#constel vent

[tavs-kin-korner]

hiii it’s Poewk again! this is very specific, but uh. I need advice here

so my source has this specific mechanic of. uh. I don’t know how to describe it, but monster variants? rares and epics respectively. the former became a thing a few months ago unexpectedly for the Wublins; the excitement over it bringing us more interesting insight into my favs lead to this constel coming to be. the latter is very likely if not definite due to this and I’ve been drawing and concepting hypotheticals of that because I did Not like the idea of that at first (it’s complicated, it’s more to do with concern of reactions than the existence of them) but I enjoy it now

thing is I can’t manage to concept a hypothetical epic or anything of Poewk because that’s me and it always feels wrong to, but projecting myself onto the concept would feel like overkill? no matter what, it feels wrong (I’m probably somewhat canon-divergent though) to me when following headcanon and wrong if I try to think of it for myself as an individual

and then there’s the worry for the Actual one? probably not going to be a thing for a long while and I don’t know how long this constel is to last but I hope it doesn’t make me. feel wrong if that makes any sense. how could I cope with that (canon information that doesn’t feel right for the way you personally experience your type) if it does

thank you in advance

~ Poewk ⚡️🪶

hELLO AGAIN, pOEWK! i'M SO SORRY YOU'RE FEELING THIS WAY RIGHT NOW! D:{

i DO BELIEVE i'VE HAD SOME EXPERIENCES LIKE THIS, wHERE SOMETHING NEW HAPPENS IN MEDIA AND IT DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT,,, iT DOES GIVE ME A WEIRD FEELING WHEN i SEE OR HEAR ABOUT IT, bUT i JUST TRY TO IGNORE IT AND GO WITH WHAT i FEEL IS RIGHT, iF THAT MAKES SENSE? lIKE, i JUST BELIEVE WHAT i FEEL HAS HAPPENED TO ME OR ANYTHING CONCERNING MY MEMORIES, i TRY NOT TO GET INVOLVED WITH THAT BIT OF CANON/TALK ABOUT IT, sPEAKING AS SOMEONE WHO HAS SOME MEMORIES THAT ARE VERY DIFFERENT FROM WHAT IS CANON, hAHA,

i DON'T HAVE MUCH ADVICE, bUT i CAN TELL YOU THAT YOU SHOULD GO WITH WHAT FEELS REAL TO YOU, aND AVOID INFORMATION THAT DOESN'T FEEL APPLICABLE TO YOU, iF THAT MAKES SENSE,

i HOPE THIS HELPED AT LEAST A LITTLE BIT! rEMEMBER YOU ARE ALWAYS ALLOWED TO HAVE YOUR OWN OPINIONS AND HEADCANONS, mEMORIES ARE ALWAYS VALID, aS WELL! i JUST WISH i COULD HELP YOU A BIT MORE! sENDING LOTS OF LOVE AND SUPPORT! <3 /P

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[Hello again, Poewk! I'm so sorry you're feeling this way right now!]

[I do believe I've had some experiences like this, where something new happens in media and it doesn't feel right... It does give me a weird feeling when I see or hear about it, but I just try to ignore it and fo with what I feel is right, if that makes sense? Like, I just believe what I feel has happened to me or anything concerning my memories. I try not to get involved with that bit of canon/talk about it, speaking as someone who has some memories that are very different from what is canon, haha.]

[I don't have much advice, but I can tell you that you should go with what feels real to you, and avoid information that doesn't feel applicable to you, if that makes sense.]

[I hope this helped at least a little bit! Remember you are always allowed to have your own opinions and headcanons. Memories are always valid, as well! I just wish I could help you a bit more! Sendinf lots of love and support! /p]

[julesart04]

[neuroticboyfriend]

i hate how docs will run a few tests and be like yeah idk what it is go to this specialist who will run tests and not know what it is either

[weekdaysend]

Mech’s can’t handle the severe cold. They don’t feel it like we do, but it causes their joints and systems to lock up, and they up getting frostbite. LB-314 isn’t affected by this as much due to her built-in heating system. Thus, she is subjected to mandatory recharge time (as a personal fireplace) ♥️

[spacestationsystem]

im not gonna get too into it but the trauma that made us multiple is mostly from school. for context.

ever since school came back ive been dissociating to hell and the bad thoughts keep circling. we've become more blurry and gooey in here and i dont know where half of the non-fragment alters have gone and the fragments never front. its just me, the little, a bit of rotary and whoever the fuck takes over when i dissociate to hell. its different every time but theyre always strange and uncanny and dark. maybe a sidesystem idont.know

its lonely. im lonely. i want this to stop and i want to have the few barriers we had before back

[dysfunctionaldogdude]

They're trying to speak but it's giving me a headache and the static/ringing is kinda drowning everything in my head out

[soul-doll2005]

I wished I could live with the stars, instead of living on earth

[tedthetalk]

Hey everyone who’s constantly like UHG I don’t want to go to this socializing thing I want to stay in and be alone hashtag introvert you guys do know you can’t raise a child like that right. I know just by statistics that some of you are having kids and you know that raising a child with that kind of mindset is going to fuck up their development right. Even if they agree with you you know that letting them just sit in their room watching stuff for days on end is bad for them. Right.

