#does that make me a sadist????
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Watching RWBY with friends and having it be their first time is the best thing.
Like watching them react and form opinions of the characters and then watching it completely change later?
Phenomenal.
Seeing them try to theorize what will happen and have them looking at you for the answers and the pure despair when you reveal nothing?
Empowering.
Seeing them slowly start to get obsessed with the show just like you?
Fantastic.
17473819/10 would recommend
#Iām not evil I swear#thereās just something about watching my best friend suffer like I did the first time through#does that make me a sadist????#oh well donāt know donāt care#I love this show so much#donāt worry Iām sure when#AND YES I MEAN WHEN#V10 comes out Iām going to be suffering greatly as retribution#but for now I hold all the power#rwby#greenlight volume 10#greenlight rwby volume 10#greenlightvolume10#save rwby#crwby#save crwby#iām gonna go cry now
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Alastor pulls the āweāre not so different; you and Iā card š¤Ŗ
Donāt fall for it Vaggie!!!!
#pov: youāve become your parent#vaggieās comment in the finale made me think of this#and her excitement about making the guests fight in the doomsday district#she suppresses her sadistic nature#but it does existtttt#meanwhile alastor is quite literally letting his freak flag fly#hazbin hotel#my doods#hazbin hotel fanart#alastor#vaggie#do I tag chaggie if itās this small of a cameo???#liked by ad#that tag is for me
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it shouldnāt be glossed over just how empathetic Joel is. he expressed empathy towards Ellie given her dire case of being a child within the confines of a cruel, unforgiving-apocalyptic world that supplants what should have been a habitual childhood for her. he offered an apology for scolding Henry and calling him a rat without initially reconciling the benign intentions behind his actions. he pleaded for the elderly sniper on the outskirts of kansas city to put down the rifle so he didnāt have to kill him. it all accentuates just how against his nature he must be to survive in this world. he canāt always spare people, he canāt always shed sympathy. but he wishes he could, and even on occasion tries. itās the very context he once stooped to the level of the hunters in his past that makes this point pang all the more. he isnāt apathetic. he isnāt exclusively selfish. he isnāt rigid. he is open-ended. Joel is more than a hammer that sees all problems as a nail to be forcefully struck without finesse. He values compassion and preserving life, and any ultimatum that cements the opposite only elicits a last resort of violence and numbness. the silver lining is more desirable than conforming to cruelty
#thinking about this makes me realize how much the firefly hospital is going to mess me up#joel isnāt sadistic thereās no sick pleasure in killing or demeaning people#he cares so so very much#he wants life to thrive and he is willing to accept when heās wrong#god this iteration of joel makes me wanna chug down wet cement#drives me stir crazy he really does#the last of us hbo#the last of us#the last of us hbo spoilers#tlou spoilers#joel miler#pedro pascal#ellie williams#bella ramsey
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my personal headcanon is the vees were unremarkable nobodies when they were alive. i just love it as a thematic throughline for them. they love to let the public of hell speculate on them being famed and acclaimed since before death, but the the truth is they were a d-list failed influencer that got by on cheap controversey and scamming, a broke junkie who burned every shaky bridge he ever had, and a worn-out broadcast production assistant with more rejected auditions and tossed out script pitches than he could count. nobody missed them when they were gone, nobody cared who they were until they were dead.
#because villains who didn't start off supremely powerful are more interesting to me#vees#it's not that they CAN'T be better. or that they're simply ignorant of the ways they fuck up others lives#they actually all do have that knowledge of being the underdog. and it's made them all the more shitty#because they never want to be those people again#narratives about people who make each other worse <3#to be clear they were still shitty people in life. manipulative. consumed by greed and envy. all their individual flaws etc etc#but hell made them into the absolute worst versions of themselves#of course what their Worst Self is and the journey/length of time/initial reaction to being in hell varies#like val sees hell as a continuation of the things happening in life. just w/ the power dynamics always privileging him#it's the same drugs and violence. except the violence isn't just survival anymore but the chance to indulge his deeply sadistic desires#vox has completely dissociated from his time alive. that person is dead and he's reinvented himself 1000 times over since then#90% of the time he has those memory files shoveled into a hidden directory#he refuses to acknowledge that he's still haunted by some of the same insecurities from almost a century ago#val doesn't necessarily see his living self in a fond light but he does see that person as fundamentally him#velvette thinks life was full of people who weren't her demographic but fortunately that's been fixed by sinners!#they just couldn't Get Her and that was all their faults#the primary way they view their past selves can be summed up as: scorn (vox) apathy (valentino) and in denial (velvette)#sorry the bulk of the post was in the tags. i will be doing this again#the scorn is the coping mechanism for shame. of course
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Maybe I'm a masochist, a sadist, or both, but I have to say it... we were robbed of a real reaction shot of Charles hearing Edwin screaming from Esther's device.
