink or you graduated or smthn#so now you feel like you earned that right to be judgemental & angry & mean to a group of people that didnt fucking do anything to you#anyways. this is because im sick and had to go to the store to get groceries and meds#so its a 20 minute walk to the nearest store in 108 degrees bc i dont have gas money and then in the store im ofc using a face mask#like im sweaty and feel disgusting and like shit but this kid was SO fucking excited about his spiderman toy and wanted to talk and#his mom said ‘i told you no one wants to hear about that crap leave her alone’ and like?? no fuck off let a kid be happy?? hes not fucking#doing anything wrong?? so we talked and he showed me the little tiy that lights up and asked if i saw the new spiderverse movie#and i told him i havent! so he asked why so i explained i have photosensitivity and what that means and why i cant see it#(‘even though i heard its super cool!’) and HE WAS SO SWEET... like immediately hid the toy because oh! flashing lights can hurt me!#and then immediately said dont worry because he'll tell me about it so its like i saw it instead!#and like. guys imma be honest with you. i stilm got no fucking idea what this movie's plot is.#but you bet your fucking ass i was pretending like i was following along & was going ‘no way!’ ‘so it's a parallel universe...?’ ‘oh wow!’#like yea its unnecessary. i felt oike i was gonna collapse and im still struggling to breathe at home now. but also i been the kid#who just wanted to talk about my interests and no one wanted to or was dismissing it.#i know it's not a end of the world deal but i also know that crushing feeling. you gotta be the kindness you want to see in the world yknow#anyways. be nice to kids or im not going to be nice to you. they're one of the most vulnerable members of our society and deserves kindness
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i was thinking about how everyone seems to think poe is the new han because they're both charming and i was like 'han is not charming, he's grumpy as shit and he has no game -' and promptly realized that i just described another oscar isaac blorbo of mine: marc spector
#nym speaks#they're both also wifesexual.#anyway#i don't get why people think han is so charming he's a fucking disaster he has no game he just has undying loyalty.#he needs the perfect opportunity to flirt to be pointed out to him so he'll take the chance#poe meanwhile IS actually charming and will flirt with someone at an inopportune time if he likes them#han is out there with big big big big big big big puppy dog eyes hoping leia will flirt with HIM and then he gets petulant as fuck when she#doesn't. he's like miette.#that's actually the fight in tesb condensed#both han AND leia are yelling at each other like they're miette#'YOU LEAVE!!! THE REBELLION!!! THE LEIA!!! FOR OUR SAFETY???? JAIL!!! JAIL FOR HAN SOLO FOR A MILLION YEARS!!!'#'yOURE STILL IGNORING THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE A BIG BIG CRUSH ON ME AND I HAVE A BIG BIG CRUSH ON YOU? JAIL!! JAIL FOR LEIA FOR A BILLION#YEARS!!!!'#like they're children. i love them but they're children.#anyway.#why are you booing me i'm right etc etc
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It is killing me internally that they are going to have to make a decision in one minute war. Jai is frozen in time. They can't take him with them but they can't just leave him there. Does Linda stay back with Irey and Jai? Do Wally and Linda go out leaving Irey to protect her brother? Do they attempt to relocate him somewhere safe or hide him?
I'm just... All these scenarios suck. This is heartbreaking.
#i guess wally could try to jumpstart him again#but#idk I don't think itd work tbh#im willing to bet Irey stays back and then later on she rejoins the fight in her new costume#still#can't imagine leaving your children alone in a war zone#dc#dc comics#the flash#kid flash#wally west#linda park#one minute war#irey west#jai west
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with the disclaimer that I don't know all the context since I haven't read it, how WAS he supposed to handle a contagious illness in a society that doesn't have any form of masks or sanitation? Temporarily quarantining contagiously sick cats away from healthy ones just seems like a completely different and much more reasonable thing than kicking out cats permanently for a disability because they would be a "burden".
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Ok, going with you having no context for this, he wasn't suggesting a 'temporary quarantine' for sick cats. There is already a quarantine, with only the medics approaching the sick. Following everyone having a Hearty Chuckle that Clear Sky 'cares about other people' now by saying we're "all in it together," Clear Sky shares his full plan;
He nonsensically believes that no sick prey is living in the burnt part of his woods and the fire "cleansed it", so all of the healthy cats will abandon the sick to die in their camps and come live on his territory and 'wait it out.'
