#does this count as poetry lol

[ellessdee]

ode to the midwest / ellessdee

[queenangst]

The Moment, Laura Gilpin / In Blackwater Woods, Mary Oliver / Life After Death, Laura Gilpin

Text version under the cut:

Screenshot 1 (The Moment, Laura Gilpin):

And I thought: this is what it means to be alive: one moment to surrender everything and the next moment to begin again.

Screenshot 2 (In Blackwater Woods, Mary Oliver):

To live in this world

you must be able to do three things: to love what is mortal; to hold it

against your bones knowing your own life depends on it; and, when the time comes to let it go, to let it go.

Screenshot 3 (Life After Death, Laura Gilpin):

The things I know: how the living go on living and how the dead go on living with them

[despairat6oclock]

How must I tell you I knew you far too long.

Dreaming of counting the freckles that dusted your cheeks long before you could pronounce my name. Playing the part of first impressions when your mark has already scarred my skin.

Cheeks heating as you brushed off my flusteredness for shyness. Cursing your name as you claim to want someone like me, not me. Never me.

If I were born with your preference, would my pieces align with yours? Born a second earlier, would our stars align in something rather than an X?

Hate cannot muster without passion. An inferno that ignites my veins with every friendly gesture. How I would like to burn you too, our ashes mixing into one.

Finally would we be one. Getting under your skin enough for you to recognize my worship.

Why must you be my karma? Redemption for all those before who begged affection and I plead the oath of friendship. Not more. Everyday less. Was it envy that watched the stars in your eyes die as he claimed your skin, or were they now reflecting elsewhere. My moon no longer enough to shine upon your garden.

He's yours and you are his. Yet I see me in the way you walk. The names you whisper in the cloak of night were once for me.

How different you were when I dug my claws into you. Now a soulless version of myself I see as I look at the broken mirror reflected in your eyes.

But as I retreat back to my darkness, you cling to my image. Or am I observing the parts you stole from me too closely? The crown you wear has my name etched into its metals. Your name tattooed into my soul. Our paths a never ending figure eight.

[duskrelyk]

lighthouse(help me piece it all together)

when i left you tonight, i turned on my hazards, looping a song that reminds me of late nights by the pond with our guitars and going 40 in a 55 bc i love you too much to not make it home tonight

[astrxealis]

okay rambles but i started creatively writing in like ... 5th grade? and. oh god just a little encouragement to anyone looking to get into writing or insecure or whatnot, but HELLS, maybe it's to he expected with my (obviously) very young age and inexperience with writing then, but my writing was really. yeah. Yeah. but then i'm what... a lot older now, obviously, and my writing has gotten leagues better. i'm probably not a good example for this bcs childhood years development stuff are different etc etc BUT practicing writing more and whatnot really does go a long way :]

[gooberhopper25]

i am the flesh

you are the maggots

i am the people

you are the cannibals

i am the vegetation

you are the animals

i am the life

you are the sun

i cant exist without you popping up, but you will be there forever, no matter the obstacles

[midnight-starwalkers]

in a horrendous act of debauchery

the king rose to the throne in which the thorns lay

he sat in silence

the jester sneered for the foul act that had unforeseeably unfolded in the pale blue of his eyes

the queen laughed pitifully at the attempt of reconciliation by the kings foul mouth

"The love i feel must burn hotter than five thousand suns, but as we see it now, as the moment pass, i shall lay my head in solemn, for the fact, the act i have done has not been forgotten"

[dead-or-unalive]

No one is coming to save you

When you sit there every night slowly self destructing, hoping that someone, ANYone, will notice.

Will care.

Will ask “is everything okay?”

Will ask you to stop.

It never happens

Maybe other people dont know how to say it

Maybe they dont see the problem

Maybe they dont care

The reason doesnt matter, the outcome is the same: no one is coming to save you.

No one else.

There is a part of you that cares. The same part pleading for someone to help, it only exists because you will it to.

