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wonryllis · 9 months ago

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✶ 𝒽eaven's net 𝖬𝖠𝖲𝖳𝖤𝖱𝖫𝖨𝖲𝖳 !

𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗀𝗂𝗋𝗅𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾𝖽 𝖻𝖾𝖿𝗈𝗋𝖾 𝗆𝖺𝖽𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗂'𝗏𝖾 𝖿𝖺𝗅𝗅𝖾𝗇 𝖿𝗈𝗋, 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝗌 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝖺𝗅𝗂𝗀𝗇𝖾𝖽 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾�� 𝗂𝗇𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗍��𝗂𝗇𝖾𝖽.

𝗌𝗉𝖺𝗆 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾𝗌 = 𝖻𝗅𝗈𝖼𝗄 ⓘ 𝗌𝗉𝖺𝗆 𝗋𝖾𝖻𝗅𝗈𝗀𝗌 = 𝖺𝗉𝗉𝗋𝖾𝖼𝗂𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇

𑁍 。 𝖥𝖨𝖫𝖤 𝟢𝟢𝟣──── ( enhypen as ) HEADCANONS && REACTIONS.

01. enhypen as song kang ( your kdrama life in a nutshell. ) | fluff, hyung line, suggestive |

02. enhypen as to all the boys i've loved before ( your teen romance come true. ) | fluff, maknae line | 📌

03. enhypen as kinds of love ( your safe place in a person. ) | fluff, comfort, small scenario, all members | 📌📌

04. enhypen when their crush calls them baby ( where you make their heart skip a beat. ) | fluff, scenario, all members |

05. enhypen meeting their long distance s/o for the first time ( when you finally link together for real. ) | fluff, scenario, all members |

06. high on heels for you ( when you wear pretty heels for them. ) | fluff, headcanons, small scenarios, all members |

07. i'm a mthrfckin starboy! ( where you got the good girl faith in them. ) | fluff, enha as bad boys, short scenarios, all members | 📌📌

08. enhypen when you act cute and clingy after messing up something ( where you melt their heart in an unexpected way. ) | fluff, short scenario, all members |

09. idol!enhypen when their idol s/o has dating rumours with someone else ( where they face the consequences of secrecy. ) | fluff, idol au, all members | 📌

10. non!idol enhypen falling in love at first sight with idol!reader ( where you put them under a spell. ) | fluff, scenarios, all members |

11. randomly giving them a rose on the street ( where they are mesmerized by a stranger. ) | fluff, all members |

12. enhypen when they realize they love you ( where they know they're in it for the long run. ) | rom-fluff, short scenario, all members, kinda poetic? | 📌📌 POPULAR

13. idol!enhypen revealing their non!idol s/o ( where they declare it to the world. ) | fluff, scenario, all members |

14. enhypen when they get jealous over a guy hitting on you ( when they taste the perils of a pretty girlfriend. ) | fluff, scenario, all members |

15. enhypen coming home to find you asleep ( where even asleep you have them smitten. ) | fluff, all members | POPULAR

16. my world in my arms ( where your embrace is everything. ) | fluff, suggestive in the tiniest bit for jake, cuddling with enha, all members |

17. enhypen as kdrama leads and their loves ( where they find a you in their complicated story. ) | fluff, suggestive, short scenarios, all members | 📌📌

18. enhypen finding your writing account of them ( where your delusional side gets exposed. ) | fluff, kinda crack, all members |

19. enhypen and refused kisses ( where kisses are too hard to resist. ) | fluff, short scenario, all members | 📌📌 POPULAR

20. you are made of angel dust ( where you are their darling little princess. ) | fluff, princess treatment, all members | 📌📌 POPULAR

21. idol!enhypen revealing their idol!s/o ( where the fans find you together. ) | fluff, idol au, all members |

22. satan's imagination, agent enhypen ( where they got the hots for their work partner. ) | fluff, suggestive, short scenario, agent!reader, all members | 📌

23. enhypen admiring their girl ( where they are too down bad. ) | fluff, all members | POPULAR

24. enhypen when their s/o does a mature dance cover ( where their eyes pop out. ) | fluff, tad bit suggestive, non idol au, short scenario, all members |

25. babydoll? rich boy enhypen pinning after you ( where you are the diamond of their eyes. ) | fluff, suggestive, rich guy au, long scenarios, all members | 📌📌

26. into the spider verse ( you're a sunflower, i think your love would be too much. ) | fluff, slightly suggestive in some places, headcanons, small scenarios and dialogues, jake as spiderman, 2k | 📌📌

27. my sun, he makes me shine: thoughts on soft boyfriend jungwon with his stressed s/o | headcanons, fluff, comfort? |

28. enhypen when you interrupt them with a kiss ( where they give in to a new addiction ) | fluff with lots of kisses, scenarios, all members | 📌

29. hot things enhypen do ( when their hot roots come out ) | fluff but not entirely, suggestive but not really? it's just hot, all members |

30. enhypen when they get caught kissing you ( where they are high on you ) | fluff, super suggestive, lots of kissing, situationship au, all members |

𑁍 。 𝖥𝖨𝖫𝖤 𝟢𝟢𝟤──── TEXTS. ( PG & R rated )

01. baby you're the only one for me: must've been your other girlfriend NSFW TEXT!AU with park sunghoon

02. give a chance to cupid: situationship texts with yang jungwon 📌

03. lowkey accidentally falling super hard for you: slightly toxic!situationship texts with riki 📌 POPULAR

04. perilla leaf and shrimp peeling debate trend with enhypen | fluff, crack, all members | 📌

05. enhypen when you ask them "boobs or ass" and why | mentions of sexual activities, hyung line, NSFW TEXT!AU |

06. when you accidentally send them nudes | hyung line as your hot senior, NSFW TEXT!AU, sexual innuendos |

𑁍 。 𝖥𝖨𝖫𝖤 𝟢𝟢𝟥──── DRABBLES. ( PG 15 )

𝖫𝖤𝖤 𝖧𝖤𝖤𝖲𝖤𝖴𝖭𝖦

01. yes baby? in a lovesick smile ( where he shows you what's it like to be loved right. ) | fluff, comfort hurt, drabble |

02. after hours, i can be whatever you want me to be | drabble, 0.8k, fluff, toxic situationship, down down down bad lee heeseung with naive philophobic reader, age gap, suggestive: mild | 📌

03. you know i want you | short drabble, fluff, strangers to lovers, neighbours to lovers, rock band frontman!heeseung |

𝖯𝖠𝖱𝖪 𝖩𝖮𝖭𝖦𝖲𝖤𝖮𝖭𝖦

01. last friday night ( think we kissed ) | fluff, enemies secretly in love but oblivious, long drabble? oneshot? 3.3k | 📌

02. you, my fate come and kiss me | fluff-angst, soulmate au, short drabble <500, valentine special |

𝖲𝖨𝖬 𝖩𝖠𝖤𝖸𝖴𝖭

01. please teach me how to understand you ( where he is ready to learn to love you. ) | comfort hurt, argument, reader overthinks a lot, drabble |

02. candy, you're like a drug (M) | featuring, jake and candy from WATERMELON SUGAR this can absolutely be read as a standalone |

preview. where jake teaches you how to blow him behind the bleachers just before his soccer practice, unable to resist the charm of you in a cheerleader outfit. well it's not like he has to resist you anymore, you are finally officially his girl.

𝖯𝖠𝖱𝖪 𝖲𝖴𝖭𝖦𝖧𝖮𝖮𝖭

01. poker face ( she's got me like nobody ) | fluff, enemies secretly in love but oblivious, long drabble? oneshot? 2.3k | 📌

02. the three stages of dating park sunghoon | fluff, scenarios, drabbles, 1.1k |

03. happy for a while | angst, rebound!reader, no physical cheating though, painful but really good i promise, 1.4k drabble |

04. i'll wait for your love | long drabble 2.2k, suggestive: making out, summer fling, happy ending, fluff, slight angst, "he's super hot so why not" trope | 📌

𝖭𝖨𝖲𝖧𝖨𝖬𝖴𝖱𝖠 𝖱𝖨𝖪𝖨

01. stop teasing me! ( where his hidden feelings are not so hidden. ) | fluff, older reader, super short <500, scenario, drabble |

𑁍 。 𝖥𝖨𝖫𝖤 𝟢𝟢𝟦──── HARD HOURS-REACTIONS, HEADCANONS & DRABBLES. ( PG 18 )

disclaimer ! i write nsfw for the hyung line only and you can find long nsfw fics for individual members down under the oneshot category. things i do/don't write about.

01. agent heeseung: little bit dangerous baby, that's how i like it ( where agent red gets distracted ) | headcanons, NSFW, short, heeseung |

02. enhypen when you wear a lingerie ( where you give them a little surprise. ) | SMUT, short little scenario, reaction | 📌📌 POPULAR

03. when you can't fall asleep at night | est relationship, overstimulation 0.3k, heeseung drabble | POPULAR

04. stop moving | est relationship, public sex(?) 0.4k, jay drabble |

05. why are you so shy baby? it's just me | friends being freaky, humping, 0.9k, heeseung drabble |

𑁍 。 𝖥𝖨𝖫𝖤 𝟢𝟢𝟧──── ONESHOTS. ( PG & R rated )

﹙𝖫𝖤𝖤 𝖧𝖤𝖤𝖲𝖤𝖴𝖭𝖦﹚ : 𝗉𝗋𝖾𝗍𝗍𝗒 𝖻𝗈𝗒 𝖺𝖾𝗌𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗍𝗂𝖼 𝗂𝗇 𝖺𝗇 𝖾𝗑𝗂𝗌𝗍𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗂𝖺𝗅 𝖼𝗋𝗂𝗌𝗂𝗌!

