#do not comment anything negative or i’ll just delete it

[hp-confessions]

For absolutely no reason, here's a rant about Bellatrix.

She's so fucking hot I wish she'd tie me up to a bed and use my face for hours, I'd eat her over and over till my mouth, tongue, face is numb and the only thing I know is her taste. I'd be BLESSED if there was a Bellatrix lookalike around. like bro, she's TALL, I'd climb that woman like a tree and beg to touch her. She quite literally had the Azkaban effect that happened to Sirius, like how does one manage to look HOTTER when youve been in prison for ages?? Sorry but her face card does not decline.

I'm not actually defending her or anything, she's an awful evil character and was a lunatic but if uh, one's reason that she wouldnt have voldys attraction or isn't hot because she isn't petite, blonde, pale when she's canonically described to be beautiful?? Yeah THEN I'm defending her cause what??

she's hot because she's tall, has "masculine" features, dark haired (I could rant about her hair too because my god) probably had a ⌛ figure AND she's a villian!! Like??? That's the hottest woman I've laid my eyes on??

This isn't to say naricssa isn't hot either. I'd rant about my fantasies with the two sisters together but unfortunately not all of us are morally deranged so I'll refrain. She's hot!! Her sister is hot!! They're all hot, evil women!! you literally cannot deny that??

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[tisaolin]

How would Kung Lao, Liu Kang, Skarlet, Mileena, and Jade be with a Na'vi/Avatar s/o?

🥸noice request 👌🏾(Had to rewrite the whole thing because it deleted everything😖)

KUNG LAO

Now, Kung Lao is pretty tall but YOU!! He’s damn near a ant next to a giant!

He’s actually happy that you’re taller because he uses you as like a threat

“I’ll get my s/o to crush you” “I fight for a living im not scared of them”

He HATES when anyone makes any form of negative comments about you.

“Their skin is so weird” “I know and their so tall its a mystery how they managed to date Kung Lao” “They probably blackmailed him or threatened him”

It was at that moment Kung Lao turned evil and put his hands on a civilian. Blood was everywhere :).

He also loves when you scold him in your language.

Liu Kang

Bookie wookie is shy 😞 everytime you stand next to him he turn RED!

He also LOVES when you tease him by leaning down to look directly at him.

Liu Kang being the Chosen one and all, means he has ENEMIES!! But thats where you come in because lets be real, when it comes to people/things Avatars love, they show NO MERCY!

He is fascinated with your skin and features. He finds it unique and thats what makes you so special to him.

He goes out of his way to learn your language and when he repeats some phrases you can’t help but laugh because its so butchered but A for effort.

He finds the mountain banshee’s (Ikran) super cool! The process of trying to tame one he is not with but once its tamed they’re inseparable.

He is a bit scared of the fact that your nevous system dangles around like hair.

Mileena

Before you became her s/o she was 100% mad that you existed.

“So yall can accept THEM but not me” yea she was not about that.

When you became her s/o she would still tease you but appreciated your company.

When you speak your native Language she just stares at you like this .

“You’re extremely long. And you look like you wouldn’t taste good” “WHAT😧” “YOU’RE BLUE”

Yea get ready for her to say the most random things at the most random times.

She’s also curious. She asks questions about your lifestyle and proceeds to say “not like I care or anything” 💀

Lowkey jealous of your weapons lmaoa

Skarlet

Doesn’t know how you two started dating but she isn’t complaining.

Skarlets pretty short so goodness she looks so tiny compared to you.

Randomly stabs you just to see if your blood is blue 😭

She loves playing with your tail, she says its fun 🤷🏾‍♀️

Completely forgets you only have 4 fingers so she kinda sorta dislikes holding your hand.

She HAS to taste your blood, she’s curious to know how it tastes.

JADE

She LOVE LOVE LOVES your appearance!

She loves tracing and kissing your stripes.

She finds your ability to see in the dark awesome and your cat like eyes seductive in a way.

She’s always under or behind you❤️ she wants to be close.

She asks you to teach her your language, just so she can tell you how much she loves you!

She insists on your way of doing things because in her eyes you can never be wrong.

Bonus: she loves being on your back!!

[xrenjunniesx]

Hi I love your account can you please write dreamies revealing their relationship with a non idol reader

when they reveal your relationship

Idol!nct dream x non-idol!reader

a/n - I really struggled on this for some reason so I’m sorry for the longer wait

mark

you two were just trying to enjoy an evening at a bar for a friends birthday. the back of the bar was booked out meaning no fans were going to even be allowed in. it wasn’t fans that were the problem, but rather it was one of the staffs who recognised mark as an idol.

a photo of the two of you hugging each other and another one of mark kissing your cheek was revealed to the public and immediately the response was strong.

people you knew were recognising you and contacting you, EVERYONE was freaking out.

mark didn’t know at first until you called him, panicking as you explained what happened. he left his schedule as quick as he could and went home to you, calling the company to set a meeting to see where to go from here. he is rather mature about the situation and oddly calm, mainly because he knew this kind of thing was bound to happen one day.

doesn’t mean he isn’t panicking though.

renjun

he was the one who saw the post revealing photos of you two shopping together. in fact he saw the post before it even reached the general public. he was quick to get staff and his members to try and get the post taken down but it grew more popular by the minutes and eventually it was making headlines.

he called you and talked to you through what had happened. he was trying to be calm because this wasn’t the end of the world but damn did it feel like that as he read through the public’s opinion.

he did see a few positive comments but the negative outweighed them, so he deletes his social media apps of his phone, only posting photos on Instagram every now and then before deleting again. goes inactive until everything has calmed down for his own mental health and his suggest you do the same - even if it takes months.

jeno

you two were talking in the background of a behind the scenes video uploaded to the youtube channel. the editors thought you were a staff member, they didn’t even notice you and jeno hugging in the background that was only shown for a split second.

the clip was instantly being spread around and the youtube video was re-edited but it didn’t stop the original from being shown.

when he saw it he was a little shocked since he didn’t even notice that there was any type of camera in the room at that moment, which was why he was comfortably talking to you in the middle of the room.

you contacted him minutes later after he first saw it, crying in a moment of worry for what this all meant for you both.

he will reassure you but he will also be just as worried and be telling you to be careful if you go out anywhere JUST IN CASE.

haechan

on a live one of the fans asked what time it was there and he showed the fans his phone, not realising he hadn’t turned notifications off. you sent a message at that exact moment saying, “love, I’ll be home soon.” he moved the phone away quickly but he knew he was done for. he laughed it off awkwardly at first before apologising and ending the live.

he called you as soon as the live was over. “BABE I JUST REVEALED YOUR TEXT OH MY GOD”

you’re both freaking out but once you’re home he tries to calm down and think maturely about this. “look… they can’t ALL hate me? I’ll still be able to make music…” He is thinking positively and refusing to pick his phone up because he knows if he goes online he will only think negatively.

jaemin

you were somewhat a youtuber, and in one of your vlogs, in the background as you walked with the camera through your house there was a picture of you and jaemin.

people managed to recognise it immediately and you were shocked because you didn’t even notice it when you were editing. you contact jaemin, worrying what he would say. you speak so fast into the phone that he didn’t even get to say anything until you were done speaking.

“love… it’s okay we can sort this out.” “I am so sorry jaemin.” “it’s okay, I’ll contact the company then I’ll call you right back, okay?”

you both ended up just coming out about the situation and admitting your dating. you take a break from your socials.

the only positive to this situation is that he gets to see you more since he doesn’t have to hide anything anymore. you can go to his place and he can go to yours!

chenle

there was two instances where he accidentally revealed it and he didn’t even realise that fans would connect these two instances. the first thing was when he accidentally followed your account on instagram. he went on bubble not long after he made it seem light hearted, “oh I accidentally followed an account while going through reels.”

the second time was when a fan asked to be daegals mother and he instantly said, “she already has a mother. WHICH is me I’m the mother and father. I’m the only one she needs.” he panicked as he spoke and tried to play it off.

fans put the two times together and looked more into it, figuring out that you two HAD to be dating. the one and only time the crazy fans were right.

he is panicking when he realises fans were figuring it out and instantly gets in contact with both you and the company. you’re a bit more calm over the phone about this than he is but when you see him in person you’re also freaking out.

jisung

you two were seen together out in public. it was really late at night when the two of you were going for a walk to a local shop near your place to get some late night food.

fans approached jisung, leaving you both shocked since he was disguised pretty well in your opinion.

the fans kept pestering you both so you two ran away- literally.

it made headlines the next day, and you laughed at the photos of you running away with jisung. your laughter was really just covering for how nervous and worried you were though. He on the other hand was texting everyone he trusted and getting all sorts of different advice.

he is really worried about what this meant for his future and he might consider a hiatus to avoid having to face the fans for a bit if the response is really negative.

[foxyyaoguai]

The antis have been all over my posts in the last few days, so I wanted to share my experiences and write a guide on how to deal with them. 

First off: Our ships and character preferences are valid, no matter how hard some people try to demonize them. We are part of fandom and allowed to post about the things we enjoy, just like everyone else. Our fanfics, fanart, video edits, photo edits, etc. are all works of love and they deserve to exist and be explored by others. 

✨ Strategies for dealing with antis ✨

Don’t engage. I have checked the bios of all the antis that left comments under my posts, and the majority of them are minors. You don’t want to talk to minors in fandom spaces!! And a conversation based on logic or reason won’t be possible either. 

Delete their comments. Tumblr, Instagram, TikTok, and YouTube allow you to delete comments, DO IT!! You created something with love and hateful comments have no place underneath it. Even if the comment just makes you uncomfortable and isn’t outright hateful, it is perfectly reasonable to delete it for your own sanity.

Block generously. Not only the people who target you specifically but also anyone who engages in character- or ship-bashing. People who do that for one ship will do it for other ships too and it’s extremely bad fandom etiquette. When you see a character or ship-bashing post, block everyone who liked it and then the poster.

Report people for harassment. The rules vary by site, but especially threats of violence should be reported. Also, if someone follows you to another social media site after you’ve blocked them, that is called block evading and you should report that too. 

