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sonicbrutalism · 21 days ago
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Nils and Caro at their home in Leipzig (2024) by Marina Mónaco.
Nils Keppel & Caroline Ida.
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razzafrazzle · 11 months ago
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so side order huh
[image description: an ms paint drawing of caroline from portal shaking hands with marina from splatoon with the text "lesbians who were put in The Machinery That Makes You Evil" below them. both of them look distressed. end id]
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empty-blog-for-lurking · 17 days ago
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Thinking about parenthood in rusty lake and how whether it is a blessing or a curse doesn't matter because it is always, Always haunting
#empty thoughts#Rusty lake#Cube escape#Caroline eilander#Nicholas eilander#James vanderboom#Mary vanderboom#Albert vanderboom#Emma vanderboom#Samuel vanderboom#Ida vanderboom#Ida reiziger#Rose vanderboom#Harvey rusty lake#dale vandermeer#Rl harvey#Like how Caroline condemned herself to be corrupted to save her son while Nicholas tried to sacrificed the same son to become enlightened#James chose a chance of immortality over raising his own children leaving them all alone#Mary was left alone raising three kids and she clearly played favorites which caused the drift b/w the triplets#Both Emma and Albert created their children they loved but while Emma did because she wanted to be a mother#Albert did it out of obsession and the fact that he did it-after killing his brother‚ his wife aka the woman he loved#and kidnapping his nephew to the point that it drove his sister to suicide#Shows just how far gone he was#Ida knew that marrying into this family would only curse her but she did anyway because it let her be with her husband and her son#even if only for a short while#do you think she knew about Rose the daughter she never wanted with the man that she rejected and who killed her?#Rose loved her daughter more then anything but at the end of the day she had to choose between being a daughter and a mother#And at the end chose to be a daughter#Harvey loved Laura and tried to be the parent in Rose's stead but he could not protect her from her destiny#(I have more thoughts but i hit the tumblr tag limit :(
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the-great-anteater · 2 years ago
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Putting Rusty Lake women on The Spectrum™
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knivesofthemind · 1 year ago
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I just noticed all of the female characters with red hair in Rusty Lake have premonitions/visions…
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mourningmaybells · 2 years ago
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I made a Dale version of this meme awhile back and forgot to post the girls
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venicepearl · 2 years ago
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Princess Ida Caroline of Saxe-Meiningen (25 June 1794 – 4 April 1852), was a German princess, a member of the House of Wettin, and by marriage Princess of Saxe-Weimar-Eisenach.
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cmcreid-warriorprincess · 24 days ago
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Carrie tried not to look hurt at his words despite their razor's edge. She watched as he closed his eyes, realising what he'd said. She didn't blame him. She took an unnecessary yet steadying breath. It was something she had to do to keep the grief at bay. Sometimes she couldn't hold it back, her heightened vampire shit. But she was okay. See? No tears.
A little gasp came out as he grabbed the cup. Their fingers didn't even brush and she still felt guilty. A part of her wanted him to take her hand, to hold her and tell her everything was going to be okay. She wanted... She pushed away the thought. The memory of that night when he had held her. The mug was out of her reach. It wasn't the only thing. "Good. I- Right," she said, a small smile tugging at her lips. Fucking invulnerable. There was that. It didn't mean she wasn't worried though. Carrie sat up straighter, palms down so she wouldn't fidget and shot him an unexpected grin. "Your favourite cousin kicked my favourite cousin's ass earlier in training. Must be a good sign."
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"She basically dumped him and now that's his entire personality. Which he had very little of in the first place." Scott spoke without thinking, pressing his eyes shut at the point of remembering that Corey wasn't the only one Ruby had left behind. Still too proud too apologise in words, he lowered his head for a second, trying to shake off the topic all together. "Never mind. I'm sure he'll... live."
