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[blondebrainpowered]

Cast Shadows, 1891

Artist: Émile Friant

[popculturealchemy]

toilet paper . . needs ironing . dirty the dishes . go outside . . far from . creator . too similar body . not right . looks different . how do I fix this thing . . grinding metal . . . feeling things not working . glitching fingers typing sentences . . . metronome typing . busy work . busy . busy grades . busy body . stop sharing . . keep hiding . wrong message . feelers disengage . . mushroom body . building muscle . focus harder . . eyes lifting . . feeling heavy . feeling like tank . . . chicken soup brain sloshing . . upright body . focal point on the earth . . stabbing the earth . . worst angle . flamingo body . . . cats paws digging into my flesh . . feeling feelings . . depression depressing the depressed . cant help you . . new owner new business . . no vacancy signs . music feeling distant . . . ukelele nightmare landscapes . . rich people with rich connections . harvesting gold . . . radiation. lead paint microwave golden bodies . . strange creation . gunpowder all around me . . natural gas sensory unit . . sensors sensing . . warnings out there somewhere . . readjusting the fulcrum . . too fat on one side . . . thingings hiding in the cracks . . abacus needed on this emotional transaction . fingers crossed. blind spots. not noticed . . ex partner up your sleeve. . corner pocket sunrise. 8 - ball misake every time . . . re rack it slowly . . still healing . . . lost mortgage . . . lost values . . unbalanced canoe . single player nightmare . . . climb in slowly . climb out slowly . . . never leave . even better . . . widen our canoe . . better structure next time . . shallow water . . risks taken . rocky cliffs sirens . . all part of it . keep playing . . new controller . . . cheat codes online . .. . . wrong language . more money . . . spider in my body . traps ready .

no flies yet

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wrong outlook

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that thing in the corner pocket in your basement

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6'' plushy spider

strong stick legs

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no movement

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feeling something

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trapping the future

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scary moment not forever

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corner ceiling perspective

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crooked house

crooked nose

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crooked tooth

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face crooked

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plastic ocean of bodies

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mirrors and mistakes

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Inverted heart

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feeling good now

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bee here now

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people want my attention

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scary body

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wrong people

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feels ugly

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spider in a jar

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realistic

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surrounded by glass people

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throwing stones

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jesus said so

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stoner body

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born again bodies

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pure water no lead

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black letters written on silky sheets

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pill swallowed

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pesky feelings tucked away

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new underwear feeling

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holes, unseen

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referencing that day by the water

passing through metal

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birthing feeling

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vaginal waters

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crown peaking

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pill body held by pastor

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people watching

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water in nose feeling

salmon metal barriers engaging

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feeling coming back.

scapel of returning

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pastor in white

holding your fleshy pill body

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water holding water holding water

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horrors of the past

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new horizon

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new feelings

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vertical giants waving

a new giant emerges from metal

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past>me<. . . .

past fueling me. pac man future

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fuel propelled body

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silky black words swallowing body

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on/off switch engage

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new tool unlocked

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camouflage upgrade

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standing out everywhere

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new places

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born again body

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potato peeler on my flesh carved body

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shaved ice daily body

flavorless cone body

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gumby molded body

lofi body

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unclear what to feel

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baptized as a child

altered body

altered pixels

strong stories

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strange union

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brain knowing better

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watching from a distance and hiding

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weird surroundings

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carpeted chairs with silver metal

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carpeted bible.

silk pages

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jesus resting

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jesus complex forming

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unique powers

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powers of the spirit

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uncotrolled moving mountains

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okay guy

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cool story

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hyperbole and metaphore

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not for everyone

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shaved ice edging.

gods power. intensifies

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new generation new torch

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torchlight from a birds eyeview in the darkness

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crowds forming

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whos this guy

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rather be blind

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keep walking

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pu'sating eyelids

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3rd eye of truth

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dead bodies in the well need sorting

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hanged. joking.