[alterhuman-shenanigans]

Feeling a bit down, like... I am just a kitty! Meant for kitty things! No uni work, just naps and basking in sunlight </3

[stellar-constellations]

Important announcement

Stuff is highlighted pink to remind people that this is my opinion, and I'm not the voice for every writer out there, so don't freak out or anything; and don't spam hate for MY opinion.

I do feel like I need to address this, but I don't accept requests that have already been done by other people. I follow tags and see the same exact requests, copied and pasted, onto other blogs and I personally just feel that it's a little disrespectful to send a request to multiple different people for the same exact thing. I could just be sensitive, but I feel like there's no point writing it if it's already been done.

I understand the requestors could potentially be looking for different takes of the request, or they could just be spamming any account looking for anyone to take their request and complete it. I'm someone who writes for myself, and I like the requests and ideas my followers give me because they're special, unique, and not like any other requests; is what I wish for it to be like.

With the exact same requests and ideas circling around, it just feels like your writing is a bit downgraded. That anyone can do better; which I'm not saying I'm the best, but I like having my work acknowledged since I take the time out of my day to complete them. It feels like your work gets placed on the back burner of other writings pertaining the same exact request or very similar to. It just feels competitive; I'm not here for first prize or fame.

Everyone writes unique. I'm not saying that all zombie AU's are all the same requests with the same ideas and such; there's different executions and many different ideas that can turn that into your own special writing. I'm saying that the exact same requests like "Short woman with purple hair and yellow eyes meets (so-so) in a coffee shop and they get each others number and hang out at Hot Topic" (I just made that up at the top of my head, I'm not trying to target anyone); then seeing that exact request, word from word, on five other blogs, just feels like you wasted your time.

Perhaps I'm just asking too much considering this is the internet, people are going to do what they want. And I kind of see myself as being a bitch saying this because I KNOW I take forever to write, I know my writing is really long in word count and in posting, that I have no posting schedule or anything. I'm sorry for that, I really do wish I had more time in the day to focus on my hobbies and this blog; but you can't just ask to stop time and expect it to happen, now can you?

I understand you can become impatient with me, or change your mind about me writing; in that case, please just pop in my messages or inbox as an anon and say you want the request cancelled. You don't have to tell me that you're impatient or that you want someone else to do it; I won't shame you for it.

Thank you for reading. Let this be a reminder that I don't accept requests others have done. Remember, this is just my opinion and views on such topics. We don't live long enough to listen to bullshit or hate in the comments, so I'll just ignore your comment or delete it if someone is being rude because it's MY opinion, not yours. If you don't like my opinion, scroll.

This was also posted under my rules masterlist as a reminder.

[lesboylycan]

that moment when the npd hits but nobody is there to tell you you're perfect or that they've been waiting to confess their undying love to you for so long and they just can't wait anymore or to treat you like a god or to tell you that everything you do is justified and reasonable (and that the things that aren't are actually fine and cool because you did them) or to give you endless love and attention or that you're always right about everything or that the people who hate you are all lesser in some way so their opinions don't matter

(or to make you feel safe. to make you feel wanted. to make sure you know you don't have to keep tearing into your own heart and lungs for that one sort-of-cringey thing you did a decade ago. to be trustworthy. to let you be vulnerable without breaking that trust. to hold you and tell you that it's okay things are hard, you're allowed to need help from time to time, it doesn't mean you're any less worthy as a person. to tell you they believe you. to tell you that other people's thoughts on what you're allowed to be don't mean much in the face of your personal experience, regardless of whether or not they're "lesser". to let you sleep easy knowing you have a place here without having to shove everybody else aside to make that place.)

[sunny-reis]

sparkle didn't come home boys it's time to kms!

[4rtsymugzzz]

That feeling you get when the song you listened to at your lowest starts playing and you get that bad nostalgia wash over you

[andytheconstelation]

Bittersweet tenderness

Written on the 11th of December 2023

Damned be the mere instants of starshine blooming eyes,

Damned be the evanescent veil of hope, withering away;

For it's an offence aimed at reality, to venture upon it's limits;

For the woe of desillusion is only made harder by it's wrath;

Damned be the sweet moments in time, rare as they might've been

Seeing as a spark is enough for a starved heart to light a forest fire;

And what can candle defenses accomplish faced with passion flames?

It's blinding lights twisting the vision, seeing fragile wire as solid bond

Oh lingering esperance how I curse you

-AD

[empyrangel]

Of course my psychiatrist is pushing back against me wanting to stop my meds. It doesn’t matter that they’re the lowest possible dose (and I’m not actually even taking them) and it’s my decision to make.

It’s always “oh you’re so thoughtful and self aware about your mental and emotional state” until I say something they disagree with or exercise my bodily autonomy then it’s “I actually know you and what’s best for you better than you do”

[spacestationsystem]

ggod i am so fucked up. dissociation is hell. i cant tell if that was a diff alter or if i was just so dissociated. fuck fuck fuuck. i miss actually switching but since school started my headmates havent been around as much and im just. h