#does anyone even rember them

[the-kingshound]

Continuing the 'missing-my-siblings-hours', but, it's Osia, and before anything, I'd like to declare that in here, MC's dead.

This day couldn't get any worse. Osia thought, as she slices off the letter sent from the other noble Houses. Not when there's no one else to annoy her.

Her morning, as usual, started off perfectly. The water were neither too cold or too hot, the latest proposal to the Emporer had been approved, Saraah was not here at all... Hphm! There's no way she'd be thinking of him!

The face of her useless bother popped up in her mind only agitated Osia even further. She gritted her lips, in a force that's so harsh in no doubt she could've bite off whoever dared to cross her way.

Osia halted when she realized something was wrong. Years passed since she last interacted with the rest of the family but her sister, Adrei, and their recent letters bought news of MC's been on the battlefields to fight off another land's rebels.

Dog. Osia chuckled as she pushed down her nerves. Good for her though, being useful to both Crowns.

For a second, she was afraid. However, Osia's always been a warrior as well, only that her swords does not sway across the battlefields, but among the peeping eyes that gathered on her. And it always bought chill to Osia, to be under the spotlight.

She proceeded to cut off the string attached with her dagger, ignoring the slight sting and blood drops that flowed from her thumb.

And she couldn't believe what she'd just read.

No. This can't be... She'd powerful. Strong. Her magic are wild and controlled. If not, Father and Mother, at alone Adrei, wouldn't sent her to the battlefields——

What's the King doing!? Where were the knights!? It, it should've been them!? Anyone but her!?

Osia couldn't breathe through for a moment. Her mind went beyond the year Mother was pregnant, and she'd been there with the rest of her siblings, when MC, was born. She remembered holding her, and there's Saraah annoying her, telling the newly born infant bad jokes.

She'd told her. Osia closed her eyes, and the anxiety in it were gone next. That they're nothing but weakness.

Osia walked up to her wardrobe. Now, they'd needed a gown. Precisely all black. Adrei could wait a bit longer, surely her sister won't mind.

Osia let the blood bleed even longer than she noticed.

(So, this is my take on Osia. I honestly went with my own flow. And I hope I've captured her well.)

Osia lays in bed.

She hasn't been able to sleep for four days. Beside her, her husband's usual place is empty. If he followed her commands, he should be negotiating with Lord Argal now. She had gripped hos wrist and hissed, "do not come back home without the answer we want."

But even the thought of that task being fullfilled doesn't spark any kind of satisfaction in her. The only thing she is able to feel is the gnawing, horrible black void expand and expand ever since-

Abruptly, anger fills her entire body. She gets up without her usual calculated composure and she grips the wooden sword at the bedside table.

It was her stupid sibling's firs training weapon. Osia rembers the vile words she called them, watching over coldly as they had to get up from the ground again after another idiotic, careless error.

She hurls the wooden sword against the wall with an animalistic growl.

Again, she feels bile in her mouth, the same she would feel when, the next day, a Lady had said, coldly, "now that his guard dog is gone, I wonder who will King Arthur take in marriage to replace them."

Osia would sneer, and hiss at her face in a slightly cracking voice, after having grabbed her by the throat, "shut the fuck up or I'll make you."

[littleesistler]

Tickle rp - green and red flags

Hello dears, I’ve recently had a few conversations with my new lers and lees. And I wanted to make a checklist on how to stay safe during rp

Remember consent is given before, after and during all types of intimacy, so here are a few examples:

Before:

Age and pronouns

What names and nicknames may be used

Ask about boundaries

Decide what spots are going to be tickled

Spots that are gonna be avoided

What tools to use or avoid

Restraints, pinning and how close the lee and ler should be

If both parties should have a safe word

During:

ONLY tickle or mention spots that have been chosen

ONLY use tools and nicknames that have been chosen

Regularly check in and ask questions

Give options for breaks and changing position or technique

Respect safe words and boundaries

If someone changes their mind about a spot stop and talk about it

After:

Cuddles and reassurances

Relax and talk about calming things while both parties recollect themselves

Don’t evaluate instantly since both parties are still full of dopamine and the brain needs time to come down from a high and flustered mood

After a few minutes or even the next day evaluate how the session went for both parties

Stay in contact and don’t just disappear after you’ve gotten what you wanted

Tips for the ler:

Remember you are in a position of power and it’s your responsibility to be in charge since your lee is in a different headspace at the moment. Be carful not to go with the flow. The lee might say yes or keep giggling if you ask them something but afterwards they might regret it. In a flustered headspace you can’t think straight nor consent to a new thing. So that’s why boundaries were sett before. Stick to the script!

Tips for lees

Be on the lookout is your ler asking for boundaries, checking in and staying on track. Are they prioritizing your wants and needs? Do you feel safe to be vulnerable or does it feel forced? If you at any point get an icky or uncomfortable feeling, use a safe word and speak out. You can change your options before, after and during. But remember it’s harder to change something afterwards so speak up. And if you feel like you can’t be open with your ler, then why are you with them!

Please stay safe and rember people lie all the time online and in real life about their age, personality and intentions. If at any point someone feels disingenuous you have two options:

confront them

or

ignore them

A few last tips

Don’t laugh at or make an overstepping of a boundary into a joke, you’re valid to sett a stop and guidelines so don’t discredit yourself.

If an apology is mostly self centered and not taking your feelings into account it’s not genuine.

You don’t owe anyone anything: no pictures, no roleplay, no reactions and no time.

Be aware of gaslighting, manipulation, narcissistic and psychopathic tendencies and how to spot these actions.

