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[nyx-thedragon]

Denton Could've Been Included in Livesies

I've been thinking this for a while, but just today wrote it down so I don't forget what I want to say about it. so. here we go

I think the stage production of Newsies could've had both Denton and Katherine, and here's how:

Denton works for The Sun (obviously) and Katherine is his intern. Denton finds out about the strike and tasks Katherine with gathering info so they can start writing articles about it together, and gain support for the strike. Kath spends more time with the boys than Denton, because he's always busy with other stuff, but he still exists and shows up for a few important events/scenes. He could be more of a recurring character than a side/supporting character. My thought for this is having a double casting; a background newsie/ensemble member could play Denton when a scene involves him, just have a pretty simple outfit change. Everything else could be the same. Adding him as a small recurring role wouldn't be a huge change to the story, and it would get an actual adult helping the newsies behind the scenes, rather than just a fellow teenager (Kath), which is one thing about 92sies that I love

The idea of these teenagers doing everything themselves, while kind of inspiring ("you can do things to change the world around you even if you're just a kid" type thing), makes me a bit...sad? Idk exactly how to describe it tbh (I think I talked a little bit about it in one of my "Newsies Thoughts" posts but idk which one). Like, having an adult helping them out could change things, because Denton would be able to do a more than the newsies and Kath can because he's an adult.

Idk let me know what you think. I've had this idea in my brain for a while and needed to get it out, and I figured a tumblr post would be great because I can get the idea out and get feedback from others! win-win! So yeah, feel free to reblog with your thoughts or put them in the tags, I'd love to hear other people's opinions on this (idk if anyone has thought of it before, but I haven't seen anything about it since joining the fandom on here).

uhhh I think that's it! I look forward to hearing your thoughts! Bye!

[dashiellqvverty]

was going to reply to your post and then it got too long.

newsies was also one of those movies where i was learning what words meant as i learned the lyrics because i watched it so young so that's always so hard to get past.

but i will say i think the changes to sante fe in particular are really great (and i love what the stage version does with crutchie). most of the changes to carrying the banner (although i really miss the section with the mother looking for her son), the world will know, and once are for all are pretty solid. seize the day is functionally a different song, which is fine outside of the softer approach toward scabs across the show. the only changes i fully dislike are in king of new york, but that's also mostly the result of the denton&sarah > katherine shift (which i understand was needed but ultimately didn't care for, especially making her pulitzer's daughter)

that's so fair! i definitely consider myself a movie hater (though really i'm more of. a disliker.) but at the end of the day i simply love talking to people about newsies in all its forms and what they think of it and stuff.

i think most of the lyrics i like less in the movie version of king of new york are less the stuff thats directly related to denton and more just the little individual lines the newsies have - which is the same way i feel about carrying the banner. i feel like the new ones just feel more natural (but also like. of course i do, i learned them first)!

im already forgetting bc i keep pausing the movie and doing other things but i feel like seize the day came at a slightly different point in the story? like the same part of the plot but hitting different emotional beats? so that makes sense that its so different. i'm really interested overall in how the show changes the approach to the scabs (now that ive gotten to the rally scene in the movie i'm like okay so they just pushed up jack agreeing w david about not being violent instead of making it an ongoing conflict) and softens the messaging overall. like despite being a disney movie in the first place, the stage show is much more ~disney-fied~ (which, for good or for bad, i do think is part of why it was so much more well-received) (gonna be real i still have like half an hour left in the movie and i forget how it approaches the ending, so i can't make a comparison yet, but even without the context of changes from the movie, i think a lot about how the stage show kind of undercuts the radical themes of the actual story that is happening onstage by having the Big Messages they SAY out loud be a lot more abstract and wishy washy)

i have always been fond of katherine but again, that was my introduction to the show - i've never had any strong feelings about her being pulitzer's daughter but i definitely don't think it ADDS anything to the show beyond the one moment of the ~shocking reveal~. iirc youve mentioned that her being pulitzer's daughter kind of removes an element of class solidarity? that's not a way i'd thought of it on my own but its definitely a really valid criticism and they very much couldve kept her character without doing that. in fact, it would probably make her more interesting if she was a woman with a career who WASNT a nepo baby.

[lmelodymusicl]

I watched Livesies last month and while it was pretty good, I still prefer the original movie. Matter of fact, there were plenty of things I disliked about it as much as there were things I liked about it.

First off, everything wrong with Livesies (aka, the cons)

I did not like the change in character. Jack being a cowboy in the original movie was more in line with his personality. I can’t see him being an artist. He basically turned into a jerk who was pushing people away. Don’t get me started on his interactions with Katherine and Crutchy (now spelled Crutchie). And that part where he called Crutchie a “dumb crip”. He would’ve never treated him like this in the original film.

Jack wasn’t the only person they changed. Les got the short end of the stick, too. In the original movie, Les was this cute and adorable little kid who was also determined and spunky. In the live version, he was still cute, but also turned into a very annoying and bratty kid. With all due respect to Ethan Steiner, I wasn’t a huge fan of his portrayal of Les at all. I wanted to strangle him like how Homer Simpson strangles Bart.

Now let’s talk about the character removals. They got rid of the most important characters from 92sies, Bryan Denton and Sarah Jacobs (David and Les’ older sister.)

Sarah and Denton were totally screwed over in favor of Katherine! The musical had so many things they could’ve done with them.

Let’s start with Sarah. Tbh, Sarah was relegated to just Jack’s love interest in the original movie. But they could’ve done so much with this girl in the musical. They could’ve had her join the strike because she saw everything her dad, Mayer went through at the piano factory. They could’ve had her become friends with Katherine, as they both know how hard it is to be a woman during the 1890s. Ooh, and they could’ve had her punch more people in the face.

And as for our man Denton, they should’ve had him and Katherine being partners as reporters for The New York Sun. They would’ve made such a great team.

Don’t get me started on what they did to Spot Conlon. He was a prominent character in the original movie, but they made him a background character!

And don’t get me started on how most of the original Newsies got cut from the musical. Boots, Bumlets, Snipeshooter, Skittery, PieEater, Itey, Tumbler, Jake, Snoddy and Snitch, those were the original Newsies. But they got cut!

Next up, the song changes. They started adding cuss words to the musical. Example: in Santa Fe, Jack referred to Crutchie as a dumb crip. And they changed so many lyrics.

Original version of Carrying the Banner

That my cigar

You’ll steal anudda

Hey bummers, we got work to do

Since when did you become me mudda

Aw, quit your bawlin

Hey, who asked you?!

Musical version:

That’s my cigar

You’ll steal another.

Hey look, it’s bathtime at the zoo!

I thought that I’d surprise my mother

If you can find her

Hey, who asked you!?

Last but not least, can we talk about how Katherine and Jack had no chemistry? They didn’t even like each other until the very end of the musical.

That’s all I have to say for tonight!

[teawithhenry]

Yes she was a script reader and definitely an umbrella holder for legendary we do have proof of that which I don't think any bice president will do.If she ever was a vice president of any company then she would have had multiple pics of her working attending meetings and all that given to her camera seeking attention seeking nature but till date there is no such written document or pics to prove that she ever was a working person.

