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Drawing started to become so much more fun and much less daunting once I stopped religiosity following the sketch→lineart→flat colors→shading /rendering process timeline and fully embraced the process of "fuck it we ball"
#what i mean is#im not longer scared to jump forwards or backwards on a step or reaarange them entirely#or heck put that process in a dumstire fire and just. draw.#like a colored sketch and render it; whats a lineart?#put down the colors and then lineart/sketch#sth looks wrong despite me being on the “last step”?? ill sketch over and color it no issues#lining but i dont rlly want to deal with?? one part?? but i do know how the other part will look like and am excited to work on it??#ill hop onto that part and do the rendering#deal with the confusing one later#doesnt matter if the lineart of the full piece isnt complete#NO ONE!! IS FORCING ME TO STICK TO THE STEP BY STEP PROCRESS#THIS IS ART I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT#tldr: i realized i have free will and i am very much drunk on its power#anyways actual tags:#rosierambles#art stuff#art#drawing
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tfone au where OP is created as the last of the primes but way after them, a sparkling born at what were thought to be the last days of the war against the quintessons, the beginning of a new generation of peace after eons of war. a child meant to be loved and raised knowing nothing of war nor sacrifice.
he's kept mostly out of the spotlight by his siblings, who don't wish to expose him to everyone's optics so young, and want to wait until the war is done and over to properly introduce him to their people.
except of course the primes are betrayed and murdered by sentinel, the war is lost and everyone who knows and cared for the truth is either banished or outright killed in order to suppress it.
and the high guard, the ones the primes trusted the most, the ones that were supposed to protect them, the ones who failed in their most important duty, have to make a choice. to take the last prime, their last hope, with them to the surface, a hostile environment where there's little to no supplies and where they'll be hunted down by both sentinel and the quintessons as the biggest threat to their regimen.
or hide him in plain sight. place him where sentinel won't think to look for him. one more sparkling among many. and hope it will be enough to keep him alive. pray to primus that he'll protect his last child long enough for them to come back for him when it's safer (even if most of them have already lost their faith on him when he allowed the rest of his children to be massacred like that)
they almost lose their resolve when they realize they will have to take the little one's cog away in order to make him blend in with the rest of the newborns (and oh do they burn with murderous intent when they see what sentinel has done to their people but it's not the time yet-) but in the end they decide an impaired little prime is better than a dead one.
and so in the chaos of thirteen dead primes and a sudden energon crisis, a little sparkling who very few mechs really knew about and even fewer had seen completely vanishes. and in the depths of iacon a mech in charge of a new batch of newborns scratches their helm in confusion as they realize they must have miscounted the first time.
optimus prime is quietly erased from any official records by sentinel, written off as dead when they find a sparkling's frame mangled beyond recognition after an attack on the base of those rebels that insist on being a thorn on his side. killing the sparkling hadn't been precisely in his plans, he probably could've found some use for it after all, but he's not particularly upset about it either.
and orion pax grows up with an ache on his spark that tells him he's missing something far more important than a t-cog and dreams of gentle and loving hands, cradling him against the frames of mechs he cannot recall the faces of.