If every inch of you truly wanted to destroy yourself, that part wouldnt hope that you fail. Thats the only person who will help. They are begging.

Listen to them, or die

No one is coming

No one ever will

[fizzyphan]

i love you rain i love you drizzle i love you mist i love you puddles i love you warm sidewalks after it rains i love you petrichor i love you rain on top of cars coming from the opposite direction i love you rainy windows i love you collecting hail in little plastic kid cups on the balcony i love you summer rain i love you spring rain i love you autumn rain i love you winter rain i love you swimming while it rains i love you pretending its raining in the shower i love you rain droplets on a pond i love you early morning rain i love you rain

[n0body-0dysseus]

Look at me

Look upon this mirror and see,

I am a reflection of your flaws,

A shadow you created only seen when your light is upon it

Look

At

Me

Do not give your hatred my name,

for it was yours to begin with

You have spawned an evil,

Your venom my blood

I have become you,

And you think it's my fault

[patroiocus]

him, nonchalant and giggly, doing their makeup, all "close your eyes," and "are you ready?" "it looks good, i promise, why dont you trust me?"

and "of course i trust you," they'll reply, "i trust you with my life! but" and its a very light, airy 'but', relaxed, "thats a very different thing to trusting you with my eyeliner" and they'll try to open their eyes again, just to peek at his face, a teasing little grin having crawled its way up their face.

he'll give them a light tap on the cheek, maybe snap in their ear until they keep their eyes closed. he'll lean in, then, and they'll feel the soft puffs of his breath on their nose, warm and familiar, followed by the wet drag of his liquid eyeliner across both lids, the movement swift and sure, drawn with a steady hand.

"okay, look at me," and when they open their eyes he is still just as close, their breaths intermingling in the slim space between their lips. he'll be so focused on the glittering clean lines on their eyelids that their grasp around his neck will shock him when they pull him down.

"keep your eyes closed," they'll whisper, and then they'll steal his lips with a kiss.

[omagpies]

Recently saw your roleswap AU and I’m loving it! I have a few things I’m curious about:

1. So by my understanding Anya failed her flight certification 8 times and PE was cheap enough to be fine with that? Did she never pass? Makes sense, I’m just kinda clarifying lol

2. Does nurse!Curly also feel like he wants to try something different in his career like in canon? Did he also not have enough savings after PE went under? Did he go to nursing school or did he also fail his entrance exams?

3. What’s Daisuke’s story in this AU? Did his mom push him to go to trade school to become a mechanic? Did he do that on his own and his mom suggested working with PE?

4. It’s so interesting to me that Anya tried E-dating after getting back to earth and seemingly got rejected based on her appearance, poor girl :( but I’m kinda wondering about Curly’s perspective on this, did he have feelings for Anya while she was E-dating and just sucked it up for her?

5. I’m kinda curious about Curly and Anya’s relationship pre-crash, was it a little bit flirty like in canon? Did Anya try to approach Curly with what Jimmy was doing or was the blackmail powerful enough for her not to say a peep to anyone?

haha gonna answer all of these at once! but first here's something on 5 :)

she never passed the Official Legit certification but passed what counts for it in PE (so, certified only to fly PE vessels) and kind of sees it as her last chance to make it as a pilot. still hopes to get properly certified one day, working at PE to make the money for simulator hours and exam fees

curly actually went to a med school on a football scholarship but had to drop out about two or three years in because he started prioritising studies over practice and the money got pulled. used the money he had left to switch tracks and certify as a nurse. joined PE because space travel sounded fun but is pretty bored of it because he doesn't get to do much on a regular haul. he isn't quite as existential in this regard as canon curly because working in a people-oriented nurturing profession actually makes him feel useful, he just wishes he could be more useful ya kno? has enough savings to be able to rent a place and find a job at a hospital, so overall it all kinda works out for him if you don't count all the horrors

