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Would you love me if I were a worm?
Sylus x gn reader | A stupid, short drabble that got stuck in my head while peeling potatoes yesterday, no warnings
âSylus, would you love me if I were a worm?â
Sylus doesnât even look up from the book heâs reading, sprawled on one of the leather couches in his library, the full red moon spilling through the windows and blanketing him in a softly sinister light. âYes.â
You lift your head and scowl at him from your position stretched out along his long body, hands folded under your chin, resting on his firm stomach.
âYouâre not taking the question seriously.â
He lifts a dark silver eyebrow, eyes still not lifting from his book, the gold-rimmed reading glasses heâs wearing glinting in the warm light from the Tiffany lamp next to the couch. âAnd how did you arrive at that conclusion?â
âIf you had actually properly considered it, you would have taken a little more time to answer.â
He finally deigns to look at you over the rims of his glasses. âI gave it the exact amount of attention that such a question deserves.â
âWhy doesnât it deserve more attention? I want to know your answer.â
âAnd I gave you my answer.â He returns to his book. Itâs some pretentious title, about the sociology of ingroups and outgroups, the banality of evil.
âHow can I take your answer seriously if you donât think about it properly?â
He sighs. Looks over his glasses at you again. âYouâve been spending too much time with the twins.â
You sit up, leaning against the armrest of the couch opposite of Sylus. He frowns as you move away. âI donât think I spend enough time with them, actually. Theyâre hilarious.â
His frown deepens. âIâm hilarious.â
âNo, youâre a pretentious edgelord who wonât properly consider my question.â
âYou speak so sweetly to the twins. Whereâs that honey when you speak to me?â
âHoneypotâs empty until you tell me why youâd love me if I were a worm.â You prod his thigh with your bare foot.
He sighs again, sets the book on the side table. He takes your foot in his hands and begins to rub it, thumbs gently pressing into your arch. You suppress a moan.
âIâd love you if you were a worm because even as a worm, you are still you. Iâd love you in any universe, in any world, in any timeline, in any form.â
You stare at him for a moment. âNow I feel bad about being mean to you.â
âAs you should,â he gloats. âHow will you make it up to me?â
âNo, no. Iâm not done.â He continues to caress your foot, one hand drifting up to your ankle, circling it between his thumb and forefinger. âYou may love me as a worm, but what would you do with me? And would you seek out company in other people, since I couldnât provide it to you as a little wiggly worm?â
âI would construct the most extravagant terrarium with all of the most luxurious provisions that a little wormâs heart could desire.â He pauses. âIâd also have to construct some sort of grate to protect you from Mephisto.â
You shudder, thinking about what it would be like to be a worm facing down Mephistoâs ruby stare. âIâd probably just be happy in some dirt,â you say, giving him your other foot. He takes the hint and begins to rub it too.
âTch. My worm deserves only the finest in compost and enrichment activities in their terrarium. I wouldnât be happy with just giving you some dirt.â
âOf course, and we must keep his royal snobness happy.â
âSee? This is why I love you,â he smiles, just a little. âEven though your tongue is so sharp with me.â
âYouâre avoiding the question about seeking other company,â you say, sinking lower into the couch as you enjoy the foot massage.
âWhatâs the point in answering what is clearly a trick question? You will not be turned into a worm. This whole discussion is a waste of time we could spend doing more interesting things.â He gives you an exaggeratedly lascivious once-over.
âI could be turned into a worm! Modified protocores have resulted in weirder shit happening!â
Sylus sighs yet again in resignation.
âI would miss your human company terribly, but thereâs no replacing you,â he says smoothly.
You scowl at him again. âThat doesnât answer the question.â
âDarling, I was fine with my own company until you came into my life. I was fine with my own hand until you came into my life. Iâd miss your company, and your sharp tongue, and your blowââ
You jerk one of your feet out of his hands and prod him in his stupid sexy abs. âOkay, okay. I get it.â
âI donât think you do,â he says, sliding out from under you, dropping to his knees on the plush rug in front of you. He lifts one of your legs over his broad shoulder. âI think a demonstration is in order, of all the things Iâll miss that are irreplaceable, should the unthinkable happen and your lovely human form is reduced to that of a worm. Iâll start.â He lifts your other leg over his shoulder and looks up at you smugly.
You look down at him, heart so full with how much you love him that it hurts. âPromise youâre not lying?â
âWhen have I ever lied to you, beloved?â
You tilt your head. You think he really would love you if you were a worm.
âIâd love you if you were a worm too, Sy.â
âOh good, I can stop losing sleep at night,â he says, voice dripping sarcasm. You punish him by tightening your thighs, squishing his handsome face between your knees.
He laughs a little breathlessly. âIf youâre trying to encourage me, itâs working, kitten.â
You laugh and release him. âDeviant,â you say affectionately.
âYour deviant,â he says, leaning forward, big palms gliding up your thighs. âWhether youâre a human or a worm, that wonât change.â
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sylus: check it out! i got us matching bracelets!
mc: are those handcuffs?!
sylus: never leave me.
#im working on my transfer applications rn#listen this is canon he literally gifted us handcuffs#it's 1 am and i'm rotting#i promise i'll write something#but for now deal with me rotting#credits to that one fanart of bireena by suja janee that inspired this incorrect quote#love and deepspace#love and deepspace incorrect quotes#incorrect quotes#sylus x reader#sylus x mc#lads sylus#love and deepspace sylus
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Hello and good morning~ I was listening to RED by taylor swift while working and suddenly ALL I could think of was the Sylus series (and how MC thinks she was rejected). đâ€ïž Think this song fits them so well
I have been meaning to answer this ask since you sent it, but it gave me a little Scenario that I had to carry around in my head until I could figure out how to work it into a story. Your ask, in combination with a post by @leaderincrows about wanting to see Sylus collared and gasping pathetically, led to this story. I hope the result is enjoyable. Thanks so much for sending this ask, and I'm sorry it took 8 million years to answer!
Goodcat code, or how you learned to care for your catboy | ao3 | masterlist
Summary: Your crimelord boyfriend disappears for a week, you make yourself sad listening to breakup songs, you learn that he got turned into a catboy, you get assigned a mission on the worst cruise ship ever, undercover shenanigans ensue. Loosely based on the Sylus memory Goodcat Code.
Notes: Sylus x gn reader, sylus x mc, second person POV, some Sylus POV MC is referred to by they/them pronouns, intended as a placeholder for your preferred pronouns. Established relationship, can be read as a standalone. This story contains: profanity, activities of a sexual nature, violence, probably too much internal monologue and not enough action, too many feelings and not enough sexual activity, inappropriate use of a tail, an argument with your boyfriend, a happy ending.
You wonder if itâs because you trounced him in kitty cards the last time you played.
The silence.Â
For the past week, your phone has been pinging with constant notifications but none with My Sy listed as the sender. Just work, spam, Xavier asking if you want to go to the bookstore the next time youâre both free, Tara spamming you with pleas to go to some shitty club where her latest favorite indie EDM DJ is playingâwhy she thinks that her insistence that âHe looks just like Skye, I promise!â is enough incentive for you to wade through loud, sweaty, touch-feely dancers as you canât help constantly checking the exits, while simultaneously making sure a molly-rolling Tara doesnât abscond to the bathroom with a mistake waiting to happen, while being subjected to mediocre beats from her artist-of-the week, is beyond you. âSkyeâ is gorgeous, yes, but youâd rather admire the real thing up close than squint through a fog-machine haze to look at a cheap knock-off.
Maybe Sylusâs snobbery is rubbing off on you.
Then again, Tara doesnât know how up close you get to examine Skye on a regular basis, so perhaps youâre being unfair, because youâre in a terrible mood, because you havenât heard from him for a week now.
Because maybe you wonât have the chance to see âSkyeâ up close ever again. Because all you have is a deafening silence from him, and it started the day after you wiped the floor with him at the kitty cafe playing kitty cards.
Could something so petty cause him to finally lose interest in you, the way you've feared ever since you allowed yourself to consider the possibility that Sylus may be romantically interested in you?
Itâs not your fault that the longer you spend time with him, the more you have unraveled his mysteries. If he doesnât want to be so easy to beat, he needs to try harder to be less predictable. You never would have thought, when you first met him, that youâd ever think the words âpredictableâ and âSylusâ in the same sentence, but the mercurial man is like clockwork when it comes to kitty cards.
He always, always offers you the chance to go first. Why on earth would you say no, and then lose the chance to play your inevitably shitty, low-value cards in the matching colored cups, just to prevent him from playing one of his inevitably high valued cards in the matching cup?
He grumbles, tries to give âhelpfulâ advice about being patient and gambling on drawing a higher value card instead, all the while doing the exact same thing when itâs his turn and he has a shit hand. The condescending hypocrite. You stew a bit thinking about it.
And then, youâve long since learned that the arrogant bastard is cheating while you play. He somehow marks the cardsâyou donât know how. Something to do with his evol? He refuses to admit it outright, so you doubt youâll ever know. But what you first thought was a generous habit of offering to give you two of his cards for one of yours, actually turns out to be an opportunity for him to offload his low value cards and give himself a chance to poach your higher value cards. You refuse his offers now.
And lastly, youâve figured out that for all of Sylusâs skill, brilliant brain, and talent at strategy, the man has a few weaknesses that you are ruthlessly willing to exploit to gain the upper hand to beat him despite all of his dirty tricks.
Namely, heâs easily distracted by a few very specific things.
Your mouth being one of them.
So last week, you went first, played your shit cards in the colored cups, refused his offers to trade, and ordered a strawberry shortcake with extra whipped cream to enjoy while you played.
He leaned back in his seat at the kitty cafe where he was sitting across from you, manspreading as usual, arms casually draped over the back of the booth, the picture of casual, smug confidence. The dictionary definition of winner.Â
âDo you really have the luxury of splitting your focus between the game and your dessert, kitten? It looks like you need all of your concentration just to keep up, let alone win this round,â he drawled, secure in his five point lead over you. It was his turn, and yet he had time to taunt you.
You just shrugged, holding your cards fanned in one hand, dipping your finger in the whipped cream with your other. You brought it to your lips, pretending to think very hard about which card youâd play next when all of them were crap, and rubbed the cream over your bottom lip.
You heard a sharp inhale from the other side of the table, but ignored it. You âabsentmindedlyâ flicked your tongue out, gathering the cream there before swallowing and biting your lip pensively.
âItâs good,â you murmured, not taking your eyes off your cards. âNot too sweet.â
Silence. It took all of your willpower not to look up to see what his face was doing. But you heard him place a kitty in a cup, its cute little meow signaling the start of your turn.
You let your gaze flick back and forth between the board and your cards. Good. It was working. He played a low value card in a white cup instead of drawing a new card like he should have.
You put your crap sage card in the last sage-colored cup. Sylus tsked and drew a new card.
This time, you picked up one of the glazed strawberries adorning the shortcake and placed it between your lips, sucking on it gently as you âthought.â
The groan coming from across the table was so low that you almost didnât hear it over the sounds of the cafeâother players chatting, the meows of the kitties, the clink of cutlery and tableware. But you heard it, even through your tinnitus.
You played another low value card in a matching cupâthe last one. Unless he had a six, this round is yours.
You finally dared to look up and find Sylus glaring at you, all while petting a beautiful, tawny colored cafe cat that had apparently settled in his lap while you were busy trying to distract him and beat his ass at this ridiculous game.
âSy, you know the rules of the cafeâno petting the cats unless we pay extra!â You looked around furtively, forgetting the game, worried that the staff were going to get mad and kick you both out for this breach of etiquette. You pay first, then pet!
âI canât help it if, unlike some, this particular kitty is straightforward enough to ask for pets from me,â he said pointedly. âWho am I to deny its desires?âÂ
In response, you popped the strawberry fully into your mouth, closed your eyes, and bit down, letting out a genuine little sound of appreciation for the sweet fruit.
Suddenly there was a disgruntled mewl from across the table. You opened your eyes and saw Sylus with a death grip on the cat where he was previously petting it gently. The cat squirmed, trying to get off of his lap. He blinked and let go of the cat, which then bolted off of his lap like he had just yanked its tailâwhich he hadnât, but Sylusâs grip was no joke. You would know.
He watched the cat, a rare apologetic look on his face, before turning to glare at you again. âIf we get kicked out, it will be your fault,â he accused.
You just looked back at him innocently. âWhat on earth did I do?â
âMaybe Iâve been too soft with you, and youâve gotten too comfortable with meâyou grow more cunning by the day,â he said softly, almost like a threat, but he looked⊠pleased.
âStill have no idea what youâre talking about,â you hummed, taking a big forkful of the shortcake and shoving it in your mouth.Â
Sylus just groaned again. He lost every game the two of you played the rest of the evening.
When you parted ways with him, heading back home to sleep while he was heading to a meeting, he pulled you into his arms as you stood by your motorcycle. He breathed in your hair and sighed, and then pulled away, turning on his heel, and walking away without a backwards glance.
And thatâs the last you heard from him since that night.
You sit at your kitchen table, staring glumly out into the chill fall night. Your phone lights up, but itâs just Rafayel sending a photo of a little crab brandishing a plastic spork captioned Lol littering humans suck but at least this trash is useful for this lil guy heâs got a sword now
You often wonder why both Rafayel and Sylus sometimes refer to humans as if they themselves are not also human. You text back.
You: he just needs a shield. give him a bottle cap and he can fight wanderers with meÂ
Fried Shrimp: nope heâs my new bodyguard because you suck too and have been too busy lately to guard my body like you promised
You: youâre perfectly capable of guarding yourself you pyromaniac
Rafayel just responds with a poop emoji.
You consider his text. Rafayel may have a point for onceâyou have been spending every free moment that you're not working with Sylus lately.
Which is bad. You donât want him to take over your life. You want to maintain a balanced, a healthy relationship with him, if possible. It would be so easy to let yourself be consumed by his charismatic, overwhelming presence in your life. But what happens when he disappears as quickly as he appeared?
You donât want to think about it. But that point may have already arrived. You stare at your dark phone again.
You could⊠call him first. Or send a text. But youâre not to the point where you can bring yourself to contact him first. If he wants to talk to you, he isnât shy about reaching out for your attention. He calls almost every day. To tell you that you need to expect a package. To complain about his bad luck at a poker game with business rivals. To pester you about when youâll come visit him again. Mephisto hasnât seen your face for two days, heâs starting to pout. The twins brought home ten different flavors of syrup for the espresso machine, look at what youâre doing to them, theyâre going to get diabetes at this rate.
You donât think youâre to the point of being able to handle being left on read by this man if you send a text first and he doesnât answer.
Itâs time to wallow. You reach for your phone, pull up your music app, and put Taylor Swiftâs RED on repeat.
Youâll give it a few more days, and then youâll put on Olivia Rodrigo. After another week, it will be Sabrina Carpenter, because youâll probably have entered the anger stage of grief by then. After that, it will be Hozier, when you finally accept that Sylus will never be calling again and try to find the beauty in everything youâve lost.
***
âStatus report?â Sylus growls into the phone.Â
âBoss, I really think that you should reconsider this course of action,â Kieranâs voice is just loud enough for Sylus to be able to hear over the absolute cacophony of the closed cat cafe, which is considerable, even with his double, hypersensitive hearing due to his current⊠condition.
âI didnât ask for your opinion, I asked for a status update,â Sylus hisses, and then clears his throat. He totally meant to hiss just then. His hissing has nothing to do with his current affliction.
âBut I really must insistââ Kieran tries to argue, but heâs drowned out by the cat cafeâs OTTO.
âCaracal Butler! May I remind you that not only is your customer satisfaction rating in the negatives, but you are also not allowed to make personal phone calls on the kittiesâ time!â The OTTO hovers menacingly in front of him.
âOh, Iâm so scared,â he responds, voice dripping with sarcasm. Even the robot should be able to discern his disdain.
âYou should be,â it says, threateningly.
âOh? And what are the kitties going to do thatâs worse than what theyâve already done.â He flicks some cat hair off of his bespoke tuxedo. The fact that heâs going to have to get it de-haired and dry cleaned if he ever wants to wear it again just adds insult to injury, as he had been hoping to wear it with you to a Linkon City Symphony Orchestraâs performance soon. He had a matching outfit tailored for you at the same time he ordered this tux, so he has resigned himself to getting the damn thing cleaned when this... ordeal is over.
The OTTO jerks him out of his irritation with its nagging voice module. âIt is protocol for this kitty cafe to act as a responsible caretaker for the kitties under our care. We require spaying and neutering of all kitties under this roof. You have not yet received such care.â
The threat in response to his sarcasm could not be clearer.
He narrows his eyes at the OTTO and feels his tail swish menacingly as his ears press flat to his hair.
âCome anywhere near my balls and Iâll fill this cat cafe with so many cat toys of the loud, exploding variety that there will be nothing left of either it, the cats, or you except a smoking crater.â
The OTTO flits backwards out of Sylusâs reach.
âPerhaps Caracal Butler may be allowed a limited number of private phone calls on the kittiesâ time without repercussions,â it says, tone placating as it drifts quickly to the other side of the room.
âThatâs what I thought,â Sylus growls again, and not because heâs been stripped of his evol and cursed with two fucking cat ears and a tail that betrays his emotions no matter how much self control he tries to exert, but because he meant to growl.
He returns his attention back to the phone as his patience wears ever thinner. âStatus. Report.â
âBoss, I really must insistââ Kieran tries again, tone incredibly concerned, before being interrupted by Luke.
âYour hunter is listening to breakup songs and mopily staring at their phone every spare moment they get.â
Sylusâs ears swivel around to full attention and his tail thwacks a kitty climbing tower so hard itâs almost knocked off its base.
âBreakup songs? Whyââ
âThey obviously think youâve ghosted them,â Luke continues. âKeep this up and youâre gonna lose them.â
Sylus tilts his head. Could you really believe that heâs capable of ever leaving your side before you tell him to leave and mean it? What an absolutely ridiculous notion. His tail swishes thoughtfully. He did not want you to see him like thisâstripped of his power, kneeling to these demanding cats like a⊠well. Like a fucking catboy butler. He has his pride, after all. He was hoping that the curse would fade quickly and youâd be too busy with work and your social life to notice that he has been absent for a little while. And you hadnât reached out to him either, during this time. He runs his gloved hand along his bottom lip before realizing that heâs been touching cats all day, makes a disgusted face, and taps his temple instead. Why hadnât you reached out to him? His mind drifts over memories of all of your interactions with him when you are apart and he's been forced to make do with communicating to you via phone and text.
This is not the first time that it occurs to him that you have never, not once, reached out to him first. He is always the one calling you, texting you, sending you packages.
He stops, tail and ears still. He has noticed it, but he hasn't thought about it deeply. He's willing to chase you to the end of time, after all. But now, he wonders what he's missing. He is almost entirely sure that you miss him as much as he misses you when youâre apart. You always pick up the phone. You always respond to texts. As for sending packages, you've grumbled about not knowing what to gift a man who has everything, but he always reassures you that he already has everything he wants, as long as youâre there.
So why is it that you have never reached out to him first? He flicks his ears. It would be nice, if you reached out first, every once in a while. He doesn't require it. But it would be nice. He tucks that thought away for further analysis after the current problem is fixed.
Time to assess the damage, and then engage in damage control.
âWhat kind of breakup songs?â he asks.
âCurrently listening to RED by Taylor Swift.â
Sylus considers. Taylor Swift isnât as bad as Sabrina Carpenter, or Hozier. Once you start with Hozier, Sylus will really be worried.
âAre you gonna stop being a big scaredy-cat and contact your hunter now?â Luke demands, sounding absolutely done with his ridiculous boss and his equally ridiculous partner.
Sylus values the intel they just provided, so he lets the insubordination slide. This time.
âI will remedy the situation. Youâre dismissed from hunter observation detail.â
All he hears are twinned sighs of relief and then the phone disconnecting. He stares at it. What impudent henchmen.
He turns and wades through the meandering cats to the OTTO.
âIâm leaving, but I will be back to fulfill my contract once a personal emergency has been resolved.â
The OTTO, with his previous threats clearly still fresh in its memory, meekly allows him to pass without any fuss.
He steps out into the cold winter evening, the street lights and bright advertisements of Linkon City temporarily blinding him. Normally he would just teleport along rooftops to get to you as quickly as possible in such an emergency, but with this fucking curse, he has to make his way to your home like a regular human. His lip curls in disgust, but then he schools his face into its customary blank, intimidating expression as he notices people passing by gawking at his swishing tail and his cat ears. Heâs drawing enough attention to himself without looking threatening while doing it. He quickly strides to where he parked his motorcycle, jams his helmet on his head, and breaks six different traffic laws trying to get to your place as quickly as possible.
***
Youâre trying to wallow, snuggled into your bedding with a tray of some sad soup heated up from a can and a chunk of stale bread, when your hunter watch pings. You flick through the new assignment. Some asshole smuggler in biologically modified wanderers code-named âSnowy Owlâ apparently needs to be brought down. You slurp some soup while you try to formulate a plan of action for snaring this new target, who has in turn snared many innocent wanderers to then sell them to shady collectors with who knows what kind of intentions for them.Â
This is just the sort of thing that youâve all too easily grown accustomed to discussing with Sylus, due to his spiderweb of connections through the underworld. But isnât that part of the problem? Where before you would rely on yourself and Association resources to arrange a mission of this kind, now youâre all too comfortable relying on Sylus for help. That sort of sloppiness is unacceptable, and the gaping absence heâs left behind in the last week only serves to drive that point home. You cannot let the blade of your skills dull because of reliance on your all-too-willing-to-help boyfriend. Maybe ex-boyfriend, you think miserably.
You sigh, leaning back, turning up the music that you had previously turned down to focus on the mission details. Youâre trying to drown out all thoughts of the man who you need to get out of your head, only to find yourself yelping in surprise and flinging the tray with the soup at the tall intruder who has just silently appeared at the side of your bedâwho you hadnât heard at all, as if they had entered on padded cat paws.
Only to realize halfway through the soupâs trajectory that the intruder is Sylus and heâs wearing a very fancy suit.
All the previous times you have flung tableware containing hot liquid at him, Sylus has been able to dodge the container, if not its contents, because of his evol. But this time heâs struck square in the chest by both the soup and the soup bowl. It hits one big pec with a dull thud and then crashes to your floor. He stands there, dripping soup, looking down at his dress shoes.
âThe fuck, Sylus,â you breathe, not because he appeared out of nowhere in your home, again, but because you can clearly see two twitching, incredibly real-looking cat earsâtawny, fuzzy on the insides, coming to a beautiful, regal black point at the topâswiveling through his gorgeous silver hair. As your eyes travel down his long, lovely body, they catch on a flicking cat-tail with the same coloring as his ears. Something about the fur strikes you as familiar, but you canât quite figure out why.
âDarling. Dearest to my heart. My heart, in fact, beating within the safety of my ribcage. Could you, perhaps, in the future, try to refrain from assaulting me with molten liquid when I surprise you in your home.â His tail swishes, swishes, swishes behind him, and youâre utterly mesmerized. It takes a moment for it to sink in that Sylus is actually here. You want to scramble off the bed, climb him like a tree, the dripping soup be damned, and just hug him. Now that youâre seeing him in person for the first time in a whole week, you are able to actually feel how much youâve missed him, instead of suppressing, repressing, pretending that the unending ache didnât hurt so terribly much.
Youâre about to launch yourself at him when you remember why you had been feeling this way all week. Where the hell has he been? And why does he have cat attributes now? Well, more than he already had to begin with, you snicker internally, until you remember that youâre still feeling heartbroken and wary of why he has shown up now after ghosting you all week. Are you being melodramatic? Are you being immature? Are you being unfair? Could you have called him to check in, when he didnât? You eye his ears. His tail. Yes to all of the above, but it doesnât change how you simply canât bring yourself to go to him, and instead draw further back, away from him, on the bed.
He apparently doesnât miss your movement, as his ears swivel forward as you move, and then flatten onto the top of his head as he assumes an aggressively bored expression on his face.
âNot going to answer me?â he growls. Actually growls, like a cat warning a naughty kitten.
You canât help yourself. âWhoâs actually the kitten now, Sylus?â
His tail flicks violently behind him.
âCareful, kitten. Perhaps youâve forgotten in the past week that this cat has claws,â he says, low and menacing.
You just laugh at him.
âMmmm, yes, your oh-so-so sharp claws, which are now covered in soup. What are you doing here?â
He narrows his eyes at your unimpressed reaction to his empty threat. âDo I need a reason to visit my heart?â
The more he acts like nothing has changed, as if he didnât just disappear on you without a word for a week, the more wound up and jittery you feel. âWhat heart?â you ask, a little petulantly.
He lifts an eyebrow. âYou know the answer to that question.â
âDo I? Not a very important organ, if you can survive a week without it,â you grumble.
His ears swivel forward, and his tail starts to⊠wag, but his facial expression doesnât change.
You immediately regret revealing so much.
âAh,â is all he says, but he sounds pleased.Â
You look away, out the window. But all you see is Sylus in the reflection, and the dark night beyond. Youâve said too much already.Â
âIâm going to change. And then weâre going to talk,â he announces, and it sounds like a purr.
You feel silly as you realize that Taylor Swift is still warbling loudly in your bedroom about loving him but losing him so suddenly, trying to stop when youâre already in free fall, loving him being like the colors in autumn, so bright, just before they lose it all. You flick off the music.
Heâs here again. Heâs here again, but for how long?
You hear water running in the bathroom as you go to the kitchen to grab some towels and return to your bedroom to mop up the soup, tidying your embarrassingly messy flat along the way. You return to bed and wait for him.
After a few minutes, Sylus emerges from your bathroom clad in one of the soft sweaters and silk sleep pants he keeps in your closet. You canât help yourself againâyou stare at where his tail emerges from under the sweater. The flexible waistband of the pants must have been pushed down a little over his ass to accommodate where his tail emerges.Â
He strides to the bed and pauses next to it. âMay I?â he asks, tail flicking, ears twitching.
You nod, and he prowls onto your duvet on his hands and knees. Before settling next to you, however, he turns in a circle, once, twice, three times, before sinking down and pulling you into his arms, your back to his chest, curling around you. You let him, feeling the flood of safety and sense of wholeness that you always get when Sylus is touching you. You sigh. All of your worries seem so trite now. Why didnât you just text him first? Why did you wait for him to reach out first? Why are you like this?
As if reading your mind, Sylus says, âWere you worried this week?â
His arms are wrapped tightly around you, he has one leg shoved between yours, and you feel his tail curl around your bare ankle. Its fur is so, so soft.
You nod.
âWhy didnât you call me, then?â
You donât want to tell him how afraid you are of him finally not answering. Of him finally losing interest. It sounds so pathetic to even think it, let alone say it out loud.
âIâm sorry about your fancy suit,â is all you can say.
He hums, and his tail wraps tighter around your ankle. âItâs a tuxedo. And it can be cleaned.â
âFancy suit, tuxedoâpretentious, overpriced pieces of fabric,â you tease him.
âMy heart is a heathen,â he sighs into your hair. âItâs a tux that matches pretentious, overpriced pieces of fabric that happen to fit your body perfectly.â
âWhat use do I have for such fabric?â you ask, turning in his arms, lulled by his familiar humor, his still-unexplained tail wrapped around your ankle. You lie on your side, facing him. His ears twitch in your direction.
âThere's a ticket to the Linkon City Symphony Orchestra with your name on it. You should note the date in your agenda.â
âWhat if my agenda is already full? I havenât heard from you for a week.â
His ears flatten in his hair. âYouâd replace me in just a week?â
You hum a little, reaching up to run a finger along one cat ear. He makes a purring sound, deep in his throat, closing his lovely eyes. âI donât think Iâll ever be able to replace you, even if I wanted to,â you murmur, lost in his presence again, feeling safe now that heâs here again. But the week was long, and you really were afraid heâd left for good, no matter how silly it seems now. âBut maybe I thought you had replaced me,â you admit, marveling at how soft the ear is, how good it feels to caress it between your forefinger and thumb. You want to kiss it, rub your face all over it. You lift your other hand and fondle his other ear.
His tail loosens on your ankle and begins drifting up your bare leg, the fur caressing your skin so gently, until it curls around one thigh and squeezes between your legs, right below where your thighs meet. You shiver at the sensation and forget to pet him for a moment.
âYou should have more faith in your pet. Sometimes cats have business in the neighborhood that keeps them away for a few days, but they always come back home.â
âDid your âbusinessâ have anything to do with your new accessories?â
He leans, shoving his head against your hands to remind you to keep petting him, and his tail drifts up, up, until itâs nudging between your legs. You gasp softly at the delicious pressure, but have enough presence of mind to keep massaging his ears.
âYes,â he murmurs, a little breathless. âLike that.â You continue, and he continues teasing you with his tail. Itâs not enough. You want more of him.
âHow did you get the cat ears and tail, Sy?â you ask, trying to remain focused.Â
The tail nudges you a little harderâyou canât help the jerk of your hips which sends you rocking into him, where youâre met with his hard dick under the fabric of his pants. The sensation of his hardness against your front and his tail at your back is almost overwhelming.
âYour fault, kitten. You and that fucking strawberry last week,â he growls again, flexes his hips into yours. âThat cat I was petting was unhappy with how roughly I handled it while you cockteased me with your cake,â he gasps as you grind back into him, as you widen your legs to let his tail do whatever it wants, restricted only by your sleep shorts. âThe evol kitties cursed me for petting without paying, and for roughing up the cat.â
You canât help it. Even through the pleasure, you burst out laughing.
âThey cursed you with a tail and ears, and thatâs why you avoided me all week?â Itâs absurd. All that worry, thinking that heâd finally grown bored with you, because he was too, what? Embarrassed? to reveal that heâd been given such adorable attributes. âYou mean we could have been doing this all week?â you ask, incredulous, as his tail rubs against your sensitive spots through your shorts, as it nudges you again and again, as Sylus loudly purrs from the pleasure you rubbing his ears and the friction against his big dick is bringing him.
He opens his eyes, half-lidded, lips parted, panting. One of his hands drifts down your back and takes a handful of your ass, pulling, bringing your hips against his cock again. He grinds you on himself, leans forward, licks a swipe up the side of your face.
âThe biological markers that were affected by the ears and tail are tied to my own evolâI donât have my ability to manipulate energy so long as this curse lasts,â he says, breath hitching with the movement of your bodies.
You lean forward, press your forehead against his, share his panting breath. âWhat does that have to do with not calling me?â you manage, even though all you want to do is rip his pants down, shove down your own shorts, and impale yourself on him.
âDidnât want you to see me as weak,â he admits. He opens his eyes, looks into yours. He then kisses you with his full lips, soft, slow, in contrast to his tail still nudging you through your shorts at a steady rhythm, teasing, teasing, teasing.
You pull back from his kiss, catch his gaze again. âEven without your evol, youâre still one of the strongest people Iâve ever met,â you whisper.
He pauses, his ears flattening again. âJust âone ofâ the strongest people you've met?â
You laugh. âI know a lot of strong people Sy. And your new bits are cute, just like you.â His tail firmly nudges you again, once, as if to warn you. âDonât threaten me with a good time,â you tease him.
He just groans and kisses you again, his tongue slipping between your lips, his big hands moving to shove down your shorts. âI donât make threats,â he says, low, smug. âI make promises.â
You roll your eyes, but neither of you talk any more after that.
