#did it happen or did you hallucinate
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sex pollen trope where you're the one affected, having been exposed to some dense gas while on an op that felt like harsh sandpaper across your throat and lungs, and now you're a feverish mess on some ratty cot in a safe house and with only ghost as company, it's miserable, as the saying goes.
hair sticking to your sweaty skin, plastered onto your forehead and neck, every swallow feeling like you've got a mouthful of sand, your fluttering pulse wild and deafening in your ears, and the throbbing ache deep in your core, the blistering heat right below your navel— it'd only been uncomfortable in the beginning, the faint throbbing incredibly familiar, but the more you ignored it, the worse it got.
and now you're here, with arousal sticking your underwear to your pussy, unable to do anything about it because your lieutenant is seated in a corner that lets him have both you and the front door within his line of sight. a quick, discreet rub under your clothes is not an option.
someone put you out of your foggy misery.
"squirmin' like a worm on a 'ook isn't gonna help." his staring doesn't either, yet he does it anyway.
"got to make sure ya aren't dyin' on me." you want to snap that you don't think proof of life is on the darkened stain between your legs, the retort pressed behind clenched teeth but another thick wave of bestial need rolls over you and god, you're about to shove your hand into your underwear, propriety be damned—
"best you don't do tha'." why the fuck not? "you'll only get relief for a moment 'fore it comes back twofold." he says as if he's reading off the morning paper and not watching you fight tooth and nail to not fuck yourself against the pillow your head is on. (soap's offer to be friends with benefits is only looking better by the hour.)
you hastily decide that it'll be better than nothing. you'll just have to rub your pussy raw until this drug runs its course and you're telling him to piss off or don't, but you've had enough. you're stuck here with him anyway, no flight home until the morn and you're not about to spend it writhing around.
"if tha's wha' you want," ghost bites his gloves off, spitting them out onto the ground before curling his hands around your ankles and dragging you toward him. "i will help." your entire world narrows down to the feel of him touching your skin, his fingers searing as they hook into the waistband of your pants, and you almost kick him in the mouth trying to get them off faster.
"but 'm not fuckin' you." the bite of disappointment is quickly forgotten, his breath warm against your slick pussy, and after three quick glides of his tongue over your pearl, your orgasm crests, pulse after pulse of pleasure so potent it stung.
in less than a minute you're burning again, need thrumming through you and with the heady push and drag of his middle finger over your sensitive nerves, curling in you until he can fit two, three—
you're lost.
(ghost telling you that he's not doing anything else because if he's going to fuck you then you're going to remember it falls on ringing ears.)
#the next day you look ran through and feel hungover#price giving you a sympathetic pat on the back is humiliating#ghost looking at you straight in the eye even more so#whatever you said you didnt mean it :/#but *he* did and you not knowing that all he's waiting on is the green light from the doc to pounce will make it all the sweeter#until then he's not bringing anything up#did it happen or did you hallucinate#also cue him sniffing his fingers while youre finally asleep cuz eau de pussy is his favorite <3#i firmly believe he likes the smell of come and he will absolutely not wash his hands the pig#simon ghost riley x reader#simon ghost riley x you#simon ghost riley smut#simon ghost riley#simon riley x reader#cod smut#simon riley x you
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Favorite part of The Dead Boy Detectives for sure is Edwin pulling literally every single age appropriate male character he interacted with. The absolute cunt ever
#Cat king Charles Monty Simon .guy is a gay magnet#yes im assuming charles is in love w him too in my mind he just doesn't know ut yet because he is extremely obvious and from the 80s#he said he liked Chrystal bc she reminded her of Edwin UNPROVOKED yall cant make this shit up come on now#also in the last ep after hugging edwin he put his hand in his hand in his heart just like edwin did when he realized he was in love w him#yeah that happened its not an hallucination im still baffled#also they are the REALEST i do in fact also need him carnally#edwin payne you are so pathetically rizzless I need to kiss you#David was fucking lucky he never directly interacted w him he would've been on the homosexual trenches too believe me#edwin payne#charles rowland#the cat king#monty the crow#simon dead boy detectives#catwin#payneland#chadwin#edwin x monty#edwin x charles#edwin x the cat king#the dead boy detectives#dead boy detectives#dbda#netflix dead boy detectives#tdbd
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ヾ(•ω•`)o Hiiii!!!! Don't worry about it! Don't be afraid. It's not real.
