#cz it just gets you everytime

[kenlvry]

Hello could I request some Kenny, stan, and Kyle with a fem reader where she likes to be cuddled a lot? Also if it doesn’t trouble you could you write them as teens like 16-17? Much love <3333

reader who loves to cuddle!

an: hello! yes i cann but i hope you dont mind me adding tweek and craig, ages 16-17!

kenny mccormick

before dating kenny people already thought you two were dating, everytime he came over to your house you'd prepare blankets on the couch and be real close to him and just wouldn't let go of him! , at first he was really weirded out but like after 5 seconds he likes it, he thought you were trying to flirt him ngl "thought we were gonna play games? didn't know you had hidden intentions" he smirked and winked,you made a disgusted face "ew no you idiot! i js like cuddling people, if you dont like it the nvm" you said getting off the couch and he pulled you back "okokok sorry" he got so used to it that when you two came over to stans to watch some movie with the others, you two immediately found a spot in the couch and cuddled, the other three looked at each other and kenny and was just 🤨 , "you two r dating?" "y/n i dont think thats a good idea considering how poor his ass is" you laughed a little and said no, kenny wanted to say yes though. after like another year of always cuddling you two ended up dating and cuddled way more than you have cuddled before.

stan marsh

when you first cuddled him was when you came over to do whatever you two was gonna do, he was shocked af at first and pulled away but you looked untroubled by it and he thought it was something normal, at first he wasn't really comfortable by it but then he'd feel safe, like someone was holding him close and keeping him dear. it made him feel calm and away from the shit he goes through. he would ask you to come over whenever he feels sad so he can cuddle and cry abt his problems, you dont mind. when kyle and the others found out abt this they.. 😨. since him and wendy was always on and off people never knew if they were tgt or not so they thought stan was cheating fr, they were off at that time and that was the last they were ever in a relationship bc now he has feelings for you, only you made him feel safe and wendy couldn't do that.

kyle brofloski

like stan he also was shocked at first, and he didnt like it but was nervous to tell you so he let it be. its not that he hates you he just.... he's nervous cz thats the first time he cuddled with a girl. you kinda notice it bc he would sweat like crazy and would be anxious af. you knew that not all people liked to be cuddled so you stopped but kyle didn't want you to stop, you just sat at the couch watching the movie him and the others put on. the other three didn't know bc usually their backs was facing to sofa and you two pulled away from each other before they could notice. but he literally grabbed you and hold you close to him, you loved it sm his body felt warm and with the weather its a good change. since you didn't want the other three to notice you tried pulling away bc the movie ended but he didn't let go, they js stared at you two.. "you uhh, dating kyle? couldn't help but notice the girl in your arms" "yeah", ever since then you both kinda just... dated no confession was made but you two dated.

[starzgaze]

imagine aroace!darling is so sick of Hae-In's and Jinwoo's bullshit that they straight up just say "is Beru and option?" when the the two ask which one they prefer.

also, unrelated; i'm pretty sure i just dreamt of a Beru x Reader fanfic and i started looking for it right when i woke up, only for it to not be real. the brainrot is getting to me..

omfg i had this idea too like a few days ago and it's funny to think about cz just imagine you're just some low profile worker within the association that is trying your very best to live a peaceful life. just a normal person you know?? like no big ambitions nor had any notable achievements except the random ones you would get back then in your school days but yet!

you still caught two of the s-ranks 's hearts in the country, really baffling actually.

whenever you're in the room with the two you can't even ignore the obvious deadly tension the two had even if you tried to, you can't imagine how people in the news assume they're in love with eachother when hae-in looked like she's about to pull jinwoo's head off his body and jinwoo is about to gut the blonde on the spot.

like is it really about you at this point? just get a room oh my god and what's worse you... you don't even see them as anything more than friends it's insane.

even if hae-in would bashfully gift you things and listen to your rants or tries to hint that she has feelings for you, every one of these things you would dodge like it was the plague

and it was the same with jinwoo! everytime the man saves you from some magical beast that was suspiciously near your place even if there was no gate that broke in your area, jinwoo would be there to save you like some shining knight in armor and it would play like some romantic scene except you would be there to painfully remind him that it's nothing more than a moment with a truthful "ahaha thanks a lot jinwoo, you're such a great friend!" which was definitely on purpose.

but the only problem was even if you dropped sooo many instances that you were not interested with the two, the damn duo was so persistent that it's genuinely tiring you out like what was it with you that was intriguing?? you're literally a low profile office worker within the association that showed the two a semblance of human decency are they that deprived of love?

like at some point you were (forcibly) hanging out with the two and they were bantering once again over you before they both turned their heads to your direction which honestly creeped you out then finally asking who did you prefer.

"[y.name]! please tell me you prefer a girl like me and not this awfully depressing dressed up loser!" hae-in glared at jinwoo while barking out her words that was definitely an attack to jinwoo's way of fashion

"wha— the hell? my fashion isn't that bad you asshole- oh whatever ignore her [y.name] I'm obviously more desirable" jinwoo deadpanned as he ignored hae-in's glare.

you looked at the two with tired eyes, dreadfully done with their bullshit before declaring your answer

"oh I'd choose neither... actually is beru is an option? i think that ant is more acceptable at this point"

the reaction they had was priceless, especially jinwoo's. you prefer the damned ant?? the ant that bodied hae-in the moment it popped out of nowhere or the same ant that jinwoo obliterated with a punch...? are you serious..

if you squint closely you can notice a wisp of black shadow on jinwoo's person that had a tint of pink blush that awfully looked like an ant. you didn't know if you were seeing things but you swore that it was beru blushing over your decision.

anyway wow i went on a tangent LMFAOOL I CANT BELIEVE I WROTE ALL THAT??? HELLO ANYWAY THIS IS INSANE I LOVE THIS also u dont know j mean... maybe it did exist and the author just got beamed off the internet

[hedgehog-troops]

if good luck babe! was genderbent, it would be about my uncle. my uncle whos been married for 6 years. mu uncle who wears the watch his bsf (D) got for him every single day, to the point where when it broke he immediately left to get it fixed the same day. he said he has no better watch and his wife pointed out that D's watch is just a cheap watch you find at every store whilst in their marriage shes gifted him two extremely expensive watches and he replied with that D didn't buy it tho.

