#do you understand what i mean?

[lunalikestowriteanddraw]

Okay so I’ve been kinda hopping between 2 Frostbek oneshots on and off (one with Frost’s POV and one with Torbek’s), and with the second one I have this very particular way I want to express both sides of Torbek (as in Torbek and the Other) in his internal dialogue but idk how well I’m conveying it but idk any other way to convey it and I just. Hnngh. And I know technically I don’t HAVE to show both sides but also it’s kinda necessary for this oneshot bc of the plot. And in the doc I have the two voices as different colors and even different fonts to further separate them, but on ao3 it’s not going to keep the color and font so I just have to have one italicized and the other in bold to separate the voices from the actual descriptions and dialogue and hnngh.

I know I’m not making any fucking sense but do you understand what I’m trying to convey here? There’s a couple of excerpts under the cut if you’re still not understanding what I’m not saying because my brain isnt wording right but I NEED yall to understand what I’m trying to say here ya feel me?

[Excerpt 1]

When Torbek was younger, a stray kitten had wandered up to him. He was alone in an alleyway, dirty wet and hungry, and no one paid the young bugbear any mind. No one but a small tabby kitten. It couldn’t have been any older than a couple months, and it looked malnourished, and it was missing an eye and half it’s ear. Really, the poor thing was in a worse state than Torbek ever would be (What a fucking joke. Don’t you remember the screams? The cries? The pleas?).

The kitten had cuddled up against the bugbear and started purring. It didn’t need to do that—probably shouldn’t have, considering the state it was in—yet it did. He would be told years later that animals—domestic animals in particular—had a sort of sixth sense. Almost like they knew when someone was sad.

And boy, wasn’t Torbek sad.

Maybe that was why Frost has been hanging out with the bugbear more, ever since Torbek (no, not Torbek. It was Him. Whoever He is) caught up with them at The Inn At The End Of The Road. And it was fine, mostly. Torbek’s pretty sure Frost’s idea of ‘hanging out’ is being in the same room as someone while he meditated. Not that Torbek minded, necessarily, but he didn’t like being alone with his thoughts (because they’re not thoughts, not in the traditional sense. No, it’s Him talking. He’s always talking. He’s always here. Always).

[Excerpt 2]

Torbek never was good at reading. Nobody ever really bothered to teach him beyond a couple of simple words, and he never had the opportunity to learn on his own (you can read perfectly fine if you just let me take over. It’ll only be for a second, I promise). Frost tried to teach him once, but because Carnival Lecroux was the way that it was, Kremy needed Torbek to climb the Harris Wheel often.

Which, Torbek didn’t mind, necessarily. He liked being useful (it let him ignore His voice, for just a moment longer). And besides, being unable to read had worked out for him thus far.

[eddiezpaghetti]

Appearance-wise, hbomberguy has gone down the same road as Rob Halford, and I don't know how I feel about that.

[ananke-xiii]

S9E1 Castiel being freshly human, not understanding a thing of what's going on, fully aware that a.lot. of angels would very much like to kill him just.because meets a random angel on the street (Hael) and he's like: LET'S GO SEE THE GRAND CANYON TOGETHER, WOO-HOOO!

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[yakityyaku]

very funny (irritating) to me that everyone whined and yelled about stupid rainbow capitalism and how performative wokeness/allyship is a net bad we should all refuse to support and now like.

tumblr is doing nothing for pride and target isn't selling much (if any) of their pride collection offline except at certain stores (in democratic areas, basically) and build a bear has a much tinier collection than normal and all the actual pride stuff is on their "adult" website (not sure if it's in stores, but pride = adult is a hell of a message)

there are genuinely good criticisms for performative allyship in all its applications. it shouldn't be the only thing we expect from people and companies. but if all the shit I see being called performative stopped tomorrow then in terms of the LGBTQ+ community especially we just. wouldn't talk about queerness or queer issues or celebrate pride or do anything.

open your fucking eyes. we are very close politically to having gay marriage rolled back. now companies are basically being let off the hook to even make a miniscule effort (which matters to the people who don't have access to any other kind of support in their communities! which normalizes the community in public spaces!) because the only reaction they have gotten over the last few years are negative ones from BOTH sides.

we are so entrenched in discourse at all times for the sake of our OWN performance of who is the wokest and who is REALLY an ally or a good community member that we have basically handed over all the work of activists of the last several decades to the other side because we'd rather scream at each other over fucking chicken restaurants and shit than the real life backsliding that's happening.

and this goes for other shit too. feminism, poc rights, all of it.

also. trans rights aren't discourse and aren't just culture war arguments. in case any terfs think they can spin this to be antitrans.

