#don’t. talk to me about surgeries like this
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I knew it, I know you.
yall have asked for a longer fic of this request, so here you go <3 instances where the reader comforts lu because of his back pain.
warnings: a wee bit of smut maybe angst too
you had been dating luigi for a couple of years now, you knew him better than anyone else. you knew all of his behaviours, every time he was frustrated and had a pout on his face, or when he would use his hands to talk during arguments. you could read him like a book, which was handy when he didn’t want to communicate. especially after having a rough time with back pain and surgery complications, you wanted to be the best partner you could be.
for instance, you guys were hiking together in hawaii, and halfway through the hike you could tell the mood completely changed. every couple of steps, lu would kind of stretch his back, or even let out a groan. it was obvious he was struggling, “baby is everything okay?” you questioned quietly, not sure how to approach this. “all good,” giving you a shy smile. you could tell he was in pain, but trying to pull through. you guys have been wanting to do this trail for months but never found time, until today. “why don’t we just go home and rest, it’s getting kind of hot out here anyways,” you suggest trying not to pry. you were already breaking a sweat and luigi was shirtless, so maybe this was a good excuse to leave. you wanted to take care of him but not baby him either. “but we made it this far, why give up now?” he snaps back. “yeah, but you’re in pain, let’s go, if we don’t stop now you’ll regret it later,” you snap right back because you want him to take care of himself, and sometimes that includes rest. “I’ll be fine,” you give him a look, raising your eyebrows. “fine, let’s go, it won’t change anything though,” he sighs grabbing your hand to walk back to the car. “I know you’re pissed at me lu, but you need to take care of yourself. I worry about you,” pleading with him to understand your side. he squeezes your hand, knowing that he does care what you say. “thank you, baby, I know you care, sometimes I do push myself too much,” he leans over to kiss your forehead. you two end up cuddling on the couch for the rest of the evening, sometimes rest is not a bad thing.
another time is when you two are intimate, it can complicate how a night can play out. communication is everything to you guys when you’re together. sometimes you could tell instantly from the way luigi moves or his face twitches that his back is starting to bother him. you always motion for him to lay back and you take charge. straddling him and grinding your hips onto him. “hmmm why don’t I take care of you lu?” you smirk down to him. lowering yourself onto him, he groans out as if it’s a sense of relief. his hands immediately fall onto your hips, gripping onto you as you bounce up and down. “you’re such a good girl, taking care of me like this,” he’d moan out. attacking your neck with kisses, pleasure taking over the room. as you guys both reach your peak, a sense of gratitude fills luigi’s heart. even though you’re showing love (literally) switching up positions or doing things for lu’s comfort makes his heart swell.
the most common thing is showing small gestures of pda. if it’s small back rubs in public, lingering kisses of comfort, or just simple whispers of “are you okay?”. you’d hug lu from behind, and ask him how his back is feeling, if he needed any ibuprofen, or wanted to go home. you were scared of overbearing him, but your affection and worry made him feel loved. he loved the way you always looked out for him even in simple situations. after a long night out, or a workout that didn’t help, you’d give him a massage or cuddle with him to relax. it was just the little gestures that meant the most. you just wanted him to be happy and healthy, without the worry of his back pain.
#luigi mangione#luigi mangione x reader#luigi mangione fanfiction#luigi mangione x yn#free luigi#the adjuster#ceo shooting#deny defend depose#fanfiction#luigi mangione fic#luigi mangione smut#luigi nicholas mangione
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Plastic Surgery
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✯ pairing: Franco Colapito x GF! Reader ✯
✯ content warnings: plastic surgery mentioned✯
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Dating someone so public and admired was definitely an experience. There was a reason she wanted to keep it private, but the media found out much earlier than they had planned. One day, as he was picking her up from college, someone snapped a photo, and just like that, everyone knew.
