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i dont really feel romance but i like the process of a relationship its nice to be cared for and uplifted on a daily basis.. i guess i just want people that love me and are verbal about it and are physically affectionate
#i want someone i feel safe and trust and we can hug and hold hands and maybe kiss..#kind of like best friend but a little special#distinctive from my other friends#idk i just feel more lonely these days#and the weird thing is i have a friend now#jsut one that i trust but#before it was 0#so progress 👍🏽#i hope to make another one soon#🧃#maybe once i understand how to foster healthy relationships i can find someone like this#but its not romance#feeling like someone expects romantic feelings from me makes me stressed#i have only been in 2 ~romantic~ relationships and both times after im like was that even real and i think its bc im aro#bc i did care and love for them both intensely but once the brain fog and grief passes i always am like i dont think that was romance#whether that could bc bc im just gay but i think its that and im aro#i would like men more but i still dont think i can develop romantic feelings for anyone#especially long term ones
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Sanji & Lil' Sora Whether you're baking or drawing, art is sweeter when shared!
Fanart for @foxglovefantasy 's incredible fic, 'cut the lifelines'!
Design notes on Sora in the tags below ⬇️
#At times like this I wish I could draw people- but we work with what we've got 😤#I'd be remiss not to try to express how much I adore your work and what it means to me ❤️#CTL is such a huge comfort read I've been back to countless times and I can't express my love for it enough#all I can say is thank you for being a fuckin awesome writer 🫂#quick design notes on Sora!! his hair looks more windswept to match his name ❤️#his normal tail and being an earth pony come from his other 'parent' as one of the things sanji always remembers is his size and strength#the white patches are from the germa genes (the siblings all have white coats) as it's been hinted he's got a little something going on...#plus it helps make him distinct from sanji and zeff! white hoof sora!!#one piece#my little pony#mlp#ponified#ponify#black leg sanji#sanji#monkey d luffy#roronoa zoro#one piece nami#usopp one piece#tony tony chopper#nico robin#unicorn#straw hat grand friends#mlp crossover#one piece fanart
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Amateur Hour but I gotta outsource this. Aromantics. Heed my call. What is "romantic" love to a non-believer?
Bonus Round if you're not entirely ace -- does experiencing any amount of sexual attraction influence your answer? Also acknowledging that both aro/ace identities exist on a spectrum. Believe me. I am deeply familiar... with so many kinds of spectrums........... 🧍
Also if this breaches containment It's Not That Serious........... just a personal question. For a friend. Me 🙂↕️
#was so tempted to put 'sometimes 'love' is just autistic obsession' as an answer bc on god#i do think that's a factor for me. like. espppppp in moe's case. moe is just Obsessed w alfonse.#extremely weird about him constantly studying him. like. it does feel like love... the intensity of it..... but.#both me and moe. most romance repulsed motherfuckers out there.#like. like. not to get too personal but the one relationship i did have. i genuinely felt i loved him#but i also think. so much of it was me reflecting what i Think love was 'supposed' to look like.#most importantly he was my best friend (at the time). and i def did feel differently about him than i did anyone else/even other friends#which is why i'm so conflicted... like half i did genuinely love him half i've never been able to love correctly#and it's always taken some level of putting on a performance according to what i see to 'perform' love#like. like. am i just autistic. does it just come down to the autism again.#but also esp nowadays like. back on my bullshit. i actually ALWAYS hesitate to call whatever moe has w alfonse 'romantic'#like. i think he does feel/experience romantic feelings. but moe is just so dysfunctional and messy#that like. i don't think it would call anything it feels about alfonse romance.#but it still completely adores him. in a way that's distinct from how it loves sharena and how it feels about anyone else.#even charas it admires. somehow. which honestly jusy leads me back to The Obsession again#also extremely focal is how the demisexuality kicks in. like. it's definitely not devoid of sexuality.#IDK IDK I'M TALKING TOO MUCH I'VE TALKED TOO MUCH AND I'M SO TIRED. I'VE BEEN SO TIRED#i'm not in my feelings honestly i'm just frustrated LMFAOOO LIKE. SCREAMING. WHY DOESN'T IT MAKE SENSE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥#why am i preordained by fate to never be loved OR understood. wjat the hell man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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seeing nicki get dragged through the mud on account of fandom drama that isn't even about him honestly feels right. very armand core.