on his birthday he told his wife to get herself a gift because he probably wouldnt use her gift anyways, but he uses every single little gift D's gotten him.

he complains everytime he eats his wifes favorite food because food which isnt homemade doesn't suit his stomach, but eats street food with D.

will often times just not come home after prayer for hours because D called and he went to him.

i've seen him drop everything just to go meet D because he called.

he took a day off from his job because D was moving away for a bit and they spent nearly two whole days just the two of them together.

the entire family teases him and his wife when his wife complains about how he doesn't take his meds to eat something thats good for him telling to just call D and ask him to ask my uncle, then he'd say yes.

everytime his wife brings up something he did with D that he refused to do with her he just says that "it's D"

he is an amazing man and husband, he, despite the tradition in his wife's family, let her work cz she wanted to, he values her, drives 12 hours continuously just to drop her at her mothers place when she asks, apends the day around all the children in the house, had a heart so so big that no matter where he is financially he will always treat everyone.

the only complains his wife has against him is his inability to take care of himself and inability to wear watches she gifts him.

he's a man, a good man.

a man who might just be in love with another man.

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

[thehighpriestess1]

Prestessss!!!!!!

Need an internal monologue of SDF gojo..... his internal fight everytime he saw injuries on her. Be it cz of accident or self injury.... and how She is reassuring him everytime sensing his guilt.

Sorry if this is too much of an ask. SDF holds a special place :)

Dark themes under the cut. Minors do not interact.

He held you in his arms as you slept but he lay awake. It wasn’t uncommon for him to stay up till you fell asleep but tonight was different. He wasn’t awake because of his love for watching you fall asleep in his arms, he was awake because of pain. He couldn’t get the image of your scars out of his mind, it must have hurt so much, he thought to himself. He could not even comprehend the pain inside of you. He hated when you assured him saying that it was in the past and that it made you stronger, why did you have to become strong in the first place? Why couldn’t you just be the wide eyed hopeful girl he fell in love with? He still loves you, more than ever, but he wished and wished to feel the pain you felt. The scars, the accident, everything…he wanted to feel every pain you felt. You suffered all alone, and yet you love and love. Did he deserve you? Did he deserve this life and family with you? How many apologies will it take to eradicate those memories? It will never be enough. No amount of apology or good memories will ever be enough.

He slid his arm from under your head and got out of bed carefully and made his way to the kitchen. He wanted to feel it. He had counted them, five thin ridges, that’s all he needed. He entered the kitchen with a blank face and one goal in his mind. He picked up the shiny knife and stared at it. Will it be enough? No.

He stared at the rugged punching bag..this will do. After about an hour of continuous punching bag without any protection his knuckles were bruised, his skin was peeling and burning but he felt better. If you wouldn’t punish him then he would do it himself.

The next morning when you saw his hands you interrogated him but he covered it up with an early morning workout.

“You expect me to believe that?”. You asked as you looked at him eating his breakfast like nothing happened.

“Mmmhmm”. He said with a mouthful of pancakes and a childlike smile.

“For the fifth time?”. You raised your brows.

“Mmmhm”.

“Please..if it is because of.. my thing then stop it. I don’t like this”.

“It’s not, love”. Gojo kept his hand on yours.

You got up and hugged him letting his head rest on your chest. Gojo moved so you could stand between his legs and wrapped his arms around you. “I’m fine y/n”.

“Good for you! But you have to stop this.”.

“I can-“.

“For me, please! I am begging you”. You sniffled and gojo moved you to sit on his lap. “I want to put a stop to this. I am done with this cycle of hurting so please stop”.

“It’s not that”. Gojo reassured you as he wiped your tears with his thumb.

“Fine. It’s not. I believe you. But stop this …workout..for me”.

Gojo looked at you sadly and remained silent.

“You said that you would do anything for me, so stop it. Go run or something I don’t care but if you show up home like this ever again then I will leave you”.

Gojo saw the pain in your eyes and realized that he had hurt you ..again. So what if he cried himself to sleep? So what if he was hurting inside? He didn’t want to see you hurt. This was his punishment. He smiled and kissed you. He would never do it again. Carrying the pain of hurting you was his punishment and he was happy to serve his sentence.

[kevin-the-bruyne]

You calling khao a fuccboi cz of his insta posts is taking me tf out 🤣🤣🤣🤣 i havent seen anyone being as real about them as you are, it’s a breath of fresh air. i love them even though theyre basically non existent to anyone except eo 😭

oh I can get so real about them. I get so real about them that I get mistaken for an anti on Twitter all the time 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 like no jokes I had to put it in my bio

they really know nothing else in a way that’s actively kinda bad for their rep (though it drives a certain faction of people that I am absolutely part of totally nutso).

Like if this were fake then they’re doing too good a job and they have to dial it back. They have to sometimes look like they remember it’s fake. Like those dispersed moments of character break is really really important for this to be successful in the format of the business model of imaginary couples. Like even if the couple were really in a romantic relationship they would still have to pretend they were fake at times do you understand what I’m trying to say?

and I cannot explain this in words but khaotung at his solo event was pining for first. I just- I don’t remember it being like that at the event with montow??? They’re getting worse at this. Like they hit the soft spot somewhere back in 2023 and have just regressed into diminishing marginal utility 😭😭😭

But also like??? thank god??? for that!!!!!!! I am endlessly entertained! I’m at the edge of my seat. I don’t think any of these men are normal about their fake partners by the way. But don’t you understand them??? Say if you had a friend that you had some ritualistic hobby with. Like everytime a spider man movie comes out you always watch it with them. And then when the next one came out they suddenly watched it with someone else. Like wouldn’t it drive you absolutely crazy? wouldn’t it make you sad?

Like the versions of themselves that are in fake love with each other are THEIR blorbos 🤧 But firstkhao are blorbo-ing a little too close to the sun 🤧🤧🤧🤧 best friends who take care of each other as more than best friends - yessir whatever you say sir 🫡

[tittylover26]

Something has been bothering me the past few days and since I don't have many friends I can talk to about this things, I might as well scream into the void here.