***
Much, much later, after youâre thoroughly fucked out, muscles pleasantly sore, as Sylus purrs beside you in sleep, one arm flung over you, you lie awake thinking about his admission of worrying about being 'weak' in front of you. Of the vulnerability in his questionsâwhy didnât you call him if you were worried? Would you really replace him within a week?Â
Youâve been so wrapped up in your own insecurities, so busy trying to protect yourself from what you think is the inevitable pain of being abandoned, that youâve never stopped to consider what Sylus may worry about. What his insecurities may be. He has always seemed so larger than life to you, from the very beginning. Invincible. Solitary and strong. But as youâve gotten to know him, youâve also had glimpses of his own tender heart, the same tender heart he warns you about havingâa liability in his vicious world. The care he shows the twins, who he insists are just his henchmen but clearly love him like family. His meticulous maintenance of Mephisto, whenever the bird needs parts switched out, cleaning, or upgrades. His habit of masking his true feelings by maintaining a look of boredom, as if revealing such feelings is a vulnerability that even those closest to him could exploit. Even his tendency to cheat at kitty cardsâhis luck is so bad, and he works so hard to compensate for it in the best way that his brutal life has taught him. In the end, Sylus is just a person, like anyone else. Complicated. Layered. Strong and vulnerable, cruel and kind. Youâve been spending a lot of time thinking about him as something you crave, something you adore, as well as something you fear, a threat to your heart. Not always as just a person, with feelings of his own.
Feelings that include feelings for you, specifically. He has never hidden his care for you, not since those first days of knowing him. Even if he looks indifferent, the words coming out of his mouth are always achingly straightforward, and sweet in a way that sounds sarcastic but you have learned is actually simply the unvarnished truth. His actionsâhis gifts, his texting, calling, physical clinginess when youâre with himâin the quiet dark, with Sylusâs soft snores next to you, his cat ears twitching even in sleep, you realize how utterly unfair youâve been to him. How one-sided this relationship has been up until now in a lot of ways.
Youâre suddenly overwhelmed with the desire to show him how much you care about him too. How safe he is with you, just as he makes you feel safe whenever youâre together. You recognize that you need to do some work on yourself. That itâs not normal to go through life terrified of being abandoned. That the past does not predict the future. You canât spend the rest of your relationship with Sylus, no matter how long or short it lasts, punishing him for the pain others have caused you.
You roll over in the dark and pepper his face with soft kisses, each one a silent apology for not calling him this week, when he probably needed to be reassured that you still care for the version of him with ears and a tail and stripped of his god-like abilities. How worried must he still be, moving through the world without such abilities, without his customary armor against a hostile world that wants him caged or dead?
As you lean over him, trailing your lips along his skin, his arms snake around you and pull you closer.
âTell me what I did to deserve this, so I can do it again,â he says, voice raspy from sleep. His tail wraps around your waist.
âIâm afraid I canât,â you whisper between kisses.
âA hunterâs trade secret?â You can hear his smile in the dark.
âA loverâs inability to properly articulate that all you have to do is continue being you.â
His tail tightens around you, and its end wildly thwacks your back. âThat sounded pretty articulate to me. Your words are honeyedâis there a catch?â
You kiss him on his soft lips. His hands run along your hair, down your back.
âOnly one way to find out,â you tease.
âI see youâre done pouting. Do I get any other rewards for just being me?â he asks, sly.
âOnly one way to find out,â you repeat, nudging his nose with yours.
âOh, I like surprises.â
âI know,â you say, because you do know that. You know so much about this man already.
He pauses, catches your gaze. âKeep it a secret, okay?â
Yet again, heâs showing you his weakness. Reminding you that heâs taking a risk by being here with you at all, just like you are risking your heart, and everything else, by being here with him. âYour secrets are safe with me, Sy.â
He holds you tighter in response, and you fall asleep in his arms. You donât dream about anything at all.
***
In the morning, after youâve made him coffee, after youâve eaten breakfast and youâve lounged on the couch with him, watching something stupid on tv while he browses online auctions, you tell him about your Snowy Owl mission. Heâs heard of this person, but theyâre not colleagues or rivals, moving in different circles. But he knows where to locate them, and you form a plan, inspired by Snowy Owlâs interest in modified wanderers and humans, and Sylusâs twitching ears.
âYou want me to act as your catboy butler.â He says it flatly. âBoring.â
You nod. âAnd Iâll be your owner, willing to sell you to the highest bidder.â
His ears flatten against his hair, despite his bored expression, and his tail whips back and forth, back and forth, slowly. He really hates the idea.
âDo you have a better plan?â you ask.
âBetter than you selling me off to someone else? I can think of a few. A carefully placed bomb on the cruise ship, for one.â At your look of discomfort, he continues. âYou donât even have to come. Just check off the mission as accomplished on your little Association to-do list.â
You scowl at him. âIâm supposed to bring Snowy Owl in, not assassinate them.â
âBoring,â he repeats.
âIâm not actually selling you to anyone, Sy. I just need a small distraction, much smaller than a bomb,â you cut him off as he opens his mouth. âWhile I plant a tracking device with them, once we pinpoint who they are.â
He leans over, rubs his cheek against yours. âWhatâs my reward for considering this utterly boring plan?â He drags your hand to the base of his tail.
You take the hint, grasping his tail firmly, and he groans. You pull a little, and he lets you, rolling onto his stomach on the couch. You straddle the back of his big, meaty thighs and begin palming his tail, starting at the base where it meets the skin of his lower back, circling your thumb and forefinger around it even though itâs thick enough that your fingers donât meet. You pull, and pet, over and over again, and his purrs are so loud they start to vibrate the couch.
âSay yes,â you demand. âPut that tux and your new parts to good use before the concert.â
âFine,â he gasps, as his hips jerk a little, pressing himself into the couch.
âExcellent!â You spring to your feet, heading to the shower. Thereâs not a moment to waste if youâre going to get this mission over with before his tail and ears disappear.
âStingy!â he yowls. Literally yowls, like a big tomcat thwarted in his attempt at mating by a mean owner yanking him into the house from the alley where his would-be mate was waiting.
âConsider that the down payment. Upon delivery of your promise, youâll get the rest,â you say in a sing-song voice, just to further annoy him.
âI want double!â he yowls again, but anything else he might be whining about is cut off when you let the bathroom door close behind you.
***
Sylus has been impeccable for the duration of your agreed-upon mission. Poised, elegant, obedient. He has tolerated you treating him like an object to be admired and dismissed on a whim, even when people approached you not just to express interest in your catboy butler up for bidding, but also when they showed interest in getting to know the mysterious owner of said catboy butler more intimately.
The only indication that he was perhaps not entirely pleased with his code name was a flick of his cat ears and one hard thwack of his tail against the rail of the cruise ship when you first said, âPlease fetch me more of the strata, Mister Whiskers,â in front of the other guests on the dining deck.
Furthermore, he only tried to attack and eat one personâs pet parrot, and he dropped the seagulls he kept catching at each ordered âDrop it, Mister Whiskers!â from you every time.
All in all, you think that youâre having a harder time than he is. High tea is over, seagulls have been caught and released, and youâve already collected a number of business cards and varying degrees of subtle invitations to further discuss your catboy butler. Youâve navigated each diplomatically, and are rather proud of yourself, but your own patience is wearing thin as you stand at a luxurious bar in a small lounge on one of the upper decks of the cruise ship. The floor to ceiling windows give a lovely view of the blood-red sunset over the waterâit reminds you of Sylusâs eyes. The evening, and therefore the black market trading, is about to begin in earnest. Youâre waiting for a mocktailâyouâre on the job, and you are a professional after allâwhen yet another person sidles up to you. Sylus, who has been standing at a respectable distance from you at relaxed attention, hands crossed behind his back, looking coolly over the people scattered at elegant standing tables, ears swiveling at constant alert, looks toward the newcomer, but he makes no move to come closer to you. It occurs to you that one of the reasons you are feeling increasingly off-kilter is that you are so used to Sylus touching you, draping himself over you, maintaining at least a sliver of contact at all times, that this respectful distance makes you feel like heâs standing on the other side of a great canyon.
You turn to the person who is trying to join you at the bar. Heâs handsome. Tall, muscular. Dressed nicely, with subtle style. Nothing like your boyfriendâs flashy jeweled necklaces and bold colors. His blue eyes are startling in contrast to his black hair.
âHi,â he says, smiling a little ruefully, like he wanted to open with something better, but this is all he could think of. He knows that heâs handsome and can skate by on the bare minimum.
You smile faintly back at him, despite wishing Sylus would come closer. âHi,â you say. Youâre not going to do all the work, dammit. This guy wants something from you, not the other way around.
âYouâve caused quite a stir tonight with your⊠companion,â he says, dark eyebrows lifting, gaze darting to Sylus and back to you again. âItâs made for more entertainment than usual on nights like these.â
You lift an eyebrow in response. âOh? How so?â
âWatching the sharks circling and getting into tussles about who will ultimately have your pet.â
Your stomach twists at hearing someone other than Sylus calling him a pet. Heâs not your pet. Heâs your partner. Heâs a whole personâa complicated, vicious, funny, cruel, gentle man. You suddenly hate the appraising look this asshole is giving him. But youâre a professional, damn it. You smile wider, going for seductive, amused, haughty.
âNo need to tussle,â you tilt your head. âItâs simple. Offer the highest bid, and congratulations, youâre the owner of a new, obedient, exotic pet.â
The fuckhead eyeing Sylus chuckles heartily, as if what you said isnât disgusting but the height of rich-asshole humor.
âI like the idea of owning the obedience of such a big, powerful creature. Is he willing to do anything you ask?â
The way his gaze keeps flicking to Sylus, as if he canât help himself, makes you want to remove his eyes with one of your knives and wear them as a warning to anyone else who dares look at Sylus with such depraved, cruel desire.
âPlace the winning bid and maybe youâll find out,â you say coyly, somehow controlling your homicidal urges. Barely.
âSomething to consider.â He shakes his head, as if trying to break the spell Sylus seems to have over him. âIn any case, after a while, all these events start blurring together. May I buy you a drink, to thank you for dumping new blood in the water?â
This guy is the pinnacle of rich guy ennui. He probably would enjoy dog fights or hunting other people for sport, anything to break through his privileged, seen-it-all, can-buy-it-all numbness. Despite sharing the same status of filthy rich elite, this piece of shit is everything that Sylus isnât. You want to hunt him for sport. Your nerves are fraying, and itâs getting harder and harder to maintain your composure.
âShame, I just ordered a drink.â
He leans closer, invades your space.
âWhy not indulge? You can have two drinks. And after, perhaps youâd like to show me just what your cat can do⊠a sort of preview, if you will.â He leans even closer, tilts his head as if a new thought has just occurred to him. âIs there perhaps a possibility of bidding for the pair, instead of just the butler?â
You realize that heâs propositioning you as well as your catboy butler, but the fury you feel at the idea of using Sylus for this fuckheadâs viewing pleasure overrides even your indignation at the insinuation that you, too, are for sale.
Suddenly Sylusâs warmth is at your back and the effect is immediate. Your murderous rage settles inside of you. You turn to him, lift an eyebrow like the imperious owner youâre supposed to be, slightly irritated at your servantâs interruption of⊠whatever this asshole at the bar thinks heâs getting away with. âSpeak,â you command, imitating the most imperious man you know. Sylus, as he has done the entire duration of your appearance in public on this ship, does not react at all to your obvious inside joke.
âMy owner,â he purrs deferentially, dipping his head. âYou asked that I escort you back to your cabin at 21:00 in order to properly prepare for the bidding.â
The assholeâs gaze drifts from Sylus to you and back again. âA possessive cat, I see. What will he do, when his owner abandons him to another?â
You shrug, as if you donât want to pull this guyâs tongue out of his mouth and garrotte him with it.
âAs I said, buy him and find out,â you breathe through the nausea, trying desperately to stay in characterâyou are the same ilk as this guy, here to pawn your broken, loyal manservant onto anyone who can afford him. âBut heâs right. Thank you for the interesting ⊠offer, but the auction is about to begin. Tick tock, tick tock.â
âYouâre a very good salesperson,â he smirks, as if pleased with the idea of depriving Sylus of his beloved owner and seeing if he can bend him to his will. You canât see why you ever thought him handsome at all. âA raincheck, then, on the drink, and perhaps your own company.â
You just lower your head slightly, barely suppressing the urge to put this man on the ground and punch his smug smile until he is permanently unrecognizable, and the intensity of your renewed desire to hurt him for daring to even look at Sylus has you reaching for Sylusâs arm for support. He tucks your hand into his elbow and leads you out of the lounge.
When you finally reach your first class cabin on this pretentious floating black market, however, you see the strain that his flawless behavior has placed on your miscreant boyfriend.
As soon as the door closes behind you, he growls, deep in his throat, and spins, grabbing your wrist. He pulls you more roughly than usual through the elegant sitting roomâthe place looks like the interior designer was trying to recreate the staterooms of the Titanicâto the bedroom. Without letting go of your wrist, he yanks the scarlet velvet duvet and crisp white sheets from the bed and dumps them on the floor. The ocean glitters under the bright moonlight outside the bedroomâs window, the salt scent strong. The bed successfully stripped, Sylus now tries to jerk you onto the mattress, but you dig your heels into the plush carpet, feet dragging because despite your own strength, you canât match his. You jerk your wrist from his grasp and whirl on him. You are willing to die for him, but you arenât going to let him manhandle you like this.
âWhat is wrong with you?â you demand, rubbing your wrist.
âIf I still had my evol, youâd be on the bed.â His voice is still calm, but his tail flicks angrily.
âIf you still had your evol, I hope you wouldnât use it on me when youâre this upset,â you glare at him.
He doesnât respond, just begins to pace. Around the bed. Back into the sitting room. He veers into the bathroom and then returns to the bedroom. The anxious energy heâs giving off is palpableâyouâve never seen him this agitated in the entire time youâve known him.
The longer heâs quiet, the more concerned you become.Â
âSylus?â you ask, softly. âAre you okay?â
âOh, Iâm Sylus again? Not Mister fucking Whiskers?â
You stare at him. Your boyfriend, who is always up for teasing pet names and playful banter, is looking at you like heâs genuinely angry about the silly code name.
âSylusâ?â
His tail is thrashing back and forth as he continues to pace, ears flat against his hair. âAre you sure youâre interested in hearing how Mister Whiskers is doing now? You didnât seem to be too interested when you were being fawned over by your suitors.â
You stare at him. At the tension heâs holding in his body, the wild movements of his tail.
âSylusââ
âThis was a boring plan to begin with, and now itâs even less interesting. You already have a mountain of gifts from my biddersâleave. Go through them to see if Snowy Owl has taken the bait so we can get this charade over with,â he snaps, effectively dismissing you. He sits on the side of the bed and puts his head in his hands.
With each harsh word, you feel your insides folding in on themselves. He hasnât spoken to you like this since he held you captive when you first met. He promised heâd never treat you like that again, but you realize he never promised to never speak to you like that again.
Normally, how heâs talking to youâif it were any other person, youâd be out the door. Gone, ghosted. You speak to yourself cruelly enough every day in your own head, you donât need that shit from other people. Youâre even more shocked that itâs coming from Sylus, of all people. The Sylus who has cared for you so patiently, through all the time youâve been together since that first auction. Who kills with his bare hands, but touches you with those same hands as if youâre made of glass. Until tonight.
You are tempted to run as the betrayal, confusion, and fear of the inevitable end course through you. To just stuff the gifts waiting for you on the sitting roomâs coffee table into one of the big duffels you brought, move to another room, and wing the rest of the operation without Sylus. You can pose as a fucking waiter once you figure out Snowy Owlâs identity. You donât need him for this mission. And you donât need him in your fucking life, if this is his true self.
As youâre almost to the door leading to the hallway, reaching for the handle, you suddenly remember your promise to yourself, just a few nights agoâthe night Sylus came to your place and you learned why he had gone silent for a whole week.
Your resolution that you wouldnât give in to your fear at his expense anymore, that you would show him you care for him, just as he has done so for you through all of your time together. Even when he witnessed your worst moments, he did not walk away from you. He stayed, even as you pushed him away.
You think about how he was afraid for you to see him stripped of his power, as if youâd ever think him weak, and think less of him for something outside of his control. If I still had my evol, youâd be on the bed. How unnerving must it be for him to be in this sharkâs tank without his ability to protect himself beyond his own body? It suddenly occurs to you that if he gets injured while his power is suppressed, he wonât heal like he normally does. The idea that he could get seriously hurt while here, helping you on a mission that has nothing to do with him, hurts a hundred times worse than the words he just snapped at you.
Werenât you just furious with that fuck from the cocktail lounge for talking about Sylus like he was an object, instead of a person? Sylus is a human being. Heâs not a god. Heâs not perfect. Heâs just a complicated man, a complicated man who hurt you with his harsh words tonight, but who has steadfastly shown how much he cares for you in the best way he knows how. Who could be expected to act normally, to be their best self, if one were to find oneself fundamentally changed, stripped of a lifetime of skill and ability, experiencing strange new urges, and to top it all off, thrown into a dangerous situation?Â
You turn and walk back through the sitting room, to the bedroom where heâs sitting, head still in his hands. You stand in front of him.
âSylus.â
He doesnât respond. You reach out, gently grip his chin, and lift his face.
He lets you, docile. His cat ears are drooping.
âTell me,â you order.
He refuses to look at you. His tail swishes petulantly behind him.Â
âTell. Me.â You tighten your hold on his jaw.
His eyes flick to yours, but he keeps his face turned away. âCaracalâs hate water.â
You gaze into his beautiful eyes, fire-lit gems. âAnd a caracal is the type of cat that youâve partly mutated into?â
He nods, just a little movement of his head.
âAnd I brought you onto a boat, surrounded by water.â
He finally turns his head to face you, gazing at you but not responding.
âWhat else?â You relax your hold on his jaw, moving your palm to cup his cheek and bring up your other hand into his hair, running your fingers through the soft strands.
âEach person who shook your hand, who handed you their business card, who leaned too close to you⊠their stench is all over you.â
You run your fingers through his hair until you reach one of his cat ears and gently begin to rub it. He closes his eyes and he leans into your touch.
âWhat else?â
âIf this plan goes sideways, I wonât be able to protect you.â
With each admission, his shoulders relax. His face softens. But thereâs still something bothering him. You search his beautiful face. His tail flicks, flicks, flicks.
âWhat else, Sy?â You lean down, rest your cheek against his soft hair. His ears are velvet against your skin.
He reaches out and clasps the backs of your thighs to pull you closer to him and rests his forehead against your chest. âEven if itâs just for the mission, are you really okay with letting someone else have me?â
It takes you a moment, but when you realize what heâs saying, youâre floored.Â
Sylus has spent the whole evening watching you laugh off multiple peoplesâ offers to take over ownership of your catboy butler. He watched you tell that little bitch at the bar, more than once, to buy Sylus to find out how obedient he is, how heâll react to being parted from his beloved owner. Each time, you responded in character, like the idea didnât bother you at all. Because thatâs what the mission required.Â
You realize that this entire ordeal has made him insecure. He wants you to be jealous. He wants you to be possessive of him. The thought never once crossed your mind that he would be bothered by the cover you planned for this mission. He is always so self-assured, only hinting at flashes of jealousy in playful, dismissive terms. And yet he doesnât want you to be okay with the idea of him being possessed by another, no matter how briefly, no matter how falsely.
You continue to pet him as you let everything he just admitted sink in. The water, other peoplesâ scents on your body, his lack of power at the moment, your lack of jealousy at the mere idea that another would have him.
After all the times Sylus has comforted you, cared for you, solved problems for you, itâs now your turn to do the same for him.
You drop your hands and he looks back up at you with such raw longing that you almost canât step away. But you must.
âWould you like to abort the mission?â
He looks at you in confusion. âDonât be ridiculous. This is your job.â
You smile down at him helplessly. âDonât you realize by now that youâre more important to me than my job?â
He sucks in a breath.
âHow else could I be with the most wanted man on the planet?â
âThe only reason I have been able to repress my instincts through this whole shitshow is reminding myself how important this mission is to you,â he breathes, closing his eyes.
âYour instincts?â
âYou have no idea,â he says through clenched teeth. His tail is violently flicking again. You canât bear to see him so distressed.
âYes or no. Forget what you think I want. If itâs too much, we leave right now.â
Eyes still closed, ears still flattened to his head, he shakes his head no.
âOkay.â You turn, but he reaches out and grabs your wrist to stop you leaving. You put your hand over his. âSince I canât remove the ship from the water, Iâm just closing the window and the curtains so you donât have to see it.â
He reluctantly releases your wrist. You do as you promised, and when youâre done you return to stand between his legs.
âWhat do you need to do about how I smell?â
You donât have to repeat yourself. He grasps your wrist again, pulling your closer. He grabs the hem of your outfit and pulls, tugging it over your head, lifting your legs one by one to tear off your shoes, tossing everything into the farthest corner of the room, until youâre standing in front of him in your underwear. He then pulls you down onto the bed with him, rolling you under him. He presses his face into your neck and rubs, rubs, his tail wagging behind him, his ears brushing against your skin again, their softness making you want to grab them and pull, pull, the cuteness aggression difficult to contain. You satisfy yourself by running your hands through his hair, gripping slightly, tugging, releasing.
As he rubs his cheeks all over you, he pauses to lick your skin, runs his hands along your shoulders, your arms, your waist.
After a long time, his manic movements slow and he inhales deeply. âYou have no idea how hard it was to resist the urge to piss on your shoes while you were talking to that bastard in the cocktail lounge.â
You freeze. âPiss⊠on my shoes?â
âDidnât you know? Cats urinate to mark their territory,â he licks your skin again, purrs. âAnd youâre my territory, sweetheart.â
You donât even know how to feel about his admission. âWell⊠I might be willing to die for you, but I draw the line at letting you pee on me. So thank you, for not giving in to your caracal urges.â
He pauses, lifts his head. âDonât fucking say youâll die, ever again,â he growls. âI forbid it.â
You laugh, a little breathlessly. You decide itâs not a good time to point out that you will, in fact, someday die. Probably sooner than the average human, with your job. So you just say âOkay.â
He looks mollified and his tail begins to swish playfully again. âSo thatâs a no on watersports, in the future?â
You scowl at him. âJust try to piss on me and see what happens.â
âThat sounds like a challenge. And you know thatâs like catnip to this big cat. Are you sure you arenât actually interested in golden showers?â
All you can do is laugh, and pull him down to you, and kiss him so heâll shut the fuck up about peeing on you.
After a few minutes of mauling him, you groan and pull away.
âIf we donât want this entire thing to be a waste, we need to check the contacts we made today and finish the mission before the auction is over.â
He rests his head against your shoulder. âI know, but I donât want to get off you. No one can hurt you as long as youâre under me,â he grumbles.
You stare at the ceiling and run your hands through his hair again, fondling his cat ears. âI survived before I met you, because Iâm a fucking badass. Iâm strong enough for the both of us, especially for a covert mission like this. We go through the business cards and gifts, pinpoint Snowy Owlâs room, you distract them for ten minutes while I plant surveillance, we get the fuck out before the auctionâs over.â
âYou and I both know how quickly plans get fucked,â he murmurs into your skin.
âAnd you and I both know that I am skilled enough to unfuck it. And with you here, even without your evol, itâs going to be okay.â
His tail lifts, curls up your leg.
âFine.â He rolls off of you reluctantly, and you immediately miss his weight. âBut the reward for going along with your plan is now tripled.â
âYou can have anything you want, when this is over,â you promise, sliding off the bed and gathering your clothes from the floor.
âEven a golden shower?â
You throw your shoe at him. He just catches it and laughs, relaxed again.
After youâre dressed, the two of you tear into the gifts people sent hoping to gain your favor and therefore an advantage in the auction for your catboy butler. Sylus, the spoiled creature that he is, tosses multiple priceless trinkets aside like theyâre trash, complaining about being bored out of his mind. However, he bats at a feathered butt plug before realizing what heâs doing and then tosses it as well. The only other thing he expresses even a passing interest in is a little spray can with DOCTOR SLEEPYTIME printed on the side, with the caption reading, âA stalkerâs new best friend! Never worry about your target waking up too early again! Ten fewer side effects than chloroform!â You squint at it. The legal disclaimers are a solid block of text underneath the caption. Apparently, one of the side effects that it still shares with chloroform is death. You donât comment when you see Sylus slip it into the breast pocket of his tux, not even wanting to know what he has planned for it. Finally, you open a small box and realize that the weird little thing inside matches the description the Association provided you of Snowy Owlâs calling card.
âGot you,â you whisper triumphantly, pawing through the packaging to figure out which room it came from.
Sylus stands, prepared to play his part in this little ruse, but you stop him before he opens the door. âWait a second,â you say, running to the bedroom, throwing open your luggage in the cabinâs closet, and pulling out what you had hastily prepared in anticipation of this mission.
You return to Sylus with the item hidden behind your back.
âYou asked if Iâm really okay with the idea of sending you to someone else.â
He just watches you in silence, ears twitching in curiosity, tail swishing behind him.
âOf course Iâm not. You donât know how badly I wanted to slit that fuckerâs throat who talked about you like youâre not even a person. I feel sick at the idea of anyone else looking at you with anything less than respect and admiration, let alone as some kind of object to be owned. I canât even stand the thought that I own you. You are wholly your own person, and Iâm just happy that you want me by your side, and allow me to adore you.â
His tail swishes faster the longer you speak, but stills at your last sentence. âBut you do own me. Body and soul.â
You swallow through the thickness in your throat. Youâre not going to cry at his absurd, devoted answer.
âThen perhaps you will do me the honor of wearing this while weâre apart.â You show him the soft black leather collar. âIt can only be placed on you, and taken off you, by a person whose pheromones match those of your owner. Your true owner.â
âSo this was your trump card,â he murmurs, tail thwacking against the door so hard that the door vibrates.
You shrug. âYou donât have to wear it.â
He flattens his ears against his head. âNonsense. Put it on me,â he commands imperiously.
You try to hide your smile, but probably fail. âIn that case, I hope it will remind you that I am definitely not okay with sending you to someone else. But none of this is real, and when weâre off this boat, Iâm never going to ask you to do something like this again.â
He reaches out and wraps his hand around your wrist. âHow many times must we go over this? You can ask anything of me.â
âJust because I can, doesnât mean I want to.â
Without waiting for his answer, you unclasp the collar and lift onto your tiptoes to thread it around his neck. He growls softly, in annoyance or exasperation, and sinks to his knees in front of you.
As always when Sylus kneels before you, youâre overcome with a sense of wrongness. But he seems to want to give this to you, to drive home the point that anything he has is yours for the taking. You canât find it in yourself to refuse him by insisting that you could have reached his neck just fine without him having to kneel.
You lay the collar against his neck, thread the end through the buckle, and tighten it. His eyes are half-lidded, the glow of his irises spilling from between his eyelashes. He seems to be enjoying this so much that you tighten it just a little bit beyond what is necessary, just to see his reaction. He lets out a pathetic little gasp, and you loosen it, worried youâve hurt him. But his chest expands and his ears droop, almost as if heâs disappointed. So you tighten it again. âYes,â he breathes.Â
You stand there, with this gorgeous, half-feral man at your feet, fingering the pendant of the collar. You couldnât afford the platinum that you think Sylus deserves, so silver had to do. But you did splurge a little to have your initials engraved on the inner side of the pendant, so that itâs pressed against his skin where no one else can see it. Your little secret against his pulse.
âWe need to get moving, Sy,â you whisper, regretfully.
He rises gracefully to his feet.
âIf you want it taken off, just ask.â
He gives you a disdainful look, his only response a tsking sound on his tongue. He leans down, kisses you, once, hard, and then straightens. He turns, throws open the door, and disappears down the hallway.
The rest of the mission goes off without a hitch. When you arrive at Snowy Owlâs door, you pick the lock easily, slip into the empty room, leave a variety of tracking devices in their possessions, and slip out again unseen.
You return to your room, prepared to wait for Sylus, trying to suppress the worry that heâll have to put up with yet another handsy asshole all because he doesn't want to jeopardize your mission.
However, when you open the door, you find your big, beautiful cat already lounging on one of the sitting roomâs ornate love seats, examining his nails and humming leisurely.
At his feet is the asshole from the cocktail lounge, bound, gagged, and clearly roughed up, his bloody nose dripping into the fabric of his mouth gag.
âThe fuck, Sylus?â you ask.
Sylus rolls his head to look at you, lovely eyes glowing in the light of the tiffany lamps on the tables on either side of the love seat.
âI brought a gift for my owner,â he says, ears twitching between you and the asshole who started to struggle at your entrance, making little pleading whimpering noises. âI could tell how much you hated this waste of oxygen the whole time you had to endure his attention at the bar.â
âA⊠gift?â you repeat.
âYou have no idea the self control it took to suppress the instinct to bring him to you as a corpse, as nature intended, when I was done playing with him. But I assumed that would make my owner mad,â he says languidly, but his tail is flicking in agitation.
âOkay,â you draw out the word, trying to process this⊠gift. âAnd Snowy Owl?â
âPassed out in a janitorâs closet in the shipâs casino,â he shrugs. âDoctor Sleepytime is true to its claims. A great improvement over chloroform,â he drawls. âIâll have to leave a good review on their website.â
Relief floods through you. Youâre done. The mission is almost complete. All thatâs left is to get the fuck off this floating cesspool.
âThank you,â you murmur. But youâre still left with the problem of what to do with Sylusâs âgift.â âBut Sy, what the fuck am I supposed to with⊠this.â You canât help but sneer a little at the asshole still struggling on the ground.
âWhatever you want, my heart,â Sylus responds. âHeâs wanted in Linkon City by at least three different agencies. But we could just dump him over the railing and be done with it. In fact, Iâd prefer that,â he says, perking up.
You march over to him and slip a finger under his collar.
âNo! Bad kitty,â you scold, pulling a little on the leather, intending to simply tease him for his outrageous suggestion.
Sylus just gasps, eyes going half lidded again. You stop in surprise at the clear pleasure your rough treatment is causing him, but he wraps his hand around your wrist and moves your hand again, tightening the collar against his neck once more.
âIf Iâm a bad kitty, you better keep a tight hold on me to make sure I donât drag home any other unwelcome surprises,â he says, voice low and rough.
âOh?â You marvel at how lovely he looks, cheeks flushed, mouth slightly open, breathing hard. âMaybe my bad kitty needs to be punished, so he stops suggesting I murder wanted criminals instead of bringing them to justice like a professional.â
The man on the floor who is forced to witness this flirtation struggles harder, his whimpers ranging from disgusted to terrified. You ignore him.
âOh nooo,â Sylus says, voice dripping with sarcasm. Then he narrows his eyes. âYou better make good on your promise. Or are you just full of empty threats?â
You lean down and press the heel of your hand onto his hard cock straining against his zipper, hard. He moans, eyelashes fluttering.
âGet us to the getaway boat without causing a scene and youâll find out what Iâm full of. Or what Iâm about to be full of, if youâre a good kitty for me,â you breathe into his ear.
The man on the floor gags a little.
Sylus stands, lifting you in one arm, grabbing a full duffel bag you hadnât noticed with the other.
âWhatâs that?â
âYour bad kitty helped himself to a cat treat,â he purrs.
âWhat kind of souvenir?â
âThe loud, prone-to-exploding-if-you-shake-it-too-hard-kind.â He grins at you, canines flashing.
You canât help yourself. You burst out laughing.
It may have started with trouncing your crimelord boyfriend at kitty cards, but it ended with you learning how to better care for your catboy boyfriend. It also ended with the arrest of both Snowy Owl and the poor bastard who had to listen to you 'punish' said boyfriend from inside the duffel bag that he was stuffed in after Sylus cut the engine of the getaway boat halfway to your destination, too impatient to wait till you both got home to claim part of his reward for being such a good, good kitty.
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@lunariadew asked: 'Can you write a poly fic maby like a feel good fic or date night or something with all the boys! Iâm greedy and I think thereâs not enough poly fics as there should be'
Nothing profound this time around! Just some good old-fashioned shenanigans. I've wanted to do a fic with all the boys for SO long (Infold, hire me to write a sitcom-style show for the guys, PLEASE) I've kept it platonic since it's early stages; it's open to interpretation about how many sparks are flying and between whom exactly..... đ But if ppl want more of this, I'm all over it. Platonic or romantic? I'll play it by ear!