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laughter laughing at laughter

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jester mocking jester

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magicians hiding from magicians

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snake staff hidden. angel wingels. awareness

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healing

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you need this

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new beating new antidote

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don't leave us

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never wanted to

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forced ending

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black painting

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staring at the wall

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truest painting.

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thoughts uninterupted

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data unlimited

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garden of eden drywall

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paint texture. lighting

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this bulb feels like its hurting my eyes.

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light lingering. camera flash warning

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cars leaving the garage and returning

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new adventure for someone

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weird dot on the wall

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perpective blurry

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labeling my own story

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controlled universe

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texture friends

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tickling my eyes

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helping

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forgot I was stimming

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forgot I didn't know what that word meant back then

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new morning dry cereal

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not feeling like people morning

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attacking the worm morning.

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crab meat morning

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keep trying

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moods. fears.

perspectives. ideas.

what is real.

trust.

changing.

rules.

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never had em

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memory drive

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/ error/

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1 thing at a time

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mutilthreading

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overloading

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weird triggers. eyes following

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code language. in case that one person sees this.

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forgot I hated you.

I never hated you

I just didn't want you to read my whole life story

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hiding from fears.

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code language needed.

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I'm not afraid means

I am afraid

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because not

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not is illegal.

bad word.

poor manager of structure

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seeking people seeking people

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sex

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exploring

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nature

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exploring

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sound

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tech

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changing

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outsmarting ai with ai

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migrating pixels

jobs changing

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j letter being scary

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newest letter

jester joke

names changing

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words huge

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tiny dictionary oxford writing

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this thing can't hurt you

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rent overdue

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In writing

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collect paper to continue

[mochasucculent]

Was looking at refs and since Viktor has two different leg braces I was wondering, do we think he wears them simultaneously?? The refs don't perfectly line up perspective-wise so it's hard to tell but parts of the one he wears during the Hexcore scenes look like they could maybe line up with the brace that he wears over his clothes, but also some parts really don't and look like they'd be super uncomfy. Also HOW does he take these on and off. Experts weigh in

[toss-a-coin-to-your-stan-account]

hey yeah I'd love to hold out for some last minute "save" or smth legitimate that would prevent him from being able to enact his bullshit in office or some kind of technicality that would reveal that Kamala Did Win After All just as much as the next guy but like. with all the people going "something feels off..." or or "it doesn't feel like this was meant to happen..." or "this doesn't feel like real life..." I just wanna scream that like. it's trauma. it's fucking trauma. you are actively experiencing the trauma of that man being elected into office again after four years of not living under him. alot of people feel as though they're reliving a very very terrifying and devastating day(s) from their teenage or even childhood years and being dragged into the headspace of who you were eight years ago absolutely fucking feels surreal and derealizing. it "doesn't feel real" not because there's some secret plot or conspiracy or Plot To Uncover but because you're (probably) actively dissociating while effectively re-entering an abusive and traumatizing situation after years of being away and moving forward. I get that a lot of people are in the denial and bargaining stages of grief while they process this. god i fucking get it. but like. please don't fucking let it lead you into into thinking there's some secret illegitimacy. There is No Conspiracy: You Are Just Being Retraumatized.

[urlocalwhumper]

living weapon whumpee who's never known anything but pain and violence.

their existence hurts. they were made to be effective, not happy, and their masters decided that keeping them in constant pain provided better results. they're wilder, more unpredictable, and the pain keeps them from thinking straight enough to question anything.

they're only given painkillers, only allowed a respite from their seemingly endless suffering, after a successful mission. it keeps them loyal, and most importantly, teaches their brain to associate acts of violence with relief and rewards.

everyone they've ever met has treated them as a tool, a monster, or both. they don't know how to be anything else.

that is until they're rampaging through a village, destroying, killing, whatever their masters demand of them. whatever will give them a few blissful hours of numbness.

one of the villagers steps out of a ruined building and looks them straight in the eyes. whumpee expects fear, hatred, disgust, the things they see in the faces of every person who's ever crossed their path. but they see something completely different.

compassion.

whumpee is so stunned, they don't think to move or do anything at all as the villager steps closer, gently reaching out a hand to cup whumpee's face.

