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26 years on television and the worst part of being in the sp fandom is the mid tier fanfic ngl
#this is a joke im joking#there are much worse parts of the fandom and of sp 🙃#no but literally begging for like. good long well written fanfic#esp more stuff that isnt like. dark gritty horror au thats not rly for me thanks#anyway not to say what im looking for doesnt exist its just so hard to find#esp when ive been in the fandom for so long and have already read all the good stuff thats old 😭#ppl reccing fics from like 2016 and im like oh yeah i read this while it was being posted 😭 LMFAO#i guess it doesnt help that its one of those things where i have like#very specific exact ideas of the characters in my head and if things dont live up to that then im lost#anyway#classic delete later post
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Chaotic academia; a hasty morning commute
“If I catch that train I’ll get there just in time!” In time to be late by only five minutes.
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#Filler post tbh. Might delete later.#aesthetic#study aesthetic#art academia#academia#academia aesthetic#dark academia#darkest academia#chaotic academia#dark academia aesthetic#classic academia#studyblr
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in case you've all forgotten what i look like teehee ✨️
#classic millennial felt cute might delete later post lmaoo yeah im just rolling around on the couch playing around with filters#i felt cute ok sue me#anyways hiiiiiii <3#soph txts#pic#how i be looking with he/him pronouns in my bio etc etc etc#oh wait do i have a selfie tag still....#face tag
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Allegory of Vanity
Antonio de Pereda, 1632 - 1636
#classical art#Allegory#Angel#Angels#I am very annoyed rn#Ages ago I found a post of uncredited crops of art of angels wings#I spent a long time crediting all the original art and THIS PIECE was my white whale#The tiny crop of the wing was too little info to go on and reverse image searches returned nothing#Fast forward to now - over a year later and I randomly came across a crop that included the angel#Thereby letting me easily search for the whole piece#Goddamn#After all that I can't even find the original post I added credit to LOL#It's probably been deleted. Oh well :')
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D&D LMoP doodles! 👀✨
#my art#dnd#dnd oc#sketchdump#campaign doodles#corisander the wizard#aiden the folk hero#eirene the rogue#sildar the npc#i love sildar#coris almost died saving him in one of my favouritest RP scenes we had and he remains my favourite npc to hang out with#been playing with some Deleted Scenes - things that didnt exactly happen but Could Have™ in the undescribed moments of our Actual Play#that would show character moments that come to us later when we think about the session etc#my favourite one so far is Aiden-centered - we had a short rest after freeing Sildar because both him and my boy Coris were barely conscious#and i can just picture how dreadful it must have been - fire lit in a cave where we barely survived - just for long enough to regain#strenght to get out of there asap. bad vibes. but aiden is a sweetheart who would check on everyone and Coris collects stories so being told#some as a way to boost morale would be THE BESTEST. and one by one Sildar and Eirene join in. classic fireplace storytelling situation#showcasing the folk-caring side of the folk hero - showing our characters starting to warm up towards each other#etc etc#idk#i like thinking about D&D and BD has been a great companion for getting more depth out of our curent game#my talks with everyone else have been emoji reactions or one sentence max#so these will remain Coris + Aiden focused since i dont want to step on the heels of characters that I can't get a feel for :³#expect lil shitty messy doodles like that i very much love making them#maybe one day ill format the stories in the post itself instead of hiding them in the tags like this :v
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man mcr was right those teenagers really do scare the shit out of me
#shut up luci#delete later#gonna post my own Ls in classic tumblr fashion#i WAS bullied by high school girls today.#a group of them literally pointed and laughed at me getting my haircut#i feel so bad for my sister she deals with these bitches picking on her every day#kinda wanted to start shit but held back out of respect for my sister
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Since when was "boy crazy" an insult or a negative descriptor of women???? Just say she's a 'pick me' if she's constantly vying for male attention at the expense of other women because that's a part of what being a pick me is you clowns.
