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certified ATL crashout

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TED KORD/BLUE BEETLE CONSTRUCT + SENDING A MESSAGE for MICHAEL JON CARTER/BOOSTER GOLD in THE ALL NEW ATOM

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Alright, fuck it, Shazam pitch (it’ll be in multiple parts because different stuff goes into it like continuity and so on). So, here’s

PART 1 OF THE SHAZAM ANIMATED SERIES PITCH

(Also sorry for the use of the Zach Levi gifs, I promise he’ll have nothing to do with this)

Okay, so first of all, we gotta deal with

PREVIOUS DCEU CONTINUITY AND THE DCU

So, I’m sure many people are wondering how this will work, we don’t know exactly how it’ll work with what’s confirmed to be brought back (I.e. Blue Beetle, Peacemaker, Amanda Waller, etc.) but I assume some aspects from DCEU canon will be kept, while others will be left to die, so this post, we‘ll discuss what elements, character and plot from the first two movie (and maybe Black Adam idk) that we’ll be keeping.

Plot elements:

So, plot elements, what elements from the plot and characters are we gonna keep?

First of all, I’m keeping most of the events of both films, however, there will be some changes from the films, mainly Superman and Wonder Woman, and Fury of the Gods mid-credits scene.

The versions of Superman and Wonder Woman will obviously be different because they already are/will be recast for the new universe. This will change background stuff like the newspapers related to Superman Freddy kept in the first film, including no MoS like event being canon (THANK FUCKING GOD ITS NOT GONNA BE CANON). Same with Wonder Woman, she’ll be played by a new actress who’ll be played by a new actresses in the series (GOOD RIDDANCE ZIONIST AND TERRIBLE ACTRESSES GAL GADOT), though Fury of the Gods ending will be different, we’ll get to it in a minute.

As for Fury of the Gods mid-credit scene, it doesn’t make sense. Waller being connected to the Justice Society of America (JSA) has never made sense no matter how you look at it, and Economos and Harcourt recruiting Billy for the JSA is ass backwards. Waller being connected to the JSA is from Black Adam and can be ignored. The mid-credits scene with Economos and Harcourt is going to also be massively redone, and will include JSA members as originally intended (Economos and Harcourt are the ones to recruit Billy in the mid-credits scene because of the production of Black Adam wanting nothing to do with Shazam, as well as the fact that both Shazam films, The Suicide Squad, and Peacemaker share the same producer, who is also the co-ceo of DC). We’ll discuss the JSA members who will recruit Billy soon ish lol.

As for what I’m keeping, it’s mostly everything else. From Billy being abandoned by his mother, to going from foster home to foster home trying to find her, getting adopted by the Vasquez family, getting his powers from the Wizard, being a little shit with the powers and getting into a fight with his brother, fighting Sivana, confronting his mom, saving his new family, giving them superpowers, defeating Sivana, being shitty superheroes, Freddy meeting a goddess, the city getting domed off, fighting the gods, the family and goddess Anthea losing their powers, Billy finishing the fight, Billy dying and getting resurrected (but not by Wonder Woman, gasp), and getting recruited to the JSA (by members of the JSA.

It’s a lot, but I think the films work for the most part, and actually work to set up Shazam as a powerful guy who can make a difference on multiple scales, but because of his lack of branding and other heroes in the universe, he’s still a nobody hero when compared to Batman, Superman, or Wonder Woman, and status wise, is closer to heroes like Booster Gold, Blue Beetle, Guy Gardner, and so on (which is where he was when Justice League International was released, which is what the DCU seems to be based off of).

Also, no, for this pitch you won’t have to have watched Shazam 1 or 2 to understand this, as it’ll be recapped in the beginning in a similar manner to Across the Spider-Verse, so you’d be able to just jump into the series with no prior knowledge, which is what the DCU is already aiming for with who is returning for it (ie John Cena Peacemaker and Xolo Maridueña Blue Beetle). Now that that’s worked out, let’s discuss-

RETURNING AND NON-RETURNING CAST

Alright, now with the casting. I want to bring most of the cast from the films back, along with the JSS from Black Adam because I think they were all well cast and deserve second chances in films that don’t involve the Rock or behind the scenes bull shittery caused by the Rock.

HOWEVER, I would not bring Zachery Levi back as the adult counterpart Shazam for multiple reasons, the big one being his very recent decent into madness and recent political endorsements(which are very orange). However, his portrayal was already questioned by multiple viewers who enjoyed the sequel. A lot of people I’ve seen prefer Asher Angel’s Billy Batson over Levi’s Shazam, and I don’t blame them. Billy in Shazam 2 is much more mature, and while I understand what Levi was going for, portraying a kid who feels he can act more youthful in adult superhero form, but he went way to far in the immature direction and he loses the forest for the trees. That coupled with Levi’s recent decent, I wouldn’t bring him back, and instead, Asher Angel would play both parts.

Another reason why I want Asher Angel to play both parts is because I want Billy Batson to be able to grow up. It’s something that rarely happens with him, and I feel like he’s one of THE superheroes that can show many kids that growing up is okay. That it’s okay if it goes slowly, just enjoy it and don’t be afraid of growing up as you get older. A superhero that reflects truly would’ve meant the world to me (it’s why I like MCU Spider-Man, because he was that for me in a way) but Shazam, it can be so much more explicit and cathartic for kids and adults. I’ll get more into that in the next part when I talk about the character arcs for the central characters. But, let’s go through everyone I’m bringing back

Asher Angel as Billy Batson/Shazam

Sorry for the lack of images. But yeah, as I’ve mentioned multiple times, we’re bringing back Asher Angel, but her won’t be the only one playing both versions of their character. I want to see Asher Angel be able to actually play the superhero and show how Billy is different whenever he’s his normal self and whenever he’s Shazam. Plus, I have a feeling he can be really really funny as well. It’d also also be really nice to see him as Shazam interact with characters like Corenswet’s Superman, JSA members I’ll talk about soon, Xolo’s Blue Beetle, and so on, as well as seeing him become a part of the Justice League or Justice League International.

Jack Dylan Grazer as Freddy Freeman

I did say most of the cast, so just prepare for repetition. I really like him as Freddy, he’s very goofy, and I also like would like to see him in his heroic form as well, again, I’d like to just see what he’d do with the heroic side, as well as how he’d change his voice in some since Freddy is the one I imagine would change his voice when in heroic form. We’ll also delve more into Freddy and his backstory, but we’ll get into that later. Moving on.

Grace Caroline Curry as Mary Bromfield

So, here’s the most popular character from these movies. Grace has already played both versions of Mary, so nothing new there in concept, but with Mary, I wanna focus on her backstory, as well as how she handle college and having her powers, as well as Anthea viewing her as a sorta bigger sister figure. Speaking of

Rachel Zegler as Anthea

Alright, so now that the misogynistic nerds who don’t know how to read beyond the headline of an article have shat themselves, called me a slur, and left because I said the name Rachel Zegler, let’s talk about Anthea. I really like Anthea as a concept and I liked Zegler’s performance, as well as her chemistry with Freddy, but I feel like we didn’t get to know her super well (especially compared her another DCEU OC Jenny Kord from Blue Beetle), but I wanna delver into her character, the idea of her learning about earth, and getting into some senior year of high school shenanigans because she needs a human alibi of some sort.

