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𝐴𝑙𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝐼 𝑑𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛t 💋

Roomates (Quaterback) Abby x Fem!Reader (who is an early 2000's y2k baddie)
Chapter 1 - I really hate you
Chapter 2 - Whatever I do, it's always wrong
Chapter 3 -
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Chapter 2 - Whatever I do, it´s always wrong
contains: roommates; arguments; modern AU!; maybe some grammar mistakes, english is not my first language; alcohol; alcohol consumerism; mentions of sexual harassment and sexual threats
Trigger Warning (TW): Mentions of sexual harassment and sexual threats.
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The university’s party basement is packed to the brim. Bodies are pressed together, people are moving to the beat on the dancefloor, and the bass is shaking the walls. Beer pong and rage cage tables have been set up by the football team, and the bar is cranking out beers nonstop. Colored lights flicker through the room from ceiling-mounted spotlights, and beer crates and red solo cups are everywhere. A guy from an upperclass year has taken over the DJ booth, proudly set up under a blue and white “Silver Lake Falcons” banner. They just snagged their first win of the season tonight.
You’re standing at the edge of the dancefloor with Dina, both of you holding red plastic cups filled with something unidentifiable but definitely strong, and neither of you are even close to sober. You’re laughing at something Dina said when a tattooed arm sneakes around your best friend’s waist.
“Hey,” a brunette grins at you before kissing Dina on the top of her head.
“Hey, Ellie,” you grin back and give her a quick hug. Dina and Ellie haven’t been together for long, but they’re so perfect for each other it feels like they’ve always been a couple.
“Congrats on the win,” you add and take another sip of your drink, vodka mixed with who-knows-what.
“Thanks, thanks,” Ellie says, fake-bowing dramatically. “But we never would've done it without Abby. They had us good through the first half, but our quarterback saved our asses like always.”
“Did I hear my name?” your roommate’s warm voice cuts in. Abby appears behind Ellie and gives Dina a quick hug, as if she hadn’t seen her yet tonight either. She throws an arm around Ellie’s shoulder but gives you only a quick once-over, her eyes flick down to your outfit with a slightly judgmental look.
After last night’s chaos, you’d gone for something simple tonight: a pink rhinestone crop top that hugs all the right places, low-rise jeans that cling to your hips and ass but flare a bit at the legs. You ditched the heels for comfy sneakers, and your jewelry and belly button piercing glint in the colored lights. You hadn’t seen Abby since locking yourself in the bathroom. After scrubbing away the night before, drying and styling your hair, you’d left the bathroom to do your makeup, and she was already gone. Probably off helping set up this party. Not that you care what she does with her time.
Now you just roll your eyes at the sight of her, and the couple standing with you definitely notices.
“Still in your cold war?” Dina giggles.
“I’m telling you,” Ellie adds, “either you two are gonna throw punches before the semester ends or you’re gonna fuck.”
“I’ll personally make sure it’s the first one,” Abby mutters.
You cross your arms and do your best not to give the blonde girl another look, which proves harder than you’d like. Her hair’s down tonight, and it honestly looks amazing. Way better than that dumb braid she always wears. You’re not sure if you’re imagining it, but you’re almost certain she unbuttoned another button on her black shirt. You’ve got a nearly indecent view of her collarbone and, if you breathe in too deep, you can smell her perfume. The same one that already fried your brain back in your dorm.
You mentally slap yourself and shake your head to chase off the thoughts.
“Anyone feel like playing beer pong?” you ask, desperate to look at anything other than Abby’s chest. You nod toward an empty table nearby.
“Why not,” Dina shrugs and downs the rest of her drink before disappearing with Ellie to grab four fresh beers. You and Abby head for the table. As if it were an unspoken rule, the two of you automatically take opposite sides, clearly not on the same team.
You and Dina pair up while Ellie stays with Abby. You’ve never been good at beer pong, and Dina’s definitely too drunk to help make up for it. Abby and Ellie wipe the floor with you. It’s actually kind of embarrassing. When you finally land a shot, you and Dina freak out so hard you’re clinging to each other and bouncing in circles. Ellie laughs. Abby just raises a brow. You catch her judging stare and flip her off while still half-hugging Dina. You’ve missed so many shots it feels like you're ten drinks ahead of the football girls, your tolerance is hanging by a thread.
You ask for a rematch after the first round, where at least you landed two of their cups, but that goes just as badly.
“Okay, I’m done,” you laugh as Abby and Ellie crush you both again.
“Good game,” Ellie grins and runs a hand through her short hair before giving you a handshake. Then she turns to Dina but instead of a handshake, she pulls her in for a kiss.
You smile at the sight, but Abby’s voice grabs your attention again.
“Good game,” she says, holding out her hand too. You’re so thrown by the gesture, you forget to take it at first, but when you do, it feels like the rest of the party disappears for a second. She’s standing close, closer than she usually does, even though you share a room. Her hair falls over her shoulders, and a few damp strands stick to her forehead from the heat in the room. She’s taller than you, you notice again.
“Good game,” you finally say back, annoyed that your voice comes out a little shaky. You blame the alcohol. Abby’s hand is warm, a little rough, and so big that yours looks embarrassingly small inside it. You can see her veins, and she holds your hand way longer than necessary while staring you dead in the eyes. She’s not smiling, but you swear your heart actually stops for a second before she finally lets go and shoves her hands into her pockets.
“Oh my God!” Dina suddenly shrieks, breaking the tension, and rushes to grab you.
“They’re playing Super Bass!” she yells in your ear, and before you know it, you’re on the dancefloor. You catch the beat just in time and start singing along with Dina (if you can even call it singing). “This one is for the boys with the boomin' system!” And then, nothing can stop you.
For the next few minutes, Dina has her face in your ass and is happily making it rain imaginary money while the booze kills any last trace of shame. You spot Ellie and Abby out of the corner of your eye. Ellie’s laughing and filming you, while Abby looks like someone just told her she wasn’t at a college party but surrounded by lunatics. But she doesn’t look away. You definitely notice that.
The DJ keeps the 2000s vibe going, mixing one club banger into the next while you and Dina lose yourselves on the dancefloor. Eventually, you settle into more normal dancing, though you can’t deny you’re swinging your hips a little better than most people in the basement. Your tight jeans aren’t hiding anything, and you can feel people watching you, including your roommate, still standing on the side oft he dance flore. Alone now, since Ellie apparently left her.
Your drunk brain doesn’t get why she’s watching you. It doesn’t make sense. But even without logic, you start moving a little more deliberately. A little deeper, a little dirtier. Not for her, you tell yourself. Never for her. But you don’t break her gaze. Everything else fades, it’s just the beat, your hands in your hair, and Abby’s eyes locked on your body.
Somewhere behind you, Dina’s still dancing, bumping into you now and then, but your mind is elsewhere. Until she suddenly stumbles into your back. You snap out of it and spin around.
“Back off!” you hear Dina shout, and now you see why she bumped into you, some guy is trying to put his hands on her hips.
“Get off me, dude,” she snaps, shoving him. “What? I can’t even dance with you?” the guy slurs. He doesn’t look much older than you or Dina, but mentally he’s probably still in diapers.
“She said no,” you bark, yanking Dina away and shoving her behind you.
“What’s your problem?” he slurs again. “Can’t even have a little fun anymore.”
“Fun?” you snap, your voice climbing two octaves. “What you’re doing isn’t fun, it’s sexual harassment.” You jab a manicured finger at his chest when he steps forward again, but he’s twice your size, the shove barely moves him.
“Jesus, chicks are so sensitive these days. Can’t do anything anymore.”
You’re about to lose it.
“No,” you growl, voice shaking with rage. “Without consent, you really can’t. And every guy with more than two brain cells knows that. You disgusting piece of shit.”
You feel Dina clutch your shoulders from behind, either to steady herself or to stop you from ripping this creep’s balls off.
“What did you just say to me?” he asks, raising a brow and stepping closer. You lift your chin, refusing to look away. You won’t shrink for someone like him.
“I’ll show you what I do to bitches like you without consent,” he growls.
Your eyes go wide in shock, and that’s when someone steps between you and him.
A broad back, black shirt soaked with sweat, a full head taller than you. Abby.
She grabs him by the collar and pulls him down to her level.
“You’ve got a few seconds to think real hard about what you just said,” she growls into his ear, low enough that the music nearly drowns her out. “Then you’re gonna apologize. And don’t even think I won’t report this. You know what you missed, asshole? Your first ‘target’,” she nods toward Dina, peeking out from behind you, “is head of the student council. You’re in deep shit, Michael.”
You see the guy’s face drop, like he didn’t expect Abby to know his name. His eyes flick between you, Dina, and Abby, and you swear you see panic. Classic. These guys think they’re untouchable, then panic or deny it when it blows up.
“Sorry,” he mutters. Abby isn’t impressed. She yanks him closer again, her bicep flexing hard under the fabric of her shirt. Her face, though, is cold as ice. Her eyes alone could end him.
“I don’t think we heard you,” she mutters.
“Sorry,” he says louder this time.
“Now fuck off,” she snaps and shoves him back before wiping her hand off on her jeans like touching him physically disgusted her. “Don’t let me see you at this party again.”
You’ve never seen someone disappear so fast. Abby watches him go, jaw tight, before turning back to you and Dina.
“You guys okay?” she asks, and now you can hear the concern in her voice. But you just stare at her.
The shock and the alcohol are coursing through you. You ball your fists. The fact that she thought you couldn’t handle it makes your chest burn.
“I had it under control,” you mutter over the music, ignoring her question.
“What?” Abby asks, frowning.
“The situation. I had it under control,” you repeat, glaring at her. Abby laughs, but it’s hollow and cuts deep.
“Yeah, I saw that,” she says sarcastically, crossing her arms, and you try your best to ignore how tight her shirt is in all the right places.
“You didn’t have anything under control,” she continues. “That guy looked ready to get physical.”
You dig your nails into your palms. “You could’ve just let me handle it,” you hiss, and now Abby’s losing her patience too.
“And just stand there watching him threaten you? Are you out of your mind?” she snaps. “What was I supposed to do, watch from the sidelines like everyone else?”
“Yes, for example!” you snap back, because you can’t think of anything better.
“A simple thank-you would’ve been enough,” she growls, breathless.
You hold her gaze, chest heaving.
“Fuck you,” you spit, and storm off toward the bathrooms just as Ellie returns. Dina throws herself into her arms and explains everything. Ellie’s eyes go wide, then guilty. She asks if Dina is okay, then if you’re okay.
“I’m fine,” Dina says, then adds that it probably shook you more.
Ellie curses. “Damn it. I should’ve just waited to pee… stupid long-ass line…” She starts tearing Michael apart verbally and scanning the crowd. Dina grabs her hand and tells her Abby handled it, which pulls Ellie’s attention to her.
“You okay?” Ellie asks Abby.
But Abby just shakes her head, eyes still on the spot where you disappeared.
“Whatever I do, it’s always wrong with that girl.”
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a/n: oppsi looks like someone owns abby an apology (you lol)
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I've never liveblogged anything but for @goldfishinaplasticbag 's amusement, while reading the new chapter of 1-800-Gotham, I stopped every couple lines to write down my thoughts. Anyway here you go. There's probably so many typos in this but I was focused on the story so shh. Also I'm definitely dramatic about some things here but to be clear I completely loved the entire chapter
SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 16
“What’s wrong? We’ll get that civilian out as soon as we can, but Nightwing, you can’t go back in,” Bruce urges, voice low and worried and unaware.” : OH G-D HE DOESN'T KNOW I THOUGHT IT WAS OBVIOUS BUT OH CLOSE IT'S NOT NIGHTWING NEVER CALLED HIM JAX AND NOBODY BUT NIGHTWING WAS PAYING ATTENTION TO TIM AUGH
AUGH AND HE'S TOO OVERWHELMED TO COMMUNICATE THAT THAT'S JAX AUGH FUCK
Fuck he isn't scared of dying but he absolutely dreads his family dying… augh
Oh your siblings would be so pissed if they knew you wanted to die before them
Oh he's so out of it he's forgetting they didn't know him as Tim- OH HI JASON
OH SHIT DID HE ACTIVATE THE TRACKER? WHILE BEING CRUSHED BY THE FUCKING CHANDELIER? NO WAIT HE WENT UNCONSCIOUS IMMEDIATELY HE PROBABLY JUST GOT LUCKY AND FELL ON IT
I know you guys are losing it right now but someone communicate to Bruce and Damian that it's Jax? Please?
Oh shit the beacon did activate it's not just that Jason knew the Drake last name and that he planned to be at the gala
Did he promise not to do anything stupid? I think he just promised not to die. Which, granted, he is definitely fucking up right now-
Welp there's the blaming himself, I knew it was coming but like. Fuck
Oh wow I didn't consider that this would remind Jason of being exploded or buried alive. How thoughtful of you to consider that /(is there a tone tag that is both negative and affectionate)
Oh wow Jason and Tim parallels alongside the promised Jason and Bruce parallels huh. You shouldn't have
IS BRUCE GONNA RECOGNIZE HIM ONCE THE FACE IS VISIBLE? BECAUSE COMMUNICATION HAS NOT BEEN HAPPENING HERE
You and Nightwing are gonna get infections or tetanus or whatever cutting your hands on glass and metal and stuff with Tim's blood on it
Uh oh there goes somebody's FUCKING SPLEEN
OH THANK FUCK. I guess losing most of your goddamn blood would make your pulse pretty fucking hard to find huh
You are not actually supposed to move injured people before treating them but also suspension of disbelief and also it makes sense that they'd prioritize getting him the fuck out of here and to help. Like I don't think the building is going to keep collapsing but this probably still qualifies as the scene being unsafe. Also secret identities probably. Sorry I'm really not trying to be nitpicky but I just finished a semester long course on responding to emergencies and first aid
Oh boy I got distracted by that tangent and it left me unprepared for the angst of ‘it feels like holding a corpse’ oh and also Jason is having feelings about his own death lovely
It's an angsty scene but the mention of how Tim would've been the best robin came across as funny because. Y'know reference to canon. He sure would be
Oh Dick did NOT hear Jason say there was a pulse huh. My bad for assuming even the bare minimum communication would be successful when there could be bonus angst instead (does this come across as aggressive or critical because it's not meant to Im enjoying reading this)
Dick: of course Bruce knows what's going on
Me, remembering what the rest of this fic is like: are you sure about that
But also that seems reasonable bc he knows that this person is important to Jason and Dick, Jason mentioned identities, and he's pale with black hair
But also Batman does not know everything even a little
G-d I know there isn't anything you can do but get him advanced medical care asap but PUT SOME PRESSURE ON THOSE FUCKING WOUNDS! I mean not the impaled area but given the state of Tim I'm sure you've got options
Oh boy waiting time! Lots of room for angst! How long will it take then to fail to contact Angel! Or well actually I guess they've been doing that all morning
Oh the mention of the tapping that Tim noted in the last chapter… attention to detail!!
Oh Dick was a ward and never got adopted while the others did, huh
YEAH IF YOU WANTED SOMETHING TO DO WHILE YOU WAITED WASHING BLOOD OFF COULD HAVE BEEN. A THING MAYBE
Just two brothers, blaming themselves for the almost death of their other brother, also Dick thinking of saying things that would not make sense to Jason because he doesn't know Tim was sacrificing himself for Dick
Oh, the scene of Damian you drew! Wait do Bruce and Damian even know that's Jax yet? I mean they should but. Y'know this fic is a comedy. When it's not angst I mean
OH he's in the room with Tim now! Kids done with his splenectomy or whatever
Oh that's a bigger time skip than I thought actually. I don't have a problem with that though
Hey Dick are you… sleeping
Spleen removal confirmed! To the surprise of no one
Hi Babs! That makes sense she was close with Jax and Angel- OOH are they about to discuss his identities.and come to wild conclusions? G-d I hope so
Jackson is Tim Drake is a good start, love Jason immediately pressing X to doubt. Gonna end up with net zero information
Oooh we're addressing Angel’s absence!!
Aww acknowledging the Angel Babs friendship!
Damian actually asking the thing everyone is wondering!
I was not expecting everyone to be mad at Bruce for kidnapping Angel's family but I love that
Also love them recognizing that the Black Mask thing was traumatic for Angel
Also of course Bruce did not communicate things to them. Why would he ever
EDDIE DRAKE CHECKOVS GUN I FUCKING KNEW IT!! BUT ALSO WHERE IS BABS THINKING THEY'RE TWINS??
OH THERE IT IS
He is being dramatic! Because it's him!
