#chameron i suppose

[all-pacas]

PORN STAR: We're [patient and his wife are] both busy with our own stuff. Think what you want, but we're proud of what we do. CAMERON: Divorcing sex from all emotional content? PORN STAR 2: Emotion is emotional. Sex is mechanical. There doesn't really need to be any overlap. CAMERON: Certainly not in your world. (teamwork)

CHASE: The first time you slept with me was because you were on crystal meth. CAMERON: I was on the drugs because I was emotional. It was the emotions that led to the sex, not the drugs. CHASE: Not true. After that, you refused to let it go further than just sex. CAMERON: Because I knew I was falling for you and I didn't want to. (lockdown)

these s6 retcons are so funny to me, because i actually think this was what the show intended all along, they're not meant to be retcons. they're funny because they absolutely are: s2/fwb arc camchase gave us almost no inkling that cameron had feelings, that she was already vaguely interested in chase in s2, that she had feelings for him in s3 until the last minute. and then s6 comes in with cameron confidentally stating with chase in the room that "all sex should be emotional, intimacy matters," followed by lockdown's "no, i had feelings from the start." it's so funny.

but i do think it's the intended read, because we actually do see/hear this in S3, we are told directly that cameron has feelings for chase… it's just we don't hear it from cameron.

CAMERON: I didn't realize you were going to get hurt. I'm sorry I misled you. CHASE: You didn't. You have feelings for me. You come back to me again and again. CAMERON: For sex. It's a simple, physical… CHASE: C'mon, you have feelings for puppies and patients that you barely know, but when it comes to a guy that you've worked with for three years? Had sex with, spent the night with, you're telling me you feel nothing? Absolutely nothing? (act your age)

the thing is: he is absolutely correct. cameron spends all of act your age acting dumped and heartbroken, chase pointing out it's not fair she gets to be the hurt one when he got dumped. even before that, there's plenty of signs cameron is pretty terrible at this whole emotionless sex thing: she spends all her time with chase in and out of work, pretty consistently refers to their arrangement as a relationship (chase even correcting her once), spends nights with him, goes into work with him, etc. they're eating most meals together. and that's on top of their pre-existing friendship: cameron and chase have always been work friends, he is the person she talks with about relationships and her crush on house (hilariously).

chase in act your age / with his whole tuesday routine isn't trying to woo her, he's calling her bluff, and he knows it. chase, himself, is not a huge risk taker: it's actually kind of wild he's putting himself out there and setting himself up for heartbreak, giving his MO and stated "never care about anything" philosophy (that he is himself bad at, but he tries). tbh, for chase to even feel confident enough to pursue her openly is pretty telling. he was pretty fucking convinced cameron was full of shit. he was right.

but the s6 retcon dialogue is so funny. they're on the verge of breaking up. she's off the show. and yet cameron still takes the time to clarify "actually, i don't believe in emotionless sex and had a crush on chase this whole time :)" . in fact i believe her. it is still objectively deeply hilarious.

[eliotquillon]

i actually really like the snappy pacing of s4 (even if i’m not overly crazy about the whole Fellow Finding Reality Show arc) and i honestly think it benefited from the shortened episode count BUT that said. so curious about what s4 might have been like if the writers strike hadn’t necessitated cutting it short. i think the overall shape of it would’ve been the same (house’s head/wilson’s heart are just too good) but here’s a list of stuff i think we would’ve seen/i would’ve liked to have seen if s4 had had a full 24 episodes:

-i think we probably would’ve gotten a lot more chase and cameron (and specifically Chameron Relationship Moments). this is based on the fact that a) we do get more of those in s5, when the episode count goes back to normal, b) we got so much build-up with them in the second half of s3 (i am not immune to punching the air when cameron shows up at chase's apartment in the s3 finale) that it does feel a bit weird that we barely see them together, and c) cameron especially does get a few moments of trying to prove she's the Best House Whisperer this season combined with the documentary episode of her making chase watch her chant 'i am not in love with house :)' in the mirror and i think there would've been more made of that if there'd been more episodes

-AMBER. i think we would've gotten a hell of a lot more amber + that her and wilson would've been together longer. i also think we would've seen a lot more of house and amber which imo is the main downside of this season being so short - house's head seems to allude to him having a crush on her by the time of the crash? or like. at least respecting her as a person which is more than you can say for most people. and i think a longer episode count would've allowed us to see more of that and/or let that simmer and fester for longer. anyway. amber in any capacity. send tweet.

-call me crazy but i think we would've seen more cole. i know we already get a disproportionate amount of focus/info on him given that he's never heard from or mentioned again after house fires him but part of me wonders if this is because he was supposed to have come back in another guest role at the tail end of the season and then that got cut but the rest of his stuff remained. would've been cool to lock him and cameron in a room together since she essentially goaded him into violence and all. maybe i just have too much faith in the writers for this one

-call me crazy again but a part of me wonders if this might have been The Huddy season. both because i read somewhere that lisa edelstein apparently had a sign saying that shippers should support the strike if they wanted more huddy (#based, always support a picket line) but also because like. the huddy slowburn is ridiculously long. by the time they got together i wasn’t even rooting for them anymore i was just ready for the arc to be over (and to be clear: i really like huddy). this is really speculative territory because obviously it wouldve had a massive knock on effect on later seasons (most of s5 and s6 gets knocked over by this) but like at the very least i think they probably would’ve kissed by the end of a full-length s4.

-i think it would’ve taken a bit longer for foreman to rejoin the team/he would’ve been a bit more of a stinker about it. emphasis on ‘bit’; i actually like how quick it is he regresses back to the fellowship/how fast he immediately resorts to malpractice at mercy (now there’s a spinoff title) but i think he probably would’ve stuck it out for another episode longer. maybe one and a half.