The judge in the court case also stated same that there is no such proof of her work which I guess is most reliable than any random theory because in a court they have run search on her position and they found nothing.Whatever position she got in legendary was for her father and she couldn't keep that as well given to her sketchy behaviour.

Another point to note if she ever was a vp of legendary she would never go to a company like vertigo rather will look for liongate or other prestigious company given to her portfolio but the reason she mentioned vertigo is because it's a small company easy to use for any fake position just by shoving bunch of money in their throat. She has a rich father who once had a production company so he too has sources to help her.

The matter about amy denton is interesting to me you are absolutely right about the fact that her stans are after her like blood hounds but why? That is the biggest question if Henry Cavill and Natalie viscose are so much in love then opinions of such random fans like Amy shouldn't be bothered by their pr team but the result is contrary to what they are claiming.It is responsibly of the two people to prove they are happy in love but here we are witnessing public harrasment bullying murder threat racist comments name calling and what not in name of proving others wrong.

So whatever it may be it's not just love rather it a battle perhaps the weirdest relationship in Hollywood till date where people are getting death threat by an actor's pr team for not believing in a story that the actor is trying to portray.This is criminal level harassment and that is where i feel very angry at this situation.

There is definitely a lot of information out there that needs to be discussed or circulates a bit more, and given the level of clean up attempts taking place in the form of bots, Stans, public harassment, bullying, name calling, even official mean pokes from the professional profiles of NV and her group of friends, it is painstakingly clear she has a lot to lose and is going to desperate measures to try to force her way around everything and everyone! Am I'm rella holding doesn't sound like a massively respectable position. That sounds like she was a non-paid intern looking to gain approval and pointers/experience. It reminds me of the film Devil Wears Prada.

I am glad everything is being documented! In the future if someone takes legal action justice will likely be swiftly served. Absolutely no one deserves to be abused in the name of publicity or protecting an obvious lie that has much proof of the lie for the sake of personal gain. Henry has neither assisted NV nor took any action to silence the ones who are being attacked online in public. That says a lot about where Henry stands on the issue at hand. He may very well be allowing this exposure to remove NV completely as Amy has been mentioning. Nv is obviously okay with doing illegal things such as public harassment, going after jobs of people leaking her pr fakery, and she has shown her behavior in a TV show previously and perhaps has never changed. So we can already observe she had these tendencies before in the My Sweet 16 TV show. These abusive bots and Stan groups seem to be her doing. Some habits never change and are obvious.

You are absolutely right about her interests in the film industry. She has a track record that isn't clean and unfortunately it's public knowledge at this point. There is no point in trying to cover it up or hide it. This woman sounds incredibly selfish and awful and given there were previously comments from colleagues who leaked her behavior in the workplace is absolutely telling. That is not a nice person and perhaps people are not going out of their way to help her agenda like she would like them to.

I think the more aware the public is the better. This is not appropriate public figure behavior! Thank you for your input!!

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You have heard that our ancestors were told, ‘You must not murder. If you commit murder, you are subject to judgment.’ Matthew 5:21 (NLT)

Then He said to me, “Go in and see the wicked abominations they are committing here.” Ezekiel 8:9 (BSB) 

Each of you must know how to control his own body in holiness and honor. 1 Thessalonians 4:4 (BSB) 

Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbour. Exodus 20:16 (KJV)

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[crackinwise]

Denton and Medda were good parallels of sympathetic adults in an almost entire world of adults being apathetic to these kids. All kids, but especially orphans on the streets. (Shout out to the nuns.) I'd argue, just by my feelings alone, that Kloppman provides more of the established parent role for the newsies, but he still is running a business reliant on the their contributions. Kloppman's not privileged and his generosity has limits. Both Denton and Medda go out of their way to sacrifice their available time and money to give the kids food and temporary safety. They both help amplify the newsies' cause at minimal risk to themselves, but it's more than other adults around do.

Removing them (is Medda in the stage show?) is likely more realistic for working kids fending for themselves at the turn of the 20th century, but the stage show replaces that with...a bored rich girl slumming it. Not that that's automatically a bad story trope (our fandom was filled top to bottom with that fantasy in girl oc's and self-inserts because, as then-kids ourselves, it was a common trope & had the emotional safety net in it), but using that as an official, supposedly upgraded addition? Hard nah.

I don't think enjoying stage musicals more decides which Newsies is preferred tho. I personally have no preference for Broadway or movie musicals because I was raised with both forms and Quality is Quality. It comes down to which did their entire job best... or which at least had the best music/lyrics. Any failings the Newsies' stage version has is NOT inherently the fault of it being on stage. When done well, a stage musical gets to convey as much deep emotion and nuance as an acclaimed movie, if not more. They don't get to half-ass it and cut corners because they only have to appeal to musical theater fans used to filling in visual gaps. On the flip side, most movie musicals have perfect singing/dancing by professionals too and it doesn't detract from the immersion or heart.

Stage Newsies could have been just as great, with me appreciating its changes for better or worse. Every bit I've seen and heard from it all these years only makes me frown instead. But yes, original Newsies having a mix of regular young actors and talented stage kids performing worked specifically to its benefit. It's also extremely early 90's and extremely past, live-action Disney, for those familiar with both. Unpolished, authentic kids in a campy story is the Disney we were raised on. Would the movie have been more or less successful if every number was with perfect professionals? Did the imperfections MAKE it the cult classic that the stage show stepped on to even get off the ground?

Some "remakes" take their source material and make the core of their version an homage to it, while simultaneously sanding rough spots and enhancing the best bits. The stage show seemed to not only fail to enhance anything, but also felt like it derisively locked its source in a basement, out of sight or mind.

okay so i think i finally figured out why i like the newsies 1992 version a lot more than the broadway version. like i can finally put it into words.

the broadway version is good if what your looking for is a stage musical, but to me i just felt like it lost a lot of the heart that the original had. that’s not to say there wasn’t passion in the broadway version, but i felt like i could clearly tell they were putting on a show, if that makes sense. part of the reason why i loved 1992 newsies is because most of the main cast at the time of filming were teenagers, or in their very early 20s. they were still young, and that naivety and vulnerability didn’t feel staged because of that.

their singing wasn’t perfect. it wasn’t polished, but that just made it better. because it made it feel authentic, like these really were just kids fighting against the rich taking advantage of child labor. christian bale wasn’t out here belting a high f (or whatever the last note is in the bway version, i do not sing). and that’s why i say the bway version is good if what you’re looking for is a stage musical. but to me all of that belting kind of takes away from the wistfulness and the melancholic dreaming of what the original santa fe was, which is what i mean by it loses some of the heart that the ‘92 version has. jack is really just a kid longing for security, they all were, and that message is gotten across really well in the ‘92 version.

i also felt that by getting rid of denton and replacing him with katherine, the tone of the bway musical shifted from the working class against the rich (child laborers vs. those who take advantage of of the children and working class) to kids vs. adults. obviously i don’t think that was the intention, but denton was an important character to the original. not just because he was a news reporter but because he provided a type of fatherhood and guardianship to the newsies, who didn’t have that. it was a constant reminder to you that they are just children, whose naivety is being grossly exploited by the rich. by shifting to the tone to feel more like a war between kids and adults, it just feels cheap, you know.

