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when i never thought id experience this female rage and theres nothing i can do about it.
#doing the mitski scream mentally.#cant even cry.#i just keep vomiting.#im so hurt.#i cant sleep well.#i cant get up.#im so sick.#im so tired.#im not even gonna add proper tags.#i might need a genuine break from social media.#and dont go asking if this is about isiah. im leaving any hint to this situation unstated cause its personal.#but.#its like damn.#idk what to do.#my chest hurts.#my heart hurts.#i cant talk.#i cant think.
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sometimes you gotta lure your overly-studious ravenclaw gf into spending time with you 🥰 📚 ( from 'Every Teardrop is a Waterfall' by Kat_12739 on ao3, GO READ IT!!! the first story is about seb falling sick and still pushing himself/not admitting he's sick until he ends up in the hospital, the second story is about the birth of seb and clora's daughter and seb's reaction to clora almost dying in childbirth, and the third is about dealing with a fussy newborn lewis😭🥹THEY'RE SO GOOD AND SWEET AND SOMEWHAT SAD (not to mention beautifully written) so go check it out!!💖💖 )
#READ SO I CAN YAP TO SOMEONE ABOUT THEM🙏😩💘#the seb sickfic made me realize how much i needed barely functioning and sick seb (but him still trying to be tough)#theres also a part that cracked me up bc at one point seb is so sick he cant even see straight but he just thinks to himself:#eh its fine.... ill just ask ominis how HE functions without vision later🤷 LMFAO#so stubborn...JUST LET CLORA TAKE CARE OF YOU MFER🤺🤺🤺#defs gonna be drawing more from it especially sick seb LMAO but also seb having a tea party with celeste🥹🥹#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x oc#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian x mc#hogwarts legacy fanfiction#sebastian sallow fanfiction#hphl#choccyart#also i was never planning on writing anything about clora giving birth or abt the kids so to be able to read it WAS AMAZING#THERES A PART WHERE SEB IS HOLDING CELESTE AND CRYING AT CLORAS BEDSIDE THAT I NEED TO DRAW😭😭#LIKE SRSLY seb being conflicted and not even wanting to HOLD celeste bc he doesnt know if clora is alive or not... IT WAS SO SAD BUT GOOD#i honestly dont know what seb would do if clora died in childbirth tbh.......i could honestly see him resenting celeste#esp since she looks so much like clora😭😭#LETS JUST NOT THINK ABOUT IT!😃👍#(still thinking about it)#like this line in the fic: “Sebastian hesitated; if this was Clora’s last gift to him he wasn’t sure he wanted it.”#😭😭😭ITS SO GOOD UGHHHHH😭 TY AGAIN FOR WRITING THESE💖IM SO TOUCHEDDD💖💖
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goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, you were bigger than the whole sky.
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something people just don’t think about is how often chronically ill and disabled people just don’t have access to good food. not healthy food, good food; well made, tasty meals that don’t come from a jar or a freezer. how many of us are housebound or can’t drive? delivery services only offer within certain distances, if you live outside a city they aren’t an option. many people don’t have the energy or ability to cook for themselves if they have the skill to begin with. many certainly don’t have the ability to learn how. it’s something that goes completely unnoticed, just the opportunity to have a good meal and how much that wears you down
#all i want is chinese food#the closest one to me is 40 minutes away and its a /bad/ chinese place#its my worst option and its not even an option#‘fried rice is easy to make heres a recipe!’#i cant use a stove bc the heat will give me a seizure#even if i keep myself cool something that should take 15 minutes will take upwards of an hour bc i need to take breaks#even then ill probably be too nauseous to eat it after being active for so long#all of that for a bad cooks version of fried rice#more expensive and worse than a takeaway place#but i cant get it from a takeaway place#repeat ad nauseum for the rest of my life and is it any wonder im so sick of the same food ive eaten for 10 years#the only time i get takeaway is when my parents decide to go out and bring something home#can you imagine living like that for the rest of your life?#i dont have to#and its so dumb to want to cry over rice#but its not really about the rice is it#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#spoonie#chronic illness#disability#pots#postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome#ehlers danlos syndrome#fibromyalgia#chronic fatigue#chronically ill#mental illness#mental health#save post