He watched her hands as she held his mug, almost entranced by them as she moved the ceramic around. He fought the urge to do exactly what he thought she needed - to take her hand and just hold it, even if just for a second, and let her know that he was there for her, and he'd always be there for her. Or, he would've been, if he wasn't now fated to be just a fleeting moment in her eternal life. As she cleared her throat he snapped out of this trance, and grabbed the mug from her by the rim as to avoid any physical contact, "He's fine." He took a single sip of his tea while he cleared his mind before setting the mug down in front of him, just out of her reach. "He'll be back before sunset, and he's got people with him. Probably also helps that he's fucking invulnerable."
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crownedinmarigolds · 8 months ago
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Clan Tzimisce... I love everyone's interpretations of this clan in particular. Thank you all! (And of course @heywizards for the idea to post them all together!) Edit: Updated with Taeho!
Names and owners beneath the cut!
Kreska - commissioned by @spell-fox
Linden also belongs to Spell-Fox!
Agnes - commissioned by @insatiablewit
Taeho - @dykeferatu
Caroline-Medorah - @sleepknoot
Cyril - @cyrilphd
Mina - @arc-tu-rus
Ida - @chiss-ticism
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sonicbrutalism · 21 days ago
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Nils and Caro at the ex-hostel in Leipzig (2023) by Marina Mónaco.
Nils Keppel & Carolina Ida.
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littlesparklight · 5 months ago
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What are the specific sources that say Helen went willingly with Paris? Was discussing with a friend but all I could remember was Sappho fragment 16? Ty!!
Let me start with a quote from the preface to Ruby Blondell's Helen of Troy: Beauty, Myth, Devastation:
"Though her [Helen's] departure is typically referred to as an "abduction", none of our sources claims that Paris took Helen by force against her will. Her complicity is essential to her story."
I could, in short, give you almost any and all sources possible, anon! Even the late sources like Dictys and Dares include mutual attraction and desire, even when Helen is, actually forcibly taken. And sure, some might protest about Aphrodite's (implied, usually) forcible meddling in Helen's psychology, but that is never what we really see and that is, secondly, not really how personal responsibility, even in the face of potential/actual divine interference, works. (In that case you'd have to absolve Zeus of a lot of his escapades.)
Anyway, I'll try to give you a selection, vaguely arranged in chronological order.
The Iliad - I could pick several different lines from here, and they'd all be from Helen herself. Sure, if one's interpretation is that she is not honest about what she's saying, you might not agree, but I'm going to insist on allowing Helen the agency she is claiming for herself. So, here, from Helen's conversation with Priam in Book 3:
"Honored are you to me, dear father in law, and revered, and would that evil death had pleased me at that time when I followed your son here, abandoning [...]" (trans. Caroline Alexander)
Elsewhere Helen uses "I went". But for this the pertinent thing is that "had pleased me" because the clear implication is that what pleased her back then was Paris, not death.
The Kypria; fragmentary, here's a quote from Proclus' summary: "Aphrodite brings Helen and Alexandros together. After their intercourse, they load up a great many valuables and sail away by night."
That "brings [them] together" isn't a language of force in the terminology used, and it's clearly both Helen and Paris who takes the valuables, not Paris alone. In fact, lets compare a directly comparable sentence from the (much) later Bibliotheke, Epitome 3.3: "Alexander persuaded Helen to go off with him. And she abandoned Hermione, then nine years old, and putting most of the property on board, she set sail with him by night."
'Persuasion', 'she abandoned', '[she] put most of the property on board', 'she set sail'. You see the point here. Helen is not baggage that Paris has picked up like an inanimate object and left with, no matter what its will. She is doing things.
You already mentioned Sappho 16 yourself, so let's turn to her contemporary Alkaios, fr. 283 (taking the translation of the quote of this from Blondell's book): "... and [Eros?] excited in her breast, the heart of Argive Helen; and driven mad by the Trojan man, the host-deceiver, she followed him over the sea in his ship."
The rest basically reiterates these opening lines, and you can see some of the similarity to Sappho 16, but Alkaios is a lot more condemnatory. Of Helen and Paris both.