Since the beginning of this year, I made a few friends and we are quite close with each other. There are two girls, they are very VERY beautiful, like, really gorgeous. I have always liked to compliment people; if I think they're pretty, then I'll tell them, and of course they are not the execption. I also do the same with guy friends and pretty much anyone, not just girls.

From the first day we started talking, I told them I liked women. One of the girls, who I am the closest to in this friend group, is very supportive of me and knows I have a crush on this cool girl in our class. However, it seems my other girl friend didn't take my coming out seriously.

Last week, I almost kissed with my crush and I was talking to them (my two girl friends) about it, but ever since then, my friend started acting weird all day with me and after classes when we were waiting for the rest of our friend group to come out, she cautiously looked at me and asked "so...do you really like women?" And I said "Yeah, although...more than women, I just don't really care if it's a man or a woman. If I love a person, I love them regardless of their gender". Guys, when I tell you the literal DISGUST in her face took me out... I felt so awkward I just laughed. My supportive girl friend came out of the classroom and noticed some weird vibes and asked me what happened, but I didn't even have time to tell her anything when this girl grabbed her tightly by the arm and said "Ugh, no. Those things are a sin...".

Oh, boy. I'm not one to mind what people say about me whatsoever, but that? That is just ridiculous.

And well, things didn't end there. She BLOCKED ME, and has been avoiding me. I talked to my beloved, supportive girl friend yesterday and I said "I just don't get it. I said I liked girls from the very beginning and we have been getting along just fine, but now that she knows I was being serious about it, I'm some kind of filthy bug?". According to my supportive friend, now she thinks I was flirting with her everytime I complimented her.

I'm fucking tired of homophobic people, get a fucking life, dude. You are not even my type, dream on.

She likes men and is not like she falls in love with every human being with a y chromosome. I also don't like all women (even tho women are all beautiful, tbh), I'm just a regular person. Like, you think I'm a bad person cz I like girls and boys? YOU are the shitty person for thinking I'm bad just because of my sexual orientation, that again, doesn't concern anybody but me.

What a joke, man.

[my-castles-crumbling]

incredible anon here!

firstly nope we have no accomodations in the school for one, and most important my end or year exams are Cambridge ones so im not sure if they give a shit or not.

im 16 btw. (my mother refuses to give me the doctors number) and for the first time i was diagnosed my dad was present, at the time it was very tame like my feet would swell up if walked for too long etc etc.

but then it started to get too much so on the nezt my mother was there. the doctor said that the only way to combat the diseases is thry medicine but he says im too young for that rn cz the medicines also contain vitamins and if i start them now, my body will stop making those vitamins.

hes told me to stop doing strenuous activities and put a hit or cold pack on them.

my mother belittles me everytime i go to get one so ive just decided to not🚹

BUTTTT i do plan on talking to them over summer break and if they dont agree ill just pay my friends cousin to make me the rings and wear them (i wear alot of rings so its not really gonna be suspicious)

THANKYOU THO!!

also this has made me realise just how unsupported of people with physical ailments my country is. like i had a knee surgery two years ago (wild ik) and that was eye opening genuinely. now i can walk-ish but everytime my joints ache i think of people for whom it's worse and they literally have no accomodations in my country.

it makes me sad :(

-incredible anon

(they/them)

Hi again!

I'm genuinely so sad to hear that there's such little support for you right now. I hope you know that you deserve better and I'm here for you <3 If you ever need to just vent, let me know!

[trippinsorrows]

in my opinion, let’s say it happens and they do find the fanfics, you’re one of the writers i feel really has nothing to really worry about, your writing is good af and it’s not cringy and like the other comment said, not a single bad review in sight cz you EAT everytime and you never speak ill of anyone or disparage anyone that exists in their real lives, if anything i genuinely think they’d find it entertaining cz ari your stories are genuinely SO good (and imma need a physical book from you before i leave this earth, girl)

you're so sweet. 😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺 that truly means a lot to me. i just love to write. people enjoying what i write is such a humongous, added bonus though 🥺🥺🥺

and yeah, i had my days when i was younger of getting way too invested in celebrities lives. i just don't care anymore enough tbh. let me just enjoy their art and create my lil stuff (outside of like problematic shit lol)

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 ya'll saying i should write a book is never not mind blowing to me tbh

[asahicore]

I know it’ll be so long till I get it but I’m actually shitting myself with excitement everytime I read the potential synopsis of your doyoung fic for 100 kisses event🫢 idk and idc when you will write it I will wait years if have do but the idea of a good doyoung fic makes me giggle he’s been bias wrecking me so much lately and there is a such a lack of dobby fics on this app djdndndnd I too just want to make out with him against a wall I LOVE YOU AND YOUR FICS THEY MAKE ME SO HAPPY

anon omg this ask made me so happy, im looking forward to writing a fic for each of the members cz why have i been a teume for almost 2 yrs and only have 3 fics for trsr.. anyways doyoung is high up on that list and idk exactly what i want to write for him but i will go all out when i do lmaoo there will be making out and it will be against a wall.. idk what it is about him but i feel u like since move era hes been bias wrecking so hard idk whats wrong w him!! and yes there is definitely a drought of fics for him and any trsr member on here its so sad!! but thank u sm for ur ask and for reading my fics!!!!! i dont wanna make any promises but i will try to have a doyoung fic out sooner rather than later 🫡

[bookishtheaterlover7]

Hi all one of bookies friends here.

Everyone needs to calm down

Look at the facts.

Video- showed her without ANY ring a lot

Video-could he be anymore obvious with his left

hand.

Everytime he does or has something come out she does something. This time she shot herself in the hand twice.

And no I no longer find Chris attractive. If your team real i dont care. I just dont like seeing my friends on here who are team or get all worked up bwcause its nothing. It is for nothing we've, proven its fake.

How many holes can you put into a hot air balloon before it can't fly anymore?