01. dear future husband | social media!au + written chapters, spoiled rich girl x middle class hee, SMUT, fluff, humor & crack, minimal angst, college au, nonidol!au, neighbors to lovers!au, childhood friends to lovers!au | discontinued as an smau, will be making a comeback as a long oneshot.

preview. you always get what you want, spoiled with the love of everyone around you. and it's all innocent love, at least that's what everyone thinks. it comes with much surprise therefore, when heeseung makes a move on you. thirteen long years of being in the brother zone having made him utterly clueless that if he’s going to date you he has to pass through your actual brothers first. and he knows how scary they can be. especially since they are known to have a sister complex and he’s been the third scary one with them, numerous times before.

02. his muse | photographer heeseung paired model reader with a secret twist, lots of SMUT, fluff barely, angst, age gap, probably bdsm heavy? PROBABLY, you are my muse trope obv, dark romance au |

update. currently under planning & writing stage, written progress 1%

03. got my eyes on you | strangers to lovers classical trope, college au, popular frat guy with quiet girl trope, quite literally only has eyes for his girl, loves to make her heart race tropes kinda thing. lotss of fluff, smut. heavy revamp around 15-16k |

update. currently under writing and revamp stage. written progress 40%

﹙𝖯𝖠𝖱𝖪 𝖩𝖮𝖭𝖦𝖲𝖤𝖮𝖭𝖦﹚ : 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝖺𝖻𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋𝗌𝖾𝗅𝖿, 𝗂 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾.

01. daddy issues, my little girl (teaser) | neighbours to lovers, strangers to lovers, SMUT, fluff, comfort, angst, romance, ddlg concept, i know you can do it but let me do it for you trope, oneshot, around 35k, revamp + new part | 📌.THE FAV!

preview. you had always had daddy issues, for as long as you could remember. so when jay came along with his caring nature, how could you possibly keep your feelings at bay? not to forget, your roses of love have wilted long before you even knew what love meant but jay, he’s here at your doorstep with a watering can. will you be able to refuse? or where, new neighbor dr jay park is asked to babysit you over the week. ironically the only man you have ever had a crush on.

02. devil's mistress: be my queen | villain!jay with the hero's girl, dark romance, SMUT, fluff, around 20-25k, if my princess wants it, she gets it trope, villain gets the girl au |

update. currently under writing stage, written progress 2%

03. loved in shades of wrong | second lead au, lots of angst, jay and sunoo as the leads, around 15k, if he wanted to he would trope |

update. currently in planning-outlining stage, written progress 0%

﹙𝖲𝖨𝖬 𝖩𝖠𝖤𝖸𝖴𝖭﹚ : 𝗉𝖾𝗋𝖿𝖾𝖼𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇, 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝗈𝖿 𝖻𝖾𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗉𝖾𝗋𝖿𝖾𝖼𝗍. 𝗌𝗎𝖼𝗁 𝖺𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎.

01. watermelon sugar (M) | roommates to lovers, SMUT, fluff, crack, fuckboy soft for his girlie trope, college au, oneshot, 13.5k, a major revamp | POPULAR

preview. he’s the sweetest to you, one might confuse him for your boyfriend, but he’s not, he just your fuckboy of a roommate who treats you like a delicate candy, always looking out for you and never at you; or so you think.

02. call me destiny | an online to offline love au, loosely based off of the cdrama love o2o, college au, SMUT, fluff and crack, dumb x dumber couple. the 'im crazy about her but i don't have the guts to tell her' trope. around 11-12k |

update. currently under writing stage, written progress 40-45%

03. main attraction | isekai, age gap, sort of dark romance, SMUT ofc, fluff, angst, strong power dynamics, around 20k probably |

update. currently under planning stage, written progress 1%

﹙𝖯𝖠𝖱𝖪 𝖲𝖴𝖭𝖦𝖧𝖮𝖮𝖭﹚ : 𝗍𝖺𝗅𝖾𝗇𝗍𝖾𝖽, 𝗇𝖺𝗋𝖼𝗂𝗌𝗌𝗂𝗌𝗍𝗂𝖼 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗁𝗈𝗍?

01. somewhere in northern italy (teaser) | fake dating, enemies to lovers, fluff, crack, smut, one shot. at least 10k or more | 📌

preview. park sunghoon hates oranges, he always has. the tangy citrusy tingles he's so not fond of it. he also hates you, the living embodiment of an orange: cheery, full of life, and well, round. why should he be bothered by it though? all he has to do is work hard to get into his dream university. but the thing is, he really needs a specific recommendation letter for it. something which he can only get from your father. and hypothetically speaking, he can't just ask for it, so he does you 'a favor for a favor'; he fake dates you on your trip home for summer break and surprise surprise your family owns the biggest orange farm in the country.

02. the hot dad next door (teaser) | dilf au, neighbours to lovers, smut, fluff, oneshot, around 10k or more, age gap | 📌

preview. the ever quintessential first time dad moves in next door with his five year old and finds it impossible not to fall for you, the pretty girl who gives his daughter cookies and him; the doll eyes. obsessed with your entire being, unable to keep his hands off you, park sunghoon questions if he's just crazy or he's crazy over you.

03. happy ever after | exes to lovers, swimmer!sunghoon with journalist!ex, lots of angst but they get back together, SMUT, revamp of around 14-16k |

update. currently in the revamp stage, written progress 0% in terms of revamping

04. the way she wears him | just boyfriend sunghoon tales that bother the rest of the hyung line, full blast on SMUT, around 10-12k, shameless couple trope lmao |

update. currently under the writing stage, progress 10%

05. million dollar date | tinder date with hot guy au, SMUT, strangers to lovers, fluff, around 10k |

update. currently under planning stage, progress 0%

﹙𝖪𝖨𝖬 𝖲𝖤𝖮𝖭𝖶𝖮𝖮﹚ : 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝗍𝗈𝗋𝗒 𝗈𝖿 𝗉𝗋𝗂𝗇𝖼𝖾 𝗌𝗂𝖾𝗀𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝖽 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝗐𝖺𝗇 𝗊𝗎𝖾𝖾𝗇.

01. loved in shades of wrong | second lead au, lots of angst, jay and sunoo as the leads, around 15k, if he wanted to he would trope |

update. currently in planning-outlining stage, written progress 0%

﹙𝖸𝖠𝖭𝖦 𝖩𝖴𝖭𝖦𝖶𝖮𝖭 ﹚ : 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗏𝖾𝗇 𝗌𝖾𝗇𝗍, 𝗐𝗋𝗂𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗇 𝖻𝗒 𝗅𝖺𝗇𝖺 𝖽𝖾𝗅 𝗋e𝗒.

have a few rough plans for fics but nothing is set in stone. there's like three different ones but they're kind of hard aus to write. if you have any good ideas, feel free to send them in.

﹙𝖭𝖨𝖲𝖧𝖨𝖬𝖴𝖱𝖠 𝖱𝖨𝖪𝖨 ﹚ : 𝗆𝗂𝗅𝗅𝗂𝗈𝗇𝖺𝗂𝗋𝖾 𝖼𝗅𝗎𝖻 𝗋𝗈𝗐, 𝗂 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗀𝗂𝗏𝖾 𝖺 𝖿𝗎𝖼𝗄!

01. sign of affection | retelling of the manga/anime sign of affection, around 7k probably not too sure about this |

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kuronekonerochan · 2 years ago

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Random Hanadan/BoF Shitpost

After hearing that Love in Flames of War, a republican era cdrama had Hana Yori Dango/Boys Over Flowers/ Meteor Garden/ F4 vibes... but eventually failed to deliver on that front I rambled at @dangermousie that, actually, we SHOULD have a Hanadan version of every genre of cdrama.

No...wait...I’m joking...but also not. My reasoning for this is solid:

1) No matter what you thing of Hanadan and all it’s objectively toxic and dated glory, you can’t deny it is a hallmark in the history of shoujo manga/anime/asian drama/ live action adaptation/remake pumping machine. It paved the way for all the ItaKiss, Fated to Love You, etc...and it is still to this day a nostalgia magnet for an easy cash grab with each remake (also the latest one might be the best lol).

2) *Surrender by Cheaptricks plays in the background, talks in “there is no war in ba sing se” mode* There are no new ideas in media. Everything is a sequel, prequel, remake, reboot, retelling, soft reboot, parody, homage, the same thing over and over again but call it by another name (it’s still a rose, yeah Shakespeare, you’re a genius, congrats!).

3) Let’s face it. Dramaland is going through the lowest of lows. Cdramas are bad and boring, Kdramas are scarce and boring and Jdramas are 10 ep cute little intros to the story you really wanna see that’s about to begin...at the end of ep10, last episode, no 2nd season. So, they might as well try Every Hanadan Set Everywhere all at Once.

So, without further ado, introducing...every genre of Cdrama Hanadan (with crazy plot eggs for some and none for others bc I say so):

Starting with contemporary…

1) Reverse hanadan where the fl is a rich asshole and the ml a poor little meow meow

2) Time loop hanadan

3) Modern Fantasy hanadan (sort of like the beginning of Bulgasal but more petty and less angsty lol)

4) Transmigration low budget web drama romcom hanadan

5) *barfs* modern office corporate romance hanadan

6) *barfs again* gaming hanadan

7) Sports hanadan (aka if HanaKimi wasn’t genderbender or cute but toxic instead)

8) Coming of Age/ Youth to Adult Married life Hanadan

Syke! Too late! There is already an OG classic toxic Hanadan of this Genre, it’s called Itazura na Kiss (and it’s my guilty pleasure, my personal hanadan lol)

9) Ice sports hanadan....yesss...get gory with the bullying with ice skating blades muahahaha. The red card locks her on the ice rink and they oil the railings/plexiglass around it so she can't even climb out and she nearly freezes to death. They rope her to the back of a zamboni and drag her through the ice. While she is trapped on the ice rink, they rig a bucket of water to fall over her so she freezes faster.

Now for the period dramas…

10) Republican Era hanadan

They could use the boat scene ending from the finale of the anime as a convenient plotpoint to escape the republican era without dying in the republican turmoil. "Oh, they just reunited dramatically on a boat post amnesia and went abroad together and missed all the political fatal shit and lived happily ever after. Their kids returned to China and lived happily under the great CCP rule (/s)!