Euripides next. Iphigenia in Aulis: "[...]and he, finding Menelaus gone from home, carried Helen off, in mutual desire, to his steading on Ida." (Agamemnon speaking.) and "[...]that Hellas might exact vengeance on the one who had fled her home to wed a foreigner." (The chorus speaking.) Trojan Women: "Their captain too, whom men call wise, has lost for what he hated most what most he prized, yielding to his brother for a woman's sake—and she was willing and not taken by force—the joy he had of his own children in his home." (Kassandra speaking.) I'm not going to quote all of Hecuba's speech in the agon against Helen, but her whole argument is that Helen went willingly... and some of Helen's own arguments are less to deny this idea of mutual desire/having left willingly and more to say Aphrodite is impossible to resist (but then we have to absolve Zeus, for Helen uses his vulnerability to Aphrodite as her thrust for as to why she should be excused).
Herodotus in his Histories is another that speak of abduction out of one side of the mouth and implies something far more willingly/mutual with the other (from 2.115):
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"gave wings to and were gone with her"; the phrase really is that, quite literally, and I haven't been able to find anything that actually discusses this. (Another translations goes with "did stir her to desire" which, while that isn't what the text literally says, does, like, get the idea of something mutual happening/the usual focus on Helen's desire for Paris across to us better.)
And for something a little later, Gorgias' Encomium of Helen: like Blondell points out in her book, Gorgias' suggestion of actual force/violence as a potential factor in Helen leaving Sparta is quite singular. (In fact, all of his arguments turns into force/violence against Helen and make her basically an object who doesn't so much have no agency as no will or personhood that might react independently at all.)
And Ovid's Heroides certainly has Helen inviting Paris' attentions, even if she does so in a circuitous manner, circling up on saying "yes, come here, now that Menelaos has left".
Anyway, I could probably have gone on, but there's a couple sources, at least!
And I'd like to point out that whether one wants to insist that Aphrodite's potential direct influence means any "willingness" of Helen's is meaningless or not, there's a whole galaxy between "Helen went off with literally no thought to what this would cause or to her daughter and Menelaos and her family, and didn't care about the consequences/intentionally meant to cause all this destruction to both sides" and "she cares about this, and is/will be conflicted over it, yet is also attracted to and leaves with Paris".
Like, just because she wasn't violently kidnapped against her will, and was/is actually attracted to Paris (which she is still in the Iliad! That is part of the point of her confrontation with Aphrodite!) and so on, doesn't mean there aren't a lot of nuances (as the Iliad itself shows) that can be put into Helen being attracted to Paris and leaving willingly in some manner.
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voguefashion · 3 days ago
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US First Ladies Inaugural Gowns
Mary Lincoln
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it is not confirmed what, exactly, Mary Todd Lincoln wore to the inauguration celebrations, but it’s believed that she wore the same dress in this photo taken after the event. It features the highly fashionable crinoline skirt of the mid-19th century, which is festooned with ruffles and a florets pattern. She accessorized with fresh flowers, worn like a garland sash across her bodice and in her hair. Mary, notably, frequently wore clothing by designer Elizabeth Keckley—a former slave—once she was in the White House. via Vogue.
Caroline Harrison
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In keeping with the America First economic policy of her husband, Benjamin Harrison, Caroline’s gown was an "All-American" creation, made in New York City by William Ghormley's firm, Ghormley, Robes et Manteaux. The Logan Silk Company in Auburn, New York, produced the fabric for the dress, while Indiana artist Mary Williamson designed the brocaded silk fabric in a pattern of Burr Oaks in tribute to Benjamin Harrison's grandfather, President William Henry Harrison. via seniorwomen.com
Ida McKinley
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Mrs. McKinley wore a gown made of Venetian lace and ivory silk, and accented with gold trim to her husband's 1897 inauguration.
Edith Roosevelt
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The dress was made of silk with a lace bodice on top. The sleeves draped down her arms and she also wore a lengthy train. Mrs. Roosevelt paired the gown with jewelry and a crocheted fan.