#i talk a lot <3#transformers#transformers one#tfone#optimus prime#orion pax#baby prime orion au#this is mostly an excuse for me to draw the primes and baby OP later on. just to be clear.#i WILL be drawing this at some point lmao#tbh i'm a little uncertain how i want things to progress#because on one hand it would be very tasty and tense if sentinel recognized optimus during the race#but that means a lot of changes very early on in the plot and i would have to do a lot of Thinking on how to justify getting the gang#to still pick up bee and elita. cause i love them <3#i do think it'd be very funny if the high guard's plan worked like a charm except for the very tiny fact that they didn't count#on orion being an absolute hellion. like. this kid is Not Going Unnoticed and it's completely his own fault lmao#in this version maybe a member of the high guard stayed behind to keep an eye on orion and is able to get them out before they're killed#but instead of taking them to where the primes fell they take them directly to the high guard#which is very awkward because it's a very moving and emotional moment for the high guard who are finally reunited with their little prime#all grown up and healthy and blessedly *alive*. except orion doesn't fucking remember any of them and is very confused as to why#the legendary warriors of cybertron are getting all weepy over him. they finally explain the truth to him which is a Fucking Bomb#to drop on anyone but especially a group of kids who almost got killed by the person they all thought the world of just hours ago#they also return orion's t-cog to him which would create some tension between him and the rest of the gang because this time#he's the only one getting his cog back. add to it that they were just told he's the equivalent of a demi-god and... well.#there's a gap between him and them that wasn't there before#on the other version of events that follows canon more closely everything goes the same up until the gang finds the primes in the cave#and wake up alpha trion who now not only has to deal with the fact the rest of his siblings are dead but that he missed fifty cycles#of his baby brother's life. that the only sibling he has left does not remember him or his true identity at all.#he has to choose between telling him the truth which has the risk of unbalancing him in a critical moment where he cannot afford to#be distracted because they're being hunted down. or let him remain unaware. let him forget their family and the love they had for him#but letting him remain free of the knowledge of what he lost and the heartbreak it would bring.
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huge props to marinette for spinning up that lie so fast and on the spot, too. I thought I was good but damn. of course she must have had a general idea of what she was going to say to adrien beforehand going off of gabriel's "make me look good" and her own love telling her that the truth would hurt adrien even more, but that's just a very vague idea. she could not have possibly spun up that entire story of a lie in her head beforehand with all that was going on - dealing with all the truths coming in one after the other, the crying, the emotional trauma, getting the kwamis back -
and of course, there's adrien. he is one of the highest things on her list of priorities, his safety being the first thing she needs to take care of. the problem is, she doesn't know how. the only thing she can do in that situation is lie. a small lie. just one to make it better for now and then she can make it a long-term lie later. make sure no one else finds out.
and once she started telling the lie, once the first words were out of the mouth, it was all improvisation. her next words showed up in her head as she was going, spinning up a believable story, just good enough to be taken as the truth. she rambled - a rookie mistake for liars - but you couldn't blame her. she's a professional liar, almost, with her superhero identity, but this one is different. just one hour after learning the truth she had to cover up all this with no warning beforehand.
she couldn't tell adrien the truth. but she couldn't do much to comfort him either. ladybug couldn't tell him something only marinette knows.
she had to lie. she had to come up with something on the spot. those words would haunt her for the rest of her life - that lie was all she could think about for the next couple of months because she had to make it work. she had to keep the truth and make everything work out. it wasn't a big deal. she just had to tell adrien something, anything that would comfort him! what would comfort him about his father? what would convince him that he was a good guy this whole time? that he was a, a, a hero! yes, she would tell him that. it was a white lie! she wasn't a bad person! she just had to tell adrien that his father was a hero so that he would never have to know the truth and suffer like she did. he was a hero.
was.
once that word came out of her mouth, there was no going back.
#ok coming from someone who is VERY good at lying (and no that's not a lie) I am VERY IMPRESSED by that.#it's not even an exaggeration by the writers. in fact I think this is perfect.#ive had to lie several times before. make sure there were no plot holes in the story I was trying to spin to get out of trouble. to be safe#to save a life.#this is very realistic of her.#when she's under pressure she talks. she lies. some of her smartest moments are made up of lies. it might seem like a good idea at the time#she might not know what's coming out of her mouth as she's saying it.#but regardless she needs to deal with it later. once the adrenaline has finally died down and she faces the consequences of her actions.#once the emotion has died down. once the truth of what she's said sinks in.#I lie on the spot if I have to. my stories stay active for just long enough that eventually it becomes a fact of life and I have to remembe#each detail of the lie so that it doesn't fall apart.#it can't fall apart. the world will end if it falls apart.#(the world is a web of lies that I have spun.)#oh MAN the marinette thoughts today. should I write a fic. yea im writing a fic.#marinette dupain cheng#miraculous ladybug#ml spoilers#ml london special#wait I just realised all these paragraphs I typed up what the heck what am I doing with my time#gotta love lying to people tho.#actually no thats a lie I hate it.#ugh life is so confusing can I pls just project myself onto marinette instead of having to deal with stuff#yk out of all the characters I didn't realise SHE would be one of the ones I resonate with the most. but thats a fact and I love it.
