#can you just... kin people like this? idk
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nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am
#my want to draw traditionally literally split me open for the past week and leaves me literally depressed i'm so serious i can't even look -#- @ my art programs without wanting to throw up omfg should;ve never picked up those pencils#but it's ok i just needed a nap#something so relatable about them i think nelvas has something in it for everyone meanwhile eltl is secluded art museum.#it's very possible to walk around in neloth's and talvas' brains but eltl is off limits. they will NOT! get no drawings like this outta me#wtf r they thinking ........#< eltl not nelvas#something nobody on dis earth can understand ..........#talvas wants to live he likes living but neloth's presence is so strong that it overrides and deletes his will to live.#bruuuuuuuuh#i bet the feeling of neloff is in everything he does if they ever part ways he won't be able to fold clothes or anythign without wanting -#- 2 cry . for what reason . idk bc neloth once yelled at him for folding clothes like shit .what am i on rn#(talvas thoughts mode) I want this old man to hug meeee😢😢😢#NELOFF DO IT and smash him too before i do it first .#me and neloth are the same person tho so it doesn;t matter but w/e#i'm getting emotional over them right now this cannot be real#i love her .... (Skyr1m)#i opened the game for .5 minutes today to take pics of a character uight what a beautiful game.#Te/s having such extensive lore ruins the whole entire game and the franchise but whatever . skyr1m is an art piece that's just how i feel#also this might be a very hard pill to swallow for some people but t*lvas is literally a kin Vessel for young women that keep getting -#- hit on by men twice or thrice their age when they're just trying to live their life .#this feels so profound to me i need dis shit inmy discord bio right NOEW.#Talvas................................#(eyes watering) (holding palm out)#suicide //#just in case but this tag would've gone crazy with my drawings of ulfr*c from late 2022 where i drew him with slit wrists. very artsay#is it not. i didn't like neither of those drawings tho i need to revisit cus i can feel ulfr*c on a diffaraaant level#when will i run out of tags. the way you can tell i just LUH talvas look at me drawing his hair in that second pic 😑BRU#look at me also trying to replicate pencils digitally in the first.. hmmm i don't hate it#at least it soothes me and i don't have pencil withdrawal
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A new sculpture! Finally... I feel like I never sculpt anymore since I'm always sick or have some 500 other things going on or projects to finish, but I'm trying to schedule time to do it more often this year hopefully..! Just a generic fantasy creature as usual, but did try making the eyes a little more sparkly this time.. hrmm..
#sculpture#fantasy art#fantasy creature#art#elf#lol what are the tags I should use... I still never know.. EVIL social media.. hate the idea of tagging anything ever anyway. but alas..#I also would ideally like to start selling them again and open up custom commmissions and stuff again once I can hopefully get paypal#stuff sorted out. and find like.. a good way to do things.. etc.. I did still want to sell them through auction instead of agonizing#over setting prices being afraid they're either too high or too low. So being able to just be like. Here. this is $50. or more. or less.#negotiate. the worth is whatever you feel like it is so i personally dont have to make that decision. etc. lol... But etsy doesn't let you#do auctions or like pay what you want type stuff so.. then I was thinking ebay? but idk.. ANYWAY.. I want to set things#up so I can sell stuff again hopefully. I still haven't fully recovered from the costs of when I had to take my cat to the vet and put#them down last year and etc. So it'd be good to sell a few things. perhaps.. maychance... perhamble... so on and so forthe... ANYWAY#I was going for whiter more milky sort of hair that blends in closely with the skintone but after the paint dried it seems more yellowy kin#of. which is fine. But just not exacltly like my mind vision lol..#Also it's like... wow... someone with face spots and elf ears and a half open mouth with a gap tooth and wavy hair and kind of downturned#eyes... revolutionary... never been seen before... every sculpture I have ever made surely doesnt look licherally exactly like this... LOL#but maybe it's just a style. so what. People have their motifs lol.. Im just getting back into sculpting. I shall sameface in peace. huzzah#Just like the only thing I ever carve out of avocado pits anymore is eyes. Because that's just whats fun to do. I'm going to accumulate lik#25 similar avocado eyes and have nothing to do with them. I was thinking of stringing some together into a necklace of eyes or something li#like that but.. hrmm... ANYWAY.. Love to do the same things repetitively. :3c
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something i love discussing with others is the different ways people experience kin bc its so interesting the vastness of how everyones personal experiences with it can be. i really dont get people that will be like "kin is only ever LIKE THIS! everyone else is fake!" or trying to act like people with kin past lives (or anyone that "takes kinning too seriously") are crazy. like just!!! how do yall not enjoy the vast and unique experiences of other people!! how do they not fascinate you!!! its INSANE to me