When the Smithsonian came looking for a donation from Edith, she didn’t have much to offer, as she tended to “reinvent” her dresses after wear. Once she was finished with a gown, she would rip it apart and use the materials to create new dresses and other outfits. The bottom half of her inaugural dress was donated to the Smithsonian with a professional recreating the bodice. via thevintagenews.com
Helen Taft
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The dress was a white silk chiffon number covered in floral embroidery and accompanied by a lengthy train. The fabric was detailed with appliqués and sewn-on rhinestones, and the sleeves had crystals hanging from them. The neckline was unique in that it was square, and Helen paired the beautiful gown with elbow gloves and a matching lace choker. via thevintagenews.com
Eleanor Roosevelt
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For her husband's first inauguration in 1933, Mrs. Roosevelt wore a slate-blue silk flowing, detachable long-sleeved gown with a belt buckle and shoulder clips made of rhinestone and moonstone. A leaf and floral pattern has been embroidered into the fabric using a gold thread.
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For the 1937 inauguration, Mrs. Roosevelt wore a metallic pale copper short-sleeved gown with lace embellishment and pearl accents, designed by Sally Milgrim.
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For her husband's third inauguration she selected a silk gown with cap sleeves and a sweeping train.
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For her husband's fourth inauguration Mrs. Roosevelt wore a pink rayon crepe gown trimmed with lace and sequins, designed by Arnold Constable.
Bess Truman
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Bess Truman chose a velveteen gown with an elaborate white accent at the shoulder for her husband's inauguration. She topped off the outfit with a cropped fur coat. via today.com
Mamie Eisenhower
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For her husband's 1953 inauguration, Mamie Eisenhower wore a pale pink gown adorned with 2,000 rhinestones, designed by Nettie Rosenstein, paired with matching white gloves.
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For her husband's second inauguration, Mrs. Eisenhower wore a pale pink, pearl-crystal-and topaz embroidered gown by Nettie Rosenstein, who designed her first inaugural gown, with a bag featuring the letter “M” on one side and “1957” on the other. Paired with white gloves.
Jackie Kennedy
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For the Inaugural Ball in 1961, Mrs. Kennedy collaborated with Bergdorf Goodman’s Ethel Frankau and Emeric Partos. The sleeveless, off-white gown with a silk sheer top covering a strapless bodice is encrusted with “brilliants” and embroidered with silver thread. Mrs. Kennedy finished the look off with a matching cape that closed at the neck and elbow-length gloves.
Lady Bird Johnson
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Designed by John More and bought through Neiman Marcus in Texas, Mrs. Johnson wore a canary-yellow satin neck gown and sable-trimmed coat, paired with white gloves.
Pat Nixon
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Mrs. Nixon wore a gold and silver satin gown encrusted with Swarovski crystals, designed by Karen Stark for Harvey Berin to her husband's 1969 inauguration.
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For the 1973 inauguration, Mrs. Nixon wore an iridescent turquoise organza fabric, with a lamé material underneath for extra shimmer, designed by Adele Simpson. She wore it with a short white mink jacket made by Ritter Brothers.
Rosalynn Carter
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Mrs. Carter recycled her Mary Matise gold-trimmed gown to her husband's 1977 inauguration. She had previously worn it at the inauguration of her husband as Governor of Georgia.
Nancy Reagan
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For the 1981 inauguration of her husband, Mrs. Reagan wore a white beaded one-shouldered sheath gown of lace over silk satin, designed by James Galanos. Galanos said that he wanted to make Mrs. Reagan look glamorous, “... elegant and in keeping with the new formality.”
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For the 1985 inauguration, Mrs. Reagan chose again John Galanos as her dress designer, in a custom beaded white gown.
Barbara Bush
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Mrs. Bush wore a royal-blue gown with velvet bodice and asymmetrically draped silk satin skirt to the 1989 inaugural balls. The dress was designed by Arnold Scassi, who noted that Mrs. Bush was suddenly, “the most glamorous grandmother in the United States.” via Smithsonian
Hilary Clinton
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For her husband's first inauguration in 1993, Mrs. Clinton wore a violet beaded lace sheath gown with iridescent blue velvet silk mousseline overskirt, designed by Sarah Phillips and made by Barbara Matera Ltd., a New York theatrical costume maker.