11) Palace hanadan

It’s hanadan meets legend of Ruyi where he is the Crown Prince but the Empress Dowager holds all the power and on some humiliation move has him take a barbarian slave as a concubine...and the red card is that it's open season on her from every noble or regular consort of his harem and his friends in the court...all is fair the only rule is she cannot be murdered, everything else is fair game. So she is beating to the brink of death, poisoned daily with agonizing pills only to be given antidotes at the last minute, drowned, flayed, etc.

12) Wuxia hanadan. Similar. Dude is the leader of the jianghu, declares her a demon bc she offended him and has all the pretentious righteous sects go after her with agonizing Gus pushed on her body, plenty of chains, kebab her in multiple ways with stakes in torture chambers to cast out the evil.

13) BL Wuxia hanadan. (this one is just here by popular demand. Mine. No, I will not elaborate on that).

14) And at last…my personal favorite….drum rolls… Xianxia hanadan (here is the plot):

She spilled peach wine on his cloud robes once by accident before the Great Heaven's Ceremony so he scribed her name carelessly on the stone of the doomed as petty revenge hoping she'd get some bad karma. But at the time the Demon Overlord was fighting the Lord of Fate and the Dijun on Kunlun and as they made their final strike the demon overlord turned into a cloud of heavy miasma that swirled away swiftly for miles and landed on the stone of the doomed. Hence, for the next 10.000 years the calamities and heavenly tribulations of every god were transferred into the unlucky FL.

In the first 300 years, the gods were unsure of what was happening, but soon word spread of a small menial demigoddess who seemed to be getting an abnormal amount of calamities and trials and yet never ascended into a higher level god. But other gods were getting past their fated tribulations dates without experiencing the event itself but still ascending afterwards. Soon this bizarre phenomenon was being gossiped throughout all the heavenly realms and the gods were rushing to get their hands on every magical item capable of moving forward their tribulation dates... After all, who knew how long this free meal would last? So it follows that our female lead spent the next 10.000 overbooked from torturing calamity to the next without a break or a reward.

Our cloud cloaked protagonist came to learn of this business about 500 years into it. It was not his intention for the karmic payback to be that harsh...but then again it was his best cloud vest that the annoying, insignificant little demigoddess had ruined...and if the consequences had been that rough, who was he to question the Great Design. He soon forgot all about it, surely none of that pesky matter would come back to bother him...

10.000 later: Our fuming fl finally had enough...after experiencing every form of dismemberment as a human, for eons, though she didn't collect an ounce of heavenly grace to ascend to higher goddess....she sure damn well accumulated enough yin to form a monumental grudge...and she would use all of that energy into one single punch for a certain cloud clothed god that would send him so high the gods would finally know what lies above the heavenly realm...not that he'd get the opportunity to tell the tale.

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N.º 2

Reset (cdrama)

Just finished Reset and it’s my fav cdrama of like...the whole of the plague years?! I haven’t even liked any cdramas this year, barely tolerated a few, but this? this was flawless. On every level. Better than most western dramas of its genre. They have a cool concept, keep it simple, add only necessary elements and the attention to detail, character building, etc is on point. The acting is good, the leads especially, subtle but detailed, their chemistry is great and it’s one of those dramas that keeps you on edge for every minute of it. Did I mention I love the main characters? smart and good people, yet not annoyingly perfect. They mess up (the whole drama is trial and error) sometimes in impulsive ways, but never in unbelievably dumb ways. Perfect length too (ok could have been 12eps instead of 15... but still, excellent runtime management coming from a cdrama!). And most of all...it doesn’t F*Ck it all up at the ending. Do you know how many of the few dramas I almost reaaally loved (not liked, not tolerated, actually loved) while airing turned out to have such a shitshow of an ending that ruined the whole thing? Probably 90% of them... it’s a thing, cdramas have terrible or mediocre endings by definition and then only a few miraculously escape that fate.

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A minha publicação número 1 de 2022

The bastard son & the devil himself

I predict the tumblr craze for the next weeks is Netflix's the bastard son and the devil himself. It's a story between two rival clans of witches that are brutal and try to kill each other (ones are sort of cannibal too, the others succeed in the genocide of their rivals from their country) and the mc is the son of a mass murderer for the other side, raised by the rival clan and constantly abused by his half sister who is a psycho who wants to kill him. Also along the way he runs away with the daughter of that clan's leader and they both fall in love with a bi wizard who helps them escape.

Supernatural+rivalry+gore+threesome mc relationship? This the the most tumblr thing ever.

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Vê agora o teu Ano em Revista de 2022 do Tumblr →

#tumblr2022 #ano em revista #o meu ano em revista de 2022 do tumblr #o teu ano em revista do tumblr #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

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so-i-am-kinda-funny-tm · 4 years ago

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Heroes Rising In A Nutshell

Nine: I ……..am inevitable.

*tries to kill Bakugo, who dodges*

Bakugo: Oh yeah? On your left.

*Deku crashes down by Nine, raising his 100% OFA fist above the villain as Bakugo readies his brand new OFA power*

Midoriya: Hi, inevitable. I’m Deku.

*Roll credits*

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spade-riddles · 2 years ago

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I am not into this stuff usually, but a mutual tipped me off so I started to look into it. It may be a mere coincidence, but I thought it was worth posting. Note the diamonds on her shirt:

A friend sent me the link to this video called:

Ace of Diamonds ♦️ Cards of Truth

In the caption was this:

♦️ Ace of Diamonds days every year: January 26, February 24, March 22, April 20, May 18, June 16, July 14, August 12, September 10, October 8, November 6, December 4 (after sunrise)

Ace of Diamonds are, in a nutshell, a new, concrete beginning.

We all know that December 4th is KissGate, and it is also the first date that 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 anon's message points to:

🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 Buckle up, this is just the beginning. 43+27 days until the end of the year. - October 22

A new concrete beginning on December 4th?

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gryffieverse · 2 years ago

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Character Profile

Full name: Henry Maxim Van Tassel

Meaning of name: Henry - House ruler, Maxim - greatest

Nickname: Love (by Eli), My love (by Eli, when they’re married)

Reason for nickname: Eli is an idiot and lame

Birth date: September 23rd, 1967

Zodiac sign: Libra

Libras born on September 23 are energetic factfinders. These highly verbal people combine a love of learning with good taste -- the hallmark of their sign. September 23 people manage to project an image of seriousness while still maintaining their charm.

Age: 26 (as of the beginning of the story)

CONTENT WARNING: mental illness, abusive parent, alcohol and drug abuse, violence

In a nutshell: Henry is the first-born son of a rich and influential family. His father is the CEO of an investment company, while his mother is a high-profile politician. He has never lacked anything and has been living the high life, not caring who he hurts in the process. When he’s twenty-five years old, he gets taken hostage by a group of people posing as only his mother’s political enemies (although their true motivations turn out to be even wider reaching) and his mother refuses to pay the ransom they ask for the safe return of their son. Henry spends a year in the clutches of his captors, only escaping with the help of a mysterious man who goes by Steve and doesn’t give a last name.

Once safely back at home, Steve reveals that the people who kidnapped him are still after them, and that Henry must help him put a stop to their plans before it’s too late. Embroiled in the mystery are also other characters from Henry’s past some of whom he thought were dead. Who is really behind it all? What do they want? And can Henry keep his loved ones safe from whoever is coming after them?

Physical appearance

Faceclaim(s): Young: Emjay Anthony, Main: Matthew Daddario, Older: Eric Bana

Height: 6ft 3 (190.5 cm)

Eye color: Brown

Hair color: Dark brown/black

Tattoos, scars, distinguishing features, etc: No tattoos, we imagine the runes don’t exist in Shadowhunters

Usual fashion of dress: business casual

Jewelry or accessories: expensive watches and cufflinks

Young:

Main:

Older:

Fashion:

Personality

Henry takes after his mother in his ability to be extremely personable. He is able to befriend and then use people for his own gains fairly easily. He’s charming, rich, and good-looking (a fact of which he is very aware of and takes advantage of often). Henry is extroverted and enjoys big gatherings and being surrounded by his friends and loved ones. He has a jealous streak, and he is possessive of people and things around him. He doesn’t want to lose anything, ever.

Despite his love of people, he also has a side that detests the political machinations of his mother and who jut wants to move to the countryside, never to grace the parties of New York’s elite again. He would describe himself as quite boring behind the scenes. He is compassionate and caring, willing to go to any lengths to help those he cares about. He is also very forgiving and falls in love easily.

Greatest joy in life: His siblings, his friends, cooking

Greatest fear: Something bad happening to those he loves

Why? He is very dependent on the people close to him and handles loss and/or solitude poorly. He feels responsible for his younger siblings, especially after he realizes that his mother isn’t the best parent in the world.

What single event would most throw this character’s life into complete turmoil? The death of either or both of his siblings.

Character is most at ease when: At home cooking, or anywhere with his close friends just having fun

Most ill at ease when: His mother asks him to do something he knows is wrong.

Enraged when: Someone or something threatens the things and people he cares about.

Depressed or sad when: He feels lonely

Priorities: His family

If granted one wish, it would be: He wants to step down from business and politics and open a restaurant of his own.

Character’s soft spot: His little sister Lorelai, later on his children

Is this soft spot obvious to others? Yes.

Greatest strength: Henry is compassionate

Greatest vulnerability or weakness: Jealousy, obliviousness, having been born into wealth.

Biggest regret: Trusting Demo and that time when he and Eli weren’t speaking.

Minor regret: Not standing up to his mother.

Biggest accomplishment: Getting his shit together and getting together with Eli.

Minor accomplishment: Quitting his job at his father’s company

Past failures they would be embarrassed to have people know about: Henry was kind of a an asshole in high school and is embarrassed about all the things he did and the people he hurt back then.

Character’s darkest secret: While escaping captivity, he shot someone, and it shook him deeply.

Does anyone else know? Steve, who was helping him escape at the time.