losing denton hit so hard because they weren’t just losing their reporter, they were losing someone who’d given them a sense of family and security. they all had a personal connection to denton because of the father like role he took up with them, intentionally or not. katherine’s reveal as pulitzer’s daughter, while an excellent plot twist, only really felt personal to one person, jack, because of their romantic subplot. and like, yeah i get it. strong women in power and whatnot, but like i said. denton’s character was important to the story outside of being a reporter. the importance was subtle but you could see it evolving as the movie went on. denton could have been replaced by a woman, but i felt that character being an adult and having a parental relationship to the newsies was incredibly important, and shouldn’t have been changed.

i also just don’t like what they did with jack. i think because they movie made it clear on several occasions that jack was still a child, it made it so much easier to connect with him as a character. he was a dreamer, filled with a lot of innocence and false hope. you felt bad for him because you could feel how out of place he felt, and you felt bad because he was just a kid. seeing how he was with david’s family, and watching his expression shift from happy and comfortable to sad and longing. how santa fe was a dream to fill what he didn’t have, and that made you want him to go. to me, bway jack just felt more like he was running away and not to something. and the reprise of santa fe makes you feel even more for jack. his dream was the only thing that was keeping him going for so long, and to watch him so defeated was heartbreaking.

i put keep bringing up how the movie emphasizes how they are children because i think it’s integral to the story, and the musical has a hard time getting that across(mostly because most of the cast was in their late 20s and 30s, which obviously isn’t their fault, but it does make it more difficult (in the 2017 recorded version, which is what i watched, it was very hard to picture them as kids. i cant speak for how it was when it first opened though, since i didn’t see it)).

all in all, just to wrap up my thoughts, i don’t think the bway version is bad. it’s very good, but in my opinion, is an obvious stage musical which lost some of the heart from the original due to specific narrative changes. if you go in wanting a stage musical, and if you prefer stage musicals over movie musicals than i can definitely see how you’d like it better than the ‘92 version, but i really do think that the original presents and develops the plot better. all of the emotions in it feel authentic because they really are children playing the roles, and i like that they don’t sound perfect.

[hotchley]

the clock never stops (but maybe it ticks a little quieter)

I'm meant to be revising the german economy so let's keep this short. This exists in some weird time post 3x08, but it's all over the place. I basically couldn't get the thank you scene, or the Reyes family meal out of my head, and it spiralled into this.

All of Carlos' experiences with grief counselling are based on my own, apart from when he tells his family. That is so far from my reality that we won't even get into it.

This isn't to say everything will be fine. It's to say that we can come back from grief. It's to make everyone who's had to trust that they weren't being lied to feel seen. It's to try and bring someone reading the same comfort I got writing it.

Title inspired by There Are Leeches in Denton Lake- Everybody's Worried About Owen.

read on ao3!

Trigger Warnings: grief, death, family relations, implied depression/depressive episodes, self-destructive behaviours (discussed), emotional invalidation (done by self), negative self image, previous drug addiction (NA meeting mention, concern when leaving character alone)

Carlos wakes in the same way he does most things: a little, and then so suddenly it takes him a moment to realise he isn’t dreaming anymore.

There were days where that realisation filled him with sadness and sorrow. Now it doesn’t. Now waking up means TK is laying next to him, a soft smile on his face.

Carlos is glad. Nightmares are never fun, for either of them. He has his fair share, but TK is always more disoriented after them and it’s harder to bring him back to proper awareness.

They have their methods though, and those work well enough.

He doesn’t immediately get out of bed. Instead he takes in the lines on TK’s face put there by his smiles and his frowns. He watches the slowed rise and fall of his chest as he continues to sleep. He can’t help himself for pressing two fingers to his neck, ever so gently.

TK’s pulse is strong. His heart is beating steadily. He’s alive.

Even as Carlos shifts them both so his head is resting on TK’s chest in order to hear that steady bear, TK doesn’t stir. Carlos lets his mind wander since his shift isn’t for a few hours.

He starts thinking about how far both he and TK have come. He’s proud of TK, of the coping mechanisms he’s developed. Some, like the running until he can’t move another muscle, aren’t pretty or pleasant. Others, like the baking, are.

The point is they help him cope better than anything else ever has. Maybe that’s what matters most.

Carlos is proud of himself too. He’s allowed to be.

After his bereavement leave- Detective Washington said Gwyn had been his mother-in-law in everything but name- had finished, he’d returned to the station to find his shifts had been restructured.

Both to fit with TK’s (which was absolutely the result of Tommy, Judd and Mitchell) and to allow for grief counselling.

He’d said he didn’t need it. According to Detective Washington, it was more complicated to remove him from the list since Georgia already had some baseline information and was preparing to meet him.

So he had gone, deciding he would do the assessment and two sessions then ask to stop so he didn’t feel like he was wasting resources.

But something inside him had snapped during that assessment. Not in a bad way. In a good way. He’d been lying on most of the questions: no he’d never had a panic attack, yes he felt he had good emotional regulation, but one made him pause.

It made him wonder why he was lying. It made him wonder who he was hiding from, because Georgia clearly didn’t believe him. She was doing a very good job of hiding it, but he’d spent too much time with Paul to not notice the subtle tension in her shoulders.

He couldn’t even tell you what question it had been now.

But he’d been honest, and he’d asked if he could change the rest of his answers because he’d been lying. Georgia had simply smiled, and he had been more honest with her.

Although it was described as grief counselling, it became so much more than that. They spoke about why Gwyn’s death hurt so much and how Carlos could cope of course, but they spoke about everything else as well.

Why he was so quick to take the blame for everything. His fears around Gwyn’s ending causing other endings. The way he saw his own actions as never being enough to prove how much he loved people. How he felt he cried too easily and what did that mean?

They discussed his concerns about TK.

Georgia had told him the sobbing was part of the process. Thinking about other endings since there had been one was part of the process. It wasn’t pretty and it wasn’t nice but it was processing and it was coping.

Talking was coping too. That had made him smile. Because that meant he was coping as well.

She also told him that, at some point, he needed to trust TK. He needed to believe TK would tell him when things were bad and let him be, difficult as it may be. And maybe, he didn't need to make his own issues palatable. Maybe that was an unfair judgement because maybe TK could handle it all. And maybe it was okay if he couldn't handle it all, but shouldn't that have been his decision?

He told TK about that. They’d had a proper conversation in bed about how Carlos felt the need to hover because he was scared TK would leave. They talked about his need to manage everything so he knew it was safe and untouched.

And TK was honest with him about how sometimes, that much love felt the precursor to something terrible. That sometimes, love felt suffocating because it made him feel like he needed to be perfect. He talked about his need to control how good things were so he was always aware that they could never last.

It was nice. It had been good, and they had both felt safe. Carlos had taken a leap then too.

"Sometimes, I don't feel like I'm allowed to grieve Gwyn," he confessed.

"What do you mean, not allowed? Babe-" TK had said, eyes filling with tears.

