#disorganized schizophrenia

[alixisherebutringagain]

Psychotic episode are fucking terrifying so sorry if I don't like when you use the word "delulu" and sorry if I don't want to talk to you because you think I'm crazy or dangerous and sorry if you think I'm exaggerating BUT FUCK YOU BECAUSE I WAS TERRIFIED.

I WAS SCARED.

I WAS LIKE A KID SCARED OF THE DARK.

HOW DARE YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY.

I WAS AFRAID TO GET KILLED, I WAS TERRIFIED OF GOING OUTSIDE I WAS CONVINCED OF HORRIBLE THINGS I COULDN'T SPEAK I COULDN'T MOVE I WAS TRAPPED IN MY BRAIN SO FUCK YOU.

Fuck anyone who thinks psychotic episodes are funny. Fuck anyone who judges someone for being on the schizo spec. Fuck anyone who laughs at this.

[radiomogai]

ID by @jackettranscribes

[ID: A flag made of eight concentric rectangles. From the center out, they are dark green, green, light green, pastel green, pinkish-purple, pink, light blue, and light indigo. /End ID.]

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Hebephrenia or disorganized schizophrenia: a form of chronic schizophrenia involving disordered thought, inappropriate emotions, hallucinations, and bizarre behavior.

[schizopositivity]

could you share any more under-talked about symptoms of schizophrenia, like executive dysfunction?

I've actually been meaning to make a post like this but keep forgetting (lol that's a symptom). As a disclaimer, not everyone with schizophrenia has every one of these symptoms, and people can have a lot of these symptoms and not have schizophrenia (if they don't have the psychotic symptoms). Not all of these symptoms are seen as diagnostic criteria, some have just been observed to be very common in people with schizophrenia. (I'm excluding hallucinations and delusions because they are more well known)

• Paranoia: a pattern of behavior where a person feels distrustful and suspicious of other people and acts accordingly. This can go hand in hand with hallucinations and delusions.

• Disorganized thoughts: this can mean a lot of things. It can be not having a linear train of thought, having incoherent thoughts, thought blocking, general disorganized thoughts. (It can be hard to define because it is often hard to describe for the person experiencing it).

• Disorganized speech: this is often a result of the disorganized thoughts. This can include loose associations like rapidly shifting between topics with no connections between the topics. Perseveration, which is repeating the same things over and over again. Made up words that only have meaning to the speaker. Use of rhyming words without meaning. Word salad, which is when cognitive disorganization is severe, it can be nearly impossible to understand what the person is saying, but the person speaking doesn't know they aren't making sense.

• Trouble concentrating: lack of concentration, switching from topic to topic, not being able to focus on one thing. (This is pretty self explanatory).

• Movement disorders: catatonia can be repetitive non goal directed movements. It can also be complete or partial immobility, mutism, vacant staring, and rigidity. Although not a symptom, tardive dyskinesia can occur in schizophrenia as a result of antipsychotics medication.

• Anhedonia: a loss of pleasure in activities that the person once enjoyed. Or the inability to feel pleasure at all.

• Atypical or non-existent emotional expression: Flat or blunted affect is an inability to show emotions characterized by a lack of facial expression, a monotone voice, and no hand gestures. On the other hand people can also have inappropriate affect, where the emotional expression doesn't align with typical reactions or even the person's own feelings.

• Alogia: when someone speaks less, says fewer words or only speaks in response to others. This can be a result of disorganized thoughts.

• Social withdrawal: avoiding people and activities that someone once enjoyed. Not actively being present during social situations. Can progress to total isolation.

• Avolition: a severe lack of initiative to accomplish purposeful tasks. This is a big reason some people with schizophrenia can't work/go to school, can't do chores, and can't keep up with their basic hygiene. Even if the person wants to do these tasks, it may be extremely difficult or impossible for them to get themselves to start or complete the task due to the lack of motivation.

• Executive dysfunction: a behavioral symptom that disrupts a person's ability to manage their own thoughts, emotions and actions. This can include focussing too much on one thing, being easily distracted, spacing out, struggling to switch between tasks, problems with impulse control and trouble starting difficult or boring tasks. Several schizophrenia symptoms fit into the umbrella of executive dysfunction, so when researching you will either see the specific ones listed out, or just simply described as executive dysfunction.

• Alexithymia: significant challenges in recognizing, expressing, and describing one's own emotions.

• Poor memory: this can include working memory deficits like trouble planning, organizing, and carrying out daily chores such as running errands, because it requires mentally formulating a “to do” list organized by time and location. Many people with schizophrenia also report trouble with their episodic memory, which means they have trouble recollecting things in the context of their place and time. (A lot of sources say "trouble with memory" is a symptom but they don't specify).

• Trouble with decision making: people with schizophrenia have been shown to have trouble with decision making due to a decline in the understanding and reasoning aspects of it.

• Sensory processing deficits: this has been widely reported in schizophrenia, and include impairments in visual processing, auditory processing, olfactory and sensorimotor systems. This can lead to having strong positive or negative reactions to sensory information.

• Sleep troubles: though disturbed sleep isn't included in the diagnostic criteria for schizophrenia, it is still a significant problem that up to 80% of people with the condition experience. People with schizophrenia may have various sleep problems, including insomnia, excessive daytime sleepiness, and trouble with consistent sleep routines.

• Anosognosia: also called "lack of insight," is a symptom that impairs a person's ability to understand and perceive their illness. This is a big reason people with schizophrenia may refuse to get, or stay with treatment.