i think in this au daisuke's mother actually pushed him to intern as a mechanic a few years earlier than in canon, which is how he met swansea (pilot with engineering background) and got inspired enough to go into trade school. by the time the events of the au begin he is a certified mechanic though not with a lot of experience :"3

curly has had the biggest fattest crush on anya almost the entire time of knowing her (i feel like he kinda spawns in already in love with anya), so her E-dating phase is kinda rough on him (like, Very rough; mans full on wasting away from his heart getting broken in tiny ways a hundred times a day), but he is king of denying himself and putting others first so he does his best to be A Good And Supportive Roommate about it. he even tries to date other people too! but with not nearly as much gusto and it never goes far. he is too whipped

there was definitely Something. i'll expand on it a bit more in a later ask i got about captain anya, but the tldr is that she goes to great pains to Act Professional and curly is never in a million years going to confess anything. and then jimmy's arrival blows it all up and any kind of romance plummets down everyone's lists of priorities. and anya never tells curly anything -- this is her problem to deal with, and with him being jimmy's friend there is a tiny part of her that is afraid of not being believed even though she overall thinks he's a good guy :")

anya writes all kinds of things, but it's all fiction. she dabbles in poetry, but her two main points of focus in prose are a) long meandering stream of consciousness type of pieces that span generations and have very convoluted plots and interpersonal relations (think woolf's waves meets one hundred years of solitude), inspired largely by the time she had to lie there and do little more than drift in and out of delirium and think, and b) shameless smut that starts out as your run of the mill romance and suddenly changes genres halfway through (funny how life can just Change all at once huh). she never really gains a Massive audience but does have a considerable number of dedicated fans of both categories

(more roleswap au)

[t1oui]

thinking about how living w regulus would affect harry like

he's such a fucking snob about everything. food, decor, fashion, you name it, he's got opinions on it.

he does ballet despite being the least graceful person on the planet. he's somehow pretty good at it, likely out of spite

speaks french

very much a cat person, has a cat named leo who is his baby

like yk how james and sirius are extremely codependent? that's how harry is w leo. both of them can not handle being apart from each other too long

reads a lot of stories

thinks seeker is the best quidditch position

on that note, lots of slytherin house pride. james hates it. harry refuses to put any gryffindor decorations up in his room

harry loves taking pictures just like reg so the house is filled with photographs

and ofc harry is snobby about what types of cameras he uses thanks to reg. james now just lets them deal with the cameras & photography stuff bc he's scared to get the wrong thing lol

harry is taller than reg but bc dysphoria all of reg's old clothes (like quidditch jerseys + hoodies and stuff) are his size so half his wardrobe is from reg's hogwarts days

definitely the type of guy to change his bedding & curtains & everything in his room based on the season. will anybody actually be in there other than him and his parents? not really, but he MUST redecorate

idk what this even means but snobby about candles. this is another thing james is scared to buy him

harry and reg speak french w each other more than english

since james doesn't speak french w harry (i hc he's only comfortable speaking it w reg) harry is used to having a conversation in two different languages so sometimes he'll be speaking french w his friends without noticing

he'll be in the middle of a rant and realize they don't understand a thing he's saying lol

reg and harry control the decorating for every holiday, every birthday, etc.

the one thing harry knows how to do that reg doesn't/reg didn't teach him is cooking. reg never cooked for himself as a child so james was the one who taught him

doesn't look like it most of the time but all of harry's clothes are very expensive... did i mention he's a snob

harry is such a dry texter/writer... he's such a dick about grammar when it comes to writing even tho he can barely string a sentence together when speaking

deeply sarcastic (look! a canon detail! we never thought we'd see that on this account, did we?)