"It's nothing to do with you TK. I just- she was your mom, and sometimes it seems like you're doing fine, and then I feel like, if you're okay, why do I want to start crying when I didn't know her for that long and only saw her on special occasions and at dinners? And I feel guilty because you're trying to deal with losing your mom, and I'm only dealing with-"

"Carlos. There is no only dealing with. You've lost a friend. And you've had to watch as my dad and I grieve, and you've had to stand by as there was nothing you could do but hold my hand and bring him food. That must have taken a toll on you. I'm sorry for not being more present, but you can always tell me how you're feeling. This is a relationship, and it has to go both ways," TK said, gentle and understanding in a way most people could only dream of.

Carlos nodded. "I'm working on it. I swear."

TK grinned at him. "I know you are."

That single sentence had been enough to convince him to use the rest of the sessions he had been given. And to start looking at therapists. Because it really was helping. And now he'd gotten the help once, it felt a little easier to try and do it once more.

He did tell TK the truth though.

It was on a day that was meant to be perfect. The sun was shining, the weather was warm, both he and TK had the day off. They were going to have a picnic, and a romantic stroll along the beach before they met up with some of Carlos' friends for a somewhat friendly game of bowling.

But Carlos had woken up feeling weighed down by something. He didn't know why, but he felt sad. He felt like any small thing going wrong would cause him to break down. And he hated himself for feeling like that. Because there was nothing about that date that was particularly significant to Gwyn's life. He just missed her.

TK had noticed immediately. He'd been hesitant to ask, scared that it would come off too pushy, but he'd swallowed his fear and just asked if Carlos was okay. And Carlos had almost said yes. But then he paused. Considered it.

"I just miss her. And I don't know why, because it's not like today had any special significance or is an anniversary or anything like that, so I don't know why I miss her so much, but I do, and I feel like it's going to ruin our plans."

"Oh baby. First, thank you for telling me. I know it's hard. Second, you're not going to ruin any plans. We'll see how the day goes, and if you need to cancel anything, we will. Third, this is grief Carlos. This is what it is. It's sudden and messy and it doesn't make sense. It's the clock that never stops ticking, but sometimes it ticks quietly and sometimes it ticks loudly. Today is a loud day for you, and that's okay. Is there anything in particular you need?"

"I just need you close to me," Carlos whispered.

TK nodded. "I'll bring breakfast and then we'll cuddle okay?"

They had cancelled their plans. But the next day, the grief was a little quieter. And when it got loud, Carlos found it easier to speak.

Him and Georgia spoke about his parents. About the influence they'd had on him- good and bad. About the conversations he felt like he could and couldn't have with them. Being palatable to what others wanted and found easy to cope with had come up again then.

Georgia had said he should test the waters. Mention something a bit more personal when they asked him how he was doing, and see how they responded. Because Carlos wanted to tell them what he was doing, because he wanted them to understand where this slow but steady improvement was coming from. He just didn't know how to do it. Not without making things weird.

And his intention had been to do that. Well and truly, he was going to take it slow. He was going to start with something a bit simpler to understand. Something will lower emotional stakes.

Unfortunately, he had never really been good at pacing himself. In almost everything that involved going big or going home, he went big. Sometimes it paid off. Other times it ended in disaster.

It had been one of the two times that his and TK's shifts didn't align with each other. Whilst TK was at work, Carlos had gone to see his parents alone. His phone stayed face up on the table, the ringer on, just in case something happened, but he had the sense things were going to be okay. TK had been back at work a few weeks at this point. Carlos had done four of his eight sessions.

"So, how are you and TK? It was so nice to hear the two of you laughing last week. I was worried we would never hear that sound again. From either of you," his mother said, coming over with a dish.

“I’m in grief counselling,” he blurted out. It hadn't been intentional. He'd been thinking about the words, but that had always been his fatal flaw: not thinking before he spoke. He could switch it off at work (it was how he still had a job) but in his home life, that ability apparently went out the window.

It had been the first time he’d said the words aloud. Him and TK referred to it as his sessions. He didn’t really know why. It, rather ironically, made it feel less clinical.

His mother put the serving dish down. “It’s helping, yes?”

He nodded.

“That’s all I needed to know.”

Carlos swallowed and finally met his fathers gaze. He’s surprised to see Gabriel Reyes’ eyes filled with unshed tears.

Before he could take the words back, or justify himself, or do something, his father hugged him with all the strength he had.

“Carlitos. My brave little boy,” he whispered.

Carlos hasn’t heard that since he was seventeen. He’s unashamed of the tears that run down his own cheeks.

“You’re not disappointed?”

“I could never be. Not in you. Not now I finally understand what a good man you are.”

“Papa,” Carlos sobbed.

“Carlitos,” was the only word Gabriel could form. It said everything he did not have the words for.

Andrea clasped her hands to her chest. "My beautiful, beautiful boys. How I love you both."

That had made Gabriel cry.

But it was the best meal Carlos had ever had with his parents.

Georgia had been incredibly happy that things had gone down so well. And three weeks after he told her about that meal, they wrapped up their final appointment with one final questionnaire. He'd thanked her for everything she had done to help him, and she had just shrugged and said a lot of it had come from him.

TK's grief counselling from the department had finished shortly after Carlos', but Carlos knew he was still discussing it with his therapist and at his NA meetings. He even did it at home. Carlos was glad, that TK felt comfortable enough to bring little pieces of Gwyn into their safe place.

He'd put a framed photo of TK and Gwyn with Jonah on the shelf. TK had flung himself into his arms when he'd realised, whispering thank you and declarations of love again and again as his brain finally understood that his mom was never going to leave him. Not really. Not whilst there were people to remember and honour her.

That particular memory brings a smile to his face.

It's at that moment that TK wakes up.

"Hi baby," Carlos whispered. "How are you feeling?"

"M'okay. When's your shift?"

"Not for a few hours," Carlos says. He pauses, waiting for TK to say what kind of day it is. He may not be able to stay the whole time- and he's going to accept that TK is being honest with him- but maybe if TK is having a grey day he can phone Judd and ask him to bring Charlie.

"That's good," TK says, burying himself under the duvet. His shift must have exhausted him.

"Will you be ready for breakfast if I start it now?" He asks.

TK makes a noise that could mean anything. Carlos snorts, then leaves the bed, because even if TK isn't ready for breakfast, he is.

"Carlos?" TK calls out, his voice still rough from sleep.

Carlos pauses in the doorway. His breath catches slightly whenever TK says his name like that, even now. "Yeah tiger?"

"Thank you."

He forgets how to breathe for a moment. "What?"

"Thank you. For saving my life by giving me a reason to stay. For everything you've done since Mom passed away. For letting me into your heart and telling me how you actually feel, even when it's hard. For trusting me always. That was so incredibly brave of you, and I never said thank you, so I'm saying it now. Thank you, Carlos Gabriel Reyes."

Carlos forgets about breakfast. He starts crying.

"Breathe for me love. Just match my breathing. The crying isn't bad, but you need to breathe," TK reminds him.

The tears keep coming, so TK runs from the bed and wraps his arms around Carlos. He knows there's nothing wrong with the tears. Knows they're coming from a place of gratitude and love and happiness, so he just embraces the man he loves more than he ever thought he was capable of.

