#cause bad dream woke me

[theycall-vn]

outlined more of chapters 2 & 5 did some thinking about chapter 3, but it's like... not. there yet. i have a vague idea, it's just not turning into anything that i can work with yet.

gotta brain-microwave it longer i think

drafted more of prologue and chapter 1 so i'm about like... halfway or maybe a third of the way through writing the prologue. yeah a third sounds more accurate. might end up adding more to the prologue as i go tho, so

and i started drafting another bad end. lost steam halfway through cause i'm having to research some stuff and it just kinda threw me off a lil

started lining main menu bg. thinking about the easiest way to animate it also. have an idea, won't know how well it'll go until after i've finished the static parts

also started sketching first cg. not super happy with it, so i might go take pictures around my house to get a better feel for what i want.

edited script. forgot some options, choices, and customization stuff. had to go in and rewrite some stuff after those edits also.

have to do some more sketches for bb later.

also need to edit chapter 1 scripts now - awkward flow. i might do that today? after lunch, i need to eat lol

[black-and-yellow]

[slav-every-day]

[foldingfittedsheets]

i just read about the pearl dream and like--the symbolism of that is so perfect??? pearls build up around a source irritant for a long time, so you not being able to leave the dream island--and other people being content to stay there--is a great representation of (unsuccessfully) coping with a bad situation. super cool and freaky dream

Right?? I found it again and was like that’s worth resharing. I was working at a jewelry store at the time I dreamed it, I was surrounded by pearls all day. My favorites were always the black ones.

One of the neat things about my dreams is that very often they’re just stories without a lot of deeper meaning. I read a ton, I’m always analyzing narratives, my brain loves a good story.

So it makes sense that my subconscious does this, especially since I tell myself stories to fall asleep. Sometimes the resulting dreams are silly rom coms and sometimes they’re dark stories about being trapped on an island that’s injecting you with pearls that make you forget you want to leave!

[affectionatecorpse]

Not my ex being spitefully childish online about me having the small Blahaj while they have the big one 😭

"Oh my god yours is so small compared to mine lmao someone got scammed" he is my SON and I LOVE him even if he is short!! I'm short too, [REDACTED]!!! He is BABEY!!!!!

He is such a soft lil guy and I'm glad he's the size he is cause I can take him EVERYWHERE you southern fried FUCK--

Bonus:

[calkale]

just had the worst nightmare of my life thats really cool i didn’t think the other one could be topped 😐

(tw for the tags cause i need to say this and i dont have a journal or anything)

[clits-and-clips]

I dont even know what to say anymore. I'm just in so much pain. I've never experienced this kind of loss before. And we were together for so long. I woke up from a bad dream again. I wish I could control them. I wish I could cuddle him in the morning. I wish things were different

[fallenrain40]

my blood sugar has been high all day so far i do not feel good :(

[sevenangrybees]

My surgeon gave me medical grade honey to put on my problem nipple and the urge to lick the applicator after every dressing change is so so strong....

[bowman-01-blog]

Summarizing a conservative fanfiction I read (and didn’t like)

Dude gets frozen for 50 years and wakes up in a New World Order cyberpunk dystopia controlled by woke cancel culture (I’m serious) where you get sterilized if you say too many bad words. He escapes into the forests of Ontario and finds a village of furries.

He impresses them by working an honest day’s work on the farm and then the Husky daughter takes him scavenging for resources. She talks about how she wants to get married to a good man and how they’ve got a weird system where basically all of a woman’s suitors get together in the town square to propose and if there’s a disagreement they fight? But also she gets to choose?

But there’s this other wolf man who’s also a scavenger who wants to marry her so he pretends to save her from bandits he hired, but the human ALPHA MALE is so good at fighting that he unmasks the whole ruse. But she’s gonna be forced to marry the guy because she’s a bit quirky and antisocial, because she’s been providing for her family you see (instead of giving birth and cooking meals, I imagine), so he’s the only suitor left.

Anyways, I stopped reading when they got back to town and the human is having a heart to heart with her mother and is like “you know, maybe I’m gonna fuck your wolf daughter so that she doesn’t have to marry that other guy”, cause this nice guy sure won’t finish last...

Oh and the furries are explained away as when the conservative militias who didn’t comply with the NWO were drenched in radioactive viruses that melded their DNA with their pets and so all their kids are hot furries.

[jonny-b-meowborn]

me when I'm normal <- experiences an hour long on-and-off sleep paralysis

[pigeon-mermaid]

Woke up sad from a fuckass dream and thought of being comforted into a hug but with me being too shit at emotional stuff of this sorta thing sometimes well... (... i'm better at it i think, i used to be much worse) So naturally the obvious alternative was to think of being comforted by myself, which lead me to think of clone tropes, of course.

This in turn, lead me to think of how it would all work out, how they could do all the things i'm too much of a coward to do... except they probably wouldn't since they are me, so. Also they couldn't alter too much about themselves cause it would negate the point of being a clone? and then we'd get caught being two persons and what? do i introduce them as a long lost twin or?? (ALSO on the technically side of things they have no papers & ID & shit fuck... let's just forgor about those for a sec). They'd obviously have to hang with the same friends cause i know i'd be sad as fuck if i didn't. They'd have to create an internet handle too fucking I'd have to explain we are actually two persons now to my friends server so i can invite them QZSJHGNK What if they are better than me though and people like them better... Who truly is the real one if one of them allow themselves to live to the fullest... But knowing myself, i'd also feel so bad knowing my other self feels sad, whether i'm the clone or the original

Anyway i dont know where i was going with this but... we would just probably hang like 🧍🧍 but at least i could hug them whenever, probably, if they'd let me (also i probably should allow myself to be a bit bolder & kinder to myself)

[weareuniqueandimportant]

:(!!!! YOU FORGOT TO MAKE US TRANSITION!!!! WE'VE BEEN LIKE THIS ALL THIS TIME PLEASE SAVE US!!!!

[neverendingford]

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[youssefguedira]

i dont Want to go outside

[lightningfilledsaber]

Had an awful fucking nightmare and nothing I do is helping long term. It's just short bursts of forgetting until the images flash in my head again