will take his partners on the most expensive dates & whatnot like it's nothing... cedric the farmboy™️ is not prepared

writes sad boy poetry when he gets annoyed w someone... like harry will storm off all pissed and then he comes back 20 mins later with a beautifully written, very angry poem for whoever made him mad

has so many clothes & different curtains and bedding sets for different seasons that he also uses the closet in the guest room (reg takes up 99% of his and james's closet for the same reason)

has an inherent hatred of fake plants

bedroom is simultaneously tidy and so messy a hurricane might as well have come through

leaves a book behind everywhere he goes

secretly the worst sense of humor lmao

he may not have gotten his love of drawing/painting from regulus, but you def see reg in the way he is, you guessed it, a massive snob about art supplies

soooo indecisive. redoes his room at least twice a year

an asshole when he gets less than 10 hours of sleep... he's mildly tolerable after 3 cups of coffee (black, of course) but you might as well just ignore him until he gets a nap in

on that note is very good at making coffee and is, drum roll please, a massive snob about it. who would've guessed (somebody count how many times i've said snob in this post and comment it please and thank you)

if he doesn't like a gift he's horrible at pretending he's happy w it so people usually go through reg whenever they buy him something... this goes both ways too, people go through harry when buying something for reg

is visually james and lily's but in personality is really just reg's (and also lily's... he definitely inherited his spite from her lol)

is a crazy cat lady by age 20

at least 10 pictures of leo in his room... he has whole photoshoots for her and she poses for them

might as well not hang out w harry at his house bc he'll make out with his cat the whole time

loves going to art museums w regulus

he's a, surprise surprise, snob about art. james just doesn't comment on art altogether atp

his vocabulary is a weird mashup of french, english, and hindi that makes it very hard for anybody who doesn't know him well to understand what he's saying lol

looks angry until he smiles (he got this from lily but a life with reg has perfected it)

needs a golden retriever to his black cat in any given relationship (enter cedric and cho) (yes i'm going to push my rarepair on everyone reading this)

tl;dr being raised by/living w regulus has turned harry into a massive snob about literally everything and regulus is proud of it (blink twice if you need help, james)

[my-my-my]

Obsessed, they're playing with a hanafuda deck 😭 I know this is filler (from ep 257), but it was fun to see how they're playing! I thought they were playing koi-koi, but Katen Kyokotsu is playing with them. Koi-Koi is a 2-player game, so I think they're playing Hana-Awase.

This is me rambling/fangirling over hanafuda and it's a bit image heavy, so I'm putting it behind the cut.

Katen Kyokotsu managed to get 5 Brights 😭 that's so hard to do!

Also for Shunsui's card pile (top), he managed to make Ino-Shika-Cho (Boar, Deer, Butterfuly) which is worth 5 points!

He also has the sake cup, but since he doesn't have Cherry Blossoms or Moon Brights, he can't make "Cherry Blossom Viewing" or "Moon Viewing". The sake cup is relatively useless unless he begins making a "junk" pile (which he is, but it only has 4 cards). I think they're playing a variation where the sake cup can be considered as an "animal" card. I find it funny how Shunsui has the sake cup - it has the characters for "longevity" inscribed in it. He is the last-man standing (aside from Katen, but does she really count if she's a part of Shunsui lol).

Jushiro's spread includes "Red Poetry Ribbons" (also worth 5 points) and he's also close to making "Animals/Variety" (he needs one more animal to make it). The January (pine) and February (plum blossom) poetry ribbons only have "red ribbon" written on them, but March (cherry blossom) says "Miyoshino" which refers to to "Yoshino" in Nara prefecture - known for their splendid cherry blossoms!

This is an unserious post lol. I just love hanafuda (and by association, koi-koi) SO MUCH. I eat it up when I see it in the media I consume.

[h0neysp1ce]

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♡- Kaveh is a man who is very lovey-dovey and affectionate. He follows his heart rather than his head. He’s bubbly, friendly, and outgoing- sometimes a bit over the top -but you still love him all the same.

♡- Kaveh’s hobbies are diverse, reflecting his refined tastes. From music and poetry to all types of art, his interests are as varied as his talents. After all, he is an architect, so it’s expected!