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In 1997, Mrs. Clinton wore a pale gold lace Oscar de la Renta turtleneck gown
Laura Bush
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For her first inaugural ball as First Lady in 2001, Mrs. Bush all-red Chantilly lace gown designed by Michael Faircloth. 
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For second her inaugural ball in 2005, Mrs. Bush wore a silver Oscar de la Renta gown.
Michelle Obama
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Mrs. Obama at her first Inaugural Ball in 2009, wore a one-shouldered white silk chiffon gown embellished with organza flowers with Swarovski crystal in the centers, designed by Jason Wu.
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For the 2013 Inaugural Ball, Mrs. Obama wore a bright ruby red chiffon and velvet gown, designed by Jason Wu, who designed her first inaugural gown.
Melania Trump
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For her first inaugural Ball in 2017, Mrs. Trump wore a silk crepe gown designed by her long-time friend Hervé Pierre.
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For the Liberty Inaugural Ball in 2025 Mrs. Trump chose Hervé Pierre again, this time in a strapless off-white silk crepe dress with two bands of black silk gazar. The First Lady borrowed a diamond broach that was created by Harry Winston in 1955 and wore it as a choker. "It was clear that Mrs. Trump was gravitating towards a combination of black and white – true to her own style and vision,” said Pierre.
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the-great-anteater · 2 years ago
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Rusty Lake characters as T-shirts that go hard
Laura
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Emma
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Ida
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Samuel
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Albert
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Rose
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Dale
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Bob
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Caroline
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David
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Elizabeth
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Sarah
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bonus: Laura again
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todaysdocument · 1 year ago
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Telegram to President Woodrow Wilson from Jane Addams and Other Women Regarding the Deportation of Emmeline Pankhurst
Record Group 85: Records of the Immigration and Naturalization Service Series: Subject and Policy Files File Unit: Appeal of Mrs. Emmeline Pankhurst for admittance for visit, English Suffragette
This telegram petitioned the Department of Labor and their decision to deport Emmeline Pankhurst, a British suffragette. The authors wanted the board to reconsider and maintain "America's devotion to liberty."
Telegram The White House, Washington 6 PO.FD. 283 139 extra 10:25 p.m. Sa, Chicago, Ill., October 18, 1913. The President. Whereas, the Associated Press reports to the American public that Mrs. Pankhurst's deportation has been ordered by the board of inquiry at Ellis Island and, Whereas, such action is in direct violation of the traditions and customs of the United States which has always been hospitable to the political offenders and revolutionists of all nations, and, Whereas, our sister republic, France, is at the present moment sheltering Christabel Pankhurst, Now, therefore, be it resolved: That we, the undersigned women of Chicago, protest against this flagrant violation of our long established public policy, and, Be it further resolved: That we respectively petition the Department of Labor in reviewing the case of this distinguished English woman to reconsider the decision of the Board of Inquiry and to admit Mrs. Pankhurst; thus maintaining the high traditions of America's devotion to liberty and right of free speech. (Signed) Jane Addams, Louise DeKoven Bowen, Mary Rozette Smith, Mary McDowell, Margaret Dreier Robins, Harriet Taylor Treadwell, President Chicago Political Equality League; Margaret A. Haley, Business Representative Chicago Teachers' Federation; Ida L. M. Furstman, President Chicago Teachers' Federation; Mrs. Harriet S. Thompson, Director Chicago Political Equality League; Edith A. Phelps, Anna Nichols, Laura Dainty Pelham,
Telegram The White House, Washington 6 PO. Sheet 2- Chicago, Ill., Octo. 18, 1913. to the President. Stella Miles Franklin, Kathleen Hamill, Mary Foulke Morrisson, Anna Monroe, Edith Wyatt, Caroline Packard, Leonora Pease, Secretary Socialist Women's League; Mrs. L. Brackett Bishop, Marion M. Griffin, Margaret B. Dobyne, Mary E. Galvin, Judith W. Loewenthal, Agnes Nestor, E. Beatrix Dauchy, Belle Squire, Anna Willard Timneus, Emma Steghagen, Grace Wilbur Trout, Florence Holbrook, Catharine Goggin, Mary Anderson, Sophonisba Breckinridge, Edith Abbott, Esther Dresden, President Young Women's Suffrage Association; Amy Walker, Francis Harden, Anna Harden, Catharine Goggin, Mary V. Donoghue, Wilma Rhinesmith, Julia Donoghue, Serina Hayes, May E. Brown.
