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oacest · 3 months ago
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matt morgan's podcast directory
for anyone wanting to listen to noel's episodes on matt's patreon podcast, here is a handy list of all the ones he's on, compiled partially by me (trill) but mostly by @charlestrask.
matt's organisational and titling abilities are, shall we say, subpar, and at some point he also apparently had a mass loss of eps which he then later reuploaded with random titles and largely incorrect dates. it was a real labour of love to track down and sort out all these eps! you can simply search for the relevant titles and stream/download them as you wish.
[NOTE that if you download them individually, the file names as they appear in your downloads folder are different than they are on the patreon itself. i STRONGLY suggest manually renaming them immediately rather than ending up with a folder full of shit called "noel detroit," "maldives," and "bonfire 2" without any way to tell what the fuck is what, like i did 🙃.]
computing data: Podcast #1, June 18 2020
prince charles' fingers: Podcast #2, june 19 2020
trampagne supernova: Podcast #12, September 13 2020
stu-stu-studio with noella: Podcast #15, October 4, 2020
noel g's glimpse of the unexplained: Podcast #17, October 19 2020
noel grafting in his van: Podcast #22, November 23 2020
noelly g has put the kids to bed: Podcast #24, December 7 2020
noel december 2021? (yes that's the title lol): Podcast #29, January 19 2021 (original upload name was who built the moonie?)
you could make a killing, Podcast #38, March 21 2021
mega mega white thing, Podcast #45, May 12 2021
half a century: Podcast #50, June 2021
that's my burger and chips!: Podcast #52, June 28 2021
stone minge: Podcast #58, August 21 2021
noelo rides again: Podcast #62, September 2021
small and a half: Podcast #63, September 2021
oranjeboom and earache: Podcast #66, October 2021
wash the story: Podcast #69, November 2021 (also he uploaded a 4 minute extra bit from this called ooh look what i found! highly recommend listening to that bit as well, it'll blow your mind)
those lovable mop-tops: Podcast #72, November 28 2021 (this is their get back fancast ep lol, if you're into get back/the beatles)
noel xmas 2021: Podcast #75, December 19 2021 (original name was feliz navidad motherfuckers!)
noel in the maldives: Podcast #78 (original upload name was noel's big holiday), January 18[?] 2022
noel - know this of me!: Podcast #79, January 27 2022
noel february 2022 - 'neither of them had rice': Podcast #84, February 22 2022
noel at claridges: Podcast #87, April 2022
noelo croissant moon: Podcast #90, April 2022
noel sexy pistol: Podcast #95, June 2022
noel show 99: Podcast #99, July 1, 2022
the return of the chief: Podcast #132, June 15 2023
noel in a nutshell: Podcast #134, June 27, 2023
max bedford and lou cipher: Podcast #135, July 5 2023
d'yer wanna be a spaceman: Podcast #137, July 17 2023
noelly-g back in de area, Podcast #139, July 30 2023
hula-hoop mansion: Podcast #140, August 8 2023
dogs look back in anger, Podcast #142, August 26 2023
the spider and the butterfly, Podcast #143, September 6 2023
adventure dad: Podcast #148, November 12 2023
general dread: Podcast #150, December 2 2023
joyeux noel: Podcast #153, December 31, 2023
the fortress of solitude: Podcast #155, January 18 2024
royal albert hooha: Podcast #164, April 3 2024
the ng factor p1: Podcast #157, January 31 2024
bonfire of dreams (aka ng factor p2): Podcast #160, March 5 2024
i shan't do the poznan: Podcast #168, May 15 2024
noely g glasto debrief: Podcast #174, July 3 2024
bracknoel: Podcast #178, August 5 2024
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sweet-s0rr0w · 7 months ago
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day 29 of @hprecfest - a fic rated E
On One's Knees by pir8fancier - E, 34k, 2008
Summary: The war is over and to the victors go the spoils.
Excerpt: "Why are you doing this, Potter?
Standing there with his shoulders slumped forward and his eyes opaque with exhaustion, he looked both very vulnerable and very old.
"General all-purpose saviour complex also applies to former hated classmates cum Death Eaters, apparently. It would make my life a hell of a lot easier if I could just ignore you and let you shift for yourself, but I can't. It's what I do, Malfoy. I need to look myself in the mirror every day. Given the tests I've done, I can't imagine the sort of pain you go through just to walk to the loo, never mind working like you do. You don't have any cartilage left in your goddamned knees. You hear me?"
He had shouted that last part, as if he was trying to convince me. He clenched his eyes shut and when he opened them, he'd regained some semblance of control. "Ron thinks you deserve it. I'm not sure how I feel, but I do know that I'm too bone weary to get any enjoyment out of your suffering, and you're too desperate to turn down my help. I think that says it all in a nutshell."
I reached for his outstretched hand.
Written not long after the series' end, and set a few years post-war, this fic is a beautifully packaged punch to the gut. Down-and-out Draco has to hit just right for it to work for me, and boy does the author manage it here. Draco's the night cleaner at the Prophet's offices, and Harry's the Healer who's sent to patch him up when he takes a fall at work, but who realises that Draco's body (and his life) are in altogether a pretty poor shape. Harry takes him in (while his wife Ginny's away) and learns about his life. Draco's prickly and cross with the world, but the two of them grow slowly closer, all the while knowing that things between them necessarily have an end date. It's painful, but really really beautiful, and thank goodness the author gave them an added extra happy ending because I think without that my heart wouldn't have recovered!
If you read it, and especially if you love it, please do let me know! And as always, please do take the time to leave the author a kudos/comment <3
day 1 - first fic you remember reading
day 2 - a fic rated G
day 3 - a fic not on ao3
day 4 - a comfort fic
day 5 - a romantic fic
day 6 - a fic for a ship you don’t normally read
day 7 - the best of your OTP
day 8 - a fic that was recced to you
day 9 - a WIP
day 10 - a fest/event fic
day 11 - an underrated fic
day 12 - a fic from your favourite author
day 13 - a rare pair
day 14 - a fic rated T
day 15 - a fic over 50k
day 16 - a podfic
day 17 - a fic that makes you cry
day 18 - a fic that makes you laugh
day 19 - fanart
day 20 - a fic with fanart
day 21 - a fic rated M
day 22 - a series
day 23 - a crossover or AU fic
day 24 - holiday (vacation)
day 25 - holiday (national holiday)
day 26 i bloody missed by accident and will come back to :'(
day 27 - a smokin' hot fic
day 28 - a fic over 100k
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jerzwriter · 4 months ago
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Based on this prompt list from @creativepromptsforwriting
Updated 07.02.2025
All fics based on Pixelberry Choices stories unless otherwise noted [OH - Open Heart]
Day 1: Write about a first kiss Under the Stars | OH - Ethan Ramsey x F!OC, Tobias Carrick
Day 2: Write a scene without any dialogue ...in the orbit | OH - Tobias Carrick, Ethan Ramsey x F!OC
Day 3: Use the words: kitchen, date, music Spicing Things Up | CoP - Trystan Thorn x Carolina Rose F!MC
Day 4: Write about your MCs personal style Casey, Kaycee, Zoe, and Carolina's Style in a Nutshell
Day 5: Write 100 Words WIP Wednesday: A Winter's Storm | OH - Tobias x Casey Carrick F!MC
Day 6: Write about a blackout Goodnight Carricks | OH - Tobias x Casey Carrick F!MC
Day 7: Use the words: small town, bar, jukebox Country Roads | OH - Ethan Ramsey x Kaycee MacClennan F!MC
Day 8: Write about a new hobby Making a Hobby Out of It | OH - Tobias x Casey Carick F!MC
Day 9: Write about a heated debate A Final Resolution | OH - Ethan Ramsey x Kaycee MacClennan F!MC
Day 10: Promises Made, Promises Kept Promises Kept | The Rookie - Lucy Chen x Tim Bradford, Jackson West
Day 11: Write about a dance Just a Dance | The Rookie - Lucy Chen x Tim Bradford
Day 12: Write about your MCs Motivation Not Having It | OH - Ethan Ramsey x Kaycee MacClennan F!MC
Day 13: Write 10 sentences about the last item purchased My Everything | OH - Tobias x Casey Carrick F!MC
Day 14: Write about regret Love & Regret | WTD - Eli x Zoe
Day 15: Write about a girls' night out Girls' Night Out | OH - Tobias x Casey
Day 15: Write about a thank you Thank you, anyway... | OH - Ethan x Kaycee
Day 17: Write about a car ride A Bumpy Road | OH - Tobias & Ethan
Day 18: Use the title of the last song you listened to Old Phone | OH - Ethan x Kaycee, Tobias
Day 19: Write a summary of a book you'd love to read Breach of Contract | Original Fic Idea
Day 20: Write a new piece of lore for your WIP This one has me so stumped, I decided to skip for now, I'll come back to it at the end Day 21: Write something angsty Old Phone - Part Two | OH - Ethan x Kaycee, Tobias
Day 22: Write for 15 minutes without deleting anything. Super Sweet | OH - Tobias x Casey, The Carrick Girls
Day 23: Write about dreaming Heading Home | OH - (Names omitted - it could be for Ethan x Kaycee, Tobias x Casey, or any pairing.)
Day 24: Write using the words: crown, dance, smile The Queen of Olympus | WTD - Eli x Zoe x Troy
Day 25: Write a scene that describes your MC well No Promises... | OH - Tobias x Casey, The Carrick Girls
Day 26: Write something with the title: Like Waves on the Ocean Like Waves on the Ocean | OH - Tobias x Casey
Day 27: Write an ending without a beginning Falling Into Place | OH - Ethan x Kaycee
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atinycupofpositivitea · 2 years ago
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Journaling our 🍵 life tea 🍵
Today in a nutshell 🥜
I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed with the many things to do. I try to stay on top of them but it's not that easy. I'm also missing my family and friends, and home in general. It's true though that my health here has improved from the first day. I am really looking and feeling good, both in my mental health and physical health. I'm making friends and things are going alright. It's a bit hard to manage all of the relationships but I try to make an effort. Things I've liked about today was hanging out with my bestie, going to the quiz night, and dressing up in a nice outfit.
Things we feel grateful for 🐦
I am grateful for the things I do for myself.
Positive affirmations and self-love 💖
I can overcome anything.
Things we hope and look forward to ☘️
I hope I can do everything I want to do tomorrow.
Date: 26/09/2023
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traeuthaeou · 4 months ago
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wonryllis · 1 year ago
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✶ 𝒽eaven's net 𝖬𝖠𝖲𝖳𝖤𝖱𝖫𝖨𝖲𝖳 !
𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗀𝗂𝗋𝗅𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾𝖽 𝖻𝖾𝖿𝗈𝗋𝖾 𝗆𝖺𝖽𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗂'𝗏𝖾 𝖿𝖺𝗅𝗅𝖾𝗇 𝖿𝗈𝗋, 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝗌 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝖺𝗅𝗂𝗀𝗇𝖾𝖽 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗒 𝗂𝗇𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗍𝗐𝗂𝗇𝖾𝖽.