♡- His primary love languages are Physical Affection and Words of Affirmation.

♡ ︎- Whenever he’s not buried in his work, trying to meet a deadline, he’s with you, cuddling up and showering you with kisses, on your cheeks, neck, and of course, your lips. He’s very affectionate and expresses his love for you openly.

♡- With words, he’s great at comforting. Whether you’re having a good day or a bad day, he knows just what to say, making it all feel better.

♡ ︎- Kaveh does use pet names ranging from : Ruby, Pearl, Darling, Sweetheart, My Love, and Dear.

“Sweetheart, you’re home early,” Kaveh replies gleefully as you exchange eye contact. “Yes, I am. Now, what have you been up to, Mr. Architect?” you ask, walking over to him and wrapping your arms around him gently. “Nothing much, just working. Gotta catch those deadlines, you know,” he says, leaning in to kiss you softly. “I love you, my precious Ruby,” he adds. “I love you too.”

♡ ︎- You two met through a run-in—literally. It was an accident that brought you together. Walking down the street, you bumped into him, and that was the beginning of it all.

♡ ︎- man is definitely clingy he loves you of course he's gonna cling

♡ ︎- jealous type maybe, very respectable as well always having respect towards you

♡ ︎- Romantic guesters he does : Taking one of your hand and kissing the back of it is one of his common ones with you, he also loves slow dancing with you , you too dancing together is just so romantic and as said before he is that type of romantic 

♡ ︎- he picks flowers for you occasionally , he's an impress cook at that his cooking is amazing and he loves cooking for you ,

♡ ︎- one time he even let you put eye liner on him 

Hold still- You told him as he was seated in a chair while you were doing his eyeliner

"ow- Name that hurt"- well if you weren't moving so much it wouldn't have you give a small chuckle to him

♡ ︎- thing to add with cuddling is that he loves to be small spoon cuddling up to you where his head is under your chin and he lays on your chest 

♡ ︎- that is you two's sleeping position almost every night.

♡ ︎- when he's away on trips in Sumeru because of his job as an artichect he tends to miss you a lot and is always glad when his work and trips end briefly so he can see you again.

ending there before I go crazy and write a mile long of head canons and scenarios for him lol :D

[goblins-riddles-or-frocks]

Copying over my thoughts about Nosferatu (2024) feeling more in conversation with Coppola Dracula than either Nosferatu film— primarily because Tumblr DMs simply do not have a search function, and I would like to keep it to look back on

I’m probably going to have to rewatch to have firmer opinions. But at the moment:

For me the biggest departures were in the character of Count Orlok and the general narrative style and how the film imparted its themes

In the former case, I personally felt he was pretty squarely just Dracula. In the book, Dracula is narratively presented more as a force of nature than a fully dynamic character. He’s introduced at his most like human and approachable in the Jonathan at the castle segment, and then from that point on he’s less and less present as a character, rather than something terrifying that’s happening to the protagonists

Both earlier Nosferatu films, by virtue of having a much smaller scale of plot, end up with Orlok being more present for the run of the screen time. I feel he is also more dynamic? I associate that character more with like shame, deprivation, and a compulsive element to sexual repression and therefore sexual desire. There’s something very raw and nearly vulnerable about him between both Schrek and Kinski’s portrayals

Dracula, by contrast, I associate more with power, and control, and the themes of deviance presented more through excess. As the progenitor of Orlok, the above characteristics are present in him as well. But Nosferatu, and Orlok are basically like black out poetry to Dracula. In pairing down other elements, and emphasizing specific things, the end result is very different