When you see other people getting hateful comments underneath their posts, leave a nice comment to offset some of the negativity. Your being supportive can make the difference between this person never posting again and them being motivated to keep going. People are always welcome to send me links to a post that is getting targeted by antis and I’ll like it and leave a nice comment. 🥰

Don’t let the bad comments outshine the positive ones! Every time my post gets enough traction for antis to find it, it also gets lots of lovely reactions. Many people have told me that my content and recommendations made them ship my OTP, and that is the single thing that makes me happier than anything else. Take a screenshot and look at these kinds of comments when you feel down. This is the real reason you should keep posting. 

Most hate comments are exceptionally uncreative. It helps to laugh about it, preferably with a friend. ✨ Remember, you used your energy to create something and you should be proud of it!

When you see a creator you like, but they also display obnoxious behavior towards people who like other ships, characters, or dynamics, at the very least don’t give them a platform by sharing their posts. 

Stay safe. Don’t post personal information online. 

It’s completely valid to step away from social media for some time. Private your accounts, turn off notifications, do a canon reread, read some fanfics in peace. Whatever it takes to remind you why you love the things you love. 

Bonus Tip: Watch videos of cute animals to destress. Bunnies nose-booping each other can (and will) cure anti-induced anxiety. :)

✨ Platforms sorted by least to most toxic and my advice for using them ✨

1. Discord 

Discord is great because you can join servers specifically for your favorite characters and ships. If a server doesn’t already exist, consider setting one up! Pro tip: only invite people that have positively interacted with you in the past. A small server consisting of nice people is a lot more fun than a large server consisting of members that can’t get along or are only marginally interested in the topic. 

Fandom Discord servers have clear guidelines on what you can post. As long as you follow the rules, people have no grounds for calling you out. In my experience, moderators are quick to respond to harassment.  

When you join a server and you see they heavily restrict certain types of content, it is a red flag. Proceed with caution, even if you plan to only talk about “safe” characters and ships. 

2. Tumblr

I have rarely gotten hateful comments on Tumblr, and the few times I did they were easy to delete.  

A lot of the older fandom generations use Tumblr and they are more mature and accepting of all kinds of content.

3. Twitter

Twitter makes it easy to curate your own fandom experience. You can mute words you don’t like to see on your timeline, mute and block users, and most people have their ship preferences in their bio.

4. Instagram

My Instagram posts about Jadecest get a lot of positive interaction, even more than on Twitter. There are unpleasant comments once in a while, but they are easy to delete. 

Blocking a user will delete all their comments from your posts. 

5. YouTube

People who don’t like your ship will downvote your videos and downvotes lead to the algorithm not recommending your videos. 

I have gotten a few negative comments, but they are easy to delete. 

6. Reddit 

When you post in a fandom subreddit, everyone will see the post, independent of their ship preferences. 

There are a lot of minors on Reddit. 

You can’t delete comments.

Most fandom subreddits are poorly moderated. 

7. TikTok

I have gotten the most hate comments on TikTok. They can be filtered or deleted, but antis interacting with your video by leaving hate comments will lead to the algorithm recommending your content to even more antis. It can get very ugly. 

If you post on TikTok consider turning off comments, stitches, and video replies. You can also mark your content as 18+, so it won’t get recommended to minors. (Again, antis tend to be underage.)

Platforms are more toxic the more they show your content to people outside your bubble. Discord, Tumblr, and Twitter keep your content relatively well contained to your circle of friends. Reddit, TikTok, YouTube, and Instagram heavily promote your content outside your bubble, which is good, because more people are going to see it, but also bad, because it reaches more antis. 

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Antis are loud and obnoxious, but it’s important to remember that they are a minority. Ship and let ship still exists, especially among the people who have been in fandom spaces for more than just a few years. Don’t be afraid to post your content and express your love for your favorite characters and ships! I, for one, would love to see your creations, and many other people would love to see them too. 

What are your experiences and strategies for dealing with antis?

[m-jelly]

Late night snack - Chapter 3

Vampire Levi x human reader

Levi opens up about his job but also sees some trouble ahead with a small group of your fans, meaning trouble is brewing. Levi introduces you to his vampire friends and a few take an interest in you, while another is a bit judgemental.

Ao3

Part 4

Levi lied to you. He said he could go all night, but he was wrong. He went all night and all day and didn’t stop until three days later. He was impressive, giving, and worshipped you. The man just kept cumming but staying hard. The two of you lost the concept of time and it was only when you were getting exhausted and hungry that he stopped. The aftercare you received was pure perfection. He massaged every inch of you, gave you a warm bath, wrapped you in a comfy blanket and fed you food and drink as he held you.

He cradled you in his arms while kissing your forehead a few times. “Do you need anything else, my love?”

You snuggled up to him. “Mm.”

He chuckled. “You’re really tired, huh? Humans are so cute.”

You caressed Levi’s cheek. “I love you.”

“I love you too.”

“Mm, I need to stream for a bit.” You looked at your legs. “I don’t know if I can walk. Levi, could you carry me?”

He stood up with you in his arms and carried you into your office. “Oh, you’ll need a bra.”

You yawned and dragged on your big baggy Batbunny hoodie. “This will do.” You turned everything on and signed in. “I bet everyone is wondering where I’ve been.”

“You’ve been happy and in love with me.”

You giggled. “Yes. Oh, are you hidden enough?”

Levi checked the camera and hummed. “Yeah.”

You started the stream and waved. “Hello, my little bunnies. The warren is open, the lights are on and it’s time to party. I am sorry for the absence but I have been enjoying some romantic time with my boyfriend who you know as Leviathan.”

Levi waved. “Hello.”

You wiggled on his lap making him grunt. Your cheeks heated when you felt him getting hard against your bum. You cleared your throat. “Alright, let’s have a look at the old poll to see what you lot wanted me to play!” You scrolled through the feed and smiled. “Horror. How am I not surprised?” You giggled. “Sure, let’s play a fun horror game.”

Levi squeezed you. “I’ll protect you.”

“Thank you.”

While you entertained the chat and played your game Levi was peering over your shoulder and keeping an eye on your chat. He frowned a little when he saw a few people being nasty about you. He pulled his phone out, logged into his account and messaged the other mods about what was going on. All three of them worked together to remove the comments. What annoyed him was they were seeing Levi as theirs and not yours. These fake fans didn’t like that you had Levi and they wanted him because they thought he was hot. It was pure jealousy.

He set the bot to delete or remove anything that mentioned negative things about you just to help them out. It was becoming clear these people had formed a little hate group against you. He felt helpless. He could deal with issues in person, but when it came to issues online it was a lot harder to deal with. He wanted to put an end to it all, he wanted to protect you, he wanted to make sure your life was filled with love but being an online personality it was a lot harder than he thought possible.

Levi wanted to remove you from any harm. If he could steal you away from the online world, he would but he knew how much you loved your job. He gave you a loving squeeze as he thought things over. He fought against his anxiety and made sure you were focused on playing your game. He noticed the chat was getting a lot better than it was before.

He smiled when someone said you looked like a rabbit. He reached around, squeezed your cheeks with one hand and chuckled. “She’s like a biteable plump bunny.” He turned your head. “Could I get a kiss?”

You pulled your hood a bit to hide your faces and kissed him. “Mm. Love you.”

“Love you so much.”

You nibbled your lip. “I shouldn’t say what I’m thinking 'cause the mic is on.”

He chuckled. “We’ll chat and flirt later.” He helped you turn back around. “She’s all yours again chat.”

You huffed. “I’ll tell you what, chat, you have no idea how much this man behind me gets my heart racing. He went from this shy guy online to this confident beast.” You let out a long sigh. “I love him so much.”

“I love you too.” He leaned a bit so chat could see his face. “Look me in the eyes, little rabbits.”

You gasped. “Levi, they can see you.”

“I know, I want them to.” He pointed at the camera. “You hurt this precious little bunny and I’ll make sure you regret it.”

You whined a bit as you felt aroused and you could see your chat was just as crazy for him. “Leviathan, calm down.”

He gulped hard when he saw them talking about him and revealing what he was. “Tch, you lot are thirsty, huh?”

You leaned and read them. “That’s Levi Ackerman, he is in a vampire mafia group led by Erwin Smith.” You pulled back and looked at Levi. “I didn’t know you were famous, is that why you hid your face?”

Levi stared at you for a while in disbelief. “You…you’re not…you’re not bothered that I’m mafia?”

You cradled his face in your hands. “What matters to me is if you’re safe. Plus, you don’t treat me like trash, you treat me like I’m so precious. I’m not concerned, well, I am a bit about your safety.” You hugged him and whispered. “I suspected something because you sent me so much money and bought me lots of gifts, you have a lot of money.” You pulled back and kissed him. “Remember Levi, I love you for you. I fell in love with the sweet vampire who was shy and flustered around me. I don’t care about how much you earned or that you work for Erwin Smith. What matters to me is you love me just as much as I love you and you’re safe.”

Levi whined a bit. “Well, there’s an issue with that all.”

You frowned a bit. “What’s wrong?”

“I love you a lot more.”

You giggled at how sweet he was. “This isn’t a competition, my grumpy black kitty.”

He smirked a bit. “I’d win.”

“Even if I pout and gaze at you like this.”

He stared at your cute doe-eyed look. “Tch, damn it bunny. You’re too cute when you look at me like that.”

You giggled and kissed him. “You’re adorable.”

He sighed. “Joking aside, I’m glad I don’t scare you. I’ll tell you more after the stream.”

You flinched and turned to the camera. “Helloooo, little bunnies.” You giggled at all the things people were saying. “Yes, yes, we’re very in love. For those concerned about me, thank you so much but Levi is very gentle with me and incredibly loving. He’d never hurt me. The only thing he’s done that you could view as hurting has been drinking my blood, but I agreed to it all.” You wrapped Levi’s arms around you. “He’s wonderful and I love him. I don’t mind if you don’t support us, that’s okay and if you want to leave the warren, that’s okay too. Go where you are happy.” You blew kisses to them and felt so happy when people sent non-stop praise. “I don’t deserve you lot, I really don’t.” You sniffed back tears. “I love you all.”

