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bueckets · 22 hours ago
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Thin Walls
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Pairing: roommate!Paige x reader
Genre: roommates to lovers, kinda funny?, smut, unbearable sexual tension, petty revenge, paper-thin walls, psychological warfare via moaning, paige bueckers menace era, girl failure x girl who never fails, competitive pining, mutual obsession, doomed from the start but in a fun way, vibrators n SEX, almost all ssmut
Description: When a sleep-deprived biomed student moves in with UConn’s most notorious heartbreaker, you expect late-night film study, protein shake graveyards, and an apartment perpetually scented like sweat and victory. What you don’t expect? Thin walls. And Paige Bueckers making absolutely no effort to keep her extracurricular activities quiet.
What starts as a battle for basic human decency turns into something far messier—petty revenge plots, mind games laced with innuendo, and an unspoken tension that neither of you is willing to name. Paige plays like she owns the court, like she owns the world, and maybe—just maybe—like she wants to own you, too.
They say pressure makes diamonds, but when it comes to Paige Bueckers, it just might make a disaster.
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There’s a certain satisfaction in watching rich people fight over throw pillows. Like, deep, existential satisfaction. The kind that settles into your bones, whispering at least you’re not that delusional while you scrape the bottom of your bank account for rent. That’s why Selling Sunset has become your new comfort show—nothing soothes the sting of your own financial ruin quite like watching a billionaire lose their shit over an ocean view.
The couch has practically absorbed your body at this point, molded to the exact slouch of your spine. The TV’s glow flickers against the walls, the only illumination in the apartment aside from the soft neon blur of the city outside. A bowl of Greek yogurt sits abandoned on the coffee table—your latest attempt at a “responsible” late-night snack, made in partnership with self-loathing. You’re too exhausted to move, too wired to sleep. Somewhere outside, a siren wails, stretching long and lonely through the night, and you think, for just a second, that if you squint hard enough, you can almost pretend your life is fine.
Then the door slams open like a fucking battering ram.
A mess of limbs and pure, unfiltered desperation stumbles in. Paige Bueckers and tonight’s lucky contestant.
They’re already kissing—no, consuming each other. Lips fused. Hands gripping. Hips aligning like they’re moments away from shifting the tectonic plates beneath them. It’s all sloppy giggles and breathy moans, the kind of shit that should come with a parental advisory warning.
Paige is in sweats and a hoodie that’s hanging halfway off her shoulder, her blonde hair a tousled wreck that suggests she either just left practice or got aggressively felt up in the Uber ride over. The girl—a brunette this time—has her fingers twisted into the hem of Paige’s hoodie like she might actually rip it in half. You’re 98% sure they don’t even notice they almost wipe out over the entryway rug.
You stare. They don’t. They’re too busy dry-humping against the door like horny teenagers who just discovered the concept of friction.
This is usually the part of the night where you’d be asleep. That’s the unspoken agreement. Paige does whatever (or whoever) she wants, and you exist in separate, peaceful universes where her sex life is not your problem. But tonight, insomnia had you in a chokehold, so instead of peacefully slipping into unconsciousness, you’re here, trapped in the splash zone of her latest conquest like some unwilling war correspondent reporting live from the trenches.
Paige finally clocks your presence. Her head jerks up mid-kiss, blinking at you through the haze of what you can only assume is either lust or a full-on brain shutdown.
“Oh. My bad.”
Her voice is husky, wrecked, but casual—so casual, like you just bumped into each other in line at Trader Joe’s, not like you just caught her halfway to third base in the shared living space. The brunette barely acknowledges you, too busy chasing Paige’s mouth again, fingers already curled into the waistband of her sweats like they’re pre-gaming for something much worse.
Your jaw clenches. It’s not jealousy. It’s not even annoyance, really. It’s just…the audacity of it all. You didn’t survive financial ruin, an eviction, and the world’s most soul-sucking job just to end up as an unwilling extra in Paige’s late-night softcore escapades.
Paige smirks, something smug and completely unbothered dancing in her blue eyes, and then—because apparently, she has to make sure you fully marinate in your suffering—she winks.
She fucking winks.
Then she grabs her conquest by the wrist and drags her toward her bedroom. The door swings shut with a decisive click.
You exhale sharply. Shift on the couch. Turn back to Selling Sunset.
A blonde woman in Louboutins slams a designer purse onto a marble counter, screaming about escrow like her life depends on it.
You grab your spoon, chew a bite of yogurt, and pretend this isn’t the worst night of your life.
At first, it’s nothing you can’t ignore—a muffled giggle, the faint creak of a mattress. You’ve had years of training in the fine art of selective hearing. Cheap apartments with walls thinner than a CVS receipt, noisy neighbors who lived for 3 AM karaoke, exes who had no concept of volume control—life has forged you into a soldier of endurance. A survivor. You could sleep through sirens. You could pretend not to hear the couple next door having a screaming match about a misplaced vape pen. You could—if the situation demanded it—completely erase the existence of an entire soundscape from your brain.
But then the giggling shifts. Turns breathy. Then it turns into something else entirely.
A rustle of sheets. A gasp. A low, pleased hum that shouldn’t make your stomach twist with secondhand mortification, but does.
Your grip tightens around the remote. The TV screen flickers in front of you, but you’re no longer absorbing the content. Christine Quinn is monologuing about open-concept kitchens—something about “flow” and “maximizing natural light”—but her voice isn’t nearly loud enough to drown out the escalating symphony from down the hall.
You turn the volume up. Way up.
It doesn’t help.
Paige’s conquest lets out a high, breathy whimper, the kind of sound that makes your entire body lock up like your nervous system just crashed. Paige’s voice follows, low and affectionate, murmuring something you absolutely do not want to hear, but your cursed, traitorous ears pick up anyway. Whatever she says makes the brunette giggle—another peal of laughter before it melts into something softer, more desperate.
Your eye twitches. Nope.
You launch off the couch like you’ve been personally attacked, storming down the hallway with all the righteous fury of someone who has had enough. The second you reach your room, you slam the door shut behind you. The walls rattle. The moaning does not stop.
Jesus. Are your walls are made of tissue paper? No, fuck that—tissue paper at least offer some resistance. This? This is sonic purgatory. Paige’s voice is clearer now, her tone teasing, low, smug. A pet name you can’t quite make out but absolutely wish you could bleach from your brain.
You groan. Loudly. Throw yourself onto your bed and yank a pillow over your head like that’s going to do anything.
It doesn’t.
Because the sounds are intermittent—waves of giggles followed by the kind of sighs that make your ears burn. The occasional shhh from Paige, followed by a breathless “like that?”
You squeeze your eyes shut. Think of something else. Think of literally anything else. You focus on the fabric of your pillowcase, the way the cotton sticks to your cheek, the faint scent of detergent—Paige moans, and your brain short-circuits like a 2003 Dell desktop.
You don’t even have the energy to be properly mad. This is just Paige. Unbothered, self-contained, casually ruining your will to live Paige. She doesn’t try to be inconsiderate, but she also doesn’t try not to be.
Another moan—drawn out and shameless—curls through the air, and you nearly levitate out of your skin. You want to scream. Instead, you yank another pillow over your head for good measure, as if two pillows will somehow create a force field against whatever the fuck is happening in there.
Christine Quinn is still monologuing in your mind, her voice a distant echo beneath the carnal horror occurring in real time.
"It’s all about location, location, location."
Yeah. No shit.
You really should’ve picked a better one.
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The morning drags itself into existence like a bad hangover—except you didn’t drink. You just endured. Survived. Battled through the night like some war veteran, only your battlefield wasn’t made of trenches and gunfire but moaning and drywall acoustics.
Sunlight filters through the too-thin blinds, stabbing into your retinas like a personal attack. It casts a harsh glow over the wreckage of your living room—your personal post-war scene. The coffee table is an abandoned crime scene: an empty takeout container, a spoon half-submerged in a sad puddle of yogurt, a crumpled napkin that might have been thrown in frustration during hour two of your sleepless torment. Your blanket is twisted in a heap on the couch, kicked off at some point in your desperate attempt to burrow away from the sounds of Paige Bueckers living her best, most inconsiderate life.
It’s quiet now. Blessedly quiet. A void. No hushed giggles, no rhythmic bedframe percussion, no doors slamming. No evidence of last night’s atrocity except for your residual irritation, clinging to the air like stale perfume.
You sit at the dining table, textbook open, pen in hand, attempting to refocus on something productive. Biomed homework. Neural pathways, synaptic transmission—things that matter. Unlike Paige, who—
A shuffle of feet. Soft, socked steps. You don’t even hear her door creak open—just the lazy, leisurely sound of someone who has never known suffering emerging from her room.
You refuse to look up.
“Morning,” Paige says, casual as ever, like she didn’t turn your living space into the set of a low-budget lesbian porno eight hours ago. She stretches, arms overhead, back arching slightly, exhaling like she just had the most restful night’s sleep of her life.
Meanwhile, you—who has never been more tired—physically recoil at the audacity.
She rubs her eyes, yawns, shuffles past you toward the kitchen like nothing happened. Not even a hint of acknowledgment. No sheepish oops, my bad for mentally scarring you with surround sound sex noise. No hey, sorry about your insomnia and emotional distress. Just a morning like everything is fine.
You blink at her. Unbelievable.
Your fingers tighten around your pencil as you force your gaze back to your notes. Ignore her. You are a scholar. A person of intellect. A higher being.
Paige, meanwhile, has fully migrated to the fridge. She rummages carelessly, like she owns this apartment, like she pays your therapy bills. She emerges with the orange juice carton, unscrews the cap, and—like an absolute menace to society—drinks straight from it.
The pencil in your grip creaks ominously.
“You’re up early,” she remarks, between gulps.
“I didn’t sleep,” you reply, flat, clipped. You don’t look at her. You refuse to.
Paige makes a small sound—something vaguely amused, vaguely disbelieving. “Damn. That sucks.”
That’s it? That’s all she has to say.
You inhale, deeply, willing yourself not to commit a violent felony before noon.
Slowly, slowly, you lift your head, turn your glare toward her like a sniper locking onto a target. Paige, in all her infuriating glory, is leaning against the counter, still drinking your orange juice, looking like someone who has never felt guilt a day in her life. Her expression is neutral, open. Not quite smug, but there’s something about the way she exists that makes you want to throw your textbook at her face and plead temporary insanity in court.
She swipes her thumb across her mouth, wiping away a drop of juice.
“You know what else sucks?” you say, voice deceptively calm. “The structural integrity of our walls. They’re paper-thin. Just an interesting fact I thought I’d share.”
Paige’s lips twitch. She knows. She fucking knows. She tilts her head slightly, like she’s considering whether she should poke the bear or let you stew in your suffering. Then she settles on:
“Huh.”
That’s it.
Your grip tightens on the pencil so hard you might actually snap it in half.
Paige drains the last of the orange juice, wipes her mouth again (like an animal), and sets the carton down with a satisfied sigh. Then, as if she hasn’t just mentally and emotionally destroyed you, she stretches again, rolling out her shoulders.
“Welp,” she says, tone light, completely unbothered. “I’m out. See ya.”
“Wait, what—”
But she’s already gone, disappearing back into her room for approximately thirty seconds before emerging again—this time with a duffel bag slung over her shoulder.
You stare at it. “You’re leaving?”
Paige nods like this is the most normal thing in the world. “Yeah. Team stuff. Won’t be back tonight.”
Your brain malfunctions. Won’t be back tonight. This terrorist has held you emotionally hostage for an entire night and now she’s just leaving? Just walking away from the wreckage like some kind of villain in an action movie, casually strolling as the building explodes behind her?
She tugs on her sneakers at the door, slings her bag higher on her shoulder, and—because the universe is cruel—throws you a lazy, almost mocking little salute.
“Don’t wait up,” she tosses over her shoulder. Then she’s gone.
The door swings shut and the apartment is silent again.
You sit there, fingers clenched around your pencil, biomed notes glaring up at you like they’re personally offended by your suffering. Your eye twitches.
I fucking hate her.
Then you sigh, rub your temple, and force yourself back to work.
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It’s been three days of silence. Three whole, glorious days of peace. Three nights where you didn’t have to contemplate smothering yourself with a pillow just to escape the torment of Paige’s complete disregard for basic human decency. The apartment has felt almost normal—like an actual home instead of a halfway house for Paige’s revolving door of hookups. You don’t have to brace yourself every time the front door swings open, because it hasn’t swung open. You don’t have to leave your headphones on while studying to shield yourself from the auditory terrorism of her sex life. You don’t have to walk into the kitchen at 1 AM and fear that you’ll be confronted with Paige, half-naked, wearing nothing but someone else’s lipstick and a hoodie that’s falling off her shoulder like she’s starring in a fucking romance movie.
The peace has been so uninterrupted, so unnatural, that you’ve almost forgotten what it’s like to live in a state of constant vigilance. You throw yourself into your biomed assignments, losing yourself in the clean, clinical world of neural pathways and synaptic transmission, your SZA playlist looping softly in the background. You almost start to believe this is real. That this is the new normal. That maybe Paige has finally, miraculously, learned self-control or, at the very least, found a new venue to conduct her business.
You are so fucking naïve.
The front door doesn’t just open—it explodes. A crack, a slam, a full-body collision with the wall that rattles the picture frames. The kind of entrance that belongs to either a SWAT team or a raging hurricane of bad decisions.
Your body locks up like an animal sensing an oncoming natural disaster. The pencil in your grip slips through your fingers, hitting the desk with a dull thunk. Your heart stutters in your chest, and for one brief, delusional second, you tell yourself that it wasn’t real. Maybe it was just the wind. Maybe Paige forgot something and came back only to leave again. Maybe—
A thud. Then another. The unmistakable rhythm of someone kicking off their shoes, the soft scuff of footsteps across the floor.
You grit your teeth, pressing your palms flat against your desk. You are not going to react. You are not going to engage. If she wants to slam doors and stomp around like a feral beast, fine. You refuse to let her drag you into the chaos. You reach for your headphones, adjusting them over your ears, cranking up the volume until SZA drowns out the world.
It’s not enough.
A sound pierces through the music, slicing through the air like a warning shot. It’s high-pitched, sudden, obscene—so sharp that your entire body recoils. Your brain trips over itself, scrambling to make sense of what it just processed, and for a brief, fleeting moment, you think someone is in distress. Like maybe—maybe—this is the night Paige finally made an enemy and brought home someone who wants to kill her. But no. No, that is not the sound of murder. That is the sound of someone who is very much alive and living their best fucking life at maximum volume.
Your grip tightens around your pencil so hard you genuinely worry it might snap in half.
Then it happens again—louder this time. 
“Ooooh, Paige, baby it feel sooo good,” a long, drawn-out moan that echoes through the walls like a goddamn announcement.
Your jaw clenches so hard you swear you hear something crack.
You tell yourself to ignore it. You try to focus on the actual problems in your life—like the metabolic equation staring up at you from your notebook, the one that makes no fucking sense, the one you were just about to solve before Paige returned to single-handedly ruin your night. But this girl—whoever she is—sounds like she’s in a full-blown cinematic production, and Paige? Paige has zero concern for your sanity. No attempt to be discreet, no effort to maybe keep it down, no acknowledgment that she is actively breaking your spirit in real time.
A shhh from Paige, soft, teasing, followed by something breathless. While you– you black out for a second.
The chair scrapes against the floor as you shove away from your desk, adrenaline flooding your veins. You are this close to storming down the hallway, ripping Paige’s door off its hinges, and launching her entire bed out the fucking window. Instead, you flatten your hands against your desk, inhale deeply, and stare down at your notes like they personally wronged you.
This. This is it. You swear to yourself, you are getting revenge.
You don’t know how yet. But it’s happening.
Because if Paige wants to act like an inconsiderate, sex-obsessed demon hellbent on making your life miserable, then fine. Fine. Two can play at this game.
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You’ve waited two days. Two agonizing, anticipation-filled days where you paced your room like a villain in the third act of a revenge flick, waiting for the perfect moment to strike. Every time you passed by Paige’s empty room, you could practically hear the ghosts of her past hookups mocking you. You had suffered. You had endured. And now, it was your time.
The front door swings open. Not as violently as before—no dramatic bang against the wall, no whirlwind of limbs stumbling over the entryway rug. Just the quiet shuffle of footsteps, the soft rustle of fabric, the barely-there whisper of a muffled giggle. It’s all very tame. Too tame. Like she thinks she can just slip back into this apartment unnoticed, like she didn’t shatter your will to live just days ago with her complete lack of shame or respect for human decency.
You sit up in bed, eyes gleaming in the dim glow of your laptop screen. Showtime.
It had taken an embarrassing amount of time to craft the perfect revenge strategy. You wanted something devastating. Something that would haunt Paige the way her late-night moanfest had haunted you. You considered various forms of psychological warfare—hiding her favorite hoodie, signing her up for weird spam emails, strategically microwaving fish at odd hours—but none of it felt impactful enough. You needed something biblical. Something that would scar.
And then, the answer came to you. Porn.
Loud, obnoxious, horrifically detailed porn. You smile at your glowing laptop and click play.
Instantly, the most sinful, ungodly, downright demonic sounds explode from your speakers. It’s graphic. Monstrous. A chorus of moans, screams, the unmistakable, wet, slapping of skin against skin. The kind of audio that makes you question humanity as a species. You’re pretty sure you hear someone begging in French.
It’s perfect. You crank the volume up.
Then, with the sheer dramatic commitment of a Broadway performer, you slam your bed frame against the wall.
The headboard cracks against the drywall with force, rattling like you’re in the throes of an earth-shattering experience. You moan. Not well, but loudly. Passionately. Over-the-top.
“Ohhh my GOD,” you scream, throwing in some unnecessary yes, yes, right there’s for added flair.
You can feel the disturbance in the force. But you don’t stop. Oh, no. You commit.
You keep the moans rolling, layering them with guttural, animalistic gasps. You bang the headboard again, harder this time, just to make sure Paige feels your suffering on a molecular level. You toss in a deep, satisfied sigh, dragging it out like you’re playing a villain savoring their monologue.
You keep the moans rolling, layering them with deep, broken gasps, the kind of sounds that should not be echoing through the walls of a shared living space. Your voice wavers just enough to sound shaken, overwhelmed, ruined, like you’ve ascended past the mortal plane and are now one with the universe.
The headboard collides with the wall again—harder this time, with a resounding crack that might actually fracture the drywall. Good. Good. Let her feel it. Let the vibrations of your suffering seep into her bones. Let her live what you lived.
You throw in a deep, satisfied sigh, dragging it out long, making it obscene. You let silence stretch, just for a moment, just long enough for Paige to think maybe—maybe—it’s over, that this nightmare has passed.
And then, with the full, unwavering conviction of a lunatic, you moan again.
It’s breathless. Shaky. The kind of sound that would make someone deeply uncomfortable in any setting, but especially when coming from the other side of a paper-thin wall.
A shuffle. A creak of bedsprings. A pause. You can feel her trying to process.
And then, like a gift from the heavens, Paige finally breaks.
“Are you fucking kidding me?”
The pure, unfiltered disbelief in her voice is a drug. It fuels you.
You slam your palm against the wall, a solid thunk that reverberates through the apartment. Then, in the single most unhinged act of pettiness you have ever committed, you howl a random man’s name.
Silence.
You shift in bed, letting out a shaky, devastated exhale, the kind of breathless, wrecked sound people make when they have been absolutely, thoroughly ruined. You make sure it carries through the wall, make sure it sinks into her skull.
There’s another pause. A long one. You can almost see Paige lying there in the dark, staring at the ceiling, trying to figure out how her life has come to this exact moment.
Then—an aggressive rustling of sheets, a sharp inhale like she’s gearing up for a speech. You brace yourself.
Her response is immediate. A heavy thud—her fist against your wall. “Oh my God, have some fucking decency.”
That should be the end of it. A normal, sane person would stop here. But you? You are not a normal, sane person. You are a petty, wounded soldier, and you will see this through to the end.
So you shift, make sure your bedsprings let out a very suggestive creak, and then murmur, low and breathy, “Five more minutes.”
A second of pure, raw silence. Then, from her room—chaos.
The violent shuffle of blankets, a sound like something falling off her nightstand, an aggressively muttered string of words that you cannot hear, but you know they’re unholy.
Victory tastes sweet.
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The next morning, you wake up feeling transformed. Cleansed. Vindicated. Like a phoenix rising from the ashes of your own pettiness, reborn into a creature of pure, unadulterated vengeance. A god of retribution.
Last night was a triumph. A masterpiece of psychological warfare, orchestrated with the precision of a military strategist and the artistic flair of a Broadway performer. Paige had suffered—oh, she had suffered—and you had heard every ounce of that suffering in the sheer disbelief laced through her voice. You had sent her into an existential crisis without so much as stepping foot into her room. And the best part? You didn’t even have to talk about it. No awkward confrontation, no passive-aggressive exchange, no forced discussion about boundaries. Just a silent victory, the best kind of victory.
You stretch in bed, limbs loose and relaxed for the first time in days. No residual irritation, no ghosts of rage clinging to your skin. You won. You won.
The air feels different when you step into the kitchen, like the whole apartment is holding its breath. The atmosphere is charged, electric with something unspoken, a tension that exists only because you created it. You bask in it, inhale it like fresh air, let it fill your lungs as you roll your shoulders back and step into the room.
Paige is already there. She’s leaning against the counter, one hand wrapped around her ever-present protein shake, the other holding her phone, scrolling with the kind of casual indifference that feels fake. Too stiff. Too controlled.
She doesn’t look up. Doesn’t acknowledge you in the slightest. Good. That means you got to her.
You let the silence stretch, let her feel you watching her, reveling in the unspoken weight of last night’s events. Then, with all the exaggerated nonchalance you can muster, you open the fridge. You take your time, rummaging through it, making a show of your relaxed state, of your complete and total lack of shame or regret. Every movement is deliberate, every pause pointed.
The tension is thick enough to taste.Finally, after a long, drawn-out beat, you break the silence.
“Sleep well?”
Nothing. Not even a flicker of acknowledgment. Paige just lifts her shake, takes a slow sip, and keeps scrolling, her gaze glued to her screen like you don’t exist.
You bite back a smirk. Oh, it’s like that, huh?
Fine. You love a challenge.
You grab a yogurt, pop the lid with exaggerated ease, and lean against the counter directly across from her. Mirroring her. Challenging her.
She knows you’re looking. She feels it.
The weight of your gaze drags over her jaw, the bare skin of her collarbone where her hoodie has slouched just a little too low. Over her hands—gripping her phone a fraction too tight, her knuckles taut with something just shy of restraint.
She lifts her protein shake. Takes a sip. Measured, deliberate.
You take a slow, obnoxiously slow, bite of yogurt.
“You seemed a little... tense last night.” Your voice is carefully neutral, the epitome of innocence, like you’re discussing the weather. But your eyes say otherwise.
A flicker. There. The tell.
It’s microscopic—her fingers tightening around her phone, a brief clench of her jaw before she lifts her shake again.
“I’m fine,” Paige says, monotone.
You hum, swirling your spoon through the yogurt, dragging it up in long, slow loops. “Really? You seemed a little... thrown off. Like you weren’t expecting something.”
Paige drinks. Swallows. Sets the bottle down with that same, mechanical precision.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
Oh, this is delicious.
“Hmm.” You take another lazy bite, then—just for effect—let your tongue flick over the spoon, slow, clean.
She doesn’t react.
But she sees it. You know she sees it.
The battle of wills unfolds in the silence. A quiet, blistering, psychological duel.
You stretch it, waiting, baiting. Letting the tension tighten between you like a tripwire waiting to snap.
And then—she exhales.
A sharp, quiet breath, controlled but strained. Like she’s holding something back.
And finally, finally, she sets her phone down.
Lifts her head.
Meets your gaze.
And suddenly, the air shifts.
Because Paige’s expression isn’t annoyed, like you expected. It isn’t irritated, or bored, or vaguely exasperated.
It’s something else.
Something slower. Darker.
Your stomach tightens—not in fear, but in something far more dangerous.
She tilts her head just slightly, a fraction of an inch, but the weight of it is immense. A move so calculated it feels like a blade sliding from its sheath.
"You good?" she asks, her voice a study in casual ease. Too smooth. Too careful.
It’s a trap. You know it’s a trap.
But you don’t back down from fights.
“Better than ever.” You drag the words out, light, effortless. “Best sleep of my life.”
Her lips twitch. Just barely. A half-second away from a smirk.
“That right?”
You shrug, feigning boredom. “Guess loud, passionate sex really tires a person out.”
A beat. A single, suspended moment.
Then—
“I wouldn’t know,” Paige says, smooth as silk. Cool as ice. “Didn’t hear a thing.”
Your smirk falters.
Oh.
Oh, she’s good.
You recover quickly. “Really? You must sleep like the dead, then.”
Paige picks up her phone again, dismissive, her gaze flicking back to the screen like you’re not worth the effort.
But her lips? They’re curling. Slightly. Just enough to show teeth.
“Or maybe,” she murmurs, so damn casual, “it just wasn’t worth noticing.”
Oh, that bitch.
Heat flares up your spine, crackling, sharp.
You glare. Paige doesn’t even glance at you. The war has officially begun. And it’s on sight.
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You’re not proud of yourself.
Not in the slightest. In fact, you don’t even know how you got here.
But this is what happens when you let your petty little battles spiral into something else, something darker and messier and impossible to ignore. You hate her. You loathe her. You think about her way too much—about how she gets under your skin, about her smug little smirks, about the way she acts like she owns the air you breathe just because she’s taller than you, because she can throw a ball into a hoop, because the entire fucking world looks at her like she’s something more than just a girl who’s in your goddamn way.
And maybe that’s why you’re here.
On your back. In your bed.
Hand between your thighs like an absolute fucking degenerate.
Because Paige is supposed to be gone. She’s supposed to be three states away at some game, doing her little interviews, getting her ego fed by an arena full of people. The apartment is supposed to be empty.
So you let yourself have this.
Let yourself chase the tension out of your muscles, let yourself melt into it, let yourself lose in it.
And God, you wish you were thinking about someone else.
But it’s her.
It’s her stupid fucking face.
It’s the way she taunts you, the way she stands too close in the kitchen, the way her sweatpants hang low on her hips in the morning, the way she stares you down like she’s daring you to push her, like she’s waiting for the exact moment you snap.
You hate her.
You hate how easy it is to imagine her hands on you instead of your own.
Your fingers are slick. Obscenely so. The vibrator hums against your clit like a live wire, like an electric pulse searing through your nerves, turning every inch of your body into a hypersensitive mess. Your thighs twitch, your stomach clenches, your hips keep jerking up, desperate for more, even though it's too much—too intense, too sharp, too unbearably fucking good.
The sheets are ruined beneath you, damp and twisted from how much you’ve writhed against them, chasing the high, riding the edge, dragging it out like you deserve to suffer for this. Like you deserve to ache for it. Your other hand is gripping the pillow, fisting the fabric, white-knuckled, because Paige, Paige, Paige—you can’t get her out of your fucking head.
That smug smirk, those broad shoulders, the way she leans against the kitchen counter like she owns it, owns you, waiting, watching, pushing, teasing—
God, you hate her.
You hate the way she gets under your skin, the way she’s there, always there, lingering in the space between, looking at you like she’s daring you to do something about it. You hate that you want to.
And you hate that you’re so fucking close just thinking about her.
Your toes curl, your breath breaks into little hiccuping moans, your body bows off the mattress. The vibrator sends another sharp burst of pleasure through your swollen, oversensitive clit, and it’s too much—your thighs slam shut around your hand, trying to temper the sensation, trying to trap it, hold it inside you, but it just makes everything sharper, stronger, unbearable—
You choke on a sound, a raw, desperate little whimper.
And then– a noise. Not yours. Not in your room.
On the other side of the fucking wall.
At first, your brain refuses to process it. Because no. No. No way. Paige is supposed to be gone, three states away, playing her stupid game, being her stupid self, not here.
But then you hear it again. A moan. Low, wrecked, unmistakably needy.
Your whole body locks up.
For a second, all you can do is lie there, frozen in place, vibrator still pressed against your clit, your own pulse hammering in your ears. Your skin goes hot, burning with shame, with realization.
She heard you. She fucking heard you.
Another shift. A creak of her bed. The rustle of sheets. 
A sharp inhale escapes you, unbidden, and then you clap a hand over your mouth, mortified.
The vibrator is still humming against your clit, sending little aftershocks through you, but you can’t move, you can’t fucking move, because your brain is stuck on the fact that Paige is touching herself right now, that she’s lying in her bed, one wall away, listening to you, moaning for you, and you—
Oh. Fuck.
Your breath catches, your whole body locks up, your hand stills between your thighs—just for a second, just long enough for your brain to catch up to what the hell just happened.
You press the vibrator harder against your clit, bite your lip so hard it hurts, and keep going.
You’re sick, a fucking degenerate. You have to be, because the thought of Paige, lying there in her bed, one flimsy wall away, fingering herself to the sound of you falling apart is the single hottest, most disgusting, most earth-shattering thing you’ve ever fucking imagined.
Your hips twitch up, chasing the feeling, chasing the high, chasing whatever this is, this tight, searing, unspeakable thing curling in your stomach. You shouldn’t be doing this. You should not be doing this. But your fingers are shaking, your whole body is on fire, and you can’t stop, you can’t fucking stop—
And then she makes another sound.
This time it’s louder, more desperate, like she doesn’t care if you hear her anymore. And it sends you spiraling.