"TK, thank you," Carlos says, once he's able to form words. "I've always worried that I messed up. And now I know I didn't. I was good."

"You were incredible," TK says, pressing a kiss to the top of Carlos' hair.

Carlos nods into his shoulder. "I love you."

"I love you too."

The next day marks eight months since Gwyn's death. Carlos is apprehensive when he wakes up. For him, the clock of grief is ticking just a little louder than normal, but he thinks it may be more so for TK. He's right, but that's okay. They get through the day by making cookies and looking at photos. TK sobs, and Carlos is there with tissues and a chamomile tea when the headache inevitably hits.

"Carlos?" TK whispers as they're going to bed.

"M awake," he replies, but almost asleep.

"I don't think I want to change any of what's happened for the world," TK says.

The ticking of the clock fades into a quiet but comforting constant as they both fall asleep with smiles on their faces.

[nancypullen]

Tick Tock

I’m about 24 hours away from what is hopefully my last appointment concerning that stupid kidney stone.  Tomorrow they’ll take out the stent and then we shall never speak of this again.  The removal has to be done at the surgery center even though it’s not surgery, and the whole thing should take just a couple of minutes.  Since I birthed a doctor, I feel free to ask him about the unknowns and this is what he told me when I asked if it really was that quick - “Oh yeah, they’ll yank that thing out like they’re starting a lawn mower.”  Imagine how comforted I was by that.  At this point, I don’t care - just get it out. But enough about all that gross stuff, how are you?  Are you excited to see the December calendar page? Are you loving seeing the Christmas lights and hearing the holiday music?  I AM!  Tonight is Denton’s Christmas parade, and tomorrow night is the Christkindlmarket. What a great way to start the month!  This time tomorrow I’ll be a lot more comfortable and I’m going to be a wrapping, decorating, Christmas tune singing fool.  

But for today, I’ve got some laundry chugging and dinner is in the crock pot.  For Mickey it’s Mongolian Beef, for me dinner will probably be soup.  I made a big pot of chicken soup on Monday and it hits the spot every time.  I don’t know the science behind it, but my tastes have changed drastically over the last month.  We normally eat pretty clean and healthy, I’d say 85% of the time anyway, but now I don’t even crave the other 15%.  I haven’t had a Diet Coke since Halloween and it doesn’t even sound good to me.  I’ve been addicted to Diet Coke since 1984!  Chocolate? Haven’t touched it.  Crunchy, salty stuff - not even popcorn appeals to me and I rarely went a night without a bowl of popcorn.  You know those people that get hit in the head and wake up speaking Swedish or something crazy like that?  This is my version of that.  All I want is fruit and veggies. My lunch today will be red grapes, cucumbers, and maybe a little yogurt.  If I’m really hungry a cup of soup.  Dinner is the same, or I zap a Healthy Choice frozen meal. There’s a Chicken Marinara that I like.  You’d think that thirty days of eating like this would have caused a change in my appearance.  Nope.  I’ve lost a grand total of four pounds.  I swear, scientists should study me.  Anyone else would have wasted away, my sturdy Scots and German DNA is holding steady.  I can identify with this meme.

I guess I’m built for survival.  Ya’ know what? I’m okay with that.  2023 is the year that I stop worrying about it.  I’m going to enjoy good health, a good life, and my wonderful family and dear friends.  I’m going to put my energy into creating art and being happy. You can do all of those things whether your pants are a size 6 or 16.  It. Just. Doesn’t. Matter.   The majority of magazine articles and television commercials are aimed at women and the overwhelming message is that we are not good enough exactly as we are.  They’re counting on us believing that and throwing all of our money at whatever product promises to improve us.  We’re not allowed to wrinkle, sag, gain weight, or ever dare to look our age. I’ve yet to see any ads targeting men with that message.  Sure, you see some stuff for bald guys, but everything else is for erectile dysfunction.  No one is shaming men for their crow’s feet.   For us, it starts before middle school and follows us to the grave - we’re not pretty enough, thin enough, fill-in-the-blank enough.  I’m calling BS on all of that.  Younger women, thankfully,  figured this out before my generation did. They’re out there loving themselves and living their best lives exactly as they are.  Bravo, ladies!  I’m learning so much from you.  I’ve decided to like myself.  Well, that went off the rails, didn’t it?  I didn’t share even half of what I was thinking once I got on my soapbox. You’re welcome.  I actually intended to come here and post my chicken soup recipe (it really is good).  I’ll have to share that tomorrow.  I’m going to have a little lunch and then sit at my desk and create something pretty.  The sun is shining, the birds are singing, and tomorrow I’ll take my pants off in front of strangers for what I hope is the last time for a very long time.  I may have to enter the Witness Protection Program after this.  Sending out loads of love on this first day of December.  I hope that  your hearts are light and your homes are peaceful. Stay safe, stay well.

Nancy 

[ahsokasleftbicep]

Name and Soul: Chapter 4

Alright, let's get this angst moving!! Hope you enjoy it!

@mqgriett @darkangel4121 @thelambandthewolffe @maulscrosshair @trash-dino-5000 @lightning-wolffe @killtherandomness @shadowwing1324

Crosshair x F! reader

Word Count: 2017

Warnings: SPOILERS for episode 4, Tarkin being awful, Rampart being ugh, Sad Crosshair, internal conflict, Hunter and reader tensions, injury, a single curse word

The firing range was dark and empty, just how he liked it. Crosshair moved from his crouched position to his stomach, reloading his weapon and taking aim at the practice droids. Bang. Bang. The droids drop, sending a hollow thud throughout the room. He knew Tarkin was watching, he always did. So did Nala Se. They talked. Anytime Crosshair looked up at the observation room, he saw the two talking. Probably about her. Private L/N. His head hurt, well the right side did. Like a constant headache, it never went away. It was only worse when he was around the regs. Or his squad. They annoyed him. The man paused his training and then stood up, packing his gear. I need to get the mission done. I need to find them. Find her. Kill them. Take her. Easy enough… right. Every time he thought about her, that little metal ring felt heavier than usual. Oh well.

--

“You be careful okay? Stay with Hunter and Echo, look but don’t touch. Got it?” You brushed off some dust from Omega’s shirt.

“Yep! I got it!” The girl smiled at you before walking over to Echo.

Things had gotten much more complicated over the last few days. There were no more rations and the ship was on a wanted list. These sort of situations could be handled normally, but with Omega, you all had to think of the best way to keep her safe. Some tensions had been growing also, between you and Hunter, everyone felt it. You knew that the Sergeant had good intentions, but he had yet to acknowledge anything that happened on Kamino. With Crosshair. Wrecker tried to tell you that it was how he hid it, but it still irked you. Hunter had been just as devastated as you, and he kept it all in. You drove the past few days from your mind, looking at Echo in his getup.

“Looking good Echo.”

The man raises his hands and turns in a circle. “I know.” The two of you look at each other before breaking out in chuckles.

“Does the headpiece feel okay? Any recalibrations before you guys head out?” You take a quick look at the controls.

“Feels good so far, I think it’s fine.”