In Eggers’ film, the emphasis on Orlok demanding Thomas call him by his proper title, that they are not equals, and that Orlok is his lord, and the later emphasis on the power he has over the Renfield character (I cannot remember his name lol) all feel decidedly Dracula esque, where the focus is more on pride for a faded glory days, and the desire to rule (tying to the novel’s preoccupation with decrepit aristocracy vs the new Victorian age of a modern middle class) rather than a sort of cringing, tragic shame. As does the general colder, more emotionless portrayal, and the line where he says “he is an appetite.” The latter felt the most to me like an attempt to thread the needle between the pestilence and compulsion specific themes happening with Nosferatu, and Dracula as a force of nature. But it still felt like a stronger lean towards Dracula on the larger scale

Re: narrative style, I feel like the Eggers film was also much less interested in the surreal, more intuitive tone the Murnau film set with its Expressionist style, and that the Herzog film followed up on. It was much more logical and about the collective cast of characters trying to figure out The Rules, and best Orlok that way. (It’s a very culturally anglophone approach)

As for it as a rebuttal to Coppola Dracula specifically, I definitely got that sense with Orlok’s general characterization. Where it went out of its way to portray and style him as like a faded Transylvanian warlord but decidedly leaving out the Vlad the Impaler backstory the Coppola film introduced. (Which, I mean they couldn’t really do with Orlok anyway, but it still felt pointed to me, because it’s something that book fans complain about a lot wrt the 1992 film and its impact on the pop culture perception of the character) Additionally, the specific way it handled scenes where Ellen goes into her trances, did feel like commentary on the Lucy scenes and how they had been more eroticized. Where here it’s so very not. The very first scene in the movie goes on to show her moaning in a field (reminiscent in setting to the wolfman assault scene in Coppola) and then ending it on her having a seizure. The use of seizures for horror itself feels a bit stale, but it gets the point across. As does the later reveal that she was probably meant to be an adolescent at that point. The way they shot her sleepwalking outdoors also just felt visually similar to me

There were a lot of little things with the side cast too. Harding particularly felt so much like a cynical take on Arthur Holmwood. And his interactions with Van Franz (I do wonder why they didn’t just call him Bulwer!) felt very specific to the sort of dynamic that exists in the Coppola film specifically

Willem Dafoe’s Van Franz, in general, felt so strongly in conversation with Anthony Hopkins’ Van Helsing. A complaint I’ve seen a lot from book purists (that I don’t personally agree with in this case) is that he’s so mean and sleazy in that film? And I feel in styling, eccentricity, and the light humor of his interactions, he felt very Hopkins esque but Van Franz is so decidedly kind to Ellen. He’s a very empathetic character throughout the whole movie.

Meanwhile, the blood drinking scenes in the castle being framed as sexual assault is very in keeping with Nosferatu. But how explicit it is, and the highlighting of Thomas as a victim, and its concern with his trauma, again felt like a direct rebuttal to the sexier framing of Jonathan’s time in the castle, and the erotic framing of the Brides drinking from him.

And yes, the way it presented Ellen and Orlok’s relationship (and Ellen and Thomas’s) seemed very much informed by the Coppola movie as well. Definitely the framing of it as more monstrous than romantic, but also her emotions being very fraught and complicated about it felt like it was playing off that? There’s the scene with Mina and Dracula late in the movie where she’s like “You killed Lucy; I love you” basically in the same breath. The emphasis on Ellen having sought out some sort of connection once because of an innate mysterious affinity with him (that itself feeling, to me, comparable to the Coppola specific element of Mina being predisposed to having romantic feelings for and a sense of familiarity with Dracula because of the reincarnation backstory) felt informed by that. The scene early on where she describes her dream of wedding death, the concept, and it’s blissful despite being objectively horrible, or the later scene where she tells Thomas about how her childhood (yikes…) relationship with Orlok was “blissful at first.” The ways that the movie went out of its way to portray nuance in their dynamic and that she may have some degree of mixed feelings but that it’s still unequivocally her being preyed on felt very in conversation with Coppola specific themes to me. (And also the more cynical take on how she would be socially treated for it)

Additionally the top down shot after they’ve both died just felt more similar to the Dracula final shot than either Nosferatu film’s in my opinion