#doesn’t sink in??

[queerwhohatesithere]

hey guys. what do you do when you actually want to kill yourself. pls don’t report this post or anything, im okay or will be

my biggest support right now is my cat. my apartment is deteriorating and i’m moving soon. i can barely muster the energy to eat, and i can’t afford food so i’m relying on whatever i already have and food banks. i had to ask for money in discords i’m in and i’m humiliated. and SA tw, i was raped last saturday. despite knowing that people always say, “it’s not your fault” it fucking feels like it. one of my biggest supports didn’t believe me that last time i was assaulted (long story) and it WRECKED me. she believes me on this. she always believes me. just had/has a blind spot for that one person. it hurts. it hurts so fucking bad. i have chronic fatigue and chronic pain so i never feel rested and my muscles are aching asf. i haven’t had the motivation to brush my teeth and can tell i have cavities i can’t afford to fix. if i want to get into the college i want i’ll have to do school full time in the fall and work less. i’m already struggling financially. i don’t know how i’m going to do it, and i have so much school ahead of me. this is my first semester and it’s already killing me. i’m trying to cope. i’m trying to check the facts. going to my DBT group. but it takes everything out of me to go to work, to barely get my schoolwork done and not have the motivation most nights to work on it. to feed my cat. and i share my dog with my ex and haven’t had him the last week but when i do have him, it takes everything in me to take him outside. all my money is going to lyft and uber bc the buses are unreliable. on the weeks i have my dog i can’t take the bus home even if i wanted to bc i’ll be home later and he’ll have been crated for too long. even this new fucking taylor album just feels dull. it feels like nothing can make me happy anymore. i feel utterly devoid, broken, and unwanted. i have too much going on and too much to do but can’t shed any of my responsibilities. i just. want to shrivel up into a ball and die. but what’s worse is knowing i don’t actually want to die, i want to live. i just feel like i can’t go on like this. and it sucks. the one form of sweet release i could have i can’t have. i’m disillusioned by anything i could try that wouldn’t permanently disfigure me if i fail. so i know that even if i DO make another attempt, i’ll end up right back in that hospital. and no one will visit me.

just. anything! anyone reading this! i feel like i’m shouting into the void! please. give me anything, any semblance of hope, any reason to keep going, any coping skills you have. i’m grasping at straws but i’m desperate. i’m trying SO hard to survive but i’m losing weight again and being hungry all the time makes me tired and cranky. i feel like im losing my mind, and im so scared, all the time.

how you deal with the person you loved most in the world leaving you? and literally thinking you’re crazy, saying that to your face.

with having memory issues to where i can’t even remember when she apologized.

with being in pain. all the time. all the fucking time.

how? how do i deal? how do i cope? how do i LIVE?

[robintherobiner]

Superman meets Batman for the first time and, because of his superhearing, he can tell that the man’s heart is pounding. Gosh, the poor man must be terrified, after all he does have a rule about no metas. For a human superhero, knowing other people are much stronger must be so scary! So Superman tries his best to seem small and less overwhelming, but Batmans heart rate just keeps going up! Luckily, the man seems to be speaking normally, so maybe its not a big deal? How brave of him, ignoring his fears to help people.

After the Justice League is formed, Clark finds out about Bruce’s contingency plans, and unlike the others, he’s not surprised. He’s already such a paranoid man, but being on a team full of metas, well, Clarks shocked he’s not shaking in his boots. Bruce hides his fear so well! If it wasn’t for his super hearing, he’d never know that Bruce takes a sharp inhale every time he uses his super strength, or that the mans heart starts beating like a million times a minute whenever he enters the room.

Then one day, they’re all in the Watchtower, Bruce drops the pen he was using to write out the plan for their mission, and Clark happily picks it up. As soon as he bends down, Bruce’s heart starts beating rapidly. When he straightens back up, Clarks face is bright red and he can’t meet Bruce’s eye. Is his butt scary?!?!??!

[arolesbianism]

Oh god is that a comicfrin drawing where they have whimsy quick someone throw that guy into a decades long timeloop

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

I know absolute jack concerning the lore of Sonic but here I am regardless, gripped in a chokehold by it

[ecoterrorist-katara]

you don’t have to be a Zutara shipper to dislike Ka/taang

Most of my irl friends are not shippers and the word “Zutara” does not exist in their vocabulary, but they think Ka/taang is weird. Because a prepubescent boy with a teenage girl is weird. He’s a child. She’s a teenager. Anyone who stops and thinks about what they were like at twelve vs fourteen knows those were some long years.

I started getting the ick for Ka/taang in The Headband and it reached its apex in Nightmares and Daydreams. I didn’t even start liking Zutara until The Southern Raiders. I liked Katara with Haru but the creators sank that ship with a strategically placed moustache

I am a ZK shipper so things like parallels and symbolism and Katara’s development as an adult matter to me. But even without all that, I didn’t like Ka/taang. Because before my analytical brain jumped in, my lizard brain said “ick.”

[tanglepelt]

Dp x dc idea 89

Danny getting launched in dc with no context of what’s going. Just some thoughts on some of his first views on people.

Batman: just going Nope, not today. I’m not dealing with a demon bat.

Bruce Wayne: that is a fruitloop with an adoption problem avoid at all cost.

Robin: takes one look and yeets himself of a roof to get away. That child is murderous and has a sword. He’d rather not die again.

Super boy (Jon): saw him with stabby child before he jumped off the roof. Won’t approach in fear of two stabby children. Although he didn’t feel murderous intent from him.

Nightwing. Danny is just confused on him. Guy has to be part ghost right??? Has to be with the way he is flying in the air. Danny had a pun off with him before leaving. Nightwing is his favorite.

