#cuz they noticed the band teacher was calling me my new name

[50c14lly4nx10u5]

i don't think some of my bandmates got the message that my Name Changed cuz before the concert i was asked 'are you excited, [old name]?' by one of platy's old friends

i never corrected em cuz i felt too awkward they had literally never talked to me b4 >_<

[ptergwen]

hi ma’am, it’s the mj wh*re anon! 🥰 i know last time i requested some jealous/overprotective!mj, but what about “flustered mj who only wanted some coffee but the barista is TOO cute and she doesn’t know what talking or coffee is?” 😩

sugar, cuz you’re sweet

w/c: 1.1k

warnings: peter and ned are annoying, cussing

a/n: i love how that’s what we’re calling you 😭 and this is adorable thank you <3

-

michelle jones is the most honest, real, never afraid to speak her mind type girl in all of new york city. she knows it. everyone does. don’t get into a debate with her because you’ll lose, no matter the subject. she never concludes an interaction without a few snide remarks. they’re smarter than whatever you had to say.

the point is, mj is unapologetically herself in every situation and at all times. or so she thought.

peter and ned are making her order their coffees. they’re supposed to take turns, peter being all about equality in the group and the golden rule and blah blah blah. it reminds mj very much of somebody’s kindergarten teacher. she’s always found a way out of ordering because she’s mj. clever, persuasive mj. she can talk her way out of anything.

except for today when peter catches on. her excuse was lame. “i need to put down my backpack.” but, hey. you try fooling the only two people smarter than her. you’ll run out of ideas eventually. peter is pouty as he tells her that, “mj, it’s not fair! you haven’t gone up one time. how would you like it if-“ she has to interrupt him before she gets a speech.

“alright, alright, mother teresa. i’ll get the freaking drinks,” mj groans and kicks her chair back. peter smiles smugly, ned giving him a pat on the shoulder. “thanks. do you know what we want?” she blows at a piece of hair covering her eye. “you losers get the same things every time.” not bothering to push in her chair, she slumps over to the line.

ned yells, “don’t forget the whipped cream!” at her. that makes mj let out the longest sigh of her life. she very rarely does favors for other people. if you’re lucky enough to be one of them, it means she really loves you... or whatever.

mj waits on line while peter and ned get into a discussion about their nerd movies. her turn is next at least. she’s all prepared to grumble the order at the poor cashier, then you call her up.

“i can help whoever’s next,” you chirp, leaning over to see the group. your eyes land on mj. with a grin, you nod at her. the permanent scowl on her lips disappears. she takes a few steps up to you, feeling small even though she’s far from it. she finds herself thinking fuck, she’s pretty as you point at her torso.

“wait, i love your shirt,” you compliment and sound completely genuine about it. it’s mj’s favorite, her joan of arc one. a hint of a smile graces her face. “thanks.” her voice comes out much quieter than she intended it to. she didn’t know she was capable of being so... shy.

you tilt your head to the side and look down at the register. you’re still smiling. “no problem. what can i get you?” mj doesn’t hear a word you say. she’s entirely captivated by you, whoever you are. she notices pins with band logos on your shirt, ones she listens to. the probably homemade jewelry around your wrists. most importantly, your name tag. she’ll remember it.

mj doesn’t do the whole crush thing, not really. you just seem so chill and like you’d have a lot in common. also, you’re so pretty.

“do you know what you want?” you tap your nails against the register buttons. “i can suggest something, if that’s cool.” “um, i think so. the... the...” she can’t for the life of her remember what the hell peter and ned wanted. her face falls at that. sensing her nerves, you start punching things in on the register.

“i’ll surprise you. i’m good with those.” mj notices the corners of your lips turn up slightly. into a smirk. are you flirting? “ah, thank you. i’m, uh, not sure why i’m being so weird,” she laughs out. she’s very sure why. “you’re fine,” you snicker back and look up at her again. “just one drink?” “three,” mj quickly replies.

she rocks back and forth on her feet, you finishing up the order. “they’re on the house, by the way. they should be done soon,” you shrug the statement off. ok, you’re definitely flirting. “woah, thank you. can i give you a tip?” mj tucks the same piece of hair from earlier behind her ear. your eyes lock with her sparkling ones.

“nah, you don’t need to. just your name.” you’ve been waiting to get to this part. she’s not far behind you. “mj,” she speaks with the most certainty since you two began talking. “mj,” you murmur to yourself and punch it in. “you’re all good, mj. enjoy your drinks.” you give her a final heart racing smile. she really doesn’t want to go yet, but she has no choice.

returning the smile, mj waves at you. “bye.” she leaves the counter then, and you watch her go before calling up the next customer.

the drinks are done about five minutes later. mj has never been so excited to chug down a random liquid. that reminds her, she has no idea what you chose.

for the other two drinks, you made them your most popular. they’re larges, too. you decided on a plain black coffee with an obscene amount of sugar packets for mj. there’s actually a good reason behind it. you felt like she’s into the classics, and you aren’t wrong one bit. you left a note for her on the side of the cup.

‘lots of sugar, cuz you’re sweet ;) lol i’m bad at this but i liked talking to u, come back soon!’

mj giggles, literally giggles as she reads what you wrote. she should’ve ordered here a long ass time ago.

she’s in her happy place when she brings the tray back to the table, ned pursing his lips at her. “what’s with the face?” he comments on her dazed out look. peter is about to complain that she got their drinks wrong, but mj answers first. “the barista, she was cute and gave me the drinks for free. i think i like her.” she bites her lip to hold back yet another smile.

peter happily pulls one of the drinks from the tray, no longer concerned with its content. it’s not often mj is like this. he’ll bug her another time. “that’s awesome, mj. did you get her name?” he opens up one of the straws mj throws on the table. “y/n,” she sighs out in content. ned’s eyes go wide. “dude, y/n? she asked about you last time.”

and he didn’t think to tell her that? the part she mainly focuses on though, is that you noticed her. you wanted to meet her. this could actually go somewhere.

“you know what?” mj looks between peter and ned while ripping open one of her many sugar packets. “i’ll be the official drink orderer from now on.”

[moons-and-stars-and-shit]

OKAY SO-

can i get a platonic matchup pleaSeEeE?

okay, so- lets talk about myself sdsnfnenxnf

My name is Jei, I use she/they pronouns, I am 5’11” and I ABSOLUTELY AM THE AWKWARD TALL KIND OF PERSON (I wish I wasn’t tho-). I have short curly hair, (RANDOM THOUGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS, DO YOU EVEN NEED TO KNOW HOW I LOOK FOR A P L A T O N I C MATCHUP? weeeeelll i am already here so, lets just keep going ig) I am like b i g IDK BAHSHAHSHABS

As you can see I am a bit uH chaotic (it is a daily thing but iDK TODAY I AM JUST OVER THE TOP) I am an ambivert, I am an INFP, Aries sun, Cancer moon and Sagittarius rising sbdsndns

I uHhhHh- I am very awkward in first meetings but if we have something in common I’ll ramble about our common interest which almost always leads to me talking about other stuff.

I am a Marvel fan if that’s uUuuh- important? I LOVE UM GOOD OMENS BAHSHAHZHA, i dOnt even know what i am talking about anymore but lets keep going BABDBAHZHA

I have a B I G variety of music taste, from 40s big band songs to uhhhHh lets just say ppcocaine(???

I get distracted w a y too easily, I tend to get lost on time

I LOVE TO DRAW AND TO WRITE (but i never have time to finish so me is very m a d >:))

My best subject is english, english teachers always love me for some effing reason :D

My favorite colors are orange, green, coffee? (COFFEE IS A COLOR? I FORGOT OMFG) OH SHOOT WAIT I HAD TO SEARCH IT UP, IT IS CALLED BROWN BAHAAHHAHAHA I AM SO STUPID, beigeEs and blaCk >:)

yeah, i like dark academia buT in a like chaotic rebel way if it is possible???????

AM I MAKING ANY SENSE NOW???? i am sleep deprived so i don’t really knoW

I tend to see the good in people (yes that includes bad people too, sadly), I have troubles speaking for myself in situations where people are troubling me,,,

What elseeee????

I am lazy sometimes, I’ll admit it 😌☝🏽 and it gets on my nerves:D (i am working on it tho)

All my time is sucked by school, I am an overachiever and adbanxnajxjs i cry cuz school u know? <3

And I think that’s it?????

THANK YOUUU, HAVE A NICE DAY/NIGHT

@burntbayleaf IM SORRY BUT WE NEED TO BE FRIENDS

Also yes my Aries sister 😩

Platonic Matchup

Nishinoya Yuu

How Y’all Met

Aight

So you rolled up into school with a FIRE marvel t-shirt

And nishinoya being a marvel fan himself took IMMEDIATE notice

So what did he do

Approach you of course 🙄✋

However...

It was quite awkward at first 🥲

He really just went up to you and was like

“Oh you like marvel? What’s your favorite movie, or do you prefer the comics?, OH Have how ever seen...”

And he just went on and on and on

But when he realized he was rambling he apologized and asked you the first question again

Now it was your turn to ramble on and on about your interests

But honestly noya just rolled with it

Rooooooollliiiinnnng Thunnndaaaa

After you both were done with your rambling

He invited you over to his house for a #MarvelMarathon

And who tf were you to say no

So you pulled up to his house and started the marathon

In the middle of said marathons noya’s phone started to ring

And what was his ringtone?

Ppcocains PJ

And what did you do when you heard this?

Sang along ofc

And noya was just in shock

But after overcoming his shock he started singing with you

Yeah...he missed that call

But who gives af! Y’all are having a concert rn!

The day bled into night and he offered for you to stay the night

Not wanting to walk home in the dark you agreed

And oml the night was just filled with movies, mini concerts, and junk food 👀

Ever since that night you and him have been attached at the hip

What You Have In Common

Well obviously you both like Marvel

And ppcocain

But you both have a chaotic energy that mashes well with each other

You both have small attention spans/ get distracted very easily 😀

Istg conversations with you two are all over the place

One minute it’s this subject then two seconds later it’s a different subject

Fun fact: you made him watch good omens with you and now he’s obsessed

He says he has a deep emotional connection with Crowley ❤️

Favorite Things To Do Together

Good lord

Honestly if he could just recreate your first sleepover

Life would be perfect

Because THATS his favorite thing to do with you

Just bonding over common interests

Whether that be with music, movies, hobbies

Whatever

No matter what you two do it’s always a party

OTHER THAN BEING CRAZY THO

He actually really likes to have drawing competitions with you

Even though he always loses 🥲

You’ve offered to not make it a competition

But he says that’s what make it fun :)

Random Hc

Oh your his personal tutor

100%

He needs help with school

Screw the teachers

Screw the tutors

There is only ✨you✨

He has also volunteered you as a tutor for the team :D

without your knowledge....

You two have weekly movie nights

But lately he’s just been binging good omens with you

Speaking of Good Omens 👀

That is YOUR show

Like if one of you even watch ONE episode without the other

All hell breaks lose

Ok off topic Hc but people think your the equivalent of asahi 🥲

Astrology

Independent Aries and collaborative Libra form a funny sort of friendship.

Aries tries convincing Libra to take chances, shake off criticism, and be more direct.

Libra constantly tells Aries to slow down, smell the flowers, and be more appreciative.

It's an odd couple type of relationship that can work extremely well.

Aries can learn the fine art of diplomacy from Libra, while Libra may become more assertive thanks to Aries.

While the Aries and the Libra are opposing each other from an astrological point of view, they can still become friends very fast.

The Aries admires how the Libra is graceful, stylish and funny, while the other way around, the latter truly likes how determined to take part in new adventures and always courageous their friend is.

Of course, the friendship between these two will sometimes be challenging because the Aries can get hurt seeing the Libra is flighty, while the latter may not like the way the former is pushy.

However, these two can easily make up and neither of them likes to hold a grudge.