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𝗌𝗉𝖺𝗆 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾𝗌 = 𝖻𝗅𝗈𝖼𝗄 ⓘ 𝗌𝗉𝖺𝗆 𝗋𝖾𝖻𝗅𝗈𝗀𝗌 = 𝖺𝗉𝗉𝗋𝖾𝖼𝗂𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇
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𑁍 。 𝖥𝖨𝖫𝖤 𝟢𝟢𝟣──── ( enhypen as ) HEADCANONS && REACTIONS. PG15 / SUGGESTIVE.
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01. enhypen as song kang ( your kdrama life in a nutshell. ) | fluff, hyung line, suggestive |
02. enhypen as to all the boys i've loved before ( your teen romance come true. ) | fluff, maknae line | 📌
03. enhypen as kinds of love ( your safe place in a person. ) | fluff, comfort, small scenario, all members | 📌📌
04. enhypen when their crush calls them baby ( where you make their heart skip a beat. ) | fluff, scenario, all members |
05. enhypen meeting their long distance s/o for the first time ( when you finally link together for real. ) | fluff, scenario, all members |
06. high on heels for you ( when you wear pretty heels for them. ) | fluff, headcanons, small scenarios, all members |
07. i'm a mthrfckin starboy! ( where you got the good girl faith in them. ) | fluff, enha as bad boys, short scenarios, all members | 📌📌
08. enhypen when you act cute and clingy after messing up something ( where you melt their heart in an unexpected way. ) | fluff, short scenario, all members |
09. idol!enhypen when their idol s/o has dating rumours with someone else ( where they face the consequences of secrecy. ) | fluff, idol au, all members | 📌
10. non!idol enhypen falling in love at first sight with idol!reader ( where you put them under a spell. ) | fluff, scenarios, all members |
11. randomly giving them a rose on the street ( where they are mesmerized by a stranger. ) | fluff, all members |
12. enhypen when they realize they love you ( where they know they're in it for the long run. ) | rom-fluff, short scenario, all members, kinda poetic? | 📌📌 POPULAR
13. idol!enhypen revealing their non!idol s/o ( where they declare it to the world. ) | fluff, scenario, all members |
14. enhypen when they get jealous over a guy hitting on you ( when they taste the perils of a pretty girlfriend. ) | fluff, scenario, all members |
15. enhypen coming home to find you asleep ( where even asleep you have them smitten. ) | fluff, all members | POPULAR
16. my world in my arms ( where your embrace is everything. ) | fluff, suggestive in the tiniest bit for jake, cuddling with enha, all members |
17. enhypen as kdrama leads and their loves ( where they find a you in their complicated story. ) | fluff, suggestive, short scenarios, all members | 📌📌
18. enhypen finding your writing account of them ( where your delusional side gets exposed. ) | fluff, kinda crack, all members |
19. enhypen and refused kisses ( where kisses are too hard to resist. ) | fluff, short scenario, all members | 📌📌 POPULAR
20. you are made of angel dust ( where you are their darling little princess. ) | fluff, princess treatment, all members | 📌📌 POPULAR
21. idol!enhypen revealing their idol!s/o ( where the fans find you together. ) | fluff, idol au, all members |
22. satan's imagination, agent enhypen ( where they got the hots for their work partner. ) | fluff, suggestive, short scenario, agent!reader, all members | 📌
23. enhypen admiring their girl ( where they are too down bad. ) | fluff, all members | POPULAR
24. enhypen when their s/o does a mature dance cover ( where their eyes pop out. ) | fluff, tad bit suggestive, non idol au, short scenario, all members |
25. babydoll? rich boy enhypen pinning after you ( where you are the diamond of their eyes. ) | fluff, suggestive, rich guy au, long scenarios, all members | 📌📌 POPULAR
26. into the spider verse ( you're a sunflower, i think your love would be too much. ) | fluff, slightly suggestive in some places, headcanons, small scenarios and dialogues, jake as spiderman, 2k | 📌📌
27. my sun, he makes me shine: thoughts on soft boyfriend jungwon with his stressed s/o | headcanons, fluff, comfort? |
28. enhypen when you interrupt them with a kiss ( where they give in to a new addiction ) | fluff with lots of kisses, scenarios, all members | 📌
29. hot things enhypen do ( when their hot roots come out ) | fluff but not entirely, suggestive but not really? it's just hot, all members |
30. enhypen when they get caught kissing you ( where they are high on you ) | fluff, super suggestive, lots of kissing, situationship au, all members | 📌📌 POPULAR
𑁍 。 𝖥𝖨𝖫𝖤 𝟢𝟢𝟤──── TEXTS. ( PG & R rated )
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01. baby you're the only one for me: must've been your other girlfriend NSFW TEXT!AU with park sunghoon
02. give a chance to cupid: situationship texts with yang jungwon 📌
03. lowkey accidentally falling super hard for you: slightly toxic!situationship texts with riki 📌 POPULAR
04. perilla leaf and shrimp peeling debate trend with enhypen | fluff, crack, all members | 📌
05. enhypen when you ask them "boobs or ass" and why | mentions of sexual activities, hyung line, NSFW TEXT!AU |
06. when you accidentally send them nudes | hyung line as your hot senior, NSFW TEXT!AU, sexual innuendos |
𑁍 。 𝖥𝖨𝖫𝖤 𝟢𝟢𝟥──── DRABBLES. ( PG 15 )
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𝖫𝖤𝖤 𝖧𝖤𝖤𝖲𝖤𝖴𝖭𝖦
01. yes baby? in a lovesick smile ( where he shows you what's it like to be loved right. ) | fluff, comfort hurt, drabble |
02. after hours, i can be whatever you want me to be | drabble, 0.8k, fluff, toxic situationship, down down down bad lee heeseung with naive philophobic reader, age gap, suggestive: mild | 📌
03. you know i want you | short drabble, fluff, strangers to lovers, neighbours to lovers, rock band frontman!heeseung |
𝖯𝖠𝖱𝖪 𝖩𝖮𝖭𝖦𝖲𝖤𝖮𝖭𝖦
01. last friday night ( think we kissed ) | fluff, enemies secretly in love but oblivious, long drabble? oneshot? 3.3k | 📌
02. you, my fate come and kiss me | fluff-angst, soulmate au, short drabble <500, valentine special |
𝖲𝖨𝖬 𝖩𝖠𝖤𝖸𝖴𝖭
01. please teach me how to understand you ( where he is ready to learn to love you. ) | comfort hurt, argument, reader overthinks a lot, drabble |
𝖯𝖠𝖱𝖪 𝖲𝖴𝖭𝖦𝖧𝖮𝖮𝖭
01. poker face ( she's got me like nobody ) | fluff, enemies secretly in love but oblivious, long drabble? oneshot? 2.3k | 📌
02. the three stages of dating park sunghoon | fluff, scenarios, drabbles, 1.1k |
03. happy for a while | angst, rebound!reader, no physical cheating though, painful but really good i promise, 1.4k drabble |
04. i'll wait for your love | long drabble 2.2k, suggestive: making out, summer fling, happy ending, fluff, slight angst, "he's super hot so why not" trope | 📌
𝖭𝖨𝖲𝖧𝖨𝖬𝖴𝖱𝖠 𝖱𝖨𝖪𝖨
01. stop teasing me! ( where his hidden feelings are not so hidden. ) | fluff, older reader, super short <500, scenario, drabble |
𑁍 。 𝖥𝖨𝖫𝖤 𝟢𝟢𝟦──── HARD HOURS-REACTIONS, HEADCANONS & DRABBLES. ( PG 18 )
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disclaimer ! i write nsfw for the hyung line only and you can find long nsfw fics for individual members down under the oneshot category. things i do/don't write about.
HYUNG-LINE
hold your breath : enhypen hyung line smut drabbles event ( ONGOING )
01. enhypen when you wear a lingerie ( where you give them a little surprise. ) | SMUT, short little scenario, reaction | 📌📌 POPULAR
02. enhypen hyung line doing men things | just then doing some dirty/nasty typical guy stuff, headcanon type? short |
03. enhypen when you tempt them during no nut november ( and they cave in ) | reaction, scenario, SMUT, rough.. | 📌 POPULAR
LEE HEESEUNG
01. agent heeseung: little bit dangerous baby, that's how i like it ( where agent red gets distracted ) | agent!hee at the club, fingering brief, headcanons |
02. when you can't fall asleep at night | est relationship, overstimulation short drabble | POPULAR
03. why are you so shy baby? it's just me | friends being freaky, humping, short drabble |
PARK JONGSEONG
01. stop moving | est relationship, public sex(?), short drabble |
02. jay with an older!fem | dom!jay, friends, doggy?, short drabble |
SIM JAEYUN
01. candy, you're like a drug | featuring, jake and candy from WATERMELON SUGAR this can absolutely be read as a standalone |
preview. where jake teaches you how to blow him behind the bleachers just before his soccer practice, unable to resist the charm of you in a cheerleader outfit. well it's not like he has to resist you anymore, you are finally officially his girl.
02. one of your girls tonight | fuck buddies with rich fuckboy!jake, rough sex, short drabble |
PARK SUNGHOON
01. her vanilla greed | banging it on with enemy roommate!sunghoon, rough & first time kinda, short drabble |
𑁍 。 𝖥𝖨𝖫𝖤 𝟢𝟢𝟧──── ONESHOTS. ( PG & R rated )
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﹙𝖫𝖤𝖤 𝖧𝖤𝖤𝖲𝖤𝖴𝖭𝖦﹚ : 𝗉𝗋𝖾𝗍𝗍𝗒 𝖻𝗈𝗒 𝖺𝖾𝗌𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗍𝗂𝖼 𝗂𝗇 𝖺𝗇 𝖾𝗑𝗂𝗌𝗍𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗂𝖺𝗅 𝖼𝗋𝗂𝗌𝗂𝗌!
01. dear future husband | social media!au + written chapters, spoiled rich girl x middle class hee, SMUT, fluff, humor & crack, minimal angst, college au, nonidol!au, neighbors to lovers!au, childhood friends to lovers!au | discontinued as an smau, will be making a comeback as a long oneshot.
preview. you always get what you want, spoiled with the love of everyone around you. and it's all innocent love, at least that's what everyone thinks. it comes with much surprise therefore, when heeseung makes a move on you. thirteen long years of being in the brother zone having made him utterly clueless that if he’s going to date you he has to pass through your actual brothers first. and he knows how scary they can be. especially since they are known to have a sister complex and he’s been the third scary one with them, numerous times before.