The scrutiny was as brutal as she had expected—people dissecting every piece of information they could find online. Perhaps more hurtful, though, were the comments about her appearance. Any perceived flaw was pointed out by countless strangers. Of course, not every comment was critical, but who pays attention to the kind ones anyway?
That only aggravated her already fragile self-esteem, leaving her even more self-conscious about her appearance. She began obsessively refining her makeup, perfecting her hair, and scrutinizing every detail of her looks. But no matter how much effort she put into superficial improvements, it never felt like enough—enough to stop the criticism, enough to silence the noise.
Inevitably, her thoughts turned to a single conclusion: the only reasonable path was cosmetic surgery, wasn’t it?
Franco drove down the road with ease, the afternoon sun painting golden streaks across the dashboard. She sat beside him, phone in hand, her thumb scrolling incessantly. Her brows were furrowed, lips pressed together in that way that meant she was deep in thought—or trouble.
He glanced over as they slowed for a red light, his curiosity piqued. “You know,” he teased, his accent wrapping around the words, “you look way too serious for someone who just got out of class. What’s going on, amor?”
“Nothing,” she said quickly, a little too quickly, tilting her phone away from him like a guilty teenager.
Franco smirked, his instincts kicking in. “Oh, come on. ‘Nothing’ with that face? Let me see,” he teased, leaning slightly to sneak a look.
“Franco, watch the road!” she protested, locking her phone and shoving it into her lap, but not before he caught a glimpse of the open webpage.
His smile faltered as the word “cosmetic surgery” registered. His playful demeanor softened, replaced by quiet concern. At the next stoplight, he turned to her, his voice gentle. “Amor... what’s that about?”
“It’s nothing,” she repeated, her gaze fixed firmly out the window.
“Really?” he said, cocking an eyebrow. “Because it looked a lot like ‘I think I need surgery dot com.’”
Her cheeks flushed slightly, but she didn’t say anything, her fingers twisting in her lap.
Franco’s grip on the steering wheel tightened, and he let out a small sigh. “Is this about the comments?”
Her silence was all the confirmation he needed.
“Dios mío,” he muttered under his breath, shaking his head. “Amor, why do you even read that stuff? Those people—they’re bored, miserable, and lack a life.”
She gave him a sidelong glance, but he caught the tiniest twitch of her lips.
“I’m serious!” he continued, his voice animated now, trying to coax a smile out of her. “You think someone with their life together is online talking about you? No. They’re too busy living. The ones who leave those comments? They’re jealous. Of your talent, your looks, and—” he grinned, throwing her a quick, cheeky look—“the fact that you get to date me.”
She couldn’t help it; a small laugh escaped, though she quickly stifled it.
“I’ll take that laugh as an agreement” he said, triumphant. “So why are you letting ridiculous people get to you?”
Her smile faded, replaced by a vulnerable look she rarely showed. “It’s not just them, Franco. It’s... everything. I just... I don’t feel good enough.”
He softened immediately, his teasing giving way to something more sincere. “Amor,” he said, reaching over to rest his hand on hers. “You don’t need surgery. You don’t need to change anything. Not for them, not for anyone.”
She looked at him, her eyes doubtful. “You really think that?”
“I know that,” he said firmly. Then, in true his fashion, he couldn’t resist adding, “But if you’re still not convinced, I could always pull up other fan pages. The comments about my hair after races alone will make you feel like a queen.”
That earned him a real chuckle.
“See? Much better,” he said with a grin. “No more websites like that, okay?”
She nodded, her heart lighter, and when his fingers gave hers a reassuring squeeze, she squeezed back.
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✯ authors note: English is not my first language, and I hope you liked it <3
#franco colapinto x reader#franco colapinto x you#franco colapinto fanfic#franco colapinto fluff#franco colapinto fic#f1 one shot#franco colapinto oneshot#f1 rpf#f1 fic#f1 fanfic#f1 imagine#franco colapinto imagine#f1 x reader#f1 x you#f1 story#formula one fluff#f1 fluff#formula one x reader#formula one fanfiction#formula one x you#formula one fic#formula 1 imagine#formula 1
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just learnt fucking “lip blush” exists and it’s people who think having “pale”’lips is bad apparently and they get their lips fucking. tattooed. to look. pinker I assume.