Other: Henry suffers from PTSD from having been held hostage for a year. He has debilitating panic attacks and struggles to come to term with it.

Goals

Drives and motivations:

Henry was raised to follow in his mother and father’s footsteps into politics and business. He starts out wanting to fulfill his parents’ wishes and it’s very important to him that they approve of him. Once he realizes it’s not what he actually wants, his goals change and he wants to find his own interests, including opening the restaurant and carving his own path in life.

Immediate goals: To get back on his feet after his ordeal, to win back his girlfriend and settle things with his family.

Long term goals: To figure out what the people who kidnapped him want and stop their plans, to be set free of his family expectations.

How the character plans to accomplish these goals: He has no idea at the beginning of the story, and he doesn’t want to involve any of his friends in the mess. It becomes quite clear quite fast that he’s not cut out for the job though, and he ends up getting help from many people. As for winning back his girlfriend and being set free of his mother’s expectations, well…

How other characters will be affected: Henry’s parents will be upset and will have to make other arrangements. Many friendship dynamics in Henry’s life will change and the way the world sees him will too.

Past

Hometown: New York City, New York, USA

Type of childhood:

Henry comes from generational wealth and has always had great expectations thrust upon him, even form an early age. He was also quite privileged and travelled often, especially to Europe.

Most formative childhood memory: When he was fifteen, there was a fire in his family’s apartment that nearly killed his sister. It was long thought that the fire was caused by their brother Seven, but when the truth came out years later when they were adults, it was shocking for everyone.

Childhood hero: Luke Skywalker, his mother

Dream job: A chef

Education: MBA (Master's in Business Administration)

Religion: He was raised protestant but he’s not religious.

Finances: Wealthy

Present

Current location: New York City

Currently living with: He lived alone prior to his kidnapping, then lived a short while with his parents before moving back into his old apartment.

Pets: He gets a dog when he is older.

Occupation: Chief marketing officer (CMO) in his father’s company

Finances: Wealthy

Family

Mother: Camille Austen, née Simmons

As a child and a young adult, Henry and Camille share a good relationship. He is definitely her favourite child, and she places a lot of trusts and expectations upon him. He is also the most alike to her, or so she thinks. As an adult, Henry starts to disagree with her mother and see through her lies. They grow more distant and have explosive arguments. Eventually they manage to somewhat reconcile and remain cordial until her death.

FC: Famke Janssen

Father: Leonard Van Tassel

They’re in good terms, though Leonard is often out of the country and in lieu of spending time with his son, he sends him money. They’re not close.

FC: Matthew Del Negro

Stepfather: Samuel Austen

Samuel and Samuel married when Henry was only three years old. Henry has known him for most of his life and considers him a family member. Samuel is the father of Henry’s younger siblings and Henry has a good relationship with him.

FC: JR Bourne

Brother: Dakota “Seven” Austen

Seven loves his brother but is often jealous of him and the love their mother showers him with. He compares himself to Henry and this causes issues in their relationship. Henry is protective of Seven and worries about him often. Nevertheless, they would both drop everything to come to the other’s aid, and they both know it.

FC: Miguel Herrán

Sister: Lorelai Austen

Lorelai is the younger twin, and thus the baby of the family. Henry is especially protective of her, which frustrates Lorelai to no end, though she does appreciate a big brother who has her back. She and Henry talk a lot and at one point team up against their mother’s schemes while Seven still believes her.

FC: Carlson Young

Love interests:

Mo Darling (ex-fiancée)

Henry and Mo started dating in high school when she was sixteen and he was eighteen. They dated on and off for many years. They were together when Henry was kidnapped and resumed their relationship afterwards, though things weren’t going very well for them before. They even got engaged, though neither was really sure if continuing to date is the right way forward. During their attempt to make their relationship work, Mo got pregnant, but they broke up due to Henry’s feelings for his best friend. They remained friends and shared the custody of their daughter.

FC: Alycia Debnam-Carey

Eli Moore (husband)

Henry and Eli were best friends since they were sixteen and fifteen respectfully. They were inseparable and once Henry started dating Mo, Eli was often included in the couple’s plans. Henry didn’t realize he had any sort of romantic feelings towards his friend until Eli got himself a boyfriend when they were already adults, but Eli had been in love with Henry for years, which Mo knew. Once Mo and Henry got engaged, Eli took it hard. Henry ended up finding out about Eli being gay when the pair kissed while Henry was still together with Mo, which caused them to put their entire friendship on hold and Henry’s engagement to fall apart.

Losing Eli made Henry realize he might have had feelings for him all along. He didn’t deal well with this and ended up going a drift, partying, and sleeping around. He met and started an affair with Demo at this time (which annoyed Eli). Slowly Eli and Henry start to build their friendship back up and eventually get together.

FC: Joe Sugg

Demo Buttergood (ex-boyfriend-adjacent)

Henry and Demo met when Henry’s life was pretty much spiraling out of control. They didn’t exactly date, but spent time together for a while, mostly partying. When Demo turned out to have been working for the enemy all along, the affair came to a sudden end and the pair became enemies. Henry and Demo clashed many times but once the real villain was uncovered, managed to make peace, and became friends. Demo is the godfather of Henry’s daughter.

FC: Daniel Sharman

Daughter: Marylou “Lou” Van Tassel

Lou was born at a time when her parents were at a crossroads with what to do with their relationship. They resolved to split up, but Lou had a relatively happy childhood, nevertheless. She loved both her stepparents, getting along especially well with Eli. Henry dotes on his daughter and has to be reined in, so he doesn’t buy her everything she asks.

FC: Benedetta Gargari

Son: Archibald “Archie” Van Tassel

Archie is Henry and Eli’s adopted son. He is fourteen years younger than Lou and came into the family when he was five. His parents were loving and supportive, and he didn’t lack anything his whole childhood.

FC: Young: Jacob Tremblay, Adult: Cody Fern

Favorites

Color: Blue

Music: Classic rock

Food: Enjoys gourmet dishes

Literature: Non-fiction

Form of entertainment: Movies

Mode of transportation: His car

Habits

Hobbies: Cooking, running, watching movies

How they would spend a rainy day: Watching movies with Eli

Spending habits: He has money to spare so he’s not overly conscious about saving money

Smokes: If you ask him, he’ll say no but he sometimes smokes

Drinks: A lot

Other drugs: Only occasionally, especially after breaking up with Mo (and Eli)

What do they do too much of? Worry

What do they do too little of? Think about the consequences of his actions

Extremely skilled at: Cooking

Extremely unskilled at: Using firearms

Traits

Optimist or pessimist

Introvert or extrovert

Daredevil or cautious

Logical or emotional

Disorderly and messy or methodical and neat

Prefers working or relaxing

Confident or unsure of themselves

Animal lover? Yes

Self-perception

How do they feel about themselves: Henry is quite sure of himself, though he hides some deep-rooted insecurities inside. They’re mostly to do with his sexuality and the fact that he doesn’t want to be a businessman.

One word the character would use to describe self: Boring

What does the character consider their best personality trait? Generous (actually it’s compassionate)

What does the character consider their worst personality trait? Anxious/cowardly (actually it’s jealous and possessive)

How does the character think others perceive them: As rich and powerful but rather boring and basic

What would the character most like to change about themselves: He would like to be brave and good in a fight instead of suffering from PTSD from his experience at the hands of his kidnappers.

Relationships with others

Opinion of other people in general: He loves people and spending time with them.

Does the character hide his/her true opinions and emotions from others? Yes, if need be but not around his friends.

Person character most hates: Demo Buttergood (formerly), William McAllister

Best friend(s): Eli Moore, Demo Buttergood, Mo Darling

Person character goes to for advice: His mother (formerly), Samuel, Mo, Demo(on and off), Lorelai

Person character feels responsible for or takes care of: Seven and Lorelai, later on his children

Person character feels shy or awkward around: Peyton Bradley. Mo dates him when she’s not dating Henry.

Person character openly admires: His mother (formerly), Demo (on and off)

Person character secretly admires: Peyton Bradley

Most important person in character’s life before story starts: Eli

After story starts: Also Eli

#profile: henry #oc: henry van tassel #oc profile #original story #gen: 1

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babygirlwolverine · 3 years ago

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2, 7, 10, 26, 30 🤠

Thank you nonnie!! <3

2) Anything that you'd like to write but feel like you're unable to?

So, I still have this long!fic idea that I’d like to fully commit to one day. It’s the Disney World fic that is based around s13 deancas and has baby!jack in it. But I feel like I’m unable to write it because my original plans for this fic was to have it at 100k words. And I just don’t know if I could commit to writing something that long, or if anyone would be interested in reading it. I think most of why I feel unable to write it comes from my own fear. I wrote a few thousand words for it and then stopped and it’s been left in my google docs since then.

7) Your favorite ao3 tag.

Idiots in Love.

because, let’s face it, that sums up dean and cas in a nutshell. They really are idiots who are in love. Emphasis on the idiots part because they’re a bunch of dumbasses who just pine over each other all the time

10) Top Three Favorite Fic Tropes

hmmmm. oh god i have so many. Okay, let’s go with: first kiss, domestic bliss, and mutual pining! (also throwing in case fics as a secret 4th option here!)

26) What would you describe as OOC?

ooooh god, this is a tricky question. To me, personally, AUs often feel OOC to me. And that’s just me and my style. Which is why like 99% of the fics I write are canon or canon-adjacent or canon-divergent, because that’s where the characters feel the most real and authentic to me. But, that being said, there is some AUs I’ve fallen in love with. I just have to really be able to feel like the characters are true to their roots.

30) Describe a fic that almost happened, but then it didn’t.