-absolutely we would’ve had a comedic subplot in some random episode about people trying to guess thirteen’s real name/their reaction to it. iirc the first time we heard her Actual name said Out Loud is with cuddy yelling at her over air bubble guy in house’s head. if there’d been time i just know there would’ve been a moment about this. that said i do find the canon reveal really fucking funny because for a moment when i first watched that episode i was like ‘who the FUCK is dr hadley’ which was probably the intended experience lmfaooo

-i think we might have gotten a few more sown seeds about house’s worsening addiction / mental health problems that obviously end up coming to a head in the final episodes of s5. nothing super big, but just a hint or two that something is Brewing.

-old fraud (henry) probably would’ve come back for an episode as house’s PA. or he gets hired as cuddy’s assistant (we know she runs through them like water) and house feels betrayed and there’s a silly prank war about it or whatever. hey for someone who doesn’t like the finding fellows arc i keep mentioning the discarded fellows a lot

-i know chase’s sister is a crazy s8 retcon (compels me tho) but can you guys please hold my hand where i imagine a world where there’s a subplot with him and cameron having a blowout argument where he reveals her existence to her and cameron tries to force him to reconcile with her. Ok you can stop holding it now i recognise that this is pure copium and never would’ve happened since we don’t find out about this sister until 4 fucking seasons later but it was a nice idea right

-this would’ve been a great season for a requisite Musical Episode. we get a lot of fun one-offs in s5 and 6 (lucas’s failed spinoff launch, 5 to 9, wilson) and this is the season with the documentary episode (that doubles as both the Meta Episode and the Noir Episode) so like. the writers were already armed and ready with their long-running cable show special episode notebooks. there probably would’ve been a ‘you can’t always get what you want’ fakeout. i’m not a fan of musical episodes and so would’ve hated every moment of it but i am a person of the people.

[batlesbianism]

“I Do, I Do, I Do, I Do, I Do” is supposed to be the Chameron song,, but it’s just so Scam. It’s even their ship tag.. I would like to extend a formal apology to Charles and Cameron I will stop stealing stuff from you two one day.

[faifenaco]

Ever since we got 2x8 (The Mistake) i’ve been craving episodes that feature Chase’s arcs (and especially his deception) from his own perspective. While it wasn’t the first sign of his descent into House’s fate, it was the first episode where I actually saw how it made sense

Key moments that I need (carnally):

- 2x8 (The Mistake) but instead of only showing us what Chase tells House and Stacy, show a play by play with his actual actions paired with his own (unreliable) narration

- Actually, all of the Vogler arc. I know most everyone absolutely hated Chase here, but I don’t think he did anything House wouldn’t do. The only difference is that the lens of the show is focused on House, so we get to see his remorse (in his own detached way). If the show never showed these moments where he’s alone and guilty (think merry little christmas), nobody would like House and I stand by that.

-We see this a bit with drug-related episodes, but I want to see the hurt and angst whenever there’s a young(er) boy patient with a single mother. I wanna see Chase having to come to terms with the fact that plenty of mothers are capable of good parenting, but his just wasn’t.

- Seasons 4/5/6 Chameron

- Starting with 4x7 (Ugly) where Cameron slips up and tells the film crew that she loves House and at the end of the episode, we see her practicing how to backtrack while Chase begrudgingly helps.

- In 4x13 (No More Mr. Nice Guy), Chase asks Cameron if she slept with House (when they think he has syphilis) which she never answers. Chase lets this go WAY too easily.

- This, paired with 5x7 (The itch) where we’re shown Cameron’s POV. She talks about how they only stay at his place and how she thinks Chase is being controlling, only to reveal at the end that Cameron never gave him any space to stay over (sobbing). He’s just been trying to make her happy and keep their relationship (as he always has)…

- Only for 6x17 to happen when Cameron reveals that she may not have ever loved him???

…All i’m saying is that the entirety of the Chameron arc from Chase’s perspective would be emotionally devastating. This is a man who’s spent his life being abandoned by those who are supposed to love him. I’m genuinely shocked that there’s people who think he’s not damaged enough to be the next House.

Self-indulgent things that I want but probably break canon:

- Chase dream sequences. While the audience is mostly limited to seeing House’s hallucinations, the season 4 finale slips from the hypnosis to the hallucinations to just any dream/memory that he purposefully tries to see. I want Chase with nightmares. Chase who loses sleep because he sees patients who he’s killed.

- I wish the writers would have leaned more into the spiral like they did with Thirteen. I wish we could have seen a few more moments where Chase could have escaped House’s corruption, though ultimately his choice never matters. I just think they needed to make his decline inevitable and also more devastating.

Long story short, I think Chase is actually the most harrowing arc of the whole show because no matter how many opportunities to thrive that the show teased, he was doomed from the start and to watch his spiral from his perspective would ruin my life and I need it.

i’d pay real, actual money to watch house md but strictly from chase’s perspective

[abedizm]

sorry but i know that most of the fandom have decided that charlie is an only child (and i get it, he reeks of the energy) but like imagine him with a sister shfndjnand someone's probably said it before bUT COME ON

charlie constantly (but silently) worrying abt his sister. charlie making sure she knows he loves her (because their parents r probably mostly absent with how many meetings or whatever they have to go to). charlie taking care of her when shes sick

charlie talking abt his sister to the poets. charlie writing letters to his sister. charlie slipping in poems about his sister.

charlie's strict but also lets her do whatever she wants because they both know he can't really say no to her. charlie giving her a stern talking to when needed but then giving her whatever she wants afterwards

charlie as a big brother is making me cry

[marrissacooper]

so I finished house s5 and it was great but I also feel a little underwhelmed? I know house losing his mind and not knowing what was real was a well-written plot twist, I loved the parallel between chameron getting married and wilson driving house to the psychiatric hospital. but it still isn't on the same level as s1-3 for me... maybe bc it's too dark? too dramatic ?

