#complicating asexuality
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I'm going to say it again
Cis Heteromantic Asexuals are Queer.
Cis Aromantic Heterosexuals are Queer.
If you are Ace or Aro you do not need another signifier to be Queer full stop.
#Ace#Aro#Asexual#Aromantic#I don't post often but I saw discourse on my dash again#Romance and sexuality are a complicated spectrum so please just shut up and let people be#additional tag that i didnt realize i needed to add about an ace aro post#terfs DNI#this a trans safe space#as i am trans#so go away
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the madness frustration loneliness of the dissonance of a mismatch of the rotten heart to the rest
allosexual aromantic swag happy pride *peaces out*
#my art#alloaro#aromantism#happy pride#my animation#if this isnt fucking obvious is a personal post about MY EXPERIENCES#i love being aro more than any other part of my identity tbh but bro#this shit is crazy wack when you dont got the asexuality to match it made me into a fucking specimen#and i love picking apart my own brain#also bi aro ppl are so crazy rare and for what. i dont get why allo aro ppl are so rare. WHY ARE WE SO RARE? WHY.#like the opposite many more alloro ace ppl exist than split attraction ppl of my flavor and thats Wack. its wack. i dont get it.#its not like its complicated (okay maybe it is but also it isnt its simple to Me) so whats the populations problem.#gif#anyways. i wanted to animate this personal piece bc im a fucking weirdo i guess
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ok but hear me out. how fun and crazy would it actually be if we talked about asexuality as a spectrum more?
consider this? aces who like sex but don't like being touched themselves? aces liking and getting off on pain stimulation but not pleasure stimulation? Aces who don't like getting off but like sex? Aces who use a one to ten scale to gauge sexual ability but never fully make it to ten. Aces who are happy at a level seven, or four, or two. Aces who like some aspects of sex but not all. Aces who get bored in the middle of sex and stop. Aces who are super into over the clothes stimulation. Aces with boundaries.
#dreamy sigh#that is all#im just a stone ace trenchcoat gender agent#and i really love being ace#i really love my relationship to sex#i really love my disinterest with sex#i love all the complicated fluctuation of emotion that it brings#i love pain#i love pain as a means to pleasure#i love kink even when i don't like sex#i just felt like talking about this#i love the flag so much and i love how i fit into it#asexuality#vent post
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aro/ace themed valentine's day teddy bears ^^ because i just recently found out i might be arospec but also just cuz like..... why not
#this may be out of character for me because just a few weeks ago i strongly disliked valentine's day lmao#now that i know im probably some kinda flavor of aro? i.. dunno how to feel#how i feel about the holiday is complicated#while i still dont like the romantic aspect of it.. at least i dont find myself rolling my eyes at valentine's themed stuff as much anymore#idk maybe i'll go back to disliking the holiday next year who knows lol#i guess its just the catharsis i suppose..#aromantic#asexual#aroace#aspec#arospec#lgbtq#valentine's day#valentine's#teddy bear#digital art#art#toby draws things
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“Do you like girls?”
“I don’t know.”
“Do you like boys?”
“I don’t know. I think I like TV shows.”
I remember when I was in middle school all the other girls were talking about the guys they liked and I said I didn’t like anyone. I just wanted to do my own thing.
I didn’t really get why I would want to date anyone. I understood friendship, companionship— having someone to share my interests and mutually info dump to sounded cool— but I struggled to understand the appeal of spending every day and every night with someone else. Of holding hands and going on dates.
This led to a lot of homophobic bullying and a few of them would act disgusted that I might be into them. Constantly acting like I was looking at their boobs and sexualizing them (I never made eye contact with anyone and would frequently look at the wall or space out while looking in their general direction). Or make a big show of not being interested and many other things.
I didn’t get this either. I didn’t know why I would be interested in any of them. They treated me poorly and I thought attraction was something people made up and simply just claimed to feel towards other people.
Just like I never understood celebrity crushes. You don’t know the person so how could you possibly know you liked them? And I never understood how people “chose” who they dated. Did they just choose whoever they liked hanging out with the most?