To the GP (genaral public) they are married so right after all it was exposed the rings are fake. teams are gunna have to do or try and do clean up for a while. We knew this was going to happen. I expect to see shit about one flying here or the other flying there or they both fly to meet each other. I mean how many roumers in 2 days can start about who is where? It just

makes it look worse and more comical. A real couple wouldnt do damage control at all. Just because a website publishes an article doesn't mean it's a website that reports news or the truth. Remember People mag, US weekly etc is are still mags they use click bait. Don't freak out everytime you hear a rumor that she flew here or did this or that . The fact is its been de bunked disproven if they choose to continue on with the PR BS thats on them a lot of fans are not playing along any more. Im.not playjng along anymore im done with it. I saw a post in instagram that sums everything us well it said

"I am on team PR. But if he wants people

to believe he's with her, then we should

just leave him to it. It's true he owes

us nothing but we also don't owe him

our support anymore."

What point is there to get upset or nervous or anxious over something just because there a rumor about a plane ride. If you wanna believe theres a plane ride maybe its to sign a new contract that this shit is over.

You know its fake i know its fake. And you know what they showed they were gifts from cartier. Maybe her team would shse poney up the money to get cz versions. Frankly it would be even funnier.

We dont owe chris anything.

If you feel silly or stupid or being duped by thibking he was a better man than he is dont be, everyone was. It only goes to show the man could've had awards by now if he picked better scripts

Clean up is gunna happen. WE HAVE SEEN IT. the less you play into it the faster itll be over with.

But dont let this distract you or upset you from a joyus holiday season or take away any happiness you're experiencing or could be experiencing. Focus on something positive and happy. At the very least i saw a blog with a debate about who qas hotter Sam or Castiel. Now THAT is some shit worth arguing about. Not an airheaded Nazi

Thank you, my dear An🫶n.

Honestly, this is a serious wakeup call to a lot. That ring debacle/exposure is something to note, and it could be the sign to many of being done.

And if they aren't, well, I'm happy to partially become the blog that becomes a nostalgic stop for old Chris, Chris Evans before he was a shit person in a shit relationship with a shit person, and Chris Evans Characters Appreciation and absolute SIMPING!!! Oh, and the occasional Albitch hate post, because I still hate her 😆

I'm even thinking it's time to add more Fandoms to my roster. Marvel characters are high on that list. So are book discussions, because I am enjoying that as well 😁

We'll see. The world is my oyster now, especially with that big bomb that fell into our laps, as well as the fact I'm on break and about to undergo the busiest month of my life!!!

It's going to be filled with holiday cheer, family love, Christmas shopping, reconnecting with everyone, and focusing on improving the one love that came back a few months ago, after years... Writing 😊

So, my beautiful weirdos, can we PLEASE take steps towards something new? I think we could use some respite after months, maybe even years of PR Debunking Hell... 🫶

Also, there are certain topics that I don't want to be discussed on here. Because I don't feel comfortable being in the middle of any debate whatsoever (you can ask my dearest friends on here, they know I hate politics and avoid discussing, and eventually debating it, as much as possible). Until my next post, Beloveds 🤗

[the-drug-addicts-diary]

Hi !! I just visited your blog and I’m so interested on every of your post. You’re doing great and i hope all the best for you, if you don’t mind, I wanna ask something that’s related to the addiction things. So, i have an addict friend, she’s always been so frustrated when she’s sober, she doesn’t want to recover nor to heal, i love her so much, but because we live in different country it’s hard for me to watch over her, it’s hard for me to control her with the drugs (almost impossible), she’s been using it for 9 years and never get proper treatment for it, i want her to heal, i want her to have this spirit to recover but she said it’s hard for her for it, she can’t without the drugs, she doesn’t want to get treatment for her addiction but she always tells me everytime she wants to take the drugs as if she asked for my consent even though we both know that it will only end up with her take it no matter how hard I prevent her to not take it, and I actually know it already in the first place. But idk i just i feel so cruel if I let her use the drugs just like that, that’s why i always tried even though i know all my words will just be in “vain”. This kind of state confusing me ngl, like i feel I don’t know nothing about how to face/handle her, how to help her, I’m willing to try and i really want to but i just don’t know how. Like i want her to heal but she doesn’t want to heal, but in other hand, she always told me everytime she wants to take the drugs as if she wanted me stop her, it’s frustrating me, idk what I’m supposed to do, like should I encourage her more to get any help (which could make her hates me cz that’d make it look like I don’t respect her decision to not get any) or should i just let her be and just be there for her (but I don’t how to behave and what to say everytime she asks for my consent to take the drugs). This is my first time having friend that has addiction problem. And now I’m in state that idk what to do or say to her (im afraid i will do wrong thing that’ll hurt her), based your experience I really want to know if you have any advice/opinion how to handle an addict properly without hurting them cz I don’t wanna hurt her but I also don’t want her to think that i don’t care about her. I will be so glad if you can share some of your thoughts ‘bout it. Well, you can ignore this if you feel uncomfortable to give an answer, it’s ok i will understand. I hope you have a nice day <3

Hi... well. I'm sorry you have to go through something like this, I always say there is only one thing worse than being an addict, and that's loving an addict.

I cannot tell you how to help your friend. I don't know her, but I know all addicts in active addiction lie to themselves to justify their using, and because of that, they lie to others as well. You cannot handle an addict. You can't control her using, and you can't make her want to recover. You can't force her to ask for help. By telling you she wants to use, she's most likely not trying to stop herself, she wishes for your approval to feel better about herself, because she probably feels like shit. You said it yourself - she doesn't want to heal.

It may seem cruel, but you should accept that you can't help her with her using, not until she's ready.

You should ask her what is she expecting from you in this matter, have a conversation. You can try to be a positive infuence, listen to her, show her that there is more to life than what she's currently able to see. Send her to a NA/AA meeting. And since addiction is usually based on traumatic experiences, i would recommend therapy.

You can be there to support her if she decides to do something about her using, but that's it. Her using and her life is her responsibility, not yours. Failing to see this may destroy you as well.

Take care of yourself.