Ian Chen & Ross Butler as Eugene Choi

I don’t have a lot to say about These next 3, other than Butler is returning here because I believe canonically, he’d be like 16 or 17, so we’re going off the logic that at 18, you basically look the same with these powers. With Eugene, I wanna understand him better as a character. I have ideas about what games he’d be playing, as well as delve into his personality and origin story.

Jovan Armand & D.J. Catrona as Pedro Peña

Same logic with Eugene and Darla. With Pedro, I wanna get to understand his personality and backstory, but I really wanna see how his life is different from everyone else in the group, and see what it’s like for him being an LGBT teenager. But I don’t really have a lot to say about Pedro.

Faithe Herman & Megan Goode as Darla Dudley

Once again, same logic as the last two characters. With Darla, I really wanna see her in a semi-similar place Billy was at in the first film, and also feeling a bit disconnected, since a lot of people at 15 probably feel that way in some way shape or form. I also wanna get into her backstory, especially since she saw her birth parents right before she left whenever she was like 5, I’m sure she has similar issue like Billy had at 15, and I think it’d be nice to see Billy and her get closer as she continues to grow up.

Marta Milans & Cooper Andrews as Rosa & Victor Vásquez

Same as a lot of these, I’d love to get to know these two a lot better, and see how they handle their family growing up and doing things with their lives. I’d also take inspiration from Across the Spider-Verse with these two and their dynamic, and there’s actually a scene between Billy and Rosa I have an idea for that inspired by Miles and Rio’s last conversation before Miles leaves his earth, but more of that in the second part of this.

Mark Strong as Thaddeus Sivana

So, I plan to finally address the post-credit scenes of both films, and so Sivana will be a central character in this hypothetical show. I have a lot of ideas for him that are new, such as delving into his extended family (kids and ex wife included) and understand him better. Plus Mark Strong is a great actor.

David F. Sandberg as Mister Mind

Yes, I’m doing the worm, and his team the Monster Society of Evil.

Djimon Hounsou as the Wizard Shazam

Since the Wizard is alive, I figured he should be here. I also feel like him and Anthea can have a pretty interesting relationship since they’re both god like characters who don’t understand earth or American culture. Also Djimon Hounsou had worked with James Gunn before, he was Korath in Guardians of the Galaxy vol 1. I’d wanna portray the Wizard with humor, but I also wanna use Gandalf as an influence on his demeanor and character here, because it’d be an interesting angle for this character who’s usually more stoic.

Now, on to the JSA members.

Quintessa Swindell as Maxine Hunkel/Cyclone

Now we’re onto the Black Adam characters. I think the JSA were actually pretty well cast, I just wasn’t a fan of their writing and dynamics, which will definitely be changed. She could also represent the newer generation of heroes, along with Atom Smasher, and can relate to Billy in terms of getting the powers.

Noah Centineo as Al Rothstien/Atom Smasher

I think Atom Smasher was the worse handled JSA member, and he’d feel a lot closer to his comics counterpart. Again, I think the actor did good, but definitely deserved to have a different dynamic with member like Hawkman and shouldn’t have been the kid of the group.

Aldis Hodge as Carter Hall/Hawkman

Again, I really liked him as Hawkman. And with the DCU having a Hawkgirl (this version more than likely being Kendra Saunders, played by Isabela Merced), I’d like to see if she doesn’t want anything to do with Hawkman since she’s in the JLI and he’s in the JSA. Alright, one more to go.

Pierce Brosnan as Kent Nelson/Doctor Fate

Alright, so this casting was really good, but I have issues with the characterization, mainly the fact that Fate isn’t Nabu in control of someone’s body. That’s my only complaint other than be fucking dies in Black Adam, but since we’re ignoring Black Adam entirely except for these four casting choices, it’s safe to say he’s still here as Doctor Fate. I think the relationship between him and Billy would be super interesting and could work as a mentor figure for Billy when it comes to heroism.

Conclusion

And that’s everyone. I wanted to talk about new stuff in greater detail, but this post is already long enough, so I’ll mention the influences and the next post will go on from there.

My biggest influences are The Power of Shazam, The Trials of Shazam, the original comics, some of the New 52, JSA from the 90’s, and JLI. Again, I’m very sorry this post is long, and the next post will go more in depth on new characters and who I’d cast. Anyways, bye.

[nerds-yearbook]

Margaret “Peggy” Carter and Jim Morita of the Howling Commandos were born in 1919. (Marvel MCU mythos)

[steelbluehome]

Captain America leading the rescued POWs back to thr 107th base camp. The future Howling Commandos are in the first 2 rows behind Cap.

Thanks to Abhishek Raina on YouTube

[btsqualityy]

Okay Shay, how’s Zaddy Kiyoung and Vanessa doing? I miss him and his Fione self! Plus I miss the threesomes he used to have with Kins and Mason! However, I’m glad he’s found his girl!

Also, has Kins and Mase ever talked to Eunji’s parents? What do they think of them HONESTLY.

Lastly, how is Carter and his girlfriend? Kiara? Have they gotten married and had little babies? Is she the first black woman to be intertwined with the parks? Sorry if that’s off the wall!

Thank you! 🙏🏾

They’re good! Still making music and fucking each other on every available surface 🤣🤣

Kins and Mase have met Eunji’s parents and neither of them can understand why they act the way that they do. As loving parents themselves, they’ve both definitely had to hold their tongues at times to keep the peace 🙃😭

And Carter and Kiara are good! No babies or marriage yet but engagement is looming 😭Carter will do it as soon as he stops being a scaredy-cat 🤣

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my brain just has to torture me for new ideas again, didn't it?? sksksk. anywho, imagining arrowverse!ray palmer as the third-wheel slash roommate to dceu!carter hall and dceu!ryan choi is making me feel things, sksksk.

in a l.o.t s3 AU, where after working in upswipez for a few weeks, ray decides to move to st. roch to live with carter instead. and ryan and carter are a thing, who have a bit of LDR going on (bc superhero duties and jobs get in teh way). and ryan and ray bond over the potential of ryan sharing the atom mantle with him. helping him build a suit and stuff. ray showing ryan the ropes and helping him gain confidence. ryan being floored by how ray believes in his potential. ray finding a sibling in ryan that he didn't have in sydney. ryan also having a sibling figure in ray, who has faith in him. (i know they have a mentor-mentee dynamic in teh comics but. . . for this AU, they're less than a decade apart.)

eventually when the team gets the waverider back, i guess ryan and ray swap in some missions. and they find a groove where they get used to the swaps, lmao.

my brain is still spinning and gosh, i'm so floored by it's sudden burst of ideas.