Oooooh. Okay okay. So this fic is still sitting in my google docs. And it’s like 15k words currently and I just stopped writing it. But it was a fic based on 14x15 where instead of Cas and Sam going to pleasantville its Cas and Dean. The whole first chapter followed along with the episode except it was Dean and Cas interacting with the people in the town. And then chapter 2 started this journey where Dean and Cas wake up married in the town and everything is perfect (or so it seems). They get this domestic bliss where they’re husbands and everyone knows they’re married and they‘re really sweet on each other and go on lil dates and share kisses and cuddle together and it feels too good to be true. Each chapter was supposed to bring that weird feeling because each morning Dean and Cas wake up and they have new jobs in the town. And only Cas starts to feel like something isn’t real about what’s going on. In the end they solve the case, find out it was the mayor who was the bad guy, and they leave the town. But after having been married for a week, going back to pretending they aren’t in love feels impossible. They have a huge scene where they finally talk things out and they realize maybe they did like being married, so they go and get married then and there because, what the hell, it’s always the end of the world and now they’ve discovered how good it feels, neither of them wants to let the other go.

writing ask game!

#asked and answered #anon #writing ask game #ask game #thank you nonnie for asking these!#I love answering questions about writing things #plus it made me smile that you sent so many!#this was a big delve into two of my biggest wips that kinda just stalled #maybe someday I’ll finish writing them #thank you again nonnie!#this was really fun to answer these

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latin-dr-robotnik · 3 years ago

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I posted 1602 times in 2021

486 posts created (30%)

1116 posts reblogged (70%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 2.3 posts.

I added 1253 tags in 2021

#sonic the hedgehog - 492 posts

#sonic music - 165 posts

#yakuza - 143 posts

#latin dr robotnik stuff - 103 posts

#sonamy - 103 posts

#tumblr sonic heroes - 95 posts

#friday night - 47 posts

#sonic colors - 39 posts

#sonic unleashed - 35 posts

#sonic 30th - 31 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#both white hispanic populations and afro-descendants? that's latam in a nutshell - and it's actually a current fight to stop the inequality

My Top Posts in 2021

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Sonic Omens takes place between Sonic Unleashed and Sonic Lost World, and in true post-Unleashed fashion, Sonic misses a date with Amy.

Transcript:

Amy: SOONIC! I am SO excited for our picnic today!

Sonic: A-A-Amy!? Oh... that was today?

Amy: UGH! SONIC! How can you be such a hero and yet so irresponsible at the same time!? I even sent messages to your phone, and you didn’t even reply!

Sonic: I-I-I-I... Sorry, Amy, going through a tunnel! This area is a dead zone... I... I... can’t... hear you, will call you back later!

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i’m not going to pretend it won’t be like that

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Sonic zone names be like

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“Station Square is a hub. It links many satellite cities.”

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Happy 30th anniversary, Sonic the Hedgehog!!

(Sonic Tuxedo render by Nibroc.Rock)

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Get your Tumblr 2021 Year in Review →

#my 2021 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #i wanna remember what was the context behind the longest tag #i think i was discussing inequality in latam #and how racism is still a very rampant issue - especially coming from old criollos (white hispanics)#it sounds a bit weird out of context but if it's the post i think it is it was a very interesting topic #or maybe i was just rambling about history like i always do #for everything else it's painfully obvious i'm a sonic fan lmao

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atinycupofpositivitea · 1 year ago

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Journaling our 🍵 life tea 🍵

Today in a nutshell 🥜

I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed with the many things to do. I try to stay on top of them but it's not that easy. I'm also missing my family and friends, and home in general. It's true though that my health here has improved from the first day. I am really looking and feeling good, both in my mental health and physical health. I'm making friends and things are going alright. It's a bit hard to manage all of the relationships but I try to make an effort. Things I've liked about today was hanging out with my bestie, going to the quiz night, and dressing up in a nice outfit.

Things we feel grateful for 🐦

I am grateful for the things I do for myself.

Positive affirmations and self-love 💖

I can overcome anything.

Things we hope and look forward to ☘️

I hope I can do everything I want to do tomorrow.

Date: 26/09/2023

#positive mental attitude #positive thoughts #positivity #note to self #mental health #self love #self care #positive #self healing #2023 journal

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redglassesgirl-maruma · 4 years ago

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Hello Everyone!

A day like today 20 years ago the first novel of our beloved series was published in November 2000. This is an incredible anniversary and that’s why we’ll celebrate the whole month with events!

I hope you can join this special occasion and contribute a little bit by sharing your posts and art here in tumblr.

This is not the first event run by this blog, if you want to see what we did in previous years you can visit my tags MA Event, MA Event 2017 and MA Event 2018.

The dynamic of the events is to have some deliver themes and inspiration divided in different sections. This event will run weekly, except for the last week of the month when we’ll have daily content shared to inspire you even more.

Please save the date around the last weekend of November for our Live Chat! I’ll post more information about the exact date and time along the next weekly posts.

Update: Live Chat Sunday 29 at 1am Buenos Aires timezone GTM-3 You can check online comparing with your time zone here. We’ll meet and chat, share opinions, and play some games or draw together!

20th Anniversary MA Event - First Week Activity Share your MAlove, share your MArt! From November 1 to November 8

This week we’ll draw fanarts, write fanfics or make any other kind of media to celebrate the 20th anniversary of the series. We have list of 365 prompts in case you need a little bit of extra inspiration, please check under the cut and try to mix anything you pick with a festive mood to make it really special ;D

Remember to tag your posts with #MAnniversary 2020 and #MA Event

Links to the weekly event’s posts:

Prompts:

01. Introduction

02. Love

03. Light

04. Dark

05. Seeking Solace

06. Break Away

07. Heaven

08. Innocence

09. Drive

10. Breathe Again

11. Memory

12. Insanity

13. Misfortune

14. Smile

15. Silence

16. Questioning

17. Blood

18. Rainbow

19. Gray

20. Fortitude

21. Vacation

22. Mother Nature

23. Cat

24. No Time

25. Trouble Lurking

26. Tears

27. Foreign

28. Sorrow

29. Happiness

30. Under the Rain

31. Flowers

32. Night

33. Expectations

34. Stars

35. Hold my Hand

36. Precious Treasure

37. Eyes

38. Abandoned

39. Dreams

40. Rated

41. Teamwork

42. Standing Still

43. Dying

44. Two Roads

45. Illusion

46. Family

47. Creation

48. Childhood

49. Stripes

50. Breaking the Rules

51. Fanart

52. Deep in Thought

53. Keeping a Secret

54. Tower

55. Waiting

56. Danger Ahead

57. Sacrifice

58. Kick in the Head

59. No Way Out

60. Rejection

61. Fairy Tale

62. Magic

63. Do Not Disturb

64. Multitasking

65. Horror

66. Traps

67. Playing the Melody

68. Hero

69. Annoyance

70. 67%

71. Obsession

72. Mischief Managed

73. I Can’t

74. Are You Challenging Me?

75. Mirror

76. Broken Pieces

77. Test

78. Drink

79. Starvation

80. Words

81. Pen and Paper

82. Can You Hear Me?

83. Heal

84. Out Cold

85. Spiral

86. Seeing Red

87. Food

88. Pain

89. Through the Fire

90. Triangle

91. Drowning

92. All That I Have

93. Give Up

94. Last Hope

95. Advertisement

96. In the Storm

97. Safety First

98. Puzzle

99. Solitude

100. Relaxation

101. Hello World

102. Fear

103. Anger

104. Regret

105. Happiness

106. Love

107. Family

108. Friendship

109. Home

110. Childhood

111. Adulthood

112. Birth

113. Death

114. Me

115. You

116. Thoughts

117. Emotion

118. Sun

119. Rain

120. Thunder

121. Noon

122. Midnight

123. Twilight

124. Rooms

125. Window to the Soul

126. Games

127. Halo

128. Serenity

129. Firefly

130. Phone

131. Movie

132. Television

133. Plants

134. Freedom

135. Forgetfulness

136. Remembrance

137. Memorial

138. War

139. Fight

140. Loss

141. Winning

142. Losing

143. Nature

144. Hurricane

145. Storms are brewing

146. Lightning

147. Colors

148. Bravo

149. Punishment

150. Picture

151. Another Wolfs

153. The Life You Dream Of

154. Dreams

155. Tears

157. Smiling

158. Laughing

159. Crying

160. Looking in the Mirror

161. Steam

162. Candy

163. Cats

164. Dogs

165. Glasses

166. Orbit

167. Satellite

168. Stars

169. Jade

170. Emerald

171. Gems

172. Dreaming Out Loud

173. Insomnia

174. Rabbits

175. Snake

176. Borders

177. The Year

178. This Time

179. Last Time

180. Forever and a Day

181. Sometimes

182. Always

183. Power

184. Weakness

185. Green

186. Purple

187. Blue

188. Sight

189. Blindness

190. Hurtful

191. Stages of grief

192. Arguments

193. Country

194. Frog

195. Forest

196. River

197. Flying

198. Mountains

199. Snow

200. Goodbye

201. Heart of Glass

202. My Life

203. Me In a Nutshell

204. Forever Yours

205. True Colors

206. My best friend’s girl

207. Impossible Love

208. Forgiveness

209. Fibers of Our Lives

210. Challenging Dream

211. Living My Dream

212. Forgetting Myself

213. Saving Grace

214. Lonely

215. Unbalanced

216. See-saw

217. Math

218. Match Making

219. Beyond Good and Evil

220. Second Sight

221. Double Take

223. Upon Review

224. Losing You

225. Baseball

226. Shouting

227. Farmland

228. Heartland

229. Brick Wall

230. Glass Houses

231. Eyes

231. Ring

233. Circle

234. Square

235. Boxes

236. Moving

237. Well Being

238. Insanity

239. Repetition

240. Learning

241. Class

242. Flowers

243. Special

244. Snowflakes

245. The Man They Call Jayne

246. Malicious

247. Pretty on the Outside

248. The Outside

249. Thankful

250. Neglect

251. Remorse

252. Embracement

253. Reflecting on My Life

254. Space

255. Constellation

256. Collection

257. Magic

258. Thrill

259. Attack

260. 20 Seconds to Mars

261. Unable

262. Foolish

263. Science

264. Sign of Life

265. Motto

266. Me

267. Balloon

268. Self Esteem

269. Narcissism

270. Ideology

271. Pageantry

272. Keeping Up With the Jones’s

273. Crack in Your Armor

274. Spilling Your Guts

275. Lean on Me

276. Crippling Emotion

277. Biggest Fear

278. Prejudices

279. Fresh

280. Corn

281. Sugar

282. Ice Cream

283. Accents

284. Speech

285. Writing

286. Doom

287. Shape

288. The Real You

289. My Name Is ____

290. Who are You on the Inside

291. Hidden Hatred

292. Hanging

293. Jacket

294. Jail

295. Stepping Up to the Plate

296. Star Player

297. My Hero

298. Castle

299. Losing Yourself

300. Finding Hope

301. Pirates

302. Fallen Angel

303. Drowning Lessons

304. Ghosts in the snow

305. Rawr.

306. Pidgeons… Birdy

307. Broken Hearts Parade

308. Paranoid

309. Vampires

310. Betrayal

311. Emmi&Rumura

312. The three friends

313. Horror

314. Mirror

315. Candlelight

316. Spider moneky

317. Devil

318. Flowers

319. Teddy Bear

320. Mist

321. Kingdom Hearts

322. Ferret

323. Vanilla

324. Thunder

325. Pinto Pony

326. M&Ms

327. Killer

328. Grass

329. Peace

330. Chibi

331. Mr. Klaw, polite Lion

332. Eternal

333. Star girl

334. Hats

335. Calvin & Hobbes

336. Misery (A cup full of something… unknown )

337. Hot chocolate

338. My Chemical Romance

339. Light in the darkness

340. Laughter

341. Nightmares

342. Necklace

343. Fire

344. Clorotaint and Treegirl

345. Swirls

346. Pokemon

347. Friends

348. Double Trouble

349. Do not cross

350. Unknowing

351. Chocolate

352. Time

353. A phone

354. Little kids on a playground

355. Darkness

356. A purple lady

357. Writer’s block

358. The dark corner in my room that I go to cry at (and a unicorn)

359. Sunglasses

360. The sun relaxing by an air conditioner

361. A girl fleeing from her nightmares

362. A girl staring at a blank canvas

363. A visual representation of poetry

364. Trolls

365. A hat

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The Radio Station - Chapter Six - Why Can’t We Be Friends?

26th of November, 2018

Eventually, she saw it all unfold in the headlines. The lies. The heroin. The trip to rehab. It was devastating to discover the root cause of Matty’s behaviour in such a disconnected way from how she might’ve expected to discover it a few years ago. A part of her wanted to reach out, to check in and see if he was doing all right, offer to help, but she suspected after their last two interactions that maybe she was better off just leaving it. However, in contrast to the sinking feeling from knowing he had been going through such turmoil, it was incredibly uplifting to see him getting back on his feet. For him to be writing and releasing music again meant that he must’ve successfully made it to the other side. Whenever the announcement of a new album came, she waited in anticipation for the email confirming that he’d be coming back on the show. She wasn’t entirely sure if she was excited at the thought of seeing him again, or absolutely dreading the prospect of things still being uncomfortable between them - her emotions seemed to regularly flip flop between the two. It was awfully close to the album release date when she finally got the confirmation from her boss; she had begun to suspect maybe he didn’t want to come back on the show after how they’d left things. He’d have every right to resent her after how she’d treated him.

She was knocked out of her thoughts whenever she heard a soft knock at the door, turning in her chair to see Matty standing outside with a sheepish smile, having arrived early. His hair was cropped quite a bit shorter than she’d seen it before but he was still sporting his natural curls. He was wearing some puffy yellow coat over a plain shirt, and stock standard worn out blue jeans. It was probably the most… average, that she’d ever seen him look (not that average was ever a truly fitting word to describe Matthew Healy). She waited for him to push the door open and come in, but he seemed to be waiting for her to let him in. As she stood up and opened the door, and he gingerly made his way inside and loitered next to her desk for a minute, she was suddenly vividly reminded of the first time she’d met him. All she could see was the nervous twenty-three-year-old that she’d met six years ago, who was scared shitless about his first proper radio interview. The nostalgia hit like a freight train, and before she could give it a second thought she grabbed him in a tight hug.

He hugged her back, pressing his face into her shoulder as he let out the breath he had been holding. “I’m sorry…” She said quietly after a moment.

He gave an incredulous laugh at that, “You’re sorry? For what?” He asked. “I was the dickhead.”

“I just…” This hadn’t really been the way she expected herself to instantly react, nor had she thought of anything to say in this situation. Her mouth was running dry trying to come up with the right words to explain what she was feeling. “I wasn’t exactly a good friend.”

“I think we were both a bit guilty of that.” He chuckled as he ran a hand through his hair, taking a step back.

“I should’ve tried harder.” She tried to explain, frowning at herself as she floundered for the right sentiment.

“It’s fine, truly.” He reassured her. “I wouldn’t have told you what was happening, anyway. Nobody knew.” He added with a shrug.

They took their seats opposite the desk, both feeling slightly relieved but well aware there was still tension surrounding them. “Uh, is there anything you want me to avoid asking about?” She asked eventually, busying herself with checking the text line to avoid looking directly at him.

“No.” Matty replied instantly. “I’d prefer you ask what you want to rather than censor yourself for my benefit. I won’t answer it if it’s too much.” He clarified. “Thanks for checking, though.”

“Are you…” She hesitated, unsure of the boundaries of their friendship now and how much she should be asking for her own curiosity. “Are you all right now?” She asked as she looked across to him.

He cracked a small smile, “Considerably better. Probably not all the way there yet, though. It’s hard with my girlfriend back at home for the moment, but I’m managing. Keeping busy with other stuff to stay occupied.” He answered truthfully. She nodded in understanding. “And you? It’s been at least three years since we’ve had a proper conversation.” The realisation of how long it had actually been stung slightly, but she ignored that feeling and instead focused on the fact that he seemed to genuinely want to know how she’d been.

“Good.” She grinned. “Doing well on the morning slot now that it’s been a few years.”

“You’ve been making a bit of a reputation for yourself over here, I hear your name get kicked around a bit when I’m at home. It’s nice to see you getting proper recognition for your efforts.” She tried her best not to blush at the subtle compliment.

Thankfully she didn’t have too long to dwell on his kind words and any connotations behind them before the interview started. The nervous butterflies sat at the pit of her stomach as she switched the live audio and video feeds over, lying in wait in case the interview still felt as awkward and forced as the last two.

“Matty, great to have you back.” She spoke, clearing her throat slightly.

“Great to be back after so long.” He said cheerfully.

“The 1975 release their new record in six days, A Brief Inquiry into Online Relationships-”

“Only six days?” He muttered to himself in slight disbelief.

“We’ve only got a relatively short interview today, because after this you are heading straight into the live lounge to play a few tracks for us.” He made a noise of agreement. “We’ve heard five singles off it, all of which sound very different from one another in true 1975 fashion.” Matty laughed lightly at that. “And I noticed that you did the same thing with this album as what you did with I Like it When You Sleep; the first single you released was the first track on the album. Is this becoming a habit for you guys?” She asked.

“Probably not a habit.” He started, letting out a huff. “It just felt like the most natural thing to do. Whether it felt like a primary statement or not, I’m not sure. We’d already made an album by that point, we hadn’t made a group of singles. I hadn’t been thinking ‘oh, how do we butter them up?’ Just thought… this is the first song on the record. Put it out.” He shrugged.

“Do you think this is your strongest record so far?”

“A hundred percent.” He answered instantly.

“I’ve heard people comparing it to OK Computer. Saying that it’s a similar thing for the millennial generation.” She prompted.

He let out a groan, “I try not to think much about it.” He admitted. “I mean, what do I say? It’s so humbling and amazing, but strange also, because… the only realisation that I really came to, about the record – I think the reference to OK Computer is maybe it’s kind of, the narrative is incredibly twinned with how we communicate and the internet and all those kind of things. Which is obviously OK Computer in a nutshell. My favourite records are about life.” He said, clenching his fist for emphasis and knocking the microphone lightly. “It’s maybe a bit of a big thing to say, but I was just writing a record about relationships. Well… I wasn’t even doing that; I was just writing a record. And it turns out if you’re trying to write an honest record about relationships and how they’re mediated in the modern day, you’re kind of by proxy writing about the internet.” He explained. Things already felt more natural than what they had of late. Matty felt more open and responsive, which instantly put her mind at ease.

“One of the other singles that we’ve heard from the album is Love It If We Made It, which is…” She tried to pick her words carefully to best capture her thoughts on the song succinctly, “a pretty powerful song to say the least.”

Matty nodded enthusiastically before answering, “The thing with Love It If We Made It… it was very, very difficult to write. It’s a list of information. The idea stemmed from the fact that over a year we collected tabloid newspapers every day to make the lyrics. Unfortunately, when we got to trying that, it was too slapstick. The song was hard to get right. It needed to be as objective and as fair and as anti… ‘watch out sheeple’ as possible. And that’s hard to do.”

“It seems you guys did a good job with it in the end. It’s been resonating well with our listeners.”

“Thanks.” Matty grinned proudly.

“It’s Not Living If It’s Not With You has also had quite the response.” She added, hoping he’d have a bit to say about that, and that maybe it could work as a segue to the questions blowing up her screen in her peripheral vision.

“It’s… I don’t know…” He sighed, staring blankly at the wall behind her as he tried to formulate an answer. “The way I always explain it, it’s like it’s a song that sounds poppy but it’s about something serious. Which, okay, that’s straight up 1975. And that’s because the feeling that I get from music, narratively or musically, can kind of be the same thing. You know like being nervous or being like, er, anxious for a date, physically could be the same feeling as the fear of heights if you get rid of all the intellect. Emotionally, you get the same thing. I’ve always been like, I get this feeling when I read the lyrics of Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen but I get the same carnal feeling when I hear the music to Girls Just Want to Have Fun. So… the synthesis of those ideas has just been the most obvious thing in the world for me, you know what I mean?” He looked across to her for confirmation. “I think that idea really sums up The 1975. If you’re a big fan of The 1975, that’s the most 1975-iest song on the record.”