Levi nipped your ear. “But you love me more.”

You petted his hand. “Always.” You cleared your throat. “Right, now the crying emotional moment is over with, let’s get back to gaming.” You played longer than normal with your fans because you’d been away for a while. It was starting to get late and the sun was starting to rise. “Okay, we have gone on longer than normal today. I hope you enjoyed this extra-long stream! Time to turn down the lights, get all bundled up and snuggle up in your spots in the warren. Rest well, my little bunnies. Love you all.”

Levi peered around you. “Bye-bye.” He waited for you to sign off on everything before grabbing you, tickling you and showering you in kisses making you squeal in delight. “Tasty bunny.”

“Can we talk about your job? You’ve mentioned before you want to let it all out in the open.”

He picked you up and carried you to the sofa. “Okay.” He sat down with you. “I work for Erwin Smith. He is the leader of the vampire mafia group in this city and beyond. We own a lot of things here, such as clubs, bars, restaurants and even shops. We handle vampires and vampire-related issues. Recently, I dealt with a businessman who believed he was the prophet but he was draining vampires of their blood to be stronger. The vampires he had were infected by a very old virus.”

You rubbed Levi’s chest. “Must have been horrible to see.”

“It was.” He shook his head. “I have also stopped a vampire bleeding a lot of humans and using them as…slaves…” He winced a bit. “I’m not giving you the best image of vampires.”

You kissed his face all over. “You’re incredible and you’ve given me a lovely image of vampires. There are ugly sides to any race. I mean, humans are shitty people.”

He caressed your cheek. “I don’t think you’re shitty.”

“Humans.”

“You’re not.”

You covered his mouth with your hand. “I know I’m not to you. I just meant humans in general. Anyway, my heart goes out to you. You’re always busy and you work so hard with Erwin to make this city safe. I’m proud of you.” You cupped his face and kissed him over and over. “My wonderful handsome vampire boyfriend.”

He nuzzled his nose against yours. “Mine.” He hummed. “I have more to say.”

“I’m all ears.”

Levi started talking about all the things he did for Erwin, including beating people and interrogating others. He went into depth about how things happened in the city and vampires. He went on about the vampire hierarchy and how pureblood vampires differed from turned ones. He explained there were key families, including his and Erwin’s, who had power for generations and worked hard to look after others.

You nodded and hummed a bit. “That…that’s a lot…to think your kind hid in the shadows for as long as you did…it must have been so hard.”

“It was.” He massaged your legs. “But, I have you now and I’m happy and deeply in love.”

You hugged him tightly. “You’re incredible. I love you so much and I’m so damn proud of you.”

He hugged you back. “Mm, I love you too. It makes me happy that you still love me and it flusters me that you’re proud of me.” He pulled back a little and began kissing you. “Mm.”

You smiled against his lips. “Levi?”

“Mm.”

“Are you hard?”

He whined. “Yes.” He released a long sigh. “You just make me feel…” He caressed your cheek. “You are so sexy and tasty.”

You licked your lips. “Wanna get naked?”

He growled as he lay you down on the sofa. “Yes.”

You gasped. “Oh, could we take this to the bed? Also, no going for days this time.”

He chuckled. “Yes, my love bunny.”

Levi offered his hand to you and helped you off his motorbike. “Now, remember to stay with me and don’t wander off.”

You let him pull your bunny helmet off as you giggled. “I know, I know. I’m not a kid.”

“I know you’re not, but you’re walking into a restaurant full of vampires.”

You smiled sweetly. “But they’re all your friends and in your gang.”

He sighed. “That’s why it’s dangerous. They’ll just see how cute, curvy, squishy, cuddly and tasty you are and try and take you away.”

You hummed a laugh. “Well, I love you and I won’t leave you.”

He cupped your face and kissed you. “These people are determined like me. If they steal you away from me and you fall for them, I will warn you little bunny.” His eyes darkened but not in a scary way but more like a man deeply and obsessively in love. “I will hunt you both down, kill him and then take you. I’ll make you wear a cute collar, lock you up in a room and never let you leave again.”

You smiled a little. “What if I like the sound of that? What if I wanna put on a cute little collar and be wrapped up in your arms for eternity?”

Levi shivered at your words. “F-Fuck, bunny behave yourself.”

“You brought it up.”

He grabbed your cheeks and squeezed. “I should punish you.”

You smirked. “Want me to count the spanks?”

He snarled as his fangs grew a bit. He looked away and growled. “Tch, damn it.”

You giggled and slipped off his bike. “I’ll stop the teasing.”

He hugged you tightly. “Naughty bunny.”

You kissed his arm. “I am. So, shall we meet your friends?”

“Yes, please.”

He kept an arm around you and squeezed your hip as you both walked into the restaurant. It was filled with chatter and a mixture of different kinds of people, from overly dressed-up people to those who looked chilled and relaxed. Everyone appeared the same age like they just stopped aging when they reached their 30s. There was a clear ranking situation in status with how people were served and the group around them.

As Levi walked you through the room people were gazing at the two of you and whispering, like Levi was important. A few others bowed to him a little and looked rather scared and nervous. Levi had told you the things he did for Erwin, but you didn’t expect him to be this important of a person. It worried you that you weren’t good enough to be at his side, at the same time you were incredibly proud to be his lover.

You snapped out of your world when you saw Erwin. You’d met Erwin before, he knew where you lived and collected Levi from you, but you never knew he was such a powerful man. “Hi, Erwin.”

Erwin hugged you tightly as he said your name. “Lovely to see you. Thank you for coming to this get-together. It’s been so hard to get Levi here. You’re like an angel.”

Levi pulled you close. “Goddess.”

“Sorry, goddess. It’s lovely to have you. You will be part of this family for eternity.”

Levi squeezed you. “Of course.”

You looked around and noticed two men standing together kept staring at you with a look of pure excitement in their eyes. After looking away you locked eyes with a man who almost looked disgusted by you. You flinched a bit when you felt something dark coming from him. “Mm.”

Levi looked down at you. “Are you okay?”

“Yeah, it’s just that man over there doesn’t seem to like me.”

The man you were referring to was Ivor, he was head of the most important pureblood family. Ivor was a stickler for the ancient rules and didn’t like humans dating vampires too much, humans were better as mistresses. Levi was the head of the Ackerman family, so the fact that Levi was parading you around, a human, as his lover and potential wife didn’t sit right with him. He was tall, with broad shoulders a chiselled jawline and a mean glare. His hair was messy and tamed black locks that framed his perfect face. Rings covered his fingers, but it wasn’t the only way he showed off. His white shirt was open so low that when it reached his waistcoat, it wasn’t buttoned. He was a man who loved his body and wanted everyone to see it.

Levi kissed the top of your head. “Ignore that asshole, okay?”

“Okay.”

“Focus on meeting my friends.” He gestured to a very tall man. “This is Mike.”

You shook his hand and squeaked when he sniffed you. “A-Ah, hello.”

Mike hummed. “She smells incredible, but I can also smell Levi on her.” He smirked at you. “He’s a hungry beast, huh?”

Your cheeks burned. “Maybe.”

Levi gently rubbed your back. “Ignore him.” He gestured to another man. “This is Henri.”

You gasped when a slender man with delicate rings, a long neck, smooth soft skin and gentle features approached you. He was the type of man who could smoothly talk anyone into doing as he asked. He had such soft and cute features, but you knew very well he’d be in full control. His suit was pressed and perfect, clearly designed and measured for him. His eyes were a greenish blue that sparkled with mischievousness. His hair was a beautiful deep pink as well as his brows. You hummed as he took your hand and kissed the back of it.

Henri lightly ran his lips on the back of your hand. “Bonjour, mademoiselle. It is an honour and pleasure to meet you.”

Levi tugged you back. “Oi, Henri, tone it down.”

“I can’t help myself when there is a beautiful woman before me.”

“You better control yourself or I’ll pull your eyes out over and over again, even when they’re regrowing.”

Henri smirked. “Promis, mon mi?”

You giggled and turned to an average-height gentleman with dark brown hair with a side parting, but it was so neatly cut like a butler or gentleman from years back would wear. He was in a buttoned-up shirt, waistcoat and smart shoes with a pocket watch on a chain. He adjusted his thin square glasses bringing attention to his beautiful and soft reddish brown eyes.

The man flinched when you looked at him. He offered his big slender hand to you. “Theodore.”

Erwin chuckled. “Come now, Theodore, she’s harmless she won’t hurt you, so don’t be so nervous.”

He bowed deeply to you as you shook his hand. “I’m so sorry.”

You hummed a laugh. “It’s alright, I get shy sometimes too. It’s lovely to meet you.”

Theodore’s eyes sparkled. “I’m uh…I’m glad I’m not alone.”

Henri slapped his arm around Theodore and squeezed him. “The more you get to know this fucker, the better. He’s pretty incredible, he’ll design you the most beautiful clothes and shoes.”

Your eyes lit up. “Really?”

Theodore nodded. “Y-Yes. I’d be happy to design things for you.”

Henri referred to himself. “I control a lot of the media. So, if you want to star in a TV show, I can help you.”

You hummed a laugh. “That’s cool, but I’m already known by people.”

Henri stared at you. “What, really?”

Levi kissed the side of your head. “She’s a gamer and has a massive following. Millions follow her. She streams and uploads videos as well. She’s Batbunny.”

Henri’s eyes widened. “Batbunny!? I’ve heard of you! Wow, that’s impressive. I would love to talk more about how you do it all. I want to learn.”

Theodore moved closer and hummed. “I ah, I’ve seen your designs for clothes that your fans can buy, they’re very lovely.”

You patted your cheeks as you felt flustered. “That’s uh…wow…”

Levi pulled you against him. “You lot have flustered her. That’s my job.”

You tugged on Levi’s shirt. “Um.”

He caressed your cheek. “What’s wrong bunny?”