[pochaccoups]

“ PREY ” — choi seungcheol

pairing — werewolf!seungcheol x f!reader

summary — you are but prey to him.

wc — 2.2k

warnings — nsfw content. minors dni. smut, cunnilingus, predator/prey, images of gore and death (it’s all metaphorical), religious imagery/references (probably sacrilege oops), this is NOT omegaverse

author’s note — howling by xg on repeat recently. sorry if this isn’t what u were expecting but all my writing inspiration comes from angela carter

this fic is part of MONSTER: a hip hop unit series.

Your legs and lungs burn with the heat of a thousand fires.

You wonder how long it’s been since you started running. Was it minutes or hours? You don’t know. All that you do know is that every second that passes is a second closer to your death. It’s certain that you won’t make it out alive—it won’t let you—yet that is what makes you run faster, push yourself harder, your lungs reaching their absolute limit to provide you with the oxygen to keep going. 

There’s a crunch of leaves in the distance, to your left. It’s not behind you. It never was. 

Slowly, the sound of four separate steps hitting the earth grows closer and closer. You can only vaguely hear it over the sound of your heart struggling to pump blood through your body. 

A shriek rips itself from your throat. It cuts through the air as you’re thrown to the ground like you’re nothing more than a doll. Sharp pain slams through your body. The ground beneath you spins. Bile rises to your throat. 

Crying for help is futile. Even if you had the strength to yell, only the trees would hear your pleas. 

When you open your eyes that you hadn’t realised you screwed shut, you’re face to face with death. Daggers for teeth inside of a snarling, drool-dripping snout; yellow eyes like the moon had fallen from the abyss above and nestled into this beast; pointy ears that made the devil’s silhouette appear when your vision grew blurry. 

The last dregs of adrenaline in your body are what allow you to try and crawl away, to scramble like a newborn fawn on its unused legs. You don’t make it two feet before you’re dragged backwards through branches and dirt.

You’re not sure what makes you fight, but you do. You struggle despite the way his hands snake around your limbs like thorny vines, and every second that you keep struggling your skin stings more and more, his hold tightening until you think he’ll snap your bones.

The wolf keeps you pinned to the forest floor, revelling in the pitiful sounds of your fear. His claws find a home in your flesh, but it is still not as agonising as the anticipation—all you want is for him to get it over with; to shred your chest apart and rip your beating, bleeding heart from its seams. 

At its core, however, a werewolf is a monster. It is terrifying, not just because it is hideous, but because it is also cruel. It thrives off of your fear. You’re going to die—you know that. He knows that too, so he holds your frail little life in the palm of his hands and dangles it in your face.

Your dress becomes tatters and scraps the moment the wolf’s claws come to touch it, but he leaves your skin mostly unscathed. Mostly. 

His low growl grows louder in your ear until your skin is warm with his breath. It turns to a terrible rumble, deep and sadistic, one that reverberates through even your own chest, one that makes you cower, and suddenly you’re nothing but a small rabbit. It digs deep into your brain, finds every nook that you’ve stowed your traumas away into and drags them out until you’re no longer moving. No longer breathing. 

The wolf stands and watches tears leave salty trails down your face as they dry, only to be replaced again by more. 

You must look pathetic the way you try to scamper away again, persistent even when you’ve lost the will to persist. You are human though—to grasp onto every last fibre of hope of staying alive is innate. 

Quickly the wolf grows bored by your ‘escape’ attempts. In one sudden movement he plucks you off the ground and tosses you over his thick shoulder. 

“P-please… Let me go,” you sob as thickets of trees continuously pass by you. You hear a clock ticking in your head and it lines up with the footsteps of the beast that holds you captive. “Where are you taking me?”

Your voice is small, probably but a squeak in the wolf’s ear. Even if he hears you, he does not show it. Only trudges on to the slaughterhouse. 

Your consciousness comes and goes as fatigue settles in to replace adrenaline. As you hang limp, your body tries to put itself back together, your muscles and bones pulsing painfully from being overexerted. 

A door creaks open, then slams. Your eyes flicker open, you’re pulled back to reality. You don’t even have time to come to your senses before you’re bouncing upon a mattress.

With a groan, you push yourself to sit up, cradling your spinning head as you glance around at the wood panelled walls, the two square windows on either side of the door, and the old dining chair in one corner that’s next to a wood burning stove. 

The wolf approaches and this time you look directly into his eyes that glow in the dark of the cabin. 

He bares his teeth, but you no longer cower. 

He climbs over you, prowls along your body, and you’re swallowed by his shadow again as he pins you beneath him. 

“What big teeth you have,” you sigh, reaching up to his snout, your hand the size of a child’s next to him. 

He gives a thundering growl again, spit flying as his jaws circle your neck. It makes you grimace. 

“Okay, okay, can you turn back now? It’s hard to look at you.”

Your words work like some sort of spell. He steps back into the darkness of the cabin, and in an instant the massive creature starts to shift before your very eyes. The place begins to fill with a grotesque cacophony of cracking bones as they shift to fit a smaller body, and now it is his turn to scream in agony. The old floorboards groan as he falls to his knees, as his thick fur vanishes into pale flesh, as claws retract into fingernails.

As the monster dies, your lover is left. 

Handsome, human, features replace animal ones, and Seungcheol looks at you so fondly that it’s jarring. Even though he glistens with sweat and he’s gasping for breath and his pupils are blown out and wild, he sags with relief at the sight of you, a contrast so stark to before. 

He’s on his knees at the edge of the bed you’re perched on before you can even speak.

“Did I hurt you?” is the first thing he asks, his voice scratchy like it’s his first time speaking. He’s cautious as he reaches for you to inspect your limbs, finding your skin littered with bruises and scratch marks that make his heart clench. 

“Well, a little, yeah,” you say, and you laugh, and Seungcheol is partially comforted by your nonchalance as well as the fact that it was you who had wanted to play the part of the little hare; his prey. His eyes had bulged out of his head when you proposed your masochistic idea for a Friday night; a ‘bonding’ activity that would be fun for both of you. 

It took a while before he was convinced. He warned you that he couldn’t guarantee your full safety once he was turned. You insisted you knew what you were in for.

“I’m so sorry, baby,” he whispers into your skin before he kisses your bruised wrists, then moves down so he can kiss your grazed knees too. 

“There’s a way you can make it up to me, you know,” you tell him, your voice charged with something suggestive, something that Seungcheol can pick up on immediately. Still, he presses you.

“And what’s that, my darling?” 

“You can… eat me.” 

Seungcheol takes a deep breath, rising up off the floor so that he can lean over your body. He stares into your eyes and this time it’s much, much softer, and yet there’s a glint in them, a flash of hunger, almost like the one the wolf had in his eyes.

“You want that?” he asks. 

“Mhm,” you say, and your voice is but a whisper, as though you aren’t in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by miles of trees, as though all that will hear your voice is not birds and wild creatures—and your lover, of course. “Make it up to me.”

His gaze clouds over as his teeth sink into his bottom lip. Then he steals your breath from you once more, pressing his lips against yours, and it’s searing. Perhaps it’s the adrenaline that’s still flowing through both of you, that’s making you move with vigour. Perhaps it’s Seungcheol’s guilt, or your fiery, aching need. Perhaps it’s all of that all at once. 