02. his muse | photographer heeseung paired model reader with a secret twist, lots of SMUT, fluff barely, angst, age gap, probably bdsm heavy? PROBABLY, you are my muse trope obv, dark romance au |
update. currently under planning & writing stage, written progress 1%
03. got my eyes on you | strangers to lovers classical trope, college au, popular frat guy with quiet girl trope, quite literally only has eyes for his girl, loves to make her heart race tropes kinda thing. lotss of fluff, smut. heavy revamp around 15-16k |
update. currently under writing and revamp stage. written progress 40%
﹙𝖯𝖠𝖱𝖪 𝖩𝖮𝖭𝖦𝖲𝖤𝖮𝖭𝖦﹚ : 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝖺𝖻𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋𝗌𝖾𝗅𝖿, 𝗂 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾.
01. daddy issues, my little girl (teaser) | neighbours to lovers, strangers to lovers, SMUT, fluff, comfort, angst, romance, ddlg concept, i know you can do it but let me do it for you trope, oneshot, around 35k, revamp + new part | 📌.THE FAV!
preview. you had always had daddy issues, for as long as you could remember. so when jay came along with his caring nature, how could you possibly keep your feelings at bay? not to forget, your roses of love have wilted long before you even knew what love meant but jay, he’s here at your doorstep with a watering can. will you be able to refuse? or where, new neighbor dr jay park is asked to babysit you over the week. ironically the only man you have ever had a crush on.
02. devil's mistress: be my queen | villain!jay with the hero's girl, dark romance, SMUT, fluff, around 20-25k, if my princess wants it, she gets it trope, villain gets the girl au |
update. currently under writing stage, written progress 2%
03. loved in shades of wrong | second lead au, lots of angst, jay and sunoo as the leads, around 15k, if he wanted to he would trope |
update. currently in planning-outlining stage, written progress 0%
﹙𝖲𝖨𝖬 𝖩𝖠𝖤𝖸𝖴𝖭﹚ : 𝗉𝖾𝗋𝖿𝖾𝖼𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇, 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝗈𝖿 𝖻𝖾𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗉𝖾𝗋𝖿𝖾𝖼𝗍. 𝗌𝗎𝖼𝗁 𝖺𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎.
01. watermelon sugar (M) | roommates to lovers, SMUT, fluff, crack, fuckboy soft for his girlie trope, college au, oneshot, 13.5k, a major revamp | POPULAR
preview. he’s the sweetest to you, one might confuse him for your boyfriend, but he’s not, he just your fuckboy of a roommate who treats you like a delicate candy, always looking out for you and never at you; or so you think.
02. call me destiny | an online to offline love au, loosely based off of the cdrama love o2o, college au, SMUT, fluff and crack, dumb x dumber couple. the 'im crazy about her but i don't have the guts to tell her' trope. around 11-12k |
update. currently under writing stage, written progress 40-45%
03. main attraction | isekai, age gap, sort of dark romance, SMUT ofc, fluff, angst, strong power dynamics, around 20k probably |
update. currently under planning stage, written progress 1%
﹙𝖯𝖠𝖱𝖪 𝖲𝖴𝖭𝖦𝖧𝖮𝖮𝖭﹚ : 𝗍𝖺𝗅𝖾𝗇𝗍𝖾𝖽, 𝗇𝖺𝗋𝖼𝗂𝗌𝗌𝗂𝗌𝗍𝗂𝖼 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗁𝗈𝗍?
01. somewhere in northern italy (teaser) | fake dating, enemies to lovers, fluff, crack, smut, one shot. at least 10k or more | 📌
preview. park sunghoon hates oranges, he always has. the tangy citrusy tingles he's so not fond of it. he also hates you, the living embodiment of an orange: cheery, full of life, and well, round. why should he be bothered by it though? all he has to do is work hard to get into his dream university. but the thing is, he really needs a specific recommendation letter for it. something which he can only get from your father. and hypothetically speaking, he can't just ask for it, so he does you 'a favor for a favor'; he fake dates you on your trip home for summer break and surprise surprise your family owns the biggest orange farm in the country.
02. the hot dad next door | dilf au, neighbours to lovers, smut, fluff, oneshot, around 10k or more, age gap | 📌
teaser one, teaser two.
preview. the ever quintessential first time dad moves in next door with his five year old and finds it impossible not to fall for you, the pretty girl who gives his daughter cookies and him; the doll eyes. obsessed with your entire being, unable to keep his hands off you, park sunghoon questions if he's just crazy or he's crazy over you.
03. happy ever after | exes to lovers, swimmer!sunghoon with journalist!ex, lots of angst but they get back together, SMUT, revamp of around 14-16k |
update. currently in the revamp stage, written progress 0% in terms of revamping
04. the way she wears him | just boyfriend sunghoon tales that bother the rest of the hyung line, full blast on SMUT, around 10-12k, shameless couple trope lmao |
update. currently under the writing stage, progress 10%
05. million dollar date | tinder date with hot guy au, SMUT, strangers to lovers, fluff, around 10k |
update. currently under planning stage, progress 0%
﹙𝖪𝖨𝖬 𝖲𝖤𝖮𝖭𝖶𝖮𝖮﹚ : 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝗍𝗈𝗋𝗒 𝗈𝖿 𝗉𝗋𝗂𝗇𝖼𝖾 𝗌𝗂𝖾𝗀𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝖽 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝗐𝖺𝗇 𝗊𝗎𝖾𝖾𝗇.
01. loved in shades of wrong | second lead au, lots of angst, jay and sunoo as the leads, around 15k, if he wanted to he would trope |
update. currently in planning-outlining stage, written progress 0%
﹙𝖸𝖠𝖭𝖦 𝖩𝖴𝖭𝖦𝖶𝖮𝖭 ﹚ : 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗏𝖾𝗇 𝗌𝖾𝗇𝗍, 𝗐𝗋𝗂𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗇 𝖻𝗒 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝗌 & 𝖽𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗆𝗌.
have a few rough plans for fics but nothing is set in stone. there's like three different ones but they're kind of hard aus to write. if you have any good ideas, feel free to send them in.
﹙𝖭𝖨𝖲𝖧𝖨𝖬𝖴𝖱𝖠 𝖱𝖨𝖪𝖨 ﹚ : 𝗆𝗂𝗅𝗅𝗂𝗈𝗇𝖺𝗂𝗋𝖾 𝖼𝗅𝗎𝖻 𝗋𝗈𝗐, 𝗂 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗀𝗂𝗏𝖾 𝖺 𝖿𝗎𝖼𝗄!
01. sign of affection | retelling of the manga/anime sign of affection, around 7k probably not too sure about this |
ⓘ 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐑
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so-i-am-kinda-funny-tm · 5 years ago
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Heroes Rising In A Nutshell
Nine: I ……..am inevitable.
*tries to kill Bakugo, who dodges*
Bakugo: Oh yeah? On your left.
*Deku crashes down by Nine, raising his 100% OFA fist above the villain as Bakugo readies his brand new OFA power*
Midoriya: Hi, inevitable. I’m Deku.
*Roll credits*
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razorblade180 · 2 years ago
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Twin Snowflakes Master Post
Here it is! Years of chaos in one spot! Technically this isn’t all the posts but everything I think is really important, worth mentioning, or pretty helpful. They are in chronological order! I want to give the hugest thank you to @danurso for already having a file with all the story chapter links for me to grab! I wouldn’t have made this post any time soon without them.
I would like to add that I started writing this near the end of Volume 6 and had the vast majority of the structure all done as V7 Ep1 aired. In other words, certain concepts and people are around before canon said “Haha, screw you.” One last thing, in the actual chapters, the writing style changes further in. Like I said, I’ve been writing this for 4 years.
synopsis
welcome to Remnant after Salem’s defeat and our heroes have moved forward in their lives! Take a look into an au focusing on Jaune and Weiss’s kids, alongside children of other friends, enemies, and rivals alike as they face a new terrifying force while handling the struggles of growing up alongside some of Remant’s greatest Heroes.
The lore/context
Not So Kept Secret
You’re Enough
New Norm
Equal Shares
Namesake
New Look
Well?
Say Goodbye
Cold Veins and Promises
Dog Days and Resolutions
Freezing Point
Dynamics in a nutshell
Division
Sweet Sadness
Red Carpet
Say So
Not Enough
Twin Snowflakes
0 - Prologue
1 - Cold Training
2 - Warming Up
3- Checkup
4- Checkup pt2
5- Support
6- A Slow Morning
7- People
8- It’s Tricky
9- Phased
10- Expedited Exam pt1
11- Expedited Exam pt2
12- A Guest
13- A Guest pt2
14- Getting Ready
15- Foreign Princess
16- Royal Court
17- Alone Time
18- A Better Day
19- Skill, Sickness, and Skirts
20- Choice Words
21- Ice Breaker
22- Ground Zero
23- Struggling
24- Date Night
25- Date Night pt2
26/1- Preparation
26/2- Preparation (second half)
27- Hill Climbing
28- Connections
29- Coward
30- Little Moments
31- Final Days
32- Show Time
33- Show Stealers
34- Full Swing
35- Major Upset
36- Morale
37- Cunning Plays
38- Knights Battle
39- Stepping Up
40- Growing Pains
41- Pieces at Play
42- Then the World Stood Still
43- Final Warmth
44- Miracles and Memories
45- A Book by its Cover
46- Weathering the Storm
47- Who Are You?
48- Winter Wonderland
49- Adjustment
50- Face Off!
51- You vs Us
52- Final Encore
Finale- A New Tune
Post story- Recovery
Post Story- Summer vs Nick
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spade-riddles · 3 years ago
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I am not into this stuff usually, but a mutual tipped me off so I started to look into it. It may be a mere coincidence, but I thought it was worth posting. Note the diamonds on her shirt:
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A friend sent me the link to this video called:
Ace of Diamonds ♦️ Cards of Truth
In the caption was this:
♦️ Ace of Diamonds days every year: January 26, February 24, March 22, April 20, May 18, June 16, July 14, August 12, September 10, October 8, November 6, December 4 (after sunrise)
Ace of Diamonds are, in a nutshell, a new, concrete beginning.
We all know that December 4th is KissGate, and it is also the first date that 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 anon's message points to:
🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 Buckle up, this is just the beginning. 43+27 days until the end of the year. - October 22
A new concrete beginning on December 4th?
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gryffieverse · 3 years ago
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Character Profile
Full name: Henry Maxim Van Tassel
Meaning of name: Henry - House ruler, Maxim - greatest
Nickname: Love (by Eli), My love (by Eli, when they’re married)
Reason for nickname: Eli is an idiot and lame
Birth date: September 23rd, 1967
Zodiac sign: Libra
Libras born on September 23 are energetic factfinders. These highly verbal people combine a love of learning with good taste -- the hallmark of their sign. September 23 people manage to project an image of seriousness while still maintaining their charm.
Age: 26 (as of the beginning of the story)
CONTENT WARNING: mental illness, abusive parent, alcohol and drug abuse, violence
In a nutshell: Henry is the first-born son of a rich and influential family. His father is the CEO of an investment company, while his mother is a high-profile politician. He has never lacked anything and has been living the high life, not caring who he hurts in the process. When he’s twenty-five years old, he gets taken hostage by a group of people posing as only his mother’s political enemies (although their true motivations turn out to be even wider reaching) and his mother refuses to pay the ransom they ask for the safe return of their son. Henry spends a year in the clutches of his captors, only escaping with the help of a mysterious man who goes by Steve and doesn’t give a last name.