Say no, use safe words, speak up, ignore, ghost, leave behind and move on, you deserve only the best

If someone makes you feel uncomfortable they aren’t worthy of your time and that’s period!

[andmaybegayer]

Last Monday of the Week 2024-09-02

Do you rember. Wen day is dark, sember.

Listening: @cyelatm released a new album Habit Prism that I've been listening to in bits and pieces. Even, rhythmic folk, good music to have on when you have people around.

In that vein, Bandcamp Friday this coming Friday! Make your lists!

Watching: Watched The Raid which I've had kicking around for a bit. Do you want to watch guys punch each other all over for like 15 minutes at a time for an hour? No? Get better taste in movies and then watch guys punch each other all over for like 15 minutes at a time for an hour.

The Raid is so obviously made for like two dollars, there's one building, every single gun and piece of armour is airsoft gear, the camera is visibly some mid-tier hardware that suffers from severe rolling shutter, and it kicks so much ass.

There's some really interesting things happening with camera movement in this movie. Really really complicated multi-axis camera moves, the same shot will take like six different dutch angles in a single move, or will lock on to different objects and follow them, it's great for martial arts but it's also used to pretty good effect in some interstitial scenes.

The culminating fight with Mad Dog is so wild, literally just three guys in an empty concrete cube fighting for a solid ten or twelve minutes and it works! Does not seem possible. They actively remove almost every prop from the room so it's just guys hitting each other but they keep doing incredible stunts.

It's funny looking at the gifsets on here because they're unreadable, everything happens so fast and requires so much context that is only delivered in the full flow of the movie. My favourite part is when he said "It's Raiding Time" and raided all over those guys.

Reading: Finally sat down and got through the Phalanx's Twilight, Legion's Triumph series on acoup.

Sections IVa-c mostly slid off my brain because it's a bunch of wars I don't know enough about to contextualize but it's mostly justification for what's explained in parts I-III which were great, and it's an interesting look at how the political and military structures of Rome interwove to improve the effectiveness of the Legion.

Also reading Skin Horse, which I started ages ago but never got very far, I think because I started a job around that time and lost track of it. Sticking webcomic tabs on my little ARM tablet is really convenient, I've jammed Out Of Placers and Laika's Comet in there as well, it's been a while since I did a big archive dive on a comic.

Skin Horse is very much of its time, not really in sensibility but just in content. The nerds are characterized by liking Harry Potter.

Making: Resolved the power delivery issues that were causing me to have mysterious failures with the LED driver. That was annoying. Anyway remember to split your power supply when you could potentially pull like 10A@5V to drive LED's.

Playing: Tactical Breach Wizards campaign is ongoing, as you get deeper into the campaign your team expands which dramatically complicates operations, your possible actions explode, and I'm not even halfway through.

Dall was my newest operator at time of writing and she's probably the hardest to use, she can deal a lot of damage but relies more so than anyone else on good positioning, it's really easy to end up way out of place and waste her moves, and she's too heavy to shunt around with Jen's storm attacks the way you can with the others.

Speaking of those, I really like how the short turns and deterministic actions mean you can get really into the weeds. The first time I used a gale grenade to shunt Zan over one extra block to line him up I assumed this would be a sometimes food but you really find yourself doing stuff like that all the time.

I'm heading back and picking through some of the challenge missions concurrently with playing partially to stretch out overall gameplay and partially because I think having fewer abilities unlocked will make those more interesting.

Tools and Equipment: You know, I think we know each other pretty well, I can put this here. The Doxy USB-C Wand is a safe and legal thrill.

[ebitenpura]

3, 5, 7, 10 love ask for eight :3

(i no rember if you answered any of them already sorry if there are repeats!!)

Asks

3. What does your OC look for in a romantic (or perhaps purely sexual) partner? Is this always healthy?

To be honest, Eight is a simple soul. What he looks for in a partner varies wildly because he himself isn't sure what exactly he's looking for beyond reciprocated interest, and that isn't the healthiest mindset to have when one should be more specific with what they actually want. He wants a connection, first of all, if this is romantic; in a sexual partner, he doesn't require that whatsoever and will leave in the morning once they've satisfied each other. Now if feelings come into the mix, that's a little more complicated.

Besides looking for just the chance of having a bond at all, he looks for someone he can maybe trust-- maybe is doing a lot of work here because he could go well without it. He's been known to have unrequited feelings towards another party and been content to call that a romantic relationship. Again, not the most healthy. But he desires someone he can be vulnerable with, despite that seeming like a pipe dream in his lifetime and experiences, and someone who wouldn't be averse to seeing him as he is, secrets and all. That may be the stopgap that prevents him from stepping over many a threshold, for he can hardly stand himself as a concept.

A lot of this is pining where it should be more concrete, because love is such a faraway idea that it borders on fantasy for him. Who could look at him and see anything but a bloodied killer? Someone who's been alone all their life for good reason and will continue to be? He doesn't even know what he wants half the time because he's never known such kindness. There are so many factors in the way that would prevent him from knowing. And yet, he still dreams.

5. Would your OC ever take advantage of someone’s romantic feelings in order to manipulate them?

Absolutely. If it's for the job, it's nothing personal. He'll pity them the entire time it's happening, and perhaps regret that someone who has feelings for him had to be in the wrong place in the wrong time and meet him at all, but he'll do it. He's a tool first and a person second, and that applies to what he wants as well.

7. What is the most romantic gesture your OC has ever performed? Alternatively (or additionally), what romantic gesture would they most like to perform?