#i known the meaning of words change but C'MON#the term pick me is right there.#i sound like a boomer#boy crazy#no fr these people describe an allegedly boy crazy woman and all they're describing is a classic pick me girl#LOL i wasn't sure which blog to even put this post on but its going on here since i got posts tagged with boy crazy on here anyway#will probably delete later
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>need to go through my loops before bed which can take hours
> need to cut my looping short because I need to sleep to wake up early tomorrow
>resume looping because I'm not done so I can't sleep
>need to sleep so try to stop looping
>okay time to sleep
>resume looping because I'm not done so I can't sleep
>need t
#not sure if looping is the accurate term but its what i call it because i get stuck repeating a behavior like an endless loop#right now is the classic “check your tumblr notifications now your twitter notifications now your tumblr notifications now your twitter noti#making this post in an attempt to break the loop so i can fucking sleep i have to be up in 7 hours#i might delete this later right now im just hiding in these notes#its definitely an ocd thing .but because i havent been treated for my ocd and researching can make it worse sometimes#i dont have the best words to describe my experience#its part of why i dont taln about it#talking about it can somrtimes make it a lot worse too ugh#the looping specifically im not 'supposed' to talk about so thats partly why i would delte this#i cant stay in these tags forever i gotta decide to post this Or Else#i will. put on bluey. and sleep.#i promise ill try atleast lol#if u read all this hi sorry
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Mod Post
quite sorry for the reblog spam my laptop charger broke so i’ve been away from tumblr so i need to catch up on what i’ve missed
and sadly due to my charger breaking i missed charlie’s 4th birthday which was april 5th
but send your belated birthday wishes for the cryptid phone if you want! i am back now and hopefully won’t be going anywhere again anytime soon
#dsaf#dayshift at freddy's#classic verse#charlie the phone guy#charlie the cursed phone guy#not charlie#mod monnie#mod post#delete later
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rattling the bars of my enclosure over here get these tumors out of me!!!
#and let me quit my job because oh my fucking god is my manager a dick to me#also he spit on my keys today but that’s a whole other story#but!! these tumors man!! how is it that they don’t hurt for almost three full days and yet the moment I get to work it’s unbearable!!!#and it’s a twelve hour shift!! and I picked up three extra shifts this week!!!#I wanna go home and rip my tumors out myself they don’t pay rent!! who gave them permission to be there!!!!#I can’t get them surgically removed until the summer and by then they might be 20 percent bigger!!!#they’re already 4-5cm!!!!! that’s like larger than golfballs!!!!!#anyway sorry this is a classic vent post#my coworker just went to go get us coffee and there’s still another three hours into my shift and I’ve taken the max amount of ibuprofen#and still every nerve ending is on fire rn it feels like someone took a sledgehammer to my hips#get these tumors out of me I’m like literally gnashing my teeth and gorilla thumping my chest rn rattling the bars of my enclosure#anyway. ya girl has multiple fibroids ✌️🫡#that’s the new update lol. also still probably failing grad school but hey I qualify for paid medical leave so#personal delete later 😬
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i have such tumblr humor but it’s like evil tumblr humor whenever i see someone posting about smth kinda nice or funny a man in their life said/did (including relatives) i get a little devil on my shoulder that says “reply to that with ‘MARRY HIM!’ like it’s 2015” but then i realize…. they wouldn’t get the joke
#it’s like. ironic references to early tumblr culture that nobody gets just me#how many levels of tumblr stunted my social development am i on#fighting the urge to talk about larry or like idk MOON MOON to ppl who will have no idea what i’m talking abt#and if they do they’ll be like why are you acting like it’s 2015 on tumblr and it’s like it’s ironic you don’t get itttt#thoughts#delete later#i shouldn’t say the marry him thing esp abt relatives but that post where the girl was like my dad was nice to me and someone be saying omg#marry him is like within the top infamous classic era tumblr posts to ME. the oh ‘em squee urge outweighed reading and understanding words#in that context
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i know its a classic. possibly cliche already. but i do wonder about Tumblr In The Death Note Universe probably more than i should
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if i see one more post attributing kira's powers to ~supernatural powers~ instead of the obvious fact that the cia is doing a coup I'm going to start giving You the heart attacks
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of course i saw the news how does that not prove my point further
the idea that all the police around the world could be mobilized by one single person is ridiculous (just look at this list of how many civilian militia there are globally)
heart attack victims don't seize the way "lind l tailor" did
i don't know how to tell you that You Can't Kill People Just By Knowing Their Name And Face because this is Real Life and not the newest grimdark marvel villain
people need to stop being scared of the ~bogeyman in the closet~ and wake up to the fact that usamerica is trying to take over the goddamned world
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im going to kill you all and nuke this website
#sayonara you weeaboo shits
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DO TRUMP NEXT
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LIKES TO CHARGE REBLOGS TO CAST
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i know its stupid but im so fucking scared for my brother i heard that seven people died this week at the prison he's in and iinjust dont kenow what to do ihate him for ehat he did to mom but i never wanted him to die
#vent tw #delete later
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if i get a single more comment about why i don't tag "genderbend" on my kiratective fics i'm going to blow up the entire building. we don't know EITHER of their genders. why don't YOU tag your mediocre yaoi genderbend instead
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…OP, you realize the news reports all consistently use "he," right?