Game Night
L&DS Boys X Reader
Summary: The most important men in your life can manage one evening together, right? For you? Please? Pretty please?
Genre: Fluff + humour
Warnings/Additional Tags: f!reader, some swearing, a lil conflict, non-canon (I know some of the guys probably know each-other but we're pretending they don't đ)
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Disclaimer: Characters belong to Love and Deepspace. All work is my own, so please don't repost or plagiarise!
âRafayel⊠what do you think this is?â
The artist stands at your open door, wearing a self-assured smile and one of the flashier outfits youâve seen him in, and thatâs really saying something. Between you is a bouquet of lilies, petals curled like frozen licks of fire that complimentâ deliberately, if you had to guessâ the warmer fires within his eyes. Those eyes narrow at your question.
âWhat do you think it is?â he says suspiciously, lowering the flowers.
ââŠGame night?â
Youâre not sure why you phrase it so tentatively. You know what it is; youâre the host. You open your door wider, stepping aside to give Rafayel a better view of the apartment behind you, and the remainder of his smile sinks.
âHi,â Xavier calls out, and you donât have to see him to know heâs giving a wholesome sort of wave.
âHiâŠâ Rafayel answers, barely more than a whisper as his eyes flit between everyone else in the room, because heâs the last to arrive. âGame night, yeah,â he nods assertively, âI knew that.â Then a deep breath: âCan I, like, put these somewhereââ
âKitchen counter,â you gesture.
âGot it.â He doesnât have to be told twice.
Closing the door behind him, you watch as he skirts past the lounge and makes for your kitchen, where another bouquet already lies waiting. He zeroes in on it. âLooks like mineâs not the only heart youâre breaking tonight, huh, cutie? What are theseââ he pokes at a petalâ âdaturas?â
âTheyâre her favourite,â speaks a distinctly low voice.
Rafayel doesnât look up. He plonks his bouquet on top of the other and winces: âTheyâre really not, though.â
âHeâs right,â you chip in, giving Sylus a sheepish smile, and now Rafayel looks up, beaming.
âShe likes roses,â Zayne says, with the calm confidence heâd quote a medical journal. On the sofa beside him, Xavier nods, and you grin at them both.
âNoted,â Sylus chuckles.
Rafayelâs less convinced. âSince when?!â
âSince forever, Raf. I like lilies too, so I didnât say anything, âkay?â You beckon him back to the lounge, ignoring his splutters of disbelief. âCâmere, let me introduce you to everyone.â
The man slinks to your side like a reluctant shadow, and your hands find your hips. âThis is Zayne. Xavier,â you point out, putting faces to names; Rafayelâs heard stories about each. Then you nod towards Sylus. âOver thereâs Skye.â
From his place by the window, Sylus lifts a hand in greeting.
âSo⊠yeah,â you finish. Oh, wait! âGuys, this isââ
âThey know who I am,â Rafayel shrugs, his fame apparently heavy on his shoulders. He glances around the room for validation, but he gets none, so he tries again. âYou do know who I am, right?â
âSorry,â Xavier admits with an awkward smile, glancing back at Sylus: you?
The man has to think about it. You know for a fact heâs traded more than one of Rafayelâs paintings for a profit, but he smirks and gives an even more exaggerated shrug than the artist himself.
Really?
âYouâre Rafayel,â Zayne states plainly.
âYeah! See, I told you, cutieââ
âYou slipped on a paintbrush and checked yourself into Akso, right? The nurses still talk about it.â
Rafayelâs enthusiasm drains. He looks conflicted as he mulls over the additional information. âIn, like, a good way?â he hazards.
Zayne stares back at him, wielding silence like a scalpel before cutting deeper with a: ââŠsure.â
You bite back a smile. Leaving the two to discuss the finer details of Rafayelâs notoriety at the hospital, you wander over to the kitchen, where you fish out a vase from the back of a cupboard. You fill it, set it down on the counter, then reach for Sylusâs bouquet. Thereâs a black satin ribbon; you untie it.
âAre you sure this is a good idea, sweetie?â asks the man himself, joining you discreetly.
The others canât really hear youâ theyâre still talking. âWhat,â you smirk, retrieving your scissors from a drawer, âyou worried Xavierâs gonna arrest you?â
Sylus laughs lowly, quietly. âThatâs adorable.â
âGood.â You pick up a flower and trim a leaf from the stem. âBecause even if he wanted toââ you wave it, just short of his faceâ âIâd protect you, ok?â
He regards the flower beneath his nose. Smiles smugly. âThese can be toxic, sweetie.â
âReally? Whoops.â You put it down, then snatch up a lily from Rafayelâs bouquet. âEn Garde!â
âThese too.â
âWhat the hell?â
The flame-red flower drops from your fingers, and Sylus laughs more sincerely. âStick to roses, kitten. OrâŠâ He moves his hand over his deconstructed bouquet, his Evol pruning the rest of the leaves from the stems. A tendril of it gathers the flowers, delivering them to him so he can hold them out to you with a flourish. âLive dangerously. Who am I to judge?â
You take them, then plop them into the vase. âCute.â
âIâm here all week,â he grins. âYouâd better wash your hands, hmm?â
With a hmph of agreement, you turn to the sink. You spend half a minute, rubbing soap and warm water over your hands, and when you turn back aroundâ still drying themâ something is different. The lilies are gone. Sylus is looking at you, innocuous.
âReal mature, Skye.â
He makes no effort to defend himself. Youâre about to tell him that his magic better extend to making flowers reappear when your attention is whipped back to the lounge. The voices from that side have raised, so you lean forward on your kitchen island, watching their owners in a sort of stakeout.
âI take it you have a plan,â Sylus whispers, leaning with you.       Â
You look at him. He looks back. âThe plan is for hosts,â you scold, ânot guests.â Heâs much too close so you step away, reaching for the vase of daturas and holding them threateningly out, like youâre not afraid to use them. âGo back to the guests, deserter.â
Sylus lifts his hands in surrender, smirking in a way that says he knows heâs met his match. You shoo him further, back into enemy lines, then resume your stakeout. Xavier is sharing his own âembarrassingâ medical storyâ talking about a time where he once passed out from exhaustion while fighting at your side, and you think itâs supposed to make Rafayel feel better.
It doesnât, of course, and even Zayne is gazing down at the floor, self-conscious.
Sylus meets your eyes across the room, signals with a tip of his head: now's a good time for that master plan, sweetie.
Right. Your plan. Your master plan, yeah.
âŠ
âYou should have picked the doctor.â
Sylusâs words are near-silent: for you, not anyone else, and you pretend you donât hear them. âBut no,â he carries on, because he knows you can, âyou just had to have the artist.â
âItâs Pictionary!â you snap, drawing all eyes in the room.
Lounging beside you, Sylus feigns an amused surprise, as though he hasnât just been trying to illicit that exact reaction. On the other sofa, Zayne and Xavier stare, taken more genuinely aback. You give a smile of apology.
âGuys, concentrate!â Rafayel clicks his fingers at you. Heâs stood in the centre of the space by a large drawing pad, and he goes back to frantically sketching on it. The drawing is⊠interesting. Abstract. Maybe even beautiful? But you donât have a clue what it is.
âThirty seconds,â warns Zayne, studying the little egg-timer heâs guarding.
You tilt your head at the drawing. Thereâs maybe aâ wait, where did those extra colours come from? Where did he even get those pens? Anyway⊠thereâs a circle. âA globe?â you guess. âEarth! No? Umm⊠oh! The sun! The moon!â
Rafayel shakes his head with every suggestion, adding even more intricate, unhelpful scribbles. Is that a fifth pen?! You nudge your other teammate, calling for back-up.
Sylus regards the drawing listlessly. âA unicorn.â
âWhat?!â Rafayelâs tone has reached a pitch that almost makes you wince. âNo! Câmon, are you even trying?â
âNo,â Sylus lilts with a pleasant smile, lifting the drink heâs been nursing to his lips.
You kick his foot. âA bowl of fruit!â you exclaim, determined to make up for the lack of enthusiasm. âA plate? A plate with food? Breakfast! Lunch! Dinner!â
âTimeâs up,â Zayne interrupts, and itâs a mercy, really; you deflate with a sigh.
Rafayel puts his hands on his hips as he takes a step back to observe his work. He tucks four fine-liners back into his pocketâ purses his lips as though he really canât see a problemâ and heâs keeping you all in suspense.
Sylus is up in an instant, stealing a card from where itâs been discarded on the coffee table. He reads the answer, then rolls his eyes. The original pen was also abandoned, so he plucks it up, then strides to the drawing pad.
He draws an oval. Then a triangle.
âA fish! A fish!â you cry out.
âYouâre good at this, sweetie,â Sylus grins. He puts the lid on the pen with a click before dropping it into Rafayelâs hand.
âIs it my turn?â Xavier asks, trying to relieve the tension of the room. He gets up and smiles as Rafayel passes him the pen. âYour drawing is pretty. The composition is reallyââ
âDonât,â Rafayel says. âLike, thanks? But donât.â
âFair enough,â Xavier chuckles.
You all prepare for the next round: Zayne handing you the egg-timer, Xavier re-organising the stack of prompt cards. Sylus takes a photo of the drawing pad before ambling back overâ a moping Rafayel in towâ and they both sink down either side of you. You glance at the latter, giggling. âA fish, Raf? Really?â
âSo I didnât just wanna draw you some basic fish, ok?â The artist crosses his arms with a pout. âBut fine, enjoy mediocrity, I guess.â
To your left, Sylus raises his glass in toast to the notion. Thereâs a noise: Xavier tearing the used page from the pad. You look up. âXavier, can I have that?â
âSure.â He brings it over to you.
You look at the drawing again, holding it at armâs length and rotating it experimentally. Youâre seeing a lot, but nothing that screams âfishâ. Thereâs a circle, still. Oh! âItâs a fish bowl! Wait, wait, waitâ is that Reddie?â
âYeah!â Rafayel beams.
âAww!â
The renewed team spirit drops off with Sylus; heâs on his phone, not paying attention. He seems to sense your scrutiny because he peers up, gives a ghost of a smile, then returns to whatever heâs doing. Meanwhile, Xavier is ready for his turn, so he signals for you to start the timer. You give him a thumbs up as you turn it over. âGo!â
He starts drawing.
âA car,â Zayne guesses after all of five seconds. Correct. Next. âA river? No. Oh. A snake.â Yes. âA cupcake?â Also yes. (In fairness, he was never going to struggle with that one.) âA person? Ok. Oh, a scientist, no? Ah, a doctor.â Yes again, and reallyâ what?
Zayne continues to list correct answers, though thankfully, thatâs the last of the coincidences. You watch on, vaguely in awe, until you feel your phone buzz in your pocket. You check it casually, aware that Sylus is next to you, looking down at it too.
Itâs a text from him: The drawing⊠Can I have it?
You glance up at him subtly, meeting his eyes and giving a discreet yet firm shake of your head. He frowns. Youâre not having this debate here, now, so you let your gaze return to the drawing pad while idly retrieving your drink.
A few seconds later, thereâs another text: Found buyer
Then another: Quarter of a mil
You almost choke on that drink.
âUmm⊠cutie?â Rafayel asks, poking you. He points at the timer youâve left on the coffee table, and the top half is empty.
âShit, yeah. Thatâs time!â you call.
Xavier stops drawing. The small, crude sketches behind him have reached double digits. He looks really proud. âGreat! How many was that?â
His eyes find you. Zayne and Rafayelâs, too. Were you supposed to be counting? Uhâ
âEleven,â says Sylus, and itâs way too smug to be a lie.
âAwesome!â Xavier flips the drawing pad over to where youâve been tallying point totals. He adds eleven marks to one side. âThatâsââ he counts bothâ âah, thirty-three to nine.â
A silence falls over the room. Unsure of what else to do, you give a half-hearted round of applause and Xavier laughs awkwardly, still humble, despite it all. âI think weâre kinda done with Pictionary, yeah?â you suggest, rising from your seat. âI should probably get started on food, anyway.â
âOh, donât worry about that.â
The insistence came from Xavier, and you freeze suspiciously; heâs never turned down free food.
âYouâve already done so much,â he explains, âsetting this all up for us. You should relax, really! Leave it to me.â
The word ârelaxâ is not synonymous with the image of Xavier anywhere near your kitchen, but heâs looking at you so earnestly, blue eyes brimming with warmth, and what are you supposed to say? No thanks, Xavierâ I value my life? Everyoneâs watching you. Gods help you. âThatâs really sweet, Xavier. Thanks.â
Your fellow Hunterâs smile widens even more. He heads off to the kitchen, a spring to his step that makes your heart sink with dread. âActuallyââ you glance at your ex-teammatesâ âcould you two go help him? Zayne and Iâll tidy up over here.â
Rafayel and Sylus do as theyâre asked, even though their expressions remind you that cooking is not, typically, a three-man job. Itâs tactical, though. You wanted a moment alone with Zayne. âAre you ok?â you ask, once the others are out of earshot. âI know this must all be a lot. The guys can be, well⊠yeah.â
He knows what you mean, right?
Zayne has slipped away from the couch; heâs crouched on the floor, collecting a few prompt cards that have wandered astray. He glances up at you, pushing his glasses back on his nose. âIâm ok,â he assures with a fond smile. âThank you, though.â
âYouâre welcome.â He hands you the cards and you slot them back into their deck. Then you turn to the drawing pad. âYou and Xavier make a good team, huh?â
The doctor straightens to his full height. âMmm. It helped that we didnât spend the entire game comparing the size of our⊠drawing abilities.âÂ
You laugh unashamedly. The penâs still at-hand, so you pick it upâ reward another point.
Zayne chuckles.
âFoodâs gonna be a while.â
You both turn, following the voice back to Sylus, who has apparently decided heâs had his fill of kitchen duty. What was thatâ a minute? He seems to have anticipated your dissatisfaction, because heâs brought a bribe with him: the box of chocolates that had come with his bouquet. Itâs already open and he holds it out, tempting you.
Heâs rightâ you donât know when youâll next be eatingâ so you select a heart-shaped chocolate, popping it into your mouth with a smile and a muffled: âthanks.â
Sylus smiles back. Then he holds the box out to Zayne. âDoctor?â
It takes a nod of encouragement from you to prompt Zayne into taking something. He chooses a white chocolate truffle, mumbles his own thanks, but Sylus doesnât relentâ not yet. He shakes the box slightly, incitingly, and he doesnât move it away until Zayne takes two more.
Your physician shoots you a surreptitious smile as Sylus falls back onto the couch, content heâs won your hearts, and that he wonât be sent back to the kitchen anytime soon. His long fingers lift another chocolate from the box, and he meets your eyes as he slips it slowly past his lips, humming likes heâs enjoying himself.
You cross your arms, unimpressed. He gives you the least convincing look of innocence youâve ever seen.
Thereâs an exclamation from the kitchen: âHey, where did my flowers go!?âÂ
Shit. You hastily push the drawing pad aside then scurry over to assist Rafayel. You donât have a plan, exactly; itâs not like you can help him look for them. âUmm⊠theyâre around, Raf. I moved them somewhere safer, thatâs all.â
âWhere?â
âUhââ
âDoes it matter?â Sylus speaks from behind you, because he and Zayne are close at your heels. âShe said theyâre somewhere safe.â He leans on the kitchen island. âDonât you trust her?â
Rafayel scoffs. âI trust her plenty.â
âSo prove it. Drop it.â
âSkye,â you caution, âstop.â
Sylus does stop, but not because you asked. Heâs done enough already, hasnât he? Rafayel is bristling with indignanceâ a lit fuseâ and behind him, Xavier sneakily checks the trash can, looking relieved at what he doesnât find. He gives you a subtle glance: Where actually are the flowers?
You lift a shoulder an inch: Beats me!
Thereâs a soft, almost imperceptible crackle, and it draws your eyes to the vase of daturas between you all. Theyâve caught lightâ their petals twisting, darkening, within larger flowers of fire.
âRafayel!â you gasp. âNo, no, no, the fire alarm!â
The torched flowers are encased, all of a sudden, in a fine layer of shimmering frost. Sylus blinks down at them, unmoved by their destruction. Zayneâs hand is still outstretched, snowflakes etched over his palm. Then something⊠odd happens. The ice doesnât stop. It spreads over the rest of the kitchen island, to all of your bewilderment.
âZayne?â Your voice is fraught with worry, but you donât give a damn about your kitchen.
The man winces, and you so rarely see him out of control. The silver-white patterns have crawled up his wrist, and the ice continues to spread; even Sylus steps back. Sharp, jagged crystals start to formâ inching out towards everyone.
âZayne!â you try again.
His chest rises as he drags air through his teeth; it looks like it hurts, but the ice does stop. The others are still, suspended by momentary uncertainty, and you rush to Zayneâs side, taking his hand.
âWhat the hell was that?â Rafayel remarks, shaking away his surprise and thawing an icicle thatâs way too close for comfort.
âHe wouldnât have needed to use his Evol if you hadnât used yours.â
Itâs Xavier, strangelyâ you would have expected Sylus. The Hunterâs tone is gentle as always, but thereâs something behind it, this time: a frustration that lends an edge.
Rafayel hears it too. âHey, Iâm not the one who started this!â He points to Sylus. âHeââ
âHas been lighting fires all evening,â Xavier finishes. âBut at least his were only figurative.â
Sylus laughs, and itâs the kind of laugh where you just know heâs vying to make things worse. âLook at that,â he says, âthe boy next door can bite.â
Xavierâs eyes sharpen. Beside you, Zayne slips his hand from yours. Itâs an instinct you know well. This moment is volatile, and you have to be ready. It could go a dozen different ways; itâs just waiting for a spark.
âGuys,â you manage to get out, âplease, just⊠everyone, take a breath, ok? Everythingâs fine, we just have toââ
A spark.
Thereâs smoke. Actual smoke. âXavier, behind you!â Zayne alerts.
Itâs creeping out of the oven and Xavier turnsâ eyes wideâ to open its door before any of you can stop him. Thicker smoke billows out, filling the air, and you all scramble away from it. The fire alarm triggers. You think Rafayelâs shouting something, but you canât really hear him. Then Sylus is shouting. Maybe even Zayne. The alarm is piercing your ears and making you dizzyâ or is it the smoke?
You feel a hand on your shoulder and suddenly everything changes.
Thereâs cool air, brushing over your skin, and itâs dark; youâre outside the building. You can still hear the alarm, shrill but further away, and your window is easy to spot: thereâs a red light flashing behind it. Sylus leans into your vision, saying your name.
âStay here,â he tells you, âalright?â
Heâs gone in another moment, lost to a flicker of crimson-black darkness.
Gods, youâre so stupid.
âŠ
You sit on a short wall outside of your building, and the street is full of people. You recognise most of them: neighbours. Every single one is mad at you. Youâre all waiting for the alarm to cut outâ for the all-clear to be given. The fire wasnât that serious in the end, but thereâs still a procedure. You would know; this isnât exactly your first evacuation.
The guys are safe, which is good, because it means you can kill them later. Theyâve all gotten lost in the throng, and your neighbours can keep them. Maybe theyâll kill them for you. Â
âHey, cutie.â
You were staring down at your feet, but you look up at Rafayelâs voice. Heâs coming towards you, evoking a sense of dĂ©jĂ vu, because heâs clutching a bouquet of flame lilies. Thatâs⊠the bouquet of flame lilies. How?
âSkye gave âem back to me,â he explains, chuckling at your expression, and heâs close enough now to hold the flowers out to you. âI donât know where he was keeping them. His Evolâs weird, huh?â
âYeah,â you say timidly, taking the bouquet and gazing down into the petals; they still smell sweet.
Rafayel sits next to you, shuffling close, and he leans his head on your shoulder with a tired sigh. You want to be mad at him. You really, really doâ but youâre suddenly not.
âIâm sorry, Rafayel.â The admission barely makes it out of your throat.
You feel his head lift. âYouâre sorry?â
âI know it was just a misunderstanding,â you speak into the flowers, âbut tonight⊠wasnât what you were expecting, I get it. I mean, I kinda threw you into the deep end with all this. You didnât know you were gonna be around other people, and Iââ
âWhoaâ cut that out, yeah? Youâre killing me, cutie. I spend the whole evening causing trouble, and youâre gonna take all the blame? Nope. Not happening. It was a collaborative effort at least, ok?â
You giggle. âOk.â Â
âGood.â His head slumps back down on your shoulder, and yours tilts to rest against it. âThanks, though. Really,â he whispers, so quiet you almost donât notice.
Footsteps and familiar voices draw you from the intimacy of the moment. The others are wandering back to you, having finally escaped the veritable mob of your neighbours. They all look tired.
Xavier settles down on the other side of you, and Zayne sits beside him. Sylus takes a seat next to Rafayel with a huff, but heâs not half as unhappy as heâs pretending to be.
All of you sit in silence, gazes flitting between your windowâ where there are still glimpses of moving figuresâ and everyone else whoâs been evacuated. For the first time all evening, the quiet isnât tense. Itâs peaceful. Easy.
âWeâll do better next time,â Zayne speaks softly.
Next time? You scoff. âDo any of you actually want there to be a next time?â
âI had fun,â Sylus chuckles. Heâs taken his coin from his pocket, and he flips it, amusing himself.
âI had fun too,â Xavier grins.
âCooking again, Xavier?â quips one of your neighbours, as they happen to pass by.
The man beside you laughs, but you can tell itâs forced. Your hand finds his; you give it a little squeeze, letting him know that it wasnât his fault. His heart was in the right place. Itâs always in the right place.
You nudge Rafayel away from you so you can sit up straighter, your free hand rubbing your arm, caressing prickled skin. Youâre about to ask for a jacket when something heavy drapes over your shoulders. Itâs a coatâ still warmâ and its owner is stood behind you; you didnât even notice him get up.
âThanks, Sylus,â you smile.
All eyes turn to you. What are theyâ?
Oh.
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The pool | ao3 | my fanfic masterlist
Summary: You dream, you do some art, you go for a swim, Sylus destroys part of his office, you discover the hot tub, you're close to catching a clue. A 'morning' in the life at Onychinus HQ. Part 17 of the Sylus series.
Notes: Sylus x gn reader, Sylus x mc, second person POV, some Sylus POV MC is referred to by they/them pronouns as a placeholder for your preferred pronouns. This story contains: soft Sylus, embarrassed Sylus, fluff, angst, grief, profanity, mentions of self harm, self-destructive urges, mc with self esteem issues, obscene art, nudity, the twins being the twins
This is what it feels like. Lured to the edge. Balancing on the cliff. You probably know how it ends, before you even realize it's beginning. But the knowing doesn't stop you from leaning, leaning, until the gravity of the inevitable pulls you down into the fall.
Wet cobblestones, moss growing between the cracks. Fallen leaves, slick from the recent rain, gathered in the gutters, piled against the garden wall lining the uneven sidewalk. The scent of damp earth, and the pleasant smell of a wood-burning fire.
Night. Lamplight puncturing the dark at even intervals, marching into the distance. Each lit lamppost haloed by the mist, edges blurred. The muted light bathes everything in warm tones, a sunsetâs yellow. Beyond the pools of lightâan ocean of night.
Light rain makes no sound as it drifts to the ground, as it coats the hood drawn up over your hair. It would be bone-chilling, if the wind were blowing, but the nightâs air is still. You see your breath in puffs of white. You feel like you are the last person on the planet with how quiet the streets are. It is just you, the mist, your footsteps in the pools of light, the eddies of dark between.
You are reminded of the holidays with your gran and Caleb, the way the air smelled in winter, when you would emerge from the metro and walk the last few blocks to your grandmotherâs home. Hot, abundant holiday meals, the undercurrent of excitement in exchanging gifts. The scent of pine.Â
Winterâs dark nights, softened by the glow of your little family.
You donât know why youâre walking through this neighborhood, on this dark winter night. It doesnât matter, really. The woodfire, the leaves, the stillness of the mist. Linkon Cityâs streets are never this deserted, even in the middle of the night. The solitude is a welcome reprieve from the constant presence of other people, their existence weighing on your subconscious in a way that you only notice when itâs absentâa form of relief, of your breath coming easy for once.
To your left, the high garden wall of a residential building. To your right, a quiet street, stretching forward into the distance, disappearing into the night. On the other side of the street, darkness. You get the sense of open space. The lamplight, though not very bright, is blinding against the black night. No matter how long you stare into the darkness, you canât discern anything beyond that sense of open space. Like youâre at the very edge of the city. Maybe even the edge of the world. Youâre tempted to cross the street to see if you could just let yourself fall and continue falling into forever.
You shake your head. What a strange thought. You have your family waiting. Your colleagues. Your work. A whole life, really.Â
But do you? Your footsteps are muted by the slick leaves, the misty night. There is something youâre forgettingâyou just donât know what it could be. Youâre on this lovely night walk, with no particular destination in mind. Youâve been walking on this sidewalk for what feels like a long time now, but the garden wall does not end. You do not see the end of the road, no matter how far you walk.
What are you forgetting? A woodfire in a small fireplace. The scent of pine. Plate after plate of food, apple pie.
Why are you tempted to cross the street, tempted to see what endless depths lie on the other side?
Youâre forgetting something. Gifts wrapped clumsily but carefully. Ribbons that shine in the light from the fireplace, a string of lights draped over the window.
Apple pie, warm on your tongue.
You stop walking. You listen, straining to hear⊠something. Something youâre forgetting. You turn and look behind you. Just the garden wall. The leaves piled along the curb. The street stretching into the night. The way back is a mirror of the way forward. There is no end, there is no beginning. There is only the street, the lampposts, the leaves, and the darkness on the other side.
You take a step off of the sidewalk, onto the cobblestoned road. Still no sound. Just the small clouds of your breath. Just the crisp scent of a cold, wet winter day.
You need to see whatâs across the street. A muted feeling of fear sweeps through you as you take another step. Just a few more, and you will leave the pool of light from the streetlamp. You wonât be able to see the edge if the world does drop off on the other side. You will simply take a step, and there will be nothingâ
You feel like youâre peeking over the edge of a tall building, knowing that the flimsy handrail will give way if you lean too hard. But you canât stop yourself. You take another step.
You should stop. You have your family waiting, after all.
But youâre forgetting something.
An apple rolls off a cutting board. It hangs suspended in the air, as if time has stopped.
Youâre forgetting something, but you donât want to remember what it is. You take another step.
You are caught between forgetting and remembering, now. Whatâs holding you back? Perhaps when you reach the edge, you will mirror the apple. You will hang suspended, between forgetting and remembering, and youâll never hit the ground.
You need to know. Your curiosity would always lead you into trouble. Gran would scold you for it. Caleb would tease you for it. Not the curiosity itself, but the boundary-pushing, the rule-breaking youâd commit to satiate it. You used to have to know, no matter how terrible you knew the knowing would be. Now thoughânow there are things you do not want to know. But you don't know why you changed. You lean back, slightly, and then sprint out of the safe pool of yellow light. Your feet hit solid ground, echoing on the cobblestones. Until you take another long stride and thenânothing.
You are falling, into the black. You are not the apple. You are deadweight, and you are falling, falling, falling, with your heart in your throat, your stomach turning inside out, so terrified that you canât even scream.
Youâre going to die. The apple, no longer suspended, falls the short distance to the worn wooden floorboards of your grandmotherâs house. When it hits, it explodes like a bombâall sound is sucked from your plummeting trajectory, and all you hear is a high-pitched whine as you continue to fall.
âDarling, wake up,â a deep voice says in the black, right before you splatter onto the unseen ground.
You fall back into your body in terror, only to find that itâs held tightly by strong armsâ
Sylus.
He is cradling the back of your head in his big hand, holding your face to his chest. Heâs rocking you, as he did in the shower, his cheek resting on the top of your head. The high pitched whining from your dream is coming from your throat, not from the tinnitus in your ears from a bomb exploding.
You gasp.
Sylus lifts his head to look down at you. âFinally awake?â he asks, but not with his usual teasing manner. Heâs paleâmore pale than usual, and his eyes are wide.
You canât speak. Part of you still feels like youâre falling. Part of you still feels the impact of when you hit the ground. All of you remembers what you were forgetting in the dreamâyour family is gone, and theyâre never coming back.
You canât speak, so you just throw your arms around Sylusâs neck and cling to him, burying your face where you previously bit him, where his neck meets his shoulder. Itâs not close enough.Â
Youâre still falling. Youâre still hitting the ground. Your family is still gone, and youâre all thatâs left.
You push back from him.
âSylusââ you gasp again. Itâs hard to breathe.
He cradles your face in his hands. âWhat do you need? Tell me.â
You stare into his beautiful eyes. Red is too simple of a word to describe them. Theyâre the color of red brought to life. Theyâre the heart of a fire, glowing on a calm winter night.
âResonate with me?â you manage to ask through your struggling lungs.
He stares at you.
âPlease?â you whisper.
He sucks in a breath and drops one of his hands from your cheek, fingers gliding along the skin of your forearm where youâre clinging to his neck. He gently pulls your wrist down, aligns his palm with your own. He slips his fingers between yours, and your hand is swallowed by his. He then clasps it, hard.
Everything fades away.
There is only Sylusâs hand, calloused and rough where it grips yours, Sylusâs heartbeat, fast and hard. Youâre sinking into the night, but instead of a starless void like the dream, it is a galaxy under placid waves. Quiet, and strength. So much strengthâraw power. Heat. A lava flow beneath, diamond netting glittering above, reflecting the hot glow below.Â
You are pure energyâthere are no borders, no limits, no restraints. None, except a chain leading from him, stretched taut, anchored in you.
The longer your energy flows into him, and his flows into you, the borders between you and him blur, melt. You are him, and he is you. You canât tell if this overflowing sense of safety, of wantâthis yearning threaded with adorationâis yours or his. You are strength incarnateâyou can dissolve matter with your mind, disassemble and reassemble atoms, all the constituent parts of a thing, a person. If you were to punch someone right now, they would implode from the force, a collapsing star.
You are aware of all this, faintly. The power of your evolâof Sylusâs evol, your evol, borders rendered meaningless, whatâs his is yours, whatâs yours is hisâ-itâs drowned out by the power of hunger, of missing him when heâs right in front of you, an instinct demanding that you grasp him and never let him separate from you again, to taste him, lick and bite, swallow, over and over again, a snake devouring itself, an endless loop of desire mirrored. You are together, scarlet, you are together, ink, particle and wave, solid and liquidâyou are not you, he is not him, there is onlyâŠ
His hand, swallowing yours. A chain anchored in both directions. You are no longer falling. You are no longer hitting the ground. You are no longer the only one left. The emptiness inside you, filled.Â
Sylusâs hand. Sylusâs heartbeat. Your heartbeat. Your hand in his. The energy sloshing between you, overflowingâyou can teleport. You cling to his neck, hold his hand tighter, and you both dissolve into scarlet-ink mist, swirling up, spilling across his ceiling. The opposite of falling. You feel laughter bubbling up in you, amusementâis it yours? The glee of playful weightlessness? Or his, at your antics with his power? His affectionate indulgence as he waits to see what youâll do next. You teleport out of his room, bouncing from ceiling to floorâyou knock over some edgy modern sculpture. It rolls off a table lining the hallway wall and shatters on the groundâyour guilt morphs into more laughter, his again. How could he be mad at you as you ricochet through his home, your homeâpick another sculpture to replace it, something you like, this time. You continue, ping ponging through his hallways, destroying more things as you go. Slowly, you get the hang of it, and then youâre a bullet, whooshing through his base until youâre in the greenhouse again. You want to go in, you want to re-materialize on the garden fuck-bed, hand still clasping his, arm still around his neck, but youâre worried youâll disturb the birds or hurt the plants. You swirl, slingshot back out of the mudroom. Mephisto has been following you, and he squawks in indignation as you rush past him.