Aesthetic

Chaotic ⚡️👹💥

Songs-

PJ - Ppcocain

Tokyo Drift - Teriyaki Boyz

Won’t Bite - Doja cat

My Axe - Insane Clown Posse

[beboppop]

Insert Clever title

Anyway uhhh I just wanna do a Drabble based on a br! Idea I had (unfinished ngl fucking gave up)

I might rewrite this in the near future cuz it just,,,,,doesn’t stick. I had a few ideas planned that didn’t make the cut and I wanna add them back

At first he doesn’t notice, it’s more like a blip in the corner of your eye. The second time it happens he manages to convince himself its a trick of the eye. After all seeing a chair glitch was crazy-

It didn’t keep him from making worried glances towards the audience.

Maybe on any other day, he’d turn to the closest person and ask if they saw anything...alarming. However he’d actually feel like pure shit to ruin the mood of one of the most important days in their lives.

It was graduation, highschool was basically finished and all of his classmates were ready to embrace being pro heroes!

Izuku was pulled from his thoughts as another...glitch? Something was happening but-

Why wasn’t anyone reacting?

He anxiously waited for a sign, a hitch, a stumble, anything, to show that there is a threat.

Nothing happened.

“Young Midoriya! It’s your turn,” Toshinori nudged him. Izuku looked up and realized belatedly that Aizawa must have called for his name when he wasn’t paying attention.

He hurridly scampered on stage, which must have been a comical sight, judging from the spreaded laughter. Taking his place at the stand, Izuku took a deep breath to steady himself.

Looking back up onto the crowd, he couldn’t help the gasp that came from his mouth. Whatever he was seeing earlier, was spreading. The horizons were something akin to static that hurt to look at.

He looked back to the audience, noticing the worried stares of his mentor and the calculating one of his teacher. That felt like a nail on the coffin because if anyone was to notice whatever the fuck was happening, it would be Aizawa.

It must be a trick of the mind, did I accidentally get hit with a quirk?

Clearing his throat, Izuku started his speech and hoped he didn’t stutter through it.

.

.

.

“-concluding this, I’d like to thank those who’ve supported me and my dreams-“

Oh god.

The closer he got to the end of his speech, the more the static consumed. It reached the back of the crowd and he wanted so badly to talk or do something about it but no one was reacting.

Why aren’t they seeing it?

He choked through the end and threw his fist into the air yelling, “Plus Uľ̵̩t̸̲̓r̶͕̾a̸̘̎!̵̱̈́”̶͕̈

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Izuku woke up feeling slightly worse than usual, briefly he wondered if it was because of his mother’s new dish last night, but pushed that thought away. It didn’t matter he just knew he had to get ready for school.

Something itched under his skin though, as though something was wrong. Izuku rubbed the back of his way too thin neck.

His mom wished him luck and had him set off for school.

His walk to school was routine at this point but it almost felt like he wanted to, go somewhere else? It wasn’t a pleasant feeling and it was carried throughout the day.

In math he looked down at his notes and was alarmed at what he wrote down. It was a sketch of a young man with hair split down in half. Red on one side and white on the other. His costume wasn’t anything to gawk at but the notes beside it almost seemed..real?

Notes on weaknesses and strengths and ideas in applications.

[ramble-writes]

So... Today is my Frank's birthday. Yes it is May 1st deal with it. BUT, here we are again with MORE of the Frank Brothers! I told myself I was gonna do this cuz it would be nice and I'm finding myself liking this AU. So James belongs to (again~) @franks-mixtape! As for the Julie (same one from the previous one) that one belongs to my bf. So.. Happy Birthday to my boy, big ol’ boofer you are. And Luke I tried to make sure I still got a mellow raven tone right cuz hi I haven’t been writing in a while.

NOTE!!!! This would take place after the valentine’s fic. So meaning that Fenik and James met in 1995 which carried onto 1996 (year in-game legion disappeared). As for the first wolf bros fic, that one was like.. an in the middle thing. So yeah.

Warning(s): cursing, teenager stuff lol

Don’t forget to like, reblog, and follow if ya wanna see more! (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤

-

Due to a teacher, the pack of Fairview knew about one of Frank's birthdays. On January 18th on a Thursday, the teacher for physics during roll call had briefly announced it when he called out James’s name. This information was quick to be relayed, since Joey was there in the class to hear Julie, Susie, and the other Frank, Fenik as his middle name goes.

Good on Fenik’s part for having a free period since he was quick to leave the school and hurried off to see about something simple to get his brother. Though... Any sort of gift or a word of cheer was met with hostility and retaliation. Of course, this worried the hell out of the three. Fenik only knew about what really happened and as to why his brother hated his own birthday a few days later when the raven-haired teen came stumbling to his brother’s home drunk off his ass and told the whole story.

Damn near broke the russet-haired Morrison’s heart at it...

Fast-forward to March. It was something about after valentine’s that Julie wondered about Fenik’s birthday, and had brought up this thought to his brother, Joey, and Susie. James was quick to be against it and said to drop it with a snap. He may not know what horrors his other half went through, but Fenik’s been the wolf the longest and had yet to ever snap. And he didn’t want to risk that. The last thing he honestly wanted (but never admitted) was for there to be a fight and for any of them to be hurt or worse, killed.

Of course, it brought on determination to mix with curiosity. Which was a bad mix when it comes to Julie since she went over to the russet-haired teen's foster home. Her last class was a free period, so it made it easy to get up and leave without really sticking around. Since it's most likely the couple has his papers upon fostering, it would have his date of birth on it.

"So... He's a May baby?"

"That's right. And on the first, no less," Audrey responded with a nod. A look crossed her face, then the woman turned to look at the young girl. "Do you think he wants to do anything for his birthday? With what he's been through, I think it would be nice."

Julie casted her eyes to the side, brown orbs focusing on a cross country trophy with a figure in a running position with the words '2nd Place: Fairview' engraved at the bottom.

"His brother says it would be a bad idea to do anything after what happened on his birthday."

"You mean, the other Frank? His half brother?"

"Mhm. He doesn't know what would happen if we do something for him. Though, I do agree since raven head threw a big fit on his birthday. Frank knows what happened, but hasn't told us."

Audrey nodded in understanding. Seeing as the two have the same father, of course, they would confide in each other. She does remember back in January that night when she went to check on the (unknowingly) wolf, that she saw the two in Fenik's bed. Amber eyes had looked over with a gesture for her to be silent. From what she could see of the passed-out teenager, was that he smelt of alcohol and just barely could see cheeks stained with tears.

"Then... How about a gift?"

That made Julie think. She wouldn't really know what he would want seeing as there's quite a bit he keeps to himself and or only shares with James. So she just shrugged. At least they have till May to think it over.

-

May 1st was only about a week away. The pack had about a full month to plan on what to do. Even though it was on a Wednesday, the weekend could be used up for the group. Despite his best efforts with telling them it's a bad idea, James caved and (reluctantly) agreed to help out to see what things caught his brother's eye.

So far, nothing. But, the raven-haired 19-year-old, on his first hunt, noticed something about the russet-haired teen. It was after they took down a moose, how Fenik managed to detach the head with a snap of the spine and the sickening ripping sound of flesh and muscles. James had... no idea how much blood was truly on the both of them till Fenik shifted back.

Blood covered his mouth and chin, running down his neck to his shirt under his jacket. And his hands were *drenched* from biting and attacking the moose. Back to the point, the black pelted wolf watched how the skin on the head was cut off with a knife the other had stowed away. It clicked that way. Bones/Skulls were of his interest with how he was careful with it and set it up against a tree.

"Whatcha doin' there fuzz butt?"

"Ideas are needed. Plus, gotta draw out your first hunting band! You're a Morrison, brother. And, maybe, if you'd like. A new skull. I'm thinkin' flesh hanging off the antlers."

"That's... bitchin. But, for another day. I'm cool with the band."

Fenik nodded, then finished what he was doing before shifting back and headed back over to his brother. It did surprise James when the rust-colored wolf took a big ol' bite out of the carcass and *swallowed* it down. He decided not to make a comment and tried it out himself. Weird how as a wolf the taste of raw meats doesn't taste so bad.

-

Since the days have gotten warmer with summer coming, clothes were lighter so no one overheated. At lunch, it was clear to the others how relaxed Fenik looked, not minding when his soon-to-be teammates from track & field would come over and pat him on the back to wish him a happy 19th and some even gave him 10 or 5 bucks (10 = about 8. 5 = about 4). He didn't mind *that* part one bit.

When school was out, the pack stood outside the steps as per usual. Well, except Joey till he did hop down the steps with a pretty big grin on his face. This made the two Morrisons and Julie look over with a raised brow.

"Somethin' up, Joe?"

"Yup! So, ya know how you told us you and raven head here went on his first hunt, yeah?"

Fenik nodded slowly, suspicious of what the tallest of their group was going on about. He heard his brother sigh in his head and go on about how he tried to tell them not to. "Yeaaaah?"

"And ya got all those tattoos n such, right?"

"Joey... What did you do."

The 18-year-old smiled and took off his backpack. Opening it, he withdrew a bag (that he most likely stashed in his locker) and handed it over. The russet-haired teen blinked as he took it, peaking in with amber eyes. Reaching in, he withdrew a box no bigger than the length of his forearm.

"A stick n poke?"

"Yeah! Well, we know that you do pretty well in art and that from some of the stuff you've shown us, you do all those dots that create really cool images."

"Stipple. That's what the media is called."

"Yeah, th-"

"JOEY YOU DIDN'T WAIT FOR ME!"

Susie came running down the steps with what looks like a book in her hand that she's waving about. Turns out the book was a sketchbook. At first, there was a slow build of concern and worry with how quiet he is, that is till they all felt a wave of sadness mixed with happiness. Hearing Fenik sniffle with a smile on his face was something.

"Sorry ah... I've.. never really celebrated my birthday. Always thought of it as bad since I was put in the system a day before my birthday. And.. all the others after that in every home, they just took the extra money I was supposed to get every May."

He ended it by muttering how the families thought it was bonus money. There were shared looks at that. Put in the system before turning 8. Ouch... James then leaned onto his brother's side, feeling him lean back. He isn't good with words, but as they say, actions speak louder than words.

After that exchange was done, the five all went home. Even after that day, Fenik was a bit snide on the fact that the other two didn't really get him anything. But, maybe Joey just had a higher knowledge? Though that didn't seem right, James did know about it as well.

The silence that followed didn't make any sense till Friday.

When the russet-haired teen got home, he was confused. One moment James hurried off to his house, then the next moment he was at the door of his house with his backpack.

"Bro, what the hell are you doin?"

"Waiting on you, and the others."

"Others?"

James just motioned for him to open the door, when he did, his parents were there waiting with bags of what he could tell is camping gear.

"Uh... What is going on?"

Mitch looked up upon hearing the teen and stood there proudly with a smile on his face as he gestured to the two big bags that hold two separate tents, rolled up sleeping bags, bags that probably have food and blankets, and other things.

"When was the last time you've been camping?"

"Uh... Six years ago? I think? Why?"

"We thought it would be nice to go down to the lake. Minnewanka to be exact," Audrey exclaimed with a smile. James let out a snort of a laugh from behind at the name, which the woman ignored before turning her attention to the people that walked up to the door.

"And we thought it would be nice to bring your friends and your brother! That's why they have their bags for the weekend."

Fenik turned his head to look over his shoulder to see Susie, Joey, and Julie there with what were their backpacks that were once full of school supplies, but now hold clothing. It took a moment for him to put the pieces together and his eyes widened.

"Wait, is this for my birthday?"

The six people in the room all smiled with nods of their heads. This made him get excited and rushed over to the stairs and his steps thundered as he ran up to his room. The raven-haired teen went up after the silence that followed after his other half left, wanting to avoid the awkward standing without knowing what to say.

-

The trip was long, but the weather made up for it. Susie, Joey, and Julie were in the backseat, mainly because the brothers insisted since they wanna sit in the truck bed. Honestly, the happiness that radiated from both was astounding considering the many shit foster homes they had.

