#certified vent moment

[oddthesungod]

fuckin…. im a bit grouchy today, but reading “omg someone who draws, draw this extremely complicated and time consuming idea I had for free teehee just throwing this idea out there” makes me want to chew concrete, this isnt cute, you arent coy. just the flippancy of it rubs me the wrong way, “teehee im not asking for artists to draw for me for free, im just throwing this idea out there teehee”

Drives me up the walls, you want your ideas drawn, animated, whatever? Fucking pay an artist

[shithowdy]

realized a drawing i'm doing rn is almost identically posed to one i did 8.5 years ago of a different oc, except the old drawing was instantly tainted by one of the players featured messaging me asking if i could take it down because their abusive, possessive rp partner saw it and got jealous of them "roleplaying behind their back" and i said "nah" and it became a whole Thing that i should have walked away from at that exact moment but didn't and the 6 months that followed contained some of the most truly condensed batshit i have ever witnessed in an rp community already well-known for its batshittery.

... anyway i love my friends. so happy to accidentally redeem the pose.

[labratboygirl]

ronnie/pax (among others)

he/it/pretty much any except they

gods #1 bigender fagfreak ravenous beast gore enjoyer and objectliker (in more ways than one)

minor . btw yk the drill with that

brainworms currently wiggling over miitopia / drive45 / smiling friends / cult of the lamb / diet tea other cola / machine girl / alphalore + alphastar716 / mouthwashing / itlop + thitcs + tj klune / objectified / twomp + ashur gharavi

normally i do not maintag fandom posts because i shrimply get Nervous👍

feel free 2 send asks or dms or whatevr …….. ilove attention

no specific dni but i block when needed

THE SILLYSQUAD !!!!!!!!!! (fun fact first person is my wife whom i love oh so much)

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@kinb0x <- blog for erm . Things and Stuff (fiction/otherkin junk)

ok go have fun also look at my Images

[bnuuwitch]

Honestly it’s shit like this that discourages me from even using tumblr in the first place like goddamn. All that work, all those posts, and for what? For it to be swept away like a tiny- not even a full shell, a shard of a shell, unto an unforgiving sea.

It’s odd. And definitely not what I needed with all the shit going on in my life right now. Tumblr, as it stands, was the one place I could turn to for relaxation and comfort, to post my art, to see my tiny platform grow with each subsequent follower, and it made me smile to see people love my art

Now it’s gone, slipped right through my hands with all the swiftness of the wind.

[artcinemas]

i think i just sabotaged my entire relationship

[raine-but-irl]

goddamn bro my mom reaaaaaallllly needs to take a chill pill or 2 bro

[official-bunbun]

DID is quite the disorder

[turbo-enid]

Vent

When you planned on studying, but your mom shut the door on you while you were speaking so you feel triggered and on top of that your period pains began, so now you'd just rather fill your mind up with distractions.

[sailormaya]

when the intense fear of abandonment disorder gives you an intense fear of abandonment

[xbadnews-a]

tonight i've been almost entirely unavailable ooc! I've been painting & drawing & listening to cr. i just haven't been in the right headspace to be talking to people so I've stayed mostly to myself <3

[nathanland]

I blame this one girl back in my catholic school years for giving me the blonde white girl fetish

[aeternaluminanoctis]

It's us and this new hello kitty hoodie against the world

[yeahyeahbeebiss1]

who up cutting off everyone they know out of fear of them cutting you off

[hamsteroveriord]

me when i see a artist young than me draw much more better art than me

[shaaaaaaar]

names are assholes and i’ve cornered myself T^T

>my name is mystery

>i decided that i also vibed with lee and having a normal sounding name is useful

>”hey guys i use lee/mystery”

>literally everyone ever uses lee

>the name mystery becomes anxiety for me bc nobody uses it (“what if people think its stupid bc the moment they get a chance to use something else they take it” + it sucks when people dont use both names yknow) its so atypical so its hard to use anyway (employers and transphobia and shit)

>i trick myself into thinking lee is just as fine as mystery

>i go to college

>week 1 i realize im lying to myself i dont like lee much

>this feeling of dislike only grows. the dislike is now hatred. it is genuinely uncomfortable now.

>i realize that actually wait mystery fucks still i was right the first time

>too scared to say “please stop calling me lee” to 75% of people because now lee is so ingrained everywhere and despite knowing i use both NOBODY USES MYSTERY

>ive somehow trapped myself into a second fucking deadname, except i chose the damn name this was by my own creation

>also realizes i still should get a normal name that employers would like and transphobes wouldnt kill me over that isnt mystery

>every name is wrong and bad. im starting to think its mystery or bust.

>but going by mystery is hard because ive barely been able to tell people i genuinely hate the current alternative, i immediately out myself as queer doing so which safety concerns, and if i say i use two names EVERYONE WOULD USE THE SECOND NORMAL NAME

>part of me is afraid that id also hate mystery if i use it in school despite two years of highschool not being a problem, and that id get shit if i changed my name in the system to mystery despite people probably not caring much

>i think im fucked

[benetnvsch]

hmm...