“I’m hungry. Does this place have food for humans?”

He kissed your cheek. “Of course. Erwin and I own this place and we welcome anyone here.” He looked over at his friends. “We’re going to take a seat and get something to eat. You lot are welcome to join us.” He guided you over to a quiet booth. “Sorry, it’s rather noisy here.”

You shuffled in your seat. “It’s okay. It’s rather nice here. I loved meeting everyone.”

“I’m glad.” He held your hand and started kissing the back of it as his friends joined you. “I love you so much.”

“I love you too.”

Henri leaned his cheek on his hand. “Ah, pure love is so sweet. C'est beau.”

Erwin handed you a menu. “We have a lot of options here.”

You looked through it with Erwin. “Mm, you’re right. This is amazing.”

“Levi added a lot more after he started dating you.”

You felt your cheeks burn at the thought. You glanced over at Levi to see he was chatting with Henri and Mike. It warmed your heart to see Levi smiling and laughing so much with them. “He’s amazing.”

“He’s a good man.”

You reached over and poked Levi’s cheek. “You’re cute when you laugh.”

He smiled at you. “Thank you.”

“I like it when you laugh.”

He kissed you. “I laugh and smile a lot with you.”

You nodded. “You do. I just like seeing your fangs.”

He nipped your finger before licking it. “Cute.”

“Are you hungry?”

“I’m peckish.”

You ran your finger over his bottom lip. “You can bite my finger.”

He took your finger into his mouth, piercing it and drank some of your blood. “Mm.” He licked your wound and then healed it with his blood. “Thank you.”

Henri sighed. “Even her blood smells cute.”

“Levi.” Ivor slammed his hands on the table. “Explain to me why five of the top pureblood vampire family members are hanging out with some lower-class human.”

Henri smirked. “Explain to me why you’ve got a rod up your ass. Is that the sort of thing you’re into? I mean, kudos to you.”

Ivor snarled. “Shut your mouth, you perverted Kirby.”

You snorted a laugh. “That’s kind of funny.”

Ivor blushed at your laugh. “Stop that!”

You stared at him. “Stop what?”

“That noise you were making and you can stop that look too.”

Levi caressed your cheek. “He meant your laugh and your face.”

You frowned a bit. “I can’t stop them.” You looked at Ivor. “You’re a strange man, but you’re funny. Also, I’m sorry that you don’t like me being here, but my boyfriend invited me here.”

Ivor snarled. “Which one of you fuckers is dating this…this…this fucking…” His cheeks got redder. “Your face annoys me!”

Levi stood up. “Tch, oi that’s my girlfriend.”

Ivor locked eyes with Levi. “Should have known. Your mother tainted your family line.”

“Keep talking, I dare you. I’ve been desperate to let off some steam.”

Erwin stood up. “Levi, not here and not in front of your girl.”

Theodore smiled at you. “L-Let me help you o-order.”

You leaned on the table. “Thank you.” You giggled as you chatted with Theodore and felt so at ease with him. He had a nice relaxing presence. “You’re more relaxed with me now.”

He laughed nervously. “Y-yes. I just…you’re pretty a-and Levi is a big deal.” He cleared his throat. “S-So the person he dates is like…wow…”

You pinched his cheek and wiggled it making him blush hard. “So cute. I’m not a big deal really.” You leaned back as the food was placed down. It felt weird being the only one eating anything. “Umm.”

Levi stopped talking to Ivor and rubbed your back. “I’ll order some food.”

“Oh, but you don’t need to.”

He kissed your cheek. “I can eat food here. They do food for vampires.” He waved the waiter over and gave his order. “Anyone else?”

You nibbled your lip as everyone ordered food. “Ah…mm. You’re all too nice.”

Ivor folded his arms. “Look at the human with her food. Almost like a farm animal.”

You looked up at him as you welled up. “Are you calling me fat?”

Ivor panicked. “A-Ah! N-no!” He grabbed Levi’s arm and shook him a bit. “Damn it, Levi, make her stop that thing she’s doing! I don’t like it!”

Levi snarled. “Then say sorry! She’s a perfect cute peach!”

Ivor gazed at you to see your doe eyes filled with tears. “I’m sorry. I wasn’t calling you fat. I was just saying…I’m sorry.” He cleared his throat. “I’m leaving!”

You sniffed a bit. “Levi?”

He cuddled you. “You’re my perfect little peach, okay? My squishy bunny.” He covered your face with loving kisses. “Ignore him, okay? Ivor is a stuck-up prick. You are loved and cared about here.” He put some food on your fork and offered it to you. “Eat up, beautiful.”

You saw everyone was staring at you. “Why’s everyone staring at me?”

Mike chuckled. “It’s because we’re rarely around humans. It’s nice to see something normal for once. We don’t mean to stare so much.”

Levi turned your head. “Focus on me and only me. Now, eat.”

You did as Levi instructed and adored the food. “Mm, that’s delicious.”

“Well, that’s good news, right Erwin?”

Erwin nodded as he made notes. “Excellent news. We appreciate your opinion.”

You cuddled up to Levi. “Too much power.”

Levi squeezed you. “Powerful little bunny.”

[quanticq]

Hey Q! Sorry for bothering you, but for some reason I can no longer find any of your tik tok accounts 😭 Did they get deleted or something?

Hi this is Q! I’m coming out of the woodwork to address this, since I did went radio silent out of the blue so it’s not a bother at all

The short answer is Yes, I deleted my tiktok

Yes delete not deactivate, I’m not coming back to That app or IG or Twt, I deleted my socials except here and YouTube, I honestly felt so overwhelmed with everything, I realized I’m not even posting for myself anymore there. A lots of people crossed my boundaries time and time again I felt so helpless, bitter with myself. I guess I was just overwhelmed with the attention I got; both positive and negatives ones.

Im done and I want to start over so that’s why I’m here and on YouTube, I already posted some of these on my community tab on YT but here’s what I have in mind for the future of the content I want to create: more detail under the cut, and also;

CW: very brief mention of spiraling, harm inflict oneself or others, paranoia, etc

•Long-form content: my attention span is a bit messed up from consuming and making short-form content to the point where I can’t focus in university. I want to create something meaningful. It’s not that my previous content was not meaningful, no. I had fun and no time is wasted when I have fun, it was warm… but as I mentioned earlier, I just felt this lingering bitterness the longer I stayed making those short-form content. It really felt like I was on the verge of losing it. Especially with how the bigger following I have the less people think of me as a person than just another content creator you see on the internet,

I want to create long-form content, I’m so tired of forcing myself to generate 15 second content. On tiktok it just feels like I’m just creating and not really connecting. I want to try something new, maybe create an open space for meaningful discussion in the comments. I don’t think I can stand another copy-paste tiktok comment anymore. You know what I meant if you’re frequent on that app.

•Art Content with Commentary: and don’t worry this won’t be those petty artist drama issue, but I will still cover anything serious

it could be love letters or video essays ranging from fan fictions, fandom culture, the art scene and so much more. I may even share a bit of my personal life, this will be self indulgent after all! I want to make it fun for myself and as well to those who comes across my channel. I really REALLY want to create a genuine following.

On tiktok it’s so easy to gain following but not so easy to retain them, it’s mostly because of the algorithm and the FYP feature there.

On Tiktok most content that would get featured as an artist there would be creative work has to be either; more than exceptional which is pressuring enough already to consistent posters, straight up suggestive content shown to minors (tiktok doesn’t really have a blocked keywords feature but it’s so disheartening to see these creators intentionally not using the sensitive warning since it could limit their reach significantly) oh yes we can’t forget the negativity surrounding beginner artists or “art lore”

All of this cesspool of negativity, it’s a whole can of worms but it will be one of my prominent topics that I wish to discuss in my future art commentaries. I hope you guys are looking forward to those! I might bring in a few people or so to talk about it with me

and finally;

•Streaming: I used to do a lot of streams during the weekends on the clock app and it was super fun! I want to bring that back but that would have to wait since I’m unfamiliar with some features on YouTube, and I’m aware that YT does not have a discoverable feature for stream but that’s alright, I want to start something small first.

In short; I’ll figure it out! just need some baby steps before I start streaming again.

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I apologize for deleting everything out of the blue, if I’m gonna be honest it was partially planned because I’ve been thinking about deleting my tiktok, twitter and Instagram for a while now but how it happened? In my breakdown I realized that I don’t want anyone to see me spiral, especially now that I realized how young my audience are, I’m not sure how that happened but I guess posting fandom contents does attract the young ones somehow inevitably, even though my content is nowhere near as suggestive, but I do talk about serious topics from time to time… but I digress, its not fair for them to deal with me if they see me spiral publicly,

it is especially not fair to them to console me. When I was younger than 14, I’ve been in a position where I have to talk down someone who was older, maybe 4-5 years older than me, from harming themselves or anyone, it was traumatizing and unpleasant. I don’t wish for anyone to go through that, it’s very painful.

It’s been… hard for me to ground myself. Ive been seeing things through a kaleidoscope of emotions; I was trying to focus on everything but it’s just too overwhelming so eventually I cracked. But please don’t worry I’ve been doing better now, after some time away from my online persona, and of course spending time with my beloved girlfriend, I see things much more clearly now.

Thank you to anyone who read this and much so appreciate those who understand where I’m coming from

Also now that I think of it can my stuff be considered as lost media now? Amazing! But please don’t be sad the fun I had was genuine!

Thank you again to those who genuinely enjoyed my content on tiktok but it’s time for me to try my hand at something new, I will still be dwelling in my creative headspace just.. away from public for now,

if you’re looking forward for my future post, make sure to check out my YouTube! I still have a lot I need to cook hehe, this is one of the few!

More post soon, Bye bye! -Q

[fangdokja]

General + Request Rules and Regulations

Please refer to this post on the only characters I will write for: Fandoms and Characters.

The request and asks rules are applicable to two books ONLY:

"World Ablaze: For You, I Would Burn the World." - for fanfiction yanderes

“A Heart Devoured: A Dark Yandere Anthology” - for original yanderes

But I do have other books you can check out, if you want to look for more content suited for you.