I think we should set the planet on fire
#my fucking GOD#don’t. talk to me about surgeries like this#I could scream. forever. YOU DONT FUCKING NEED IT#IDC IF YOU WANT TO SORRY!!!! ITS BC YOUVE BEEN BRAINWASHED BY THE BEAUTY AND MAKEUP INDUSTRY#INTO THINKING APPARENRLY PALE LIPS??? ARE BAD?????#ooc
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A character waking up in bed, groggy and confused. They keep trying to turn off the alarm clock beside them - not realizing they’re in a hospital, and the alarm is sounding because something is wrong.
#whump#whump prompt#medical setting#hospital#confusion#disorientation#amnesia#beans speaks#when I woke up from my most recent surgery I was just. so bad at breathing.#I was so annoyed that the nurse in recovery one kept coming over and bothering me about a nasal cannula and stuff#in retrospect I remember hearing an alarm and seeing a red flashing light every time she came over#because. I kept forgetting to breathe.#I blame the fent and versed pre surgery I don’t even remember talking to the surgeon like an hour before the actual surgery.#me post surgery 🤝 my brother w opioids: how to breathe 101 for dummies extreme beginner
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i’ve never been peer pressured or fell for other people doing it but i am still a bad influence as my dad got a monster energy drink instead of his coffee for our 4hr DC round trip today because i’ve started drinking energy drinks regularly and know the flavors well like please do not tell my mom about this she’ll be disappointed in the both of us and we don’t need that
#like my parents are chill people#i’m literally in dc with my dad to get their weed#(they have medical marijuana cards and weed is legal in my area but we dont have dispensaries yet bc it’s only recently legalized)#and my mom is very okay with me having sex or having sex toys (even if we don’t talk about it a lot)#they both advocated for me to get top surgery as soon as i could because they understood that it was super important to me#but apparently energy drinks crosses the line for my mom#they barely have any effect on me tho because my adhd is so bad that drinking a stimulant just makes me less symptomatic#i guess it’s just a matter of principle… what principle? idk but it’s there#- r
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peach (my cat) is having a full-day vet appointment to scan and possibly remove some teeth (the perks of only being allowed wet food)
completely unrelated, but anything regarding peach’s health or her being somewhere else or anything even mildly off with her routine or behaviour is probably by biggest anxiety and panic trigger
#not an exaggeration. peach stuff is more likely to give me panic attacks and entire breakdowns than anything else#like i have one other contender that’s a proper severe phobia. like panic attacks where i am completely convinced that i’m dying#but luckily that’s very situational whereas the peach anxiety is always there (because the situation of having her is always there)#i was gonna say the peach anxiety is also severely complicated by ocd but that’s probably more true for the other phobia i have so nevermind#but i will say. related to the ocd part. the fact that i am posting about this is a step forward for me#which i might talk about later once she’s home#hopefully they don’t need to extract any teeth and can just clean them#the last thing i need is for her to have trouble eating for a while#for context she had kidney stones a few years ago and basically each time she had about a 60% chance to survive#and there was NOTHING they could do other than just keeping her on fluids and hoping she passed them#(or $15k surgery to put in tubes to bypass her existing tubes. whatever tf the kidney tubes are called. which we couldn’t afford)#and whenever she had a new stone she would start by throwing up anything she ate or drank then stopping eating and drinking entirely#soooo i get stressed about stuff lmao 🙃🙃🙃🙃#anyway this is a good reason for me to be nocturnal so i can be asleep while she’s out rather than stressing#personal
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Damn turns out the writing ghost that takes over my brain late at night does not turn off when I take a break from my blorbos, it just makes me write discourse posts instead.