Once safely back at home, Steve reveals that the people who kidnapped him are still after them, and that Henry must help him put a stop to their plans before it’s too late. Embroiled in the mystery are also other characters from Henry’s past some of whom he thought were dead. Who is really behind it all? What do they want? And can Henry keep his loved ones safe from whoever is coming after them?
Physical appearance
Faceclaim(s): Young: Emjay Anthony, Main: Matthew Daddario, Older: Eric Bana
Height: 6ft 3 (190.5 cm)
Eye color: Brown
Hair color: Dark brown/black
Tattoos, scars, distinguishing features, etc: No tattoos, we imagine the runes don’t exist in Shadowhunters
Usual fashion of dress: business casual
Jewelry or accessories: expensive watches and cufflinks
Young:
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Personality
Henry takes after his mother in his ability to be extremely personable. He is able to befriend and then use people for his own gains fairly easily. He’s charming, rich, and good-looking (a fact of which he is very aware of and takes advantage of often). Henry is extroverted and enjoys big gatherings and being surrounded by his friends and loved ones.  He has a jealous streak, and he is possessive of people and things around him. He doesn’t want to lose anything, ever.
Despite his love of people, he also has a side that detests the political machinations of his mother and who jut wants to move to the countryside, never to grace the parties of New York’s elite again. He would describe himself as quite boring behind the scenes. He is compassionate and caring, willing to go to any lengths to help those he cares about. He is also very forgiving and falls in love easily.
Greatest joy in life: His siblings, his friends, cooking
Greatest fear: Something bad happening to those he loves
Why? He is very dependent on the people close to him and handles loss and/or solitude poorly. He feels responsible for his younger siblings, especially after he realizes that his mother isn’t the best parent in the world.
What single event would most throw this character’s life into complete turmoil? The death of either or both of his siblings.
Character is most at ease when: At home cooking, or anywhere with his close friends just having fun
Most ill at ease when: His mother asks him to do something he knows is wrong.
Enraged when: Someone or something threatens the things and people he cares about.
Depressed or sad when: He feels lonely
Priorities: His family
If granted one wish, it would be: He wants to step down from business and politics and open a restaurant of his own.
Character’s soft spot: His little sister Lorelai, later on his children
Is this soft spot obvious to others? Yes.
Greatest strength: Henry is compassionate
Greatest vulnerability or weakness: Jealousy, obliviousness, having been born into wealth.
Biggest regret: Trusting Demo and that time when he and Eli weren’t speaking.
Minor regret: Not standing up to his mother.
Biggest accomplishment: Getting his shit together and getting together with Eli.
Minor accomplishment: Quitting his job at his father’s company
Past failures they would be embarrassed to have people know about: Henry was kind of a an asshole in high school and is embarrassed about all the things he did and the people he hurt back then.
Character’s darkest secret: While escaping captivity, he shot someone, and it shook him deeply.
Does anyone else know? Steve, who was helping him escape at the time.
Other: Henry suffers from PTSD from having been held hostage for a year. He has debilitating panic attacks and struggles to come to term with it.
 Goals
Drives and motivations:
Henry was raised to follow in his mother and father’s footsteps into politics and business. He starts out wanting to fulfill his parents’ wishes and it’s very important to him that they approve of him. Once he realizes it’s not what he actually wants, his goals change and he wants to find his own interests, including opening the restaurant and carving his own path in life.
Immediate goals: To get back on his feet after his ordeal, to win back his girlfriend and settle things with his family.
Long term goals: To figure out what the people who kidnapped him want and stop their plans, to be set free of his family expectations.
How the character plans to accomplish these goals: He has no idea at the beginning of the story, and he doesn’t want to involve any of his friends in the mess. It becomes quite clear quite fast that he’s not cut out for the job though, and he ends up getting help from many people. As for winning back his girlfriend and being set free of his mother’s expectations, well…
How other characters will be affected: Henry’s parents will be upset and will have to make other arrangements. Many friendship dynamics in Henry’s life will change and the way the world sees him will too.
 Past
Hometown: New York City, New York, USA
Type of childhood:
Henry comes from generational wealth and has always had great expectations thrust upon him, even form an early age. He was also quite privileged and travelled often, especially to Europe.
Most formative childhood memory: When he was fifteen, there was a fire in his family’s apartment that nearly killed his sister. It was long thought that the fire was caused by their brother Seven, but when the truth came out years later when they were adults, it was shocking for everyone.
Childhood hero: Luke Skywalker, his mother
Dream job: A chef
Education: MBA (Master's in Business Administration)
Religion: He was raised protestant but he’s not religious.
Finances: Wealthy
 Present
Current location: New York City
Currently living with: He lived alone prior to his kidnapping, then lived a short while with his parents before moving back into his old apartment.
Pets: He gets a dog when he is older.
Occupation: Chief marketing officer (CMO) in his father’s company
Finances: Wealthy
 Family
Mother: Camille Austen, née Simmons
As a child and a young adult, Henry and Camille share a good relationship. He is definitely her favourite child, and she places a lot of trusts and expectations upon him. He is also the most alike to her, or so she thinks. As an adult, Henry starts to disagree with her mother and see through her lies. They grow more distant and have explosive arguments. Eventually they manage to somewhat reconcile and remain cordial until her death.
FC: Famke Janssen
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Father: Leonard Van Tassel
They’re in good terms, though Leonard is often out of the country and in lieu of spending time with his son, he sends him money. They’re not close.
FC: Matthew Del Negro
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Stepfather: Samuel Austen
Samuel and Samuel married when Henry was only three years old. Henry has known him for most of his life and considers him a family member. Samuel is the father of Henry’s younger siblings and Henry has a good relationship with him.
FC: JR Bourne
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Brother:  Dakota “Seven” Austen
Seven loves his brother but is often jealous of him and the love their mother showers him with. He compares himself to Henry and this causes issues in their relationship. Henry is protective of Seven and worries about him often. Nevertheless, they would both drop everything to come to the other’s aid, and they both know it.
FC: Miguel Herrán
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Sister: Lorelai Austen
Lorelai is the younger twin, and thus the baby of the family. Henry is especially protective of her, which frustrates Lorelai to no end, though she does appreciate a big brother who has her back. She and Henry talk a lot and at one point team up against their mother’s schemes while Seven still believes her.
FC: Carlson Young
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Love interests:
Mo Darling (ex-fiancée)
Henry and Mo started dating in high school when she was sixteen and he was eighteen. They dated on and off for many years. They were together when Henry was kidnapped and resumed their relationship afterwards, though things weren’t going very well for them before. They even got engaged, though neither was really sure if continuing to date is the right way forward. During their attempt to make their relationship work, Mo got pregnant, but they broke up due to Henry’s feelings for his best friend. They remained friends and shared the custody of their daughter.
FC: Alycia Debnam-Carey
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Eli Moore (husband)
Henry and Eli were best friends since they were sixteen and fifteen respectfully. They were inseparable and once Henry started dating Mo, Eli was often included in the couple’s plans. Henry didn’t realize he had any sort of romantic feelings towards his friend until Eli got himself a boyfriend when they were already adults, but Eli had been in love with Henry for years, which Mo knew. Once Mo and Henry got engaged, Eli took it hard. Henry ended up finding out about Eli being gay when the pair kissed while Henry was still together with Mo, which caused them to put their entire friendship on hold and Henry’s engagement to fall apart.
Losing Eli made Henry realize he might have had feelings for him all along. He didn’t deal well with this and ended up going a drift, partying, and sleeping around. He met and started an affair with Demo at this time (which annoyed Eli). Slowly Eli and Henry start to build their friendship back up and eventually get together.
FC: Joe Sugg
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Demo Buttergood (ex-boyfriend-adjacent)
Henry and Demo met when Henry’s life was pretty much spiraling out of control. They didn’t exactly date, but spent time together for a while, mostly partying. When Demo turned out to have been working for the enemy all along, the affair came to a sudden end and the pair became enemies. Henry and Demo clashed many times but once the real villain was uncovered, managed to make peace, and became friends. Demo is the godfather of Henry’s daughter.
FC: Daniel Sharman
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Daughter: Marylou “Lou” Van Tassel
Lou was born at a time when her parents were at a crossroads with what to do with their relationship. They resolved to split up, but Lou had a relatively happy childhood, nevertheless. She loved both her stepparents, getting along especially well with Eli. Henry dotes on his daughter and has to be reined in, so he doesn’t buy her everything she asks.
FC: Benedetta Gargari
Son: Archibald ���Archie” Van Tassel
Archie is Henry and Eli’s adopted son. He is fourteen years younger than Lou and came into the family when he was five. His parents were loving and supportive, and he didn’t lack anything his whole childhood.
FC: Young: Jacob Tremblay, Adult: Cody Fern
 Favorites
Color: Blue
Music: Classic rock
Food: Enjoys gourmet dishes
Literature: Non-fiction
Form of entertainment: Movies
Mode of transportation: His car
 Habits
Hobbies: Cooking, running, watching movies
How they would spend a rainy day: Watching movies with Eli
Spending habits: He has money to spare so he’s not overly conscious about saving money
Smokes: If you ask him, he’ll say no but he sometimes smokes
Drinks: A lot
Other drugs: Only occasionally, especially after breaking up with Mo (and Eli)
What do they do too much of? Worry
What do they do too little of? Think about the consequences of his actions
Extremely skilled at: Cooking
Extremely unskilled at: Using firearms
 Traits
Optimist or pessimist
Introvert or extrovert
Daredevil or cautious
Logical or emotional
Disorderly and messy or methodical and neat
Prefers working or relaxing
Confident or unsure of themselves
Animal lover? Yes
 Self-perception
How do they feel about themselves: Henry is quite sure of himself, though he hides some deep-rooted insecurities inside. They’re mostly to do with his sexuality and the fact that he doesn’t want to be a businessman.
One word the character would use to describe self: Boring
What does the character consider their best personality trait? Generous (actually it’s compassionate)
What does the character consider their worst personality trait? Anxious/cowardly (actually it’s jealous and possessive)
How does the character think others perceive them: As rich and powerful but rather boring and basic
What would the character most like to change about themselves: He would like to be brave and good in a fight instead of suffering from PTSD from his experience at the hands of his kidnappers.
 Relationships with others
Opinion of other people in general: He loves people and spending time with them.
Does the character hide his/her true opinions and emotions from others? Yes, if need be but not around his friends.
Person character most hates: Demo Buttergood (formerly), William McAllister
Best friend(s): Eli Moore, Demo Buttergood, Mo Darling
Person character goes to for advice: His mother (formerly), Samuel, Mo, Demo(on and off), Lorelai
Person character feels responsible for or takes care of: Seven and Lorelai, later on his children
Person character feels shy or awkward around: Peyton Bradley. Mo dates him when she’s not dating Henry.