Your eyes slam shut, your thighs squeeze together, your stomach clenches so hard you can’t breathe, and the pleasure—fuck, the pleasure—rips through you, tears you apart, drowns you, ruins you.
You come so hard you forget how to exist.
The air is still humming.Your skin is still hot, still damp, still sensitive in a way that makes every shift against the sheets feel like too much. Your breath hasn’t fully evened out, your body still shaking from the wreckage of it, from the way you lost yourself, let yourself drown.
It should be over. It should.
But then—
A sound. Distant, but there. A soft shuffle, the faintest creak of floorboards beyond your door.
Your breath catches. You stare at the ceiling, heart pounding, trying to ignore it. It’s late. Maybe you’re imagining it, maybe it’s nothing. Maybe you’re still stuck somewhere between dream and aftermath, still feeling the phantom weight of her—her hands, her voice, the way your mind kept slipping back to her even as you tried not to.
But then it happens again. A shift of movement. Closer.
A slow, deliberate pause just outside your door.
Your stomach tightens. No.
But the air is suddenly thick with something too real, something too electric—something that makes your pulse hammer in warning even before the first knock lands.
Knock. You stop breathing.
Another.
You jerk up, your body still too sensitive, your skin prickling under the weight of anticipation. You don’t move at first. Don’t respond. Just listen.
A pause. Silence. Maybe she’ll leave. Maybe she’ll take the hint—
And then, the voice. Low. Steady. Unshaken.
"Open the door."
Your fingers tighten around the blanket, pulse kicking hard. Not a question. Not a request.
Just a command.
You should hesitate. You should stay still, let the moment pass, let it slip into the quiet, pretend it never happened.
But you know what’s waiting on the other side. And you know you’re already too far gone. But now she’s here.
You don’t move at first. Just stare at the door, heart picking up speed, hands pressed against the comfort of your blanket. A breath. Another. You tell yourself to stay still, stay quiet, maybe she’ll go away, maybe she’ll take the hint—
She knocks again.
“Open the door.”
Your skin prickles. Not a question. Not a request. Just a flat, patient command. Still, you hesitate. Seconds pass, stretching out between you like a tightrope, thin and fraying. And then, finally, you move.
The door creaks as you pull it open, slow and careful. Paige stands in the dim hallway, shoulders loose, hoodie hanging from her frame like she just threw it on without thinking. Her hair’s a mess—like she’s been running her hands through it, like she’s been restless all night. Her blue eyes flicker over you, unreadable, scanning, weighing.
Then she steps inside.
She doesn’t ask. Doesn’t wait for permission. Just walks past you, brushing close enough that you feel the heat of her body, the scent of her—something clean and sharp, faint sweat and warm fabric and something entirely, infuriatingly her.
The door clicks shut behind her. You don’t speak.
You don’t have to. She turns to you, slow, deliberate, expression unreadable. Then, voice low and measured:
“Lay on the bed.”
A prickle of heat races down your spine. You swallow, breath catching, fingers curling at your sides. But you don’t argue. Don’t hesitate. Just step back, moving without thought, without question, without sense—because it’s Paige, and because you want to know where this is going, and because something inside you is already unraveling at the edges.
The mattress dips as you crawl onto it, arms bracing, knees pressing into the sheets. You don’t dare look at her. You hear the shift of fabric, the quiet creak of the bed frame as she moves behind you, slow, careful. A pause. A breath.
Then—
“Where’s your vibrator?”
The words hit like a strike to the ribs. Sudden, shocking, stealing the air from your lungs.
Your fingers clutch the blankets, throat dry. You don’t answer.
Paige hums, thoughtful, unimpressed. Then you feel her—one hand at your lower back, pressing just enough to make you sink into the mattress, the other trailing up your spine, fingers grazing the curve of your shoulder.
“You’re gonna tell me,” she murmurs, voice steady, quiet, dangerous in its softness. “Or I’ll find it myself.”
Heat pools low in your stomach, twisting sharp and deep. Your breath stutters. Paige’s hand lingers at the back of your neck, fingers tracing, waiting.
Your voice comes out hoarse, barely above a whisper.
“Drawer.”
A pause. The ghost of a smile in her voice.
“Good girl.”
Then she moves.
You hear it—the slide of the drawer, the shift of objects, the quiet click of plastic against wood. A heartbeat. Two. Then the bed shifts again, and she’s behind you, close enough to feel the heat of her, the weight of her presence, the steady, unshaken confidence in every movement.
Her fingers skim your thigh, light, testing, teasing.
“You know what to do.” Your stomach clenches.
Slowly, breathlessly, you shift forward, sinking onto your hands, pressing your chest to the mattress. Your knees spread, thighs parting just enough to leave you open, vulnerable, trembling with something you can’t name.
The air is thick, charged, electric.
Then, Paige’s voice, low and certain:
“Don’t look at me.”
You shudder.
And then—she starts.
The first press of the vibrator against your clit is light—just a tease, barely there, a flicker of sensation that sends a sharp jolt straight through you. Your fingers tighten in the sheets, breath catching, body already wound so fucking tight you think you might shatter from just this.
Paige hums, pleased, lazy. Her other hand skims up your back, slow and deliberate, tracing the dip of your spine, the curve of your ribs, fingers spreading wide as she grips your hip, holding you in place. The bed shifts beneath her weight, but you don’t look back. You don’t dare. Not when you can already feel her eyes on you, watching every little reaction, every twitch, every shaky inhale.
“Look at you,” she murmurs, almost to herself. “So fucking wet already.”
You let out a soft, helpless sound, pressing your forehead against the mattress, trying to steady yourself. It doesn’t help. The vibrator hums again, firmer this time, rolling against your clit in slow, torturous circles, and your hips jerk instinctively, seeking more, needing more.
Paige clicks her tongue. “Uh-uh. Stay still.”
The sharp sting of her palm against your ass is unexpected, quick and precise, more startling than painful—but fuck, it makes you tighten everywhere, makes you gasp, makes heat curl even deeper in your gut. Your nails dig into the sheets, thighs trembling.
Then—without warning—the vibrator presses harder, just enough to make your whole body tense, thighs twitching, stomach clenching. Your mouth falls open, a high, breathless moan spilling out before you can stop it.
“That’s it,” Paige murmurs. “Let me hear you.”
She drags the vibrator lower, just for a second, teasing the slick heat between your thighs, and then—fuck—you feel her fingers, tracing, pressing, testing. You whimper, hips bucking, and she chuckles, low and amused, before finally—finally—she sinks one finger inside.
Your breath stutters, back arching, body clenching tight around the intrusion.
“Fuck,” she exhales, voice rough, almost reverent. “You’re gripping me so fucking tight.”
The vibrator keeps buzzing against your clit, steady, relentless, a constant pulse of pleasure as her finger moves, slow and deliberate, curling just right, dragging along that sensitive spot that makes you tremble.
“God, you’re dripping,” Paige mutters, voice edged with something darker, something raw. “You want more?”
You nod frantically, too wrecked to form words, pushing back against her hand, chasing it, needing it.
She gives it to you.
Another finger presses in, stretching you, filling you, fucking into you in slow, deep strokes, pushing past that tight resistance, until she’s buried up to the knuckle. Your whole body shakes, heat coiling low in your stomach, sharp and overwhelming.
“Jesus,” Paige breathes, her voice tight, wrecked. “You’re gonna fucking ruin me.”
She picks up the pace—fingers curling, twisting, pressing in deeper as the vibrator rolls against your clit, unrelenting, merciless. You’re gasping now, panting, your hips moving without thought, without control, grinding down, fucking yourself onto her fingers, onto the pulsing buzz of the toy, lost in the slick, obscene sound of it, the heat, the pressure, the unbearable, intoxicating pleasure building too fast, too much—
“Paige—”
She tightens her grip on your hip, holding you still, pressing the vibrator harder against your clit, fingers thrusting deeper, sharper, hitting that spot over and over and over—
And you snap.
It crashes into you all at once—blinding, breathless, a shockwave of raw, shuddering pleasure that rips through your entire body. Your mouth falls open in a silent scream, legs shaking, thighs clamping around her hand as the orgasm slams into you, wrecking you, drowning you.
Paige curses, low and filthy, working you through it, keeping the vibrator pressed firm against your clit as your body jerks, as you convulse, as pleasure spills over in wave after brutal wave.
You collapse forward, panting, trembling, barely able to hold yourself up. But Paige isn’t done.
She flips you onto your back in one smooth, effortless motion, her body pressing into yours, caging you in. Before you can even catch your breath, her mouth is on you.
The first kiss is rough, searing, a claim more than a kiss—teeth dragging against your lip, tongue pressing deep, swallowing the wrecked little sounds spilling from your throat.
Her hands are everywhere—gripping your thighs, dragging your legs apart, squeezing your waist, your ribs, your tits, mapping every inch of you like she’s memorizing it.
“You’re so fucking pretty when you cum,” she murmurs, lips brushing yours, voice thick with hunger. “All fucked out and messy for me.”
Your breath stutters. Paige leans in again, dragging her mouth down your jaw, your neck, sucking a mark just below your ear that makes you shiver.
“I want you loud this time,” she mutters, fingers already slipping back between your thighs, spreading you open, rubbing slow, teasing circles against your overstimulated clit. “You gonna give me that?”
You whimper, nodding frantically, hips bucking up into her hand, desperate for more.
Paige smirks against your skin. “Good.”
The heat of her body presses you into the mattress, her grip firm, unrelenting, claiming every inch of you like she’s owed it, like she’s been waiting for this for so fucking long that holding back isn’t an option anymore.
And it’s not. It never was.
Her fingers curl inside you, deep and sharp, pressing right against that devastating spot that makes your whole body tighten and shudder. You’re soaked, dripping down onto her hand, onto the sheets, your thighs slick, trembling, spread wide as she takes what she wants—what she’s wanted for so fucking long.
“You have no idea,” Paige mutters, voice low, wrecked, breath warm against your neck as she drags her lips over your skin, teeth grazing, biting. “No fucking idea how long I’ve wanted this. Wanted you.”
Your brain short-circuits. You gasp, clutching at her shoulders, legs wrapping around her waist, dragging her closer, needing her closer.
She groans, grinding against you, fingers moving faster, harder, pushing into you with a rhythm that’s obscene, ruthless, making you arch, making you cry out.
“You think I didn’t notice?” she growls. “The way you looked at me? The way you listened when I fucked other girls in this apartment?”
Your stomach clenches, a sharp pang of shame and arousal slamming through you.
Paige laughs. A low, breathy, utterly wicked sound.
“That’s right,” she purrs, slowing her fingers to a torturous, teasing drag. “I know what you’ve been doing. Lying in here, all hot and frustrated, touching yourself to the thought of me.”
Your breath catches.
“You ever wonder if I was thinking about you?” she continues, voice husky, lips dragging down your collarbone, your chest, your stomach. “Lying in bed, hearing you through the walls, touching myself to the sound of you coming?”
Your hips jerk up, a desperate, broken sound escaping you.
Paige chuckles, dark and amused, before she slams her fingers into you again, relentless, brutal, dragging you right back up that peak.
“Yeah,” she mutters. “That’s what I fucking thought.”
The words send a fresh wave of heat ripping through your body, pleasure slamming into you all at once, sharp and unbearable, too much but not enough, never enough.
Then she’s everywhere—her mouth crushing against yours, teeth nipping, tongue pressing in deep as her fingers fuck into you, relentless, merciless, like she’s making up for every second she didn’t have you like this.
“Come for me,” she demands, voice ragged, forehead pressing against yours, blue eyes dark, wild, locked onto you like she’s daring you to fall apart.
Your whole body seizes up, back arching, mouth falling open on a silent scream as the orgasm tears through you, overwhelming, devastating, making your mind go blank, making your vision fucking blur.
Paige groans as you clench around her fingers, as you drip onto her hand, onto the sheets, onto her.
“Jesus fuck,” she breathes, watching you, drinking in every twitch, every shake, every shattered gasp. “You look so fucking good like this.”
And before you can even catch your breath, before you can even think, she’s flipping you over again, pressing you into the mattress, pinning you down, her body covering yours completely.
Her mouth is everywhere—hot, desperate, claiming every inch of you, kissing you like she wants to consume you, biting at your throat, your jaw, your lips.
“You’re mine now,” she mutters, breath ragged, hand gripping your hip, dragging you up against her. “You fucking get that?”
You nod frantically, fingers tangling in her hair, pulling her closer, needing more, needing everything.
“Say it,” she growls.
“I’m yours,” you gasp, voice wrecked, desperate.
Paige grins—wild, triumphant—before crashing her mouth against yours again, her hand slipping back between your legs, fingers dragging through the mess she’s already made of you.
“You’re gonna give me another one,” she murmurs, voice dark, teasing.
Your breath stutters, eyes going wide.
“You can’t—”
“I can.” She presses the vibrator back against your clit, fingers already sliding back inside you, making you sob. “And I will.”
Then she fucks you, properly, thoroughly, relentlessly, making you come again and again until you can barely breathe, barely think, until the only thing left in your head is her.
The room is wreckage. Pillows displaced, sheets tangled, the air thick with the scent of sweat and satisfaction. Your limbs are jelly, nerves still sparking like frayed wires, pleasure still ghosting along the edges of your skin in aftershocks you can’t quite suppress. Paige—Paige fucking Bueckers—is lying beside you, her chest rising and falling in deep, steady breaths, arm slung possessively across your stomach like she owns you now.
And maybe she does.
You blink up at the ceiling, brain still trying to reboot. The night—Jesus, the night—had unraveled into something primal, something endless, something that had pushed you past exhaustion, past coherence, past sanity. Paige had wrecked you, torn you apart, rebuilt you in the shape of something raw and ruined and aching for more. And now—
Now, she shifts beside you. A lazy stretch, muscles flexing, a small, satisfied hum escaping her lips. You don’t have the energy to turn your head, but you feel her, the weight of her gaze settling on your profile.
Then, voice still husky from exertion, smug and utterly fucking unbearable—
"So, do you want to get dinner with me?"
Your brain stalls.
Your head turns, slow, disbelieving, vision sharpening just enough to catch the absolute shit-eating grin tugging at her lips. She’s fucking with you. She has to be. After everything—after the way she spent hours making you come until you forgot your own name, until your body had nothing left to give, until you had collapsed against her, too spent to do anything but breathe—she’s asking you out. Like it’s casual. Like it’s normal.
Like this isn’t the most insane, deranged turn of events imaginable.
You stare.
Paige smirks.
And you—God help you—you might actually say yes.
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from-the-owls-nest · 12 hours ago
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mhm. what if you're too broken, in too tiny pieces, even the base too shattered to rebuild from. what if there's too little good left.
*swallow* that... that probably wasn't the most helpful answer. but I know what you mean. and I don't really have a fix or anything.
*drily, like, ironically* should probably clarify that the you in that first sentence meant me and just me. so. before you get any more ideas. because of course for Me that's Different! At least for my chaos brain tangles.
[ooc: Philosophy Below. idk brain ran away with thoughts call me if u find it /silly]
*silence, thinking over the words again* I don't know. All I can hope is that - that sentence from the movie Aria likes. When we can see no future, all we can do is the next right thing. the next little ray of sunlight. the next little moment of peace.
And if none of that is possible... Wait, and hold on, and look for them, and hope they come back soon. This is just my thoughts - my little agreement with myself. I gotta try the best I can, even if the best I can is a break from trying to recover. And then I'll know that Past Me did their best for me now and that I owe it to Future me to do my best for what they might become. Even if they weren't very successful. Like deciding that however I am right now is me too, and so I am all these things and parts, the good and the rough ones, and they all together make the full me. It's these nice little shortcut across the self blaming and infighting that take a long time to work out but help wherever they hold.
But like. I think I owe it my future self to hold on, and to get through the storms. Our past selves have come such a long way, and who knows where we'll go next, what our future selves and lives might be like. So like. I do think that new paths open up all the time, possibilities. Even if the ones now are all bad, who knows where we can still go. And the only way to find out is to try, and to do our best.
*they pull out their diary, and from the front a little calendar page* Look. I... It's one of these pages I'll keep forever and ever because I need the reminder, and give to others when they might need it. I don't know if it's right. I hope so. and I think the only way to find out is to try and hold on.
For me that's enough. That, little hopes, little good moments, even just the memory of warmth and hope and the knowledge that all that was once can come again - in different forms, maybe, but it can. *turning to lay it next to Will's sneaker*
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*more silence* But. Well. That's really big thoughts, and hard to see when everything is so dark. Hm. okay just to throw some thoughts out. You don't have to tell me, you don't have to think about it, just... some ideas. Little windows into that maybe, whenever you're able to look.
what do the voices say? can they maybe be talked to, or be both a little right?
is there anything you wish wouldn't stop? or come back? any little thing. ignore realism and context all that. if you were playing make-believe, your own little world, what would it look like? if you want to we can take turns. I play that game regularly cause, well, bad memory, and i probably should start again.
and... does it have to be a *bad* hurt? like. yes. you're different. stuff happened, and it changed you, and that really really hurt. you might not be the same person as before. is that a bad thing? or, you said nasty. sure. right now it's raw and painful and doesnt fit yet. but... could all these little shards grow back together and become something scarred and mended, and different?
I hope they could. I'd really miss you - not you from before, you however you are right now and however you want to be. Idk doesn't make much sense but - people if they change are still that person, right? just... changed, by a situation or because they got to know themselves better or whatever. Like Butterflies. I'd like to see the next chapter, with you if you want or just knowing there was one for you.
Image Credit @thelatestkate and her website
Love love love characters that present themselves as emotionally open social butterflies but the more you see of them the more obvious it is that they’re the most closed off fuckers in the story. Sure, they want to help you with your personal problems and messy emotions, but if you turn that shit back on them, they’ll shut down or deflect every time. Why are you sticking your nose in their business anyway? It’s not like it matters. They’re not a person, they’re just a role being played. They’re the guy who fixes things and saves people. Please ignore the man behind the mask, he’s fine. Everything’s fine.
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imsofreakingtired · 2 days ago
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sevika soft hours (domestic au)
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"sleep well, don't wake up, please i'll keep watch by your side for bad dreams i'll stay by your side until the dawn so don't feel alone, i'll be your night light"
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sevika whose favorite time of day is coming home to you, when she can let her tough exterior fall away like a shell and melt into your waiting arms. she lets you pull off her coat and lead her by the hand into the kitchen where there is soft music playing and a hot meal and you tell her funny things that happened throughout the day
sevika who holds you close to her as you sleep, who has trouble falling asleep herself but takes comfort in watching your sleeping face, stroking your hair, overwhelmed by all that she feels for you and the ever present terror that something might happen to you 
sevika who still can’t quite believe you chose her to spend your life with, whose favorite sound in the world is your voice, who sometimes just watches you doing the most mundane things—cleaning, reading, eating a snack, whatever—with the softest look in her eyes 
and you running hot baths for her on days when she looks especially tired, sometimes you get in with her, sometimes you just sit by her and wash her hair while she rants to you about the incompetent idiots at work 
she reads you passages aloud from history books on the most obscure topics that only she could find interesting, and you lie with your head in her lap looking up at her trying to pretend like you heard what she just said and you weren’t just admiring her beautiful face 
cuddled up on the couch to watch a movie and she always falls asleep before the middle and you turn down the volume because you like listening to her snoring more than watching the movie 
she does not have a left hand but the two of you wear matching rings on the ring finger of your right hands, like the promise rings of lgbt couples in the 80s 
slow mornings where you just lie in each others arms, only half awake, mumbling about nothing, idly kissing, while the sun shifts on the walls and the curtains stir with a sweet mild breeze. when sevika tries to get up you cling to her tighter. just five more minutes.
when she's had enough wine and you insist with that irresistible smile of yours she'll slow dance with you in the kitchen to soft songs on the vinyl player. it's barely dancing though. you're both a little sleepy and helplessly happy just swaying together, your head resting on her chest, her hand holding your waist
kissing on the floor of your living room until your lips go numb, she is tender and hungry in the way she touches you, and as her mouth brushes your ear you could have sworn you heard a whispered "i love you."
you always keep fresh flowers on the tables to brighten the room because you know sevika likes seeing them, even though she'd never admit it
holding her hand and tracing your finger over every callus and scar until you know it as well as your own. bringing her hand to your cheek and kissing it to make her smile involuntarily.
her throwing her jacket over you when it starts raining, encircling you with her arm, and leading you quickly down the street into the nearest coffee shop to wait out the rainstorm. (she gets offended at the way they make chai lattes).
on your hard days when you go nonverbal and feel like breaking down she asks you gently if you want space or if you want to be held. the answer is always being held. she holds you tight without a word, and lets you cry.
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ippipo · 15 hours ago
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self aware caleb
part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | smutty stuff | part 4 | part 5
it was merely sexual attraction. from the moment he saw you, he felt attracted towards you sexually. you were funny, witty, so you, and god, it hurt. he swore it was just sexual attraction.
it was a sick obsession. a throwback to his in-game personality that made him easily vulnerable to these situations. he just wanted to keep you with him all the time. but good lord, did it hurt him when you were down. he hurts for you. but he kept telling himself that it was just obsession, infatuation at least.
but the more he spoke with you, the realisation dawned upon him that he was down bad. you haunt him every night before he goes to sleep and bless him like food in famine every morning he wakes up. it was addicting. he wanted all of you and every part of you.
and it truly, absolutely, devastatingly hit him when his desire to be next to you increased tenfold. he needed you so much, it made him want to curl up into a box small enough to suffocate him and take him away from all the pain he was enduring being away from you.
so he decided to risk it all and come to you. he didn't realize he needed you that badly until that one moment when you were talking to him as usual, laughing by yourself while reminiscing something funny from your childhood. and during that time, a question popped up that made him wonder.
"you can't come here right? does that mean you'll go back to mc if this thing, you know, stops?"
and the answer was as clear as day.
he should.
but not a single inch of him wanted to. he only wanted to be with you. when all your life has been dedicated to loving someone against natural will, it crumbles in mere seconds when you find out it wasn't meant to be. and during that period of feeling inadvertently lost when you find someone who gives you a sense of self and structure to your meaningless life, you cling onto them.
you cling so tightly that the mere thought of finding someone else or going back to the life you used to have seems more scrambled than you'd expect. to caleb, it felt like a million puzzle pieces had been scattered everywhere and when he realized your existence, everything fell back into place.
but when he did try going back to his life, skyhaven, mc, and every other thing related to his past, it felt like something had ruthlessly ruined his puzzle, throwing around all the pieces left and right so he could never rearrange them.
this uncomfortable reality of his prompted him to escape, pull every string that he could and fight against the odds of time and space to reach you. it wasn't easy at all, but he knew it was worth it.
he watches as you laugh with your friend and sylus, and he wishes it was him in their place. the dull ache in his chest lingers as he notices how your phone remained untouched throughout the night, contemplating whether to text you or not.
the ache began spreading like wildfire the more he waited. and he decided it was time to stop stalling.
kale 🥬
go to your room
you spring up from your seat when you hear the sound of a notification, not expecting it so late at night. you look at andy who was passed out, and sylus was no longer visible on the screen.
your heart drops when you read the name of the sender, but it wasn't the time to wallow anymore.
you
what the fuck?
where have you been?
why are you texting me now?
you couldn't help the way your hands were shivering as you type. "what is wrong with you, caleb?" you whisper to yourself as your eyes well up again.
kale 🥬
im sorry ill answer everything but js go to your room please
you
fine
and you get up to leave the living room, ignoring the way your heart was pounding against your chest and a lump in your throat that made it difficult to breathe.
"hey," an eerily familiar voice greets you in the dark. you look around frantically only to see nothing but pitch black.
you flinch when a hand grabs you by the shoulder and pulls you close to a body. a tall, lean, muscular body. you could feel his chest, a husky vanilla cologne filling your senses, overwhelming you and making you sensitive to everything around.
you try not to scream, and you didn't. everything felt oddly alright. nothing out of place, as if you were expecting it already, expecting someone already.
"did you miss me?" the damning voice whispers so close to your ear, sending a chill down your spine and straight to your core, arousal pooling. but at the same time, your body screamed to react violently, make it known that you were upset and angry.
and so, you turn around to face him, and push him by the chest. "what the fuck, caleb?!" you whisper-yell. he didn't budge at all, and your fingers lingered over his chest a little longer than you intended them to, but this was not the time to feel horny because you were freaking out.
you close the door behind you and everything becomes even darker. you locate yourself in front of him and grab his collar. "tell me what's happening. why are you here—no, how are you here? d-do you know how long i've waited for you to talk to me? not even a single text from you for so fucking long," you couldn't stop your voice from quivering as you punch his chest in anger, not impactful enough apparently with how he didn't wince at all.
he brings his hand towards your face to caress your cheek but you slap it away. "don't fucking touch me."
you gasp when you realise what you had just said, hands retracting to your sides. the pained look in his eyes made it so very clear. "i'm sorry, i-i didn't mean that," you quickly try to explain. nevertheless, he shoots a sad smile towards you and caresses your cheek. the warmth in his touch makes you lean towards his hand, closing your eyes to consume the sensation unconsciously.
caleb watches as you make yourself home in his touch, blushing at the hazy look on your face. 'control, control, control,' he tells himself, not wanting to take you then and there right in that moment while you were vulnerable. "i'm sorry, i didn't mean to.......leave you. it took longer than i expected to figure out the way to reach your world," he finally gives you the explanation you wanted.
"is that why you couldn't talk to me at all?" your voice carried a kind of distress that made it very evident that you suffered in his absence.
caleb nods, making you sigh. "and here i thought you no longer wanted me."
he slides his arm around your waist and pulls you closer towards him gently. his thumb drew circles on your side. his other arms reaches out to your face and his fingers brush your hair behind your ear. though you couldn't see him properly, except that he was pale as fuck and practically a glow stick in the dark, you could make out his smile.
"i've waited for so long to hold you like this," he whispers softly. he could only wish that you didn't hear the way his heart was hammering against his ribcage as you snuggled into him. "mhm, me too," you mumble as you rest your head on his shoulder.
you flinch when you hear caleb wince as your hand slides around the back of his waist. curious, you let your hand wander around that area once more and you don't ignore how his body tenses up. choosing to not comment on it since you just met for the first time, you let it be for now. but you weren't going to let it go until you receive an answer.
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stuffeddrawer · 3 days ago
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cw: alcohol, throwing up bc of alcohol word count: 1068 MDNI
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⁽ᵖᵒˢᵗ ᵈᶦᵛᶦᵈᵉʳ ⁻ ᵃˢᵐᵒᵈᵉᵘˢ⁻ᵖˢᵈ⁾
You’re used to being on the outside, looking through glass containing delicate and well curated friendships. You’ve tried, God knows you’ve tried, to get out there, to try and befriend others, have what they have, but you’re always the ‘oh, yeah�� the afterthought, if not outright forgotten.
You live alone, with a dog that seems more interested in the food you eat rather than you yourself.  You don’t have any friends, save for the one that you met online years ago, but they live in another country altogether. You know they have their own group of friends, and you’re okay with that – you’re elated for them. You know it’s hard for them to make friends, but they still seem to have an easier time than you do. It’s almost as though you’ve forgotten how to even talk to people outside of work.
In short, you’re a loner.
A loner who somehow ended up at your boss’ house for a party. You’re still trying to figure that one out. They’ve invited your coworkers, obviously, and friends of their own that they’ve curated throughout the years. You’re all close in age, there’s no awkwardness felt watching one another drink and get drunk. There’s no wincing or judgement when one has a shot, and the other sips on wine.
You’re a loner who’s plastered themself into the corner, slightly overwhelmed by both the music and the people, trying to figure out how to even talk to them. Again, that creeping feeling roars in your chest – You’ve gone and forgotten how to talk to people, haven’t you? Your brain tells you. You wince without making too much of a face, more of a shudder, as if fighting off a sudden chill when the entire house feels like it jumped up by ten degrees.
You’re a loner who’s somehow caught the attention of not one, not two, not even three, but four pairs of eyes, and you haven’t noticed how they’re all looking at you. Albeit in turns, but to them, you’re stunning, like a breath of fresh air even when it feels like you yourself are suffocating under all this noise, stuck between a wall and your coworker’s drunk boyfriend who seems to be flirting with the monstera plant next to you. You try not to laugh. You fail to suppress a giggle, which only seems to make the four pairs of eyes light up at the sight of that smile, even though it’s small, on your lips.
You’ve never been a social person – maybe that’s why you have no friends, save for the one in your pocket, living a thousand miles away. You’ve never been a social person, yet somehow you’ve managed to end up with someone’s arm around your broad shoulders, keeping you close and grounded. He smells like citrus, smells bright – explosive. His cheerful and charming smile distracting you from the insane noise that seems to have only gotten louder the more and more people drank. Your coworker’s boyfriend isn’t slick with how he throws up in the soil. Poor plant.
You’re not a social person, yet somehow you’ve managed to wrangle possibly the most prettiest man you’ve ever laid eyes on, in a damn ball cap no less, and he’s serving you your next drink – just a simple beer, but it’s enough for you right now. You’re too hot and flushed to be enjoying anything else, really you should be drinking water, but the way this man dotes on you, those big brown eyes of his staring at you as if you’re the only one who’s ever mattered, is making you a little dizzy. Not the alcohol, certainly not that. You’ve not nearly had enough. You’ve never had someone look at you the way he is.