G-d the irony of the whole close-but-nontraditional cut-from-same-cloth line
YEAH you should actually communicate!! Good job sharing your data please continue doing that
Good. Good luck contacting Eddie Drake! Hope that doesn't go to an actor or something but I don't think Tim ever actually hired one in this timeline
You absolutely should think something happened to Angel! I mean you're never gonna guess that what happened was chandelier, but that's still the reasonable thing to think
Oh the hotline was really important huh? Probably not good that the sole operator/informant is in a coma
I knew one of them would go look at Drake Manor! But also Angel does live there actually
They found Angel’s stuff!
Oh I fucking knew they would think Angel was kidnapped. I mean only because another anon said it first but still
Babs coming to some Incorrect Conclusions!
They're gonna find Jax’s stuff as well as Tim's in that bag. Stuff Jax had at the safehouse possibly even! That'll sure have implications
Dick I'm so sorry that you are only getting one brother. Byt at least Joker doesn't have the brother you are getting. Or the one you aren't getting because it's actually your other brother.
…Unrelated but if Tim actually died would the bats just honestly not figure Angel out ever
Anyway back to the story- Dick you are not getting an older brother. Sorry
Jason did not share his clone theory. But it was referenced!
Honestly given that you're providing medical care and have every reason to believe Angel is in danger, it's probably justified to take a DNA sample. I'd be surprised if Bruce didn't.
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Watching KinnPorsche for the first time
I finally ended the semester so I am buckling in and watching KinnPorche for the first time (and rambling about it here). I have heard very mixed feedback on it and thought I'd finally watch it to have my own opinion. I honestly have no idea whether I'll like it or hate it but let's go!
Episode 1:
Not that I know much about it, but right off the bat the cinematography is really good. I love all the colorful lighting and wide shots.
Italian mafia is involved I guess?
That intro where we cut back and forth between Kinn and Porsche is *chef's kiss*
Porsche is well established as a character from the start and as cliche as it is, I love when a character's motivation is their sibling :,)
They are very dear to me!
The fight scenes feel well choreographed and exciting to me
Sidenote; Kinn dons truly impressive eyebrows. I keep getting distracted because I'm staring at them in awe
Kinn feels so genuinely threatening in the bar scene where he kidnaps Porsche
I wonder if the show will ever go into classism...probably not but there's a lot of material to work with
Man fuck the uncle. Your nephew works his ass off to pay off a debt and pay for his brothers education and you spend it all? Bitch
Okay initial thoughts: This is really immersive. Kinn so far is kind of just hot-tempered and arrogant, so I'm interested to learn more about him. The tension was really convincing and I wanted to mention the music too! The intro slaps of course, but the background music is chosen very well and adds to the immersion
Episode 2:
Okay what the hell. The first episode had some elements of humor but was very much not a comedy and felt more serious and tense. This is straight up a comedy now and I'm not really about it
Like Porsche did not want to do this job at all because his morals don't align with it, and I would have liked to see him grapple with that more. We saw how panicked he was after he escaped Kinn in the first episode and how he immediately told Porchay to pack his bags and how much he cares about him....and in this episode he doesn't even mention Porchay? He must be worried sick about his brother and it's killing him not to be able to communicate with him. Can we SEE THAT maybe?? And he was so antsy around guns in the first episode that you think he'd struggle with it instead of being like "wow this is just like james bond :D" idk. Maybe I'm nitpicking but his character feels so reduced in this episode.
Oh hi Pete from tumblr gifs :) Glad Porsche at least has a friend who can help him out
Again, did not match the tone AT ALL but I do like Tankhun
Like this was funny but it's just such an INSANE tone shift from episode one. Like it just felt like a gag reel
The minor family is very interested in Porsche for some reason idk, HOWEVER I do recognize Vegas also from tumblr gifs >:)
Anyways. Weird ass episode. I wouldn't mind this if episode one was also like a weird gag reel but it wasn't. I wish they would actually go into the stuff they had set up.
Episode 3:
You know what, good for Tankhun, he needed to go out lol. Curious about the kidnapping when he was younger? Will it be elaborated on?
Oh a fashion icon
Last episode Pete said something about Kinn being kind before something happened, and now Kinn is beating up a guy for embezzling and selling his secret. Curious once again about this guys backstory
Ok we're back to taking Porsche seriously let's go! We're actually addressing his conflicted feelings and how he's essentially doing the same job as the people who hurt him and his family when they couldn't pay their debt on time. And delving into Kinn being more bothered about his job than we thought
GIVE IT UP FOR WOUND TENDING
JEFF SATUR😭💝🥰💓😍💗😚💕
Ok way better than episode 2. We are back on track
Episode 4:
Poor Macau lmao??? Tankhun was like thank you Porsche for hitting him he deserved that and you are now my hero and now Vegas is like yeah sometimes I wanna beat his ass too. This poor kid
"You're afraid that when you open your heart, you will be hurt again?" Damn Vegas. The vibe between these two is rancid. What is their DEAL with each other...
"How did you not know Kinn was gay?" you're kind of right Pete
Kim having a giant portrait of himself framed in his house...iconic. And his crimeboard???
Porsche I'm so sorry :( Will they take him being raped seriously? Probably not
Hm.
I bet Kim is "suddenly" going to offer Porchay guitar lessons after all because he suspects him for...something idk. Whatever the crimeboard is about
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Day 1 of asking for Jan Virgili fics
Hes soooo underrated 😭😭😭😭
Here are some fic ideas you can use
-cutting his hair a buzz cut and surprising reader
-surprising long distance reader in college when she’s having a hard semester
-reader getting his jersey number and name on her nails
-reader taking care of him after a hard game cooking his fav food and stuff like that
DETAILS ON THE NAIL, JAN VIRGILI.
→ Summary: You surprise your boyfriend by putting his name and number on your nail.
→ Warning: Mention of Reader. Fluff/Comfort. Romance.
→ Author's note: I really don't know what to write here.
And sorry if there are mistakes, English is not my language.I hope this is what you asked for!

It was a quiet Saturday afternoon, with the light blue sky tinged with soft clouds and the smell of freshly cut grass filling the neighborhood. You were in your room, with the windows open, and the calm sound of a romantic playlist filled the air. Your heart was beating fast – not only because of the nervousness you had been feeling since the morning, but also because of the anticipation. Jan had texted you to say he would stop by to see you before he went to training, and you still didn’t know how to show him the surprise you had prepared.
It was a small thing, but to you, it had enormous meaning.
Deep down, you had always been a more reserved person when it came to showing affection. But dating Jan Virgili—sweet, kind, caring Jan—made you want to take a risk, even if your heart felt like a drum with every step.
You walked down the stairs slowly, still undecided whether you should show him right away or wait for him to notice. Your father was in the kitchen, your mother was watching TV in the living room. It was a quiet home, a little noisy at times, but full of warmth.
And then the doorbell rang.
The sound echoed straight through your chest, and you pressed your nails against your palm, as if you wanted to hide your little secret for a few more seconds. You walked to the door and, when you opened it, found Jan standing there with that easy smile that always made your legs feel a little weak.
“Hi, princess.” He spoke softly, with that delicious accent you loved to hear.
“Hey… come in,” you replied, stepping back to make room.
Jan came in and greeted your mother with a kiss on the cheek, shook your father's hand and exchanged a few words with them, as he always did politely and kindly. He was adored there – the kind of boyfriend everyone liked, which only made you more in love and, at the same time, more nervous.
You went up to your room together, and you closed the door slowly, turning your back for a few seconds. You felt your cheeks burning, your stomach churning, and your whole body begging you to take courage.
Jan threw himself onto his bed, face up, his eyes following your steps as you walked towards him with your hands hidden behind your body.
“Is everything okay?” he asked, chuckling lightly. “You’re acting kind of… suspicious.”
“I am,” you replied softly, biting your lip. “It’s just… I did something.”
“One thing?” he arched an eyebrow, propping himself up on his elbows.
You approached and finally extended your hand. Your nails were freshly manicured, painted with a delicate nude polish, but the important detail was there: on the ring finger nail of your left hand, in white with a black outline, the number "45"; on the middle finger, his last name: "Virgili".
“I… thought it was cute. And…” you shrugged, eyes lowering “I wanted you to know how much I like you.”
Jan stared blankly for a few seconds. Surprise softened his expression, and then a goofy smile spread across his face. He sat up and held her hand so carefully that it looked like her nails were made of glass.
“You painted my name… and my number…” he whispered, lightly touching his finger with the number 45.
You nodded with a shy smile, your cheeks already too red.
“It’s beautiful. Like, really. I never thought seeing it would make me feel like this…” he laughed, his eyes shining.
“With my heart jumping.”
“I thought you were going to laugh at me,” you muttered, chuckling softly, still unable to look at him for too long.
“Laugh at you?” Jan pulled her hand away, kissing her fingers. “I want to frame your hand, I’m so in love. Can I take a picture?”
You nodded, laughing, and he pulled out his phone, taking a picture of your nails, then another with your hand resting on his chest, right where his heart was beating fast.
“Now I have proof that the most beautiful girl in the world is my number one fan.” He spoke with that sweet tone that always made you melt.
You stayed there, holding hands, with him playing with kissing each finger as if it were the most precious thing in the world. Then, Jan threw himself back on the bed, pulling you with him.
“Do you have any idea how much this felt good today?” he asked quietly, his fingers slowly running over her cheek. “I was kind of anxious about training, and now I’m… at peace.”
You smiled and rested your face against his neck, letting Jan's soft scent envelop you. The feeling was so comfortable that it felt like time had stopped there, just for the two of you.
“If you want, next time I’ll put the club’s crest on it,” you joked, and he laughed out loud.
“Only if you paint a heart on the side, to remind people that it’s your girlfriend.”
You laughed, pressing your fingers against his chest.
It was silly. It was intimate. It was simple.
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I wanted to say thank you to everyone who reblogged, liked, or left a comment in my previous posts.
It means a lot 🩷
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Born to love food cursed with a slow metabolism
#this is NOT a post about body weight!!!#this is a post about how I’m full for a while so I have to eat less times throughout the day#I have so much good food in my future …#maybe I’m tweaking and it’s midnight but I’m kinda emotional about this now omg#like most of my life I genuinely had no idea when my next meal would be#and whenever I did get food to myself it would be hidden rationed and hoarded#and now look at me#my dorm has so much food stockpiled in here#not even mentioning there’s dining halls out there???#like you can just go get a warm cooked meal whenever you want????????#and another thing#I have waaaaaay too many of those dining dollars that won’t roll over to next semester#so not only is there an unlimited amount of food here#but I CAN TRY AS MUCH AS I WANT AND STILL HAVE MONEY TO SPARE??????#well I mean obvs I’m in college debt but even if I wasn’t I’d still have all this food#it’s so wonderful#most nights I’m genuinely so excited for the morning because I can have a new type of food#I just had a wonderful batch of pasta and I don’t even know what I’m gonna choose next because I have so many options#and shit I mean this food will last years#it’s just all so amazing#I think tomorrow I will eat chocolate covered pretzels
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my greatest achievement to date is finding a way to mention good omens in my religion paper about movies and television and getting an A-
#fearandhatred#this was last semester and i was genuinely stressed out if my mind because i thought with my whole heart i would get a C for this paper#usually i can gauge how i did for my work and i'm often not that far off but for this paper....... god#anyway i ate#i just read through it again and damn!#i feel like if my family or anyone from my church read this they would have to sit down and give me a talk#because of how i portrayed christianity lmao#what can i say. i view things objectively#good omens#i also mentiones bo burnham in my a level essay i got an A on because one thing about me is i will make my interests known
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tbh its not that difficult to win a debate if you do like at least some amount of research before hand and say a lot of bullshit confidently
#the gay club at my school has this “battle of the dorms” thing that we do every semester#its like a set of debates in a bracket to see which dorm is the best or whatever#my dorm is kinda shit tbh but we won this year cause I did research on the other dorms and I like talked fast n shit#I think one of the big things that won my dorm the last round was that the other finalist mentioned a field that was like well lit at night#and was like near their dorm#and I went on a passionate rant about the evils of light pollution lmao
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yet again, i have put off all my homework for the last day. i feel like this week i deserve a little more forgiveness for it, though.
reasons aside, the result is the same. im locking in for an extended study session. here's hoping this one doesn't go as badly as last week's did.
#speculation nation#i did manage to finish most of my work last week. but it was still incredibly unpleasant.#and my mood today is... hm.#idk. ive put on some psychedelic rock and we are going to hope that can get me to chill out enough to focus on this damn homework.#i have my psychological testing in a few weeks and they mentioned that bringing in my transcript will likely help them#so they can see my grades that wildly oscillate between good and bad depending on the semester and how the adhd treats me#im just gonna hope it's enough.#im actually feeling rather bad lol but im locking in anyways. im here to learn for the next 9 or so hours. lol
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‘I wonder if it is not the effects of the protea,’ Dorset said absently, poking through the pot with a stick and fishing out the remnants of a spiny blossom. ‘I do not believe we have seen it used as an ingredient before. The Cape vegetation has quite a unique construction within the plant kingdom. I must send the children for some specimens.’
Empire of Ivory, chapter 6
As a botanist (which I guess I kinda am? a bit?) I'm so exited at this throwaway mention of the very unique vegetation of the Cape region! Capensis is the smallest of the foral kingdoms and developed as it did because it was isolated from the Palaeotropis to the north by deserts, Protea is one of its notable genera.
#oh boy can I even call myself botanist? i got a bachelors degree in biology and did focus on botany in the last semesters#but my imposter syndrome sure says no#but well#sure love this mention of stuff i've learned :3#temeraire#tem: other#biology#botany
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crazy about how fucked up shit can feel at 5am and then you have a single minute human interaction the next day and go "huh. maybe shit won't be that fucked up after all"
#queued rambles#i was honest to god scared out of my mind and just about convinced my life was over 12 hours ago and now i feel like a normal person#so what if i fail a class and lose a scholarship. shit will just take a little longer to pay back. i have time. i know plenty of people#with student debt who have normal lives. so what if i don't get a high enough grade on a class i need for my major#i'll take it again. god forbid college takes me a little longer to finish. it's fine. i have time#[not to mention the fact that my grades are fucked up is because i spent a LOT of time this semester convinced my life was over and#i missed a bit more class than i wanted and never turned in a bit more homework than i should have#logically speaking it's kind of hard for me to be mad at myself for that]#god. i am so glad i learned hope and joy and whimsy in high school and not nihilism because i'd be fucked if i did#i still need to go to therapy soon and i'm sure i will before the year is over#[i haven't told my mom everything but i did mention the symptoms of depression over the last few years so. she knows i need to start it]#i feel like i'm kind of talking in circles but it's fine.#for once i feel more as though i'm prancing around a clearing instead of pacing around in a cage#um. i don't know if that makes any sense. but anyways
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I know it's just the normal phase of the writing process to be mid-chapter, make mediocre progress, and be disheartened at how much there is to go. But I am disheartened.
#Mediocre progress is still progress <3 I might read all the Liztlie AU comments again for motivation. I'm just tired.#Same thing is going to happen as 30 I think. I finish this semester and then I have a week straight to stitch all the mediocre scenes#from the last four months together and edit it into a coherent chapter. I hoped I might have time to do it while in school but#it doesn't seem possible. And because the right and left sides of my brain are flip-flopping I'm exhausted and the writing is mediocre.#Also did I mention the writing is mediocre? lol#On the bright side if I continue my many mediocre scenes: I might get 3 or 4 chapters out over the summer. <3#liztlie au chapter 31#liztlie au
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sick

word count: 1.8k
synopsis: in which sylus sneaks into your apartment and finds you sick. yet, you're not resting. why?
contains: sylus x mc!reader (they're not dating but sylus is pining and reader is confused), reader is implied to be in college, slightly obsessive sylus, mentions of violence and sickness, suggestive themes, cussing, and fluff.
a/n: i got sick yesterday. what better way to rest than to write about sylus? do NOT copy or steal my work. sylus WOULD NOT endorse plagiarism :)

you don't want to admit it. you really don't. but you're sick. there's no denying that with how short of breath you are, how nauseous you feel, and the goddamn soreness in the back of your throat that didn't go away with the first sip of water.
"shit…" you mumble as you sluggishly move to empty the dishwasher as your roommate asked. it's bad enough that you were sick, but you were also stressed out of your mind. midterms have been kicking your ass this semester. big assignments have been piling up on your already heavy shoulders. in essence, this was a burnout month, and all that lack of sleep and unparalleled stress had finally caught up to you. in the form of a cold, that is.
