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This bad boy *Slaps the Gojo* can fit so much narrative potential
#So thats why we write so much fanfic for him#Gege#gege akutami#gege why do you hate ur character so much#You had do many chances#Ultimately i think this was a good move#but it couldve been done better#doesnt make it hurt less though#jjk#jjk manga#jjk spoilers#jjk spoiler#jjk manga spoilers#jjk manga spoiler#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen manga#jujutsu kaisen spoiler#jujutsu kaisen spoilers#jujutsu kaisen manga spoilers#jujutsu kaisen manga spoiler#Gojo#Gojo Satoru#character death#spoiler#spoilers#thoughts#cicitalks#i dont know how to tag this
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Real talk, in the recent years of fandom, I've noticed a trend of people decrying problematic subjects without acknowledging why it's bad or how it hurts real people. And I feel part of the Moonpaw Ableism Shit stems from that.
We know incest is bad. We know inbreeding is bad. But when you don't critically think of why it's bad beyond "it's icky and produces icky offspring :((((", it often leads to rancid behavior like this. Or worse.
It's not bad because it leads to "ugly disabled kids". It's bad because it hurts people and stigimazing people this way only makes it worse.
This is less of a general ableism issur in the wc fandom and more of a broader, more insidious issue within fandom culture imo. I think we should be more mindful about how we approach problematic subject matter like this.
#moss meows#if u Know u Know#the current state of fandom is why im only public in places like tumblr#thank fuck this vitrol seems to be mostly targeted towards a fictional cats#doesnt make it any less hurtful though 😬#neways i just needed to get that off my chest#ill try to think of more funni meme content soon
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#personal#it feels like im not allowed to complain about my own life on my own blog#or at least that if im allowed to that it seems very firstworld problem very selfish very not appropriate with all thats going on#that people will and do think less of me for expressing my own sadness and frustrations because theres no way it compares#to a lot of peoples very big and very real problems#but im so fucking sick of being poor and small. all ive had to eat today is 2min noodles roughly 10 hours ago#and all ill get tomorrow is a bowl of 2min noodles but ittl be another 15 or so hours until its the most reasonable to eat that#thats the real girlmath and then thats the last of my noodles. that leaves me with one (1) small tin of tuna#which might end up being tonights intermediary food if i really cant wait 15 nore hours for my next noodles but is supposed to be#the one meal of the day after tomorrow. so if i eat it too soon then i have even more time that i just dont fucking eat#im so sick to death of being in this position. like its literally killing me and theres fuck all i can do to make it better#ive tried. and i try and i try and i try but i can never afford anything#my landagent keeps sending me textx asking when theyll see a patment for my $50 water bill#i have to stop myself from texting back every time. youll see payment when im not spending literally 75% of my pay on rent alone#when i can afford to buy food and bills at the same time. whn i dont feel like kms-ing would be better than paying you my rent every frtnite#i crave a burger so bad i cant make myself do any tasks. i cant start or continue any crafts or chores because all im thinking about#is a burger like a blorbo rotating in my mind alongside the background noise that i wont get a burger and will only get noodles but not for#hours. a whole days worth of hours almost#my shitawful roomate is back and i have to play nice but he gives me the same feelings my abusive mother did. im scared to leave my room#in the safeplace house ive spent the last two years building for myself. this feels awful. things were all going so right and now#all of a sudden theyre all going as wrong as possible and im struggling so much. with no one to help. no one cares enough to help#the few people i do have are wrapped up in their own lives. which i get. but it doesnt take away the hurt of dealing with it all alone again#lot of momma trauma coming up with the end of eclipse season and i thought i was handling it. now i just feel fucking awful all the time#like ik healing isnt linear but the roomate triggers so hard things i thought i had processed and was on top of#would a burger fix that? no but itd atleast give me something to emotionally lean on for strength though