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of course i do???? just because you see something on the news doesn't mean you have to believe it?????? they don't have any information on kira yet but i'm supposed to believe the fbi knows their gender already??????? also kira is literally a fucking girl's name my classmate in elementary school was called kira
🔆 sparkling-world
Kira comes from the Japanese romanization for "killer," it isn't gendered whatsoever.
Also, evidence shows the majority of serial killers are male, so I'd argue that the statistics favor the fujoshis here.
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well evidence shows that female serial killers are just more fun to write about and I'd argue that you're ignoring my fucking POINT which is that we DON'T KNOW KIRA'S GENDER and if people don't want to read lesbian kiratective they can FUCK OFF MY BLOG
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I offer you an Eggman in these trying times.
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@lashitpostcalligrapher yo can i get "the statistics favor the fujoshis" on my tombstone
#fandom: kira rpf #ship: kiral #never heard it called kiratective before… #also uh. prayer circle for op's classmate lmaoooo
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BOYCOTT EIGHTEEN MAGAZINE
THEY ALLOW KIRA-SUPPORTING MODELS AND ARE COMPLICIT IN THIS MASSACRE
SOURCES HERE AND HERE (TRIGGER WARNING: KIRA DISCUSSION)
PUSH BACK AGAINST HEART ATTACKS
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golly gee ^_^ suddenly i feel like taking to the high seas in a way that the eighteen company cant get profit from. oh no ! who left this link here
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thanks for the link but jesus fucking christ man what happened to free speech. misa-misa's parents were killed by a burglar who kira punished. did you all expect her to just sit there, look pretty, and say nothing about it?
you people only like models when they're nice pictures for you to consume. you only like them two-dimensional and smiling and hot. the second a woman actually speaks her mind she's thrown to the wolves
💃🏻 modelingmadness
DID YOU NOT SEE MY BANNER YOU PIECE OF SHIT
#BLOCKED
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lol. lmao even
#they blocked me but whatever #official eighteen site just said misamisa wont be in the next issue #(eighteen sucks but i kind of want to use it more out of spite now) #so much for apologism huh? #god. i feel sick. #hasn't she been through enough.
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Imagine you're going home after a long day. Suddenly there's a sound. "Huh? Whose there" you ask, dropping your keys on the floor. Then you feel it. A knife pressing in your neck.
"Don't move kitten" Kira purrs behind you. "You're all mine now…"
#kiraxreader #kiraxoc #kira #kira rpf #kira investigation #kira fucker #kira fudger #kira lover #kira haters dont touch #kira haters please touch #kira supporters please touch #l
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Hello, everyone! My little sister told me about this microblogging platform (I admit, I'm a Twitter refugee) and that many of you are discussing the Kira investigation on here. I'm really interested in hearing what your thoughts are!
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let the record show he lasted like. a day
#i think it was the imagines that did him in #bro is so sensitive :p
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the world could be beautiful
[ @deathnotetober day 14: trigger ]
#death note#light yagami#sayu yagami#misa amane#lawlight#by uh. technicality.#does 'trigger warning' fit the prompt i hope it does…#also there are two (2) rickrolls in this post#the other links are all to actual fun stuff :3#good luck#deathnotetober#edit: fixed the FUCKIGN reblog dividers GOD DAMN IT#unreality#caps#edit 2: fixed the reblog dividers again theyre transparent now#…………wow i really just. spent four hours on this huh.#maybe i am experiencing slight mania#only slight#death note tumblr
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Feeling super torn up at the moment. A long time ago, when GITM was small, I gave blanket perms for people to make NSFW content. At the time, I genuinely thought I would be fine with it. Generally I just want people to have fun with characters and I didn't want to gatekeep stuff when I can just, you know, curate my own space and not look at the content that people make that I don't like.