You’re the least social person out there, but there’s something about the way that this man with mutton chops has his hand on the small of your back, guiding you out of a crowded area of the house to someplace more open. There’s something different about that kind, quokka-like smile of his. Where one might see it as condescending, you only see it as a silent question, asking if you’re alright, waiting, patiently, almost. If you weren’t so on guard, if you weren’t so tense and uncomfortable with the amount of people here, with how rowdy these people were, people you work with, you’d be swept off your feet. Which is exactly what this man is, these men are trying to do.
You’re not a social person at all, but somehow, sitting outside with this masked stranger, this burly stoic man, is calming and slowly the conversation begins to flow easily, starting with what you do, what your average day to day is, and somehow you end up giggling at a few of his dry jokes that no one really seems to laugh at. You’re not a social person, no, but that doesn’t mean you don’t have a wickedly dry sense of humour – you get his. The air might be chilly but surprisingly, you’re comfortable, warm. Seen.
You’re definitely not the most social person in the universe, yet somehow, you’re walking out of that party with four new numbers, four new names, four new friends. You’re a loner who’s walking out of that work-house-weird stupid coworker’s-boyfriend-flirted-with-and-threw-up-in-the-monstera-plant party with a big fat smile on your face, more energised walking out of it than you went in. Your cheeks hurt from smiling and laughing at Johnny’s dumb jokes. You’re a little tipsy from the drinks Kyle made you, but also ensured you had plenty of water and something in your stomach. You still feel John’s hand on your lower back, and you can still feel Simon’s presence next to you, offering silent comfort.
You’re not the most social person out there. You’re a loner. You stay alone, live alone, cook for one, and have a small amount of dishes to clean, just for yourself. Food goes bad before you get a chance to finish it, always making more for lunches, forgetting you’re pretty much a loner.
You’re not so much that same loner anymore when you’re waking up on a lazy Sunday morning with all four of those men in your new Alaskan king-sized bed, each of them pressing lazy morning kisses to each other's heads, groggy “g’mornings”, gruff huffs at being woken up. You’re happy you’re not so much of a loner anymore.
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zorosangell · 12 hours ago
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I NEED pit pt2 ! GIVE ZORO HIS GIRL BACK!!! 😤😔
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⛥゚・。 boxers
synopsis: part two of pit -- zoro saves your life (ish) and finally finds the courage to win you back
cw: fluffy fluff with a dash of angst, comfort, ZORO IS DOWN BAD, kinda grovels ig, but like as he should, reader kinda stands on business (not really tho).
a/n: been a minute y'all <3 happy to see you guys again
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"For fuck's sake," Zoro groaned, throwing his forearm over his eyes as the loud, frenzied moans of Nami's booty call slithered through the walls.
Was she fucking killing him?
Audibly, the man was shoved against the headboard, letting out a surprised string of groans as the navigator continued her assault, doing whatever it was she did that had men begging her not to leave whatever island they were docked at.
Of course, she never obliged; but that never stopped her from robbing them blind, each and every one practically handing over their valuables at the sight of her shy smile.
It was almost laughable.
Zoro couldn't wrap his head around the poor bastards who found themselves so besotted so easily.
She was just a woman.
Hell, she was just a person.
No different from any other stranger you'd pass on the road.
...Right?
With an annoyed sigh, the swordsman dragged a calloused hand over his face, staring at the ceiling of his dark room with a knowing look.
Then again, it was just a woman that had made the last month of his life a living hell.
Or rather... her absence.
Swinging his legs over the edge of the inn bed, he glanced over at the nightstand, snatching up his day-old glass of water and taking a large swig.
By the severe lack of light flowing in through the window, he could tell it was still the wee hours of the morning, despite the fact he felt he'd been up for years.
But lately, that was how every night went.
'Cut it out.'
Without hesitation, Zoro dropped to the ground, completely ignoring the empty cup on the floor as he caught himself in a plank, starting up his push-ups.
He could do this.
He could work through this.
He just had to give himself a little more time.
With a grunt of discomfort, his lips tightened into a taut line, ignoring how the weight felt off without a certain someone sitting on his back, and how his count felt too correct without a familiar voice chatting his ear off.
Shaking his head, the swordsman trained his gaze on the floor below him, brows cinching slightly with frustration.
'Cut. It. Out.'
In retaliation, images of your smiling face flashed through his mind, so sudden that it early made him drop himself.
God, if this wasn't pathetic, he didn't know what was.
Your big breakup with the ship's first mate was a little over a month ago, and despite Zoro's fervent efforts to forget, your words had plagued him from the moment you stepped off the deck.
"IT'S WHAT YOU DON'T DO, ZORO!"
"Every time I look at you, I feel more alone."
"Am I... just that forgettable?"
His chest ached at the broken tone of your voice, just as painful as when he first heard it.
All that time he had spent fighting off danger, working to keep you as far away from it as possible, it turned out he was the one that had been hurting you he most.
That fucked with him more than he cared to admit.
How could he have not seen the signs?
How could he have not seen how much he was hurting you?
How could he have ever forgotten anything about you?
"Am I... just that forgettable?"
"Am I... just that forgettable?"
"Am I... just that forgettable?"
Suddenly, Zoro's nose scrunched, a harsh stench snatching him from his self-loathing thoughts.
It smelled like... smoke.
In an instant, the swordsman's eye snapped open, darting around the room to see greyish-black fumes billowing in from under the door.
Sifting through his you-induced haze, he forced his brain to sort through all the pieces.
Early morning.
Smoke.
And shouting that had finally managed to bleed through the walls.
'(y/n)!'
Frantically, Zoro scrambled to his feet, still in his boxers and nothing else as he snatched up his swords and practically ripped the door open.
And the moment he did, he was met with utter chaos.
Inn workers rushed past carrying large buckets of water while other patrons shouted over the dark clouds of smoke, rushing down the hallway in frantic attempts of escape.
"Zoro, the building's on fire!" Chopper exclaimed from Robin's shoulder, arms wrapped around her neck as she tried to follow the crowd toward the stairs.
"We need to leave! Quickly!" the woman added, expression slightly tainted by worry.
"I don't know why you waste your time with these assholes, Nami-swan," Sanji grumbled, one hand holding hers while the other dragged the bastard she was robbing by the scruff of his neck, his face severely bruised. "The hell you standing around for, mosshead?! We gotta move!"
"Luffy and the others went on ahead! So come on!" Nami barked through her cloth mouth-covering.
"Where's (y/n)?!" Zoro asked, frantically.
The four froze in their tracks, the color instantly draining from their faces.
"She's not with you?!"
You had been avoiding the swordsman like the plague after the incident.
If he was honest, he doubted you would ever even look in his direction again, much less come to his side in a crisis.
Those days were over...
'SHIT!'
"Head outside! I'm goin' back for her!" he barked, roughly pushing through the sea of people to get to your room.
"Zoro, wait!" Chopper exclaimed.
"That half of the building completely ablaze!" Robin called. "Be careful!"
"I don't care if you burn to death trying, you better bring her back safely, moss for brains!" Sanji spat, Nami quickly moving to drag him toward the staircase.
Their noise went in one ear and out the other as he charged down the hall, expression wild with worry as he attempted to reign in his thoughts from your burning corpse to just you.
From the flow of the smoke, he could tell it was coming from the direction of your room, though he wasn't sure where.
But the thought only quickened his pace.
The further he trekked, the thicker the smoke got, and the harder it became to breath, his nose in the crook of his elbow doing little to shield his lungs.
"(y/n)!" he shouted over the distant, roaring flames. "C'mon, (y/n), sound off! (y/n)!"
His heart felt like it was in his ass, bile tearing at his throat like a raging river.
If something happened to you...
If you died with the terms you two left on...
If you died without allowing him to say all the things on his mind...
He'd never forgive himself.
"Fuck! (y/n)!" Zoro shouted, a cold shiver running down his spine despite the rising heat. "(y/n)!"
After what felt like a millennia, he finally reached the door to your room, frantically jiggling the handle only to find it was locked.
Blood rushed through his ears at the thought of you inside, so much so that he didn't even register the singeing burn of the metal against the palm of his hand.
"(y/n)! (y/n), open the door!"
And then he hears it.
Your small, faint voice, thick with exhaustion and fatigue.
"Zo... ro!"
"I'm comin', baby! Move out the way!"
Without hesitation, he drew his sword, winding up with practiced ease.
"Zoro, no!"
"108 Caliber Phoenix!"
In an instant, the door was gone, but the swordsman was more concerned with the familiar face running toward him.
Your silhouette emerged from the smokey air, clad in nothing but the thinnest tank top known to man, and a small pair of Nami's shorts.
Utterly relieved, you collided with his solid frame, arms wrapping around him like a vice as if he'd disappear if you let him go.
"(y/n)," he huffed into your ear, his arms find home around your waist like two puzzle pieces finally coming together. "You came back in here? The hell were you thinkin'?"
His words were angry, but tone so soft as his hand traveled to the back of your head to pull you further into him.
Smoothly, his free hand hooked under your thighs, effortlessly scooping you up and carrying out the building as it burned to the ground.
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Finally outside, the two of you stood with each other, silently, as Robin conversed with the inn keeper about the start of the blaze.
The both of you were quite a sight.
Zoro, covered in soot, hair mussed from tossing and turning, in nothing but his black boxers.
You, covered in soot, hair wild from tossing and turning, in nothing but a thin shirt and tiny shorts.
Though you, in particular, seemed to be what the male population outside were more fond of.
And, of course, your swordsman took notice almost instantly.
"You guys need somethin'?" the words spilled from his lips like venom, his grip on his scabbard tightening ever so slightly as he shifted his stance to shield you from the eyes of a nearby group of men.
They were standing not too far away, gawking at you as if you were some sort of attraction at a fair.
And under the infamous glare of the pirate hunter, they all scurried away like startled deer, earning an annoyed scoff from the mosshead before he returned his gaze straight—all while still taking his mandatory glance at you every minute or so.
Somehow, you looked even prettier than the last time he saw you, the ginormous bonfire sitting in front of you painting your face with beautiful red and orange light.
Maybe it was relief.
Maybe it was his guilt.
He wasn't sure.
But what he was sure of was that he needed to get off what was on his chest before it was too late.
"That was stupid," he started, curtly, as he turned to you. "Comin' back in for me like that. You could've gotten hurt... or worse."
You exhaled sharply out of your nose, slowly shifting to face him.
"I was already out here when the others told me you'd stayed behind to go look for me. I couldn't let you do that 'cause God knows you wouldn't have come out unless you dragged me from the flames with you."
"You're damn right, I wouldn't have," he replied, sharply, though without an ounce of malice in his voice. "But the difference between you and me is that I can take it."
"Oh, that's the difference? I can't take it?" your brow arched, harshly, as you poked his bare chest. "I'm not some delicate flower, Zoro. I can take care of myself. You forfeited all right to do that for me a few weeks ago."
"You know I don't give a damn about rights, (y/n)," Zoro scoffed, shifting his weight on his feet. "I give a damn about you not burning to death."
"Little late for that..." you mumbled under your breath, though Zoro had heard loud and clear.
And he didn't like it one bit.
"Hey," he started, pointedly, grabbing onto your arm with a soft yet firm touch. "Look, I know I'm an asshole, but no matter how much you refuse to believe it... I care about you. I care a whole damn lot."
He sighed, taking a deep breath.
"I know I didn't show it well when we were together, but that's not something that's gonna change 'cause of where we're at right now."
Your eyes widened slightly, surprised by the sudden, vulnerable confession.
It was completely out of character for him, and the way he raked an anxious hand through his green hair let you know that he knew it, too.
"(y/n), I... you..." he stumbled, tone rising with frustration toward himself. "I fucked up... I fucked up a lot. I took a good thing for granted and didn't know it until you were gone."
His eyes found yours, the sheer sincerity and regret in his iris nearly knocking you over.
The sudden urge to hug the swordsman overtook your hands, your fingers twitching to reach out to him.
But you knew better, and given the circumstances it was almost laughable that he'd be the one needing comfort.
"(y/n)... you mean the world to me... and more than anything, I want you to be happy... even if that happiness is because I'm gone," Zoro stated, not a single waver in his voice as his calloused hand carefully slid into yours, caressing your skin with such a reverence you'd think you were fine china.
It forced a swell of warmth to radiate through your stomach, spreading all the way down to your toes.
His touch felt like coming home, a feeling that scared you to no end, but granted you immense solace nonetheless.
Not a day went by without you missing him, missing what you both used to be, and not a night without you wishing he was still by your side.
"I don't expect forgiveness. And I refuse to ask it of you," he continued, glancing down at your conjoined hands with a wistful look. "But if there's anything I want you to know... it's that I'm sorry... and that I love you."
A small gasp left your lips, his words nearly striking you dumb.
You were almost certain the word "sorry" wasn't in his vocabulary...
"And no matter where you go... or who else you may turn to... know that I'll always be here for you whenever you need me."
At that, he released your hand, the sudden coldness burning more than any flame could.
This wasn't what you wanted.
Hell, none of this was.
You knew what you wanted.
You'd known this whole time.
And now it had finally said the words you'd been waiting for it to say for over a month.
Feeling dismissed by your stunned silence, Zoro's expression turned emotionless, and he turned to go take a walk, or find some sake bottle to drown his sorrows in—whichever came first.
But before he could step away, you quickly grabbed his arm, spinning him back around before futility slamming your fists on his chest, not fazing him in the slightest.
"Damn it! I don't want to turn to anyone else!" you huffed, looking up at him with glassy eyes. "I want you, you asshole! ...But you just can't seem to get it through that thick head of yours."
Without warning, you flicked him harshly on the forehead, earning a sharp wince.
"OW! The hell was that for?!"
"You're stupid... arrogant... and rude. You have no manners, the mouth of a sailor, and the blood-lust of a demon from hell," you listed, your hand coming up to tenderly cup his cheek in your palm, the man leaning into your touch almost instantly.
You felt so soft...
And your words only brought back memories of playful nights bickering.
God, how could he have gone a month without this?
"But I love you... so much... and I can't imagine anyone else by my side... not even if I tried."
Zoro's eyes widened slightly at your confession, but in them laid a small flicker of hope.
One you faintly recognized.
"Zoro... if we do this again... it can't be the same..." you warned, resting your hands on his chest. "I can't go through all that another time, and I won't. 'Cause at the first sign, I'm walking away."
"You have my word," he promised, as if it was an irrefutable fact, resting his firm hand over your soft one, which sat above his heart. "If you ever do, you have full permission to kill me."
"Cute you think I need permission for that," you chuckled, playfully raising your brow. "You should be more worried about who gets to you first: me or Nami?"
The man shivered at the thought, cracking a small smile at your amused expression.
Leaning down, he pressed a firm kiss on your forehead, deciding against the option of your lips in favor of taking things slow.
He didn't want to overwhelm you.
"Point taken."
Effortlessly, he scooped you up, relishing in your tiny squeak, as well as the feeling of your arms snaking around his neck.
For the first time in thirty-six days, the world felt right, and his chest felt whole.
The hold you had on the swordsman was almost terrifying; but, he'd be damned if he let anything loosen it ever again, himself included.
So, he started the trek back to the Sunny, fighting off the grin threatening to break onto his face as you rested your head against his chest.
"Now... let's get you into somethin' a little warmer. Gonna get sick like this."
"Zoro, you're in your underwear..."
"And?"
"I—y'know what? ...Nevermind."
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shurisneakers · 2 days ago
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hey I wanna say I absolutely love your writing ,English is not my first language but your writing cracks me up every time I absolutely adore your work! I wanted to throw in an idea for misery loves company because I really like the grumpy×grumpy ,what about them being loners/grumpy in a wedding,maybe it's Steve's or someone else on the team and they share a quiet dance on the balcony or something so yeah that's my idea ,again love your works ♥️♥️♥️♥️
a/n: hello! thank you for your kindness and for sending this in, I hope you like it <3
this is part of misery loves company but is just a stand alone fic. you don’t need to read anything before this
warnings: swearing, light angst
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You slip out before the first toast.
The balcony is quiet, the air sharp against your skin. Below, the city hums, distant and indifferent. The music is still loud behind you, but out here, it’s muffled, softened by the wind.
You don’t belong inside.
The thought comes unbidden, bitter in your mouth.
So the balcony is cold, the air sharp against your skin. The city sprawls below, distant and untouchable. The music inside is muffled now, voices blending together, champagne bubbling in glasses. It’s still too loud.
You lean against the railing, fingers gripping the cold marble. You tell yourself it doesn’t matter. That you don’t care.
You exhale, press your palms against the railing, giving yourself five seconds before you call an Uber to get home.
Behind you, the door creaks open.
"You gonna jump?"
You hear the shuffle of his shoes against the floor as he leans beside you.
You close your eyes. "Go back inside. Make someone else's night worse."
"Yours already looks terrible, I've got a headstart," Bucky says, stepping up beside you.
You don’t turn, but you can feel him watching you, his presence taking up too much space in a very spacious balcony.
"You left early," he grunts out.
"So did you," you mutter.
"Yeah," he says. "People started looking at me like they wanted to ask me to dance."
You scoff. "You just think everyone’s in love with you."
"You're not proving me wrong," he points out.
"You're the most insufferable man I know."
"Honoured."
You finally glance at him. His tie is loose and he looks like he wants to be anywhere but here.
"Why are you out here?"
Your grip tightens on the railing. "Why are you?"
You know he sees it.
"You gonna actually answer," he says coolly, "or are we going to keep doing this?"
You exhale sharply, looking ahead. "DJ’s shit."
"It’s a live band."
"Then they should’ve hired a DJ."
His mouth twitches, but his eyes don't move off you.
"Try again."
"No," you say flatly.
He tilts his head at you, expression unreadable.
It makes you feel like your skin is on fire. Weddings are hard. Weddings with him around are even harder, for reasons you can't put words to.
A beat passed and he finally pushes himself away from the railing.
You're about to make some biting comment, when instead--
"Dance with me."
You blink. "Are you concussed?"
"Not recently."
You scoff, crossing your arms. "If this is some kind of sympathy thing-"
"Jesus," he mutters. "Yeah, I wanna pity dance with you, that's exactly what's happening here."
"Then what?"
He shrugs, "You think you're the only one who's angry?"
Your jaw tightens, teeth harsh against each other.
"We don’t have to talk," he mutters, like he's tired. Like things are hard for him too. "Just dance with me."
You stare at him, skeptical. He stares back, unbothered.
Instead, you grab his hand, passive-aggressive, like the universe owes you something for putting him in your life.
"Step on my feet, I break your kneecaps."
"For the record, I was a good fuckin' dancer."
"There is not one person left alive that can corroborate that," you scoff.
It's a joke, but you're acutely aware that maybe it's exactly why this is hard for him.
He pulls you in, a little stiff, like neither of you actually know how to do this anymore.
The music filters in from inside, something soft, but the two of you aren’t moving right to it.
He sways, slow and easy, like it makes all the sense in the world.
It pisses you off that somewhere, it starts feeling that was for you too.
"You're terrible at this," you mutter.
"So are you," he grumbles.
You scoff. "You said you were good at dancing."
"Yeah, well," he exhales, "people say a lot of shit."
You roll your eyes, but you don’t let go.
Neither does he.
The wind picks up. His palm presses a little firmer against your back. You don’t know what to do with that.
"You think you’re mad now," he mutters, "just wait ‘til I do this."
You frown, "What are you plann-"
You barely have time to react before his lips brush against your forehead.
It’s quick, warm, and a little unpracticed, like he thought about it too hard but did it anyway.
Your fingers tighten against his shirt. Not because you want to hold on. But because you don’t know what else to do with your hands when something shifts in your chest.
"Jes—"
"Shut up," he says, and it's the closest you've heard him come to pleading. "Five more minutes."
The words sit between you, heavy and unspoken.
You don’t know if he’s talking about the dance or something bigger.
Five more minutes.
Like you’re not running out of time. Like something in the world could belong to you, even if just for a little while.
You close your eyes. Breathe him in.
And five minutes stretch on longer than they usually do.
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the-heliophile · 2 days ago
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COFFEE - SEVIKA
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FROM FOURMI 🐜💌 Currently suffering from an unhealthy Vi, Sevika and Ambessa obsession, yes I have a type what can I say I love hot women that can just throw me around
song. coffee, chappell roan
pairing. ex!Sevika x ex!reader
content. angst/sadness, no happy ending, kind of toxic Sevika?, no use of she/her but fem implied reader
summary. your ex Sevika asks you to meet up for drinks and you try not to end up in her bed again
You were lounging in bed, still blinking away the fog in your eyes when you got a text. You picked up the phone and squinted to read the time, 8:36AM, you sighed before looking at the actual text.
Unknown number : up for drinks later today?
You sighed, knowing exactly who it was from and how it would end. You and Sevika had broken up over three months ago but you still received an occasional text from her. You fought the urge to answer right away, taking a deep breath and trying to calm your heartbeat first. After a few minutes you gathered the strength to type out an answer.
You : sure, coffee after work ?
Unknown number : only coffee ?
You : I kind of have plans for tonight sorry
"I'd suggest the jazz bar on MaryAnn Street but,
You'd buy me a drink and we know where that leads, so"
You had made that mistake too many times, meeting Sevika for drinks at the end of a rough day, expecting it to end with you parting ways amicably just to be proven wrong each and every time. There was something to her, an allure that you quite couldn't resist, as if her soul was calling out to yours but her heart was constantly pushing you away. It was the reason you had broken up in the first place, her pushing you away, keeping out of the loop so you would never get involved in Silco's business. She meant well and you knew it, but there was only so much you could take. Too many nights where you'd stare at the clock wondering if she would make it home this time, too many times only getting to see her in the early hours of the morning just for her to be too drunk to even speak. You wanted, needed security, someone who could spare some time for you, confide in you and make you feel like a partner instead of a child they must keep out of everything.
"I'll meet you for coffee 'cause if we have wine
You'll say that you want me, I know that's a lie"
You remember the last time you agreed to go out for drinks with Sevika. You both stayed at the Last Drop for several hours, reminiscing the good moments of your relationship, catching up on each other's lives. It only took a couple drinks for the look in her eyes to go from its usual detachment to that dark arousal you'd see whenever she would get home after a hard day. And it was only a couple more drinks that led to Sevika kissing your neck in the back of the bar, she still remembered every erogenous zone, every sensitive spot there and she was kissing them almost earnestly. You crumbled in a few minutes and you ended up in her bed, once again, and once again you promised yourself it would be the last time. She never had any regards for you in the morning, barely addressing you while you were picking your clothes up and getting dressed, it made you feel dirty and yet you could never resist, you always fell for the sweet nothings she had whispered in your ear in her drunk haze.
"If I didn't love you, it would be fine"
Sevika knew she was hurting you every time it happened, but you also hurt her when you broke up with her. She was trying to do the good thing in your relationship, saw you as a light she did not want to dim with stories of the things she did. The truth was that Sevika loved you, in her own way, but she saw you as something fragile, breakable that she should protect. She was incredibly angry and hurt that you had broken up with her after two years, despite all the times she had explained her reasoning, she felt as though it was selfish of you and so she refused to let you just move on. Whenever she found herself missing you she would send a text, asking to go out, knowing full well you would never say no. She would never ask you to take her back, instead she would rather wait until you asked for her to come back to you, but every single time you joined her for the evening Sevika could tell how stiff you were, fidgeting with the hem of your shirt and refusing to look in her agate eyes. Every night ultimately ended up with you in her bed and her almost urging you out in sheer frustration that you wouldn't make the first move. So even if she knew her actions were hurting you, she also knew you still had feelings for her and she texted you once again, capitalizing on your feelings for her to secure a spot by your side, albeit temporarily.
"I'll meet you for coffee, only for coffee,
Nowhere else is safe, every place leads back to your place"
You had just gotten home from work and you immediately started getting ready, there was a little skip in your step for the whole way home, the idea that you would get to meet up with Sevika for something other than getting drunk was making you feel almost giddy. While doing your make-up your mind started drifting to all the soft moments exchanged between Sevika and you and eventually memories of your drunk nights together. Eventually the giddiness faded into bitterness, the corners of your mouth lowering from the grin you were sporting earlier and your shoulders slumping slightly. You knew, deep down you knew. It wouldn't be just coffee, she'd suggest the Last Drop and you'd agree with a "something came up" text to your friends. And once more you'd wake up in her bed feeling used. You look at yourself in the mirror, feeling Sevika's hand around your heart tightening, you were almost fully done up but your mood had significantly worsened compared to when you stepped into your bedroom.
"So let's not do coffee, let's not even try,
It's better we leave it and give it some time"
You let out a defeated sigh before grabbing your phone, typing a quick text to the number you still haven't saved again since you deleted it the first time because "that way you won't be tempted to text her".
You : Sorry, something came up, raincheck?
Unknown number : Sure, what about Saturday?
You : I'll be busy sorry, but I'll text you when I can !
You lied, you won't text her, not again, it had to end. It was time for you to move on and get on with your life. You shed a few tears, your mascara now running down your cheeks and take a deep breath to steady yourself. Promising yourself it was the very last time you had given her the time of day.
''Cause If we do coffee, it's never just coffee,
It's never just coffee"
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quartz-kilsviken · 3 days ago
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Written in the Runes
Chapter 6
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➸ Synopsis: Ekko, your mischievous yet endearing local troublemaker, trails a wealthy academy student from the topside. When you end up with the student's satchel, you find a notebook filled with intriguing magical research. Unable to resist, you embark on a quest to uncover the secrets of this mysterious scholar.
➸Pairing: JayVik x reader
➸Chapter Word Count: 2,917
➸Tags: Slow Burn, yearning, eventual smut, not
canon compliant
➸Notes: Your Honor, Viktor is a brat. The first few weeks at the Academy, I loved writing this chapter. I just wanna give Jayce a smooch on the cheek, he’s so sweet. ♡ॢ₍⸍⸌̣ʷ̣̫⸍̣⸌₎"
➸ Previous Chapter: Pt. 5
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“It’s a complete waste of the technology,” Viktor grumbles, tapping his fingers on the desk. “The only ones who’ll benefit are the Councilors padding their pockets with trade deals.”
The past few weeks have been a whirlwind—setting up the lab, scrambling to get everything organized, and, naturally, arguing. This same debate keeps coming up. While the three of you are developing Hextech, the Council’s already decided what it’s going to be used for. Viktor’s furious. They want to build a massive teleportation system, similar to the energy from the night in Heimerdinger’s lab, but on a much larger scale. They say they want it to transport people and cargo across Runeterra. Your problem isn’t with the idea, it’s the scale—hundreds of crystals, each needing its own rune combination. Just thinking about it makes your head throb.
“They’re not exactly giving us a choice,” Jayce says, his voice calm but his posture a dead giveaway that he’s frustrated. His feet are propped up on the desk, balancing on the back two legs of his chair. He’s trying to stay composed, but you can tell it’s wearing on him. Viktor, on the other hand, looks like he’s a hair’s breadth away from snapping.
Viktor’s bent over his desk, flipping through Jayce’s notes with a frown that could melt metal. You’d rather not dive into this right now, but seeing both of them so stressed gets to you. “You’re both right,” you say, pushing your chair back and crossing your arms. “We don’t have much of a choice, but that doesn’t mean we can’t make sure it’s used for something good. I mean, right now, the only way to get to Piltover is by ship, and it’s miserable.” You shudder at the memory—seasick, your mom holding you over the railing to throw up because you couldn’t even reach it. You didn’t have time to warn her the first time and Khal had to clean up after you. He still brings it up. “At least this way, travel won’t suck as much.”
Viktor looks like he’s chewing that over, his face softening a little. Jayce, however, seems to latch onto something else. “You’ve traveled?”
Damn. Not the direction you want this conversation to go. But it’s hard to lie to Jayce when he looks at you like that. “Uh, yeah. My family moved here when I was younger, but I don’t remember much of it,” you say quickly, glancing back at your sketches in an attempt to shift focus.
Jayce doesn’t push, but Viktor raises an eyebrow. “Where did you live before?”
Viktor, as you’ve learned, is relentless when something catches his interest. The more you try to avoid it, the harder he’s going to dig. So, you switch gears before this goes any further.
You pick up one of your rough HexGate designs and hold it out to them with an exaggeratedly serious expression. “What do you think of this? I think it’s the best one I’ve come up with so far.”
Viktor’s face immediately turns from curious to horrified, and you can’t help but stifle a laugh. Jayce steps closer, squinting at the design. “It’s... impressive? But I’m not sure the Council would approve. It’s, uh, a little... much?”
Viktor looks at him, then back at the sketch, deadpan. “It’s... terrifying.” Jayce looks at Viktor, clearly trying to silently say, ‘don’t be mean’. You’re practically bubbling with amusement, and Viktor’s giving you exactly the reaction you wanted.
“No, no, you just don’t get the vision.” You gesture dramatically to the design as if it’s the most brilliant idea ever.
Viktor stares at it, his eyebrows knit together in distaste. The sketch is a monstrosity, but you’re selling it hard. It’s a massive statue-like structure of both his and Jayce’s faces, towering over the city. The jaws of the faces are designed to unhinge, releasing a beam of energy that powers the teleportation. It’s completely absurd. “Oh, we see the vision. It’s just... I’m not sure I’m prepared for our faces to loom over Piltover. It’s a bit... ominous, don’t you think?”
Jayce looks between you and Viktor, his expression full of confusion and concern. “But why are we the ones on it? Shouldn’t you be, too?”
You grin, shrugging casually. “Nah. You two are way more photogenic than I am.” You glance at Viktor, who’s trying not to smile. “Besides, I don’t need a giant statue of me towering over the city. That sounds a little... egotistical.”
Viktor snickers. “I’ll approve the design... but only on one condition.”