His tongue shoves past your lips, makes its way against your own tongue. Your teeth clash and your noses rub together, and then Seungcheol breaks the kiss. It’s only to attack your neck in a slew of bites, teeth grazing over your skin until a mark blooms there. 

His hands trace along your body, your skin scorching beneath the remains of fabric that you’re still clad in.

“Cheol, my dress,” you sigh, tugging at his hair. “Want it off.”

Without another word, Seungcheol halts his assault on your neck, takes two handfuls of the remnants of your sundress and riiip!—and you know the fabric was no more than paper to him, but you’re only a girl and his strength never fails to leave you so flustered that your entire body grows scorching hot. 

“And this?” he says, warm hands cupping your bra-covered chest. You moan when he squeezes them, then his fingers start to toy with the straps, but he makes no move to pull them down your arms.

“Take it off, please,” you say, pushing yourself up on your elbows. Seungcheol grabs your arm as you reach behind you before you can find the clasp. 

“Look,” he says, and a second later your bra faces the same fate as your dress—a shredded heap upon the floor. 

With your tits exposed, Seungcheol can’t help but latch onto one immediately. His mouth is so warm around your nipple, and one of his hands is squeezing it while he sucks, and his other hand is playing with your other one, pinching and tugging, and you think you just might explode. 

He leaves the peaks of your tits puffy and spit-soaked, and only then is Seungcheol satisfied enough to leave your chest alone and put his hand between your thighs instead. 

“What about these?” he asks, pressing his fingers to your clothed cunt. You jolt when he does, because you knew you were wet, but you didn’t realise you had soaked through the fabric already. 

“O-off, God, please,” is your reply, hands grabbing at him, urging him, egging him on. 

He’s on his knees again, gazing up at you as he disappears between your thighs. His nose nudges against your cunt through the wet fabric, and he inhales hard until his eyes are rolling and there’s drool pooling in his mouth.

“Fuckin’ delicious,” he grumbles, licking his lips while he tears your panties in half. You’re still reeling from watching him breathe in your scent and fuck, now his tongue is on your pussy.

A shaky moan of his name leaves your mouth as he licks at every part of you, laps up your dripping arousal like he’s starving for it—he is. But finally tasting you does not bring him one step closer to satiation. It drags him further and further away from it until he’s addicted to chasing it, until he will never get enough. 

When Seungcheol’s lips seal over your clit and suck, he sends your legs into tremors, sends stars dancing in your vision, sends you into heaven. You grab at his hair, at the sheets; do anything you can do to hold on to your sanity as Seungcheol devours you. 

The harsh, indulgent dance of his tongue over your cunt makes you cry his name. You say it like you’re praying. You beg; beg for mercy, but also for more. It’s all too much, but it’s not enough. It’s heaven and hell how he works his mouth against you, clawless fingertips still sinking into your skin as he keeps your hips pinned to the mattress, keeps you splayed out all for him on a silver platter. 

Seungcheol licks and slurps and laps at your cunt until you’re dripping from his lips. He is gluttony, ravishing you even when he cannot breathe because his mouth and nose are buried in your pussy. Even when he is full, he wants more of you, blessed and cursed with eternal starvation. But you are the body and the blood. You are the Lamb, and eating you will atone his sins and he will be forgiven. 

So he tears you open; with his mouth he rips you apart at your seams until finally you come undone. Even then, he feasts on your remains as you wail and writhe, as sin burns through you, so heavenly that it must be holy. Even then, he eats, and eats, and eats you up.

thank u for reading! reblogs and feedback are highly appreciated <3

[kyoukamybeloved]

Chuuya looked at his face, then broke out into laughter. “You really are the worst. Don't let your plan fail and kill us both or I'll kill you, Dazai.” Dazai laughed as well. “Sounds good. Let's go, Chuuya.”

soukoku webweaves: 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 , 5 , 6 , 7 , 8

creds:

normal people - Sally Rooney// I know the end - Phoebe Bridgers// Part II - Paramore// the song of Achilles - Madeline Miller// art by @taxolotl// bloodsport - Yves Olade// please stay - Lucy Dacus// the night we met - lord huron// unicorn - Angela Carter// art by @thornedarrow// I set it in stone - Venetta Octavia// panel from bsd: beast drawn by Sango Harukawa// He Held Radical Light: the Art of Faith, the Faith of Art - Christian Wiman// eat your young - Hozier// never love an anchor - the crane wives// spring, the apple trees at olema - Robert Hass// the notebook// art by @taxolotl// Joan Tierney// snow and dirty rain - Richard Siken// house of hunger - Alexis Henderson// the moon will sing - the crane wives// waiting room - Phoebe Bridgers// I had a dream about you - Richard Siken// art by @marrewis// phlebotomy, as told by the blood - Torrin A. Greathouse// art by @twilicidity// Cassandra - Christa Wolf// rejoice - Julien Baker// take me to church - Hozier// the encounter - Louise Gluck// art by @yomeiu// a garden, swallower - Lyric Hunter// alone with you in the ether - Olivie Blake// allies or enemies - the crane wives// like real people - Hozier// strawberry moon - Franny Choi// official bsd art by Sango Harukawa// until is started choking on our memories - Tina Tran// art from @/mizumoe_ on twitter// Pavana Reddy// art by @carrotkicks // Friedrich Nietzsche, from a letter to Mathilde Trampedach// cosmic hero - car seat headrest// born to die - Lana del Rey// Giovanni’s Room - James Baldwin//

consider this your halloween treat ;)

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[eepybogboy]

here, now you can really see the differences between their new and original eyes, as well as how they can look different photographed in person vs. the stock photos

did a round of eye swaps this weekend! it's the most ive done all at once, and i gotta say, i do not recommend it. by the time i got new eyes in these four, my hands were begging me to stop, so poor Priscilla sat eyeless for a while. but I'm really happy with the results!

let me walk you through the process a bit.

i used this guide to help decide which eyes i wanted to use.

this all started because i wanted Daria's eyes for Zooey.

Daria's eyes don't match her color scheme at all, and this has always bothered me about her. they stand out too much, and its jarring. but that minty blue and pale pink are Zooey's colors exactly, it would complete her alien vibe perfectly.

but, unfortunately, Zooey and Daria have different eye chips. Daria has the Twins eye chip, which has four pegs to keep it in place in the socket, and Zooey has the newer B2 chip, which has only two prongs. i was worried that Daria's eyes wouldnt fit in Zooey's head, so i prepared a backup donor: Simone.