#press says iwtv#still the best and truest love of all which is very distinct from being my favourite#no one else will ever have what they did because of that crucial period where they were not serial killers and they felt bad about letting#their shitty dads down#whomst is going to play mediocre violin for you while you have an existential crisis lestat?#no one!!! you'll never ever have that again#it is in fact key that they lost each other while they were both still technically right there. that's the horror#the love turned to hate by something lestat didn't want or choose but still inflicted on Nicki#like i'm a louis girl but lbr lestat is having a crisis there are like 50/50 odds he says something mean about his dad and then says he's#annoying. which to be fair to louis isn't wrong#lestat is very annoying but there was a brief and shining time when he had someone who liked that about him#they were FRIENDS they loved each other because they knew each other. they stayed up all night talking#don't worry i'm also impossible 😭#interview with the vampire
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the urge to self sabotage bc it would be easier. BUT I WONT DO IT!! I NEED TO PROVE TO MYSELF THAT I CAN DO THINGS THAT ARE GOOD FOR ME!
#i have a history of like. wanting to take the hard path and when its Actually Hard instead of#going thru w it i just like...dont do anything. usually i become anxious to the point of illness etc etc#but rn its like...i cannot fuck this up fr i rly have to at least try !! ive been given a good thing i have to at least . try.#i need to be nicer to my future self they are just as much a person as any of my friends that id go out of my way for#by that point we may so different from each other that all the bad things i do that harm my future arent just harming MY future#but also someone distinct from me in many ways. yk. like who are u hurting ? they (future u) may be a stranger at that point#with how much things change. do you have a right to rob them of potential health and happiness?#im not trying to play around w counterfactuals i just need to be kind. i just need to be kind even if its myself.#lets see.
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I love when I tell people I’m allergic to nuts and they’re like “all nuts?” and it’s like. Well. I haven’t tried every nut know to man. But so far it’s like 6/6 so yeah I’m just gonna throw it out there that I’m allergic to all nuts in lieu of going out of my way to find the one nut I may not be allergic to by process of elimination.
#this post is brought to you by I finally have a Nutella substitute#something I never had as a child#that bothered me enough that when my friends were all eating Nutella and going mmm Nutella I was like fuck you all give me that#I’m slightly less allergic to Nutella than anything probably by process of it being the furthest thing from a straight-up nut I’ve tried#but yeah#I *think* I’ve (accidentally) tried peanut(butter); walnuts; almonds; and hazelnut (that was intentional)#and I know I can’t eat peanutS and cashews and pistachios without trying them#chestnuts are a mystery. can’t tell if I’m allergic to them just by being near them like I can with other nuts#I don’t know what other nuts are out there#cut to my best friend getting annoyed I called all resses resses peices and she was like these aren’t resse pieces they’re resse CUPS#and I’m like in what world is that a distinction I have to make bestie#anyway#personal
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I feel very strongly that Saira saying "I fired my best friend for this! I did that I Did that!!!!" about Taz is actually just proof and confirmation of the loving backstory you created for them!!!!! they have known each other the longest, head canon confirmed !
awww <3 While I knew season 2 would jetteson 99% of my headcanons and invented backstory (rip to saira being younger than amina) I do love that it kept the Taz and Saira relationship so unique and close!
#honestly i love how all of the girls have such specific and loving relationships with each other#like saira and ayesha's relationship is distinct from saira and bisma's friendship is distinct from saira and taz's#and yea! i do think it still seems like saira and taz have something older than the rest of the band!#i fired my best friend for this like WAHHHH!#american pie
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I’ve read through two different series so far this year and I have to say I’m upset and annoyed that now I have to wait for the next book to come out
#I finished network effect two days ago and fugitive telemetry today#and this sucks now I'm just stuck here#and you know who would understand my plight of not having enough media downloaded? murderbot#it's like you make friends with these characters and then you don't get to hang out#also I think I might check out other books that Kevin R Free has narrated#because he hit it out of the fucking park with these#everyone has a distinct voice / accent and it's so easy to understand who's talking even when there aren't dialogue tags#and his voice is just very good aside from that!#I'm a Kevin R Free fan account now I guess
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well I just spent an hour digging through my own dnd notes and social media and also almost cried because I mentioned, in passing, something justin had said about one of his NPCs and he, completely lightheartedly, was like '?? I don't remember that at all. [I mean I'm not making it up?] I think you might be making it up 😏'