So that's what I've been doing for the last half a year, not looking at stuff I dont want to and I thought that that would be fine. But, I'll be real, it's eating me the fuck up. I hate the idea that people I dont know are making this stuff en masse, even when I can't see it. Just knowing it exists feels bad. And I hate that I feel this way. I don't want to be the kind of person that tells people 'no you cant do XYZ', these feelings clash hugely with how I identify myself. I wanna be live and let live. As long as they aren't hurting anyone, its fine right?
But fuck. Lately its just been giving me this constant low level anxiety. I know I wont rescind the perms- I feel like that would be super shitty- especially after so many people have put so much effort into creating this content. And I don't know if I'm still gunna feel this way in a year or whatever. If I was fine with it before (when it was just a couple of people I knew personally) shouldn't I be fine with it now? What changed? Is it possible for my feelings to be valid and for them to be unfair at the same time? I'm trying so hard not to make my feelings other people's problem.
I don't know man. This post is the classic, felt cute might delete later. I just needed to shout these thoughts into the void.
#blah blah blah#qwillechatter#gitm au#i feel like a bitch#and i feel like im being a bitch to myself#if it was just my friends doing it#i know it would probably be totally fine#and that feels awful#fuck
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full stomachs, fuller hearts — MIGUEL O'HARA
SUMMARY: miguel has gotten used to eating dinner by himself so you decide to change his nightly routine.
THIS FIC CONTAINS: literally nothing but pure unaldulterated fluff. gender neutral terms mostly but querido is used once.
NOTES: OKAY so this was actually a request for someone but i was a dumbass and accidentally POSTED the draft when i meant to save it for later, i panicked and deleted the post so now i lost the request from my inbox forever 💔 whoever that dude was i hope you find this and i hope you enjoy
Lonely dinners were always a common occurence for Miguel.
That was just how things are. After a long and drawn out day of protecting the multiverse, protecting the city, protecting everything that he's built up and coming home to a desolate penthouse.
It was the norm for him, he had grown accustomed to it. Being isolated in general wasn't a foreign concept to him, but you brought more change to his life that he thought he would hate.
He loves you a lot. You two had been in a committed relationship for a few months now but haven't moved in yet. The every few hours during a day that you would get to visit him or perhaps he could swing by to your apartment were the only times he felt some sense of warmth in his cold, silent life.
It's not like he didn't want to ask you to move in, he does. Oh, so badly. It's just that the constant fear that he's going too fast or getting too excited over this newfound love. He doesn't want to scare you away.
There was also just a small part of him that was getting too used to being around you. It's gone to the fact that whenever he ate dinner, he'd always imagine you on the other side of that table, laughing and sharing stories about how you're day went.
When he snapped out of it, the sight of the empty chair across him brought his spirits down even more.
You were aware of this too.
Which was why you were up at the wee hours of the night, trying to watch an online video recipe for making empanadas. You knew how to cook enough meals to get by but you wanted to try something different for Miguel.
The bar was set a little bit higher this time. You've been over at Miguel's place before and he has cooked for you and every single time you've tried his dishes they were utterly delectable.
You didn't only want to make all of this food for him just because he's constantly eating alone but because he's really expanded your tastebuds ever since you two developed a much more intimate relationship. You could at least owe him one homecooked dinner.
Reminders to yourself, thank Lyla for letting you in and don't blow up Miguel's penthouse.
As you followed the tutorial step-by-step, you couldn't help but let your mind wander a little further. You wondered how Miguel was doing right now.
Yes, he's strong and agile in an almost inhuman way but at the same time you still worried for him. If only he could be here right now, you'd love to have the opportunity to cook with him.
He was grateful that you weren't in the present moment with him right now, his stomach growl in anticipation for it's next meal as he was running and swinging from rooftop to rooftop to get back to his penthouse.
There were many obstacles that he encountered on the way back. The classic old lady getting her purse snatched which gave him severe déjà vu, a bank robbery, and a cat stuck in a tree.
He grew progressively exhausted with each stop, not forgetting that he had his actual duties at the headquarters that he just left from. Sore muscles and a throbbing head, a painful combo for Miguel.
Maybe he should just skip dinner altogether and opt to immediately pass out on his bed, showering in the morning and having a very heavy breakfast. Yeah, that would work...