#my post#I was thinking of making a discourse blog called remma-dilemma#I mean I already made it but like. use it.#multiple people have told me that they already thought my blog title was remma-dilemma for months lol#hits self with cardboard tube stop upsetting yourself with all this extremely online shit#but I have thouuuuuuuuughts#it has made me extremely happy to see that stupid shark situation break trans discourse containment#and thousands of normal ass trans people being like what the fuck are you talking about to that joy lady#(over on Twitter. someone embroidered top surgery scars on an ikea stuffed shark#and someone quoted it saying that 1) the shark was exclusively for transfems (it’s not)#2) a transmasc making art with one was appropriating transfem culture#and 3) since the shark is transfem top surgery scars represent forced detransition#BIIIIIIIIG leap there#overall that woman is insanely evil#constantly looking for a reason to shit on every trans person that isn’t tfem#and tfems that don’t yet or want to be the *perfect* model of femininity#wasn’t she the one who said that enbies that transitioned medically were simply cis people#who were expressing solidarity with True Transsexuals ™#DAMN IT!#I did it again#see this is why I need a place to put this shit that isn’t the tags
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(vent in the tags and under the cut. don’t read if you don’t want.)
sometimes i wonder if people would care if i was gone. there’s just no point anymore tbh.
#tw sui ideation#its honestly just been going through my head for a while#the past two weeks my parents haven’t talked about anything besides my brother#i kinda just feel like i’ve been forgotten in a way#i just feel lonely i guess#and i hate it#it’s just one of those days where i feel lethargic and just numb frankly#and i’m tying to keep posting because it’s not fair that others who don’t give a shit have to read my vents#but i just can’t do this anymore#i’m going through a lot rn#between yesterday and my dog being sick and school starting and my grandma getting surgery and having to move in with my family#it’s all just a lot rn#and sometimes i just think about it and i just hate it#i hate having dark thoughts like this#i’ve been my only therapist because i can’t talk to my parents#i can’t talk to them about this stuff or they’ll just give me the “you can be sad but you can’t pack up and live there” bullshit#I DIDNT FUCKING ASK FOR THIS#that pisses me off so bad#i didn’t fucking ask to have suicidal thoughts?#sometimes i’ll just choke myself with my dog’s leash as a form of punishment because it just makes me feel good#atp i don’t care if i go too far because it’s not worth it anymore#it just doesn’t feel like life’s worth living#there’s nothing to enjoy or look forward to atp#i just need a friend#i’m so tired of being there for people and then having to turn back to myself when i have an issue because im too cowardly to open up#i’m scared#i don’t have it bad like i don’t know why i feel like this#i have a good life#i’m just being a brat#i dunno
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Man though I need to dig up some of the old art I have of René as a kid/teen… he was goth/emo as a young adult and i think it explains exactly why I’ve latched onto Silco so hard after season 2
#not art#I think the easiest way to tell whether or not I’ll get deeply attached to a fictional character is#how similar are they to René#the other indicator is if they’re similar to Alois#(and if they are shipped together)#(however. caveats do exist)#(if the character is extremely popular in the fanbase there is a high chance I will not end up liking them very much)#(mostly bc popular characters always have a high number of annoying fans)#(simply bc a small percentage of a large number still ends up being a large number)#(if there are 10k fans and only 1% are annoying that’s still like 100 people)#(meanwhile if there are only 100 fans then every single one of them will have to be annoying to even come close to beating the 10k fans)#(yes I am talking about both Astar/ion and Bat/man why do you ask)#Silco is kinda pushing it already with how many fans he has but I can mostly ignore the people I disagree with bc there are a lot more#people who I actually agree with#I am unfortunately the only Silco phalloplasty believer in this fandom though so I gotta do my part and pull my weight#it really does highlight to me however how little rep there is for trans characters with bottom surgery#I don’t even *want* bottom surgery. I just think we trans people are hot as fuck#and deserve to be celebrated in all shapes sizes and customizations