Simone has the CNY eye chip, first introduced in Lily Cheng, the Special Edition doll for the Chinese New Year in 2022. this eye mold is more similar to the B2 eyes since it also has only two prongs, so if Daria's eyes didnt sit right in Zooey, these might be a better fit. the colors arent as perfect, but it could work.

except that Darias eyes fit Zooey perfectly. she looks so cute! now her eyebrows are even more out of place, but I'll get to that later.

i had already taken out Simone's eyes to compare the two, so she was given Zooey's eyes.

i was blown away by how incredible she looks! so soft and sweet. i was fond of her before, but she's crawled up into my top ten faves with this one alteration.

now, i was going to give those eyes to Daria, but they obviously belong to Simone now. Daria still needs brown eyes though, so i brought out a more fitting donor for her: Priscilla. she has the same color eyes as Zooey, but in the Twins eye chip.

perfect for ms. Daria, much more natural. it's just what she needed.

now, i wasn't intending to bring Minnie into this, but her eyes are a bit unusually dark, and i had Simone's eyes sitting there.. and well. i already had the hair dryer out.

honestly? a serve. she has B2 eyes originally, like Zooey, so the lashes are Just under her eyelid but they still fit her sculpt pretty well.

at this point, my hands were aching, and i had worn a blister into my thumb, so i had to take a break. Pris was going into the stock box anyway, so there was no pressure to finish her, but the next day i came back and gave her Minnie's eyes for safekeeping.

she looks a little sleepy, but overall pretty cute. she probably won't stay this way because she's going into the potential custom pile, but its fine for now.

look at these four and how perfect they are!! Zooey and Daria came out exactly how i planned, but i am still so shook by how beautiful Simone is now. i just cant stop looking at her.

I'll be reblogging to add more photos, including side by side comparisons to the stock photos since tungle will only let me post 10 pictures at a time

[lgcmanager]

GIG OPPORTUNITY 024

last week, we've posted an announcement and, at the end of it, asked for a like to confirm that it has been read. for all the muns who liked the post, here's a surprise reward of +5 NOTORIETY for all your muses.

for reference, here’s a list of the muses rewarded ( and if we forgot about you or one of your muses, let us know! ) you may use this post as proof of your points sheet.

ahn yein

bae heejin

bae nathan

bae sojin

baek byeongkwan

carter jaejin

cha hyoseop

cha sori

chae rua

chen maylin

cho iseul

cho minkyu

choi junkyu

choi kai

gong hyejoo

han jisoo

han noeul

han rowon

han seunghyun

hirawa emi

ito mio

jeon haru

jo eunwoo

kang maximilian

kang minjun

kang yoojoon

kim cherry

kim jinhyuk

kim jinseo

kim jinyoung

kim nayoung

kim sehun

kim seyoon

kim yujin

kuramoto misaki

kurosawa akio

kwon baekhyun

kwon hyuntae

kwon sena

lee hyunsoo

lee jiho

lee minji

lee yushin

lim sanghyun

liu yuxi

mae jasper

min hanbin

min soyoun

moon hayoung

moon jiah

moon jino

moon somin

nam gyuri

noh areum

oh eunhye

okamoto kentaro

park hyukjae

park seojin

park sujin

park taeha

park zoe

seo minseo

seo nina

seo yura

shin jieun

son nabi

su parker

sung haneul

takanashi asami

won yeonwoo

xu lili

yamashita ichika

yang aeri

yoo haemin

yoon bitna

yu milan

zheng leo

[prettyymafia]

Fuck allat! 😓

[soracities]

Hi! Would it be okay to ask for poems that radiate some kind of "red" energy? I saw your recommendations about the similar ask with blue and I really loved it, so I thought I could ask for more :)

Red and blue, twin poles of the world 💘I had to think about this one (red has a distinct vibe for me) but I think all of these feel "red" when I read them, in one form or another, if not always overtly, so I hope you enjoy them, too:

"In the Desert" by Stephen Crane

"Woman Unborn" by Anna Swir

"El Beso" by Angelina Weld Grimké

"What Do Women Want?" by Kim Addonizio

"For You" by Kim Addonizio

"I'm Explaining a Few Things" by Pablo Neruda

"Dirty Valentine" by Richard Siken

"Little Beast" by Richard Siken

"Aubade" by Miller Williams

"Green and Gold" by Rachel Hadas

"Ishtar Awakens in Chicago" by Mohja Kahf

"The Second Coming" by W.B. Yeats

"O" by Dunya Mikhail

"Center of the World" by Safiya Sinclair

"[i like my body when it is with your]" by e.e. cummings

"[your little voice]" by e.e. cummings

"Frida Kahlo to Marty McConnell" by Marty McConnell

"Complaint of Achilles' Heel" by Charles Jensen

"What a Cyborg Wants" by Franny Choi

"A Moment" by Saadi Youssef

"And After That" by Lorca

"Harlem" by Langston Hughes

"Lamenting Widow" by Ho Xuan Hong

"The Unicorn" by Angela Carter

"Dulzura" by Sandra Cisneros

"The Story of Madame Chevalier" by Ciarán Carson

"The Witch Has Told You a Story" by Ava Leavell Haymon

[lgchyoseop]

LGC5TH GIFT FROM CHA HYOSEOP, CHA SORI, KIM CHERRY AND JUJU!

wow... has it really been so long? five years is a lot of years, i've come and gone a couple of times, but soon i'll have a muse turning three years ! (congrats cha hyoseop, my idiot, i love you). this is an incredible community, i've gotten so many friends here, and i've had so much fun, me and my muses truly love legacy <3 as a gift for you all, i've gathered a bunch of quotes (around 200-ish), then given the quotes a number and used a randominzer to pick which quote each muse should have, so it's basically fate giving you this quote! thanks to legacy, the mods and members!

(you can use ctrl+f to search for your muses name)

ahn jaehwa “you have not failed, until you make failing stop you”

ahn yein “don’t let life discourage you; everyone who got where they are, had to begin where they were”

bae heejin “tough times never last, but tough people do”

bae nathan “define success on your own terms, achieve it by your own rules, and build a life you’re proud to live”

bae sojin “take chances, make mistakes. that’s how you grow. pain nourishes your courage. you have to fail in order to practice being brave”

baek byeongkwan “there is nothing on earth that blooms all year long. nature wasn’t created to do that and neither are you.”

baek seona “some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go”

carter jaejin “focus on the step in front of you, not the whole staircase”

cha hyoseop “sometimes our limitations tell us when to stop. but sometimes they can show us where to look next”

cha sori “it is not our abilities that make us who we are, it’s our choices”

chae rua “the only time you should ever look back, is to see how far you’ve come”

chen maylin “i wasn’t afraid to fail. something good always comes out of failure”

cho iseul “if you really want to do something, you’ll find a way. if you don’t, you’ll find an excuse”

cho minkyu “make failure your teacher, not your undertaker”

choi junkyu “i’d rather attempt something great and fail than to attempt nothing and succeed”

choi kai “in youth we learn, in age we understand”

gong hyejoo “there’s a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in” 

han hyunhee “do not fear mistakes, there are none”

han jisoo “a failure is not always a mistake, it may simple be the best one can do under the circumstances. the real mistake is to stop trying”

han noeul “hope is being able to see there is light, despite all of the darkness”

han rowon “if you spend your whole life waiting for the storm, you’ll never enjoy the sunshine” 

han seunghyun “one that want the fruit, must climb the tree”

hirawa emi “if you focus on results, you will never change. if you focus on change, you will get results”

hwang minki “rise above the storm and you will find the sunshine”

im yunseo “nothing is impossible, the word itself says ‘i’m possible’”

ito mio “you learn more from failure than success. don’t let it stop you. failure builds character” 

jeon haru “doubts kill more dreams than failure ever will”

jo eunwoo “the secret of getting ahead is getting started”

kang maximillian “success is a state of mind. if you want success, start thinking of yourself as a success” 

kang minjun “remember, you can regret things you did not do”

kang sarang “i hold it true, what’er befall, i feel it, when i sorrow most. tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all”

kang yojoon “to be a champion you have to believe in yourself when no one else will”

kim cherry “i have not failed. i’ve just found 10.000 ways that won’t work”

kim jinhyuk “if you look closely, most overnight successes took a long time”

kim jinseo “turn your wounds into wisdom”

kim jinyoung “the best way to make your dreams come true, is to wake up”

kim nayoung “failure is a detour, not a dead-end-street”

kim sehun “only put off tomorrow what you are willing to die having left undone” 

kim seyoon “don’t be pushed by your problems, be led by your dreams”

kim yujin “always dream and shoot higher than you know you can do. do not bother just to be better than your contemporaries or predecessors. try to be better than yourself.”