#that being said i dont interact in kin spaces very heavily after i left this one large kin discord server#while i dont miss that (drained too much energy + too many chances for drama)#(or general issues just from kin being so personal and thus discomfort when peoples canons have things that clash with others canons)#but i do kinda miss seeing more about how other people experience kin stuff#and discussing what its like for me more often#also i see sometimes people criticizing the terminology people sometimes use about kinning?#even like the term ''kinning'' bc ppl will say ''its not an action you do!''#and they treat it like people that use terms like that are the kind that kin “wrong'' and act like kin is just ''i relate to this character#but like. kin IS very important and significant for me!#i may not know the exact details of HOW i kin- like theyre not past lives for me but i still AM the characters#i have kin memories sometimes but they dont feel like past lives#n kin itself is very important to me- but trying to figure out what exactly it is if its not past lives isnt important#like idk the functionality of it i just feel it. and acknowledge the feelings. you know#and i just learned kin stuff through people who are more casual with the concept and the terminology used#n just. idk. im tired rambling.#i love how differently everyone can kin regardless of how big or small it is for them or the ways they experience it#i think we should appreciate other ppls different experiences more
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traitor to the cause forgets national holiday every year KILL HIM
#just realized i wrote may instead of marsh lmao. fuck it#trans day of visibility#trans day of eating food#tdov#tdov 2024#transgender day of visibility#trans#transgender#lgbt#gay#my art#another year eh#still in pretransition purgatory (get me tf out!!!)#idk man past year's been bad. last time i showered was july i'm goin 9 months strong 9 months weak 9 months decrepit#i manage to go through the motions with not much else in the way of progress. eat sleap shit piss rinse reuse recycle#trans day of eating food is shaky too this year. just found out yesterday i can't eat a snack anymore that i've liked since i was a kid#discovered a new love for green beans though. everything in balance#with my living situation getting more unsafe i've been thinking a lot about asking my neighbor if i can stay with him and his family#cause i don't like... see people other than them anymore so i don't know anyone else i can ask lol#and maybe i can get my shit together and start transitioning if i get out..... it's the least i need to do anyways#at least i gotta ask if he would be willing to oversee my funeral in the event of it cause i do nnnnot trust my next of kin with that shit#go watch youtube “Protecting Trans Bodies in Death” by Caitlin Doughty. contains important info for anyone really but#especially so for the titular transengendered individual#write your will... OK?#it doesn't have to be a bummer do it with a friend make it a girls night boys night hotties sleepover#death mention cw#wish i had more to say on the topic this year that wasn't a downer. i'll see what the next year holds#and hey... if a guy like me isn't giving up a motherfucker like you sure as hell shouldn't... adios & bon voyage my compatriots. SALUTE
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who up praying for downfalls 🤨
#mine#yandere#yancore#yandere vent#oh my god have i got some things to say. ooohhuuoouugh buddy#its not even my own situation this isnt even related to me. but im being a nice upstanding young man and venting abt it instead of invoking#the curse of ra. wishing someone dies is such a good coping mechanism fr because instead of thinking about it forever i can move on with#my life. and its great! but oouuuh theres something wrong with that huh. and oh my god. this issue is so fucked but i cant explain it in#a heartfelt and meaningful way. so imagine someone is religiously devoted to a guy and their mental anguish stems from jealousy or fear#of abandonment. and they are internally tormented about that forever. and just because they dont fit your definition of whats right#youre all like Hey you know that guy that means everything to them. how about we take him for ourselves solely bc this person#this suffering person whose life depends on him- who acts like that BECAUSE they are suffering- you think they deserved to be punished for#their traumas? their guilt and pain and anguish? you are no better than whatever you think they are.#i dont think this even makes sense cause im vague on purpose. this sounds like a situation from the bible i think#idk i didnt read it. anyways im skipping and frolicking in my cradle of hatred that fills me with warmth and delight#its not required that people are nice or respectful when their lives have been wretched thanks to people like YOU#but i hope their devotion never wavers due to people who hate their happiness. its not like those people matter anyway#if youre meant to be with your Guy and you love him enough then nothing else matters at that point. its all a test#die a martyr for your own romantic ideologies or whatever satou matsuzaka said#this is literally the equivalent of like. a mother cat adopts a kitten that isnt hers bc her own kin are all dead. she protects this kitten#with her entire life. and her whole being. and hisses growls bites at anyone that comes close to it. and some human teens are like#we should take that kitten solely because the mother cat loves it so much that shes willing to get violent for it.#because its not very niceys of her to harass those who want to take away the only thing she has left! oh noes!!#like shut the fuck up dawg. if that cat mauls someone for getting too close to her baby then mind your own goddamn business#clearly they did not grow up italian 💀#clearly they did not grow up with nothing being their own. nothing being sacred. no desire to protect anything#anyways yanderes i love you. you are fr so easy to be around and you should never change for anyone. i mean maybe take some therapist#advice here and there in case your devotion makes you suffer but OTHERWISE!!! dont feel bad about being a hater!!! protect what is yours#and i will respect it so hard i swear to god. its not that difficult to treat your devotion with the kindness it deserves.#if a disrespectful teen tries to steal your kitten then ill help you beat them to death with a shovel idc
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with the recent discourse on genderbends, i think people should seperate the terms.