Excerpt from: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Black_Phone
"In 1978, a local serial child abductor and murderer only known as "The Grabber" prowls the streets of a suburb in North Denver. Finney Blake and his younger sister Gwen live in the area with their abusive, alcoholic father Terrence, whose wife committed suicide after having a series of disturbing psychic dreams. Finney is frequently bullied and harassed at school, but his friend and classmate Robin fends off the bullies.
Having inherited her mother's ability, Gwen dreams about the Grabber's abduction of Bruce, a boy Finney knew from Little League. Two police detectives, Wright and Miller, interview Gwen at school, believing that she may have knowledge about the Grabber. When Terrence learns about the questioning, he beats her with a belt. Soon afterward, the Grabber abducts first Robin and then Finney.
Finney awakens in a soundproofed basement with a disconnected black rotary dial telephone on one wall. It begins to ring on its own at times; Finney hears only static when he first answers it, but then hears Bruce's voice telling him about a floor tile he can remove in order to dig an escape tunnel. Finney starts to dig, but the foundations of the house are sunk too deeply for him to go beneath them.
The Grabber brings Finney a meal and leaves the basement door unlocked. As Finney is about to sneak out, he gets a call from Billy, another past victim. Billy warns Finney that the Grabber is waiting at the top of the basement stairs to punish him if he tries to leave, as part of a cruel game. At Billy's suggestion, Finney uses a hidden length of cable to climb up to the basement window; however, his weight pulls out the grate covering the pane, leaving him with no way to reach it again.
As Gwen confides to Terrence about her dreams of Finney's abduction, Wright and Miller question an eccentric man named Max who is staying in the area with his brother and who has shown great interest in the Grabber's crimes. It is revealed that Finney is being held in Max's basement, and that the Grabber is his brother.
Finney receives a call from Griffin, a third victim, who gives him the combination to the lock securing the house's front door and tells him that the Grabber has fallen asleep. He sneaks out and unlocks the door, but the Grabber quickly recaptures Finney after his dog Samson barks to wake him. A fourth victim, a juvenile delinquent named Vance, calls to tell Finney that he can break through a wall and into a freezer in the adjacent room. Finney does so, but finds the freezer door locked. As Finney despairs over his fate, he receives one last call from Robin, who urges him to stand up for himself and fight back by packing the phone receiver with dirt to use as a bludgeon.
After seeing the Grabber's house in a vision, Gwen calls Wright and Miller to give them the address. The police rush to the house and find the bodies of the Grabber's victims buried in the basement. Meanwhile, Max realizes Finney is being held in the basement and rushes to free him, but the Grabber kills him with an axe and attacks Finney, having decided to end his game. Finney uses the byproducts from his previous escape attempts to trap the Grabber in a pit he has dug, beats him with the receiver, and breaks his neck with the phone cord as his past victims taunt him. "
fucked up thing to send him btw
#They sent this during the hallucination bit... guys...#why the fuck would you send the plot of a movie where the guy fucking gets strangled and killed with a phone cord at the end#not to mention everything else WHILE HES PARANOID and freaked out#i know you did it on purpose too#do you see why so many bad things have been happening to him in the askbox?#its these anons who bring the entertainment at his expense#everyone say: 'THANK YOU EVIL ANONS!' /j#can you guys actually give me good asks that will make him HAPPY????#god
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speaking of osul if i was an artist and dc said 'hey we need you to draw this character a super-esque costume here's what he looks like' and then shows me. these.
i'd be like. 'are. are these the same person. are you sure.'
like yeah at that point i might as well come up with a whole new third thing instead.
yep this absolutely looks like the same kid great job everyone we can all go home early today
#the black hair and earring is his first look btw#what happened to his one earring!!#where was this small enslaved child soldier getting hair dye and jewelry on this planet and why did the dye stop so suddenly#this is all said with love btw. i know comic characters go through many variations and looks#this is just. a lot of change for how little time it was#alt text#honestly the first appearance is not beating my 'hallucination children' thoughts at clark#the black hair?#pink eyes close enough to purple?#why are you seeing a kid with jon's eyes and kon's earring clark#and what does the kid actually look like outside of mongul's influence#if the kid exists at all#(he does. yay!)
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2021 Mawduin fanart: Haunted by visions of the past, but their words are just your voice echoed back to you.