His plan is that all the cats who become sick will die. It's not quarantine in the sense that they will 'help the sick but keep a distance', he is essentially suggesting a reverse leper colony where everyone who displays symptoms gets kicked out to fend for themselves.
And, in the past, illness was always part of his talking points for throwing cats out of his clan. It was why he tried to throw Frost out, where he would die alone. I went back to Thunder Rising to grab the passage,
This is after he shoves Thunder's face into it and tells him to lick it.
So, it's wholly inappropriate, imo, that Thunder essentially does a little eye roll and a cutesy sigh at this suggestion. "Ohh that's my dad and his ruthless streak." His dad has historically been a monster towards the sick and infirm when they "stop being useful" with this rhetoric. Burdens, disease, weakness. In this moment, he is proposing that they do to an unknown number of cats exactly what he commanded Thunder do to Frost.
Additionally, at this point in time, they don't know how the illness spreads. They're guessing that it's via contact with sick prey, and using leaves as rudimentary tissues/gloves. Clear Sky DOES know, though, these two things;
One Eye knows how it spreads and is not telling.
Many of his cats have been exposed.
He has no idea which cats have been exposed, or how many, or even how long it takes between infection and first symptoms. All they DO know is that symptoms are rapid onset and debilitating. By the time you know a cat is sick, they're covered in sores, have a bloated stomach, and are unable to hunt for themselves. The only thing that is for sure is that turning them out is a death sentence.
And yet he is confused at the idea that Thunder has an objection about leaving Morning Whisker, Wind Runner's kitten who isn't older than a month or two, alone to die.
The solution that the groups eventually come up with is that the clans will remain isolated from each other as to not spread illness, though it doesn't seem to work because infected prey still moves around freely.
Also note that the first time Clear Sky actually gives a damn about an infected person is when Jagged Peak's pregnant wife catches it (After Jagged Peak 'proves' he's useful now by leading a medicine-seeking patrol thanks to Gray Wing). Wind Runner's an "ex-rogue," a group Clear Sky has disdain for, and he doesn't think to have compassion about her baby.
So to answer your question directly, he was 'supposed' to handle it the way the Moor cats did and were, with some basic safety precautions. Not regress to trying to use the illness to get all the cats into a single Clan in his own territory where he could continue to throw "useless/dangerously ill/disabled" out into the wilderness "where the maggots will find them".
#tw medical gore#It's worse than I mentioned but I was trying to be brief about it#Because if I dove into every little thing that is SHOCKINGLY bad about Clear Sky I wouldn't be able to get through the book#I swear im trying to be charitable about the fact his first suggestion was just...#''Kill your sick friends and children and join a brand new camp in MY territory''#''I totally won't assert myself as your leader and make you throw out your friends and family For The Greater Good this time''#''I've been thinking it's a great idea to gather all of the cats in one spot as a contagious illness ravages the forest''#''Don't worry we won't get sick because we'll leave all the weak people behind''#You can think about this for more than 30 seconds and see it fall apart#So isn't it very very convenient that his ''i've been Thinking'' idea involves consolidating power under HIMSELF??? AGAIN?????#At *best* he is so stupid he is inventing a superspreader event#At minimum his plan involves killing a LOT of people via abandonment#And at worst it's actually just another ploy to gain power. But I have to rule that out even though it's the most interesting idea#Because it's Clear Sky Redemption Arc Time and the writers are dead set on not letting him be an interesting character
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i know they're a uniform item but still we don't talk nearly enough abt terence's sidelacing pants
#90s king.#dion should occasionally feel the need to pluck at them like lyre strings we're failing him.#he can make up little songs#he's simply cut through them at least once I Know It In My Heart. just plink plink plink through each X with a lil claw#they were arguing about is it pain au chocolate or chocolatine and dion wanted the last word bad enough idk#'You are their Captain. I cannot in good conscience allow you to leave with this evil in your heart; they place their faith in you.'#someone walks in like what ... happened... at terence's new advent children ass threads and they don't even have to lie
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Seeing so many people putting Azula and Zuko against each other bothers me a lot, because that's literally what Ozai did. How can you guys not see that? It's canon
Azula and Zuko were both terrible to eachother in multiple occasions (edit: actually, Azula was terrible to Zuko, but I didn't wanna get jumped by Azula stans so I made it seem like they were both bad. Sorry about that and thanks for correcting me), but they're both traumatized children fighting a war that started before they were even born. The war made them that way. Ozai made them that way
Azula was horrible to Zuko for most of his life, and that's canon. You can't deny it. But at the same time, it MOSTLY wasn't her fault