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deadpresidents · 1 year ago
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Do you have one of those presidential rankings lists for oldest first ladies like the one you posted for oldest presidents when Carter turned 99?
I do. A slight distinction, though, is that this will be a list of longest-living wives of the Presidents as opposed to a list of First Ladies. Not every President's wife technically served as First Lady (and not every First Lady or White House Hostess was a President's wife) because some died or divorced before their husband became President and a couple Presidents remarried after leaving office.
So, with that clarification, here are the wives of the Presidents from longest- to shortest-living at the age of their death:
Bess Truman: 97 years, 247 days Rosalynn Carter: 96 years, 93 days Nancy Reagan: 94 years, 243 days (Reagan's 2nd wife) Lady Bird Johnson: 94 years, 201 days Betty Ford: 93 years, 91 days Barbara Bush: 92 years, 313 days Jane Wyman: 90 years, 248 days (Reagan's 1st wife) Mary Harrison: 89 years, 250 days (B. Harrison's 2nd wife) Edith Wilson: 89 years, 64 days (Wilson's 2nd wife) Anna Harrison: 88 years 215 days Sarah Polk: 87 years, 344 days Edith Roosevelt: 87 years, 45 days (T. Roosevelt's 2nd wife) Lucretia Garfield: 85 years, 329 days Frances Cleveland: 83 years, 100 days Mamie Eisenhower: 82 years, 352 days Helen Taft: 82 years, 140 days Pat Nixon: 81 years, 98 days Dolley Madison: 81 years, 53 days Grace Coolidge: 78 years, 186 days Eleanor Roosevelt: 78 years, 27 days Louisa Adams: 77 years, 91 days Laura Bush: 77 years+ [Still living] Julia Grant: 76 years, 322 days Hillary Clinton: 76 years+ [Still living] Abigail Adams: 73 years, 351 days Ivana Trump: 73 years, 144 days (Trump's 1st wife) Jill Biden: 72 years+ [Still living] Martha Washington: 70 years, 355 days Lou Hoover: 69 years, 284 days Julia Tyler: 69 years, 67 days (Tyler's 2nd wife) Caroline Fillmore: 67 years, 294 days (Fillmore's 2nd wife) Eliza Johnson: 65 years, 103 days Jacqueline Kennedy: 64 years, 295 days Florence Harding: 64 years, 98 days Margaret Taylor: 63 years, 331 days Mary Todd Lincoln: 63 years, 215 days Elizabeth Monroe: 62 years, 85 days Rachel Jackson: 61 years, 190 days Caroline Harrison: 60 years, 24 days (B. Harrison's 1st wife) Marla Maples Trump: 60 years+ (Trump's 2nd wife) [Still living] Ida McKinley: 59 years, 352 days Michelle Obama: 59 years+ [Still living] Lucy Hayes: 57 years, 301 days Jane Pierce: 57 years, 265 days Abigail Fillmore: 57 years, 17 days (Fillmore's 1st wife) Ellen Wilson: 54 years, 84 days (Wilson's 1st wife) Melania Trump: 53 years+ [Still living] Letitia Tyler: 51 years, 302 days (Tyler's 1st wife) Ellen Arthur: 42 years, 135 days Hannah Van Buren: 35 years, 334 days Martha Jefferson: 33 years, 322 days Neilia Biden: 30 years, 143 days (Biden's 1st wife) Alice Roosevelt: 22 years, 192 days (T. Roosevelt's 1st wife)
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shwnli · 8 months ago
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𝘪'𝘮 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘢𝘷𝘦.
un momento que haya marcado un antes y un después habilidad: fuerza (2/3)
Una punzada en el pecho le advirtió lo que debió haber sabido. 