You settle for returning to Sylusâs bedroom, where you feel less bad about knocking the pretentious books off his shelves in your reckless enjoyment of this unfiltered power. You re-materialize on his soft, black duvet, arm still wrapped around his neck, hand clasped in his. Youâre breathless still, but from the laughter, the joy of reveling in how good it feels to not know where you end and he begins, to not feel so aloneânot alone, with the one whose company you crave the most.
You hug him.
Heâs silent, as the connection slowly fades, as you let the resonance dissipate. Whatâs left doesnât feel empty. You can feel him still, somehow, even though youâre you again, and he is himself again.
You sigh. âThank you.â
He slings an arm over your waist, as you each lie on your side facing each other.
âCanât say that I was expecting you to ask to resonate this morning, but youâre very welcome,â he says, thumb soothing along the skin of your waist where your sleep shirt has ridden up.
Youâre overcome with relief. You had been so afraid to resonate with him again. The first time had been so overwhelmingâno longer hating him, after you learned that he hadnât killed your family. But still caught in a whirlwind of fear, fascination, trauma. The way he danced with you, the way he handled your panic attackâthe only reasons you were able to resonate with him at all so soon after he had treated you so cruelly. You have spent all the time since blocking out that feeling of intimate connection, of drowning yourself in him. It occurs to you that heâs never brought up resonating again, since those long days trying to force you, since you were able to do so once.
You wince. âIâm sorry that it was so abrupt.â
âI told you I donât want apologies from you. Who said the surprise wasn't pleasant?â
âOkay. Good.â You fall silent, just enjoying his hand on you, the connection that still thrums between you.
But of course he wonât just let you get away with saying nothing about your demand that he resonate with you. âCare to share what brought on the sudden request?â
âNot really,â you mumble, curling in on yourself like a shrimp.
âMmm,â he acknowledges. His hand slides down, over your hip, curls around the back of your thigh. He tugs a little, and the connection is still so strong that you canât deny his desire to pull you closer, as if his desire is still yours, and yours, his. You let him pull your leg over his own thighs, and then he rolls. You find yourself lying on top of him, his bare skin under your cheek as it rests over his heart.
He places a palm on the back of your neck, just holding you against him, while hugging you with his other arm.âWere you having a nightmare?â he asks.Â
Youâve never told anyone about the night terrors that have contributed so much to your inability to sleep since your family was killed. You feel like youâve swallowed a knife.
âI woke up because you slapped me in the face as you flailed. I assume you were dreaming about something,â he murmurs, but tightens his hold as you stiffen. âYou were making a noise like you were in pain. I didnât like it.â
You canât speak. There is a knife stuck in your throat.
âWere you dreaming that Mephisto was trying to steal your ruby earring?â
You jerk your head up and find that heâs staring down at you, his wide mouth lifted in a slight smile. The image of Mephisto trying to pluck your earring from your ear is so ridiculous that you choke a little laugh.
âNo? Then perhaps you were dreaming that Luke and Kieran were trying to drag you to karaoke night. You were terrified that you wouldnât be able to compete against my talent.â
This time you laugh out loud. He frowns a little, as if indignant that you would find the idea of his talent preposterous enough to break you out of your inability to speak.
âItâs not that funny,â he gripes.Â
You smile at him. âNo,â you manage to say. âI wasnât dreaming about either of those things.â
âBut you were dreaming,â he says softly.
This time, youâre able to nod.
âWere you dreaming about a wanderer attacking you?â
You shake your head.
Heâs quiet for a moment. Youâre expecting him to narrow it down, to figure out what could possibly cause you so much distress, but he surprises you by not prying further into the details of your nightmares. âDo you have dreams like this often?â
Youâre even more surprised when you find yourself answering honestly. âAlmost every time I fall asleep.â
He squeezes you tighter and sighs. âThank you.âÂ
And then he just⊠leaves it. Youâre so relieved, you just hug him back.
He makes a sound, deep in his throat, that almost sounds like a purr. You drift like that, letting the final remnants of the dream wash away in the scent of his skin, his steady breathing, the stillness of his quiet bedroom.
Eventually his purrs grow louder, more steady, and you realize that he has started to snore. You lift your head and stare into his face. Heâs asleep again.
His face is so soft in sleep, you canât look away. You prop your chin on your hands, folded over his chest, and just enjoy looking at him. His eyelashes sweeping over his pale cheek. The frown between his eyebrows smoothed. His soft lips parted slightly. The insistent rumbles of his snores.
You donât want to go back to sleep, even though youâd be happy to lie here with him forever. Resonating with him drove the horror of the feelings from the dream away, but youâre not eager to return to the possibility of another nightmare. You slowly sit up, careful not to jostle him. His snoring hitches, stops. But he doesnât stir.
You sit on the side of the bed and notice that your phone is on the nightstand, plugged in. He must have done it for you, after you fell asleep before the movie even started. You feel a little sad that you still donât know what his favorite movie is, but soothe yourself with the thought that Sylus is rightâyou have all the time in the world now, for a little while, to discover as much as you can about him. To satisfy your dangerous curiosity.
As youâre gazing at the phone, you notice that it now has some kind of cute little ribbon on it, and what looks like a catâs paw medallion at the end of the ribbon. It matches your favorite color, which is also the color of your phone case. Itâs adorable, and youâre tempted to reach for your phone to examine it more closely, but you stop before you actually pick it up. Sylus told you that Jenna approved of your leave. She will tell the team about your absence. Youâre not ready to read what âyouâ texted Zayne when Sylus asked for his approval in securing your convalescent leave. Not yet. You donât want to think about the real world right now. You want to dive into this dream and stay underwater in it until the very last moment. Tara, Xavier, Rafayelâthey can live without you. You are convinced that your presence is just a blip on the radar of your friendsâ lives. Theyâll hardly miss you at all.
You leave your phone on the nightstand, promising yourself that when you do have to pick it up again, youâll look at the little catâs paw Sylus clearly gifted you and thank him for it.
Youâre a little disconcerted, with the sudden freedom and safety of all the time stretching in front of you, but with Sylus in the bed behind you. You donât have to do this alone. He told you to assume that he wants to spend time with you. Thereâs no one else staying at the house, besides Luke and Kieran, as far as you can tell. You can just⊠live, for a little while. What did he say? Recover, not just survive.
A feeling fills you, but you donât have a word for it. All you know is that it feels good. You donât question it. Not right now.
The only question you want to ask is what do you want to do, right now?Â
You pad quietly toward the bedroom door, but pause to pick up the books that you knocked off Sylusâs shelves as you teleported, scarlet and ink, sparking mist. You read the titlesâtheyâre all philosophy, psychology. Books to understand the breadth of human existence, the human mind. As if the person collecting them had to start from the very basics to understand what makes people tick. When you pick up the Humanity and Conquer book, you hold it in your hands for a moment, just staring down at it. The ampersand is positioned in such a way that when you first saw the title, you thought it read âHuman Anal Conquer,â because someoneâs passion was obviously graphic design and some overworked editor clearly approved the cover without even looking at it. You would laugh at the absurd memory, but you donât want to wake Sylus. You set the book gently back on the shelf and head to the kitchen. Thereâs no point getting properly dressed if itâs just you, the twins, and Mephisto here.
Speaking of Mephisto, you turn and find him flying quietly behind you as he follows you from Sylusâs bedroom.
The answer to the question of what do you want right now? Coffee. Even if itâs from a pretentious french press.
As you approach the kitchen, you hear the now-familiar voices of Luke and Kieran.
âOh, thatâs the best one so far.â
âDo you really think so? I fail to see marked improvement between this one and the others,â Kieran says mournfully as you stop in the kitchen doorway.
It must still be âearly,â in terms of Sylusâs flip-flopped sleep cycleâoutside the vast windows looking out over the bleak landscape leading down to the N109 Zoneâs imposing city skyline, it does not appear to be night, but rather dusk. You wonder how early it is in terms of Sylusâs morning, if the twins are already awake.
There is a fire burning in the large fireplace on the far wall, and its wood smoke scent reminds you of your dream. Strangely, instead of upsetting you, you feel what can only be the connection to Sylus thrum again, and the memory feels distant already.
You focus on the music drifting through the room instead. Something old, and bluesy, trumpets and piano, a smoky jazz voice singing about lost love. Not the kind of music youâd assume twenty year old dudes would like. But then again, nothing about Sylus and his inner circle is what you would have expected when you looked up into his beautiful face with its cruel smirk for the first time.
Mephisto flies to a perch in the corner of the room and ruffles his feathers before settling.
âI totally think so, youâre getting better and better, man,â Luke says, clearly trying to encourage his dejected brother.
You take in the scene before you, which consists of a very large, professional-looking espresso machine now squatting on the huge, black-marble kitchen island, with Luke and Kieran sitting on black leather bar stools in front of it, surrounded by a bunch of wide-rimmed mugs, each filled with what smells like coffee.
You take a step closer and see that in each mug, the clear outline of a dick and accompanying balls has been drawn in the foam of a latte.
The twinsâ heads jerk up in unison as you bark a laugh that sounds more like a seal than human.
âI see Sylus made good on his threat to get a fancy espresso machine,â you say, dabbing at the corner of your eyes because youâre trying so hard to contain more of your insane laughter.
âAll thanks to you,â Luke grins. âAs you can see, weâre making great use of it!â He proudly gestures towards the dick art Kieran has been making.
âI wouldnât call it great, but it is certainly amusing,â Kieran sighs, idly stirring a little wooden stir stick in the latest latte dick.
âDid you make all of these?â you ask.
âNo, Luke made a few too. Hereââ Kieran carefully scoots a mug closer to you, and you gasp when you look down at the meticulous, gorgeous rendering of van Goghâs Starry Night painting contained in it.
âNow you see how heâs patronizing me with praise for my sad little penises,â Kieran grumbles.
Luke pats his back, even as he puffs a little with pride at your clearly impressed reaction.
âYour penises are awesome, Kieran. You just need to keep practicing if you want them to be photo-realistic.â
You try really hard not to laugh at this strange, earnest back and forth about dick art, but itâs a losing battle. You laugh, softly, but then clear your throat at Kieranâs disappointed expression.
âYouâre way better than I am probably. Iâve never made latte art before,â you try to comfort him instead of continuing to laugh at him.
âLuke has never made latte art before either, but look at what heâs already made!â
Luke just nudges him. âYouâre a lot better than me at a lot of things. Just think of it as a⊠an incentive? to practice.â
Kieran smiles at him. âYou really are reading your thesaurus.â
Luke nudges him again. âI told you!â
They smile stupidly at each other for a moment, and youâre suddenly struck with a sharp pain of missing Caleb. Although he wasnât your real brother, his presence in your life, a constant sidekick until your ways parted, you to the Hunter Academy and him to flight school, was a source of comfort long after you grew apart. The shared history aloneâŠ
The twins seem to notice your staring, and Luke gestures as the espresso machine.
âYou wanna try?â
You shake your head to clear the grief from your thoughts, and it works, a little. âTry?â
âLatte art! You should try to draw something too!â
You stare at him for a moment. Normally youâd be too pressed for timeâgetting to work, getting to bed, laundry, dishes, vegging out in front of a stupid series if you hadnât overbooked your rare time off. But Sylus, despite the absurd way he went about it, has gifted you with precious time. You donât have to be anywhere at all. You can just⊠be.
âYeah,â you smile. I do.â Luke whoops and holds his hand up. You stare at it, confused.
âHigh five, high five, high five,â he chants.
You laugh and slap his hand, hard.Â
âYeah! Okay, okay, fist bump!â he holds out his big fist, but when you make one and reach out to bump his, he slides his under yours and makes a peace sign. âSnail!â he laughs, wiggling his fingers, and your fist combined with his two fingers really do look like a cute little snail. Well, big snail, considering the size of his fingers.
All you can do is laugh again. Kieran gestures you to come over and shows you how to use the fancy as fuck espresso machine that Sylus had overnighted to his place based on your flippant comment. You would marvel at the insanity that is your life right now, but youâre indulging. Like this strange feeling filling you, you donât question it.Â
You just pay close attention to Kieranâs instructions, make a respectable looking latte, and look pensively down into the finished product while clutching a stir stick.
What should you draw?
Your gaze drifts between the dick and balls and starry night, between vulgar and highbrow. You decide not to overthink it and begin by lowering the little pitcher, pouring the concentrated microfoam into the liquidâs surface.
Kieran and Lukeâs chatter melts away as you focus on your latte art.
Itâs meditative, drawing the stir stick through the thick foam, the curves and swirls following. You could make this your new hobby, youâre enjoying it so much. After a final pour and swirl, you sit back on your stool in satisfaction.
âOh, you done?â Luke crowds one side of you, while Kieran leans over from your other side. Theyâre quiet as they observe your handiwork.
âCan you even tell what it is?â you laugh, because you think you did a decent job, but who knows if anyone else shares your vision?
âHmm, itâs quite lovely, just the design itself. But ⊠is it an orchid?â Kieran tilts his head, his dark curls cascading over his forehead.
âOr a leaf? Like a fancy leaf?â Luke asks, tilting his own head, the mirror of his brother.
Youâre about to answer when you yelp instead as a solid warmth materializes at your back, big arms wrap around your waist, and a voice like melted chocolate dripping along your skin rumbles next to your ear. âItâs a vagina, children.â
Luke and Kieran donât even react to Sylusâs sudden appearance between them, only tilting their heads in the opposite direction as they observe your latte art with new eyes.
âOoooh, now I see it!â Luke lights up. âAnd thatâs the clit there at the top!â
âIndeed Lukeâthatâs what made me think it was an orchid!â Kieran turns to you. âYou could be the next Georgia OâKeefe!â
You laugh. âYou couldnât even tell what it was. I donât think Iâll be the next anything, but it was really fun to make.â You turn your head to meet Sylusâs red gaze as he remains leaning over your shoulder, observing your latte. âWhat do you think?â
He lifts a dark silver eyebrow. âWhy this particular design?â
You shrug. âJust trying to balance Kieranâs fleet of dicks with some female representation in your base. Your men could use a different perspective besides the reigning patriarchy.â
âOoh, that gives me an idea,â Luke lifts a finger like heâs just had the biggest Eureka moment since the discovery of volume displacement and hurries back to the espresso machine.
Sylus continues staring at you. âI suppose I canât lament your lack of maturity when you were motivated by such a concern for equality.â
âOh, I definitely also just wanted to draw genitalia like Kieran, but weâre gonna have to drink enough dick with all these mugs. I figured a little variety was in order,â you grin at him.
âYou will absolutely not be drinking more than two of these,â Sylus orders. âI didnât invite you here to have a caffeine-induced heart attack. You may have some green tea after you slurp your pussy and suck down one of these cocks,â he says sternly, but somehowâmaybe through the connection that still echoes through you from the resonanceâyou can tell heâs trying very, very hard not to laugh at his own wordplay. Even when making a joke, heâs smug as hell.
You lean forward so that your mouth is right by his ear and whisper, âYou canât tell me what to do.â
In utter fascination, you watch as he shivers from your breath in his ear, and you feel like the raw power of his evol is still running through you from the realization that you caused such a reaction in his big body.
He turns his head to meet your gaze, so close that his nose brushes yours, lovely eyes fixed on yours. He opens his mouth to respond when suddenly Luke lets out a triumphant cheer.
âIn the words of my badass brother, âBehold!ââ he crows, pushing his mug over to you, Sylus, and Kieran, who is still standing at your side.
You stare down into the cupâand burst out laughing like a hyena.
A very detailed, highly accurate clenched asshole stares back at you.
âBut why, Luke?â Kieran cries in horror.
Luke just beams. âNow the⊠what is the word? trifecta? of naughty bits is complete, and this oneâs gender neutral. Everyone has an asshole! Weâre not misogynist pigs! Sylus is a feminist and Kieran just likes dicks,â he tells you earnestly, like itâs very important to him that you donât get the wrong idea about the twinsâ stance on gender equality.
Sylus just hangs his head, the soft sweep of his hair brushing your cheek. âLook at what youâve encouraged in my men,â he grumbles. âNow weâve got anuses.â
You lay your cheek on top of his head. âI walked in here and Kieran already had an armada of dicks. I didnât do anything but add a little diversity. Not everything is about your dick, after all.â You canât help yourself and run your hand through his hair, tracing the shell of his ear with a fingertip along the way. He shivers again.
âIâm having a hard time remembering that,â he says, so softly that you could be imagining it. Before you can think too hard about it, Sylus straightens up and reaches into his pocket, where his phone has begun to vibrate. He remains close as he accepts the call, one arm still wrapped around your waist.
âSpeak,â he commands, sounding irritated.
You let your attention drift as he grunts in response to whomever is speaking. The fireplace, the soft lighting, the evening darkening into night outside, Luke and Kieranâs chatter as they begin drinking their creations, insisting that the decorated lattes taste better than lattes without art, the scent of coffee. It all blends together, and Sylusâs warmth at your back anchors you in it.Â
âI specifically told you to handle as much as you could without my input. And yet, the very next day, youâre calling me with this mess.â Sylus says softly, menacingly.
You turn to watch his face. He meets your eyes as he listens for another moment, looking increasingly bored.
Which youâve learned means that heâs having big feelings that heâs trying to mask.
You place your hands on his forearm, slipping them under the sleeve of his soft sweater, and run your palms up to his elbow, and down again. He closes his eyes and exhales a deep breath, his expression softening as he does so.
âFine. But Iâm not coming in person. They will have to accept a video conference. If this happens again, just eliminate whoever is giving you trouble.â
He listens again for a moment. âI donât care if it ruins another pair of Bontonis. Theyâll make more next season. I. Am. Unavailable.â
He ends the call with a jerk of his thumb and slides the phone back into his pocket. He looks at you, his face neutral.
âYou will have to entertain yourself for a little while. Aidan has already encountered a problem that requires my personal attention. Iâll find you when Iâm done.â
You let your hand fall back down to his wrist and squeeze it gently.
âOkay.â
He doesnât move, but instead turns his wrist so that the soft underside is facing up, still held in the circle of your loose grip. He puts his other hand over yours. âAre you going to be okay?â
You smile at him, filled with that strange, unnamable feeling, filled with the bizarre conviction that youâre still connected with him somehow, because of the resonance earlier. âYeah, Iâll be fine. I told you. I can handle your big scary men, and your big scary house.â And you mean it.Â
He smiles faintly in response and then leans down. You have the insane feeling that heâs going to kiss you goodbye, but before his nose brushes yours, he stops, a funny expression coming over his face. He lets go of your hand and straightens. You let your own hand fall. He stares at you for a second longer, and then spins on his heel and walks out of the kitchen.
That welcome, good feeling drains out of you as he leaves. In its place is⊠nothing.Â
How ridiculous, that youâd think he was going to kiss you, when he has made no attempt to do so, despite all of his physical affection, up to this point.
You stare at the empty kitchen doorway, and that feeling of connection to him drains from you as well.
Whatâs left behind is⊠well, itâs what you usually feel like. Nothing has changed, really. Your echoing insides. The knowledge, deep in your bones, that the last of the people who had any understanding of you are dead. The only ones who could possibly love you for you, and not for what you could do for them. The ones who knew you before you became a killer, a sword in the Associationâs arsenal.
Nothing has changed at all. Itâs only in the comparison that your usual state of being hurts so keenly as you return to it.Â
In this moment, staring at the empty kitchen doorway, youâre viciously reminded of why youâre so terrified of even considering the possibility that Sylus could ever care for you beyond an entertaining acquaintance. How will you ever be able to recover after having only a small taste of Sylusâs full attention, a feeling of connection to him through the resonance, when he grows bored and no longer looks at you like he looked at you before he leaned down and remembered whatever made him stopâwhatever brought him back to his senses, and sent him ricocheting away from you.
You have always told yourself that youâre a survivor. You can survive anything. You lived, when you shouldnât have, while Caleb died. And he was the strongest person youâve ever known. If you can outlive him, even if you shouldnât have, you can outlive anything.
You force yourself to focus on the emptiness ringing through you. The emptiness that youâve carried for longer than you can remember your own lifeâs events. Whatever feeling you had upon waking in Sylusâs armsâwhatever connection you imagined with Sylus after the resonance fadedâitâs an illusion. Whatâs real is tolling inside of you right now. Echoing through the hollow halls of your mangled heart, the silent bell of your solitude.
This may be a nice dream to indulge in, but itâs just a dream.
Youâll outlive this too.
You turn away from the empty kitchen doorway. The twins are staring at you.
âI really thought boss would have more rizz than this,â Kieran says, bizarrely.
âHeâs too cautious for his own good,â Luke murmurs, sounding sad.
You donât want to know what they think they just saw. Maybe theyâre bored too, and ship you with Sylus because itâs something to do. You wouldnât be surprised if your pathetic crush on their boss is fodder for some bet, which is why theyâre keen on trying to convince you heâs such a great guy. It has nothing to do with you, whether they like you or not, whether they think youâd be a good partner for their boss.
Everything hurts, and you want to run. The feeling that always comes after the self-recrimination is welling up in you. You want to slap yourself for reaching for Sylus this morning, forcing him to resonate with you after your stupid nightmare, letting him in.Â
You make a fist and squeeze as hard as you can. Your nails are too short to do anything, even as your knuckles pop from the strain. Itâs not breaking your promise to Sylus. It doesnât hurt, not in comparison to whatâs happening inside you right now. He told you to bring yourself to him when you feel like this, but heâs busy with ⊠whatever it is that Sylus does.
âHey, do you want to drink one of those lattes now?â Luke asks tentatively.
âOr tea? We can also make some tea, if you prefer,â Kieran asks hopefully.
You try really hard to make your face smile, but by the look on the twinsâ faces, you probably just look horrifying.
âThanks guys. I think Iâm just gonnaââ You actually donât know what youâre going to do. But youâre going to get out of this room, to begin. âIâm just gonna go.â You turn.
âYouâre not going to go, go, right? LikeâŠâ Luke pauses, looks a bit constipated. âYouâre not gonna run half naked out of the house with no shoes on again, right?â
Kieran hangs his head. âWhat my brother means is, if youâd like to leave the base, please take the Phantom. It will respond to your face, so you donât need to worry about a key. Luke and I will swing by and pick it up from your place another time.â
You stare at him. âWhat do you mean, it will respond to my face?â
He glances at Luke, and then back at you.
âEvery room in this house and every vehicle in the garage is programmed to recognize your face and authorize your entry and use.â
âBut why?â
He tilts his head. âDid Sylus not tell you?â
You shake your head.
âBecause Sylus wanted it that way.â
âBut why?â you ask again, completely confused.
âWhy do you think?â Luke demands, but Kieran puts a hand on his arm.
âWhy would someone give another full access to his valuables, his fortress, and his secrets?â Kieran asks instead of answering your question.
Yes, my beloved?
Words heâs never said to you.
When you wake up, you will remember this, if nothing else.
Itâs just a dream within a dream.
You relive him leaning down, a kiss that never happened, him disappearing through the doorway. The twins are still staring at you.
âIâm not going to make you guys chase me down the road again. And Iâm still sorry for that. Iâm just going to find something to do until Sylus is done,â you reassure them, head too full, chest too empty.
You need to get out of this room and move your body.
You wave and leave them behind, surrounded by mugs full of delicious coffee.
You hear the quiet flap of wings. You donât even have to turn around to know that Mephisto is following you. Itâs fine. You think that you should wander around the grounds one of these early âmorningsâ before itâs full night and see if you canât pick up some shiny pebbles to treat Mephisto with. But maybe Sylusâs bird is just as much of a snob as his owner, and he only accepts treats in the form of rubies, sapphires, diamonds.
You want to move your body, but your feet hurt. You have that jittery feeling, where you know youâre really hungry because you havenât eaten anything, but the idea of eating makes you feel sick. You need to move, first. You remember that the twins had mentioned a pool. You turn to Mephisto.
âHey buddy.â You hold up your fist, wondering if heâll get the message.
He flies to you and lands on your wrist, cocking his head as if in inquiry.
âCan you show me where your daddyâs pool is?â
He squawks quietly, and itâs just as grating as when he squawks at full volume. It finally dawns on you that it sounds as if Sylus recorded his own voice making crow noises and set that as the birdâs voice module. Itâs uncanny, and jarring, and you think the idea is kind of hilarious, no matter how unlikely.
Thankfully Mephisto canât read your mind, because he does not squawk in indignation as he would if he knew what you were thinking. He just takes flight again and begins leading you to the part of the house that contains the promised indoor pool.
Finally, he stops and hovers outside a plain black door.
âThank you,â you nod to him and throw open the door, ensuring that he can fly in after you before it swings shut again. He flies ahead as your breath catches, settling on one of his perches that Sylus must have placed in every single room of the house to accommodate his ânot-a-pet,â clearly beloved pet. Â
Youâre hit with the smell of chlorine, and you inhale deeply because youâre a weirdo and have always enjoyed the smell of chlorinated pools. Itâs warm, much warmer than the rest of the house. Instead of the modern decor and ubiquitous black and maroon of the rest of his house, and unlike the colorful, messy tiles of the greenhouse, you feel like youâve walked into a zen garden. The soaring ceiling is glass, like the greenhouse, with the night sky spilling into the huge space. Pale stone lines the floors, pale wood panels the walls. At periodic intervals, shelves are bit into the walls, each hosting a meticulously cultivated bonsai plant of some kind. There are low cushioned chairs, white fabric and pale wood matching the walls, scattered throughout a sort of sitting area before the pool area begins. And of course, thereâs a bar along one wall, the bottles glittering, reflecting the soft lighting built into the floors and lining each wall of the large space. You joke about Sylusâs tendency to drink, but the evidence of it in each room of his house is actually starting to worry you. You shake your head and continue into the room. The stones narrow to a path leading to the pool itself. On either side of the path, pebbles that you associate with zen gardens stretch to the walls, with large rocksâboulders, really, dotting each pebble bed here and there. Along the edge of the pool, the pale stone provides a generous walkway leading in both directions, each ending with a doorâone glass, the other solid. Lounge chairs line the walkway. At a glance you can see that through the glass door is a sauna. On the far side of the pool, which is probably olympic sized, floor to ceiling windows provide yet another view of the barren landscape stretching beyond Sylusâs home.Â
You walk to the edge of the pool and disturb the still water with a toe. Lighting from the bottom of the pool sends the reflections of the rippling water against the glass, giving the effect of looking at the N109 Zone from the bottom of the ocean, somehow enhancing the view. The water is deliciously warm, where you expected it to be cool. You donât even want to think about the energy bill required to keep such a huge pool this warm.
The space is so peaceful, with such a sense of soaring space, you want to cry. The whole space is simpleâ-no recreation of natural waterfalls, no waterslides or multi-level bathing areas. Just a huge, beautiful pool, in a minimally designed space. But every placement of rock, every design choice feels deliberate, thoughtfully chosen. You can imagine that Sylus probably flew in some zen garden expert to personally create the space for him. You could live in just this room for the rest of your life and be happy.
The emptiness, your self-pitying wallowing, the humiliated feeling of having imagined that Sylus would kiss you only for him to get that look on his face like he tasted something badâyou shed it like a second skin. You shed it like you begin to shed your clothes, not thinking about anything else. Just slipping out of your sleep shorts, your sleep tank top, your underwear. You carefully unwrap the bandages from your feet and let them slither down on your pile of clothes. You turn, run a few steps in one direction, ignoring the sting, and then take a running leap into the pool.
Under the water, all is quiet. All is still. You draw your legs up to your chest, wrap your arms around them, and sink to the bottom. Everything else fades away.Â
When you run out of breath, you send yourself soaring to the surface, your gasp and the lapping water echoing through the beautiful room.Â
You begin to swim, enjoying the stretch of your body, your weightlessness. Time pulls taut, snaps, becomes meaningless, as you leisurely swim laps in this lovely, secluded pool.
***
Sylus is in a bad mood. The only reason he didnât teleport through the phone to strangle the people Aidan was meeting with during the highly unwelcome phone call that interrupted his latte moment with you was your hand caressing his forearm. He felt the rage slam into him the moment he felt his phone vibrate, his impatience a living, choking thing. But when he felt your calloused fingers drifting along his skin, the rage, the impatience, simply dissipated. What was left was not even a reliefâit was like such negative emotions were never there to begin with. He recognizes that your ability to do this to himâto alter his entire mood, to change his course of action without even trying, is a weakness. If you only knew how much power you already have over him. He sighs. He wants you to know, if that means you will never doubt again what you are to him. But he can tell youâre still too scared to fully consider the possibility.
Sylus is in a bad mood, because he knows that he should be in a great mood. All of his plans are in motion. First, he has an invitation to the birthday party of a daughter of a potential business ally that he desperately wants to secure. Second, Aidan will be handling his business moving forward, for the most part. Even aside from your calming touch, Sylus is able to forgive today, because it isnât Aidanâs fault that the presumptuous fucks supplying him with a certain number of high-grade protocores felt entitled to a face-to-face with the boss. They will be punished for their impudence, in time. But only after he has secured the product. And finally, youâre here, in his home, touching him of your own volition. What else could he possibly want?
He had carried you to his bed after you fell asleep before the film even started, and slept better than he has in years. He can usually manage four, five hours a night, and even then, his sleep is restless. His body is always on alert, even in the safety of his stronghold. But with you breathing softly next to him⊠he slept like the dead. Itâs a testament to how relaxed you already make him that you didnât end up seriously injured after slapping him in the face while he was dead asleepâhis subconscious must have recognized that you were not a threat. Anyone else may have ended up paralyzed, or worse, due to his tendency to reflexively lash out against unexpected physical touch. Like that one time with Kieran. He closes his eyes, pinches the bridge of his nose. He refuses to dwell on it further. Itâs in the past, he tells himself. Kieran is fine. And so are you.
Except you arenât, are you?
Another contributing factor to his shit moodâhe didnât realize you were having night terrors, despite all the time he has already spent at your side while you sleep. How he managed to overlook such an obvious thing when he was plotting how to help you with your insomnia isâfrankly, itâs sloppy. He suspects that the dreams involve your family. That your night terrors are tied to your new fear of using firearms. But he could also tell from your face, drained of color when he asked you what you were dreaming about, that you werenât ready to discuss it. He has learned his lesson well from trying to force resonance with you at the beginning. He will not push you any further than absolutely necessary to get what he wants. Youâre here now, in his house. He has the time to draw your fears, your nightmares out of youâto lance the wound and let it drain.Â
And yet another reason for Sylus to be in a fantastic moodâeven though he regrets the circumstances leading to it, you finally asked him to resonate with you for the first time since the auction. Feeling you filling him, feeling himself fill you. Watching you playfully test out his powers as your own. The joy you felt as you got the hang of it. The rush of being folded so tightly into you as you both were energy, sparking mist careening through the halls of his home. It took a huge amount of self control not to let his true feelings flood into you as the boundaries between himself and you melted in the resonance. Youâre not ready yet. But when you are ready, when he can finally resonate with you after you know the truth of his feelings for you, he intends to flood you with them, to drown you so thoroughly in his devotion to you that you will never doubt him or his feelings for you ever again.Â
But then he fell back asleep. He was sulking after waking up and finding you gone, irritated at being forced to come looking for you when you should have been right there for him to roll over on top of, to breathe in, to greet the new night with, only to discover you bonding with Kieran and Luke over obscene lattes. Just when he thinks his delight with you has reached its ceiling, you do something new, so effortlessly, and he finds himself floored again. His capacity for pleasure expands beyond what he could have ever imagined. Each new encounter with you is slowly teaching him that with you, there is no limit to how much joy he can experience.
But then the phone call. He was eagerly looking forward to having an uninterrupted day full of just his beloved. He didnât even have any plansâno dates, no distractions. He wanted to follow you around, even if such wandering ended in simply sitting with you while you read a book. No music, no phone, no games, no diversions necessary, if he could just touch you while you turned the pages. In fact, heâd love it if you read to him. Your voice does things to him that no music can ever truly achieve. Pure, unadulterated peace, hearing you talk. He taps his temple. Well, except when youâre whispering You canât tell me what to do in his ear. He groans. Oh, he might not be able to tell you what to do, but you can make him do whatever you want.Â
Fuck, just thinking about it makes him⊠sloppy. So sloppy that he almost forgot himself as he was leaving you to go deal with his supplier mess. It felt more natural than breathing to lean down, offer you a kiss, take from you a kiss, feel his lips on yours in a swift moment of goodbye, a promise of soon, Iâll come back to you as quickly as possible.