#world of warcraft#anduin wrynn#Onyxia#garrosh hellscream#“did you have to draw him shirtless” no#but also like i imagine he'd tare all that armor off himself if he could#look hes going into phycosis here or something like clothes are the least of his worries#anyway#I imagine Anduin feeling alot of selfhatred while trapped in the maw and hallucinating alot of people of his past but all they say#are things that he feels about himself not really things those people would say#he projects his worries onto them#Wondering what theyd say to him now after all that happened to him#Thinking his past self would loath him as if his past self wouldnt have tried to save him#I THINK SHADOWLANDS SHOULDVE LET GARROSH SEE ANDUIN BEFORE HE FUCKIN DIED#Wuolda been really funny i think#Garrosh looks up to see Sylvanas and Anduin#goes “ew” and carries about his buisness of super dying
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Man why the demons gotta plague my mind just when I'm about to sleep. Like girliepop don't you have a sleep schedule too? No?? Take care of urself jfc.
#dumb ramblings#vent post#the demons: YOU DID THIS TO YOURSELF!!!#me: not now sweaty. mommy's trying to hallucinate about fictional lesbians making out sloppy style#im being silly but im like so tired#its been weeks since the big breakdown. my brain should be fixed by now.#but things™ keep happening that chip away at the bandage i put on it#making it harder and harder to believe the lie I told myself to keep myself from crying.#ahhh fuck it. im just gonna scroll thru ao3 till my brain gets quiet#as it goes every night
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ARCANE DAY
Episode 4 and 5 in the tags and:
SALO BEING A VIKTOS FOLLOWER??? CRAZY. ALSO BOTH VIKTOR MISSING JAYCE AJDHSKSJ also cait has kinda calmed down... and I am sure she misses vi so I KNOW this is going to happen to her soon.... we aren't getting much of her feelings yet... she's still too onto Jinx to catch up on where ambessa is going...
DID JAYCE JUST KILL SALO??? WHAT HAPPENED IN THERE
Also vander not recognizing vi at first until she gives up fighting.... incredible ALSO vander and silco being miners and vi wearing her gauntlets that were initially thought out for miners.... damn
This is my favourite episode so far....
Episode 6 here:
Sky really being there..... of course she is....
Ambessa training caitlyn.... of course thats her new daughter akdjskms Tunnels in your eyes.... GIRL!!!!!!! THAT'S WHAT YOU DON'T NEED RIGHT NOW also the guy outside is a mage... ambessa is such a hypocrite
Vi and Jinx vs ambessa and cait.... this was always about class war don't get it twisted SINGED!!! TRAITOR!!!!
ARE THEY GOING TO SEE VIKTOR???? I looove how viktors touch on their faces leave "scars" so recognizable
Did isha just take the gem from vi's gauntlets??? Omg I wasn't expecting viktor to build a hippie commune to be honest omg he looks so good.... with the blonde underhairs.... and I do believe that's the same blanket....
And of course viktor knows who vander is.... nvm he diesnt know omg viktor asking for Powder.....
We are getting viktor horsegirl montage.... omg the vander momtage I can't..... omg they wanna stay.... singed is gonna fuck all this up NOOOOO 😭😭😭 they are already there I am going to kms
CAITLYN STOP THIS MADESSS!!! ✋️ CAITLYN!!!!! VI KILL THIS MAN!!! OMG CAITLYN...... mongoose... yeah.... and fuck you too.... CUPCAKE!!!! ABOUT TIME!!!! CAITLYN I SAID STOP THIS MADNESS WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT!!! And jayce too 😭😭😭 we're never making it out of the fissures
It's such a shame the spit on here won't work like on challengers.... one can only pray I guess
Jinx experiencing the "there's nothing more undoing as a daughter" moment.... incredible
"Your absence provided a vacuum I was able to fill" TO VI???? I KNEW THAT HAND HOLDING IN THE COMMANDER SCENE WAS SUS AKDHKASJ maddie exists and ambessa knows that and still.... it was not filling her mother's void...
YES CAITLYN!!! YES!!!!! VI is so hot I am distracted... ambessa was right.... now what the fuck will jayce fuck up??? Thats the question... NOT ANOTHER CHILD!!! jayce is a menace... the guys smiling at jayce are viktor... maybe the child even....
JINX KILL THAT MAN!!! NVM VANDER KILL THAT MAN!!! JAYCE YOU FUCKING MORON!!!!! JAYCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WHEN I GET YOU JAAAYCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Isha what are you going to do omg 😭😭 did she kill vander... another powder... my god another week...