Person character openly admires: His mother (formerly), Demo (on and off)
Person character secretly admires: Peyton Bradley
Most important person in character’s life before story starts: Eli
After story starts: Also Eli
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babyboywilson · 3 years ago
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2, 7, 10, 26, 30 🤠
Thank you nonnie!! <3
2) Anything that you'd like to write but feel like you're unable to?
So, I still have this long!fic idea that I’d like to fully commit to one day. It’s the Disney World fic that is based around s13 deancas and has baby!jack in it. But I feel like I’m unable to write it because my original plans for this fic was to have it at 100k words. And I just don’t know if I could commit to writing something that long, or if anyone would be interested in reading it. I think most of why I feel unable to write it comes from my own fear. I wrote a few thousand words for it and then stopped and it’s been left in my google docs since then.
7) Your favorite ao3 tag.
Idiots in Love.
because, let’s face it, that sums up dean and cas in a nutshell. They really are idiots who are in love. Emphasis on the idiots part because they’re a bunch of dumbasses who just pine over each other all the time
10) Top Three Favorite Fic Tropes
hmmmm. oh god i have so many. Okay, let’s go with: first kiss, domestic bliss, and mutual pining! (also throwing in case fics as a secret 4th option here!)
26) What would you describe as OOC?
ooooh god, this is a tricky question. To me, personally, AUs often feel OOC to me. And that’s just me and my style. Which is why like 99% of the fics I write are canon or canon-adjacent or canon-divergent, because that’s where the characters feel the most real and authentic to me. But, that being said, there is some AUs I’ve fallen in love with. I just have to really be able to feel like the characters are true to their roots.
30) Describe a fic that almost happened, but then it didn’t.
Oooooh. Okay okay. So this fic is still sitting in my google docs. And it’s like 15k words currently and I just stopped writing it. But it was a fic based on 14x15 where instead of Cas and Sam going to pleasantville its Cas and Dean. The whole first chapter followed along with the episode except it was Dean and Cas interacting with the people in the town. And then chapter 2 started this journey where Dean and Cas wake up married in the town and everything is perfect (or so it seems). They get this domestic bliss where they’re husbands and everyone knows they’re married and they‘re really sweet on each other and go on lil dates and share kisses and cuddle together and it feels too good to be true. Each chapter was supposed to bring that weird feeling because each morning Dean and Cas wake up and they have new jobs in the town. And only Cas starts to feel like something isn’t real about what’s going on. In the end they solve the case, find out it was the mayor who was the bad guy, and they leave the town. But after having been married for a week, going back to pretending they aren’t in love feels impossible. They have a huge scene where they finally talk things out and they realize maybe they did like being married, so they go and get married then and there because, what the hell, it’s always the end of the world and now they’ve discovered how good it feels, neither of them wants to let the other go.
writing ask game!
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atinycupofpositivitea · 2 years ago
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Journaling our 🍵 life tea 🍵
Today in a nutshell 🥜
I had a wholesome moment at work which is dear to me. Work was relatively chill and finally temperatures are livable, it's so good. I'm not feeling my best but I have done my hair, mealprepped good food, got to bed at a reasonable time, and spent time listening to music. I've also watched my currently favourite TV show. Even if it is not the best day, I did try to make it better and that's enough to me.
Things we feel grateful for 🐦
I am grateful for my friends.
Positive affirmations and self-love 💖
I am enough. I don't need to give reasons for doing things that make me happy. I am nurturing myself however I can.
Things we hope and look forward to ☘️
I hope tomorrow I have the strength to do the things that make my life a little bit easier and a little bit happier.
Date: 26/07/2023
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redglassesgirl-maruma · 5 years ago
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Hello Everyone! 
A day like today 20 years ago the first novel of our beloved series was published in November 2000. This is an incredible anniversary and that’s why we’ll celebrate the whole month with events! 
I hope you can join this special occasion and contribute a little bit by sharing your posts and art here in tumblr.  
This is not the first event run by this blog, if you want to see what we did in previous years you can visit my tags MA Event,  MA Event 2017 and MA Event 2018.
The dynamic of the events is to have some deliver themes and inspiration divided in different sections. This event will run weekly, except for the last week of the month when we’ll have daily content shared to inspire you even more. 
Please save the date around the last weekend of November for our Live Chat! I’ll post more information about the exact date and time along the next weekly posts.
Update: Live Chat Sunday 29 at 1am Buenos Aires timezone GTM-3 You can check online comparing with your time zone here. We’ll meet and chat, share opinions, and play some games or draw together!
20th Anniversary MA Event - First Week Activity Share your MAlove, share your MArt! From November 1 to November 8
This week we’ll draw fanarts, write fanfics or make any other kind of media to celebrate the 20th anniversary of the series. We have list of 365 prompts in case you need a little bit of extra inspiration, please check under the cut and try to mix anything you pick with a festive mood to make it really special ;D
Remember to tag your posts with #MAnniversary 2020 and #MA Event
Links to the weekly event’s posts:
First Week (in this post) Second Week  Third Week Fourth Week | Monday | Tuesday | Wednesday | Thursday | Friday | Saturday | Sunday
Prompts:
01. Introduction
02. Love
03. Light
04. Dark
05. Seeking Solace
06. Break Away
07. Heaven
08. Innocence
09. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold my Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Fanart
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can’t
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation
101. Hello World
102. Fear
103. Anger
104. Regret
105. Happiness
106. Love
107. Family
108. Friendship
109. Home
110. Childhood
111. Adulthood
112. Birth
113. Death
114. Me
115. You
116. Thoughts
117. Emotion
118. Sun
119. Rain
120. Thunder
121. Noon
122. Midnight
123. Twilight
124. Rooms
125. Window to the Soul
126. Games
127. Halo
128. Serenity
129. Firefly
130. Phone
131. Movie
132. Television
133. Plants
134. Freedom
135. Forgetfulness
136. Remembrance
137. Memorial
138. War
139. Fight
140. Loss
141. Winning
142. Losing
143. Nature
144. Hurricane
145. Storms are brewing
146. Lightning
147. Colors
148. Bravo
149. Punishment
150. Picture
151. Another Wolfs
153. The Life You Dream Of
154. Dreams
155. Tears
157. Smiling
158. Laughing
159. Crying
160. Looking in the Mirror
161. Steam
162. Candy
163. Cats
164. Dogs
165. Glasses
166. Orbit
167. Satellite
168. Stars
169. Jade
170. Emerald
171. Gems
172. Dreaming Out Loud
173. Insomnia
174. Rabbits
175. Snake
176. Borders
177. The Year
178. This Time
179. Last Time
180. Forever and a Day
181. Sometimes
182. Always
183. Power
184. Weakness
185. Green
186. Purple
187. Blue
188. Sight
189. Blindness
190. Hurtful
191. Stages of grief
192. Arguments
193. Country
194. Frog
195. Forest
196. River
197. Flying
198. Mountains
199. Snow
200. Goodbye
201. Heart of Glass
202. My Life
203. Me In a Nutshell
204. Forever Yours
205. True Colors
206. My best friend’s girl
207. Impossible Love
208. Forgiveness
209. Fibers of Our Lives
210. Challenging Dream
211. Living My Dream
212. Forgetting Myself
213. Saving Grace
214. Lonely
215. Unbalanced
216. See-saw
217. Math
218. Match Making
219. Beyond Good and Evil
220. Second Sight
221. Double Take
223. Upon Review
224. Losing You
225. Baseball
226. Shouting
227. Farmland
228. Heartland
229. Brick Wall
230. Glass Houses
231. Eyes
231. Ring
233. Circle
234. Square
235. Boxes
236. Moving
237. Well Being
238. Insanity
239. Repetition
240. Learning
241. Class
242. Flowers
243. Special
244. Snowflakes
245. The Man They Call Jayne
246. Malicious
247. Pretty on the Outside
248. The Outside
249. Thankful
250. Neglect
251. Remorse
252. Embracement
253. Reflecting on My Life
254. Space
255. Constellation
256. Collection
257. Magic
258. Thrill
259. Attack
260. 20 Seconds to Mars
261. Unable
262. Foolish
263. Science
264. Sign of Life
265. Motto
266. Me
267. Balloon
268. Self Esteem
269. Narcissism
270. Ideology
271. Pageantry
272. Keeping Up With the Jones’s
273. Crack in Your Armor
274. Spilling Your Guts
275. Lean on Me
276. Crippling Emotion
277. Biggest Fear
278. Prejudices
279. Fresh
280. Corn
281. Sugar
282. Ice Cream
283. Accents
284. Speech
285. Writing
286. Doom
287. Shape
288. The Real You
289. My Name Is ____
290. Who are You on the Inside
291. Hidden Hatred
292. Hanging
293. Jacket
294. Jail
295. Stepping Up to the Plate
296. Star Player
297. My Hero
298. Castle
299. Losing Yourself
300. Finding Hope
301. Pirates
302. Fallen Angel
303. Drowning Lessons
304. Ghosts in the snow
305. Rawr.
306. Pidgeons… Birdy
307. Broken Hearts Parade
308. Paranoid
309. Vampires
310. Betrayal
311. Emmi&Rumura
312. The three friends
313. Horror
314. Mirror
315. Candlelight
316. Spider moneky
317. Devil
318. Flowers
319. Teddy Bear
320. Mist
321. Kingdom Hearts
322. Ferret
323. Vanilla
324. Thunder
325. Pinto Pony
326. M&Ms
327. Killer
328. Grass
329. Peace
330. Chibi
331. Mr. Klaw, polite Lion
332. Eternal
333. Star girl
334. Hats
335. Calvin & Hobbes
336. Misery (A cup full of something… unknown )
337. Hot chocolate
338. My Chemical Romance
339. Light in the darkness
340. Laughter
341. Nightmares
342. Necklace
343. Fire
344. Clorotaint and Treegirl
345. Swirls
346. Pokemon
347. Friends
348. Double Trouble
349. Do not cross
350. Unknowing
351. Chocolate
352. Time
353. A phone
354. Little kids on a playground
355. Darkness
356. A purple lady
357. Writer’s block
358. The dark corner in my room that I go to cry at (and a unicorn)
359. Sunglasses
360. The sun relaxing by an air conditioner
361. A girl fleeing from her nightmares
362. A girl staring at a blank canvas
363. A visual representation of poetry
364. Trolls
365. A hat
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The Radio Station - Chapter Six - Why Can’t We Be Friends?
