#cant even draw shit anymore
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sorry ink sans i cant do your inktober this month. art block is currently dragging me into a pit love you though
#killz yapz#inktober#good lordddd#cant even draw shit anymore#how am i supposed to work in these conditions !?#ink sans#utmv
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uh oh
also change my yuus outfit www
#twisted wonderland#twst#ツイステ#ツイステッドワンダーランド#mmarts#twst spoilers#twst oc#twst yuu#twst grim#skully j graves#lock shock n barrel there too lol#this is really much more messier than my usual lol im so tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiired#i cant draw like the usual anymore lol cause of shift change for eel omg#anyway#this update is insane and theres a bunch of shit i want to draw but i hope i draw that on the weekend#cause i really wanna doodle thwe events shenanigans mannn ouaghghahg#sorry im yapping#im eepy and also the sun is hot#i havent even have time to properly read the event kek#just snippets
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watching the miraculous movie has done irreversible damage to my brain. hands you miraculous shuake au.
#i said it before and i'll say it again. i never liked aus until these 2 came around. i really do not know how or why it happened#i see them in everyone and everything#persona 5#miraculous#miraculous ladybug#squeak squeak#idk why i drew that weird pose for goro i wanted to show off his cape but then i realized i'd have to draw his like. backside#and im not good at that. oof.#i like the akira drawing so much more Oh well#they cant all be winners#anyway the movie. i really liked it.#i watched the show often in the past and loved it but then all the weird shit happened and like#i still liked watching it even then but then my brain switched#and i couldn't fucking STAND it anymore#i genuinely hated seeing anything about it. filled me with rage. but this movie? did not.#might have to do with the fact that astruc or whatever his name is didnt influence it as far as i know#goro akechi#akira kusuru#shuake#idk if everyone can read my handwriting i wanted to actually have like the. au details on the drawings#and i dont like writing so much on my tablet.... gets a jumbled mess after a while
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please think twice before you point out an innocuous mistake in someone’s art, you could end up ruining an entire piece they spent hours on for them.
#i know i shouldn’t still be upset bc the person said sorry and it’s been an entire year but uggghhhhhhh i cant even look at that drawing#-anymore bc my eyes just Zero In on that Mistake and a piece i spent 6? hours drawing and was proud of for maybe a grand total of 2? hours#-just makes me think about how much i hate my own work and leads me into the the untalented loser spiral my brain loves to go on#and i don’t Want to delete the piece bc i Did work hard on it but idk 😩#especially hurts since it was a stev/////atya piece and i make that shit FOR ME#ugh just needed to vent
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twitter is entering their "rts > likes" phase now that likes are private after they spent years calling us ungrateful for being demotivated by ratios lmao
#man fuck yall just support artists you enjoy#dont attack people who dont rb/rt your art (hell they might even have it scheduled) but also dont constantly demand ''content'' from people#ESPECIALLY without telling them that you appreciate the effort they put in to show you cool things they made for free#you should've been rt'ing/rb'ing from the START 😒 just show people you care!#im just waiting to scroll through post after post of ppl calling out ''entitled artists'' lmao#btw my opinion on the whole thing is painfully neutral if you couldnt tell#i dont think you should care that much about numbers and ppl take it wayyyyyy too far#throwback to that one guy who personally @ everyone who didnt reblog their art that was CRAZY. i would straight up report you KJFGHKG#i also understand and have personally experienced how much engagement can change your mood#a simple ''i love this!'' can make someone's day. it's not hard to understand why ppl like engagement#when they make post after post without so much as a little tag they dont care about sharing anymore#the fact that people call that ''entitlement'' is also crazy#i have a lot of drawings i havent posted or just left nonrebloggable bc it really doesnt make a difference lmao#the only ones i leave rebloggable are the ones that i Know will do well and get attention. like the little pig redraw#if it's cute or funny it gets positive attention. anything else is shit on here lmao#it's just not as fun to share. it either leads to no engagement or negative engagement#would rather have nothing than something rude so whatever#some ppl say it's always been like this but no it absolutely was not always like this#idk what exactly caused the change. probably a lot of factors#could even just be the fandoms i hang around in! but considering i've seen the same sentiment from a bunch of ppl i doubt it's that#the best solution to no engagement is to just make friends and have fun#but 90% of the internet is hostile and negative and rude for no fucking reason#when i unfollowed someone on my old public twitter and they @ me over it. damn i dont know why but NOW i know why 😭#this post has gone way off course im just ranting at this point. i havent talked in a while hi how have you guys been#work was a lot yesterday and today is too slow (im not at work im just going crazy in my house)#(and i cant leave my house bc there's construction blocking the road someone save me)#chat