You raise an eyebrow, intrigued. “What’s that?”
“We simplify it,” Viktor says, looking at you with a smirk. “Only Jayce on the statue.”
Jayce’s face falls in mock betrayal, and you immediately spring up from your chair, shaking Viktor’s hand with exaggerated enthusiasm. “Deal. You’ve got yourself a deal.”
“Wait, what?” Jayce protests, his eyes wide.
You cross your arms, a triumphant grin spreading across your face.“Two against one, Jayce. Looks like you’re the face of Hextech now.”
Seeing them less upset—even if just for a moment—makes your heart lighter. You’d draw a million silly diagrams just to keep seeing them smile. But the moment fades as soon as you remember your studies start today. It’s been easier to get lost in Hextech, especially with Jayce and Viktor around. But now… you won’t be able to hide away in the lab much longer.
You start packing up your things reluctantly, and the two of them catch on. Jayce looks up and offers, “Want us to walk you? It’s not far.”
You’d appreciate it, but you know they have more important things to do. You can’t ask them to waste their time.
“Nah, I’m used to navigating this maze by now. I’ll be fine. Thanks, though.”
Viktor gives you a knowing look, his gaze sharp as ever. He catches the tension in your voice without missing a beat. Before he can protest, you can make your way out of the lab.
You had a million different ideas of how your first lecture would go, but somehow it ended up worse than you imagined. First, you got completely lost. Jayce said it wasn’t far, but somehow it took you thirty minutes to find the place. Then, when you finally made it in, the only seat left was right in the middle. You spent the whole time feeling like you were on display, barely able to focus. You didn’t catch a word the professor said.
The rest of the day was a blur—moving from class to class, barely keeping track of the time, let alone the content. By the time your last lecture ended, you were drained, desperate to escape, but the crowd at the door made that impossible. You almost considered climbing out of a window just to get away from it all.
Then you see him. His eyes scan the room until they land on you, and his face lights up with that wide, gap-toothed grin. For a moment, everything else fades.
You make your way toward him, and when his hand rests on your back, you let out a breath you didn’t realize you were holding. It’s just a casual touch, but somehow it makes everything feel a little easier.
“Let me guess. Viktor sent you to make sure I actually made it here?” you say, raising an eyebrow with a teasing grin.
Jayce laughs, guiding you through the crowd with a casual ease.
Once you’re in a quieter hall, he looks over at you, still smiling.
“So, how was it?”
His optimism is blinding, and you can’t bring yourself to admit how overwhelmed you are. Instead, you just shrug and smile back. “It was fine.”
You realize, even though you’re away from the crowd, his hand is still resting on your back. You hope he sees your nervousness as a result of the overwhelming day, not because of him. Jayce has this effortless warmth, the kind that draws people in without even trying. He’s like that with Viktor, too—his gaze lingers on him sometimes, full of quiet affection. It’s just how he is, you think. The three of you might share a connection, but in truth, you don’t know much about each other. Maybe that’s for the best. Instead of getting in your head about it, you focus on the comfort of the palm on your back, guiding you home.
As you open your door and turn to say goodnight, you catch him hesitating, like he wants to say something. His eyes flick past you, scanning your room.
“What, does my interior decorating offend you?”
“No—” he chews over his words. “There’s no interior decorating to be offended by.”
Right. The space is big—bigger than anything you’ve had—and honestly, kind of unsettling. The academy provided a bed and a desk, but the rest is empty. “I guess I just haven’t had time,” you lie, forcing an easy shrug.
Oh, he needs to stop looking at you like that—like he sees right through you. His voice is gentler when he says, “I don’t know if Heimerdinger told you, but this isn’t regular student housing. It’s permanent.”
Permanent. He definitely failed to mention that.
“This place is yours,” Jayce continues. “It might help you feel more comfortable if you got a few things. Viktor and I can help, you know.”
You know. And that’s exactly why you hesitate.
“If I present my HexGate design to the council, they might just kick me out, you know.” You flash a grin, but the joke is thinly veiled. The ridiculous, fake design you’d sketched earlier had been for fun—but what if your real ideas get the same reaction? What if you pour everything into this, only to watch it fall apart?
Jayce doesn’t call you on it, just watches you for a moment before saying simply, “Think about it.”
“Good night, Jayce.”
The rest of your week went smoothly, the routine settling your nerves. Even the HexGate project had taken a turn for the better—frustration giving way to excitement as plans started coming together. You’d gotten so caught up in your work that you even started pulling out your designs during lectures, ignoring the side glances from other students. Things had been going so well, in fact, that you’d completely forgotten about your conversation with Jayce.
Jayce, however, had not.
You had been looking forward to a full day of working on Hextech—only to walk into the lab and realize Jayce had other plans. He insisted you all go out to get things for your room, and to your dismay, Viktor had immediately agreed.
Now, you curse Jayce’s insistent kindness as your arms strain under the weight of a couch.
"Left, Jayce—my left, not yours. You’re a very intelligent man, but apparently, using your muscles and your brain at the same time is a challenge." Viktor watches from a safe distance, fingers tapping absently on his cane, a mischievous grin tugging at his lips.
“I’d like to see you try it,” Jayce grunts back, his voice strained.
From over the couch, you catch Viktor’s amused look as his eyes glint with mock disapproval. “Oh, you would, would you? That is cruel—wishing to see a man with a hurt leg carry a couch.”
“You’re mean,” you huff, adjusting your grip. “Mean and distracting, and I need him focused so I don’t get crushed under this thing.”
As you reach your door, Viktor steps in to help, and you decide it’s time to wipe that smug expression off his face. You smile, letting the teasing tone slip in.
“Here, grab my keys so I don’t have to set this down.”
Viktor’s eyes flick over you, and for just a moment, his expression tightens when his gaze lands on your back pocket. You see the brief hesitation, that almost imperceptible pause before he catches himself and steps forward.
“What, Viktor? Scared to touch my ass?”
He furrows his brows at you, but there’s a spark of something in his eyes—playful, but just a little caught off guard. He reaches into your pocket, fingers slow, deliberate, not quite brushing against you, but you feel it anyway. The space between you both seems to close just a little too easily.
When he pulls the keys out, you glance at Jayce, your grin widening.
“See how easy that was? You could tell Viktor he can’t fly, and he’d probably jump off a building just to prove you wrong.”
You barely hear Viktor muttering under his breath, his voice quieter than usual. “Don’t do what I’m asked, and I’m insulted. Do what I’m asked, and—still—I am insulted.”
He holds open the door, his usual confidence returning. “Left—no—my left.” He huffs a laugh as the couch bangs into the door frame.
“Don’t listen to him, Jayce. You’re doing really well.” You grunt, adjusting your grip.
You don’t notice how Jayce seems to soften at the praise, a slight glow warming his face, but Viktor does. The teasing edges of his smile fade as he watches, and instead of continuing his playful jab, he tucks the observation away in his mind.
As soon as the couch is set down, Jayce flops across it with a deep, exasperated grunt. He’s tall, sprawling across the entire length of it. You smack his shoe, a smile tugging at your lips.
“Budge.”
He doesn’t lift his head, but you can hear the exhaustion in his voice as he sighs. “I don’t think I can move.”
You’re tired too, and without thinking, you shift his legs off just enough to make room for yourself. As you settle back into the couch, his legs fall naturally across your lap. The weight of them is surprisingly comforting. You let your head fall back against the cushions, savoring the softness.
You feel his muscles tense beneath you, a subtle shift in the air. When you open your eyes just a bit, you catch him staring. The intensity in his gaze catches you off guard, and your stomach flutters before you can look away. He clears his throat, quickly turning his attention to Viktor, who’s unpacking the rest of the items.
“We should get one of these for the lab.”
You laugh, trying to shake off the unexpected warmth spreading through you. “Oh yeah? Well, you can carry it yourself. I’m never lifting another couch.”
Viktor pulls his gaze from the two of you, placing a new lamp on your desk, but his attention shifts, lingering over the paintings scattered across the space. Some old, some new, but one in particular catches his attention. The blue glow from the scene reflects over both his and Jayce’s faces as they float in Heimerdinger’s lab. He stops, staring at it, the soft light catching his features.
‘Is this really how she see’s us?’ he thinks, something shifting in his chest. ‘It’s beautiful.’
The only thing missing from the piece, he realizes, is you. But before his thoughts can wander further, he shifts his focus back to the lamp. As he reaches down to plug it in, another painting catches his eye. He pulls a canvas from the bag in the corner, completely captivated.
It’s a scene of a mother and daughter, gathered by a fire. Their closeness is palpable, the warmth of the moment so real you almost feel you’re there. The mother is showing the daughter some kind of magic. Viktor’s eyes drift to the bottom corner, and before he can stop himself, he asks softly,
“Did you paint this?”
You don’t respond right away. Instead, moving out from under Jayce and striding across the room, your expression suddenly distant. Viktor’s heart gives a small, unexpected lurch as he watches you, realizing too late that his question has caught you off guard.
“No.”
You move swiftly to take the painting back, but before you can grab it, Viktor holds it just out of your reach, his hand lingering there a little longer than necessary. He can’t help himself, his voice softer this time.
“That’s your name in the corner, is it not?”
You freeze, your hand still outstretched. When you meet his gaze, your eyes lock for a moment that feels too long. There’s an unexpected shift, a warmth that pulls you both closer, though neither of you dares to acknowledge it. You shift just a little, your body instinctively drawing nearer. Viktor’s gaze flickers, and for a brief second, he looks almost... uncertain.
Before the moment can stretch any longer, you use his distraction to quickly snatch the canvas from his hand.“It’s my grandmother’s name. I don’t sign my art.”
You shove the painting back into the bag, zipping it shut a little too quickly.
Jayce’s soft voice draws your attention, “Art like that is meant to be shared, not locked away. We’re already here, we can help you hang them.”
You realize they’re both well-meaning, but you still feel a soft pang in your chest, something you can’t quite place.
Hesitant, you open the bag again, pulling out two paintings—both by your mother, one of a flower, the other of the sea. You hand them to Viktor, the gesture light, almost fleeting, but something lingers in the air.
Without a word, you turn toward the kitchen, the quiet task of making dinner a welcome distraction. It’s easier to focus on that than whatever their kindness is stirring in you. After everything they’ve done for you today, helping you settle in and furnish the place, it’s the least you can do.
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sabrinasopposite · 1 day ago
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pt. 3 of drinks or coffee / college!charlie baker x photographer!reader
my boy, come take my hand throw your guitar and your clothes in the back seat my love, they don't understand but I'll hold your hurt in the box here beside me
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summary: after months of dating, its time for y/n to meet the baker family. yet charlie is a bit scared that y/n will see the chaotic, dozen of people in one house. will she still love him even though he was living in a imperfect home? of course she will.
Winter wraps itself around New York, weaving frost over windows and tucking laughter into scarves. The city glows—streetlights pooling golden halos onto rain-slicked sidewalks, store windows dressed in garlands and ribbons, the hum of holiday music slipping through every doorway. Y/N stands at the threshold of something new, something unfamiliar yet warm, as Charlie laces his fingers through hers and says, “Come home with me for Christmas.”
She hesitates, but only for a breath. Home. The word tastes like cinnamon and wood smoke when he says it.
So, she goes.
Charlie’s family is chaos incarnate.
The front door barely swings open before he is ambushed—small bodies colliding into him, voices overlapping, warmth pressing in from every direction. The house is alive, a living, breathing thing pulsing with energy, tangled in fairy lights and the scent of home-cooked meals. 
Y/N watches, wide-eyed, as one of his younger siblings nearly topples a Christmas tree in an attempt to tackle Charlie, and another is running circles around the kitchen, holding a turkey baster like a sword. And within five minutes of stepping fully into the Baker household, she understands why.
“Charlie’s home!”
“And he brought a girl?”
“Everyone act normal—DON’T TACKLE HIM—”
But it’s too late. Three of his younger siblings have already thrown themselves at him, clinging to his legs, one of them scaling his back like a small, determined koala. A dog is barking somewhere. A toddler is crying. A rogue soccer ball goes flying past Y/N’s head.
Charlie groans. “Jesus Christ, guys.”
Charlie catches her glance, and his expression shifts—something between an apology and hesitation, as if he’s bracing for her to be overwhelmed, for her to see all of this and think too much, too loud, too wild. Y/N is still processing the sheer volume of the house, but she’s chuckling when someone yanks her forward and traps her in a surprisingly strong hug.
“You must be Y/N!” She blinks as she is pulled back at arm’s length, coming face-to-face with a girl who shares Charlie’s sharp jawline and mischievous eyes.
“I’m Lorraine, one of Charlie’s many sisters,” she says with a grin. “Come in, come in, don’t be shy—we don’t bite. Well, Kyle did once, but he’s been trained out of it.”
A ten-year-old across the room scowls. “That was one time!”
Charlie sighs heavily. “Y/N, this is my family. Family, this is Y/N. Now, let’s all behave like normal people for once in our lives.”
Dinner is a symphony of overlapping voices, dishes being passed in a rush, elbows knocking, laughter rising and spilling over like an overfilled glass. Charlie’s dad tries (and fails) to carve the turkey without making a mess, his mom keeps swatting away small hands that sneak rolls from the breadbasket, and someone is telling a story that no one is really listening to, but everyone is enjoying anyway.
“So, Y/N,” one of Charlie’s older sisters asks, grinning across the table. “How exactly did my brother, of all people, manage to date someone like you?”
Charlie groans, covering his face with one hand. “Oh my god. We’re not doing this.”
“Oh, we are doing this,” another sibling chimes in. “Because, come on, Charlie. We’ve seen your past choices.” “Beth,” someone coughs not-so-subtly.
Charlie shoots a glare across the table. “We do not need to bring up my ex right now.”
Y/N hides a smile behind her glass, watching as Charlie sinks lower in his chair, clearly regretting every decision that led to this moment.
“I don’t know,” she says, feigning deep thought. “I guess I just really like mechanics who secretly have a soft heart and buy their girlfriends cameras for no reason.”
There’s a collective aww from the table. Charlie turns bright red.
His mom sighs dramatically. “Finally, someone who actually likes him.”
Charlie throws his hands up. “Okay! That’s enough! This is my girlfriend, not my public humiliation tour.”
The table erupts in laughter. Y/N, watching the way his family teases him but loves him so effortlessly, just squeezes his hand beneath the table. He glances at her, and the frustration fades into something softer, something quieter. There’s a beat of silence. Then one of the younger kids asks, dead serious, “Charlie, what’s it like having a girlfriend? Like, what do you do?”
Y/N barely has time to stifle a laugh before Charlie groans. “Oh my god.”
“Oh yeah, we need to talk about this,” another sibling chimes in, leaning against the kitchen counter. “How did this happen? Who asked who out? Did Charlie say something dumb?”
“Probably,” someone else mutters.
Charlie drags a hand down his face. “Can we not do this right now?”
Y/N grins, propping her chin on her hand. “No, no, I’m actually curious. Please, continue.”
Lorraine smirks. “Okay, so here’s my theory: Y/N fell for him first, because look at him.” Charlie scoffed. “Excuse me?”
“I mean, you’re decent-looking, I guess,” she continues. “But let’s be real, it was probably one of those ‘brooding mechanic with grease on his arms, pushing his hair back while fixing a car’ moments, right?” “Oh my god, shut up,” Charlie says with a groan.
Y/N, still laughing, the siblings start to join the theories like:
“I believe that Charlie magically poisoned her because, as if a beauty like her could fall for him.”
“I think Y/N wouldn’t fall for his stinky mechanic look—unless they match their freaks.”
“Or Charlie fell for Y/N first! Look at her, I mean… Maybe we need to save Y/N from Charlie!”
The table explodes with laughter as Charlie turns a shade of red previously unknown to mankind. Y/N chuckles but then places her hand on his arm. “Well, I always liked Charlie in my own way, but I met him at this super lame party. Yet he made it more interesting than I thought it would be—also, he asked me if we could go after the party to a coffee shop.” She smiles softly.
Charlie chuckles and nods. “Yeah, ever since then we’ve gone regularly to this coffee shop; it’s our thing now. Oh, and now I can do photography because of Y/N!”
The whole family falls silent because they’re in awe of the two of them. They continue to talk about the little dates or funny memories that Charlie and Y/N have collected over the months.
Later, when the meal is winding down and the warmth of the evening settles, Y/N leans close and 
murmurs, “I think I like your family.”
Charlie huffs a small laugh, still looking sheepish. “They’re insane.”
“They’re you.” He opens his mouth, but before he can say something self-deprecating, she adds, “And at least I have plenty of brothers and sisters-in-law now.” He freezes. His ears go pink.
Y/N just smiles. She doesn’t press the moment, just lets it settle—a whispered promise in the space between their laughter. But later, when he’s cleaning the table and she passes by, he hooks a finger into her belt loop, tugging her close for half a second. No words, just the warmth of his touch, just his lips brushing her temple in the quiet acknowledgment that he heard her, that he felt the weight of what she meant.
That he wants it, too.
The stars are strung low in the sky when Charlie drives them out past the city limits, to where the snow lies untouched and the air smells like pine.
They park beneath an open stretch of sky, the windows fogging from the heat of their breath, and Charlie reaches for his guitar from the backseat.
“I didn’t know you played,” Y/N murmurs, tucking her chin onto her knees, watching him.
Charlie shrugs, hands skimming the strings. “I don’t… really. Not in front of people.” He strums a few chords, then glances at her with something hesitant, something vulnerable. “But I wanted to play for you.”
The first notes come tentative, like he’s testing the shape of the song against the silence. Then, as he finds the rhythm, he loses himself in it, fingers moving with a quiet confidence, his voice barely above a whisper.
Y/N watches, her heart catching somewhere between the melody and the way the soft light of the car dashboard paints him in gentle golds. She reaches for her camera, snapping a picture before she can think too much about it.
A moment caught. A memory pressed into permanence. When he finishes, the last notes fading into the hush of night, he sets the guitar aside and turns to her.
She doesn’t need him to say anything. She already knows.
Still, when he cups her face in his hands, when his lips meet hers—slow and deep and full of things unspoken—she melts into it like she belongs there.
“I love you,” he breathes against her mouth.
And Y/N, with winter curled around them and the whole universe narrowed to this moment, smiles into the kiss.
“I love you too, my love.”
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loving-family-poll · 2 days ago
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Ultimate Incest Tournament - Semifinals
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Propaganda under the cut:
Cain/Abel:
the og brotherssss. invented murder.
Brothers inexorably tied together… brothers alone in a field, no witnesses but god… jealousy violence guilt sin… you get it.
Blueprint for violent older sibling & younger sibling relationships. Our beloved Cain complex comes from this story and where would we be without it? These two are the huge inspirations for both incestuous and non incestuous poetry, especially between brothers. Nothing represents the self destructiveness of incest more than these guys. Also I know they frotted in those fields, Eve told me.
Anna/Elsa:
THE juggernaut Frozen ship, and I will never forget our glory days!! Anna's act of true love canonically saving Elsa, and then them having a bunch of children from Elsa's sneezes in the Frozen short… Iconic. They will ALWAYS be the most important thing in each other's lives (remember the time Kristoff was trying to propose to Anna, and she was like "Hmm did you see how Elsa was acting weird? I need to go investigate")
Staple for the incest and yuri fandom of the 2010s. Ridiculously romantic storyline of having the kind of true love that's stuff of legends, capable of trumping fear and breaking curses. They are willing to sacrifice anything for each other and we even have a dumbfounded person looking at how beautiful the other is atop of the stairs. Olaf is their baby I guess.
In their attempt to pander to homophobic fans and make a movie about sisterly love instead of lesbians, Disney accidentally made the most beautiful incestuous love story of all time. I just KNOW they were fantasizing about each other while Elsa was locked in her room for all those years. Yes, it's supposed to be a family-friendly princess movie. True sickos know that that's the point.
Elsa and Anna. Two sisters who are separated for thirteen years and yet those thirteen years only entangle them deeper – Anna haunting Elsa because Elsa will not let herself forget the night of the accident, holding Anna close as a child and sobbing… Elsa’s whole life after that moment defined by that moment, defined by protecting Anna and keeping her distance from Anna while yearning to be near to her as the years go by… Elsa sacrificing her everything in the desperate hope that Anna will be safe… If “love is putting someone else’s needs before yours,” then Elsa does that over and over for thirteen years even as she suffers from wanting all the time to be with her sister… – Elsa haunting Anna because Anna is separated from her sister but does not know why, separated from her sister but longing for her sister – and to both of them, the thought of the other becomes something to worship – until Anna gives her life to throw herself before Elsa and stop the falling sword – until Elsa can finally, finally touch Anna again but now Anna is frozen to solid ice, so the only thing Elsa can touch is the reminder that she killed the person she loves most in this world. And then Anna thaws and they cling to each other, united by love – by a desperate, all-consuming, true love that thaws Arendelle around them – and they still carry the thousand wounds from their childhood but they have each other, they love each other, they are in each other’s arms.
I cannot stress enough how intense the film’s focus on touch makes things for incest shippers. Not only are the sister’s separated, but Elsa cannot touch Anna skin to skin, must always wear the gloves, must always keep a barrier between herself and the one she most longs to hold, to touch. Imagine the exhilaration of that first embrace on the fjord. Being able to touch without fear for the first time in years. Imagine the relief.
I also want to cite this, from an anonymous submission to a headcanon blog:
"However, since protecting Anna also required her to stay away from Anna at all times, Anna became sacred, in a sense: something fragile and special to be watched over but never touched or spoken to. She would come to love Anna in much the same way people come to love religious icons: Anna had always been there and had never been there. She loved Elsa and did not know Elsa. She was warm and kind and dedicated and was under no circumstances to be tainted with Elsa’s presence unless she kept the tightest possible control over herself."
That fear of destroying Anna, of corrupting Anna by touching her, of letting loose the repressed part of herself - all of it comes together so exquisitely for an incest ship.
And after they rediscover each other, in Frozen 2? Their bond remains just as intense. The last word on Elsa’s lips before freezing is Anna’s name. Anna, when she realizes Elsa’s “death,” sings a heartbreaking song that includes the lyrics:
“I can't find my direction, I'm all alone The only star that guided me was you How to rise from the floor When it's not you I'm rising for?”
Their pain is born of their love, and their love for each other drives them both forward."
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The Hit List | 02.5
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Pairing: fuckgirl!Paige x Mechi Student!reader
Masterlist (TBA) | Part One | Part Two (READ BEFORE 2.5)
Genre: romance, slow burn, enemies to lovers, kinda funny?, they fuck, n its hot n sweaty, cat n mouse
Description: What starts as a game of avoidance turns into something far more dangerous when old grudges and unfinished business crash headfirst into a truth neither of them are ready to face. Armed with a stubborn streak, a boyfriend you're trying too hard to believe in, and a simmering resentment that burns just as hot as desire, you swear you won’t let Paige win.
But when history keeps rewriting itself in glances, in touches, in words that cut too close—you start to wonder if you've had control of the game at all.
wc: 24k, yes, 24k
Authors Note: sorry this took forever, too many words so this is split into two parts (THIS IS part 2 chap 2)
Three Weeks Later
Midterms came and went, dragging you through hell and back. The sleepless nights, the cramming, the fucking Systems Engineering project that nearly made you throw your laptop out a window. It’s over. You survived.
And somewhere in between all of it—Paige Bueckers became just a name again.
Not a person. Not a presence. Not someone orbiting your every waking moment.
Just a name you see online.
A headline when UConn wins another game.
A clip someone reposts on Twitter, her pulling up from three like it’s muscle memory, making it look so goddamn easy.
Her life moves forward at full speed.
The season’s in full swing, meaning the team’s constantly gone—traveling for games, disappearing for days at a time, too busy to be anything but motion.
It’s weird.
Because after that night—after the fucking laundry room, after the way she felt against you, the way her breath tangled with yours—you thought she’d stick. Thought the weight of her would still be there, pressing into your ribs, twisting your stomach every time you caught a glimpse of her across campus. But she’s gone.
Not in the literal sense. You still hear her name, see her in passing, watch her run drills on the court like she owns it. But she’s not here. Not in the way that matters. She’s everywhere else—on screens, in headlines, living a life that no longer overlaps with yours.
And you hate that the only way you see her now is through a fucking phone. A video of her laughing on the sideline, hair damp with sweat, head thrown back like she doesn’t have a care in the world. A post-game interview where she’s loose, confident, rattling off the same media-trained answers like she’s never lost control of anything in her life. She’s fine. She’s thriving.
And the worst part? She probably doesn’t think about you at all.
So you adjust. You fall back into routine. Class. Studying. Work. You go to parties, sometimes. You drink. You dance. You make out with people whose names you don’t bother remembering. You kiss Eli again—once, just to see if it sparks something, if it fills the void she left behind. It doesn’t. It never does.
And then, just as fast as she disappeared—
She’s back.
It happens out of nowhere. One second, you’re dragging yourself through campus, brain fogged with sleep, the winter air biting at your skin, coffee scalding the tip of your tongue. And then—her. Right there. Like she never left. Like she hasn’t spent the last few weeks bouncing between cities, arenas, flashing cameras. Like she isn’t something bigger than all of this.
She’s standing outside the training facility, hoodie pulled over her head, joggers slung low on her hips, a duffel bag hanging off her shoulder. She’s talking to someone—one of her coaches, maybe—but she’s different. Not in the way she looks. No, she’s exactly the same, infuriatingly so. It’s something else, something in the way she carries herself, like she’s spent so much time away from this part of her life that she almost forgot it existed.
Like she almost forgot about you.
Your breath stutters. Your steps slow.
She’s close enough to touch. Close enough to reach out and prove she’s real.
And yet, she might as well be a ghost.
Because when she finally turns, finally glances up—she sees you. You know she does. But there’s nothing. No reaction. No flicker of recognition. No teasing smirk. No raised brow, no knowing glance, nothing. Just a passing look, empty and indifferent, before she turns away.
Like you’re nobody.
Like that night never happened.
Like you never fucking existed.
And it wrecks you. Because for the first time since this whole fucked-up, tangled thing started—
It feels like you lost.
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Two Months Later
Dating Eli is easy. That’s the problem.
There’s no push and pull, no fire curling under your ribs, no moments where your pulse spikes so fast you think you might actually combust. There’s no game. No tension. Just quiet, steady comfort. He’s sweet—thoughtful, even. Picks you up for class sometimes, walks you to your dorm even when it’s out of his way, texts you good morning despite seeing you every day. A good boyfriend. The kind you’re supposed to want.
And you? You go through the motions. You hold his hand. Let him kiss you. Let him slip an arm around your shoulders as you walk across campus, even though it still feels foreign. Even though it still feels wrong. But you let it happen because it’s safe. Because he doesn’t make your stomach drop. Because he doesn’t wreck you.
Because he’s not her.
And that’s exactly what you need. Because Paige Bueckers doesn’t know you exist anymore.
She came back from the season like she shed you—like you were just something she outgrew. Whatever happened between you was nothing. A passing thought. A mistake so inconsequential she didn’t even have to acknowledge it. And if she doesn’t care? Then neither do you.
So you lean into Eli.
And when he invites you to a UConn game—something casual, something low-stakes, something he’s excited to take you to—you say yes. You say yes because it makes sense. Because this is your life now. Because Paige Bueckers is just another player on the court.
And that’s all she’s ever going to be.
The stadium is packed, the early spring air crisp, cutting through the warmth of the sun. You follow Eli up the steps, scanning for open seats, the scent of popcorn and hot dogs thick in the air. It’s different from the last time you were at a game. Not indoors, not under the blinding arena lights. The energy is looser, more relaxed, fans chatting easily, kids waving oversized foam fingers.
You take a breath, steadying yourself. It’s fine. It’s just a game. And you’re here with your boyfriend.
Eli finds seats near the middle, pulling you down beside him, arm draping lazily over your shoulders. You lean in, let yourself sink into the warmth of his body, let yourself pretend like this is all normal.
On the court, the team is warming up. Players jog across the pavement, stretching, shaking out their limbs. Your gaze drifts over them, detached, unfocused, not looking for anything in particular—
And then—her.
It shouldn’t feel like a fucking collision, but it does.
Your breath catches, body locking up as if it knew before your brain did. As if some deep, unshakable instinct recognized her presence before you could stop it. Paige jogs across the court, her shorts hanging loose around her thighs, her hoodie still on, dribbling lazily like she doesn’t have a single care in the world. Like she’s untouchable.
Your chest tightens. She still looks the same. Still is the same. And yet—something’s different. Maybe it’s the way she seems even more unreachable now, like she exists in a space just beyond your grasp.
You exhale sharply, force your gaze away.
You’re here with Eli.
You’re fine.
This means nothing.
Eli nudges you. “You good?”
You blink, nodding too quickly. “Yeah. Just thinking.”
He smiles, presses a kiss to the side of your head. “Get ready. She’s gonna put on a show.”
You force a laugh.
And when you chance another glance at the court—Paige is already looking at you.
But this time, she reacts.
Just slightly. Just enough.
A shift in her eyes. A flicker of something.
And then—she smiles.
Not big. Not obvious. Just the barest curve of her lips, like she knows. Like she sees you sitting there, tucked under Eli’s arm, playing house, pretending like you’ve moved on. And for the first time in months, you know—
She hasn’t forgotten you at all.
You don’t watch the game. Not really.
You hear it—the sharp squeak of sneakers against pavement, the shrill whistle of fouls, the deafening roar of the crowd when UConn scores. You see it—the blur of white and navy jerseys cutting across the court.
