#dissociativeidentity

[systemlani]

DID - On Self-Doubt

A shorter excerpt today, from our blog post titled, "Lani - A Life as 'Multiple' and Introducing Us" (full version on our website, lanisystem.com). It took a rocky and overwhelming few years to figure out that we had DID, and to understand that we were a system. It's something we still struggle with today. But it was also a rewarding experience, once I knew how to manage being a system.

Systems Q&A: What was it like when you DIDN'T yet know that you were a system or had DID?

[amanuensisjwolfe]

He's the best. #esa #emotionalsupportanimal #emotionalsupportcat #ptsd #ptsdwarrior #ptsdrecovery #ptsdsucks #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociativeidentity #dissociativedisorder (at Manchester, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8VGM-DHDN4/?igshid=1j1zape8k923i

[theowllepousystem]

Allysun drew our Alter, Terra! #artistsoninstagram #copicmarkers #copicsketch #micronpens #art #prismacolorpencils #prangmetallics #brushnibsforlife #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociativeidentity #did #didalters #drawmyalters https://www.instagram.com/p/B22coYTnwlx/?igshid=14jy9ry7ab2d

[kych-et-al]

#imnotdead

It’s been a weird couple of months right here.

I’ve started seeing my DID in a new light, instead of seeing it like “theres people in my head” I’m now seeing it as “all those parts of me I thought were stripped away, they’re right here. I’m not a husk of a person any more!” It sounds so optimistic and positive, but I’m also grieving. I feel like a jigsaw puzzle that some pet has gotten into and knawed all the pieces, they don’t really fit back together again, but they’re not really all right either. If you squint through one eye you can almost say “Yay, we have a full puzzle!” but as soon as you look properly every part is broken and freyed and it doesn’t really loo like the original image.

the hope is there, but the process hurts.

[pixiegizmo]

Battled my anxiety tonight with some watercolor painting. Still on edge but a bit better. #dissociativeidentitydisorderawareness #dissociativedisorder #dissociativeidentity #dissociation #DID #dothenextrightthing #PTSD #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bipolar #depression #copingskills #selfharmrecovery #selfharm #suicidalideation #recoveryispossible #watercolorpainting #watercolor #watercolorpractice #watercolorart #watercolorlandscape #customwatercolorpalette https://www.instagram.com/p/BoQTKCzl3RX/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=myjnnsn5w0m

[hexaflexageek]

Trying to recover. The weekend was good but it took a lot. Recovery is being difficult and included a panic attack today. We've hardly done a thing and haven't been able to leave the house. Lots of tears too. Plus autism means I'm terrible with loud noises and sudden noises. This is the kind of place where kids play with fireworks and chuck them around the streets and at houses. It's all kinds of autistic hell and doesn't exactly make recovery easy. Total fear reaction every time. They're all boys of course. Idiots who will grow up to be the patriarchy. The world is doomed unless we smash the patriarchy into unrecognisable fragments! But on the plus side it's now 1000 hours (1006) since the last psych drug dose and we've done a heck of a lot in those hours including plenty of scary things. #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #medication #autism #autistic #hell #fireworks #noise #dissociative #dissociativeidentity #didsystem #anxiety #panic #panicattack #badday #tired #achievement #video #videodiary #hatefireworks #actuallyautistic #difficult #patriarchy #notcoping #needhugs #scared #keepgoing #wecandoit (at Newcastle upon Tyne) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoM4vciAN5p/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=15b0ujmh4nclm

[systemlani]

DID - On Dissociation & Being "Multiple"

An excerpt from our blog post, titled "Lani - A Life as 'Multiple' and Introducing Us". The full post is available on our website, at lanisystem.com. Our system struggles quite a lot with dissociation, as many systems do. It was particularly hard when we didn't KNOW we were a system, and didn't have the words to explain how we felt. Everything felt indescribable.

Systems Q&A: How/when did you realize that you were a system?