"of all the times," you grumble as you struggle to stack the dishes in the cabinet. "why now…" indeed, this was a terrible time to get sick. how were you to complete all your tasks while feeling absolutely miserable? you glance at the microwave clock in desperation. 10:00 PM, it read. although you meant to sigh a breath of relief, you let out a painful cough. maybe you could finish an assignment or two by midnight. that way, you can focus on studying tomorrow, you thought to yourself.
you sniff as you return to the dishwasher to unload the rest of the dishes. as much as you were happy for your roommate leaving for the weekend to finally see her family, you couldn't help but feel resentful. why were you here struggling to do the dishes while she got to have fun? shaking your head at your bitter thoughts, you bend down, trying to grab the utensils from the dishwasher. keyword: trying.
the sudden pair of strong arms that wrapped around you prevented you from doing so. normally, you would've swiftly elbowed the person behind you and turned around to land a hard blow that would have them seeing stars. instead, you exhale shakily. you recognize the mysterious backhugger's scent. the scent of sweet wine and sharp citrus. sylus.
how the hell did he get in? you don’t remember giving him a spare key when you told him your address. you look behind you, angling your head to meet his garnet eyes. "i did not give you my address just so you can sneak in like this," you say, trying your best not to sound like you're dying.
unfortunately, the nasal tone of your voice does not go unnoticed by sylus. instead of offering his usual quips, sylus furrows his brows and unclasps his right arm from your waist. you try not to flinch at the chill of his slender fingers touching your forehead. he frowns. "you're sick."
you immediately avert your gaze. "i'm not sick," you mutter as you try to bend down once more to grab the stupid utensils from the dishwasher. sylus doesn't let go. this time, he spins you around with his left arm, making sure that he can see you properly.
"you're burning up, sweetie." sylus says as flips the hand on your forehead for good measure. "you're sick and you know it."
you roll your eyes, squirming to get out of his grip. you did not want sylus to see you like this. a sick, miserable mess incapable of doing something as simple as emptying the dishwasher. you had an image to uphold after all. being vulnerable with someone like him could mean getting hurt again. last time you were vulnerable with someone… well, let's say you learned your lesson.
weakly, you push at sylus' arm around your waist with your small hands. you try not to think about how minuscule they looked next to sylus' deliciously veiny forearms. great, you're sick, and your mind decides to lust after sylus' arms. you shiver at your thoughts and attempt to push sylus' grip away once more. normally, escaping sylus' hold would be a reasonable task for you. after all, your sparring sessions with him prepared you to get out of sticky situations. but you were sick and exhausted out of your mind. all you could manage was a feeble squirm.
sylus' gaze moves from his hand on your forehead to your eyes. your half-lidded baggy eyes. his frown deepens. you looked extremely fatigued. your face was noticeably pale, and your intake of breath was short. not to mention, sylus could see the slight wince of pain whenever you tried to swallow your saliva. sylus sighs as he removes his hand on your forehead and replaces it with his own. you were neglecting yourself again.
under normal circumstances, you would've shied away from sylus' physical advancements. his hand on the small of your back? an immediate flinch and glare, signaling him to stop. a tap on the crown of your head? a swift jerk of your neck and avoidance of eye contact. instead—again, you blame it on your exhaustion—you tiredly close your eyes, relishing in sylus' cool forehead against your heated one. no resistance to be shown.
you don't see it, but sylus' sharp eyes soften at the sight of you accepting his touch. even with the eye bags and ghastly skin, you looked ethereal. like an angel sent from heaven to save him from his own solitary hell. as much as he wants to savor this moment of you finally giving into his touch, sylus knows what he must do. you're unwell and unrested. you need to be in bed immediately.
"you should be in bed, sweetie." sylus murmurs as he pulls away from your forehead. you try not to sulk at the loss of the soothing chill of his skin. though, not without feeling conflicted because why you would even sulk about him? for god's sake, he was a criminal. he's taken countless lives. not to mention, he choked you upon meeting you, called you a disappointment, and tried to alter you after three straight days of relentless attempts at a forced resonation… just thinking about him drives you nuts and being driven nuts is the last thing you want right now.
"i'm fine, sylus." it was your turn to pull away, trying to put as much distance between you two as his firm grip around your waist would allow. "besides, nothing a little old tea can't fix."
with that, you turn to face the dishwasher and reach for the utensils for the umpteenth time of the night. sylus sighs and pinches his nose bridge with his free hand. as much as he admired your stubbornness, he could not help but resent it at times like these. times when you were in desperate need of a break. before you can grab the utensils, you feel yourself get lifted off the ground effortlessly.
sylus' arm on your waist had moved to your shoulder, and his other arm was hooked under your thighs. he had you in bridal style in less than a second. your eyes widen, realizing the sudden change in positions. "what are you doing?!" you cough painfully. "put me down!"
you do your best to escape sylus' new grip on you by kicking your legs and squirming uncontrollably, but it was hopeless. you were weakened due to your sickness, and sylus was determined to make sure you looked only at him instead of the goddamn dishwasher. one more look at it, and he swears he's gonna break it with his evol.
quickly and confidently, sylus exits the kitchen with you in his arms and arrives at what he guesses is your shared bedroom with your roommate. he tries not to get distracted by the fact that this is his first time in your room. god, the entire space smelled so much like you, he wanted to become one with it and watch you forever and ever. dismissing his intrusive thoughts, sylus gently places you down on your bed and starts to cover you in your blanket.
"wait, sylus," you start, trying to get up. "i have to empty the dishwasher. i have homework, too." sylus tuts as he shakes his head, his messy silver locks following suit. although he doesn't respond, sylus continues to spread out your blanket. you furrow your eyebrows at his strange behavior. "sylus…" you whine. you actually whined. something you never thought you would do, especially in front of sylus. you could feel his intense gaze prick at you like little needles. you avoid his gaze, hoping to hide your flustered state.
adorable. that's what you are. incredibly adorable to the point sylus wants to grab your chin and force you to look at him as he coaxes more and more of your pretty whines out of you.
trying to fight his indecent thoughts, sylus locks eyes with you, a firm yet pleading look on his face. "you need to rest, sweetie," he leans in to adjust your pillow. "you won't get anything done in this state." you try to protest again, but sylus beats you to it. "rest. i'll take care of everything."
well, fuck. how can you say no when sylus, in all of his gorgeous glory, is centimeters from your face, telling you that he will take care of everything and asking you to do the one thing you've been longing to do for a very long time? besides, you felt sleepy ever since sylus took you in his arms. just this once. just this once, you'll allow yourself to be vulnerable with him. so that you can rest, of course. totally not because sylus had a way of comforting you so sweetly and breaking your defensive walls so charmingly.
your labored breathing slows as you cautiously nod. "fine," you yawn. "the utensils go in the very left drawer of the island while the pots and pans go in the stove oven, and…" you can feel sleep beckoning for you as you continue to list instructions. sylus can't help the grin that appears on his face as he watches your cute blinks grow in intervals.
"noted, sweetie." he caresses a stray hair strand out of your face. "i'll make sure everything is back where they belong." like you to him. though, he doesn't say that part out loud. maybe another day. when you are no longer wary of him and are willing to acknowledge his very obvious affection for you. deep in his fantasy, sylus almost misses your cute snores. he chuckles, taking this chance to admire you now that you've fallen asleep.
you truly were an angel. the way your eyebrows furrowed here and there in your sleep. the way your plump lips parted at times. the way your button nose twitched sporadically. oh, sylus loved it all. he could watch you sleep forever. but he had a better task at hand: to take care of you. he assured you that he would take care of everything. and sylus is a man of his words. carefully to not wake you, sylus cups your face with his right hand. closing his eyes, he places a delicate kiss on your forehead.
"rest well, sweetie. i'll see you soon."
#i wrote this while sick#be proud of me#sylus x reader#lnds sylus#love and deepspace sylus#lads sylus#love and deepspace#love and deepspace x reader#love and deepspace fic#sylus x y/n#sylus x you
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one. two. three. four. five.
Your bestfriend, Yuuji’s older half-brother Sukuna, who always had this grudge towards you and you can’t pinpoint why.
You first met him during summer break. You couldn’t keep up with your dorm fees anymore and happened to mention it to Yuuji one time.
“You could stay with me! I have a spare room nobody’s using.”
“Are you sure Yuuji? I don’t want to impose on you.”
“Of course I’m sure. You don’t even have to pay rent or anything.”
A home that’s close to uni and has no fees? It was heaven sent for a broke college student!
“That’s the last of them. Thank you Yuuji, I really appreciate the help. If there’s anything I could do around here just let me know.” You told him after dropping your stacking your last moving box into your new room.
“No problem. Just a heads up though, my brother also lives with me. Is that okay with you?”
“Sure, it’s fine with me.” Your famous last words.
You should’ve headed the red flags when Yuuji tried to warn you about his brother.
“Sukuna can be..difficult sometimes. But it’d be nice if you two would be friends. If not, ehh, just avoid him if you can.”
You should’ve headed the red flags when Yuuji tried to warn you about his brother.
To say that Sukuna had a bad day at the tattoo shop was an understatement. His new assistant never arrived, he was dealing with a shit client plus, his ink almost ran out.
His frustration echoed throughout the two-storey house when he slammed the front door shut.
He was confused by the smell coming from the kitchen as he walked in. Is Yuuji cooking? Nah, his idiot brother would burn the house down if he even tried to get near the kitchen.
Instead, he finds a woman’s figure busy behind the kitchen counter. It made him stop his tracks.
Beautiful, he thought. But too young for Sukuna’s taste. Plus, he doesn’t like it when a stranger touches his favorite spot in the house.
So great, his bad day is about to become worse.
“Who. The. Fuck. Are you?” You almost screamed when your eyes went to the man that appeared behind you.
He looked similar to Yuuji, but the aura was very different. His build was larger, jaw sharper, and he had looked furious.
Oh, he must be Yuuji’s brother, Sukuna. You tensed up unintentionally while his eyes wandered on what you’re wearing.
“You one of Yuuji’s girls? I told him not to bring his hookups here.” He uttered, eyes not leaving yours.
You wore a tank top with cotton pajama shorts. You looked too comfortable just to be visiting.
“No! I-I’m Yuuji’s friend. It’s nice to meet you.” You said nervously.
“Can’t say the same sweetheart. I’m not so fond of strangers in my house. So open the front door and walk outside.”
What? Is he kicking you out?
“Wait! Yuuji didn’t tell you? He allowed me to stay at the spare room down the hall.”
“He what?” Sukuna was fuming. Every step he took closer to you looked like he was going to eat you alive.
“YUUJI!” His voice thundered all over the house.
“I-I think he’s sleeping in his room.” You winced at the string of curses that came out of his mouth.
“Whatever conversation you had with my dumb brother, it’s not happening. You can’t stay here.”
“But it’s the start of the semester, I can’t find a new dorm in a snap!”
“You shouting at me, girl?”
“N-No, I mean-just please, I can take care of the house. I can even cook for you. I can’t afford to leave, not right now.”
Before Sukuna could open his mouth, Yuuji’s footsteps rang out from the stairs.
“Sukuna, you’re back! Wait, did something happen?” Yuuji looks at your nervous face.
“Yeah we’ve met alright.” Sukuna muttered, arms crossing to his chest.
“Yuuji, your brother’s kicking me out.” You tried to hide behind Yuuji’s form.
“What? You can’t kick her out!”
“I can because it’s my goddamn house. If don’t want some girl in here, she’s got to go.”
“You can’t! To be fair, I did tell you that my friend’s staying with us for a while and you agreed.”
Yeah he did agree but he thought that black haired kid was moving in, not you.
“Oh, for fucks sake,” Sukuna exclaimed and you could tell he’s about to lose it.
“I’ll stay out of your way all the time, I promise. You won’t even notice I’m here.” You pleaded him.
“Yeah, I doubt that. Clean up your damn mess.” He said harshly and glared at you before stomping his way upstairs.
“I’m so sorry. My brother’s not so good at making first impressions.” Yuuji pouted.
He’s an asshole, you wanted to say.
“Don’t worry about it. I’m just glad he didn’t kick me out.” You exhaled in relief.
If that was his reaction during your first meeting then what about the upcoming months?
“He won’t. I’m sure you’ll grow on him, you kinda have that effect on people.” Yuuji tried to cheer you up but you just gave him a faint smile.
Yeah, somehow you doubt that would work on Sukuna.
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note: Sukuna is 29 in this fic and your age gap is 6 years. I don’t like doing age gap with minors, so just think that everyone in this fic are 18+.
#jjk#jjk au#jjk fanfic#jjk imagines#jjk sukuna#jjk x reader#sukuna#sukuna ryomen#sukuna ryoumen x reader#non-curse au#sukuna x reader#sukuna x you
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call out my name | lee jeno
pairing: stepbrother! lee jeno x fem reader genre + wc: smut / enemies to lovers-ish | 17k+ summary: your stepbrother suddenly starts acting a bit different after fixing your laptop, and you wonder if it has anything to do with the endless posts you’ve made about wanting him to fuck you brainless. content warning: stepcest, voyeurism, masturbation, cheating, smoking and brief mentions of drug use, unprotected sex, hard dom jeno, oral (fem receiving), face riding weee, semi-public sex, multiple orgasms, jeno is a bit mean (but like in a hot way), lmk if i missed any! a/n: haven’t written for jeno in soooo long and my body needed it. also, beatbox era jeno still has me in a chokehold, so i imagined him looking exactly like that while writing this. that mullet-undercut combo was LETHAL i need him to reheat his own nachos expeditiously. also the lowercase is back too, i'm still trying to figure out if i like this more lol ps: if u catch the twilight reference you’ll get a kiss from me :p
jeno stomped into your room, hands shoved deep into his hoodie pocket, jaw tight with irritation. your voice still echoed in his head.
‘fix my laptop and i won’t tell your dad you’ve been skipping almost every class since the semester started.’
fix it? he wasn’t a damn IT guy. and how the hell did you even know he’d been skipping? what were you, a stalker?
seriously, it wasn’t his fault you couldn’t take care of your stuff. and why couldn’t you just take the damn thing to a repair shop?
“i need it for college work,’ you’d said.
yeah, right. like he didn’t hear you at night. his room was right next to yours, and those walls were way too thin. not only were you loud, but you also needed headphones, because he could hear exactly what kind of videos you watched.
he exhaled sharply through his nose, stepping up to your desk. the laptop sat there, taunting him in its sickly sweet pink case covered in hello kitty stickers.
“god, what a child,” he muttered, dragging a hand down his face before plopping onto your chair. the cushion was still warm from you sitting there earlier. he flipped the laptop open, and a password prompt appeared.
he tried your birthday first. denied.
with a sigh, he scanned your desk. you were forgetful, he was sure you had the password written somewhere. his eyes landed on a cluster of polaroids, mostly of you and your boyfriend. he grabbed one and flipped it over. sure enough, there was a scribbled note in your messy handwriting.
‘happy anniversary, my baby ❤️’ and a date.
jeno scoffed but typed it in anyway. the screen unlocked with a soft chime.
the moment your desktop loaded, he was met with a picture of you sprawled out on a beach towel, skin sun-kissed, in a tiny white bikini that barely covered anything. jeno swallowed.
several seconds passed before he snapped himself out of it, shaking his head and forcing his attention elsewhere.
your laptop was a disaster. it was clogged with files, random downloads, and so many pop-ups it was a miracle the thing still functioned. he clicked around, deleting error files and clearing out junk.
then a notification popped up from a browser window that was open in the background.
he opened the tab out of habit, not expecting anything interesting, but then the page loaded and he had to blink twice to make sure he was seeing right.
it was a blog called ‘horny antidotes.’
"what the hell is this?" he snorted.
he scrolled, thumb hovering before tapping on a section labeled confessions. a list of posts loaded, the oldest ones stretching back to the beginning of last year. against his better judgment, he clicked the most recent entries.
i tried it again tonight. used my fingers since the new toys i got don’t really feel good either. i think my boyfriend’s starting to suspect something. it’s kinda weird that i barely get wet when he touches me (╥_╥) we even try watching porn together, but it does nothing for me. we just scroll through hundreds of videos and i feel nothing, while he gets hard so easily. so i end up sucking him off.
jeno’s brows lifted. jesus.
i get more turned on looking at pictures of LJN. but i can’t touch myself to him… it feels wrong. so i gotta find an alternative. any tips? (>д<)
LJN?
his lips parted. those were initials. your boyfriend’s? no… his.