That was such a good fucking episode too.... and caitlyn didn't go insane when finding Jinx that is a step forwards but viktor can't be dead... no fucking way... he was giving himself away for the people and he was going to finally die by saving vander and look at what we got... no wonder viktor hates his guts. Jayce you were so good in act one.... what happened..... alright. Christ.... another week....
#FUCKING MADDIE?????????????? NO FUCKING WAYYYYYYYYYY#fucking maddie??? yes she is fucking her. christ. jinx was right vi should have hit before all of that.... maddie bet her to it 😭😭😭#i have tears in my eyes aldjaodjsk no fucking way what the heeeeeeell ooooh my goooood nowaaayyaaayyyaaaayyyy#and cait looks so pretty....... she is still focused on jinx.....#omg isha..... jinx gave up jinx??? what...... ambessa is making hextech... so jayce is still missing.... well she is trying#and mel is still missing too.... christ and ekkos friend is sympathetic to jinx... mmhmhmmmmm also ambessa clocks everything aldjakaj#cait has calmed down.... what is happening... she is now only violent towards jinx i guess. ambessa is opening that wound over and over oof#THE MIDDLE FINGER AKDBAKSBKANSKA sevika is unifying the underground i knew it!!! yes!!!! jinx show up!!!!#cait paying homage to her mother while rictus beats up some guy.... her suffering meking her an enabler to those actions... yeah#oh no..... they know.... isha lighting the fire like jinx did.... sevika getting her arm cut... ISHA BEAT HIM UUUP!!! JINX!!!! omg singed..#enforcer vi becoming part of her hallucinations... its so over... also silco... jinx kill this man. not ambessa... omg jinx run....#she likes iiiit yeeeeahhhh.... ekkos friend... . and THE BROTHEL LADY... SHE KNOWS WHO SHE IS!!! SHE IS SO GLAD!!! WARWICK!! FUCK SHIT UP!!#OMG HE RECOGNIZES HER!!!!! HE SPEAKS!!!!! WHAT A FUCKING MASSACRE OUTSIDE BUT HE DOES RECOGNIZE HER!!!!#CALL VIIIII THROW A PARTY WE ARE A FOUR PEOPLE HOUSEHOLD NOW!!! FIVE WITH SEVIKA!!! COME ON AT LEAST TRY!!!#his eyes changing color... singed you are nothing compared to a fathers love... jinx complaining about not really having killed powder....#she didnt and vander recognises that.... amazing omg........#THE CAIT IN BED HALLUCINATION AND JINX THERE!!!! its so weird seeing them both like this.... jinx wanting to help him.... ofc...#THEY GOT VANDER???? also you know whats funny... the cape makes cait look like silco... it looks red even#why is singed based.... OMG MEL!!! HER BROTHER!!!!! OH MY GOD VIIII LOOKS SO GOOOD!!!! HER GAUNTLETS ARE PAINTED BLACK TOO AKDBAKS#bitch mittens (not even diy) damn vi she got you hard THE BITCH SLAP omg vi... your big sister duties...#singed actually venering vander.... do not help the opressor singed!! i just said you were based!!! IS MEL PREGNANT?!?!??!#she does enjoy her puzzles..... oh of course he is an hallucination.... the first time he appeared behind her....#silco and vanders old hq..... omg MORE DOOMED YAOI...... vander apologised but silco didn't read the letter 😭😭 as vi reaches for jinx omg#vi wearing her enforcer plaque without the plaque.... slay but why. no vander no loke he is a dog akdhaksj IS VANDER THEIR ACTUAL FATHER#NO FUCKING WAY A LOVE TRIANGLE AND EACH ONE GETS OME DAUGHTER AIDHOQSJOSAKL i need a fucking moment....#well its not vanders.... BUT THE SAME CUP AND STRAW FOR POWDER OMG!!! THE FATHERS THAT STEPPED UP!!!CONNEL GET RECKT!!!!#bedrock and blisters my fucking god. vander and silco wanting to build a better zaun for her daughters... AND JINX AND VI ARE GONNA MAKE IT#vander looking at the woman she likes whos hair is purple: ive always liked the name violet. im going to be sick!!!! my god!!!#MY GOOOOOD!!!!!!! VANDER HUGGING VI!!! THE SHOT OF HER OFFERING JINX TO JOIN WILL END MEE!!!!#watching arcane
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MKUltra the Vampire. im sure THAT wont be revisited later on this season
#spoilers#iwtv#iwtv spoilers#iwtv s2#how incredibly thrilling.#the bridal carry.. ‘did i catch you in a fantasy?’#louis’s guiding words to daniel. this is the first time i feel like theyve truly connected#‘richard pryored himself right infront of me’#tender turned to tinder indeed.#s2 starting with daniel v. louis v. armand then daniel v. loumand and now daniel+ louis v. armand#armand getting up to hunt a boy as louis+ daniel talk abt a past hunt gone horribly wrong#the disposability of 1973 daniel and 2022 malik. malik as the denis of sorts. it could have been anyone.#hallucinating claudia& jumping into the sun.. merrick happened in 1973 +m#+ unlike merrick lestat cant ‘save the gorl’#good stuff#ik twitumblr is somehow moaning over louis but he was twoface/eraserhead baby 90% of the flashbk plz😭#HE SPENDS 80% OF THIS FLASHBACK A BURNT BRISKET PLZ SPARE MEEEE#this episode rlly had the feeling of classic horror slasher movies the blurry pov shot of louis walking up the stairs