What would you have done, if he hadnât caught himself at the last moment, forced himself to straighten, to leave without taking what he has been craving in every free moment since your dream? Would you have welcomed him, as you did in the dream? Or would it set his progress back with you ten steps? Sylus isnât accustomed to fear, but he fears returning to a place where you donât reach out to him, stroke his hair, clasp his wrist, all without his bidding. Heâs greedy, and he knows it. Now that youâre putting your hands on him, he never wants you to stop.
The dream. He shakes his head. Again, sloppy. He had intended to comfort you, not maul you, when he slipped into your mind as you slept. To say all the reassuring things he was too impatient to wait until you were awake for, and ask you to remember them so that youâd believe him when he said them again in the morning. A little trick. Heâll show you how to do it, when you learn that itâs one of many up his sleeve besides his ability to plumb the depths of a personâs soul for their deepest desires. He hadnât planned to bait you into saying such sweet things to him. He hadnât planned to be so overwhelmed hearing your true feelings about him, your true feelings that so closely mirror his own, his kindred spirit, his twin in a different, but no less meaningful way than Kieran and Luke are twins. Hearing you speak his own feelings, admitting you felt the same way, had broken his self control in a way that should be frightening. He marvels again at the irony. Youâre so afraid of even considering the possibility that he could love you at all, let alone like this. When heâs the one should listen to Aidan and be afraid of everything you can already do to him if you so will it.Â
He wants to kiss you again. His want is a living thing in his mouth. He can taste it, just as he can taste your tongue now, the memory more precious to him than all the protocores on the damn planet.
He will be patient. Until heâs sure that youâll kiss him back in real life, just as you did in the dream.
He looks down at the bulge in his pants.
He will be patient, damn it.
He is in a shit mood, but now that the video conference is over, and his impudent supplier and his posse think theyâve managed to see the boss in deference to their power play, he intends to get in a better mood. Thereâs not a moment to waste. Well, at least, not any more moments to waste than those he lost this morning with you already.
Now, to find you. He hasnât bothered to raise the screen back into the ceiling that he uses for video conferences and when heâs in the mood to catch up on the news in his office, so he pairs his phone with it and pulls up Mephistoâs app on his phone, tosses the phone on his desk. The screen flickers to life, andâhe almost falls out of his chair.
Youâre in the pool room. In the pool. Youâre swimming leisurely, free style, your gorgeous, strong arms cutting through the water with knife-precision, your legs hardly making a splash as they propel you forward. Your glorious, exquisite, mind-breaking, naked ass on full display.
He covers his open mouth with his hand.
Sylusâs brain, with all of its clockwork finesse, perfectly calibrated to calculate every scenario and its multiple pathways to the next possibility, and the next after that, endlesslyâits ability to conceive of multiverses, each playing out differently in parallelâhis brain is overwhelmed, grinding to a complete halt in the face of your masterpiece of an ass and the question of Why arenât you wearing a swimsuit when there are twenty swimsuits of various brands, designs and fabric sitting in the closet he made for you?
He canât help himself. He stares at you, shifts uncomfortably in his chair. He needs to turn off this feed. He needs to turn off Mephisto. He hates that Mephisto is seeing what Sylus is seeing. Which is insane, because Mephisto is a mechanical bird and does not care that he is witnessing a wonder of the world right in Sylusâs pool. A wonder that neither he nor Sylus have permission to see. He shakes himself, steels his resolve, takes one last glance at the screen, at you, and reaches for his phone again.
Just as heâs picking it up, the door to his office bursts open and Luke and Kieran are huffing, panting, struggling to fit through the doorway first.Â
âNot! This! Time!â Luke growls, ruthlessly trying to shove Kieranâs face back behind him, as Kieran attempts to sideswipe Lukeâs legs from under him with a low kick.
âBossâs office race game winner is ME!â Luke hops, avoiding the kick, and bodychecks Kieran into the other side of the door.
Sylusâs brain is still non-functioning, because instead of smoothly flicking the app off, he accidentally projects the sound along with the visuals on the screen.
The sound of splashing water is deafening, causing Luke and Kieran to both slap their hands over their ears, wincing, while also pulling their attention to the screen, where youâre still swimming ass-naked through the water. It takes a second, but once the images and sound register, they both whirl around, still squished in the doorway together, the breadth of their shoulders making the squeeze look painful.
âBoss, what the fuck?â Luke yells.
âHave you no shame, boss?â Kieran bellows at the same time.
Sylus curses, gives up trying to use the app, and snaps his fingers. The screen explodes in a mist of red and black which then dissolves into ashen mist.
Now that he doesnât have to worry about Luke and Kieran being able to see you just as he saw you, he manages to flick the app off his phone screen. He stares down at his home screen, which is a picture of you asleep next to him, so achingly lovely it makes his heart jam every time he uses his phone.Â
âIs it safe to turn around?â Luke yells again, causing Sylus to wince.
Sylus just puts his face on his desk.
He hears the rustling of the twins moving in the doorway, and then Kieranâs tentative voice. âItâs safe.â
And then⊠silence. Deafening silence.
Luke clears his throat. âLook. We, uh. Well, sometimes, when we really like someone⊠I think?âI mean, I donât know if Iâve ever really liked, liked someone, you know, but I can imagine, maybe, that like, when we really like someone, we uh⊠spy on them like creeps with our mechanical crow?â
Kieran sighs. âNo, Luke, what you said first is correct. What the fuck, boss?â
Sylus keeps his face planted in the desk. âItâs not what it looked like,â he groans.
âWell, what was it then? Because it sure as hell looked like you were using Mephisto to watch your hunter skinny dipping in the pool,â Luke scolds.
Sylus rolls his head so that heâs facing the twins, who both stand with their hands on their hips, looking at him with such disappointment he wonders if this is what having parents would be like.
âI didnât realize what kitten was doing when I checked in with Mephisto. I was just about to turn off the feed when you two came bulldozing into my office.âÂ
âOooh,â the twins say, in unison. Sylus has long been used to their uncanny mirroring.
He groans again. âWhich, may I remind you, yet againâweâve talked about the no-knocking issue. Now that we have a guest, you really have to remember to knock before you come in.â
They have the decency to look a little sheepish, even as they are clearly looking at him with suspicion.
âSo you werenât being an utter scumbag and getting your rocks off watching your hunter through Mephisto?â Luke asks.
âDonât make me repeat myself,â Sylus growls. âI want kitten to know when Iâm getting my fucking rocks off.â
âEww, itâs like imagining our parents doing it,â Luke grimaces.
Kieran just winces, like the thought is unbearable.
Sylus stares at them. âParents?â
Luke and Kieran look at each other, and then look back at Sylus. âYeah?â
âDo I even want to know?â
âWell. Youâre like. Work dad, right? And your hunter⊠theyâre your chosen mate, right? So that makes them⊠also our parent,â Luke ticks off his points on his fingers, tilting his head in concentration.
Sylus canât process this right now. He still has the image of your delicious ass in his head, and now heâs being confronted with sudden parenthood from his henchmen. Despite himself, however, heâs curious. âWould you be okay with⊠kitten. As⊠your parent?â He tries very hard to look bored. Why should he care if his employees approve of his beloved? Their opinion wonât change his feelings. Theyâre his henchmen, not his children. He suppresses a horrified shiver.
âTotally! Theyâre so fucking badass! And theyâre hilarious!â
âAnd their willingness to play along with us, with the handcuffs and flare gun, with the latte artâI quite like them a lot. And watching them frustrate you, and throw duffel bags full of feathers at you, and shock you with their behavior in our pool, is amusing,â Kieran coughs, and then looks guilty for having admitted all that.
âYeah, you could have chosen someone who just, totally sucks,â Luke adds. âBut your hunter is fun!â
âNoted,â Sylus sniffs, ignoring the relief he is certainly not feeling because Luke and Kieran are his henchmen and not his kids. âWe will never speak of this again.â
Luke and Kieran grin. âSure, boss,â they chirp in unison.
âWas there a reason you steamrolled into my office in the first place?â Sylus ignores their obvious lie and changes the subject.
âOh, not really. We just wanted to show you Kieranâs latest dick latte. The veins look great.â
Sylus rubs his temples. He has to install a new screen in his office because of his henchmenâs new hobby. A new hobby that they only have because of you, and your expression of interest in an espresso machine. If he wasnât already aware of how much youâre changing his life, this would be another moment of epiphany.
âTake a picture, and I promise to look later. Right now I need to help kitten find the selection of swimsuits that are available.â Sylus is thrilled to have you swimming naked in his pool. In fact, heâd prefer it. But he wants you to have the option of a swimsuit. He suspects that you just didnât realize that along with the rest of the things he has arranged to make your stay more comfortable, swimsuits are also among them.
***
You are weightless, and warm. Your arms and legs are growing pleasantly heavy, tired. Muscles well-used. You know that theyâll ache tomorrowâyouâre not accustomed to swimming. Your workouts tend to be weightlifting, running. You used to run with Caleb, when you were still both living at your granâs place. You take the memories and tuck them into a pocket. You donât shove them down deep, but you donât want to think about them right now. You donât want to think about anything right now.
But now that youâve worked out the anxious, jittery feeling from earlier, youâre really, really hungry. You wonder what time it is. If Sylus is done with his business. If he is, then youâd better figure out if there are any towels in here and get dressed before he comes looking for you. You finish your lap, hand touching the edge of the pool. You lift your head, preparing to haul yourself out of the waterâand then squeal like a frightened rodent thatâs just been stepped on. âThe fuck, Sylus?â
Sylus is stretched out on one of the lounge chairs lining this side of the poolâs walkway. His chest is bare againâit looks like heâs wearing scarlet swim trunks. Two big, fluffy looking towels are on a low table next to him, along with a little bundle of dark fabric. Two cocktail glasses with little pink umbrellas sit next to the towels, along with a bowl full of⊠pastries? Croissants. Maybe cinnamon buns. Your mouth waters. His arms are folded behind his head, like he doesnât have a care in the world. Heâs humming a little tunelessly, eyes closed like heâs on the verge of napping.
You sink back into the water until itâs up to your chin and just stare at him.
âHello to you too, darling. Arenât you getting hungry?â he asks, eyes still closed.
âHow long have you been there?â
âLong enough to know that youâre probably hungry by now,â he smiles faintly.
âWhy didnât you say anything?â Did he watch you swim? Does he think youâre ridiculous, skinny dipping in his big fancy pool, a feral, uncivilized guest? You hadnât even thought about a swimsuit. You just wanted to move your body, under the silent water.
âAnd interrupt your obvious enjoyment of our pool? Iâm not in a hurry.âÂ
âHow did you know I was here?â you ask, but you know the answer. Like the swimsuit, you hadnât even thought about Sylus being able to reach you through Mephisto, just as he explained to you that you could reach him through Mephisto. How could you have forgotten months of Sylusâs stalking you through his pet bird? Youâve been here one day, and despite everything, youâre already forgetting to be on your guard.
âGuess,â is all Sylus says.
You scowl at him, but heâs still not looking at you.
âWell? Hungry?â
At his amused words, your stomach growls loudly. The lapping of the water seems to cover it though, because he doesnât react.
âMay I use one of your towels?â you ask, trying to figure out how to get covered up as quickly as possible.
âThat depends.â
âOn?â Youâre so not in the mood for one of his games, but he seems playful.
âDo you want to keep swimming after you eat?â
You stare at him.
âItâs not a trick question. You can do whatever you want. Are you done in the pool, or do you think maybe youâd like to check out the hot tub in the other room? Or use the sauna?â
âThereâs a hot tub behind the solid door?â You promptly forget everything else. Drinking a fruity cocktail at what feels like ten in the morning, wolfing down some croissants, and soaking your pleasantly tired body in a hot tub? And since Sylus is wearing a swimsuitâŠ
âAre you going to come, if I want to use the hot tub?â
âWhy thank you for the kind invitation. Iâd love to,â Sylusâs lips curl further.
âOkay, then I want to use the hot tub. But Iâm starving.â
âCanât have that,â he murmurs. He sits up, eyes still closed, and gingerly pats the side table. You realize that he wasnât just resting his eyes. Heâs respecting the fact that youâre not wearing any clothes.
You want to tell him that he can look all he wants. That out of everyone in the world, he is allowed.
His long fingers find the little puddle of dark fabric, and he tosses it to you. Despite his eyes being closed, it lands right in front of you.
âNeat trick,â you snark.
âHaving good hearing helps,â he smirks.
âI wouldnât know,â you mutter, suddenly painfully aware of your tinnitus ringing in your ears.
âUse me then, whenever you need a pair of ears.â
You stare at him for a moment, but he just serenely waits. You pull the fabric towards you, and it spills out over your hand and down your wrist. A swimsuit. In what appears to be your size.
âIs this some kind of hint? Canât have your uncivilized guest wandering around buck naked, even if no one else is in the house?â
Sylus cocks his head. âIâm here. The twins are still here.â
You shrug, but realize he canât see the gesture. âItâs just my body. It barely does what itâs supposed to do these daysâI canât imagine that seeing it is particularly interesting for anyone, let alone you or the twins.â
âThen your imagination is severely lacking.â
You snort. âYouâre very good for my ego, insulting my imagination.â
âI would hope itâs good for your ego when Iâm complimenting your gorgeous body.â
You pause. What? âThereâs no need to mock me.â
âWho says Iâm mocking you?â
You take the hint and pull the swimsuit onto your body. Unsurprisingly, it fits perfectly.
âThere. You no longer have to shield your eyes from the horrors.â You drip your way to the table, grab the bowl of pastries and one of the cocktails, and then head to the solid door on one side of the pool.Â
When youâre faced with the question of how to open the door with your hands full, the tendrils of Sylusâs evol twist around the handle and pull.
âThank you,â you murmur, before your breath is taken by the sight before you. Where the pool room was a study in soaring, minimal elegance, this room is small. Still with the ubiquitous floor-to-ceiling windows offering a view of the grounds, but the space is intimate. Steam rises from a poolânot a mere hot tub, but a small poolâtiled in the same colorful tile as that in the greenhouse, with underwater benches circling the edges. Moss-covered stones are piled on one side of the pool and dotted around the small room, where there is space between the large pine trees ringing the pool. You catch a whiff of pine over the scent of chlorine. Itâs like being in a sheltered mountain hot spring.
You turn to find Sylus right behind you, looking at you curiously, holding the towels under one arm and his cocktail in one hand.
âAll of this luxury, and it belongs to just one man,â you sigh, grateful that youâre allowed access, tormented by the thought of the poverty youâve seen in the N109 Zone, in Linkon City.
âWell, the twins too,â Sylus shrugs.
âDo you ever have time to spend in here? Or are all these amenities in your base just for show? To be able to say to yourself that you own this, too.â
âIâm about to use it right now. Does that not count?â
You shake your head. âYou know what I mean.â
He places the towels and the cocktail on the soft moss next to the pool and turns to you.
âMay I?â he holds out his hand, and you give him the bowl of pastries and your own drink. He sets them next to the towels.Â
âCome,â he tells you, holding his hand out. You put your hand in his, and he steps into the water, pulling you with him. The water is deliciously hot. Sweat breaks out on your forehead after just a few moments. The water comes up to your waist if you stand, but you let yourself sink until it laps around your neck. Sylus, still with that faint smile, pulls you towards him as he sits on the built-in bench that rings the pool next to where he set the towels, drink, and food.
âItâs true that the more you have, the more you want. I am not immune to being greedy.â He picks up the conversation again as he guides you to him and settles you on his lap.
You canât help yourselfâyou wrap your arms around his neck.
âSo youâre saying you have all this for show. That you never use it. That it remains here, consuming all this energy to stay hot for an owner who will never come, while children are hungry on the streets.â
âCareful, your tender heart is exposed again, darling,â he murmurs, reaching over to the bowl of pastries, selecting what is definitely a gooey cinnamon roll, and bringing it to your lips. âBite.â
You stare at him. âAnd if I donât?â
âYouâll stay hungry like the children youâre worried about.â
You scowl at him. âHow can you not care?â
âItâs not that I donât care. Itâs that some children will remain hungry, whether my hot tub is ready for my kitten when it wants a bath or not. Depriving myself of the pleasures of life does nothing to help them.â
âYour hot tub funds could go towards feeding them.â
âHow do you know I donât have separate funds that go towards feeding them?â He gazes steadily at you. âBite.â
âAre you saying that you do use your money for good, as well as for personal pleasure?â
âIâm insulted that you think âgoodâ and âmy personal pleasureâ are mutually exclusive. I derive pleasure from my philanthropic efforts.â
âWhat kind of efforts?â
He shrugs. âI donât need to brag, sweetheart. Letâs just say that my interests in supporting the public welfare are varied and expensive, even with the tax write-off benefits. And yes, such interests do include funds that go towards improving the lives of children.â
You eye him, trying to gauge his sincerity.
âAre you satisfied? Will you stop thwarting my efforts to satiate your hunger now? Bite.â
You lean forward and take a big bite of the gooey, soft, delicious cinnamon roll. Your eyes roll back in your head and you canât help the sound that comes out of your throat, itâs so good.
When you open your eyes again, Sylus is staring at you, the heat of the hot tub causing a luscious pink blush to rise in his pale cheeks, the tips of his ears.
âAgain,â he says softly.Â
You take another bite. He stares at you while you eat, instructing you to take another bite after each swallow of the pastry. When youâre done, he lifts his thumb which is covered in the glazed icing, sugar, and cinnamon.
âLick,â he says, his voice low.
The heat of the water, the pleasant fatigue in your body, the calm you achieved while swimming in the quiet for so long, the reassurance that Sylus, for all his faults, also tries to do good in the worldâyou feel pliant, and willing to do anything he wants. You lean forward again, open your mouth, and wait. Your heart pounds..
His nostrils flare and then heâs slipping his thumb into your mouth. You close your lips around it, and tongue the sweetness from his skin. When thereâs nothing left, you still your tongue and wait.
He bites his full bottom lip and a look of regret crosses his face as he slowly withdraws his thumb from your lips. He then runs it along the lip he just bit. He closes his eyes, breathes.
âWhy do you think no one would find your body interesting?â
Through your pounding heart, you swallow and try to look unaffected by what just happened, by what you can clearly feel as you rest on his lap through the thin fabric of his swimsuit. Because he is affected. His body is responding to you again. But for some reason, he wants to play the guessing game instead of⊠doing anything about it. You think about him leaning down, as if heâd kiss you. You think about him spinning on his heel and walking away instead.Â
âIt isnât so much that itâs not enough to pique interest in anyone else. Itâs simply that itâs not enough to retain that interest.â
He lifts an eyebrow. âHow so?â
You try to look away, but he reaches up and catches your jaw, gently guiding you back to meet his eyes. You sigh. Might as well get it out in the open. âI tried to tell you, when you asked me to help you with dating. Iâm the last person you should ask, because even though I have a lot of experience in romantic relationships, theyâve never ended well. Iâve been cheated on more than once. Iâm not qualified to be your dating coach.â
His brow furrows as you say âa lot of experience,' like heâs sucked on a lemon, before itâs quickly replaced with his customary bored expression. âIâll take my chances. All I need to know is what you like, and you are best qualified to do that.â
âWhy does it matter what I like? What about your beloved?â
He sniffs dismissively. âWhy are people so insistent that I repeat myself today?â But before you can ask him what he means, he asks, âWhat does your⊠mistakes having cheated on you have to do with you?â Now he looks aggressively bored.
âWhen it happens not once, or twice, but more than that, itâs pretty obvious that the common denominator is me. So maybe itâs not my body thatâs the issue. Maybe itâs just⊠all of me, that canât retain their interest, or at least their courtesy of ending things before they seek out someone else to satisfy them.â
âOr maybe the only thing wrong with you is your taste in partners.â His eyes glow in the soft light emanating from under the poolâs water.Â
You look at him, this beautiful, dangerous, mercurial creature, your heart aching from how lovely he is, how far away he feels when all you would have to do to kiss him is lean forward, just a little bit, like taking a bite from the cinnamon roll. âPerhaps youâre right.â
His brow furrows. âIf they cheated, then they were not for you. You were fated for another. And the one youâre fated for will never stray.â
Youâre surprised. Sylus has never struck you as the type of person who would accept fate in determining his life and destinyâsuch a belief feels too passive for such a strong-willed man. âDo you actually believe in fate? In soulmates?â
He nods. âNo matter how much I may resent the whims of fate, I do.â
His answer makes you unbearably sad. âWhat if you donât like the one youâre destined to be with? And the person you have no choice in lovingâif youâre destined for someone, then it doesnât matter who they are, what makes them unique. It kind of⊠removes the idea that the person you love is special, that you chose them because they fit you so well.â
He runs a finger from your chin, up the line of your jaw, until he rests his palm against your cheek and smoothes his thumb along the corner of your eye. âOn the contrary, I believe that my beloved is destined for me because they fit me so wellâif they were not uniquely them, then they would not be my fate. I can assure you, I have very specific reasons for adoring my beloved. Even if fate gets everything else wrong, it has not failed me in this regard.â
Part of you is breaking at the clear adoration in his voice for his beloved, who canât be you.Â
The other part of you is treacherously whispering in his deep, decadent voiceâ Yes, beloved? Words youâve never heard him say to you, but you can hear so clearly in your head.
âTell me about your beloved,â you whisper.
He leans forward, runs his nose along yours. His tongue flicks out and you feel its warmth along the side of your mouth before withdrawing again.
âYou had some sugar,â he says quietly in response to the confused look on your face.
The water laps the sides of the pool with each small movement of your bodies. The scent of pine, of chlorine, of sugar and cinnamon fill your senses. The world is dark outside the windows, but you canât see anything beyond the panes because of the condensation drifting up the glass from the heat of the pool.
Your heart wonât survive this man. You want to be put out of your misery. You never want to wake up from this dream.
âTell me about your beloved,â you ask again.
He runs the hand not holding your cheek along your waist, his fingertips trailing goosebumps despite the warmth of the water. âDo you really still not know, darling?â
You close your eyes. âKnow what, Sy?â
âThat you donât need me to answer your question. You already know my beloved better than anyone else. But youâre too afraid to admit that you already know who they are. What they want. What would please them the most.â
âHow could I possibly know all those things, when I donât know who your beloved is?â Your thoughts drift to your nightmare. To the streetlamps, and the darkness. The temptation to step off the ledge. Youâve already lost so much. What happens if you accept what heâs been waiting for you to acknowledge for a while now, and you have a brief, supernova moment of happiness with him? And as with real supernovas, the flash will give way to an endless darkness, or worse, a black hole. In either case, you know that the darkness lasts so much longer than that brief, blinding light. What happens when the inevitable result of your terrible choices in partners is repeated, and you have to experience the memory of what itâs like to be briefly loved by him, in comparison to his absence once he grows bored?
âYouâre breaking the rules again, darling.â
You open your eyes, and all you see is Sylus. âWhat rules?â
âYou can lie to everyone else in your life, but you will not lie to me. If you canât admit that you already know the answer to your question, then Iâll wait until you can.â
He too, has started to sweat in the heat of this quiet, almost unbearably warm space. You watch a drop of sweat form at his temple, make its meandering way down his sharp jaw. You canât help yourself. You lean forward and catch it on the tip of your tongue.Â
Salt. Sylus.Â
He shudders underneath you.
âI will be patient,â he says, voice strained, as if heâs trying to convince you. Or himself.
âWhat happens if you get bored, waiting? What if I take too long?â Because youâre not ready. The fear is overwhelming. You gave in to your curiosity in the dream, and the fall would have killed you if Sylus hadnât called you back to wakefulness.
âYou have no idea how long Iâve already waited. In the end, there is only one answer to your question, and that will not change, whether you admit it out loud right now, or fifty years from now. If you must test me in order to believe me, then test me.â
âThat sounds like a challenge,â you smile.
âMy beloved never backs down from a challenge,â he doesnât return your smile. He is watching you with such sincerity that it takes your breath away. âBut Iâd rather, this time, they simply take me at my word.â
âWhat happens when you tire of your beloved once you have them for a little while, and start to notice all their flaws?â
âIâve already evaluated the jewel; Iâm afraid this particular gem is flawless.â
You snort. âNo one is without imperfections.â
âMy beloved is not just anyone. Theyâre perfect to me.â
Youâre reeling. You donât dare believe him. He must be lying. You have no idea why he would lie about this, what he could possibly have to gain, but his honeyed words are too unbelievable. You? Flawless? Perfect in this extraordinary manâs eyes? The absurdity would make you laugh if you werenât already breathless from the idea that he has meant you, you, you, this whole time. You, his beloved.
âYou still havenât answered my question. What happens when you get bored?â
âI wonât.â
âHow can I trust that?â
He lifts a dark silver eyebrow. âOnly one way to find out.â
Suddenly, itâs all too overwhelming. The heat of the water. The long, physically demanding swim in the pool earlier. The fact that the only thing youâve had to eat in the last twenty-four hours is a cinnamon roll. You lean forward, bury your head in Sylusâs damp neck, manage to resist the urge to lick his sweat again.
âPlease wait a little longer,â you whisper. You need more time. You need to go on those fake dates with him. You need to see how he treats wait staff at a restaurant when the order is wrong. You need to make more mistakes, like with Kieran and Luke on the roadside, and see what happens the more the reality of you chips away at the pedestal he has inexplicably put you on in his mind, if heâs telling the truth. The edge is already beckoning you. You canât step over yet, you canât. You canât.
âAgain, why must I repeat myself so much today?â he gripes. âI already told you, I will wait, for as long as it takes.â He wraps his arms around you and hugs you tightly.
You hug him back, dizzy. From the heat. From the whirlwind of the last forty-eight hours. From the fraying tether you have on reality, after such a short time living in his world of dreams.Â
You stand at the ledge. Youâre not ready to leap. But youâre leaning, leaning, closer than youâve ever been. You just hope that when the inevitable happensâwhen you let yourself fall, Sylus will be there to catch you.
âI promise,â he says, as if he can read your mind. And he says he always keeps his promises.
This is what it feels like. Lured to the edge. Balancing on the cliff. You probably know how it ends, before you even realize it's beginning. But the knowing doesn't stop you from leaning, leaning, until the gravity of the inevitable pulls you down into the fall.
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I said I felt like crawling into a hole for the next four years and then inflict almost 15k words on you dear readers, I'm sorry for never keeping my promises, I'm not Sylusđ. I hope you enjoyed, we're very close to an actual relationship and maybe some real life smooches. I have plans for Noah's return in the next part and some fun activities while MC gets to knows Sylus better and practices imagining what a commitment to the leader of Onychinus would look like, but who knows what will actually come out of my brain when I sit down to write again.
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you CANNOT tell me that xavier isn't the FREAKIEST male lead. YOU CANNOT.
#WHEN HE DRAGS OUR HAND LOWER-#bro making me want to write about him#love and deepspace xavier#lads xavier#lnds xavier#xavier love and deepspace#love and deepspace
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the cat butler
word count: 2.4k
synopsis: in which sylus is eager to please you, as always. but this time, as a cat butler.
contains: sylus x mc!reader (they're not dating, but sylus is down bad), references to the cat butler trailer, sylus with cat ears and a tail, suggestive themes, mentions of alcohol, cussing, making out, and stalking(?).
a/n: i wrote this after reading somewhere that the upcoming memory might be our first-ever kiss with sylus. so consider this a prediction of some sort (probably not gonna happen). also, sylus' cat ears suit him so well. do not plagiarize or copy my work. sylus would not endorse plagiarism. enjoy!
âmy lady,â a rich yet sultry voice calls. you shift uncomfortably in your sleep, wanting to rest a bit more. Â
âmy lady,â the voice repeats firmly. still, you dismiss it by grumbling and refusing to open your eyes.Â
âmy lady.â huh, that's weird. why does that voice sound likeâŠ
âmy lady.â sylus?! you burst open your eyes upon recognizing who was calling you. though, not without a startled "oh, god" because sylus was mere inches from your face. Â
immediately, you sit up, rubbing your eyes and trying to process what was happening. where were you? how long were you out for? and most importantly, why was sylus calling you "my lady?" not that you had any problem with it, but still. your eyes widen as you find yourself on a velvet sofa in a sleek lounge of some sort. extending your arms in front of you, you stare dumbfoundedly at the tight leather gloves enveloping your hands. confusedly, you look down as you pat your body. a silky red, a-line dress hugged your figure, and you couldnât help but admire the strings of shimmering pearls that hung around your waist and neck. Â
hoping for answers on how you got here and why you were dressed so nicely, you turn to look at sylus, who was kneeling on the ground next to the sofa to meet you at your eye level. you canât stop the gasp that leaves your mouth. are those cat ears?!
nevermind the fact that sylus was dressed in a neat, scarlet tuxedo that matched the shade of your dress. nevermind the fact that he looked good in a tieâso good to the point you wanted to tug on it. nevermind the fact that he was wearing a clean pair of white gloves that outlined his fingers so nicely. what was with the cat ears?! and a tail, too?!Â
"uhm" you start. "whatâs with theâŠ?" you point at his head, hoping that he would understand. you couldnât care less about formulating proper sentences. right now, you wanted answers. where were you? why were you dressed so nicely? why the fuck is sylus wearing cat ears and a tail? and why did the caracal set suit him so well?Â
sylus' crimson eyes move up cutely as if he was trying to see the ears for himself. then, they fall back down to you, but not without a chuckle. "they're cat ears, my lady," he answers teasingly. "isn't it obvious?" with that, the ears twitch excitedly. yup, you saw that right. they actually twitched.Â
"holy shit," you mutter as you reach to stroke the ears. "can i?"Â
sylus smirks as he gives you a single nod, closing his eyes to convey that you are more than welcome to touch him. Â
the ears felt incredibly real. the fur was super soft, and you could feel the skin vibrating beneath your fingers. your eyes widen as you pinch the ears gently. they didn't just feel real. they are real. the sheer warmth you felt from touching the exposed skin in the ears told you so. fascinated, you move your fingers to the back of one of the ears to scratch at the fur. sylus purrs and leans into your scratches. you canât help but giggle at the sight. "who's the kitten now, sylus?" you jest, lifting your free hand to scratch his other ear, causing the man to part his mouth and rest his head against your knee. fuck, your touches felt so good. Â
wanting to get actual answers from him, you stop scratching and let your hands rest on your lap. before you can even speak, sylus hisses at the loss of your touch, his brows knitting and a scowl growing on his lips. he grabs both your hands and places them back on his ears. understanding his message, you continue your ministrations, trying to remember certain spots that cats tend to like.Â
"as much as these ears suit you," you coo. "this is really weird. want to tell me what's going on, sylus?" you don't remember him contacting you for a new mission where cat props and formal wear would be involved. heck, you don't remember how you even got here. what exactly was going on? Â
sylus sighs and raises his head back up before answering, "you purchased me, my lady." his amused gaze meets your bewildered one. âwe signed a contract where i would be your cat butler as of today. perhaps you forgot because as soon as you signed the contract, you drank excessively from the bar over there," he juts his head towards the bar behind you. "then, you passed out."Â
what in the actual fuck? did he say purchase? what contract? you donât remember signing any contracts. and since when did you ever drink? no, this canât be right. you don't even recall coming to this fancy place. let alone dressing up so nicely. Â
"you're lying," you nervously say. "there's no one working at the bar, and i don't see any glasses either." for a moment, a look of pride flashes on sylus' face. you always were so observant. one of the many things he loved about you. if only you were more observant of his affection for you instead of being so oblivious all the time. "besides, what's with our outfits? i don't remember putting this on. let alone coming here..."Â
sylus laughs endearingly. his signature, billionaire laugh that constantly stirs up butterflies within you. "trust me, my lady, you drank," he insists, grasping your wrist and pressing a fond kiss. flustered by his actions, you try to pull back, but sylus' grasp remains strong. his sharp gaze locks with yours as he continues. "the dress code here is formal. thus, our attire. you walked in looking like this. a wonderful choice, i must say. you look ravishing, and i am honored to have been sold to you because..." sylus leans in next to your face, his hot breath fanning your sensitive ears. "i wouldn't have anyone else as my master." Â
you stand up immediately, uncontrollably blinking and blushing from what you just heard. unfortunately, you donât realize that you are wearing heels, causing you to stumble backward. sylus swiftly stands up, pulling you to him with an arm around your waist, effectively and attractively saving you from your fall. you place both hands on his broad shoulders, trying to balance yourself and catch your breath. noticing that the two of you were basically conjoined by the groin, you avert your eyes away from him. Â
"t-thanks," you stammer as you try to get some space by pushing at his shoulders. "you can let go of me now."Â Â
sylus tilts his head, looking down at you mischievously and trying to meet your avoidant gaze. "is that a command, my lady?" Â
puzzled by his question, you finally meet his eyes. sylus sighs a hum of satisfaction, relishing in your eye contact with him. "what do you mean command?" you ask. you were too occupied by sylusâ accusations of you drinking to fully capture his previous answers. Â
"it's part of the contract you paid for. i am to obey your every command as your one and only cat butler." the man answers eagerly, as if what he had just said was completely normal. almost as if he was enjoying this. Â
you blink once. then twice before asking, "i paid for this?" you did not like where this was going. Â
"indeed, my lady. five million dollars to be exact. i am quite the expensive cat butler," sylus grins. normally, you would've found his grin cute. some fangs would peek out, and a slight dimple would show. moreover, he was wearing cat ears. which only added to his playful demeanor. but right now, you were mortified because FIVE MILLION DOLLARS?! WHERE DID YOU EVEN GET THAT MUCH MONEY?!