But your focus is off.
Because all you can feel is the weight of her presence.
And the fact that she knows you’re here.
It fucks with you.
Because it had been easy to believe she forgot. That she let it go, left you in the past, moved on like you were nothing. But now—now she’s looking at you between plays. Not constantly. Not obviously. Just enough.
A glance while she’s standing at the free-throw line, hands on her hips, chest rising and falling. A flicker of her eyes when she jogs back on defense, scanning the crowd, skimming right past Eli like he doesn’t even exist.
And that fucking smirk when she sinks a three-pointer, lets it hang in the air for just a second before she turns, wiping the sweat off her brow with the hem of her jersey.
It’s deliberate. Calculated.
And it’s working.
Heat curls up your spine, a suffocating mix of frustration and something you won’t name. Your arms lock tight across your stomach, fingers curled into your sleeves. Beside you, Eli cheers, completely oblivious.
You wish you could be.
You wish you could tune her out. Pretend she’s just another player on the court. Pretend she doesn’t get under your skin.
But she’s in your head again. She won’t leave.
And worse—she knows it.
The game stretches on, endless. Every second is another reminder that she’s still there. That she’s not just some passing thought, some unfinished mistake. She’s real. She’s here. And she’s still in this fucking thing with you, even if neither of you are saying it out loud.
By the time the final buzzer sounds, you feel like you’ve been through a war.
Eli’s arm tightens around your shoulders, shaking you lightly. “See? Told you she’d put on a show.”
You nod, force a tight smile, but your chest feels hollow, your stomach twisted into something you don’t know how to untangle.
Because the game might be over—
But this?
This is just getting started.
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The crowd filters out in waves, a slow, steady stream of bodies stretching stiff limbs, shaking off the lingering chill, still thrumming with energy from the win. Eli stands, his hand warm around yours as he pulls you up with him, his voice easy, unbothered, spilling into the space between you with post-game analysis—stats, highlights, a play he wants to rewatch later.
You nod when you’re supposed to, hum responses that sound just engaged enough, but none of it sticks. Your mind is elsewhere.
Because she’s still here.
Not with the team. Not caught up in post-game celebrations or media duties. No cameras, no noise, no excuses. Just lingering.
Sweat still clings to the curve of her neck, damp strands of blonde hair curling against her skin. Her hoodie is pulled over her head, water bottle hanging loose from her fingers, body relaxed like she has nowhere to be. But she’s not just standing there.
She’s watching.
Not outright. Not obvious. Just enough.
And Eli? He doesn’t notice.
Because why would he? He’s here with his girlfriend, celebrating a win, caught up in the moment, assuming she’s just watching the team clear out, thinking nothing of it.
You, on the other hand—
You can’t fucking breathe.
Every nerve is stretched too tight, buzzing under your skin, prickling like static, like she’s marking you without even touching you. Like she’s still fucking with you, seeing how much space she can take up in your head before you break.
And the worst part?
She looks fine.
Completely untouched. Unshaken. Not like she’s been thinking about you. Not like this has cost her anything.
And that—that is what undoes you.
Because this was supposed to be over.
You were supposed to be fine.
But here you are. Crumbling.
Eli tugs on your sleeve, easy, unaware. “Come on, let’s head out before traffic gets bad.”
You blink, drag yourself back into the present, nodding too quickly. “Yeah. Yeah, let’s go.”
One step.
Then two.
And then—
You don’t mean to look.
But you do.
Just for a second.
And she’s still there.
And she smiles.
Not big. Not obvious. Just that same, slow, knowing curve of her lips.
Like she sees right through you.
Like she knows you’re unraveling.
Like she’s won.
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It’s three days after the game when the email comes in.
You don’t think much of it at first, just another facilities request forwarded to you through the engineering department—something about a faulty vent system in the women’s basketball locker room. Nothing urgent, nothing particularly exciting, just another task to check off your list between classes and whatever project is currently draining your soul. You’re barely skimming the details as you type out a confirmation reply, promising to stop by that afternoon, when it hits you.
Women’s basketball locker room.
Your stomach tightens.
For a second, you debate forwarding it off to someone else. Someone more qualified, someone with less history hanging in that space. But that’s fucking ridiculous, isn’t it? It’s been three months. Three months since the laundry room, since she pretended you didn’t exist, since you started playing house with Eli like it was supposed to fix everything. Three months of routine, of pretending you don’t track her name through game highlights and Twitter clips, of pretending you don’t feel her presence like a ghost in the back of your head.
You should be fine.
This shouldn’t be a thing.
It’s a fucking vent. You’re going to walk in, tighten some screws, maybe clean out a filter, and walk right back out. No big deal.
And yet, as you step into the building later that afternoon, tool bag slung over your shoulder, the cold press of the metal door handle beneath your palm, you feel something coil tight in your chest, something uneasy and electric, something that tells you this won’t be as easy as you want it to be.
The locker room is quiet when you step inside, the kind of silence that feels thick, like it’s waiting to be broken. The scent of sweat and body wash lingers in the air, fresh from practice, steam still clinging faintly from the showers in the back. Rows of lockers stretch across the room, some still open, jerseys draped lazily over the benches, sneakers kicked off in pairs on the floor.
You exhale slowly, adjusting the strap of your bag as you move toward the vent panel along the far wall. The faster you do this, the faster you can leave. You crouch, fingers working quickly to loosen the first few screws, trying to focus on the movement, the mechanics, anything but the slight tremble in your hands, anything but—
“Didn’t think I’d see you in here.”
The voice is unmistakable.
That low, casual drawl, edged in something sharper, something teasing, something that shouldn’t still make your breath catch the way it does.
You don’t turn immediately.
You keep working, keep your gaze locked on the vent, pretend like your pulse hasn’t just doubled. “Just fixing a maintenance issue,” you say, voice as even as you can manage. “Won’t be here long.”
There’s a pause, a shift of movement, the unmistakable sound of sneakers against tile. She’s coming closer.
“Shame,” Paige murmurs, and fuck, you feel it.
The weight of her gaze. The presence of her body somewhere behind you, close enough to make the air feel different, charged, suffocating.
You grip the screwdriver tighter.
She shouldn’t be here. Not now, not after all this time, not when you’ve spent months convincing yourself she doesn’t matter.
But she is.
And she’s talking to you.
You swallow, working another screw loose, forcing yourself to focus. “Shouldn’t you be at practice?”
She hums, and you hear the smile in it before you see it. “Finished early.” A pause, and then, “Didn’t know you were doing this kind of work.”
Your jaw tightens.
Of course, she didn’t. Because you don’t exist in her world anymore, do you? Not unless she decides you do.
You finally turn, slowly, pushing up from your crouch, letting yourself look at her.
And fuck, that was a mistake.
Because she looks good, better than you remember, the months of training and travel and games only sharpening her in ways that make your stomach twist. She’s standing there in sweatpants and a UConn tee, hair damp from a post-practice shower, arms crossed over her chest, watching you like she’s curious, like she’s interested, like she hasn’t spent three months pretending you were just another passing face in the crowd.
And it pisses you off.
You force a shrug, tilting your head slightly. “Didn’t know you cared what I was doing.”
Her smirk twitches. Just barely. Just enough.
“Didn’t say I did,” she replies smoothly, but the way she’s watching you says otherwise.
There it is.
The push and pull. The old game slipping back into place like it never left, like three months of avoidance didn’t mean shit.
And you should walk away. You should finish the job and leave, act like you don’t feel this, act like she’s just another person in another room.
But you don’t.
Because something deep in you, something bitter and unresolved and desperate, needs to know if this still means something.
So you take a step closer, watching the flicker in her eyes as you do.
“Then why are you standing here?” you ask, voice low, steady, challenging.
Paige doesn’t move. Doesn’t step back, doesn’t flinch, just holds your gaze, her mouth curving slightly, like she’s enjoying this, like she knows she’s getting to you.
“Maybe I’m just curious,” she says, tilting her head. “Been a while, hasn’t it?”
Three months.
Three months of silence. Three months of pretending. Three months of you thinking you were the only one who remembered, the only one who cared, the only one still feeling it.
And now?
Now she’s standing here, looking at you like she never forgot at all.
You don’t answer.
Because what is there to say? That, yeah, it’s been a while, and yet somehow it still feels like she never left your fucking head? That you’ve spent the past three months trying to scrub the memory of her hands off your skin, only to have them crawl back the second you laid eyes on her again? That seeing her at the game did something to you—something ugly, something desperate, something you don’t want to name?
No.
You won’t give her that.
So instead, you just lift a brow, forcing something casual onto your face, like her presence isn’t making your chest feel too tight. “Yeah. Guess it has.”
Paige watches you for a second longer, and you can see it happening—her weighing the moment, deciding how she wants to play this. Because that’s what she does, isn’t it? She plays. Gives you something, just a taste, just enough to make your stomach flip, before she rips it away.
And you should know better by now.
You do know better.
But then she shifts, weight rolling back onto one foot, arms still folded, her mouth quirking into that slow, almost lazy smirk—the one that’s never meant nothing.
“So,” she says, tilting her head, “are you gonna keep ignoring me, or are we past that now?”
Your pulse stutters.
Your fingers tighten around the screwdriver in your hand.
You weren’t expecting that.
For her to just say it. To acknowledge it, to drag it into the light, the weight of your silence, the way you spent months dodging her like it might actually fix you.
You scoff, shaking your head, turning back to the vent, to anything that isn’t her mouth forming words that fuck you up. “I haven’t been ignoring you.”
It’s a lie.
Paige knows it’s a lie.
She steps closer—just enough that you can feel the shift of air between you, just enough that you catch the faint scent of her shampoo, something fresh, something clean, something too close.
“You sure?” she murmurs. “Because it kinda seemed like you were.”
Your teeth clench.
She’s doing it again.
The push and pull. The little tug, just enough to make you stumble, to throw you off balance, to remind you exactly who you’re dealing with.
You exhale slowly through your nose, focus on the screw you’re twisting into place, force your voice to stay neutral. “You seemed fine with it.”
There’s a pause. Just for a beat. Just long enough that you think maybe—maybe—you landed something.
Then—soft, amused—Paige says, “You think that?”
And it’s not fair.
The way she says it, the way it slides under your skin, the way it makes your chest squeeze, makes you feel fucking stupid for believing, even for a second, that maybe she really had forgotten you.
Your fingers tighten around the screwdriver.
She’s playing with you.
And the worst part?
You let her.
You don’t turn. Don’t face her. Don’t give her the satisfaction.
But your voice is quieter when you say, “Why do you even care?”
Another pause.
Then—
“Maybe I don’t.”
Your stomach drops.
It’s so fucking typical. Just when you think she’s giving you something, just when she pulls you an inch closer, she yanks it away.
You clench your jaw, inhale sharply, force yourself to stay still.
And then—because you refuse to let her win this—you huff a soft laugh, shaking your head. “Right. Of course.”
You finish tightening the last screw, closing the panel, standing up. You finally turn to her, tilting your head slightly, forcing something light onto your face, like you’re fine, like she isn’t doing what she always fucking does.
“Well,” you say, slipping the screwdriver back into your bag. “It’s been great catching up, but I have shit to do.”
You move to step past her.
But she shifts, blocking your path.
Not aggressively. Not obviously.
Just enough.
Just enough that you have to stop.
Just enough that you have to look at her.
Paige licks her lips, considering you, and her voice is quieter this time, almost thoughtful. “You don’t like when I do that, do you?”
Your stomach tightens.
You keep your face neutral. “Do what?”
She tilts her head slightly. “Give you something, then take it away.”
You swallow.
Because the fact that she’s saying it out loud—naming it, acknowledging it—makes your chest squeeze so hard it’s almost painful.
You force a shrug. “You do whatever you want, Paige.”
You step around her, adjusting the strap of your bag like the conversation hasn’t just sunk claws into your spine, like you aren’t already burning up from the inside out. You throw one last casual glance over your shoulder, just to make a point, just to show her this doesn’t fucking matter.
And then—
“Is he your boyfriend?”
It’s smooth, deliberate, cutting through the silence with the ease of a well-placed knife.
Your body goes rigid.
Not enough to be noticeable. Not enough to give her the satisfaction. But she notices.
You school your face into something neutral before turning back to her. “Yeah.”
The second the word leaves your mouth, Paige scoffs. Then—slow, quiet, like she’s really thinking about it—she laughs.
It’s not loud. It’s not obvious. But it hits.
It slides under your skin, needles into your chest, presses against something raw and unsettled.
You know exactly what she’s laughing at.
Not at Eli, not really.
She’s laughing at you.
At the fact that you’re standing here, pretending like that word doesn’t feel foreign in your mouth, like it doesn’t taste like something you don’t quite believe.
At the fact that you’ve spent months throwing yourself into a version of reality where he is the answer.
At the fact that she knows—she fucking knows—that if he really was, you wouldn’t be here.
Your throat tightens.
You square your shoulders. “Something funny?”
Paige shakes her head, smirk barely there, but sharp. “Nah.” A pause, her gaze flicking over you like she’s amused, like she’s bored. “Just wasn’t expecting that.”
Your fingers curl around the strap of your bag, tight enough to sting.
She tilts her head slightly. “Does he know you’re here?”
You force your jaw not to clench. “Why would it matter?”
Paige hums, the sound lazy, almost dismissive. “It wouldn’t.”
You don’t know why that lands deeper than it should, why it hits like something solid in your chest.
She doesn’t fucking care.
You exhale sharply, roll your shoulders, force yourself to act like you don’t feel like she just pressed a finger right against something bruised inside you.
“Well,” you say, tone light, detached, like this whole conversation hasn’t just put a fucking stone in your stomach, “great catching up.”
And this time, when you walk out—when you force your feet to move, when you push through the door into the cooler hallway air—you don’t look back.
You don’t have to.
Because you can still feel her there.
Still hear the low echo of her laugh.
Still fucking feel her.
And you hate that it still makes your chest tighten.
The locker room door swings shut behind you, but the conversation doesn’t leave with it.
It sticks.
It clings to your skin, coils in your stomach, presses into your ribs like something sharp and unshakable.
You walk down the hallway fast, like you can outrun the weight of her laugh in your ears, like you can erase the way she looked at you when she said that’s your boyfriend?—like the words weren’t just words, like they were something else, something heavier, something soaked in disbelief and mockery.
You should be over her by now.
But then why does your skin still burn? Why does your pulse still hammer against the inside of your wrist? Why does the way she said it—casual, unbothered, like it didn’t even fucking matter—make something in you want to break?
The night stretches out after that, long and restless. You try to study, but you can’t focus. You try to sleep, but every time you close your eyes, she’s there. Her smirk. Her scoff. The way she laughed like you were a joke. Like he was a joke.
You spend the next week avoiding places where you might run into her, avoiding anywhere that makes you feel like a live wire, avoiding thinking about her—
And it works.
Until it doesn’t.
Because the thing about Paige Bueckers is that she has a way of creeping back in, of making herself known, of pulling you back into her orbit whether you want to be there or not.
It happens at another party.
A packed house, music pulsing through the walls, the kind of night where people are drinking like they’re trying to forget something, where everything feels just a little too loud, a little too bright, a little too much.
You’re standing in the kitchen, fingers curled around a red cup, Eli close behind you, talking to someone you don’t know. His hand is warm where it rests on your hip, an absentminded touch, a casual claim.
It’s fine.
You’re fine.
Until you’re not.
Until your eyes flicker past the crowd, past the shifting bodies and pulsing bass, past the open doorway—
And land right on her.
Paige is in the next room, leaning against the wall, head tilted, that lazy, practiced ease draped over her like armor. She’s watching something—someone. A girl. Pretty. Brunette. Standing too close, laughter spilling past glossy lips as she hangs on whatever Paige just said.
Paige isn’t even touching her. Doesn’t need to. Just standing there, looking, smirking, waiting. And the worst part? You know exactly what she’s doing.
Like she could have her if she wanted.
Like it’s not even a fucking question.
Your stomach knots, tight and hot. Not with jealousy—no, it’s worse than that. It’s recognition.
Because you know what it’s like to be on the other side of that look.
You know what it’s like to be wanted by her.
The ghost of it slams into you like a fist to the ribs—how it felt to have those eyes locked on you, sharp and knowing, pinning you down like a game she was already winning. How it felt when she had you right there and she knew it.
Your grip tightens around your cup, fingers digging in like it’s the only thing holding you together. Your breath stutters, the air too thick, the room suddenly too small.
She hasn’t seen you yet.
She’s too caught up in her game, too wrapped up in not caring.
So you do the same.
You force yourself to turn back to Eli, to play your part. You smile, lean into his touch, let him press his lips to your temple like it’s easy, like it’s nothing. Like it means something.
And maybe it works.
Maybe it doesn’t.
Because when you chance another glance—just for a second—
Paige is already looking at you.
And this time—
She smirks.
Slow. Deliberate. Like she’s been waiting for you to look. Like she knows exactly what she’s doing. Like she knows exactly how much space she still takes up in your fucking head.
And that’s when you snap.
You don’t think.
You move.
Your cup clatters onto the counter, liquid sloshing over the rim, but you don’t care. You slip out of Eli’s reach, push through the crowd—away, anywhere, somewhere with air that doesn’t taste like her.
Your pulse is a riot, hammering against your ribs, deafening in your ears as you shove past people pressed against walls, past laughter and voices swallowed by the music, past the tight, choking heat in your chest.
Your hands are shaking. Your breath is uneven. You need a second.
Just one fucking second to breathe—
And then—
A door swings open, and suddenly—
She’s right there.
Paige.
Still smirking.
Still looking like she has all the time in the world.
Still making your stomach feel like it’s caving in on itself.
Your chest rises and falls too fast, heat crawling up your neck, pooling low in your stomach, everywhere.
She leans against the doorway, casual as ever, the light behind her casting long shadows over the sharp angles of her face. She looks obnoxiously good, like she knows exactly how lethal she is.
She tilts her head. “What’s wrong?” she murmurs, voice low, teasing, like she already knows the answer.
And fuck her.
Fuck her for this.
For knowing you this well.
For still knowing you this well.
You shove past her, shoulder knocking against hers, but she moves at the last second, stepping just enough to block you—
And then—her hand.
Fingers curling around your wrist. Not hard. Not pulling. Just there.
You suck in a sharp breath.
She’s not holding you here. Not keeping you against your will.
But she doesn’t let go.
And neither do you.
The air between you crackles, thick, heavy, dangerous. The weight of something unsaid presses into your ribs, clinging to your skin, wrapping around you like a fucking chokehold.
Paige watches you.
And this time—
She doesn’t laugh.
She doesn’t smirk.
She waits.
And maybe—just maybe—
This time, you’re the one who moves first.
The space between you is electric, charged, something twisting tight in your chest like a live wire ready to snap. The hallway is dim, shadows stretching long against the walls, muffling the noise of the party outside, trapping you in this thing you’ve been running from for months.
Paige’s fingers are still around your wrist, not tight, not forcing—just there, anchoring you, keeping you from bolting like you probably should. Her eyes flicker over your face, searching, waiting, and fuck, you hate how easily she does this, how effortlessly she pulls you back into her gravity like you were never gone at all.
Your breath is uneven. Your pulse is pounding in your throat, but your voice is steady when you say, “What game are you playing at?”
She blinks, just once, slow and measured. Then the corner of her mouth curves, something smug, something dangerous. “Don’t you have a boyfriend?”
Your stomach drops, rage curling up into your throat so fast it makes your vision go sharp.
You shove her.
Harder than you should, more than just frustration, more than just anger. It’s months of this—of her pushing, pulling, giving you something and then acting like it never fucking happened. It’s her laugh in the locker room, her smirk at the game, the way she looked at you through the crowd like she was daring you to react, to feel. It’s all of it—the way she still owns you and acts like she doesn’t even care.
Paige stumbles back a step, but her hand never leaves you.
Instead, she grabs your other arm, fingers tight around your biceps, steadying herself, steadying you. Her grip is firm, strong, the heat of her palms burning through your sleeves.
Her smirk is gone.
And when she speaks again, her voice is different. Lower. Rougher.
“I’m not playing at a game.”
Your breath catches.
Because it’s not cocky. It’s not teasing. It’s real.
Her hands flex slightly on your arms, like she’s bracing herself, like she needs you to hear this.
And you do.
It sinks under your skin, gets lodged somewhere between your ribs, breaks something open inside of you that you’ve been trying to keep sealed shut.
Your heart is hammering. Your whole body is buzzing, tight, waiting.
Paige is still holding you.
And she’s so fucking close.
You can feel her breath against your lips, can see the flicker in her eyes, the way her chest is rising and falling just as fast as yours.
You don’t know who moves first.
Maybe it’s her. Maybe it’s you. Maybe it’s both of you at the same fucking time, colliding like you were never meant to be anything but this.
Your mouths crash together, hot and desperate, months of tension unraveling all at once, burning through every nerve in your body.
Paige exhales sharply against you, hands tightening around your arms before sliding up, up, framing your face, pulling you deeper into it, like she’s afraid you might disappear again.
You fist the fabric of her hoodie, dragging her into you, needing her closer, needing more.
Her body presses against yours, her lips insistent, rough, a little reckless, like she’s been waiting for this just as long as you have.
The hallway feels too small, the walls too close, your hands too desperate where they roam—her waist, her shoulders, the sharp edge of her jaw.
Paige groans softly against your mouth, and it wrecks you.
It fucking destroys you.
Because it’s real.
Because she wants this.
Because for the first time, she’s not taking it away.
You don’t stop.
Neither does she.
It’s all heat, all breath, all want. Paige’s mouth is rough, greedy, like she’s making up for every second you’ve spent apart, every time she pretended she didn’t see you, every time she smirked at you like this was just a game. Her hands are everywhere—your waist, your back, gripping the fabric of your shirt like she’d die if she let go.
You’re no better.
Your fingers fist in her hoodie, tugging her closer, dragging her against you, needing her body against yours, needing her to feel what she’s doing to you. The hallway barely exists anymore—the party, the noise, Eli—none of it fucking matters. Just her. Just her mouth, her hands, the way she kisses you like she’s starving for it.
Then, between kisses, between desperate little gasps, she murmurs it.
“I need you, baby.”
It wrecks you.
Fucking destroys you.
The word slips out easy, unthinking, raw. Not teasing, not smug, not calculated. Just real.
Your breath catches.
Paige must feel the way your body reacts, the way your nails dig into her arms, the way your hips press forward into hers, because she groans against your mouth and drags her teeth over your bottom lip.
You’re moving before you can think.
Paige is pushing you, guiding you back, back, until your shoulder blades hit a door, until she’s fumbling with the handle, barely breaking the kiss long enough to shove it open.
The room is dark, empty. Some random spare bedroom, barely furnished, barely even fucking registered because the second the door slams shut, Paige is on you again.
Her hands slide under your shirt, rough palms dragging up your ribs, fingertips pressing hard, desperate. Your breath is uneven, your body thrumming with something electric, something you can’t stop, something you don’t want to stop.
You don’t think.
You don’t need to think.
You just pull her hoodie up over her head, fingers tangling in the fabric for a second before it’s gone, discarded somewhere on the floor. Paige exhales sharply as you press into her, as your mouth moves against her jaw, down her throat, tasting, taking.
Her fingers slip into your hair, tugging just enough to make you feel it, enough to make you moan against her skin.
“Fuck,” she mutters, voice rough, breathless, like she’s unraveling, like you’re doing this to her.
You are.
And she fucking loves it.
Her hands move lower, sliding over your hips, gripping tight, like she’s anchoring herself, like she can’t stop touching you, like she’s making sure you’re real.
You kiss her again, harder, messier, pushing her back until her legs hit the edge of the bed, until you’re both toppling onto it, tangled together, all mouths and hands and heat.
Paige knows she’s winning.
You can see it in her eyes, the slow drag of them over your body, the way she takes her time, drinking in every reaction like she’s cataloging them, memorizing what makes you shiver, what makes you squirm, what makes your breath hitch in your throat.
She still likes the game.
She still likes to play.
But this time, she isn’t letting you pull away.
This time, she’s going to take everything.
Her fingers skim over your stomach, slow, teasing, just enough to make you feel it but not enough to satisfy anything. Her mouth follows, lips pressing soft, lingering kisses down, down, down, like she has all the time in the world.
Your head tilts back against the pillows, eyes fluttering shut, but then she stops.
She stops completely.
The heat of her, the weight of her, everything—just gone.
Your eyes snap open, and she’s just looking at you, smug, comfortable, settled between your legs like she owns this moment, like she knows she has you right where she wants you.
Her fingers trail up your thigh, featherlight, barely there.
“You want this?”
Your stomach clenches.
She knows the answer.
She fucking knows.
You glare at her, shifting under her touch, frustrated, dizzy, so strung out you can barely think. “Paige—”
She smiles. Slow. Wicked.
And then, just as easily, “Say it.”
Your breath shudders out of you.
Because this?
This is her game.
She wants to hear you admit it. She wants to make you admit it.
She wants you to lose.
Your fingers dig into the sheets, your pulse a steady riot in your throat, in your wrists, between your legs where she still hasn’t fucking touched you.
But you can’t play this game forever.
Not when she already owns you.
Not when she already knows.
Your voice is thin when you say it.
“I want you.”
And the second the words leave your mouth—
She moves.
Paige grins, low and satisfied, and then she finally stops playing.
She knows she has you, like she’s been waiting for this moment, dragging it out, savoring every second of watching you come undone beneath her. She doesn’t rush. She doesn’t give you everything all at once. No, she takes her time, letting her fingers trace the curve of your hip, pressing light, teasing kisses down your stomach, exhaling slow like she’s enjoying this, like this is just as much for her as it is for you.
You’re burning alive.
Your breath is uneven, your hands twisting in the sheets, thighs already trembling with the anticipation of her next move. But she doesn’t move—not in the way you need her to.
Instead, she just looks at you.
From between your legs, eyes dark, lips parted, expression unreadable, like she’s still deciding how she wants to do this.
Your stomach clenches.
“Paige—”
She presses a kiss to the inside of your thigh, slow, deliberate, her nails digging in just slightly when she grips your hips, holding you in place.
“Shh, baby,” she murmurs, and fuck, there it is again.
That word.
Casual, unthinking, sliding out of her mouth like she doesn’t even realize she’s saying it. Like she means it.
You shudder.
Paige notices. Of course, she does.
Her smirk curves against your skin, and then—
She finally stops playing.
The first press of her mouth sends a raw, electric jolt through you, your hips jerking up on instinct, fingers clawing into her hair like you’ll die if you let go. But she’s already moving—already fucking dragging this out like she wants you begging, like she’s savoring every second of your desperation. Her tongue flickers, slow and teasing, pressing, stroking, curling, soaking you with her hunger, her need.
She moans against your cunt like she’s been fucking starving for it. Like she’s been waiting, aching, dreaming of this moment for weeks, and now that she’s got you open beneath her, there’s no way she’s letting you go easy.
She drags it out.
Like she wants to ruin you.
Like she wants to tear you apart and put you back together with her tongue.
Your nails scrape against her scalp, hard enough to hurt, but she only groans, only pushes deeper, her tongue slipping, flicking, thrusting into the dripping heat of you. You’re gasping now, thighs trembling, back arching, breath catching in desperate, broken moans you can’t even bite back. You can feel her smirk, the way she’s reveling in it, the way she’s enjoying every single fucking sound you make for her.
Her fingers press in, spreading you, holding you open, her tongue working, her lips sucking, teasing, devouring—like she’s trying to drink every last drop of you. The obscene, wet sounds of her mouth on you make you whimper, make you grind down against her, make you clutch her hair so tight she groans into your slick heat.
Your body is shaking.
Paige tightens her grip, keeps you there, keeps you spread for her, keeps you exactly where she wants you—helpless, ruined, fucking wrecked on her tongue.
And just when you think you can’t take it anymore—just when the pleasure coils so tight in your stomach it’s about to snap—she fucking speeds up.
And you’re gone.
You don’t know if you scream her name. You don’t know if you sob it. But the pleasure detonates inside you like a fucking bomb, ripping through your body, setting every nerve on fire, leaving you shaking, gasping, falling apart beneath her mouth.
When you finally come back down—breathless, wrecked, soaked and still trembling—Paige is looking up at you from between your legs, her lips swollen, her chin glistening, her eyes dark and wicked.
Paige’s brow quirks up and she wipes her mouth with the back of her hand, slow and deliberate, her eyes never leaving yours. You’re still gasping, still trembling, your body melted into the mattress, legs spread, thighs twitching from the aftershocks of what she just did to you. But she doesn’t move away. Doesn’t crawl up to lie beside you, doesn’t give you a second to catch your breath.
She licks her lips, smirks, and says, “I’m not done with you.”
And then she’s moving.
Crawling back up onto the bed, her body sliding over yours, her hands gripping your thighs, spreading you wider before she finally lets her weight press down. Her skin is hot, slick, her breath heavy and sweet, her thigh slotting between yours as she pins you there beneath her.
Then she grabs your tits.
No teasing, no hesitation—she palms them, squeezes, kneads, rolling the soft flesh in her hands like she owns you, like she’s claiming every inch of you all over again. Her thumbs flick over your nipples, once, twice, before she leans down and takes one into her mouth.
The heat of her tongue, the wet pull of her lips—it makes you cry out, makes you arch into her, makes your hands fly up to grip her head as she sucks, hard, her teeth scraping just enough to make your whole body jolt.
“Fuck,” you whimper, thighs clenching around her, but she just chuckles against your skin, her mouth latching onto your other nipple, her fingers tweaking and rolling the one she just left wet and swollen.