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General Conduct

Messages that do not follow the rules will be ignored and deleted (or worst case, blocked).

Fix your profile, and do not look like a bot. If you follow me and look like a bot, you will be automatically blocked and reported.

Do not spam the inbox. Requests will not be taken if there is consistent spam. This only applies to the same request (same content, same character), but multiple different requests are welcomed.

If you want to remain anonymous, please specify explicitly.

I do not do follow to follow social media strategies, or anything related to it.

Do not send hate mail or nonsense offensive messages. Doing so will get an automatic block. This applies to not just the author, but in the community. (e.g. negative spamming, reblogs for hunting the blog, hateful comments, personal attacks, etc.)

Critical feedback is welcomed, but not when it's unsubstantial or simply fallacious arguments (fallacies).

Other irrelevant asks include petitions for donations, spreading information on concepts, blogs, people, religious slander, topics unrelated to the blog, etc.

No trauma dumping in any part of the blog, whether inbox or comment sections. You will be automatically blocked with your comments deleted {Trauma dumping refers to sharing one's traumatic past experiences all at once, without considering how it might impact the listener or if the timing is appropriate.}.

Spreading general negativity is unwelcome here. I'm neither a licensed physician nor psychologist. Neither is social media the best way to cope with your issues. Though, for me, number one way is Jesus and the Bible all the way to help. Just try it, instead of relying on a world that doesn't care about you. Kind of cold, but it's reality, especially if you have no benefits to offer in return.

The blog is dedicated to mostly male yandere + dead dove + psychological content.

Do not rush me. I will have the freedom to choose what request to finish first. So, just because you asked earlier doesn’t mean I’ll get it done straight away (especially if it’s NSFW and explicit sex). Art and writing takes time, effort, brainstorming, lots of thinking in general. I want to submit quality work, not rushed faulty work. And you’ll just annoy me if you rush me. I have a life outside of writing.

NSFW requests will ALWAYS take longer to finish, even more so, if it's explicit sex. {I specialize in psychological and fantasy writing. I suck at romance and erotica genres the most out of all writing. I can do it, but it pales in comparison to my other original works. I'm using my current works to practice for these genres to add to my original epic story.}

I ALWAYS schedule work in advanced. Stories you read presently I finished over two weeks to a month ago. So when you make requests, possible times to receive it is around that time frame or longer.

Why? I always have a packed post schedule that I fill in with oldest finished works to newest works after. I always strive to get the post schedule month done before the month even begins. Patience is key here. If you can’t wait, don’t make a request.

Request Rules

I will still have the final decision on whether to make the content explicit; or just enumerated or hinted at content, if you are requesting NSFW.

I mainly designed these books to be a more lighthearted experience in general, but it can still be subject to change depending on what the readers want.

I will still have the final decision on how to conduct your request. I will do my best to make it as accurate as you want as possible, but I will make no promises. As the author, I’ll have the final say, and have the option to accept, reject, or edit it for the final output.

One-word requests will be ignored. You can add a prompt, specific short idea, or anything concise but substantial extra content to let me know how you want the story to go.

More importantly, requests that are overly specific (like fully fleshed out stories and long paragraphs) will be majorly deleted due to the lack of freedom given to me as an author.

I will only be accepting requests sent to my tumblr inbox. Requests in Messages or anywhere else will be deleted and ignored.

Each person can only send me 2 requests at once. Otherwise, the following requests will be deleted.

In my header request button, it will say if requests are open or not. If it's closed, don't message me about content related to opening it or not. Refer to the rules here.

Lastly, I do not have to reply to your request message. It's optional for me to do so.

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What I will not be writing:

Anything that is meant to portray inaccuracies and degrade anything related to Jesus.

I will NEVER write about characters that remind me of my real life husband. It’s extremely uncomfortable and awkward. (To name a few: e.g. Toji from JJK, Yoo Joonghyuk from ORV, Aomine Daiki from KNB, Sung Jinwoo from SL, Wriothesley from GI, Callisto Regulus from VADTD).

Anything to do with adultery, cheating, infidelity. Loyalty (especially in the obsession phase) is one of the non-negotiable base foundations of the yandere. This also includes yanderes having no other love interest or obsession (e.g. dead past wives and spouses that they “cherish”) before the female reader.

Anything with pregnancy or children (don't trust me to keep those children safe from injury and death / tumblr policy). Including pregnancy fetishism, abortions, etc.

Sexual and Suggestive Content with Minors (tumblr policy). If the character is not of 18 years, they will be aged up.

Anything that romanticizes LGBTQ+. I will only be writing for a female reader and male yandere character, straight couples only for romance especially.

No polyamorous relationships, but love angles and love interest competitions are fine.

No divorce requests. Break-up (boyfriend x girlfriend) requests are allowed.

No requests for submissive puppy or any submissive men in general, including switches.

I do not write gentle sex, only rough possessive domineering sex. And only dub-con and non-con situations, no consensual scenarios here.

I do not write consensual SFW stories as well, all of it is either dub con, non con, or psychological in nature. Dead Dove generally.

I do not write older female tropes (e.g. MILF). I either write younger female reader or do not specify the age at all. At most, I usually write 18 to early 20’s reader.

I do not write tall, muscular, buff, or chubby female readers. I only write tiny, short, thin readers, or do not specify the height and build at all.

I do not write strong female protagonists. Like overpowered ones especially. For all my other works, except for my original epic story, I only write weak, submissive females. It’s because I focus on the male yandere’s perspective in my stories.

You are not allowed to specify how I will write the female protagonist. This will be entirely up to me.

No Genderbent characters. No crossdressing (also includes femboys, and other concepts related to it).

No Platonic yanderes, only Romantic yanderes, if human. But, if it's monsters, animals, etc. then I can do platonic yanderes (unless stated otherwise, like Undertale AU's, where I can make romantic yanderes ; but most of the time, I will not make romantic yandere non-human appearance monsters).

Other Kinks I will not write about:

No Acrotomophilia.

No Abasiophilia.

No Balloon Fetish.

No Bestiality / Zoophilia

No Bug Chasing.

No CBT (cock and ball torture).

No CFNM (clothed female / naked male).

No Climacophilia.

No Clown Fetish.

No consensual anal sex.

No Crush Fetish

No cuckolding.

No DIY Porn or consensual pornography.

No fetish for disfigurement and/or permanent bodily injury. (non-con actions are permitted).

No body fetishes (e.g. Foot Fetishism).

No Ederacinism.

No Figging.

No Gender Bending.

No Gerontophilia.

No Group Sex.

No Hebephilia.

No Hirsute Fetish.

No Hotwifing.

No Knismolagnia.

No Latex Fetish.

No Nylon Kink.

No Objectum Sexuality / Objectum Kink.

No Pedophilia.

No Praise Kink.

No Pantyhose Fetish.

No Robot Fetishism (unless for psychological aspects like controversies)

No Sex Parties.

No Spectrophilia and anything ghost-related.

No Stygiophilia.

No Tentacles.

No Teratophilia. (romantic and suggestive moments are allowed; no explicit sexual content for non-human like monsters)

No Trichophilia.

No Vicarphilia (only allowed for psychological aspects).

No Vomit Fetish.

No Vore (non-con cannibalism is fine though).

No Yoni Egg.

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What I can write (but not limited to), non-taboo / SFW:

Important Notes

I only write older male yanderes, age gap where the male love interest is older. It can be by just a few years to generational age differences. Yes. Daddies only.

I mainly write Dominant + Sadistic + Black Flag + Daddy please choke me more vibes. I can also write red flag characters as well, but mainly black flag yanderes that can and will kill you.

I specialize in the psychological genre. It's why a lot of my works revolve around that aspect, along with thriller and horror. I'm currently practicing romance and erotica (two of my worst genres).

Romance requests are only allowed to be in the "dark romance" genre at most. Comedy, slice-of-life, healing, fluffy, happiness won't be found here.

Plot Ideas

Reverse Harems: I can write reverse harems, but the reader can only end up with one guy in one ending (can have multiple endings).

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Themes I can write (but not limited to), NSFW kinks:

Specify if dub-con, or non-con (consensual requests not allowed).

24/7 arrangement

Age Play (older love interest / male yandere only)

Anilingus (non-con only)

Autassassinophilia

Autoerotic asphyxiation

BDSM

Blood Kink / Blood Play

Blindfold Sex

Breath Play

Bondage

Breeding Kink (not for pregnancy and children purposes)

Cannibalism

Claustrophilia

Consensual non-consent

DDLG

Dominance

Dirty Talk

DIY Porn (non-con only)

Edge Play

Electrostimulation

Erotic Asphyxiation

Erotic Humiliation

Erotophonophilia

Exhibitionism

FinDom

Fisting

Frotteurism

Food Play

Gagging

Golden Showers

Humiliation

Hybristophilia

Hypnokink

Impact Play

Interrogation Play

Japanese Bondage

Katoptronophilia

Masochism

Money Kink

Necrophilia

Needle Play (non-con only)

Objectification

Orgasm Control

Overstimulation

Ownership Kink

Pet Play

Primal Kink / Primal Play

Public Sex

Pyrophilia

Rape

Role Play

Rope Bondage

Size Kink (larger, taller male yandere only with tiny, thin darling)

Somnophilia

Symphorophilia

Temperature Play

Urophilia

Underwear

Voyeurism

Whips

Wet and Messy

Wax Play

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Themes I can write (but not limited to), controversial / taboo :

Hate, Discrimination & Oppression:

Bullying

Classism

Cyberbullying

Poverty

Sexism & misogyny

Slavery & indentured servitude

Slut-shaming

Workplace harassment

Sex and Sexual Violence:

Dubious consent scenarios

Gang Rape (reader not allowed to specify which characters)

Incest (aged up)

Necrophilia

Rape

Revenge Pornography

Sexual Assault

Sexual Harassment

Sex Trafficking

Sex-worker Shaming

Sex Work & Sex Slavery

Abuse and Relationships:

Arranged, Forced & Coerced Marriage

Domestic Abuse & Violence

Emotional Abuse

Incest (aged up)

Intimate Partner Abuse & Violence

Mental Health and Suicide:

Addiction

Amnesia & memory disorders

Anxiety & anxiety attacks

Bipolar Disorder

Depression

Disordered weight & body thoughts

Dissociation & dissociative episodes

Dysphoria

Eating disorders

Gambling addiction

Hallucinations

Intrusive thoughts

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Self-harm

Sex addiction

Sleep disorders

Substance addiction

Suicide & attempted suicide

Suicidal ideation

Alcohol and Drugs:

Alcohol consumption & abuse

Drug abuse

Drugging

Overdose

Blood, Injury & Medical:

Amputation

Blood & gore depiction

Body horror

Body modifications

Cannibalism

Chronic illness & chronic pain

Dead bodies & body parts

Decapitation

Dismemberment

Emesis

Eyeball trauma

Genital mutilation

Hospitalisation

Loss of autonomy

Loss of limb

Loss of vision

Medical experimentation

Medical treatment & procedures

Mutilation

Needles

Pandemics, plagues and contagions

Paralysis

Physical injuries

Physical illness

Scars

Starvation & dehydration

Surgery

Terminal illness

Weight loss & gain

Death and Loss:

Death from exposure

Death from falling

Death of a child

Death of a cousin

Death of a friend

Death of a grandparent

Death of a nephew & niece

Death of a parent & guardian

Death of a partner & spouse

Death of a sibling

Death of an aunt & uncle

Grief & loss depiction

Violence and Crime:

Asphyxia, strangulation & suffocation

Blackmail

Boating accidents

Building collapse

Captivity & confinement

Car accident

Disappearance of a loved one

Electrocution

Explosions

Fire & arson

Gang violence

Garrotting

Gun violence

Hanging & lynching

Home invasion

Hostage situation

Imprisonment & incarceration

Kidnapping

Knife, sword & axe violence

Maritime disasters

Murder & attempted murder

Organised crime

Physical assault

Plane crash

Poisoning

Police brutality & violence

School/workplace shooting

Stalking

Torture

Train accidents

Vitriolage

Vivisepulture

Whipping

War and Genocide:

Chemical gassing & warfare

Colonialism

Concentration camp

Conscription

Genocide

Massacres & mass murder

Military service & deployment

Nuclear disaster

Riots

War themes & military violence

Animal Death and Cruelty:

Animal attack

Animal cruelty & abuse

Animal death

Animal illness & injury

Animal testing & experimentation

Hunting

[tallatonk]

The hideduo fic i promised. Any comments or thoughts on this are appreciated, this is still a work in progress! Fic is under the cut.

tw: small tiny cannibalism mention, teehee

When You’re Too Scared To Say I Love You

Fit grabbed the nearest book and erased its contents in a rush. The pit in his stomach swelling, the urge to write this letter for Pac is strong. He had so much to say and so little time, the sense that someone, or something, was watching him plagued him all day.

A shaky breath left him as he picked up his pen to write. 

“Dear Pac,” he mumbled as he scribbled through the book. “I miss you so much, I wish you were here right now.” Fit stared into the page, god he can’t say that.

This was so embarrassing. Not that loving Pac was embarrassing, but rather trying to pour his heart out about exactly what he was feeling was. The world suddenly felt like it was going to implode, leaving him to pick up the pieces of his mind he never shared with the man. Yet here he was, too scared to write a few simple words.

He’s one of the toughest people on the server, hardened by the years of 2b2t. His life had been and still is filled with pain, war, and the type of things that would put fear into most. But out of all of that, this scared him the most. This was the first thing in years to make his palm sweat and feel as if he was on hardcore mode.  

It was both infuriating and infatuating, the way Pac affected him this much almost too much but not enough at the same time.

Fit pressed his hands into his face, as if it would help his internal battle, groaning to himself he looked towards the letter again. He can do this, he’s got this. He felt that deep sleep feeling coming, so this had to happen. He had to write this letter. He deleted what he wrote before, forcing his thoughts to focus on a new letter..

He’d restart the letter over and over again as long as he could, the best for Pac.

“I haven't seen you in many days, I hope you are enjoying your sleep. I have been feeling very tired recently and I feel like I will be having a very long sleep soon,” his heart felt it was beating out of his chest as he thought about the possibility he wouldn’t be able to see Pac again. He continued, pushing those negative thoughts in the back of his mind . “If I don’t see you for a while, I want you to know how special you are to me.” That's it, he thought after mumbling those last words, this is how he’ll say it.

Fit paused, reading his words over as though he finally said it to Pac in person.

“I know we haven’t been able to spend much time together, but you are always on my mind. It doesn’t matter how often you spend time with someone, it matters how much you think about them.” The American's eyes begin to sting, he pretends it's the sudden tiredness rather than the tears threatening to fall.

 “The next time I see you, I have a lot of things I want to say. Good things, don’t worry.” He lets out a small, bittersweet laugh as a warm tear runs down his cheek. Would he even be able to say what he wants when he sees Pac next? He can barely get down what to say in a letter, but in person?

It feels impossible. 

He shakes his head and smiles to himself, he’ll do this the only way he knows how. 

“But until then, I hope you are doing well and enjoying yourself. Also, my robe has been SUPER soft since you gave it back to me, so I owe you! I’ll have more fofoca soon! Yours truly, Fit.” He covers his feelings with jokes, just like always.

Something that Pac probably figured out about him by now.

--

The pain was nauseating, the wounds scoring down his chest to his stomach made him want to curl up and die. Fit was stuck in this cave for 2 weeks. 2 weeks surrounded by dead bodies and rock. 2 weeks of being on half a heart and unable to eat anything. The desire to go back to his old ways called to him, to consume the rotted flesh in front of him. He couldn’t do it, with everything Madagio told him– these were their friends, their fellow island members. 

--

Fit threw his head back in agony and screamed. He screamed until his lungs hurt, until his face grew red. He didn’t stop until he was sure the whole empty island heard him. His voice broke as he began to sob. Fit was stuck here, all alone. Things always came back to this, him all alone surrounded by the dead.

--

How i want it to finish--- Something something he doesn't wanna eat people, he breaks down and cries, he screams at the bodies and Madagio, and regrets not telling Pac he loves him. He cries out that he loves him and that he wishes he can see him again. He thinks he's gonna die down here, he mentions that at least he’ll see Max and the dead eggs again, and maybe even get to punch Spreen for leaving him and Ramon.

[funhouse-mirror-barbie]

Response to a reply that was originally on my post here. Reply below:

I appreciate your reply, and wanted to take a moment to respond—I wanted to reply here, because I don’t really like having long conversations on posts I make for a specific purpose. I also believe that your reply isn’t really relevant to the point of my post, and I deleted your original comments due to this, since this is an important topic, and I don’t want people to start arguing or discussion irrelevant things in the comments. So:

—First, thank you for explaining the context behind WHY some fans feel justified in their behavior. It is helpful to know, but in this case, the reasons people justify their behavior here really don’t matter. The entire point of my post was that if we are going to support all survivors, in ANY community, not just fandoms, we have to commit to it. We need to ACTUALLY respect ALL survivor’s opinions, even if we don’t agree with them.

I don’t think it was your intent to actually excuse the harassment, I’m assuming you just wanted to share your thoughts and let me know the explanation for why some people react so strongly. Again, I do appreciate the sentiment, but this is pretty irrelevant to the point of my post.

—Second, I’m not sure if you’re saying that *I* claimed or alleged the entirety of the Hazbin fandom was toxic, or if you meant it was something people say in general that’s inaccurate. Either way, I never intended to imply this was the case. If I did, I apologize--I could only find one instance where it looked like I may have generalized, and corrected it.

My assumption when writing the post though, was that most people would understand that I was not stating that *every single individual* in the Hazbin fandom is a toxic bully. I think that’s a pretty extreme conclusion to jump to. That said, I probably could have made my intent clearer—I did try to specify any individuals, regardless of their opinions or if they are a fan or critic, should not be harassing people.

That said, me pointing out toxic fans and critics within a fandom is not the same as “reinforcing negative stereotypes” about a group. To my knowledge there’s no like. “Stereotypical Hazbin Fan”. At least not that I’m aware of.

I don’t know what negative stereotype I’d be reinforcing by talking about this issue? Saying “this happened in X fandom” is not the same as saying “every member of X fandom did Y”.

I’ll check again, but I really don’t think I ever said at any point “the entire Hazbin fandom is like X” or “everyone who criticizes Hazbin is Y” or anything like that. I really don’t know where you got that from, not trying to be argumentative I’m mostly just confused.

Third—So, as I’ve made clear before, questioning and dismissing SA survivors, sending death threats, bullying and harassment is absolutely unacceptable behavior from ANYONE regardless of their personal justification. That was the entire point of my original post—that there has been a history of hypocrisy among many individuals in these spaces about what it means to support all survivors of sexual assault. The point is that we need to be better about respecting ALL survivor’s opinions on this stuff, regardless of our own opinions, and that hasn’t been happening.

In the case of the individuals you mentioned, if they actually have encouraged people to bully fans of the show like you alleged, yeah, that’s absolutely unacceptable too.

But, what you said previously, about only SOME of the fans being toxic applies to fans who are more critical as well. Just because there are fans who view some people as “bad faith critics” does not make it okay for them to harass and belittle anyone who happens to critique the show. Just because there are “toxic fans” in the fandom does not make it okay for any critic to harass or bully them for what they like.

I understand these parties may THINK they are justified in this behavior. But there is no justification I can possibly think of for harassing people who disagree with your opinion on a CARTOON.

Again, I really don’t think you were saying any of this was justified, and that you do understand that when people react this way to others it’s not okay.

I replied here to address what you said, since I wasn’t sure if I was misunderstanding you or your intentions, and wanted to talk about some of the points you brought up. Thank you again and I hope you have a good day.