He glares into the window of his penthouse, not because he was hesitant to make the jump but because the lights were open. He was sure that he left all of his rooms in complete darkness before leaving.
With one final jump, his claws dig into the edge of his window as he pulls himself up. His eyes narrow, in attempts of getting a good peek of what exactly was going on.
An intruder, a home invasion, Lyla having a party without telling him were all of his possible theories.
What he didn't expect was to see you setting up his plate on his kitchen island, plates of delicious smelling food prepared as well.
There was an intrusion, that's for sure. The intrusion of blush on his cheeks, which he quickly had to shake as he took his mask off.
However, as quickly as it disappeared, it came back once he saw the look on your face the moment you noticed his presence.
Pure glee and warmth is how he'd describe it. It's also how he'd describe the embrace that you immediately pull him into, throwing the silverware that you were readying.
It's not like he hesitated to touch you either, he wrapped his arms around you. So glad that he gets to bask in your existence again, bask in you.
"What's all this, querido?"
You separate from Miguel for a brief moment before walking over to the kitchen counter, proudly showing off your creations. "Empanadas and menudo!"
It was like stars clouded Miguel's vision as it all goes through his mind. You came to his house, fixed up a whole meal for him, and for what? He doesn't remember getting you any gifts recently.
So why?
"Are you just going to stare or are you going to try one?" chuckled you, at least it got Miguel to snap out of his daze. His hands reaches out to one of the empanadas and he takes a bite.
Okay, if he was being honest, he's tasted much better before.
But you put so much thought, so much time, and so much care into making this for him. All of those qualities overshadowed the taste and dryness of it, filling his stomach with something else entirely.
This was probably one of the best empanadas he's ever tasted.
"It's really good." He says, swallowing the last of his food, "Best that one I've ever tasted, mi cielo." Then leaning in to press a small kiss to your forehead, warm hand cupping your cheek.
"You're just saying that, Miguel. I tasted them before you got here and they're really dry."
"Still the best I've ever tasted."
He continues to plant kisses on you, trailing from your forehead to the bridge of your nose to your cheek then boarding at your lips, you giggle into the kiss but before it progresses any further, he stops and pulls away.
"Do you want to move in with me?"
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#spiderman: across the spiderverse#across the spiderverse#spiderverse#atsv#miguel o'hara#spiderman 2099#spiderman#miguel o'hara x you#miguel o'hara x reader#miguel o'hara x y/n#miguel o'hara fluff#gender neutral reader#gn reader#reader insert#x reader#fluff#romance#cute#domestic
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my intro post
i guess it’s about time i made one of these
(why does this have so many notes???😭/genuine)
long ass intro oml
last updated jan 6, 2025
•my name is micah but i also respond to furcata and rover
•i use any pronouns except it/its. other than those, i genuinely do not care what you use for me
•im a minor
•i am a christian. i do not force it onto other people. please respect my religion.
•i make mistakes on my blog (accidentally deleting things, unbalanced polls, etc.) from time to time so please excuse if i make some errors. trying my best.
•my tag for my original posts and reblogs that i add to is “micah’s owlposting” (ehhhh not all the time, actually, tagging is so boring) even for stuff that isn’t owlkin-related. i have to retroactively tag my old posts with this tag so keep in mind that not all of them are tagged! i will update this post when i finish tagging.
•i am an american barn owl therian, vernid othermidst, machinehearted, and pigeonhearted.
• i am a quadrobist. i started in april of 2024.
•usually the things i post are about my alterhumanity but i also post golden texts my friends and i send each other along with some other stuff. sometimes in my posts there are mentions of sex and (mild?) sexual themes
•im also a furry. furry ≠ zoophile
•my favorite music is by greta van fleet and umbrabyte. i also just enjoy vocaloid in general, too. in fact, the original purpose i had for my blog was just to keep up with umbrabyte and her content better. here’s umbrabyte’s spotify:
•my favorite aesthetics are cybercore, mizuiro/ tenshi kaiwai, vaporwave, and rococo
•my only definite dni is if your blog is focused on nsfw, has sexually explicit images, or unsafe for minors in general. we can interact if you are in a basic dni (zoophile, radqueers, etc) but i probably won’t interact with you as much as those who arent in the dni.
•i am pro endogenic and i do not tolerate attacks on endos
•haters will be blocked unless i find them especially funny.
