#cars make me want to kms
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my fucking car is bordering on “no longer roadworthy” and I don’t have any money lmfao
#personal.txt#cars make me want to kms#I hate them so much#but I literally have to drive one where I live or else I would have no way to work#my brakes and my suspension are in very bad condition#I cannot DIY I have never been successful with literally any DIY attempt I’ve ever done#I’ll definitely make it worse#so I’m freaking out lol#about to burst into tears in the work bathroom#because idk what I’m gonna do#and if I can’t work then I’ll get evicted because I have $25 in my savings account#basically I’m totally fucked#wonderful
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Methinks its time to move back home actually
#i talked to my aunt about it and honestly like. i might as well#im broke im in a bunch of debt i have no access to medical insurance so i cant get therapy im alone depressed and my bills are always late#and ive been stuck in my apartment for months bc of this ridiculous registration shit for my car#so as much as i dont want to sell my car OR move im. thinking about it now#like at least id have the house almost to myself since my sibling moved out#and i could make the upstairs my own pretty much. plus ive been meaning to jelp renovate up there so#why not#plus i can save for tattoo stuff properly#i just feel like im giving up i was trying to prove i could care for myself and#I feel like ive proven km incapable pf being an adult bc of this it sucks#but at least my ma and my aunt are willing to help me as i figure shit out. im lucky to have them#mag.txt
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GOD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH. IM AT MY WITS END I CANT DO IT!!!!!!
#No context vent idont want to say details i just eant to kms bro this shit sucks ASS JUST SHUT UPPPP IM GONNA RIP MY HAIR OUT#LIKEEEE STOPPP PLEASE I DONT WANT TO TALK I WILL KILL MYSELF IN FRONT OF YOU#I JUST NEED TO MAKE IT TO MONDAY BRO😭😭IDK IF I CAN DO IT#Like its making me so fucking mad im trying to not to be a dick but holy hell how can i not#i need to be run over with a car#like i actually cannot get through this#why is this shit the hardest thing ive ever dealt with its so fuckin stupid bro😭😭😭😭
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accidentally grabbed the wholewheat bread instead of white bread for my hotdogs. my life is hell
#i like wheat bread i just dont. want it rn NDFNFJFJ#also my podcast is making me sad bc theyre talking abt eyecontact#and theyre talking abt how they like force themselves to make eyecontact even tho they rly dont like it bc they were talking to friends who#were complaining abt weird ppl who didnt make eye contact with them. and like ngl if a friend was complaining to me abt ppl#not making eye contact and talking abt how rude they found it Iddd actually kms. bc its painful for me i am not the eyecontact girl . at all#it genuinely makes my skin crawk i can do it for like 2 seconds at a time#but luckily i live jn Autism house with a bunch of autists so none of us do eye contact HFNRJTNFJR#but like. i get reminded that ppl outside like. find it rly rude or like. they take it as Not being interested if you dont Stare them in the#eyes unblinking for the entire conversation. like sry .#its likee . yes in general i have gotten So much fuckjng worse at masking since i dropped out#but eyecontact has always been sonrthing i vant do#si its like Wow even when i was good i still wasnt right. ok . so i will always be misunderstood and i should jump into the road?#<- the road ib front of my house like never has cars its a suburb so dw. im picturing i just jump onto rhe road and then turn around#and walk back inside.#but wtvr.