[neuroticboyfriend]

I wish I knew the words to describe my relationship with verbal communication and speech. I do experience situational speech loss and episodic disorganized thinking. But there's something that permeates my everyday life. I just don't have a normative relationship with speaking.

You will always be able to communicate with me best in writing; it's the most accessible to me. It gives me the time I need to organize my thoughts, allows me to make sure I'm saying what I mean, and. It physically is easier too. There's just something about speaking that's functionally harder for me, and I dont know what it is. I wish I could communicate in writing for everything.

[heavensmachinery]

" YES, IT HURTS. GROWTH OFTEN DOES. "

( GENETIC MATERIAL SECURED. )

DISORGANIZED SPEECH / THOUGHTS : A FLAG FOR THOSE WHO HAVE DISORGANIZED THOUGHTS AND / OR SPEECH. MADE WITH SCHIZOPHRENIA/PSYCHOTIC SPECTRUM DISORDERS IN MIND, BUT ANY BEING MAY USE.

PT: Disorganized speech/thoughts: A flag for those who have disorganized thoughts and/or speech. made with schizophrenia/psychotic spectrum disorders in mind, but any being may use.

[mrfunnyinthebank]

Where Is My Mind by The Pixies is a fucking insane song choice for a wrestling entrance. i thought my ears were fucking deceiving me when i heard the first note hit during a promo. and then the guy who comes out is ORANGE CASSIDY??

[schizokaneko]

the small disorganized symptoms are so funny to me

i'll be holding my empty coffee mug so i stand up and set it down and grab my sketchbook instead and i'll be all the way downstairs setting my sketchbook into the sink being like wait. something isnt quite right about this

[delusionalculture-is]

Disorganized speech/thoughts culture is not noticing the slow decline that usually indicates you're going to have an episode until you get other symptoms or are suddenly aware of how badly disorganized your entire being is

-CCC (we didn't see it on the claimed tags so we assume it's free)

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[cryptidsandchamomile]

I can't articulate what I want to say but my head feels like it's gonna burst and it feels.lkke everyone's hostile to me even though I'm not even really communicating w anyone but it's making me frustrated and I now actually want to pick a fight cause I feel like I have to to make it stop and ?????

[schizoaffectively]

Gotta love barely being able to speak coherently during my therapy session today... Thanks, disorganized thoughts and speech! /lighthearted sarcasm

[alixisherebutringagain]

Something non-schizo people probably don't realise is how careful we have to be about our own minds. I feel like everything can make us slip, and it therefore requires a level of self-awareness that I don't think many people can ever develop.

We have to be careful of our thoughts, of our behaviours, of our feelings, because they might indicate that we're slipping again. But it's so hard, especially considering anosognosia, to do it.

In depression, you can just check if you're having the same behaviours as before, when you were depressed, to check if you're having another depressive episode.

In schizo disorders, your brain might be trying to fool you. The disorder hides itself in little corners and crevices so you don't notice it until too late.

I don't know if what I'm saying makes sense but basically, we need a lot of awareness which our disorders actually deprive us of most of the times.

[icewindandboringhorror]

Everytime I face a new character limit on a website that didn't have them before/used to have really long ones... AUGHHhhh the modern social media world was not made for people like me (lovers of details, rambling, elaboration, thorough explanation, and nuance)

[elysiuminfra]

despite my criticisms of disco elysium and falling out of favor with it still thinking about this. possibly the best media representation of experiencing mental illness in a Very Specific way (He’s Schizophrenic. He’s Schizophrenic Okay.)

[neuroticboyfriend]

i want to share an example of my brain on schizophrenia dissociation. this different type of dissociation compare to regular trauma response... and feel like people, even other neurodivergent, no want understand schizos and see us as people. so want experience to be seen. also. i wrote this in moment where things not real to me, so TW for unreality. big big unreality.

I'm floating in the timeline. I've passed the point of no return so many times. I'm just drifting through the universe, tossing my emotions, my struggles, my pains aside. I feel, but it's blunted by the constant disconnect inside me. I feel at peace. There is no tomorrow, but there is. There is, but I don't have to believe it right now - on an emotional level... There is only the choices I make. The way I move my body, every letter I type, every thought I think, pulls me down a different path. Time distorts and follows me, and I follow it. It's like that dance of two galaxies colliding. I will fall asleep eventually, and when I wake up, I will understand that reality really exists. I know that. Logic has not left me, at least, not to the degree that I don't understand I'm strange at the moment... I know, I know, still, sanity prevails over me... Stop feeling, you can't... It's like when people are afraid of dogs. Most dogs won't hurt you, and they can know that, but still feel ineffable fear when faced with a dog. And maybe, even if unlikely, the dog hurts them. It feels like that. Things don't feel real, so they aren't real, for as long as I feel it.

for context, this one *much* more comprehensible out of my schizo rambles. have insight that psychotic. other entries, many pages of same word over and over, of things dont make sense at all, of words that dont exist. but. i hope the sane can see the feeling in this one. i hope you can connect and learn maybe. i think the variety in our experiences, even when we're in pain, is something to revere. (this post is ok to rb)

**please no call me schizo unless also schizo, is slur i reclaim**

[indi-glo-archive]

i've been doing some research lately and i think it's safe to say Ben reads like he has clinical paranoia

[mr-magoriums-im-sorry-emporium]

your goal for 2024 is to talk in such a way that everyone around you wonders if you perhaps have schizophrenia