#doing the best i can

[mariposas8494]

I’m on meds, yes they have side effects…but I like myself on them better. So, please just remember that we’re all doing the best we can with the cards we were dealt. So if you or a loved one has to take meds for mental health care just support it. We’re all just doing our best everyday.🫶🏻

[littlelodell]

I went forty eight hours without torturing myself watching the last twelve minutes so that’s something.

[mackenziebrooks]

Trying to be happy and positive but mental health isn’t really in the best of places. I’m frustrated, I’ve had a lot going on at the moment and it’s not going the way that I need it to. I’m trying to not have an absolute meltdown. Im trying to keep myself happy and get through it. Smile through the pain.

[guro-obsessed]

if anyone wishes for me to tag something please tell me! I remember someone asked me to tag specific stuff but I do not remember after all this time, I'm sorry

[wishfulsketching]

Girl dad Silco is a source of endless entertainment for me

Extra doodles:

Someone save Sevika, she is in hell

[shadesofmauve]

I want to step away from the art-vs-artist side of the Gaiman issue for a bit, and talk about, well, the rest of it. Because those emotions you're feeling would be the same without the art; the art just adds another layer.

Source: I worked with a guy who turned out to be heavily involved in an international, multi-state sex-slavery/trafficking ring.

He was really nice.

Yeah.

It hits like a dumptruck of shit. You don't feel stable in your world anymore. How could someone you interacted with, liked, also be a truly horrible person? How could your judgement be that bad? How can real people, not stylized cartoon bogeymen, be actually doing this shit?

You have to sit with the fact that you couldn't, or probably couldn't, have known. You should have no guilt as part of this horror — but guilt is almost certainly part of that mess you're feeling, because our brains do this associative thing, and somehow "I liked [the version of] the guy [that I knew]", or his creations, becomes "I made a horrible mistake and should feel guilty."

You didn't, loves, you didn't.

We're human, and we can only go by the information we have. And the information we have is only the smallest glimpse into someone else's life.

I didn't work closely with the guy I knew at work, but we chatted. He wasn't just nice; he was one of the only people outside my tiny department who seemed genuinely nice in a workplace that was rapidly becoming incredibly toxic. He loaned me a bike trainer. Occasionally he'd see me at the bus stop and give me a lift home.

Yup. I was a young woman in my twenties and rode in this guy's car. More than once.

When I tell this story that part usually makes people gasp. "You must feel so scared about what could have happened to you!" "You're so lucky nothing happened!"

No, that's not how it worked. I was never in danger. This guy targeted Korean women with little-to-no English who were coerced and powerless. A white, fluent, US citizen coworker wasn't a potential victim. I got to be a person, not prey.

Y'know that little warning bell that goes off, when you're around someone who might be a danger to you? That animal sense that says "Something is off here, watch out"?

Yeah, that doesn't ping if the preferred prey isn't around.

That's what rattled me the most about this. I liked to think of myself as willing to stand up for people with less power than me. I worked with Japanese exchange students in college and put myself bodily between them and creeps, and I sure as hell got that little alarm when some asian-schoolgirl fetishist schmoozed on them. But we were all there.

I had to learn that the alarm won't go off when the hunter isn't hunting. That it's not the solid indicator I might've thought it was. That sometimes this is what the privilege of not being prey does; it completely masks your ability to detect the horrors that are going on.

A lot of people point out that 'people like that' have amazing charisma and ability to lie and manipulate, and that's true. Anyone who's gotten away with this shit for decades is going to be way smoother than the pathetic little hangers-on I dealt with in university. But it's not just that. I seriously, deeply believe that he saw me as a person, and he did not extend personhood to his victims. We didn't have a fake coworker relationship. We had a real one. And just like I don't know the ins-and-outs of most of my coworkers lives, I had no idea that what he did on his down time was perpetrate horrors.

I know this is getting off the topic, but it's so very important. Especially as a message to cis guys: please understand that you won't recognize a creep the way you might think you will. If you're not the preferred prey, the hind-brain alarm won't go off. You have to listen to victims, not your gut feeling that the person seems perfectly nice and normal. It doesn't mean there's never a false accusation, but face the fact that it's usually real, and you don't have enough information to say otherwise.