The sergeant came over from talking to the Sullustan dock master, securing his pack.

“Let’s head out.”

“Do you have any credits left after paying him off?”

“I have enough to get what we need.”

“Well, be careful.” You speak monotonically.

“Will do.” The two men and Omega start walking towards the market.

You walk towards the ship, towards Tech and Wrecker.

“Why do they get to go sightseeing again?” Wrecker lifts a large metal piece away so Tech can scramble the ship's signature.

You move out of his way, removing your top armor to help Tech with the ship. “It’s a supply mission. And besides, it’s not the first time we’ve seen this planet.”

Tech cleared his throat. “Uh Y/N? Can you get this small piece in here?... Please.”

“Yes!” You walk up to the ship, stepping up on a box and reaching out for the part. “Got it!”

“Much appreciated.” Tech fixes his goggles before heading back towards the inverters.

“Do you need anything else at the moment?”

“I don’t believe so, but thank you Y/N.”

--

“Sir? You asked for me.” Rampart walked into Tarkin's office.

“Ah Rampart, yes I did.” Tarkin looked up from a datapad. He put the device down and folded his hands.

“Is everything okay sir?”

“Yes, it is. I was curious about your progress on Private L/N’s file.”

The vice admiral sat down. “I have found a little more about her life before the Clone Wars. Nothing that we can use to our advantage yet. She has no family; they were killed in a raid in her village. A civil war broke out shortly after and she was drafted. She got into the Academy based on skill and exceeded in marksmanship among other things. GAR offered her a job when the war started, she joined Clone Force 99 shortly after.”

Tarkin listened and hummed, “Has there been any luck in finding her? Or the clones.”

“No, L/N’s training serves her and the clones well. No sightings nor upsets have been reported.”

Tarkin stands and looks through the glass window. “Very well then. Maintain your search. As I said, L/N’s skills will be useful to your project. Once you find something, send the sniper out to retrieve her.”

“Understood sir.” Rampart rose and walked out. I will find you, L/N. Whether you like it or not.

--

“Wrecker, Tech, Echo, Y/N. I lost Omega. Someone attacked us.” Hunter’s voice comes out scratchy through the comm-link. Your head shot up looking between Tech and Wrecker.

“Somebody who?” Wrecker responded.

“A woman. Highly trained. She’s after the kid.”

“Yeah, we’ll see about that.” Wrecker grabs his helmet, you grab your rifle and run off, the large man following behind.

“Y/N, your armor-.” Tech called out but you were already gone.

You and Wrecker run through the streets.

“I have eyes on Omega, she’s in the maintenance tunnels. Head northwest, at 155. And hurry, she’s got company.” “Wrecker you take that way, I’ll come from the back.” You say as you approach the street.

“Got it.”

You run through the street, hitting a couple of people, not that you cared about being polite at the moment.

“Wrecker, come in?” Silence. “Wrecker. Do you copy?”

“I do not see Wrecker, but Omega is hanging from a tower in the skyway.”

“Oh no.” You breathe out, trying to run faster.

Some speeder pulls up next to you. “Y/N! Get on!” It was Hunter, he held his hand out.

You grip his arm and pull yourself up. “I got the woman, you get Omega.”

Hunter speeds up, and you crouch on the back seat.

“Where’s your armor?”

“Don’t worry about it. I’ll be fine.”

“Yeah, that makes me feel better. I’m not losing another member of my team.”

“We don’t have time for this, Hunter.”

“He-.”

“Stop! He’s not dead, he hasn’t disappeared. So stop acting like Crosshair just vanished.” You raise your voice. “Focus on Omega.”

You approach the tower only to see Omega fall into a shipping vessel. The woman jumps in afterward. The woman fires at the speeder, but Hunter swerves out of the way. A moment later the back of the vessel starts tilting, taking the woman… and Omega along with it. The woman falls onto another ship. Omega dangles on a strap, way too far above the ground. Hunter is about to grab her-

‘You guys! Look out!” The woman rams into the speeder, tossing you off and sending Hunter in a spin.

“Y/N!”

You’re able to grab onto the back of her ship, pulling yourself up. The woman grabs her weapon but you knock it out of her hand. She kicks you in the stomach before you slam her into the controls of the ship. She kicks back before grabbing a smaller blaster, and then your shoulder starts to burn. Your right shoulder is shot, the skin burned and irritated. Shit. You stumble back.

“Y/N!” You hear two voices at once, one being Omega.

“It’s okay, just stay there.”

The ship starts to shake, when you look behind you, you see that Hunter shot out one of the thrusters. This throws off your balance and you fall over the edge, gripping the end with your good arm.

“Y/N! You need to drop!” You see Hunter hold up a pyro denton. You look around you, seeing a tarp below you, covering some stand.

“Throw it now! I’ll be okay!” You come just above the tarp and let go. You land on the cover before connecting with the ground. The ship explodes and not a moment later, Hunter comes up and puts you on the bike, with Omega.

“Y/N! Are you okay?” The girl looks at your shoulder and winces.

“I’m fine, this isn’t the worst injury I’ve gotten.” Despite the wound being mostly cauterized, the shock and minor blood loss made you woozy. Everything just faded out. Someone picked you up, probably Hunter.

“We need to go. Now. Get a medkit.”

--

You woke up with a groan, your shoulder was sore and bandaged in a sling. You threw your legs over your bed and walked out into the common area.

“What did I miss?”

Omega jumped up and ran to you. “Y/n, are you okay? You’re going to be okay right? You got hit and then-”

“Omega.” You hug her. “I’m okay, it takes a little more than a blaster wound to take me down.”

The girl hugs you back, relieved. The others gathered around, Hunter looked pissed.

“Did we find out who that woman was?”

“Bounty hunter, based on her skills.” Hunter returned, his arms crossing over his chest.

“Makes sense. And she's after Omega.” You pat the girl on the head. “We need to be more careful.”

Everyone nods and heads back to the cockpit, except Hunter.

“Y/N.”

“Yeah, yeah. I don’t need the lecture, Hunter.”

“That’s not what I meant.”

“Then what do you mean?” You bite back, adjusting your sling.

“Look, I know you’re upset about Kamino, and what happened with Crosshair-”

“No, I’m upset that out of everyone on this ship, you are the only one who has yet to acknowledge him. When Wrecker mentioned Crosshair, you shut it down.” You stood up moving closer to the sergeant. “I know you’re hurting just as badly, but the longer we leave him on Kamino the worse it’s going to get.”

“We’ll get him back-”

“When we stop running, maybe start planning. That’s a start.” You turn towards your room, your eyes brimming with tears. “If you don’t come up with something, and fast. I will. And I will do it alone if I have to. I am not going to leave my husband there to rot and be Tarkin’s attack dog.”

--

“CT-9904. What is your experience with Private L/N? Is she reliable?” Tarkin asked the gray-haired man.

“Yes, her skills were helpful on missions.” The man tensed, his mind racing. What’s he got planned for her? Don’t listen to him! Leave Y/N alone! Shut up. Shut up! SHUT UP! FOCUS!

“When you bring her back, you will be in charge of training her after her conditioning. From there, she will become a part of your squad. Understood?”

