#de paul in love

[sunofmoon]

[weirdlookindog]

Émile Bayard (1837–1891) - Évocation des Morts Aimés (Evocation of Dead Loved Ones)

illustration from Paul Christian’s 'Histoire de la magie', 1870

[mirefireflies]

I don't like windows when they're closed, I want to fly where the wild wind blows.

IWTV 1.01 // 2.04 (without text)

[metamorphesque]

Jean-Paul Sartre to Simone de Beauvoir

[divorceblogger]

1.07 // 1.01 // Interview with the Vampire, Anne Rice

[flowerytale]

Simone de Beauvoir, from a letter to Jean-Paul Sartre

[diioonysus]

love + art

[kindaeccentric]

Thinking about Louis' guilt regarding both Paul and Claudia that's stemming not from him thinking he's responsible for their deaths, but from the relief he felt after they died.

With both of them their need for freedom kept putting them in danger, and since Louis was never one to cage them (not sending Paul to an asylum, letting Claudia run away and later kill Lestat so she could go to Europe) he felt a duty to take responsibility for them, follow them around to ensure they're not in trouble, which in turn was limiting his own freedom, turning him bitter, even if subconsciously, because he was ill-equipped to provide the protection they needed.

He could not understand their troubled minds, and even though he loved them dearly, they were a nuisance, a constant source of stress. Especially Claudia, who he picked himself, only to eventually realise he didn't actually enjoy fathering once she grew out of the cute little vampire phase and became her own person, with her own wants and needs.

He wanted to keep both of them alive and safe, he tried his best, even though who he wanted to be, or with whom he wanted to be, couldn't coexist with that obligation.

And yet he would not have said 'yes' to Lestat if Paul was alive. He would not have kept his relationship with Armand much longer if Claudia was alive. And he wanted to. He stayed with Lestat despite suspecting him of causing Paul's death, he stayed with Armand even though he subconsciously always knew the truth that Armand is responsible, because he simply wanted them.

So after Paul and Claudia died he was devastated, but it set him free, deep inside that terrible, unacceptable relief took hold and he became a master of tolerating his own guilt over it, over the realisation that the only thing he can never tolerate in a relationship is not violence against people he loved, but against himself.

[incorrectquoteswwdits]

I still can’t get over that Paul Simms said that Nandor and Guillermo’s love is so special that it transcends sex, that they love each other more than that in some deeper platonic way meanwhile they have Laszlo and Nadja deeply in love fucking every episode 🥲

[clove-pinks]

A more detailed view of the young man from the 1838 Paul Gavarni comic, Attendre que le protecteur soit parti/Waiting for her patron to leave.

I love his curled hair and very body-conscious tailoring.

[dxxtruction]

So in replies to this I've made I think some big brain connections?? The constant associations with the sun and Louis is really working and gelling in my brain especially with the finale moments of s2.

The 'sun king' thing is very reminiscent of the actual sun king of history Louis xiv, and the way he constructed his daily life like it was theatre. The way meals are served the way they are, and everything feels very rehearsed and scheduled. The fact said historical figure lived for 77 years, as did his relationship with Armand. He's not this historical figure though - hint budge wink nod, he cant be the ones Armand wants him to be, including the same Louis he used to love - he's our Louis. And he's not been allowed to fully be himself in this environment where it's been largely fake and manipulative. (Again to the point of Louis XIV, the theatrics were established to protect him and make it plainly aware of his position as king. But there was a common conception that whoever was closest to the king - typically the king's mistress. Controlled the king. You can probably catch what I'm laying down here.)

Just also the way that when he fully has himself he has the sun, because he just is the sun in a metaphorical sense. Arriving to himself he now the light at the end of this tunnel of darkness. The literal sun still holds a deadliness to him, but it holds no power over him to walk into anymore. He doesn't miss it. If he feels an inclination to it at all it's only to prove a point. He's at a place by the end of this that he doesn't need anyone but himself, and knows it, and can finally be free from control over his person.

There's other associations with it too, like taking up photography. A medium reliant on light to do. How that doesn't pan out for him, but what does is documenting. Him, taking on a path to document, to bring about the light - the truth - hidden in the image of his memories. It's through light that he can be destroyed but it's through light that he reconciles with himself and becomes whole.

The night is all his, because he's mastered the light. He owns it.

[your-mums-nuts]

“Nandermo is a problematic dynamic” Nadja literally hypnotised Laszlo before she turned him into a vampire AND had sex with him and he didn’t even find out until later. Just say you hate gay people.

[mirefireflies]

IWTV 1.01 // 2.04

(edit: version with quotes)

[vandrawsing]

Louis and his ghosts

[daegorth]

TATTOO THIS ON MY HEART

Selección Argentina on twitter

[flowerytale]

Simone de Beauvoir, from a letter to Jean-Paul Sartre