It was Fenik who insisted that they howl out along the ride, mainly to be idiots in his excitement but, as far as he knows James probably hasn't tried to before. The sound though, was loud when conjoined from the two. Joey ended up sticking his head out to do it as well, Susie had turned down her hearing aid to make it easier to join in from her head coming out of the back window. Julie just chuckled with a roll of her eyes with Mitch and Audrey.

Upon getting there, a spot was reserved for them marked in outdoor safe spray paint. What was odd was how it was marked F.J. Fenik looked to the two adults, assuming it was a way to mark as him and Julie, that was till they looked at James with worried yet hopefully glances.

"We thought it would be nice to celebrate both your birthdays. From when I last saw you, James. You passed out in your brother's arms and looked like you've been crying."

There was a visible flinch from the raven-haired teen at that. He did remember getting drunk and stumbling to the other's home. He couldn't remember all that he said in his drunken stupor, but he did remember that he mentioned why he hates his own birthday. It clicked in his head right there and he stared at the two adults before muttering a low: "Why..."

"We may not know the reason why, and we know we were told to not do anything for you in the future but..."

"What the old bag is trying to say is, why not knock out two birds with one stone in the best way possible. At least y'all can go out and let all the crazies inside, out."

Green eyes sought out to hopefully lock with amber eyes, and they did, but it felt like there was a gentle coax in James's mind.

*'Ya might as well go with it. They ain't easy with "no" for an answer. But, they mean well. Honest.'*

The 19-year-old looked back at the two adults who were scolding each other from Mitch calling Audrey an 'old bag.' Looking down to the marker, he toed at it before letting out a sigh.

"Alright. But just this once. No more shit after it," He concluded. That caught the two's attention, but they nodded in understanding. For the rest of the time till dinner, they set up the two tents. One for the adults, the other for the teenagers. It was nice that a grill was there since hamburgers, salmon, and what other things they brought in cans were cooked.

It was Susie who declared that any gifts that were brought were to be given. She ended up giving Fenik a scarf she made, an infinity scarf that's a big circle. Course, he put that on. The one from Julie was... Questionable. It was a collar and a leash which promoted James to point and cackle like a mad man.

"AWW YOU GONNA TAKE YOUR WITTLE PUBBY OUT FOR WALKIES!!" He wheezed out, just howling with laughter before yelping when his brother had taken the leash and snapped it like what people do with belts. As a joke (they both know), the younger of the two chased after the eldest yelling about tying him up to a tree. The adults didn't get it, but the teenagers did and Joey fell down from wheezing so much.

When it all calmed down, Fenik yelped at a toy hitting his head and plopping onto the ground. A *squeaky* toy. He just glared at his brother who snickered, making the joke about the collar and leash worse. He muttered a 'thanks' to it before stopping at feeling something plush be placed on his head. He let it land in his lap to see a folded up plaid blanket, blue and red in color with its usual mixed colored squares when it comes to two colors. Thick in material too, meant to keep one warm.

*'It's not every night we get to run around the forest like some shitty dystopian forest novel, so I thought why not get something that'll ease ya when we're apart.'*

Fenik brought it up to his face to rub his face on it, but the fact that it was practically coated in James's scent honestly did bring him comfort that he kinda just... sat there with his face in it silently before lifting his face up with a smile on it. It was easy to tell that he's pleased about it.

-

Did they go night swimming? Yes. There was a bit of daylight left so it made swimming perfect for the teenagers as they did their best to not be so loud to disturb other sleeping campers. Of course they couldn't help the squeaks and yelps that were let out from falling in and water being splashed. Joey ended up calling it good and declared he's heading back to dry off and sleep. Susie followed after. Julie did as well, after wishing the both of them 'Happy Birthday' and kissing the both of them on the cheek.

It left the two Morrisons there on the shoreline, sitting there gazing out as the last bit of light faded and allowed for their eyes to adjust and adapt to the dark. Fenik went over to the lump that is his towel and unrolled it to pull out his newly acquired blanket, only to see a little box plop out. Confused, he picked it up as he headed over to his brother and sat down to drape the blanket over the both of them.

Before he could even ask, James nudged him to open it. He didn't press on but listened and ended up withdrawing a cord necklace tied around what looks like a tip of an antler. It was engraved too with what appears to be a half of a wolf face, but the lines were dyed green. That's when he noticed another one with the other half of the face and lines dyed red.

The raven-haired teen took both. The one with the red lines he put on around his neck, then fitted the one with the green lines around his brother's neck. A matching set, but the one the russet-haired one had was bigger, until it clicked as to why.

"Remember that box ya showed me of those pieces of bones you've collected or snapped off?" When Fenik nodded as a response, he kept going. "I took the tip from that moose we took down, then this one that I have from the deer you told me you hunted. So I thought, why the hell not?"

"And you made a matching set out of them... Thank you..."

James nodded with a half smile, then his eyes followed as his brother stood up. He did the same and shifted after Fenik did. Compared to the walking hellfire the rusted colored wolf is, he's a shadow with orbs to lure in those that are unsuspecting. Together, it was just two big overgrown dogs that caused chaos like puppies.

[cherries-with-sweets]

(Rambling about retail and people)

Standing behind a cash register works like a truth serum.

Like you're just chilling, doing your job or whatever and someone comes in and tells you their life story.

I was just chilling a few weeks ago and a lady comes in, gets some chocolate and starts with "I live nearby and noticed a drone circling my home and I was so freaked out. I didn't even notice it at first but then I did and it has been hovering about my apartment for 2 days now! I called the police and they told me that a TV show is doing drone shots for something and they have a permit so they didn't do anything. Then I finally had enough went to the park and saw the guys who controlled it and talked to them and they were SO unfriendly! They didn't even look like they're from a TV show... but that got me quite worked up even tho I didn't like yell at them... So I'm buying some chocolate to cool off and stop worrying" with me going "yeah thats crazy" every once in a a while. Then she hurried off and looked a little ashamed of her oversharing.

Another time a guy comes in, hands me his recycling stuff, I hand him his cash and he just started going off about his live. He came back every day to talk to me and got increasingly annoying and drunker every time. He told me lots of things and I'm sure at least 30% of it where straight up lies but it was crazy. He told me about his wife that died, how he had a stroke, went to Portugal, hooked up with his Swedish, weed smoking teacher roommate (I think that's a lie), how he came back to nothing, got an inner city apartment (even tho he had massive homeless vibes, my conclusion was that his sister pays for it, because he gave me a consistent address in his vague descriptions?), has no car because his license got stolen in Portugal, how he was a police officer but stopped because he didn't like it (a lie because:), he told me he was a brain surgeon but quit because he did't want to make a mistake (also a lie), how he used to drive rent cars across the country (more realistic) and have parties with them?, how his sister is a bore unless they go partying, about how she didn't let him visit because she was so paranoid about corona, how corona was fake but also real (he slurred that part) and at some point I felt like his mom? He would come in, buy nothing, tell me how he is going to go home to take a nap and what he is going to eat later and if I want to see his cool new bike and how well he played the drums and how he is starting a band again and how all the 20-something student girls want to fuck him blah blah blah. He made a huge mess, I told him to stop, he flipped on me and now he is not allowed in the store again (cuz he was also kind of an ass when he got drunk, and he got REALLY drunk REALLY often, wich did scare me into buying pepper spray).

Now another drunk/homeless dude comes in and talks to me about the guy from before and how much he dislikes him and how he lost control and that he owes him 20 bucks, even tho he seemed close to him because he came in holding a sign for above dude's band/general motto??? now he is clearly on my side about "you can't be an ass to the store clerk that sells you your alcohol and you can't make a mess and scare away customers like he does!" and I chat a bit with him, nodding and being friendly and BAM he is sitting outside the store, yelling at nothing, scaring away customers and making a mess for me to clean up...

Another homeless guy yells bloody murder (and I mean the murder part literally) every time he sees me working, after month of being very nice and understanding and generous to him. Why? Well he came in, mumbling to himself, ordering a coffee, somehow emptying a whole pack of sugar into a small coffee, stirring it for 30 minutes while pulling his mask off every 30 seconds to take a sip (I guess to get more sugar into the coffee?), while mumbling numbers to himself. After those 30 minutes I told him, sternly, not mad or unfriendly, to please keep his mask on while in the store. He turned to me, came close to the counter, calling me a whore, a murderer, that I killed my baby? (while calling me a wrong name), how if he sees me here again he will kick my head in and strangle me and what not. I called the police (I know tumblr hates the police but how the fuck should I have deescalated that myself? I thought he is going to kill me) and he left, throwing his self made coffee syrup at the window. (I just want to add that I work the morning shift to avoid aggressive/too drunk customers, so all of this happend between 9am and 3pm on the weekend)

There is a nice lady that comes by frequently and we talk about the weather, everything closing/reopening, about customers and what we do for the holidays or vacation and its very pleasant! And yet you are kind of surprised when someone starts talking about relationships and loss and grief while you where thinking "I need to restock the cookies soon". But its still pleasant!

A longer while ago, I was working in a supermarket and talked to a guy buying several packs of smokes about how I never should start smoking. He told me how he started smoking at like 13 years old and had 5 heart attacks and a stroke or something and developed some bad disease that could kill him any moment now so he is just going to keep smoking because he can't make it worse. He talked about his son, how he became a paramedic and saved his life by reanimating him once, and how bad he felt to make his son go through this. It was a cautionary tale and really drove the point home more than any rotting lung on a pack of smokes ever could... But also I was 18, it was my first job and we were standing in the toilette paper aisle and was called to the register in the middle of the conversation.

This is only the tip of the iceberg but damn, retail should be payed more just based on the emotional toll it takes... Like I would have never encountered so much human suffering in an (better paid) office job copying some papers...

[littlejeanniebean]

Ep. 1 | The Marauders: Chase Her

A/N: I’m back, witches! ;) With the long-teased BAND AU!! Also @inakindofdaydream​ here’s your tag as promised, hope you enjoy :)) More Marauders in my masterlist! Read on AO3! - J xx

“Oh, Lily, darling, isn’t it a bit…” Narcissa Black appraised the outfit with a derisive sniff, “childish?”

It was a floor-length gown, trimmed to flow with the model’s figure exactly, thanks to Dorcas’ design skills. The highlight was the hot pink lava-lamp-like mixture oozing between the solid pale pink inner layer and the clear exterior material; Lily, a chemistry undergraduate who’d founded the Evans brand on Etsy as a hobby, had made it from scratch. Underneath it all was a complicated circulation system of refrigerant to keep the wearer cool, courtesy of Marlene, who was studying to be a mechanical engineer. Lily had tested it on herself and had the light burns on her legs to prove it, but it was worth it for the 60s-themed Met Gala. That is, if she could convince her client to wear it.

“Hardly,” she responded, “The design says you're playful, but the slinky cut and deep-V neckline say you’re a woman ready to conquer the carpet.”

Narcissa rolled her eyes, “Serves me right for selecting a designer last minute. All the professionals are booked.” 

Lily tried to think of a popsicle or winter, anything to cool the angry flush she could feel burning in her cheeks.

The tall blonde was unbothered as she strutted around the mannequin, inspecting the low back and the spaghetti straps, before extending her arms out to Dorcas and Marlene, who were standing by, “Fine, fit me.”

“I got it,” Lily said quickly when she saw Dorcas’ jaw drop in indignance at being treated like a maid. 

Marlene successfully occupied the deeply offended designer until Mary, the brand's publicist, announced that it was time. 

Lily and their client left the hotel for the iconic New York museum in a chartered limousine among an entire fleet of them. Although dressed plainly in a black sweater and pencil skirt, Lily’s bright red hair made her stand out among the Black family’s monochrome entourage. 

“Sirius, who’s that?” James pushed his thick-rimmed glasses up his nose and tiptoed to get a better look through the sea of celebrities and their teams spilling onto the carpet. 

“I don’t know, but she must be nice because I’m not related to her,” said the dark-haired man, who’d been essentially coerced into attending this event with the rest of his crazy reality television family. 

“Starting to not regret letting you drag me along,” while his friend walked the carpet, James followed the lady with the designer access credentials who looked at everything around her in unabashed wonder.