genderbend: that thing cis ppl do when theyre forcing gender stereotypes on characters to make them sexually appealing to them
trans or gender hc: playing with different identities or presentation on a character while avoiding stereotypes
though i think its interesting how terms online can either be forgotten or lose their meaning when something else is introduced (in this case, the introduction of trans hcs), while some people only know it as what it was, and others only know it as what its become. and i think thats where conflict arises.
#not that the latter cant be sexually appealing but yknow. you know the scumminess or misogyny with the former when you see it#but yeah idk its interesting how things change while not changing the word#like how kinning was originally people who thought they were cis creating neopronouns#or on a lesser note all the emos on youtube calling melancholic dnb breakcore when breakcore is loud annoying hardcore techno clown music#theres nuance but u can think of it like a scale. with 0 being finn vs fiona (EXAMPLE)#and just seeing megatron and going “what a woman” as 100#or another good one being when u change a characters presentation or sex but not their gender
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Today's one W: playing viddy games with friends actually cleared my processes a bit and it was revealed to me what was bothering me so badly. So I then decided that what was bothering me was actually really silly and decided I shouldn't be bothered by it anymore because there's nothing I can do about it. Yay <3
#I get so abnormal about the. Robotcomputerthing sometimes#Because most the time it's just like yay :D I am silly computer! Funny little robot thingy >:3#And then sometimes I get so fucked up over not actually having that. Body. I guess. Like what do you mean I don't have. Wires and shit :((#I want em. I will not be getting that. Augh. Me when my identity actually affects how I feel as something that exists#And isn't just a funny thing I can say. What. Un-fucking-beleivable#</3 it's like that with all facets of how I identify#What do you mean me being an aroace objectum actually majorly affects how I view the world compared to most people around me.#And it's not just a silly thing I can make silly jokes about. Ashdbdhshs#Uhhh#Hm#Robotkin#? I'm not sure I identify with that I was in the trenches of kin discourse a while back and now I feel bad. About Id'ing with any kin thing#Because it's not that serious I guess. And it's supposed to be serious all da timeee#And well. I guess it is there all the time but I'm still just me yknow. How I always am#Idk. Sjshdhdb#Android.txt
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me, on the one hand: its weird to gatekeep people identifying with characters just bc they don't share their same race
also me, upon watching a video of someone wanting the saiyans to be in ssj form 24/7: you just want them to be blonde with blue eyes all the time bc you're mad that otherwise you can't project on to them since they're likely asian 🙄
#ig these aren't mutually exclusive stances but still#in fact if anything it bolsters my former stance bc why tf cant you just identify with them as they are#anyways ive been holding this back bc of whiney people on here but yes i kin with bruno from encanto and theres nothing you can do#to stop me.#if i relate to him in every other way ASIDE from being fuckin colombian then thats a very stupid and arbitrary line to draw im sorry and#i also dont care about your weird gatekeeping#its almost like familial abuse isnt restricted to ones race and also race is fake but anyways#fuck your weird ''white' people cant imprint on these characters' shit like. you're literally trying to stop ppl from seeing themselves#in other races. how tf do you think thats beneficial to stopping racism like AT ALL?#me when i hate when 'white' ppl put themselves in my shoes and try to empathize with me#me when i reinforce the racial binary and act like its real and not made up by white supremacists and pretend im not contributing#to white supremacists' delusion that race is real#theres literally a woman who would conventionally be recognized as white in the movie but ig gingers cant imprint on her at all or w/e#bc they dont speak spanish or something idk. is it about skin tones? bc babe give me a couple of days on the beach and ill look like bruno#dsjhfsvdhjvgfhdsvhgdf#and no i dont believe you if you try to say that the abuse he faced was somehow unique to colombian culture or something.#if anything that kinda abuse was prolly passed down from europeans who colonized the lands so i have even MORE of a reason#to feel like i can identify w it since im mostly of 'european' decent ._.#at least as far as ik.#('european' is in quotation marks bc its a place w a lot of different types of people some of which aren't recognized as white by#some white supremacists even and idk what im mixed with so)