“Yes, sir.” The clone was dismissed and walked past Rampart. He caught a glimpse of a file, your file, on his datapad. Why is everyone so interested in her? It’s not like she’ll come willingly, she’s a traitor. I miss her. She LEFT me. She loves me. No, she doesn’t. She couldn’t.

He sat on his bunk, thankfully the barracks were empty. Images flashed in his head, of you, your laugh, your smile. He grabbed his head and fell to his knees, shaking. Hot tears fell from his eyes as he wept to the empty room.

--

“Y/N?” Omega peeks through your door. You are cleaning your rifle. “Should you be doing that?”

You chuckle, “Yes, but it’s taking a little longer than usual… Do you want to give me a hand?”

The girl perks up, “Really?”

“Yeah, consider it your first lesson on taking care of your weapon.” You move over to make room for Omega.

“Where do I start?” The girl picks up a rag and looks at you lost.

“Here, see that little gear right there? That’s one of the most important parts. If you don’t take care of it, the rifle can jam…”

You repeated the same words that Crosshair said to you, minus the sarcasm and occasional curse. Word for word of what he said came out of your mouth as if you traded places. For a moment, it felt like he was right there with you. You thought you heard someone crying. Someone weeping. Like they were right there with you.

[comrade-meow]

A great deal of the transgender debate is unexplained. One of the most mystifying aspects is the speed and success of a small number of small organisations in achieving major influence over public bodies, politicians and officials. How has a certain idea taken hold in so many places so swiftly?

People and organisations that at the start of this decade had no clear policy on or even knowledge of trans issues are now enthusiastically embracing non-binary gender identities and transition, offering gender-neutral toilets and other changes required to accommodate trans people and their interests. These changes have, among other things, surprised many people. They wonder how this happened, and why no one seems to have asked them what they think about it, or considered how those changes might affect them.

Some of the bodies that have embraced these changes with the greatest zeal are surprising: the police are not famous social liberals but many forces are now at the vanguard here, even to the point of checking our pronouns and harassing elderly ladies who say the wrong thing on Twitter.

How did we get here? I think we can discount the idea that this is a simple question of organisations following a changing society. Bluntly, society still doesn’t know very much about transgenderism. If you work in central London in certain sectors, live in a university town (or at a university) or have children attending a (probably middle-class) school, you might have some direct acquaintance. But my bet is that most people don’t know any trans people and don’t have developed views about how the law should evolve with regards to their status.

So the question again: how did organisations with small budgets and limited resources achieve such stunning success, not just in the UK but elsewhere?

Well, thanks to the legal website Roll On Friday, I have now seen a document that helps answer that question.

The document is the work of Dentons, which says it is the world’s biggest law firm; the Thomson Reuters Foundation, an arm of the old media giant that appears dedicated to identity politics of various sorts; and the International Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, Queer and Intersex Youth & Student Organisation (IGLYO). Both Dentons and the Thomson Reuters Foundation note that the document does not necessarily reflect their views.

The report is called 'Only adults? Good practices in legal gender recognition for youth'. Its purpose is to help trans groups in several countries bring about changes in the law to allow children to legally change their gender, without adult approval and without needing the approval of any authorities. 'We hope this report will be a powerful tool for activists and NGOs working to advance the rights of trans youth across Europe and beyond,' says the foreword.

As you’d expect of a report co-written by the staff of a major law firm, it’s a comprehensive and solid document, summarising law, policy and 'advocacy' across several countries. Based on the contributions of trans groups from around the world (including two in the UK, one of which is not named), it collects and shares 'best practice' in 'lobbying' to change the law so that parents no longer have a say on their child’s legal gender.

In the words of the report:

“'It is recognised that the requirement for parental consent or the consent of a legal guardian can be restrictive and problematic for minors.'

You might think that the very purpose of parenting is, in part, to 'restrict' the choices of children who cannot, by definition, make fully-informed adult choices on their own. But that is not the stance of the report.

Indeed, it suggests that 'states should take action against parents who are obstructing the free development of a young trans person’s identity in refusing to give parental authorisation when required.'

In short, this is a handbook for lobbying groups that want to remove parental consent over significant aspects of children’s lives. A handbook written by an international law firm and backed by one of the world’s biggest charitable foundations.

And how do the authors suggest that legal change be accomplished?

I think the advice is worth quoting at length, because this is the first time I’ve actually seen this put down in writing in a public forum. And because I think anyone with any interest in how policy is made and how politics works should pay attention.

Here’s a broad observation from the report about the best way to enact a pro-trans agenda:

“'While cultural and political factors play a key role in the approach to be taken, there are certain techniques that emerge as being effective in progressing trans rights in the "good practice" countries.'

Among those techniques: 'Get ahead of the Government agenda.'

What does that mean? Here it is in more detail:

“'In many of the NGO advocacy campaigns that we studied, there were clear benefits where NGOs managed to get ahead of the government and publish progressive legislative proposal before the government had time to develop their own. NGOs need to intervene early in the legislative process and ideally before it has even started. This will give them far greater ability to shape the government agenda and the ultimate proposal than if they intervene after the government has already started to develop its own proposals.'

That will sound familiar to anyone who knows how a Commons select committee report in 2016, which adopted several positions from trans groups, was followed in 2017 by a UK government plan to adopt self-identification of legal gender. To a lot of people, that proposal, which emerged from Whitehall looking quite well-developed, came out of the blue.

Anyway, here’s another tip from the document: 'Tie your campaign to more popular reform.'

For example:

'In Ireland, Denmark and Norway, changes to the law on legal gender recognition were put through at the same time as other more popular reforms such as marriage equality legislation. This provided a veil of protection, particularly in Ireland, where marriage equality was strongly supported, but gender identity remained a more difficult issue to win public support for.'

I’ve added my bold there, because I think those are very telling phrases indeed. This is an issue that is 'difficult to win public support for' and best hidden behind the 'veil of protection' provided by a popular issue such as gay rights. Again, anyone who has even glanced at the UK transgender debate will recognise this description.

Another recommendation is even more revealing: 'Avoid excessive press coverage and exposure.'

According to the report, the countries that have moved most quickly to advance trans rights and remove parental consent have been those where the groups lobbying for those changes have succeeded in stopping the wider public learning about their proposals. Conversely, in places like Britain, the more 'exposure' this agenda has had, the less successful the lobbying has been:

'Another technique which has been used to great effect is the limitation of press coverage and exposure. In certain countries, like the UK, information on legal gender recognition reforms has been misinterpreted in the mainstream media, and opposition has arisen as a result. ….Against this background, many believe that public campaigning has been detrimental to progress, as much of the general public is not well informed about trans issues, and therefore misinterpretation can arise.

In Ireland, activists have directly lobbied individual politicians and tried to keep press coverage to a minimum in order to avoid this issue.' (Emphasis added).

Although it offers extensive advice about the need to keep the trans-rights agenda out of the public’s gaze, the report has rather less to say about the possibility that advocates might just try doing what everyone else in politics does and make a persuasive argument for their cause. Actually convincing people that this stuff is a good idea doesn’t feature much in the report, which runs to 65 pages.