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i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit
#yall dont know the meaning of terminally online til u meet me#i hate myself so much its not even funny i am the most miserable worthless scum#my sleep schedule is 7am to 3pm all i do all day is rot on the couch and sometimes draw if i have a drop of motivation#depression is completely kicking my ass and im not even fighting back i give up what the fuck man#theres not even a point for me to keep trying i just want to stop feeling such deep despair 24/7 please#i dont want to die i just want the pain to stop so i can peacefullylive out the rest of this year before i turn 18 and its all over for good#but i cant even have that! im just gonna suffer the whole time thanks great#i wish i could just get better and fix all of this but i cant its not working we dont have the money to#actually get me the help i need to make it work. i just have to figure it out or die#i just wanna go back to ***** ** *** i just want to stop being lonely and useless#i dont know why im posting this shit to tumblr. its so stupid i should just be journaling or something#probably because im worthless selfish scum. idfk.#the last 6 months have been a complete blur. just rotting on the couch or in bed occasionally seeing friends once every other month or so#ive already wasted half of being 17 abd im probably gonna waste the rest too. ill do nothing of worth before i die.#even my art is ugly and horrible and not worth leaving behind. people tell me to work to improve it but i dont have the time left#ill never create any of the things i wanted to create ill never be a good artist im just going to die exactly like this#an absolutely terrible person.#the only people i can talk about the things that make me a terrible person with are people who are terrible in even worse ways#no one can comfort me except them because theyre the only people who know what ive done and actually do see it as less than absolute evil#because they know absolute evil because it is them. but i actually don’t believe that i think theyre bad but could be good#idk what im saying anymore#someone shoot me#please im not kidding#just make it stop#tw vent#tw sui#delete later
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bro why does my art suck SO bad lately. i cant take it anymore!!!!!!!!
#💾#every time i want to draw i either cant draw at all#or i spend hours drawing just to get to the part where i need to color it and realize i dont like iiiiiitttt and dont know how to render it#bc unfortunately it is. hard to render something u dont like!#but fuck dude idk what to do anymore#even the stuff i kinda like i end up not being able to finish????????#ive abandoned so many things i genuinely wanted to finish lately haha wheeeee#and it's driving me crazy bc i just want to like. make stuff#and i have so many ideas built up in my head for stuff i want to draw but nothing comes out right :') making me a lil insane i think#plus i want to draw stuff before i finish the game so i keep postponing playing bc my art motivation is fleeting so i gotta Grab It#so im actively not doing things i want to do in hopes of being able to finish something. and then i dont finish it#which leaves me with this empty feeling of 0 payoff for any of the hours of work i did#and idk not being able to finish a single piece ive started in the past few months is rly getting to me. idk what im doinggggg#why cant i draw anymore man!!! i have inspo and motivation!!! this shit sucks!!!!!#that one lucanis doodle is literally the only thing ive been able to finish in months#and i still look at it and realized i missed some stuff so i dont even like it. lmao#idk i think maybe i need to die. my art career is cooked i think
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when people argue against AI art they should stop pushing the narrative that the Labour of the process and the Practice is what makes art Art. like, AI is bad just as Many Technologies are bad because it was built on exploitation and its use on a corporate scale would be Detrimental to everyone, not just artists. it's not bad because it's easy.
If i could make art super easily through a press of a button i would 100% lmao, but like with most things under capitalism. making things isn't just about Making Things, it's about making money. its about a corporation ripping more people off with their shit content or an artist struggling to make ends meet because their days-long processes can't compete with a few button clicks
#hell. commission work do not pay shit.#and original work pays Negative shit. but its passion so i want to do it still but its just like. My Goddamn Energy.#is so limited.#world hard. we can only focus on what we can do#and when you only have so few functional hours in a day. well. sorry but i cant work a day job or do studies and then draw comms after#i know many people can. i cannot.#and ive stopped trying to think that i can brute force my way through it. i used to value myself greatly for my output but#we aint doing that anymore.#we make just enough money to live. if thats even possible. then we have fun. so we dont kill ourselves.#krill livestream#if commission pays me enough to move out and go to my therapist regularly then ill do it lmao.