[swpiscesean]

"The Synergy as the Silver Hydra" By Camille the Chameleon . A rather personal sketch of a portrait for the #SilverSynergy through the eyes of Cam... You see each Personality has a different perception of what we are and for Cam, we're a monster :( Too many heads in one body. We learned to function as one but doesn't change the fact that not all of us are right (some are left lol). Different opinions divide us and each compromise doesn't really give us the satisfaction of being whole... Being the main front or facade of our existence, Camille needed to be manipulative. We needed to adjust to survive and depending on who or what we're facing, she's our brave (or pretending to be brave) front. She deals with the outside world and of course this affects how she views us. A part of others' opinions stays with her (that's how she knows what and how to adjust). And the prevalent opinion of those with multiple personalities is: we're freaks. Despite the seemingly negative aspect, Cam loves us. When the Axis failed, the Synergy decided it's core values needed something aside from "our truth"... It needed "our love". So as I begin this over due #ArtSeries , it's worth emphasizing that no matter how bad we think we are, we love us. "I" love "myself". . NOTE: NEVER self-diagnose. The reason why I never got tested is because I'm high-functioning and having multiple personalities never hindered me from life and responsibilities---much. Still, I refrain from saying I have a mental disorder...just challenges and conditions . #sketchupwithkaweco #multiplepersonalities #dissociativeidentity #smbrodit_sketches https://www.instagram.com/p/CECZth5nMnK/?igshid=nx7nsn2f7982

[thatskazumi]

These photos of myself I took really speak to me and they describe my emotions I'm feeling right now. I too, am human. I too, break. I do my hardest to portray myself as strong for the souls who are feeling weak. But right now im breaking; so please allow me too - I also, am only human. I can't thank everyone enough for the dms and comments. I really do have an army behind me, waking towards our storms; together. You're never alone and if you feel alone come moonlight; know I am somewhere in the worlds feeling this pain also. We are all in it together my beautiful souls. So let's cry together, lay together and then lift eachother up ❤️

[geekdogsndid]

When you go shopping to buy an outfit for your friends wedding and end up getting comics instead 🤷🏼‍♀️ . . . #purgatory #chaoscomics #lovecomics #geek #comics #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociativeidentity #actuallydissociative #didsystem #life #shopping #stillneedanoutfit https://www.instagram.com/p/B0YRwxTHpXt/?igshid=mrghvk49283x

[hexaflexageek]

Good news. Second half of a #psych assessment today at the specialist centre. We're being taken on for treatment. Woo Hop! Nice long waiting list first of course but getting on that list is something of a miracle. There's a bit of homework to do by then if we can. Sometime next year we'll get called back and specialised help will happen. Let's see how many more leaps and steps towards #recovery I can do by then. #determined Various parts are very cross and have not made today easy. They don't want us to deal with this #dissociation stuff. But we're going to. Gently. Lucy, who I know most about, is panicky today. I still managed choir though. For today it's the best result possible. #dissociative #dissociativeidentity #didsystem #dissociativeidentitydisorder #DDNOS #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthblogger #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthwarrior #nostigma #pleased #grateful #positivevibes #mentalillness #glad #happy #icandoit #news #psychology #fortunate #goodnews #complicated (at Newcastle upon Tyne) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn63zMpHSfx/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gcog05kwk601

[juls-savant]

Prince had many alters

[bottomshelfbarbie]

#didsystempride #didsystem #didmemes #didpride #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociadid #dissociativeidentity #dissociativesystem #dissociativedisorder #systempride #system #didcringe #fakedisordercringe #didsystemproblems #didsystemmemes #systemmemes #systemproblems #fakeclaim #fakeclaiming #endogenicsystem #endogenic

[systemlani]

DID - On Amnesia & Pieces of Memories

Another excerpt from our blog post, "Noel - Memory Loss, Switching and Existing Out of Time". The complete post is available on our website, lanisystem.com. Memory loss poses a significant challenge for us during therapy sessions. Communicating with our therapist, Mel, is tricky, depending on who is fronting. :/

Systems Q&A: If you are currently in therapy, how do you best communicate with your therapist?

[swpiscesean]

Very rarely do I find their voices loud enough to take action...but this was an exception as we pondered about our existence. This what they had to say. I told them it had to rhyme hahaha XD evil Sam but it was nice... . "We'll start at the beginning. It was a shadow and her light; The dream and the dreamer Against the darkest of nights." #TheMadWriter . "Her name was Silver, A name we now share To keep us all together Even when she's not there." #9 . Not all of us are gifted With the right words to say And though it's awkward I'd share this, if I may, Being part of a whole Means I have a place, A home to stay #AnAlter #DID #dissociativeidentity #MPD #multiplepersonality #SilverSynergy #SilverLiningsPublishing https://www.instagram.com/p/BtAdQw0lLsb/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=2xca0vu38ghg

[thatskazumi]

My article which is published in the Canberra times and the Sydney morning herald! For anyone fighting mental illness have a read. I hope you find comfort and familiarity in my story. Love and light.