But any time I voiced this it was always met with worse and worse reactions. It led to isolation among peers and my family. My parents made it pretty clear I wasn’t who they wanted me to be. That I wasn’t normal.
I soon learned to fake it. Pretend I understood it.
The idea of not being attracted to anyone seemed like a foreign idea to most people I met. Even when I branched out and moved away, I met a few people in the lgbt community who couldn’t grasp it either and reacted poorly and it made me feel stupid. Like maybe I wasn’t just screwed up to people who fit in the neat little box society wants you to fit in, but to everyone else as well.
Maybe I was wrong. If it’s an impossibility even in this community that champions diversity and acceptance then can that really be my reality?
I kept trying to force it. To date, but every time I did I always felt that same skin crawling discomfort and it always petered out. It didn’t matter who it was or what gender. It always felt wrong. It was suffocating.
I don’t think there’s a movie that better portrays that all consuming, suffocating stagnation of feeling so out of place– knowing you’re out of place compared to those around you– and in response forcing yourself to fit what other people expect of you than I Saw the TV Glow.
Whenever I think back to growing up or whenever I return home that same feeling this movie is centered around always drenches my experiences.
And even now it’s hard to put into words when I talk to other people what I’ve felt when it comes to this aspect of my life.
That comment from Owen about knowing there’s nothing there when talking about romance and attraction, but being too afraid to look and knowing that his parents know something is wrong with him hit harder than any other scene from a movie I’ve watched this year.
It’s that absence of something that is at the heart of asexuality that makes me always question what I choose to identify as when I have to explain it to someone. Because for the most part my explanation boils down to (in broad oversimplified terms): I’ve never felt attraction, I’m more interested in watching a Spider-Man movie than I’ve ever been into even just the idea of dating, every time I’ve attempted to date it’s been uncomfortable and I’ve actively dodged anything beyond friendship while in the “relationship”.
And when I try to voice that to another person it always feels like those experiences don’t hold water. That’s describing the absence of something. There’s no real proof of the identity.
With being bi or gay or lesbian there’s something you can I don’t know—point to?— that can help you know your identity.
And that’s the fact that you’ve experienced attraction towards one or more people of one or more genders.
It’s defined not by the lack of something but the presence of an experience.
And so every time I try and explain it I end up feeling stupid. Like I just haven’t tried hard enough to find someone compatible. That I need to get back into the proverbial saddle and try again. I always in some way feel ashamed and backtrack as a result.
This is in no way to say that it’s harder or easier to be one identity or the another. Everyone’s experiences are different and everyone experiences are valid. This is just a struggle I’ve found that’s unique to asexuality that many people I’ve talked to have also experienced.
I haven’t felt that part of my experience be seen in media until I saw this movie. Maybe I’m latching onto what I can get or maybe that was an intrinsic part of the movie. That’s not important. What’s important is that it’s something I felt seen in even if it was literally just one scene.
This is my really long winded and roundabout way of saying that I really think this movie is going to stick with me much longer than any other thing I’ve seen this year.
Things can be hard to put into words and as a result I tend to keep things inside. I’m fairly certain I’m ace but it might turn out I’m on a different romantic spectrum then I thought or I fall somewhere different than I thought on the ace spectrum. I don’t know what I’ll discover in the future.
I’m likely not going to express my label out loud to anyone but a select few. I still can’t express this particular label out loud to many people. My family is definitely never going to hear it. A friend or two might.
It’s something I struggle with on a regular basis. I’m fine with identifying with the label in my head—in a lot of ways it makes me feel comfortable and happy— but any time I try to voice it the words die in my throat and I can’t help but feel ashamed. It’s easier to just tell people I don’t want to date right now. That there are all these factors in the way (finances, time, jobs, etc) than it is to try and explain what I’ve just rambled about above.