The one time it cuts back to Charles struggling, Edwin has temporarily stopped screaming. Then the girls show up and keep Esther busy, so he's not screaming for a significant amount of time. Charles is getting his bag and picking the lock during that time. When Esther restarts the device again at a higher level, Charles is dropping down into the snake pit.
We never actually see Charles hearing him even though he definitely could. Niko and Crystal could hear his screams from outside.
If they were going to emphasize that Charles was completely helpless and unable to do anything to rescue Edwin, and then make us listen to his agony, the least they could've done was give us that reaction as compensation for the devastation they unleashed on us.
(ko-fi)
#does this make me a masochist?#cause it would hurt my heart?#does this make me a sadist?#cause i want to see them suffer?#who the hell even knows#but if you're going to make protectiveness one of the main qualities of their relationship#you gotta go all in on how destroying it is for one to see or hear the other in pain#their name is payneland for a reason#they gotta live up to it lmfao#when their partner being in pain hurts them more than their own injuries do#you know it's the good shit#dead boy detectives#rambles: dead boy detectives#the case of the hungry snake#charles rowland#jayden revri#payneland
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finally started p5 royal ā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļø
expect some royal trio art soon they are my dearly beloveds (minus akechi i hope he dies in this reality too)
#love that ren got the sad boy kdrama fit#also no idea how akechi survived i want to shake it out of him so bad why are you gatekeeping stupid bitch#idk if this is just him w/o the pleasant boy facade but he seems so much more exhausted and cruel#like everything he says is verbal irony bc heās patronizing everyone. he hates being a team player sm itās insane ššš#heās so withdrawn and short tempered and actually mentally unstable. like sadistically so#i think these are all warning signs#if he dies again iām ending it all. you didnāt come back from the dead just to die on me again#also sumireā¦.i love her so badā¦..my sweet girlā¦.my baby ā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļø#sumire yoshizawa they could NEVER make me hate you#she reminds me of a fawn šššš with her big soft doe eyes and how sheās so curious and eager#GAAAAAHHH every time she comes up on screen i want to give her a headpat SO BADā¦..SHES SUCH A FUCKING CUTIE#i feel so bad for ren bro heās literally stuck babysitting the new kid and simultaneously keeping akechi on a leash š#poor boy needs a break. we should go to hawaii again that was fun#anyway yeah that's all#hopefully iāll finish the game this week iām sick of this. i want to move on
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āIt could be that the loss of her children drove the Queen deeper into her darker desires...but, I donāt believe she was fighting against them that hard before that particular tragedy. No monster does.ā (Patreon)
Bonus:
Hmm, wonder what he could cover those holes with :3c
#Doodles#Handplates#UT#Fellplates#UkaGaster's answers about Toriel really interest me :3c#As evidenced by the quote caption lol - but his other ones are very interesting too! Since it sounds like she's still around!#Poor classic Handplates!Gaster believed Tori dead for such a long time while she was at the Ruins#Meanwhile Fellplates!Gaster is just like ''? I saw the Queen last week she threw me into the pricker bushes? -.Ć²'' lol#But anyhow lol āŖ The implications that they're still in each other's vicinity really makes me curious about their relationship!#And how Toriel might react to knowing that someone - someone other than her - is having So Much Success on one of her sore spots#Not just of having children but of the constant reminders of Gaster's success where she has to live every day with a heavy heart for her own#Being cruel to him over it - well that's just par for the course isn't it āŖ#He mentions that she's much more of an emotional sadist - insulting him and then making it Very clear that she does Not approve of the holes#''They're ugly and you should feel ashamed for drawing so much attention to something so unsightly''#I do think that her knowing that he's so intent on being kind and merciful and then twisting the knife on how much he's hurting her-#Making him feel guilty for daring to even attempt the betterment of all - for giving pieces of himself away and try to be a good person#''If anyone will break my spirit it will be her'' :)#Although that's all assuming that Toriel even knows about the brothers! :0 When I thought about it later it'd make more sense if she doesn't#It was still too good to not do something with the idea hehe - but imagine her betrayal if/when she found out tho she'd kill him on the spot#Gosh I haven't drawn Tori in foreeeeever I can't even remember the last time#Doing a/nother study on her would probably be fun haha she's rather plain how I draw her currently#I wonder if her Fellplates version would also wear reading glasses hehe#And the bonus :3c Where are the plates featured in Fellplates? Surely it's not just called that as a reference right āŖ Hehehe
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I didn't like how many female characters were sexualized in clone wars but then they did this with Obi Wan for half a season and it felt fair again.