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Just opened an insurance claim summary and discovered that some medical professional decided that they needed to put “MORBID (SEVERE) OBESITY DUE TO EXCESS CALORIES” front and center as a diagnosis and now I feel like shit 🙃✌🏻
#that was NOT what the claim was about it was for a surgery to remove a skin growth#but somebody decided I also needed to be marked down as FAT GROSS FUCK FROM EATING TOO MUCH#right next to the problem I was ACTUALLY getting treated for#at no point did I talk to my doctor or anyone on my surgery team about my weight#like I know. I know I’m in the obese BMI category and I normally don’t care because I think it’s bullshit#but to have them so clinically there seems cruel and hurtful#ALSO FUCK YOU YOU DONT KNOW WHAT MY OBESITY IS DUE TO#I’ve been in that category pretty much my whole life no matter what I ate#this is what gives women like me eating disorders#delete later
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My new favorite activity is scrolling through the black sails tag and commenting my interpretations on random people’s posts and they’re like “wtf are you talking about?” and i’m like 👍🏻
#they’re not actually like that - the last person was nice about it#i just like to provide context when people are asking for it :))#i didn’t take hundreds of pages of notes through two full rewatches for nothing#and like. i’m bored lol#i still wanna talk about the show#but i don’t currently have time for a rewatch so i don’t have anything new to say#frankly i think my opinions would be a lot more interesting now that i’m older and SLIGHTLY more well-read#not significantly or anything but like. A little bit#with everyone so excited and planning rewatches i’m kinda like. hmmmm… maybe…#when do i have time? completely unclear#but the idea is nice#i wanna read a lot and watch a lot of new to me films#but perhaps another bonus activity for when i’m recovering from top surgery…#something to consider…
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BROOOOO MY FRIEND HOOKED ME UP WITH A TERTIARY JOB?!
#Crazy that I just got a fortune cookie that says “everything is open to you”#I do kind of believe in fortune cookies to an extent#It pays more per week than my school job too… but I’m keeping the school job obviously because that’s my passion (one of them)#I might open a savings account for creative pursuits and use that to finish 1984#Or I might save for top surgery or a house#idk we’ll see#YAY YAY YAY#The girls are BUILDING#I must admit part of my flat mood and hopelessness was caused by my constantly worrying about money#Not that I’m financially destitute; I just have to be extremely careful what I do with it and I obsess and make projections over it#To make sure I’m not losing money with every paycheck. And even though I’m doing a good job… it’s just a lot#Maybe with the path I’m currently on I can get famous and filthy rich and then give 90% of my income to the community#(I’d hate being famous though but fame is power and I’ve always wanted to help people and having that power will help me do that)#But (when people don’t talk over me) they like what I have to say and how I say it because I’ve worked on my speech meticulously#so I know how to speak elegantly and with wit like I write now (when I’m well rested)
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when will they make a top surgery that is free and painless and has no recovery time and involves no blood and no one has to look at my chest at any point
#please.#there are many normal things in between me and top surgery like money and family etc but genuinely even bigger than that is fear#the thought of disappointing my grandparents and scrounging up cash is less scary than the blood and the pain. why does it have to be that#i think my chest dysphoria would be significantly less if the process of surgery wasn’t. well. surgery#idk if that makes sense but like#even if i still couldn’t get it for other reasons i don’t think i’d feel as dysphoric if there wasn’t surgery involved#like the only way to achieve what i want is bloody and that’s so frightening that it makes the existence of it worse#like not only do i have this feature i dislike but the feature is even worse bc it implies physical pain for me#i don’t know i’m digging myself into a hole so i’ll stop talking about it i think#orating!