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me when the rsd is . rsd. ing. oh my god
#salmon jibberish#also funny how when i do the art im most proud of it like . Does Ass /lh#my last two full art pieces im so so proud of (especially resonance) and they just kinda . did ass#i always tell myself dont do it for the numbers#and im not!#but it still . guh#i like. i like people seeing the stuff i make#i hate begging for reblogs!!! but i !!! want people to see my stuff ajd like it!!! yknow?!#i feel like an evil bitch for wanting thing#*things#i need to get hit by a car. or something#joking of course#naturally#logically i know the stuff my brain is telling me to kms over is really fucking stupid but#ow. ow. ow . ow. it hurts#yaknow!#im taking poison damage or something#god i need to be euthanized or solething#brain things#also i feel like i fucked up friendships before they even got off the ground but thats a subject for a whole different day and post so um#!!!!!!!! lets ignore that#ive been ripping my brain apart for the past four days and i just .need to speak !!!! now !'nn or i'll die
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ok i told the scary lady i would get back to her by wednesday and i have the interview with a place that might be better tomorrow morning. everyone cross your fingers and hope it's the best workplace on earth and they want to hire me instantly and hopefully for more than minimum wage🤞🏻
#i would take not the best workplace on earth also but i would really prefer not to take the makes me want to kms workplace#now i'm wondering if i should have said the end of next week instead of wednesday but i was nervous cause she had offered for me to start#this monday. fortunately she was very understanding but now i have to rush this other place#who apparently turned out to have some barn help job too which i would probably like to do if i can...but i suspect i won't be able to get#to wherever his place is without a car#i also just saw a decently cute place for a reasonable amount of rent in that town which would be soooo perfect also#idk if i will be able to get approved for anything though with no credit history and no recent income history....i think my brother will#help me with initial move in costs but if they want x months of income history well i need to be out in like 3 weeks lol#🥴 anyway there's that and then i have to go get a pelvic ultrasound which i am kind of worried about but its a hysterectomy prerequisite#and of course i just got my period despite the pill 🙃 but looking it up i think that's ok? idk i've had one before but it was only external#and this one is internal which i hate but i don't really have a choice.... the only thing i'm worried about is getting assigned a male tech#but maybe that's not standard practice? idk#🧍🏻 i have to take a sedative now#me
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"12 things to do if you're an academic weapon planning on going to uni" I'll kill myself in front of their admissions office
#i literally would rather get hit by a car#why do i have to jump through hoop after hoop after super curricular to get a place at literally just Some University#bitch im already giving you my money if you think im doing all that to look pretty on a personal statement for you i think you should be put#in a home#jfc#i hate this#like i don't eveb want to be here im literally just going so i can get a job that doesn't wanna make me kms soi dont starve#my entire academic career has felt like stomping on a nail board on a daily basis#bue waffling
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4 wheel drive car? umm... dont all cars have four wheels and drive?
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i love living in a time loop i love eating the same food everyday and having the same issues everyday and experiencing the same sensations everyday waiting for an imaginary person who will crash through my bedroom window and save me while i do nothing to actually deserve being saved i love that no matter what i try to change in my life my dad finds a way to ruin all my progress and make me feel like a stupid petty child for wanting things to change at all i love having no control over my life and i love having no relief from the constant onslaught of how awful i feel and how powerless i am and how much nothing is ever going to change no matter how hard i try to change it because it just isn't in the cards for me and i love that i both believe all of this and don't believe it at the same time because i believe in magic and miracles despite the fact that it has never served me or helped me at all to think like that. i'm gonna rot in this house
#please for the love of god can i just get hit by a car#sorry for venting#today i fept very proud of myself for throwing a lot of shit away and making some actual space in this trash heap of a house#but my dad got mad at me for touching 'his stuff' again so. back to wanting to kms i guess
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I NEED A FUCKING HOBBY !!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#🦈#first thing that comes to mind is crochet which i actually have stuff for crochet HOWEVER. i hate the feeling of knitwear#🫥#like i would be able to do it obvs but making stuff for myself would be a nightmare.#i wanna customise some of my clothes but im ACTUALLY a pussy and i dont wanna ruin them#i got back into reading which slays but the Pull Of The Phone is sm stronger#so i think i need smth like Actively hands on#i want to paint but my tablets are kinda fucking me right in the creativity muscle rn but i kkinda need them to function so#WHAT I ACTUALLY NEED TO DO IS MESSAGE THE GUY ABOUT BASS GUITAR LESSONS#i bought a bass when i bought my car (TWO YEARS AGO) and i havent learned to play.#anyway. kms attacking myself ripping my hair out#i need to figure smth out bc like 10+ years on the computer is sickening
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For a change of pace, what if they made a dragon or unreal engine video of thirst trap Mine on the beach instead
We all know Yokoyama is really into him. The chances are low but never 0
I hope rgg gets the Dead or Alive treatment and theres a gratuitous beach-episode spin off game complete with volleyball, gambling at the casino, and jiggle physics
#snap chats#ill be so tbh only ryujis got jiggle physics and i feel like he’d never step foot on a beach#player gets sent to okinawa and now has to spend the month with all these ex yakuza#you got beach mine you got. kanda. i guess.#and what would a beach episode be without ICHI#I KNOW INSAID I WAS OVERSATURATED WITH THE ICHIBAN ASS TALKING IK BUT JUST THIS ONE#LEMME MAKE A JOKE ABOUT IT JUST ONE THEN WE’RE DONE#im sitting in my dark ass car cause i wanted to kms again alright let me laugh a little#anyway im going to walmart yall want anything
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like i don't want to dunk on unsplash as a resource or all the creatives putting their work on there but.....trying to find photos on there really feels like pulling my teeth out
#i need the horror edition of unsplash im tired of just getting like portraits of men being normal#and photos of bikes or cars#scrolling through the experimental tab is a good shout sometimes LOL#i literally just want cool and experimental pics with red and black THATS ALL#the fact i cant sort by colour makes me wanna kms because thats how i found everything before!!!#i search 'red' in the search bar and like it does nothing most of the time
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hey why did my manager unprompted tell me and like 3 other coworkers a story about how he had his dog terrorize her girlfriend for three hours while he took a nap and she hid in the car afraid like it was a funny story to tell.