“James Potter!” someone called out.

He turned around and noticed too late that it was a reporter.

“How does it feel to win a record deal after your performance in the Highland Music Festival?” 

“Will you be performing on The House of Black?” 

“When is your debut album coming out?”

James held up a finger for silence the way he’d seen his mum do plenty-a-time, “I’m so grateful - especially to my music teacher, Minerva McGonagall. I don’t think my best friend will even be on that show anymore and we do everything together. We’re in writing sessions now, just having fun and seeing what we can do, but we’re very excited to share our music with everyone soon, especially our amazing fans.”

“Who are you wearing?”

“Who are you most excited to meet tonight?”

“Are you excited for The Weird Sisters’ performance?”

It went on this way until James could politely extricate himself with the boyish excuse of needing to use the bathroom. He practically sprinted to the tents at the end of the carpet. 

“My armpits are sweating, Lily!”

There she was. A picture of calm amidst the commotion. And her name was Lily.

“Cissy, calm down -”

“Don’t tell me what to do, Siri!”

“See, this is why I can’t work with you lot anymore! You’re bat-shit crazy! Of course, your pits sweat, you’re a human being - not a fucking Barbie doll!”

“You haven’t the faintest idea of the impossible standards I hold myself to because I actually strive to be my best self unlike you, you lazy dog!”

“Are you getting this?” Bella Black, whispered with a toothy smile to the camera that was filming the entire exchange.

"How's it going, Molly?" James addressed the short videographer with auburn space buns. 

She made a funny face at him and he laughed. Molly smiled just a bit in spite of the tensions she worked around daily. 

"Narcissa," a clear voice pulled his attention back towards the girl named Lily, "I believe you've just nicked the wire that runs the cooling system with your heel," she crouched down and hooked it back up, "There you are."

James took this as his cue to pull Sirius away before another argument began. Also, he may or may not have wanted to get even closer to the red-head, "C'mon, mate, let it go, yeah? It's not worth it."

Narcissa huffed and strutted away. Lily had no choice but to follow at her heels, but to her admirer, she made it look like a power move. 

"Ugh, remind me never to do that again!" Sirius collapsed onto the couch in the recording studio they rented next door to their label, Castle Records. 

"James?" Remus asked his less distraught friend.

"Narcissa."

"Ah. At least it wasn't Bella."

The bespectacled boy sat at his drum kit and began to play a couple of mid-tempo rounds on the snare, cymbals, and base, creating the mood of a pursuit. 

"Ooh, I like that," Peter switched the settings on his electronic keyboard to an eighties synth and joined in the jam.

Remus added the bass while Sirius plugged in his electric guitar. 

It was three the next afternoon when Remus finished mixing the track and Sirius had no more unorthodox but cool ideas like, "Record the tires squealing while I  do donuts in the parking lot on my motorbike and add it to the chorus!"

However, James, being ever the perfectionist when it came to music, kept wanting to re-record the drums and the others couldn't even talk him out of it because truthfully, it sounded better every time he did it. 

When they reached the one-week mark, though, Sirius had to take action. "I called Molly. She's going to record our music video today and you know she's quick in post-production so whatever you've got is what we're running."

"Ugh, I hate you!" said James. He didn't. 

Molly arrived at nine sharp and set up the lighting, did their hair and makeup, helped them pick coordinating but not matching outfits, and at ten exactly, called, "Action!"

Don't let her doe eyes fool you

She's been winning since the day she was born

Darlin' don't wanna lose you 

Je ne parle pas français, mais j'adore

So I'm done playing hard to get

(You gotta chase her, chase her, gotta gotta chase her)

 You're running circles in my head

(You gotta chase her, chase her, gotta gotta chase her)

And every word you ever said

(You gotta chase her, chase her, gotta gotta chase her)

Is calling my soul outta my body, must be in heav'n

Whoo!

"LilyLilyLily!" Mary squealed, barging into her friend's hotel room and clambering onto the bed, "We made it!"

Narcissa's lava dress had been trending all week and the Evans brand online store had finally crashed with the volume of orders they were trying to process at once for clothes, accessories, make up, and fragrances.

Her name is bloomin' in my heart

And every beat I beat is hers alone

Darlin' think of what we could start 

Jamais seul ou triste, jamais pas en mode

"Jimbo! Jumbo! Jambo!" Sirius woke up his roommate with their first single blasting from his phone, "We made it!"

Their Chase Her music video had over a million views and the song was number one on Spotify. 

And if our paths cross just this once

Could you be mine and I'll be yours

Tonight, darlin', we dance, we dance

Nous pourrions vivre pour toujours

Sirius guffawed at the comment section, "James: I don't speak French; Also James: Nous pourrions vivre pour toujours."

"Co-written by Google Translate," the singer quipped, putting on his glasses so he could see it all for himself, his smile coming close to breaking his pretty face.

Done being someone you'll forget

(You gotta chase her, chase her, gotta gotta chase her)

 Cuz you're all I got gon' through my head

(You gotta chase her, chase her, gotta gotta chase her)

Yeah every word you ever said

(You gotta chase her, chase her, gotta gotta chase her)

Is calling my soul outta my body, must be in heav'n

Whoo!

[sunaswife]

How did we end up here?/ Erick Brian Colon SMUT

I hope @cncopmhoe likes this cuz I’m Lowkey trash hehe.

Inspired by 5sos’s “How did we end up here?”

“Oh no I’m late I’m late. Mrs. Vega is going to kill me.” Erick said to himself as he rushed down the hall. He was trying to hurry to class, this is what happens when you try to help your irresponsible best friend with his homework. Chris is going to pay for this. Before he knew it he bumped into someone and they both fell on the floor. He immediately looked at the person to apologize and was in awe by her beauty. She was wearing a simple jean jacket with black pants and a band t shirt tucked in. She also had a beanie on. She looked so casual and beautiful. She looked up at him and gave him a glare. “Watch where you’re going dumbass.” She grabbed her folder, he saw a schedule and he quickly grabbed it. “I’m sorry, is this yours?” He asked and she grabbed it. “Yeah, hey dumbass where is this class anyways? It’s B 21.” She asked, “down the hall to your left is the b wing.” He said and she was already walking away. He stayed there for a second but quickly remembered he was already late. He grabbed his folder and he was on his way to class.

He opened the door and was confused that the whole seating was changed, his best friend was paired with someone else across the room. “Erick you’re late.” His teacher said, “I’m so sorry.” He apologized, “I let the students pick their partner but there is only one person available.” She said and noticed the girl from earlier. “Okay thank you.” He said and sat next to her. She was messing with her nails as she read the paper, she looked at him and looked back down. “Hi I’m Erick whats your na—“ “President Nixon.” She said, “Excuse me?” He asked. “Our project is on President Nixon. I chose cause you’re late.” She said and handed him the paper. “But Roosevelt is better.” He tried convincing her. “Too bad dumbass. I already chose.” She shrugged. He glanced across the room and saw his other best friend Joel talking to a cheerleader, Joel looked up and he shrugged. They usually pair up together but Joel thought he was absent and he was distracted by the cute cheerleader.

You walked in everyone was asking for your name, you just smiled and told them trouble

“Ay shorty what’s your name.” The schools fuckboy, Richard said. Erick and her looked up and she smirked, “Trouble.” She said and looked back down to the textbook. “More like nerdy.” He snorted, “What do you say we switch our partners so we can work together baby.” He said and she giggled. “Nah I’m good—he looks smart.” She shrugged. “But with me—“ “But with you we’ll fail this project. I’m not an idiot, now get the Fuck out of my presence.” She groaned. “Bitch.” He muttered and walked away.

My head spins, I’m pressed against the wall just watching your every move. You’re way too cool and you’re coming this way.

“She literally said trouble?” Zabdiel asked as Erick talked about the new girl. “Bro bro.” Joel shook Ericks shoulder. “What dude.” Erick said annoyed. “She’s coming this way.”

How did we end up talking in the first place?

“Hey dumbass.” She stood right in front of Erick, “It’s not dumbass it’s Erick.” He corrected, “Nah you look more like a dumbass.” She shrugged and he sighed. “What do you want?” He asked, “What are you doing after school?” She asked, “I’m going to the arcade with—“ Joel punched his shoulder interrupting Erick. “Ow What the hell.” He rubbed his shoulder. “If you’re asking if he’s free then he is.” Zabdiel answered for Erick and Erick looked at Zabdiel in confusion. “Sweet so after school meet me in the front so we can go to my house.” She said and turned. Erick, Zab, and Joel stood there in shock. No girl has asked either one of them to come over. Especially for a project. “Oh and Erick?” The way his name dripped off her lips made him melt.

You said you like my Cobain shirt

Her confidence is amazing for someone small and beautiful like her. She’s scary and mysterious but so beautiful and sexy at the same time. “Yeah?” He asked. “I like your Cobain shirt.” She said and walked away.

Now we’re walking back to your place, you’re telling me how you love that song about living on a prayer.

I’m pretty sure that we’re halfway there

She would not shut up, neither did he. “RIP to the legend.” She said and he nodded. Who knew they shared a similar taste in music. They walked close on the narrow sidewalk. His hand accidentally grazed hers and she moved her arm. “Hey dumbass just because we like the same music doesn’t mean we’re friends.” She said and he was slightly disappointed. “I figured.” He muttered and she pretended she didn’t hear. She mentally smiled and glanced at the boy. He was the hottest guy she’s ever seen. His eyes are beautiful but she hasn’t properly looked into them. He had a nice posture and a simple but good taste in clothes just like her. He was definitely sweet and she loved that.

“We’re here.” She said and he followed as she entered her home. “Your parents?” He asked, “one just got into work and the other who knows, never came back after buying a pack of cigarettes.” She shrugged and he felt bad. “My mom comes back at like two in the morning. She’s a nurse.” She said and he nodded. “Well let’s get to work. My room is upstairs the one with the 5sos poster on the door. He nodded and walked up the stairs as she made her way to the kitchen. He was nervous, this was the first time he has been over a girls house, this was the first time he’s been in a girls room. And they were alone. He made himself comfortable on her brown carpeted floor. She came back ten minutes later with a big bowl of pizza rolls to share and two Gatorades. I would make something but we don’t have a lot of food because we’re still organizing.” She said and he smiled. “Thank you.” He said and ate the pizza roll from the shared bowl. She layed on her stomach as she was googling information on her laptop.

But when I wake up next to you I wonder how,

Erick woke up to the sound of giggling, he opened up his green eyes and he was in a bed that wasn’t his, in a room that wasn’t his, with a girl that wasn’t his. “It’s about time.” She said as she looked at him, she was sitting on her desk watching funny cat videos. “My mom is asleep but, she’s knows you’re here. I told her you accidentally fell asleep and she was cool with it.” She said and he sat up. “Come on you have an hour to get ready.” She said, “How are you up so early?” He asked. “I go for morning jogs so I can see the sunrise.” She responded and he smiled. “The shower is that way and I put my brothers underwear and shirt inside so you can change into.” She said. “Thanks.” he mumbled and he stood up and made his way to her bathroom. She tried to not look but he was gorgeous.

Erick showered and he was daydreaming. Remembering what happened yesterday. They were arguing over how the PowerPoint should be. “Ugh if you weren’t so hot I would have slapped you.” She hissed and he was taken aback. “You think I’m hot?” He asked, “Don’t get too cocky—“ “no it’s just that no one has ever called me hot.” He admitted and she smirked. “Really? But I mean look at you? You’re earrings, your hair, your eyes. Your intoxicating.” She said lowly and crawled her way to him. He was feeling tight in his pants. She sat in front of him and held his chin with her soft hand. “Have you had your first kiss before?” She asked all of a sudden. “Um no..?” He said, she bit her lip as she looked at his. “May I?” She asked, “Yes.” He whispered and she moved closer to him. She kissed his lips gently and pulled away. She gave him a smile but he wanted more. He grabbed her from behind her head and he smashed his lips towards her. She released a moan. He wanted her to make that sound again. “You’re a little horny huh?” She said against his lips. “Is that a problem?” He asked and he sat her on his lap. “Of course not.” She smirked and kissed him once again. They stripped clothes and he quickly turned to text his mom he was spending the night at Zabdiels and told Zab to cover for him.