"oh, poor thing." they murmur, taking in the creature in front of them - part human, part animal, part machine. "they've done a number on you, huh?"

whumpee blinks at them. pain continues to course through their body, but the gentle hand on their cheek distracts them, even if just a little. all the indistinct noise in their foggy, addled mind finally goes quiet.

caretaker had stepped out in front of the being destroying their home with the intention to get through to it or die trying, and the expectation to absolutely die trying.

they did not at all expect the seemingly feral mishmash of metal, fur, and flesh to lean so heavily into their touch that they nearly collapsed into caretaker's arms.

[trainwrecksys]

Trying to get their likenesses right in my art style

[paintpaintpaintman]

Is there anything from before being locked up that Narinder still does? Habits that he might still have, rituals he might still try to do, anything from godhood he has to get used to not being able to do anymore?

He has a hovering-issue when it comes to running the Cult and doing Rituals (ESPECIALLY Blood rituals. He does not condone them, as they are ancient and incredibly dangerous/instable). He's also had to get used to being so small and incredibly weak.

The Crown no longer gives him eldritch strength, and his body has pretty much lost most of its muscle mass because of it, having been born extremely weak and sickly. The physical traits took longer to revert.

But, the thing he struggles with the most is how large the world is and how the fresh air still burns his lungs. How the pressure makes his bones ache. When the weather starts to drop, how he now experiences migraines and illnesses which leaves him sicker than most with his naturally unwell body. He spent so many centuries wanting out of his small prison, but had not considered (enough) how large in comparison the outside would be. The depth leaves him feeling too open and vulnerable.

Luckily, his spouse has a love for big blankets (too many of them), good for hiding.

The first years without one was no fun. They thought he was lazy, hiding away every day in his shelter, though it was only partly true.

[therealsaintscully]

Imagine being Billy Preston. You come in to see hi to the Beatles, your old buddies from Hamburg, and they just casually mention they need a keyboard player for their next album.

Next thing you know, you get get this exact look from Paul fucking McCartney and suddenly you're on a Beatles album.

[bumblingbabooshka]

Tuvoktober Day 7: I'm Going to Vamp your Vok [Patreon | Commissions]

[hometoursandotherstuff]

Thanks to tornadosavage who sent in this semi-detached home in Portsmouth, Hampshire, UK that looks like the Lady Dowager's pied-a-terre. 3bds, 2ba, £365,000 / $482K.

The living room looks like a French style salon.

And, look at the sleek gold & black kitchen. They did a lot of work here.

Gold farm sink. I could do w/o a mirror while I'm cooking, though.

The dining room is a good size.

The primary bedroom is a little too tight for this big bed.

Bd. #2 looks much bigger w/a smaller bed and more furniture fits in.

This is nice. The sink is lovely, but very small.

The gold & black TV room matches the kitchen. Nice fireplace, but it's very a very small space.

The 2nd bath is cute, but looks like a half bath.

Out back there's a fairly large fenced patio.

https://www.rightmove.co.uk/properties/150056732#/?channel=RES_BUY

[kaiserin-erzsebet]

why does it suck?

A couple of things which may or may not be specific to me:

1. I feel like I know more than 99% of people on this. Which is expected when you're producing knowledge. But it also means:

- I cannot read Wikipedia for fun anymore. Because it's wrong about too much.

- Books about my topic have gone from fun to infuriating to read.

- I also know how much other people with similar interests get wrong. But I don't want to be a jerk to people who only have published information because it isn't their fault that they don't know.

- I get mad at signs in museums.

2. I cannot turn off the emotions I feel about this project. My neurodivergence makes it so that my special interests are always imbued with a lot of emotional weight. But academia has a tendency to view that strong of an attachment as bias, so I have to keep a lot of those feelings inside.

3. At least for me, I developed a defense mechanism growing up where I curl up protectively around my special interest and only share with people I trust. Turns out this is impossible if it is also something I'm presenting at conferences. I'm still working on not feeling like every presentation is opening up my insides and showing vulnerability.