it. but all ive got is noodles#24 hour apart one meal per day noodles. and tomorrow is my last pack. my only solace lately is that ive been invited to my first ever rave#or my first real rave anyway ive only been to one other 'edm event' that was not really a rave of any scale it was like 25 people#but its a halloween rave so im hoping for spooky fun dancetimes at least theres that. im out of data and spotifyprem so i havent been able#to take my silly little mental health walks bc theres zero chance im doing that without music and so itll be noce to get outside fr the rave#anyway. im doing very poorly i appreciate you few who reached out while i wasnt active but i expect ill continue to do poorly for some time
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internalized ableism that you didnt know was there will make you do things like reinvent being a ambulatory wheelchair user apparently
#comeing to terms with the fact that am not dramatic and even though am in WAY less pain then when i was in school#my bones still got torn apart very slowly by stress muscle tension for years#amd that will be with me for the rest of my life witch i was already fine with idk what it is about this#so even though i dont technically need a mobility aid i would probably be more comfortable with 1#as long as it has an option to fold it up to walk when i need to#(not moving doesnt hurt the way people use that word but it can feel just as bad as my hip deciding to tease dislocating itself)#ourghhgh#chirps#am so not sure of myself and my wife is going to make me cry is she keeps being this amazing#god of melody and making me feel supported and accsepted without turning it into a whole thing that singles me out#lala isnt awake yet but i didnt even think about maybe getting an aid until ey asked me what i use so this is team to me <33#<-ALOTT of things dont hurt to me in a way that people descibe pain but pain is the closest thing i have to tell anybody what am feeling so#maybe i just misunderstood what pain is???????#i dont have words for it but most of the times i would rather be in pain
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my dog might get put down tomorrow...
#the vet comes to our house tomorrow#and then decides what to do#i knew it would happen soon#so it's not a surprise#doesnt make it hurt any less though
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Finally started hacking away at the overgrown rose bushes and I'm so fucking exhausted and in pain 😭 bitch....
#i wasnt even doing a lot which is what makes me mad bc like i could see if i was doing the bushes yeah id be so tired but man#i wasnt even doing that much 😭 i did fill three lawn bags of clippings though and i hacked away the limbs that grab at the#sidewalk and the sides that grip onto you when you go to get the trash bins but theres still more i could do#i didnt wanna do TOO much but i wanted to make the petite rose bush less tall (its invasive to the area :( didn't learn that til this year#but if we hack away at it every year or so it's fine?? i mean its not like they throw seeds the same way say a maple tree would or like#poison ivy so it's not SPREADING out new plants it's just a monster sgdgdgd) anyway i wanted that to stop being so tall and#make it stop shading the flower boxes but i DID leave the now vacant birds nest covered so maybe another birdy will like it ... next year#sgdgdgdg since i think the major egg laying season is ending/over and most adult birds dont stay in a nest iirc like they find somewhere to#stay but the purpose of a nest is to keep babies in and safe but idk i could be wrong wgdgdggd#ANYWAYS i left that. the plant itself has burrs or whatever like these growths which you cannot completely#remove without just getting rid of the plant and starting over so we just leave it (doesnt seem to be hurting the 7ft spindly giant any)#i should hack away at the top of the 5 petal rose bush (also invasive iirc :( explains it's size sdgdgdgdg) so my garden can have more sun#but we'll see... 👀✂️#i feel like shit though agdgdgdg im tired of feeling like shit man
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You uppity fox , you deserved to be put in your place with that punch. You were getting too big for your britches. Know your place you two-tailed freak of nature!
Don't call me that. I'm not uppity.
#miles tails prower#ask blog#tails ask blog#tails rp blog#rp blog#tails the fox#sonic rp#sth#thanks for the ask!#ask answered#anon ask#anon answered#yesh#he deserves the rest#considering the fact that his tails are a mutation#that part is just technically correct#doesnt make it hurt any less though.