#i said i would never run after a guest. i dont run and he said i could make you run. i have a rottweiler.#and then launched into this story.#also once we were alone he stated talking about how he used to be a personal trainer and how once girls lost weight they had way too much#confidence and would tell men to leave them alone which he made sound like a crime of the highest order. and asked me again if i was a mom.#which would be like whatever if he hadnt mentioned multiple times how many times he had made specifically moms obsessed with him.#like to the point it was concerning to their mental state. and he just openly admitted this to me as if it were a funny thing that happens#to everyone.#i hate having to work with him when its just the two of us. unfortunately he makes the schedule so i cant even be like hey can we avoid tha#none of this on its own is really that deep its just all of it together... i get such a weird vibe from this guy.#and he keeps trying to set up outside of work events and im just like. i dont know how to tell you that i would rather kms.#like he wants us to fucking roadtrip to san antonio which is like. fucking 7 hours or something? i cant stand a fucking 6 hour shift#and youre not even there for half of that! i would end up trying to physically fight the guy if we were stuck in a car for that long#he is literally my only problem with this job at this point. like customers piss me off sometimes but theyll do that anywhere#he just. makes me deeply uncomfortable anytime were alone#prsnl
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just had one of the worst cries of my life i think
#going out soon but idk im just so full of anxiety n everything sucks#ive been throwing up since like 3am too bc im so anxious#like i fucked up last night and it hasnt left my mind#n then i have to join a discord and get interviewed and play a game that i find terrifying bc itll make him happy (first world problems ik)#and now i have to go out to lunch today#which would be great but !!#my jeans are a tiny bit tighter than they usually are which means i gained weight !!!! i havent eaten today so its not bloating !!!#and then i went into the bathroom to look at myself and i saw how bad my eyebags are so i went to put on makeup#but i looked fucking stupid so i took it off and now im just sitting here kinda bawling over how ugly i am#i fucking hate it !! im so disgusting#im so tired i just want to kms and cut#how am i meant to talk to him when i cant stop crying and how am i meant to go outside like this#like im never gonna post my face here but u guys rlly dont know how gross i look#god im gonna meet him in like 4 months dude i fucking cant hes gonna find me so repulsive im going to cry#wtf do i do im so fucked nothing is going to save me#hes just gonna spend like 3 days with me probably fuck me and then just leave me i fucking know it#its so over man its so fucking over someone just run me over with a car#jamie.txt
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I've gotta get a job I've gotta get a job I've Gotta Get A Job I'VE GOTTA G
#feeling guilty abt dad scrounging for money feeling guilty abt ppls mutual a id feeling scared abt not having insurance in a few months#feeling bad that the 4k i saved to put towards a car in 2019 is like. gone 💀 no car to get a good job to afford a car to get a better job💀#need a job that wont make me want 2 kms tho and ofc like. Covid is still awful out here and im asthmatic lmao and immunocompromised fam#but i can't stay incomeless much longer aaaaaaahhhhhhHHHHH 🙃🙃🙃🙃💀💀💀💀💀#sentext
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I work in a restaurant and I genuinely love it!.... except for the way I'm treated by the company and management. They suck, and they've made me ponder quitting the job multiple times, but I've stayed for my favorite customers. If I was treated like a human being (given breaks, allowed to sit down occasionally, allowed to eat food, not constantly condescended to and yelled at) I would be doing this til I was 90! I want to work, I love to work. And I have one of those "get a real job" jobs. It's the people who tell that to me that make it terrible.
#i know few people cars but LOOK I GENUINELY LOVE THE FOOD BUSINESS#its the fucking managers treating me like garbage that make it terrible not the work itself#“why the fuck you so slow work faster” debbie im going to throw this food in your face do you want to do it for me? fuck off#so many times i have wanted to quit on the spot and i talk myself out of it but it has never once been because the job itself#handling food and even the cleaning like scrubbinf bathrooms... thats fine!#debbie though? shes makes me want to kms#random
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