"what?!" you struggle against his embrace. "what do you mean five million dollars? not even a rare protocore is worth that much!" you panic as you think about your savings. did you seriously spend all your savings on a cat butler contract and put yourself into yearsâ worth of debt? oh god, if so, you were fucked. say goodbye to all your years of hard work and saving.Â
sylus frowns at your last statement. "are you not satisfied, my lady?"
with your jaw dropped, you look at the man towering over you as if he had said something, for lack of a better term, dumb. which he technically did because who would be satisfied after spending five million dollars on a cat butler contract?! (me). "yes?!â you say incredulously. âwho in this situation would be satisfied?! you just told me that i blew all my savings and probably even more for a stupid contract!"Â
sylus sighs, pinching his nose bridge with his free hand. while it was one thing to have something related to him get called stupid, it was another to see you so rattled. he had to ease your mind, knowing it would spiral if he didn't act soon. "now, now my lady. there is nothing stupid about this contract. you'd be surprised by the numerous benefits that come with it. which are but not limited to me obeying your every command."Â
you donât know which is worse. the head of onychinus telling you that you spent a sickening amount of money just to see him in a suit with cat features. or the head of onychinus telling you that you were actually benefiting from spending a sickening amount of money just to see him in a suit with cat features. as much as the idea of sylus following orders sounded like heaven, being broke in a matter of who knows how long, or in this case, little, and for a stupid reason at that, was not great. not great at all. your gaze shifts rapidly, distracted with coming up with a solution. "are there any refunds by chance?" you ask meekly.Â
a dangerous look passes over sylusâ crimson eyes. with no ill intent, of course. he could never harbor any feelings of malice towards you. but the idea of you wanting a refund bothered him greatly. he was not going to let you get rid of him so easily. his arm around your waist tightens, bringing you even closer to him. lifting his free hand, sylus curls a finger under your chin, tilting your face upwards to meet his burning gaze. you shiver, forced to drown in his deep pools of rubies. feeling a rush of pleasure from finally having your attention on him, sylus moves his hand from your chin and reaches behind you to caress the blade of your shoulder. you can't help but shudder at the sudden intimacy. why did this dress have to expose your back?Â
"even if my services were terrible," sylus doesn't cease his feather-like touches on your back, causing you to twitch and pant from sensitivity. "there are no refunds," he rasps as he traces a finger down your spine, prompting a whimper from you. enjoying the small yet addictive noises that leave your pretty lips, sylus smirks. yes, this was how it was supposed to be. you, in his embrace where only he could make you feel good and only he could hear your sweet, sweet sounds. Â
"sylus..." you try your best not to moan. "s-stop it." you hide your face in sylus' chest, wanting to muffle your sounds and smother your embarrassment away. "i-i got it. no refunds."Â Â
liking what he hears, sylus ceases his ministrations. he brings his hand back to your chin, gently pulling you away from his chest and slowly tilting your face so that you meet his gaze once more. "i'm glad you understand, my lady," sylus closes in on you, his lips millimeters apart from yours. "you won't be returning me anytime soon." Â
sylus smashes his lips against yours, earning a moan from you. with the hand that was on your chin now cupping your face and the arm that was around your waist tightening some more, the two of you fall back onto the velvet couch. you gasp at the impact, causing sylus to slide his tongue in, capturing your own in a heated dance that he seemed intent on leading. you shakily wrap your arms around sylus' neck, trying to keep up with his relentless kisses. out of the corner of your eye, you see sylus' tail desperately swaying left and right. an idea flashes in your head. as sylus continues to swirl his tongue in your mouth, you raise your hand from his neck and gently tug at one of his cat ears. sylus jerks violently, mewling filthily into your mouth. taking that as a sign of encouragement, you continue playing with his ear, causing him to lose himself more and more in your lips, your scent, your everything.Â
when the two of you grow in need of breaths, sylus pulls away, panting the same rhythm as you. you had no idea how gorgeous you looked right now. splayed out underneath him in tempting attire that was of his signature color. hair disheveled, cheeks rosy, lips swollen, eyes tearyâgod, you were going to be the death of him. tenderly moving a stray hair out of your face, the silver-haired man speaks. Â
"so, what is your first command, my lady?"
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you inhale sharply as you jolt out of bed. what the fuck was that? you breathe rapidly as you take in your surroundings. sighing a breath of relief, you find yourself back in your room and your comfy pajamas. tiredly rubbing a hand over your face, you start to agonize over the fact that you dreamt about making out with sylus. not only that, you dreamt about making out with him in cat ears. why? you're not sure what this says about you as a person, let alone your growing attraction to him. did you have a thing for pet plaâyou don't let yourself finish that last thought. ruffling your hair in frustration, you fall back onto your pillow, determined to recover from that dream. you decide that you are going to avoid sylus for a few days.Â
shifting into a comfortable position, you shut your eyes and wait for sleep to find you, causing you to miss the mechanical crow with glowing red eyes flying away from your window and into the night. sylus, viewing the surveillance screen back at his grand residence, tilts his head in curiosity, a subtle smirk appearing on his lips.
 "what did you dream about, kitten?"
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No One But You
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Sylus lay in a pool of his own blood, clutching the gunshot wound you had carved into his heart, muttering about betrayal and deceit in his final moments.
You rolled your eyes.
âYesterdayâs death was a hell of a lot more creative, Sylus.â
He sat up straight, scoffing. âCanât help if the source material is unoriginal to start with. The best you could do was a gunshot wound today? Really?â
âThatâs because I wasnât trying to kill you, stupid.â
He raised an eyebrow. âAnd what do you call plowing a bullet through my chest?â
You crossed your arms. âI call that trying to shut you up. Although, I suppose that didnât work so well either, because then you prattled on about what a traitor I was and how you never saw this coming. Which, in my humble opinion, was laying it on too thick. You always see everything coming, donât act like a victim.â
He chuckled and with a snap of his fingers, any trace of his blood or his wound had vanished. âWhat can I say, I like theatrics.â
âAnd I like my bosses to be less dramatic and less alive.âÂ
He stood to meet your gaze, tsking at you as he tucked a finger under your chin. âNow, now, kitten. Weâve been having such a grand time together the last few months.â
You waved his hand away but he caught your wrist. You knew once he had you in his grasp, you werenât getting out until he chose to let you go so you stopped resisting. He smirked, pleased at your submission. Â
Sighing, you grumbled, âSy- youâve got a 1 o clock meeting and Iâve yet to thoroughly vet them, so eventually youâll have to let me go.â
He yanked you closer to him. âI highly doubt my favorite assassin would forget to vet anybody. Iâm sure you already had him in your sights long before I made the meeting, am I correct?â
You met his brazen gaze with a fierce look of your own. âI suppose now that you know all my secrets, I really will have to kill you.â
He chuckled and kissed your knuckles. âLooking forward to it.â
Asshole.
He knew that you knew you couldnât kill him if you tried, because youâd already tried. Many, many times.Â
Youâd met him months back when youâd attempted to snipe him from a rooftop. You were the best in the assassination business, but something about this cheeky bastard who had the nerve to grin into your oculars right as you pulled the trigger had you feeling like an amateur again. And when he materialized beside you right after youâd supposedly shot him, offering employment rather than retaliation, you knew he wasnât taking you seriously at all. How could the head of Onychinus allow an assassin to walk right into his headquarters, to eat and drink beside him, to sleep in the room next door, knowing he had a hefty bounty on his head that she intended to collect, and not bat an eye? He was some other beast entirely and you werenât sure how to react.
Of course it made you feel valued to know that he only entrusted his most important missions to you -heâd say something along the lines of âthereâs no one else who can do the job but youâ and youâd roll your eyes but oblige him- but he mustâve still thought you were somewhat incompetent if he willingly allowed you to take a shot at trying to kill him everyday. And then there was the matter of his obvious flirting.Â
The way he always had your favorite wine laid out for you after a mission -you werenât sure who heâd tortured for this information- or the way he always made sure to take you on missions with him that involved dressing up so he could admire your figure -not like he wasnât already admiring it on a daily basis in your usual getup- or even the way he purred his little pet names in your ear, pet names that he didnât seem to give to anyone else but you.Â
Some small part of you even wondered if maybe he loved you. But the rest of you knew that he probably didnât even know what love was. The rest of you knew that he was probably toying with you. But what was he waiting for? For you to no longer be useful? For you to fall for him? For you to give up on killing him? What did he want?Â
The man had the most beautiful eyes youâd ever seen but you would never know what was going on behind them.Â
And it killed you to admit that he was beautiful. Rule number one of assassination was to not get attached to your target, but here you were, toasting him over dinner every night, admiring the curve of his lips, admiring the broadness of his shoulders, admiring the way his fingers held a wine glass, like you hadnât spent decades training to be the monster you were known to be, like you were just some school girl hanging onto some jockâs every word.Â
He probably knew it too.
He liked to tease you; it was like his own personal form of entertainment.Â
He liked to intertwine his fingers in between yours like you hadnât just used those very same fingers to try and strangle him only moments before. He liked to tuck your hair behind your ear, pinch your sides, pin down your wrists, tilt up your chin, anything so he could touch you. He liked to murmur your name, your real name, the name you hadnât been called in years, the name you werenât sure how heâd uncovered, over and over like a prayer, until you had to excuse yourself from dinner because you werenât used to the gentleness in his voice. And then he liked to repeat the cycle over and over again, until you werenât sure how you felt anymore, until you werenât sure who you were anymore.Â
âBastard.â You muttered under your breath.
âTrying to hurt my feelings?â Sylus snaked his arms around your waist.Â
âIt was never my intention to hurt you, dear Sylus, only kill you.â You responded innocently.
He chuckled, running his fingers through your hair. âThatâs my girl.â
God, he couldnât keep saying this shit to you.
âNot your girl, Sy.â You retorted, shaking him off of you.
âAnd why not? You could be.â His eyes gleamed mischievously.
In an instant you had a knife pinned to his throat. âBecause of this. Because youâre nothing more to me than a target and Iâm nothing more to you than a toy.â
He leaned in closer to you, allowing the metal to pierce his skin, drawing blood. âWell if it makes you feel better, thereâs no one Iâd rather have kill me but you.â
You laughed at that, withdrawing your knife. âShould I feel honored? And how does one even respond to that- thereâs no one Iâd rather have toy with me but you? God, work on your lines Sylus, youâre so cliche. You have a 2 o clock meeting, so get to it.â You shoved him off of you.
Grinning, he sauntered off to his next meeting with you guarding his back like you always did. And when his 2 o clock tried to kill him, he kept that same stupid grin on his face as he watched you pin the man underneath you in a matter of seconds, cuffing his hands together so tightly they bruised.Â
âIs it appropriate to say Iâm feeling jealous right now, kitten?â He chuckled.
You scoffed. âNo, Sylus, it is not.â
âAnd what if I said thereâs no one Iâd rather have pin me down than you?â
âStill not appropriate.â
The man underneath you groaned. âIf you two are going to keep flirting or bickering or whatever this is, could you kill me already?â
You smacked his head with the butt of your gun. âShut up, weâre trying to talk here.âÂ
âFeisty. I love it when you talk like that, kitten.â Sylus ran his hand through your hair, the way he always did, admiring the way the strands felt in between his fingers.Â
âFunny, I love when you stop talking, Sy.â
The man squirmed beneath you again. âIâm serious, please just kill me already.â
âI said shut up, my god.â You tightened his cuffs.Â
But this time the man was annoyed. âHeâs toying with you, youâre toying with him, we get it already. A man like Sylus is never gonna truly love you so can you please quit flirting an ki-âÂ
You shot him in the head. âDid I not say to shut up?â
You had intended to keep him alive for information, but you had to admit his comment hit a little too close to home. You already knew Sylus was never going to love you, but was it that obvious to a random bystander? The thought pissed you off.
Sylus sighed. âAnd now Iâm going to have to get the carpet cleaners in here.â
âYou really should keep the company of quieter people.â
âAnd you should know when a man is baiting you.â
You scoffed, standing to leave. âAnd whatâs that supposed to mean? I know when Iâm being played, you do it all the time.â
âYouâre so gullible sometimes, kitten. Youâd really believe what a random hitman says?â He wrapped one arm around your waist, pulling you closer, and tucked one hand underneath your chin, drawing your gaze to him.Â
âI donât believe what anyone says.â
âYet youâd kill him for saying I could never love you? Interesting way of showing you donât believe him.â
You glared at him, anger flaring in your gut. You attempted to wrench yourself away from him but he only pulled you tighter against him. âSylus, let go already. Enough of this. Iâm tired.â You snapped.
âHavenât I already told you? Thereâs no one else for me but you.â
âSylus, quit saying shit like that.âÂ
âRight, you donât like when I talk. Well then, how about this?â In a matter of seconds, his lips had found their way to yours, molding his passion and persistence into you.Â
You bit his lip in annoyance but it only fueled him more.
He chuckled against your mouth and claimed your tongue with his. His hands rested on the small of your back, possessively holding you in place against him. After properly swallowing down your moans and devouring all your desire, he finally pulled away to allow you some breath.
âFine.â You whispered, still dizzy from his kiss.Â
He smirked, nuzzling up against your ear, as he murmured, âFine what?â
âFine. Thereâs no one else for me but you. Happy?â
âImmensely.âÂ
He kissed you again and didnât stop kissing you all night.
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The right hand, the left hand, the heart of Sylus Qin | ao3 | fanfic masterlist
Summary: Sylus meets with his legal counsel while the twins give you a tour of the base, you wake up from a dream, Sylus wastes some eggs, you attempt to get to know Sylus better, and you have your first 'date' with Sylus Qin. Part 16 of the Sylus series.
Notes: Sylus x gn reader, Sylus x mc, second person POV, some Sylus POV They/them pronouns used to describe reader, meant as a placeholder for your preferred pronouns slow-burn friends-to-lovers This story contains: a lot of fluff and patient, tender Sylus, despite the following: MC questioning their sanity, MC with self-esteem issues, MC in the death-throes of fear-driven denial regarding the possibility that maybe, just maybe, Sylus has been interested in them this entire fucking time, Aidan antics, twin antics, a little self-induced MC angst, mentions of violence, profanity, alcohol use, discussions of gray morality
Sylus lets his bedroom door shut behind him, leaving you to dress, preparing to leave you in Luke and Kieranâs hands. His heartâso long an empty cavern, echoing the rapid-fire rhythm of its beatâclenches, jams. Youâre just on the other side of the door, and youâre already too far.
The twins are leaning against the hallway wall on either side of the door. As he steps out, their heads snap up.
He pauses. âShow kitten around the base, wherever they want to go. Finish the tour with the guest wing.â
Kieran straightens. âWhy the guest wing? Is your hunter not staying in your room?â Heâs still hoarse from the previous night, and Sylus makes a mental note to get him some throat lozenges. It was your feral kitten who hurt him, after all, although itâs arguably also Kieran and Lukeâs own fault for approaching a seasoned warrior in a notoriously dangerous area like a couple of serial killers. Which the twins are, but not in the typical sense of the term.
âKitten hasnât decided where to stay yet,â Sylus answers, secure in the knowledge that you will choose him. But he is serious about wanting to at least offer you the choiceâof rooms. Because even if you choose another room to stay in, he intends to find his way there at the end of every day. You sleep much better when heâs around, after all. Even then, youâll still have a choiceâyou can always try to kick him off the bed again. Heâll just sleep on the floor.
âDo you want us to fix that?â Luke asks hopefully. âWe can flood that floor if you want. Whoops, all the rooms are out of order!â he feigns surprise, poorly.Â
Sylus snorts. âI have a feeling that if you tried to flood only the one floor, the whole base will end up underwater.â
âIs that a no?â Luke looks disappointed.
âThatâs a no,â Kieran answers for Sylus. âUnderstood. Weâll show them all the entertainment options we have to incentivize a long stay, before we show them the guest rooms.â
Sylus nods. âCall me, if it looks like kitten is getting overwhelmed. Their last stay here⊠had unintended consequences.âÂ
âOh you mean when you starved them and forced them to resonate with you and threatened to leave them to die?â Luke asks, counting on his fingers and tilting his head.
Sylus sighs. âYes, Luke. Thatâs what I mean.â
âOkay, then weâll tell them all about how awesome you are so that they forget that you can also be a massive asshole,â Luke perks up.
Sylus just looks at him for a moment. Even with his aether core, it took him a while to get used to Lukeâs particular brand of practical, blunt straightforwardness. So few people speak to Sylus with such raw honesty and fearlessness that spending time with Luke is always a refreshing palate cleanser after enduring meeting after meeting with intimidated, simpering fools who would turn around and slit Sylusâs throat if given half a chance. He tells himself thatâs the only reason he tolerates such insubordination from this half of his right-hand man.
âOh, thatâs a sound plan Luke, well thought!â Kieran agrees, pleased with his other half.Â
âJust give them the tour and keep them company until Iâm done.â Sylus learned long ago that attempting to corral the twinsâ machinations is usually fruitless, but clear instructions tend to keep the fallout from being too disastrous.
The young men nod in unison. Sylus considers continuing to take his sweet time to get to his office, just to further infuriate the undoubtedly seething Aidan who is waiting for him. But then he remembers the last time he had to wade through a bunch of barking human beings at one of Aidanâs munches. He sniffs. Heâd much rather get business over with and get back to you as quickly as possible. If Sylus wasnât already keenly aware of how much your presence in his life is already changing him, heâd realize it now as he swallows his pettiness and teleports to his office, instead of making Aidan wait out of principle.
As he re-materializes in his office, Aidan turns from looking at the wall where a majority of Aidanâs fountain pens have ended up embedded, forming the image of a large happy face.
âHow surprising that you didnât throw them in the pattern of a skull emojiââ Aidan begins, until black-red tendrils materialize around his ankles and sweep him off his feet. They hold him dangling, headfirst. He lets out a little delighted squeal that makes Sylus wince.
âIf youâre trying to discourage my insubordination in front of your paramour that youâre undoubtedly about to ream me for, Iâm afraid itâs having the opposite effect,â his legal counsel grins happily, wriggling against the evol restraints.
Sylus comes to a stop in front of him so that theyâre face to upside-down face, his thumbs hooked casually in his sleep pants pockets.
âOh, I am aware,â  he says in disgust. âBut despite your interrupting a very pleasant moment with kitten, I feel that I owe you an apology for making you miss knitting club. So enjoy my mercy before we get down to business.â Â
âAnd people say youâre a monster,â Aidan continues grinning dopily at him.Â
âPeople are fools,â Sylus tsks. âOh, before I forget. Speaking of interrupting my moment with kitten⊠they say that if you ever call them kitten again, theyâll tear out your tongue and make you eat it.â
Aidanâs eyebrows shoot up⊠or down, depending on your perspective. âThey said that?â
Sylus considers lying, but he doesnât want to mischaracterize you or your words to anyone. âNot the part about forcing you to eat it,â he admits. âBut if kitten doesnât, Iâll make you.â
Aidan just laughs. âI donât believe your empty threats. My tongueâs too expensive for you to waste like that. Still⊠removing my tongue, huh,â he continues thoughtfully. âNo wonder youâre so obsessed.â
Sylus turns, leisurely making his way to his desk as the evol tendrils bind Aidanâs wrists behind his back, jerk him upright, and then toss him onto one of the black leather couches in the officeâs sitting area. They dissipate as Aidan snickers a little breathlessly.
âFirst the happy face. Now giving me a little treat instead of a lecture. Iâve never seen you in such a good mood.â Instead of sitting up like a proper employee showing deference to his employer, Aidan just stretches languidly across the couch and props his head up on a fist. âAlthough Iâm still pissed that this is how you treat my pens,â he frowns, jerking his head back toward the impaled wall.
âI pay you enough to purchase all the pens you could ever want, plus the factory that makes them.â Sylus sits down at his desk, slouching behind the paperwork still strewn haphazardly over it that he abandoned after receiving the call from Luke informing him that you were running from him again.
âBut what you do not pay me enough for is missing knitting club. The grandmas are going to give me hell the next time I go,â Aidan grumbles.Â
âIâm sure you can handle it,â Sylus drawls. âNow, if youâre done whining, letâs get through this so that I can get back to kitten.â
Aidan lets out a dramatic sigh and sits up, as if the effort is utterly exhausting. âHave you had a chance to look at the latest draft?â
Sylus flicks the messy stack of papers with his fingers and they go sailing with his evol to Aidanâs lap. Aidan lifts one page, a look of disdain on his face as he holds it so that he can look at Sylus through the neat hole punctured in it as a result of Sylusâs boredom with the pen.
âThatâs what I think of the latest draft,â Sylus says.
Aidan tsks. âGood, that was my feeling as well. But you didnât have to mutilate the damn thing.â He gathers the pages, trying to put them in order. âAfter Iâm finished reprinting it,â he sighs dramatically again. âIâll redline it and get it to them this week.â
Sylus just nods, staring out into the night through his officeâs wall of windows. Itâs not too foggy, so the N109 Zoneâs skyline glitters menacingly, an undersea predator luring prey in the dark.
âNext order of business: FJB groupâs CEO is hounding me again to arrange a face-to-face with you. Heâs getting⊠aggressive.â
âHardly surprising, considering the type of entitled scumbag he is,â Sylus scoffs. âIâm not interested in his offer. Keep ignoring him.â
âSylus, I donât think heâs the type of guy who will simply get the hint and slink back to his hole. Doing nothing will only embolden him.â
âEmbolden him to do what? If he doesnât get the message and tries to approach you directly, just eliminate him. I do not have the patience right now to play games with him.â He has much more interesting things to focus on, now that youâre in his bed, in his home, just down the hall. And this time heâs certain youâre right down the hall, and not sprinting through the night like a panicked deer. A deer capable of taking down wolves, but still, a deer all the same.
âThatâs a bad call, and you know it,â Aidan argues. âHe is strong enough to have an exclusive grip on the flesh trade. If you remove him, ten other would-be heads of the hydra will sprout and it will destabilize the Zone.That means more collateral damage.â
âAn exclusive grip that he has only because I allow it,â Sylus snorts. âAnd what, more collateral damage than the people he traffics?â
Aidan gapes at him. âWhat has gotten into you? This is the reality of humanity. People are not going to stop exploiting each other, no matter how much of an iron fist you wield. The only thing you can do is ensure that you think strategically enough to minimize the inevitable harm.â
Sylus frowns. That is indeed what he has always thought. The depravity of humanity is such that eradication of human suffering is impossible, and no one person can save the world. People can hardly save themselves. Sylus himself has learned that lesson the hard way, over and over. Itâs not his responsibility to save everyone. That is something that this version of you simply does not understand, and youâre vulnerable because of it. Someday, if Sylus doesnât stop you, youâre going to get yourself killed because of your misguided sense of duty to strangers whose fate is being born to suffer. But knowing this version of you⊠thinking about how hard you take every loss, the way your already broken heart is chiseled further with every person you canât save⊠his own assault rifle heart jams again.Â
The CEO of the FJB Group is just the type of person Sylus thinks youâd like to bathe your feet in the blood of, even if you hate admitting that to yourself. Sylus would happily string him up, field dress him like the pathetic prey he is, and let his corpse drain for your bathing pleasure.
But since youâre still having a hard time admitting that yourself, heâs worried that if he does, you might get mad. And Aidanâs right. If he kills this fuck, ten others will try to claw their way up to take the empty throne.
âNoted. Just keep ignoring him. If he still wonât take no for an answer, let me know.â Aidan looks relieved, until he continues. âBut Iâm going to rely on you more for the next few weeks. Handle everything you can without bothering me, unless you want to contact me in a personal capacity. Things are settled enough after cleaning houseâI want to focus on personal matters for the foreseeable future.â
Aidan jerks to his feet but takes a deep breath. He begins to pace, hands folded behind his back. Sylus appreciates his self control, as he knows that his litigatorâs instinct is to immediately counter-argue his disagreement.
He stops, turns to Sylus, huffs.
âSpeak,â Sylus orders, lifting an eyebrow. Seeing Aidan flustered is always amusing, but Sylus is impatient to get back to you. Maybe heâll be done quick enough to take over the tour himself.
âAre you sure this is a good idea? The risksâŠâ Aidan begins, uncharacteristically hesitant.Â
âWhether itâs a good idea or not, itâs happening. The whole reason Iâm here is finally in my bed. Everything else is secondary.â
Aidan looks pained. âI still donât understand your single-minded fixation on this one person. This one person who happens to be a Deepspace Hunter, whose job mandate is to hunt you, in particular, and bring you down. There are literally thousands of other people in the world who would probably be thrilled to be in your bed. Why limit yourself to one, and to one who poses such a risk to everything youâve built? To your very life?â
âNot all of us have such a low threshold for amusement that just anyone in their bed will do, like you,â Sylus clicks his tongue.
âItâs not about a low threshold of amusement. Itâs being open to the possibility that each person you meet is a gift, containing an entire world, and the pleasure is opening the box to see whatâs inside,â Aidan retorts, âYouâre just a snob, and refuse to acknowledge that other people have rich inner lives, just like you do.â
âSave me your idealistic speeches about free love and the beauty of the human spirit. How you can come from where youâre from, handle the shit you handle in your line of work, openly acknowledge that humans are scum, and yet still enjoy them like little snowflake gift boxes, is simply beyond me.â
âIâm full of imagination,â Aidan sniffs.
âYouâre full of bullshit. Youâre just easily bored and like to fuck,â Sylus baits him, knowing that Aidan is actually sincere.
âExcuse you!â Aidan does not disappoint. âHow dare youâand what an accusation, coming from you, the man who can get bored in the middle of murdering someone. How do you even know that your obsession can retain your interest in the long run?â Aidan lobs back.
Sylus just smiles, with teeth. His fascination with you was already gigantic before he laid eyes on you again. It has only grown, the longer he gets to spend time with you. Your mix of strength and fragility. The unpredictability of your pleasure and your anxiety. Your blood thirst and your compassion. How can he ever get bored, when he has no idea what the next expression on your face will be? When he has no idea how youâll manage to misinterpret the obviousness of his devotion to you, his endless patience, his worship?
âOh god, never make that face again. Iâm going to be sick. Youâre so in love and I hate it,â Aidan gags exaggeratedly, like a cat hacking up a hairball.
âThen donât ask questions you donât want the answer to,â Sylus advises.
Aidan hangs his head for a moment, hands on his hips. When he lifts it, he looks more serious than Sylus has seen him in awhile. âJoking aside, Sylus. How do you know that if things go south between you, the hunter wonât turn on you? This is a huge risk not only to you, but everyone you care about in this organization if youâre taken out.â
Sylus sits heavily back in his chair. He spins it a little, from side to side, as he thinks of how best to answer in a way that Aidan can understand. âI wonât let things go south between us. I will do whatever it takes to make my kitten happy, so that theyâre never tempted to turn on me.â
âEven you canât guarantee that. Love is messy, and itâs so close to hate. Especially when you begin that love with torturing them and using your evol on them without their permission,â Aidan says, wincing, as if heâs regretful about being so brutally honest.
âI have plans in place to protect the people who need protecting, in case I fuck up so badly that my beloved is driven to taking me out. And if it comes to that, Iâll deserve it,â Sylus sighs. He appreciates Aidanâs concern, but every minute he spends expressing that care is another minute that Sylus is kept from being near you. âLet me worry about the risks. Your job is to keep the empire running while I fortify the foundation that will prevent your worries from coming to pass.â
Aidan looks like he wants to say something else, but after a moment, his shoulders slump. âWe just got you back. Donât get yourself in trouble again. And of course. You donât have to worry about the rest.â He straightens. âAnd now, if youâll excuse me, I have some puppy tails to pull.â He flicks a little wave in Sylusâs direction. âIâll see myself out. Toodaloo!â
Just as heâs reaching the door, Sylus remembers the last thing he wanted to ask of his left hand man.
âAidan.â Aidan jerks to a halt, and turns around, eyes narrowed, as if he can sense that whatever Sylus is about to ask will be a huge headache. âSet up a meeting with my architect, and get me a list of names.â
Aidan just stares at him for a beat. âDo I even want to know what type of names?â
âExperts in wildlife conservation. Particularly of the sealife variety.â
âYou want a meeting with your architect and a sealife conservationist.â Aidan says flatly.
Sylus just stares at him.
âMay I ask why?â
Sylus shows his teeth again. âIâve been informed that the base needs an aquarium for orphaned and injured fish.â
Aidan gapes, but then rolls his eyes so hard that Sylus is worried theyâll get stuck. âIâm thrilled that your hunter makes you so happy. Really. Just thrilled. But Iâm starting to get the feeling that theyâll also be the death of me, whether they take my tongue or not.âÂ
âSpare me your editorializing and just get it done,â Sylus forestalls further whining. Heâs getting increasingly impatient to get back to you.
Aidan groans, because he views it as a moral imperative to always make sure that everyone within a five kilometer radius understands the terrible sacrifices he must make as Sylusâs lawyer. âFine . Youâll have your list by the end of the week. But Iâm leaving before you can transmit any more demands from your kitten.â He sweeps out of the room in a huff and the door slams behind him.
Sylus sits for a moment as the door swings shut. He takes Aidanâs concern seriously, but even his furiously spinning mind has a hard time planning for a scenario where you turn on him. Not in this life, at least. He doesnât want to dwell on the past when the current you, so utterly sweet, so pliant in his arms, all of your spikes withdrawn for him and him alone, is walking around in his lair, with no plans to leave for the foreseeable future. He wants to rest too, while youâre here. He doesnât want to think about the past, or a future he has yet to secure. He simply wants to be with you.
He doesnât want to waste another minute. He stands and heads to the door.
* * *
You wake up.
All at once, on a gasp. Your heart is pounding. Youâre aching, aching, because you just woke up from a dream you canât remember and the only things that remain are the feeling of pleasure, of security, of desire reciprocated.