There's this one episode in s5 where foreman solves a case with chase and cameron, it's supposed to be a subplot, but I found it way more compelling than house's big case. it was the kid whose brother gave him too many vitamins bc he thought it would make him strong, and when he learns he made his brother sick he's scared he might hate him. but at the end of the episode, we see the little kid holding his brother's hand. it was very sweet, and what s1-3 were about imo. in comparison, house's case with the emancipated 16 yo who keeps lying about her parents was too much. another case that I loved in s5 was the faithless priest, it was realistic and reminded me of the nun in s1.

I'm still gonna watch s6, at least until cameron leaves (I started watching the show bc I saw some s6 reruns on TV, so I got spoiled) but after that idk... maybe I'll take a break and watch the rest some other time

[marshh-com]

also!! cameron’s character is built off of him wanting to be liked and fit in while also feeling intense pressure by the expectations put on him by society and his family. he lives his life in a box, always sticking to what’s expected because he doesn’t know another way exists.

but then todd shows up and he’s quiet and cameron thinks “maybe this is my chance, maybe i can finally get into the group, maybe they’ll make fun of him instead of me now” but todd is loved by the group, taken in immediately and shown a kindness cameron has never been shown. todd becomes a member of the group and cameron joins the poets without ever really joining them.

cameron watches as neil begins to act and as alongside this he becomes closer to todd and maybe he thinks “this is possible, maybe this is possible” and he maybe starts to think of what could happen with his roommate (i am a chameron truther, they were in love and no one can tell me otherwise ‼️). he becomes slightly more daring and open and feels like maybe he’ll win the groups favour here.

then neil dies. the one person who cameron has known to do something different dies. he thinks that if he had been the proper student he’s supposed to be, he would’ve reported it straight away - he never would’ve joined the dead poets and neil would’ve never joined the play. it’s all his fault.

so he puts the blame on keating, because he’s scared and he hates himself and maybe he kinda wants everyone else to hate him too. he deserved so much better i love him.

I'm not going to lie; I do hate on Richard Cameron. It's a classic in the DPS fandom. But when you start looking a little bit more into his character, there is something that tells you you can't just hate this kid.

The way Cameron was always excluded by Charlie, and the Dead Poets would laugh because he would say funny jokes at Cameron's questions and comments. Even if Cameron was Neil's friend, that was mostly outside the group. He truly was the one that didn't fit between the Poets, and the reason he even got to be in the meetings was because of Neil Perry.

Neil connected the Dead Poets Society. One wouldn't think to make meetings with a really chaotic dude who hates a really stuck to rules guy, and that last guy in question being invited too. But the meetings weren't even terrible, Charlie threw some comments about Cameron and viceversa here and there.

Charlie punched Cameron after Neil's death, which is something completely different than a funny remark.

I've talked about Charlie and Neil's friendship, which was a lot more portrayed than what we can see of Neil and Cameron's. Charlie's grief has to do with the fact that Neil couldn't be an actor because of Mr. Perry. Cameron's grief has to do with the fact that Neil is never coming back, and there has to be a guilty one.

Cameron doesn't only think of Mr. Keating as the culprit because of the authorities, but also because he wasn't very fond of his form of teaching in the first place (for example, Cameron asked to the Poets if he would test them on something, and Charlie responding that he didn't get it). And that's another thing they don't have in common; Charlie adores Mr. Keating, Cameron does not seem to be very fond of him.

Taking these into account, Cameron's grief, along with disliking Mr. Keating, and also that he doesn't have the ability like the other Poets to just question authority--he snitches on everyone.

And that was... terrible of him, we know that. But Charlie quite literally made the Poets known before he even snitched. And that isn't talked about in the fandom. Like, yeah, I adore Charlie and I think he's amazing and bla bla, but the double standards kinda hit on this one.

Unpopular opinion much? Probably. I am not defending Cameron's actions by any means, but let's not forget these are 17 year-old boys. And Cameron had to deal with Neil's death in his own way. As I said, he didn't question authority or rebel against it like the others; Cameron wasn't a poet, but he was in the Dead Poets Society.

I am also NOT hating on Charlie. I hope my wording isn't terrible. I love all of the Poets (there might be favorites though(

I think I should elaborate on this at a much more decent hour (it is currently 3am). Please don't leave me hate comments while I sleep, I prefer to read them with my eyes open...

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[aedan-mills]

ok ok ok for the prompt thing, uh...whotsit, 27? the “I’m pregnant.” one (minus mpreg) and it's Chameron

go team!

"I'm pregnant." A woman told Charlie, a woman he barely recognized, a woman he never loved.

This is what Charlie gets for being the kind to sleep around, for being the kind who never loved properly or settle down.

Of course he took responsibility for the kid, it was the 60s, it would be devastating not to own up to knocking up such a lovely woman. Ah, right, he met her at his dad's Christmas party. Fuck.

His other friends were very supportive, Neil and Todd being the first to be excited (after they scolded him). Charlie wasn't one to be quiet about it too, telling every one of his friends. Except Cameron.

Especially not Cameron.

So it came to no surprise, when Cameron barged into his office and demanded an explanation as to why everyone got a wedding invite except him.

"What the hell Charlie?!"

"Hello, Cameron." Charlie said calmly.

"Don't 'Hello, Cameron' ME! Charlie, why wasn't I invited? I thought we weren't fighting anymore?!"

Charlie looked up at him with a pained expression.

"I.. I didn't what you to come to my wedding."

"I guess you're entitled to not invite me, but you could've at least told me! I'm still your friend, aren't I?"

"I..." Charlie's voice was caught in his throat. "I didn't want you to know I was marrying someone else."

"Were... you planning on marrying someone else?" Cameron brought his hands to his hips. "I'm not gonna judge you over it."