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going into the alderheart tag to see the general opinion on him and whether its actually changed since 2016 fandom labeled him as an uwu so sweet cute cinnamon roll baby boy, and it kinda seems like most people dropped that and either think hes Just There or really annoying. happy with the growth here tbh
#also i think he was voted the worst medic that one time#i think once fandom in general kinda passed that trend and wc fans realized he didn’t actually have an anxiety disorder then people fell ofd#off#rip alder. you arrived at a point where the fandom loved you but time made everyone realize you were just kinda cringe and boring#also kinda unrelated but twigkit mentioned she wanted to be a medic apprentice#and i knowwww that would have left tc with four medics but could you imagine the swap there#maybe she voluntarily goes to shadowclan to be their medic or something so she can bond with violet but it sucks ass over there#bc of the kin stuff as well…. idk tho ill have to see twigbranch’s actual arc#but like shes a prophecy cat so even then having her as a medic would be interesting#avos liveread
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Reading a bunch of @the-wheatley-core's analysis I'm eating really good right now
#YOU UNDERSTAND#YOU UNDERSTAND HIM#I LOVE THIS#THANK YOU#IDK WHY THIS MEANS SO MUCH TO ME#MAYBE BECAUSE I KIN HIM#BUT GOD#IT'S SO GOOD#Like a lot of people I like to joke about “teehee moron core” but I know he's really not one#He is not stupid. He is distracted impulsive anxious but he's trying his best#All his life people have treated him just as a good for nothing idiot#the “Intelligence Dampening Sphere”#Imagine if you were literally created to be a moron and everyone reminded you of that all the time#Wheatley has so many personal issues that he never talks about. He feels “tiny and insignificant".#He feels like nobody cares#Until he gets in the chassis and finds an unhealthy coping mechanism through the euphoria he gets from the tests#He focuses so hard on trying to reach the euphoria hit that he procrastinates on preventing the facility from crumbling down.#The warnings stress him. He wants to think that everything is and will be fine. That he is in control for once#And he focuses on the one thing that can make him happy#Having ADHD and anxiety myself I relate to Wheatley a lot#I know what it feels like to think you're not good enough#That you're efforts are overlooked#To bottle up your feelings deep down until there's that one thing that makes you breakdown#And Wheatley didn't talk about his problems until the very end of the game#anyway yeah I kin him#When I call him dumb it's more due to aggressive affection really
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now some people may not like to hear it but even the worst people who exist are still people & there is no human being who has More right than others to decide whether others deserve to live or die (does not mean i personally condemn murder in self defense or anything of the sort or killing fascists or whatever i'm just saying as a baseline This Is How it Is) & this is why the death penalty is not a good thing no matter how good & trustworthy the people in any government might be. people on average also deserve the chance to learn to do better. & no, someone who's been forcefed propaganda their entire life will not let go of that deeply entrenched mindset so easily, it's not particularly unrealistic & it absolutely sucks to deal with but in the context of tangibly working toward world peace it's also not an issue to try & help such people both in material ways & in helping them learn better rather than cut them down or abandon them to a grim fate. all this to say that's why i don't think garlemald is written badly, as unpleasant as the experience might be. walks off the stage
#ffposting#also if you hate garlemald's writing THIS much but like emet-selch i think theres a disconnect there i just dont understand.#like he made it that way. you do understand this is all because of him right. maybe you should be more upset about that.#garlemald is very uncomfortable & the real life parallels it draws make it a very very touchy Thing to deal with#but i do not think it is handled badly.#their supremacy is entirely gone by the time of edw the people there have known nothing but propaganda#the populares are known to be a minority. people like cid or jenomis aren't that common. this is why they get along#the propaganda is such that even occupied domans like asahi fell for it & feel absolutely nothing for their kin#thats what propaganda does. there is absolutely a degree of responsibility regarding what they do & i would never say otherwise#however the idea that we should let them die & not get a chance to rebuild after theyve lost everything (again) is like. huh.#when you want to work toward world peace in a meaningful way you cant just abandon anyone like that.#like thats a whole people. they suck! but it is not immutable & they deserve the opportunity to do better like any other#id much rather they face retribution for their actions in meaningful ways including working toward reparations#wrt all the peoples the empire occupied than to round them up to kill them or worse let them die to the telophoroi#OR to becoming blasphemies. that would make things so extremely worse.