#christian rant

[ithinknormal]

Someone help me(christian in distress rant)

Everything scares me I won't deny, everytime I do something I end up seeing not long after a video saying how it's a horrible sinful act. I prayed and prayed then went back to scrolling. Eventually I found a video talking about 'stupid' prayers, I was surprised to say the least.

Were my ramblings of my pain to God 'stupid'? I know God Jehovah is good and righteous (im not exactly a Jehovah witness btw I just like using his name) but I'm worried about myself.

Am I a disgusting filthy sinner? Probably. I hate myself because everything I do seems to be sin, I can't even daydream of happiness because apparently someone said it's sin too! I use daydreaming to cope with stuff but it's sin apparently. It does make me more dependent on God I won't deny because now that my daydreaming got taken away I can only think of God.

When i watch shows I feel like it's sin to even watch anything of this world, everything of this world disgustes me now, but the thing I hate the most is myself. I hate how sinful and disgusting I am. It makes me so terrified to be seen as repulsive. I didn't ask to be born yet now I'm trapped in this cycle. But God is good so I'm sure Jehovah has a reason for making me be born but it's so stressing...

I feel like even living anymore is disgusting, and I often wish God simply killed me. It would be nice, I won't commit suicide thoguh because I don't wanna go to hell. Suicide is a huge no no, but I wish I simply never existed. It would be so lovely but it's just not how it is. Can I watch shows? I don't know. I don't prioritize them over god yet it feels bad to watch them.

Even innocent cartoons seem sinful of me to watch. I hate myself so much, I love God though because he loves me still. I'm scared of loosing my god. I'm scared of loosing Jesus, I'm scared. But my existence seems so sinful, I see so many people saying how every act is sin. I don't even lust anymore because God helped me overcome it!! Yet apperantly everything is sin!

I'm so fear stricken, so sad, so angry, so conflicted. But I also can't help but love this pain. I guess it's just my way to cope but I think I need help. I don't think anyone will read this but if you do please help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me helpe help me.

In my messages someone please help, I feel like I also need to talk to another Christian. So please if you can.

Help me

[narrative-driven-off-a-cliff]

I just finished reading Job and I'm not kidding you I know this sounds like some girl who's trying to be in with the culture of their social media site like those christian tiktokers who make videos about God with the trending sounds that are filled with expletives

But this is genuinely how I felt afterwards

I'm lightheaded, which I think is because the poetry is so powerful that I felt the need to read it aloud, and the Holy Spirit ROSE in me. God is so powerful. He is gigantic and everlasting.

The fact that so much of that book was just old men refusing to stop arguing, like so many arguments I've had before, where everyone just brings up the same points and think the other people aren't listening because they personally don't feel vindicated yet

And ELIHU. This young man waits SO LONG to speak because he respects the wisdom of his elders (something I for sure need to work on) and he allows Job a moment to speak, and Job says nothing, and just....

AND THEN GOD COMES IN. I can't even describe how powerful God's words were, I was dumbfounded myself when I read them. He's so wonderful and great.

AND AFTER ALL THAT! HE FORGIVES JOB AND BLESSES HIM EVEN MORE! He keeps calling him "My servant" which is just AHHHH He loves us so much guys and God is an artist don't let anyone tell you differently

[galaxythedragonshifter]

Thinking back to the time when another Christian told me that I was "not trying hard enough" and "taking the easy way out" when cutting off my father

[valentinewibu]

For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is a blessing -Philippians 1:21

I never liked that sentence

the funny thing is i liked being told to but i don't like it when people imply i'm easy to control like a puppet

I'm such a hypocrite

To live is a blessing and to die is Christ

When i chew that word i feel slightly better

[bleakbluejay]

you motherfuckers have no concept of what "land back" or "decolonize" even mean. you're too busy demonizing entire groups of people, terrified, shitting yourselves, that they'll do even half of the horrors to you that you've done to them for decades or centuries. this shit comes off as hella racist for real. you hate arabs so much. you hate first nations people so much. you hate black people so much. even if you sympathize with them, you can't fucking bear the idea of them gaining freedom, independence, autonomy, safety, because you're so, so scared they'll hurt you back and cause chaos in the streets. these same people who just want to rebuild. who just want to go home. who just want to see their families again. who just want food. who just want medical care. who just want dry, warm shelter. you're so focused on the ideas of colonization, of "us vs. them", of one people displacing the other for a state to exist, that you cannot comprehend coexistence, and your only idea of peace is if an entire group of people were just gone and dead.

grow the fuck up. for the love of GOD, grow the fuck up.