L. J. N.
lee jeno.
his pulse jumped. before he could think better of it, his fingers typed LJN into the blog’s search bar.
hundreds of posts popped up.
he let out a soft, disbelieving laugh.
no fucking way.
today LJN helped me with my homework. he looked like he hated every second of it. it was hard to focus when he sat so close… his cologne makes me feel so… hot (/ω\).
jeno dragged a hand down his face. he’s not imagining all this? right?
my boyfriend and i broke up again (kinda) (μ_μ). same reason as always… our sex life sucks. he thinks i’m not into him, but that’s not true. he tries… i just… anyway, LJN knocked on my door today. he was only wearing a towel. i almost dropped to my knees right there and then. how does someone get abs like that? god, those arms… veiny and strong… maybe i should call my boyfriend and try again…
a slow smirk stretched across jeno’s lips. so your boyfriend can’t get you off, but i make you wet that easily? he thought.
his gaze drifted to your bed. the sheets were a tangled mess, barely clinging to the mattress. did you write that post after touching yourself last night? thinking about him?
he exhaled through his nose, head shaking like he couldn’t believe it. but god, his stomach clenched at the thought of you squirming with his name in your head.
sure, he knew people found him attractive. girls threw themselves at him all the time. but you? who argued with him over stupid shit, called him an asshole just this morning while throwing a sock at his head?
you wanted him. wanted him so bad you spilled it online for strangers to read.
his gaze flicked back to the screen, to the words where you described his cologne driving you crazy.
he should’ve stopped reading but instead, he clicked on another post.
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the next morning, you woke up to find your laptop working perfectly. no note, no sarcastic comment scribbled on a post-it, nothing. just fixed.
weird.
you headed downstairs, fully expecting jeno to be in his usual morning mood, grumbling about chores, throwing half-hearted jabs just to rile you up. but when you found him on the couch, he was… quiet.
"hey," you said, grabbing a drink from the fridge. "so… thanks for fixing my laptop."
he barely glanced up, his gaze flickering over your bare legs for a heartbeat before settling back on his phone.
"yeah, no problem."
...that’s it?
you waited. no snark about your messy folders? no whining about how you owed him now?
your brows knit. "you okay?"
jeno stretched his legs, shorts riding up just enough to show more of his muscular thighs. "yeah, why wouldn’t i be?"
"i dunno," you said, eyeing him. "you’re acting weird."
he chuckled, head tilting as he shot you a lazy grin. "i’m always like this in the mornings. maybe you just don’t pay enough attention to me."
"trust me," you muttered, taking a sip from your drink, "i pay plenty of attention to you."
jeno’s lips twitched almost into a smirk.
then he hummed.
"yeah, i know."
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the next few days, jeno turned it over in his mind—how to play this.
sure, the whole thing was entertaining, but you were still his stepsister. technically. your parents weren’t married, but they’d been together for about four years, and you’d been living under the same roof since last year.
not that you and jeno were close. you barely crossed paths, always out with friends or holed up in your room when you were home. plus, he found you immature. spoiled. maybe it was the three-year age gap, or maybe it was how quickly you’d settled in and made this place your own. his dad had asked him to be patient with you—“it’s a big change for her”—but if you were struggling, you hid it well.
especially with how you put on that perfect little act for your parents. sweet and responsible. as if you weren’t sneaking your boyfriend in through the window at night. or slipping out when you thought no one noticed. jeno noticed.
he just never cared enough to call you out. but the hypocrisy definitely grated on him. pretending to be miss goody-two-shoes when, by your own confession, you were getting railed by a guy who couldn’t even get you off?
the irony wasn’t lost on him. neither was the opportunity.
he could confront you. he’d definitely enjoy to watch you squirm, see that spark of defiance flicker into panic. tempting.
but maybe… maybe he’d keep this to himself a little longer.
drag it out and see just how much fun he could have before you caught on.
the perfect opportunity presented itself only a few days later when your parents announced their trip to italy for valentine’s day. conveniently their anniversary was also coming up, so they’d be gone for two whole weeks.
“we’ll be back next sunday,” jeno’s dad said, ruffling your hair. “don’t do anything stupid while we’re gone.”
you rolled your eyes, half-smiling, but then his tone shifted as he turned to jeno.
“jeno, take care of her. don’t let her get into any trouble. no parties or anything reckless.”
jeno nodded without a word, eyes flicking toward you before he turned back to your dad with a forced grin. “got it.”
you mom stepped forward, kissing your cheek, her hand lingering on your shoulder a moment longer. “be good, okay? we’re trusting you.” her gaze softened but held an unmistakable warning beneath it.
you knew exactly why. after all, it wasn’t like you had a spotless record. just three months ago, you had come home drunk after sneaking out to a friend’s party. what was supposed to be "just a few drinks" had turned into you singing on top of the table and someone posting it to their story. your parents found out the next morning, thanks to your neighbor, of all people, who’d seen the video. it hadn’t even been that scandalous, except for the fact that you were obviously drunk and under 21 at the time.
the hangover was bad, but the lecture was worse. "you’re lucky jeno was there to drag you home," your mom had said, shooting you a disappointed look. jeno had played the responsible older kid that night, carrying you out before things got worse. but that didn’t stop your parents from being more protective now. especially of you.
still, it annoyed you that all the warnings were directed your way while jeno stood there looking like a saint, when you knew he was anything but. sure, he hadn’t gotten wasted like you, but he was at the same party smoking weed on the back porch, making out with some girl whose name he probably didn’t even know, and encouraging shots like he was the party host. he was just lucky none of that was caught on camera, unlike you.
when the front door closed behind them, a strange silence settled over the house. you watched through the window as they loaded their luggage into the car and drove off. two weeks alone with jeno. what could possibly go wrong?
“guess it’s just us now,” you muttered.
jeno’s lips twitched into a small smile. "looks like it."
his gaze flickered over your body while you were distracted. this will be so much fun, he thought.
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the house felt bigger without your parents around. normally, you’d take full advantage by inviting friends over, staying out late, and enjoying in the freedom. but something about being alone with jeno had you on edge.
not uncomfortable, just… wary.
he’d been acting strange lately. not openly, but enough that you noticed. it was in the way he looked at you now, like he knew something you didn’t.
you were scrolling through your phone in the kitchen that night when he strolled in.
"big plans while they’re gone?" he asked, pulling open the fridge.
"nothing crazy," you said, thumb still flicking at your screen. "just enjoying the peace and quiet."
he let out a low hum, the kind that sounded like he was holding back a laugh. "right. because you’re such a quiet, well-behaved girl."
your scrolling stopped. your gaze snapped up to him. "where’s that coming from?"
jeno didn’t answer immediately. instead, he stepped closer reaching past you for a glass in the cabinet overhead. the movement brought him close enough that his cologne hit you warm, musky, annoyingly good.
"you know," he murmured, voice just above a whisper, "you might fool them. but not me."
your heart skipped. "i have no idea what you’re talking about."
he dipped his head slightly, eyes flickering to your cleavage.
"sure you don’t."
then he was gone, leaving you in the kitchen with your pulse pounding and a breath you didn’t realize you were holding.
the weekend arrived quicker than expected, and despite jeno’s weirdness lately, nothing out of the ordinary happened.
until saturday.
jeno was sprawled on the couch, mindlessly tapping his fingers against his knee. his gaze drifted up just as you wandered into the living room, barefoot and still in your sleepwear—a thin tank top and shorts that barely covered your ass. you didn’t even glance his way, too focused on your phone as you padded toward the kitchen.
it was almost funny, how careless you were around him. clueless, really.
jeno bit back a smirk.
"you’re up early," he said, breaking the quiet.
you glanced over your shoulder while pouring cereal into a bowl. "uh… yeah?"
he shrugged. "figured you’d be catching up on sleep after sneaking out last night."
your hand faltered for half a second. it was subtle but enough for him to notice.
his grin widened as he leaned back against the couch cushions, arms draping lazily over the backrest. "right."
you set the cereal down with a little more force than necessary and turned to face him, arms crossed. "okay, what’s going on with you?”
"me?" he feigned innocence, eyebrows raising. "nothing, just making conversation."
your eyes narrowed, studying him. when he offered nothing else, you scoffed and turned back to the counter, muttering under your breath.
he’d never cared before. never commented on where you went or what you did. why was he suddenly so interested in you?
jeno used to treat you like background noise, a mild inconvenience at worst. now his gaze lingered longer whenever you walked into the room, and you’d be lying if you said it didn’t make your skin prickle in ways you didn’t want to think about.
later that evening, you curled up on the couch with your laptop, half-heartedly scrolling through an assignment you had no intention of finishing. jeno sat across from you, phone in hand, occasionally flicking through something with the tv playing low in the background. it was peaceful enough… until he spoke.
"you know…" he stretched, shirt riding up just enough to expose the waistband of his boxers. "your boyfriend kinda sucks."
your fingers froze mid-typing.
"what?" you asked, tone clipped. you didn’t look up, but your jaw tightened on instinct.
he hummed, "if i were sneaking out every night, i’d hope it was worth it."
you shut the laptop with a snap. "why do you even care?"
jeno grinned, clearly satisfied that he’d gotten under your skin. "i don’t."
you stood abruptly, blood buzzing with irritation. "whatever. i’m going to bed."
he chuckled under his breath as you turned to leave, but the sound grated on you. it echoed in your head as you stalked halfway down the hall before…no. screw that.
you spun on your heel, storming back into the living room. "you don’t know shit," you bit out.
jeno glanced up, unconcerned. "about what?"
"me. my boyfriend."
that finally got his full attention. he set his phone down and tilted his head, eyes gleaming. "oh, you mean the boyfriend who keeps getting dumped and crawling back like a stray?"
your nostrils flared. "fuck you."
"i’m just saying—"
"no, you’re not ‘just saying’ anything," you cut him off, stepping closer. "you think you know everything about me just because we share a roof?"
"you’d be surprised," he shot back, annoyingly calm.
your fists clenched. "you don’t know what i need. so stop acting like you do."
for a split second, something flickered in his expression, gone too fast to name. then his usual smirk slid back into place.
"i don’t need to know what you need." he leaned forward, elbows on his knees. "i already know what you want."
your breath hitched. you hated that, hated the way your pulse jumped at his words, at the confidence in his voice. what the hell did that even mean?
"you’re an asshole," you snapped. "i don’t owe you an explanation."
jeno nodded, like he agreed. "then why are you still standing here?"
your face burned with frustration, but you bit your tongue. there was nothing you could say that wouldn’t make this worse. so you did the next best thing, you turned on your heel and walked away, slamming your bedroom door behind you.
and yet, lying in bed later, the back of your mind replayed his words on a loop. you still felt like you’d lost.
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hours passed and you were still pissed.
your whole body ached with it, hot and restless, like something crawling under your skin. jeno’s words sunk in deep, wrapping around you like barbed wire, too sharp, too true.
‘your boyfriend kinda sucks’ his voice rang in your ears.
no, your boyfriend was nearly perfect. he had all the right looks, the right voice, the right everything and yet… somehow, even after months of trying, of letting him touch you, of trying to want it—
you never got turned on with him. not the way you were now after a simple argument with jeno.
your hand moved before you could think, fingers slipping under the waistband of your shorts, finding that sticky warmth between your thighs. a shaky breath left you, head tipping back against the pillows. it wasn’t enough. god, it wasn’t nearly enough. you needed—fuck, you didn’t even know what you needed. just more. something to fill the ache, to drown out the way his voice echoed in your head. i don’t need to know what you need. i already know what you want.
stop.
you squeezed your eyes shut, forcing yourself to picture your boyfriend, to think about the way he kissed you, the way he whispered your name, the way he touched you.
but your body rejected it. the images blurred, twisted, morphed.
and suddenly it wasn’t his hands you were thinking about.
It was jeno’s slender fingers.
your fingertips grazed that sensitive spot, slick and throbbing, pulling a broken sound from your lips. your hips rolled up into your hand, chasing any semblance of relief. you let out a quiet, shuddering breath as your stomach clenched, your pulse kicking up as you fought it, fought him, fought the way his image took over.
but it was useless.
your body didn’t listen. it latched onto the memory of him. the way his pretty lips curled right before he was about to say something you knew would piss you off, the way his voice dipped when he was toying with you, the way his hands always fidgeted, tapping against his thigh, against his lips, always doing something.
your lips parted as your fingers moved faster, your other hand slid up your stomach, pushing up your shirt as your breath stuttered.
would he keep his rings on while touching you?
the thought sent a sharp pulse of arousal through you, your body tightening, the wetness between your thighs growing slicker.
you imagined his long fingers and the coolness of the rings against your skin. would he drag them over your stomach, trace your thighs, tease you with them first? or would he shove them inside right away?
you bit your lip, your fingers pressing down harder, teasing yourself the way he would, the way he might if he ever—
a moan slipped from your lips before you could stop it. “jeno…”
outside your door, jeno’s world fucking stopped. his body was tight, his breath stuck in his throat as he pressed himself against the wood.
he shouldn’t be here. he shouldn’t be standing outside your room, shouldn’t be looking through the small crack where the door hadn’t shut all the way.
but fuck.
fuck, you were so loud. did you even realize?
did you know how needy you sounded? the way your voice cracked, the way your breathing hitched, the way you whimpered when you…
jeno exhaled sharply, gripping the doorframe, trying to keep himself in check. but his mind was already too far gone. because if you were touching yourself to him, and if you were so desperate you couldn’t even keep quiet or make sure the the door was closed all the way… then maybe you wanted to get caught.
maybe you wanted him to see.
his breath came out slow and measured as he peeked through the crack, his body heating at the sight before him. the dim glow of your bedside lamp cast soft shadows over your skin, your legs spread wide, fingers buried deep inside yourself. the slick sounds of your movements, the rise and fall of your chest, the way your lips parted as you moaned his name. fuck, it was too much.
he felt himself throbbing painfully against his sweats, already aching from just watching you. his cock was so fucking hard it hurt.
he pulled himself out, his fingers wrapping around the thick length, hot and pulsing in his palm. he let out a sharp breath as he started stroking himself, matching his pace to the rhythm of your fingers slipping in and out of your pretty cunt.
he wanted to be the one touching you.
he imagined it, his fingers stretching you open, pumping in and out, his thumb circling your clit until you were shaking, whimpering against his mouth. would you let him fuck you raw the first time? god, you’d feel so good around him, so tight, clenching down on him like you never wanted him to pull out. he let out a quiet groan, biting his lip to keep himself from making any noise, even though part of him wanted you to hear him, wanted you to know exactly what you were doing to him.
your moans were getting louder, your breaths coming faster, more frantic. you were close, he could tell, your body was begging for release, and he wished, more than anything, that he could be the one to push you over the edge.
he knew that no one else could make you feel like this. not even your boyfriend, the one you pretended was enough for you. that idiot had the privilege of touching you, of being inside you, and still you weren’t getting off on thoughts of him. no, it was jeno’s name spilling from your lips as you fucked yourself.
his hand tightened around his cock, his strokes quickening. "cum for me, baby," he whispered under his breath, his forehead pressing harder against the doorframe.
maybe you heard him, maybe you didn’t, but your moans pitched higher, your fingers moving faster, your body trembling on the other side of the door. fuck—you were close, so fucking close, and he was right there with you. his jaw went slack, his breaths coming in ragged pants as the pleasure slammed into him, hot and heavy. his cock pulsed, his body shaking, cum spilling over his fingers in thick streaks as he saw you falling apart in your bed at the same time.
his body tensed, every nerve sparking as he milked himself through the high, swallowing back the urge to moan out your name. he barely had the presence of mind to tuck himself back into his sweats before he started dripping onto the carpet. that would’ve been a dead giveaway. but even as he came down from it, the heat in his chest didn’t fade. because now he knew just how badly you wanted him.
and he wasn’t going to just let it go.
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so, he was back outside your room the following night.
your door was closed all the way this time. he swallowed hard, his pulse hammering as he curled his fingers around the doorknob, testing it. it turned just a fraction before stopping. it was locked. he expected this. he had the feeling you suspected he’d seen you or at least heard you last night because you were unusually fidgety around him earlier today.
he exhaled slowly, lowering himself down until his face was level with the keyhole, his breath shallow as he listened. the obscene sounds of your fingers working between your thighs were unmistakable, each wet stroke sending another pulse of heat straight to his cock. he knew you were thinking about him again. your boyfriend wasn’t here, who the fuck else would you be touching yourself to?
he let his hand trail down, palming himself over his sweats, but this time, it wasn’t enough. he needed more.
his fingers drifted down to his pocket, curling around the small, thin tool he’d stolen from mark’s junk drawer earlier. jeno wasn’t an idiot, he knew to be prepared this time. hearing wouldn’t do it for him, he needed to see you again.
he slid the tool into the keyhole, his other hand steadying the knob as he worked it. it wasn’t his first time picking a lock. he’d done it plenty of times as a teen, sneaking into forbidden rooms at school, usually to make out with random girls. but this was different. he was breaking into his stepsister’s room so he could watch her touch herself. his hands itched, his whole body thrumming with a dangerous kind of thrill.
the lock gave a quiet click and he held his breath trying to listen for any indication that you noticed. after he thought it was safe, he twisted the handle and pushed the door just enough to crack it open.
and fuck, what a sight it was.
you were sprawled on your bed, your legs were in a butterfly position this time, your skin glistening with sweat. your shirt was hiked up all the way giving him the perfect sight of your tits. your panties were pushed down completely and he could see the way your fingers disappeared inside you. his name started slipping from your lips again, breathy, ruined. he clenched his jaw, his cock started to throb painfully at the sight.
you were so fucking beautiful like this. needy, desperate, chasing a high that only he could truly give you.
he licked his lips, watching the way your back arched, your fingers curling inside you as you edged yourself closer. his own hand slipped into his sweats, wrapping around his length, stroking slow, lazy, savoring the moment. he should leave. should close the door and pretend this never happened. but instead, he kept watching, his lips parting in a silent exhale as he imagined once again what it would be like to replace your fingers with his own.
or better yet, his cock.
you had no idea he was here. no idea you were putting on a show just for him.
there was no way in hell he was going to stop now.