I know many people have felt and understood that experience and I hope people know they’re valid. You can express your identity with your full chest, shout it from the rooftops and let people know, or you can keep it to yourself, identifying as your label solely in your head. Both experiences are valid. And if your label changes at some point in your life that doesn’t make what you chose to identify as at this point any less valid too. People are always learning and growing. You can gain a new understanding of yourself as time move forward.
Sorry for the way too long ramble. This movie made me feel things.
#i saw the tv glow#a24#aroace#asexuality#asexual#ace experience#this is my overly long#thoughts on my own experiences#and how labels can shift#and that your experiences#aren’t more or less valid#if you choose to say it out loud#or identify as it solely in your head#life’s complicated
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yes, i am aroace. yes, that person is hot. no, i did not mean that platonically
#i’m aroace not blind#my relationship with romantic attraction is relatively complicated so i suppose it’s understandable to not really Get It#but most of the time when i say stuff like that i really do mean it#and i do not meant the Platonic Version#that being said if it’s a sex joke or something along those lines then i’m probably not being serious#mxpotatoposts#aromantic#asexual#aroace#a-spec#ace pride#acespec
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it's asexual awareness week. be aware of me
#filenametxtpost#aegosexual#im also bisexual but like. only for fictional characters so it doesn't really matter in the real world#i use aroace to describe myself but it is actually much more complicated than that#asexual
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I was thinking of a good way to use up the materials I had left over from my ace bag and so I made a (really shoddy, pls don't touch lol) pillow case. The actual pillow case is made from my leftover purple velvet (which was such a bitch to sew -.-) with the crochet part on top. Oh, and this is the first time I did the virus pattern in a square...looks alright for a first attempt, I think.
#i'm aware that it's ironic for me to post this looking at my complicated relationship to aceness but... /shrugs#and i really like the colour scheme so whatever#crochet#crocheting#yarn crafts#yarn art#crochetblr#asexual#asexuality#aspec#acespec#asexual artist#asexual pride
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why do allos insist on viewing relationships in the most boring ways imaginable
#aromantic#aro#ace#asexual#aroace#aspec#boring AND one dimensional#yes i know this doesn’t apply to all of y’all.. chill 😭#this is about the allo insistence of categorising relationships and behaviours into a platonic/romantic/sexual binary without any room for a#nuanced understanding of intimacy and picking what that means for you depending on ur own relationships. im so tired of it lol#like some of y’all will look at a complicated relationship that defies clear labels and immediately try to force it into a box without#hesitation. and it concerns me#literally begging u to open ur mind. you’ll be so free#mossy posts
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(Sorry if this sounds mean) If you’re ace why are you looking for mind control erotica? This isn’t a bad faith question, as someone who’s aro but not ace I’m genuinely curious. Maybe expounding on it would help your followers point you at new things?
Also have you read Human Domestication Guide? It’s very mind controlly, though it does have pet stuff if you hate that or whatever.
Short answer: it's complicated.
So to answer in reverse order: I have read some HDG stories: not enough to remember what I read, but in general I like them. And petplay doesn't bother me. So I'll probably read more in future, it's just that it never triggered that "I should read all of this!" urge in me. Which isn't an indicator of how much I like it/the quality of it, that's just a thing that sometimes happens to my brain.
As for why I'm reading mind control erotica despite being asexual... It's complicated (as you might guess).
Basically I'm asexual in the "not attracted to men or women (or anything else/between)" sense. I don't experience sexual attraction, at all.
But that's only one part of sexuality. It may be the primary part for allosexuals, but it obviously can't be for me. I'm still interested in some sexual things, and I'm interested in them for sexual reasons, but it's just that those reasons are never "this person is hot" or "this sex is hot".
Like, not to give a complete listing of my kinks or anything, consider basic rope bondage as a fetish. You could look at the fetish from multiple angles:
It's sexy getting tied up, because of the physical sensation of being tied up.
It's sexy to be tied up, because you don't have control.
It's sexy to tie someone up, because of how they look tied up.
It's sexy to have someone tied up, because you have control and they don't.