[under-clouds-and-stars]

christian conservatives can rage against sexual content in schools and what gets put on tv all they want. good job. keep going.

just be consistent.

shame any self-described "red-blooded conservative Christian man" who reads playboy. who uses onlyfans. who has a lingerie model calendar on the wall of their shop. who walks around in public with obscenely sexual text on their shirts. who takes their 15 year-old son to Hooters. who discuss women like they're sex props while bashing "trans women" for trying to turn womanhood into a costume. who in any way shows that they think that public sexual degeneracy is A OK so long as it isn't the PC lib kind.

eject them out of your groups. call a spade a spade and a pervert a pervert. don't downplay or, even worse, condone this kind of trash just because the people on the other side's stuff is a newer kind filth.

looking the other way, lowering our standards, and accepting these "lesser evils" primed society for the nightmare-clown state it's in right now. hold your people to a damn standard

[chthonic-sorcery]

🚩🚩"Witch/Pagan" community PSA 🚩🚩

Goêteia is not evil, you dipshits.

I'm so sick of these neo-pagans getting all their information from Tumblr, Pinterest and TikTok.

Goêteia is literally just the Greek term for magic, for sorcery, which were one and the same.

Ancient Greece didn't have the word "witchcraft" it had Goêteia, and then later mageia, where we get our modern term magic from, although mageia was a misappropriated term from Zoroastrian priests or Magi.

It's so funny seeing baby witches claim Goêteia to be evil on one hand, then on the other worshipping Hekate, literally the goddess of Goêteia. The goddess of sorcerers and necromancy.

It screams puritanical morality policing. It's such a christian-centered way of looking at ancient religion.

Y'all need to open a damn book.

Goêteia was described as a "lesser" form of magic (mainly in the later Medieval period, roughly starting around the 8th century,) not meaning any less powerful, just simply the easiest or "closest" thus "lower" magic to achieve. This ability to more easily achieve success in magic was later taken and used by christian theologians to paint goêteia and Goêtes as "lesser practitioners."

There does seem to be little difference between Theurgy and goêteia as well,

Surprise!

Both Goêteia and Theurgy sharing the same goddamn workings through evocations of gods, the animation of statues, mediumship or what could be considered "divine possession" having a god or spirit speak through you, the use of iynx wheels / iynges, and mystery rites.

The only 'real' difference Theurgists claim, is that they "don't practice secularly/for selfish reasons" but supposedly rather to become closer to the divine. It's a nice sentiment, but total bullshit, because even in the Theurgic doctrine the Chaldean Oracles they bind the goddess Hekate to do their will.

Additionally, Theurgists had a more Neoplatonic belief, they essentially viewed a singular Oneness as supreme, the emanation from which all things return, a concept which was picked up by early christian theologians and is likely why while Goêtes were demonized in the later centuries mainly by early christians and christian philosophers, Theurgists on the other hand were seen as "pure" and "holier" despite Theurgical and Goêteic practices being pretty much exactly the same down to the tools and incantations.

(Agustine of Hippo for an example of these theologians, who wrote in "De civitate Dei contra Paganos", or "On the City of God Against the Pagans" how all "pagan" (non christian) gods and beliefs were secretly agents of Satan and evil, here to trick humanity into sin and that paganism, essentially any non christian faith, must be stopped–

He also wrote about how sorcerers/magicians (Goêtes) were charlatans, tricksters, that magic and sorcery were merely tricks of an invisible opposition to the divine and how only god could hold such supreme power. These ideas still seem to be deeply embedded into christian faith, particularly Orthodox and Evangelical, today.)

Practitioners of goêteia, the Goēs, was also understood to have the ability to initiate souls into mystery religions, or, in other words, to ensure through his superior knowledge of the Underworld and its workings that the souls under his care would receive preferential treatment after death, an easier way to paradise, such as the Orphic Hymns.

This likely also helped "other" the Goēs, as most practitioners of magic, of goêteia, of these mystery cults were made up of societies "unwanted" or marginalized people, such as women, foreigners, immigrants, the poor, the disabled, and the elderly. Early goêtes were described as being Thessalian (primarily women, particularly described as "old or decrepid") or. ethnically, not considered "fully Greek" to many of the era. Many critiques and fears of goêteia come from this "otherness," the fear the ruling classes of Greece had of groups they continued to harm, they feared the power they held within these mystery rites and practices.