Sort of answered this here.

10. Does your OC have a type? Have they ever been surprised by their feelings for someone who doesn’t fit this?

He's unsure whether he does. He lacks that kind of worldly knowledge; an Echani's type is supposed to be someone who is their equal in both strength and spirit. Yet, sometimes he's been attracted to others who are either marginally stronger than him, or even weaker but make up for it in a different aspect of their self. He's been attracted to Jadus, to Shara Jenn, to Jedi, to Sith, to other agents-- but he is attracted in a word, to someone who might understand and share a place of common ground with him. He is also attracted to mysteries. Which, could really mean anyone. So, while he is surprised often by who he might be attracted to (it's a roulette whether he feels anything at first), it's not often a shocker at the same time. He is starved for connection and that comes in a myriad of souls.

[yandere-foods]

if you're going to be active again, can I ask for any thoughts/head cannons on yandere pretzel,,?

I've had that concept spinning around in my head for awhile and ngl I might draw it soon dfhfhfh (>‿‿<)

Okay! Let's shake off some rust...and see if I still got it.

*His face is very stirn when ever you see him, you honestly think he doesn't like or care for you with how furrowed his brow gets as he looks at you.

*little do you know it's because seeing you raises feelings out of him that have long since been..well..nonexistent.

*his heart races when he sees you do the smallest of things, and nearly explodes when you do larger things.

"..I've never had feelings like this..I may be do for a confessional.."

*He has a soft spot for children and smiles gently when you offer to help him kneed and make bread for them.

*you have a light that he doesn't see in most humans...and he wants to protect it.

*now on a scale from 1-10 he cruises at a solid 3 at the possibly of kidnapping. Like most of the softer foodsouls he wants to care for your light..not snuff it out.

*(that number drastically goes up if bloody marry gets involved don't @me.)

* His affection is subtle but it's out of character, light touches on your hands, gentle touches up your arms if he daring..and the temptation to kiss every inch of you body..the thought of it really brings the holy man to his knees.

"Applogies, I was trying to assist you with kneading the bread...My face is not red."

*being a Protective yandere his traits don't really show until..well you're in danger.

*and this ranges from fallen angels to other food souls trying to taint his shining star.

*Fallen angles are easy to dispose of, and their death, much to his displeasure, is quick and merciful..how he wish he could dual out more punishment..

*food souls on the other hand..that's much harder..especially if they were summoned by you..he tries not to mind until they try to tempt you astray.

* Wiskey, Bloody Marry, Boston Lobster, Lamb Chops just to name a few. They make his blood boil when they use their dark whispers to lead you to sin.

"Do you rember the story I told the children about foxs that were let into the hen house? You do? That's good, we should discuss the meaning together tonight."

*He'll start inserting himself between you and the sinners, he calls them eather figuratively or physically. He'll even express concern about letting such people in the restaurant..it worries him...you wouldn't want the younger food souls to fallow their lead right?

* okay so he may use some kind of manipulation but that's not a big deal if it helps you and keeps you safe right? Of course it helps, that's what's he's ment to do is help and protect. He's a soldier of the lord it's his job to protect the meek and nieve.

"Please, just trust me, you have nothing to worry about if you just trust me my light, my angel among the damnned. Trust me I know what's best for you and everything you hold dear. Thank you angel, leave the foxes to me.."

*at least that's what he tells himself as he ushers anyone he deems a sinner away from you, and as time goes on just about everyone falls under that umbrella.

*everywhere he looks he sees sin..his fists clench and teeth grind as his stress goes up.

*Now his snaping is subtle, your so isolated from the other food souls you don't notice that their all gone, or for once his heavenly robes are cast aside for something so casual... it's cute when your tilt your head and ask if he's well.

"Trust me my angel, all is well with my soul."

* You decide not to question why his smile is so bright and why he seems so at peace.

* Or why there is red marking his boots.

How he does affection

* as I was hinting his affection is very tame and subtle, and that's because as a priest he must forgo sins of the flesh and in the beginning he hold that's tightly. How ever as time goes sof after he snaps and forgos his robes he does change little by little.

*his hands trail up and down your body leaning every dip and curve to memory, as he does this he likes to put his head in the back of your neck and kiss softly.

* his favorite places to kiss are you hands, each finger getting a kiss till he kisses the plam and wrist. Second favorite is your shoulders and back of the neck.

*He calls you his light when he is still holy but switches to angel after he's fallen..ironic yeah?

I hope you like this and sorry it took so long, I'll be honest, I didn't think anyone would drop an ask so I sorta lost hope ngl. But when I noticed this morning I was determined to crank this bad boy out!😁😁

[highlifeboat]

Well i think you rember that scene from Resident Evil 7 on the stranded boat were Eveline asks Mia:" can we be a family again like before?" And I onestly wonder what would have happened if Mia just answered with: " Yes Evie, we can be a family, under one condition. You have to promise to never hurt anyone ever again."

What do you think Eveline would have done? I mean it would be totally out of character for her to reject that. She was willing to do anything to get what she wanted. So giving her what she wanted and in turn only demanding that she is no longer killing anyone does not seem like that big of a deal. Sure she was raised to do that but children are impressionable and easier to change than fully grown adults who have already made up their mind. The fact that she disobeyed her creators and the fact that she was doubting herself after losing to Rose clearly proves that she has the will to change. She just doesn´t know in which direction.

So I think it would have worked. Sure raising her, teaching her to control her emotions (and inturn her powers) and giving her the therapi she needs would be the more difficult part, but I think it would be worth it. And if I had to decide between adopting or killing a child I would defenately pick the first one.