26th of November, 2018
  Eventually, she saw it all unfold in the headlines. The lies. The heroin. The trip to rehab. It was devastating to discover the root cause of Matty’s behaviour in such a disconnected way from how she might’ve expected to discover it a few years ago. A part of her wanted to reach out, to check in and see if he was doing all right, offer to help, but she suspected after their last two interactions that maybe she was better off just leaving it. However, in contrast to the sinking feeling from knowing he had been going through such turmoil, it was incredibly uplifting to see him getting back on his feet. For him to be writing and releasing music again meant that he must’ve successfully made it to the other side. Whenever the announcement of a new album came, she waited in anticipation for the email confirming that he’d be coming back on the show. She wasn’t entirely sure if she was excited at the thought of seeing him again, or absolutely dreading the prospect of things still being uncomfortable between them - her emotions seemed to regularly flip flop between the two. It was awfully close to the album release date when she finally got the confirmation from her boss; she had begun to suspect maybe he didn’t want to come back on the show after how they’d left things. He’d have every right to resent her after how she’d treated him.
 She was knocked out of her thoughts whenever she heard a soft knock at the door, turning in her chair to see Matty standing outside with a sheepish smile, having arrived early. His hair was cropped quite a bit shorter than she’d seen it before but he was still sporting his natural curls. He was wearing some puffy yellow coat over a plain shirt, and stock standard worn out blue jeans. It was probably the most… average, that she’d ever seen him look (not that average was ever a truly fitting word to describe Matthew Healy). She waited for him to push the door open and come in, but he seemed to be waiting for her to let him in. As she stood up and opened the door, and he gingerly made his way inside and loitered next to her desk for a minute, she was suddenly vividly reminded of the first time she’d met him. All she could see was the nervous twenty-three-year-old that she’d met six years ago, who was scared shitless about his first proper radio interview. The nostalgia hit like a freight train, and before she could give it a second thought she grabbed him in a tight hug.
  He hugged her back, pressing his face into her shoulder as he let out the breath he had been holding. “I’m sorry…” She said quietly after a moment.
He gave an incredulous laugh at that, “You’re sorry? For what?” He asked. “I was the dickhead.”
“I just…” This hadn’t really been the way she expected herself to instantly react, nor had she thought of anything to say in this situation. Her mouth was running dry trying to come up with the right words to explain what she was feeling. “I wasn’t exactly a good friend.”  
“I think we were both a bit guilty of that.” He chuckled as he ran a hand through his hair, taking a step back.
“I should’ve tried harder.” She tried to explain, frowning at herself as she floundered for the right sentiment.
“It’s fine, truly.” He reassured her. “I wouldn’t have told you what was happening, anyway. Nobody knew.” He added with a shrug.
  They took their seats opposite the desk, both feeling slightly relieved but well aware there was still tension surrounding them. “Uh, is there anything you want me to avoid asking about?” She asked eventually, busying herself with checking the text line to avoid looking directly at him.
“No.” Matty replied instantly. “I’d prefer you ask what you want to rather than censor yourself for my benefit. I won’t answer it if it’s too much.” He clarified. “Thanks for checking, though.”
“Are you…” She hesitated, unsure of the boundaries of their friendship now and how much she should be asking for her own curiosity. “Are you all right now?” She asked as she looked across to him.
He cracked a small smile, “Considerably better. Probably not all the way there yet, though. It’s hard with my girlfriend back at home for the moment, but I’m managing. Keeping busy with other stuff to stay occupied.” He answered truthfully. She nodded in understanding. “And you? It’s been at least three years since we’ve had a proper conversation.” The realisation of how long it had actually been stung slightly, but she ignored that feeling and instead focused on the fact that he seemed to genuinely want to know how she’d been.
“Good.” She grinned. “Doing well on the morning slot now that it’s been a few years.”
“You’ve been making a bit of a reputation for yourself over here, I hear your name get kicked around a bit when I’m at home. It’s nice to see you getting proper recognition for your efforts.” She tried her best not to blush at the subtle compliment.
 Thankfully she didn’t have too long to dwell on his kind words and any connotations behind them before the interview started. The nervous butterflies sat at the pit of her stomach as she switched the live audio and video feeds over, lying in wait in case the interview still felt as awkward and forced as the last two.
“Matty, great to have you back.” She spoke, clearing her throat slightly.
“Great to be back after so long.” He said cheerfully.
“The 1975 release their new record in six days, A Brief Inquiry into Online Relationships-”
“Only six days?” He muttered to himself in slight disbelief.  
“We’ve only got a relatively short interview today, because after this you are heading straight into the live lounge to play a few tracks for us.” He made a noise of agreement. “We’ve heard five singles off it, all of which sound very different from one another in true 1975 fashion.” Matty laughed lightly at that. “And I noticed that you did the same thing with this album as what you did with I Like it When You Sleep; the first single you released was the first track on the album. Is this becoming a habit for you guys?” She asked.
“Probably not a habit.” He started, letting out a huff. “It just felt like the most natural thing to do. Whether it felt like a primary statement or not, I’m not sure. We’d already made an album by that point, we hadn’t made a group of singles. I hadn’t been thinking ‘oh, how do we butter them up?’ Just thought… this is the first song on the record. Put it out.” He shrugged.
  “Do you think this is your strongest record so far?”
“A hundred percent.” He answered instantly.
“I’ve heard people comparing it to OK Computer. Saying that it’s a similar thing for the millennial generation.” She prompted.
He let out a groan, “I try not to think much about it.” He admitted. “I mean, what do I say? It’s so humbling and amazing, but strange also, because… the only realisation that I really came to, about the record – I think the reference to OK Computer is maybe it’s kind of, the narrative is incredibly twinned with how we communicate and the internet and all those kind of things. Which is obviously OK Computer in a nutshell. My favourite records are about life.” He said, clenching his fist for emphasis and knocking the microphone lightly. “It’s maybe a bit of a big thing to say, but I was just writing a record about relationships. Well… I wasn’t even doing that; I was just writing a record. And it turns out if you’re trying to write an honest record about relationships and how they’re mediated in the modern day, you’re kind of by proxy writing about the internet.” He explained. Things already felt more natural than what they had of late. Matty felt more open and responsive, which instantly put her mind at ease.
  “One of the other singles that we’ve heard from the album is Love It If We Made It, which is…” She tried to pick her words carefully to best capture her thoughts on the song succinctly, “a pretty powerful song to say the least.”
Matty nodded enthusiastically before answering, “The thing with Love It If We Made It… it was very, very difficult to write. It’s a list of information. The idea stemmed from the fact that over a year we collected tabloid newspapers every day to make the lyrics. Unfortunately, when we got to trying that, it was too slapstick. The song was hard to get right. It needed to be as objective and as fair and as anti… ‘watch out sheeple’ as possible. And that’s hard to do.”
“It seems you guys did a good job with it in the end. It’s been resonating well with our listeners.”
“Thanks.” Matty grinned proudly.  
“It’s Not Living If It’s Not With You has also had quite the response.” She added, hoping he’d have a bit to say about that, and that maybe it could work as a segue to the questions blowing up her screen in her peripheral vision.
“It’s… I don’t know…” He sighed, staring blankly at the wall behind her as he tried to formulate an answer. “The way I always explain it, it’s like it’s a song that sounds poppy but it’s about something serious. Which, okay, that’s straight up 1975. And that’s because the feeling that I get from music, narratively or musically, can kind of be the same thing. You know like being nervous or being like, er, anxious for a date, physically could be the same feeling as the fear of heights if you get rid of all the intellect. Emotionally, you get the same thing. I’ve always been like, I get this feeling when I read the lyrics of Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen but I get the same carnal feeling when I hear the music to Girls Just Want to Have Fun. So… the synthesis of those ideas has just been the most obvious thing in the world for me, you know what I mean?” He looked across to her for confirmation. “I think that idea really sums up The 1975. If you’re a big fan of The 1975, that’s the most 1975-iest song on the record.”
  She had hoped he would jump straight into the lyrical content of the song, but clearly she would need to segue into it herself. “That totally makes sense.” She agreed. “There’s been a bit of a debate about the subject matter of It’s Not Living.” She said, giving him a cautious glance. He’d said not to worry about asking whatever she wanted to, but that didn’t stop her from feeling like she was delving too deep into his private life.
He hummed thoughtfully. “I’m pretty sure most of the fans know what it’s about.” He said with a dry laugh. “I’ve not like… done some big reveal of my relationship with drugs over the past couple of years. I think that because…” He stared down at the desk with a frown, “I used to have nightmares about being exposed. Because remember, my whole game has always been that ‘do I know that you know that I think that I’m a rock star?’ that’s always been my whole thing.” He said with a pointed look. “So, the idea though, of actually being known for being a junkie and doing those kinds of things, used to terrify me. Because then I’m a cliché. I lose all of my irony and lose all of my funniness because I’m an actual cliché. So, I think even when I’m talking about it on this record, I’m still going ‘Danny ran into some complications-’ it’s like I’m using characters. It’s a bit like somebody going ‘I’ve got this mate, right, and he’s got a bit of this weird rash-’ “ He chuckled. “Like ‘yeah, all right, well tell your mate-’ it’s like we know who you’re talking about. I think the idea that I’m still trying to hide and remove myself from it is part of the gag. But then the chorus is brutally honest. It’s difficult to write a song like that. It’s hard to despise the idea of fetishizing or romanticising drug use as a behaviour but then only having my truth. Like I don’t have anything else, I don’t have anywhere else to talk about it. There is a hopelessness to drug addiction. You don’t keep doing it because it’s cool, you keep doing it because you feel like there’s no life without it.” His expression seemed to become quite sombre at that before he continued his train of thought. “And to express that… it wasn’t like a relief for me. The music is a catharsis for me, but it wasn’t like I needed to get that out. Unfortunately, I’m only my set of experiences, and they’re pretty limited as somebody who’s been on the road for four years trying to mediate his life through drug addiction, y’know? So yeah… it’s difficult to walk that line. Um… But I just had to make sure that… like with most of my work, any discussion of my behaviour is normally with a profound distaste. And kids are smart, man.”
  She hadn’t really expected him to be so open about it so readily. “What started it?” She asked instinctually, almost forgetting for a moment that she was at work and meant to be providing entertainment. “If you don’t mind me asking.” She added as an afterthought.
He waved a hand dismissively at her worry. “I’d be on stage, and there would be however many thousands of people. And I’m genuinely trying to connect with people, you know? And then it’s done. Go back to the hotel room. Go to sleep. Like… what?” He answered with a frustrated huff. “I was trying to change culture in my head ten minutes ago and now I’ve gotta go to sleep? I used drugs to go to sleep primarily. I’ve never had a good relationship with sleep, anyway… I’ve always been jealous of people they’ll tell me about a dream and they’ll kind of like explain this little kind of film that they’ve been that has a dynamic of emotions and it was up and it was down and my dreams are just like terror. Just fear. I’ve never had that many good dreams. And drugs stop you dreaming. But then obviously… you have solutions to get rid of that post-show buzz. Didn’t really get me anywhere. Spoilt it, as well. Did way too much. Did loads of it.” He admitted. “So, I can’t do anymore of it… when I’m older.” He laughed.
  “So, you became reliant on that as a comedown?” She questioned.