With reliable accuracy from these critics, goêtes were (perceived to be) moral transgressors, who operated from the fringe of society in a private mago-mystical setting, offering their service for coin.

Or, in simpler terms, the Greeks were just really fucking racist

which is nothing new.

In fact, because goêteia itself is a synchronization of mainly Egyptian and Jewish magic, the Greeks and later christians went extra-hard into villifying it because they saw these people as lesser, as barbaric.

We have to understand where the fears and judgements of these critics were coming from, and continue to remain impartial. The ruling elite feared these practices because they feared losing their power, especially rich Greek men, and those early christian philosophers who saw everything outside their own faith as lies, manipulations, or tricks from "the Opposition" as well as the extremely racist and ethnocentric beliefs they held.

[femslashspuffy]

I honestly think the first Lil Gideon episode of gravity falls changed my brain. I think this episode of television is why I never pressured myself to date anyone even just to be "nice" Thank god for Mabel Pines for helping me be aromantic as a tween

[anonymousdandelion]

Occurs to me that Christian cultural hegemony can be pretty well encapsulated by the fact that it is normal for people to say "Happy Chanukah to those who celebrate," and it is normal for many of those same people to say, "Merry Christmas, everyone!"

[snapbackslide]

happy october 🎃🏒 | 24.10.01

[youraveragemiscellanyenjoyer]

It is 2:45am right now

[ithinknormal]

If you can please respond in my messages Going insane again because i live with the constant fear of seperation with god, What i write here is my fears of the potential of me being right on this matter. But if you disagree PLEASE WRITE IN THE COMMENTS BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN DREADING ME FOR A MONTH NOW.

___

Is Elon musk the antichrist?

Okay yeah that sounds crazy I know but please just read.

He has made the neurolink that is quite literally placed on your head, for all we know the government could take this as a thing for all society as 'technology advancement' and lots of people have mentioned that the government could also be part of the antichrist situation.

What if people will start having to get it to pay for stuff? What if there will be a time where people need it or else they wont be able to sell and buy. Heck what if using Twitter is worshipping it? Or even being associated with it? Who knows but it scares me, the more i write this the more strange it sounds but im afraid he may be it. I mean we are definitely in the last of the last days and with all thats been happening on earth it seems as if we might even be at the last year's. I abandoned my job that i used twitter to get clients with just out of fear. I also abandoned people on that website just out of pure fear it could be it. I am honestly scared of even watching videos made of people who have twitter accounts. Well aa elon renamed it 'X' i think. This sounds so strange but i cant help but fear. I think fear is all i feel now. I have left everything that i was for god, i picked up my stake and probably even killed my entire being with it, isnt that what jesus wanted? No,yes,i dont know anymore. Im currently researching how to live as a homeless person. A incredibly kind and loving person texted me on another topic of fears i had and i thank them so much for it. But im a person of many fears and i think this may be one of my most serious fears. But to the person who helped me in text thank you so much for reaching out to my fearful being. Im so foolish at times

God have mercy on me i cant anymore

Someone please respond

[roses-red-and-pink]

Lolol sometimes it’s so funny reading peoples posts about “Mormon” theology that is based on Exmo stories, tradition/culture but not doctrine, and like random statements by some church leader 200 years ago that was not put into doctrine/canonized, or that he was corrected/reprimanded on, and all of us look back on like “well that guy was racist/sexist. Anyways moving on…” like tbh it just makes me laugh. Like I know our theology is a bit different than mainstream Christianity but y’all don’t need to make it sound like we are out here truly believing half the stuff you say about us.

[toubledrouble]

You know what we should bring back?

Older christianity. I mean the anti government, anti military, community based christianity. The one that cared the most about peace, equality, mercy, kindness, and radical love. The one with shared property. The one that didn't conform to society but instead existed mostly outside of it. The one where noone considered one sin worse than another because in the end, we are all sinners trying our best to be better.

[foone]

Random thought brought on by seeing a veterinarian sign on the drive to Coffee Land, but I think Jesus would really appreciate people localizing his parable of the Good Samaritan.

Because, like, it's a good story, right? When the administrator-guy and the holy man wouldn't help the injured, the Samaritan went out of their way to make sure the injured man was able to get the help they needed, paid out of their own pocket. And that's good and all, but what even is a Samaritan? Do you know?