It's sexy to have sex while tied up, because you can't resist it (in the scene. This is fantasy, there are safewords)
It's sexy to fuck someone tied up, because they can't resist (in the scene, fantasy, safewords)
And then in fiction you can do the last two minus the watsonian-bdsm: it's not a scene. (I won't discuss this further because discourse)
Only 5 and 6 really need sex itself to be a part of it. You can have the eroticism of bondage and no one has sex, or needs to be attracted to anybody.
I don't have a huge amount of experience here, but from what I've heard this isn't that uncommon in the bdsm community: there's plenty of people who show up at bdsm events solely for "non-sexual" tying/getting tied.
Anyway, once you understand that you can have a kink (even one that seems sexual) for reasons other than sexual attraction/sex* itself, you can probably see why an asexual person might still want to read about it.
Also there's elements of, like, exploration of personal impossibilities? As jms said:
So I cannot forgive. Which makes the notion of writing a character who CAN forgive momentarily attractive...because it allows me to explore in great detail something of which I am utterly incapable. I cannot fly, so I would write of birds and starships and kites; I cannot play an instrument, so I would write of composers and dancers; and I cannot forgive, so I would write of priests and monks and Minbari...
It can be interesting reading stories of people doing things you can't for reasons you never experience, obeying urges you don't have.
* "sex" is also a difficult thing to define, because especially in BDSM terms it gets very fuzzy. What things count as sex? Generally when I say like "they're spending too much time on the sex" or "the mind control is just an excuse to get to the sex", I'm defining sex as something like "some kind of insertion/licking/vibrating for sexual purposes", when many allosexuals (especially, uhh... What's the word for non-bdsm people? Them) would define it more narrowly, and many BDSM kinksters would define it more widely, including a lot of the things I'm not here: I've heard people call getting tied up or impact play as sex, for example.
Anyway you'd think this sort of perspective I've got on erotic fiction, where I'm here for the non-sex sexual fetish things, would be more common? After all, I'm talking about literature here. I tend to associate the allosexual attraction urge as a visual thing: this person looks sexy, so you experience sexual attraction towards them.
I can see how that'd work if you're talking about visual mediums: movies and photos of real people, even drawn images, but this is just words. I guess maybe people without aphantasia can imagine how someone looks from their description, and can experience some attraction based on that? I don't know. I've never really experienced attraction to written characters, so I can't say how it works. Feel free to enlighten me, anyone who does.
But you can definitely tell reading erotica which stories are "this is a sexy story because it has sexy people in it doing sexy things (sometimes kinkily)" and which are "this kink is the primary focus: any sex they have is in service of the kink, or is just a momentary distraction from the kink". I prefer the latter, by far.
Anyways, I think maybe I'm giving everyone a slightly misleading impression of how much I'm into mind control. It's more that I've found a few stories that actually were interesting to me for a couple reasons (first person submissive perspective, rules-based mind control, some worldbuilding) and then I've been looking for other stories that explore the same ideas as well (or better: the particular ones I liked had a little too much bimboification focus for me, which isn't one of my kinks) and failing. Thus I complain a lot about not being able to find the sort of stories I want.
Which, you know, makes sense? I'm an asexual reading through porn. Despite my explanation in this post, this is still not a great fit for me, so of course I'm disappointed. It'd be like if I was scrolling through a football site and not liking football, complaining about how much sports focus this site has. It's a little silly, you know?
But I'm a lot silly, so I continue.
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btw please block me if you feel the need to gatekeep the queer community. cishet aspecs ARE valid and they ARE queer. the "they don't experience discrimination" argument is possibly the most stupid thing i have ever heard because aspecs experience insane levels discrimination and people are extremely dismissive of them. we our more than our suffering. our community is not yours to gatekeep it isn't fair to invalidate people's queer identities just because you can't fit them in your stupid little box of specific labels.