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no bc deadass the rescue bots are straight up mean as hell. like, they arent evil or immoral they’re just rude. to the point where they’re meaner than the decepticons ok like megatron kept avoiding actually gettind rid of starscream despite the constant murder attempts but heatwave was willing to get rid of two of the other bots (blades after he abandoned a rescue bc of an avalanche and blurr bc blurr). heatwave is more ruthless than megatron which is so damn funny. blades keeps insulting people for no good reason (sometimes it makes sense but like quickshadow’s accent and how she talks made him so upset). chase is harder to see but he’s willing to do anything to follow the rules and he tends to repeatedly bring up other people’s issues (i dont think i have to explain but like example is little white lies. that whole episode). boulder is very sweet most of the time but the instant heatwave gets in on it he does too. multiple times in the show this has happened (off the top of my head when blades got the scoop claw hw and boulder were laughing at him and when hw made fun of blades boulder laughed, also heatwave was saying blurr was super annoying and boulder agreed).
to be clear this is a good thing. i wanna see more complex characters who are still fundamentally good people!! you can be callous, have low empathy, be egotistical, get angry, make fun of ur friends and still make good choices and still help people. you at your worst and you at your best are still both you, but your worst being bad doesn’t mean your best isn’t good. especially because morality wise the rescue bots are the best people. i mean, they aren’t war criminals (or regular criminals), they don’t physically harm others, they don’t put others at risk (at least not intentionally), and they literally had to pretend to be actual machines while risking their lives every day. these people who treated them as essentially slaves were who they had to protect. and they did it, over and over again, without hesitation. and i think they deserve to be a bit rude for that, and because their meanness comes from caring. if they didn’t care they wouldn’t bother to speak up and be heard, even if it’s in a disrespectful way. but they do.
anyways idk rescue bots brainrot and the concept of a fundamentally good society have been eating away at me.
#they love everybody so much that they snap so often#heatwave cares about his team. when he says someone needs to go its a big deal#because he cares about that member but he also cares about the rest of his team#one wrong move and they’re dead. it’s life or death every day#he doesnt want to invite the day where death will be the winner#blades getting so pissed and confused by quickshadow’s accent and speech was so damn funny tho#i too am confused and pissed by the british#boulder being the nicest kindest most gentle bot immediately going away when heatwave decides to be petty is always delightful#“hmm this person is doing something funny/wrong/objectively dumb but everyone makes mista— oh? heatwave is making fun of them? count me in!#homosexual behaviour#heatwave makes people worse <3#chase bringing up the oldest shit to make a dig at someone is so silly#you make one mistake and years later he’s still bringing it up#looking at my tags as i write them and hw’s are so serious and everyone else’s are like “lmao silly little guy says silly little things”#rescue bots#tfrb#tfrb heatwave#tfrb boulder#tfrb blades#tfrb chase#transformers rescue bots#transformers
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how many people do u think would want my location knowing i own not just one but two of the hjack figures
#i bought one second hand off ebay. just the figure no accessories or face swap#then i was sad that he didnt have any accessories#but couldnt find any Just Accessories anywhere online and was given a deal on mercari for one In The Box for cheap#so. now. i have two. the one in the box has been taken Out Of The Box before but he stays in the box#mostly cuz its a fun lil display piece but also erm my brain says the first one i got will be sad if i ever confuse the two !#delete later
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I recently found out people ship Cassandra with Apollo.
My initial reaction was...
Just tan their hides. You know what happened to her because the the bastard, don't you?..
Then, I was overwhelmed by morbid curiosity, and checked AO3. People are writing rape fics about them. ...Why?..
Could I ever see Cassandra x Apollo?.. I don't know, maybe. But, definitely not the nonsense I mentioned. Dubcon at most. I guess, he might somehow coerce her into sleeping with him, and later rescue her from the fall of Troy, because she's pregnant with his child, or something (Zeus would be pissed, I'm fine with that).