Ella no lo estaba mirando. 
Demonios, ni siquiera estaba presente. 
La sentía lejana. Vacía.
¿Se había acabado?
Shawn decidió ignorar el augurio. ¿Qué tanto podía suceder si él se enfocaba, con todas sus fuerzas, en hacerse creer que todo estaba bien? No midió las consecuencias porque creyó fielmente que no habría ninguna. Caroline volvería a ser la misma en un par de días, como siempre sucedía. Unos días más… Unos días más y todo volvería a la normalidad. Lo repitió como un mantra, como un ruego. Si existía un receptor de sus plegarias, esperaba que lo oyera, que lo ayudara.
Le besó el cuello. Solemne. Devoto. Como el preso de amor que era.
Ella no reaccionó. Solo miraba el techo, ida.
La marejada de ansiedad lo barrió de pies a cabeza. El hálito comenzó a faltarle. Los lagrimales le escocían. 
¿Acaso no quería estar ahí, con él, muchacho que la amaba con locura y pasión?
Quería tomarla de los hombros y sacudirla. Hacerla reaccionar. Que le hablara. Que le dijera qué le sucedía. Dónde estaba, porqué había impuesto una distancia tan álgida como un mar embravecido entre ambos.
Pero no lo hizo. Se dedicó a acariciar su piel que desprendía aroma a coco y jazmín. Hoy en día la mera combinación le revuelve el estómago y tiene que contener todo de sí para no romperse en un llanto desgarrador.
La amaba y no iba rendirse. No lo había hecho antes, no lo haría ahora. ¿Quién la amaría tanto como él? Era un loco. Un desquiciado capaz de hacer cualquier cosa que aquellos labios le pidieran. Y lo hacía. Rogaba, rogaba y rogaba. 
La besó para intentar hacerla espabilar. Sintió frío.
Debió haberlo sabido.
De pronto, una mano lánguida acunó una de sus mejillas.
Su corazón volvió a latir, firme, azuzado por el tacto de aquellos dedos contra su rostro.
Lo obligó a mirarla, suave, sutil, con esa gracia que le hacía perder la cabeza. 
Engañosa, cruel, maldita.
¿Por qué?
¿Por qué?
Lo supo y no lo quiso aceptar. Lo supo y decidió que daría todo de sí para detener la puerta que estaba cerrándose frente a sus ojos. Algo había hecho mal, pero podía enmendarlo. 
Lo enmendaría.
La amaba. La amaba incluso cuando ella estaba rompiéndole el corazón. La amaba como jamás había amado a nadie. Se preguntó si alguna vez volvería a querer con el mismo fervor.
La pregunta estaba mal. La pregunta era si alguna vez volvería a querer a alguien más. No había forma de que lo que sentía se acabara. Él no era ella. Él no podía dejar ir con la misma facilidad que ella.
Tres años. Tres años de idas y vueltas. De correr tras ella. De recuperarla y ver el galardón del cariño en sus ojos. 
Ahora no había nada.
No fueron necesarias palabras. Sus pupilas ya no refulgían con el mismo candor de antes.
Se vio en ellas y se dio asco. La desesperación, la angustia habían deformado su rostro. La vista se le cegó con nubarrones de lágrimas que tantas veces había derramado frente a ella cuando, de rodillas, pedía clemencia.
No dijo nada. 
Lo supo.
Él la amaba, pero ella no. ¿Alguna vez lo había hecho?
Dios y el cielo sabían que tenía que dejarla ir. 
No era nada que él no supiera.
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