“It was always gonna happen with me with opiates.” He said bluntly. “I only say this in case people relate to it, but like, when I was younger, I kind of used to dream about being sedated. And unfortunately, sex, drugs, other things, religion, I’ve loved all these things in my life but they’ve never just-” He clicked his fingers, “turned it off. And unfortunately, when I tried those drugs, I – temporarily, for a moment – had that. And I was like, right, this is gonna help. And erm,” He picked at his nail anxiously. “It just takes your shine off, slows you down. Makes you lie, which is a nightmare for somebody who is so Mr Tell The Truth.”
“The lies are what got you caught?”
He made a noise of contemplation. “The problem is… I’m very, very lucky, is what I am. And I have an infrastructure around me of like… we’ve been a band since we were fourteen, I’m twenty-nine, right.” He said with a pointed look in her direction. “We’re like brothers, we love each other. I have amazing opportunities like this,” He gestured around the studio, “I have my health, I have all these things. There’s not a lot of people around me who allow stuff like… hard drug use. And that’s really annoying when you’re a drug addict. But it also makes you reflect, you know what I mean? Because you just end up lying, and being a version of yourself that- but that’s part of the sickness. You incentivise things weirdly.” He explained with a shrug.
  “And the rehab centre you went to was in Barbados?” She asked. He nodded in response. “I heard that the band paid for that?”
His expression visibly softened when she brought that up. “Yeah. I think the nice story was that uh… Obviously, I’m in a fortunate place in my career that - obviously I have to think about those kind of financial things - but before I went I was kind of thinking ‘I’ll sort that out when I’m out there’ and then I remember saying to Jamie ‘oh-‘ and he was like ‘aw nah, nah, it’s all sorted’ and I was like ‘Oh, how much did it - what was it?’ and he was like ‘oh, well we just did it out the band’ and I was like ‘oh really??’ “ He seemed visibly touched by this story, even retelling it now.
“That was pretty amazing of them to do.”
“Yeah… Yeah, it was.” He muttered, still clearly caught up in his own thoughts. “And you know what, if you want a band to last forever, share.” He added simply.
  “And this place you went to, supposedly they do a bunch of stuff with horses?” She asked in confusion. When she had heard this information, she was almost certain she had gotten her wires crossed, but Matty was already confirming what she had said.
“Equine therapy, yeah! It was, basically…” He started trying to explain, before cracking a smile and looking across to her. “In reality what it was, for the first two or three days was me stood in a field rolling my eyes next to a horse.” He said with a laugh. “That’s what it was really. This guy put me in a field with a horse and was like ‘talk to the horse’ so I’m like” He gave a sarcastic look, “ ‘…all right?’ So, he leaves me alone and I’m like ‘hey man’ and the horse obviously didn’t say anything.” She couldn’t help but laugh at the image. “And then he put me in the round pen, right. He put me in this pen which was just round – was a good explanation of it.” He reprimanded himself with a snort. “And I stood in the middle, and basically he said ‘I want you to walk towards the horse. It’s gonna send the horse around in a loop, and I want you to assert your position. You’re not going to get the horse. You’re just telling the horse that this is where you’re going’. All this stuff. So, I do it. And he goes ‘you’ll notice three things, at one point the horse will dip its head, then it’ll bow its ear to you, then it’ll start biting its lips. Once it’s done these three things, I want you to turn your back and drop the rope.’ So, I’m like right, lips, thing, do this, yep. And the horse is running, the horse is running, I watched for these three cues, and I dropped the rope and I turned round. The horse stopped dead.” He clapped his hands together for emphasis, staring at her seriously.
  “I swear to you, it was one of the most profound moments of my life. The horse stopped dead, came over to me and stood behind me – and this is a horse that for three days had mugged me off. And I was… stood there with this horse, that now… wanted to be with me?” He seemed entirely perplexed by this. “Then when I walked it wouldn’t cross my feet,” He gestured to his feet as he said this, knocking his microphone in the process. “Sorry, I keep hitting the microphone. Way too gesticulated today. Erm, when I went into the field and hung out with it, it wanted to be with me. And then I stood there and was like ‘Ah… Right…’ Then all of these profound things… It was so…” He tried his best to find the words. “It ate everything it needed to eat, and didn’t complain about it, and didn’t eat too much of it, and ate the right stuff. It had the ability to destroy anything it wanted, but the desire to hurt nothing. It was physically perfect and strong. It was forgiving with its time with me. And it was kind of compassionate in a way, ‘cause he’s a horse, he doesn’t want me there, he just wants to be a horse. But he let me be there.” It was abundantly clear how much of an impact this experience had on Matty. He spoke about it so passionately that it was hard not to feel moved by what he was saying. “I found myself envying all of these human qualities in a horse. And I think that was the point of it…” He said with a look of finality. “At least, I hope that was the point of it. Otherwise I’ve screwed it up and learned nothing.” He laughed loudly. “But it worked for me.”
  “How are you finding it? Being off the drugs?” She asked, leaning back in her seat after having been leant forward in interest for the last few minutes as he told his story.
He pulled a face as he tried to answer that in a manner suitable for a mass radio audience. “I mean… I wouldn’t say I’m this ‘beacon of sobriety’ “ He punctuated that with air quotes, “that’s kind of, telling you how it is to be an ex addict. I don’t know.” He answered sincerely. “I’ve not gone long enough. I’m not gonna start talking about ‘I haven’t done drugs in five years - ten years’ it was only a few months ago. I was still doing loads of them.” He said as he scratched at his neck.
“Is it harder now without them?”
“I don’t sleep as good as I used to with it, but I’m getting by.” He replied with a nod. “I’m all right with sleeping now. The band and my girlfriend have been really supportive and helpful. I’m doing all the things now that I used to do when I took drugs all the time. So, I’ve just made a record without doing it all the time,” He ticked that off on a finger, “so that was an experience, that was a challenge. I’ve now started touring without doing it all the time,” He ticked that off as well, “that’s an experience, that’s a challenge. I’m now about to start getting on planes all the time and touring internationally,” He added that to the list, “that’ll be a challenge. But you’ve just gotta take it day by day as the cliché says, or you’ll freak yourself out.”
  “You talk about drugs pretty freely in your music, but you don’t really speak about it in interviews, was that to try and stay… disconnected from it to some degree? Did you think it was going to get as bad as it did?” She asked. She had entirely tuned out of the fan questions being sent in now, asking these questions almost purely from her own curiosity to know what had happened to the Matty she knew.
“No, no, no… I didn’t. I mean, I think the thing that I think I always have confidence in is that because I’ve – regardless of if it’s drugs or relationships - the main thing I’ve done with The 1975 is spoken about myself with kind of quite a profound disdain.” He answered. “There’s not really been a celebration of the behaviour. I think that if I was ever romanticising or fetishizing the use of drugs, I think I’d catch myself doing it. And if I ever have done that in a lyric, it will be immediately met with a lyric that shows that one up to be ironic or flawed.” He elaborated. That made sense. Most of his songs did reflect that attitude. “I’ve just had to be honest. Religion allows you to kind of give something away, sex, exactly the same thing. They’re just ways of giving up some kind of responsibility in the moment. But by that point I’d done ‘em all!” He grinned, still trying to keep the mood light despite the heavy topic. “Drugs was the only one left.”
  She stared at him for a moment, just taking in all of the information he’d given her in such a short timeframe. It was a lot to process all at once, but it made a lot of the pieces click into place and answered a lot of questions that had kept her up at night when they had lost contact. Eventually she clocked back into reality, seeing that he was watching her just as intently as she had been watching him while he had divulged some of the most intimate aspects of his life.
“So, to a lighter note-” She segued.
“It’s fine, I don’t mind talking about it.” He said with a chuckle.
She smiled back at him, “I’m sure our listeners have enjoyed hearing it all in such great detail. But, there are some other big events that have been happening in your life as well that we haven’t brought up.” She said.
“Oh?”
“The 1975 will be headlining Reading and Leeds next year.”
“Yes!” He beamed. “It’s our first big headline festival. It gets me proper emotional. We didn’t just go as kids, after I got to thirteen, Christmas took a back seat and the date on my calendar was Reading and Leeds. I went one year with a tenner and no tent. I mean, I’ve had some moments there. It’ll definitely be a very humble show. All of this ego and confidence here will be gone.” He scoffed, “ ‘Honestly guys, thanks so much for coming.’ ” He said in a feigned blubbering emotional voice, before giggling at himself. “But like, we’ve just become a really good band in my opinion. I think we could headline Reading and Leeds tomorrow if you asked us to.”
  “Are you particularly excited to have content off the new album to perform there?”
“Definitely. There are some songs on there that will be added into the festival setlists. It was about creating a distillation of what preceded it. Everything needed to be better, more extreme. Poppy bits poppier, heavy bits heavier, honest bits more honest.” He explained with a nod. “You can look at your work and be like ‘what did I do there that someone likes’ or ‘let’s try and do that piano thing’. Me, when I’m like, really personal, really honest, that’s when I get the best reaction. So, I just tend to do that. Like what’s gonna make me, y’know-“ He started pretending to tear up for emphasis.
“And you guys are already working on the next album, Notes on a Conditional Form? This one’s not even out yet!”
He just laughed. “We went away and what happened was, we finished A Brief Inquiry, kind of had a week off and then we started with Notes. I’m just letting it happen.” He shrugged. “I’m letting it happen in the next six months. It’ll be before…” He seemed to be doing some calculations in his head. “August. It has to be in time for Reading and Leeds.” He added decisively.
  Glancing down at the clock on the screen next to her, she could see that they had in fact gone over time. “Well, as always Matty, it’s been lovely having you on the show, but I think we have to wrap it up so you can scoot over to the live lounge and get yourself set up.” She said with a small sigh, disappointed that the interview had to end after how well it had been going. Matty had felt entirely captivating as he spoke today, clearly on his game.
“God, this’ll be the first time we’ve played together in… ages.” He said as he pulled a hand through his hair and leaned back into his chair. “And we’ve not played these songs live yet, either. This will be the debut.”
“Incredibly exciting.” She nodded. “So, I’ll let you go. Tune in folks in half an hour, The 1975 will be playing a short set for us of songs from their new album, A Brief Inquiry Into Online Relationships, in the live lounge.” She spoke into the microphone, before rounding out the interview.
  Matty didn’t move from his chair across from her as she switched the camera feed off and switched over to the next round of tracks.
“Are you coming?” He asked as soon as she took her headset off. “To the live lounge?” He clarified.
Her shift was meant to end in just over twenty minutes, and they started in thirty. She could probably finish up quickly enough to make it down there in time. “Yeah, I can do that.” She said with a nod.
He grinned eagerly, “It’ll be wicked to have you there for it.”
“It’s probably about time I saw you guys play.” She laughed as he stood up.
“I’ll see you shortly.” He said over his shoulder as he made his way out of the studio.