#like cmon guys its 2024 stop gatekeeping the community we are trying to make people feel SAFE but people are feeling the exact opposite#also like people are perfectly okay (as they should be ofc) with complicated gender identities but when someone's sexuality is complicated?#when someone's sexuality doesnt fit into a specific label or their idea of what queerness 'is'??#people brush it under the rug and dismiss it because its 'uncomfortable' but fuck that actually people can be as complicated as they want#as someone currently questioning whether im aspec this debate is killing me why do people make it so impossible to just let people live#luc posts#queer#aspec#aromantic#asexual#aroace#lgbtq#luc rants
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O.M.G. THEY‘RE ON THE SAME COVER ART???? AND THEY‘RE MATCHING??? This MUST mean the next album will feature both bands guys TRUST—
close up/no colouring versions :p
sneak peak:
The very obviously disguised as Interviewer-Paparazzi comes closer and closer towards him, „Please, just one question!“ Dream rolls his eye „I‘m not supposed to speak with strangers… But alright! I‘ll bite! What‘s your question?“ the ‚interviewer‘ gets out a notepad and pen, the moment dragging on into annoyingly endless territory, then comes the question; „Do you have a father?“ The room goes quiet is an understatement.
Rock band + Rock Band!Killer by @zu-is-here
Rock band Dream (idea? + partially design) by @help-im-a-gay-fish
art and other details/changes on designs by me!
#my artsies#rock band#rock band au#this was FUN#also sorry Zuz and Gayfish I spiced and changed their designs 😔 Dream‘s was too complicated Killer‘s too plain#i‘m a simple person; if it‘s too hard or too plain I change it to my liking LOL#but I tried keeping them as close to the original as possible! Even if. they‘re sort of now inside my head as a seperate story entirely#dream!sans#dream sans#killer!sans#killer sans#fallen stars#bad sanses#(meh sorta)#(mentioned)#non binary#asexual#<- dream#gay#<- Killer#you‘d never guess which flag I took for shading Dream’s crown (i won‘t tag it)#also the colours on them are supposed to represent the bands (red ink; yellow dream; blue swap) (dark red killer; dark green horror;#dark purple nm; dark blue dust; light purple cross)#utmv#if I forgot something. no i didnt
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Yes, I’m ace, and have a dirty mind-
#asexual#asexuality#ace#aroace#acespec#asexual spectrum#ace thoughts#or lack thereof#lol#my mind is soooo on the gutter#yet I’m actually sex-ambivalent and have very complicated feelings towards sex
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This design came together rather well….
Here’s Mallory my 27 yr old goth girl who talks the dead
#she’s come a long way#Mallory#midnight blue#Mallory Moreau#my ocs#black ocs#asexual#greysexual#acespec#pride 2024#wlw#oc artist#oc art#black oc#black characters#hee and Shiloh are kinda sorta dating and also not??#situationship anyone??#heh#idk it’s complicated#concept art
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I'm not getting out of bed to get a better picture of it but here's the asexual flag heart that hangs on my wall
I'm not sure if the label is accurate for me anymore, but I'm not sure if it isn't, so for now it stays
#plus_ i paid for it#I'm hesitant to get rid of something i paid like four bucks for#asexual#me and sex are... complicated.
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This blog is a cozy place for everyone with a complicated relationship to sex and sexual attraction. I'm an asexual who doesn't experience much sexual sensation (ie; I don't physically feel horny or sexual pleasure, at least alone.) I've gone through quite a few phases having to do with my feelings on sex in general, and I'd like to write about them here. And if it helps anyone that'd be lovely.
To all the hypersexuals, people on the ace spectrum, or just any fae with complicated thoughts on it all, This is my love letter to you. I'll be tagging my commentary or rambles on sex and related things separately to any porn or similar content, just in case you don't want to see it. Tags: Commentary/Rambles- Let's talk about it Erotic shit/Horny comments- Let's fuck about it
#Intro post#Asexual#Hypersexual#Gray ace#Complicated thoughts on sex#Complicated thoughts in general#Also smut#Hope you enjoy your stay lovelies#ace spec#Asexual Spectrum
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