4. I've cried about this topic so many times. I cannot admit this to most people because I am a woman in academia.

With all that said, I still feel fortunate that I'm getting paid to research my favorite thing. I just think it's worth acknowledging that it also comes with these other components.

[royalthorned]

i think we all need to start using “you’re not serious people” to seriously analyse the death eaters ASAP

[moonsofmachinery]

Planetary History and Astronomy in general is something im very hyperfixated on right now so when i realized the potential of theia and earth lesbianism this came to mind. thanks mutual skybristle

Anyways these are my planetorators if you haven't seen them yet. You can probably guess who they are but ill clarify, first panel is Theia and Proto-Earth, third panel is Mercury, Luna, Mars.

[deadrlngers]

oc deep dive

i was tagged by @devilbrakers and @ruvviks thank you both soso much <3

tagging (no pressure): @marictheirins @mojaves @lucaanis @faarkas @kibellah @risingsh0t @pawnguild @baelavelaryon @ncytiri @tethrras @aezyrraesh and anyone else that would like to do this!!

What common/uncommon fear do they have?

Abandonment. Her own mother left her when she was nothing but a child so it got ingrained into her system that something about her isn’t right or enough, or both, to make people stick around in the long run.

Forgetting or in general losing her memory. This is mainly a repercussion of what she went through with the relic and Johnny. Basically the idea of missing pieces and bits of her life terrifies her. That leads to the fear of losing her identity, losing herself basically. Who am i? Who was i before this? Am i still myself? etc etc

The ocean. She’s not exactly scared of water (she actually has no problem with swimming or pools for example) but very large bodies of water that she can’t see the end of unsettle her. Also needles don’t really make her feel...relaxed.

Do they have any pet peeves?

Vesper HATES being bossed around, she’s the one bossing around others and she likes to keep it that way lmao

Slow drivers make her road rage explode which is already hanging by a thin thread in a city like night city. Loud chewing/people who eat with their mouth open irk her, it might even make her too disgusted to keep on eating herself.

Being touched by strangers and people she doesn’t know well. Being lied to grinds her balls into dust, especially when the other person knows she’s aware of their lies but they keep on playing the part (this is basically Fenix, sorry).

People that are too passive and don’t take action and sit on the possibilities for too long; she hates waiting around and prefers action to inaction.

Dare i say rich people? But more in the sense of...she’s annoyed by very big displays of wealth. She grew up almost into poverty so she’s very prejudiced towards anyone that instead grew up wealthy (<her own brother for example AND step-siblings). When she hears people mindlessly talk about money Vesper is very quick to judge them as “out of touch with reality”.

What are three items you can find in their bedroom?

Cigarettes, empty packs included because she forgets to throw them away and sometimes she stores things inside the packs like lighters and other small objects (and forgets about them too...)

At least one gun near her nightstand, just to be safe.

Lots of polaroids, mostly taken by someone else and gifted to her. Some date back to her teenage years, some are with old friends no longer in her life, others see her and Fenix back when they first dated. She cares about one that portrays her and Daniel during a dinner most of all: since they grew up separated, that's the very first photo she has with her brother.

What do they notice first in a person?

Demeanor and...their ego, if it makes sense. If their self-esteem or sense of self-importance is sky high she will notice immediately (and already settle on disliking them). Vesper likes confidence, she’s attracted to it, but overdoing it breaks the spell.

Then their intentions–are they here to talk? Attack? Flirt? Ask questions? Basically she’s already scanning for hints that will tell her why they decided to approach her. Body language is a big one as well. Then eyes and smell, if they are close enough.

A beautiful, charming smile catches her eye immediately.

On a scale of 1 to 10, how high is their pain tolerance?

Physically: 9. She wasn’t called the iron maiden for nothing during her boxing days. She can take one hell of a hard beating and still stay on her feet. It doesn’t help that she gets very careless with it at times and she pushes her body to the limit even when she’s already bleeding and in pain (the infamous Akira vs Vesper fight during Hanako’s kidnapping is a good example; Akira is a special trained soldier and has very expensive cyberware that specifically focuses on enhancing their physical strength. Suffice to say Fenix was K.O after a few hits while Vesper stood her ground and even inflicted a few serious hits to Akira. They might be enemies but Akira developed a sense of respect for Vesper after that).