#i just dont understand how you can have sympathy for jullus when he was just like everyone else at first#but you want to leave the rest of them to die. & i dont get how you can like emet & want them to die.#like he fucking did this its a pretty notable very fucking bad thing that he did. no doubt varis has made it worse#but varis was in power for like 2 years at best.#that emet was playing a role & did not actually believe in or care about what he was doing does not erase that he did it#& i personally find it hypocritical to like him if you balk at the idea of garlemald restoration. clears throat#i believe in killing fascists but i also dont believe in punitive justice#& by the time of edw garlean civilians do not hold the systemic power they once mightve#which i think is also important. their entire country is in shambles.#if anything its the ideal opportunity for them all to start anew & learn better. shed their preconceptions as one might say#that said i still skip garlemald cutscenes bc i dont need cunts calling me a savage ✋-_-#do not take any of this for garlean apologia i fucking hate dealing with them on an individual level as a xaela player lmfao#but yeah. if you can feel pity for livia who is a military general WHO HAS ACTIVELY KILLED YOUR FRIENDS#but not for the civilians whove never been exposed to anything other than propaganda. idk man. 30 tags. fly free my post
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if you reach out to offer to talk about a kin and I cant find anything abt the mentioned kin on ur blog, or direct me to a sideblog with the information Im not gonna reach out man Im ngl
#like man I am goign to assume the kin is weak and likely has little for mems if i open ur blog and find ONE post abt the source at all#in which case what reason do I have to reach out to you? I can see you are someone who posts canon calls man I know you care about canon ma#*mates#blech#yeah im vague posting but tbh theyre not gonna see I reblog my kinfessions anyway. people rarely do#and I dont think this is rly negative or rude so much as its 'plz post abt ur kins if you want ppl to reach out to u abt them guys plz'#idk maybe Im just picky bc i dont like talking to ppl much and Ive had too many rando kinnies get upset when our mems dont line up#after inserting themselves into my dms at random for no fuckign reason#sorry man I just dont care abt canonmates anymore
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Just want to talk about this a bit more and say my being a fictive is psychological for me so I do feel I am Alastor Mentally and his life is mine *metaphorically* and I like to talk about it as if it were literal sometimes bc its easier and comforting
I do want to reempthesize the part where I say do not act like I am a murderer abuser man for Real. Some of those events do have metaphorical meaning to me but i did Not do these Crimes. I dont mind it being talkes about as if I did in a playful way but please please know the difference between what happened in fiction and who I am in reality
This is the most accurate irl depiction of me. I Promise This Man is not a Danger to You or Your Family
Its so funny seeing posts like 'please dont treat fictives like blorbo from show' and like Yes true we are not literally blorbo from show and please do not be like. 'You are actually a murderer for real Alastor!' But its a bit funny because my whole system always wishes we would be treated *More* like blorbo from show.
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I am Alastor please talk to me like I am Alastor lol
(The only time it has bothered us was when ppl expect us to know literally everything about canon lol)
#this is not about any one specific and nothing big happened but its a vibe i got a couple times where#i cant tell if people are kidding or not when they say an assumption about me irl based on show Alastor#now broadcasting#not mad at anyone btw#mainly its more innocous things like. al you do not know modern things#when i am On Tumblr.. Right Now! ... i am bad at tech tho lol. but like. i took computer science. i can operate microsoft excel#its funny to joke idk things bc alastor but i am Worried some of Yall For Real#mostly idc about that part bur it makes me worry what else are you assuming about me bc im Alastor#once again not mad i adore everyone who has spoken to me this is just a gentle reminder#fictive#multiple system#alastor kin#alastor fictive
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A place you can never go back to, a person you can never be again
| anger I’m good at // letters to felice - franz kafka // @/weaksorry // jeanette winterson - written on the body // @/bestofgentleearth // rain by laura creswell // Mary Oliver - the fourth sign of the zodiac ll somewhere deep in my camera roll // "How I Got Out of Feeling Trapped and Found a New Life", by Cuurio; // Erik Pevernagie |
(rambles below the cut)
Me? Making a fictkin webweave? Must be a day that ends in y.