Final note—I’m not tagging the person who commented this on my post because, while I don’t think anyone would harass them after how clear I’ve been about my feelings on bullying over this kind of thing, I don’t want to take that chance. It’s incredibly frustrating wanting to talk about how harassment of any kind from anyone in a fandom is wrong, and then having to worry about further harassment that comes from the conversation. Idk if that makes sense. Anyway, thank you for readings

[whateverisbeautiful]

Darksided Takes Seen On The Internet:

It became The Woke Dead after R&M got together 😑

I stopped watching and deleted TWD from my DVR after R&M became a couple because I don’t want my kids to see that (on a show with some of the most graphic gore and several interracial couples, Richonne is where they drew the line) 🤡

RJ isn't a legitimate son to Rick - and just an overwhelming amount of dismissive-at-best downright-racist-at-worst attitudes towards a child 😪

Taunting that we’ll only be getting about 240 minutes of R&M in their spin-off 🤣 (like sis, we would have been grateful for just a 5 min Richonne special during an AMC commercial break so 240 minutes is a blessing)

Rick had more chemistry with insert-any-non-Black-woman (ones I’ve heard: Lori’s corpse, Andrea, Jessie, Jadis) 🙄

Rick is going to move on with a new woman and start a family in the spin-off, including starting a romance with Jadis (the spinoff didn’t even have to air for set videos and pics to already debunk this) 🥱

Rick only got with Michonne romantically because she was alive and one of the few women available 🤮 (sooo darksided & wrong)

Rick’s best wife was Jessie (this nearly convinced me media literacy is completely dead) 🫠

Michonne is a bad mother who left her kids behind for some horny reason (as if she’s not a wife seeking to bring home the father of her children)

I can’t possibly have an anti-Black take because I think Michonne and her sword are "totally badazz" I just can’t fathom any aspect of the show that highlights her humanity, desirability, and womanhood (this is never helping one's case the way they think it is) 🤔

I don’t usually address the parts of this fandom that have consistently spoken so negatively about this TV couple. I’d rather focus on the positive that we get to celebrate in actuality. And I promise returning to being positive and unbothered is what I’ll do after this post, that who knows if anyone will read and who knows if I’ll keep posted for long. But there’s been a lot of degrading comments that go beyond just “opinion” or fair discussion lately so…I just had to respectfully vent. And it ain’t brief. Cuz if this blog has shown anything it’s that - Brief? I don’t know her lol.

Here’s the thing I’d want to say kindly to those that “just don’t buy Richonne” and go out of their way to be negative about the TV couple - You don’t have to like the pairing. Truly you don’t. You don’t have to see the (blazingly blatant) chemistry. Just know, you not seeing it doesn’t mean it’s not there.

And the issue isn't about you not being a fan of a TV couple or even voicing that Richonne isn't your thing. The real issue is whenever you spend time in your real life demeaning the pairing online with real-life implications of real-life racism and hatefulness.

Look, I hadn’t been expecting Rick and Michonne to get together romantically before they went canon. It wasn’t cuz I thought they didn’t have chemistry and it def wasn’t cuz I thought they were like siblings. (Ain’t nobody should be looking at their sibling the way they looked at each other lol.) Upon first watch, I just loved R&M’s dynamic and thought the bond and family they found with each other was really sweet and special and I had left it at that.

But when they got together romantically it immediately felt so right. It felt earned. It felt alive, authentic, utterly fitting, and beautiful.

And then shortly after when I went back and watched compilations of their pre-canon moments, I realized why it felt that way. It’s because it was all always right there. All that build-up was evident. All the desire. All the love. I wasn’t only seeing the pre-canon looks they shared and the attraction they felt because I now knew they’d be a couple. I was seeing it because that’s simply what it was. What it always was. Like from a media literacy standpoint, a romance is where Rick and Michonne's story was heading. It was me that missed it. And it would be weird for me to act like their love story wasn’t there just because I initially missed it. That’s on me.

How you feel about their love story doesn’t mean it wasn’t there. It doesn't mean their journey wasn’t well done. Some people just miss it because it wasn't heavy-handed and others just refuse to see it and we know why.

And if it’s just a silly TV show to you and you’re adamant that you don’t care about the couple or about anything, then do yourself and everyone a favor and don’t comment. Cuz people who actually don’t care and think it’s just a TV show aren’t taking any time out of their day to comment negatively about something that was made to be enjoyed. If you enjoy the couple, great. Revel in all their glory. If you don’t - ask yourself why it would at all be necessary to talk down on the pairing so harshly unless their union does bother you more than you care to admit and for reasons you refuse to say aloud. (But trust, the reasons behind why you spew vitriol toward the pairing are still so loud)

Whether you buy it or not, Richonne factually didn’t come out of nowhere. Their love isn’t an afterthought. It’s a patient and passionate slow-burn that wonderfully unfolded into an out-loud soulmate type of love from both of them equally. You don’t have to see it or like it. That’s okay. (Even tho I do feel pretty confident if you close your eyes and imagine Michonne looking like Lori or Jessie or even Andrea I think all of a sudden you’d read their scenes as more than platonic) But nothing will change that an epic love story is what Rick and Michonne’s journey literally is. Not just to “shippers,” but to people who receive actual paychecks as part of the show. Everyone involved with that show knows and values that Rick and Michonne have a grand love story. And the fact that a whole spinoff about their love story is on the way is proof that Rick and Michonne's love wasn’t just a part of TWD it was one of the elements at the very heart of TWD. Why keep fighting to survive if not for the love and family you build in that world?

9 seasons of watching Rick Grimes and they’re ending the main character’s arc with an epic love story between him and the greatest love of his life for a reason. Because no matter who likes or dislikes it, sees the chemistry, or doesn’t - regardless of it all, the characters of Rick and Michonne deeply love each other, need each other, and desire each other. And they have for a long long time. Fans of them are not reveling in an opinion or speculation that R&M’s story is a romance. We’re appreciating the story that was and is literally being told.

Their love story is fiction. Their love story is also a fact and no opinion changes that. And anyone who is willing to just step back, turn off biases, and watch what is literally happening on screen - in the words of Michonne…you’ll see :)

Oh and if you don’t - you don’t. No sweat. Like what you like. Dislike what you dislike. Just keep it respectful and know that the opinion you’re entitled to doesn’t change the facts. So back to reality & positivity, I go. 😌

[javis-burner-phone]

Thank you for your post about the current situation in the fandom. It really hit home. I know your post was about writers in the fandom but I was able to take a lot from it.

I am not a writer, I came to this part of tumblr about a year ago to enjoy Pedro fanfic, other brilliant content and hopefully make some connections within the fandom.

I never expected it to be so hard and so disheartening (I’ve been part of fandoms before and thought I knew how it worked… I was wrong!). Maybe it’s just me but as a non content creator I have found it hard to find my place here.

I make it a point to reblog the amazing writing that I read so that other people can enjoy it too and as a way to say thank you to the writers who give us these stories for free. I add comments too when a story has made a big impact on me. I send in asks and requests but most get ignored, which is fine, I can see how things can get lost if someone has had a lot of responses or even if that particular writer just doesn’t like the sound of what I’ve sent. I have pushed myself way out of my comfort zone and gone into people’s DMs and discord to start conversations but no one seems all that interested. I’ll never be the loudest in the room and it can be hard to make yourself heard over all the more confident, outspoken people. But I can understand that not even a shared interest will mean you automatically get on with someone and i don’t want people to have conversations with me out of some kind of obligation.

However, after a while you can’t help but take it personally and feel quite despondent. I have been very close to deleting my account altogether and then I came across your post and your take on it all and I am so glad that i did. The part you wrote about the filtered content list was something I didn’t know about but now I do I can try it! It might not change anything but it’s worth a try. Just because I haven’t found my people yet doesnt mean that I won’t! And let’s face it, all I want to do is chat and get silly and excited about Pedro and his amazing work!

I do seem to have gone on quite a bit here when all I really wanted to do was say thank you for your post and to fly the flag for other non creators who might be feeling as lonely here as me - sorry for the long message and thank you for taking the time to read it.

Hey, thanks for sharing your experience. My post focused on fic writers, but you're 100% right. You don't have to be a writer to feel isolated here.

It makes sense to feel negative about how hard it is to connect here. I've also considered leaving a few times, but I kept trying and I'm glad I did. It requires a lot of effort, but we CAN make strong connections here.

I'm glad the post gave you hope. ❤️

[o4ktree]

Just want to state that I respect your opinions, no matter if I may or may not agree with them. What I don't respect is how you say that you want no interaction with a certain group of people, but you decided to include a specific tag in your hate rant that would attract people from that group you don't want to interact with. And then you proceed to complain about a person from that group and the contents of their blog just because they pointed out that you didn't need to include that specific tag, especially since you claimed that you didn't want to interact with that group.

What you did is like the equivalent of saying you hate burgers, then going to a burger joint to buy a burger, then eating the burger, then just loudly complaining about how much you hate burgers to everyone in the vicinity. And then being shocked when someone has a problem about your complaining. Why go out of your way to spread negativity if you don't want to interact with people who would have a problem with it?

Like I said, I respect your opinions, just be more mindful of how you express them.

looking back at that post, i was definitely in the wrong for tagging it as frans. you make a good point, like why would i tag something that would attract people that i don’t want to interact with my blog.

in my disgust and also anger, i made that dumb decision and then also got even angrier at someone that wouldn’t have even been able to interact with my post if i hadn’t done that choice in the first place.

like, i don’t even go out of my way to comment on any of their blogs or spaces, i simply just block these blogs anyway? there was no reason for me to do this, and i’m not gonna come up with anything to excuse it.

i’ll definitely go and delete the response and the tag on the actual post i did make.

now that i am feeling less upset, i am thinking more clearly about this and definitely taking in what ppl are sending me in my inbox.

ty for sending the ask, and being respectful about it :D

i’d also like to mention for anything that comes up in the future, that people are free to dm or send me asks about their opinions on how i deal with things!! it helps me grow as a person, and i promise that i’ll be completely civil and honest with you.