Deadman: this one is dead. But he doesn’t feel like a ghost. How is this possible (Danny my dude. You only know of ectoplasm ghost, much to learn about the occult in dc)

Green lanterns: thought they looked cool. Then learned they were essential cops. Sam and his government have formed his ACAB belief. It won’t change here.

Constantine: Danny won’t go near him. Bad vibes.

Superman: too American pie for him.

Red Robin: heard his name laughed and went yummm

Superboy (Conner): too busy laughing at Red Robin, but thought he felt like Danielle.

Catwoman: that is a cat demon. Get him away.

Black Bat: snuck up on him. He panicked with a high pitched scream turned invisible and fled. He won’t go near her of his own choosing. She’s scary.

Flash: Danny instantly decides to prank him. He had been told by clockwork months ago flash likes pranks. (Clockwork is sick of the man messing with time)

Aqua man: just questioning him making sure he isn’t a tyrant. He’s had enough of those.

Signal: pointed right at Danny while invisible. Danny panicked and froze him. He unfroze him a few seconds later.

Conner/Tim: assumes they are a couple. Why else would one be grabbing coffee away from the other.

Damian/Jon: assumes they hate one another. Damian was threatening Jon.

Red hood: stopped a mugger from robbing his human form. Scary looking hero obviously.

[itspileofgoodthings]

opinion: I think tortured poets department is great top to bottom, standard album and the anthology, I think the “this needs editing!” take has been wildly overstated if not completely untrue (I think it’s completely untrue), I agree with Harvard professor and literary critic Stephanie Burt that it’s got three complex interwoven storylines happening at the same time—loss of a long time love, loss of the chaotic and ultimately darkly empty rebound, and Taylor grappling with the hollowness of fame and ultimately her own mortality in the wake of both. It has everything you could want from a Taylor album and more INCLUDING the bangers many want to pretend aren’t there; it’s just that the public has never been more out of tune with her. They want to believe that it’s a bad album because they wanted a bad album from her. They truly felt it was her “time” to have a bad album and there is not a thing the public loves more than when they feel it is time for something. she is an artist who is pretty much always capable of capturing the zeitgeist but also of necessity moves in and out of it because she has her own real artistic journeys to go on and those will not always align with the cultural moment. and what is more, I think a Taylor album has never aligned with the cultural moment less, a testament to the album not a knock on it as the current cultural moment is a love of the empty-headed, the rat-brained, the sparklingly numbing emptiness. the public, someone, anyone not being in the mood for something doesn’t make it bad it means they are not in the mood for it and they’re not in the mood. but none of that changes the fact that the work is good all the way through nor the fact that time will bear that truth out. in this essay I will

[gomzdrawfr]

Any of the boys who’s going through a slump, because it happens

They lay on the concrete floor, because they can’t feel anything, maybe the coldness from the surface can provide some sort of shock, jolt them away from whatever hell they’re experience

But nothing, and that’s how it feels

The nothingness, the repetition, and they find themselves glued to the floor, grounding, comfortable even, to be in the same spot over and over again because its tiring

Then Price comes around and stand right next to their head, staring down with his arms crossed

They don’t bother to lift their head up to see him, sees the remnants of ashes falling from his cigar, the waft of smoke always following him

“get up”

They don’t, and for a moment it’s just silence

“There’s nothing for you down there”

They stare up then, meeting Price’s blues

“Time to get up, son”

And they do

[atopvisenyashill]

they’re having an unserious off

[princedrewwrites]

there’s a part of me that wishes they had swapped Nahyuta and Phoenix’s role in Turnabout Revolution, so that Phoenix was the final boss instead of Ga’ran and Nahyuta was Apollo’s co-counsel. just swap it so Nahyuta tries to retrieve the Orb for Ga’ran (something like oh it’s a personal treasure not a national one) and make it so Ga’ran is holding Phoenix hostage or something

for one, I think it makes a nice narrative arc of Phoenix being the first client that Apollo defended -> him being the last lawyer Apollo defeats in court, which would also heighten the emotional stakes more

but also I think it have been better for Nahyuta’s character writing, because Nahyuta is a character we see under a very specific set of circumstances and we get maybe…5 minutes of him not under Ga’ran’s control? his character doesn’t get time to breathe. I think revealing the blackmail earlier and giving him a proper chance to defy Ga’ran/help the revolution would have helped to give him depth that actually comes from seeing him on screen, and not just being relayed by other characters. it would probably help flesh out his and Apollo’s relationship by having them interact on good terms for more than 5 minutes, and you could still make him the final defendant by having Phoenix/Ga’ran accuse him.

[seabeck]

My spawn point is having a normal one.

[bluejay-makes]

Magnanimous

[frnkiebby]

i’m so far gone~🎃

[artificialcaretaker]

ACTIVATE THE MELJAYVIK PRAYER CIRCLE, START POSTING KAWAII ANIME BASES YOU DREW LIKE TWO WEEKS AGO, REMIND YOURSELF THAT THEY WILL TOTALLY PROSPER

[Dude what the fuck am I doing rn. Why haven’t I sat down and ACTUALLY drawn them. How do you love someone without getting hurt how do you love someone without crawling in the dirt

As stated in the pic, base by gumandpeanuts17 on DA. This is probably ironic.

[frostiecake]

POV: you get cornered by a cat while fixing some guys’ sink

[venti-death-watch]

when traveling the world diluc learns hexenzirkel nicole the disembodied voice in the sky is his mother and vows to never let kaeya learn about that ever because he will not be able to control himself from throwing himself or someone else out a window when kaeya brings up immaculate conception