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Fucked up how happy I get whenever I make content of Shinjiro Aragaki being actually loved and getting to heal and learning to love the little things in life and getting to express himself. What’s up with that
#persona#shinjiro aragaki#hes the only one i really respect here#its like so annoying though that i even care like whats wrong with me why does this bother me so much#just cuz i see myself in this character and also feel like shit and idk when he doesnt even get to live doesnt get to recover#and this is treated as a good game with a profound theme and this is treated as good writing#its hard not to be hurt when its like. im barely hanging on man#and youre telling me he can be saved by someone noticing him and caring about him and he can get through it and be loved and try to heal#but this is treated as some sorta disservice to the narrative and that you cant have the theme work this way#its like. but this is the only way i can even feel anything about this theme this actually makes me wanna try#seeing the character going through mental issues like mine die just like. it makes things suck idk#and its like why do i even care like this shouldnt matter but idk its like#if he can make it then why cant i#and im just really attached to this and i really really want to make my fic of him exist cuz. nothing is going good for me rn#but if i can make this one thing thats important to me where someone gets to recover then maybe ill feel less helpless#its what im trying to tell myself so i can stop feeling like im. idk cringe or something cuz im emotionally attached to a fictional#character and the wellbeing of this character feels like motivation for me#i just wish i wasnt so damn desperate about it 😩#anyway can someone please slap me with a fish so i can stop being insecure about my writing and just fucking do it
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I would just like to thank you because your post on the subject of proshipping was what allowed me to firmly take a stance against proshitters. My blog is non confrontational and I don’t want to argue with people so I unfortunately had to remove the tags and block replies on my post when people started replying to argue with me but still it was your post which gave me the confidence to make this post in the first place and for that I thank you.
Although I've been particularly avoidant to any sort of discourse lately, I am glad I could have helped you (or anyone in general) have confidence to express themselves and try to speak out on issues that constantly infect fandoms and make unsafe spaces for basically anyone. Sorry that your post got dogpiled by a bunch of chronically online people LOL! Trust me, those people got literally no argument that they werent CONVINCED into believing LMAO.
#ask#I've been less actively bitchy about it but my stance has stayed the same#adults into that should not be allowed in the internet and they are backhandedly gr**ming children into embracing that creepy shit#and then children (who i dont blame for being into that stuff its not usually their own fault) desensitize themselves and actively LOOK -#-for creepy pe/do//ince//sty ships to ship because children just have a natural desire to “fit in” -#-which some children find that in following a contrarian crowd#so when they see art they like and dont yet understand the issues with it and then see the artist getting flack for it they jump to-#prxshitty defense and then that just causes them to grow up embracing that shit bec they think it makes them cool or unique or something!!!#and then that causes a spread bec then obviously impressionable minors attract other impressionable minors T_T#trauma response I dont doubt is true to some degree and i pity those for that but 1. keep that shit private im sorry but venting doesnt-#-excuse romanticising that shit and basically CONVINCING other impressionable children that its fine when you must KNOW its not okay if you#-KNOW its based on trauma and thats all you have to validate it#and 2. like thats unhealthy on its own right...... but like ok.....#((though i dont promote harrassing kids or telling them to hurt themselves like that doesnt rlly do much esp if theyre already traumatized)#I believe young people like that should try to strive to at least keep that stuff private esspecially if theyre an adult because idk how-#-adults DONT see the gr**my aspect behind it (bec from what ik most adults dont care about being surrounded by minors T_T)
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I hate to be the bearer of bad news but it really sounds like mh may have given you carpal tunnel....
AGFSDVBSD PLEASE NO......................
#I DIDNT THINK IT WAS CARPAL COS WHEN I LOOK UP THE SYMPTOMS IT DOESNT LINE UP EXACTLY RIGHT =((((((#like im not getting pain in my thumb and it keeps saying it shouldnt affect the pinky finger and less the ring#but its like. all across there....#and admittedly its possible i dont know the difference between nerve and joint pain though i swear its concentrated in the joints#felt like the backs of my fingers and my forearm was on fire lmao. but i slept it off#anon#ask#with the controller i could feel it coming back a little but it subsided immediately comparatively#except well. suddenly making my left hand hurt a bit instead lol.