So, we know how Ozai clearly liked Azula more than Zuko did. But why is this? Zuko may not be as good as Azula in terms of bending, but he's not a bad bender. Ozai likes Azula more (not loves; likes) because she acts the way he wants her to act. She's cold, mean, calculating, manipulative and supports the Fire Nation. Zuko is nice, he asks too many questions, struggles with his emotions and can't seem to stfu (I know I sound mean saying that but that's literally canon. That boy cannot, for the love of god, shut his fucking mouth up)
Ozai made Azula be more like him. Zuko gets his kindness from his mother
And on the topic of Ursa, she canonically loves both of her children, even if she prefers Zuko due to him being less like their abuser. We never see her calling Azula a monster, besides of the scene where she says “What is wrong with that child?” OUTSIDE OF HEARING RANGE and right after Azula did something Bad™ (forgot what it was sorry). This is why I believe that Ursa never directly told Azula she feared her: Ozai told her she did. Ozai spent a lot more time with Azula than he did with Zuko, which was very easily an opportunity to poison her mind even more. And how did he do this?
By telling her everyone hated her.
He isolated her, made her cold and unforgiving, so that she wouldn't have any “weaknesses” like Zuko did. He used her as a means to abuse Zuko. He told her Zuko and Ursa were weak and that they both feared and hated her
Zuko would be right to be angry at Azula for treating him the way she did,but he still should know (and he DOES know, it was literally the main theme of his redemption arc; realizing that his abuser was the one at fault and not him) that the one at fault was Ozai. Same with Azula; it wasn't Zuko's fault nor Ursa's, Ozai is the one that willingly chose to destroy so many people's lives because he wanted power
And I'm pretty sure Zuko and Azula don't hate eachother like many people believe them to do. No, they love eachother, but ofc Ozai fucking ruined their relationship bc he ruins EVERYTHING
Zuko is sad that their relationship turned out to be that way. Zuko wants them to be better, to do better. Zuko wants them to be happy. But Zuko has also grown up with a version of Azula that could never make mistakes and that was mean af. Zuko won't be able to have a perfectly healthy relationship with his sister ever because of how he was made to think of Azula as perfect, and because Azula was made to think of him as weak
So, please, don't pit them against eachother. Don't compare the abuse they went through (seriously. Doing that is disgusting). Don't bring one of them down to make the other look like a little angel that does nothing wrong. They already suffer because of that enough in canon. Leave my babies alone
#but really. the only person that was actually abusive in the fire family was ozai#ozai used his daughter to torment zuko and ursa; ruining her life and mental health in the process#and ursa wasn't the greatest mother but c'mon. she was trapped with a man she was forced to marry#she was literally taken away from her home and most likely SAd by him multiple times so they could have heirs#and YES it was SA. ursa did NOT want to go with him. she didn't want to marry him#and she definitely didn't want to have children with him#but she still loved her children so much#she did all she could. especially considering her poor mental health at the moment#she tried#so don't come to me with any of your “ursa didn't love azula and she was a terrible mother” bullshit#ursa loved BOTH OF HER CHILDREN#she showed favoritism over zuko because azula was mimicking her worst abuser's actions#and yet she still tried to show azula love and appreciation#but ofc ozai fucking ruined that#ursa never directly told azula that she feared her#i 100% believe that ozai told azula ursa hated her to isolate her even further#also azula wouldn't be in the wrong to be angry at zuko for leaving#the first time? yes she'd be wrong because he didn't leave he was kicked out#the second time? well. she is a 14 year old girl#she probably saw Zuko's betrayal as something more personal#AND AGAIN!!#azula is allowed to be angry. she's allowed to have feelings#but she needs to know and understand that her miserable life wasn't zuko's (or ursa's) fault#in the comics (yes i know they're terrible don't come at me) it's shown how she blames everyone but herself and ozai#she says ursa was the one at fault. she antagonizes zuko and attempts to make him more like ozai#she also antagonizes kiyi (her half sister)#she antagonized a lot of people#atla#oh and abt what i said before. azula WAS abusive. it was Ozai's fault but she really was abusive#sorry if i made it look like i was denying it
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Word of advice: never become a manager
#I fucking hate this job I do not get paid enough to deal with an owner who treats anyone who isnt a cis man as inferior#when he couldn't even work a single day in his own store without fucking up because he doesnt even know how to use the register#and all those men that you pay more? all those men that you discuss wages with in the interview when women don't get that?#yeah they all leave or fuck things up so badly that they get fired for horrendous acts#but those women and transmen that you employ myself included have all been here for at minimum one to three years#and those men don't last 6 months#shocking that they come in#find out theyre getting paid a dollar less than your assistant manager and realize they don't have to do shit to get paid#they just have to exist#but your longest standing employees have to confront you about raises that they should have received months ago#anyways if I have to listen to him talk to me like I'm one of his children tomorrow I'm going to quit#and if I leave so will the other staff members at my location#good luck opening a new store when you don't even have staff for this one if you fuck up so bad tomorrow