"Cam--" Charlie stood up from his desk and made his way over to Cameron. "Please, I'm asking you nicely, please leave."

Cameron looked visibly hurt by that, but he didn't back down. "Geez, Charlie, if you wanted to end our friendship that badly, you just had to ask."

"Cameron-- It's not that-"

"Then spit it out! I don't wanna have to worry out this-"

"Please, it's not something-"

"Would you just tell me? I'll leave after-"

"It's because it's not you, okay?!" Charlie snapped, making Cameron jolt. "It's because I'm making the worst mistake of my fucking life and I can't handle seeing you there, watching me marry someone else and be happy for me!"

"Charlie..."

"I wanted you to stop me! I wanted you to ask me to run away with you-- Fuck, I needed you to tell me that marrying her was a mistake! I was too fucking afraid to tell you--But now... you come in here to congratulate me and ask to see me married?! How the fuck am I supposed to feel about that?? I realized it's not because I've never loved anyone that I got into this mess-- It's because I can't love you openly that I'm trapped."

"I... I didn't know..."

Charlie let out a bitter chuckle, "Of course you wouldn't. I've hid this fact for so long." Charlie looked up at him with a single tear glossing his eye. "So do me a huge fucking favor, don't be there when I get married. I-- I won't be able to live with myself."

Cameron backs away before exiting Charlie's office. Charlie slumps down onto the floor, bawling silently as he let Cameron slip through his fingers once more.

Uhhhh I'm sorry-- I--

[backseatloversz]

good dps fic recs??

HELL YEAH !! this got a bit long so they r under the cut :)

i hope u dont mind they're all shippy

rated G, T, M, unrated

most, if not all, are one part/chapter

they're ordered by word count, shortest to longest !

the summaries are copy + pasted from the fics :')

lmk if any of the authors are on tumblr! <3

anderperry my beloveds

here are a few alternate ending fics :)

Erosion

Todd Anderson’s mind runs a mile a minute, even when it’s not supposed to.

As You Breeze Through

The two share a moment before Neil heads off to rehearsal.

miniature honeymoon

the pet name echoed in neil's ears, a warmth pooling in his stomach. 'sweetheart'. good lord, it was cheesy- but it was romantic. ----------- two gay bitches being lovey dovey!!! thats it thats the fic

to be alone with you

a brief look into neil and todd's relationship

In Motion

Neil Perry is not, in fact, a very talented poet. It is rather intimidating to find out that his roommate is.

be still my foolish heart

in which mr perry doesn’t find out about the play. in which the best day of Neil’s life has a sweeter ending. in which tragedy, for a moment, is averted.

Seasick

Neil and Todd don't know they're in love, but everyone else does.

I'll Take Care of You

Todd insists he can take care of himself but Neil has other ideas

Just a couple of guys being dudes.

the heart, and it’s attenuated whispers

Before Neil Perry was an actor, he was a boy fascinated with the qualms of Ancient Greece. When Charlie had screamed, “to indeed be a god” during one of Mr. Keating’s unconventional lessons, Neil knew exactly the feeling. Somewhere along the way, he had lost it though- the power of Ares, his favorite, all scorn and blood. Because even through the bloodshed, Ares was celebrated, worshipped. Someone so bloody, cruel could have temples built in their name, Neil loved it. But he wasn’t that boy anymore, obsessed with the gods and their problems, because now he had his own problems. And boy did he have a lot of them.

O, Then, Dear Saint, Let Lips Do What Hands Do by @tellmewhytheyswoon <3

“Maybe we could come out together, one day,” Neil says, and there’s a tenderness in his voice that a more naive person would mistake for love. But not Todd. He’s not stupid. He lets Neil hold his hand for a moment longer, savors the feeling of the other boy’s thumb grazing his knuckles, before removing his hand, and responding in a detached, blase way:

“Yeah, maybe.”

The five times Todd almost comes out to Neil, and the one time he does.

The Fire That Melts The Snow

Todd hasn't stopped thinking about Neil Perry in all the years since his death. How could he, when so many questions were left unanswered when they last spoke?It takes just one knock on the door to answer them all.

Over the Rooftops of the World

The moment Mr. Keating tells them about the Dead Poets' Society, something hard knots low in Todd's stomach. He's never been good with clubs or societies, with things that require you to formally spend time with others. Sucking the marrow out of life sounds like the sort of thing they've been doing already, even if Mr. Keating is probably referring to something more dramatic (better) than what they've been doing in class. But words dripped from our tongues like honey sounds kind of intimidating, and Gods were created sounds like the kind of thing Todd ought to just avoid entirely.

and chameron my beloveds

Chocolate Ice-Cream

hardy boys

A major crisis hits both boys at different times in their lives. Surprisingly, they're both there for each other.

[poetofthedyingstars]

anagolay — "it'll always be you" ; chameron

( btw thank u so much for the ask on my 100 followers celebration <3 ily )

always you

cameron kept glancing at charlie who was talking to some girl across the room. she isn’t some girl though - which is worse - she’s joy, cameron’s co-worker. cameron doesn’t even remember joy greeting him and yet she’s still here. charlie's been talking to her forever. what could they possibly be talking and laughing about? it's annoying the hell out of him.

cameron grunted and looked down on the champagne glass he can't even finish now. this party was supposed to be about him having fun. and just because his smug smiling ex-boyfriend is here, it's all ruined? cameron sees charlie all the time. they're in the same friend group, for god's sake! so, what's the problem now if charlie's here at cameron's birthday party, talking to some girl? not like cameron still has feelings for charlie, right? that's insane.

“hey, what's the matter? you look depressed.”

cameron looked up to see who was asking and saw neil. neil's pretty much worried about him everyday, he doesn't know why. whether it's because cam and charlie breaking up or cameron being depressed because of career pressure, he'll never know. cameron sighed.