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 By the time she made her way down to the live lounge quite a crowd had already formed. Her handover between shifts had been fairly rushed in an attempt to get out of there quickly, but obviously The 1975 knew how to draw an audience. She managed to squeeze her way through a few crew members to get a decent enough viewing point. Whenever she caught Matty’s gaze, he waved at her excitedly. She waved back, suddenly feeling a bout of nerves at the thought of finally watching him in action. Once the cameras were set up and all of the equipment had done one final round of checks, they launched into quite a boppy first song. She recognised this instantly as Tootime, as it had been her favourite of the singles that were released. He sounded a bit rusty and raw, which thankfully he could cover with the filter over his voice, but his enthusiasm to be performing again was unmistakable. The looks he was throwing to his band were nothing short of ecstatic, and despite being out of practice they played the song flawlessly. They finished up the first song, and he shrugged off his yellow jacket as they changed their gear over for the next two. Their little live set was only three songs long in the end, but they felt It’s Not Living and Sincerity Is Scary were excellent choices to best get across the vibe of the new album. After seeing what they could do in a tiny room with minimal fanfare, she was suddenly kicking herself for never getting out to one of their live shows.
  When they had wrapped up the set, Matty started packing away his gear before seeing her starting to leave. He quickly dropped what he was doing and called out to her to wait up. She turned to face him, as he suddenly realised that he hadn’t worked out what to actually say. “Look, I’m sorry about… how I’ve been lately.” He eventually settled on.
“It’s okay, you were going through a rough time.” She reassured him.
“I was,” He nodded, “but it’s not really an excuse.” He added with a sigh. “Can I take you out to lunch after this? To apologise properly.” He asked with a hopeful look.
“You don’t have to-” She started, before he interrupted.
“I know I don’t have to - I want to.” He corrected. She considered this offer for a moment. “Please?”
“Sure.” She nodded, trying to conceal her smile. “That’d be nice.”
  She waited patiently as he packed up his gear, feeling slightly awkward for loitering around a studio that wasn’t hers while she watched everyone else clear out. Once everything seemed fairly put away, he exchanged a quiet word with the band and walked over to where she was standing.
“Any preferences for where we eat? It’s your apology lunch, after all.” He said as he slipped his jacket back on.
She grimaced at his choice of words. “Don’t say it like that.”
“Why?” He laughed.
“It makes me feel worse than I already do.”
“Suppose we’ll just feel bad together, then.” He said as he wrapped an arm around her shoulders and ushered her back out of the building. She couldn’t deny, it felt nice to be seeing Matty act more like he had when they’d first met. Whether that was because she enjoyed the attention or because it was nice to see her friend feeling more himself was up for debate.
  Due to neither of them being the one to want to make the call about where to eat, for fear of the other not enjoying it, they ended up going to the only place that served food within their direct eyeline – a bakery. It made her feel less like she was taking advantage too for him to only have to pay for pastries and coffee, not a proper fancy meal with drinks. They caught each other up on the fine points of their lives that they’d missed out on hearing over the last few years: highlights in careers, people who’d come and gone, other artists they’d met that had proved to be noteworthy (for good reasons and bad). It was incredibly reassuring for the both of them to know that conversation still flowed easily enough between them when they weren’t actively disliking each other.
“Sorry if the interview was a bit… too personal. We didn’t really talk about the record all that much, in the end.” She said, thinking back to how long they’d spent discussing his drug habits rather than his impending album release.
“Stop apologising.” He said around a mouthful of food. “I’m the one who’s supposed to be saying sorry. And I’m sure the fans would’ve liked it.” He shrugged.
“Yeah, but I don’t want to force stuff out of you for the sake of entertainment.”
“Like I said, I wouldn’t have answered if I didn’t want to.” He reminded her.
  He waited a beat, composing what he had originally wanted to say today before clearing his throat. “I really am sorry, you know. For how I left things.” He said as he stared down into his mug of tea.
“It’s genuinely okay, Matty.” She reassured him. “I wasn’t really any better.” She added under her breath.
“I was just a bit oblivious and hopeful when I fucked stuff up initially. I wanted to act like I hadn’t dropped off your radar for two years.” He admitted as he scratched at the side of his head. “If I’m honest, I was reaching out to get some support from an old mate in a time when I felt pretty overwhelmed by everything that was happening. But I went about it in all the wrong ways and just made it a whole lot worse.” He clarified with a dry laugh. As if she hadn’t already felt bad enough, now he tells her that she’d shut him out when he had been trying to ask for help? The guilt increased tenfold.
“Sorry.” She said. He was about to tell her off again for apologising, but she cut him off. “I was already pretty shitty that I hadn’t seen you in so long, so I was pretty quick to want to end that interaction when things started getting… difficult.” She explained.
  “Guess you live and learn, huh?” He said with a small smile. “At least we’re still mates now.” Hearing him say that helped ease a bit of her worry that she’d done as much to fuck things up as he had. At least now that it was all out in the open, they could move past it.
“Yeah.” She concurred, returning his smile. They finished up the pastries that Matty had bought before stepping out of the bakery. Both of them felt like a weight had been lifted now that they knew they hadn’t screwed stuff up for good between them. Having each said their piece, they were pretty confident that they could give friendship another shot.
“It was great to see you.” He said as he pulled her in for a hug tight enough that it almost made her lose her breath.
“Next time we’ll have to make sure it’s not so long.” She said as he moved back from the hug.
“We’ll keep in touch.” He agreed with a nod. “And I mean it this time.”
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thevioletjones · 6 years ago
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The Ian & Mickey Show
Week 10
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5:47-7:43 - Preview scene where Byron is trying to fix his Vespa while Mickey sits there smoking, and Ian crutches up to return his plaid shirt that may or may not be from the club kiss scene. Mickey doesn’t wanna talk to him. Byron invites Ian to that Imperial Mammoth show, including a plus one, and Mickey gets immediately up in arms about that. Ian lies very obviously and says he met someone and it’s going well, and Mickey is visibly regretting the little game he set off.
15:26-16:51 - Ian takes Grindr pics in the bathroom mirror, looking like a goober who has never pulled a date in his life. Very off brand, really. Liam clowns him hard for being inept, cuz I guess it’s his role to be the greek chorus that’s smarter than everyone else and gives precocious advice. This version of Ian is so dumb that his 12-y/o (or whatever age Liam’s supposed to be now) brother has to tell him that nabbing a gay guy would be easier with a shirtless pic! WOW! Who knew? Thank you, lil love guru.
20:30-21:23 - Ian scrolls Grindr, sifting through dick pics, asshole pics, and orgy propositions. Finally he gets a ping from Cole. Says he looks normal, so obvs he’s not gonna be “normal.”
31:40-32:26 - Ian’s @ The Alibi waiting for Cole to arrive, and they manage to get in a quick dig about Mickey (from Kev this time), and Kev asks Ian what he knows about rich people conspiracy theories, relating to some scheme him and Vee are getting into (I don’t know what it is, cuz fuck the rest of the show). 
33:54-34:37 - Cole arrives at The Alibi like a flamboyant alien of the gods and the music basically stops. His first line delivery is awful, but it gets better after that. This dude just wants to party and have a good time. Living his best shallow life, as you do in your early 20s. Ian is skeptical and the regulars have never seen an episode of Drag Race in their lives, because this gender-bending being is like a foreign concept given the way they gawk. So, by Shameless logic: Hard criminals in prison = Totally down with gay relationships. Alcoholics who live at the dive bar = Never seen a confident guy in a dress.
48:57-50:00 - Mickey is delighted when he sees and hears Cole arriving with Ian. Ian is uncomfortable and confused, because even though he spent months to a year working in a gay club, he’s apparently never interacted with a swishy, superficial, partyboy gay????? But he’s being polite at least. They both watch in amusement as Cole “orders drinks at the bar” by twerking up on it in his lacy ensemble. It’s one of maybe two genuine chuckles I got from all these scenes combined.
53:37-56:07 - Which brings us to the scene we were all waiting for... ready to bring us crashing down to reality for expecting even just a tiny little bit more. Ian is annoyed with Cole, and wanders over near Byron’s table, where of course he overhears him finally admitting his true feelings about Mickey to his friends. In a nutshell, Mickey is the worst. And he has been, to this guy in particular, to be fair. But Ian is not down with the whole talking behind Mickey’s back instead of to his front thing, and he tells him to hold his crutches before punching him. Mickey is next to Cole at the bar now, and Cole is all, “Look at my man. Don’t take no shit. I’m gonna do gymnastics on that dick tonight. I’m gonna Simone Biles that dick, know what I’m sayin’?” And Mickey knocks him out cold. (2nd lulz of the evening there.) Mickey approaches the scene of Ian’s fist “fight” in which Ian has basically just wailed on tiny Barry with no decent return hits, and Ian is already down on his good knee, so he decides this is the right moment to propose again. Says he loves Mickey more than anything and that if he’ll let him, he’d like to spend the rest of his life... and Mickey cuts him off with a sharp, “Save the fuckin’ speech you pussy. Course I’ll marry you.” And they kiss. The camera cuts away. And that’s that. Lol. If you thought you were gonna get any depth added in these last few eps, you were wrong. The next ep will be hilarious hijinks sprinkled with OOC bullshit, and who knows how they’ll manage to fuck up the actual nuptials, but I’m sure it’ll happen. 🍻
56:27-57:52 - IxM arrive back at the Gallagher house looking happy, but they don’t announce their engagement. Instead, Lip announces that he’s moving to Milwaukee with his baby mama and kid.
Episode Tally: 8 scenes. 9 mins 19 secs.
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━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ( alisha wainwright, she/her ) is that LUCINDA “LUCE” BENOIT i just spotted in blackfalls? i hear they’re a 29 / 29 year-old WITCH teaching COMPUTER SCIENCE. i’ve heard that they’re FLEXIBLE & CREATIVE but can also be IMPULSIVE & UNPREDICTABLE. 
the benoit family of bentech inc. has long been a humble family. while luce benefited from her grandfather’s company, it was thankfully her uncle who spearheaded the ceo position, leaving her father to be the free-spirited man who raised her. 
being born from the black sheep of family, luce turned even darker as she peeled away from the magical norm. they were not big on practicing, especially before the big reveal but she was always enthralled by magic
growing up around technology, it didn’t take very long for luce to be an avid hacker, beginning around the time she started high school. 
she dated around most of her early left, having small but meaningful relationships. it was until she was out of high school that she met her. luce was never a person who spoke about fate like it was real, but she was sure she was going to stay with her forever, so they got engaged
her fiancee triggered her curse and it was a big struggle/mess, more than one innocent person died and luce’s fiancee had to into hiding leaving luce to live mostly alone. it was the worst time in her life, trying to keep her love life a secret, pretending not the be rocked to the core by the things she heard about the love of her life.
her fiancee got more and more tense, changing as a person until luce finally left her fiancee after she ripped her throat and luce only survived because of a magical remedy. luce was only 26.
home no longer felt like home so when she heard about the school she went and that’s luce in a nutshell, call her lucinda and she’ll probably hack into ur bank account n rob u
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