He turned and was in awe and he saw her in her underwear. “Close your mouth before you eat flies.” She said with a giggle. She crawled onto his lap again and their lips fought for dominance. She didn’t have much experience either but they both hoped that porn was enough knowledge to know what to do. Her clothed heat was on his growing bulge and every time she moved he moaned. They both pulled away and they looked at eachother in the eyes. “Are you okay with this?” They both asked at the same time then chuckled. “Guess that’s a yes.” Erick said and he picked her up and gently tossed her on her bed. He baggy shirt lifted slightly and he kissed where her belly piercing was at.

“So beautiful.” He whispered and lifted up her shirt more. He looked at her breasts and without a second thought he nibbled on her left and he played with her right. She released another moan and he groaned softly. His lips found hers again and he carefully pulled down her underwear. She became a little shy and she kept her legs closed. “Come on Mami, spread those pretty legs.” He said and she was so turned on by his words. She did as asked and he tasted her. He was in cloud 9. No wonder why Chris is obsessed with sex. She’s delicious. She pulled his hair and he groaned which made her released a soft whimper. “Erick—“ she gasped as he put two fingers in without warning. “You’re okay right?” He asked, “Yes go faster.” She moaned and he obeyed. The sight of her weak underneath his touch made him want to cum right there. He pulled away and she sighed and caught her breath. He grabbed a condom from his wallet and he carefully placed it on himself. His mom got him these in case he ever needed them. She didn’t want her son getting a girl pregnant at seventeen.

He remembers a bit of advice Chris gave him and he rubbed his cock up and down her slit to self lubricate. When he was satisfied he put the tip over her entrance. she admitted that it was her first time as well so Erick wasn’t as worried. “I’m ready.” She said and he carefully entered in her. She gripped her bed sheet and she took a deep breath. When he was all the way in and she had time to adjust he moved at a slow and steady pace. She released short breathy moans, he looked at her in amazement because she was so beautiful in this state of bliss and he was so happy that he was making her feel this way. She opened her eyes and they made eye contact, she bit her lip and she pulled him down to her and she attacked his lips. “You’re so good.” She whispered, “Go faster.” And so he did. They didn’t move or do anything else because it was their first time and they were focusing on getting the release.

“Oh my god—Erick I’m close.” She squeaked and he nodded. “I am too.” He mumbled and his rythem became sloppy. He thrusted two hard ones and she scratched his back. “Oh Fuck Erick, just like that.” She said in his ear. He felt her walls tighten around his cocked and they both released in sync. “Oh my god.” He released a boyish moaned, “fuck—that was so good.” She said and They catched their breaths. He carefully pulled out and tossed the condom away in her small trash bucket. “Are you okay? Did it hurt?” He asked, “I mean in the beginning but I’m fine.” She responded, “I just don’t think I can move my legs.” She giggled and he quickly grabbed her underwear and helped her put it on. “Thanks.” said and he slid on his. “No problem.” “What time is it?” She asked, he looked at the time on his phone. “10:30.” He said. “We should go to sleep, we have school tomorrow.” She said and patted a spot next to her. He smiled and layed under the covers with her. She hugged his waist and put her head on his chest. They both quickly fell into a blissful sleep and they both dreamt about eachother.

How did we end up here?

[manabingu]

Haruka Nanami = soft girl

This has been sitting in my inbox since yesterday MY BAD! I wanted to answer this earlier but got distracted by deadlines of some stuff ANYWAY. Thanks for sending me an ask about Nanami CUZ I BEEN WANTIN TO TALK ABOUT MY HOME GIRL FOR AWHILE BUT NEVER GET THE CHANCE TO! So thanks~*~*~*

THIS GIRL RIGHT HERE. NANAMI HARUKA ^^^^ I WOULD DIE FOR HER.

Honestly, I’m that one person in every fandom that tends to fall in love with characters who I feel get undeserved hate or are either a minor character who gets glossed over. And be like….YALL??? Why you so mean to such adorable, innocent,sweet, hardworking, wouldn’t hurt a fly characters and then say that characters who are LITERAL murderers and criminals are the “precious cinnamon rolls who can do no wrong” only cuz you attracted to them??? yall thas sad. Listen…I’m honestly tired of people who bash on the anime and only play the games cuz they think it’s boring. Yes, you can have your opinion & I respect that, but I’ve seen some people whom have a pretty steadily growing following just bash on Nanami or some of their “not best boys” for reasons that make no sense to me & I been bottling this for awhile but Imma just SPEAK today cuz I’m on fire. ANYWAY BACK TO MY QUEEN.

LET ME HAVE MY NANAMI HARUKA TED TALK. Debunking complaints

Complaint I’ve heard: She’s boring

IN MY PERSONAL OPINION. NANAMI HARUKA IS ONE OF THE BEST LEADS IN ANY IDOL/ REVERSE HAREM ANIME I HAVE SEEN TO DATE.

She’s FAR from boring. She kind of reminds me of one of my other favorite lead heroines of all time. Tohru Honda from Fruits Basket. Both are humble & haven’t really had much in their life. Let’s talk about her story, she is a girl who was born with with bad health so much so that her parents sent her to grow up and live with her grandma in the countryside where the air was cleaner & less polluted than the city where they live. While she stayed with grandma, she learned to play piano by ear & she really didn’t grow up with much technology. She states in episode one that she didn’t even have a TV so anytime anyone in her class makes a reference to a famous celebrity she doesn’t know who they are. If I had to guess she only probably had books, toys, & a record player at grandma’s house AND I think she was home-schooled? Which means that that her only other friend besides her grandma & possibly the local neighborhood kids was grandma’s piano.

 I think she’s highly relateable too. I sure have had similar experience (trust me, my immune system is TerRibLe XD so I feel home girl) But I knew the moment I saw that part in episode 1 where she describes how music LITERALLY saved her life, THAT is when I knew I would protect this girl for the rest of my life cuz I just yelled at my screen SAME GURL! SAAAAAAME TTuTT/ In Nanami’s case, she went by herself to the city to visit her parents, she thought since she no longer was a kid, her health wouldn’t be too endangered but she she got there she got REALLY lost & the noise pollution was so overwhelming that her anxiety gave her a panic attack. AND THIS IS WHY I REALLY LIKE UTAPRI. BECAUSE THEY GET HELLA REAL HELLA FAST. THIS KIND OF THING IS NOT SOME KINDA MADE UP THING. LET ME SIT YALL DOWN AND TELL YOU A STORY.

Listen- I remember when I was like 16ish I went to New York with a cousin & as a person who comes from a small town- being in the city BY YOURSELF for the first time, it’s SO SCARY to someone who has anxiety. I was dropped off in Manhattan while she ran a work errand she gave me money for food & encouraged me to explore. As soon as they left, I looked around thinking OH GOD WHAT NOW?? I saw a cathedral close by and I RAN for it. I was so scared being alone I went to a small corner of the cathedral and started crying & tweeting, which got some comforting responses from native NY people that followed me & I texted the friend that was closest to me (if you count Virginia close lol) But he called me & just talked to me & helped me feel better. He encouraged me to not stay in one place & to go find a place I like & perhaps if I was too anxious, to go stay there till I was picked up. IT TOOK ME 30 MINUTES to get courage enough to walk to the Barnes & Noble/Starbucks that was close & I stayed there texting him the rest of the time. So ANYTIME people talk crap about Nanami’s panic attack in the city I’m gonna politely tell them to get out of my face cuz that’s a VERY real emotion. The thing that saved Nanami was hearing a singer in a giant screen singing a soothing song. THE MUSIC HELPED CALM DOWN HER ANXIETY. EXCUSE ME. YALL CAN’T SAY THAT YOU’VE NEVER BEEN SOOTHED BY A SONG IN YOUR LIFE. WE ALL BEEN THERE. WHEN WE WERE SO DOWN THAT LISTENING TO A SONG MADE US FEEL BETTER. I know that happened with me. Just like Nanami, I had a time in my life where I was just ready for death, I had lost hope to live but hearing ONE. SONG by my favorite singer, literally stopped me. So I can relate how she felt about HAYATO in the city. And how afterwards she was so inspired by it that she wanted to try to have a career dealing with music. HER REASON FOR WANTING TO BECOME A COMPOSER IS BECAUSE SHE KNOWS WHAT IT’S LIKE TO FEEL SAD AND SCARED. SO SHE WANTS TO MAKE MUSIC THAT CAN TOUCH PEOPLE’S HEARTS & IF THEY’RE HAVING A BAD DAY, SHE CAN CHEER THEM UP WITH A SONG. IF THAT ISN’T THE GREATEST REASONING TO GO FIGHT FOR A DREAM, I DUNNO WHAT IS.

AND SHE KNOWS THAT THE ODDS ARE AGAINST HER. BUT SHE DOESN’T THROW IN THE TOWEL EASILY. I FREAKING LOVE HER FOR THAT. NANAMI. HARUKA. IS. NOT. WEAK.

Once she was of age, she applied for THE most prestigious music academy in her area. She was nearly late to the entrance exam cuz she helped a lost child find their mom while she was running in a snowstorm to the school. And because she was noticed to have that high moral compass by the principal, she was allowed to take the exam and made it in. And even when she DID get in, she was bullied by all the rich kids for not being able to read sheet music & not being taught by a private piano teacher when she was asked to play in front of everyone. She KNEW that she can play piano but she was self taught & played by ear. ((THIS STRUCK ME HARD TOO. Because I am self taught too- as a singer, I thought that if I didn’t have access to all these things & I didn’t know how to sight read I’d never be taken seriously or that I was less worthy to be called a musician than my peers)) But did she give up??? NO. HOME GIRL RAN TO THE LIBRARY and she studied her ass off to not let her first assignment project partner down. I COULD GO ON FOR HOURS ABOUT THE FIRST SEASON ALONE. SHE WAS THROWN SO MANY CURVE BALLS TO CRUSH HER SPIRIT AND DESPITE HER ANXIETY KEPT FIGHTING FOR HER DREAM.

But you know what? She also showed me THAT IT’S OK TO FALL DOWN TO ROCK BOTTOM. It’s OK to feel like giving up especially when your confidence has been crushed to a pulp by everyone. YALL, I FREAKING BAWLED MY EYES OUT WHEN SHE FOUND OUT THAT STARISH - THE BAND SHE SINGLE-HANDEDLY  (and with some magical fate strings pulled by Cecil)) CREATED WAS GONNA DEBUT WITHOUT HER. She was asked by the principal if she thought HER music could compete with pros already established and household names already in the business. She didn’t want her friends to give up their dreams of debuting so she agreed to step down as STARISH’s composer AGAINST their demands for her to not give up. She went home and cried to her grandmother that she felt SO outclassed. And you know what? I’m GLAD Utapri shared this kind of story because I’m sure it has happened to a lot of people.

Nanami is a really kind, compassionate, selfless human being. She does anything and everything so that all her family & friends can be happy at the expense of her own happiness. She takes it to the extreme that she is PUSHED and forced to FOR ONCE think selfishly and do something for herself. Her purity & kindness won the respect of her classmates & teachers so much so that they always want to support her dream of  becoming a songwriter. When STARISH came to her house cuz they heard she ran away- she openly admitted  IN TEARS that SHE wanted to be STARISH’s composer, she didn’t want anyone else to write for them because she had fun with her friends and she didn’t want that to stop. ((The principal overheard her and said FINALLY! SOMETIMES ITS OK TO BE SELFISH WHEN IT COMES TO YOUR DREAM! Its ok to be kind but also think of your own feelings sometimes too. I think young, budding artists need to hear this. )) SHE GIVES ME HOPE CUZ I BE THE SAME WAY SOMETIMES WITH MY STUFF SO YEAH ;~~~~~;/

SOMETIMES When I watch a show that has harem elements to it, I really judge the protag that everyone is falling for and I think about if the harem people’s feelings are justified enough for them to actually fall in love with the protag. And you know what? In Nanami’s case?? ITS A BIG OL HELL YEAH IT’S JUSTIFIED.

