#deep thoughts by z

[moltensunlight]

I’ve got to figure out how to better characterize calm/level-headed characters — I’ve got TWO oc’s now that are pretty calm 90% of the time and I feel like their personalities end up feeling stale compared to what I can describe for more energetic/upbeat/rambunctious characters

[peanutbutterfiles]

oh. OH. I have POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome). I definitely fucking have POTS. jesus.

[amurg-cu-stele]

Her smile, I’m sure, burnt Rome to the ground.

Mark Z. Danielewski, from House of Leaves

[statementlou]

hello :) could you maybe explain a little bit how dan wootton blackmailed louis?

ugh sorry for taking a while to get to this. The problem is I feel like the only two ways to answer this are by spending a week and a half of full time labor sifting through old posts and evidence to get every detail right and lay out an airtight case, or to halfass something very serious, and so I felt a little stuck. So since I can't seem to find a good halfway point, apologies but here is the half assed version, if you want to get into it more I invite you to do your own deep dive or talk to other people, but here's how I remember things. Louis has almost never on video explicitly said things about Larry not being real and/or anything negative about fans and their theories (mostly the opposite), up until the last couple years when he obviously decided to make a major change he didn't talk about Freddie much at all let alone saying he was his kid, honestly not that much about Eleanor even; except for in two major interviews with Dan Wootton, each of which lined up with a serious traumatic Tomlinson family event that they managed to keep out of the tabloids until the very end (Jay's illness and Fizzy's struggles with substance abuse). After the fact of those events a lot of small things that didn't make sense at the time came together to look very much like Louis traded those interviews (and those answers) for having his family's private matters kept private. Story trading of this kind is a publicly known real thing that happens, and there were various clues that suggested he was being leaned on about those stories to lend legitimacy to the idea that it was something that happened in these cases. Given what we know about Dan Wootton and how he operates even before the recent flood of information and even more now, I think it's more than likely that he has been holding the threat of outing Louis (as he has done to many other public figures) over his head for over a decade, and has used his family's tragic struggles to get Louis to dance like a fucking puppet for him and I will REJOICE at his downfall when it comes whether it is now or 20 years from now... because someday it will, he has made too many enemies to stay above it forever

[fabuloustrash05]

Me thinking about how Future Bulma never got a chance to meet Vegeta again and see the good man, loving father and devoted husband he has become:

[meteorcare]

"why are you so defensive????? all i did was accuse you of supporting genocide :/"

[nmolesofadrenaline]

Mocking someone’s pronunciation is not only disrespectful but also discouraging , as most of the time, they learned that word by reading it. So really, you're not just teasing them, you're making them feel bad for being someone who reads.

[zeb-z]

Cellbit who hates being alone, who’s dreaded ending up alone, finding out he has a sister, someone who has gone to the ends of the earth trying to find him, promising he’ll never be alone again - but he can’t accept it or let himself get near because all he can feel is anger and resentment at the fact that he lost her, his family, in the first place (all he can feel is fear, this terror, rooted somewhere deep in that 13 year old kid with blood on his hands and flesh between his teeth, who’s had everything taken from him before - why would this be any different)

[moltensunlight]

Made that other post and then immediately turned around and created a ton of lore for Lorella and I’m a lot happier about her characterization

For Syldyr though, maybe it’s that he doesn’t really have a goal after the events of b/g/3 that’s tripping me up. Cause my other characters have dreams and goals and aspirations, but Syldyr just doesn’t after the events of the game are done. I do have a lot of post-story content for him where he ties up a lot of loose ends surrounding his childhood, his personal traumas with Bhaal, and his connection with his sister, but after that it’s basically just one big ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ for what he wants to do. And I mean I guess every time I make a character they’re in the beginning or in the midst of their story rather than the end, so maybe that’s how I’ve got to start looking at this for the sake of his characterization?? Idk

[peanutbutterfiles]

Suffering can provide opportunities for growth, but it is never a gift, it is never deserved, and you never have to be thankful for it.

[rehamramzi]

CHAOS

Our minds are so chaotic. So lost. Always wondering where to go. What’s the destination? When does the search stop?

The search for something new, something better and something unknown. Sometimes, the minds themselves are unable to comprehend what they’re searching and longing for.

People, thoughts, words, actions are all led astray.

What am I trying to signify? What do I mean when I write this? Why am I imposing this when I myself am lost in the puddle of my own thoughts?

That is because I know there are people who feel the same. There are individuals out there who are going through the same thoughts.

This is the age which feels overwhelming. New people, new opportunities, new experiences and goals. Each day, something new appears, even if you don’t want it to. Such is life.

This is never ending, it’s a loop.

“But it shall get better” Is what we all hope for.

[starlightwanda]

it’s so weird that young teens online used to be all about deep thoughts and inner feelings in early 2010s and earlier. compared to now where we’ve flipped so far over where every response to something that encourages you to think a bit deeper is met with countless comments of “it’s not that deep”, “who cares”, “the world kept spinning”.

granted, most of these posts in 2010s were mostly surface level, but at least people were putting in the effort to see different perspectives. it’s just so bizarre and kinda sad to me that within a few years, we’ve lost a lot of the creativity and have become so apathetic.

[rayyzcosmos]

i hope i don't miss you because i know you won't!

[the-snazzy-jazzy-dragon]

I'll say it here:

Madagascar 2 was the catalyst for our generation's appreciation of the chonky look.

[tyanis]

Was on the verge of a nervous breakdown and then randomly remembered that in the spanish dub for Dragon Ball Z they changed Chi-Chi's name to "Milk" because chi chi is slang for breast in spanish.

This now occupies my mind and I'm feeling a bit better.

[casualavocados]

finished kiseki. ai di and chen yi rewired my brain and set it to hyperdrive and made me black out from the sheer adrenaline and angsty yearning. zongyi and zherui were also there