•im up for chatting about whatever whenever so just shoot me a dm if you feel like it (sfw, obviously)
•my hobbies and special interests are drums, classical latin, fursuit making, cosplay, and illustrating
•i’m very interested in learning how to make vtuber models and customize ball-jointed dolls
•my main fandoms are umbrabyte, tloz, pjsk, and tadc (i know some these fandoms are known for having /crazy/ and problematic fans. im not one of them)
•i have a 4 year old black cat named dumpling (i post pics of him sometimes) and a 17 year old dog named stella. i hope to get a couple of oranda goldfish someday
•i dont have a set posting schedule. i post when i post. but i generally like to stay pretty active and try to post at least once per day.
•i follow anyone who interacts with my posts positively when im not in their dni and theyre not in mine and their blog isn’t completely default/blank this is now false. i have just learned that the maximum follow count is 5k and i am already above 4k. there are too many of you for me to follow you all😭
•some random and useless stuff about me: i have mild-moderate trypophobia and a deviated septum, my favorite color is orange, i LOVE creme brulee, and my mbti is antp-t (a for ambivert) and my current favorite vocal stim is “meds time!”
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mild eyestrain warning ⚠️
how the fuck does this have so many notes??😭
i’ll probably update this post later on since im sure there’s something i forgot. check back with me every once in a while and i might have some new content on this post
thanks for reading 👍👍
#intro post#therian#therianthrope#alterbeing#barn owl#owl kin#barn owl kin#barn owl therian#owlkin#micah’s owlposting#cw swearing
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this is a self pitying post and i’ll probably delete it later- but when i’m sad i tend to write it out. i’ve used this blog like a diary of sorts for the last two and a half years. i’ve developed a relationship with a lot of you on here and i appreciate all the love i’ve received so far on my last post. my friends that i have in real life, no matter how long i’ve known them, don’t know too much about my upbringing or my parents. i hate the idea of trauma dumping- it’s uncomfortable for other people: so don’t read this if you don’t want to. i wouldn’t blame you.
my dad died from cirrhosis due to alcoholism. he died miserable and alone. he had no friends. his family was sick of him. i tried to call him as often as i could but sometimes he could be mean if he was drunk. i knew not to call him after 11:00 in the afternoon because he would start to drink. he lived in his youngest brother’s basement and almost never came upstairs because he was embarrassed. i haven’t seen him in three years because he lives fourteen hours from me, but i tried my hardest to call him every week and keep him involved in my life. he never saw any of my homes, never met any of my friends, and never even saw me drive a car (i’ve been licensed since i was eighteen). i cried to him almost every week, begging him to get sober.
he never recovered from my parent’s divorce, and for that i feel so sorry. he called my mother his soulmate and always spoke in past tense- talking about when me and my brother were little. he would tear up when talking about the first time he ever saw me in the hospital after my mother gave birth, and he was vocal about the fact that i was his favorite. we shared a lot of the the same interests and always had fun when talking.
when my mom made a suicide attempt two years ago he was there for me almost everyday, calling me despite the demons he was battling with himself.
the last time i spoke to him was thursday- a week from the day he died. he told me that he almost called a treatment facility but he got tired and took a nap instead. his doctors appointment was today at one and he was going to ask to be admitted and then go to a rehab facility. i told him i’d send him money while he was in there- he hasn’t been able to hold a job since i was still in high school.
my dad was a chef. a damn good cook- classically trained in french cooking. he had the loudest laugh i’ve ever heard, so much so that it used to make me cry when i was a baby. we used to wear matching costumes and he’d sign me out from school on halloween and call me out the day after. he took me to my first concert, but he couldn’t afford both the gas and the tickets (so i paid for the gas with my pocket change at the age of thirteen). he wore adidas strictly- shell toe was his favorite.
when i was little my dad was on night duty while my mom was away: tucking us in, reading us books. he refused to read to me and walked out the door but not before saying “bed bugs and stuff”. i thought it was so funny. it became our saying. every night we spent with each other we said “bed bugs and stuff”. so that was my last send off to him. i hope he’s finally resting well and isn’t depressed, ashamed or lonely anymore where he is.
he died in his sleep. they found a solo cup filled with vodka next to his bed and i can’t stop thinking about the fact that he was going to get help today. he was yellow due to jaundice. what a cruel world.
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