[viivacity]

first post kinda nervy 😔😔

ok so this is just a draft of something from my notes app about how i’ve struggled to accept the fact that maybe i’m not interested in men. (as a girl) and how it’s not cz i’m against the idea, i’m not in all honesty. but i just don’t think i’ll ever find ‘the better word’ for it.

please tell me how you like it— if you like it, and some advice if you have any ofc!!

(note there’s a ss of a msg between me and my bsf before i started it so sorry if it starts off so abrupt, it’s not to be 😭)

a/n- please note that i don’t mean to offend male conforming or men in general it’s just the ‘boys’ i were referring to were past realationships!! (sorry it starts off so brutal)

i hate the way boys think they’re entitled, i hate their look, i hate their funk, i hate their lack of emotional intelligence, i hate their lack of everything.

i want to and try to love them but it’s nearly impossible. and everytime i try and ‘succeed’ to feel even a tinge of anything, it’s artificial. and i always know it.

i shouldn’t have to feel the need to ‘succeed’ to feel anything anyway.

i know that deep down i’ll never like a guy like i’ll like a girl. and if i’m ever lucky enough to use the better word people use to testify the universe with flower petals and initials on videos to try and prove to themselves if their worthy of another or not. the word i’m scared of and avoid with simple gestures but desire enough to daydream about when i’m walking all alone behind a crowd i created.

a word that means so much,  it can make you hurt just as badly.

a word i hate and that i’m terrified of that i know i’ll cherish in another universe.

and a word that maybe i’ll get to even use one day when i feel like the weight of my world has been lifted off my shoulders, and all my imperfections are viewed as nothing less then things that make me human. and not a fake one with a identity on the internet, or one that’s visually appealing, but just one.

one with a genuine intention. one who cares enough to notice the little things i do when i’m uncomfortable. one that’ll understand where i’m coming from and will communicate when there’s tension. one that won’t see me as ‘weird’ because i like cartoons, drawing, nintendo games, kpop, or just deep talks about thoughts i have. like this one. 

or even fixations i have on those characters from the cartoons i watch and the nintendo games i play. or on kpop groups or idols who have personas online, similar to the ones we put up with those crowds we created. 

(it’s super short but it was just a thought)

[rikarahmasari]

You know why I love cheesy romantic series such as Heartstopper, One Day or Sasaki & Miyano? Because they're so freaking warm!!! Look at the way they see their partner, they way they made their partner feels the most special person on earth, how they just connected, and especially how they feels butterflies dancing in their stomach everytime they seen each others

I miss those butterflies....

I miss being "the one to chased after", miss being treated so freaking special even tough I done nothing.......

I miss those looks!!! those passionate eyes, those lovey-dopey feeling everytime we see each others in the room full of people......

I still remember how much efforts he puts to get to know me back then.... How he insist to drop me off at Tanah Abang station so could get to my platform safely.... The 60KM driving in the middle of the night after having satur-date..... even as small as good morning/good night text

I still remember how out of nowhere he asks me to marry him....

At one of the end of our satur-date, before I'm dropping him off Rawabuntu station. In my car. He suddenly blurted out "What if we get married this year?" and my response only "are we sure about this?"

I still remember how awkward I tell Dute the day/several days after about that proposal & she still congratulates me anyway, despite how un-special the circumstances

I still remember feeling like the luckiest girl on earth to get to know him, to be proposed (despite un-special it is), to be marrying you!!

I loved seing those series/movies because it felt relatable, because me too been there....

And now.....

I just felt empty...

I felt like being the only one trying to keep the sparks alive, try to create a new beautiful memories (thru traveling/trying out new stuff), try to initiate crazy sex position....

I start to say hurtful things just to get your attention.... Cause whatever I said you just stay silent... You just keep everything to yourself....

I start to find those happy feelings from the other parts of my life.... but it will never be enough because turns out my significant others is you!!!

I felt like completing to-dos after to-dos... not that I hate the mundane-love that we create back then on apartment... I'm really only searching for that sparks...

I need those sparks to keep reminding me of how special am I in you eyes, how significant am I on your life....

You're my it person. From the very first time I spoke to you, I know that you'll be my very best friend & keep hoping it will be lasting forever. Never once I questioned myself to choose you to be my partner.

I do deeply hate myself cz now I started to question it. Meanwhile I'm only missing the sparks... too tired to keep creating those sparks for us...

Tired to feel like a burden for you.... tired to belittle myself....

They said it takes two to tango. Hopes we can work it out somehow.... :')

[strangerstoryteller]

It's been a while. Isn it? How are you doing?

I guess doing pretty well since you succeeded in ignoring me even in my dreams. You have successfully passed the test. I am proud of you!.. Anyways,

It feels empty now that you're gone. Honestly I hate this version of me. I know I have done wrong. If only I was aware that the boundaries you had made were for me. I did felt that love you had for me. But I guess I was delusional to not realize it earlier, to think otherwise, to doubt it... I feel like I barely told you about me and there is so many things left to tell you. I feel like so... A part of me I kept hidden cz I didn't want that part to be seen by you.. I thought if I did, it might give you the wrong idea and thought time would heal and tell and probably when I'll be comfortable enough to talk about it I will tell you .. And now maybe I won't be able to show that side to you anymore as it's not that necessary.... However as usual it's always been that side of me that keeps messing on with my life. I'm trying,,I'm trying to heal to be a human. But it seems so hard to do so.

I have always talked with you in English cause with it the words didn't felt that heavy... The words seems to have it's own way to express me....

I love the idea of being in love. I want to be in one as well. But getting loved by someone, it just never felt right for me. I have always fancied this, the emotions, the feelings, and everything. With it I was able to hide and create my own world. You know everytime someone said 'I love you's to me I was able to find the reasons behind those words coming from them. Whereas I couldn't find the reason behind yours. Thank you for being the person.

For me, I have always seen the world differently. I guess you noticed some of it. The way my thinking works. I can't really control any of it..

You see I'm just some pathetic complicated human being who's too easy to read for the closed ones.. Tapi once said that I'm a people pleaser. I always had been. I can't say no to someone that easily. Since then I could connect the dots that how badly I have been treating myself. Even though I have been trying to fix this part of me for more than a year or so. It's painful to be selfish when half of your life passed pleasing people. It just never felt right, being selfish for my ownself. Idk how much you have got to see those parts of me. Cause while with you I tried to be better. I guess I just failed everytime.