Sounds like an intriguing story, with a lot of morally questionable elements. I can imagine Apollo confiding in Artemis, wondering why his wife is so upset. She'd just go "are you serious rn?.. -_-".
...What, you're surprised I'm among those I wish to hide with a broom? Don't be. It happens quite often, actually.
#greek mythology#greek myth fandom#apollo#cassandra#apollo x cassandra#diary pages#thoughts#greek gods#this is such a fucked up pairing#in the iliad you like apollo then remember what he did cassandra#i don't blame her for rejecting his advances he's an entitled fboy with nine girlfriends and she wanted to remain chaste#the way he responded is very cruel honestly cassandra's story breaks my heart#of course i'm discussinv them as characters not religious figures#apollo can be such a creep#greek myth fanfic#fanfiction ideas#what the hell i have a hundred epics in my wips already including one with apollo#but i SHOULD put this aside the “Apollo coerces Cassandra then saves her because she's pregnant”#it's dark but also very intriguing to explore... it isn't supposed to be hot really well maybe later#dionysus married ariadne why can't apollo marry cassandra#she wouldn't want to marry him but what other choice would she have#their further relationship just seems so fascinating#yeah apollo would be confused why she's upset - he'd get her being upset about the fall of troy but not why she's upset with him#but as gods do he'd imagine she should be happy about getting rescued by him#why am i doing this to myself (and cassandra)#i suppose... i just want a better ending for cassandra (back to the fic idea) which this would be even though she'd have to deal with apollo#side note imagine the “pairing” in disney's hercules it would be hilarious#cassandra confronting hercules about his creepy older cousin trying to hit on her#or icarus trying to ask apollo if she'll go out with him and apollo replying “if you have my luck she'll just throw a shoe at your face”#she should take out a restraining order also
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Hey, 🥝 of the queue system here again! I'm sorry if I'm clogging up your ask box here, but im pretty sure my previous ask got eaten. Anyways- I was wondering when exactly raph's OSDD came to light?
Hope you're good ^^
it didnt get eaten its in my drafts with like 5 paragraphs of nonsense sldkjfsdk
dw tho youre not a bother i love getting asks and talking about my fics. it can just take me like a while to respond if its something i have to actually think about
honestly im still figuring out details!! its not relevant to connective tissue (the big fic im working on w my friend) so its not super high priority, but im dipping my toes in a raph backstory oneshot to explore his whole everything
uhhh rambly under the cut!!
i think hes like 11 or 12 when he figures out hes a system. but also i think that he pretty consistently heard and even talked to mind raph for years and just assumed that like... he has a very animated inner monologue (donnie's words, not raph's). mind didnt see any need to say anything otherwise because it kept the system functional
tbh all the boys are so weird in their own ways that raph's weird stuff (garbage memory, "mood swings", hardcore zoning out, randomly going nonverbal, talking to himself) is hardly a blip on anyone's radar so he didnt really think about it either (raph is also autistic you'll pry it from my cold dead hands so theres another reason he just didnt second guess anything)
i think what tips raph off eventually is the memory stuff. if he forgets something, or blanks out a whole day, then why can mind raph remember and give him tips and reminders for things? he shouldnt know things that raph doesnt.