So what do you think would It have worked, or how do think Eveline would have responded to that?

First, I love this idea. I think the idea of Mia taking a moment to consider what exactly she's dealing with would be nice, and for her to try and deescalate things by not antagonizing Eveline would... probably save a lot of harm at this point.

So let's assume Mia really takes a look at Eveline, at this child who has just been doing the only thing she knows how to do while trying to find people to be her family, and is kind of like "Goddamn it..." because she actually starts to feel some sympathy for Evie again. She's seeing that little girl that was pawned off to her before the boat ride. She’s a little weird, a little creepy even, but she’s only a kid. So, against her better judgment “Yes, Eveline. We can be a family again-”

And I think that response would just catch Eveline off guard. She’s up out of the chair staring at Mia with disbelief, even some excitement. Then a pause, and hesitation. “You’re not lying again. Right?”

“No, no more lies.” Mia kneels to match Eveline’s height, holding out a hand. “We’ll be a real family this time. I promise. But I need you to promise me something, too, okay?” Eveline gives a small nod. “You can’t hurt anybody else like this. No m  ore molded, no more… controlling people. No more death. Do you think you can do that?”

Still a little cautious, Eveline takes Mia’s hand, and together they go to the lower decks to find Ethan where Eveline frees him from the blob of mold. After a momentary freak out seeing this kid that’s been tormenting him for the past 6 hours, Mia explains the situation to him. He’s hesitant, even skeptical that Mia might not be fully herself, and she understands why. After a lot of reassurance that 1) Mia is not being controlled and made this choice willingly, and 2) Eveline isn’t going to be a harm to them, their only real obstacles are making Eveline a stabilizer so she doesn’t die of rapid aging (chosing to believe this would revert her physical form back to a child), and Blue Umbrella finally doing their job of investigating the place.

The stabilizer is easy enough within the Mine Labs. Lucas has so much stuff on Eveline, he’s bound to have something, and Mia probably has some know-how on how to make it (also cue Mia muttering insults towards The Connections for screwing her over when they were literally in contact with Lucas. Maybe she shouldn’t be surprised, but she still feels a little betrayed.)

Blue Umbrella is a little harder to deal with. They already know Eveline is a Bioweapon. They won’t just let the Winters’ leave with her like nothing. Unless they sneak away with her. Which they probably could since Eveline wouldn’t be keeping them bound to the property anymore.

(There’s also Zoe who I don’t think Mia would feel comfortable just leaving behind and would probably want to go back for)

All of that aside, I think they could make it work out. With Ethan and Mia (and maybe Zoe. I live for cool aunt Zoe) trying to teach Eveline better ways to deal with aggression, a SHITLOAD of therapy (for everyone), and Eveline finally having a (somewhat) normal setting/finally being allowed to just be a child. I think it would largely work out.

Mia and Evie’s relationship would also be kind of intriguing. Because they have to learn to fully trust each other, and while they do they end up with this bond that Eveline initially wanted. The whole time she never allowed Mia to fully slip into the delusions because she wanted legitimate maternal affection/care from her, and now she has that.

Anyway TLDR: Obstacles aside, I think Eveline would accept the offer and they would all live a decent life. Given the circumstances. (They’d probably still be in witness protection because The Connections are going to come for Mia AND Eveline’s asses)

[yournormalidiot]

Omfg ok, you can skip this cause its gonna be long and really doesn't mean much but I need to rant for a minute cause fucking hell

Right I'm so so so such of peope saying "stop useing your dyslexia as an excuse for everything" especially from my older brother (and dad who does ut to both me and my mam [were both dyslexic])

Cause like no. No I won't and you want to guess why? Cause u fucking CAN'T YOU TWAT BAG. like for fuck sake can peole not understand that being neriodivergent (dyslexia, Dyscalculia, ADHD. autism ect) can not just be switched off??? Cause belive me if I could just go: oh nah I'm sick of dyslexia *flip switch* ahh much better, I love being neriotipical:))

NO no that's not how shit works. It I'd always there, no matter what I'm doing. School work, art, reading, cooking, shitting down the toilet it is always there. And im sorry that's so inconveniencing for you but I can't help it cute that littarly how my brain is wired, that's how I work I can help it. And I'm not trying to use it an excuse for not rembering the 16 different task u asked/told me to do while walking around and not ezplain what u needed to do so I took a guess and they weren't done right or up to ur expectations.

Dyslexics struggling with retaining information in our short term memory, you need to give us a few things (max like 5) and explain them to us so we know what to do and tou need to do it face to face. I'm not a mind reader and get confused quickly. Also my brain connection lines (idk what there called) are slowed/delayed on my left side (dentist my Dyslexia) so no most of the time.i won't figure it out and have them all done it the time you think I need, I promise you I'll need longer. Especially than you.

And this goes for everything, learning a new thing, school work, doing jobs, picking up on social queues, noticing signs ect. Especially if what I'm doing is relates to my left brain cause guess what. ITS FUCKED. that's apparent of being dyslexic, also I have Dyscalculia and ierlen syndrome so haha I'm even more fucked and my brain can't process light like "normal" brains. Cause its almost like, *gaps* my brain isn't "nroaml". (Aka neriotipical)

So no I won't stop using my dyslexia as an "excuse" for things cause its not, I'm giving you a reason what you expected/wanted done or whatever isn't. I telling you the reason.so you won't go screaming and balming me and calling me, stupid, slow, lazy, retarded and so on. Which I have been called all by many different peope. Cause I'm not, my brain just isn't wired the way that society has been set up for.