I always had to understand elders situations. And with you I did the same yet I failed to know you like that... While trying to know others, I forgot to understand me. How to be me. How was I supposed to react. What exactly am I. I'm still searching.

Before, whenever there was something painful going around me. Those nights with tearful eyes you would just show up like an angel . Those pains started to feel like less heavier to me. Even during the day, I would just try to find something interesting to tell you at night. From being a depressed human being I started becoming more cheerful. Trying to be more adventurous... Trying to get better, to get to love myself.. to enjoy the life to its fullest... My whole universe started to depend on you. Which is why I even started to tell you my thoughts which I used to keep to myself. You see whenever someone is less appreciated, find someone who's eager to listen to them, to know them, they just can't help but pour everything. There were things I couldn't tell my friends but I was able to tell you. I'm grateful for that.

I overthink a lot. I always tried to understand others but no one did that for me. Yet that day I only asked you that question that, what if I get into a relationship was to see how you'd react. You behaved as usual, giving mixed signals that you wouldnt care. The next I remember you talking about risk, you ain't gonna accept if your wife, if she turns out to be in love before or something like that.

I figured that it won't last yet I told you cause I thought what if I'm just assuming the love you had for me.. I still told you cause I thought if I don't tell you what happened I won't feel good. I would keep on feeling guilty for not being the perfect one for you. Even though I didn't planned it to happen this way, still it would eat me up in the future if by any miracle I get to be with you.. I hoped that you would understand me. I know my way of words were wrong all these time. I was not playing with you neither with the other guy.. Instead of being clear to you I kept on messing cause I was so afraid to loose you. I was afraid of the fear I had since the last 2 years. It seems like I already lost you.. like the saying whatever you're afraid of happening will happen... I really needed your help,,,pretty bad.. but that one sentence literally broke me, left me feeling like I'm unworthy of everything... Unworthy of being someones first priority... And once again reminded me that I failed... Before you losing me,,, I lost you...

For a normie it's not even that huge of a reason to grew apart. Yet I knew that it would affect both you and me. Remember when I said "ভালোবাসা টের পাওয়া যায়।" believing this I told you to stay clean... I thought what I had was true and no matter what you'd understand...

I have always been conservative. And that rickshaw thing, I grew up going to school with some outsider of my family..he was our manager... He was like a brother to me. He left when I was in 9 or 10 I don't remember... And bhaia, I still ride his Scooty .. Riding a rickshaw with a friend who was like a brother to me, I barely give it a second thought that it could be like this or it could hurt you like this.. I do maintain my gap but still it barely came to my mind that it would or might hurt you..

This time I know I made a huge mistake by not saying no strictly. I wanted you to talk with him. Cause I had trust in me that I didn't do anything wrong like giving him hint or something. And yes you pointed it out that I called him over. But while calling him over I made this clear in the call that look brother it's not like we're on a date, you can come over casually. We're just hanging out as friends. Yet he gave me those flowers. I was in no position to run away from it cause he would follow me or could have made a scene. I kind of got nervous and afraid at the same time. Which is why I had to take it and then give it to Dia. I thought of throwing it away but since I went to her house and she needed to cheer up for her exam I thought it's the same whether I threw it or give it to someone else. Which is why I gave it to her. Cause I didn't want to keep that flower with me.. He was planning on sending me off.. If it wasn't for the money short he probably would have done that. So when he was busy making short notes I took a rickshaw and came home. If it was normal I would have just give you photos to make you jealous and then tell you the whole story properly. But I guess it wouldn't work since you're having trouble with the rickshaw thing. I can't change the reality but with all my heart's respect to you, I never cheated on you. Even if I had to swear,, I would have done that. But it seems like I can't really erase this matter from your heart. People always get hurt from those whom they loved the most. And unknowingly but true that I had hurt you more than ever.

You always have been reserved about your emotions and barely told me things that hurt you.. I tried to make these words out from your mouth but you kept on running. And I ended up getting mixed signals, got unsure about your love... And I assumed that even if I told you out that night you would have your ways out... I don't know I'm not sure but my assumption said you would run... I'm sorry for not being able to believe in your intuition..

Nevertheless it turned out to be a hell for me. And I couldn't handle it. I was flabbergasted by his behaviors and mine, as well as yours... Even though I stayed strict to my values I couldn't control the situation. Later whenever we talk about it with you, it kept annoying me. I became more afraid to lose you and at some point I was sure of it that I might loose you. I'm sorry I couldn't keep it. And to save it I accidentally added more fuel to this situation losing control of my everything...

I know It was wrong of me to compare you with him. It does sound that way even if I didn't mean it. I didn't meant to hurt you. I knew your situation and mine as well. Yet at that time I was furious that you kept on bringing this when you could have been the person to give me flowers. You could have been the person to fight the whole world if someone wanted to chase me... It never mattered to me whether I get flowers from you or not until that day I only wanted to make you feel good by saying you could have given me flowers and that flowers from that other guy would never mean anything to me. Besides unlike my wish he gave 4 different flowers ... You could have been the person to give me 3 different color flowers or a dolonchapa,, or anything which you'd give would have been special to me..... But it turned out to be like I was comparing you to him... I never meant to... He was not even on my list cause I had you in my whole brain and everywhere.

As a girl getting flowers or proposals is normal however girls only stick to the ones they love, ones proposals or flowers. They might get those from friends but those barely meant anything to them. I never had any feelings for the other guy and I'm sure I'll never had that. You see when one loves someone dearly no other human nature can make heed to them or change that feeling...

And before all this when I told you he was a playboy during that time I thought he was. Later he seemed mature and not giving playboy vibes. His father died and as always my people pleaser or empathetic side told me as a friend you should give him strength. He once talked about hanging out. After his father's death. And I thought maybe this could console him. It was a better way for me to kill two birds with one stone. And that's what I did. I was never planing to hurt you. Whether it's to know how you'd react or not and also at the same time being a good friend. I didn't thought that this gonna hurt you this bad..