kuramoto misaki “follow your dreams, they show which way to go”

kurosawa akio “in order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear for failure”

kwon baekhyun “life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced” 

kwon hyuntae “the only thing that doesn’t change in life, is that thing changes” 

kwon sena “the sea is dangerous and its storms terrible, but these obstacles have never been sufficient reason to remain ashore”

lai wenjun “being lost is not bad, as it is what happens before you find your way”

lee hyunsoo “the elevator to success if out of order. you’ll have to use the stairs… one step at a time”

lee jiho “if opportunity doesn’t knock, build a door” 

lee minji “don’t judge each day by the harvest you reap, but by the seeds that you plant” 

lee yushin “time you enjoyed wasting, was not wasted” 

lim sanghyun “i will either find a way or make one”

liu yuxi “to lose is still to learn”

mae jasper “if you can’t fly, then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can’t walk then crawl, but whatever you do, you have to keep moving” 

min chaeyeon “i can’t change the direction of the wind, but i can adjust my sails to always reach my destination

min hanbin “failure is simply the opportunity to try again, this time better-knowing”

min soyoun “some people want it to happen, some wish it to happen, be someone who makes it happen”

moon hayoung “don’t be afraid to give up the good to go for the great”

moon jiah “success only comes to those who dare attempt”

moon jino “you can’t connect the dots looking forward. you can only connect them looking backwards, so you have to trust that they will somehow connect in your future”

moon somin “do not let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do”

nam gyuri “the best way to predict the future is to create it”

noh areum “it is best to act with confidence, no matter how little right you have to it”

oh eunhye “life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards” 

okamoto kentaro “life isn’t about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself”

park chaekyung “we may encounter many defeats, but we must not be defeated”

park hyukjae “don’t wish it was easier, wish you were better. don’t wish for less problems, wish for more skills. don’t wish for less challenge, wish for more wisdom”

park seojin “exhale the past, inhale the future”

park sujin “scars only show us where we’ve been, they do not dictate where we’ll be”

park taeha “be not afraid of storms because you are learning how to sail your ship”

park zoe “difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage. the human spirit is to grow strong by conflict”

seo minseo “sometimes good things fall apart, so better things can fall together”

seo nina “it does not matter how slowly you go as long as you don’t stop”

seo yura “your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change”

shin jieun “in three words i can sum up everything i’ve learned about life: it goes on” 

son nabi “you need to let go of the past’s hand so you can catch the hand of the future”

su parker “you don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step”

sung haneul “if you fell down yesterday, stand up today”

takanashi asami “fairytales are more than true: not because they tell us dragons exist, but because they tell us dragons can be beaten”

watanabe miyu “let the past take care of itself, and let the present move towards the future”

won yeonwoo “tomorrow is a mystery, yesterday is history, and today is a gift, that’s why they call it present”

xu lili “asking for help isn’t giving up, it’s refusing to give up”

xue yichen “never give up on a dream just because of the time it’ll take to accomplish it. the time will pass anyway”

yamashita ichika “anything is a journey if you start somewhere” 

yang aeri “you cannot swim for new horizons until you have courage to lose sight of the shore.”

yoo haemin “dreams do not have an expiration date, you can always keep trying”

yoon bitna “aim for the moon. if you miss, you may hit a star” 

yu milan “getting lost is part of the journey” zheng leo “don’t let the fear of losing be greater than the excitement of winning”

[armpirate]

Soundleasure | Choi San || CH. 34

Pairings: Soft!San x fem!reader || Strangers to lovers, fake dating

Genre: smut, angst, fluff, online sex, ghosting

Warnings: inexperienced!San, fem!reader, masturbation, online sex, camboy, first times.

Summary: You can do whatever you please and be whoever you want on the Internet. And San knew that a little bit too well.

After finally following all the signs the universe was throwing at him, he started living a double life that no one was aware of. Everyone in his daily life knew him as Choi San, the reserved and quiet boy who wouldn't raise his voice, and would barely communicate with anyone outside of his comfort group. But only a few knew him as Soundleasure, the man with a sexy voice and a filthy mind that had their toes curling just with his narrations.

He never thought of the possibility of those two lives ever meeting, he had always tried for them to follow a parallel route and had always played safe to keep his friends from ever suspecting that side even existed. But his plans will start to crumble when he gets a little too close with one of his subscribers and she invades his real-self and altergo's universes without being able to stop it.

Y/n will not only help him to keep his secret from his circle, but will also show him there's more of Soundleasure in him than he'd like to admit. 

Previous || Next

MASTERLIST

Aprox. time of reading: 14 minutes

The room felt colder than usual, even though the police officers had been kind enough to offer coffee. Y/n sat beside San at the small dining table, her fingers curled tightly around the mug, though she hadn't taken a sip. The adrenaline from earlier still pulsed in her veins, her mind replaying the terrifying moment when she realized someone had been inside her apartment.

San sat close beside her, his presence a comforting barrier against the chill of the night's events. Two officers, a man and a woman, sat across from them, their notepads ready, their expressions serious but calm. They'd already swept the apartment for any immediate signs of danger, but the tension still lingered in the air.

—Can you start from the beginning, Mrs. Y/s? —the man, Officer Carter, gently asked her— Just walk us through what happened tonight.

—We came back from a short trip ���she mentioned, pointing at San at her left—. Everything felt normal: the doors were closed, there weren't any signs of anyone being here... But then I received a text, which led me to the note behind my TV.

—I checked the place in case there was something open, but everything was normal —San shrugged.

—And the door wasn't forced? —Officer Daniels asked, writing down notes.

—No —Y/n repeated—. And I'm sure I closed it when we arrived.

—It could be that the person has a copy of your keys.

—Not a lot of people do —Y/n frowned—. Not even my father does. And my ex returned his keys when we broke up.

The two officers exchanged a look, almost as if she had given out who could be behind those texts and messages.

—Did you see anyone suspicious in or around the building? —Y/n shook her head at the question— Did you end on good terms with your ex?

—Not really, but on my side, not on his. He was pretty much pleased with letting go.

