#despairing muses

[gallopinggrasshoppers]

My headspace is a tedium of confusion and despair lately. I hate being alone with my own thoughts. I wouldn’t wish them on my worst enemy, mostly because my worst enemy is myself.

[metamorphesque]

"The Return of the King", J.R.R. Tolkien

[thinwhitedoc]

SHERLOCK | Martin Freeman as John Watson

[ultimateplaylistmaker]

Me: Thinking about goodbye despair

My brain: the reason Nekomaru lost his cool and knocked out Komaeda after his big dog little dog speech is because it directly clashes with his backstory and is a deep insult to the person who inspired Nekomaru, who had died from his chronic illness to overwork, to not give up and that even if Nekomaru can't play that doesn't mean he can't still help, and thus to insinuate people are simply born good or theyre not is a direct insult to what a team manager does, his own personal growth as a person, AND to Daisuke's legacy that Nekomaru inherited, you couldn't get a more direct insult to his history then Komaeda's speech before they knocked him out and tied him up

Me: oh shit real?

[aparticularbandit]

i love how we talk about natsumi as fuyuhiko's little sister but like.

they're twins. she's a younger twin. they're the same year in school.

but she's always gonna be bratty little sister energy.

[corallapis]

[the-ultimate-muses]

@despairs-memorial liked for a starter uwu (X)

Despite being exactly who he was looking for, Kazuichi looked startled by the sight of the breeder, with him having rounded a corner so fast he'd all but slammed into Gundham's chest. "Fuck!" Stumbling back, the poor mechanic tripped over his own feet, sending himself to the floor.

"Hey! Watch where you're-" Words stop short upon the realization of who he had bumped into, Kaz scrambling back to his feet, a grab being made for Gundham's hand to first pull himself up, and then to inistantly tug his classmate along. "You! You gotta fix this! There's a cat- It's- I-I don't know how it got in there! I tried to get it out, but I can't reach!" Half rambles as he tried to get Gundham to follow him, assumedly towards his garage. "Hurry up!!"

[sunriseindigo]

happy birthday min 💜

[despairforme]

nnoitra: why do YOU got a date n i dont?? byakuya: because you are literally the worst nnoitra: nnoitra: nnoitra: fact

[caramialunaestelle]

@despairs-memorial || Liked for a Starter (Aoi & Sayaka)

"Ah, Maizono-chan! Can I ask you a question?" Aoi asked, having stumbled into the idol in the courtyard of their school. She sat down next to her with no hesitation at all, as if she was buddy-buddy with the celeb for years now.

"Is dancing and singing at the same time really hard? I mean I doubt I got a good singing voice so I wouldn't even attempt it, but I figure dancing's like... totally all about coordination and stuff, right? So like... Maybe I'd be good at that considering I'm pretty good at other sporty activities."

She leaned back and kicked her feet back and forth like a child. "I was just curious cause I know you practice a lot. Maybe you'd wanna teach me how to dance sometime. I've always wanted to try it."

[st-just]

Apropos of listening to a bunch of A More Civilized Age as background noise, the Stars Wars AU I actually wanna see is one where Sidious' plot is uncovered late in the war without any actual fixing of the structural rot in the Jedi order, so you just end up with a purged Senate and a pseudo-theocratic deep state where where the mystic warrior-cult/literally entire officer corps take it upon themselves to keep a close watch on the political class for any further signs of Sith corruption.

[relicsongmel]

I've seen a lot of people compare Sans to Beanix which is understandable (and extremely hilarious) but the REAL truth is that Sans is extremely Raymond Shields coded and that is the hill I will die on

[themadsonneteer]

Half

By Bud Koenemund (Written: April 2024) Half of my heart is still in love with you; A notion foolish as it is sincere, When that affection’s forever imbued By sadness: growing more and more austere. Half of my mind is still in love with you; Yet condemned to recall happier days, ‘Fore passion incandescent went askew; Leaving intellect and sanity razed. Half of my soul still belongs to you; Though ‘tis now mortal – crushed beyond the repair Time can grant; a solace long overdue – As I stumble about in my despair. I seek a peace I fear I’ll never find, While memory and shadow intertwine.

[ultimateplaylistmaker]

[aparticularbandit]

you know in undertale, how there are the two mirrors, and when the player character looks in the first mirror, it says, it's you! and then what is said in the second mirror depends on which route you take?

i need ryoko looking into a mirror all happy with it's you! and then a second picture beneath that with jumpscare spooky junko and it's me.

[bcneheaded]

I was just thinking and... Artemis is not kind. yes, for all his friendliness, and all the fancy and amicable language and behaviors he displays outwardly to just about everyone who enters his shop... he's not genuinely nice. Artemis is a demon. in any verse of his, he used to be something akin to a spirit/god of LOVE, but was twisted into Wrath, or Hatred - which is the opposite. After leaving the pits of hell, having his little demonic tantrum and breakdown and finally growing weary and finding some semblance of clarity, he's grown out of what he was once again, and became something new. He's still wrathful, hateful, angry, and morose, but now he's so much more without even realizing. He's evolved and will continue to do so over time even if he stagnates for decades, centuries even. The friendships and relationships with other muses that he develops will influence his personality and the way he views things in time, as we've seen it happen already countless times ofc! And for those who did earn his respect and care, he does truly care for them and would gladly go out of his way for them (to what degree depends entirely on the level of closeness). But again.... Artemis is not kind, by nature and he hasn't been for a very, very long time. He was genuinely just plain and simple EVIL He was a villain - a monster, unrecognizable to how he acts now- doing horrible, unspeakable deeds for the pleasure of it. It's how he got the bones he wears in and on his body. So while he might be polite, charming even, and friendly - if he does not know you... he doesn't care about you nor what happens to you. If say for example, he sees you wandering that ruined cityside he lives in - rampant with entities that prey on the Living - and he saves you from being taken by evil spirits or demons? Chances are good that he did it for himself, or to be spiteful - to deny the other entities their prize (you / your soul). If he doesn't know you, the likelihood that he'll go out of his way for you is very low. But if there's something in it for him, some kind of reason as to why it might be worth his time and energy to actually step in... he might! But like all demons, it's good to be wary and to assume he doesn't care about you or your well-being, at least at first!! Artemis is not nice, but that doesn't mean he's malicious or cruel (anymore. not intentionally - he's quite literally under the mindset that he's just 'too old and tired for that nonsense'.) Artemis is manipulative, charming, cunning - he's everything you expect from a demon (though without a host, so he's certainly not attractive in any semblance of a conventional manner lmao - but he dresses well! and I think it's also telling just how-- *gestures at all that* --that he actually is, considering he's NOT attractive... but still puts people at ease, mostly, and can charm them to hell and back if he wanted to. He uses that not to manipulate people per say ?? like, he does not have an evil agenda by any means. He's just existing at this point, distanced from the gods and devils and just living his... life(?) if you can call it that. He's TRYING to do better. But he's still just... a demonic entity. A greater demon, for sure, if he had to be equated to some kind of level or whatever, but a demon nonetheless. But even for demons, there can be growth! and he is growing, very very slowly.