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love how there are pretentious video essays that just repeat the book and meander and ramble about house of leaves. it's what zampanó would have wanted. it is not, however, what I want
#anyway i finished the main portion of the book#all i have left is the poems and a few other small things i think? ive read pelafinas letters#im thinking of getting the full book of her letters#but also they severely messed with my head so we'll see#i will say. i do get why ppl say the book is pretentious and frustrating#there was a lot of stuff where i couldnt tell if it was supposed to be satire or if it was genuinely just that dense and pretentious#and a lot of the codes were rly obtuse imo?#like... idk. some of them were super obvious like the sos stuff or pelafina outright saying what to do#but others like. man how am i supposed to know johnny waxing poetic about pussy was coded#i mean that one is also pointed out though much later but i know i missed a lot just like it that werent pointed out#and ive heard theres a lot of shit where the message you get is just danielewski????? which gonna be real. kinda dumb.#but i did also really enjoy the book#there was a lot of stuff in it that was just so compelling or poignant or whatever other word#the minotaur stuff is good (ofc id say that though i love me some minotaur themes)#also a lot of the scenes with johnny just...... christ#idk how ppl say to skip them hes so fascinating#yeah i could do with him talking about his possibly hallucinated sex life a bit less but also his story is just plain interesting#i still think about the part where the girl he was talking to runs over a dog they had picked up........ it was fucking chilling#and his hallucinations of dying are so descriptive in just the right way to get under my skin#the uncertainty with him and his family..... did pelafina try to kill him? did his father just send her away for being a bit too overbearing#over an accident? was there something else? what was the deal with his foster family? with lude? gdansk man and kyrie?#how did it get published? who are the editors? why did the band know of the book before it should have been published?#why does his journal section end with a story from a man he admits to making up completely? the doctor from seattle doesnt exist#the chronological end is more hopeful with him saying things will be okay but then he puts a previous entry after that?#i think the burning of the book parallels the story nicely#johnny said his piece; he nurtured the book as much as he could; but it was hurting him and he had to give up on it#idk!#this book does make me feel a lil dumb ngl
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think this is the first time ever i have been disappointed to see an awakening banner
#ann cries about feh#I WAS SOOOO READY FOR BABY RAM VILLAGERS MAN#SO READY#BABY KLIFF… WHERE YOU?!????#cuz like. sorry i love the ram kids so much. and NONE OF THEM HAVE ALTS#ok well. thats not true. valentines faye and alm and celica have a few#but 1) v!faye was SO long ago and 2) alm and celica NEVER get seasonals#they got valentines and then??? AND THEN WHAT??#brave alts cuz they won and legends bc its mandatory for lords. ????!!?!!!!?!!!#THATS IT???!!!!#not that baby hell is the best outcome but i thought theyd be a shoe in eventually#also for an awakening baby banner i was. kinda hoping if it happened itd be like. the second gen???#bc. theyre the babies???#BABY LUCINA IS LITERALLY IN THE GAME#i mean i guess itd be weird to have a newborn out on her own like that#but idk i think baby lucina + a few others would be a much better idea than chrom and lissa im sorry#do we not have enough chrom alts.#+ consider if we got like. cousins duo baby lucina and owain. cMONN owain doesnt have enough alts considering hes. yk. OWAIN?!#itd be nice if emmeryn was there though. though again her being relegated to BABY BANNER is kinds insane#ugh idk. couldve had duo baby celica and faye and i think that wouldve been adorable#or not. actually high chance intsys would ruin that and turn them into only talking about alm…#instead we get to have lissa and emmeryn only talking about chrom! whoop de doo!#i think theres actually child chrom lissa emm art out there somewhere i forgot where but#thats probably why. but that doesnt make the missed opportunities hurt any less#whatever ram gang fs next year!!!#please#what if we got baby awakening tiki and its j y!tiki again lmfao
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About the Ronance-St4ncy love triangle, I had another idea.
What if Jonathan gets involved too?
Like, maybe Robin and Steve are working at Family Video, and they fight about the Nancy argument.
And maybe, Jonathan enters to rent a movie, and he sees the two fighting.
And, without wanting to, he happens to hear what they are fighting about:
His ex girlfriend.
And he immediately interrupts them, and asks what the hell is happening there.
And, without any other choice, the two tell him everything.
I think Jonathan would be supportive about Robin's sexuality (he was about Will's, after all), but he would be pretty shocked to see that these two are fighting over Nancy.
And so, he calls them out.
He tells them that they need to stop this.
They're supposed to be best friends, and yet they are yelling at each other like they're enemies.
All for a girl.
And also, look at him.
He just broke up with Nancy, and he's fine.
And also, when Nancy was with Steve, Jonathan didn't do anything to break them up or something.
He simply stepped aside.
He was sad, sure, but he still put Nancy's happiness first.