Then her hand moves up.
She grabs your chin, tilts your face up, and before you can even process it—
She shoves her fingers into your mouth.
Her fingers, still wet from you, slip past your lips, pressing against your tongue, forcing you to taste yourself as she pushes them deeper. Your lips part around them, your tongue curling against the salty-slick heat of her touch, a soft, helpless whimper slipping from your throat.
Paige groans at the sight, eyes dark, lips parted, her fingers flexing inside your mouth before she pulls them out—
And spits.
Right into your mouth.
A hot, wet drop onto your waiting tongue, mixing with your taste, with the slickness she just forced you to swallow.
“Swallow it,” she breathes, her voice thick, rough, her fingers trailing down your throat as you do exactly what she fucking tells you.
And then her hand is between your legs again, fingers slipping through your soaked, throbbing heat, pressing in, pushing deep—
Fucking you all over again.
Paige’s fingers drive deep, knuckles sinking into the wet heat of you, her palm grinding against your swollen clit as you gasp, as you choke on the pleasure, your body arching into her touch like you can’t help it. Like you’re made for this. Made for her.
"Fuck—yeah," she groans, watching you, watching the way your body reacts to her. "You feel that? Feel how fucking good I make you take it?"
Your breath stutters, your hips rolling down against her hand, your mouth falling open, nothing but desperate little whimpers spilling from your lips.
Paige smirks, dark and wicked, pressing in deeper, curling her fingers just right, just enough to have you fucking shaking. "Bet he never got you this wet, huh?" she taunts, her voice thick with heat, with possession. "Bet he never made you moan like this."
Your fingers clutch at her shoulders, nails digging in, your head tilting back against the pillows as she fucks into you, slow but deep, deliberate, like she’s making a point. Like she’s proving something.
"You wanna lie to me?" she murmurs, lips brushing your ear, her breath hot against your skin. "Wanna tell me he’s ever made you come like this? That he’s ever had you dripping down his fingers like a desperate little slut?"
You whimper, shaking your head, unable to speak, unable to do anything but take it.
"That’s what I thought," she breathes, grinning against your throat, her teeth scraping over your pulse before she drags her tongue along your skin. "That little boyfriend of yours wouldn’t know what to do with this pussy if it fucking begged him."
She pulls her fingers out, slow and teasing, leaving you empty, aching—only to shove them back in, hard, deep, her palm slapping against your soaked skin as you sob, as you fucking fall apart.
"He ever make you scream?" she growls, fucking you rougher, faster, her fingers pressing against that spot inside you that makes your whole body jolt. "He ever make you soak the sheets like this?"
Your back bows, pleasure slamming through you, your nails raking down her back.
"You’re fucking mine," Paige groans, her mouth on your jaw, your throat, her tongue tasting the sweat on your skin. "This pussy? It’s mine now. Say it."
You barely manage to breathe out the words—"It’s yours"—before she presses her palm against your clit, her fingers curling just right, and you break.
Pleasure rips through you, white-hot and shattering, your whole body shaking, your vision going hazy as you come, as Paige fucks you through it, as she watches you, revels in it, grins like she just fucking ruined you.
And she did.
She fucking did.
——-
You wake slowly, the kind of slow that doesn’t feel like rest. The kind that feels like being pulled from something deep and heavy, like your body’s been wrung out and put back together all wrong. The sheets are soft, warm, unfamiliar, and there’s a weight draped over your hip—solid, steady, too much. Your breath stutters before your brain even catches up.
Paige.
She’s there.
Heat ghosts against the back of your neck, steady and unhurried, the rhythm of her breathing lulling, like sleep still has a hold on her. Her arm is slung around your waist, fingers curled lazily against your stomach, like she belongs there. Like she’s never left before.
And that—that is what makes your chest tighten.
Because this isn’t just some drunken mistake. This isn’t heat or tension or something you can chalk up to unresolved bullshit. This is her in your space, in your bed, in the quiet after. And she’s never stayed before.
Your pulse kicks up, your fingers twitch against the sheets. Last night slams into you all at once—the scrape of her teeth, the press of her hands, the way she looked at you, like she was done playing. Like she wasn’t giving you a choice anymore.
Your stomach clenches.
You don’t know what to do with this.
With her.
So you move, slow, careful, trying not to wake her as you shift out from under her arm. But the second you pull away, Paige stirs, her breath hitching, her grip tightening for just a fraction of a second before her eyes flutter open.
She blinks at you, still groggy, still soft, and for one, dangerous moment, she doesn’t say anything.
She just looks at you.
And you can’t breathe.
Then, just as quickly as it came, the softness vanishes.
Paige stretches, rolls onto her back, runs a hand through her hair, like she does this all the time, like she’s just woken up from any other night, not this one.
“Morning,” she mutters, voice rough with sleep.
You swallow, force yourself to move, force yourself to sit up and swing your legs off the bed. You don’t look at her.
“Yeah,” you say, clearing your throat. “Morning.”
You feel her watching you.
Feel her waiting.
For what, you don’t know.
But when you stand, reaching for your clothes, Paige finally speaks again.
“You leaving?”
Your fingers curl into the fabric of your shirt.
You could stay. You could let this morning linger, let whatever this is stretch out just a little longer.
But the longer you stay, the harder it’ll be to pretend like this isn’t something.
So you nod, still not looking at her. “Yeah.”
Paige exhales through her nose, shifts behind you, and you expect her to let it go, to brush it off like she always does.
Instead—
“You gonna tell him?”
Your stomach drops.
You don’t need to ask who she means.
Eli.
The name rings in your head like a warning, like something cold and sharp, and you hate that she’s the one who brought it up, that she’s the one forcing you to look at it when you were this close to just leaving without dealing with the weight of it.
You squeeze your eyes shut for half a second before turning to face her.
Paige is propped up on one elbow now, watching you with something unreadable in her expression, like she’s testing you, like she’s seeing if you’ll break first.
You lick your lips, pulse hammering. “That’s none of your business.”
Paige’s lips twitch, and for a second, you think she’s going to let it go.
But then—
She scoffs. Shakes her head. Leans back against the headboard with a lazy, almost bored kind of smirk.
“Right. Forgot you’re still playing house with him.”
Your whole body goes rigid.
She’s doing it again.
Tugging at you, pushing you, seeing what you’ll do.
Your jaw clenches, fingers fisting into the hem of your shirt. “I’m not playing anything.”
Paige hums, unconvinced. “Sure. Whatever helps you sleep at night.”
Something inside you snaps.
Because how dare she?
How dare she act like you’re the one playing games when she’s the one who ignored you for three months? When she’s the one who smirked at you across a fucking stadium like she knew she had you? When she’s the one who—
You exhale sharply, shaking your head, forcing yourself to breathe.
This is exactly what she wants.
So you don’t give it to her.
You pull your shirt over your head, reach for your shoes, straighten up.
Then, voice even, you say, “This didn’t mean anything, right?”
It’s a test.
You can see the flicker in her eyes, the quick way her throat bobs as she swallows.
But it’s gone in an instant.
Paige shrugs, casual, careless, like she’s already over it.
“Right,” she echoes. “Just a good time.”
Your chest tightens.
You don’t know what answer you wanted, but that—
That wasn’t it.
You nod once, sharp, then turn for the door.
And this time, you don’t fucking stop.
The door slams behind you, the force of it rattling down your spine, but you don’t stop moving.
You storm down the hallway, your breath sharp, hands curled into fists, every nerve in your body buzzing like a live wire. You don’t let yourself think. Thinking would mean feeling, and you can’t—won’t—give her that.
Not after what she just said.
Not after this didn’t mean anything, right?
Not after she agreed with you.
Just a good time.
That’s all it was. That’s all she wants.
You push through the front door, stepping into the cold air outside, your breath coming fast, too shallow, like you just ran ten miles. You shove your hands into the front pocket of your hoodie, fingers curling against the fabric, trying to ground yourself, trying to—
Your phone rings.
Or at least, you think it’s your phone.
The vibration against your palm jolts you, and you pull it out, ready to decline the call, ready to shut the entire fucking world out.
But then—
You see the name.
Taylor.
Your breath catches.
Your chest tightens.
The cold bites at your skin, but suddenly, it’s like everything else stops.
Because this isn’t your phone.
This isn’t your hoodie.
You look down at yourself, the oversized sleeves, the familiar weight of the fabric, the scent clinging to it—her scent.
Paige’s hoodie.
Paige’s fucking phone.
And Taylor is calling.
Your stomach lurches.
Right back where you started.
The phone keeps ringing, vibrating steadily in your hand, demanding something from you that you can’t give.
You stare at the screen, at the name that shouldn’t be your problem, at the proof of what Paige just walked away from.
And something inside you snaps.
You spin on your heel, shoving back through the front door, retracing your steps, moving fast, fueled by something you don’t even have a name for.
You don’t knock.
You don’t hesitate.
You shove the door open, expecting her to be there, expecting her to still be sitting on that bed with her legs spread and that fucking look on her face, smug and satisfied and untouchable.
But she’s gone.
Just fucking gone.
Like she was never here at all.
The phone stops ringing.
Silence.
You stand there, chest heaving, hoodie too big on you, your fingers still curled around a phone that doesn’t belong to you.
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The phone is still warm in your hand.
It shouldn’t matter. It’s just a piece of plastic, just a screen with a name that shouldn’t be your problem. But it is. The weight of it presses against your palm, solid and damning, the name Taylor burned into your retinas, a fucking mockery of everything that just happened.
Paige left.
Vanished like this was nothing, like she didn’t just dig her fingers into you and pull you under, like she didn’t just whisper your name against your skin, like she didn’t just look you in the eye and say just a good time before slipping away like a fucking ghost.
Like she didn’t just ruin you.
And if she thinks she gets to walk away from this untouched—
She’s wrong.
Your feet move before your brain even catches up, before you can think about how reckless this is, before you can stop yourself from doing exactly what she wants. Because you already know where she is.
Where she always is.
The athletic facility is quieter than usual this late at night, the halls dimly lit, silent except for the distant hum of vending machines and the soft squeak of your shoes against the polished floors. But the second you push through the doors to the locker room—
The silence shatters.
Laughter.
Voices overlapping, casual, easy, still thrumming from practice, still buzzing with energy. The kind of normalcy that makes your blood boil, because your world is fucking spinning and yet—
She’s here.
Paige is here.
Leaning against the lockers, towel draped around her neck, a lazy grin curling at her lips as she listens to something one of the girls is saying. Loose. Relaxed. Unbothered.
Like she didn’t just leave you standing in the wreckage she made.
Heat slams into your ribs, a pulse of something violent and ugly crackling under your skin. Your fingers tighten around the phone, nails digging in, breath sharp and unsteady. And before you even fully register what you’re doing—
You move.
The door swings shut behind you with a slam, the force of it cutting through the noise, making heads turn, making conversation die mid-sentence.
Paige doesn’t move.
Doesn’t flinch.
But her shoulders go rigid for half a second before she shifts—casual, calm, fucking unhurried.
Like she already knows it’s you.
Like she felt you coming before she even looked.
And when she finally does—
The smirk is already forming.
Already settling into place like armor. Like a mask. Like she thinks she still has control of this.
But she doesn’t.
You stop in front of her, too close, way too close, enough to make the other girls shift where they stand, enough to make the laughter fully die out, enough to make the air feel thick.
Paige stays leaned against the lockers, pretending, but her eyes flicker over you, sharp and calculating.
Assessing.
Waiting.
So you don’t make her wait long.
You lift the phone, hold it up between you. Let her see it. Let her know why you’re here.
And then—voice low, rough, barely steady under the weight of your fucking anger—
“You think you can just fuck me and play me while your girlfriend still calls?”
The reaction is instant.
The shift in the room is immediate.
Someone swears under their breath. One of the girls lets out a quiet oh, shit. Another shifts awkwardly, eyes darting between you and Paige like they just walked into a fucking war zone.
But you don’t look at any of them.
You only see her.
And Paige—
For the first time, she doesn’t have a comeback.
Her lips part slightly. Her throat bobs as she swallows. Her fingers twitch just slightly around the towel slung over her shoulder.
It’s subtle.
Barely there.
But you see it.
The hesitation.
The way she’s trying to catch up to you, trying to find the right move, trying to figure out how to pull back control.
But there isn’t one.
Because this time, you’re the one leading.
This time, she’s the one who doesn’t know what to say.
The silence stretches, thick and suffocating, pressing into your ribs, into your throat, into her.
Then—slowly—Paige exhales through her nose, shifts against the lockers, expression smoothing into something blank, something unreadable.
She tilts her head slightly, eyes flickering over your face, voice deceptively soft when she says—
“You done?”
Your stomach twists.
Not with pain. Not with embarrassment.
With rage.
Because she isn’t sorry.
She isn’t guilty.
She’s just pissed that you called her out in front of them.
Your grip tightens around the phone, your pulse hammering in your ears, and for a second, you think about throwing it at her.
Then, just as quickly, you step forward—lean in close, so only she can hear—
And whisper, voice like a knife—
“You’re a fucking coward.”
Paige’s jaw locks.
Her whole body tenses.
And that—
That’s how you know you landed a hit.
You hold her gaze a second longer, long enough to make sure she felt it, long enough to see the way her breath catches, the way her fingers twitch, the way she’s fighting to stay still.
Then—
Without waiting for a response—
You shove the phone against her chest.
She catches it automatically, fingers closing around it, but she doesn’t look down.
She just looks at you.
Expression unreadable.
Eyes sharp, dark, burning.
You should look away first.
You should be the one to turn and walk out.
But you don’t.
You hold her gaze.
Daring her.
Challenging her.
Waiting.
For what, you don’t fucking know.
But you can feel it.
Feel something shifting, feel something breaking, feel something coming.
And for the first time—
You think Paige might feel it, too.
But then—
She swallows.
Nods once.
Slips the phone into her pocket like it doesn’t matter.
Then—voice low, smooth, too fucking even—
She says, “See you around.”
Like this was nothing.
Like she didn’t just lose.
Like she’s already planning how to fucking win.
This is war.
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Event Horizon
Chapter Twenty-Seven: Push and Pull
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Chapter Tags/Warnings: a little emotional but it's like 2/10 sadness, war stuff
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Bothawui, 21 BBY
You've been on Bothawui for four days. Four days. And you're already ready to leave. 
The planet's surface is cold and dreary, the atmosphere thick and suffocating, and the rain — which has been pouring down without stopping since the moment you arrived — is not helping the mood one bit. The once pristine white of your robes and the clones' armor is now streaked with mud and grime, and your boots are so soaked they squeak every time you take a step. Which, at this point, is almost constantly. 
You've spent the last several hours running back and forth across the battlefield, doing everything in your power to keep the troops alive, and it's beginning to take a toll on both your patience and temper, the stress and frustration mounting with each passing second. Your muscles ache, your joints are stiff, and you're starting to see spots whenever you close your eyes. But the Separatists are relentless, and they just. Keep. Coming.
You've tried to focus. To stay calm. To keep a level head. But the chaos around you makes that difficult. It's all you can do to keep yourself from losing control. To keep the frustration from overwhelming you. To keep the dark thoughts at bay.
To be fair, it hasn't been a particularly great week.
The battle started off relatively well. Your team arrived a day earlier than scheduled, and the Republic forces managed to secure a large swath of territory. But as always the Separatists quickly launched a counter-attack, and within a matter of hours, the two sides were engaged in a vicious battle.
At first, you'd been optimistic. The troops were in high spirits, and morale was strong. But as the fighting dragged on, the men began to tire. Even with their advanced constitution, days of endless battle were taking its toll on them, and it only made you want to fight harder. You were determined not to let them fall, not to let the enemy claim their lives, but you knew the battle wouldn't last much longer.
In an attempt to boost the men's morale, you'd rallied the troops, and you'd led the charge, the clones following closely behind. You'd managed to cut a path through the droid army, carving a swath of destruction through the ranks, and the clones had taken advantage, sweeping in behind and cleaning up the remains. Four AATs, three dwarf spider droids, and a dozen super battle droids later, things were finally looking up.
You've just disabled a fifth AAT, your lightsaber slicing through the metal like butter, and the droids inside are screaming as the interior catches fire. The resulting explosion as you leap away sends a wave of heat and fire across the battlefield, and the droids in the vicinity scramble to escape the blast, but are quickly shot down by the clones around you.
By the time the smoke has cleared, both you and the troops were breathing heavily, covered in soot and ash and debris. Your lungs burn, and the air tastes of burning metal and oil. You cough, wiping the sweat from your forehead, and you look around, taking stock of the situation.
And that's when it happens.
A blaster bolt hits the ground a few inches from your foot. You jump back, the adrenaline coursing through you, and when you turn, you see a pair of super battle droids ambling towards you. There's a group of troopers nearby, but they're too busy fighting to notice, and when the closest droid aims his blaster at one of their backs, your fraying patience finally snaps.
You grit your teeth and throw your hand out, the Force gathering in your palm and shooting forward in a wave of pure energy. There's no light, no sound beyond the roar of the rain, but the effect is immediate. The droids are thrown backwards in a spray of sparks and shrapnel, their limbs flying off in a dozen directions.
You're not finished.
The rage is boiling inside of you now, and you're too exhausted to try and fight it.
You turn and throw a third blast at another droid, and then a fourth and a fifth, the fury inside you building until the air is crackling with energy, the heat scorching your skin and evaporating the water on your robes. You're dimly aware of the clones around you, the distant hum of their voices, but it's drowned out by a feeling of power so absolute that the world fades away, your vision reduced to a narrow tunnel of anger and destruction.
You're not sure how many droids you take down, but eventually, they stop coming. And as suddenly as the rage had appeared, it fades, replaced by an odd sort of emptiness.
The world returns to focus starting with the cold, wet feel of the ground beneath your feet and the steady beat of the rain on your back. You blink, the last remnants of the haze dissipating, and you lower your hand, letting the Force return to its natural state.
There's a loud clank behind you, and when you glance at the source, you see a pile of smoking droid parts. A trooper is standing a few feet away, his blaster raised, though it's starting to slip through his fingers.
For a moment, the two of you stare at each other, the realization of what you'd done slowly sinking in. He slowly lowers his weapon, and the silence between the two of you seems to stretch on for an eternity. 
Finally, he takes a tentative step forward, and his voice is soft and hesitant through the modulator of his helmet.
"General? Are you okay?"
You don't answer. You can't. Instead, you turn away, staring blankly at the battlefield, and the clone’s helmet follows your gaze toward the destruction that surrounds the two of you. The droids are nothing but scrap metal now, their limbs twisted and their circuits fried. A faint wisp of smoke rises from the piles, the smell burning your nostrils, and a shudder runs down your spine.
You give a short nod, not trusting yourself to speak, and the trooper's shoulders relax slightly.
"Good," he says. He pauses, as if considering his next words carefully. "Sir, if you don't mind me asking...what was that?"
"I..." you begin, but the words catch in your throat. 
What was that? You have no idea. You've never been able to use the ability you've kept hidden, buried deep within the recesses of your mind, at will. The ability that's caused you so much fear and pain, the ability that's been the reason for countless sleepless nights. But here, in the midst of battle, it's the first time you've ever managed to harness the energy, the first time you've been able to tap into the darkness and pull it out.
And for the first time, the power had felt right. It felt natural. Like it was a part of you. And as terrifying as the thought is, it also fills you with a sense of...exhilaration. Hope, even. If you can learn to control it like Dooku suggested you could, maybe it won't be a burden. Maybe it won't be a curse.
Maybe it can actually be a gift.
The thought is enough to send a shiver down your spine, and you let out a shaky breath, the weight of the revelation settling on your shoulders. You run a hand through your hair, pulling the damp strands out of your face as you try to find the words.
You're saved from having to explain yourself by a shout ringing across the field.
"General!" Booker calls. He rushes towards you, his steps clumsy in the mud. His foot nearly slips out from under him, but he manages to catch himself before he slows, coming to a stop a few feet away. His helmet tilts towards the pile of debris, and he lets out a low whistle. "Wow."
"Uh..." You look down and scuff the toe of your boot against the ground. "Sorry. I got carried away."
"Don't apologize, sir," he says, his gaze returning to the wreckage. "Damn. You're strong."
"Yeah," you mutter. "A little too strong."
"What are you talking about?" Booker asks, and you frown, glancing at him out of the corner of your eye. He shrugs his shoulders. "You think we're gonna complain? Those clankers were about to blow our heads off."
"No," you say. You take a deep breath and try to steady your pulse. "But there were other ways to handle them."
"Maybe," he admits. "But, hey, whatever works. Right, Snap?”
You glance over at the clone who'd come to your aid. His presence had felt familiar, but you hadn’t realized until now that he was another one of the shinies from the battle of Kamino. Now it feels obvious in the way his shoulders are set, the tilt of his helmet. He's older now, stronger, but he still has that same boyish quality about him, a certain softness to his demeanor.
"I'm not going to lie," he begins, and his voice is slightly nervous. "I was a little worried for a second."
He glances around the area, his eyes landing on the smoking remains, and he gives a low chuckle.
"But it was also pretty badass," he adds.
You snort, and you run a hand through your hair, shaking the water off.
"Right," you scoff. "Well, I'm glad someone finds it entertaining."
"It's better than the alternative, sir," Snap counters.
"And what's the alternative?"
"You know, getting shot," he answers, his tone nonchalant. "Dying. Not a lot of entertainment value in that."
The corner of your mouth quirks upward.
"True," you agree.
You study the pile of rubble for a moment, a hint of guilt nagging at the back of your mind. You hadn't intended to take the situation so far, but at least no harm had come to the clones. You just have to keep it that way.
Booker pats your arm and steps away, returning his attention to the battle, and after a moment, you follow suit. The droids are still coming, but there are fewer of them now. The tide is finally turning in your favor, and the Separatists are pulling back, their ranks dwindling as the Republic's forces push forward.
A few minutes pass, and the sounds of blaster fire slowly fade, replaced by the voices of the troops. The rain has eased enough that you can hear yourself think, and you take a deep breath and tilt your face upwards, closing your eyes.
"Alright," Booker announces, his voice ringing out across the field. "Let's pack it up. We're done here."
You open your eyes and look at him, a small smile tugging at the corners of your mouth.
"What, no speech?"
"Nah," he replies, shrugging. "I think they get it."
He turns and gestures to the hill overlooking the battlefield, and you can make out the shape of two figures standing on the crest. One is tall and slender, his robes billowing in the breeze, his head held high. The other is shorter and armored, his hands resting on his hips, his head bowed slightly. You know, even at this distance, that Obi-Wan and Cody are looking right at you.
A small flutter passes through your chest, and the feeling is followed by a wave of exhaustion. It's been a long four days. And it's not over yet.
"Let's go spread the good news," Booker says, his tone teasing. You roll your eyes and give a small laugh, and the two of you head towards the hill, making your way through the field. 
You start up the slope, the mud clinging to your boots with each step. It's slow going with the exhaustion wearing you down, and Booker easily outpaces you with his longer stride. He's almost at the top, but you can't help but drag your feet. A part of you dreads what will come next.
Obi-Wan.
For as relieving as it is for the battle to finally be over and won, there's a nervousness in the pit of your stomach that seems to worsen with every passing moment. You have no idea how Obi-Wan will react, if he saw what you just did, and you're not sure you're ready for the inevitable disappointment. You don't even want to think about the fact that he'll have questions. Questions you aren't ready to answer.
As soon as the thought crosses your mind, the familiar sensation of a presence touches the edge of your consciousness. Your feet slip out from under you, and as you try to regain your footing, a hand shoots out and grabs your wrist. You stumble backwards and fall into a broad chest, the armor digging into your spine, and a pair of arms wrap around you, holding you in place.
The sudden, unexpected contact brings a flush to your cheeks, and the fluttering in your chest returns. You know exactly who it is. Even before his scent envelopes you, his warmth seeping into your skin. Even before he speaks.
"You alright?" Rex asks, his voice close to your ear. His grip on you loosens, and he gently turns you around, his hands moving to your shoulders. He gives you a gentle shake as if checking to make sure you're still intact, and the movement snaps you out of the trance.
"Yeah," you reply, and he tilts his head, giving you a concerned once-over.
"You sure?" he presses. "You looked a little shaky there."
"Just a little tired," you tell him, offering a weak smile. He seems unconvinced, and you nudge him playfully, trying to lighten the mood.
"I'm fine, Rex," you insist. "Really."
He nods and releases his hold on you, his hands moving to his helmet. The sudden surge of anticipation in your chest is completely irrational and inappropriate, and the rational part of your brain is screaming at you to get ahold of yourself. But much to your dismay, it's quickly silenced by the flood of emotions coursing through you.
Rex pulls his helmet off, revealing his handsome features. His skin is covered in sweat and grime, and there's a taped over cut above his right eyebrow. The sight is enough to make your heart race, and you can't help but smile.
"You're here," you murmur.
He runs a hand over his head, and his lips twitch, as if trying to fight a smile. He doesn't succeed. His relief is palpable through the Force, and you can see it in the softening of his gaze, the easing of his posture.
"So are you," he replies, his voice equally soft. He looks around and frowns. "What are you doing out here?"
"Trying to keep everyone alive," you say wryly. Rex's brow arches, and his gaze returns to yours, searching. You shrug a shoulder. "You know me. I like to keep busy."
He shakes his head and lets out a small chuckle, and he leans in closer.
"It's always something with you," he teases.
"Hey," you protest, and Rex laughs, warm and bright, and the last bit of uneasiness you'd been feeling melts away. "It's not like I plan for this kind of stuff to happen."
He smiles, and his expression is a mixture of fondness and exasperation.
"I know," he murmurs. You watch his hand lift toward your face, and then his eyes dart to the side, a shadow passing over his features. When you glance in the direction of his gaze, you see Booker standing a short distance away, watching the two of you with his head tilted. 
"We should get moving," Rex says, his tone suddenly serious. "You don't want to keep General Kenobi waiting."
"Right," you mutter, and you follow him as he begins the trek up the hill.
Rex's posture is stiff, his stride purposeful, and his expression is carefully blank. But every few steps, you can see him glance at you out of the corner of his eye, as if checking to make sure you're still there. You bite back a smile, the warmth spreading through your chest making the ache in your legs and the tension in your neck seem trivial.
"What?" Rex asks after the fourth time your eyes meet. He gives you a sidelong glance, a note of amusement creeping into his voice. "Something on my face?"
You smile and shake your head.
"Nothing," you reply, and the corner of his mouth twitches. He glances ahead and slows his pace, dropping back beside you.
"It's good to see you," he says softly, and your smile widens. "It's been a long couple weeks."
"For me, too," you tell him.
"Yeah?"
"Mhm," you hum. "You know, with all the fighting and the running around. And there's this captain that keeps calling me late at night. Keeps me up."
His eyebrows shoot up, and his lips part, a slight blush rising to his cheeks. He clears his throat and rubs the back of his neck, and you can't help the laugh that escapes you. The fact that he's still able to be flustered by something so small never ceases to amaze you.
"Right," he murmurs. "Well, if he bothers you again, let me know. I'll have a word with him."
You grin and reach out, brushing your fingers against his. He stiffens slightly, but he doesn't pull away, and his hand slides down, his palm brushing yours.
“I don't think it'll be a problem," you tell him, your voice low. "I kind of like him."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah," you agree.
Rex's gaze moves down to your hand, and his expression softens. He glances at the others, checking to make sure no one's paying attention, and he interlocks his fingers with yours. He curls his fingers, squeezing gently, and a faint smile plays at the corner of his mouth.
"Good," he murmurs as you both let go and return to a respectable distance apart. "That's...good."
“You alright there, General?” Booker calls as the two of you near the crest of the hill. Cody and Obi-Wan are standing beside him, the three men watching the battle unfold below, and when you come to a stop in front of them, Booker nods at Rex, who returns the gesture.
"She slipped a couple times on the way up," Rex explains. He points at the mud caked on the bottom of your boots, his lips twitching. "You know how clumsy she is."
Booker lets out a loud laugh, and even Cody's lips turn up in a small smirk.
"Hey!" you protest, shooting Rex a playful glare. He chuckles, and he holds his hands up in mock surrender, though the smile remains.
You turn your back to the scene below, watching as Anakin and Ahsoka finish off the last of the droids. As the final one falls, you all let out a sigh of relief, your shoulders slumping. The battlefield falls silent, the only sound the rain pounding against the ground. It's finally over.
"Well," Obi-Wan sighs. "That's the last of them."
The Jedi turns to you, his lips curved into a tired smile, and he takes a step forward, reaching for your arm. You flinch, the instinct to pull away strong, but you manage to stop yourself, and you force a smile, trying to act casual.
"I'm glad you're safe," he says, his expression full of concern. "You had me worried."
"I'm fine," you assure him. His gaze lingers for a moment, searching, and he gives a slight nod, seemingly satisfied.
You're sure he's frustrated with you, or disappointed, or some combination of the two, but there's no sign of it in his face or in the Force. Just worry. And that, for some reason, makes the guilt in your chest even worse.
"Are you alright, my dear?" Obi-Wan asks.
"Yes," you say, and the words come out too quickly, the sound sharp and high. "I'm fine. I mean, I'm...yes."
Obi-Wan tilts his head, and a faint, knowing smile spreads across his face.
“You did well today," he says softly, his gaze moving from yours to the battlefield, where a mix of soldiers from all three armies are gathered around the smoking remains of the enemy force. 