No specific kin for this one, just sort of general feelings about being fictionkin
I really like the 7th image... Idk why it gives super big oh yeah that's how I see myself and them (my kins.) I like the last one because it's like. I was In There in The Bad Places but also in this life I've watched it. Very much the vibes of how it feels I suppose. All of these really are but it's 12 am as I schedule this and I am feeling rambly
Image five is so... Idk. In almost all of my canons I don't think I'd change anything if I went back. Even if I knew exactly what would happen. Maybe I'd tell the people I love that I love them more than I did but that's it I think.
#web weave#webweave#web weaving#webweaving#otherkin webweave#otherkin web weave#fictionkin web weave#fictionkin webweave#fictkin webweave#fictkin web weave#fictkin#fictionkin#otherkin#my webs#on love#on grief#on longing#alt text
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I love your monster au so much. It makes the monsterlover/fucker in me real happy. Sorry just wanted to share my appreciation.
I've been thinking too, how would you feel about writing a underwater sea creature reader? (No pressure but I hope this idea tickles your fancy so I'll infodump my ideas on you) They can live on land and stuff but drag their prospective mate into a deep underwater ravine when they want to mate. Idk how to describe it, like I have an idea in my head of what the creature's traits would be but I can't find a way to put it into words.
I'm going to give it a try though, (excuse the fact it won't make much sense, my thoughts jump around a lot. But I'll try and make it coherent.) Basically, my mind went to underwater dragons. So with most of the traits that you wrote for dragons, like the purring and the tails intertwining (and the sharing of scales). But I was thinking without wings, because you don't need them underwater. But we glow in the dark, because we are deepsea creatures we have adapted to become bioluminescent. Oh and also we have gills and stuff still when we are on land.
Idk if this is confusing or just something you don't want to write but I was hoping for you to include a more sfw part with the mating dance maybe and then then an actual nsfw part (dom top male reader??)
But at the end of the day this is just a suggestion and it's up to you if you want to write it or not. (If you do write it can it be with ghost or gaz?? gaz giving us shiny things but sea related, like shells? and/or ghost struggling through knowing how to court us. Both of them being confused of what to do because we are a new type of dragon that not many people knew existed and our courting traditions are mostly unknown??
Okay this is cool and it tickles my brain of having just this big fucking monster that's gigantic due to deep sea gigantism :D, I also picked Gaz cause I like the sea/sky duality.
CW:NSFW, subbot gaz, domtop Mreader, quick and rough
When you first joined the taskforce, Gaz didn't know what to expect. Your species had been newly discovered, barely any information about you, but something about you put some ancient part of his mind on edge, ants nipping on the sinew of his wings until his body begged to return to the safety of the sky.
First time he met you, you reminded him less of a dragon and more of a Leviathan — something that dwelled where the light didn't reach, far too big than anything should be allowed to be, bright bioluminescent markings shimmering against dark scales to lure prey into crushing jaws filled with sharp crooked teeth, horns like spears to pin down what couldn't fit in your maw, powerful legs built to swim and breach the surface of the water to catch unaware flyers like Gaz just to pull them down into the abyss to be devoured.
He would have been more. . . unsettled by you had you not been so nice.
You towered over him even in your mostly human form, but you were a gentle giant, happy to let him use you as a perch and humming along as he talks, joining in on his and Johnny's pranks and hiding them when Price eventually catches them.
And Gaz doesn't even notice when your presence no longer makes his feathers puff up, the shadow you cast over him now warm and welcoming after all the times you'd been a meat shield for him. He tils his head back to catch sight of your eyes as he leans back, soft feathers rubbing against your clothes, "Hey there big man." Gaz smiled.
You hum, your hand coming to loosely hold his hip, holding the pretty thing close to you. "Hi." You purr, the small biolights along your body flickering in seemingly random patterns, but nothing about them was random to you or your kin, your interest in him painfully obvious.