They say maybe I have made a mistake but it wasn't that strong enough to leave me. They said if he loved you he wouldn't have left.. They said I don't love myself either which is why I'm like this. I'm letting myself treated like this...They try to give me strength by saying that I didn't deserve any of it. And I know as a friend I had suggested you to leave me as well...

I have had high expectations but these girls would literally make them more higher like getting a hold off the moon. Yet look at me. The moon I had, tormented me in a way that I can't love myself anymore... Even though I haven't done anything wrong still I can't forgive myself for loosing you. They says that it's bad, I'm putting you first instead of myself. What shall I do?? You were the light who made it full. And then you stole that light away... Am I really that cruel to you? Really that bad to give up? Did I really broke your trust? When I could have keep this whole thing to myself even after knowing that you would never tolerate this...

You see the moon itself is full of scars. Yet the sun gives it light to get full once in a month or so. Aphrodite, the beauty goddess she's also full of scars. Yet loved by many. I still wonder whether I had any scars or not but still I couldn't be someone dearest to you that it will make you feel afraid of losing me!? I sometimes feel the need of asking you how was I to you...

Shahrukh Khan once said in one of his talk shows that "love is showed, felt, expressed ... however once you feel the need of expressing it using words that's when you loose it." And at some point I felt the need of it. I felt that if I don't tell you, you would go away like sweet nothings... And I couldn't stand that.. I could never be happy if I didn't told you how much you mean to me. I have done this with my father and ever since then I have regretted that why I couldn't hold him in my hands why I couldn't tell him that I loved him... It's always been a regret... And with you I didn't want that to happen...

I know I'm complicated in some cases but you made me believe that I'm hard to love as well. And reminded me not to pull down the walls of my high expectations. I don't know if I would ever be able to love someone or not. But everytime I'll happen to like someone you will be my frame of reference for loving that person and I would compare you to them and they would fail... Even though I was sure that I always had to do arrange marriage I accepted the reality before you,, but after you I'm sure that nobody will be able to reach to my that high expectations. Be able to reach your standard. And I'll have to accept which could have been the bare minimum and been written in my fate..

You remember the very first meet? Ever since then I have been trying to be better... Like you said you hated makeup I didn't even bother to put up one in that meet... And in the second that was my casual look... Since the very first meet I had this feeling that if I mixed with you I would fall for you. Even though I wanted to stay neutral I couldn't cause I was wonderstrucked by you ... Your behaviors, ethics, moral, ambitions even before I met you... I could feel it change day by day... Which is why I tried keeping distance... Until I realized the more I would keep it to myself the more disaster it will be for me.. I couldn't say a word without being awkward or uncomfortable around you cause I had these emotions bottling up... I wondered that slight touch from second meet for almost a year... I couldn't get over it.. and as always I would run back to you... the massages ... I tried to run away from you but your one single massage would turn my whole world upside down...

They said I deserved better... But I had always wanted you... And now that you're gone. It's hard to even accept that someday, someone else will marry you, will occupy your ring finger and you will have a girl who would resemble her and you would completely forget me. From each and everyday to once in a while to never I suppose... I'm not ready to accept that even though I know that's how it's supposed to be. Which is why I wanted to be the best for you. Even though I failed I wanted to be better to be the person for you..

Like all those stories I wrote,, I somehow knew that we wouldn't last like those thousands happy ending stories... And I think that you did it too..

I believe in Marilyn Monroe once noted, " I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. "

Deep down I knew you were never going to be mine. Yet I tried... I wanted to change my fate with you... I prayed. But when I started asking that does it worth it. Whether you're really in my fate or not. Whether I'm the one for you or not whether you have anything for me or not. Asking what were we??..That's when I started losing you... And that quote being said, everything happens for a reason happens to replay in my head.. And maybe, maybe this is falling apart so that better things for both of us can fall together...

I suppose you regretted to meet me. How I wished we met somewhat different circumstances.. where I could at least have a happy ending with you. Where I could accept you without any worries or where you were able to be accept me the way I'm. Where I had the chance to make everything alright. Where I would make a box of letters to remind us once again why we fell for each other and everytime we broke up, the next we get to see each other, we will throw a glass of water as a revenge come back... How I wish I could say that sentence once again in every stories of mine about you that you're the only man I love... And people getting cringed over my expressions telling me not to fell hard cause the breakdown will be deeper than the falling... How I wish I was your first priority... How I wish to relive each and every moment of falling in love with you. Observing you.. I'm sorry my observing or obsession is different... I can literally watch your vids or photos all day long.. and those staffs like checking out your ig followers those barely mean anything to me.. I wish I loved you just the same way you wanted me too.. If only we were same in real life to collide and stay together until the end. If only we were truly meant for completing each other....

Remember the last time when you asked about being friends.. I couldn't cause I can't look at you like a friend do... I can't erase this from me... And no matter how much I still wanna have something with you, some kind of relationship or bond except being lovers or friends I would rather choose death than being friends with you... cz it's the same for me, being devastatingly broken, dead or being able to be friends with you once again... I can't pull that shit twice for which I had experienced the love in your eyes... Imagined you to be the one for more than a year.....

I know this should not make a huge difference in you. I'm sorry if writing this letter annoys you, gives you more pain. I'm sorry for everything.

One last thing I wanna wish for you, from this day, that you get the girl who loves you thousand times more than I did and that time you accept her the way she is, make her your first priority... and when we cross our paths I wanna see you smile while holding her close to you with your one hand with the little girl or boy.. Just be happy. I hate goodbyes... Hate losing peoples I love... you know that people had left me/us at some point of my life... Which is why I wished to meet you whether it's only you or with your girl in the coming future ... If that's possible...

Make sure you be happy and don't make me feel regret of losing you or making you unhappy for whole life .. I only need some excuse to see you for the whole life... If possible please show up even if it's for once in a while... Whether it's in my city or somewhere else...I won't be asking for too much except this excuses to see you once in a while...

This was the answer to your YouTube video... Thank you for loving me...