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#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop nature au#fop dev#fop dale#dev dimmadome#dale dimmadome#art#digital art#comic#The 'Thanks' after all of that makes me so insane Im not even sure I can fully articulate why#I mean. He got what he wanted. Honesty. Thats what you wanted right Dev?#what else do you say to that#He's spent his whole life being sure he knew the answer. That deep DEEP down dale did love him#Have you ever seen that post thats like“I was bawling my eyes out and somebody told me to shut up and I was so taken aback I stopped crying#I think he was so stunned that he just stopped crying.#or like when you get so upset that your feelings turn themselves off to protect you#is that a normal thing that happens to people Erm. anyway#Sorry lol as someone born to parents who.. should not have had me. Writing dale basically admitting as much is actually really cathartic#He shouldnt have had Dev. He doesnt love him. He cant. Dev cant do anything to change it. Its just a fact.#Hes not 1:1 with my parents they tried their best ig but like. their best was still pretty awful child neglect LOL
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Marvel's Squirrel Girl: The Unbeatable Radio Show! | All of Erik Lehnsherr's Call-In's
Episodes featured: The Fate of My Universe The Sinister Six Are No More Who Would Win In A Fight? Unbeatable
Full Podcast Playlist (Spotify)
Credits below:
Written by: Ryan North
Directed by: Giovanna Sardelli
Voice Cast: Milana Vayntrub - Squirrel Girl/Doreen Green Crystal Lucas Perry - Nancy Whitehead Leo Sheng - Koi Boi/Ken Shiga Davied Morales - Chipmunk Hunk/Tomas Lara-Perez Erica Schroeder - Tippy T. Squirrel Rob Nagle - Erik Lehnsherr
Key Art: "Squirrel Girl Infinity Comic (2022)" by Derek Charm - Doreen, Nancy, Ken, Tomas, Tippy "Magneto (2023)" by Todd Nauck - Erik
#marvel#x-men#squirrel girl#magneto#cherik#i'm not tagging everyone im too drunkf rothat#i dont have a tag for vids DAMIt> this gon be my only oen#snap chats#HERE IT ISS !!!!! FINALLY !!! LIKE FOUR MONTHS IN THE MAKING <- was just too lazy to do it#i thought id focus on work all day but OOPSIEE !!!!!!!!! i was too inspired#legally had to use nauck's art that's another goat of mine ... i love his style sm its so cute and expressive and bold...#theres small things in this that bother me but whatever ive literally done this all day#im posting it and moving on#im forcing you to reblog this. DO IT#i kept giggling while makign this cause mags is so funny ....#im still crying at him being like 'yeah i said i was never going back AND I MEANT IT'#also doreen a cherik shipper ...... queen behavior i always knew it#PLEASE ENJOY !!! IM BEGGING YOU !!!! im pinning this to my blog idc this took forever#also his call ins are genuinely so funny i love him so much. my silly peepaw.....#take a shot every time he says 'charles' tho i swear to god#i was actually going to do that tongiht but Legit the amount of whiskey i had was not enough HE SAYS CHARLES SO MUCH#im ending the tags here so i dont go on a rant about how in love mags is with charles. enoug..#NOT EVEN A PODCAST SERRIES IS SAFE FROM CHERIK IM CRYINGGGGGG#they will makethemselves a probelm to EVERYONE#'please dont be evil' he'll be worse. he'll be needy jLVKAJ ERIK IS SO NEEDY IM CRYING#ok i think thats all i have to sya . im a lil tipsy so i cant think right#WAIR I REMEMBER I WANTED TO CRY ABOUT ERIKS STPID 'SWEETOOTH' JOKE I HATE HIM !!!! <- deeply in love with him#'snap you said you were drinking like ten minutes ago are you fr' dont look at me. GOOD NIGHT !!!