FrICK- I fell in love with Nanami too??? How could I not??? I AM A BIGASS SAP FOR INNOCENT, SHY, CHARACTERS WHO TRY THEIR BEST EVEN THOUGH THEY SCARED AF CUZ OF CONFIDENCE ISSUES.

She’s a wonderful, compassionate, gifted person who just needs love and support and you know she’ll be there for you too and it’s mutual. She works SUPER hard at her job, she’s endearing, she makes you wanna just protect her cuz if she is sad lord I will probably go on a rampage. This girl doesn’t deserve to go through more than she already has. I love and respect Nanami. A female protagonist doesn’t need to be bitchy, slutty, or badass to be considered “interesting”. 

HECK, one time I heard someone say “This show would be 10x if Nanami was a guy. UMMMM???? WTF??? Ok, listen, I’m in the lgbt spectrum, & I’m sick of people saying that Utapri would be better if Nanami was a boy. Why is it so bad that she’s a girl?? Like- I would like ONE reasonable explanation that doesn’t involve fetishizing your personal fantasies. When people fetishize an lgbt relationship- you’re causing that type of relationship to not be taken seriously irl. If we wanna make this the norm, we gotta treat it like it’s a natural occurrence. Not force something for the sake of fanservice. There are barely any well written female protags like Nanami out there in the world and if we change her, we are taking out one of the best from the list. I want more shows to write good, memorable  female protags like Nanami. I wouldn’t be against her being a boy. But only if the reason was for good reasons and to explore character development dynamics. Cuz I enjoy content that has actual substance. SERIOUSLY- If Utapri was ONLY fanservice, I would despise it. BUT IT’S NOT. It tackles real issues & speaks about people in the industry and they don’t sugarcoat ANYTHING. They show you the harsh realities but they also give you hope to keep doing what you love even if you gotta work extra harder than your peers who might be more experienced than you.

And THAT is what I learned from Nanami Haruka. And I will defend my songwriting princess till I die. Thank you.

[liv324]

Just My Type

It was 7:05 in the morning and I was to busy fxcking my chemistry teacher Mr.Thornhill. To notice we had 15 mins to get to school . I tried to let go from our kiss when he grabbed me by the waist and said “what’s wrong “. “It’s time to go to school jay” I got off of him and put on my clothes. You could tell he wasn’t fully satisfied especially because he didn’t came into you .. “right right” he said while putting his clothes back on and drove you guys to the back of the school where no one can see u guys together.

You guys sat in the car quietly until u pulled him into a kiss. The kiss deepened and he told you tht he wasn’t finished with you and he got out of the car and went inside the building. I sat in the car checking my phone. I got a text from my best friend Steve Harrington. “Where tf are you Evelyn “ he texted. “Wdym?” I replied. “We were suppose to meet at the dot this morning i was waiting there looking like an idiot !” He texted. I totally forgot about tht I told myself. I felt so bad ! “Omg I totally forgot Steve I’m so sorry.. stuff at home is complicated can I make it up to you ?!” You texted back. “Hmmm yes you can tonight at your house I have to study for a test and need your help” he said. You smiled at your phone and got out of the car and heading to the building.

When you walked up the steps to the door of the school you got a text and you looked at your phone and for just a quick second you ran into someone and a black case dropped and you quickly looked up. “ omg I’m so sorry!” You said and grabbed the big case and gave it back to a rlly good looking guy. “it’s fine I should’ve paid attention” he said looking at you . You couldn’t keep his eyes off of you. “I think we both weren’t paying attention” you giggled looking at him. “My name is bradley” he reached out his hand. “My name is Evelyn ” you shook his hand. He wouldn’t let go of my hand and stared at me for like 5 secs long . “Uhh sorry” he said nervously letting go his grip. “It’s fine” you smiled. “Hey would like to go to a show tht my band and I are playing at tonight at the dot?” He said confidently. “Sure what time ?” I said interested. “7 o clock.. i’d love to see you there” he said smiling. After tht little interaction I finally got to class.

My favorite class came.. Chemistry with my favorite teacher ;). I sat down in my regular seat. Mr.thornhill was looking at me seductively. We gave each other long eye contact while i was teasing him by biting my pencil until the bell rang. “Okay class so we are doing a lab so partner up and let’s get started” he said but then the door opened a familiar cute face popped out of the door. It was Bradley. “ Hi mr. Thornhill my name is Bradley I just transferred into this class cuz i had problems in my other class”. He said. “Hi Bradley welcome so just find a partner for our lab and I’ll explain what to do” jay replied . Bradley saw u and caught each other attention. “ Evelyn right ?! Wanna be partners?” He winked . “yah sure !” You replied. Jay saw u guys talking and getting along and he saw Bradley made u laugh when he made a funny face. Jay was getting mad. “Miss Thornhill Evelyn” he mumbled the thornhill part. You looked at jay confused. “I need to talk to u about ur grade” he said. You got up and walked over to his desk. “What do you want jay ?” You asked. “You call me Mr.thornhill in class miss Evelyn!” He said angrily. “Wtf since when?” You replied annoyed . “Excuse me but u need to stop flirting with tht new guy.. i thought i was the only guy ur fxcking” he said while putting is hand on ur bethigh. “Jay I mean mr thornhill he is just a friend! Stop being jealous” you said to him walking away. “Ohh I’m not done with you missy” he whispered and you heard.

When you got back to ur seat Bradley saw ur pissed off face expression. “You look pissed” He laughed. “Is there anything I can do?” He added. “sadly no” you said. “Hey so what is ur band name ?” You asked changing the subject. “The Vamps” He said. “It would be super cool if you could come.. also I rlly want to get to know you” he said putting his hand on your thigh. “Yah I am definitely gonna go i love watching bands and I really wanna get to know you too” you said smiling. You guys worked on your lab and when the bell rang you headed to eat Lunch with steve.

“Hey Harrington!” You said jumping on your best friends back. “Why are u so happy missy?” He asked curious. “What makes you think there is a reason for my happiness” you said rolling your eyes. “Well for starters ik when my best friend is happy about something” he said. You jokingly pushed him. You guys got your lunch and sat with your friends veronica,Betty and Zach. “Hey so I got so much nudes last night it’s crazy !” Zach spluttered out. “Zach no one wants to know how much hoes you get at night” veronica said. “I need more nudes and sex cuz I all I get is Evelyn’s booty or boob pic approvals” Steve said. “Ik we all get them” Zach said laughing. “Well I’m sorry a girl needs help sometimes” you said. “Oh don’t worry we aren’t complaining” the boys said. Everyone laughed at tht. “So Evelyn are u even talking to someone?” Betty asked. Steve got nervous at the question cuz he secretly likes you but only he knows it. “Uhh no all the guys I talk to Just want sex and it’s annoying” You said but u had 2 guys in your mind tht u actually like (jay and Bradley). “Girl that is so true” veronica said. Lunch ended and you guys carried on your day at school.

When the bell rang I got a snap from jay. I opened it and it said *first gif. He was so demanding I loved it I craved it so I went to his room. I saw him on his desk on his laptop grading. I fixed my appearance a little to look more sexy. I opened the door and locked it and put a paper on the window so no one could see what I was about to do. “Hey babe ready to be sore for the next few days” jay said to you coming towards you. “I guess so” you said seductively. You tugged on his shirt and then unbuttoned his shirt revealing is toned body. He took off your shirt revealing your amazing body . He kissed your neck up to your lips and you moaned a little. He picked u up by the legs and placed you on his desk and unbuckled his belt and pulled down his pants revealing is big package . You eyed his package with lust. “I want you now” you begged. “ not yet my dear you have to earn it he said pinching your chin he kissed you deeply. He took off your pants and went down fingering You. And then he ate you out. You really needed him inside. “Babyyyy please I need you” he pulled out and placed his tip playfully on ur folds and u tried to push urself into him but he backed out teasing you. He then grabbed your thighs and thrusted hard into you making u moan loud. “Babe shhh the principal is still here” he kept thrusting in and out of you making you roll ur head back screaming his name. “ babe I have cum” he said pounding ur pussy using all his sexual frustration out from earlier. “Please come pleaseee” you both finally released and you guys were breathing heavy and kissed each other. You two were happy that u both were satisfied.

After tht hot session you got your self together and headed home. When you got home you were doing homework and FaceTimeing Steve. He was doing his hair and being all cute and stuff . “ okay sexy Steve why u trying to get all cute and stuff ?” You asked teasing. “Can’t I just look good for myself “ he replied. “I mean go for it but let me know who the girl is first” you said. Little did u know it was you. You guys talked for couple of hrs until it was 6. You had to go to the dot to watch Bradley and his hand play. You told Steve u had to go for dinner. After u hung up you got dressed for the concert. You threw on black jeans with a leather jacket and some booties. You headed out and drove to the dot. When u walked in Bradley saw u immediately he looked so happy to see you. “Evelyn !” He called Out you looked at him smiling.

He pulled me up to the stage *second gif

“I’m so happy you came! I hope you like our band.. you can sit in the front row tables” he said gesturing to a seat. “Thanks Bradley I’m excited!” You said hugging him and you sat down waiting for the performance. “Hey everyone thanks for coming out to watch us perform this first song is going out to a special girl tht i just met today she makes me feel a certain way and I like it “ Bradley said grabbing the mic and beginning to sing just my type. You smiled at what he said. “She lets me down

Then gets me high

Oh I don't know why

She just my type

She's my device

I don't think twice

Oh I don't know why she's just what I like

But I, I, I love it

I, I, I love it” he sang. You were having fun singing along and making eye contact with him. When u were having fun you got a text from Steve you opened it and it read “where are Evelyn I’ve been waiting In your house for 45 mins.. did you forget already”. You totally forgot again about your meet up. It was 7:45 and the band took a intermission. Bradley went up to you. “Hey eve how did you like it?” He said. “You guys are amazing! But I have to go i have studying to do” you replied. “Yeah ofc but wait Evelyn” he said pulling you close to him he looked at you down to ur lips you could tell he wanted to kiss you. He kissed you and you let him and the kiss deepened and then you let go and headed out the door and went home.

When u arrived home you went up to your room and saw Steve shirtless on your bed. “Hey Steve sor..” you said closing the door and turning around to a shirtless Steve. “It’s fine but u owe me now” he said. “W-what do you want?” You said nervously curious. He knew the next thing he was gonna say would change your guys relationship..”I want you to make out with me” he said demanding. You were shocked at what he said u had no idea he even liked you like tht. But you didn’t mind cuz you knew he lacked sexual moments. So you ran to him and wrapped your legs around him on the bed and starting to kiss him and he was such an amazing kisser you had no idea how good he was. “Oh my I didn’t know you were so good at this” you said deeply. “Oh baby I don’t kiss and tell” he replied. So you were wrong about his sexual life. “Get on your knees now” he demanded you did as u were told he pulled down his pant revealing his huge hard goods. You began to rub and suck the tip making him moan. You then preceded to suck all of his length making u deep throat and he then fxcked your mouth . You guys then ended up making out on the bed and cuddled for hours until you both fell asleep.

next chapter coming soon

[ilovederenglish]

Queer Film Review: Un Bacio (2016) [SPOILERS]

The plot of “One Kiss” circles around three young outcasts at a public school in the outskirts of Italy. Blu, a aspiring writer, has gained a notorious reputation as a slut. She attributes this to the school’s popular clique being jealous that she has an older (and I guess cooler?) boyfriend who's abroad, but also because she was convinced by him to participate in an orgy with 3 of his other friends...(more on this later.) Lorenzo, a flamboyant, fabulous, butterfly-pattern shirt wearing, openly gay boy, has just transferred to the school with his new parents after leaving foster care. Luckily for him, his parents completely accept him and defend his right to express himself. Though somewhat of a cliche, his loyalty to his true self is audaciously courageous, especially since it seems like the whole school is full of homophobic arseholes. You see very quickly that Lorenzo is prone to fall into fantasy, turning all the haters momentarily into his pathetic sycophants. Lastly, we have Antonio- a shy and quiet basketball player who talks to no one. He goes hunting with his father every morning and so he’s late for class almost every day. Over the course of the movie, he talks to his older brother, who we soon learn had died recently in an accident and appears to Antonio as more of an embodiment of his insecurities and fears.

so much angst these vespa driving italian teens with their “fuck you” helmets

On day one, Blu and Lorenzo immediately hit it off in class, brought together by the mutual hate and isolation of their peers. They notice that Antonio is one of the kids in their class that isn’t entirely loathsome (and also wasn’t invited to a huge party by one of the “it” girls in class). They plan an elaborate dance sequence in matching outfits to send him a ransom-style note telling him to meet them at a pizzeria. Lots of montages later, they are an established trio of wholesome friendship, and we see hints of flirty eye contact between the three. Of course, no tale of teenage angst is complete without some kind of love conflict, so a sort of love "angle" forms. Or even a love line and point? Because it's pretty apparent that Lorenzo fancies Antonio, Antonio fancies Blu, and Blu kind of plays around with Antonio but is still pretty loyal to her boyfriend.