And also I don't use it when it's not linked, it I drop a glass I'm not going "but it's was my dyslexia, you can't give out to me:((" and all that shit no, if I drop a glass it was probably cause of aomthing else and that's fair. But there is some stuff that is linked to my dyslexia and yk if you used the information I gave you and use it when dealing with me I might actually end up being more productive cause now I can work normally.

And for anyone who's like, "but dyslexia/Dyscalculia ect is a learning disabilities, it can't effect your normal life🤓☝️" shut the FUCK UP. you are a stupid piece of shit who have obviously never been close to someone with dyslexia/Dyscalculia ect. Cause guess what it's a NERO PEROBLEM (tranlation for all you stupid fucks: a BRAIN PEROBLEM) so no it does effect my normal life cause the left hemisphere of my brain is slower than a neriotipical person.

Being neriodivergent effects every aspect of our lives cause its who we are, we can't control or change it. It's in our brain, our brain are quite literally wired differently. So just shut up and listen to what I tell you and try work with it for both our sakes.

[nyarmand]

I DONT REMBER WHICH ONES YOUVE ALREADY ANSWERED BUT 7, 9, 10, 12, 16

answered 9 and 10 here!

7. what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them? hmm. you know i'm not actually sure i've ever grown to HATE a character just because of fandom. i do have a very complicated relationship with otacon and eva (fake) these days though

WAIT. PAZ. I DON'T KNOW IF THAT COUNTS AS HATE BUT THE WAY THE FANDOM ACTS ABOUT HER MAKES ME PRETEND SHE DOESN'T EXIST AT ALL 12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

raikov DUH. the original international man of mystery! i have a whole eva theory tag for a reason and it's because even in canon there's clearly more to him than meets the eye! 16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

i can't understand why ANYONE likes volgin and i can't understand why people like any raiden ships ever but those are obvious so hmmm

i can't understand why people like the whole 'jupiter family' thing so much i think it's complete bullshit and snake does NOT deserve to be treated like sunny's family after how he acts with her. like he's just cruel to her.

i can't understand why people like solid snake at all, actually. he bullies a child and he's a creep towards multiple women in multiple games and he's just a jackass overall, ive literally seen every game he's in and each one just made me dislike him more and more. i know he's one of the protagonists but he sucks. be a raiden fan instead

[dawnphoenixrises]

As someone who grew up with both epilepsy and sensory issues and had to try to get accommodations for both I will say this is true. My sensory issues were bad but I had different things to manage them (ear plugs, certain clothes, etc.) HOWEVER I didn’t worry about my sensory issues for like the first 16 years. They were just there and sometimes I felt overwhelmed if I didn’t do certain things (oversimplifying but yeah)

This was mainly because I grew up with epilepsy so was always worrying and aware of triggers for them. Also with these there was less things I could do on my own for accommodations. I had to advocate for myself from a young age (diagnosed around 5) to my teachers cause even if my mom said something they wouldn’t always follow it.

I remember one time that my class was watching a movie and I asked the teacher if it had flashing lights or a strobe and she said she didn’t know and to just get the form signed. As I was young I didn’t know how to look it up so I just got the form signed. Surprise I had a seizure - luckily I’m not grande mal but we only know because I was talking with a friend who worried when I stopped talking and got the teacher who sent me to the nurse (ALONE which wasn’t smart) who basically had me lay down for 10 minutes then sent me back to class. This is not how it should have been handled. The teacher knew I had epilepsy and should have told me to ask my mom or at least not make me feel embarrassed about it. I should have been sent to the nurse with a friend in case I had another seizure and something happened. I should have been sent home! after this I had to advocate even more for myself because it’s not like I can just shut my eyes every time there’s a strobe cause sometimes a seizure will happen before I realize.

I was always worried a seizure would happen. Even when I was a year free in 7th grade I wasn’t worried. And one did happen. I had a seizure and lost control of my body with a full bladder. I couldn’t get up because I was sitting in a chair full of my own pee. I was so embarrassed I couldn’t say anything to my friend sitting next to me or the sub. Luckily my mom worked in the school so I texted her and after the bell rang she came and got me. it’s terrifying to lose control over my own body like that. To have no say in what it does or even be aware for it. There’s a reason those with epilepsy have to wait 6 months from the last seizure to drive because they could easily get in a crash at the wrong time.

I remember being 10 and asking my mom if I’d ever stop having seizures and not have to take meds and to be able to not have to worry about watching a movie or hanging with friends or even taking a bath. I rember feeling sad but resigned when she told me there’s a very small chance that I could. And luckily that small chance happened but I also still worry that I could have a seizure cause it still is possible. I am more likely to have seizures when I am older because of it and I never know if I watch a movie with a strobe if it will set me off again. And I am 6 years seizure free! While both need accommodations and people should have access to both, epilepsy can be immediately life threatening. It was only after my seizures were under control and a few years free that I started paying attention to my sensory issues consciously. The accommodations for the two are not the same and shouldn’t be treated the same but anyone with either should be able to access them to improve their life or even save it.

I keep seeing people put accommodations for people with epilepsy on the same level as sensory accommodations for autism and like... no??? Obviously both are important but epilepsy can kill people, SUDEP is a thing. If you expose someone with photosensitive epilepsy to strobing lights they could suffer permanent brain damage or die. Epilepsy is a condition with physical, sometimes deadly consequences. I'm not sure how many different ways I need to say this before it sticks, but epileptic seizures are physical neurological phenomena that can cause lasting neurological damage or death. Epilepsy can kill you. You can die from epilepsy.