Diary log: 5th may 2k23

Edit-1

A letter to you, which I'll never send. A letter to clarify myself. If only you had prioritized me more maybe than I would have been able to send this to you thinking it still gonna work between us. But you left the seasore. You left even before the boat came. I only asked for your time to tell you these to make things work after when my home gets quite... It took me so much time cause I had to deal with family matters and by the time I was ready to talk about this, you had left.

"End it." I couldn't end it. No matter where you are or what your doing. I'll always honestly, truly, completely love you. And I hope that the end it phrase you have used , you never have to use it once again.

I'll learn to love myself. To make me my top priority so that I would be able to forgive you for when you didn't prioritized me. For each and every moment when you had given me mixed signals. I'll love myself to complete myself all alone. So that no one ever gets to empty me the way I got emptied by you.

I love you but I'll let you go. Be happy and healthy always.

Edit-2

Although I thought of not showing or sending it to you. But still if you ever notice this page or blog do leave a dot or write "Okkay" for me to confirm that it's you.

Edit -3

It doesn't matter anymore. Be happy with whoever you are...

[jonghostation]

Prince!Seonghwa AU

Anon: can you do a seonghwa prince au? i love your works sm ❤❤❤

- Prince Seonghwa had been the ideal son the King and Queen have always wanted since he was born

- He never had a temper, was obedient, a fast learner and he always made sure to be polite to everyone he sees

- As he got older, he grew more attractive and more accomplished; by the age of 18, he was fluent in 4 languages and had enough skills in politics and economics to be King already

- There was only one problem, however.

- As it was by law that the nation needed both a King and a Queen to rule, Seonghwa is required to have a partner by his side as he takes over the monarchy

- But for some reason, he could never find a suitable match for him. Not in dinner parties, not in political summits, not anywhere

- He would always seem closed off to other royalty, albeit still polite

- It seemed as if he doesn’t have an interest in them

- Seonghwa’s parents always encouraged him to find a wife soon because he is coming of age and his father,”is getting very tired of being King” 

- With that perfect smile of his, Seonghwa reassures his parents that he will find someone soon, and he’ll know when he sees them.

- But the truth is, Seonghwa really couldn’t care less about finding a wife, as he believed that he has the ability rule alone...or did he?

- One day, he and his family were invited to come to the neighbouring kingdom’s annual ball. Seonghwa’s father had been in good relations with their King, and it would be lying if it was said that they hadn’t hoped to unite their kingdoms..

- Because their King has a daughter who had just returned studying abroad

- So the ball was partly arranged as homecoming for the princess, which would explain the slightly more feminine touches on the decorations

- When Seonghwa entered the ballroom with his parents, they were immediately greeted by their King and Queen. Shaking hands and making small talk, Seonghwa did his best to remain diplomatic, whilst knowing the true reason why they were invited to the ball

- His father then asked where the princess was, and the King told them that she was nowhere to be found but never fear, for it was assured that she would turn up soon. 

- Seonghwa furrowed his eyebrows in doubt, Is she trying to run away? He thought, finding it a little intriguing in her approach to the situation

- He excused himself from the fray to grab a drink and have a little moment to himself at the balcony.

- As he placed the drink on a nearby surface, he put his hands inside his pocket and sighed at the moonlit sky. 

- He closed his eyes to rearrange his thoughts that found scattered all over the place. How is he supposed to support his nation if he can’t find the strength to want a wife to rule with him?

- He sighed again. All of a sudden, he heard rustling in the trees. Startled, he looked around, cautious and alert.

- Then, he hears a voice. Female, but definitely not feminine,” My Lord, you scare so easily”

- He turned around to find the source of the voice and sees a young lady before him. 

- As he eyed her up and down, he noticed her ballgown was tattered and she was barefoot??

- Seonghwa raised his eyebrows, keeping his distance as he asked,” Who might you be, if may I ask?”

- The lady chuckled at the question, and stepped closer to Seonghwa who only stepped further back

- She stopped right in front of him and leaned forward to whisper,” I’m someone who is going to be in so much trouble.” She giggled

- Seonghwa had never encountered someone so carefree and lively, and he has to admit, it was really...endearing to say the least

- He finally spoke again after he realised he was staring at her,”Oh well, I am Princ-”

- “Stop” The girl lifted her hand up out as a signal,”I’d prefer if we leave all of the titles at the door.” 

- Seonghwa was surprised at the order but nodded and rephrased his introduction,” Well, I am Seonghwa.” He bowed slightly out of habit

- The lady gave a smile that Seonghwa could have sworn made her eyes twinkle and held her hand out to him,” Hi! I’m Y/N” 

- The prince took a glance at her stretched out hand and back at her. She motioned her head towards the hand and Seonghwa finally realised what she meant.

- While they were shaking hands, the gruff voice of Seonghwa was heard at the entrance of the balcony door,” Seonghwa! Y/N!” He approached the both of them

- “I see you’ve both met each other.” Seonghwa widened his eyes as he stared at Y/N, shocked to find out that she was the Crown Princess of this kingdom. 

- She was still smiling at him brightly, before turning to his father and curtsied politely, articulating” Good evening, Your Grace. So it would seem that you are the good friend that my father talks of. Which also means,” She looked back at Seonghwa,”That you are the Crown Prince.” 

- Seonghwa didn’t know what to say. He was so confused of the entire situation since the moment he met this unique character, and yet he didn’t feel repulsed by it as he thought he would. 

- The princess looked down and realised that their hands were still in hold of each other, but she didn’t say anything. For truthfully, she liked the feeling of his hands, and he wasn’t letting go either so why should she?

- Seonghwa followed her gaze on her hands and realised the same thing. He silently gasped at their prolonged contact, but wasn’t so sure whether he wanted to let go.

- As he looked back at her, she gave him another playful smile, as if she’s saying,” This is going to be fun.” 

- Seonghwa felt a tug on the corner of his lips by the sight, and the thought of getting to know this interesting girl excited him

- And so he pulled her closer and kissed her hand that was still in her grasp, making her giggle shyly.

- The King was only enjoying the spectacle as the middle man in this situation; Maybe their hopes of uniting the kingdom may come sooner than expected..