So, he basically tells Steve and Robin to get a fucking grip.
Now, if this would work or not on Robin and Steve, I don't know, but it would be a cute idea.
Oooh interesting! Though I don't think they'd fight in front of the others, and I don't think Robin would open up to Jonathan just yet. Maybe if they didn't know Jonathan was there... maybe if they're at some house, waiting for the rest to arrive to discuss some Upside Down matters, and don't notice Jonathan arriving until it's too late. After that, it's all tight-lipped smiles and assurances that everything is 100% okay and no one is fighting over girls, even though Jonathan heard every single thing they said.
And I actually think he'd be a bit angry at first. That boy Fred, I think, got it right: Nancy is the most desired girl in Hawkins, and Jonathan already knew he lost her to Steve, that he had to compete with him and didn't make it, so hearing Robin is after her too may only add to his frustration. He may even be angry in Nancy's behalf - come on guys, she's not some kind of price. Have you even considered what she wants?
That's exactly what I said! Says Robin. This douchebag right here is only thinking about Steve and Little Steve. Just as Steve says yeah, she wants me, she chose me, didn't you get the memo, Byers? And Jonathan won't be too resentful or jealous because he's trying to be a good person, but he can't help but feel like another idiot entangled in Nancy Wheeler's Love Pentagon Web, one that wasn't even important enough, in the end, for him to lose to stupid Steve Harrington. He may direct his anger towards poor comphet'd Nancy at this point. In his mind, of course, he wouldn't voice it. But it would be expressed in the way he talks to Steve and Robin.
First, he looks at Robin. He had to get over it. That's life. You don't always get what you want. And Robin can talk about Nancy being the love of her life all she wants, but know this: no, she isn't. Everyone thinks Nancy is the love of their lives. Robin isn't special here. She's not the magical excepcion. Nancy doesn't want her in the same way she doesn't want him and Robin needs to learn how to live with that. If Robin tries to explain herself and tell him no, you see, she isn't happy - she told me so the other day - yet her new asshole boyfriend won't seem to notice... Jonathan doesn't care. She needs to step back the way everyone else does. Plus, he says, it's not just that she doesn't want you, she can't want you, so, with more reason... and it breaks Robin's heart because it reminds her that the world isn't her small pocket universe with Steve in which those things don't mean a different standard, in which she's just normal jealous and not... deviant. She feels really ashamed after that.
And then he turns to Steve - and he doesn't know why Nancy would ever choose him - he doesn't know she left him not for a boy, but over forbidden feelings for a girl - but he better do things right this time. He better respect her and protect her and treat her the way she deserves, nothing less, and if Steve says something like when have you treated her the way she deserves? that only makes Jonathan more angry, but he doesn't react, he just says Nancy is an amazing person, and he needs to step up to her level. Steve doesn't appreciate his girlfriend's ex telling him how to treat her, and he lets Jonathan know, but Jonathan simply shrugs and tells him he hopes Nancy made the right decision.
Last thing he says before leaving: like you said, they're supposed to be best friends. They shouldn't fight over a girl. Plus, Nancy wouldn't like knowing her boyfriend and her only female friend(? are arguing over her all time (and she wouldn't like knowing her only female friend is after her the same way every boy in Hawkins is, he adds, to Robin's embarrassment). So, stop it, and stop fighting, if not for themselves, for Nancy.
It works for a while.
#ronance#ronance vs st4ncy love triangle#my posts#jonathan doesnt mean to be homophobic. he doesn't realize he's stepping out of line with robin#he thinks what he's saying is completely reasonable#doesn't make it hurt less though
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omori's inclinations towards self isolation is so realistic and similar to my own it's almost disturbing and very nearly triggering... very. nearly.
