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kip-has-fleas · 10 months

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kind of a vent/rant idk i just wanted to get sum stuff on my mind out onto paper the internet for literally everyone to see

this is a little random but yesterday my mom asked me what type of guy i'm looking for. (i'm not looking for a guy really, i'm more so looking for a girl, but a guy would also be ok) so i told her i want a soft guy, not your normal tuff stuff guy. because yes. soft boys are my lifeblood and i need one. anyways she immediately gave me this Look and told me i DID NOT want a soft guy, soft guys are insecure and stupid and will not protect me if something bad happens and the moment shit goes down i'll end up blaming him and since he's soft he'll cry and that's the end of the relationship- SHUT UP. boys are allowed to be soft wtf? no i don't want a rough guy, my dad's a rough guy and he's always super sarcastic and mean???? i want someone that will treat me like a real person that i can relate to and feel safe with????? i just want to feel like i have a place to go with out feeling like i'm bothering my friends- i literally cannot go two fucking days without having a breakdown and i Have To Tell People About It because i am Such AN ATTENTION SEEKER for some stupid reason. i will literally do anything for attention idk what's wrong with me. like JESUS i need to get over it- i seriously thought i was over it and then i just haaaad to go get angry at my mom and that's the one thing that pushed me over the edge apparently. idk. im so tired. i want to be the friend people can come to, not the one that's always crying on the floor

#cw i hate my mom that's about it #also tw vent #dies

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winepresswrath · 3 months

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Armand's simpering little "and I never have" has taken on new dimensions for me. Technicality king and also I think very in keeping with his whole malign fairy creature deal. You can tell him not to hurt the bae, but you should really specify what "hurt" entails. Is chopping someone's hands off really hurting them? If they have annoyed you very much I mean.

-questions Armand might pose to Lestat that inspire him to leave the country

#I do think the root of what makes Lesmad so funny is that it is literally the one of two times Lestat has displayed good sense in love #both times his mother was standing right there telling him what to do so take from that what you will #but lestat does enjoy negative attention and fucking around to find out and needling powerful entities who are enamored with him #it takes so much for him to say yes you're hot. but still no #you are too good at fucking will my head and too willing to take liberties with my body i don't like this #though iirc part of it was having experienced Armand's mind whammy he didn't want to leave him in proximity to Gabrielle #once again mommy issues carry the day #anyway #press says iwtv #I have a post percolating in my heart about the reversal of Gabby telling Lestat she just wants to die knowing he's safe in Paris with his #boyfriend #explicitly severing their codependent you're my other half my twin me but a man thing #and Gabby telling him to leave Nicki with Armand and run #but it's actually half a post that amounts to a) this too is a perversion brought on by living past your own death and #b) actually though it's her being a good mom in both instances #like probably the two times she most clearly manages that are #leave this place and me and live your own best life without guilt or shame #and leave your boyfriend who has had a psychotic break and hates you now. do not involve yourself with the sewer creature who is violently #obsessed with you.#she packed up her kid and she left! also did some other things but we don't need to talk about that #cw: incest #interview with the vampire

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skynapple · 4 months

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I just wanna say if I'm moody and offline tomorrow it's…Mother's Day aka the worst literal day of the year for me so <3333 sending a fair warning while the anxiety builds up for me through the evening.

#I'm hoping it's NOT as bad as it historically is every year but #adf;kla #madi talks #WHAT DO I TAG THIS AS ANTI MOTHERS DAY????#i don't hate my mom #but #its just a hard day for me #every year #my whole family is already anxious about it #hushed whispers and shared looks #cw abuse

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hamartia-grander · 9 months

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Jesus fucking christ I hate the US south

#Cw gun mention I guess #I was feeling super nauseous so I went into the kitchen to get ritz crackers #And we're at my grandma's rn for Christmas and she has windows in the kitchen that look out at the road/other houses #And NO curtains or blinds because she's old #And anyway I turned a small light on so I could see the crackers and I hear a fucking man outside shout “WHO'S OUT THERE”#In the heaviest southern accent. Mind you every fucking person in this area has a gun bc there's lots of trees with squirreld they shoot #And logically now that I am calming down I know it was just a bad coincidence and he was probably yelling at smthn in his yard #But jesus fucking christ I felt such immediate intense fear my head went cold #Ran to my baby brother's room bc I was certain someone was gonna come kill us #Then the rationality took over and I just told my mom about it. But now I'm sitting outside his room eating crackers bc I'm fucking paranoid #It is almost 4am and I haven't slept a wink I cannot do this rn #But literally the last time I went for a walk around here my dad told me not to go alone and also not to say anything stupid #And also stay far away from houses bc I could get myself shot #Literally what the fuck is this.#“Afearican” except I'm still very much in the US #Not to mention almost every fucking house has a blue lives matter flag and some have isr*el flags now too like #I fuuuuucking hate it here

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marbleheavy · 2 years

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hmm question for all socialized as a teenage girl, did y’all hate your moms?