Cuz every dress-up montage needs synchronised dancing <3 

One of the most important plot points is throughout the whole movie, Lorenzo gets bullied by the whole school. Even the teachers condemn his "outlandish" behaviour. For example, one of the teachers tries to get his suspended for wearing nail polish, since it "provokes" the other students in to cackling at him. What the fuck kind of schools does Italy have? There's unoriginal name-calling by the boys and girls, the students make a Facebook page called "I HATE LORENZO" and rally over their open hate for this lovely boy, and I already despise this school as much as Lorenzo does. A particularly poignant scene includes Lorenzo showing Blu a page of "Gay Teen Suicides", and saying that he isn't going to be like one of them, because he loves life and has a lot of to live for.

Oh baby...

They have their revenge when Lorenzo posts a hilarious video exposing some embarrassing secrets of their most antagonistic peers, with a message of "Remember, don't criticise others. We can all be criticised. No one is normal, and we invited you to mind your own business." In retaliation, the "I Hate Lorenzo" group graffitis the classroom with dumb phrases that blatantly frame the trio, and no one will believe the trio so they end up wearing matching overalls to repaint the room and are suspended for three days.

Cue a super cute idyllic day dream sequence.

And they look like a indie pop band in a music video.

The main catalyst comes when the trio school to go swimming in the local forest during their suspension and Lorenzo comes onto Antonio, who obviously flips his shit and runs away immediately.

Sadness. Masculine fragility is so strong. He proceeds to ignore Lorenzo and Blu, enduring the verbal abuse of his teammates. Lorenzo takes this especially hard, trying to make amends for what happened but not apologising for it. Antonio's fear of being called "gay" manifests as violence towards Lorenzo, where he gives him and black eye and won't stop kicking him...his teammates pull him off Lorenzo, who heartbrokenly goes home, only to be lightly interrogated by his adoptive mother about what happened. His half-heartedly pins it on Blu, since he "stole her lipstick" (as if Blu would beat the shit out of you for that). Blu tries to confront Antonio on why he's acting like this, and he confesses that he's in love with her, and that her boyfriend is evil, and that she and Lorenzo "set him up" since she knew he liked him. He angrily storms off.

A few days later, with Lorenzo's mum extremely worried about someone bullying him, Antonio shows up outside his window. He apologises for his behaviour and Lorenzo kisses him. Of course, Antonio runs away. This same night, Blu's boyfriend is in town and there are super bad vibes. At some point, he shows her a horrific video of what actually happened on the night of "the orgy". Turns out they all raped her in spite of her drunken protests. She watches this while resting on her boyfriend's chest and suddenly remembers a few fragments. It all becomes clear as she runs home into the arms of her mother. Lorenzo texts Blu to tell her the news of the kiss, but she's too busy having a long overdue emotional breakdown.

Who the fuck still goes hunting in 2016? Go away big bro! 

The next day, Antonio is hunting again, and while he's about to shoot a rabbit, his ghost-brother-figment-of-his-imagination appears and whispers down his neck, revealing to the viewer that Antonio might have actually enjoyed the kiss. Lorenzo goes to school next morning excited to see what might happen. Blu goes with her mum to school, probably to explain to teachers why she understandably needs some time off. Antonio looks extra intense this morning, and the camera shot foreshadows something. The background music soon becomes intensely melodramatic, using a song by __ that always makes me want to cry, and this is when I understood that this film was not going to end so nicely.

The second that Antonio enters the room, Lorenzo gets up to greet him but Antonio takes a gun from his backpack and shoots him point blank. . . .

I just need a minute.

Blu and her mother hear the shot from the head master's office and someone reports that "a boy was killed at school", and Blu's face looks like her worst fears might have come true.

Next, a funeral sequence. From the beginning of the film, the voiceover of Blu writing letters to herself are to make sure that this story is told, and the ending of the film makes it clear that she started writing these bits after Lorenzo's death. It doesn't mention what happened to Antonio...maybe he killed himself as well shortly after, or he went to jail for murder...Did the school learn anything? Did his death teach anyone a lesson about the effects of homophobia and bullying? The worst part about this ending is that it's not entirely unrealistic, what happens to Blu and Lorenzo, and that is the most disheartening thing. Blu concludes that if they had just behaved just a little differently, this could have been avoided. If they had been less afraid, if they were better, stronger, that it wouldn't have taken much.

They cut back to the scene in the lake, and instead of Antonio storming off, he explains to Lorenzo that "it's not something I want. Not now at least." Lorenzo then asks, "What now?", and they all run off into the lake and have a good time like they had planned.

AND THIS IS WHERE THE MOVIE SHOULD HAVE ENDED UP.

This movie is teen angst, friendship goals, catwalk montages, daydream sequences, kitschy matching outfits, shitty school moments, and fucking heart-stopping in the finale. The most unrealistic thing is perhaps how Lorenzo, being an openly gay adopted teen in Italy, where I imagine the culture of homophobia is pretty strong in its outskirts, can still manage to be the bright shining star that he is. Bursting with confidence, he doesn't give a shit about what anyone thinks of him, and that is what makes his character the most adored. Similarly, Blu is his partner in crime as they defy societal expectations of what they ought to be. Antonio, on the other hand, was probably a lonely butterfly who could never talk to anyone about his feelings. All he had was an image of his brother to converse to, and we can see how his internalised homophobia could manifest so terribly.

Apparently, the movie was based on real-life events of a school in America from 2008, and the beautiful Mika (the singer that my dog is named after) released a single with the film called "Hurts", documenting the strength of words and how much hate speech can affect vulnerable people.

I give this movie 4 stars. 1 for Lorenzo, 1 for morality lessons against hate-crime and bullying, as well outlining the potential neglect that parents and teachers have for the young people around them, 1 for showing the extreme effects of internalised homophobia because it's a very important topic to be discussed, and 1 for all the realness/unrealness that pops in and out of the movie in honest twee fashion.

While this film appears at first as a very classic coming-of-age film, we understand that the message of the film is very dark. On reading articles about it, suppose all the mainstream gay pride references of being proud of who you are, glamorise and simplify the emotional ease in which it takes to evade the retaliation of society and culture when you go against the norm. Even when people have accepted themselves for who they are, it by no means makes it easier. And that the things you might have easily accepted, might have actually been horrific acts of abuse that have been so normalised, you didn't even realise it was wrong. Or how it just takes one kiss to unlock the crippling fragility of a vulnerable teen to murder his friend. SIDENOTES: There are so many little tidbits that make this movie so delightful. I recommend watching it. 

On the recent light of US gun laws, this movie is particularly jarring.  Valentina Romani plays a queer teen in the Italian version of NBC’s Parenthood called Tutto può succedere, which is a pretty strong performance and pretty much the reason why I wanted to watch this movie. 

[nzeldahime]

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Tagged by @gummicows <3 thanks boo (tbh I wish I could tag you back, I’d like to know your answers to my new questions lol)

questions:

1) What’s the weirdest nickname people have given you? Probably Satan/Hades cuz they are what they are lol but I didn’t mind; oh and also Care Bear which is just weird altogether 2) How did you get your url? Well all of my social media accounts have this username so I kinda just kept it, the extra n for ‘nikki’ and I love LoZ 3) What’s the weather like outside? Well it’s nighttime rn so it’s really cold and probably still sprinkling since it’s been raining like all day  4) Favorite band? Favorite album of theirs? I have several favorite bands but I’ll just stick with my top 2, Green Day and One Direction. For GD my favorite album has to be the first one of theirs I ever got, which was 21st Century Breakdown in like, 6th or 7th grade from one of my very good friends, I honestly think it’s their best album. For 1D, gosh idk I can’t pick a favorite since Made in the AM is really good but also I have a special connection with both Four and Midnight Memories; I guess I’d pick Midnight Memories cuz a lot of my favorite songs come from that album. 5) How did you meet your best friend? Which one lol I guess I’ll do all of them. So i’ve got three; the one I’ve had the longest is my friend who I met in the 9th grade, we met in JROTC if I’m not mistaken. My middle bestie, Becca, I met her in Spanish class my sophomore year (whoops can’t believe I can’t remember if it was 10th or 11th), we both were really shy and found ourselves only talking to each other because we sat next to each other and refused to move or socialize lmao. My most recent best friend I’ve also known since 10th but we didn’t get super close until we were juniors (hence why I said most recent), we met in a biology classroom cuz we would always hang out there after school waiting out the crowds and we didn’t have a lot of friends so we hung out with that teacher lol. 6) Do you have a calendar on the wall? What’s this months photo? I do have my own calendar and it’s full of baby animals :D this month’s happens to be a little elephant walking through a desert  7) Favorite fruit? Dang this is kinda hard, I like lots of em. I guess I’d have to say cantaloupe or watermelon tho, cuz tbh I could eat a whole one by myself in one sitting (which i’ve probably done before lmao) 8) Ever been to a national park (or equivalent in your country)? did you like it? I think I’ve been to a few actually, the Grand Canyon, Joshua Tree and I’ve passed through San Bernardino forest before. Of course I liked it, seeing so much area of pure nature that hasn’t been tampered with is breathtaking; especially the Grand Canyon, every distant view looked like a postcard, I couldn’t get over the unrealistic beauty that I saw before me. 9) Is your desk clean or a royal mess? Honestly it’s a huge mess but for me it isn’t a problem cuz I know where things are at, they just aren’t organized very cleanly   10) Do you like wearing hats? Yahh I have a few snapbacks and like a million and one beanies haha 11) Has any of the fandoms you have been in disgusted you? I’ve been on tumblr for too long that nothing has really disgusted me. Seriously.  12) If you wanted to change your url, what would it be? I can honestly say that I haven’t wanted to change my url but now that I think about it, I’d probably throw in a youtuber reference lmao   13) Do you have any hobbies? Well I dabble in the writings sometimes otherwise usually just YouTube, tumblr, and listening to music are my well known habits  14) How socially awkward are you (stories anyone ;D)? Very much so that I’m uncomfortable talking to other people unless I’ve been friends with them for awhile. I can’t think of a story off the top of my head but tbh I’m sure there are many a times I’ve been. Oh god ask me about the time I entered a cosplay contest as the Fnaf Marionette, it’s hilariously embarrassing 15) Do you have a musical preference? Not precisely considering my fav bands are Green Day and 1D lmao but I’d prefer not to listen to country   16) Are there any books that hold a special place in your heart? There is this adorable graphic novel called Smile by Raina Telgemier that I love so much cuz it’s about the author’s crazy journey from middle school to high school with dental drama, I like to relate to it since I’ve had braces, rubber bands, and even headgear lol I also can never get over The Fault in Our Stars, it’s one of my favorite books, and my favorite book series is The Wolves of Mercy Falls by Maggie Stiefvater, it has a brilliant concept  17) Any movies you’d recommend? Recently we watched this sorta indie fantasy movie called The Monster Calls and it has an interesting story with some cute animations (it isn’t animated tho). A more mainstream movie I’d recommend is Fantastic Beasts, it was, fantastic, sorry I had to lol and also Moana , it’s sooooooo amazing  18) What is a phrase you commonly use? ”Rip me” I also have the language of a pure Californian so I say ‘like’ almost a hundred times in one sentence and I call basically everybody ‘dude.’  19) What is the first thing you notice when you see someone? Usually their teeth. That’s weird, I know lol or sometimes their hair 20) Have you ever fainted or passed out before? I don’t think so. I thought I was gonna pass out after I ran the mile once but I ended up throwing up instead.

my 10 q’s:

1) What’s your favorite song? 2) If your walls are painted, what color are they? 3) Do you have any pets? What are they? Names? 4) Right or left handed?  5) Do you play video games? If so, what is your favorite one? 6) What is you current wallpaper (as in phone or computer)? 7) Do you have a daily ritual that is somewhat unusual? 8) What is the current time? 9) What’s your star sign and do you identify with it? 10) If you could have one of those deep conversations with anyone in the world, living or dead, who would it be?