basically: slow realization, nothing sudden or alarming. unnerving yeah but on raphs end it gets worked out through communication w mind raph and then the rest of the system. and from there honestly he IMMEDIATELY tells the rest of his family that hes got other people in his head. that part im sure of. the collective doesnt hesitate with telling everyone else
its a lot of confusion and antics with splinter being halfway convinced raph is possessed (absolutely nothing bad comes from it. splinter just doesnt know what the fuck osdd is and he knows magic is real so like. reasonable assumption on his end), and then its april to the rescue because her dad is a psychologist and she can be like hey this thing has a name actually and ive got info from a ~professional~
reactions vary--splinter has some v e r y complicated emotions. donnie and leo both get a bit overbearing/invasive asking raph all sorts of questions about his system and april is beating them back with a stick. mikey is mildly confused but is having a blast getting to meet the rest of the collective properly. everyone gets to figure stuff out together from there
#im always nervous posting first thoughts like this abt my fics esp when im still mid-research#i wanna talk but i wanna make sure my shit is CORRECT#which is why it can take me a while to respond#honestly just need to bite the bullet and deal with it#here are my ~first draft thoughts~ please forgive anything weird about them#anyway raph learning hes a system and telling his fam? chill. confusing but ultimately no drama#raph later learning hes an alter and not the core?? ho boy that one comes with a lot of ptsd and no one has a good time but thats for later#(ik not all systems have a core but thats how the collective functions)#ask
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New OC alert mayhaps mayhaps. More MurderLesbians TM/hj I wrote an entire short (short)story about them today i have no clue what they’ll evolve into
Starring my terrible handwriting and messy drawings
#the one who had her hair in a ponytail is called Eliza Sharp and is a confused as fuck girl who recently made a blood pact with her best#friend to kill a shitty person every five months otherwise they will die#the other one is V/Velma Rivers.she’s obsessed with occult stuff#ALSO.eliza is having gay awakenings while V is murdering a man and carving sigils into his arm but shshsh she’ll deal with that LATER.#ANYHOWW#thoughts in the void#oc tag
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grabbing leon by the hair and dragging him around like my security blanket <3
#the bows get to live the DREAM of manhandling that man#currently thinking of some big bastard... like simmons' wolf dog phase thing?#just sitting on top of him so he can't move but otherwise leaving him unharmed#just very confused#and god that dog STINKS#maybe this bioweapon is designed like a security guard#it takes a liking to leon for some reason or another (pisses off its creator)#and is kinda a little too kidnappy > protective lol#which the creator sees as a failed project and tries for a less obsessive version in later trials#the bioweapon refuses to hand over kennedy because that is ITS toy!!!!#creator would love to have a hostage but that dog's the one making deals#creator... tries but it's clear they've no control over the beast#.... jill for some reason is the one to tame this beast.... get friendly with it so leon can get tf away#beast is sad....#do they kill it? does leon visit it while its studied in captivity?
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I've always seen posts about how bad it hurts when your kid is heartbroken, and I don't have a kid but l've helped raise my niece for so many years and through so many milestones, always there for the important and the not important stuff and she feels more like my little sister than my niece. She's tough like me and also a teenager so she keeps her emotions to herself and I gotta say her coming into my bedroom earlier crying and defeated about this boy - hurt in a different way because I can’t fix that.
#first loves#I went to work stressed!!!!!!#she texted some updates throughout the day though and they talked and are ok for rn#I’m so glad but also now I’m nervous for her and them because it’ll be so bad#on one hand I know she’s tough and would be ok and it’s ok to let go sometimes#but it’s her and I don’t want her to be sad#or if he sucked overall but he’s actually a really good kid and they’re good together#and they’re never apart and it’s been like a year and a half#so her confusion was so sad#she’s also weird with her emotions like me so I know she’s been going through it the last couple days#today was just the worst of them and I hope tomorrows better#I had mentioned to her to ask him to take a walk on the crusty beach nearby us to talk#and I looked at her location a bit ago and she was there was cute#they both turn 18 next month so it’s time to start growing and dealing with stuff in a different way#I can also legally beat him up if I had to lol#we all like him so it was even confusing to us like get it together brother#I’ll find out more later but hopefully all is well
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I FIGURED IT OUT
#it was so simple and I’m such an idiot#I know why it was bothering me and it’s nothing confusing or earth shattering#I was way over complicating things#like this doesn’t solve it but it does make dealing with it a WHOLE lot easier#just had to have a crisis about it for a few days before I figured it out#still not having a great time but definitely less stressed about this now#also not feeling like a bad person about it anymore#okay done with the vague posting#(for now)#(there will likely be more as I process but like)#(this means I can stop dissecting my emotions)#(it truly was not that deep)#personal#delete later#perhaps#this one might stay up who knows#vague posting sega#also i don’t delete these i just make them private so i can come back years later and go:#‘wtf was i on about this time?’#and pretend my future (at that point present) ass isn’t as dramatic as past (now current) me
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ok i’m actually mad abt how little continuity dndads has rn like why are we doing memory stuff if we haven’t checked to make it consistent w what we’ve already said has happened ????