—Did he ever ask to come back...? —Officer Daniels' lips pursed while she left the question hanging in the air.

—No, not at all. Tom pretty much disappeared after we broke up, and I only heard things from his father, who's an important partner in our company —she further explained.

—Let's get back to the notes —Officer Carter insisted.

—I started receiving flowers with creepy notes four or five months ago, although I never really paid much attention to them. I thought they were a prank from someone in the company, so I just asked receptionists to stop sending them in —she kept explaining—. They kept finding their way to my office either way, until they just stopped coming and the person switched their notes to text messages. Each text kept getting darker...

—Darker how? —Officer Carter raised an eyebrow.

—At first they were the typical crush notes, then they were creepy poems, and then they started implying they were watching me. No one knew we broke up —she pointed at herself and San—, except for us and my father. Well, and some close friends, but neither of them knew we were back together, and this person did.

The officers exchanged a glance, their pens moving in tandem as they noted down the information. San's hand rested on Y/n's knee under the table, a small gesture of support that she was grateful for.

—Have you kept those notes?

—No. I threw them away. But I have the texts —she remembered, offering her phone to them.

While Officer Carter gave a look through her phone, Officer Daniels turned to San with a serious look.

—How long have you been dating?

—Four months already. Well, not yet. It's a complicated story —he stopped himself—. We weren't really dating the first two months, but we just pretended. So I guess it's actually two months of real dating.

—Why did you pretend to date? —the cop turned to Y/n.

—We met online, so when his friends found out about me, he told them we were dating. At some point it was just playing along, because the lie kept reaching people it shouldn't. And we eventually caught real feelings, which took us here.

—Hmm —he nodded—. You were already inside when the note was posted —San's eyes widened at the accusation, briefly looking at his girlfriend.

—It wasn't me —he tried to defend himself.

—The person seems to be close to her —she hummed—. And you were already here when the note was positioned, which means you didn't need to open the door and wouldn't make a sound while opening it and closing it.

—Officer... —Y/n tried to stop her.

—Were you together when she received the text?

—No, but... —San was again interrupted.

—I wouldn't bet any money on anyone, but I'd bet my life if it meant trusting him —Y/n interrupted—. I didn't even know San when I started receiving the notes. I don't know who it could be, but it's definitely not him.

—So you don't have any idea who it could be? —she changed the question.

—No —she shook her head, hand still on San's forearm.

—Tom showed up out of nowhere, her ex —he explained—. This week he started working in the company for a project. And it adds up to the text where it says they're closer to her than she thinks.

—Okay —Officer Daniels wrote down, still giving a suspicious look to the man sitting across from her—. Anyone else?

—N... no —Y/n tried to think—. Although, is there a remote chance this isn't a love admirer, but someone who wants to take revenge on me?

—Sometimes, stalkers take the victims over the edge, it thrills them to see someone panic over something they do. It'd be more than them just loving the control they have over your fear. So it could be.

Y/n's mind raced as she thought through the people in her life. The secret admirer's letters had always been anonymous, vague enough to make it hard to pinpoint anyone. But after that night, she couldn't shake the feeling that it wasn't random. Someone knew her, intimately.

—A few years ago I fired some people. Most of them had the normal reaction to it, but there was someone who went over the line there. I remember they threw at me fish guts, but I could never confirm if it was him —her head tilted to the side momentarily—. I never heard from him again though.

—Name?

—Jesse Murray.

—Is this the only phone number this person has used? —Office Carter called her attention.

—Yeah —she frowned.

—They aren't answering, which isn't weird —he clicked his tongue—. We'll try to find out whose phone number it is and come back to you with the information.

—We'll definitely follow up on these leads —Officer Carter followed—. In the meantime, it's important you both stay alert. Keep your windows locked, and we'll arrange for a patrol car to pass by your apartment regularly for the next few nights.

—It'll be just to see if there's anyone suspicious around —Officer Daniels tried to calm her down—. I think it'd be better if you had somewhere else to stay for a few days, at least.

—She'll stay in my apartment.

—San...

—The boys won't care, even less after this —he explained.

—And if you receive any more letters, or see anything out of the ordinary, contact us immediately —Officer Daniels explained—. Even the paper could give us a hint of where they buy those flowers, and it could get us closer to them.

Y/n nodded, feeling dumb for throwing something that important away, while she sweeped the big problem under the carpet.

The officers stood, giving both Y/n and San a reassuring nod before heading toward the door. As the sound of their footsteps faded, Y/n finally let out a breath she hadn't realized she'd been holding.

San turned to her, his hand still resting on her knee, his face a mixture of concern and determination.

—I'll pack some more of your clothes —he let her know.

Despite her having some things there, they weren't planned for long stays. Y/n nodded, leaning into him as the reality of what had happened began to sink in. The break-in, the letters, the looming presence of someone watching her -it all felt too much.

—I just hope they find whoever did this before it gets worse —she whispered quietly.

San squeezed her hand, his jaw set with resolve, before he stood up to talk to her room. Suddenly, the house felt like the most dangerous place she had set foot in, with every small sound triggering her, her body ready to start running in any direction while holding onto the chair to push it away to gain impulse at any moment.

She just didn't want to be alone.

Her body reacted for her, making the same route San made, finding him coming and going from her closet to the bed, neatly leaving some of her clothes there.

—Do you need any help? —she asked, nervously pressing her lips together while standing in the middle of her room.

—No, sit there and rest. You already had enough tonight.

The softness in his voice almost had her breaking in front of him, allowing herself to be weak and fragile in his presence, knowing he'd have her back no matter what.

Y/n followed San into the cozy, which, after the scare at her place and the long talk with the police, felt like the safest place in the world. She was hoping for a quieter evening to really digest what had happened, but she should've known better when she knew Mingi and Wooyoung were the ones she'd be living with.

As they stepped inside, the familiar scent of something cooking hit her nose, along with the unmistakable sound of bickering echoing from the kitchen.

—For the last time, Mingi, you do not put ketchup on gourmet pasta! That's a crime against humanity! —she heard Wooyoung shouting from the kitchen, frustrated.

—Says the guy who thinks adding three cloves of garlic to everything makes it fancy. Maybe some people like it with ketchup, ever thought about that?

—You being a Korean and saying that about garlic is indeed a crime —Wooyoung answered back.

San sighed, running a hand through his hair as Y/n stifled a laugh. She wasn't new to those antics. Wooyoung was the self-proclaimed chef of the group, obsessed with perfecting every dish he made, while Mingi's approach to food was... questionable, at best. Their constant bickering was like background noise to life at the apartment. And maybe that was even better than the peace she thought she needed.

—Woo, we have a visit. Have some manners —Mingi called him out when he was aware of their steps behind the couch.

They hadn't even made it to the living room before Wooyoung appeared in the doorway, wiping his hands on a towel and giving Y/n a warm grin.

—Thank God you're here, Y/n! Please, tell Mingi that putting ketchup on pasta is culinary blasphemy —Wooyoung said, dramatically.

—Sorry, Mingi, but I'm with Wooyoung on this one. Ketchup on pasta is an aberration —she grinned.