“it's nothing, i'm fine,” he said and took a sip of his champagne. “and for the record, i pretty much look depressed everyday of my life and come on, neil. where’s todd? you look down. i am seriously having the best time!” he forced a laugh and then a fake smile. typical cameron move. is he going to be like this forever? my god, he’s such a fucking loser. neil sat down in front of him and took the champagne out of his hand and drank it instead.

“hey! i was drinking that!” cameron complained. but not like he actually wants to drink it anymore. he’s actually glad.

“yeah, no. you drank enough for the night. i already told you earlier that todd was feeling sick so he didn’t attended the party,” neil said. cameron grunted and covered his face with two hands.

“i’m sorry, neil. out of it tonight. i’m a wreck.”

he heard a laugh behind them which obviously were from charlie. nobody laughs like he does. charlie’s laugh, it’s so loud and annoying, it basically drowns all other sounds in any kind of environment. he laughs like he’s the only person in the world. or maybe that’s just how cameron sees it. but no, that’s dumb! cameron does not think charlie’s laugh was the only thing that matters and he definitely doesn’t want to hear it on repeat every minute of the day. that’s dumb. he’s probably just too drunk now.

“look, cam, you need to go home.” neil said again with genuine concern. “you need to rest. you’re drunk.”

“neil, i just can’t leave my own birthday party.” before neil can ever answer him, somebody else butts in the conversation.

“typical cameron, always thinking of others before yourself. half of your guest already went home and they didn’t even bother to greet you good bye and here you are, drunk and a wreck, worrying about them.”

of course. of course, he’s gonna mock cameron. he always did. cameron didn’t even looked behind him to know who it was. it was charlie. it was always charlie.

“charlie’s right, cam. just go home and i’ll deal with the guests. is that okay?”

cameron’s brain is basically too blank to think. he knows he needs to go home. plus, he can’t stand charlie right now. he just sighed and nodded. “fine.” he mumbled silently.

“great! i’ll talk to everyone, you go home. charlie should accompany you. you’re too drunk to go by yourself.” neil said again while grinning. that woke cameron up.

“what? charlie? i can go home alone! remember your birthday party, well i went by myself, you said i was drunk too but i was fine! i can take care of myself.”

“sounds like a sad brag, honestly.”

cameron glared at charlie. one more second with this annoying piece of shit and he’s gonna burst like a bomb. why can’t charlie just leave him alone? for fuck’s sake.

“i mean, isn’t that time you accidentally slept at someone’s house and almost got sued?” neil argued. fuck. cameron forgot about that.

“but i didn’t get sued, right? i’m fine!”

neil shook his head and stood from his seat. “just let charlie make sure you get into a cab or something.”

“ugh, fine!” he stood up too and stormed off for the exit.

he totally did not like that idea at all. but whatever. he doesn’t want to be a burden to anyone, especially neil. just got to deal with charlie for a moment, he’ll be fine. right?

-

cameron is drunker than what he anticipated himself to be. he just wants to passed out on his bed right now and sleep soundly. the cab was moving so slow and it’s making cameron nauseous. charlie was sitting beside him, using his phone and texting. cameron looked at it. bet he’s texting that girl from earlier. he may never admit it but he does miss charlie. whatever. it’s not like anything’s going to change now. charlie’s probably asked her on a date already.

it sucks so bad. cameron wistfully wished that things between them were the way before it happened. he just misses it so bad. he just wants to hear charlie laugh again but not because of what other people said to him, but cameron. why is cameron so stupid for letting him go? he knows he had to made a choice but fuck, it hurts so bad. he misses his charlie so bad.

cameron didn’t noticed the tears falling from his eyes. he squeezed himself closer to the window and wiped all his tears. charlie noticed him.

“are you okay?”

“yeah… yeah. i’m sorry.” he simply replied but that sorry had a deeper meaning that what he intended to. cameron closed his eyes. “just tell me when we’re near the apartment.” he heard charlie mumble something inaudible but didn’t bother to ask.

-

charlie helped him get out of the cab because he can’t even walk straight anymore. cameron keeps saying he’s sober and can walk on his own but charlie insists. charlie’s always been persistent, no? how can cameron ever resist that piece of shit?

charlie half - dragged, half - carried cameron inside the apartment. charlie’s pretty sure some neighbors looked weirdly at them. whatever.

“you’re so heavy, you know that?” charlie said while dragging cameron to enter the bedroom. when they finally made it inside, he just pushed cameron onto the bed. cameron groaned and laid on the bed properly on his own.

“alright. you're tucked in bed. go to sleep. i'm going to go home.” charlie said and shook his head at the sight of cameron. he's not sure, he ever saw cameron this drunk before. before charlie can walk out, cameron grabbed his hand. charlie looked at him.

“what now?”

“are you going to go out with joy?” charlie almost didn't understand it because cameron was slurring his words. he's so drunk and still won't go to sleep.

“no,” charlie answered honestly because he knows tomorrow, cameron is not gonna remember anything. he doesn't even like joy, why would he go out with her? she's just nice and funny and reminded him of one of his cousins.

cameron laughed. “that's nice to hear. for a second there, i thought you were gonna replace me.”

charlie's eyebrow widened. all the blood on his body went up to his cheeks and he can't stop smiling about it.

“you know what drunk cameron, i am starting to like you but you need to go to sleep before you spill anything else that you're gonna regret tomorrow when you wake up, okay?” charlie put over the blanket on cameron.

“mhmm. will you promise me not to go out with joy first?”

“sheesh, i already told you. i'm not going to go out with her.”

“promise?”

“it'll always be you, cameron. always you. now go to sleep, alright?”