#sexualizing women means skimpy clothint#sexualizing men means beating them up#like how did they know this was EXACTLY what I wanted to see#does this make me a sadist#now I feel bad#but he does look hot here#star wars#clone wars#star wars clone wars#obi wan#obi wan kenobi
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impromptu meta at 2 ā oh wait 1 in the morning thank you daylight saving time
the thing about light yagami is that we all know he is repression incarnate. and we also know that kira was born out of his desperate need to justify sort-of-accidentally killing two people. and so therefore kira isn't what light's repressing, not at the outset; kira is an extension of his repression.
and the death note and his need to hide it very quickly takes over light's life. so it's easy to say that light is light yagami on the outside and kira on the inside, and maybe light feels that way. but. kira is just as much a persona as light yagami. a more hidden persona, but still not the real him, whoever that is.
and the thing is that no one sees past that. ever. most people obviously fall for the charming boy act, but even the detectives āĀ L, near, mello ā god, even ryuk stops at part two. i think a lot about how L set up the mock execution because he thought that kira would have killed his own father if necessary. can you see light doing that? eighteen-year-old light yagami who said "if anything happens to you, dad ā i'll see that kira gets the death penalty. i swear it."? remember when ryuk laughs at how good an actor he is afterwards and light doesn't look at him?
light never thinks kira is evil. even in yotsuba arc he acknowledges that they think very similarly, just that kira has gone too far. (ha, ha.) for all of death note light yagami is light yagami, who says if kira wins then kira is good, who has convinced himself he is doing the right thing. he gets frustrated when other people don't perceive him the same way ā lind l tailor, misa killing police chiefs while pretending to be kira ā but the anger has nowhere to go other than murdering more people.
light yagami is kira is light yagami. but L, ryuk, everyone doesn't manage to see through kira in the end.
and after L dies,Ā well. no one will ever measure up to L, in light's eyes. he almost idolizes him in the weirdest way possible. so maybe, he thinks, if the only person in the world who could ever possibly see all of him (this isn't true, it's just what light believes) thought he was just a murderer, then maybe ā
i think he hollows himself out in the second arc. in the anime he seriously considers killing sayu; in the manga he never does that but justifies his unwillingness to himself by saying that this way soichiro and light won't come under suspicion (they weren't going to in the first place). light doesn't really have a sense of self. L said he was evil and of course L is wrong āĀ was wrong ā will always be wrong ā but isn't it easy to play into that stereotypically evil image of himself? especially after soichiro, his last moral compass, dies: isn't it easy to nullify misa's memories, to say she's not intelligent enough to be my partner, to kill kiyomi in the most painful way possible?
("light would have done the same things in the first arc!" sure. but not with that much callousness.)
it's just. it's tragic, you know? light has always pretended to be nicer than he is but he isn't the cold any-means-necessary person they thought kira was either. he is constantly playing someone he thinks he is but he can never escape being light, in the end.
does this make any sense do i sound insane
#death note#light yagami#it is. really fucking important to me that L never figures it out in canon actually.#you could argue maybe he does through yotsuba#but i dont think so#i think yotsuba light was so desperate to be moral that he didnt have much of a personality anyway#anyway this is why i am convinced transition could save light yagami#i should probably have written this at a different time to make it sound better but i hope this is . understandable.#it somewhat annoys me when people imply that light is kira internally#like yeah. he's awful. he's misogynistic and an asshole. i like the sadist hcs also#but that's not All of him. it's not#no one sees him in the end. no one fucking sees him at all.#the disciples are sort of an exception to this paradigm because they both know light is kira and think he's right#and misa has lived with him for five years! five entire years!#but misa never really had an interest in understanding him either
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I'm going to do that thing my sister does where I post art I make even if I'm worried people will judge it for some reason despite the fact that I doubt anyone will-
Anyway, have a silly doodle page of a scenario we keep bouncing around in which Lilith is like- ultra sadistic and keeps hurting Alastor when he goes to give her updates on the hotel. There's a bit of stuff to the soul contract stuff we've added but this is all for fun. The two on the left are my favorite-
Anyway-
#hazbin hotel#alastor#hazbin hotel alastor#hazbin hotel fanart#feathers rambling#fanart#hazbin hotel charlie#charlie#rosie#hazbin hotel rosie#my art#my hazbin hotel art#Does this make me a loser?#That's fine I'll live with that#why tf do I always worry so much???#Gonna make more doodles of this so you'll have to suffer w/ me#sadistic!lilith#hazbin au#Spilling Your Blood || Hazbin AU
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I'm kinda weirded out that Bi-Han scars his brother and people act like him being a little mean to Tomas is his worst deed and he deserves to die for it or something. Bi-Han doesn't owe Tomas any love or respect. You don't have to like someone just because daddy said so.