One droid is struggling to stand, and the four of you watch as Snap walks up and shoots it point blank, the shot making its head pop off and roll across the muddy ground. The three clones chuckle, and Obi-Wan turns to look at you, his eyes sparkling.
"Very well, in fact," he adds.
"Thanks," you reply with a small smile.
"Though I have a feeling there's a story behind all of that."
He nods towards the wreckage, and you let out a soft huff of air. Of course there's a story. But you don't know what to say, and so you stay silent, staring at the battlefield, the cold droplets of rain beating down on your face.
"The droids started it," you mutter, shivering and wrapping your arms around yourself.
Booker snorts, and he steps forward, clapping his hand on your shoulder.
"They did," he says. He leans close, and his tone is conspiratorial. "But you finished it."
Cody nods, a proud smile on his face, and Rex's expression is one of pure approval.
"Good work, General," he says.
You can feel Obi-Wan’s scrutiny, the intensity of his attention, and the sudden urge to run and hide is almost overwhelming. Try as you might to convince yourself you didn't need Obi-Wan's approval anymore, it seemed your subconscious still craved it.
His eyes meet yours, and his lips curve upward, a soft smile on his face.
"Well done," he says, and your heart does a somersault, a rush running through you. "You saved a lot of lives today."
Your eyes sting, and your throat feels tight. The last thing you want is to cry, so you swallow hard, nodding and turning away, trying to get control of yourself.
"Thanks," you mutter. You start back down toward the hill, your eyes focused on where Anakin and Ahsoka are standing. They're looking at you, and as you approach, Ahsoka's gaze flicks over your shoulder. She glances at Obi-Wan and back at you, her brows furrowing. You shake your head, a silent assurance that you're okay, and she relaxes slightly.
You come to a stop in front of her, and Anakin smiles, a teasing glint in his eye.
"Hey Goldie," he calls out. He jerks his thumb at the pile of droid parts behind him. "What was that all about?"
You shrug a shoulder, and he frowns, clearly not convinced by your casual attitude. He turns and studies the debris, a thoughtful expression on his face. After a few seconds, he glances at you over his shoulder, his eyes gleaming.
"I like it," he declares. He flashes a broad grin, and he nods, the look on his face proud and approving. "Keep it up."
"Don't encourage her," Obi-Wan sighs. "She gets carried away enough as it is."
"Aw, c'mon," Anakin replies, waving his hand. "She earned it."
Obi-Wan's eyebrows rise, and he fixes his former Padawan with a pointed stare.
"That doesn't mean we should condone it," he chides.
Anakin scoffs and turns away, ignoring Obi-Wan. He gives you a small nod, the unspoken message in his eyes easy to read. He knows what you did, and he's not judging. Quite the opposite, in fact. He seems proud. Which makes you feel a lot better than it probably should.
Obi-Wan shakes his head and mutters something under his breath, and you can't help but smile. It's been a long time since the five of you have been together in one place, and the familiar banter is a welcome reminder of a simpler time.
"We should take shelter before the storm gets worse," Obi-Wan says, his eyes scanning the sky.
"I don't know if that's possible," you muse. The wind is picking up again, and the rain is falling faster and harder, the water running off your robes and dripping onto the ground in thick, steady streams. You’re soaked to the bone, your teeth starting to chatter, and you can only imagine how uncomfortable the troopers must be. "But I'd love to get out of the rain."
“Hear, hear,” Booker agrees quickly as he comes to a stop beside you. His visor flicks up, sending a spray of water into the air, and he nudges your arm with his elbow. “Need me to carry you back to camp, General? I'd hate for you to have an accident in all this mud."
"Oh, haha," you say dryly. "Very funny."
"What, I'm serious," he insists. He reaches out as if to pick you up, and you smack his hands away with a force that makes him yelp.
"Don't even think about it," you warn. "I'll have you cleaning latrines for a month."
Booker laughs and raises his hands in surrender, and Obi-Wan gives the two of you a reproachful look.
"Really," he sighs. "This is a war zone, not a playground."
Before Booker can reply, Cody clasps a hand on his shoulder and pushes him toward the camp, his voice gruff and stern.
"You heard him," Cody says. "Let's move."
The three clones move on ahead, and you all begin making your way through the field, the mud sucking at your boots and splattering the legs of your robes. You can hear Obi-Wan grumbling to himself, and Anakin and Ahsoka are laughing, the two of them shoving each other back and forth.
When the camp comes into view, a wave of relief washes over you, the thought of warm food and a hot shower easing the tension in your shoulders and neck. You pick up your pace until you’re stepping into the command tent, and you're greeted by a blast of warm air and a wall of noise and activity. 
Booker is already there, speaking to a group of your men, and Cody and Rex are standing in the corner, discussing something with their heads bowed. As soon as he spots you, Booker smiles and straightens, the others following suit.
"Hey," he calls. He tilts his head to the side, his brow furrowing. "You're soaked."
"Tell me about it," you grumble.
You reach up and push a strand of hair off your face, and a drop of water runs down the side of your neck, the cold, wet trail making you shiver. You wrap your arms around yourself, and Booker frowns, any trace of humor gone. 
"I'll go grab you some blankets," he says.
"No," you reply quickly, and he pauses, his eyebrows raising. "You're not my servant. I can do it myself."
"Right," Booker agrees. He points a finger at you. "But you're freezing."
"I'll be fine," you insist.
"Here," he says, pulling a towel from a nearby supply cabinet and draping it over your shoulders. "You'll catch a cold."
"I said—"
"You're not," Booker interrupts. He rubs the towel on your hair, and you scowl, trying to bat his hands away. He gives a loud, annoyed sigh and stops, dropping the towel back onto your head. Before you can stop him, Booker turns and cups a hand over his mouth. "Wise!"
The medic looks up from where he's patching a wound on a trooper's arm across the tent as you pull the towel from your head. The white of his armor is caked with mud and grime, nearly obscuring the medic symbol painted on his shoulder, and he looks even more surly than usual with water dripping down his bald head.
"Can you come take a look at the General?"
"I'm fine," you hiss, but it's no use. Wise is already making his way towards you, the other troopers watching him warily.
"What is it?"
Booker gestures towards you and gives Wise a stern look. "Fix her."
You shoot Booker a dirty look and cross your arms tighter around yourself, trying to stop the shaking that's wracking your body. It doesn't work. And the longer you stand here, the worse it seems to get.
Wise's gaze moves over you, and his eyes narrow, his expression thoughtful. A short distance away, Rex glances at the medic, and he takes a step towards the two of you. He doesn't say anything, but the look in his eyes is one of concern. You give a slight shake of your head, silently telling him you're fine, and he stops, his jaw twitching. Wise doesn't seem to notice the exchange.
"You’re freezing," he announces, and you groan, wishing the ground would swallow you up. "We need to get you warm."
"I'm fi—"
"And she's been complaining about a headache," Booker continues, and you grit your teeth, the urge to strangle him rising.
Wise strides forward and grabs the edge of the towel, rubbing the cloth over your face. The motion is brisk and rough, and you squirm, trying to pull away.
"Hey!" you protest.
"Stop fighting me," Wise scolds.
"I don't need—"
"You're going to catch pneumonia," he grumbles. He tosses the towel aside and places the back of his hand against your forehead.
"I'm fine," you try again. "Really."
"No, you're not," Wise counters. 
His voice is flat, but there's an undertone of concern that makes you pause. You're about to tell him not to worry, that you can take care of yourself, but the medic shakes his head and turns on his heel, stomping across the tent and grabbing a med pack from a crate on the ground. 
He rifles through the bag, pulling out a small packet and a thermos, and when he walks back, his scowl has deepened, the expression clearly aimed at the Commander. 
"Stop being a pest," Wise grunts.
"Hey," Booker objects, but the medic ignores him. Wise drops the packet into the thermos and shakes it, the mixture bubbling and foaming inside the container. He hands it to you, and when you hesitate, his frown deepens, his brow arching in challenge.
"Drink," he says gruffly. "Now."
"Don't be so rude, Wise," you admonish, but you're fighting a smile. Wise rolls his eyes, and you take a sip of the warm liquid, the taste bitter on your tongue. "This is awful."
"It's good for you," he insists.
"I'm pretty sure that's not true."
"Shut up and drink," he mutters, and you bite back a grin. 
You drink deeply, the warmth spreading through your body, and when you lower the cup again, you notice the tent has grown quiet. You look around and find the entire room is watching the exchange, a mix of amusement and bewilderment on their faces. Anakin and Ahsoka are both barely containing their laughter, and Obi-Wan has his arms crossed, a faint smile on his face.
Wise notices the attention too, and his scowl deepens.
"What are you all looking at?" he snaps. "Get back to work."
The tent springs into action, the troopers rushing to complete their tasks, and you bite the inside of your cheek, trying not to laugh. A soft snort escapes, drawing a glare from the medic. You lift the thermos to your lips and drink the rest, the warmth of the liquid making you feel slightly better.
"That should help with the headache," Wise tells you. "But you need to change into dry clothes."
"I will," you promise. "Thanks, Wise."
He lets out a soft grunt and nods, his eyes shifting over your shoulder. You feel a blanket being draped over your shoulders, the thick wool instantly warming you. Rex steps around you and gives a slight nod.
"What's the verdict, Chief?"
"She'll live," Wise drawls.
Rex takes the empty cup from you, and the medic grabs the blanket, tugging it closed and wrapping it tightly around your shoulders.
"Good," Rex drawls. "I'd hate for the men to have to break in another general."
Wise scoffs and strides across the tent, barking orders at the troopers. When he's out of earshot, Rex lets out a soft laugh, and he turns back to you, the look on his face gentle and tender.
"How're you feeling?"
"Better," you murmur. "Thank you."
"Of course," he says. His eyes travel over you, his lips twitching. "That was impressive. I thought it would take at least another week before you gave the men a heart attack."
You shrug a shoulder, and the blanket slips, nearly falling to the ground. Before you can grab it, Rex leans down and pulls it back over your shoulders, the heat of his touch seeping through the fabric. You let out a small sigh and pull the blanket tighter, a sense of comfort washing over you.
"I guess I can't stay out of trouble forever," you tell him.
Rex lets out a soft chuckle, his eyes crinkling. "No, I guess not."
He gives you a faint smile before turning away, his attention returning to the group gathered around the holotable. You watch him go, the fluttering in your chest still present. As you look around the room, a thought occurs to you. It's strange, really, that all these men are here, helping you. That they care enough to worry and fuss over your health and well-being.
You'd never had that before. Obi-Wan was the only one for so long who didn't practice the same sort of distanced affection or professionalism as the other Jedi. And now, you're surrounded by people who genuinely care about you, who worry about your well-being, and who have your back. And that's...nice. More than nice, actually.
The conversation resumes, centered around how the Republic’s forces will pull out and return to Coruscant while the locals continue the fight against the few droids that remain. Anakin and Ahsoka lead the discussion, with the clones providing input every so often, and a few minutes in, you feel a gentle brush against your consciousness as Obi-Wan's Force signature probes yours. 
You glance at him out of the corner of your eye and find him watching you, the hint of a smile on his lips as his presence withdraws.
“You seem well," he murmurs under his breath.
"I am," you assure him.
"Good," he says, nodding, and you can hear the emotion in his voice, the longing and regret. You wonder if it's because you've shut him out, or because he's thinking about your relationship and how far you've drifted apart. It's hard to tell with Obi-Wan. He's always been so good at hiding his emotions, and even now, with the two of you so close, the bond feels distant and weak, like a thread stretched too thin. "I'm glad."
"Me too," you say quietly.
You're still not happy with Obi-Wan. You don't know if you'll ever be able to forgive him, and a part of you is worried that if you do, it will open a door you'll never be able to close again. But the ache in your chest is there, a constant reminder that things can never go back to the way they were, and a tiny part of you misses him. Misses what the two of you used to be.
You give him a weak smile, and he smiles back, his eyes crinkling.
“So," he says. "Tell me about this headache. Are you having trouble sleeping?"
You groan and roll your eyes, and he lets out a soft chuckle, the hint of mischief in his expression easing the knot in your stomach.
"It’s nothing," you insist. You turn away and try to ignore the way his presence pushes against your mind, a subtle reminder of his concern. "Just tired."
"Ah," Obi-Wan murmurs, nodding slowly. "Well, that's to be expected. You did destroy quite a few droids today."
Your eyes narrow, and you frown, turning to look at him.
"It wasn't that many," you lie.
Obi-Wan snorts and shoots you a wry look, and you can feel the Force vibrate with his skepticism.
"I think it's safe to say the number was...unusual," he says carefully.
Your eyes narrow, and your frown deepens.
"I don't know what you're talking about," you mutter, your gaze focused on the floor.
Obi-Wan sighs and shakes his head, and a flash of disappointment flickers through the bond. It's gone as quickly as it appeared, like a cloud passing over the sun, and he leans back, crossing his arms over his chest.
"As I suspected," he says softly.
"As you suspected, what?"
"Nothing," Obi-Wan says quickly, waving his hand dismissively. "It's nothing."
He turns and glances at the others, and the two of you stand there, neither of you saying anything, the silence between the two of you heavy and tense.
The minutes tick by, and a sense of unease builds in your gut. The longer the silence stretches, the worse it gets. You're just about to ask him what's wrong, what's bothering him, but he speaks first.
"I know this hasn't been easy for you," he murmurs, his voice soft and low. He pauses, and you can see him searching for the right words, the expression on his face pained. "But I hope you'll consider talking to me."
"About what?"
"About anything. Anything you want."
You sigh and look away, biting your lip and fighting the urge to tell him everything, to spill all the pain and the hurt and the anger, to confess all the things that have been keeping you up at night, all the fears and doubts that have been swirling through your mind. Optimism is harder than it seems to be, and even harder still, is not letting the darkness inside of you creep into the light.
It would be so easy to tell him, to open up and let him in, but you're not ready. Not yet. So instead, you shake your head and stare at the ground, and he lets out a soft sigh, the disappointment in the Force almost too much to bear.
"I'm sorry," he murmurs, and the ache in his voice is unmistakable. "I know...I know that we weren't always on the same page. And perhaps I could have done more. Been more supportive. I don't know."
You swallow hard, and your throat feels tight, the pressure in your chest building.
"It's not your fault," you say quietly.
"Maybe not," Obi-Wan concedes, and his gaze moves over you, the look in his eyes sad and regretful. "But it doesn't change the fact that I hurt you."
The words catch in your throat, and you blink, the tears in your eyes blurring your vision.
"It wasn't just you," you whisper, and a part of you wants to laugh at the sheer absurdity of the statement, but you can't bring yourself to do it.
He gives a short nod, and the two of you fall silent. For the first time in weeks, you can feel the bond between the two of you, the connection that had been so strong and vibrant, now little more than a dull, distant memory. It's hard to believe the two of you had once been so close, that there was a time you knew each other better than anyone.
And yet, even now, a small part of you wants to reach out, to feel his presence again, to let him in.
"I'm sorry, too," you say softly. "For...for shutting you out."
He doesn't respond, and for a moment, you think he hasn't heard you, or that the apology was too little, too late. But after a second, he gives a short nod, his eyes flickering over your face.
"I forgive you," he says, and you can feel the truth of the words, the sincerity in his tone. "It's just good to have you back."
His voice is rough, his expression strained, and the emotion in his voice hits you like a blow to the chest, knocking the breath from your lungs and sending a stab of guilt through your heart. The lump in your throat is getting bigger, and the ache in your chest is spreading, the tears stinging your eyes.
Obi-Wan's hand drifts up, touching your back gently, and you inhale deeply as a wave of calm washes over you. You exhale, letting out the breath, and the tightness in your chest eases, your tears drying.
"There you are," Obi-Wan sighs. "All back together."
You snort, and the two of you fall silent again, staring at each other, the weight of his gaze heavy on your shoulders.
"I've missed you," he whispers.
You miss him too. You miss him more than you can express. But despite everything, you don't regret pushing him away. You don't regret pulling back from the bond, and you don't regret trying to put some distance between the two of you.
And as much as you've missed him, as much as you want him to forgive you, a part of you still wonders if things would be different if he'd tried harder, or if he'd done something differently, or if he'd been a bit more patient with you, or if he'd just let things go.
Maybe things would be better. Maybe they would have turned out the same.
But none of it matters now.
"I've missed you, too," you think, and the thought echoes through the Force, the words bouncing off the walls of your mind and back again. Obi-Wan's breath hitches, his lips parting slightly, his eyes widening. He looks at you, and for a split second, he looks...hopeful. Then the emotion fades, replaced by a soft, wistful smile.
"I'm glad," he replies, his voice drifting through your mind like a breeze, the words light and airy, almost dreamlike. "I'm so glad."
"Are you two done gossiping?" Anakin calls out, a note of irritation in his tone, and the two of you look at him. Obi-Wan looks startled, and a flush spreads across his cheeks, the color rising up his neck and into his ears. "Because we could use your help."
"Apologies," Obi-Wan says quickly, his hand sliding down and dropping from your shoulder, his presence withdrawing completely.
He turns and strides towards the table, and you follow, the blanket draped over your shoulders swaying gently behind you. Your eyes meet Rex's as he steps aside, giving you room to move closer, and he tilts his head. His gaze flicks to Obi-Wan and back, and you don't miss the way his jaw twitches, or the look of distaste that crosses his features.
You can sense a ripple of unease coming from him, concern and something else, something sharper and darker. It's fleeting, and it disappears almost as quickly as it comes, but the feeling is unmistakable, and the hairs on the back of your neck stand up.
It's the first time you’ve felt such a reaction from him, but it’s also the first time you’ve all been in the same room together since the Council meeting that changed everything. For all his soft words about how the Council made the right choice in refusing you, it’s clear to you now that Rex isn't quite as forgiving as he lets on. He keeps his expression carefully neutral, but there's no mistaking the way his gaze follows Obi-Wan, or the way his posture stiffens, or the way his hands clench into fists at his sides.
If the others notice, they don't comment, and the conversation moves on. The rest of the meeting goes smoothly, and once the evacuation plan has been finalized, the group breaks up, each returning to their separate duties. You're the last to leave, and as you're walking away, Rex calls out, stopping you in your tracks.
"General," he says. "Can I have a word?"
"Sure," you reply, turning and walking back towards him. He motions towards the entrance, and the two of you step out, leaving the tent behind. The rain has stopped, and the air is crisp and cool, the scent of damp earth and fresh grass filling your nostrils. 
Rex walks beside you, his arm brushing yours, and the warmth of his body and his proximity sends a thrill through your whole body. 
"So what's on your mind?" you ask as the two of you come to a stop a short distance away, the command tent a dim outline through the trees.
Rex takes a deep breath, and he shifts, his body facing yours. His expression is serious, the lines around his eyes and mouth deeper, and his hands are clasped behind his back, the position formal and businesslike.
"I just wanted to check in with you," he says quietly, his gaze shifting from yours to the trees, his eyes moving over the trunks, scanning the branches. "See how you're doing."
"I'm fine," you say softly, and his eyes move back to yours, a hint of doubt lingering in their depths. You smile and reach out, resting your hand on his arm, your thumb rubbing gentle circles where his rerebrace and elbow plate meet. "I am. I was a little cold, but it was nothing a hot drink couldn't fix."
Rex's shoulders relax, and his hand drifts up, his fingers curling around your wrist, the tips pressing against the pulse point.
"That's good," he says, his gaze dropping to your hand. "That's...I'm glad."
There's a note of hesitation in his voice, and he bites his lip, his gaze flicking back to the trees. He sighs and drops your hand, and a hint of annoyance flickers across his features.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing," he says quickly, and his brow furrows, his eyes moving back to yours, the frustration and conflict written all over his face. "I mean, not nothing. But, not what you're probably thinking."
You wait, and he looks at the ground, his boots scuffing at a fallen branch, his fingers twitching at his sides.
"You and Kenobi seemed pretty close in there," he says finally, his voice soft, almost a whisper, his gaze shifting to the side, refusing to meet yours. "I just...I wanted to make sure you were okay."
His words hang between the two of you, heavy and loaded, and you can feel the weight of them pressing down on your chest, crushing the breath from your lungs and the thoughts from your mind. It takes a second for the meaning of his words to sink in, and another second for the shock to wear off, and by the time the implications of what he's said have fully registered, Rex's jaw is clenched, his shoulders tense, his expression a mixture of uncertainty and regret.
"Sorry," he says quietly. "That's not...it's none of my business."
"No," you reply. You take a deep breath, the words tumbling out before you can stop them. "No, it's not that. It's just...he and I haven't spoken much lately. Since..."
Your voice trails off, and he gives a soft grunt of understanding, his fingers brushing against your elbow.
"I know," he says, his tone soothing. He smiles, his expression gentle and kind. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you."
"Don't," you insist, shaking your head. "It's just...hard. Being here with him. After everything."
He nods, his expression thoughtful. You know he understands, and the fact that he doesn't try to convince you otherwise, or tell you that things will get better, makes the pain in your chest lessen. But you can still feel unease and confusion radiating from him, and you can't help but wonder why he'd ask, and if it's just concern for you, or something more personal.
The answer hits you a moment later, and you can't stop the small laugh that escapes, a smile tugging at the corners of your lips. Rex's eyebrows shoot up, his head tilting slightly, and you bite your lip in an effort to stifle your amusement.
"Is there something funny?"
"I just..." You swallow hard, trying to regain your composure, and you take a deep breath, forcing the grin off your face. "It's nothing."
His expression doesn't change, his brow still furrowed, and he waits, silently demanding an answer.
"Are you...jealous?" you ask hesitantly.
His eyes widen, and his mouth drops open slightly, the color rising in his cheeks. He splutters, his face turning a deeper shade of red, and the reaction is enough to make you giggle.
"No," he says quickly, but the lie is blatant, and the embarrassment is practically radiating off him. "I was just...wondering. I guess."
"Oh, sure," you tease, and he lets out a groan, his eyes rolling skyward, the blush spreading down his neck and into the collar of his armor.
"Stop it," he grumbles, and he shakes his head, the tips of his ears burning.
"Sorry," you say, trying to hold back another laugh. "I didn't mean to embarrass you."
"Too late for that," he mumbles.
You're about to tease him further, to poke fun at his embarrassment, but you bite your tongue, and the words die in your throat, the smile slipping from your lips. You study him, the humor fading, and his gaze meets yours, his expression hesitant and a little anxious. You reach over and gently take his hand. 
"Rex, I don't...I don't have feelings for him anymore," you tell him. His fingers twitch in yours, and he squeezes your hand. "Not like that. Not for a long time, actually."
He doesn't respond, and the two of you stand in silence, the rain beginning to fall again. The wind picks up, sending a spray of water onto your face, and you blink and wipe your cheek, letting out a soft laugh. Rex chuckles, and he brushes a strand of wet hair off your forehead, his hand lingering, cupping the side of your face, his thumb gently tracing your jawline.
"Rex," you begin, but he holds up his hand, his eyes narrowing.
"Wait," he murmurs. His gaze darts to the side as he releases his hold on you, and he takes a step back.
A moment later, Booker rounds the corner, a data pad clutched in his hands. He looks up and gives a short nod.
"General," he greets, and his eyes move to Rex, a faint grin spreading across his face. "Rex."
"Commander," Rex replies, his tone flat. You can sense a flicker of irritation from him, and the sudden, irrational desire to tell Booker to go away nearly overwhelms you. You stamp it down, focusing on keeping your thoughts calm and level. 
Booker looks between the two of you, his gaze lingering on Rex.
"What are you doing out here?" he asks.
"Just taking a walk," Rex says casually.
"In the rain?" Booker asks. He gestures at the two of you, and he looks pointedly at the trees dripping overhead. "Really?"
"Really," you reply, your tone a bit more forceful than necessary.
Booker raises an eyebrow, and the smile fades from his face.
"Okay," he says slowly. "Well, sorry to interrupt your walk. I just need the General's signature on a couple of forms. When you're finished."
"We're done," Rex mutters. "Commander."
"Captain," Booker replies, his tone cheerful. He watches Rex walk away, and his grin fades, his gaze flicking to you. He frowns, his brow creasing. "What's his problem?"
You shrug. The truth is, you have no idea. You have no idea what's going on with Rex, and you can't seem to make sense of his behavior. One minute, he's sweet and caring, and the next, he's distant and detached. It's like he's trying to pull away from you, but he doesn't really want to.
Or maybe that's just what you're telling yourself, hoping that's the reason. It's easier than accepting that he doesn't want anything more from you. It's easier than admitting that you're getting too attached.
"Nothing," you say. You shake your head, and the smile returns, this time a bit forced. "Just...a little tired. Like all of us."
Booker nods, his gaze moving back to the data pad. The blue glow highlights the planes and angles of his face, giving his skin a ghostly hue, and his eyes are dark, the whites standing out in sharp contrast. There's a slight bruise blooming on his temple, and the dark circles under his eyes are even more pronounced.
"Is everything okay?" you ask.
He shakes his head, a heavy sigh escaping his lips.
“Casualty report,” he says, his voice flat. His eyes meet yours, and there's a haunted look in his gaze. "It's not as bad as it could be, but…”
You nod, swallowing the lump in your throat in favor of reaching out and touching his arm.
"It's always hard," you murmur.
"Yeah," he says softly. His hand moves over yours, squeezing gently. "It is."
The two of you fall silent, the air filled with the patter of raindrops and the rustle of the wind. Booker stares at the trees, his eyes glazed over, and he gives a soft sigh, his shoulders slumping.
You watch him, trying to find the words. It’s his first true battle as commander, and it's only natural for him to be upset, even though the mission was a success. You knew from personal experience that seeing the aftermath, the bodies, the wreckage, is much harder than being in the thick of it. And the guilt of surviving, while others didn't, is something that can eat away at the soul, if given the chance.
The only thing that helped you, the only thing that allowed you to move past the deaths, was having people to share the burden with. Having someone who could listen and understand, without judging or asking questions. Someone who could just be there for you.
"It never gets easier," you say softly, and he lets out a humorless laugh, his eyes flicking to yours. You squeeze his arm and offer a small smile. "But it's not supposed to. You just learn how to live with it. How to carry the weight."
Booker swallows hard, and he looks away, blinking rapidly.
"Yeah," he murmurs, his voice hoarse.
“You did a good job. All of you did. You should be proud."
"Thanks," he says quietly.
He's still not looking at you, and he takes a deep breath, his body trembling slightly. He glances at the data pad, and the corner of his mouth turns up, a weak smile tugging at his lips.
"So, can I get that autograph, General?" he asks.
You give a soft snort and shake your head, and you let go of his arm, gesturing towards the device.
"Hand it over."
"Here," he says, giving the data pad a tap. "Signature's at the bottom."
You don't pay much attention to what you're signing, instead watching Booker, noticing the way his eyes are fixed on the screen, and how his hand keeps moving towards the data pad, like he's worried you'll drop it. You can sense the emotions rolling off him, and it's easy to tell he's anxious, even if he's trying not to show it.
"We're heading back to Coruscant after this," you mutter as you press the stylus against the screen. "Any plans?"
He shakes his head, his gaze still fixed on the device.
"Nope," he replies.
"Hmm," you hum.
There's a small pause, and he clears his throat.
"Why?"
"Oh, no reason," you say, smiling. You hand the data pad back, and he glances at the screen before pressing a button and switching the device off. "I just heard it was tradition for the troops to celebrate their first successful mission. Something about the men needing a chance to unwind. Have some fun. Drink copious amounts of alcohol. Maybe play a game of cards or two. Get into some mischief. That sort of thing."
He arches an eyebrow and shoves the data pad into his pocket.
"Cards, huh?"
"Mhm."
"That does indeed ring a bell," he muses. He glances at you, his lips twitching. "And I do have a pack on me, if you're interested."
You grin.
"You should know, I'm a master at Sabacc," you say, your tone grave. Booker gives a soft snort, and his eyes crinkle. "You may want to rethink challenging me."
He laughs, and you can feel the last traces of his worry and sorrow dissipate.
"We'll see about that," he says. He offers his arm, and you slide yours into the crook of his elbow, allowing him to escort you towards the mess tent. The sun has gone down, and the camp is bathed in the soft, orange glow of the evening, the air smelling of damp earth and rain.
As the two of you make your way across the clearing, the sounds of the men laughing and joking carries over the breeze, and a feeling of calm settles over you. The day may not have gone as planned, and the fighting wasn't easy, but there's no denying that things have turned out well. Despite the chaos, the bloodshed, and the pain, there's a sense of contentment and pride that's settled into your bones. 
The ache is still there, the guilt, the loss, the hurt, but you have hope that things will get better. That you can move forward. That maybe, one day, you'll find peace. And that's worth fighting for.
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ninja-knox-ur-sox-off · 2 days ago
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Rereading chapter 6 of Journey to the West with my bros is giving me SUCH an appreciation for Erlang WHY DOES EVERYONE ALWAYS WRITE HIM SO EDGY AROUND SWK?? THIS CHAPTER IS LITERALLY LIKE
Erlang: what a fiend, wdym this guy gets to call himself Equal to Heaven
Erlangs sworn bro squad: stop admiring him and go fight ya weirdo.
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Monkeys: SOMEONE’S HERE TO FIGHT YOU KING
Sun Wukong: HOL UP HE’S LIKE, SO COOL LOOKING THO? AYO?? I see you bro, i pick up what u putting down, u STYLIN [insert a poem about how cool Erlang looks]
Erlang, grinning: what’s up stable boy
Sun Wukong, grinning wider: where’s your mama at
Erlang: HAHAHA FIGHT. ME.