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you’d been locking your door more often now. you weren’t sure why. it didn’t make sense, but the feeling just wouldn’t go away. the feeling that you were being watched.
maybe it was the fact that you thought you heard a moan outside your door the other night. or maybe the fact that your panties had mysteriously gone missing from the laundry basket. and there was only one other person living with you at the moment. you tried to tell yourself it was paranoia. after all, why would jeno do something like that? he didn’t have fantasies like you, right?
still, something felt different when he was around. especially when you bumped into him in the kitchen or living room. the tension was so thick as if the space between you was charged, waiting for something, or someone, to cross the line.
you tried to distract yourself, flicking through jersey shore reruns with half your mind still on him. but as soon as you heard footsteps approaching, your pulse spiked. your body clearly not knowing the difference between riding a roller coaster, and your stepbrother entering the room.
you glanced up, trying to force a bored expression. the moment your eyes landed on him, however, everything in you froze. his damp hair stuck to his forehead, a towel draped loosely around his neck. his sweatpants hung low on his hips, his boxers peeking, and the way his white shirt clung to his chest made it feel like the room was closing in around you.
you swallowed hard.
he caught your gaze, and for a split second, it felt like he saw right through you. like he knew what you were thinking, what you were feeling. but he didn’t say anything. he just walked over, sitting close enough that his leg brushed against yours. the space between you was so small, but it felt like a chasm, a void that you couldn’t bridge. you couldn’t move. not when your body was so painfully aware of him.
“you like this trash?” his voice was casual, but his eyes were anything but. they were on you, studying you.
you blinked, the question throwing you off guard. you hadn’t even realized he was talking about the show until he nodded toward it. “uh... yeah. it’s... entertaining,” you stammered, your voice sounding foreign in your own ears. you wanted to say more, to defend it, but the words wouldn’t come. your mind was fixated on him.
you tried to focus on the screen, but you couldn’t tear your eyes away from him. his towel slipping from his shoulders, water droplets sliding down his neck and disappearing beneath the collar of his shirt. you could feel that familiar flutter in your lower stomach.
your fingers twitched, desperate to do something, anything, to alleviate the tightness.
jeno tilted his head slightly, his lips pulling into that almost imperceptible smirk, the one that made you want to either scream or crawl into him.
“what’s wrong?” he asked, his voice soft, but there was something dangerous underneath. “you look tense.”
you didn’t answer immediately. instead, you shifted uncomfortably, your pulse hammering in your ears. he didn’t push, but the way he was looking at you made you feel exposed, like he had you cornered.
suddenly, the doorbell rang, and you shot up from the couch like you’d been electrocuted. your pulse was still racing, your thoughts tangled in knots you didn’t want to acknowledge. this was good. maybe whoever was at the door would shake you out of this haze.
but the second you opened it, you almost wished you hadn’t.
your boyfriend…or ex? you didn’t even know anymore, stood there holding a single rose in one hand and a bag of snacks in the other.
“happy valentine’s day,” he greeted, flashing that charming smile he knew melted you.
your eyes widened. you’d been so distracted you totally forgot the date. damn you, lee jeno.
“i’m sorry i didn’t call in advance,” he pushed the rose into your hand and leaned to kiss you “and i know we agreed to take a break… still, i couldn't just not come today…”
he lifted the bag on his other hand. “movie?”
you forced a smile, your stomach twisting guiltily for a second. even though your relationship was a bit unstable as of late, valentine’s wasn’t something you ever wanted to half-ass so it was a good thing you’d planned ahead.
you bought his gift the previous week, carefully wrapping the box yourself because you wanted it to feel special. a pair of shoes he’d been eyeing for months, a new band for his apple watch since his favorite one had broken recently, and a handwritten letter tucked inside, detailing how much you appreciated him, how much you loved him. You even spent extra time decorating the envelope, adding little doodles and stickers just to make him smile.
you should've felt some kind of relief, his presence should distract you from the wild thoughts swirling in your head. but as you stepped aside to let him in, that sense of relief never came.
because the moment you turned back, you remembered jeno was still there on the couch. you silently willed him with your mind to go to his room, maybe leave altogether.
but of course he didn’t.
“oh. hey, dude” your boyfriend said as he finally noticed him. “didn’t know your brother was here.”
you winced. that word. brother. your tongue itched to correct him, but what was the point? he knew you weren’t really siblings. he just chose to say it anyway.
jeno let the word hang in the air before he finally stood up, stretching his arms over his head before settling into a straighter posture. he never stood that straight, but he was making sure to show that he was at least two inches taller than your boyfriend. It was a subtle move, but you saw it for what it was. a challenge.
you almost scoffed at the sheer pettiness of it.
“ah, hello…” jeno drawled. “sorry, remind me of your name again?”
your boyfriend told him, his tone polite but slightly stiff.
“right,” jeno said, half-smiling. “didn’t know we’d be having visitors today…”
your boyfriend cleared his throat. “ah, that’s my bad. i didn’t tell her I was coming since I wanted to surprise her for Valentine’s”
“hm,” Jeno hummed. “well... as long as you two keep it in the living room, should be fine. gotta look out for my little sister while the parents are out, you know?”
you squeezed your eyes shut for half a second, inhaling slowly, forcing yourself to stay calm. he never called you that. also, who did he think he was playing house police all of a sudden?
“sit down, babe,” you said, your tone so sweet it sounded forced.
jeno scoffed under his breath, soft enough that only you heard it.
you ignored it, settling onto the couch as he disappeared into the kitchen. your boyfriend sat beside you, oblivious, scrolling through movies, while you shoved a chip into your mouth just to distract your mind.
suddenly, you heard clattering from the kitchen followed by a curse.
“uh, y/n… can you come help me real quick?”
you squeezed your eyes shut.
“what did you break now?” you called, already exasperated.
"your mom’s china," he called back. "think i broke like two plates. maybe three. hard to say. pretty sure she’ll notice, though."
shit. you were on your feet before you could think, muttering a quick, “sorry, i’ll be right back,” as you hurried toward the kitchen.
the moment you stepped inside, irritation flared hotter in your chest.
“are you kidding me? what were you even doing near those? my mom explicitly said—” you voiced trailed off when you saw there was no broken china. no mess. nothing.
just jeno, standing there with his arms crossed, watching you with a smirk so infuriating you wanted to slap it off his face.
your hands curled into fists. “what are you doing?”
“really?” he ignored your glare, tilting his head mockingly. “he brought snacks and a single rose?” he let out a dry chuckle. “it’s valentine’s day for god’s sake, he could’ve at least tried.”
“i like simple things,” you shot back. “i don’t need a big fucking production”
jeno took a step closer making your breath get stuck in your throat. he wasn’t touching you, wasn’t even crowding you, but fuck he might as well have been, with the way your body tensed.
his voice dropped lower. “are you trying to convince me or yourself?”
he clearly wanted to get a reaction out of you and you refused to give it to him.
his gaze flicked down to your lips, pursed at him, and yet so pretty. he could still remember them parting and gasping his name last night.
"bet it gets tiring to pretend so much” he leaned in slightly.
you took a sharp step back.
“just… get out of my business,” you snapped, breath uneven.
jeno’s lips curled. “sure thing.” his eyes glinted with dark amusement. “hope you have fun with mr. buzzkill.”
your jaw clenched as you spun on your heel, storming back to the living room. who the hell did he think he was? since when did he have an opinion on your love life? he’d never cared before, never questioned, never even acknowledged it. so why now?
he kept pushing, prodding, playing with you.
and the worst part was that you were letting him. you knew you should ignore him. his opinion didn’t matter anyways.
so why couldn’t you stop paying attention to him?
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you decided to push jeno out of your mind, and what better way than by surrounding yourself with people you actually liked?
a pool party seemed like the perfect distraction. it was nothing too crazy, just a few close friends from college. the weather had been unusually nice all week, the kind of warmth that made everything feel a little hazy, the sun kissing your skin as you lay stretched out on a lounge chair, still damp from your swim. it was the perfect excuse to bask in the sun, let the tension ease from your body, and pretend jeno didn’t exist.
jenny, lying beside you on her stomach, propped herself up on her elbows and let out an exaggerated sigh. “by the way, where’s your hot brother?”
you sighed, not even bothering to open your eyes. “stop calling him that. people might actually think i'm related to that jerk.”
“honestly, though,” natty chimed in, rubbing tanning oil on her arms. “how have you not jumped his bones yet? he’s so fine.”
you scoffed, finally cracking an eye open to glare at her. “he’s really not all that. if you guys lived with him, you wouldn’t think like this.”
jenny turned onto her side, her smirk downright sinful. “girl, if i lived with him i'd let him do unspeakable things to me every night.”
you fingers tightened around your drink as something hot and unwanted curled low in your stomach. if only they knew the things you did thinking about him late at night.
belle made a face from where she sat at the edge of the pool. “you guys are gross.”
jenny just shrugged, a sly smile tugging at her lips. “why? they’re not even related.”
belle wrinkled her nose. “yes, but they live together. it’s still weird.”
jenny hummed, resting her chin on her shoulder as she eyed you knowingly. “whatever, i meant what i said.”
“does he have a girlfriend?” natty asked, stretching her legs out as she adjusted her sunglasses.
you shrugged, taking another sip of your piña colada. “i don’t know. i mean, he barely leaves the house. i doubt he has much of a social life… probably the most socially inept guy i’ve ever met.” the words left your mouth lazily, but the moment they did, a shadow loomed over you, blocking out the sun.
you didn’t need to look up to know who it was.
you tilted your head back after a few seconds of silently cursing your big mouth. your heart did a million backflips as you locked eyes with jeno, who was now standing directly behind your chair. his head was tilted just slightly, a slow smirk playing at his lips.
you gulped slowly, and wished the chair would just swallow you whole. did he hear what you just said?
his gaze flickered over you, amused, but there was something heavier in the way his eyes traced over your bikini-clad figure. and then you realized he wasn’t in his usual hoodie and sweatpants. instead, he wore a fitted jean jacket over a graphic tee from a band you didn’t recognize, paired with tight black jeans. even his hair was styled, it looked like he got a fresh undercut, even added some designs on the side. he felt like an entirely different person. he looked good. too good.
“hello, ladies,” he greeted smoothly, his voice deep.
your friends giggled, but you barely registered them because jeno’s attention was back on you in a second.
“does dad know you’re having a party?” he asked, his voice had a teasing lilt to it, but there was something slightly patronizing underneath.
you rolled your eyes. “it’s just a few people.” get off my ass, you almost added but bit your tongue.
his smirk didn’t falter. “mhm… hope so, ‘cause he can see everything through those.” he pointed toward the security cameras, and something about the way he said it made irritation prickle at your skin.
he had the audacity to call your boyfriend a buzzkill, yet here he was, trying to kill any potential fun you could have.
“anyway,” he continued, “this socially inept guy is heading out.”
you breath caught in your throat. so he did hear you.
his eyes flickered over your body once more, and before you could respond, his hand brushed over your shoulder in a touch so fleeting, so meaningless, it shouldn’t have made your entire body lock up the way it did.
“call me if there’s an emergency,” he said. “be good, yeah?”
the second he was out of earshot, the giggles started back up, hushed and scandalized. your skin still burned where his touch had ghosted over you, and you hated that you wanted to turn your head, watch him leave, memorize the way he looked just now.
you swallowed hard, pressing your cold glass against your lips and forcing yourself to pretend that none of it affected you.
after several minutes of listening to your friends gush about jeno, how good he looked, how he smelled like expensive cologne, blah blah blah, you decided you’d had enough. you pushed yourself up from the lounge chair and made your way inside with the excuse of refilling your drink.
as you passed through the living room, a flicker of movement outside caught your eye. jeno was still there, standing near the edge of the sidewalk. his fingers dipped into his pocket, retrieving something small, and curiosity got the better of you. you squinted, trying to make out what he was holding.
despite knowing better, you grabbed a lightweight cover-up dress from the hook by the door and slipped it over your shoulders before stepping outside. the afternoon air carried the scent of chlorine and the faintest trace of citrus from the trees lining the house.
“since when do you smoke?” you asked, approaching him cautiously.
jeno turned his head slightly. the corner of his lips curled in that maddening way of his. without breaking eye contact, he placed the cigarette between his lips, the unlit end resting against the soft curve of his mouth.
“i don’t,” he said dismissively but then, he struck a match against his finger and the tiny flame came to life. the sight of it held your attention for just a second too long. probably because you’d never seen anyone light a match like that, or the fact that he was gaslighting you so casually.
“i thought you said you were going to hang out with friends,” you pressed, crossing your arms as you watched the flame kiss the tip of the cigarette.
“i said i was going to hang out,” he corrected, taking a slow drag before exhaling it in your direction, the smoke curling between you. “i didn't say with friends.”
you barely resisted the urge to cough, your throat tightening at the thick scent of tobacco. before you could call him out on this, the low rumble of an engine broke through the silence.
a black jeep screeched to a stop at the foot of your driveway, tires skidding slightly against the pavement. you instinctively took a step back as the vehicle came to a jarring halt. the tinted window rolled down, revealing a girl with jet-black hair that framed her face in glossy waves. he lips, painted a deep cherry red, curved into a smile that was just a little too perfect.
“sorry, i’m late!” she said, her voice airy, with a sing-song quality that immediately set your teeth on edge “there was so much traffic.”
“sure you didn’t just get pulled over for reckless driving?” jeno chuckled before taking another slow drag from his cigarette.
“mo, silly!” she giggled, her voice turning annoyingly flirtatious as she leaned a little closer over the window. “did you doll up just for me?”
“sure,” jeno replied casually. you didn’t catch the way his eyes flicked to you for just a split second because you were busy trying to mask the seething annoyance that was threatening to show in your expression. you didn’t even know this girl, and yet, the way she was acting was irritating you deeply.
“let me drive,” jeno said, pulling the door open for her to step out. you noticed the way she purposely wobbled slightly to fall directly into his arms.
“careful,” he said, his voice deep and resonant as he steadied her, the sound of it sending a heavy vibration through your chest.
“if your wet blanket of a boyfriend shows up later,” he continued once inside the car, his words laced with a hint of condescension, “just try not to fuck around in the pool, okay? remember, someone’s always watching.” the way he said that left a strange, uneasy knot in your stomach, the implication of his words lingering far too long.
before you could even muster a response, he slammed the jeep into gear and drove off.
it was around 9 pm when you decided to call it a night. your boyfriend hadn’t even shown up. he claimed he had to help his dad with “stuff” but you hadn’t really paid attention to the details. you weren’t interested in hearing excuses anyway.
your friends pouted, complaining that you should let them stay and have a sleepover, but you weren’t in the mood. they only left after you promised to do it another time.
you wandered upstairs, feeling the fatigue from the evening settle in your bones. the water from the shower was almost too hot, but you welcomed the burn as it stripped the chlorine from your skin. you lingered under the steam, savoring the quiet of the house.
once you were done, you meticulously moisturized your skin with extra attention to the dryness that clung to your arms after the pool and the heat of the shower. you threw on your usual pjs, a loose tank top and shorts. you thought of the way jeno’s dark eyes followed you whenever you wore them.
you made your way to the living room and sank onto the couch to watch tv, hyper aware of the ticking sound of the clock. the hands crept closer to 11 p.m. and you found your thoughts drifting despite your best attempts to focus. jeno’s face floated into your mind, his dark eyes flickering with amusement whenever he saw you. you tried to push it away but your mind kept returning to him and that girl with jet-black hair.
the sting of your nails digging into the palsn of your hands is what snapped you out of it. the thought of him with her… doing what? it didn’t even matter. why should it matter?
you decided to go to bed after realizing it was stupid to wait for him to come back.
it was around 2 am when you were jerked awake by the sound of shuffling outside your door. you heard a giggle followed by a hushed voice right before your door creaked open, and you quickly squeezed your eyes shut again.