and also why are they seemingly determined to character assassinate ALL of the characters from s1???? up to and including the already dead ones?????
and ALSO what is even the plot anymore i feel like the world building has been so inconsistent and loosey-goosey and like that’s okay when it isn’t relevant to the plot but in this season where it IS relevant to the plot like. what are we doing???? who can or can’t travel between dimensions???? what are the limitations????
i’m just confused and annoyed i want it to be a fun show with a story that you can follow again but lately it’s been just a mess. still fun ofc because all five of them are just fun to listen to but like. i have not been able to make any sense of what the fuck is going on for like a solid 4 episodes now and i’m just disheartened about it. it’s gone off the rails but not in a hehehaha funny fun way.
#d speaks#dndads#dndads spoilers#srry i just needed to vent like. what is happening what is happening ???? i’m so confused i don’t LIKE being constantly confused#and also i am getting so so sick of this ‘everything has to be grimdarksad no one gets a happy ending’ bs#it’s just annoying it’s pessimistic and i think there’s a line between being a comedy that deals with deep and serious issues and then just#being a bummer downer that has jokes in it. like it’s so pessimistic and none of the root issues are being solved or even fully fleshed out#and the constant indecision about the backstories of all these characters (the kiddads & the og dads) is SO frustrating#i know that there’s a degree of that to be expected just as is natural for improv#but also you’ve gotta have SOME consistency please i’m begging#i’m relistening to s1 rn and i’m in the later episodes and it’s just like. i miss when they had clear arcs#and yeah back before they character assassinated every single kiddad !!!!#also freddie and anthony specifically and their takes on glenn this episode. what the fuck was that#are you trying to tell me that everyone who said in s1 that glenn didn’t change and didn’t have any arc was RIGHT??????#because you spent a LOT of time talking about how silly that opinion was just to now turn and around and be like yeah glenn is reverted#back to who he was in e1 !!!! like cmon. what the hell
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you know. similar to oc-first story flaws. i think there's a little bit of a problem of system-first story flaws. like. you really see this all the time on here with like. extrapolation of some minor concept that would be a background detail in an average story, like more realistic miscommunication between fantasy cultures. but like. the reason that you don't see this is that it's confusing and dull if you don't have a story that really NEEDS that kind of granular detail.
and like. this is absolutely on one level. not a real problem because posts that detail some twist about how humans and aliens (or dwarves and elves or whatever) have cultural miscommunication are not positing a story, they are trying to convey that they've noticed that fantasy stories don't have realistic inter-culture conflict (sometimes to their detriment) and they want to loop in either a real historical fact or a humorous extension of if-then logic. And that's fiiiiiiine.
but it is also why you get the occasional really dull ass-covering worldbuilding aside that adds nothing in stories that are trying to be smarter than you and/or other stories in their same genre.
#one place you can find things like this is in like... fangames of horror games with confusing lore#they're like 'okay i'll have a rock solid lore system in my game' and it randomly kills the pacing with the inevitable fix-it monologue#a related sin is using your system worldbuilding to cover up inconveniences. the 'a wizard invented cell phones' plot oroboros#like how fallen london doesn't want to deal with historic sexism so it has the dumbest top-down explanation why there isn't any#(the supernatural god-kings of the city told everyone in the 1860s not to be sexist and 40 years later. no sexism.)#worst part of this one is like. you will get people unironically advocating for this solution on here and it's embarrassing
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I wish I was one of those people who made side blogs for all of my interests so that my blog wouldn’t be such a clusterfuck, but unfortunately I don’t want to. I’m stuck with this mess, now everyone else is too.