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i think harley quinn just literally ran into me and made me fall down. then she put a pink band-aid with flowers on it on the small scrape i got from falling and left before i could react
#did someone put stuff that makes you hallucinate in the water again?#there is no way this actually happened#why would she do that?#she could have just kept going#harley quinn#only in gotham#just gotham things#unreality
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thrilling game of! did i do somehting wrong..
#it feels like i hallucinated the. experience? but no i dont think i did#i sent someone an ask of a video in their fandom (yt link)#they responded with what the hell is wrong with you#and seemingly immediately deleted it?#im not upset by it i just dont know what happened
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Saw your hand fic name dropped on tiktok, came here from there, read it and started hyperventilating, then read all your other fics in a day, haven’t slept in 28 hours but I had to let you know your writing is phenomenal and you are doing gods work out here, much love 🤍🩵🤍
I'm not sure what part of this to focus on more. The fact that my smut is being perceived across social media platforms, the general compliment, or the 28 hours of NO SLEEP ??? GO TO SLEEP BABES JESUS CHRISTKAJFSFGHGKSJHG
No but seriously thank you so much for the compliment :')) I'm so glad you like my work enough to stay up that long to binge all of it, it means the world 💞
#asks#28 hours is insane I'd start hallucinating#where on tiktok did you come from whats happening on that dastardly clock app#my fyp is only overwatch gameplay clips and the occassional sebastian edit I'm out of the loop
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"Monza is for the underdogs, for the unprecedented feats of overcoming unbeatable odds, for the dark horses who teach the value of perseverance and an indomitable spirit that will prevail"
In the meantime, list of monza winners from the past decade:

#girlies you really need to let this narrative go...let Her rest#i swear being on f1blr sometimes feels like being part of some absurdist social experiment and everyone is in on the rules but you#cause what are you people even talking about#also my prevailing theory that the majority of current fans really did start watching in 2020#and then reconstruct everything that happened earlier based on imagination vivid hallucinations and prophetic dreams#a vivid imagination is an admirable trait! however-#anyway there is one underdog victory here where the car was not one of the fastest that day and that is 2020. good day yall#*p
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i love ichiban so much. like in general but like. he's so neurodivergent. so so much i haven't been able to let go of it since i started playing. he's still filtering everything through dragon quest after 18 fucking years in jail without touching it and his loved ones realize and adapt to this bc they're cool so theyre like,, okay,, lemme put it like this. so you got a debuff from your one night stand. it's gonorrhea. and he's like okay i understand. that blows but im ready to hear my treatment options. and then he'd handle it like a well adjusted adult. he just processes it in a roundabout kinda way. he's just like me fr. and he's fully hallucinating gamer shit in the middle of street fights and his friends (who he met 2 days ago) are like lol ok cool cat that's wild. keep hitting them idc. my stats are going up? that's actually really cool ty for telling me i love you forever. i would die for you. and they're right for it. like they just accept him as-is with little fanfare because that's just ichi. they get on his level conversationally and it's not some awful horrific burden to talk about a thing he likes. and he hallucinates and he's not portrayed as some scary monster or unsettling pitiable thing. he's a cool guy and he's got all these nd traits and i think a lotta ppl probably need to see that. it feels very humanizing to me idk. he's a deeply kind and intelligent and loyal and dependable and wonderful man. one of the game protagonists ever maybe THE game protagonist ever and he's always in fucking situations constantly, as is the case with every rgg protag. anyway i love him. i know a lotta ppl look at him and go oh adhd for sure bc he's bouncy or whatever. and while i question that impulse i see you,, but that is NOT all okay. my man has some comorbidities. he's at a quaint little buffet of the dsm-5. something is UP with him and he's doing marvelously and everybody loves him and I love him too. yeag