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Dude the whole time they are just having their time of their lives
Other observations are just absolutely FASCINATING to see Guanyin orchestrate everything. She’s the one that suggests Erlang. She knows how to get Erlang to go fight SWK because you bet that dude ignores summons from his uncle. She knows how to peak his interest, knows he won’t kill—did you know he wasn’t trying to kill monkey king? Most of the other people who fought him fought with the intent to capture or KILL but Erlang just wanted to fight. Also dude the way Erlang’s strategy was at 500% I could ramble on about how the fight went because it was like, Erlang tells people where to go and what to do, then goes to fight. Monkey King matches everything he does until his monkeys get scared and then he’s APPALLED by that and starts running away. Erlang chases him, monkey king just LEAVES the entrapment, goes and pays Erlangs house a visit, Erlang pulls up, fights him all the way back to Flowerfruit mountain, then tells everyone to stand on guard, all his guys make a circle around them fight ring style to keep monkey king from escaping and they go back to fighting. Guanyin looks down and goes “ohhhh y’know I’d love to help….. I’ll throw my vase down….” And Lao Zi steps in going “Nono your vase will break I’ll do it.” Dude it’s SO WILD how she orchestrates everything. Bro hits monkey king in the head with his bracelet (diamond snare,) monkey king gets bit by dog, then gets tied the heck up and stabbed and they gottem. Like….bro, and then Erlang’s like y’all go home i got this I’ll take him back—DUDE MY MIND IS WHIRLING, listen this is a really really good book y’all should read it. I’m just rambling this isn’t a real analysis post or anything I’m just WOUGH BRAIN FULL, Guanyin is the source of so many things, she’s the reason Sun Wukong was captured, the reason he’s alive, the reason he is freed later, she’s his defender, his doom, she’s where he goes when no one else listens to him, she’s the reason he started a redemption without him knowing, i’M THINKING REAL INTENTLY ABOUT THIS. I don’t remember which translation this is but OUGHHHH it’s crazy.
Chapter 6 man, it’s so good
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operationslipperypuppet · 3 days ago
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ballad of a green knight beverly toegold
a quick (ten minute) and harrowing combination of campaign one of naddpod (and our favorite dad who made a bad deal but also his son, who shares his name) with emily's ballad of a green knight
transcript under the cut!
lyrics from Ballad of a Green Knight with NADDPod C1 moments. Lyrics are in italics. Episode numbers quotes are pulled from are in parentheses next to the line.
darling I can't see you anymore
Beverly (Caldwell): Take us to the land where my people may heal. Take us to the Feywild. (20)
I'm afraid they've summoned me to war.
Murph: The garden glows green, then takes on a gel-like consistency, then gets brighter and brighter as Bev’s dad and company are pulled into it. The last thing you see is a face full of green goo as Uncle Duck is swallowed down by the flowerbed and the green knights and the green teens escape to the Feywild! (20)
Promises I have made to the Queen and to the Fae
Cran (Murph): When we traveled through the portal, we landed in the Summer Court. King Lestibourne and Queen Cirilla accepted us with open arms. And in return, we defended their kingdom. (47)
And I intend to keep ‘em with my sword.
Cran: He went to the Winter Court to try to track down King Lestibourne. (47)
Darling if I never make it home to you
Bev Senior (Murph): You tell her the truth, Bev. You tell your mom that I died in the Feywild. (58)
I’ll visit you as butterflies and dew.
Martha (Murph): Your father, he came to me in a dream, and it was, I don’t know, I just, uh, I knew it was real. (70)
In another place and time, I swear I would have made you mine
Martha: Oh, wait, you - your father never came home. Usually - He’ll get home late sometimes but, oh boy, he works hard, you know? I love him. I don’t know what I’d do without him. (14)
But I have got a duty to strike true.
Murph: Bev Senior just Fey Stepping away and he’ll just fall and (sword noises) blade clashing against Barrett Brisden’s. (57)
 Green though I be, remember me
Murph: You see this little halfling man, this Green Knight, this Knight of the Summer Court, Captain Beverly Toegold IV, Fey Steps, doesn’t Misty Step, Fey steps over to this angel and grabs its ankles.
Bev Senior: Let go of my boy, you sons of b-s! (52)
Who I could have been if we lived in peace
Murph: You see that there are like 20 copies of him, like, trying to write you that letter and say that he was proud of you, and he kept throwing them out.. (14)
Married my blade to the fate of the Fae
Bev Senior: I sure as heck ain’t letting somebody just kill my dang queen, okay? (56)
Traded my days for honor and fame
Murph: You see Bev Senior shaking hands with Akarot. (57)
Green be my steel, be my bow, be my shield
Murph: The high priest Merrick Highhill is reading the Vizier his last rites and your father is there with a sword drawn, looking stoic. (80)
Pledged to defend the vine and the hedge
Murph: The Vizier extends his neck. Your father swings the blade.
Beverly: And I watch the blade fall.
Murph: Um, you see the Vizier’s head is severed from his neck and rolls forward. (80)
Remember me when the leaves and the breeze
Martha: It - I - I could tell he was there, but he was different, and I knew he wanted to help me, but there was something cold and distant about him. (70)
And the trees start to tease the first breath of spring
Martha: Bev, he - he told me that everything will be alright in the end if you do what needs to be done. (70)
I would’ve loved to pledge myself to you
Murph: He just was hard on you because he didn’t want you to make a misstep and die and be another person that he lost. (14)
But that is not the world that I was born into
Bev Senior: Okay, when I was growing up, I had six siblings, and now I got none. So I need you to stick around, kiddo, alright? (13)
A knight is always forged in the crucible of war 
Bev Senior: We had three Toegolds that died in the war against the Giants. We had two Toegolds that died in the war against Asmodeous, and then we had your Uncle Ronald who fell off a dang balloon, okay? And he was goofing around, okay? (13)
And that is what I gave my word to do
Bev Senior: I couldn’t - I couldn't have helped you without - without Akarot, without - without his power. (58) 
So I will fight with all my verdant might
Murph: You see your father has given you a strategy guide on how to beat him. (70)
The blight of night will never dim my light
Murph: This is the same lay on hands that your father would cast on you, like, when you fell off a horse when you were first learning how to ride. Um, this is the lay hands that was used on you when you, um, broke your nose using sparring swords, um, when you were first learning to fight as a Green Teen. This feels more like your father than this monster that is in front of you. (81)
Though the memory of you makes me turn a shade of blue
Bev Senior: You turn around and you face Thiala, the one who took our home from us. Pick a side, Beverly. (80)
A Green Knight has a duty to the Wild
Beverly: I try to reach out to the spores, I try to reach out to the amulet. I just try to reach out to anything that isn’t this, that isn’t this duty, that I’ve always felt deep down. (80)
Green from my head to my toes, ‘til my death
Bev Senior: I always, I knew I could make the deal 'cause I - I knew you’d stop me. (81)
Pledged to protect the vine and the hedge
Murph: Your dad, he retains the parts of his personality that are the worst things about him. Um, and then other than that, he’s just a devil that serves Ilsed. (81)
Green is my blood, I’m sorry my love
Alanis (Murph): I like to let other people make their own decisions, but your dad was insistent that you could stop him and I thought he was right. (83)
Remember us after I’m gone
Bev Senior: I love you, Bev.
Murph: Your father starts to weep, and you see a vision of an angelic woman with a wimple take him into her arms. (81)
Oh that I could be in love and be good
Moonshine (Emily): And it’s very important to me to get you back to Martha Toegold and keep you in Bev’s life. He just really missed you. (54)
But I made an oath to the fields and the wood
Moonshine: A child has a duty to his father, but a hero has a duty to the world. Now, I’ve got my opinion of what you are, but it’s time for you to decide. (80)
So think of us all when the snow starts to fall
Moonshine: I tried my best to bring him back to you. (71)
And though we may fall, the order lives on
Jolene (Murph): Alright, let’s do this the right way. Please repeat after me, Beverly Toegold. The Green Knights fight with all their might.
Beverly: The Green Knights fight with all their might. (90)
Darling in another place and time
Martha: You know, and if it doesn’t work out, then we’ll all just go to Shadowfell and we’ll buy a nice little house. (99)
I’d have been content to make you mine
Bev Senior: I knew you'd be able to stop whatever was in your way, even if that was me.  Part of this journey is becoming your own person. As long as you fight for what's right, that's what the light is to you. (93)
And in the dream of death, I’ll dream the life I could have had
Bev Senior: The Dusk Mother sent me to Shadowfell to do penance for selling my soul there for a minute. (93)
If  I hadn’t pledged myself to hedge and vine
Lydia (Murph): You’re looking at the captain of my shadow guard, Beverly Toegold IV. (93)
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ghost x reader, shifter x shifter. strangers to friends to lovers with a little push. based on this and this. MDNI. cw: stalking, implied manipulation, scent kink, mating cycles/in heat, the slightest dubious consent, biting, implied knotting (it's still rather vanilla). dividers by @/strangergraphics
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There are many ways to pass the time. 
You can walk around the block once, twice, until the winter frostiness gives out. Clean your one room apartment from top to bottom, taking care in picking soft scents not to overwhelm your nose. Enter the same shop every Wednesday, never buying anything because it is expensive. It’s a way of living. Perhaps not the best. You wouldn’t know any other, now.
It wasn’t always like this. You used to have parents and friends. Shared dinners. Warm faces by your neck and vice versa. It was scary, seeing it all change. And not being able to do anything about it but flee, thinking it’d be fine somewhere else. A space for your kind doesn’t exist anywhere. You make one by picking a corner and sitting there. And you’re fine here. These past months have gone by smoothly, if a little lifeless.
The one light from the canopy outside keeps flickering beat by beat through the glass doors as you check the register.
“Real issue, that one,” says your manager, Joe. Joe is nice. He lets you do as you please as long as you do the bare minimum. It’s just the two of you, most evening and night shifts in this gas station, and he takes frequent naps he calls resting his eyes.
“When did the repair man say he’d come?”
“Between tomorrow and Friday.” It’s Monday. “I swear my eyes are about to pop open. It’s always just behind them.” He says, making a gesture towards his head.
You close the register. The shop’s jingle plays while you bend over to fix the leg of your pants. When you rise to your full height again, you see him.
Imposing. Dressed in black. Silent and overbearing. He’s wearing the usual surgical black mask, and a cap. Outside, he wears the sweatshirt’s hood on the latter, but he has the sense to take it off inside.
“Good evening,” says Joe, throwing the man a suspicious look. Joe is wary of anyone he can’t get a full report of age and provenience out of, not to mention someone who doesn’t entertain his small talk. Bar you, since you’re a great listener.
The man doesn’t answer. Just lingers on the “sports and health” section for a minute, before grabbing a powdered protein bottle and taking it straight to the counter. You grab it without even looking at him in the eye. Scanning it, you chance a look. His black eyes are focused on your hands, a scar runs on his temple, jagged. His hair looks almost white in the cold, artificial light, his hands in the sweatshirt’s pocket. His eyes leave your hands and meet yours. A sensation crawls on top of you: the need to run. You ignore it and unlock your elbows. Prey instinct isn’t well received in human society.
There’s no nicer way of saying he has a smell. It’s not unpleasant, not at all. But it’s not quite a scent you can name either. Not vanilla, nor a spicy breeze. Not even a heavy musk. It’s just… odd.
You drop the bottle on the counter and tell him his total. He pays cash. Always. His nails brush against your palm as he drops it in your hand, and your breath is quivering. You snatch off your hand in a rush. In the corner of your eye, you can see Joe glaring at the both of you. He must be thinking you’re loony. You more than him, since you’re neglecting basic customer service pleasantries. 
He leaves. Your shoulders relax. But you can still smell him all around. 
You take a walk to the storage room. 
You skip around, the limited space hindering your jumps. In the distance cars speed and drive away, the sound muted by the rustling of foliage around your legs. The full moon shows your way through the arms of the trees, silver rays making a stone path on the green high grass. Your ear tickles to the left when you hear a sound, some sort of raspy screeching that has you raise your head. Unsettled, you turn back from where you came from, the meat in your thighs turning sour.
Joe is still asleep, his shiny head falling over his chest. When he wakes and sees you sitting at the counter, he makes an off comment about your hair being messy, voice still slurred by sleep. You fix yourself through the metal reflection on the fridges’ handles and clean the dirt from your nose.
Two teenage girls keep shoving their phones in your face. So far from their conversation and monologue towards you, it seems they’re on the lookout for something they call a “dupe”— a lipstick or something. You tell them all the makeout you hold is by the register, on their left. Their expressions clearly show their dissatisfaction with the selection, hands slapping to their sides when they let go of something. 
“Girls! We have to go!” Yells the children’s mother from near the exit, and the twins huff in perfect synchrony. They give the makeout shelf a final disparaging look and exit the store, not minding you one bit. You finish stacking up the bandaids, the sunset outside flooding the enclosed space in orange. You go back to the register when you hear someone entering, so used to the shop’s jingle it’s not annoying anymore.
When the hooded man comes to stand before you, you don’t even think twice. There’s something weird in the air, and he hasn’t come in two days. Maybe he was busy. But the eyes and face you find aren’t of the blonde man, and the fabric covering his mouth isn’t that of a surgical mask. The startling blue colour of his irises freezes your mind. The barrel of a gun is pointed straight at you, an extension of the man’s long arm. 
The first instinct is always to run. But you find yourself stuck to the place, the thump of your heart resounding in your ears. The man is yelling at you, demanding you to open the register, the glossy finishing of the weapon almost blinding. Your right hand twitches, flexes. You’re sure he’s going to shoot you in the head. The muzzle of the gun is moving side to side, diagonally, shifting lightly enough that it would be almost imperceptible to less acute eyes. The man is shaking. The scent is that of fear.
He shifts as if hit by a train. An unstoppable force. The robber falls to the ground, his body making a loud thunk, the gun dropping from his hold. The spell broken, you lean over the counter, your sweaty hands holding the edge of it. On the ground, the man is on his belly, a bigger body over him. You recognize the cold shine of blond hair.
The police come after you finally call them. You think the blond man might have knocked the robber out, because he’s still prone on the ground while he sits on his legs. He hasn’t said a word to you. Just sent you a glare that said call the cops. While the police take the man away, you call Joe and tell him everything, still looking at the mystery man through the glass doors. Joe says you can close the shop, his voice worried. 
You find him still smoking outside. Shifting on your feet, you take his appearance in more carefully. The scent is less intense now, covered by the smoke and dispersed in the open air. The only lights are that of the canopy and the lit cigarette. He’s regarding it as if it’s an ancient book worth revering, the stick looking dwarfed in between his fingers. Tapping your heels, you tuck your nose inside the neck of your coat.
“Thank you,” you let out.
He looks at you like you’ve told him to go jump off a bridge. The blood in your vein chills. 
“Common where you’re from?” He asks, his voice even more rough than you’ve expected. You swallow and take a step back. 
“Excuse me?”
He makes a vague gesture towards the station, the woods behind. You follow his hand with your eyes and tilt your head to the right, confused.
“Putting your smell all over. Calling everyone to come here.” He then takes a long look, up and down your body, that makes you want to crawl back inside your skin. “Don’t look like the type to enjoy the attention.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” you say, offended, but don’t move from where you’re standing. He is smelling you, as well? That can’t mean… His expression is annoyed, like he’s had this conversation with you a hundred times and more. Your nose twitches. He doesn’t reply to you, choosing instead to put out the cigarette on the ground and walk back to his car. You’re left, speechless, looking at his back.
It’s your free day. You can do everything you want during your free day.
You go running, of course. Choose a little spot off the running track, a clearing with tall grass. You take a few bites, but you’re never really satisfied when you eat in this form. It’s only instinct that makes you do so. 
All of the sudden, the air changes. The needles on your back multiply, as do your look backs. At some point, you’re certain you’re being stared at. Your hind legs kick, the jump propelling you inside the trees, and you disappear among the foliage.
“You should use this.” 
A green container is dropped in front of you on the counter. It’s not something you sell in the shop. You look up to the blond man with a dubious face.
“To hide your scent.” He says nonchalantly. You scrunch your face and ignore the unasked gift. You get to the heart of it.
“What’s your name?”
“Simon,” he answers flatly, while his eyes shift to look at the blue plate on your chest. “That your real one?” He says pointing to it with a long finger.
“Yes.”
“Hmm.”
“These,” you say, taking the container in your hand. It’s full of white, small pills, “work… for our kind?”
“Yeah. More for territory issues than anything else.”
“But you still smell.” You shake the bottle in front of him. From above the mask, one of his eyebrows shifts.
“Better than nothing.” His tone is ironic. Ugh, no one wants to be told they reek all the time. You pout, but pocket the pills. His eyebrow is still quirked.
“Just like that?” He says, surprised.
“Uh? You told me to take them.”
“You don’t know me.”
You roll your eyes. You can’t read him at all, but you suppose he’s made you a pet case of his, a new shifter who needs help in his turf. So why preach stranger danger now?
“You already saved me once.” You lower your eyes. “Does that mean there’s a lot of us here, in this city?” You try to keep your tone neutral, but you fear it sounds more hopeful than it ought to be.
He looks uncomfortable now. Like a mother who promised her son a new toy and can’t buy it for Christmas.
“I know a couple of people,” he scratches the back of his neck. “John Price, good man. Big.” He pauses. “I’ll give you my phone number. If anyone else but him pops up here, or at your house, you call me.”
That’s when Joe makes his entrance. His face tells you that he’s not thrilled you two are having this conversation. 
“Everything alright here?” He asks you as he spreads his hands on the counter, and you realize he’s worried Simon’s bothering you. His figure, small and round, pales against the solidity of the taller man’s body, but he holds his head high. And Simon, maybe now conscious of how he’s coming across, shrinks.
“Yes, don’t worry,” you smile shyly to Joe, happy he’s worried about you. But Simon is not necessarily bothering you. You enjoy having someone to talk to about that. Someone who is just like you.
He offers to take you home when your car won’t start one rainy night. You tell him you can wait for the tow truck beneath the canopy but he’s unremovable. You don’t question why he was waiting for you to finish your shift. In his car, you just keep your hands in between your thighs, the warmth of the heater thawing your toes. He fiddles with the radio, big fingers turning the dial, the slightest amount of light hair on them. His face is neutral, but you wouldn’t call it relaxed.
“You've been taking them? The suppressants,” he adds, while he turns for what seems the tenth time.
“Yes. Does it not seem so?” You ask, now self conscious.
He doesn’t answer your question. A bit put off by his lack of politeness, you cross your arms and look outside of the car window, limiting your indications to one word replies. He doesn’t seem to need them anyway. When he stops at your house, you put a hand on the door handle and look at him. Something is missing.
“... Do you want to come upstairs?” You ask, voice trembling less than you’d expect from yourself. Again, he doesn’t answer. He just exits the car, long limbs getting out the seat and into the drizzle. You scramble to get out as well. He feels even bigger at your shoulders as you guide him up the stairs. When you enter your apartment, you’re embarrassed by the state you left it in that morning. Simon doesn’t seem to mind, still looking around the space like it might reveal some great conspiracy. Then, he lifts his gaze at you, implicit question in his brown eyes. You look down, biting your lower lip in anxiety.
“This is all I could find on my budget,” you try to justify your living situation, like he’s owed an explanation. He shakes his head.
“It’s nice,” he says, maybe not completely genuinely. But you’re so surprised by a compliment coming from him you almost stutter.
“Please sit,” you say, gesturing to the small table. You make tea in your electric kettle, feeling his eyes behind you all the time. Uncomfortable with his staring and the silence, you try to make small talk, the way Joe has taught you makes customers feel at ease.
“Does it always rain so much here?” You ask, while bringing the mugs to the table. Simon grabs his by the main part instead of the handle, uncaring of the heat. Probably just to do something. He looks huge at your table, the size of the apartment not matching the size of his body.
“Yes. The whole region is rainy.”
“Alright.” You fiddle with the teabag in your cup by its string. Unprompted, you attempt to find the answer to something you’ve suspected for a while.
“Have you been watching me while I’m changed?” You ask, the words flowing out of your mouth like a river in full. He doesn’t answer at first, his whole figure completely still, and you think he’s going to start yelling at you. Maybe you’ve offended him greatly, and the way his kind goes about it, he’ll tear your throat apart. But you don’t even know what kind he is, really. Then, his lips part.
“Just keeping an eye on you,” he says, looking you in the eye, the warm light of the ceiling fan casting shadows on his face. His voice is earnest, and honest, and you want to ask a thousand questions but you think you might already know the answer to some. You tilt your head to the left.
“Worried I’ll commit a crime?” You joke, remembering the way he subdued the robber.
“Worried about others, more like.” He answers flatly, and a flame stokes in the center of your chest. 
“Come say hi next time,” you whisper, the blood in your cheeks scorching hot.
He really does scowl at that, as if he’s tasted something rotten.
“Don’t think that’s wise, pet.”
He digs a place for himself in your life and sits there quietly. Always in the vicinity.
The days he comes to the station are more than the ones he does not. He buys mundane stuff, necessities he could easily get when he gets groceries, and starts even getting his gas from you. Requests your service specifically. Joe only looks at you with knowing eyes nowadays, and you’re victim to an unstoppable rush of implicating jokes once you leave Simon.
“You’re the only client I’ve gotten the whole month for gas, you know,” you tell him while he sits in the car, the window lowered. His face is even harder to read with sunglasses on.
“Pity. I find myself well serviced,” he says, and your hackles rise at the friendly, even flirting tone of his. You smile to yourself as you pump the gas, tapping your nails on the black varnished trunk.
With the gas in his tank, he drives you around. Actually, he helps you buy a new table. He says the other one makes his back hurt, so you pick a taller version and he pays. He sticks to your side even when the majority of your time together is spent in silence, or with you recounting your shift at work. He points to you clearings nearby you can shift in more covertly, big places where hunting is always forbidden. The itch to know more about him is always at the back of your throat, but you never ask Simon anything that would stab in too deep.
You meet John Price. He’s been itching to see you, Simon says– and they’re ex coworkers, too, so Simon trusts him implicitly. The moment you see him, you think he must be a bear, his long moustache, the slope of his brow bone. He tells you as much himself, freely, after taking a big sip of his beer.
“You’re a deer, right lassie?” You nod demure at the question. “Only ruminant of the area. Can’t say the green spaces are ample, but,” he smiles, eyes crinkling, “it’s a quiet city thanks to us.” He shoves at Simon’s chest, the latter staying still. The shadow of a smile plays on Simon’s mouth.
It’s not like you don’t know there can be animosity between shifters. You remember there being scuffles back home too– but it’s just little old you here. You doubt anyone would even notice you. When you say as much, the look you receive from the two men is focused and sharp, and it tells you all you need to know. No more of that talk.
You start smelling the others in some parts of the city, and immediately draw back when it happens. When you tell Simon as much, that you’re being careful after his and John’s advice, he smiles a full smile, his canines sharply white, his hand coming to pat your head.
In this idyllic moment of your life, when things aren’t just fine but great– a small sense of community again, a stable good job, and a budding link–
Your heat comes.
It’s not your first. Back then, you had your options. Taking care of each other was the norm. But lately, as stressed as you’ve been, you’d forgotten that this, too, is part of your nature. And you didn’t prepare accurately– including having some relief the days before the actual heat comes. Before you pass out, you have the sense to call sick at work. After that your finger hovers on Simon’s name, but you abandon the idea. He can’t always come to help you.
Hazily, you think back on the pills Simon gave to you. You ran out some weeks ago, but didn’t think about asking for more. After all, you’d lived for long without, and he couldn’t even tell the difference himself, as shown by his silence on the matter. Maybe he grew too dulled to your smell. 
Maybe he knew that they were finished. Maybe he did it on purpose.
You cough. The slick between your legs doesn’t have time to cool down before a new fresh wave comes, and you curse your animal side as you writhe on the bed. Through the sound of the blood rushing in your ears, you hear your door opening. Panicking, your eyes cross to watch the entrance, the tall, dark figure making its way inside with familiarity.
“Simon,” you pant, “what are you doing here?” You ask, voice rough, when you recognize him. How did he even open the door? You try to stand on your elbows, but fall back over your face in the pillow. You hear his footsteps coming closer and closer to you. He sits on your bed, hand coming to pet your hair, and you muffle a groan, fabric between your teeth.
“Y-you need to leave. I’m not well–”
“Shh,” he just says, still petting your hair. When you raise your head again and turn to look at him, he’s looking at you curiously. You swallow your saliva and try to keep your eyes straight, but it’s growing incredibly harder.
“Why didn’t you call me? I had to ask around…” He says, voice quiet and reproaching. You lean your head into his palm, hands covering your face.
“Didn’t want to bother you…” you whisper, eyes peeking from behind your fingers. “Did you bring the pills?”
He doesn't answer your question. When you’re about to ask again, you feel his body move, his chest coming to press against your back. His arm stirs, makes contact with his head, which then moves. You hear an inhale, his big chest rumbling.
Is… Is he smelling you?
“Simon… I’m really unwell, but I’ll be alright, so you can-” Your voice trembles, but you get interrupted. The tone of his voice is harsh enough to make you cry.
“No. I’m staying here. I know how to handle this,” he says, decisively, but his eyes soften when he sees your scared expression.
“Hey. It’s alright. You know me, right? And I know you. This is just what happens to our kind. I’ll take care of you,” he whispers, hand holding your neck and face buried in your hair. 
And just like that, you surrender. 
He takes off your clothes calmly, with clear intent, lays them orderly on your chair when he’s done with each part. The moan that comes out of you when he takes off your pajama pants is almost vulgar. Before you turn your head in embarrassment, you see a flash of something else but determination in his eyes. An hunger, even.
“Come. All fours,” he orders, and you follow his words blindly. You’re in no state to oppose him truly, and anyway, this is what your body wants. And the mind is not far to follow. He guides you, rough hands on your waist and hips, and positions you the way he wants.
“Look at that,” he remarks, once he has the full view of your aroused cunt in his face. You mutter an offended remark in your elbow that turns into a yelp when he starts spreading your lips, examining you to his heart’s content. One of his fingers comes to brush at the edges of your hole, bringing some of the wetness lower, on your clit.
“Built for it,” he hisses, fiddling with it, your hips grinding against his finger with their own mind, chasing that limb numbing feeling. Once your moans are getting high enough for his judgment, he adds two fingers into your pussy, his reach far better than any you could have by yourself. You move in tandem, a wave of power that starts from him and crashes into you. He starts curling his fingers into you, his palm still grinding against your clit, that’s the moment you let go. You come with a muffled scream into the pillow, your back arched, your pussy trying desperately to milk his fingers. You fall prone, momentarily exhausted, and catch your breath for about ten seconds when you feel Simon’s arms encompassing your waist. 
“Up. C’mon now,” he says, and you let yourself be manhandled. His arm brushes against your stomach. Has… has his arm hair always been so long?
You hear rustling and movement behind you, but you’re still in the aftershocks of your orgasm that you just keep your eyes shut and enjoy the closeness with Simon. When your thigh comes into contact with something, though, your eyes open wide. You try to turn your head to look at his body, but he won’t let you, he just keeps your head firmly into the pillow. At least he shifts it a bit so that you can breathe with your mouth.
“Just enjoy this,” he says, a bit peeved, but with an undertone of shame. What could he possibly be ashamed of, when he’s helped you so much? 
“Thank you, Simon,” you let out breathlessly, and he groans, the sound reverberating through your whole body. The blunt head of his cock breaches inside, finds a clear way from your previous orgasm and the hormones. He starts fucking you with with a punishing rhythm, the snap of his abs against your ass resounding in the room, your slick rendering his shoves almost liquid. Whenever you try to shift a bit you’re hurriedly moved back against him, no chance of moving somewhere else. His mouth moves against your ear, muttering something intelligible, more groan than speech. More animal than human. The sounds, the smell of Simon, the warm air, it’s all getting to your head, filling it with foam. When you start moving back against him, a second climax descending upon you, his thrusts become more sloppy, and you feel his legs tensing, shifting in preparation.
“Take it all now,” he grunts out, and you feel a rush of heat by your entrance, and– and– 
With a snarl, long teeth bite into the meat of your shoulder, breaking skin. You moan in pain and pleasure both, the heading sensation going straight to your pussy, a trickle of blood running down your flushed breasts and on the mattress. You feel twitching and an unmistakable wet sensation inside you, and the feeling is so overwhelming you try to twitch away from his imposing body but find yourself stuck to him. Simon retracts his maw from your shoulder and licks the wound he caused with long, careful swipes, an apology of his own. Once he’s satisfied with his care, his tongue licks the salty residues of your tears on your cheeks, leaving a soft kiss on the corner of your mouth. 
“You’re mine,” he whispers huskily, just as you pass out.
When you wake up again, to the warm and damp touch of a towel, you whimper in pain. The movement stops then, and you open your eyes to Simon pondering what to do next, his hands on his hips. You cough out a laugh at the sight in front of you. When he sees you are awake, Simon’s mouth quirks down in mock scorn, but you read the implicit laugh behind his lips. He bandages your wound and you fall asleep again, worn out by your vulnerable state.
“Why didn’t you tell me you were a wolf?” You break the silence later, leaning on your good side while he spoons you from behind. His sharp nails brush against the skin of your stomach.
“You never asked.” He says, almost bored, but it’s a farce, and you both know it. You roll your eyes, grateful he can’t see you. There’s probably an ancient taboo regarding shifters of different species being together, but then again, you hold the very human belief that you can do what you want as long as it doesn’t harm anyone else.
After all, being in the middle between animals and humans means you always have two ways to approach things.
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