I’m not going to tell you what I think of the report, or the agenda it sets out. I’m not going to pass comment on it or its authors. I’m just going to try to summarise its nature and contents.

A major international law firm has helped write a lobbying manual for people who want to change the law to prevent parents having the final say about significant changes in the status of their own children. That manual advises those lobbying for that change to hide their plans behind a 'veil' and to make sure that neither the media nor the wider public know much about the changes affecting children that they are seeking to make. Because if the public find out about those changes, they might well object to them.

I started my first job as a researcher in the Commons in 1994. I’ve been studying and writing about politics and policy ever since. And in my experience of how changes in the law are brought about, the approach described in that report is simply not normal or usual. In a democracy, we are all free to argue for whatever policy or position we wish. But normally, anyone who wants to change the law accepts that to do so they need to win the support or, at least, the consent of the people whose authority ultimately gives the law its force. The approach outlined, in detail, in the Dentons report amounts to a very different way of lobbying to get the laws and policies you want. Even more notably, it suggests that in several countries people have been quite successful in lobbying behind a 'veil' and in a way that deliberately avoids the attention of the public. That, I think, should interest anyone who cares about how politics and policy are conducted, whether or not they care about the transgender issue.

I’m going to conclude with an observation I’ve made here before, but which I think bears repeating in the context of that report and the things it might tell people about other aspects of the trans issue: no policy made in the shadows can survive in sunlight.

[zelda-ffitzgerald]

I think it's possible that Rachel and Danny did date. We don't know for sure. But I will bet that they're close.

They went to school together, of course. Also, the movie they starred in together was a 2021 short directed by her brother Joe (iirc). It also starred Hart Denton. And apparently took just 7 hours to compete filming.

Shorts that short which aren't by established filmmakers generally just feature friends/family, there's no formal casting. So that's evidence that Danny and Hart are both close enough with Joe/Rachel.

So anyone just dismissing Rachel and Danny's friendship and saying it's because they were in a movie together is being ignorant. It's more likely that they were in this particular movie together because they're friends.

That Danny has such a strong Hart and Rachel connection makes him not as far removed from Cole/NF as I'd like him to be, for Lili.

[tending-the-hearth]

It’s about time I talked about my favorite use of visual storytelling in Newsies (1992) - Davey’s costume

This post contains quite a bit of analysis and screenshots from the 1992 movie, so it’s all going to be under the cut! This is a post I’ve been wanting to make for quite a while, so I’m excited to finally be able to share it!

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This is the first version of Davey’s costume that we see. It’s buttoned up, stiff, and proper. At the beginning of the movie, his mind is set on the fact that he’s there to sell newspapers only to make a living to support his family. He’s not there to make friends or to work with anyone else. We see that in how he’s hesitant to take the papers from Jack, and to work with Jack. Even Les is put together, just like his brother. We can assume that Mama Jacobs helped her boys get ready for their first day as Newsies. 

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This is the second version of Davey’s costume we really get to see. It’s also the first time we really get to see him relaxed, and it’s around his family. His tie is loose, and his vest is unbuttoned. He’s let his guard down, and you can see his friendship with Jack begin to take shape in this moment. Jack’s begun to let him in (we’ve gotten to see Jack’s relationship with Medda, learned a bit about his Santa Fe dream), and now Davey’s invited him into his home, and introduced him to his family.

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Now we have his “World Will Know” costume version. He’s beginning to let his guard down around the newsies, allowing himself to be vulnerable around them. He’s allowed them to know one of his more personal “secrets” (his father’s injury), so he’s begun to open himself up, both emotionally and literally, unbuttoning his vest and removing his hat. He’s begun to mimic Jack’s costume, showing their position as equals in the Manhattan newsie’s hierarchy.

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Here, in his “Seize the Day” costume variation, Davey is becoming more confident, and he’s lost the tie, and any inhibitions. This is the first time that he’s completely taken the lead on a song, and the first time he’s taken the lead when encouraging and rallying the newsies. While “The World Will Know” was his words, Jack was the one bringing the newsies together. Davey’s showing his confidence and his personality as a leader, and it’s showing in this costume. 

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The “Seize the Day (Reprise)” costume variation is probably the most drastic change to Davey’s costume so far. he’s lost his vest completely, and it could be representative to how the newsies have all lost a piece of themselves. They’ve lost Crutchy, their safety blanket, their hope, in a way. Davey’s costume is beginning to mimic the rest of the newsies’ costumes, though it’s still much more put together. He’s still the voice of reason, but he’s one of them now.

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“King of New York” isn’t very different, but it’s loose, and fun. Everyone in this song is celebrating, and why shouldn’t they? Their story is being shared, and they’re finally having some bit of hope back in their hearts. So understandably, Davey’s smiling, happy, and he’s loosened up. He’s cheerful, and excited. 

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Davey’s rally outfit was difficult to get a full-length image of, but it seemed to be a bit loose-fitting. I can only imagine that this suit most likely belongs to his father, and he borrowed it for this moment. All the boys are wearing suits, and Davey’s gone back to the beginning of the movie, wanting to be taken seriously. He doesn’t want this strike to devolve into violence and anger, he wants the newsies to stay safe, and he wants them to listen to him, so he wants to be taken as seriously as possible. 

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The morning after the rally, Davey’s still the same outfit, only he’s ditched the suit coat, picked up Les (who’s happily eating his hot dog), and has unbuttoned his vest). He’s claimed his spot as the leader of the Manhattan newsies while Jack’s in Pulitzer’s clutches, and he’s taking charge. He’s giving out instructions, making sure the boys know what to do, and he’s gone from not trusting the newsies to only trusting the newsies. He probably hasn’t slept since the rally, but he’s most likely not going to sleep until he knows what’s going on.

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Originally I just has a screenshot of Davey’s costume here, but then I rewatched this scene, and I knew I had to get a screenshot of both of them in this scene, because I realized that they switched outfit styles, and it just hurts so perfectly. Jack’s become the buttoned-up, prim and proper newsboy while Davey’s the loose and fiery newsie. Jack’s face, much like Davey at the very beginning of the movie, is guarded, not allowing any emotion to show through as he watches Davey walk away. Davey, on the other hand, is quite obviously holding back either tears or anger. Davey’s costume here shows him taking up Jack’s former mantle, leading the newsies as they watch their former leader betray them. 

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Davey’s “Once and For All/Finale” costume is, honestly, probably one of my favorite costumes that he has in the movie. He’s most confident in it, confronting Denton, and standing up to Pulitzer without a second thought. He’s the most himself, as well, living up to his newsie name as “The Walking Mouth”. And this moment is, quite possibly, one of my favorite moments of the movie. Davey echoing Jack’s words to him from the beginning of the movie, “Headlines don’t sell papes, newsies sell papes”, as he puts on his hat. Davey’s grown so much. He’s ditched his prim and proper cover, completely lost any guardedness and walls that he put up at the beginning of the movie. The only part of his outfit from the beginning of the movie that he kept is his hat, but even his hat isn’t so structured- it’s more floppy, and worn in, more comfortable, showing how at home Davey is with the newsies.