Mentally: 8. Composed, resolved, focused–she doesn’t give a fuck about what you will say to her, quite honestly. Good luck trying to get through her. Vesper is pretty confident, the most you might get out of her is a scoff or a mocking smirk. Bark like a dog you are below me moron type of deal. Plus she went through some Shit her whole life, she’s kind of used to it by now. Also she firmly believes that she needs to be the real strength to her loved ones, too many people look up to her and she can’t allow any weakness.

Emotionally: 4. She tries to hold it together, thinks she’s not showing how upset or hurt she is but it’s very visible on her face. Her main issue is rage–and her first emotional reaction–so she tends to lash out very quickly. She tries to keep in control with the people she loves (and often fails when pushed too far) but she’s a complete tornado with the rest of the world. It’s hard to break through her shell and she doesn’t allow many to get to the core, her heart. Giving someone that much power over her emotions is something that scares her. If hurt by a loved one she will feel that deeply and for a long time…and she isn’t very fair with the making up afterwards.

Do they go into fight or flight mode when under pressure? (Or freeze or fawn?)

In a hostile situation it’s fight, no doubt. She doesn’t shy away from a fight and prefers a physical resolution to mediation.

In any other situation i think maybe freeze, start a verbal fight most likely. She’s not really the type to fawn. More than freeze she shuts down completely and grows this incredibly thick second skin that doesn’t break under any pressure or hit, she will simply go silent and unresponsive.

What animal represents them best?

This is a difficult one for me but i’m going with an otter! A bit uncommon maybe but otters are fairly peaceful animals, some more solitary, but they can be aggressive when necessary and some tend to be territorial which is exactly how i perceive Vesper. Not a danger if you don’t bother her, but show yourself as a threat and she can get very hostile. Also i read somewhere otters love to cuddle, idk if it’s true but it would fit. Also Fenix has her contact saved as otter girl and sends her photos of otters and says “you” so i’m picking them.

How would a stranger likely describe them?

Intimidating. She’s 1.84m with wide shoulders and muscular arms, plus her expression (even when relaxed!) doesn’t look very friendly or approachable. Standoffish, stoic, distant, maybe a touch apathetic. Basically if you approach her you will feel like you are doing the mortal sin of bothering her and for that you will be sentenced to death. This idea can be quickly proved wrong, just please don’t bring to her stupid, time-wasting inquiries.

Interesting but reserved. And a presence that exudes safety also. If you are into the stoic type who doesn’t express much at first you will be naturally attracted to uncovering more of her.

Appearance wise people notice her physical presence, then the few scars on her face and the star tattoo right below her right eye. Also when she was younger she used to have gold fangs that naturally caught people’s eye. It’s not uncommon to see Vesper sporting a few bruises here and there so she’s either perceived as a troublemaker or the “too cool for me to approach” type. Depends on the stranger.

It’s very unlikely that she’d smile at a stranger but her smile would be described as beautiful. The little star tattoo makes the smile look all more warm when it reaches her eyes, the sensation is akin to looking at a twinkling star!!

Do they have any hobbies?

Partying (she’s surprisingly the right company you’d want to have fun with), dancing and specifically ballroom dance (latin mainly; bachata, cha cha cha etc etc), playing her bass guitar, listening to music, tinkering around with her motorbike and boxing. Even if she left that life behind her, Vesper still keeps exercising–both for its usefulness on her line of work and because it’s a great outlet for stress and anger.

Daniel is trying very hard to drag her into gaming, still a work in progress.

[lazyveran]

currently stewing an azula/katara political marriage au in the brain solely bc ik azula wld act a fool the whole time

[bizzwizzproductions]

Ron Stampler and Terry Jr doing some baking together.

Ron Stampler is now one of my favorite characters ever btw.