"shit, wrong room," you heard jeno whisper, and your breath caught in your throat. you opened one eye just enough to see him standing in the doorway, the girl with jet-black hair practically draped around his neck.
she pulled him down into a kiss, and you watched, frozen, as they made out right there in front of your door. her soft moans echoed through the space along with the sounds of their hands fondling each other’s bodies.
they continued, oblivious to the fact that you were very much awake, until jeno finally pulled the door closed behind him, muffling the noises just enough for you to breathe again.
the anger hit you immediately, and the indignation that followed was almost comical in its intensity. with what face had he told you not to "mess around" at home because your parents were always watching, only to go and do this? right in front of your room, no less?
you heard the shuffle of movement in his room next door, and a chilling realization sank in.
they were about to have sex, and you’d hear every damn second of it.
it wasn’t like you’d never snuck your boyfriend in late at night before. But all you ever did was suck him off or let him finger you. you never actually had proper sex. not for lack of trying, but rather the issues you’d been having getting… aroused with him.
the moans started, soft at first, then louder. each sound felt like a needle, digging deeper into the pit of your stomach. you squeezed your eyes shut again, wishing, begging to be anywhere but within earshot of the noise that now felt like it was tearing your insides apart.
you could hear everything. the soft thuds of their clothes hitting the floor, the creak of the mattress as they fell onto it. jeno’s rough groans, the breathless whimpers he tried and failed to suppress. the wet, obscene sounds of him moving inside her. the desperate gasps, the frantic whisper of his name from her lips. their mouths meeting over and over again, the muffled, needy sounds of them colliding filling the space.
every movement, every noise, was painfully clear, as if you were right there in the room with them.
you wanted to disappear. crawl under your bed. evaporate into the walls. oh, the walls. the godforsaken, paper-thin walls that some sadistic architect clearly designed just to ruin your life.
you pressed a pillow over your head, begging for the sounds to stop, but it was useless. they only grew louder.
“jeno… i’m close,” she whimpered, voice high and shaking.
“cum for me…” he responded, breathless.
and suddenly, amidst the debauchery of sounds, you heard it.
your name.
spoken in a broken moan.
your breath stilled. for a second, you thought you must have imagined it, that your mind was playing a cruel trick on you. but then—
you heard it again. louder. needier.
jeno was calling your name as he came.
a paralyzing shock shot through you, pinning you to the mattress. your pulse hammering so hard you thought your heart might bruise your chest cavity. you stared at the ceiling, unblinking, as his moans settled over you like a suffocating weight.
silence followed, broken only by their uneven breaths. then you heard the rustle of sheets as they untangled from each other.
“can i stay the night?” the girl asked, her voice still heavy with satisfaction.
“no,” jeno said, voice oddly cold and detached. “my parents are gonna be here in the morning.”
that was a lie. your parents weren’t coming back until the following weekend.
you were still too shocked to move, too shaken to process what had just happened. but as you listened to her gather her things, to the sound of jeno walking her to the door without so much as an ounce of warmth in his tone, one thing became terrifyingly clear...
he hadn’t just used her. he’d been thinking about you while doing so.
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you didn’t sleep. not for a single minute.
the shadows in your room shifted as the hours crawled by. it felt impossible to close your eyes without hearing it all over again. your name on his lips.
when your phone screen finally read 6:00 a.m, you gave up on sleep entirely, throwing off the sheets and slipping out of bed like a ghost.
you tiptoed down the stairs and into the kitchen, fingers numb as you grabbed a glass and filled it to the brim. the cold water slid down your throat in greedy gulps, but it did nothing to cool yourself.
then, a breathless laugh tore from your lips, unhinged and bitter. the sheer absurdity of it all crashed into you at once, like a sick joke the universe decided to play on you. jeno had been inside another girl, and yet, it was your name that spilled out of his lips.
the laughter bubbled up harder. it must have been loud enough to wake him, because a few moments later, footsteps padded into the kitchen.
jeno stood in the doorway, eyes heavy with sleep, brows pinched together as he took in the sight of you, your back was turned to him, shoulders trembling with laughter that didn’t seem to belong to you.
“the hell is wrong with you?” his voice was groggy.
you stopped, forcing the manic grin off your face before turning slightly away, shielding yourself from his scrutiny. god, if he saw the way you were smiling right now, he really would think you lost your mind.
“are you high?” he asked, a little more forcefully this time.
you let out a dry chuckle, shaking your head. i wish. maybe if you were high, this wouldn’t feel so real. maybe you wouldn’t still hear his voice in your head from the night before, broken and desperate, calling for you.
a shiver ran down your spine when you felt jeno move closer behind you. you could feel the heat radiating off his bare chest, the faint smell of sleep and last night’s scent clinging to him. his hand clamped down on your shoulder, turning you around with an impatient tug.
“no, seriously.” his voice was lower now, forcing you to meet his gaze. “did you do drugs last night?”
your breath hitched when his chest brushed against yours, and that’s when you remembered you weren’t wearing a bra. the thin fabric of your tank top did nothing to hide the way your nipples hardened at the contact.
you saw the flicker in his expression, the brief second of realization when his gaze dropped.
“what do you care?” you shot back instead, tilting your chin up defiantly.
you liked the way his jaw ticked when you pushed him.
his grip on your chin was sudden, firm, tilting your face until your eyes locked with his. his fingers were rough and the touch sent something dark and electric crackling under your skin.
you ripped yourself from his grasp, grimacing. “don’t touch me. i know where that hand has been.”
jeno laughed, a rich sound that made your throat close.
“oh, so you heard.”
you scoffed. “of course i heard. it was impossible not to when you were being so loud.”
his smirk deepened. “then you know my struggle.”
he stepped forward, pressed you further against the counter until there was barely any air between your bodies. this was the closest you had ever been to him.
your heart slammed against your ribs, but you refused to shrink away. if anything, it only made you glare harder, refusing to give him the satisfaction of seeing you falter.
“i hear everything you do in your room too.”
he paused, letting his finger curl around a stray hair falling over your face.
“every night.”
your lips parted, but nothing came out except a sharp inhale.
his eyes fluttered across your features, lingering on your lips, still wet from the water you just drank.
“wh-what…”
“yeah.” his grin grew sharper, his perfect teeth peeking out to tug at his lower lip. “every time you sneak your dumbass boyfriend in.”
his fingers brushed against the counter beside you, caging you in completely.
“every time you touch yourself…”
you swallowed, looking between his neck and shoulder, unable to meet his dark eyes.
“and you do that a lot lately.”
you gulped to soothe your dry throat, wishing he couldn’t somehow smell how aroused you were getting. you hated the way your body reacted to him, how your thighs pressed together on instinct. he noticed. the bastard always noticed everything.
he was still pressed so close you could feel the steady rise and fall of his hard chest against yours, the heat of his skin bleeding into yours like fire licking at gasoline.
“i—” you started, but your voice cracked.
jeno tilted his head, “what?” his voice was a murmur meant for just the two of you. his lips curved, but the smile wasn’t kind, it was wicked. “got nothing to say now?”
you clenched your jaw, forcing yourself to hold his gaze even as your stomach twisted into knots. “fuck you.”
his smile widened. “i mean, that’s what you always think about, isn’t it?” he murmured.
your breath caught in your throat. he leaned in, his lips so close to your ear that you felt the ghost of them graze your skin.
“you touch yourself thinking about me.”
a wave of heat crawled up your neck. you shouldn’t be reacting this way. shouldn’t be giving yourself away this easily.
you inhaled sharply, gathering every ounce of strength left in your body before shoving at his chest, pushing him away. he let you, barely stumbling back.
“go to hell, jeno.”
you turned on your heel, ready to storm out, to get as far away from him as possible—
but you barely made it two steps before his hand shot out, grabbing your wrist. he yanked you back against him, spinning you around so fast that you barely had time to register the shift before your back was against the counter again, his body crowding yours.
his grip tightened, but not enough to hurt just enough to hold you there.
"what are you doing?" you demanded, pressing a hand to his chest. "i have a boyfriend."
he laughed bitterly "oh, please. we both know he doesn’t even make you wet."
“how do you—?” you swallowed, barely able to get the words out.
the realization suddenly settled like lead in your gut. he read it. your blog. the one you used to vent frustrations you couldn’t say out loud, the one that held every unspoken insecurity, every late-night confession you never meant for anyone to see. every filthy thought about him.
and jeno of all people had gotten his hands on it. that’s why he’d been acting so strange lately.
your fingers curled into the fabric of his shirt, not pulling him closer, but gripping like you needed something to hold onto before you lost your mind.
his smirk deepened as he saw the expression of horror in your face.
“you should really clear your browser history,” he mused, tilting his head slightly. “or, better yet…maybe don’t keep the tabs open on a laptop you asked me to fix.”
the bastard wasn’t even sorry for invading your privacy.
your pulse roared in your ears as you tried to school your expression, trying to make it seem like you weren't two seconds away from spiraling.
“i don’t—” you started, but the words wouldn’t come.
he leaned in, voice dipping lower. “oh don’t quit on me now. you had plenty to say in that little blog of yours.”
his fingers traced your jaw softly.
“especially about me.”
he grinned, teeth grazing his bottom lip as he watched your reaction unfold in real time. “what was it you said?” he pretended to think. “oh, right. he pisses me off more than anyone else, but i bet he fucks like a god.’”
you shoved him again but he barely stumbled, just let out a low chuckle like he was thrilled by your anger.
“what’s wrong?” he taunted. “embarrassed?”
“shut up.”
“aww, c’mon, don’t be shy now. i read the whole thing, you’ve definitely thought about this exact moment before.”
you wanted to die. right there on the kitchen floor. just disintegrate and never have to endure the smug, self-satisfied look on his face ever again.
but worse than the embarrassment? worse than the rage twisting inside you like a coil ready to snap?
was the terrifying, undeniable truth.
he knew you wanted him.
jeno moved closer, and you instinctively backed into the counter, your hands gripping the cool edge.
his smirk was insufferable. giddy, almost.
“god, you should see your face right now,” he murmured, tilting his head. “all pink and flustered. just like i imagined.”
your eyes darted across his face in shock.
“oh yeah,” he continued, watching the realization flicker in your eyes. “you’re not the only one who’s fantasized about this, baby”
“i don’t fantasize,” you said quickly, hoping to salvage some dignity.
jeno just laughed. “save it.”
he reached up, tucking another stray strand of hair behind your ear, the way someone might handle something delicate, except the glint in his eye was anything but soft.
“i said i read everything,” he reminded you, voice dripping with satisfaction. “i even memorized that one post, the one where you talk about my fingers—”
“don’t,” you interrupted, slapping a hand over his mouth before he could finish that sentence.
bad move. because now his lips were pressed against your palm, his breath hot against your skin. and he didn’t pull away.
instead, his dark eyes locked onto yours making your pulse stutter. he reached up, prying your hand away from his mouth, but instead of letting it go, he brought it lower flat against his bare chest, over the steady thump of his heartbeat.
“i like knowing your secrets,” he murmured. “i like knowing what gets in that pretty little head of yours late at night.”
your stomach flipped.
“and you know what i like the most?” he dipped his head, his lips grazing the shell of your ear. “i like knowing that no matter how much you fight me on this,” he whispered, “you’ve already given yourself to me.”
his lips brushed from your ear down to the corner of your mouth, until finally, they met yours. you barely registered how easily your lips parted for him until his tongue slid in, claiming you. a groan slipped out before you could stop it.
you knew you should push him away. you should. but the thought barely even formed before it was gone, lost in the heat of his mouth.
"aren’t you gonna stop me?" he murmured, pulling back just enough to make you chase his lips.
you didn’t move, didn’t shove him away, didn’t say a damn thing.
his lips curled. "didn’t think so.”
then he kissed you harder, rougher. his fingers cradling your face while his other hand slid lower, gripping a handful of your ass. you gasped, and he took the opportunity to deepen the kiss, pulling you flush against him.
his knee pressed between your legs, shifting just right, and you moaned. his lips curved against yours. "there’s my good girl."
heat flared up your spine, equal parts humiliation and arousal. some semblance of reason came over you and you pushed at his chest, but he caught your wrist, pinning it against the counter.
"you wrote about how bad you wanted me to take you right here in this kitchen," he murmured, his breath warm against your lips. "want me to remind you?"
"shut up," you groaned, twisting your wrist free and shoving at him properly this time.
he didn’t budge. he only laughed, nipping at your lower lip before angling your face up, kissing you deep and slow, like he had all the time in the world. his hand slid from your ass to your thigh, hiking it higher around his hip.
the new angle made you feel him, every inch of his hard length pressing right against your core, and you gasped. he thrust against you and the groan he let out sent a pulse of heat straight to your stomach.
"fuck," he rasped, pressing his forehead to yours, his hips rolling again. "you feel that?"
your fingers curled into his shirt, whimpers spilling out of you as he kept humping you.
jeno’s grip tightened on your thigh, fingers digging into your skin as he rocked against you, his breath hot against your lips. “look at you,” he murmured, voice thick with amusement and something darker. “clinging to me like this when you were just pretending to hate me a few minutes ago.”
you opened your mouth to argue, to deny, but all that came out was a sharp gasp as his hands slid under your tank top, fingers tracing lazy patterns up your ribs until they found your perked nipple. his knee pressed more insistently between your legs.
“jen—”
“shh.” he breathed against your lips. “you don’t have to say anything. your body’s already telling me everything i need to know.”
the way his lips ghosted over your jaw, then down your throat, made your breath hitch. you felt like you were drowning in the way he touched you, just enough to drive you crazy but not enough to give you what you really wanted.
“you’ve thought about this,” he mused, voice laced with satisfaction as he pressed a slow, open-mouthed kiss just below your ear. “haven’t you? late at night, when you’re all alone…”
your nails dug into his shoulders as he ground against you again, harder this time. he was right. and that infuriated you.
“jeno,” you hissed, half warning, half plea.
“say it,” he murmured against your skin, hands slipping lower. “say you want me.”
you couldn’t do that. you still wanted to cling to some semblance of dignity. but then his fingers slipped inside your shorts, and the illusion that you ever stood a chance shattered.
your gasp turned into a strangled moan as his fingers dipped between your soaked folds, tracing slow circles, teasing you with featherlight strokes that had you melting against him. his breath was hot against your temple.
“if you don’t want this,” he murmured, “then maybe we should stop.”
and just like that, he started to retreat, his touch vanishing like a cruel tease.
“no,” you choked out, your hand gripping his wrist before he could pull away completely. “don’t stop… please.”
he tilted his head, savoring every ounce of your desperation. “you sure?” he mused, feigning innocence even as his lips, swollen and slick, curled into something devilish. “because if you think this is wrong, we really should stop.”
the bastard was toying with you, and worst of all, you found it maddeningly hot.
your nails dug into his arm, your body thrumming with frustration and need. “jeno,” you warned, voice dangerously low. “if you don’t touch me right now, i’ll go upstairs and do it myself.”
you saw the moment his pupils dilated, a dark, almost feral hunger flashing in his eyes.
“oh, princess,” he crooned, his hand slipping back into your shorts in an instant, fingers resuming their torment with renewed urgency. “you really shouldn’t have said that.”
but instead of touching you like you needed, he yanked your shorts down, your panties dragging along with them in one swift motion. before you could form a single word, he hoisted you onto the counter with ease, the hard surface pressing into the backs of your thighs. your legs instinctively tried to close, but his grip tightened, keeping you open for him.
and then he dropped to his knees.
your stomach plummeted, anticipation coiling so tightly inside you that you felt dizzy. he looked up at you from beneath his thick lashes, eyes heavy-lidded, pupils blown wide with hunger. his hands dragged slowly up the inside of your thighs, spreading them further. his tongue darted out, wetting his lips like he was about to devour the best meal ever.
your walls clenched around nothing.
“jeno—” his name came out in a broken gasp.
“you’re shaking,” his breath ghosted over your core, making you jolt, making you ache. "what’s wrong, baby? nervous?"
the way his voice curled around the word baby, sent a fresh wave of heat straight between your legs. but you didn’t get the chance to answer.
because then he dove between your thighs.
the first stroke of his tongue had you gasping, hands flying to his hair as your head snapped back against the cabinets. the heat of his mouth had your body jerking before you could stop yourself, pleasure so intense it almost hurt.
his hands flexed against your thighs, spreading you wider, keeping you still as he licked deep into you. and when he groaned you nearly lost it. the vibration shot straight through you, your stomach clenching, your thighs twitching against his grip.