I totally agree that hating Bi-Han for not liking or loving Tomas as a brother is pretty wild take on his character, because he did not ask for such a bond, the same as Tomas did not ask to be orphaned and adopted into Grandmasterās family. Both were forced into a situation created by adults that apparently couldnāt act appropriately to the situation (e.g. killing Tomasā mother and sister when the family accidentally trespassed on Lin Kuei territory and Grandmaster adopting Tomas out of shame / to save his honor rather than out of love/care for the boy).Ā
What is even weirder to me, Kitana and Mileena had in previous timeline(s) bitter relationship yet I donāt see fandom to hate original/alternative MK9!Kitana for rejecting Mileena ("You are not my family... you are a monstrosity!") and looking down on her because of Tarkatan blood (ā[Shang Tsung] has created horrid replicas of me crossbred with Tarkatan blood!ā). People apparently can acknowledge that Kitana was thrown into āsisterhoodā she did not ask and the creation of ātwin sisterā happened out of her control and knowledge while also understanding it was no Mileenaās fault for acting and looking the way she was because it was how she was specifically created. If fandom can accept and support Kitanaās choice of rejecting āsisterā on the spot without any empathy to look at the situation from her perspective AND AT THE SAME TIME can feel sorry for Mileena, then the similar treatment should be given to Bi-Han and Tomas, as they were presumably children who adapted to the unfamiliar situation in their own ways. However the main difference between those two scenarios is that Mileena is the āpsychoā (so Kitana is excused for not wanting her as a sister) while MK1!Smoke is the personality-wise castrated version of MK9!Tomas who for whatever reason is now the fandomās Cinnamon Roll that never did anything wrong and anyone who doesnāt melt at the sight of this cutie IS BIG MEANIE, boo!
A character not loving fansā favorite does not commit a crime however fandom wants to present it as unquestionable proof of said characterās evilness. Fictional or real life, people are allowed to not like each other as the definition of family will vary from culture to culture, and from one person to another - it does not however allow anyone to abuse other people, but that should go without saying.
Bi-Han said mean things to Tomas, and Kuai Liang for that matter. He in general treated others in a similar, cold fashion. But objectively speaking he did much more questionable things over the course of the story, yet people are fixated on Smokeās feelings alone - and to be honest, I'm not even surprised anymore by that.
But you know what frustrates me the most about fandomās perception of Bi-Han and Tomas relationship? The amount of fanwork presenting Bi-Han as always mean, always abusive to the poor poor little Tomas which is not just the best proof the fandom is set to demonize kid Bi-Han for his adult selfās choices. It is the whole implication that Grandmaster and the Mother and like everyone involved in raising the brothers, all the masters and teachers did not act to prevent it from happening nor cared to correct Bi-Hanās action. And the most sick thing about that? Children imitate the behavior of adults. Do people really think that kid Bi-Han started saying "Lin Kuei blood only" bullshit out of his mind just to spit in the pitiful orphan's face? Like, really?
Stupid beliefs like that come from somewhere and children are taught by their parents and adult people around what āvaluesā and traditions they should respect and follow. We literally know just three Lin Kuei characters and the fact that only Kuai Liang and Tomas rejected Sub-Zeroās leadership while the clan followed their Grandmaster implies Bi-Hanās beliefs are accepted and shared by the clan. So maybe instead of being so set on demonizing kid!Bi-Han - who so far was only said to be āalways coldā to Tomas what is not equal to being abusive and cruel on purpose - maybe it is time for fandom to examine previous Grandmaster and the whole clanās beliefs that A) were passed to Bi-Han to mold him into man he is today and B) apparently fucked up Tomasā childhood so much.