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idk why my brain is suddenly hung up on torturing dism but i'm here for his fraught and tortured questions :)
#it's rare usually I give his brother this kind of treatment#i dig it immensely though :>#yes i am still hung up on that arc 4 ludonarrative harmonious idea from last week#every time it comes to mind it gets worse :D !!#i mean sometimes I forget that Dism's backstory IS traumatic#much of it I would just classify as my childhood (minus the kidnapping obv)#that I forget it leaves scars to be exploited~#bonus points for the Munchausen Syndrome By Proxy though I didn't even know that counted as abusive until recently#i didn't even know that sort of lie about one's health had a name :O#but it leaves fun angles to play with :P#this is your reminder that i can be JUST as remorseless and cruel as you if I so desire~#also even those few snippets i DID write did so much for my understanding of him#what he's so afraid of :)#it makes me want some of those really difficult psychological questions like I answered for Archie that one time#and not even just for him. I appreciate the challenge for any of them. It shows me how strong their personalities are ^^#just pav things#head children my beloved I deserve you but you don't deserve me ^^;#not that Dolphin would give you better treatment................
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i wear a lot of skirts and pink and whatnot as my style has developed with me & my personality but when one of those age regression girlies latch onto me....i do not like that
#like oh....you think im one of them...bestie no im freshly 23 and im happy i made it this far i dont wanna go back#sometimes i hate being 5'2 with a small frame you have to be very careful and kinda vet everyone you interact with#idk there's a complex discussion to be had. i am someone who has went through what they fetishize and i know a lot of girls in that#community have too. so i worry a lot if if my behaviors and preferences accidentally align with that community in ways i don't realize#bc trauma will always reveal itself. idfk. when i was 20 i got in a relationship with a man who was 30 because i misheard him and thought#he was 24. i thought he was okay until we were at this giftshop and he wanted to get me something but as giftshops are super expensive#i mentioned i could fit in childrens clothes and it saves me a lot of money ($60 shoes are $30 for kids) and tbh fit my frame better#so he was “prove it” so i did and mf said “THATS HOT” ??????????? BITCH#my style wasn't even feminine in the slightest at the time 😑 it feels like a curse to have this kind of trauma then never outgrow this body#believe me ik how trauma changes your brain but how#as a woman#can you ever be apart of that community? why do you allow this to continue and not persecute these men for existing?#you're inherently enabling it and saying its okay this happened to you and its okay that other adults can hurt other kids#when my rapist got put in prison i screamed i yelled i sang i danced my friends set off FIREWORKS for me#when he got out i cried more than i ever have. i moved STATES (not the sole rzn but nonetheless) not that i was in the one he was in prison#in anyways but i was so fucking petrified he'd find me again. its embarrassing but i started sleeping with a chastity belt again.#i made more phone calls i ever have in my life to people who have and will get their hands dirty#i understand the self hatred those girls have. i understand the girls who sleep with everyone to take some of their power back.#i even understand the girls who want to get raped if they got assaulted but it never felt like enough for the pain they're experiencing#but please stay the fuck away from me. as someone who has tried to heal and wants every man like that erased from earth.#do not give them an ounce of attention. ostracize them like they're meant to be. leave it to god for their karma they will be dealt with#reckon with your pain and make sure it never happens to anyone else. only the harmed can make the greatest teachers#tbh bro i am disgusted with myself at all that those are the kinda vibes i put out.#what are you supposed to do as a woman when feminity is equalized with infantilism? i think its tone deaf and misguided whem girls are like#i dress this way to contradict societies views!!! babes its a whole cultural issue that requires reviewing and reforming#you are not doing anything revolutionary by wearing frilly skirts and saying im not like them bc they see you and ur automatically boxed in#i dress how i want and say what i want but i know as a individual im not the beacon of a groundbreaking movement#singularily flipping society on its head. dress how you want but be aware of the connotations. you're living in this society here and now#there's consequences that may not be in your favor and youll be assumed to have values that dont align with you and it may break your heart
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People didn't know what a conservatorship was until like two years ago because of Britney Spears.