—Et tu, Y/n? —Mingi threw his hands up— I thought we vibed together. San, back me up.

—I'm staying out of this one —he chuckled—. I'm not anyone's plan B.

Wooyoung smirked triumphantly, turning back toward the kitchen. Y/n could hear the clattering of pots and pans as he resumed his role as the only one who had minimal knowledge in cooking in that apartment.

—Dinner will be ready in ten minutes —he called over his shoulder—. I'm making carbonara. And yes, Mingi, I'm making it the right way. Thank you very much.

—Great, can't wait for garlic-flavored everything again —Mingi grumbled—. Hope you guys brought breath mints.

Y/n laughed softly as she followed San to his room, before he told her to go rest on the couch while he worked on that. She sat down beside Mingi. Despite the chaos, it felt good to be there, surrounded by the banter and warmth of their friends. She noticed Mingi watching her from the corner of his eye, a knowing grin spreading across his face.

—So, now that's official, when's the big reconciliation dinner? Or you'll go straight to the wedding invite? —Mingi teased.

—Mingi, please. Not tonight —San groaned, peeking his head through the door frame.

—I'm just saying. There's a romantic vibe in the air tonight. You're back here after a week, you seemed quite close... Are you guys working things out or what?

—You, stop annoying her —Wooyoung called him out.

As he spoke, Y/n could notice he was carrying two steaming plates of carbonara, which he proudly set down on the table. As they all got up and answered to his food's claim, the brunette went back to the kitchen to pick up the other two plates of pasta.

—See this? —he proudly asked, before sitting— This is a love plate. This could solve all relationship problems.

—And what about your problems? —Mingi teased.

But he didn't answer back with words, the deathly look he threw at him was enough to have him shutting up and sitting in his place.

Y/n couldn't help but laugh at San's pained expression. As much as he tried to hide it, she knew he secretly loved his friends' antics and pretending to be the only normal person in that house. And despite their bickering, Wooyoung and Mingi always had a way of lightening the mood.

—You better step it up, San —he pointed at him with his fork—. If you don't put a ring on it, Mingi might beat you to it with one of his setups.

—I have a great track record —Mingi tried to defend himself.

—Really? How many couples have you actually set up? —Y/n interrogued, eyebrow raising— And Sims don't count.

—Funny —Mingi answered—. Okay... So, maybe none, but I've got good intentions.

—That's because you usually end up setting yourself up —San smirked.

Wooyoung nearly choked on his carbonara, laughing, as Mingi rolled his eyes dramatically. Y/n settled into the laughter, letting the tension from earlier slip away. For a moment, the worry about the intruder, the police, the secret admirer -it all faded into the background.

As dinner wrapped up, the playful jabs and laughter continued, filling the apartment with a warmth Y/n hadn't realized she needed. It wasn't perfect -there were still questions hanging over her, and the unease of the night lingered at the back of her mind. But there, with San and their friends, it was easier to forget the weight of everything. At least for a little while.

—By the way, Y/n, can this not be a temporary thing? If you plan on moving here, we'll kick Mingi out.

—And who will I live with?

—I bet you'll find yourself a place with Yunho and Iseul —San assured him.

—Well, actually...

Y/n went to her room for a moment to brush her teeth, leaving the three friends alone in the living room while trying to think of what to watch on TV.

—Thanks for not bringing it up —he thanked them.

—Why are you thanking us for that? —Wooyoung attacked— It's common sense. The last thing she needs is to be reminded of what happened.

—But, is she okay? —Mingi asked.

—Yeah —San nodded—. She's just scared now, and frustrated. But the police will get whoever is behind it.

As the evening wound down, Wooyoung and Mingi retreated to their rooms -after more dramatic bickering about who was washing the dishes -and San pulled Y/n close on the bed, his arm around her as they sat in comfortable silence.

—You told them not to bring it up, didn't you? —Y/n asked, caressing his forearm while she stared at the way his ring shined under the moonlight.

—No.

The lie was evident on every feature on his face when she turned around to look at him. He was an awful liar, and she was extremely good at noticing those small details.

—Mingi kept looking at me with worried eyes, before he burped the biggest nonsense —she accused—. The only one who knows how to lie is Wooyoung, and even him was acting a bit weird.

—I just didn't want them to remind you of what happened.

Far from being upset, her arms wrapped around his waist, dragging her body closer to him before leaving a peck on his chin.

—Thank you.

They both laid there in silence, looking into each other's eyes, while San's hands played with her hair, brushing the few locks away from her face just so he'd be able to look at her with nothing hiding her from him.

—You know I wouldn't do anything to hurt you, right?

For Y/n, it was a matter of time before San brought up the accusations that were placed over the table by the officers, with that light frown that always gave out his worry.

—Don't let it hunt you —Y/n whispered, moving her hands up and down his side—. The officer stepped a bit over the line, but she didn't say anything that made me point a finger at you.

San calmed down under her gaze, feeling her palms sliding slightly under his black t-shirt to touch his warm skin directly, brushing her fingertips so softly he thought she was able to brush all the pain and worries away.

—Is this the moment of the story where I trust you and then I casually find the phone you've been sending those texts with?

San simply rolled his eyes at her joke, rolling over his body so his back would face her. Y/n giggled, snuggling closer to him while trying to remind him that it was only a joke and she was only teasing him. In response, her boyfriend carried her body with no effort, moving her over him until she was placed back next to him, face against his chest, with him cuddling as close as he was able to.

—I'm glad you're here —he whispered.

—Me, too.

In the safety of their shared space, surrounded by the warmth of their friends, Y/n allowed herself to relax. And she was sure that was the only place she'd actually be able to succeed at silencing the noise in her head. 

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hey rae! you said you haven’t been reading many fics lately and i was wondering what were your favorite books you read this year :))

LOVE this question omg thank u 4 giving me an excuse 2 talk abt books <3 i'm gonna split this into fiction + nonfiction + poetry...will try 2 keep it somewhat concise but. fear it may get long...

fiction

the archive of alternate endings, by lindsey drager [favorite book i've read all year]

how to live safely in a science fictional universe, by charles yu

giovanni's room, by james baldwin

stone butch blues, by leslie feinberg

i'll give you the sun, by jandy nelson

and then i woke up, by malcolm devlin

on earth we're briefly gorgeous, by ocean vuong

cursed bunny, by bora chung

i have the right to destroy myself, by young-ha kim

infect your friends and loved ones, by torrey peters

the bloody chamber and other stories, by angela carter

at least we can apologize, by lee ki-ho

nonfiction

playing the whore: the work of sex work, by melissa gira grant

cistem failure: essays on blackness and cisgender, by marquis bey

gender trouble: feminism and the subversion of identity, by judith butler

essays against publishing, by jamie berrout

trans liberation: beyond pink or blue, by leslie feinberg

females, by andrea long chu

socialism: utopian and scientific, by friedrich engels

capitalist realism: is there no alternative? by mark fisher

whipping girl: a transsexual woman on sexism and the scapegoating of femininity, by julia serrano

poetry

soft science, by franny choi

grit, by silas denver melvin

in the pines, by alice notley