#mortal kombat#tomas vrbada#sub zero#bi han#my replies#do i sound bitter? good because i'm so tired of this weird new trend to present kid bi han as some sort of bastard#always tormenting poor tomas while everyone apparently don't give a shit maybe beside kuai liang#like do you really think that grandmaster's son in a clan set to turn children into warriors to serve earthrealms#would be spoiled instead of taught the warrior discipline from childhood like everyone else?#and it may be just me but when i hear someone is cold it means he does not want to bond with you not being an asshole with sadistic impulse#but sure let's blame a kid bi-han and not the way he was raised by adults WHO SHOULD make sure kid Tomas was safe in unfamiliar environment#sorry rant over
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My abs are so fucking sore today, I need Retsu Unohana to smile at me with zero mercy reflected in her eyes while making me hold stretches that should be illegal.
#almost cried stretching this morning#and I was like āI feel her presence itās like sheās in the room with meā#Local ages old lesbian does not apologize for making you sob on the tatami mats due to your own hubris#but she Does get sloppy style afterwards#pspspspspsps sadist lesbians pspspspsp
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....I have to see the dentist tomorrow and I can't tell if imagining I'm seeing @taliscat 's scarecrow is making me less or MORE anxious....probably more...if you can't tell I'm mortified
I'm worried that they're gonna tell me I'm gonna have to have surgery for this wisdom tooth coming in and hnnggg if y'all don't hear from me just know that I love you all...
#ri rambles#idk dentists are just#i swear most if not some#are lowkey sadist#which makes it a perfect profession for a scarecrow#but that does nothing to comfort me#r.i.p.
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bsd fic authors i understand yalls pain SO well right now why is it so fucking HARD to write dazai. like i have a whole fucking spreadsheet dedicated to tireless analysis i have done on my part so i can accurately characterize him but he is such an unpredictable and morally gray character that it's hard knowing his limits and boundaries and where he draws the line for himself.
#i hate when ppl make him out to be a sadistic villain with no remorse. like did we read the same manga š#but at the same time he is NOT crying abt all the ppl he sent to the grave. he sleeps just fine at night knowing he committed atrocities#yes he feels remorse? but he isn't like kunikida to weep at someone's grave for failing to save them#and then we have his emotions themselves#dazai isn't emotionless. far from it. he has difficulty expressing affection but yk he finds someone endearing when he trusts them#trust is very important to dazai and is one of the aspects of human emotion that he can fully grasp#but like everything else is in a hazy gray area that he does not feel like exploring. he feels alienated from his humanity bc of this#AUUUGHH can someone help me with character analysis PLEASE#I WASNT PAYING ATTENTION TO THIS MF UNTIL RECENTLY SO I MISSED OUT ON A LOT OF IMPORTANT DETAILS#see i would go and reread a few light novels but like i don't have time for that#and this is for dazai specifically. i am very well versed on his relationships w other charcaters#but just like asigiri himself said: it's very difficult to write dazai and write him WELL#so yeaaa i have a lot of smart ppl following me pls help#bsd#ALSO MY FRIEND STILL HAS NO LONGER HUMAN UUUUGHHHHHH I NEED THAT BACK BC I TABBED IT A SHIT TON#FOR LIKE CONNECTIONS TO YOZO AND BSD DAZAI AND WHERE ASIGIRI DREW INSPIRATION FROM YOZOS CHARACTER FOR DAZAI#THAT WOULD BE SUCH A VALUABLE FUCKING RESOURCE BC I DID SOME ANNOTATIONS IN THEM TOO BUT MY BOOK IS ANOTHER FUCKING STATE#I HATE IT HERE FML
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Scriabin and Edgar eating crepes for requestober !!
Day 8 - Delicious silence
#My art#Requestober#Vargas#Scriabin#Edgar#I haven't drawn food in a while haha it was a fun exercise :)#Edgar made them a breakfast date ā„#You know he did it a) after endless pestering for more chocolate more fruit more cream more powdered sugar#''If you just want to eat sugar don't rope me into it >:0'' ''Oh as if you're too good for sweets come off it'' lol#And b) just to get Scriabin to be quiet about it all haha - he does! Sated for the moment! Yummy! <3#And not-so-secretly he's pleased to make him happy ā„ Scriabin openly enjoying something harmless!! Something good!!#Much better than him sadistically picking at Edgar haha - sometimes things are nice!#They get to enjoy a thing together <3 And if it really is too sweet for Edgar then more for Scriabin haha#He already got an extra strawberry! Healthy snack on the dessert for breakfast lol#It's okay to go all out every once in a while āŖ#Poor Todd missing out on it tho aw haha#Next time full family meal for sure - all the more reason to go a little extra! Spoil the kid(s)!#Scriabin wipe your face or Edgar will do it and then what hehe#I do so enjoy when they're soft and quiet and gentle with each other <3#Kiss the cook! Do it!!
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