“mmkay.” cameron finally said and went to sleep. charlie smiled by himself. cameron wouldn't remember tomorrow and he can't place whether that was a good thing or a bad thing. but, certainly, this is a start to something. charlie kissed cameron's forehead before he left.

[all-pacas]

this might just be me, but chameron were at their most interesting in season 3. I mean they were fucking all over the hospital but never actually had a conversation?? Teasing each other when performing procedures??? Chase deciding that she's the one for him?? There's a gold moine of material there but for some reason fic authors rarely write about this period. If you have any fics/wips/headcannons, they'd be much appreciated!

HONESTLY i've been meaning to yell at length about the woman cameron is because it's so insane. like i don't understand why anyone believes anything she says. she trots up to chase like "i will never ever fall in love with you, let's have sex," and by the next episode they're coming into work together after showering together after spending the night together. this whole "there are BOUNDARIES and RULES" things disintigrates immediately.

cameron keeps calling it a relationship and chase keeps correcting her. he's the one to suggest she wants to make house jealous, the episode before there's a subplot about cameron doing just that. they're fucking all over the hospital. when chase wants to stop doing that, cameron invites him on a lunch date. she keeps initiating sex, we never see chase suggest it once. and then when he takes all this to mean huh, i guess we're in a relationship she goes HOW DARE YOU??? like holy shit cameron mixed messages i love you. and she — as chase points out — starts acting like he dumped her, like he hurt her.

and we're supposed to believe her when she's like "i have no feelings for this man?" "i will never have feelings for this man?" GIRL. i mean at the LEAST she is sending the most mixed messages ever. they have spent, apparently, every single day of this period fucking and going on lunch dates and staying at one another's places. this was the worst friends with benefits situation of all time. they were absolutely dating. and yes chase is the one who got feelings first, as soon as 'half wit' he was clearly -- there's a little surprised look he gets when foreman suggests cameron make out with house, like, oh no -- and cameron is opaque. and i don't know that she was in love with chase or anything, just that she was absolutely treating this like a Relationship and it's insane she gets mad at chase for thinking it was. i adore her. chase was 500% correct when he said she had feelings for him because she has feelings for everyone. i even think you can make a case that she picked him intentionally, because she liked him, but had to couch it in disclaimers and "it means nothing" because she can't stand to cede control or be vulnerable like that: she actually says exactly that in "lockdown," and frankly? it makes sense. like yes it's kiiiinda a retcon but it checks out for her. i do think she was totally sincere about not wanting a relationship and not wanting to date chase. i absolutely think she fucked this up completely and totally from moment one. she did nothing wrong and i love her

[eliotquillon]

Just remebered that the S6 og team coming back was only supposed to be temporary, I wonder what would've happened if chase just stayed on as a surgeon, he could've still used the whole "I don't regret what I did, I don't want to leave princeton" and cameron might've stayed(or maybe not).

It specifically was the fact that he wanted to work for House again, after all these years, that was the last straw for his marriage.

agree that it’s specifically chase doubling down and staying with house that makes cameron leave the marriage—although i don’t know if that’s necessarily what ends it. their marriage ended less because cameron left, and more because chase refused to follow her; in previous aspects of their relationship cameron has pushed away and had chase follow her and everything has more or less worked out fine (chase’s insistence on reminding her he likes her after the fwb thing ends is part of why they’re even together at all!). and i think cameron did expect chase to follow her again? marriages usually have death throes for months before a divorce—look at taub and his wife, their drama drags on for YEARS before he even considers a separation—but the chameron divorce is just. immediate. cameron coming back to ppth asking why chase hasn’t signed the divorce papers yet would make sense if they’d been separated for months, but they’ve only been apart for a few weeks after she makes the snap decision to leave on her own (and cameron CAN be impulsive, sure, but she is someone who prides herself on controlling her actions and desire). it’s weird!

there are a lot of reasons why i think she came back to ppth in lockdown (i think alongside her saviour complex cameron also has a bit of a martyr thing going on and a part of her was probably quietly hoping for a blowout argument so she could rationalise about things ending and not being her fault) but imo i think a big one is that she expected him to be ready to leave and follow her now. would’ve been the best cameron win of all time: chase grew a spine (exciting!) but obligingly retracted it once she applied enough pressure and moves back to her hometown where she can serve as an emotional ‘carer’ to ‘redeem’ him from the Bad Horrible Murder He Did. cameron never would’ve had to overemphasise with a dying patient again this would’ve kept her going for years. unfortunately that’s not how things turn out at all. Lol.

anyway, back to the point (promise i had one) i genuinely don’t think chase pushes to stay in princeton if it’s not for house’s involvement/the fellowship. we’ve seen chase try to hold boundaries with house in s4 and 5: he sucks at it. he succeeds in getting house off his back professionally but keeps spare bowling shoes in his car and is ready to advise him about Women And Their Friends. i think it was always going to be all or nothing for him: princeton or chicago, house or cameron. if the dibala thing had still happened with chase working in surgery, he would’ve moved to chicago and never looked back imo. you can untangle dibala and the divorce, but i don’t think you can untangle house and the divorce. like what does chase have at ppth apart from house and cameron? his boss resents him for being one of house’s former fellows (and the weird custody dispute that comes with that). he’s always living in fear of house coming knocking and not being able to draw that boundary next time. if chase had stayed a surgeon and still killed dibala, him and cameron would’ve run off to chicago and baby trapped each other and lived toxically ever after. I just can’t see it any other way :(

[propaganda-for-poets]

Bestie pls can I have some Chameron headcanons?? I'm desperate honestly it's a problem. You don't have to btw.

bestie. of course. my old newsies mutuals may have noticed that i do this thing where i enter a fandom and suddenly i can only talk about one specific ship, yeah that ship here happens to be chameron and i am always more than happy to talk about them.

let's just do some nice happy headcannons today bc a couple days ago i wrote a fic about charlie leaving welton and i've decided i officially need a break from angst, alright

IN FACT YOU KNOW WHAT let's make them post-welton !!!!!! y'know after all the poets including neil graduate and keating never gets fired as always since that is the canon ending of the movie, nothing bad happens ever.

okay so.

charlie and cameron have been rooming together since year 1, it's kinda the end of an era that they're now both supposed to move into separate apartments and they're both really sad about it but refuse to say anything

you think this wouldn't be a problem for two people who have been dating for a year and shared a dorm since they were children, so they can easily move in together, but this is charlie and cameron communication kings so obviously they're being stubborn and aren't saying anything

and they just spend their last weeks at welton all like

"yeah yeah i wonder who's gonna help you find your stuff when you're not living with me anymore,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,cause like you won't. in a few weeks you won't."