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the song of humanity will continue to be sung
#vash the stampede#trigun#trigun stampede#he means so much to me he means sooooo much i love him so much asfuahghdsgnkdsgk#VASHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#i posted it on twit but i was REALLY dreading ep 11 bc i figured that vash might cry#but instead he screamt into agony in which i cant even rewatch the episode#bc the va did such a good fucking job in conveying that terror and grief and guilt and it fucks me up so bad#vash makes me sad in EVERY adaption but stampede is like#we've only seen him be kind. he's just nice. he's serious and he's nice and he's kind. he treats everyone with so much delicateness and care#and the only time he raises his voice is for the protection of others and warning them#and now he's rung the wranger and i now have a hammer to knives' side#not even trying to be dramatic its just been awhile since a character has mattered to me in this kind of way#ruporas art
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fire nation festival wear aka a blatant excuse for me to push atla clothing design conventions to the absolute Limit
jjk atla!au with @philosophiums
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fanart#jjk fanart#fushiguro megumi#itadori yuuji#kugisaki nobara#jjk atla!au#atla!au: art#atla!au: illust#atla!au: design#lmhs#yuuji#megumi#nobara#there i go again putting way too much effort into designs that will b featured in all of one (1) chapter probably#the first fire nation fit i did for yuuji isnt even fic canon btw for the majority of th time theyll just be in their earth kingdom clothes#and these r the only fire nation clothes they'll Actually wear fr a significant amt of time#so feel free 2 disregard th other fit i designed for yuuji in that ask because this is all i want to see him in Ever actually#no ankles no chest no toes showing my boy is FULLY clothed. not an INCH of skin exposed. no sinful clothing cuts here no sir#did i draw him buttoned up from head to toe out of spite? maybe :)#'fire nation is based on imperial japan' me: on it boss taisho era inspired festival wear comin RIGHt up#real talk though these designs put me through the Wringer cries combining those two influences ws so hard...#all 3 braincells working *nanami voice* overtime smh#imo the final designs still ended up being a far cry from atla canon but i cant be bothered anymore they look Fine its Fine#my kids r dressed 2 the nines and that was the goal
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everyday i get jealous of those people who write essays analyzing, picking apart, and overall appreciating their favorite character's dynamic with another, the character's personality, or backstory cause im usually left like this when i think about Marcille for too long
#i swear i can talk about Marcille normally#i just- cant put the words down#i think a lot about how her life would have been if she hadn't gone on that adventure#marcille as a character makes me cry cause the fear of losing your entire support system is so real and such a possible situation#and her losing her dad and pet bird?? dont fucking get me started cause i will reinnact that photo- not even joking i will sob#marcille donato.... the character you are...#fully deserves kisses and to be tucked into bed after everything#god... she makes me so sad i love her so much#waaah hiccups sobs cries#marcille donato#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#yes its 3 am and crying over marcille donato once again- dont mind me dawg
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#a doodley#i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash#anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago#im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up#and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad#like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to#quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen#and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be#and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die#and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago#and your brothers that passed away#recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7#the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad#said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then#i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was#like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry#im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible#i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad
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wanted to work on all my personal stuff today but the super chef of the company i work for is sick and one of my coworkers wants me to draw a picture to gift to him and its gotta be done until tuesday ... i haven worked with watercolors in a decade and it SHOWS, spent 5 hours trying to get even just a test done and it looks like babies first watercolor adventure
#ganondoodles talks#i want to yell and cry why did i say yes#they want it to be 'really' drawn so no digital#and i kinda think just one with colored pencil isnt gonna do#but thats my really desperate plan b#all the watercolor supplies are cheap or so old it has crystallized#and the only artist shop around closed two years ago so i cant even go and buy more better stuff#q-q