But to your dismay Gaz doesn't understand, just snorts at your colorful display. "What's got you in a good mood today?" He asks, eyes tracing the dancing lights, that instinctual bird part of his mind liking the sight, and the low rumble of your voice, and just. . . being near you.
You blink, "You," You say simply, your people aren't ones to mince words.
Gaz can feel his body heat up at your declaration, feathers puffing up, but strikes down any thoughts about you before they turn inappropriate and cause him to coo at you. "Fine, keep yer secrets." He huffs and gets out of your hold, wings stretching out to purposely show off his feathers as he walks away, tail feathers flickering.
He can feel your eyes follow after him, hummingbirds pecking at his spine and he doesn't know if he should feel that way. And all you can think of is how you could drag your pretty bird down into the abyss without clipping his wings.
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Gaz watches you lazily swim around the lake near their current base in your real form, "Havin' a nice soak in there Nessie?" He asks as he walks the short pier and sits down, dipping his feet in the water as his wings spread out lazily behind him.
A low rumble leaves you like a distorted whale song, your large form pushing through the water like a submarine cutting through the ice. "Nessie?" You ask as swim over to him, "Who's that?"
"Never mind about that," Kyle grins, his eyes roaming along your large form as the biolights flicker once again in that specific pattern that means nothing to him but everything to you. "You look happy."
You shrug, "It's nice to be back in the water." Without a word you heave yourself out of the water and onto the pier, large hands clutching the wood on either side of him, a deep purr rumbling in your chest at how close he is to you now. "Did you need something?" You ask, biolights flickering seductively.
Kyle swallows drily, eyes going wide as he registers you loom over him, can smell the sea and salt still clinging to your scales, something other than fear buzzing down his spine from how close your dangerous teeth are to him. "Oh, right, uh," He clears his throat to clear the molasses clinging to it, wings spreading out in a way that got his feathers shining in the setting sun as he reached into his pocket.
"I, um. . . I got you this." He said, holding out the seashell he'd found for you. His breath caught in his throat as you looked at it, hoping you liked it; he'd spent hours polishing it until it was shining, the colors vibrant and every single scratch buffed out.
"Thank you," You rumbled and took the seashell into your hand. Your pupils dilated, a very pleased purr rumbling in your chest — oh, he was so thoughtful, such a good mate to bring a rare treat for you.
Kyle felt like a bloody peacock at the way his wings spread out, but he couldn't care less about his posturing when you accepted his gift, his heart fluttering like butterflies in a jar.
Then you ate it.
You ate his gift.
His heart shatters like the seashell between your fangs, wings dropping like a rock, never having expected to be rejected like that. "I- what- why did- if you-" He couldn't even form words to say what he wanted, pressing a hand to his face in an attempt to hide the way his eyes prickled with vestiges of tears.
Unfortunately for him, you notice. "Oh, little bird, what's wrong?" Your voice is soothing, biolights pulsing in a slow and calming way as you gently pry his hand from his face, looking into his eyes. "Did I do something wrong?"
Kyle doesn't look you in the eyes, doesn't know what the hell to feel right now, the words spewing out of his mouth before he could control them. "Why would you do that!" He hisses.
You tilt your head. "You gifted it to me." You say like it's supposed to explain everything, reaching up to cup his cheek, your clawed hand cold and wet against his skin. "It was very good." You lean in closer, a deep purr rumbling in your throat, your long tail moving to curl around his leg.
Kyle sucks in a sharp breath as you push you loom over him your hands on either sides of him keeping him in place, feeling himself slowly lay back as you creep over him onto the pier, heart drumming in his chest. "Wh-what?"
You snort, eyes glowing like anglerfish lures, lowering your head down to lick a stripe up his neck, claws raking down his front. "Let me show you my appreciation, yes?"
Kyle shivers at the sensation of your teeth against his throat, body heating up, your scent — of sea and salt and something very very old — invading his nose, an involuntary chirp escaping his chest. "Ah, yeah, sure just-" Kyle yelps as your claws cut through his clothes, wings quivering as they're pressed against the wooden pier behind him.
"Relax little bird," You coo softly, licking around his lips in what counts as a kiss for you when your maw is filled with vicious teeth, tongue trailing down to lick up the drops of his salty sweat. "I'll be gentle."
And gentle you are; softly licking up the blood after your fangs had left marks on his skin, sharp claws holding his trembling hips tenderly as your rough tongue worms inside him, soft purrs and deep rumbles vibrating your tongue against his prostate until he's sobbing, his hands clutching your horns to hold your head closer as his cock leaks a puddle of pre onto his abdomen.