But Michael Oher, as a high schooler in 2004 should've known and understood what it was?
#michael oher#adoption understanders out if full force as well as per usual in any story involving adoption#“But he would have been entitled to their monies if they had actually adopted him”#leaving aside the implication that wanting to give your adopted kids less money than you biokids is reasonable instead of repulsive#adult children don't have a legal entitlement to their parent's assets??? not even when they die???#do you really think these millionaires don't have a fucking will?
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One day I am gonna start journaling again and then I won't post all this sad shit on here but until then! *posts another sad post*
#it's dark and I'm tired so this means NOTHING. but.#there's no heartbreak like raising your younger siblings and them growing up to side against you#I lost my childhood to playing parent and trying to distance my siblings from the fighting and verbal abuse I witnessed and endured#I learned to read the room early on so I could get them out of situations before they turned bad#I knew I had to be perfect so I could take the fall for shit I'd never do and get a lighter punishment than the 'problem children'#I understand the younger kids. I was older so I could shield them better until they were old enough for our parents to mellow out a bit#of course they would choose the parents who don't care enough to parent them over the bitch who had multiple public breakdowns over them#but my brother. I don't understand that. it was our war. we had to figure it out together#of course he didn't though. he'd hit every landmine and it was up to me to pick up the pieces and salvage what I could.#instead of there being a solidarity between us as survivors of a pitiful childhood he's taken to blaming me for it all#I'm the reason he's depressed. suicidal. can't get a job. can't drive. never leaves the house. it's all because of me.#he'll joke around and egg on the man who used to corner and scream and threaten and insult him.#he'll wax poetic about how he has our bio father's blood. how he shares so many traits with a man who never wanted him. will never care.#I won't say I was perfect or that I did right by him in every way. I was a child trying to survive and I lashed out plenty of times.#I never understood why he couldn't just shut up. couldn't just let words be said and meekly take them. always had to get the last word in.#couldn't just curse the man in his heart with his head bowed and a 'yes sir. sorry sir.'#I blamed him for that at the time. I was wrong for that.#so yeah. I can accept my part of making things worse for him. I should've tried harder to understand him.#what I can't accept is that the blame falls solely on me. not our bio father who beat our mom and abandoned us.#not our stepfather who made every day a walk on eggshells. not our complacent mother. not the external family who only ever made it worse.#just me. I'm the only thing that ruined his life.#and sure. he can believe whatever he wants. if that's how he feels then so be it.#but he has to tell everyone. yeah my sister ruined my life. yeah she's the reason I want to kill myself.#over and over and over. all the family believes him.#my mom tells me to be nicer to him. my grandma asks me what I've done to hurt him so badly. he tells our siblings I'm a bitch and a liar.#I haven't even spoken to him in years. but every time he has a mental health crisis it's my fault.#in what way? who fucking knows. he talks in circles and the only thing he says for certain is it's my fault. and that's all my family needs#it truly got to the point I had to stop speaking to him cuz no matter what I said he decided it was an attack on him.#so. I've dealt w a lot. sacrificed an entire life stage. got nothing to show for it#except mental illness and a creeping sense that it was all for nothing
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not my grandpa picking a fight on Sunday + my aunt jumping in the ring. I'm insane I'll kill all three of us 💖
#this muleheadedness is something i hate in all of his children my mom included#if i tell you no it means fucking no!! I don't care how good your intentions were. it means no!#and now my aunt is trying to pry. girl leave me alone you don't know the situation at all#NEITHER of them know the situation. this is another thing with him he tries to do these things while being ignorant of the behind the#scenes. 🙄🙄🙄#I didn't need this today.#vent cw#negative cw#sriracha.txt
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