You lie there, eyes still closed, hoping that youâll be able to re-access the dreamâmaybe if you can fall back asleep quickly enough, you can pick up the severed thread again, return to whatever was giving you that feeling of a feast when youâre famished, a waterfall when you thirst, the weight of anotherâs body on you, in you, filling you so completely it eclipses that constant emptiness you carry with you through all of your days.
But despite all of your yearning, all of your effort, you canât return to whatever you were dreaming about. Only that feeling remainsâsafety. The certainty that youâre utterly cherished. That all of your worries from last night were simply little nightmares, extinguished upon your waking.
You remember where you are. Who youâre staying with. Who you were anguished about as you imagined him taking another to his bed. It all seems so silly nowâyou talking yourself into being sad, with no reason at all to believe that he would do so, when youâre the one he has invited into his home, youâre the one he wraps himself around at every opportunity, youâre the one who he insists he wants in his bed.
What a strange sense of double vision, or cognitive dissonance. Wishful thinking. Delusional fantasy. You know that there was a reason you were worried that Sylus would be seeing other people while you stay with him. But youâre now utterly convinced that such a worry is completely unfounded, so absurd as to make you laugh out loud. But you have no idea why you have this certainty now. It feels like someone reached inside your brain and flipped a switch, and though there was a logical reason to worry, you can no longer bring yourself to believe that Sylus would ever want another in his bed.
You feel insane.
You open your eyes, expecting to see the white canopy of the swinging garden fuck-bed above you, but you see the black, ornately carved ceiling of Sylusâs bedroom instead. You are certain you fell asleep in the greenhouse. How the hell did you wind up back in Sylusâs bed? The feeling of unreality intensifies.
You turn your head and feel an immediate sense of calm wash over you as you see Sylus sitting next to you, his glorious chest no longer bare, but clothed in a simple black sweater, his gold-rimmed reading glasses perched on his sexy hooked nose. He has his tablet in one hand. He looks down at you, one corner of his mouth lifted, and you have the most intense sensation that you know what his lips feel like. That you could map his tongue, recognize it by the feel of it in your mouth if you were blindfolded, its heft and insistence between your lips.
You feel insane.
âFinally awake, kitten?â he asks, nonchalantly. He reaches down and brushes his fingertips along your cheek.
âHow did I get here?â you ask, trying desperately to push the feeling of being pressed beneath his beautiful body into something soft out of your mind. Of soft silver fur under your hands. His voiceâ Yes, Beloved?
âThe better question is why werenât you here to begin with?â he snorts softly.
âWhat?â
He continues to look at you with that amused, barely-there smile. âNot fully awake, huh. Why did you go to the greenhouse when you were tired, when you had assured me that you would stay in my bedroom while you're here?â
You look away, back to his ceiling. The elaborate moulding is as extra as the rest of his place, but itâs so beautiful, you can hardly fault him for his preference for lovely things. If you can afford it, why not surround yourself with beauty? You just wish it wasnât such an oppressive black. But it belongs to Sylusâhe chose it, so you think you could tolerate it forever, given the whisper of a chance.
You donât want to answer his question. But that sense of security, assurance, safety , remains with you, even as you fail to comprehend where the fuck it could have come from. You feel brave enough to ask the question that was torturing you before you fell asleep. âCan you give me plenty of advance warning if youâre going to invite someone over forâŠâ you hesitate, trying to think of a more mature way of saying âsexy fucking fun times.â Nothing comes. âFor fucking? I donât want to get in the way,â you finish, lamely. But the thought of him actually wanting to fuck anyone else strikes you as so absurd that it doesnât even hurt to say it out loud. You donât think you even need to ask this question anymore, because you already know the answer.
But thatâs insane. And youâre a lot of fucking things, but you think youâre pretty well-grounded in reality. Youâre hyper-aware of realityâthe reality of being you, with all of your flaws, your broken pieces barely held together, which is part of your whole goddamn problem. If you were oblivious to your own weaknesses, to the reality of living in such a cruel world while being a walking open wound, you could strut around like a mediocre white man and feel entitled to everything, including Sylusâs exclusive affection.
âIs that why you snuck off to the greenhouse, instead of coming to nap in my bed like we agreed?â He sets his tablet aside.Â
âI never agreed,â you mumble, thinking about how he had said that if you found a room you liked better, you had a choice of where to stay. That conversation was left open-ended. There was never a deal.
âA technicality,â he dismisses your protest. âUnless you found a room that you like better?â he asks archly, setting his glasses on top of the tablet and leaning down, running his nose along your cheek.Â
Nothing has changed. No room, not even the greenhouse with its life and relief from the oppressive marble halls of his base, is more appealing than any room where Sylus is. You shake your head, and his lips brush the edge of your mouth.
âBut you were worried about me bringing other people to my bed, even though I have everything I want right here already,â he murmurs.
You close your eyes against the onslaught of sensationsâhis warmth, his scent, the feel of his skin on yours. You donât want to admit it, but now that your bizarre certainty has been confirmed, it feels silly to pretend otherwise. âYeah. I didnât want to⊠I didnât want to get in the way.â
âSo thatâs the reason you ran, again?â he asks, sinking lower, getting comfortable on his side facing you.
You just nod instead of answering, and itâs not because you want to feel his lips on your skin again.
âCome to me next time, when youâre worried about something like that,â he demands, but it feels like a plea.
That sense of safety is filling you, making you brave. You want to bottle it so that you can drink it every time you feel insecure in the future, despite how nuts itâs making you feel. âOkay,â you agree quietly.
âThank you, darling,â he smiles fully, and itâs so soft, you could die.
But hearing him say âdarlingâ is like a gunshot next to your ear while youâre sleepingâyouâre slammed into another reality, the sensation of Sylusâs hands on you, gripping your waistâhis heavy body pressing yours into warm sand, sucking on his tongue, reveling in the feeling of a part of him filling you upâ
You canât. You canât. Youâre delusional, no matter how real the memory feels.
âDarling,â you choke, trying so hard to sound unaffected. âThatâs new.â
âDo you dislike it?â he asks, brushing some hair from your cheek, resting his hand on the side of your head, thumb drifting along the line of your jaw.
You love it. You want him to repeat it, over and over, until you forget your own name. âI suppose itâs better than âkitten,ââ you grumble.
âBut I thought that you were okay with being called kitten, as long as it was me doing the calling,â he teases.Â
You scowl at him.
âThen, darling,â he pauses dramatically, like the big drama queen he is. âWas the only reason you ran, again, because you were worried I wouldnât warn you if I had a guest? Nothing else was distressing you?â
No matter how safe you feel, no matter how assured you are now that for as long as youâre in his home, he doesnât want anyone else around but youâyou canât bring yourself to admit this to him. You can hardly admit it to yourself. Not wanting him to be with others implies a sense of ownership, and you know that he is not yours. In any way, shape, or form. How can you be possessive of something that doesnât and never will belong to you? It does not matter how much even thinking that he doesnât belong to you sends a feeling of wrongness through you that is almost physically painful.
You shake your head.
âNo, nothing else was bothering you? Or no, I lose this round of the guessing game?â He watches you for a few moments, the movement of his thumb so soft against your skin.Â
âI win,â you say, feeling wobbly, feeling safe, feeling unhinged, feeling invincible. He doesnât belong to you, he wants you and only you, As if I would ever want anyone else in my bed, now that youâve been in it. You can hear his voice in your head, saying things that you donât dare dream of him saying.Â
âNot ready yet, then,â he says, and it almost sounds sad. But his face doesnât change. âWell, there will be other rounds of our game,â he says lightly, a clear transition. Heâs letting it go, and you are relieved. âIn that case, are you hungry?â
Hell, if youâre in the process of losing your mind, you might as well do it on a full stomach.
âI could eat a horse,â you answer, trying to match his light tone.Â
âThat can be arranged. But Iâm rather attached to the ones in my stables, so weâll have to outsource your request,â he says, one sharp canine peeking from behind his top lip.
âSylus!â Youâre horrified. âItâs just an expression.â
âI told you that you could have anything. You have only to ask,â he shrugs.
Now youâre horrified and curious. âHave you eaten horse before?âÂ
The canine gleams in the dim light of the lamp on his nightstand. âThere are few things that I havenât eaten, darling.â His hand moves from the side of your head, down, until he slips one long finger between your throat and his tie still secured there. He tugs, gently. You remember that you donât have any of your own clothes, and youâre still wearing his. âThere are places where eating horse is as customary as eating beef. But I never really cared for it.â
âThatâs a relief, somehow,â you say, even though itâs ridiculous to mourn the horses that fed him, when you ate the steak he served you earlier with such enjoyment. Itâs all cruel, in the endâthe necessity of survival which depends on anotherâs suffering. Your heart hurts, so you reach up and rub it. His blood-bright eyes follow the movement of your hand.
âMy tender-hearted kitten,â he whispers, with that same strange sad tone in his voice. âSometimes we must do things to survive that deprive another of life. Do you also mourn the wanderers you have to kill?â
You look down at his strong throat, the pale, soft skin there. So thin, fragile, with his fast pulse beating beneath. âSometimes, when theyâre particularly beautiful. When itâs so obvious that theyâre only following their nature, and that their violence isnât a result of cruelty, like people. Theyâre just made that way.â
âSo you donât regret the people you have to kill?âÂ
You would like to lie, and say that you regret it deeply. That youâre as generous toward your fellow humans as you are toward wild beasts, to the beef on your plate. But you promised Sylus youâd be honest with him, if to no one else. You shake your head.
âSometimes, the sense of satisfaction I get when Iâm forced to put down someone I know who has done horrible thingsââ you whisper, closing your eyes. âItâs frightening.â
âKindred spirits,â Sylusâs deep voice, the warmth of his breath, envelop you.Â
Are you and he really so alike? You had snarled at him, when you first met him, that you and he were not the same, that you would never be the same. You had snarled it at yourself, as much as at him. You open your eyes, and his eyes are all you can see. He looks so happy, hearing you admit the worst of yourself. You realize that you hardly know anything about this man. His past. His family. What he was like as a child. His hobbies, if he even has any. All you know is that he is a killer, a businessman. And that he touches you with the tenderness of a man handling something priceless. Thatâs all. Yet here you are, his hands on you, still gently tugging on a tie wrapped around your throat. Here you are, so attached to him already that the thought of him bedding another feels like your aether core mutilated heart is shredding itself. How did this happen?
You want to know everything about him. You tell yourself that itâs not because youâre ravenous to unravel his mystery, to be sated from the knowing, and cherish him the more for it. You tell yourself that maybe, the more you learn, the more your heart will ease, and familiarity will breed contempt. Maybe youâll be able to let him go when this is over, if you know all the ugly parts of him, all of his annoying traits like everyone has. You decide to ask him about when the fake dating will start, so that youâll have an excuse to ask him to share as much as heâs willing about himself with you, as he practices sharing himself with his beloved.
As if I would ever want anyone else in my bed, now that youâve been in it.
You shake your head. Youâre not his beloved. Why wouldnât he just tell you, if you were?
Would you have believed me, if I had told you that I wasnât behind your familyâs murder?
You close your eyes again. You feel insane.
I expect you to remember what you just said, when this is over.
You canât. You canât. If youâre wrongâ
You open your eyes again. Youâre here now. Youâre here now, and he has the tail of the tie clasped softly in his palm, and heâs gently pulling it so that it tightens on your throat, a hairâs breadth, and then releases. It feels good. You want him to pull harder. You want to know everything about him, and forget everything else. Youâre in a dream, and you donât have to wake up yet. Youâre not insane. Itâs just the certainty one sometimes has in a dreamâyou know something to be true, even though you donât know how you know. Sylus wants you, and only you with him right now. Youâre going to indulge.
âTo be clear, I donât want you to serve me horse,â you tell him, pulling back a little so that the tie tightens against your throat again. He inhales sharply, but the corner of his mouth lifts.
âAs you wish. Letâs go to the kitchen. You can choose something that you do want me to serve you.â He pulls a little harder on the tie and you let out a soft gasp.
You want him to curl it around his fist, pull you to him, devour you in a way you feel like you know, with a strange certainty, that he would. But you canât tell him that. Not yet. If youâre wrongâ
You open your eyes. Sylusâs face is flushed, his bright eyes narrowed on the tie, on your throat.
âI want to go to the kitchen, but I donât have any of my own clothes,â you say softly, needing desperately to break this spell before you do something that you canât take back.Â
Sylus looks confused for a moment. âDo you need your own clothes?â
âDo you want me to walk around in your oversized clothes the whole time Iâm here?â
âI wouldnât mind at all, but I donât need it. Did you not find anything to your liking from the selection of clothes in your size in the dressing room?â he asks, lifting an eyebrow. âI know youâre spoiled, but I didnât realize to this extent,â he says, not sounding displeased at all.
âWhat clothes?â
Something in Sylusâs face changes. âDid you not⊠explore the dressing room?â
You shake your head. âMephisto was watching me, and I didnât want to upset him by touching anything I shouldnât,â you shrug. âSo I just grabbed what I could see.â
Sylus laughs softly. âWhy would Mephisto get upset by you touching anything in this house?â
âBecause itâs your house, and Iâm an interloper, and he squawked at me when he saw me touching your ties.â
âAnd yet youâre wearing one.â His eyes flick down to your neck again.
âOkay, so I was being petty after he squawked.â
Sylus pinches the bridge of his nose. âSo you thought I didnât arrange for you to have clothes youâd be comfortable in. And you thought that Mephisto was⊠surveilling you.â
Youâre confused. âUm, is that not the case? And then you sent the twins to show me around to make sure I donât go anywhere Iâm not supposed to.â At his pained look, you rush on. âI get it. You probably have a lot of valuable stuff in here, and just the intel about the layout of your base is probably even more valuable.â
Sylus sighs and drops his hand. âDo you trust me?â
You stare at him. Do you trust him? You let your eyes drift from his beautiful eyes, to his regal nose. His soft silver hair sweeping messily over his forehead. Would you be here, lying in his bed in his criminal headquarters at the pinnacle of the N109 Zone, if you didnât trust him? He apologized for hurting you when you first met, and promised never to do so again. Heâs been nothing but kind to you since those first long days with him. Heâs promised never to use his evol on you without your permission. He said that once given, he never breaks a promise. And you believe him. Of course you trust him.
âYeah, Sylus, I trust you,â you say softly.
âOkay,â he says, sitting up, pulling the tie gently with him so that you come too. You sit, legs tucked under yourself, as Sylus sits on his own knees, and very gently begins to untie the tie. The silk whispers along your skin as it falls away from your throat. He then lifts it slowly, watching your reaction. But you just sit still, letting him sweep it across your eyes as he blindfolds you, securing it at the back of your head. Itâs comfortable.
You feel him take your wrist and tug softly, and you go with him. Your feet hit the soft rug, and you follow where he leads, enjoying the warmth of his calloused hand on your wrist, enjoying the mystery of where heâs leading you.
After an unexpectedly short amount of time, he stops. You feel cold as the warmth of his body disappears, and you hear what sounds like doors opening, or cabinets. He returns to you, and his delicious scent fills your senses. He undoes the knot, and the tie falls away.
Youâre in his dressing room, towards the back where you didnât venture earlier. Door after closet door is open, and you see rack after rack, shelf after shelfâclothes that look like the ones you have at home. Athletic wear. Hoodies. Comfortable clothes you would wear on your days off. But also clothing that you donât have in your own closetâformal wear. Club clothes. Expensive fabrics. Pair after pair of a variety of sneakers, boots, dress shoes.
âNew rule. The next time you are faced with two possibilitiesâwhen you think that what you perceive could be negative, but could also be positive, try to consider that the positive is true,â he says gently, placing his big hands on your shoulders and leaning down a little to meet your gaze. âI had Luke and Kieran fetch some things from your home that I thought would make you feel at ease here. The earring. The plushie you hug the most often. Your phone charger. Your laptop is in my office. But I didnât want them to go through all of your things, and they have no interest in invading your privacy. I was hoping you can make do with new clothing that I thought youâd like, as well as your own care products while youâre here. If youâre missing anything, just tell me, and Iâll arrange for it to be sent.â
As he speaks, you feel your eyes getting hotâin dawning horror, you realize that youâve started to cry. Why the fuck are you crying? You donât want him to see, but youâre helpless under his big hands keeping you grounded. You take a big, shuddering breath. All of this kindness hurts. But Sylus isnât done hurting you.
âAnd Mephisto isnât following you to surveil you. Heâs programmed to greet you, and to follow you in case you need backup and company. If you donât have your phone on you, you can still reach me, wherever you are in the house, through him. Thereâs also an app on your phone for you to change his settings if you want. If you donât like his voice module, you can make him meow.â Sylus slowly pulls you to him, looking down into your face. He thumbs the tears from your cheeks, brings them to his mouth, and rubs the moisture across his bottom lip. He then pulls you closer, hugging you tightly to his chest. âAnd I sent Luke and Kieran with you to see the house because the last time you were here, you were really scared. Since I had to meet with Aidan, I didn't want you to be alone, but also didnât want to force you to sit caged in my room until I could show you around.â
You press your face into his chest, breathing against his rapid heartbeat, feeling all the anxiety and sadness of the tour and return to the greenhouse draining out of your body.
He leans down and presses a kiss to your bowed head. âIf youâre unsure of my intentions, even after all thisâif you consider the positive possibility and canât quite believe it, then just ask me,â he says softly into your hair. âThereâs no need to torture yourself with me.â He lifts your chin, and his barely there smile lifts his mouth. âThatâs my job. And there will be no doubt when I actually intend to torment you.â
You smile through your stupid embarrassing tears, laugh a little wetly. âItâs true. Subtlety isnât your strong suit.â
âYou know that much, at least.â
âHow could I miss it?â you ask.
âGood fucking question. How could you possibly miss so much?â he nudges your forehead with his forefinger.
You scowl at him. You feel light. And with the relief, comes the hunger. âDidnât you promise to feed me? Iâm starving,â you gripe, refusing to think about what else youâre missing.Â
I can promise you that whomever youâre thinking my 'crush' is, itâs not the person you're thinking of.
The only way he could have promised that is if he knew that youâd never consider yourself a possibility.
And Sylus says he always keeps his promises.
âWell, I canât let my spoiled kitten get any more hungry,â he interrupts your thoughts.
You shake your head. âIt would be terrible if I end up having to eat you because Iâm so hungry,â you tease, but he just lifts his eyebrows as if intrigued.
âWould it be so terrible though?â he asks. You pull back and gently push him toward the door.
âGo, make me something delicious while I get dressed,â you order him with a laugh.
âI see how it isâ just a little reassurance, and suddenly youâre bold enough to give me orders." He tucks his thumbs into the pockets of his black, worn looking jeans. âFinally,â he says, looking incredibly satisfied, before disappearing in a whoosh of air, scarlet-ink mist, and feathers that float gently toward you before falling to the floor.
You turn, sighing happily at the sight of all of these new clothes stretching before you. You donât deserve this. Youâve never been a big shopper. Budget too tight, too much ammo and manga to buy instead, when you practically live in your hunter uniform. But you spotted some yoga wear from a brand that is wildly expensive but makes the softest, best fitting shit youâve ever put on your body. You shake yourself. Indulge. Indulge. Indulge.Â
After youâve checked your bandages and cleaned up a bit in the bathroom, you drift through the base and find Sylus in the kitchen, as promised. Soft lighting from floor lamps and recessed fixtures hold back the N109 Zoneâs night stretching beyond the kitchenâs large windows. Soft classical music accompanies the sound of Sylus digging around in the huge fridges, the clatter of a pan placed on the gas burning stove.
âSo youâll be cooking personally for me today? Not your chef?â
âNot my chef,â Sylus confirms. âIâm the the chef today,â he smiles slightly. âSit.â He points to the bar stool on the other side of the massive kitchen island.
âI can cook,â you protest. At Sylusâs doubtful look, you defend yourself. âItâs true. I can cook. Xavier loves it when I have the time and energy to make something and invite him over, because itâs fucking hard to cook for only one person,â you say mournfully, suddenly worried about how Xavier will feed himself while youâre not there to ensure he eats vegetables along with his ramen. But he survived long before he became your partner. Heâs a big boy, you tell yourself.Â
âOh, I bet he does,â Sylus says under his breath. âAnd I am cooking because I thought you would want to give your abused feet a break.â
You squint at him. âThey hurt, but theyâre still functioning.â
âAgain, just because theyâre functioning doesnât mean you have to use them more than necessary. And I believe you when you say you can cook. But do you actually like to cook? Or do you feel like you have to, because itâs cheaper than delivery?â Sylus asks, breaking an egg into a bowl. âWhile youâre here, I donât want you to do anything that you donât actively enjoy doing. Youâre not here to survive. Youâre here to recover.â
Youâre so touched by his words that it takes a moment for you to get your mouth to answer him. Somethingâs wrong with your eyes again, and your throat is suddenly tight. You clear it. âDefinitely the latter,â you admit, thinking of a million other things that youâd rather be doing than cooking yet another meal. You often wish you could just slurp all your nutrition from a pouch and be done with it. âBut I do like baking. That doesnât count as cooking, because the result is fun.âÂ
Sylus laughs softly. âThen when you feel up to it, you can teach me how to bake your favorite things, because thatâs something I never really do. In the meantime, when chef isnât here and whatever sheâs left behind in the fridge for heating up isnât to your taste, Iâll cook for you. Deal?â
You watch Sylusâs big hands gently crack more eggs, grind some salt and pepper in the mixture, fling a little bit of butter onto the now hot pan. You could get used to this beautiful creature preparing meals for you. And you could get used to baking delicious things, and feeding each bite to him by hand. Youâre here now. Youâre going to indulge. âDeal,â you smile. âBut while youâre doing that, I need coffee. Can you point me in the direction of your coffee shit, coffee maker, and mugs?â
Sylus pauses. âI donât have a coffee maker.â
You stare at him. âWhat do you mean you donât have a coffee maker.â
âI mean, I have a french press. But I donât have a drip coffee maker.â
You squint at him. âYou have a fucking ice rink in your villain HQ, and you donât have a coffee maker? You make your coffee, by hand, every morning? Do you also insist on hand grinding the beans with a mortar and pestle every time you want a cup? Are you as much of a coffee snob as a wine snob?â
âArenât you sharp-tongued for a kitten who is depending on me for its caffeine fix.â Sylus sounds infinitely amused.
âIâm just consistently in awe of all of this means you have at your disposal, and yet you do nothing with it. And Iâm assuming that since you donât have a normal coffee maker, youâre also too much of a snob to have one of those fancy as fuck espresso machines that can make whipped foam, along with an entire fleet of flavor syrups on tap.â As you talk, you become more distressed. âOh my god, Sylus. Youâre a hipster billionaire. Youâre like, the worst of everything wrong with our capitalist society,â you say forlornly. Why canât you be nuts about a normal man? Whatâs wrong with a guy with a tidy little flat and a drip coffee maker? A nice accountant whose only crime is jaywalking, maybe a little tax evasion, for a treat, every year when filing. But no, you want to have the stuck up edgelord who can explode people with his mind and who thinks even professional espresso machines are too plebeian for his refined taste buds.
Sylus is just staring at you, an eyebrow lifted. âWhat I hear you saying is that you want a fancy as fuck espresso machine. Is that correct?â
You sigh in resignation. Your heart wants what it wants. âWhat you hear me saying is, okay, Sylus, where is the french press, the coffee beans, the grinder Iâll no doubt have to grind them with, and your mugs?â
âThe espresso machine will be here when you wake up tomorrow. As for the french press, beans, grinder, and mugsâŠâ he smirks at you as he points to one of the cupboards over the long, black marble kitchen counter.
You slip from the stool and go to open the indicated cabinet, finding the promised french press and tasteful glass jar of whole coffee beans. Of course even his storage containers are fancy and pretty. But you stop short, as you notice Calebâs gift and the CUNT mug sitting on the shelf next to the coffee supplies.
You blink. You blink, and turn to look at Sylus, who is now busy scrambling the eggs. âYou brought Calebâs mug,â you breathe.
âI told you, I wanted you to have the things here that make you comfortable,â Sylus shrugs, not turning away from the eggs.
You could cry again. The thoughtfulness of this asshole takes you by surprise, every single time. But you donât want to cry. You want to enjoy. You whip around and march over to Sylus, who is still serenely stirring the eggs. You peek around to catch his eye, ensuring that he knows youâre there. His red gaze flicks to you for a moment, returns to the eggs. You then step behind him and wrap your arms around his waist, resting your head against his broad back.
Your warning must have been successful. He doesnât throw you to the floor, or even stiffenâhis shoulders seem to relax, and he leans back a little, as if trying to sink into your hug. He puts the hand not stirring the eggs on your forearm, as if to hold you there.
âThank you,â you whisper, squeezing tighter.Â
âItâs nothing,â he says, as the scent of butter and eggs, the soft sound of cellos, the dark night and warm lamplight surround the two of you.
âItâs everything,â you counter.
âYou deserve to be harder to please,â Sylus grumbles, turning off the burner. He turns, and you try to step away, but he keeps his hold on your forearm until heâs fully facing you. He leans down and scoops you into his arms, encouraging you to wrap your legs around his waist. He then just stands there, hugging you tightly to him. You hug him back, resting your chin on his shoulder, eyes closed to better soak in the feeling of just holding him, of being held.
âYour eggs will get cold,â he says after a while, regretfully.
You just squeeze him harder. Youâve eaten worse.Â
You feel him laugh softly, your chest vibrating with his amusement. âAs you wish."
Suddenly, the moment is shattered with a ruckus like a herd of elephants pounding down the hallway, along with a crash, gleeful laughter and yelps.
âCheater, tripping is cheating, cheater cheater cheater!â Luke roars.
âThe first rule of race club is there are no rules in race club,â Kieran bellows, voice closer to the doorway, until suddenly itâs filled with two grown, grappling men, big biceps straining as they each try to prevent the other from entering the kitchen first.
âNo⊠you⊠donât!â Luke pants, wrapping his arm around Kieranâs neck in a chokehold and trying to drag him back into the hallway.
âOww, my throat, Luke, my throat still hurts,â Kieran whines. Luke looks stricken and immediately lets go, only to find himself shoved back further into the hallway as Kieran cackles and comes careening into the kitchen, socked feet sliding along the smooth, marble floor until he crashes into the kitchen island. He lets out a loud whoop, throwing his arms in the air. âKitchen-race champion, kitchen-race champion,â he chants as Kieran scowls at him from the doorway.
âThat was a dirty trick,â he seethes. âYou know I wouldnât ever want to really hurt you.â
âI keep telling you that youâre too gullible,â Kieran smiles at him fondly. âYou know all is fair in love and the kitchen race game.â
âSome love,â Luke snorts, and then his eyes widen as he seems to notice you and Sylus behind the kitchen island for the first time. You turn to look at Sylus, but his eyes are on your face, as if he hasnât stopped looking at you the entire time youâve taken in the twinsâ skirmish, as if what just occurred is daily life at Onychinus HQ and not even worth looking at. You glance back at the twins.
Kieran turns his head to follow Lukeâs gaze and then straightens as if at attention. âOh, apologies boss! We didnât know you wereâŠâ he takes in how youâre attached to Sylus like a koala. âYou were preoccupied in here.â
You look back at Sylus, but he just stares at you. Okay, if heâs not going to say anything, you will. âWeâre not preoccupied. Sylus was just making eggs.â You cough a little. âSylus, you can put me down now.â
He just hugs you tighter.
âEggs? Oh, can we have some? Iâm starving after my big stupid cheater of a brother scared the shit out of me by acting hurt,â Luke grumbles, sending Kieran a dirty look. Kieran holds out his hand, and despite his indignation, Luke slides into the kitchen on his socks like an ice skater and takes Kieranâs hand, who then wraps his brotherâs arm around his own shoulders.Â
âLet that be a lesson. How to fake out your opponent, and how not to be so gullible, even with me.â Kieran reaches over and rubs his fist into Lukeâs bouncing curls. Luke ducks his head and sweeps Kieran into a chokehold again, who just laughs. âThatâs it,â he crows, and the two tussle like a couple of puppies.
âI canât make coffee if you wonât let me go,â you say softly to Sylus amidst the racket the twins are making.
âDo you really want to make coffee now?â he asks, turning, setting you on the counter and simply standing between your legs. Youâre getting the feeling that he likes this position, because it puts your face a little closer to his if the surface youâre sitting on is high enough.
âWhy wouldnât I?â you ask curiously.
âItâs getting late again. Between the tour and your nap, itâs closer to the time I go to bed now. Youâll be up all night if you have caffeine now.â
âThen why didnât you say so when I first asked about the coffee?â You tilt your head.
Sylus just looks bored. Youâre learning that he does this when he isnât interested in answering you, when youâre most interested in the answer. Suddenly it dawns on you. âYou wanted me to see the mugs.â
He just lifts his hand and fiddles with the hem of the soft long sleeved shirt youâre wearing. âNow you know where they are, in case Iâm not around,â he shrugs.
You lean forward, placing both of your palms on his cheeks. He sucks in a breath, but stays still. âThank you,â you say.
âYouâve already said that, and Iâve already said itâs nothing,â he answers, his stubble shifting under your hands.
âIf weâre not going to have coffee, and itâs almost time to go to bed again, what did you have in mind for after we eat?â you ask, running your thumbs under his lovely eyes, indulging, indulging, not worrying about anyone else, not worrying about tomorrow or the day after. There is only today, every day, until this is over.
âWhat do you want to do?â he asks, leaning in, letting you pet him.
You think about it. Youâre still so tired. You think youâll probably be tired for weeks, until youâve slept enough to make up for your enormous sleep deficit of the past year, however long that takes. Your feet hurt. You just want to be near Sylus. Heâs asking you what you want to do like he intends to do it with you. So instead of worrying if thatâs the case, if youâre misunderstanding something, you say what you want.
âI want to start fake dating you,â you say. His eyes widen a little, and then he frowns.
âFake dating?â Kieranâs voice cuts through your thoughts, and you realize that the twins had stopped roughhousing enough to overhear your conversation.
âWhat do you mean, fake dating?â Luke asks, looking between the two of you.
âOh, your boss just asked me to help him practice dating so that he can successfully woo the person heâs in love with,â you say, the picture of cheerful helpfulness. This is already enough. Youâre happy to help. And youâre going to indulge the fuck out of pretending that heâs looking at you, instead of imagining the other person heâd like to have in his bed more than you. Because you canât imagine itâs you. You canât. Because if youâre wrongâ
Kieran and Lukeâs mouths drop open. They look at each other, and then look at Sylus.
âWhat the fuck, bossââ Luke begins, as Kieran says âFor someone so intelligent, you can be so stupidââ before Sylus cuts them both off.
âTake some of the prepped meals that chef left in the fridge and then leave us.â
For a second, they both look like they want to argue, but then they dutifully snap their mouths shut in unison, and you get that strange feeling of uncanniness again, like theyâre just one person who happens to have two bodies. They efficiently go to the fridge, grab some containers of what must be the prepped meals, and leave you and Sylus alone in the kitchen, now with only classical violin filling the silence.
âWas that a secret?â you ask, feeling bad if you just made Sylus lose face with his employees.
âI have nothing to hide when it comes to you,â he says. âBut they donât need to know every detail of my personal life, even if they may disagree with that statement.â
âOkay,â you say, still feeling bad for some reason.Â
He touches your chin, lifts it. âWhat did you have in mind when you said you want to start fake dating?â
âWhen we talked about me helping you, you seemed to be okay with the idea of practicing sharing parts of your life with your crush. I was thinking maybe while Iâm staying with you, you can already start.â You smile at him, hoping he canât tell how much you want him to say yes.
âAm I not already doing that?â he asks.
You tilt your head. Okay, so he has invited you into his home, showed you around. But you still know so little about him. âI guess so,â you say. You feel a bit silly now. Maybe you were hoping for too much. Maybe heâd rather get on with his normal routine, and isnât interested in any usefulness you have to offer at the moment.