[starrysnowdrop]

Hey everyone,

I just wanted to let you all know that I have deleted my rant from earlier, as I had only meant to keep it up a short while as I didn’t want to be constantly reminded of the hurt I felt earlier today. However, I have saved screenshots of all the wonderful comments I received on the post, and I want to say thank you to all who took a little time out of your lives to give a bit of love, encouragement, and support to a fellow human who needed it.

Please, always be kind to others. Build others up, don’t tear them down. If you don’t have anything positive to say about someone else’s creation, be it writing, art, etc. do not say anything at all. Unless the creator is asking for constructive feedback, then say nothing. I promise, you are only doing harm and you don’t know how deeply your negative comments might affect the other person.

Thank you all so much, and I hope you have a great rest of your weekend! I’ll begin answering the asks tomorrow, and I’ll keep reading the answers to the WoL Question I asked earlier! Once again, ty all!!

💖

[mbav-obsessed]

Sooo...I’m conflicted.....

TW: Grooming, grooming allegations

Okay, so I just wanna say something about Atticus’ allegations because it’s been a couple days now since finding out and I have thoughts. Ones that may have changed since my initial reaction. That, and I’ve been getting tons of anon questions regarding how I’ve been doing since then.

First off, I wanna say that people may not agree with what I’m about to say but HEAR ME THE FUCK OUT, OKAY? Please don’t immediately come for me and yell at me. Hear me out. Okay? Okay, here we go, long post ahead…….

If you’ve been following this blog for the last couple of days, you’ll know that I’ve decided to log back on here and see everything I’ve missed. That being said, you can probably imagine how shocked I was when I saw a post from someone else saying something along the lines of “Sooooo is Atticus just gonna ignore these allegations oooorrrrr….?” And I’m like “Hold the fuck up….what did I miss? WHAT ALLEGATIONS???!??!!” My jaw dropped and my heart shattered after looking it up and watching the victim’s two TikToks (the first was the initial one exposing him and the second one explaining how everything happened).

My immediate reactions were shock, anger, disappointment, disbelief....you name the negative emotion, I probably felt it. I even texted my sister and told her what was happening with proof.

My reaction was so strong because Atticus actually has responded to my comments on Instagram and Twitter multiple times over the past 9.5 years. They’re on here if you look DEEP through my archives. Nothing even close to how he responded to her, but he’s aware of my existence.

Now, I mention this because not only have I been one of his biggest fans since I was 14 (I’m now 25, turning 26 in less than a month), but I’m also in a wheelchair. In my mind, I was thinking That could have been me....I’m 2 years older than her, but he could have noticed the chair and targeted me....

Nobody has ever taken advantage of me like that, but that was the thought that went through my head because I know people can be sick and do that. I was just shocked that he would even have the audacity to talk to a 16 year old girl with THAT intention later on.

I unfollowed him on everything I had him on because why wouldn’t I? I even thought about deleting his music and MBAV off my devices.

It has been a couple days now and I’ve had time to cool down and really think. Now, I want to say that I in NO WAY, SHAPE, OR FORM CONDONE WHAT HE DID. Because NOBODY in their 20s, no matter who they are, should ever be trying to flirt with an underaged kid, let alone a 16 year old. I also 100% believe the victim and my heart goes out to her, and I hope she continues to heal.

(Now for the part people may attack me on.....) With all of that being said...I want to give Atticus the benefit of the doubt. I hate what he did, it bothers the hell out of me, but as far as we know, he hasn’t done it to anyone else. Once is still disgusting, so I’ll probably still back off and not support him as much as I did before to keep my guard up, but I don’t think I’m going to cancel him completely.

For example, I’m still gonna watch the upcoming 3rd season of The Hardy Boys when it comes out but that’s because I’m already invested in the show, and it’ll be the last season. Same if anything ever comes up for My Babysitter’s a Vampire because come on, why the fuck wouldn’t I?! However, I will not be going out of my way to spend money on his content (his music, his movies or shows if I can’t stream them, etc). Same goes for here, like, I might reblog or make something related to a show or movie he’s in, but not actually him (interviews and whatnot). However, this may also change as time goes on or if he fucks up more.

So yeah. I’m conflicted. TL;DR: I absolutely hate what Atticus did and am disgusted by it, but I’m not outright cancelling him for it while still keeping my guard up.

You guys can do whatever. Cancel him completely or not, I get it and I support you

[lawgrain]

Hi, I saw your post about appropriate commenting on AO3, it helps me so much since I am looking for it.

If you don't mind answering, recently I have written a fic for a less popular ship on a fandom.

There is this one commenter that keeps mentioning how the character I wrote is similar to another fic belonging to the same fandom but for a more popular ship/pairing.

I have never heard of this fic let alone read it.

It was uncomfortable for me to read the comment, because even though there are some compliments there, it feels as if this one commenter is comparing my work to this other fic.

For example

1. Will character A do the same as character B from this "Title"?

2. It's fun to read another "Title"-esque fic

Am I being to sensitive here? I get that there are compliments here and there, but is it justified to delete their comments?

I am not sure about their intention but they have commented several times and each times the same commenter said the same thing about another fic and how my fic is very similar to it. I didn't reply to this one commenter, others don't mention anything about this other fic.

I feel like it is quite rude mentioning someone else's work under the comment of another person's work and imply it is quite similar though not saying it outright.

Is it? I genuinely want to know because I need another perspective on this.

If it is not, do you have any advice that you can give? Your insight would be very helpful.

A fic doesn't invent an entire genre, but this one commenter makes it seems like it does (& I am copying it or something).

Thank you for your time.

Okay, real talk, delete that shit.

I’m sorry I didn’t see this till now btw. Really anything that upon seeing make you feel negative emotions, just delete it. One of my biggest mistake in writing was worrying about the comment section. It really fast tracked me into burn out and anxiety.

You don’t need to explain yourself and many writers don’t even go to their comment section. It’s not rude to ignore it. In this case, I feel the person you’re describing is being rude, even if unknowingly. Wether or not the person is being rude, you are well within your rights to ignore it or delete it.

I think I mentioned it in the post you reference but there was a time where someone used a fic I liked to put me down. It really just doesn’t feel great to hear about others in a manner to make you doubt yourself.

And really, not a goddamn person has an idea that hasn’t been done before. There’s not a concept that hasn’t been thought, it’s your take on it that matters. So don’t let anyone shame you for that. I’ll be the first to say that the fics I’ve written have been done before in a way. There’s thousands of bullying stories. There millions of stories with an abusive mother. There’s a ton of fics that reference similar if not the same topics I do. It just can’t matter to me if I’m going to get better as a writer. If it does than there’s not a word I could write.

I’m very passionate in defending you on this. I of course don’t know every detail of what’s going on but this is my take on it. I ended up getting very wrapped up in comments, both positive and negative, and that’s one of the worst things I did to myself. If I can help someone not to fall into that fate, I’d love to

[facks-stories]

Note: this isn’t proof read, sorry for any confusion on wording

Summary if you don’t wanna read it all:

I’m basically quitting the social part of Tumblr because I remembered how I hate talking to people online. Also art I said I’d make i will, but *Insert excuse* I’m not even going to say it will be done or even started soon, also even if you don’t want to read the next nine paragraphs, please skip to the end to appreciate the art that @colbyandmillie and @art-mushroomy made for me

Extra shit:

What are you not doing?

What’s going to happen to the blog

Why?

So if you didn’t give a shit why are you doing this?

Cool, but what about the promises that were already made? 

Who?

What about the ask blog?

Art

I won’t be reposting, commenting,asking [anon included] maybe even liking anymore posts or blogs, I just don’t feel like having someone angry or upset about me for something I can’t control, I will still follow pages but that’s about it, this blog is probably but be art every blue moon.

But now that I won’t be socializing on this account I’ll just post all art I will make and all story scenes I will make after posting it on it’s right blog [the 1-2-3 au blogs] so really this account will be somewhere to see all my art if you don’t wanna check all 3 other blogs

I hate when I can’t tell if someone doesn’t want me to do or not say something/ wants me to do or say something. And online its hard for me to try and see what you mean. This goes for almost anything. Like being rushed, I can’t tell if someone online is rushing me while being angry or not, and using things that look negative to me [using a . Or 😑🫤😐😬 ect.] make me think you are angry whether you are or not, so I’m not going to ask people to not use them, I don’t feel like possibly getting into a argument because my ego/feelings is hurt.

Normally I wouldn’t care if someone is being a ass knowingly or accidentally being a but rude, I probably would have forgotten about it but it’s because what they were asking be was something I didn’t want to do because of lack of being excited for it and energy. Now normally I only need one/only have one, but right now I couldn’t give a shit about drawing fanart, and honestly I don’t think if you asked me to draw Mimu in like 5 days I’d want to. Then I dreaded it for 2 days just to draw something I might delete later in a hour. Like holy shit my ego needs to be worked on because all of yesterday and Friday night was spent being pissed because I didn’t want to draw 4 characters despite having fun those two days 😀

It wasn’t even procrastination at this point the only thing I actually want to draw is Mimu and probably pretty soon I’m not going to want to do that, I don’t don’t think I will be non-petty if I keep talking and making promises,

Eventually i will draw all the peoples characters that i said I would, but I don’t want to half ass it because I’m angry and tired so it might not be anytime soon and they all may have honestly forgotten that I said I would in the first place

“Who the hell am I talking about” for the one random person that might see this, basically inde asked me to complete what I said I’d do so a bit is based off of that but I don’t blame him [if you are wondering why this feels a bit short it’s because I already wrote it but didn’t save before my phone died]

Despite me barely getting asks that aren’t art request [with the few I do get] I will still keep the ask blog open, but still keep in mind that I don’t feel like drawing as many characters so it may just be Mimu for now

I did have people draw Mimu, and they will be in the background of the ask blog posts so thank you @art-mushroomy and @colbyandmillie

Colbyandmillie:

Art-mushroomy:

Alright thats all thanks for reading me being a crybaby for 10 paragraphs (or you came down here for the art, but thats good too)

[also not tagging inde because I want to let him be-]

Womp womp