[mynnthia]

was talking with a friend about how some of dunmeshi fаndom misunderstands kabru's initial feelings towards laios.

to sum up kabru's situation via a self-contained modernized metaphor:

kabru is like a guy who lost his entire family in a highly traumatic car accident. years later he joins a discord server and takes note of laios, another server member who seems interesting, so they start chatting. then laios reveals his special interest and favorite movie of all time is David Cronenberg's Crash (1996), and invites kabru to go watch a demolition derby with him

[fairsweetlonging]

truth serum / system reveal au where shen qingqiu gets hit with an uncloaking spell that reveals the system in the reflection of his eyes every time it pops up.

during one of his missions, in the treasure hoard of some dragon-like creature, he finds a golden, oval shaped hand mirror, its gaudy style more victorian based than anything (airplane you hack!), that doesn't seem to do anything when he looks into it. but when he does, it reveals the system's screen in his eyes.

he doesn't notice this, of course, because he can't see it, and the system, surprisingly, stays quiet.

the peak lords think he's cursed.

maybe mu qingfang is the first to notice, during the mandatory post mission check-up, when shen qingqiu is scrolling through his most recently accumulated points and mu qingfang can see the strange vividly-blue lines reflected in his pupils. it's gone when shen qingqiu blinks, like it was nothing but a trick of the light.

it comes out when yue qingyuan is visiting and, just as he's done laying out the plans for a new mission, shen qingqiu's eyes glaze over and a bright blue box takes over the whole of his iris. shen qingqiu goes quiet; the thing in his eyes moves, shifts, pulses for a second, like static worms crawling all over his pupils. then he blinks, and it's gone, and shen qingqiu accepts the mission that yue qingyuan was almost sure he would decline.

maybe there is an intervention, when the peak lords corner shen qingqiu at qian cao peak and try to figure out what's wrong, subjecting him to all kinds of treatments and curse-finding spells that turn up empty, they can't find anything.

of course, the silencing threat is still very much up and running. at first shen qingqiu was kind of confused by the whole ordeal, but when the peak lords start describing a "strange blue box", he realizes, with sickening suddenty, that they're describing the system. and he can't say anything.

this only makes everything worse, because their fellow peak lord now keeps evading every question and acts like he doesn't understand. liu qingge points right at his face and asks, "that blue box, what is it?" and shen qingqiu laughs nervously and starts talking about how bright the weather is and surely it's the sky and nothing to worry about!

even worse, during the intervention the system thought it was a good idea to start talking to him, so now even the peak lords who hadn't seen it and who might have been persuaded by light tricks and reflections, get a first row view that no, that definitely isn't a trick of the light.

they try to do the whole thing of "are you in danger, blink twice" but shen qingqiu can't even do that because it's still a direct admittance!

maybe eventually he starts saying vague confirmations that don't actually confirm anything, like "this master hears what you're saying", or maybe he goes with a classic "this master can neither confirm nor deny that." but the system starts warning him for that too and eventually he stops saying anything, which worries the others more.

luckily mu qingfang catches on that every time they ask a direct question about the box or shen qingqiu says anything vaguely confirming, it appears. it doesn't appear when they ask about curses or demons, so it must not see that as a threat.

for a little extra angst: maybe the peak lords keep pressuring him for answers, and at some point shen qingqiu gets fed up and snaps out something like, "why don't you understand that i'm not allowed to answer that!" the system counts this as a direct admittance, threatening it's existence. so it punishes. shen qingqiu has a qi deviation so bad it lasts two weeks and takes two people every day to cleanse his meridians. the system doesn't appear in that time. it doesn't appear for a long while after that, either. the peak lords stop asking, mainly because shen qingqiu will instantly leave the room if they do. they don't stop searching for a cure, though.

shang qinghua returns from a business trip and catches on the second someone mentions a blue box and forced silencing.

[brainrotcharacters]

the easy grip on the knife. the leg over the seat. the hand over the other seat. the sassy "come get it" move. you know the bitch is smiling behind that mask even as he said the line.

[not-postironic-cringe]

I think the main problem with vivzie's pop creations is that they are very juvenile in humor but are too inappropriate for people that could actually be invested in them

Like middle and high schoolers, so the fans are weird adults and kids with unlimited internet access, so the fans end up like that

[vaguely-functional-directions]

In the hunger games movie it's not made clear in the end that katniss was more or less faking her feelings for peeta in order to gain favour of sponsors etc etc. But also in the movie we don't get her narration/inner thoughts like in the books. So it's more like when seeing the movie, you're observing what everyone around them saw, with them being in love and none of her doubts, or whatever.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

a couple scribbles i cleaned up. also i think i like drawing him in varying states of distress

[not-quite-so-intrepid-hero]

aelwyn is the cunty neurodivergent rep we need. the look on her face when kristen is actually upset/hurt and she immediately backtracks- oh shit, i thought we were playing! we were joking! don’t friends bully each other? how else is affection expressed but through violence?

[bacchuschucklefuck]

while teen while goblin while aroace while injured while doing your best

[notsolonedesert]

The only version of Antinous I can live with is the birthday parody one. And when I read @app1es0uce 's bday version of' Little wolf, I couldn't rest until drawing, so credit to them, haha!!. Ofc also credit to @gigizetz for creating the birthday parody and the famous Antinous apron in the first place

[batpersik-art]

how are we feeling fronnie nation

[egophiliac]

swipes everything else off of the table to yell about diasomnia flower bookmarks

(I gave Silver one too :D)