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tes THDPSSSSPS 💜

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New Ventolin just dropped

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got "for sale baby shoes never worn (baby too big)"'d in the work chat today

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Felt artistically inspired by silly twisty girl Miss Philip Marlowe (courtesy of today's Phil Photo from @girlfriendsofthegalaxy)

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This is what it's like when people try to show me anime

Me when I utilize the nefarious Device to liquefy the creature's brain

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There are truly very few forces in the world as strong as the inertia of staying up way too late doing fuckall

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I love Tumblr gif search it's a kind of free association exercise

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A THIRD DISTANCE. check it out on Substack

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A couple! One I was looking at was the Samsung Odyssey G7 Neo, big curved 32" affair, 165Hz rating, there's also the G8 which is a 240Hz version. The other was a weird one, TCL 27r83u, extremely bright 27" 4k 160Hz mini LED.

workstation having a 4k32" display is terrible for me because I've been seeing how many activities you can fit on that. Text is so good at very high resolutions. I've always known 1440p is kind of a compromise resolution but especially with modern game upscaling 4k is really tempting. Don't need this on top of learning how to run HDR on my Linux system.

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OLED is compelling but I do love The Brightness, which is where mini LED seems to be the play, and it's fortunately more affordable usually, and I've seen some pretty solid mini LED HDR implementations at shows and stuff.

workstation having a 4k32" display is terrible for me because I've been seeing how many activities you can fit on that. Text is so good at very high resolutions. I've always known 1440p is kind of a compromise resolution but especially with modern game upscaling 4k is really tempting. Don't need this on top of learning how to run HDR on my Linux system.

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I like upscaling because fundamentally once you have enough resolution to render the UI and make out all the necessary features most video games rapidly stop benefiting from more resolution. I've tested this I've run Horizon Zero Dawn at 720p on an ancient CRT and it looks great.

This is part of why the handhelds work, you can in fact just run a game at 720p and it'll look fine. It's really nice that my ultra high resolution handheld display can run upscaled 800p graphics.

Modern in-game scaling handles the UI and 3D graphics separately which solves a huge amount of the problem, which is "ah fuck I can't read the text this morrowind character is spouting at me because it doesn't fit on screen". It doesn't even need to be ML enhanced although that is much better for non-integer scaling, saves some shimmering.

4K is a great resolution for like. text, but it's a terrible idea to make a game run at 4k, that's too many pixels. You can simply not do that! Previously you had to give up some UI clarity for this because you had to run the whole game at 1080p but now you don't even have to do that. An HD game at almost any reasonable viewing distance looks fine. If you really want you can go higher but it's not what you should optimize for. It's like fxaa vs msaa.

workstation having a 4k32" display is terrible for me because I've been seeing how many activities you can fit on that. Text is so good at very high resolutions. I've always known 1440p is kind of a compromise resolution but especially with modern game upscaling 4k is really tempting. Don't need this on top of learning how to run HDR on my Linux system.

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workstation having a 4k32" display is terrible for me because I've been seeing how many activities you can fit on that. Text is so good at very high resolutions. I've always known 1440p is kind of a compromise resolution but especially with modern game upscaling 4k is really tempting. Don't need this on top of learning how to run HDR on my Linux system.

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I don't strictly "like" taking ADHD meds, the comedown is awful and they play havoc on my appetite. But I kinda need them. I write software for a living. Software requires a great deal of focus that I simply cannot muster up off my meds. If I didn't have my meds, I would lose my job.

Part of this can be blamed on the cruelties of our modern capitalistic system. If the world understood my condition better, maybe I would not need to take stimulants to survive. I read an article once that really went all in on the idea that ADHD's negative perception is a symptom of perception, not an objective truth. Maybe people with ADHD are just as capable, but they do things in a different way to neurotypicals. Maybe all we need is better support, and social solutions, and more understanding of the different way that ADHDers think.

Which is all very compelling. Except.

I often find myself procrastinating activities that I want to do. My apartment has been accumulating dust because I keep forgetting to vacuum. One time I let the dishes in my sink stack too high and it was months before I could get myself to clean the mould off them. The demands of capitalism mean I need to software to pay rent, but sometimes I just want to do software, and no amount of narrative reframing or social support will clear the noise in my head long enough to let me focus on the code.

The notion that ADHD isn't a deficiency, just a different way of thinking, is something I find condescending. The implication here is I shouldn't have to write software, I should be given a different job, and I shouldn't have to maintain my own apartment, I should have the support of my community coming into my room and cleaning my things. But what if I want to do those things? What if I like software, or the privacy of an atomised existence? Maybe society has no right to decide what the correct way to live my life is, but surely I do!

The reason it sucks that it's hard for me to keep my dishes clean is not because the world says so, it is because I say so. It is because sometimes I want to be able to remember to do things and it sucks that I cannot live my life in the way that I want.

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median cost of living by country is not primarily driven by baumol's cost disease! different expenditures drive different outcomes! the house you get for $2/mo in the forests of Borneo sucks ass! It's not an equal quality of life curve, that's a different metric.

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TF2 SOURCE CODE RELEASED

this is not a drill slugchat holy shit

there's now official support not only to mod the game, but to publish those mods on the steam workshop. community-made heavy update will become real