#me-- instantly stressed and near tears: I know you're joking and it's not even important but. that isn't funny. to me.#I really wish there was a term for 'gaslighting but they're not doing it on purpose'#this is distinct from simply 'being wrong' because 'that's definitely not what happened 🤨' is a key part of it#the other person trying to convince me that I'm wrong and I must be crazy-- not for manipulation purposes but because THEY forgot#and are MUCH more confident in the possibility that I'm completely full of shit than that they maybe can't remember exactly#this is an extraordinarily specific thing that nonetheless happens to me ASTONISHINGLY OFTEN.#I mean clearly often enough that I'm now hair-trigger sensitive upset about it#AND TO CLARIFY QUICKLY-- that's not what justin even did (this time) but 'well I don't remember that' is still...#OKAY WELL I DO. WHY DOESN'T ANYONE EVER BELIEVE ME.#trembling and crying searching for Receipts while explaining to my husband that it's not even that I don't think he believes me (this time)#I just. I just. I just. I'm not fucking crazy. I know you don't think I'm crazy. but I still feel like I Have to prove it.#my mom sending a package to the wrong address and then saying-- confidently and irritably-- 'you never GAVE me a unit number'#when I can scroll back up through texts to where I sent her our new address when we moved and it was complete and correct#my friend during our big stupid fight saying 'no one actually AGREED to that [dnd] plan except you and justin 😒'#going back into my audio recording to that conversation where everyone BUT him agreed#including his fucking pick-me 'yeah jay's being shitty right now' brother whose character said 'this sounds like a good plan' verbatim#like. I KNOW it's not just 'my memory vs theirs and we both assume we're right'#because SO OFTEN when this happens I have FUCKING RECEIPTS. that I'M NOT WRONG OR CRAZY.#no one ever wants to entertain the notion that I might know what I'm talking about.#I can't stress enough that I'm not mad at justin right now he was very much 'no I believe you! it's weird that I don't remember though'#which is fair! honestly! but I'm a LITTLE. sensitive. of the fact that everyone always ALWAYS automatically assumes I'm incorrect#and very often in a way that's a mark against my competence or character.#'well *I* couldn't *possibly* have gotten the address wrong so YOU must have fucked it up'#you know. it's like that. it's like that a lot.#maybe this only happens to me so much because I happen to be cursed with remembering things better than most people#or maybe I'm uniquely viewed as incompetent. who can say.#about me
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i love achievements as a feature on steam because it's so fun to be able to see what percentage of players of (for example) new vegas, did a thing. and then speculate on why. and compare to the percentage of players who did another ideologically dissimilar thing. and it also lets me know that not many people bothered with busking in bg3.
#i'm not really surprised that one of my rarest achievements is finishing the legion route and in a way i guess that's good?#because i feel like if the legion route was Extremely Popular i'd be a bit concerned#i personally have it because i like seeing all routes of rpgs#but it has me thinking about how much goes unseen in games sometimes#mass effect is another example lol like the percentage of people who went paragon vs renegade is interesting#i mean they're both war criminals but i have more disdain for paragon weirdly enough#they come across to me as ideologically inconsistent which certainly tracks considering#paragon dialogue tends to make you seem like a democrat (derogatory)#so they're consistent in their inconsistency. because it's really about seeming like the diplomatic option#even though you will end up in the same place#mind you the renegade xenophobia options always really annoy me#because i think a paragon war criminal could be just as horrible wrt that#the way the distinction is drawn also always seems very inconsistent#and as my friend pointed out today#(shout out darkurgeapologist)#renegade and paragon are both very... one size fits all wrt interactions#so there is no room for the character to code switch based on who they're talking to#because mass effect is designed to reward players who commit to one side or the other#(which i assume came from bioware making kotor before mass effect)#(like... me renegade/paragon is just sw dark and light side)
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that post about walking a different route & buying a soda at a store you've never been in being essential is so real. sometimes you go make a turn one block further than usual & end up wandering onto this bizarre ass street that doesn't even look like it should be part of your city
#id describe how weird it was but i think its too distinctive. suffice to say it was very unlike other streets here#my neighborhood is weird as hell im just desensitized to most of it from living here & then my friends visit & will be like#thats not a real subway station is it & im like yeah?? i use it all the time??#texticles
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The state of my frogs parallels my very own to the point shame escapes me but here's Daniel. Name is a bit of a pun bc as you can see he kinda is missing a hand (not intended ofc but let's get creative) and a peronista (✌️) so naturally no other name fit him. He's also in a band w Nazareno and Jorge, or at least was. I forgot what his role was. He's also very quiet very chill. Not much going on man just vibing. I thought of giving him half lidded eyes in the past w sharpie.
#luly talks#behind him is sao. sergio adolfo osvaldo. nobody is ready for sao lore#i dont remember where daniel came from either also you gotta say his name in spanish daNIEL not DAniel ok very important distinction#nazareno btw is not a plushie he's actually just made out of ceramic#and has his name after my irl friend#i think he might've been a gift actually#jorge i got from el barrio chino btw heaaart#also i have 2 frogs i HATE its unreal how much i hate them they're Mitch and the other i forgot her name#they're both from TY one is speckles idk what mitch is#they might be a knock off#i mean they both prob are#but they're like. so. obviously off#GENTRIFIED MY OWN FUCKING FROG COLLECTION GODDAMN IT#LIKE MAN im sure sapina and rosemary (was that her name?) are ty too or something but its DIFFERENT#bc they're fucking ugly god bless#these ones are TOO CUTE TOO CLEAN AUGH I HATE EM!!!!!