[solaceishere]

it would be so nice to just be experienced as music bro, i think I'd be rnb. idk i like music as a form of communication, it doesn't take empathy or even words just vibes, its the closest thing we have to thought transfer. i wish all human communication was this easy it'd make unfolding people and seeing them and being seen in our authenticity so much easier. language is a neat invention but its clunky and involves a lot of guess work. badly structured, half understood, poorly rembered, cycle jus repeats. i need to start singing again i miss it. music is just a very penetrative medium of communication, if people could be experienced as songs i think it'd make thingd a lot easier. I've devoted my life to just having the opportunity to know and see people in their authenticity, it feels like a game at times ig. we're scared animals sniffing each other to gauge how much of ourselves can we let flow from us in each other's presence and i like it sometimes i like the dance we do i like nurturing relationships like a garden but it does feel tedious at times ig. ive known people who would be considered terrible by normal social standards but I've never encountered anyone who i didn't find beautiful at their core, beautiful and tragic. beauty and tragedy and their dance seems to be inherent to our condition ig

[lurkingrabbit]

My brain decided to have my reacts fanfic Satan watch the mastermind episode and talk to canon Satan,

My brain had it go along the lines of:

After mastermind

“You are an imbiecle you let yourself get used by a prat!”

“Take that back you shitty copy”

“Take it back?!?!!? You put yourself under complete and utter service of a goecia brat below the royalty birds!!!! (prodding a finger into him) anyone with half a brain and ability to actually take the situation seriously can tell”

“No one tells me what to do! And that brid didnt - why do you even care about the rabble imp”

“Beacuse discontent and schemes in hell could put all of ius in danger if heaven decides we are an actual threat because we got the extermnators killed off”

“So what if charlie got them killed, we need to show them we wont be put into place abnd who cares about sinners”

“She does, and you better rember unless you want to break her heart”

“She needs to toughen up”

“I thought we promised to make sure she would never ned to”

“The princess is neicvve and needs to grow up”

“Shes optimistic, not naive, - you dont get to say shit as we didnt even check up on her while her dad failed around to depression”

“Thats why luci isnt here? What a weak-”

“Shut the fuck up right now before i rip the wings off your body and turn them into a hat for Mammon - where im from hes the only one who kep[t chscikng on her so shut your hellflame damned mouth before i give you a reason to keep it open”

“You think you can threaten me!”

“I am you but better”

“You dare-”

“Prove me the fuck wrong you deliquent gym rat”

“YOU!-”

Frankly, I don’t know if this is actually how it would go, it’s a bit too occ for both of them but I needed to get this out of my head

[frostbite-the-bat]

do u have any tips for the high roller fight shes so mean to me...

(HEAVY BREATHING)

OKAY! SO! IM AUTISTIC AND HAVE A SPECIFIC STRAT I USE WHEN I DO THIS FIGHT A MORBILLION TIMES (48 defeats..... not enough im gonna kms im not getting to 69 funny number at this rate with burn out)

ANWYWAYS THIS IS JUST KINDA HOW I DO IT AND HOW I Rember IT! OK! ok. most of this is for stage 3 bc the first 2 are short and not that difficult imo. well. i fucking hate stage 2, but it is only 5 rounds long, and requires lots of focus, but it's Guaranteed Short. can always take the safe route with luring and tooning up... but you WILL NOT get a good damage boost for stage 3! (the more hollys u kill the more damage buff u get for hr)

One thing to remember! if all cogs are under 360 hp and everyone has enough pips for opera, just use that, you'll clear all cogs.

if you wish here's my gay little sound note i have on my wall. it doesn't go to the lower lvl gags but in early rounds you may use them too, makes shit faster. the cogs there got baby levels

pls know in the fight i also use a calculator! i highly suggest using one especially in any round you'll be using sound in. i just use one on my phone while i play!

using 4 dice for power ups isn't necessary in stage 1 unless you get nasty fucking spawns later in the later rounds (got a 1000 health cog there once i'm sure? ?christ almighty)

absolutely more necessary in stage 2, though, usually the spawns there are nasty. go for zap, i usually go for it to at least *try* and wipe out as many hollywoods as i can. weakening is okay too because with enough luck you may be able to use sound. careful with laff though it may be risky since this typically includes saying fuck it killing the worst ones and leaving one alive to hopefully wipe out easier next round

healing before stage 3 isn't as important (GOOD IDEA TO BE HEALED UP FROM STAGE 1 TO STAGE 2, THOUGH).

in stage 3 what i do is i target one silhouette at a time, all with cakes. gives a good self heal! do it in like... worst priority order? however if you miss and lose a lot of laff it's good to 2 dice, lure, and all toon up to stall a bit. if you have green on board then focus on that and tooning up at the same time

uhmmm. purple is worst because punishes healing. my kill order is usually purple > red/green > cyan (though i've been taught the trickery of cyan and i like it being wiped out early too. depending on what's in the fight i may target cyan first or later) > orange > everyone else (i dont worry abt anyone else besides they do nothing)

cyan worries me a bit less since it likes fucking with drop gags the most, and i dont use it. you can clear everything with 4 weddings. one by one tho. it works for me like 85% of the time except from when hr is mean to me and makes me miss wedding 3 times. 80% hit rate, everyone

leave one silhouette alive and grind to get some ious (focus on getting trap and drop. everyone having drop Good). do old strat, pre trap hr and the silhouette. make sure you spam 4 dice. if you dont get any wait until a good round when everyone can use 4 dice. hard to coordinate in voice, but incredibly easy (but maybe stressful) in quads (all toons controlled by you)