“jeno—” his name was barely a breath, a desperate sound that made him hum against you, pleased. he pulled back just enough for his lips to brush over your skin.
“god, you taste even better than i imagined” he rasped.
and then he was back on you, tongue working faster, fingers digging into your thighs like he needed this, like he was getting off on the way you gasped, the way your body trembled under his mouth.
he wasn’t just eating you out. he was devouring you.
his tongue moved in slow strokes, drawing out every whimper that spilled from your lips. you tugged at his hair, grinding down harder, but he just chuckled against you. cocky bastard.
“needy, huh?” he murmured between licks. “thought you could handle it.”
you barely registered his words, too caught up in the way he worked you open. but then he pulled away, making you gasp at the loss.
“jeno—” you started to protest, but he was already grabbing you by the waist.
“quit whining,” he smirked, hoisting you up easily. you yelped, legs locking around his hips as he strode toward the stairs. “you wanted this, didn’t you?”
your back hit the mattress a second later. you barely caught your breath before he tugged his pants down, the outline of his dick straining against his boxers.
jeno climbed onto the bed, gaze flicking over you with heat. you expected him to take you right then but he leaned back instead, hands behind his head.
“ride my face,” he said.
you froze, thinking he was joking for a second, but then you saw his his eyes and realized he was being completely serious. panic came over you, you’d never done this before, your boyfriend had never even eaten your out before, only fingered you. this was way more than that though.
“jeno—”
he raised a brow. “what, shy now?” his hands shot out, dragging you toward him. “c’mon, don’t start getting all sweet on me now.”
he positioned you right above his face. you swallowed, “jeno… i-i don’t know—“
“don’t worry baby, trust me”
and then he was spreading your legs further apart so you sank on his face slowly. his nose nuzzled between your folds first, the sharp line of it pushing against your core and making a guttural moan escape you.
his tongue followed, licking up and down, and prodding your entrance with insistence.
“oh, fuck—me” you whimpered, his hands on your hips guided you to press even harder against his face and even in your pleasure you worried he would drown in your cunt.
but when you looked down, there was nothing but pure bliss on his face, his eyes rolling back and his brows furrowed as he lapped relentlessly. it looked like he was enjoying this as much as you.
as your orgasm approached again, you couldn’t help but roll your hips against his face. the movement made his nose press further as his tongue continued licking long greedy strips against your clit.
“jeno—i...i’m—“ you moaned,
and your orgasm crashed over you with such a violent force it made you lean forward barely catching yourself with your arms before you could actually suffocate the boy under you.
you crawled down his body, your breath hitching as you took in the sight of his face glistening with your juices. his tongue swept out as he licked up every trace, dark eyes fixed on you.
his hands remained anchored on your hips, fingers flexing just enough to press you down against his body. you could feel him hard and burning through the thin fabric of his sweats. the instinctive grind of your hips had him exhaling a low chuckle. you wanted this, he wanted this, but something held you back. if you crossed this line… would you really be able to turn back?
you didn’t have time to find out because the sound of the doorbell ringing snapped you both out of your daze.
jeno blinked, looking toward the bedroom door. “seriously...?”
“shit—” you scrambled off him, tripping over your own limbs in the process.
“i’ll get it,” he offered, starting to sit up.
“no!” you shoved at his chest, pushing him back down. “your face, jeno— it’s covered in my—just—go wash it off!”
he grinned lazily. “didn’t hear you complaining a minute ago.”
“not the time!” you hissed, picking up your discarded clothes and putting them on.
jeno started, “i read somewhere that cum is really good for your skin—”
you didn’t dignify that with a response, slamming the door shut on your way out. your reflection in the living room mirror was a disaster: hair tousled, lips kiss-swollen, fresh marks blooming along your neck. you tugged your collar up and plastered on what you hoped passed for a normal expression before opening the door.
and promptly felt the ground vanish under you when you saw who was standing outside.
“hey, beautiful” your boyfriend said.
your mouth went dry. “oh. wow. hi—”
he held up a bouquet. “i realized we didn’t really do anything special for valentine’s, and you were so thoughtful with your gifts…” his other hand revealed a small box.
your heart twisted at the sight.
“figured you deserved something nice after everything you’ve done for me.” he opened the box to reveal a delicate necklace, your initial glinting in tiny diamonds. “also, i wanna take you out today”
you swallowed. “it’s... beautiful, thanks.”
“here.” he stepped forward, gently brushing your hair aside to fasten it around your neck. his fingers grazed your skin then stopped.
“you’ve got a mark,” he said, frowning. his thumb skimmed over the hickey, sending your pulse into overdrive.
“mosquito bite,” you blurted.
he raised an eyebrow. “looks... aggressive.”
“it was a big mosquito,” you managed with a nervous laugh.
“massive, actually” came jeno’s voice.
you turned just as he was descending the stairs, towel-drying his face and now dressed in…god help you, only sweatpants. fresh hickeys also peppered his collarbone and chest.
your boyfriend’s smile tightened. “hi, man. hope i didn’t wake you.”
jeno shrugged. “nah, i was just eating a delicious meal.” his gaze flicked to you with something too close to amusement.
you fought the urge to kick him in the balls. “so! you said something about... going out?” you blurted, trying to shift the topic.
“uh... yeah. a new amusement park opened up nearby. thought we could check it out.”
“sounds amazing! i’m in!” anything to get out of this situation.
“i’ll just… shower real quick,” you said, stepping back.
“i’ll put the flowers in water,” your boyfriend offered, heading toward the kitchen.
as soon as he disappeared, you turned to jeno and hissed, “are you insane?”
he chuckled. “i didn’t even do anything.”
“you’re standing there shirtless covered in hickeys i don’t even remember giving you!” you whisper-yelled.
“yeah you went a little crazy, who knew you wanted me this bad?”
you shot him a glare. “this isn’t funny.”
“it’s a little funny.”
you let out an exasperated sigh, rubbing your face. “god, you’re impossible.”
jeno leaned in just enough for you to feel the warmth of him. “wouldn’t be nearly as fun if i wasn’t.”
you shook your head and darted upstairs, pulse still racing. what the hell was your life right now?
you gave yourself only twenty minutes to get ready, worried about leaving your boyfriend alone with jeno for too long. god only knew what kind of things jeno might say if left unchecked. you quickly threw on a pair of high-waisted jeans and a knitted sweater, keeping it simple with just a swipe of lip gloss and a touch of mascara.
when you came downstairs, you found them sitting at opposite ends of the couch. jeno was scrolling through his phone, legs spread out, a bored look on his face. your boyfriend was leaning forward with his elbows resting on his knees, glancing around as if searching for a conversation topic that didn’t involve glaring across the room.
“i’m ready,” you announced, trying to break the awkward tension hanging in the air. both boys looked up.
you noticed Jeno had changed into fitted jeans and a black t-shirt.
“i hope you don’t mind,” your boyfriend said, his smile too stiff to be genuine, “but i invited jeno to come with us.”
“what?” your head snapped to jeno, who didn’t even have the decency to look guilty.
“yeah,” jeno said, casually running a hand through his hair. “a few of my friends are heading there too, so i figured we could all hang out.”
“oh… how nice,” you muttered through clenched teeth. jeno just smirked, waiting for you to snap in front of your boyfriend but you held back, drawing in a calming breath and turning toward the door instead.
outside, your boyfriend wiped a tiny smudge off the driver’s side door of his car with meticulous care. jeno scoffed audibly.
your boyfriend paused, glancing over his shoulder. “jeno, do you have a car... or do you wanna ride with us?”
“my car’s in the shop,” Jeno replied without missing a beat.
“oh yeah? what do you drive?”
“a ’69 mustang fastback,” jeno said smoothly, shoving his hands in his pockets.
your boyfriend’s lips parted slightly. you knew he was impressed—he loved cars—and even if he tried to play it cool, the way his eyes widened gave him away. “that’s a classic. was it your dad’s?”
“nope.” jeno grinned. “saved up since high school and bought it myself at the barrett-jackson auction last year.”
your boyfriend’s eyebrows shot up. “that’s... actually really impressive.”
yeah, jeno thought, satisfaction bubbling in his chest. he lived for moments like this, when people looked at him like he was something special. he just couldn’t let it slip that his dad had footed most of the bill for the car’s custom work. it wasn’t like he asked for that help, but there was no way he was turning it down either. and he sure as hell wasn’t about to admit that in front of your boyfriend. not when the guy was looking at him with something close to respect. honestly, jeno kind of liked having that edge over him.
you could practically see the mental competition unfolding in front of you. jeno stood there like he’d just scored a point, while your boyfriend’s jaw tightened, clearly thinking of how to reclaim the upper hand.
“are you guys done with the dick-measuring contest, or should i grab a ruler?” you asked, arms crossed.
jeno laughed under his breath. your boyfriend glanced away, muttering, “yeah, yeah, let’s go.”
the ride was somehow worse than you expected. normally, when you’d ride with your boyfriend, the car was filled with pleasant conversation. he’d ask about your day and tell you about his… but now, with jeno in the backseat, the air felt suffocating. not even the faint music playing on the radio could ease your discomfort.
“were you sleeping before i came?” your boyfriend asked, glancing at you briefly before focusing back on the road.
you tensed. sleeping? far from it. you’d most definitely come before he arrived, and now your face burned with the memory. you shot a quick look over your shoulder at jeno, hoping to gauge if he was going to say something incriminating. he was scrolling through his phone, but the corner of his mouth curled up in that stupid smirk of his.
“uh… no,” you said, clearing your throat. “i couldn’t sleep very well last night, so i just had an early breakfast.”
“ah,” your boyfriend hummed. “and your parents are back sunday, right?”
“yeah,” you replied, grateful for the change in subject.
the silence that followed wasn’t comfortable. your boyfriend tapped the steering wheel rhythmically, occasionally glancing at you like he was expecting conversation but you were too busy trying not to spontaneously combust from how tense everything felt.
he reached over and turned on the car’s bluetooth. “let’s put on some music,” he muttered, scrolling through his playlist. he settled on a song, and you relaxed until you recognized the beat a split second before the lyrics started.
"thoughts of you keep me up at night..."
heat immediately started creeping up your neck. of all the songs... and of all the lyrics to play right now.
"i think about all of the ways you turn me on... and my bed gets lonely whenever you’re gone..."
you stiffened, eyes wide as you stared out the window. you could feel jeno’s gaze burning into the side of your face, and when you dared to glance back, you saw his eyes fixed on you, an eyebrow raised like this was the funniest thing to ever happen. your boyfriend, oblivious to the lyrical implications, simply tapped along to the beat.
you reached for the phone. “let’s put something else—”
“what? you don’t like this song?” your boyfriend asked, glancing at you with a smile.
“it’s… just—” you floundered. jeno chuckled under his breath.
“leave it,” Jeno said. “I think it’s pretty relatable.”
your boyfriend shot him a look through the rearview mirror probably wondering what he meant.
you squeezed your eyes shut, praying for the ground to swallow you whole. why did the drive feel like it was taking forever?
when you arrived at the amusement park, you were pleasantly surprised to see jenny and natty waiting near the entrance, drinks already in hand.
“we’re the masterminds behind this whole thing, by the way” jenny grinned, looping her arm through yours when you reached her.
“yeah,” Natty added, slipping in on your other side. “we told him he was an idiot for not doing something nice for you on saturday, so this is his redemption, and we’re here as the judges.”
the revelation should’ve surprised you—maybe even disappointed you—but it didn’t. things with your boyfriend had been...off lately. neither of you was really trying, and you couldn’t blame him for that when you weren’t putting in much effort yourself.
still, you plastered on a smile. this is supposed to be fun, you reminded yourself. and it was, you went on nearly every ride. your boyfriend, though, wasn’t a big fan of fast rides due to his motion sickness, and you didn’t miss the way jeno scoffed every time he turned down your suggestions to ride together.
you were heading toward the food stalls when something caught your eye. “ooh! let’s do that one!” you pointed to a shabby building draped in fake cobwebs and flickering lights. a crooked sign above the entrance read bloody encounter in dripping red letters.
jenny made a face. “why would you willingly do that to yourself?”
“come on,” you urged, tugging her arm. “it’ll be fun! i saw a video of it on instagram! it looks insane.”
“that’s exactly why i don’t want to go,” jenny shot back, glancing warily at the entrance.
natty, wide-eyed, whispered, “have you seen that movie where a group of friends goes into a haunted house, and there’s an actual killer inside?”
“that’s literally a movie,” you said, but your attempt at sounding confident fell flat when natty added, “it was based on real-life events.”
you rolled your eyes but glanced over your shoulder at your boyfriend trailing behind. he looked at the ride and grimaced.
“eh... i don’t know, babe,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck. “you know i hate this kind of stuff.”
you visibly deflated and before you could respond, another voice cut in. “i’ll go with you,” jeno said, stepping forward, hands stuffed into his pockets.
“I—” you started to object, nerves twisting in your stomach. jeno? alone? no way. that felt like walking into a trap. “weren’t you going to meet up with your friends?” you tried, hoping to backpedal.
“they texted that they got a flat on the way here, so it’ll be a while before they arrive” he shrugged.
“you two have fun,” jenny said, already pulling natty away. “we’ll grab food in the meantime.” natty threw you a look that screamed good luck before disappearing into the crowd.
your boyfriend lingered. “you sure you’re gonna be okay?” he asked, eyes darting to jeno, whose expression remained unreadable except for the subtle roll of his eyes.
“yeah,” you lied, forcing a reassuring smile. “i’ll be fine. see you in a bit.”
stepping through the entrance, you were swallowed by darkness. the air was thick with the artificial scent of fog machines and that weird plasticky smell of cheap props. distorted laughter and screams echoed through the narrow halls, looping over speakers that crackled with static.
beside you, jeno looked about as thrilled as someone waiting in line at the dmv. he glanced around, gaze skimming lazily over the walls. "spooky," he deadpanned.
"wow, you're really committing to the whole fun-hater thing," you shot back, glancing over your shoulder. you knew something was about to jump out, it was just a matter of when. "if you hate this so much, why'd you come?"
“figured your dumbass boyfriend wouldn’t,” he shrugged, mouth quirking into something between a smirk and a sneer. "someone had to make sure you didn’t cry."
“excuse me—”
BANG!
a hidden panel to your left slammed open and a clown with cracked white paint on its face and red bulging eyes lunged out, blaring a horn right in your face. your soul practically left your body as you screamed and instinctively grabbed onto the nearest thing which, unfortunately, was jeno.
he didn’t even flinch, his arm simply went around your shoulders, comforting you even as your heart tried to beat out of your chest. you looked up, breath catching when you met his gaze. his eyes flicked down to where you were clutching his hoodie before lifting back to yours.
you pushed away, but his hand didn’t fall away immediately. it trailed from your shoulder down to the small of your back, you felt his warmth seep through the fabric of your sweater.
"so," he drawled, "should i hold your hand for the rest of this?"
“i swear to god…”
“—because i don’t mind”
“keep talking and i’ll feed you to the next clown,” you shot back.
he snorted. "like you’d make it through this without me."
you flipped him off without looking back, which earned a low chuckle in response. you stalked ahead, determined to focus on not tripping over the uneven floor, but his footsteps stayed close behind. annoyingly close.
the mirror maze was where things went downhill. everywhere you turned, warped reflections of you and jeno stretched and twisted in the glass. dark shapes flickered just out of sight, and the speakers just made everything worse by echoing whispers that felt like they were breathing down your neck.
your reflection twisted, making your head look three times too big. jeno snorted. “look, they got your good side.”
“bite me” you said, peering around a corner. your reflection multiplied into a dozen versions of you, all looking equally pissed.
“tempting,” he muttered, mostly to himself.
jeno’s fingers suddenly wrapped around your wrist and he tugged you in the opposite direction.
“it’s this way,” he said.
“how would you know?”
“we’ve been stuck in here for like ten minutes,” he cut in. “you’re clearly not the best guide.”
you bit your tongue, resisting the urge to snap back.
jeno pointed at a door partially concealed by a tangle of fake cobwebs. “that’s gotta be the exit.”
“that looks deliberately hidden,” you said, eyeing it warily. something about it seemed off.
“well,” he shrugged, “either we try that or we keep wandering in circles. your call.”
fine. you followed him, trusting—against better judgment—that his instincts were better than yours.
they weren’t.
the door creaked open to reveal a forgotten section of the attraction with dust-covered boxes, broken props tossed in corners, and walls lined with peeling fake blood. the air smelled like damp cardboard and stale fog machine fluid.