"come on stop studying and talk to me i'm bored" "well soon you won't be able to talk to me whenever you want. because i will be in a different place. like i'll no longer be around 24/7."

"you know you better treasure these last moments you get to see me. cause after we graduate who knows when you'll see me again,,,,," "okay, charlie that's a little dramatic, you're not leaving the country-" "i'll be gone, cam, very soon. forever." "you won't be-" "i mean god knows where i'll be-"

it ends up being charlie who asked (i wrote about that here !) and so we have charlie and cameron sharing an apartment :)

both of them get into harvard because,,, that's welton boys for you of course literally the entire school makes the ivy league. cameron's literally smart as shit he can make whatever school he wants and charlie,,, well charlie has a lot of money.

i'm kidding i'm kidding, charlie's no doofus and attending welton is already a good look for any university, charlie can definitely make harvard on his own if he could survive welton but y'know being filthy rich wasn't exactly a disadvantage

charlie will always show cameron off all like "my boyfriend goes to harvard you know !!!!!!!!" and cameron's like "char,,,, so do you,,,,,,,"

but y'all don't care about who goes where i'm aware of this, let's get into the apartment shenanigans

okay, sharing a dorm for years in welton definitely had its advantages because there's none of those annoying habits of someone's you only start noticing after you're under the same roof, like leaving their clothes on the floor or playing music too loudly, they're already aware of all that stuff, they don't care anymore

they do have their own rooms now, but it doesn't matter a lot because they keep just falling asleep together on the couch.

most of the time cameron will just wake up in the middle of the night and attempt to take charlie to his room but he's learned overtime that charlie will just whine and complain until he stays with him so he ends up just taking him to his own room in the first place

slowly it becomes less "cameron's room" and more "their room", the other room just kinda stays there.

cameron is a GOD TIER cook we'e been over this but somehow they only take advantage of that skill of his on really??? questionable occasions?????

like they'll order chinese from the place down the street for dinner but if cameron wakes up to find charlie in the kitchen at 3 am munching on a piece of toast he'll be like "okay let's make some onion soup."

midnight snacks are for amateurs. here we have midnight meals.

they bake together a lot, though. whenever they find time cameron will just whip out a recipe and they'll bake something together, and they'll be very couple-y and disgusting while doing it too

of course it always resorts in them making a big mess

"charlie. charie stop putting your hands in the brownie mix."

"okay, fine."

"charlie, your hand's still in there, stop it."

"or else what, what're you gonna d- WH- DID YOU JUST THROW AN EGG AT ME WHAT THE FUCK"

then they'll have to spend the entire afternoon cleaning up the kitchen

"what're you laughing about now, dalton?"

"you have flour on your cheek."

"and whose fault is that?"

"stop being annoying, you're cute right now"

"oh yeah?"

"mhm, yeah."

cameron overworks himself a lot and a lot of times charlie will get up late at night to find him still studying

he'll always go up to him like "cam, tf. it's four in the morning. come to bed."

"i just have to get this finished."

"well, okay, i'll just stay up with you until you go to sleep."

"charlie that's not healthy you need to-,,,,,,,,,,oh you're evil, dalton, threatening me with your own well-being."

"damn right i am, now go to sleep."

okay we all know charlie. we know how he is. so it's no surprise to anyone that it didn't take long for him to bring a random stray animal into the house

cameron just comes back from class to see charlie with a tiny ginger car.

"cam, you're back-"

"nope. not happening, take it back."

"hey, it is a she, and i love her now."

"no, no you don't, she's going back."

"i can't i'm attached to her! look at her! she's adorable, she's my new favorite ginger."

",,,,,, okay now she's definitely going back."

she did not go back.

charlie named her arabella and cameron insisted she was annoying and always wanted attention and wouldn't let him study

"hey, you said the exact same things about me and you love me now, give her time!"

"i don't love you right now."

"well, i love you a lot. and i love her too, she's part of the house now."

",,,,,,,god, fine, you're lucky you're my weakness. i'll tolerate her."

one time charlie returned from class to find cameron sleeping on the couch with arabella on his lap.

he never hears the end of it once he's awake

"so, how's hating her going for you, richard?"

"shut up, she's warm."

"so you no longer despise my cat? because she's warm?"

"first of all she's our cat i don't clean cat fur all over the house for her to be your cat and,,,, she's not all that bad."

[maisietheweltoncow]

I love anderperry and I love chameron but in different ways and for different reasons

Anderperry feels very much like soft hand touches, reading a book under the covers when you're supposed to be asleep, being scared of the dark, candles (for some reason), dark and light mixed together, harmony, singing together, calm, the sound of the ocean

Chameron feels like clashing of opinions but still loving each other afterwards, it feels like not really giving a fuck anymore, it feels like running away and laying in a field trying to catch your breath, once in a lifetime, it's ridiculous and stupid, it feels coarse like sandpaper but also like silk, it feels like sand in your toes because not everyone likes that but some people love it, it feels like validation of who you are, loving someone despite your differences.