4 dice increase power, very useful. will make tnt on hr stronger even if the damage WILL be significantly weakened. before you do anything tho, check who has highest tnt damage. whoever does, they tnt hr. one person uses a weak trap on the silhouette. (make sure to weaken it first, my safe range is like 1100 hp. typically just double wedding it, and then later next round using a weaker throw)

you dont need to lure right away, you can spend some more rounds to toon up and regain pips. then, get whoever has weakest drop to lure (if they have a 2 dice and/or rerolls to get 2 dice and use a weak group lure to save pips. if not, just use a stronger one and pray it hits. or just agree to get whoever has 2 dice to lure.)

one person lures, everyone else piano's hr. use 4 dice too to increase damage. necessary if you want this done in this one silhouette round. rng based tho. wait till everyone has 4 dice or rerolls, maybe. hard to communicate thru text, easier in vc, easiest when quadding

the trap you set on the silhouette earlier. it'll die, and high roller's gets normal damage in the same round! pray all pianos hit.

you WILL get hit by high roller's ace, but at this point hr SHOULD be around like... 10000-20000 ish hp? out of 44444. good range!

then what i do, for safety, get some 2 dice maybe? use 4's, also. just watch carefully to like. still have pips for max gags. whoever has strongest throw, uses wedding. everyone else pianos. kill her.

that's gg's !

basically kind all to remember..? what i do in this fight? uhmm any other tips. if ur not a fan of trivia unlike me, keep this tab open! like me. i keep it open always ( LINK TO TTCC WIKI GG HR FIGHT TRIVIA ANSWERS )

if you have adhd and can unfocus your eyes like i and there's a shuffle round just like. remember which one it is. stare at the middle. use your powers dont move your eye but like Look At Which One Is Being Shuffled. works even in harder rounds! normal people uhmmm Suffer

uhmm be careful with pips in general? if you can save do save.

oh yea, shouldve said earlier - the way you stall in the 3rd stage with hr and the silhouette is just. all or just 2 use megaphone toon up. every 2 rounds when you can try to use an iou dice. yknow. 5 dice !

pass if low on pips, but if any toons get lower laff then use more megaphones or just single toon up each other. i typically space out in this stage so i just 4 megaphone always but saving pips by skipping i n some turns can earn you quite a few spare pips lol.

but srsly i space out for most of this and chat offtab or just talk abt shit in vc. then i pay attention only when its Time To Kill.

that's that! thanks! im autistic about this fight. idk how good my strats are, i hate talking abt em publicly bc i know some nerds gonna go in and go ERMM THERES SOMETHING MORE OPTIMAL

stfu i dont care im doing my own autistic thing (fun fact i gotta lead everyone always not only bc im like trusted with this fight but also if things dont go my way my brain implodes on itself and i cant focus on shit)

please look at this NOT OLD STRAT piano damage. colossal damage

[clair0se]

Hello! It is me again! Wow! You are trans! Wahoo! How did you figure it out? Gender is very confusing. I don't get it. (I recently found the song "Gender Is Boring" by "She/Her/Hers" and the second verse sort of encapsulates some of it if that makes sense.) You are HRTing! You have HRTed! You are now an HRTer! Woooooo! Also! Your HRTday and my birthday would be on similar dates! Yip!

uh, i figured it out through a lot of thinking and putting that girl (myself) into situations. i'm big on like, analysis of media and what not, so i'd do the aforementioned situation-ing, and then decide what it meant to me. like, shaving body hair. i liked it, even so when i considered myself a guy (but also my legs are wayy to fucking sensitive for that shit lol). i like, changed the way that i would talk (as in, speech patterns, not changing the pitch yet). grew my hair out (quarantine was helpful here lol). ya just, idk, fucked around and found out. and once i had doing that for a while, i sat on my thoughts for about another year making up my mind. and Then i sat on the made up mind for a year to be certain i was dialed in onto what i was before coming out to anyone but the closest of friends. and ya know, still not 100% dialed in. which i think is a good thing. because, even though it's hard for me to rember, it's important to not close my mind. so like, i am fairly confident i have the Basis down. but i've been thinking of dropping the e at the end of my name and being clair cuz it's slightly less fem. and i think i'm slightly less fem. like, the goal is toeing the line of androgyny, but from the Other side. yk?

and speaking of music, i apologize but i will likely not listen to that song in a time relevant to reading this ask. i, don't believe in streaming services. period. (except for me watching breaking bad with my sibling but that's a bonding activity and literally no one is perfect). and so i listen to all my music on cds. and that makes me slow to pick up new bands. but i Do do it. so probably some day i will listen to she/her/hers and hear that song 👍💥

and wow! it also lands close to my birthday lmao (but ironically, a little bit before. it was, an arbitrary time that happened to be close to my birthday rather than me, waiting until my birthday happened to be Able to do hrt by my own accord. that was due to the, previously mentioned, sitting on thoughts and feelings and brains). and, in extra funny fashion, my birthday is 9/11. surely nothing else in history has happened on that date.