Youâre suddenly really tired again. You want him to back up, to stop looking so closely at your face. âThe eggs are cold now,â you say, trying to keep your hand still, trying to resist the urge to dig your nails into your thigh. Heâs right there. He asked you to hurt him instead. You canât hurt him, so you canât hurt yourself.
âThen Iâll make new ones,â he says, still watching you like a hawk eyeing a mouse about to bolt from hiding.
Youâre not hungry anymore. You hate the yo-yo of your emotions. You want to be as unruffled as the man in front of you. Youâre hoping that the more rest you get, the longer you have to recover, youâll regain some semblance of equilibrium, some resistance to the rawness of the feelings hemorrhaging from your heart. But you know if you wonât eat, your blood sugar will crash and youâll be left feeling faint.
âNo worries. Do you have string cheese or something? Just something to keep me from feeling lightheaded?â
âI'm not feeding you logs of trash cheese while you're a guest in my home," Sylus tsks, probably affronted at the mere suggestion that he would have string cheese in his house. "What else do you want me to share with you about my life?â
âWhat?â You were just talking about cheese. Now you're being interrogated.
âYou said you wanted to start dating. That you were interested in me sharing parts of my life with you. What else do you want me to share with you about my life?â he says slowly.
âOh. Itâs really nothing. Youâre right, you are already sharing a lot by having me here.â
âI didnât say that.â
âHuh?â
âI didnât say Iâm already sharing a lot, as if you were asking for too much. I said, âAm I not already doing that?ââ because I thought I was sharing my life with you by inviting you here and hoping to spend time with you. So now I want to know what else you want me to share.â
âYou want to spend time with me?â you ask.
âWhy else would I ask you what you would like to do until itâs time for bed?â he asks, gently flicking your forehead.
âMaybe you wanted to occupy me so that you would be free to do whatever you really want to do,â you say, wincing a little.
Sylus hangs his head. Huffs a little laugh. âYour mind is incredible.â
You scowl at the top of his stupid, pretty head. âOkay, if youâre going to mock meââ
âI mean it. Your imagination is impressive if there is any ambiguity in a statement. We've been over this, and you promised to try to choose the positive interpretation over the negative."
You look away, feeling shitty for already breaking your promise. Sylus lifts his head and guides your gaze back to him with his forefinger on your jaw. "Habits are hard to break, I know. So let me rephrase. I would like to spend time with you until bed. How would you like to spend that time?â He places his palms on your thighs and smooths them soothingly up, and down.
The soothing gesture works. You feel the impending withdrawal into yourself, into your protective, sad little shell, reverse at his words, at his touch. You think about all the things you were shown today, and what the two of you could do for a little while together. Youâre too tired to read, so the idea of visiting his library is out. You donât want to work out, obviously, so the gym, the ice skating rink, even the poolâno good.Â
âYou have a home theater. Do you like movies?â
He perks up. âYeah, I do.â
âWanna show me what movies you like? Maybe we can watch one?â Youâre casual. The absolute definition of chill.
He eyes you for a moment. âWhen you say practicing to âshare my life,â is this your way of asking to know more about me?â
You shrug like itâs no big deal. Like youâre not terribly eager to know every single thing about him. âIf you want.â
âIf you wanted to know more about me, you could have just said so. No need to frame it in fake dating.â
âBut we made a deal. You wanted to practiceââ
He interrupts you. âAll right, we can date. But just ask if you have questions. And just assume that I want to spend time with you.â
âOur deal was fake dating,â you try again, because he keeps dropping the âfakeâ part and itâs doing things to your heart.
âWhatever you need to tell yourself, darling,â he lifts one corner of his mouth.
âBut thatâs the dealââ
âUh huh,â he says absently, lifting you from the counter with one arm, turning to the fridge, and rifling through it with his free hand. He manages to agilely balance a stack of containers. âThereâs a bar in the theater room, so we can get something to drink there,â he happily informs you.
âOf course you have a bar in there, you alcoholic.â
âNow, now, no need to call names,â he says serenely, carrying you and the food into the hall and heading towards the theater room.
Once there, he tosses you gently on one of the super soft, overstuffed in contrast to other furniture in the house, and of course ubiquitously black, leather couches that sits in front of a huge screen on the far wall. The couch is so soft you hardly bounce, just sinking into the cushion with a laugh. He sets the food containers on the low table positioned in front of the couch, between its two chaise lounge sections that stretch out on either side.
He sits down next to you, so close that his big thigh is squished against yours. âThe dvds are in the cabinet over there,â he says as he opens one of the container lids. âYou wanted to know what movies I like? Knock yourself out.â
You donât have to be told twice. You excitedly make your way to where he pointed and throw open a dark paneled cabinet door. Shelf after shelf, going all the way up to the high ceiling where youâre certain Sylus canât even reach, full of dvd after dvd. You run your fingers along their edges, reading titles silently as you go.Â
It appears that Sylus is a fan of classic films. You see titles that youâve never watched, but have heard in passing from cultural references or watching annual movie awards when youâre lucky enough to not be working through them during a particular year. Black and white films. Foreign films with directors youâve never heard of. As your gaze drifts over his collection, sounds of cabinet doors opening on the other side of the room serve as background noise. The clink of plates, of glasses, liquid being poured.
You donât think you see one film from the last decade in his collection. But maybe theyâre higher up.
âHow do you get up to the top? I donât see one of those fancy library ladders on a wheeled track anywhere. Does the great Sylus Qin resort to using a step stool?â You ask absently, still scanning the titles. He appears to be a big fan of horror movies. Youâre also a huge fan of horror, but you can recognize that youâre a bit of a barbarian in that youâve never watched the true classics. Maybe you can expand your cultural horizons while youâre here. Knowing more about classic film could come in handy while working undercover at pretentious wealthy bastard functions.
Your thought is interrupted as you yelp, having been lifted into the air by scarlet-ink tendrils and carried swiftly toward the ceiling, where youâre now hovering, eye level with the upper shelves of Sylusâs dvd collection. You look back down at him, where he isnât even looking at you as he is artfully arranging your movie snacks in little bowls and plates.
âA little warning would be nice,â you say drily.Â
âWhereâs the fun in that?â he teases. âCanât have you getting bored with me.â
You snort. âThatâs my line.â
One moment youâre floating leisurely near what looks like his Russian film section of his collection, and the next youâre being deposited onto his lap as he sinks back into the soft couch.
âThe presumption of people insinuating that even the possibility exists that I could ever be bored with you is astonishing,â he grumbles, and your heart hurts a little. Even other people can see how ill-suited you are for this mercurial, privileged manâa man who could have anything and anyone he wants, and has the propensity for boredom that goes along with it. âI donât like it.â
You just smile at him, because what can you do? âPeople are wise.â
Sylus scowls like he just sucked on a lemon. âOne other person, and he is a silly deviant and has been corrected, just as Iâm correcting you.â He places his hands on your shoulders, thumbs smoothing over the skin of your throat. âIn no universe could I ever be bored with you.â
âYou donât even really know me,â you say gently, letting your head fall forward under his soft touch. He slides one hand around and palms the back of your neck, squeezing gently.
âDonât I?â he asks.
âYou may know the ugliest parts of me because of your aether core. But you donât know my daily habits. My annoying quirks. How I brush my teeth. My favorite foods. My fondest memories. My pet peeves when it comes to lovers.â You lean your head back now, baring your throat to him, letting his big hand keep you upright. âAnd I donât know yours, either.â
âI know the most essential parts of you to be assured that Iâll never tire of learning about the details,â Sylus answers, shaking you gently.
You open your eyes, lift your head. âBut I donât know the essential parts of you, let alone the details.â
His wine dark eyes look so soft as they meet your gaze. âDonât you?â
You remember the feeling when you first met him. The voice in your head, urging you to devour him. Insisting with a violence that scared you that he was yours, to consume, to swallow, to feast. The recognition in you when you resonated the first and only time, when you couldnât tell where you ended and he began. You might not have an aether core in your eye, but maybe you do know the essentials of him. His cruelty. His violence. His single-minded pursuit of his goals. His steadfastness as he chases you, over and over again, as you run, over and over again.
I expect you to remember what you just said, when this is over.
You do remember what you said at Amnesia. And you remember a kiss that never happened, the taste of his tongue on yours that you canât possibly know. You feel insane.
âDo I?â you echo him.
âMmm,â he murmurs his confirmation. âAnd now we have all the time in the world for you to satisfy your kittenâs curiosity regarding the details.â
Maybe itâs okay to be a little insane in a dream.Â
âWhat movie do you want to watch?â you ask, leaning forward, running your nose along his, inhaling the scent of his skin.
He exhales, his warm breath soft and carrying the scent of some smoky liquor. âWhy donât you choose?â
âWhat if youâve seen it before?â
He turns his head a little, so that his lips brush the edges of your mouth. âIâve seen all of the films I own.â
âWonât you get bored rewatching?â You resist the urge to turn your own head, to meet his mouthâ you canât, you canât, not yet. What if youâre wrongâ
 âI wonât get bored. Iâll be watching through your eyes this time.â
âYou have so many, how can I choose?â
He smiles faintly against your skin. âWhat kind of movies do you like?â
You think for a moment. âI like all kinds of genres. Horror is probably my favorite, but only when Iâm in the mood. I think the movies I like the best tend to be character driven. When I care about what is happening to the people, what choices theyâre makingâwhen I want them to prevail over the conflict. Not just gritty and dark for the sake of being edgy. And I like happy endings unless itâs a horror film. Life is hard enough, without spending it watching depressing Russian films,â you smile against his cheek in turn before sinking into him, resting your chest against his, tucking your face into his neck. His hands drift up and slowly caress your back.
âSo you like fairy tales,â he says, but not dismissively. An observation.
âNo, youâre the one who likes fairy talesâthe original versions. Grim, unlikable characters being taught a lesson. Sad stories where no one wins, to confirm your cynical outlook of an unsalvageable world.â Youâre teasing him, a little. But you also think itâs true.
He huffs a laugh. âJudging my taste in films, just as you judge my taste in coffee, wine, home decor, occupationâthe list goes on. Iâm the one who should be worried that my darling will grow bored with me.â He pauses. âYou actually know quite a few details about me already, donât you think?â
Your mind drifts to all the time youâve shared with him, all the things you already know about him. Maybe heâs right, and you know more than you think. He has been showing you himself, every minute youâre together. Maybe if you manage to stop navel gazing and wallowing in insecurity, youâll learn even more.
âIn no universe could I ever be bored with you,â you echo him again.
âI'll hold you to that promise,â he sighs, wrapping his arms around you, hugging you tightly. Youâre getting so sleepy. If you donât start the movie, youâll be asleep before the opening credits are over.
âSo pick your favorite movie, Sy. I want to watch it through your eyes.â
His arms tighten even further, forcing a puff of breath from your lips. âIn a minute, darling. Stay like this, for a little longer.â
You nod, feeling his rapid-fire heartbeat under your own, slower heart. Itâs soothing, in a way that firing a real gun no longer is for you.Â
âIf you donât start it now, Iâm going to fall asleep,â you mumble, sinking further.
âThen sleep,â he says. So you do.
Sylus holds you in his arms, and for once, his mind is quietâno churning plans, no tweaking the spiderwebs of action and reaction, force and counterforce, push and pull, either for his business or to draw you ever closer to him. Heâs just a man, sitting with his heart in his handsâsafe and calm. He misses you, as he always does, when youâre so close but asleep. He considers joining you in your dreams again, just to make sure that theyâre as peaceful as you deserve, but decides against it. He skirted the edges of his promise to you by doing it once, even though he remains convinced that it was necessary. You were willing to share your fears with him after you woke upâhe just mixed up the order a little bit by reassuring you first and then asking questions second. But heâs unwilling to risk it again.
This is enough, for now. He feels the steady beat of your heart against his own submachine gun rhythm, and his pulse slows, slows, until for once, he feels like he can breathe fully without having to check behind himself, check the exits, check contingencies and backups, check the pulse in your throat to make sure youâre still here, youâre still real, youâre still letting him so close he can taste your skin when he inhales the scent of your neck. Youâre in his home, and you just had your almost-first, definitely not fake despite what you tell yourself, date. Watching a movie together, the most cliche, boring date of all, and you fell asleep before it even started. You called him something other than his full name for the first time, and not in a teasing way like crow man or good boyâan endearment, something no one else will ever have the privilege of calling him. It takes him a little while to figure out the feeling that has been spreading through him since you hugged him from behind in thanks for the lousy gift of a couple of mugs you already ownedâa feeling like how he has always imagined sunshine would feel on a mild summer day for a normal person.
Oh. He laughs a little breathlessly. Heâs happy.
If he wasnât aware of how much youâre already changing him, heâd realize it now, as he hugs you as tightly as he dares without waking you, feeling as foolish as Aidan waxing poetic about every new person being a gift with a surprise inside. Sylus doesnât need any other people to maintain his attentionâyou are the gift, a nesting doll puzzle box, a gift within a gift within a gift, and heâs so fucking happy youâre letting him open each of your secrets, one by one, that heâs dizzy with it. The ratatat of his heart fires, and fires, and fires. For the first time that he can remember, heâs looking forward to tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after that.
end note: My dear readers, once again I have failed to deliver big toys and action, but the plot has inched along very slightly with Sylus's conversation with Aidan, and hopefully the next part will contain MC having the run of Sylus's place and getting into some trouble with the twins and Noah if I recover from real world events and don't just crawl into a hole and hide for the next four years.
#the tie đđđ#âyou're not here to survive. you're here to recoverâ did something to me#sylus x reader#fic rec
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everyone go read @amoscontorta 's sylus series RIGHT NEOW!
hiiiii~ this is the op behind "sick." i just wanted to let you know how much i love your sylus series. you are such an amazing writer and i love how you characterize both the reader and sylus. i especially love the banter they have. you have no idea how excited i got when i saw the notif that you reblogged my post. it was as if my favorite celebrity noticed me or something haha. you do inspire me after all. i hope you have a wonderful day!
hi hi! thank you so much for this kind ask!! I'm so glad you enjoy the Sylus series. And you are so sweet, but I'm in no way a celebrity-I'm pretty sure I'm blacklisted by a lot of the lads fandom for daring to say that i believe we should have more gender options for mc lmao. But i loved your fic, so i reblogged it! i started writing the sylus series because i was craving just the sort of hurt/comfort, sweet interactions that you put into 'sick!' i'm so happy to hear that reading my stuff was also a source of inspiration for you, because the forehead touching to feel mc's fever, the aggression towards the dishwasher, the spikiness of mc, sylus's naked adoration of mc were all really inspiring to me in your ficđđ so thank you for reading, and thank you for contributing to the soft sylus fandom!!!
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sick
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synopsis: in which sylus sneaks into your apartment and finds you sick. yet, you're not resting. why?
contains: sylus x mc!reader (they're not dating but sylus is pining and reader is confused), reader is implied to be in college, slightly obsessive sylus, mentions of violence and sickness, suggestive themes, cussing, and fluff.
a/n: i got sick yesterday. what better way to rest than to write about sylus? do NOT copy or steal my work. sylus WOULD NOT endorse plagiarism :)
you don't want to admit it. you really don't. but you're sick. there's no denying that with how short of breath you are, how nauseous you feel, and the goddamn soreness in the back of your throat that didn't go away with the first sip of water.
"shitâŠ" you mumble as you sluggishly move to empty the dishwasher as your roommate asked. it's bad enough that you were sick, but you were also stressed out of your mind. midterms have been kicking your ass this semester. big assignments have been piling up on your already heavy shoulders. in essence, this was a burnout month, and all that lack of sleep and unparalleled stress had finally caught up to you. in the form of a cold, that is.
"of all the times," you grumble as you struggle to stack the dishes in the cabinet. "why nowâŠ" indeed, this was a terrible time to get sick. how were you to complete all your tasks while feeling absolutely miserable? you glance at the microwave clock in desperation. 10:00 PM, it read. although you meant to sigh a breath of relief, you let out a painful cough. maybe you could finish an assignment or two by midnight. that way, you can focus on studying tomorrow, you thought to yourself.
you sniff as you return to the dishwasher to unload the rest of the dishes. as much as you were happy for your roommate leaving for the weekend to finally see her family, you couldn't help but feel resentful. why were you here struggling to do the dishes while she got to have fun? shaking your head at your bitter thoughts, you bend down, trying to grab the utensils from the dishwasher. keyword: trying.
the sudden pair of strong arms that wrapped around you prevented you from doing so. normally, you would've swiftly elbowed the person behind you and turned around to land a hard blow that would have them seeing stars. instead, you exhale shakily. you recognize the mysterious backhugger's scent. the scent of sweet wine and sharp citrus. sylus.
how the hell did he get in? you donât remember giving him a spare key when you told him your address. you look behind you, angling your head to meet his garnet eyes. "i did not give you my address just so you can sneak in like this," you say, trying your best not to sound like you're dying.
unfortunately, the nasal tone of your voice does not go unnoticed by sylus. instead of offering his usual quips, sylus furrows his brows and unclasps his right arm from your waist. you try not to flinch at the chill of his slender fingers touching your forehead. he frowns. "you're sick."
you immediately avert your gaze. "i'm not sick," you mutter as you try to bend down once more to grab the stupid utensils from the dishwasher. sylus doesn't let go. this time, he spins you around with his left arm, making sure that he can see you properly.
"you're burning up, sweetie." sylus says as flips the hand on your forehead for good measure. "you're sick and you know it."
you roll your eyes, squirming to get out of his grip. you did not want sylus to see you like this. a sick, miserable mess incapable of doing something as simple as emptying the dishwasher. you had an image to uphold after all. being vulnerable with someone like him could mean getting hurt again. last time you were vulnerable with someone⊠well, let's say you learned your lesson.
weakly, you push at sylus' arm around your waist with your small hands. you try not to think about how minuscule they looked next to sylus' deliciously veiny forearms. great, you're sick, and your mind decides to lust after sylus' arms. you shiver at your thoughts and attempt to push sylus' grip away once more. normally, escaping sylus' hold would be a reasonable task for you. after all, your sparring sessions with him prepared you to get out of sticky situations. but you were sick and exhausted out of your mind. all you could manage was a feeble squirm.
sylus' gaze moves from his hand on your forehead to your eyes. your half-lidded baggy eyes. his frown deepens. you looked extremely fatigued. your face was noticeably pale, and your intake of breath was short. not to mention, sylus could see the slight wince of pain whenever you tried to swallow your saliva. sylus sighs as he removes his hand on your forehead and replaces it with his own. you were neglecting yourself again.
under normal circumstances, you would've shied away from sylus' physical advancements. his hand on the small of your back? an immediate flinch and glare, signaling him to stop. a tap on the crown of your head? a swift jerk of your neck and avoidance of eye contact. insteadâagain, you blame it on your exhaustionâyou tiredly close your eyes, relishing in sylus' cool forehead against your heated one. no resistance to be shown.
you don't see it, but sylus' sharp eyes soften at the sight of you accepting his touch. even with the eye bags and ghastly skin, you looked ethereal. like an angel sent from heaven to save him from his own solitary hell. as much as he wants to savor this moment of you finally giving into his touch, sylus knows what he must do. you're unwell and unrested. you need to be in bed immediately.
"you should be in bed, sweetie." sylus murmurs as he pulls away from your forehead. you try not to sulk at the loss of the soothing chill of his skin. though, not without feeling conflicted because why you would even sulk about him? for god's sake, he was a criminal. he's taken countless lives. not to mention, he choked you upon meeting you, called you a disappointment, and tried to alter you after three straight days of relentless attempts at a forced resonation⊠just thinking about him drives you nuts and being driven nuts is the last thing you want right now.
"i'm fine, sylus." it was your turn to pull away, trying to put as much distance between you two as his firm grip around your waist would allow. "besides, nothing a little old tea can't fix."
with that, you turn to face the dishwasher and reach for the utensils for the umpteenth time of the night. sylus sighs and pinches his nose bridge with his free hand. as much as he admired your stubbornness, he could not help but resent it at times like these. times when you were in desperate need of a break. before you can grab the utensils, you feel yourself get lifted off the ground effortlessly.
sylus' arm on your waist had moved to your shoulder, and his other arm was hooked under your thighs. he had you in bridal style in less than a second. your eyes widen, realizing the sudden change in positions. "what are you doing?!" you cough painfully. "put me down!"
you do your best to escape sylus' new grip on you by kicking your legs and squirming uncontrollably, but it was hopeless. you were weakened due to your sickness, and sylus was determined to make sure you looked only at him instead of the goddamn dishwasher. one more look at it, and he swears he's gonna break it with his evol.
quickly and confidently, sylus exits the kitchen with you in his arms and arrives at what he guesses is your shared bedroom with your roommate. he tries not to get distracted by the fact that this is his first time in your room. god, the entire space smelled so much like you, he wanted to become one with it and watch you forever and ever. dismissing his intrusive thoughts, sylus gently places you down on your bed and starts to cover you in your blanket.
"wait, sylus," you start, trying to get up. "i have to empty the dishwasher. i have homework, too." sylus tuts as he shakes his head, his messy silver locks following suit. although he doesn't respond, sylus continues to spread out your blanket. you furrow your eyebrows at his strange behavior. "sylusâŠ" you whine. you actually whined. something you never thought you would do, especially in front of sylus. you could feel his intense gaze prick at you like little needles. you avoid his gaze, hoping to hide your flustered state.
adorable. that's what you are. incredibly adorable to the point sylus wants to grab your chin and force you to look at him as he coaxes more and more of your pretty whines out of you.
trying to fight his indecent thoughts, sylus locks eyes with you, a firm yet pleading look on his face. "you need to rest, sweetie," he leans in to adjust your pillow. "you won't get anything done in this state." you try to protest again, but sylus beats you to it. "rest. i'll take care of everything."
well, fuck. how can you say no when sylus, in all of his gorgeous glory, is centimeters from your face, telling you that he will take care of everything and asking you to do the one thing you've been longing to do for a very long time? besides, you felt sleepy ever since sylus took you in his arms. just this once. just this once, you'll allow yourself to be vulnerable with him. so that you can rest, of course. totally not because sylus had a way of comforting you so sweetly and breaking your defensive walls so charmingly.
your labored breathing slows as you cautiously nod. "fine," you yawn. "the utensils go in the very left drawer of the island while the pots and pans go in the stove oven, andâŠ" you can feel sleep beckoning for you as you continue to list instructions. sylus can't help the grin that appears on his face as he watches your cute blinks grow in intervals.
"noted, sweetie." he caresses a stray hair strand out of your face. "i'll make sure everything is back where they belong." like you to him. though, he doesn't say that part out loud. maybe another day. when you are no longer wary of him and are willing to acknowledge his very obvious affection for you. deep in his fantasy, sylus almost misses your cute snores. he chuckles, taking this chance to admire you now that you've fallen asleep.
you truly were an angel. the way your eyebrows furrowed here and there in your sleep. the way your plump lips parted at times. the way your button nose twitched sporadically. oh, sylus loved it all. he could watch you sleep forever. but he had a better task at hand: to take care of you. he assured you that he would take care of everything. and sylus is a man of his words. carefully to not wake you, sylus cups your face with his right hand. closing his eyes, he places a delicate kiss on your forehead.
"rest well, sweetie. i'll see you soon."
#i wrote this while sick#be proud of me#sylus x reader#lnds sylus#love and deepspace sylus#lads sylus#love and deepspace#love and deepspace x reader#love and deepspace fic#sylus x y/n#sylus x you
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adding on to that one theory where the reason sylus is so affectionate and forward with us is because he's running out of time, i would like to point out that one of his soundtracks, feast of desires, has a timer-ticking sound effect...
it acts as the bridge of the soundtrack. i linked the soundtrack here if anyone wants to listen to it. the sound effect starts at 2:32.
i haven't played the game long enough to know what the devs are like. but knowing how much detail and effort they put into zayne, rafayel, and xavier's myths, i don't think the timer-ticking sound effect was put in there for no reason.
and we already know sylus' myth is going to be angsty so...
just food for thought.
#this was caused by me listening to his soundtrack on loop#can't blame a girl for discovering banger music dedicated to a BANGER guy#sylus x reader#sylus x mc#sylus x you#sylus x y/n#lnds sylus#lnds#lnds rafayel#lnds zayne#lnds xavier#love and deepspace sylus#love and deepspace#love and deepspace zayne#love and deepspace xavier#love and deepspace rafayel#otome game
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no, guys, you don't understand. i have CONCEPTS of a plan!
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WE'RE SO BACK WE'RE SO FUCKING BACK
#NOBARA KUGISAKI IS BACK#THIS IS NOT A DRILL#MY BELOVED#nobara kugisaki#jjk nobara#jujutsu kaisen leaks#jujutsu kaisen#jjk spoilers#jjk manga#itadori yuji#megumi fushiguro#satoru gojo
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biopsy and bad habits
synopsis: in which sylus breaks your bad habit while you wait for your biopsy appointment.
tw: mentions of anesthetics, injections, stitches, dental stuff, cuts, reader is kinda sensitive, idk if sylus is ooc, recently established relationship, light references to razor's dance, takes place in LADS lore (?), kind of proofread, and first fanfic phew.
rating: fluff, comfort, and a smidge of ansgt
word count: 1.4k
author's notes: i wrote this on the way to my biopsy. i need this man. he seems affectionate in the audio dramas, so i made him affectionate here.Â
"you're shaking, love."
your leg stops mid-shake. releasing your lips from the claws of your teeth, you look up at him. even with how harsh the fluorescent lights are, he really was breathtaking.
"i'm sorry. i'm just really nervous right now. who knows how bad the stitches are going to hurt, let alone the injections?" you look away from him, trying to find somethingâanything that would calm your anxious heart down.
the view isn't helping, really. white walls, white tilesâthe whole place was devoid of color. although that is the norm for a medical setting, it brings you no comfort at all. unable to find an outlet for your nervousness, your legs start shaking again. sylus grips your thigh, trying to ease your restlessness.
"it's a biopsy, sweetie. it'll end quickly, and you'll be fine."
this time, you glare at him. nevermind the fact that you're shooting daggers at the infamous leader of onychinus. no, you need to teach your silver-tongued, silver-haired boyfriend a lesson.
"easy for you to say. you DO know how an oral biopsy works, right? they're going to cut off a piece of my mouth and stitch it back together. how am i supposed to be fine?"
"y/n?"
you jerk away from sylus, flinching at your name being called by the dentist. at this point, your whole body is trembling, and you can't help but bite your lips again. as adorable as you look, sylus cannot stand seeing you so afraid. normally, he would relish in your antsy demeanor. after all, he was the one who caused them. seeing your doe eyes widen with fear but also with a lace of excitement whenever he pinned you down was just so damn intoxicating. however, what he saw right now wasn't a cute feline on edge. he saw a poor kitten, quivering uncontrollably with no source of warmth. he had to do something.
sylus frowns at the dentist with his sharp red eyes and juts his chin towards the transparent door the latter walked out of. "give us a moment." the dentist nods and recedes back to their office, taking note of how scared you were.
sylus averts his focus back to you. unable to witness your state any longer, he cups your chin. "y/n."
meeting his scarlet eyes, you can feel your tears threatening to spill. usually, you would flush upon locking eyes with sylus. he really was the most gorgeous man you have ever met. his dreamy pearly hair brought out his intricate ruby eyes. his nose was carefully crafted, and his jaw was just so enticingly sharp that you swear it could cut your own skin. and you were more than okay with that. and yet here you were, on the verge of crying from locking eyes with your boyfriend.
why were you even here? let alone inconveniencing your boyfriend by asking him to accompany you to the dentist? why was this happening to you? one bad x-ray read from your usual dentist, and next thing you know, you get referred to another dentist for a biopsy...
seeing your teary-eyed state, sylus tenses. one can't blame the man. he was used to your brave demeanor, taking down dangerous wanderers as if they were nothing and always prioritizing the safety of others. where was the hunter who dared to tell him what he could and could not do?Â
sylus drags his thumb softly along your jaw. "you have faced far scarier things than this."Â he kisses your forehead tenderly. you blink rapidly, not quite used to his gentle side just yet. "you can do this, y/n" he brings you into a hug. your eyes widen, feeling his muscular arms wrap around you. "i know you can."
the dam finally breaks, and you sob hysterically, reciprocating your boyfriend's warm embrace. "i-i'm sorry," you hic uncontrollably. "i'm j-just so s-scared of the p-pain." if only you could see sylus's smile right now. such an affectionate smile with fond eyes that only you could plant on his face. you can feel him nodding on your shoulder along with his hands patting your back. "it's j-just last time i-i had local a-anesthesia, it hurt so f-fucking bad," you continue.
sylus pulls away, gazing at you lovingly. yes, he was used to your courageous and bold antics that never failed to amuse him. but, he didn't hate this side of you either. there truly never was a dull moment with you.
"i know, sweetie. but, you need to bear through it so that the procedure won't hurt as much." he wipes you tears away. "besides, this biopsy is necessary so that we can know what exactly that thing is on the x-ray."
you sniff as hard as you could. god, you probably looked a mess right now. you could already feel how swollen your eyes were and how moist your lips were from all the snot dripping down. "i d-don't..." you take a moment to wipe your nose. "i don't care about the results."
sylus chuckles. again, never a dull moment with you. every single moment spent with you lit a harsh yet pleasurable flame in his icy heart. now that he has seen both your strong and vulnerable sides, he must keep that flame alive. what better way than to keep you by his side as his lover? perhaps he felt this way the moment you stumbled into the N109 zone that fateful day. no, he's felt this way ever since he first met you, but that is a talk for another day.
"you're worried about some temporary pain rather than the possibility that there might be something wrong with your lower jaw?" sylus raises a brow teasingly. despite the serious potential that there might actually be something wrong, sylus doesn't show his worry. even if there was something wrong, he would use all his manpower and fortune to employ the best of doctors and dentists to ensure you would be fine. after all, he needed his future bride to be alive and well. but for now, he would ease your nervousness in the best way he knew how: riling you up. "your priorities are a bit questionable, sweetie."
your eyebrows furrow immediately. sylus grins upon seeing your defiant side return. all of your tears dried up instantly, and your pout turned into a scowl. it was as if your body was hardwired to react to sylus's relentless teasing. the big, bad boss of onychinus loved the fact that he was the only one capable of causing these visceral reactions.
you took a deep breath. of course his gentle facade wasn't going to last long. what were you thinking? "listen here, you little-"
"y/n?" you jolt out of your seat upon hearing the dentist call upon you.
"yes?" you respond with gritted teeth, ignoring sylus's chuckles.
"i'm sorry but we must start your appointment," the dentist says with a tone of pity.
"right," you take a moment to inhale and exhale. "my apologies," you walk sheepishly towards the office door. oh lord, how long did you delay your appointment. you shouldnât have let sylus distract you, like he always does.
you look back at sylus before you could enter. he leans back against the small chair with his arms crossed. he looks smug as if he accomplished something. with legs spread wide, he tilts his head to the side. "you stopped shaking, by the way."
blinking confusedly, you ask, "what do you mean?"
sylus chuckles once more, enjoying your curious face. you remind him so much of a kitten. "you stopped shaking and crying, sweetie."
you pat your face several times with your hands. "oh," you murmur, realizing that your hands were absent of salty fluids and your eyes were relieved of their tiredness from swelling up. now that you think about it, your leg doesn't hurt as much from your habit of shaking it like how you would shake mephisto out of annoyance.
you look back at your boyfriend, who looked oh so satisfied with his signature smirk. normally, you would attempt to wipe off that aggravating look on his face. but, instead, you give him a look of gratitude and walk into the office. after all, he did just relieve you of your anxiety and possibly your bad habit of shaking your leg. closing the door, you sigh endearingly. you really can't do without him.
#sylus x reader#lnds sylus#lads sylus#love and deepspace#love and deepspace sylus#lads x you#lads x reader#sylus x you#sylus x mc#sylus x y/n
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gege, you fucking troll.
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OUR GLORIOUS BLUE EYED KING IS BACK?!
"those eyes are unmistakable"
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