Well, they're a ethnoreligious group from northern Israel who follow Samaritanism, which split from Judaism sometime around the 11th century BCE. There's only about a thousand of them left. But around the time of Jesus, they were not very popular with your average Hebrew. Remember the Seleucid empire that was oppressing jews? There's a yearly celebration about it, involving a candle that lasted for 8 nights. Yeah. So at the time the Samaritans had taken the opportunity to point out they're not Jewish, they're Samaritans, so they wouldn't be persecuted. So they were seen as, like, selling out their brothers and sisters in the faith. Then by the time the Romans took over the whole area, the province of Judaea contained Samaria.

So basically the Jews and the seen-to-have-sold-them-out Samaritans were stuck in the same province, thanks to some Romans consolidating the areas they'd conquered. Tensions between the two groups were high, and I don't imagine either of them liked each other very much at all.

To a Jew of the first century CE, a Samaritan is basically the worst kind of person you could be, and that's exactly why Jesus used them in the parable of the Good Samaritan!

The parable isn't about Samaritans. It's about how the worst person you can imagine is a better person than the people you idolize and uplift, if that person takes care of their fellow man. It's about how you should love your neighbor as yourself, and who is your neighbor? Everyone. All people are your neighbors. Help them when they need help!

And that's why I say it should really be localized. You should tell this parable differently than it was told in AD 29 or whenever. Do you hate Samaritans? Probably not! You probably barely know who they are, even after I did some explaining up there. So why use them as your example? If Jesus was here, I don't think he would have done that.

So like, if you were giving a sermon on the good Samaritan in the 1960s to a white church, you should be like "so the policeman walked past, and the pastor walked past, but then a poor black guy saw the injured man, and got him help at the local hospital."

In the 80s, his rescuer is Soviet. In the 2000s, they're a Muslim, from Afghanistan or Iran.

Today? Maybe they're trans.

As an American, there's been many times that "Mexican" would have been the best choice. Maybe even today, especially if you specifically make them an undocumented migrant.

But yeah, the point is that you pick the group of people most hated by the audience you're talking to, and make the point that THEY ARE A BETTER PERSON THAN YOU and ALL THOSE YOU UPHOLD AS PILLARS OF THE COMMUNITY if they help their fellow man. If your worst enemy is lying injured in the street, you call the ambulance, you pay their doctor, you get them help. That's what Jesus says you should do. That's loving your neighbor, that's the Great Commandment.

And in the Roman province of Judea back in the first half of the first century, when talking to a Jewish audience, that meant the rescuer was a Samaritan helping a Jew. That was just the context for that one particular telling of the story. It shouldn't be told the same way today, or in the future. It should be an evolving parable, always changing, always adjusting the nationalities and situations and genders and everything. It's not a story about a specific event, it doesn't pretend to be history, it's a metaphorical lesson about what makes you a good person.

This parable is basically in the form of an "X, Y and Z walk into a bar" joke, and just like jokes, it should be updated over time. Those don't stay funny though the decades, as cultural attitudes shift. And this parable hasn't been updated in nearly two millenia, so it's long overdue.

[queenlucythevaliant]

Just to clarify my thoughts (since I've had a number of people ask me about it) re: Job and cursing God. There's a big difference between cursing God as used in Scripture and how we generally would think of cursing at God today.

Cursing someone, in the Bible, has a lot of depth to it. It's not just saying "screw you " in anger, it's got a sense of forsakenness to it. It's the opposite of a blessing, a removal of blessing. If the blessing is presence, your face shining on the person you're blessing, then a curse is absence. In some translations, Job's wife tells him to "renounce God and die," which I honestly think makes a lot more sense to modern ears.

Job says a lot of unpleasant things to and about God in his anger and grief. So do the Psalmists. A number of the Prophets. So can we. God can take it if we come to him with honest expressions of our emotion, including those not-so-nice ones directed at him. I don't think there's anything wrong with getting mad at God and saying, "How dare you, you bastard" when you suffer unjustly. You can say much worse, I think, without sinning, though I don't feel particularly inclined to give examples. But as long as it's an honest expression of your heart, I think you're doing exactly what prayer is for. You're presenting him your heart with an open hand. He can use that. Opposite of love is not hate but indifference, etc.

Job doesn't renounce God. Neither should we. But I think when you're truly suffering, you're gonna have those feelings toward God either way. He'd rather you address them with him directly than try to avoid them. Cursing at God in the modern sense is actually a great way to keep the relationship strong and not end up cursing/renouncing him in the Biblical sense.