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it’s weird how much lighter my life feels now. not that i don’t have any issues (because there are many in my life, as i am sure there are in yours), but they’re just so much more manageable than they were a year ago.
what’s more; i love myself now. i may not be perfect. but i am trying my best, and i can tell that i am! i see myself in the mirror, and sometimes i just examine myself, and my features, and i smile. i feel so much more authentic when talking to people, not worrying about how they view me, because i don’t have to anymore. i wish i could’ve told 15-year old me just how good it’s gotten so far, i know that he would’ve loved hearing about the shitty sideburns we’re growing out right now :’)
#it gets better :)#i used to think that transitioning medically wouldn’t lessen the sadness and depression i felt#and to some degree it is still there since t isn’t a cure all#but by the gods it is so much fucking easier to deal with everything#when a major reason for my mental health being the way it was has been abated#it’s like the fog cleared enough for me to actually see the road i’m driving on#instead of assuming blindly that i won’t crash#once i get top surgery.#idk. i wonder if things will be even easier?#i’m almost a year in and already my life feels so much brighter. yeah there’s problems with keeping the house. and yeah#i don’t have an income yet and i don’t know if the internship will even be in the cards for me#but. i just feel that everything will work out. enough for me to enjoy the time i have here :)#sorry i am being sappy but god! i love and i love! so much now!! i feel so much and i enjoy nearly every day despite the Issues#the world is getting worse but still i find reasons to love and live#so maybe one day it will get better? maybe one day my love will have helped even#if you’re reading. i love you. even if you’re just a follower#even if we’re mutuals that haven’t talked before#i think about you often. i wonder where my oldest mutual went after they stopped posting years ago#i don’t think i can forget. and i love you. and i wish i. could give you a hug. we all need one from time to time#i love the friends i’ve made and the friends i’ve had. i love. and this past year has opened up my floodgates of emotion
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can’t decide what to do tonight, barely feel like watching a show or a movie, or playing a game or anything
#like i’m gonna figure it out#i’m just gonna complain about it first lol#i’d really like to talk to cupcake but i fear that’s probably not gonna happen for a bit :(#so i’m left to my own devices#it’ll be nice to catch up later tho <3#bc i’m lame i am making up convos in my head with them#until i can talk to them for real#it’s nice except it also does make me miss them#but it’s okay i am being so brave about it 😌#i am also resolutely trying not to think about the fact that my surgery is coming up#like it’s fine i don’t need to be nervous i’ll just go and get it over with#but until it is i’m just kinda…here#vague limbo vibes of waiting for something ya know?#anyways whatever i think i need a chill night tonight#but also if i come back complaining about my own choices bc i did something not chill like watched a fucked up movie or something then uhhh#oopsie imao#gwen rambles#gwenposting
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my take on tme and tma as labels are that saying im tme doesnt tell people my genitals any more than saying. im trans. right
#like LOL ik its different depending on how you present yourself but if you say youre trans and a gender people are gonna guess your#genital situation. and considering how like.. numbers work. if youre perisex and you don’t have bottom surgery. theyre probably right not#to be mean or make people think about it. and not to discredit the people who want people not to know thats fine too imo. but dont be#shocked when you join a conversation about people with certain experiences and they go ‘do u have any idea what youre talking about’ like#idk. and bc this goes hand in hand idk how anyone can look at the murder statistics and go ‘they hate us all’ like sure they hate us but#they want trans women dead#idk! idk guys maybe im talking about my ass. ‘what about intersex people’ idk idk i havent seen much from them. probably my fault#im of the understanding that intersex people are different people and you cant make blanket statements but like whatever#and for the record im also of the understanding that intersex people are going to have different relationships with gender than perisex#people bc like. obviously! and an intersex afab trans woman is a little different than me in 7th grade wanting to identify as a trans women#bc i knew i wasnt a woman and didnt have the words for it like idk guys maybe the motivations are different#not that its really an issue. people dont usually qualify their gender with their assigned gender so i dont think it matters unless youre#asking for fuckin. validation ive never heard of it playing out outside of online spaces#simons spouting
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