also, can i ask you questions? (she asks rhetorically like, 2 (run on) sentences before she does end up asking questions.) i genuinely don't care that you're choosing to remain anonymous cuz like, what ever floats your boat 👍 and i also don't care that the platform for this conversation happens to be my blog. literally other than the sounds post, it's pretty much crickets and tumble weeds over here and if people don't want to have long ass text posts answering anon's on their dash, i am at peace having less followers lmfao. also, no pressure if you don't wanna answer a question. you can ignore any or all of them and i will be none the care-er. but uh, yeah, i'm really curious if you play celeste? cuz though i Talk about among us a lot more, celeste is the game that i actually Play. and honestly, that was the only question for now 💥 i need to eeeeeep. if you wanted to, you could tell me what time zone you're in. time zones make me happy. (i literally don't care where you live i Promise and if you don't wanna answer what like, slice of the world you live in i TOTALLY get it. just thought i'd throw it out there). ok,

[ryann-44]

The Twelve Kizuki

Lower Moons

Upper Moons

[maplestreetsims]

Sam: if the two of you don’t shut up im jumping off this train, i swear to god

[satans-left-asscheeky]

Yet another teenage sole ask because yeah- So, assuming that Nate/Nora would be a single parent to a teenage sole, how would the companions react to teen sole veeeery hesitantly asking them to help bury their parent? (And also being hit like a truck with the realization that the corn flakes asshole forced this kid to watch their mom/dad die…)

Okay this is so freaking sad.... It's okay I didn't cry reading and writing this... it's fine.

no but seriously though this ask is really good! thanks for the ask 💖

Maccready

"I- yeah I'll help you..."

He'd feel devastated for them. He never know what it was like to have a parent who loved him, but he can't imagine having it and then it being torn away. They were only barely older than Duncan... it really put into perspective how much he needed to make it home to his boy. And he'd be damned if he didn't bring sole with him. He'd definitely adopt them and care for them as if they were his own. They kinda reminded him of batman in a way. Watching something so awful, and becoming so strong after... he'd let them know that he thought they were a superhero and how proud he was of them.

Hancock

"Christ.... What do you need me to do?"

He hate the fucking bastard that did this to them. No kid deserved to burry their own parent especially not sole. They'd never been anything but kind to everyone even though they had the weight of the world on their shoulders at such a young age. If Kellogg wasn't all ready dead he sure as hell was about to be

Cait

"Shite... Ya sure ya want me to help ya with this?"

It's not that she doesn't care or even that she doesn't want to help she just does not feel qualified... I mean if the kid only knew what she did to her own parents... no way she should be helping burry somebody else's.

Danse

"I- Im sorry for your loss... of course I'll help you"

He'd never had parents or anyone to love him, but he knew what the loss of Cutler did to him. This child was asking him to help them with something so important? He knew he definitely didn't feel like he deserved it, but he would help them with no complaint. He never had been good with words but he offered them a shoulder to cry on. Once the kid was done sobbing he'd take them back to the Cambridge to see haylin... she'd know what to say.

Curie

"Oh madame/monsieur I am so sorry for your loss..."

She rembered how she felt watching all of her friends die off one by one in the vault when she wasn't able to do anything, and she can't imagine what sole feels. She'd stay with them after the burial to make sure they were okay.... But really she had no clue how to help beyond just being there.

Deacon

"...."

He'd silently help the kid burry their parent. He wouldn't know what to do or say in this situation. Usually he has a quip or joke to diffuse any situation, but this? he had no idea what to do. It was times like these he wishes Barbra was still around because she'd know exactly what to say... Then again Barbara would probably kick him if she knew of all the things he'd dome since her passing... God he can't imagine what the kid must be feeling. This would be one of the rare times he'd remove his shades and let sole see his eyes. he'd take the kid by the shoulders and tell them how proud he is of them and how proud their parent would be if they could see them. He wasn't sure if what he was doing was right until the kid wrapped their arms around him and refused to let go until they both felt better. It was in that moment he knew even if Barbara wasn't around to see it that had indeed has the kid they'd always wanted.

Piper

"Oh god Blue...."

She'd be fighting the urge to sob from the second the kid asked her to help. She rembered what it felt like when Nat and her become orphans and she wouldn't wish it apon anyone, but at least they had eachother sole was alone.... She try her best to be there for them and support them but she knew she could never replace what they had lost... God she knew it all to well, but she'd be damned if she didn't try to take care of them the same way she took care of Nat.

Nick

"I'm right here kid. Just tell me what you need me to do...."

The institute had always been sick. He'd known that since he'd first woke up in the post apocalyptic America, but this? This was beyond evil. Beyond depraved. His blood boiled in a way he didn't even know was possible. How could anyone hurt a child like this? Once him and sole had finished burying their late parent he'd carry them back to his office wrapped up in his coat. Once he was sure they were asleep he'd talk to Ellie and try to come up with a plan to kill the sick son of a bitch who was responsible for this.

Preston

"Oh god..... I'm so sorry sole...."

He'd lossed so many friends. Practically everyone he'd ever known was gone, so he knew how sole felt. He knew words could never do justice to how they were feeling, and he knew nothing could ever make it better. He wished like hell he could trade places with the kid, because he would in a heartbeat. No child should know what it's like to bury their parent. No one should watch their parent die. He hated the world he lived in more and more everyday and sometimes he wondered if it was worth saving, but when he saw soles eyes light up with relief when he said he'd help them he'd rember why he does what he does. To help build a commonwealth where no one ever had to experience what this poor child was. He'd look after the kid like they were his own after that and very rarely leave their side.

X6-88

"Of course sir/ma'am"

He'd read the reports. he knew what Kellogg had done and he truly wondered why he was still aloud to operate on behalf of the institute. They had coursers to handle things... he was just a lose end, one he fully intended on fixing even if it meant he'd be reset.