She had hoped he would jump straight into the lyrical content of the song, but clearly she would need to segue into it herself. “That totally makes sense.” She agreed. “There’s been a bit of a debate about the subject matter of It’s Not Living.” She said, giving him a cautious glance. He’d said not to worry about asking whatever she wanted to, but that didn’t stop her from feeling like she was delving too deep into his private life.

He hummed thoughtfully. “I’m pretty sure most of the fans know what it’s about.” He said with a dry laugh. “I’ve not like… done some big reveal of my relationship with drugs over the past couple of years. I think that because…” He stared down at the desk with a frown, “I used to have nightmares about being exposed. Because remember, my whole game has always been that ‘do I know that you know that I think that I’m a rock star?’ that’s always been my whole thing.” He said with a pointed look. “So, the idea though, of actually being known for being a junkie and doing those kinds of things, used to terrify me. Because then I’m a cliché. I lose all of my irony and lose all of my funniness because I’m an actual cliché. So, I think even when I’m talking about it on this record, I’m still going ‘Danny ran into some complications-’ it’s like I’m using characters. It’s a bit like somebody going ‘I’ve got this mate, right, and he’s got a bit of this weird rash-’ “ He chuckled. “Like ‘yeah, all right, well tell your mate-’ it’s like we know who you’re talking about. I think the idea that I’m still trying to hide and remove myself from it is part of the gag. But then the chorus is brutally honest. It’s difficult to write a song like that. It’s hard to despise the idea of fetishizing or romanticising drug use as a behaviour but then only having my truth. Like I don’t have anything else, I don’t have anywhere else to talk about it. There is a hopelessness to drug addiction. You don’t keep doing it because it’s cool, you keep doing it because you feel like there’s no life without it.” His expression seemed to become quite sombre at that before he continued his train of thought. “And to express that… it wasn’t like a relief for me. The music is a catharsis for me, but it wasn’t like I needed to get that out. Unfortunately, I’m only my set of experiences, and they’re pretty limited as somebody who’s been on the road for four years trying to mediate his life through drug addiction, y’know? So yeah… it’s difficult to walk that line. Um… But I just had to make sure that… like with most of my work, any discussion of my behaviour is normally with a profound distaste. And kids are smart, man.”

She hadn’t really expected him to be so open about it so readily. “What started it?” She asked instinctually, almost forgetting for a moment that she was at work and meant to be providing entertainment. “If you don’t mind me asking.” She added as an afterthought.

He waved a hand dismissively at her worry. “I’d be on stage, and there would be however many thousands of people. And I’m genuinely trying to connect with people, you know? And then it’s done. Go back to the hotel room. Go to sleep. Like… what?” He answered with a frustrated huff. “I was trying to change culture in my head ten minutes ago and now I’ve gotta go to sleep? I used drugs to go to sleep primarily. I’ve never had a good relationship with sleep, anyway… I’ve always been jealous of people they’ll tell me about a dream and they’ll kind of like explain this little kind of film that they’ve been that has a dynamic of emotions and it was up and it was down and my dreams are just like terror. Just fear. I’ve never had that many good dreams. And drugs stop you dreaming. But then obviously… you have solutions to get rid of that post-show buzz. Didn’t really get me anywhere. Spoilt it, as well. Did way too much. Did loads of it.” He admitted. “So, I can’t do anymore of it… when I’m older.” He laughed.

“So, you became reliant on that as a comedown?” She questioned.

“It was always gonna happen with me with opiates.” He said bluntly. “I only say this in case people relate to it, but like, when I was younger, I kind of used to dream about being sedated. And unfortunately, sex, drugs, other things, religion, I’ve loved all these things in my life but they’ve never just-” He clicked his fingers, “turned it off. And unfortunately, when I tried those drugs, I – temporarily, for a moment – had that. And I was like, right, this is gonna help. And erm,” He picked at his nail anxiously. “It just takes your shine off, slows you down. Makes you lie, which is a nightmare for somebody who is so Mr Tell The Truth.”

“The lies are what got you caught?”

He made a noise of contemplation. “The problem is… I’m very, very lucky, is what I am. And I have an infrastructure around me of like… we’ve been a band since we were fourteen, I’m twenty-nine, right.” He said with a pointed look in her direction. “We’re like brothers, we love each other. I have amazing opportunities like this,” He gestured around the studio, “I have my health, I have all these things. There’s not a lot of people around me who allow stuff like… hard drug use. And that’s really annoying when you’re a drug addict. But it also makes you reflect, you know what I mean? Because you just end up lying, and being a version of yourself that- but that’s part of the sickness. You incentivise things weirdly.” He explained with a shrug.

“And the rehab centre you went to was in Barbados?” She asked. He nodded in response. “I heard that the band paid for that?”

His expression visibly softened when she brought that up. “Yeah. I think the nice story was that uh… Obviously, I’m in a fortunate place in my career that - obviously I have to think about those kind of financial things - but before I went I was kind of thinking ‘I’ll sort that out when I’m out there’ and then I remember saying to Jamie ‘oh-‘ and he was like ‘aw nah, nah, it’s all sorted’ and I was like ‘Oh, how much did it - what was it?’ and he was like ‘oh, well we just did it out the band’ and I was like ‘oh really??’ “ He seemed visibly touched by this story, even retelling it now.

“That was pretty amazing of them to do.”

“Yeah… Yeah, it was.” He muttered, still clearly caught up in his own thoughts. “And you know what, if you want a band to last forever, share.” He added simply.

“And this place you went to, supposedly they do a bunch of stuff with horses?” She asked in confusion. When she had heard this information, she was almost certain she had gotten her wires crossed, but Matty was already confirming what she had said.

“Equine therapy, yeah! It was, basically…” He started trying to explain, before cracking a smile and looking across to her. “In reality what it was, for the first two or three days was me stood in a field rolling my eyes next to a horse.” He said with a laugh. “That’s what it was really. This guy put me in a field with a horse and was like ‘talk to the horse’ so I’m like” He gave a sarcastic look, “ ‘…all right?’ So, he leaves me alone and I’m like ‘hey man’ and the horse obviously didn’t say anything.” She couldn’t help but laugh at the image. “And then he put me in the round pen, right. He put me in this pen which was just round – was a good explanation of it.” He reprimanded himself with a snort. “And I stood in the middle, and basically he said ‘I want you to walk towards the horse. It’s gonna send the horse around in a loop, and I want you to assert your position. You’re not going to get the horse. You’re just telling the horse that this is where you’re going’. All this stuff. So, I do it. And he goes ‘you’ll notice three things, at one point the horse will dip its head, then it’ll bow its ear to you, then it’ll start biting its lips. Once it’s done these three things, I want you to turn your back and drop the rope.’ So, I’m like right, lips, thing, do this, yep. And the horse is running, the horse is running, I watched for these three cues, and I dropped the rope and I turned round. The horse stopped dead.” He clapped his hands together for emphasis, staring at her seriously.

“I swear to you, it was one of the most profound moments of my life. The horse stopped dead, came over to me and stood behind me – and this is a horse that for three days had mugged me off. And I was… stood there with this horse, that now… wanted to be with me?” He seemed entirely perplexed by this. “Then when I walked it wouldn’t cross my feet,” He gestured to his feet as he said this, knocking his microphone in the process. “Sorry, I keep hitting the microphone. Way too gesticulated today. Erm, when I went into the field and hung out with it, it wanted to be with me. And then I stood there and was like ‘Ah… Right…’ Then all of these profound things… It was so…” He tried his best to find the words. “It ate everything it needed to eat, and didn’t complain about it, and didn’t eat too much of it, and ate the right stuff. It had the ability to destroy anything it wanted, but the desire to hurt nothing. It was physically perfect and strong. It was forgiving with its time with me. And it was kind of compassionate in a way, ‘cause he’s a horse, he doesn’t want me there, he just wants to be a horse. But he let me be there.” It was abundantly clear how much of an impact this experience had on Matty. He spoke about it so passionately that it was hard not to feel moved by what he was saying. “I found myself envying all of these human qualities in a horse. And I think that was the point of it…” He said with a look of finality. “At least, I hope that was the point of it. Otherwise I’ve screwed it up and learned nothing.” He laughed loudly. “But it worked for me.”

“How are you finding it? Being off the drugs?” She asked, leaning back in her seat after having been leant forward in interest for the last few minutes as he told his story.

He pulled a face as he tried to answer that in a manner suitable for a mass radio audience. “I mean… I wouldn’t say I’m this ‘beacon of sobriety’ “ He punctuated that with air quotes, “that’s kind of, telling you how it is to be an ex addict. I don’t know.” He answered sincerely. “I’ve not gone long enough. I’m not gonna start talking about ‘I haven’t done drugs in five years - ten years’ it was only a few months ago. I was still doing loads of them.” He said as he scratched at his neck.

“Is it harder now without them?”

“I don’t sleep as good as I used to with it, but I’m getting by.” He replied with a nod. “I’m all right with sleeping now. The band and my girlfriend have been really supportive and helpful. I’m doing all the things now that I used to do when I took drugs all the time. So, I’ve just made a record without doing it all the time,” He ticked that off on a finger, “so that was an experience, that was a challenge. I’ve now started touring without doing it all the time,” He ticked that off as well, “that’s an experience, that’s a challenge. I’m now about to start getting on planes all the time and touring internationally,” He added that to the list, “that’ll be a challenge. But you’ve just gotta take it day by day as the cliché says, or you’ll freak yourself out.”

“You talk about drugs pretty freely in your music, but you don’t really speak about it in interviews, was that to try and stay… disconnected from it to some degree? Did you think it was going to get as bad as it did?” She asked. She had entirely tuned out of the fan questions being sent in now, asking these questions almost purely from her own curiosity to know what had happened to the Matty she knew.