#the inane ramblings of a madman#i keep seeing people#talk about side blogs#bro i have talked about some embarrassing shit on here#you think i’m going to draw the line at shows i like?#i’m very cringefail i accept it#also i would have like eighty blogs and i would absolutely get confused#i can’t deal with that pressure#i have one blog#then i have the other two blogs for when i want to reblog something#so that i can find it later#but fandom blogs? my head would explode#you all have to suffer through this weird co obsession#of total drama and teen titans with me#well i mean i guess you could unfollow or block me#or block the tags#like you don’t actually#but you get the idea
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basicallyheres the thing. i dont rly want to be immortal like me currently i probably wouldnt rly enjoy that. howeverrr if i got time travelled back to like the beginning of life on earth and was immortal i think i would have a good time bc im a curious girl. even just back to the birth of humanity or civilization... i just wannasee i wouldnt even do anything crazy with my immortality id just like. take a lot of notes abt everything
#ig travel might be an issue like if there r 2 places i wanna be but on 2 different sides of the world id have 2 pick one... which sucks.#like since im immortal i could just like Walk along the bottom of oceans lmao not that big of a deal. but itd take a while....#and if this happened i dont think id go crazy or whatever bc i ust simply wouldnt have any loved ones to watch die. id just be peeking in o#everything and having fun..... and the dressup would be super fun too#nik likeee the human brain fr cant remember that much stuff if i lived for that long id fr forget but 1. this is a timetravel immortality#fantasy world i can take creative liberties vis a vis my brain capacity and 2. Brother thats why id write everything down.. so later i coul#be like omggg i miss the byzantine empire. and read the diary and jog my memory'#obvious issue is. well. books dont last that long so id have to rewrite them on newer parchment#unless i find a fuck off huge cave and learn how to etch thatd be rather timeless#but also if ppl found it theyd be Oh so confused. bc theyd be like um ... these markings are in languages from throughout the world and#across thousands of years and they range in age from like prehistory to modern day . so whats up with that.. and theyd try to investigate m#and shit which would suck.
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lmao im poly and queer why is it so hard to be Like That
#i dont know how to deal with full blown crushes anymore#highschool me knew better ig!!!! wtf!!!! do i!!!!!!! DO!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!#the last time i started a relationship is the one between my current partner of 5 years#but how to deal with crush????? on multiple people other than my lovely wife???????? wtf????????? HOWWWWW?????????????#i am combusting.#i dont know how to ask someone. if they'd. like to uh. i DONT KNOW HOW.#im like 99.9% sure the feelings are not mutual. but they both have maybe possibly flirted with me maybe????????????????????????????????????#I DONT REMEMBER WHAT FLIRTING PRE RELATIONSHIP LOOKS LIKE#SOMEONE HELP#THIS SUCKS SHIT.#BECAUSE TRAUMA AND ALSO. IM JUST. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO#I WANNA KISS THEM SO BAD THIS SUCKS SHIT SO BAD I HATE ROMANCE RN THROW IT INTO THE SUN FIREBOMB LOVE RIGHT NOW#i may be poly but im also VERY AUTISTIC AND VERY ADHD I DONT KNOW IF ITS ACTUALLY FLIRTING I DONT. I AM. SO CONFUSED.#I AM GOING TO THROW UP DFSJKHAKEJFKFDJKSKJ I DONT THINK ITS 99.9% BUT I ALSO DO AT THE SAME TIME#I HAVE TWO HANDS AND BOTH OF THEM ARE HOLDING A DIFFERENT OPINION#ROMANCE SUCKS SHIT. I MISS MY WIFE TAILS. SHE'S SMART AND TOLD ME THAT MAYBE CONFESSING IS BETTER#HOWEVER. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I DONT WANNNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ITLL BE SO AWKWARDDDD I CANT AWGWGAGWAGAGWAFAKJDF#i havE NO RIZZ. PLS. ZERO. ANTI RIZZLER. I CANNOT. IM NOT. UGH. THEYRE. UGH. FUCK THIS.#EXPLODES#delete later#but uh; tldr? what it says on the tin i have crushes and i dont know what to fucking DO#i cant read the situation properly and my feelings have only got stronger. send help.
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