#i mean. dq wouldnt help him understand stds more than growing up in a soapland did. regardless#basically i missed a neurodivergent character bracket submission and i was thinkin about him#and like all rgg protags hes just. in situations constantly. hes just plopped into whatever and he excells or fails comedically#rgg#ylad#kasuga ichiban#he's just like me he's got the stinky brain#also the party members who arent in the scene where that '? you guys arent seeing that???' conversation happens like. when do they find out#i hope i worded this right? i think he's interesting rep and there's good things to take from it#like. the hallucinations arent brought up ever again i dont think. theyre like ok ichi but we gotta solve this mystery or whatever#hallucinations/psychosis generally are usually treated as a big dramatic angsty thing#but instead theyre like okay. you wanna go play mario kart?#idk there's something nice to me about it#i imagine it would be kind of a relief to tell someone that and have them just accept it and not tret you any differently for it#but i also dont experience hallucinations/psychosis broadly (probably? tbd) so like. grain of salt on this post. my perspective is limited#anyway i would ask him to help me move. i would trust him to pet sit for me even if hes wacky hijinks prone bc he's a protagonist. etc
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probably a pointless observation but I think it’s interesting how little we see of the dreams of characters who aren’t Ronan/aren’t magical dreamers. Like given this was the era of ya that was full of dream sequences. I think the only ones in og trc are Adam’s dream in TRB which is just the same as the vision tree one before he goes to sacrifice himself, Blue in TRK dreaming of Gansey before he leaves to sacrifice himself which is a parallel for sure but. I just think it’s interesting we know so little about what the other chars dream about …
#like it’s not necessarily a criticism just caught my attention this reread.#Adam’s hallucinations in TDT are also left super vague. That’s something I’d be really interested to see how the graphic novel chooses to#adapt them but in the meantime I can have fun pondering on my own.#I did also go eye emoji when Adam said to Blue that cabeswater could do some sort of magic to confuse her and Gansey into kissing#which could just be from the vision tree but I was like hmmm… did something specific happen Adam? Did Cabeswater make you kiss someone or#think that you were kissing someone when you weren’t? hmmm.#(yes I have shipping goggles involved w this but yk my observations stand and you can apply them to other purposes if you want to)#s speaks#s rereads trc
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Still fuming because yesterday. I hate how easily I lost my cool too. Well it wasn't easy but I hate it nontheless. From my little brother too. Even if he was but a spokeman for my mother it's so enraging. Especially because the amount of time I spent mourning how distant we had grown. Like a bucket of cold water reminding me he was always a consented brat and I loved him but we got along like shit because everything always went his way. It's a house full of unworthwhile people. Call it a house of mirrors too since everyone is a liar trying to convince you are something else. Gotta keep remembering my therapist words about no kid deserving to be abused before I lose my mind
#luly talks#vent#it's over luly we already drew you as the crying wojack and its a picture that says the virgin i literally have proof vs the chad that#didn't happen#mind boggling#they tell you that tehy care but they don't at all#idk why my mother wants me close. perhaps to keep acting like she did nothing wrong#I'm the living consequence of her actions and she hates that#she hated what i was she hates what she made me#i know the kid is like 10 but im tiiired of being the bigger man I'm going to burn this house to the ground#screams falling to deaf ears that urge you to come closer nontheless#i know i regularly hallucinate and dissociate but these people are just insane#i have the voice of my brother screaming that never happened echoing on my brain#I'm gonna go insane
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i do so love having psychosis
#🧤 through the void || ooc#people tend to think psychosis means you have a full disconnect from reality and you start experiencing hallucinations and shit#like yes but sometimes its literally questioning whether something did or did not happen#its like your brain gaslighting you and making you very confused about things that you have evidence of#im having text just. pop off the screen and not making sense sometimes and i question whether i read something correctly or not#so if i start posting some weird fuckin tags that dont make sense or seem 'off' thats why and ill either change it when i feel better#or just never address it and move past it like nothing happened
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