#not really a vent jus. hm.#its not surprising or anything. omoris a good game. its been praised for how it deals with and portrays this stuff.#im watching the sleepy crest black space ii vid#my shut in life will turn into a rock /lyrref#thinking about it is a little difficult. its hard to without becoming. consumed.. with desires i know. can be destructive#that said are but i changed it to 'can be'. so i can have plausible deniability when i relapse into madd&shut in and pretend its ok ^^#because i know its not good to anticipate failure or relapse or whatever. but its like. that desire feels so base level for me.#its the safest i feel and relapse is inevitable and.... welcomed. almost. it cant last because i have people whod be hurt by it.#so welcoming it doesnt feel dangerous. i have people with me that i have a duty not to shut out. (i can wait until they leave me just fine)#but i like making friends. so i know realistically its somewhat unlikely ill ever feel like i dont have a 'duty' not to shut in for others.#and my family actually like..... has a substantial relationship with me now. but i think my dissociation can take care of that problem#rather easily. ive always planned the potential for them. not my friends though. so i cant shut in yet ^^#though i do technically..... have a plan if even they become too unbearable as well. that goes back.. years at this point#but it has less to do with disconnection on my part and instead more to do with festering disconnection on their part#i know whats good for them i know whats good for me and thats hikikomori ^^#haha i jus said that cus it rhymed lol ignore me#does the post above even hold up at this point.#well. i think so. i dont think the game itself is triggering. i think im digging this well myself. and its not like ill be stuck here#i dont feel as though i am going to be consumed either. i think im just making noise. for the post. and to talk about this experience#since its something i struggle with quite a bit. but i dont tell my friends or stuff about it. because that feels..... mean. almost#like. oh ya by the way i fantasize a lot about you leaving my life. ya you should feel bad for me or something. idfk#really. really. the only feeling i have thinking about this shut in life is...... almost warmth. i think.#i dont think i could ever see the idea completely negatively. ive lived in a haze of drugs daydreams secrets and self isolation before.#its just. safe. it doesnt matter how the days blend together. your brain crowded and constantly foggy with dissociation.#youre somewhere else. somewhere where these things dont matter... those things help you get there. theyre tools of equivalent exchange#give your life up and you can create a new one. that idea had always permeated through my life in a manner of styles#but this is probably the most.... sensical and safe manifestation of that idea ^^#anyways. i like chatting about this stuff with people who relate#so hmu i guess.#vent in tags
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feeling so burnt out and exhausted and lonely and ugly and boring and behind on my work and weird and a loser. am i about to start my period like tomorrow? i shan't say....
#it sucks so much bc no matter how much i acknowledge these feelings are being exacerbated by my hormones it doesnt make it hurt any less#my post#i love being female i love being female i love being female#tbf this really is the result of running myself into the ground for the last 5 weeks#i want to at least try to finish the semester strong though oughhhh
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#talked to her a little bit more about her confusing behavior#esp her relationship w this one person and how it confuses me when its a more group setting#and lo and behold this solved nothing lol#she was like we are close i dont know how to make u feel that#and i was like i do feel it when we are one on one but when we are in group settings i dont feel close to you at all#wasnt very clear at all with my feelings though but more or less listed off things that she had done that unintentionally had hurt me#or just made things feel kind of confusing#like if we are close then why xyz thing#i feel like i never see her if xyz person doesnt come to me first cuz she'll follow her around right#i did straight up ask her if they were just friends or smth more and if she had feelings for her#and she was like yeah just friends (which idk for me just cuz i asked doesnt mean she has to respond to me honestly)#(so taking it with a grain of salt)#and i was like yeah man ur relationship w this one person cuz u give her so much attention like i never know how to itneract#sometimes if eel guilty for taking her away from u when i talk to her cuz u kinda just shut down#and dotn talk to anyone and she was jokingly like yeah go sit in a corner and i was liek DUDE LITERALLY YEAH?#and then also times when her attention on xyz person has left me feeling left out#and i think its so funny this girl was like i literally didnt know i interact with xyz person in that way cuz i dont think abt it#cuz if i start thinking then i start overthinking and thats nto fun#which is T RUE BUT LIKE ALSO#idk how can one person be that dense like her and xyz person literally won a dynamic duo award thing#ppl were like 'dont separate those two they cant live without each other' LIKE BRUH ARE U SERIOUSLY TAHT DENSE?#and then also the whole shes not a great texter but how shes literally always on the phone texting someone it feels like so for me its hard#to really accept that sometimes like but then she had said earlier like her friends from undergrad just straight up call her so yeah maybe#i guess but also idk man#also times when she had promised to do smth and then didnt follow through on that hurting bc i take ppl by their word
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