“No, no, no… I didn’t. I mean, I think the thing that I think I always have confidence in is that because I’ve – regardless of if it’s drugs or relationships - the main thing I’ve done with The 1975 is spoken about myself with kind of quite a profound disdain.” He answered. “There’s not really been a celebration of the behaviour. I think that if I was ever romanticising or fetishizing the use of drugs, I think I’d catch myself doing it. And if I ever have done that in a lyric, it will be immediately met with a lyric that shows that one up to be ironic or flawed.” He elaborated. That made sense. Most of his songs did reflect that attitude. “I’ve just had to be honest. Religion allows you to kind of give something away, sex, exactly the same thing. They’re just ways of giving up some kind of responsibility in the moment. But by that point I’d done ‘em all!” He grinned, still trying to keep the mood light despite the heavy topic. “Drugs was the only one left.”

She stared at him for a moment, just taking in all of the information he’d given her in such a short timeframe. It was a lot to process all at once, but it made a lot of the pieces click into place and answered a lot of questions that had kept her up at night when they had lost contact. Eventually she clocked back into reality, seeing that he was watching her just as intently as she had been watching him while he had divulged some of the most intimate aspects of his life.

“So, to a lighter note-” She segued.

“It’s fine, I don’t mind talking about it.” He said with a chuckle.

She smiled back at him, “I’m sure our listeners have enjoyed hearing it all in such great detail. But, there are some other big events that have been happening in your life as well that we haven’t brought up.” She said.

“Oh?”

“The 1975 will be headlining Reading and Leeds next year.”

“Yes!” He beamed. “It’s our first big headline festival. It gets me proper emotional. We didn’t just go as kids, after I got to thirteen, Christmas took a back seat and the date on my calendar was Reading and Leeds. I went one year with a tenner and no tent. I mean, I’ve had some moments there. It’ll definitely be a very humble show. All of this ego and confidence here will be gone.” He scoffed, “ ‘Honestly guys, thanks so much for coming.’ ” He said in a feigned blubbering emotional voice, before giggling at himself. “But like, we’ve just become a really good band in my opinion. I think we could headline Reading and Leeds tomorrow if you asked us to.”

“Are you particularly excited to have content off the new album to perform there?”

“Definitely. There are some songs on there that will be added into the festival setlists. It was about creating a distillation of what preceded it. Everything needed to be better, more extreme. Poppy bits poppier, heavy bits heavier, honest bits more honest.” He explained with a nod. “You can look at your work and be like ‘what did I do there that someone likes’ or ‘let’s try and do that piano thing’. Me, when I’m like, really personal, really honest, that’s when I get the best reaction. So, I just tend to do that. Like what’s gonna make me, y’know-“ He started pretending to tear up for emphasis.

“And you guys are already working on the next album, Notes on a Conditional Form? This one’s not even out yet!”

He just laughed. “We went away and what happened was, we finished A Brief Inquiry, kind of had a week off and then we started with Notes. I’m just letting it happen.” He shrugged. “I’m letting it happen in the next six months. It’ll be before…” He seemed to be doing some calculations in his head. “August. It has to be in time for Reading and Leeds.” He added decisively.

Glancing down at the clock on the screen next to her, she could see that they had in fact gone over time. “Well, as always Matty, it’s been lovely having you on the show, but I think we have to wrap it up so you can scoot over to the live lounge and get yourself set up.” She said with a small sigh, disappointed that the interview had to end after how well it had been going. Matty had felt entirely captivating as he spoke today, clearly on his game.

“God, this’ll be the first time we’ve played together in… ages.” He said as he pulled a hand through his hair and leaned back into his chair. “And we’ve not played these songs live yet, either. This will be the debut.”

“Incredibly exciting.” She nodded. “So, I’ll let you go. Tune in folks in half an hour, The 1975 will be playing a short set for us of songs from their new album, A Brief Inquiry Into Online Relationships, in the live lounge.” She spoke into the microphone, before rounding out the interview.

Matty didn’t move from his chair across from her as she switched the camera feed off and switched over to the next round of tracks.

“Are you coming?” He asked as soon as she took her headset off. “To the live lounge?” He clarified.

Her shift was meant to end in just over twenty minutes, and they started in thirty. She could probably finish up quickly enough to make it down there in time. “Yeah, I can do that.” She said with a nod.

He grinned eagerly, “It’ll be wicked to have you there for it.”

“It’s probably about time I saw you guys play.” She laughed as he stood up.

“I’ll see you shortly.” He said over his shoulder as he made his way out of the studio.

* * *

By the time she made her way down to the live lounge quite a crowd had already formed. Her handover between shifts had been fairly rushed in an attempt to get out of there quickly, but obviously The 1975 knew how to draw an audience. She managed to squeeze her way through a few crew members to get a decent enough viewing point. Whenever she caught Matty’s gaze, he waved at her excitedly. She waved back, suddenly feeling a bout of nerves at the thought of finally watching him in action. Once the cameras were set up and all of the equipment had done one final round of checks, they launched into quite a boppy first song. She recognised this instantly as Tootime, as it had been her favourite of the singles that were released. He sounded a bit rusty and raw, which thankfully he could cover with the filter over his voice, but his enthusiasm to be performing again was unmistakable. The looks he was throwing to his band were nothing short of ecstatic, and despite being out of practice they played the song flawlessly. They finished up the first song, and he shrugged off his yellow jacket as they changed their gear over for the next two. Their little live set was only three songs long in the end, but they felt It’s Not Living and Sincerity Is Scary were excellent choices to best get across the vibe of the new album. After seeing what they could do in a tiny room with minimal fanfare, she was suddenly kicking herself for never getting out to one of their live shows.

When they had wrapped up the set, Matty started packing away his gear before seeing her starting to leave. He quickly dropped what he was doing and called out to her to wait up. She turned to face him, as he suddenly realised that he hadn’t worked out what to actually say. “Look, I’m sorry about… how I’ve been lately.” He eventually settled on.

“It’s okay, you were going through a rough time.” She reassured him.

“I was,” He nodded, “but it’s not really an excuse.” He added with a sigh. “Can I take you out to lunch after this? To apologise properly.” He asked with a hopeful look.

“You don’t have to-” She started, before he interrupted.

“I know I don’t have to - I want to.” He corrected. She considered this offer for a moment. “Please?”

“Sure.” She nodded, trying to conceal her smile. “That’d be nice.”

She waited patiently as he packed up his gear, feeling slightly awkward for loitering around a studio that wasn’t hers while she watched everyone else clear out. Once everything seemed fairly put away, he exchanged a quiet word with the band and walked over to where she was standing.

“Any preferences for where we eat? It’s your apology lunch, after all.” He said as he slipped his jacket back on.

She grimaced at his choice of words. “Don’t say it like that.”

“Why?” He laughed.

“It makes me feel worse than I already do.”

“Suppose we’ll just feel bad together, then.” He said as he wrapped an arm around her shoulders and ushered her back out of the building. She couldn’t deny, it felt nice to be seeing Matty act more like he had when they’d first met. Whether that was because she enjoyed the attention or because it was nice to see her friend feeling more himself was up for debate.

Due to neither of them being the one to want to make the call about where to eat, for fear of the other not enjoying it, they ended up going to the only place that served food within their direct eyeline – a bakery. It made her feel less like she was taking advantage too for him to only have to pay for pastries and coffee, not a proper fancy meal with drinks. They caught each other up on the fine points of their lives that they’d missed out on hearing over the last few years: highlights in careers, people who’d come and gone, other artists they’d met that had proved to be noteworthy (for good reasons and bad). It was incredibly reassuring for the both of them to know that conversation still flowed easily enough between them when they weren’t actively disliking each other.

“Sorry if the interview was a bit… too personal. We didn’t really talk about the record all that much, in the end.” She said, thinking back to how long they’d spent discussing his drug habits rather than his impending album release.

“Stop apologising.” He said around a mouthful of food. “I’m the one who’s supposed to be saying sorry. And I’m sure the fans would’ve liked it.” He shrugged.

“Yeah, but I don’t want to force stuff out of you for the sake of entertainment.”

“Like I said, I wouldn’t have answered if I didn’t want to.” He reminded her.

He waited a beat, composing what he had originally wanted to say today before clearing his throat. “I really am sorry, you know. For how I left things.” He said as he stared down into his mug of tea.

“It’s genuinely okay, Matty.” She reassured him. “I wasn’t really any better.” She added under her breath.

“I was just a bit oblivious and hopeful when I fucked stuff up initially. I wanted to act like I hadn’t dropped off your radar for two years.” He admitted as he scratched at the side of his head. “If I’m honest, I was reaching out to get some support from an old mate in a time when I felt pretty overwhelmed by everything that was happening. But I went about it in all the wrong ways and just made it a whole lot worse.” He clarified with a dry laugh. As if she hadn’t already felt bad enough, now he tells her that she’d shut him out when he had been trying to ask for help? The guilt increased tenfold.

“Sorry.” She said. He was about to tell her off again for apologising, but she cut him off. “I was already pretty shitty that I hadn’t seen you in so long, so I was pretty quick to want to end that interaction when things started getting… difficult.” She explained.

“Guess you live and learn, huh?” He said with a small smile. “At least we’re still mates now.” Hearing him say that helped ease a bit of her worry that she’d done as much to fuck things up as he had. At least now that it was all out in the open, they could move past it.

“Yeah.” She concurred, returning his smile. They finished up the pastries that Matty had bought before stepping out of the bakery. Both of them felt like a weight had been lifted now that they knew they hadn’t screwed stuff up for good between them. Having each said their piece, they were pretty confident that they could give friendship another shot.

“It was great to see you.” He said as he pulled her in for a hug tight enough that it almost made her lose her breath.

“Next time we’ll have to make sure it’s not so long.” She said as he moved back from the hug.

“We’ll keep in touch.” He agreed with a nod. “And I mean it this time.”

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