So i’m gonna tag a few of my lovelies like @alphawolfspider @micahkors @myneighborkelsey @dxmn-lourry @sempiternalguess @ricegoddesshanayo and really anyone who wants to do it lol, hope you’ll be up to the challenge, really looking forward to the answers c: 

[waxandwanemusic]

Primer #7 - Guided By Voices

The Primer is our column wherein contributors compile a 60 minute playlist of a band near and dear to their heart. Using personal listening anecdotes, notes about specific tracks and a brief overview of each artist, The Primer is both a way for our contributors to trace their musical genealogy and for our readers to gain a new perspective on an artist they may have missed or dismissed.

Installment seven of the Primer series features drummer extraordinaire Joel Kuiper preaching the Gospel of Dayton, Ohio's Guided By Voices.

Be sure to listen to the one hour podcast episode we recorded with Joel about his Guided By Voices Primer.

It must have been early in the summer of 1994 when I first heard about Guided By Voices (Dayton, OH). The source was the now long defunct Grand Rapids area zine "Slak" Magazine. One of it's writers gushed on and on throughout the issue about the bands then new release, "Bee Thousand". He also gushed about seeing them on a side stage at Lollapalooza that year. He described the music as pop rock melodies that sound both timeless and fresh at the same time, and are at once both sophisticated and completely raw. The lead singer was a 4th grade teacher. That did it for me. 

On the occasion of my next trip to East Lansing record shop Flat, Black & Circular (a multi weekly event at this point in my life), I purchased a CD copy of "Bee Thousand". Listening as I drove home, I liked what I heard. The songs were poorly recorded, but had the sheer energy and enthusiasm to easily overcome any fidelity issues. Melody after melody poured effortlessly out of my Subaru wagon's speakers. I could hear The Beatles in there (Robert Pollard is the Blatz to John Lennon's Two Hearted Ale). I could hear R.E.M. in there. 

Even though there were similarities to what I had heard in the past, there was a freedom to this music I had never experienced before. And then came Track 9. "Gold Star For Robot Boy". I remember it clear as day. I was on Foster Street heading south towards Michigan Avenue.  Then Pollard sang - "If I waited for you to signify the moves that I should make - I'll be on the take - Gold Star For Robot Boy - well then that's OK". Genesis 1:1. The heavens opened. I heard it - and it was good. No - actually it was fucking great! 

This had only happened to me once before - when I was 9 years old and heard The Beatles for the first time. But the Beatles record had came from my Aunt Carole - this band was mine. And they still are. 

Guided By Voices are my favorite band. Robert Pollard is my favorite singer. He is my favorite songwriter too. He has written a few. Like over 2000. That is not a typo. And at least1000 of them are good! The fact that Pollard exists at all is the real story. As I mentioned - he was a 4th grade teacher for cryin' out loud. Making music in the basement with his buddies, having trouble getting gigs in his own hometown and releasing record after record of great songs that no one except the band and their families ever heard. (Sound familiar anyone :) ????) As a matter of fact, GBV was about to call it a day on the doorstep of its breakthrough way back in 1993 after a decent 7 year run. 

Then someone sent a tape to Cleveland. And then from Cleveland to NYC. The rest is history. GBV is not The Beatles. Pollard can't lounge in the French Riviera collecting paychecks. But he has carved out a great and lengthy career - which shows no sign of letting up - by doing things his own way and creating great music for himself - whether anyone actually heard it or not - which is endlessly inspiring to a lifelong musician like me. 

When Matty asked me to do this - he told me I had time for an hour long playlist. GBV has 23 proper records - and twice as many EP's and other assorted goodies. And I am not even going to touch Robert Pollard's solo records (He has over 20 of those too). Thousands of songs whittled down to these 26 standouts. Get ready to rock!

Listen to all 26 songs on Joel Kuiper's Guided By Voices Primer in the YouTube playlist below.

1. Over The Neptune/Mesh Gear Fox

Alright Rock N Roll! GBV! GBV! Is anybody ready to rock? This song does not rock. These very words are spoken as this track begins - and you'd better be ready to rock - cuz your gonna. From the arena rock swagger in the songs beginning, to the weird progish middle section through its melodic conclusion, "Over The Neptune/Mesh Gear Fox" is the archetype for what GBV is all about, fitting most of its many influences into just one song. No wonder it clocks in at over 5 minutes which qualifies as an magnum opus for these cats. And yes, the song does rock.

2. Your Name Is Wild

Truthfully I was sold by the title alone ( GBV has the best song titles), but the minute the song kicked in I was hooked by the uber hooky hook. Even though I can still barely figure out what he is singing - the melodies are brilliant and I can't stop mumbling along! 

3. When She Turns 50

Just Bob and an acoustic. Simple and clear recognition of one of the great voices and songwriters in the history of recorded music. And those lyrics...........sigh.....

4. Things I Will Keep

My favorite track from the Ric Ocasek produced Do The Collapse, which was GBV's attempt at major commercial success. Even though "Hold On Hope" and "Teenage FBI" are two of the bands most well known songs - both have been featured on TV shows and in Movies - the band never achieved the success they (or the record company) was hoping for with the release. It still holds up well however.

5. Hank's Little Fingers

Great title. Great execution. Great lyrics (Unless you've got the answers - don't patronize the mountain men". Great Chorus. Totally irresistible. Try and resist. I dare you.

6. Dodging Invisible Rays

As good as Pollard is - and he is that good - his main foil in the early classic years of GBV was one Tobin Sprout - who is himself good enough to shame most songwriters. Despite his thin voice, Sprout shines in all that he does with a gifted sense of melody and song craft as evidenced in this catchy number. He is worthy of his own separate career - and he has achieved just that. Sprout has released multiple impressive and acclaimed solo efforts. Without question Sprout should get his own highlight someday here at Wax & Wane. I'll start begging Matty now. Sprout is also an accomplished and successful painter - he had a gallery in Leland, MI for years and is renowned throughout the world in those art circle thingys.

7. Secret Star

 This was the tightest and most talented lineup GBV has had (so far). Sounding like something The Who could have recorded in the early 70's, the song is complex and compelling. The payoff at the end is sublime. "To wish for you to fall. To wish for you to burn. To wish for your return". 

8. Gold Star For Robot Boy

1:39 of pure bliss. The first time I ever heard it I listened to it 27 times in a row. 

9. If We Wait

One of my favorite Pollard vocals. What he does with the single word "anymore" alone is worthy of rock glory. A genius at work. In the basement.

10. Everyone Thinks I'm A Rain Cloud (When I'm Not Looking)

An easily overlooked (in GBV's massive catalog anyway) gem from the bands last record preceding its 10 year hiatus, which began in 2004. The band toys with the arrangement like the pro's they are and create plenty of magic to accompany Bob who never disappoints. Well almost never. For 90% of bands - this would be the best they have to offer. Its just another day in the office for the Wizard from Dayton.

11. Non-Absorbing

Oh. it's gonna absorb all right. "Do you see me dee dee dee deedeedeedee - Like I see you do do do dodododo" You'll never get it out of your heard again. Ever.

12. Atom Eyes

Tobin strikes again! See what I mean? His damn songs are soooooo good. This one is jangle pop heaven. "There's a million heartstrings ready to fly - let's pull them now" Pull away Sprout!

13. Planet Score

A song reminding us all to go to the record before they are "like the ghosts of Motown you just don't see them anymore" or "like the spectres of L.A. haunting the buildings of New York". One of the best tracks post the reunion of the classic lineup.

14. Indian Fables

This quick 43 second toss-off perfectly illustrates the simple musical magic that ensues when the golden throated Pollard easily whips up yet another charmer.

15. Fly Into Ashes

This is a B-Side on the "Hold On Hope" single. A better song, in my opinion. I can't believe it didn't make the record. GBV's throwaway's are most band's prime rib. Doug Gillard - wunderkind guitarist and musical foil for Pollard in GBV's second act - really shows his mettle here. That guitar solo really flies!

16. Dayton, Ohio 19 Something & Five

Nostalgia never sounded so good. We are not worthy.

17. Little Whirl

A delicious Tobin Sprout rave-up. You can't not like this. "I DON'T CARE! I DON'T CARE"

18. Girls Of Wild Strawberries

Gorgeous. Better than the fruit - but not better than Girls.

19. Echos Myron

Usually coupled with "Yours To Keep" (both are from the seminal Bee Thousand), "Echos Myron" has been a staple of GBV's legendary live shows (The Best live band in America for two decades now) -  and is guaranteed to have the whole house doing the pogo up and down from the first chord. "We're finally here - and shit yeah it's cool!" Bass Player/Lawyer/Wearer of the Striped Pants Greg Demos offers a great final argument as he shreds his way through the last part of the song as rock n roll nirvana is reached.

20. 158 Years Of Beautiful Sex

Sounds good to me. The song is great too. A drum machine never sounded so good. Notice how Pollard drops the bass out of the song at the :54 mark of the song and then brings it back in at 1:04. Are you fucking kidding me? No joke. "Loads of creamy music - and lots of time to make it". Indeed.

21. The Hard Way

In lesser hands this early standout could potentially be just another generic rocker - but when The Prince of Northridge (the Dayton neighborhood Pollard hails from) adds that damn voice of his - it's like when the color hits during The Wizard Of Oz.

22. Not Behind The Fighter Jet

The last song the classic lineup recorded before its 18 year hiatus (1996-2014). Love those keys at the end. Glad it didn't end!

23. Universal Truths & Cycles

The title track of "Universal Truths and Cycles" is a slinky number with a great chorus (aren't they all?) with some standout bass work by Todd Tobias. "And the lost hierarchy of land - and land owners - and down will go back up forever more - I must try to believe this". I believe! Hallelujah I believe!

24. The Other Place

 First song. First record. First classic. Pollard shows us from the very first seconds that he is a force to be reckoned with. Already 30 years old, it is not dated at all and seems even more fresh today than it must have in Dayton in the mid 80's. The first of many Pollard songs that R.E.M. wish they had written. Again - those damn vocals. Sweet lord.

25. Game Of Pricks

Maybe GBV's finest hour. A tale of the death of a relationship that is so damn catchy that the CDC is still working on an antidote some 20 plus years after this rock n roll virus was unleashed. "I climb up on the house - weep to water the trees - and when you come calling me down I put on my disease". Take that Dylan. The band would re-record this for the Tigerbomb EP. While it was recorded better - and had some nice new guitar parts - the original version cannot be matched. This song is so good it inspired at least one book (Perfect From Now On) and just may be the most played song in my personal collection. 

26. The Ascended Master's Grogshop

Sure the title is weird - but the song's melody is devastating. A melancholy masterpiece - that's less than a minute long. Sigh with me.

Joel Kuiper owns and operates a non-emergency medical transport service called Outpatient Express. He also plays drums in The Stick Arounds, Scary Women and Icey-Dicey.