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I just finished listening to The Suckening ☹️ like this very minute. I don't know what to do anymore. I need them back eufgggh urggh i love them so muchhh,,,
#Crying#Spoilers ahead in the tags im gonna rant#The whole sequence with Theo and Emizel against Edward was TERRIFYING dude#I was drawing at the time and i think half of those 2 pages are filled with ��NOOO NO THEO NO”#SCARY‼️‼️‼️#And dude everything about shilo in part 2 of the finale urghgghg#HEARTBREAKING#Godddddd.#I love him sm.#GHRRRRR hes such a main character it's#Arthur losing grip on humanity is pretty iconic too but ya#I loved when the twins got to hug. That was awesome. I love those guys so much urghh#I love them they are the brothers ever#URGGHHHGRRRR#PAIN PAIN PAIN#I cant believe im feeling so much misery ab the dnd campain with the main villain “Edward Twilight” but i am#Anyway#My favorite is still Emizel#No one could ever compare tbh#I dont even think albatrio get close theres just something about Emizel#How am i gonna just move on from this#Apothiosis is next on my list but god. Idk if i can handle peter sqloint after this#The Suckening absolutly the best campain im so serious. Like riptide is the best too but come ON#Anyway yeah thats just me. What the fuck dude#I hope Theo is ok ☹️😔#Jrwi#jrwi the suckening#the suckening#Emizel tucker#Jrwi fanart
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@netflix
#im going insane#netflix please#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#dead boy detectives season 2#edwin paine#charles x edwin#starfruitsomething#my art#digital art#netflix#this show is the most amazing thing-#I cant even put into words how much I am in love with it#currently re watching it again#please im begging#charles rowland#the consequences are that I will cry#for a long time#dead boy detectives fanart#RenewDeadBoyDetectives
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YAY little lore about me, my parents own a pizza restaurant IRL that I work at when I’m home from college :) and I fuckin love drawing on the whiteboard up front- back in the summer I drew something featuring the Afton fam, and my coworker (who loves Fnaf) thought it would be funny if I kept up that running joke and drew them in a holiday-themed situation for Christmas eve. Me when I bring my random long-running fixation into the workplace 🕺🕺
#I CANT STOP DRAWING THENMMmmmm#it’s not even fnaf in my head anymore bro it’s just some weird dysfunctional family#my OCs in law if you will#I like drawing them happy cuz it’s eerie when you remember canon. yeeeouuchhh#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#william afton#my art#michael afton#Elizabeth Afton#Evan Afton#cc Afton#crying child#Christmas
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Hello! I hate doing this but my rabbit needs surgery and while I can't afford the more extensive procedure, I'll try my best to pay for the more urgent one , it's about 3.5k~
So if you'd like a commission or just share this post it would mean a lot! Thank you 🫶
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#urgent commissions#commission open#I'll be real . I'm sorry if i seem ..disorganised/messy ive been crying for hours because for a while we werent even sure she'd be able to#live . and come back home so im soooo glad to have her beside me. but unfortunately vet care is quite expensive and . i barely have the fun#for it but i can't just do nothing.#she basically has like. calcium deposit in her bladder so she cant urinate very well (basically almost nothing and it hurts her to do so)
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kpop stans literally have no backbone LMAOOO when skz gets hate for collaborating with more and more zionists because as we can see they are VERY well welcomed by stays, dont come crying. what a useless fandom. literally we had one job and it’s to NOT platform a zionist and an israeli settler but nooooooo 💔💔💔 people are losing their jobs and students are being arrested for protesting against israel but 90% of stays cant even boycott ONE song.
it’s not a coincidence that zionists are infiltrating kpop i need u to PLEASE utilize ur critical thinking skills and realize that those zionist brands/artists/companies are looking for new audiences to gain since they’re being shunned away. this is only the beginning this isn’t a matter of supporting skz alone PLEASE
it could’ve been you born in palestine and it would’ve been your people and family and friends and loved ones that are genocied. and then you’d be the one asking people to not platform zionists and to shame them but oh well. good luck living life being this fucking spineless
#im literally seething this is so fucking crazy#bottom line so many stays are zionists and if not zionism apologists which is just as bad#do you guys even follow what israel is doing because i cant fathom reading just about ONE massacre that happened this past 7 months#or seeinf one mother crying for her child or a journalist weeping for his colleague or an old man crying for his wife#and supporting this collab like#please if u’ll listen to this if you’ll interact with its shit then block me gtfo#i dont like you at all and you are part of the problem#tags directed at those stays specifically#stray kids#skz
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