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Art teachers when you use your artstyle:
#art meme#i absolutely would not do realism if my art teacher didnt force us to#art teachers when you have fun drawing in their class#and your artstyle isnt photo realism#and has actual personality to it and is even slightly unique#i will kill her istg i cant take this shit anymore#is this a vent post#not really im just a bit agitated#a tinsy bit angry#yapping in tags yet again
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its just difficult to believe that anyone will ever look at me and think im a writer first and everything else second tbh
#try as hard as i might. it will never happen#maybe if i stopped doing everything else. and even then its a huge maybe#im sure i'd sooner get a 'why arent you drawing anymore/i miss your drawings!' than anyone missing my writing#i mean. it has already happened so like. lmao#idk its just difficult when i think i know my identity as an artist but it seems like the thing i love the most clearly isnt the one#im known for or others think about the most#its just very disheartening. and i know i cant change that cause im just sad and mediocre at best#and who wants to take time to consume mediocre fics when you can just do that with anything visual instead lmao#im just sad sorry. just thinking maybe i should quit writing for good when nothing ever comes out of it anyways#like who gives a shit lbr#night is an absolute mess on main
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having the everything happen to you at once is not fun, can confirm
#my art#doodles#my persona#it me#vent post#i dont think im gonna get anymore attacks done this year 😭#family drama w/ my cousin and his fiancée that stresses me out despite not being involved#bc i love them both dearly and theyre Going Thru It#having to mourn a friendship thats apparently been over for a year w/o my knowledge#and feeling like utter shit bc i considered them one of my best friends#and work barely giving me hours so stressing about all my medical expenses if this keeps up#AND to top it off. starting yet another new medication tomorrow#so who knows how thats gonna interact w all my other ones#im just tired. and sad. and feeling utterly worthless#trying to stay positive despite it all tho so Maybe i WILL get an art done before this years fight is over#cant discount the possibility of suddenly having all my motivation to be productive return#sometime in the next 24 hours#or maybe i'll just draw stuff for myself to cheer myself up! who knows!#i will not let this consume me. even tho ive let it consume me for several days. im fighting!#im gonna find a way to be positive thru this even if it kills me
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#chattin#would u believe me if i said this was pep//pino related#its SILLY i was just listening to my friend get upset at ranked ow#bc like hes master and cant really climb past that anymore#and he plays as healer (bc dps role takes too long to queue up for) but hes been having some very dogshit tanks lately#bc u know. they thought it was a good idea to have one (1) tank…#but he was commenting about a shit rein that he had that kept running away from the group#bc all rein mains have one singular braincell#and he was like roadhog wouldve been a better fit bc of their comp#he was lamenting about the lack of roadhogs he sees in comp bc most of them switched to dps or zarya/junker queen#and i was like :( i miss my piggy man i miss him so much-> man pig designs are so fun i love w devs lean into it#-> boar designs are super fun i love boars they mean alot to me -> oh i need to draw boar peppino again i miss my piggy man#-> ROADHOG PEPPINO…#it wasnt even like evocative of anything#it was just like ‘roadhog is fat and pig related and i made my peppino pig related. thats neat!’#and then i sat there thinking of a tiny roadhog in overwatch. like literally the height of ana running around w a hook 😭😭😭#if i draw that that means im obligated to draw roadhog as peppino but i got comms to finish#no time for dat goku…
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GAAHAHHHHH
#venting in the tags#maybe its just past darkness and the Bad Thoughts which i shouldnt listen to are clouding my brain too much#but i feel so fucking weird and inadequate over everything rn#im unable to work on drawings as i usually would have and its kinda plaguing everything which it should like yeah i love drawing but#i cant let just one aspect of me ruin everything. right? the fact that i havent been able to draw as well as i usually can should make me#feel sick to the stomach and unsure about everything i do but it happening and i hate it.#plus i got the ipad id saved up from the comms to buy and its fun and nice and all and maybe i just need more practice with it but i feel#like im not able to draw on it even more? and i spent the whole day trying to get used to it but its just not as good?? and then when i went#back to the no screen wacom i couldnt get a hang of it becuase idek its just not happening#and also the fucking art block wants me dead i swear i want to draw so bad and i have so many ideas but the moment i start anything its just#crumbles down into nothingness and i hate everything i do and gods fuck i want to cry but i can because there are people at home and#usually im a big 'crybaby' when im at home but i dont fucjing wanna be like that anymore like i can handly my shit myself im fine.#i dont need to just fuckinf cry abiut it becuase thats not gonna fox anything but also i feel like crying might just make me feel better#but then id have to hear shit from my family and i know theyre just teasing in a /pos way but i dont wanna fucking deal with that#plus my brother iust talking to him os annoying sometimes like he talks about things so condescendingly and fucking hel dude shut#the fuck up i dont need you telling me that my art is something people can 'just do' and the fact that i was able to get the ipad#'basically for free since i got that money from the little drawings i make' as if they dont fucking mean anything to you like#shut the fucking fuck up dude i worked hard on those and even though i dont like my own shit sometimes i still fucking work hard on those#fuck you you bitch#i think a lot of things are just piling up and i need to sleep#tomorrow will be a new dawn and a fresh start and maybe ill hate myself less#ps. note to anyone reading the tags#im fine i just needed to yell out and express my frustration a bit. some sleep will help surely.