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the number of fictional dynamics which have intense Cool Adult Cousin energy which I see referred to as parent-child dynamics has led me to conclude that an awful lot of people did not have the childhood experience of a Cool Adult Cousin and I think that's a shame
#me#note: Cool Adult Cousin as a category can include teenagers down to sixteen as long as the relevant younger cousin is under ten#anyways. this observation is related to but distinct from my OTHER frustration with the excess of ''this is parental!!'#which is that INTERGENERATIONAL FRIENDSHIPS EXIST YOU GUYS. IT IS NOT A PARENT-CHILD RELATIONSHIP. IT IS A FRIENDSHIP. THEY ARE FRIENDS.#there's also some where it's. like. Cool Auntie/Uncle energy or Cool Older Sibling energy#but those can be folded under the same general sentiment as Cool Adult Cousin energy for simplicity#I just singled out Cool Adult Cousin energy bc in my experience it is Quite Distinct
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i think edd and erik definitely try to look different on purpose. already all the heap boys look pretty similar, and get mistaken for each other. so add onto that someone who shares your exact same face, living space, and eventually occupation. i think both of them try to have very distinct Things™️ about their appearance because to them, they ARE different and distinct people, and even though they love their brothers they don't want to always be considered part of a set, you know? like it's very important for them to be able to match clothes or hang out together without being confused as The Same Guy
#Edd Heap#Erik Heap#Septimus Heap#mod post#i just think the additional element#of there being 5 other brothers who look pretty similar to you#in addition to your best friend who also has your face#i think it would make them want to drastically alter their appearances#also bc they seem to not have as many inhibitions as some of their siblings#that's why my designs for them are so distinct from the other men#to reflect their personality and also their want for individualism#like i think it would bother them more than the others to all look the same#headcanons#i look at the heap twins and I'm just like. my house now
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Do you have any songs or albums you associate with your Tav and Durges? It could be the lyrics of a song, the themes of an album, or just the general vibes of either, it doesn't matter why.
Bonus question: Do you have any OTP/ship songs for them and their LIs?
BOY DO I <3
i've got playlists for Pyre and Moss (Nod too, technically, but his is under construction atm since Moss took over my brain and i gotta divvy up their music vibes a bit more lmao), and i'm planning on Vvornth too!
because i listen to music literally constantly bc i have bees in my brain, i have SO many good songs for all of them, but
for Pyre/Astarion my favorite has probably got to be The Liars Club by Coheed and Cambria
for Noddy and Wyll, it's definitely Saccharine by Jazmin Bean
Vvornth and Gale hmmm... hate to be basic but Closer by Nine Inch Nails just has such a vibe for them...
i have SO many good ones for Moss and Astarion rn bc i've been listening to basically nothing but Moss's playlist lately, but fineshrine by Purity Ring has just... the perfect Eerie Softness that suits the way Moss loves so well <3
#undead-potatoes#pidge replies#unfortunately i have Three Durges and i want to put metal on ALL their playlists so i have to figure out a way to differentiate them#......i put metal on Pyre's too but at least his vibe is more distinct from the others#i... have a favorite genre...#and god it was such a struggle to decide between fineshrine and like six different sleep token songs for mosstarion ngl#i have so much sleep token on literally every playlist#also i promise i still have the other ones you've sent that i havent posted yet!#my brain is just not my friend lately 😩😩😩
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I may have lost all hope
#it's a weird feeling?#like since late 2022 it's been kind of like. bad vibes consistently#and i tried to stay somewhat positive throughout it#but idk there's this very distinct feeling now of like. i can't describe it but it's completely gone#like I've actually got nothing to live for#nothing I've done or wanted to do since i was 14 has ever really like amounted to anything#all the friends i made i never feel like i can talk to#once again in that state of 'only alive so my family don't get sad'#like even when i wanted to just stop existing when i was 21 there was this tiny bit of hope still there a little bit#like i remember for that whole summer i kept getting quick thoughts about suicide but I'd always push them out of my mind instantly#but there was one day where i let the thought stay in my mind for a little bit and like properly considered how i would do it#and then after a bit i was like FUCK and then went and walked like an hour away from my house to try and forget it#and then after that day i slowly got better. and it was annoying bc it meant now i had to walk a whole hour back to my house#but even if those 2 months there was still this feeling of this isn't gonna last#bc i knew i was back at uni in a few months and at least i had music to listen to#and all the other times I've been in that state there was still this sort of feeling that it'll get better bc I've got things to get me#through it#but it doesn't feel like that now. like no job no friends no hyperfixation and now i can't even enjoy any music#anything i create is pointless bc only i care about it#all my friends are busy doing other stuff I'm like not even second best I'm the most forgettable person anyone might know#the only thing that would fix me is getting a random train to like some place I've never been#just to see a new thing i guess#but anyway#ramble#suicide mention
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