#it’s just such a prevalent choice in media that it’s normalized into society but it doesn’t feel normal #it feels very white nuclear family #like obv w/ puberty there are strained relationships with everyone close to you #but i don’t think that should be classified as “hating your mom”#i didn’t hate my mom and would never feel comfortable saying that bc i know people that genuinely do hate their moms and for good reason so #i wouldn’t ever say that about my mom trying even when she failed #idk many thoughts and i’m not being clear and also very open to changing thoughts and understandings i just want other experiences #cw mommy issues #mommy issues #cw mothers #is that a cw #idk just wanna be careful #marble woes

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ritz-writes · 21 days

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It's days like these that remind me how fucked up the American Healthcare system is.

I went to the hospital today because I was throwing up (dry heaving at that point) and in agony. I was crying and I was scared and I was convinced I was dying. No that is not an exaggeration. A part of me was convinced something was horribly wrong and I was actively dying. But when my mom asked if I wanted to go to the hospital, I didn't say yes. I didn't say please. I didn't say call an ambulance I literally can't move.

I said "we can't afford it"

I said "how much will it cost"

I said "how much will the tests be"

My first thought wasn't "I need a hospital" it was "I'm fucking terrified but I need to suck it up cuz we can't afford this"

And that is so so so insanely fucked up

#my mom very quickly told me 'dont worry about that' but i was #i still am #they did multiple blood works and an ultrasound and fluids and antibiotics #and last week my mom have to borrow the only $2 i had to keep her bank account out of the negatives #i still dont know how much it was but i know its smth we cant afford #but america likes to say 'oh you think ur dying? we can help! we are gonna bill u like 20k tho lol'#heavy sigh #i hate america #ritz rants #cw hospitals #i rlly just needed to get this out of my system

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dhwty-writes · 2 months

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I feel like nearly making your therapist cry while sitting there with an apologetic smile is a new level of being out of touch with you own emotions

#I told her about the summer 2 years ago when I was in hospital every day for my mom #And how I held her while she had water drawn from her lungs bc she asked me to #And how ever since I compartmentalised ALL my emotions #She also called me out for compartmentalised everything #Which YES I hate that too #I WISH I had access to all my memories #Alas #Fabi's foolishness #Fabi does therapy #<- if anyone would like to not see these posts #cw mental health

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the-gayest-sky-kid · 9 months

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girl help my family is being Like That again

#my moms going on another trip and my abuela never listens to her either so theyre arguing about the scheduling #and when they argue they Argue yk #may have called my abuela a bitch she may have heard it. cant say i care #i hate it here #and my moms starting her shit about wanting to leave and my heart kinda hurts. in the aching way not actually #cw vent #aethers rants #personal posts and stuff idk

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shoutsindwarvish · 1 year

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some people binge-drink after a loss. i have played over 30 hours of the sims 4 in less than a week (while working full-time) because whenever i stop i remember all my problems instead of focusing on this adorable family of four whose virtual dreams and relationships i care about so deeply and who i have watched blossom. we all cope in different ways.

#i’m so fond of the two kids especially #having an infant and toddler at the same time was a struggle (like real life!)#but now that the older one is a child they get along super well #she actively wants to play dolls with her little sister 🥺#also she’s learning to play the violin (she’s a creative sim) and i forgot i gave one of her moms the ‘hates violins’ trait #she’s practicing in her room and the mom was white-knuckling it while taking care of the toddler #on the other side of the house #it was so fucking funny #(decided to have her practice when that mom is at work. or possibly move her to the piano instead.)#i could talk about this little family for hours #because i don’t want to think about my own 🙃#my posts #grief cw #the sims #i should take screenshots and show off my virtual children

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queers-mdears · 11 months

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so much of who i am at this moment in my life revolves around grief and the loss of my dad. not in a “i’m sad all the time” way because that isn’t what grief is. i just am always thinking about grief in some way. my perspective on life is colored by my grief! it’s always there. it’s been there for four years now.

and i am not happy izzy died. that will never be true. just like i will never be happy my dad is dead. i love my dad and boy do i love izzy hands especially this season. but i am feeling this grief and these feelings and this LOVE and it is so familiar but it isn’t all bad. because we got closure. we got a fucking incredible izzy arc. it’s devastating. but like, it’s supposed to be. if i didn’t love this character so much i wouldn’t feel this way. if this show and this character weren’t well written i wouldn’t feel like i’m microdosing on grief! but i do and i love having characters and stories that help me process my grief and feel my feelings!

someone else pointed out that it is such a sad way to look at life thinking “why go through all that growth if he’s just going to die.” everyone dies! people you love will die. you will die. everyone still deserves to grow and be loved anyway.

i am sad. i am crying about it! but i just feel so much love? like the way they did it didn’t feel cheap. i didn’t feel like i was being robbed. or like it was just bad writing. which i often feel like when it comes to character deaths. but this time it really felt full of love for izzy and the journey he went on. and for ed, for that matter. and i feel very emotionally connected to it all.

all of that being said the one (1) thing i didn’t like at all about s2e8 is izzy saying “you’re surrounded by family” and then stede and ed leaving the crew immediately after. feeling very “wtf is that” but i know why they gave us that ending just in case and i do really appreciate the writers for that.