“...okay,” he said, unfazed. “so not the exit.”
“wow. color me shocked.”
he shot you a look. “didn’t hear you coming up with better options.”
you rolled your eyes and turned back to the door. “whatever, let’s just—”
it didn’t budge. frowning, you tried again, putting more weight into it. nothing.
your pulse quickened. “uh... jeno?”
“what?”
“the door’s stuck.”
“just turn the handle—”
“i am!” frustration and panic crept into your voice. “i know how to open a damn door!”
“move.” he gently nudged you aside, grabbing the handle. he twisted while shoving his shoulder into it but the door held firm “...shit.”
your stomach dropped. this wasn’t funny anymore. “no, no, no… this can’t be happening.” you raked a hand through your hair.
jeno stepped back, scanning the room like there might be another way out. “it’s gotta be part of the attraction… like some escape room or…”
“yeah? you really think they’d make a whole escape room and hide it behind a side door that was clearly not supposed to be opened?” your voice cracked, breath coming quicker now.
he glanced at you, expression shifting. “hey.” his tone dropped, calmer. “don’t freak out.”
easy for him to say. your brain was already spiraling. you were locked in some creepy back room of a haunted house... with him.
you leaned back against the door, shutting your eyes as you tried to calm your racing heart.
“do you have your phone?” you asked, voice tight as you pushed away from the door and walked toward him.
he patted his back pocket and pulled out his phone, holding it up before showing the dead screen. “no battery.”
you let out a frustrated sigh, rubbing your temples. “of course.”
“the staff will probably notice we never came out,” he said, glancing around the dimly lit room. “they’ll be looking for us soon.”
“i didn’t even see anyone else besides that clown,” you muttered. “this is what i get for coming in here with you.”
“what’s that supposed to mean?” his voice dropped a note lower, and when you looked up, he’d stepped closer. your back nearly hit the door again, tension sparking between you like static electricity.
“you’ve clearly upset some kind of energy around me, and that’s why all these things keep happening,” you snapped, trying to push away the sudden awareness of how little space there was between your bodies.
“are you being for real right now?” he chucked bitterly, dark eyes flicking to your lips for a fraction of a second before meeting your eyes again. “you’ve been writing dirty fantasies about me for months but i’m the one somehow upsetting your energy?”
heat surged to your face, both from anger and embarrassment. “and that’s all they were! fantasies!” you shot back, voice rising. “i never wanted you to read those.” your breath came quicker. his proximity was messing with your ability to think straight.
“yeah?” he leaned in, close enough that you could feel the warmth of his breath. the playful glint in his eyes burned away, leaving something far more dangerous. “you say that like you didn’t mean every goddamn word.”
your fingers curled into fists at your sides. "is now really the time for this?"
“how come my presence didn't bother you when my mouth was between your legs?” he growled.
your hand shot up, ready to shove him away but he caught your wrist, pinning it above your head. your heart kicked into overdrive.
“not here,” you breathed, but it was weak, barely convincing.
“nobody’s around,” he rasped, chest flush against yours. “and you don’t really want me to stop.”
his lips dragged along your neck greedily, teeth scraping your skin before his tongue soothed the sting. your knees nearly gave out.
“jeno—fuck—we can’t,” you gasped, even as your hips arched toward him, desperate for friction.
“i’m sure i can make you cum before anyone shows up,” he promised, voice like rough velvet.
then he grabbed your thigh, hauling your leg around his waist and shoving his hips against you. the contact had you gasping, heat blooming everywhere at once. his grip was bruising, grounding you and shattering you all at once.
“you have no idea—” his breath was ragged, words spoken between gritted teeth, “—how fucking hard it was to sit back and watch you with him. i wanted to drag you away and remind you exactly whose tongue had you shaking mere hours ago.”
that snapped something inside you. your fingers twisted in his hair, pulling him in as his mouth crashed against yours. his hips rolled, grinding against you in rough motions that stole every coherent thought from your brain.
you should stop. you should care about where you were or the fact that your boyfriend was waiting for you outside, but the way he was touching you, kissing you, claiming you.
he pressed you hard against the wall, hands pulling at your sweater with urgency. the second it was off, his mouth was on you, sucking against the lace of your bra. his groan was barely controlled.
“fuck, so fucking perfect,” he muttered, his words shaky. his gaze was hungry as he tore your bra off, his lips tracing the curve of your chest.
his mouth found your nipple, sucking hard. your back arched and a gasp slipped from you.
“god, perfect tits,” he growled. his hands were shaking now, and there was no control in his voice, just raw need.
without warning, he pulled your pants off, almost knocking you off balance. you barely steadied yourself before he turned you around, shoving you forward. Your hands gripped the wall for support, and you felt him push his erection against your ass.
“fuck, gonna make you feel so good. better than your fingers ever could. let me fill you up” he groaned, his voice desperate. you could feel how hard he was even through his jeans.
you bit your lip, refusing to let him have the satisfaction of knowing just how much you wanted him. before you could look back, his hand was on your jaw, turning your head to face forward.
“be good and i’ll let you look,” he growled, his breath hot against your ear.
he pulled your panties aside, the fabric stretching tight against you. it felt like it might snap any second, but before the thought could even settle, his finger was buried in your folds. the cool touch of his rings against your heat made you gasp, your body shuddering in response.
“oh god,” you mewled.
if your mind was clear enough to process anything, you’d laugh at how absurd this was. your fantasies, the ones you’d written about in your blog, were unfolding before your eyes, all within a day.
“barely even touched you, and you’re already dripping like this?” his voice was laced with amusement, though there was a growl beneath it.
“jeno, please don’t… tease me.” the words barely left your mouth, a plea you couldn’t hold back.
he smirked, his thumb brushing over your sensitive spot as he circled your clit. “i thought you were the one who didn’t want to do this here,” he taunted.
“please,” you whispered, barely able to form a coherent thought.
he chuckled, drawing another slow circle, teasing you, making you ache. every motion of his finger made your body respond, pushing your hips back instinctively. “so eager,” he muttered, his mouth hot against your shoulder.
his finger plunged inside you, and before you could adjust, another joined. he pulled them out slowly, spreading the slickness of your folds across your skin, making you squirm in desperation. you felt the pressure of his cock growing against your ass, and you clenched around his fingers, your walls yearning for more.
“ready for me, baby?” his voice was low, dark, almost a growl, and you nodded, mind too fogged to say anything.
he spread your legs wider, forcing you open for him, giving him better access. you felt the tip of his cock swipe against your folds, teasing the entrance, and you couldn’t help but steal a glance down. his pre-cum smeared against you, mixing with your slickness.
“when i’m done with you, you won’t even remember who came before me…” his words were gruff, hot against your hair.
and then, just like that, he thrust inside. you heard him inhale sharply as your gummy walls welcomed him, stretching around him, pulling him deeper. he felt thick, too thick, and you weren’t sure if he was all the way in, but the fullness was overwhelming. his body pushed against yours, your legs trembling under the weight of him, but he wasn’t stopping.
one hand snaked around your waist, pulling you closer as jeno continued to push deeper. your moans grew louder, and with each thrust your inhibition was slipping away. it felt too good to care about being caught, to think about anything else but the feeling of being so full.
but then, just as you were losing yourself completely, the sound of footsteps and distant voices jerked you back to reality.
“guys, they probably already came out,” you recognized jenny’s voice, and you froze.
“y/n isn’t picking up her phone,” your boyfriend’s voice followed, too close, so close you could practically feel him in the room.
you pushed weakly against jeno, trying to make him pull out, but he wasn’t paying attention. instead, he thrust into you again, harder, his cock pressing into you so deeply that you bit your tongue to hold back the moan threatening to slip out.
“that’s cause i have it,” natty’s voice rang out, innocently. “she gave it to me when she went on the roller coaster earlier.”
jeno’s hand moved to cover your mouth, muffling the sounds you couldn’t stop from escaping. he continued to pound into you, relentless, while pulling you flush against his chest, his pace steady but punishing. panic clawed at your throat as your breath quickened.
“when were you gonna tell us that...?” jenny’s voice sounded sharp, you could even picture the scowl that came with it.
“did you try jeno?” your boyfriend asked, the concern in his tone making the situation even more unbearable.
“we don’t have his phone number,” natty replied casually.
“i do,” Jenny said, her voice almost sheepish.
jeno’s hips stuttered for a brief moment, the pace slowing as he briefly pulled away from you. you thought he was stopping but before you could even react, he spun you around, forcing you to face him. his forehead glistened with sweat, his lips swollen from how hard he’d bitten them, his breath labored.
“what? since when?” natty asked, her voice sounding confused but amused.
“i stole it from y/n’s phone,” jenny muttered quickly. “don’t tell her, though.”
before you could even process her words, jeno thrust back into you, pressing you into the wall with each brutal stroke. the wall rattled violently with every movement and you could barely form the words to warn him.
“j-jeno, stop… they… they’re gonna hear us,” you gasped. your whole body felt like it was being torn apart in the best way, but the fear of being caught made it impossible to enjoy it fully.
“let them,” he growled against your ear, his grip tightening on your waist. “let your boyfriend know i’m the only one who can make you cum.”
you couldn’t help the loud whimper that came out when he said that.
“did you guys hear that?” your boyfriend’s voice rang out, sharp with suspicion.
your eyes widened in sheer panic, your body stiffening around jeno. but instead of stopping, he only smirked, still buried deep inside you. the bastard was enjoying this.
his hand trailed down, fingers finding your clit, and the second he started rubbing tight circles, your head lolled back involuntarily. another strangled whimper escaped before you could stop it. the feeling of his fingers working you over while he continued driving into you relentlessly had you seeing white.
“what?” natty asked, her voice tinged with unease.
jeno didn’t stop, his movements staying controlled except for the way his breath hitched when your walls fluttered around him. his lips parted slightly, a muscle in his jaw twitching as he fought to keep from moaning out loud.
“it sounded like… a person?” your boyfriend said, his voice closer now.
your head snapped up in terror, eyes locking onto jeno’s, silently pleading with him to stop. but he wasn’t even looking at you. his teeth were digging into his lower lip, dark eyes fixed on where your bodies were joined, watching the way he disappeared inside you over and over again.
“it’s probably just the scary audio replaying on the speakers,” Jenny suggested.
“and that rattling sound?”
jeno’s eyes flicked up at that, finally registering your panic. without pulling out, he wrapped an arm around your waist and lifted you off the wall effortlessly, carrying you a few paces away before pressing you down onto an old, dusty table.
before you could even think to protest, he shoved your knees up and entered you again, deeper this time, making you arch off the surface with a muffled cry. your teeth sank into the flesh of your hand to keep the noises in.
the table creaked with each sharp thrust, dust kicking up into the air around you. tears pricked your eyes, whether from pleasure, mortification, or both, you weren’t sure.
“maybe rats or something,” jenny suggested, her voice fading as she moved further away. “who cares? let’s just go. they’re not here anymore.”
the moment the voices started retreating, jeno leaned over you.
“we almost got caught,” he whispered, his teeth grazing your earlobe “...and you’re still fucking dripping around me.”
you didn't even get to feel embarrassed by his words because soon he was already moving again harder, deeper, like he needed to make up for the interruption. the table kept creaking under the force of his thrusts, and your fingers scrambled for something to hold onto.
when you looked down, your breath hitched at the sight of his cock drilling into you over and over, slick coating both of you in a wet mess. you were mesmerized by the sharpness of his hip bones, the way his veins bulged with every flex of his muscles.
you wanted to touch. you needed to.
your fingers twitched with the urge. why is he still so covered? you’d seen him shirtless before, had spent far too long secretly admiring the cut of his abs, but seeing and feeling were entirely different. you wanted to feel them ripple under your hands, to feel the heat of his skin against your palms.
driven by that need, you pushed up on your elbows, reaching for the hem of his shirt. he didn’t stop you, just watched with dark eyes and parted lips as you dragged the fabric up, exposing smooth skin and the taut muscles beneath. your fingers splayed over his stomach, feeling how hard he was clenching, how his body responded to you.
jeno tensed the moment your hands made contact with his skin, a sharp inhale hissing through his teeth. his hips faltered for a second before slamming back into you with even more force. your breath stuttered, and when you looked up, his eyes were already locked onto yours, pupils blown wide with something wild.
suddenly, he leaned forward and his lips crashed into yours, all-consuming. a deep grunt rumbled from his chest as he licked into your mouth, greedy and desperate, sucking at your tongue like he couldn’t get enough of your taste. you gasped, clutching at his shoulders, your fingers digging into the sweaty skin under his shirt.
he groaned against your lips, voice ragged. “you—” another thrust, deeper this time, knocking the air from your lungs. “—are driving me fucking crazy.”
you felt your orgasm building fast, your breath catching as pleasure coiled tight in your stomach. words tumbled out of your mouth, barely coherent, dissolving into soft gasps as your body clenched around him. jeno moaned against your lips, his hand sliding back to your chest, fingers toying with your nipple. his hips didn’t slow, driving into you with almost manic thrusts that had your head spinning.
“fuck, i’m close,” he breathed out, voice rough in your ear. “where do you want it?”
you blinked through the pleasure, brain too sluggish to register the question. when it did, warmth flooded your cheeks. you were on the pill and the thought of him stuffing you up with his cum, just like you’d written about, made your walls flutter instinctively. “inside,” you said, voice barely above a whisper.
jeno’s jaw flexed, his gaze darkening. “yeah?” his pace quickened, rougher now, his lips brushing against your neck. “couldn’t wait for me to fill you up, hm?” his words melted into a groan when you clenched around him.
“jeno—i—” the rest of the sentence dissolved into a cry as your orgasm crashed over you violently. your body arched into him, trembling.
he wasn’t far behind. you felt his rhythm stutter before warmth flooded you, his hips pressing deep as he let out a low, drawn-out moan. his lips found yours again, kissing you slowly, even as both of you tried to catch your breath.
when he finally pulled back, his gaze held yours for a while. you wanted to ask what he was thinking, but the words stuck in your throat.
you felt him slip out of you along with the slow drip of hia cum trailing down your thighs. he reached for your discarded underwear, swiping it between your legs with surprising gentleness before, without hesitation, tucking it into his back pocket.
“hey—” you started to protest, but the look he shot you shut you up fast. apparently, those were his now.
a few quiet minutes passed, both of you fixing your clothes, when the door groaned open. you flinched as an older staff member peeked in, eyes widening upon spotting you two.
“what on earth are you two doing in here?”
you quickly stepped forward, feigning wide-eyed innocence. “so sorry, sir! we got lost trying to find the exit, and then the door jammed. thank you for helping us”
“yeah. where’s the way out?” jeno added, right behind you.
“just head left twice. you’ll see the exit sign.” the man shook his head, muttering something under his breath as he waved you off.
“thanks again!” you called, already pulling jeno with you. once outside, the cool night air hit your flushed skin, and you wrapped your arms around yourself with a shiver.
“if we’d followed my directions,” you said, glancing sideways at him, “we would’ve been out a while ago.”
jeno’s jacket appeared over your shoulders before you could argue further. “yeah,” he smirked, eyes glinting under the neon lights. “but then we wouldn’t’ve had all that fun, would we?”
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anyone got any tips on getting art industry jobs w/o a college degree bc holy fuck this shit is horrendous /oAo;\
#nebbles talks#s.struggling to. survive working full time and still trying to get an illustration degree..#wish i. couldve taken the semesters off for work again like i did last year#but. unfortunately. since someone decided to change lanes w/o checking for. yknow. traffic in that lane. i now have an extra $200/month#to pay in bills. :)))))#not to mention the horrendous interest rate i got fucked over with :)))))))))#not even looking at the terrible financial stress the stress of these classes themselves is INSANE#like. one prof says hes ''simulating working with real clients'' with how he formats the class#which to him just means 'im going to assign you three major projects at once'#each of which have overlapping and hard set due dates for an asinine amount of preliminary work that can take up to 6 hours EACH#plus you have to submit at least 2 pages for all your preliminary work describing WHY you chose your colors or shapes#and HOW the colors and shapes are effective visual elements#and then you also have to submit a mini essay that describes how your art might fair against other real businesses art and illustrations#like. my guy. i have to work 35 hours a week. and do homework for 4 other classes.#i cannot physically keep up. with that kind of a pace. without killing myself in the process with self-neglect#just. do not understand why i have to run myself ragged and to the brink of total collapse and failure.#just so i MIGHT get improved odds of getting a decent job that wont even help me get above the poverty line#like. i wanna be able to make art for a living and be able to live comfortably#but that just doesn't seem like its possible in the society thats currently set up rn#just. AUHG#;w;
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