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oh god
#vent#i feel like im going to throw up my mom is just telling me to learn how to work w ai art programs since by the time im her age#ai art is going to completely take over all art jobs#and i need to learn that since thats all art is gonna be apparently#if the world really gets to that point id fucking kill myself why would i want to live in a world like that HOW COULD I LIVE IN A WORLD#LIKE THAT I FCANT BREATHE ITS TOO MUCH I CANT TAKE IT#I DONT WANT THIS I DONT WANT THIS I NEED THIS AI SHIT TO STOP I DONT KNOW HOW ILL LIVE IF ALL MY ART ENDS UP MEANING NOTHING#IF ALL THE YEARS IVE PUT INTO ALL MY HOBBIES MEANS FUCKING NOTHING BECAUSE AI TAKES OVER IT ALL#i cant live in a world like that i genuinely cant i wouldnt want to live if i couldnt... really be an artist anymore if ai really just#takes my job as an artist ive been working towards#drawing is the only thing i have...#and i cant be a musician cause i fucking hate the music industry right now#its already so hard for me trying to live in this present day but if things got even further in this bullshit i dont know how id live#sorry for talking so much i just feel scared and panicked#why would my mom say this shit to me i recently told her how scared i was at the idea of ai taking away my dream as an artist
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Ahaga fuck the college shit is getting wirse
#not allowed to draw and do anything i like anymore because my fucking asshole dad wants me to stop doing all this shit#because i cant even fucking finish the task he told me to do thats related to the exam#even tho#I WAS ALSO FUCKING BUSY WITH WRITING MY HOMEWORK MY TUTOR GAVE TO ME FOR THE EXACT SAME EXAM#so basically my life is now complwtely bleak and devoid of all the shit that i used to consider worth staying alive for#i dont even want to work in the animation industry anymore let alone be an artist#i fucking miss my old job i fucking miss everything i had going on before my parents decided that im not allowed to decide on my own lufe an#-d forced this future on me#i miss being able to get money#i miss being happy#ok thats a life im nefer gappy#but that was the closest thing to happiness i had#and the worst part is? im scared of what will happen if j ended up failing this exam anyways#i dont even want to join this specific college they forced me to join#in fact if the scenario of me joining college ever happened then i already know the exact place i wanted to go#BUT NAH#NO CHOICES FOR ME ONLY MY DAD'S FRIEND'S WORKPLACE (the college he works at)#I DONT EVEN WANT TK BECOME AN ARTIST ANYMORE ESPECIALLY WITH ALL THIS UNFAIR NFT AI ART SHIT#I HATE THIS I MISS WORKING AT THE BOOKSTORE#AGHH#vent
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I am cursed with the burden of liking so many things but not having energy to make art for all the things I like 😭
#i want to make legos art i want to make art for niche video games i want to draw all the cartoons that inspire me#but i cant 😔#i have a hard time making art i think is post worthy quality on a consistent basis </3#legit don't know how ppl can post so much girl i would Die#also im p occupied with school rn so i rlly shouldnt be spending time on non mandatory projects#and making art of stuff thats more niche or not what i have an audience for?? idk theres the risk of it flopping#while i know stuff like that doesnt diminish the value of my work it still stings man. esp when its hard for me to make stuff anyway#its like. why go through the effort if i know ppl wont care yknow#though i have gotten better at just not giving a shit anymore i still will make posts/rb abt stuff that everybody just ignores#but i dont care bc i need to have weird music and videos and images on my blog. I'll die without them. its my lifeblood#hopefully i can channel that energy more into posting abt leas popular things. maybe even original stuff-#lol sike there's basically nothing in the world that will make me confident in posting my ocs lmaooo#sorry i just dont think too highly on my abilities to develop my original content#so i just keep them all to myself to avoid the possibility of showing them to other ppl and they just straight up hate it ajdgfkfjhf#rando thoughtz
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