[aelinsassryvergalathynius]

Rules: Tag 9 people you’d like to get to know better.

I was tagged in this by @abookandacoffee (I swear all the tags I’ve done are because of you but I really appreciate it <3)

Relationship status: Single but that means more book time so yay

Lipstick or chapstick: Lip balm. Always. I can’t leave the house without it.

Last movie I watched: Ummm, I think it was Suicide Squad? I’m pretty sure that was last weekend. It wasn’t that impressive but the music was really good even though I was confused half the time.

Top 3 shows: 

1. The 100. Just. Clarke Griffin.

2. House MD. It brings back really good memories but also Jennifer Morrison is just my fave. And also Chameron will always stay in my heart.

3. Game of Thrones I guess. Or Once Upon a Time. OUAT because, yet again, JMo is in it and plays the main character. GoT because Dany and Robb Stark mostly. Plus their intro is so epic.

Top 3 book characters: 

You can’t expect me to answer this without it being a long winded response. You just can’t.

1. Aelin Ashryver Galathynius, my actual queen and all time favourite character. There is no debate with this one. At all.

2. Mor and Mare Barrow. There’s so much stuff we don’t know about Mor and I just love mysterious characters, so she’s naturally up here. Also refer back to my blog about both Aelin and Mor because they are just goddesses. I love Mare so much because she’s genuinely so so realistic and idk really why I like her this much. I tend to like the character that the fandom really doesn’t like

3. Okay. Well. This is a list of characters because they’re all my faves and I can’t order them. Also I usually put Mor, Mare and Emma together as my faves underneath Aelin, but idk, I’m not bothered writing anymore, but know that Emma is supposed to be up in no. 2 as well.

Ronan Lynch, Yael Reider, Mia Corvere, Emma Carstairs, Helene Aquilla, Kelsea Glynn, Kestrel, Jesper Fahey, Nick Nygård and Paige Mahoney.

I tag @christina-dh @a-court-of-dreams-and-assassins 

I’m not tagging nine people in this because I don’t know enough people that I know but don’t know enough to tag in this.

[poetofthedyingstars]

anderperry week presents, day 5: one bed trope: “a lover's quarrel and one bed”

def not angst. not fluff either. my context brought me to an idea of a longer fic. but well. enjoy.

taglist: @aedan-mills @theluminoussunflower @crispin-kreme

there were murmurs among their group as they enter a ragged motel they found.

“i told you to check the car before leaving!”

“the renter said it was okay it's not my fault if y'all's butt was too heavy for the car.”

“no offense but this time it's your fault.”

“whatever. just go check in the rooms i'm so tired.”

“oh so now you want to check in huh?”

“oh god please—”

pairs of eyes were rolled, you could hear some snickers among them. the receptionist stared in awkwardness. this is her everyday job- but people get weirder everytime.

“hi! my name's cameron. we want to book a room for uh,” he paused, looking back to his group and making sure of the count. “four rooms.”

“make that five,” todd said in the back. neil looked at him in horror.

“todd—”

“don't talk to me.”

tension in the air.

...

cameron cleared his throat. “right. so, five rooms, please.”

“uh, yes, uhm, i’m really sorry! it's peak season and we're kinda full of travellers tonight! we only have... one room left. fortunately for you, it's the family room.”

they all looked at each other. there's seven of us and it's the middle of the night. the car is broken and one of their love birds is having a fight. worst day ever? more like end of the world for them.

“do we take it?”

“fine with me as long as i don't stay with this guy,” todd jerked his head to his left where neil was standing.

“todd i swear to god—”

“i said don't talk to me.”

“i-” neil grunted in frustrations.

“i suggest you take it because it's hard to find another hotel with a vacant room tonight,” said the receptionist.

“yeah, okay! fine. we'll take it.”

they looked at each other. it's going to be one hell of a night. the room was nice enough— neat and clean. it has three small beds and enough space for the others to sleep on the floor. (although one can always sleep in the bathtub.)

“who's sleeping and who's not?”

“i paid for the hotel room, im sleeping on a bed.”

“im the boyfriend of the one who paid for the hotel room— so im sleeping on the bed too.”

“im fine with the floor, honestly.”

“not me though, y'all can wake up tomorrow with back aches. im team bed!”

after a long time of bickering and discussing, it was finally decided that; chameron, knox (since he REALLY insisted on sleeping on the bed) and mitts. so, naturally, the other two kids would be sleeping on the *drum rolls* their do-it-yourself bed on the cold hard floor. not bad. would you rather sleep on the bathtub? no.

it was late so the tv was off, the lights are off, and so is the vibes between todd and neil. on the far right side of the room, there was a blanket laid next to each other. even though earlier it was made clear that the strong tension between them can't be resolved tonight.

neil was facing todd's back. he sighed. everyone was asleep, for sure. except him and his worries. the worst duo ever.

“i'm sorry,” he whispered. todd didn't move or said anything. “really.”

the waves were still, he supposed. he hoped with all his heart that todd would talk to him soon without snapping. he closed his eyes. he doesn't know how but he slept.

and when we he woke up, todd's head was laying on his chest, his legs on top of neil's. he bit his lip and smiled. to his dismay, todd woke up and pushed him. he didn't said a word but there was a blush on his face. neil let it be. he would talk to todd and todd would burn him. better shut up, then.

they leave the hotel early to finally get their now fixed, broken car.

“can i sit with you knox?”

“uh, sure todd!”

neil sighed internally.

“you know what, just make out you two. im getting tired of this bickering and cold treatments.”

“make out? you mean make up?”

“same shit.”

the eyes were rolled and the engine started. neil looked at todd who was sitting in front of him. how he would love to sit next to (t)his boy right now. but for now, he just have to sit through their road trip until they find another hotel with a bed. hopefully, one where he can lay down with todd.