So, yeah. It fucking sucks. Writing about this twists my insides into tense knots, and it was almost a decade ago. I was never in danger. No one I knew was hurt!

Just countless, powerless women, horrifically abused by someone who was nice to me.

You don't trust your own judgement quite the same way, after. And as utterly shitty as it is, as twisted up and unstead-in-the-world as I felt the day I found out — I don't actually think that's a bad thing.

I think we all need to question our own judgement. It makes us better people.

I don't see villains around every corner just because I knew one, once. But I do own the fact that I can't know, really know, about anyone except those closest to me. They have their own full lives. They'll go from the pinnacles of kindness to the depths of depravity — and I won't know.

It's not a failing. It's just being human. Something to remember before you slap labels on people, before you condemn them or idolize them. Think about how much you can't know, and how flawed our judgement always is.

Grieve for victims, and the feeling of betrayal. But maybe let yourself off the hook, and be a bit slower to skewer others on it.

[landoslastnerve]

DEADPOOL & WOLVERINE dir. Shawn Levy (2024)

[mermaidinthecity]

But I covered my tears, silent all day. It's out of my hands here. In my distress. well I wanted someone to blame me. In my devastation, I wanted so to change. In my way, disaster was the only thing that I could depend on. But it's alright, baby, I'm doing the best that I can. Yes it's alright, baby, I'm doing the best that I can. Because fate causes fortune and fortune takes it away. And then fortune cause nightmares, nightmares that make you crazy. It's alright, baby, I'm doing the best that I can. It's alright, baby, I'm doing the best that I can. Oh he says, well I hear you're doing fine and you're doing the best that you can. Well he says, oh, I hear you're doing fine and you're doing the best that you can. Ooh she says, it's alright, baby, I'm doing the best that I can. Yes it's alright, baby, I'm doing the best that I can. Oh and he says, I hear you're doing fine and you're doing the best that you can. Oh and he says, ooh I hear she's doing fine and she's doing the best that she can. Oh and I paid a price for it. I'm doing the best that I can.

Doing The Best I Can (Escape From Berlin) by Stevie Nicks

[bestiainfinita]

I personally believe that;

The cover art from the Vengeance Saga will be red / yellow, and it will be set on a shore looking at the sunset through the ocean, while something moves and emergence (portraying the moments before the showdown between Odysseus and Poseidon at the end of the Saga), something like this:

While the ‘Ithaca Saga’ cover art, I think will be a parallel to the ‘Troy Saga’, and similar to the first shots of Ithaca we got on the first animatic of the ‘Wisdom Saga’, (it will probably look like these shots, with big inspo from the Troy Saga cover arts);

Or maybe it will feature the Olive Tree using a similar structure to the Troy Saga covers, like this;

But that just how I think they’ll look like.

What do you think the colors will be for the vengeance and ithaca sagas?

I think black and red. Black for vengeance and red for ithaca.

I think Vengeance might be a maroon type color, and Ithaca might be either an olive green, or a brighter purple!

[hinamie]

10 years later

[indigosparkle333]

Just trying to be proud of where I’m at and how much I’ve accomplished…even if it’s not where I want to be

[platoapproved]

louis + cruelty

[theoldaeroplane]

worried that thing you put in your art or writing or game or music is too self-indulgent, too self-referential, too niche for anyone but yourself? fear not! you can do whatever you want forever. and you should.

[foolsocracy]

identity reveals are always fun

[aurumacadicus]

I don't have the words for this but. Art and science are always hand in hand.

The perfectionism of artists has them researching stuff in a way that only scientists can compare. Some artists become experts in biology or anatomy. Other special interests have them going down rabbit holes to make them better at their art.

Disney animators said "we are perfecting the code for this snow if it kills us" and researched and invented code until it acted like real snow in Frozen and snow scientists were like hey. Did we just fucking solve the Dyatlov Pass mystery. And the animators answered no. We made snow. YOU applied the knowledge and did the experiments to solve what could have happened at Dyatlov Pass.

And it was a team effort because of course it was. You can't have art without science. And you can't have science without art.