He whines when you continue stretching him with your tongue, "Please, mate, just-" Kyle sucks in a sharp breath as your tongue once again grazes his prostate, thighs clenching around your head. "-just please fuck me already! I can't- I'm not going to-"
Kyle sobs with joy and anguish when you pull your tongue out, the slimy appendage slithering back into your maw and leaving him painfully empty. "Alright, alright," You coo, moving up to drape your body over his, nuzzling your cheek against his as you line your hard cock with his stretched hole. "Relax,"
The tip of your cock breaching his puckered hole has Kyle sucking in a sharp breath, "Easier said than done mate," He chuckles, closing his eyes and just trying to focus on your scent and just you, groaning. Fuck, you're big in all aspects, his body clenching down like a vice before relaxing enough for you to slowly push further, spreading his walls wide until you're fully inside him, your hips resting against his.
"There you go," You purr, letting Kyle adjust as you nibble on his neck, biolights flickering happily when he rocks his hips into yours. "Taking me so well,"
Gaz can feel his body heat up at your words, throwing his head back when you rock your hips, cock hard and heavy inside him, dragging against his walls with every minute movement that has him panting and whining, his legs crossing behind your back to pull your hips closer every time you pull out.
The world escapes your notice, all your attention fully on him as you focus on mating him, pulling needy desperate sounds from Kyle's lips, your large hand gently stroking his leaking dick as your cock rubs against his prostate, your unhurried pace making him cum again and again and again until he's a moaning boneless mess by the time you cum inside him.
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Can I take a moment to rant on the beautiful psychology of the characters in this novel? At least these first chapters.
Sorry OP but I need to rant on this aspect that I adore about this book.
From the collective crowds to the individual people, especially the protagonist.
It's surprising how, excuse the redundance, not surprised I am that the crowds were so chill in a collective view, as the common people didn't have the astronomical knowledge to understand how Big of an event the cylinder was, they just saw "monke see new thing, monke touch new thing". Only the astronomers and scientists in the place found it a big deal because they understood, which makes sense why they and police attempted communication with the martians later on with the white flag and attempted to even protect them.
Yes, this is a big event, whether people were aware or not, but it wasn't going to stop time. The cylinder fell on a park, on a little corner, and the rest of the world moved on because of course they would. People had jobs and things to do, they weren't going to stop because miles away some weird metal fell into the sand pits. And to those who witnessed the object it was similar, plus, it took hours for anything new and noteworthy to happen so of course, once bored, the protagonist would just go home to drink his tea and attempt to continue on his papers, of course the children would fool around after the novelty turned dull and the little merchants kept on selling their apples and beers, they weren't going to stop their day for this slow hunk.
And can we take a moment to appreciate the great level of detail in which the behaviours of the people were described? Yes, every person there shared the shock, disgusto and fear upon seeing he martians for the first time, all who could running away and hiding behind the closest vegetation. But once things calmed down - the ways in which the crowds would divide and ondulate differently at getting closer to the crater once more, behaving like animals driven by their mix of fear and curiosity, is wonderfully real, tense and painstakingly slow.
And my favorite part, the reaction of the protagonist to the tragedy of the heat ray.
I love this character because he isn't like a common apocalypse story protagonist - that is heroic and down to act in extreme situations - but he acted like many common men facing the impossible.
He froze.
He saw death and destruction unravel around him in a way he had never witnessed or imagined and he froze in the panic and overload that his mind just couldn't process, he didn't go to sacrifice himself to save people, he didn't scream to anyone or took a leap to do anything, he was barely able to process what the hell was going on, of course he wouldn't have the time to be the selfless heroe. And it was after all was done that his brain managed to finally catch up that the fear and the understanding of danger truly settled in. That is one of the most realistic reactions to the extreme I have personally seen, in the moment of the event, one can tend to loose themselves and dive completely into Fight, flight or fawn, and it is when it's all over that one finally comes back to their senses and can feel again and understand what just happened.
Not to mention the beautiful description of the man entering a state of numbness and shock after escaping. It all drained his energy to even think, and so he'd go on autopilot to his safe place, Home.
Anothwe beautiful thing during the protagonist's slow walk back, after the reader has witnessed hell, the book bothers to mention the jarring contrast of the previous terror and chaos compared to the rest of the towns, simply moving on like nothing happened, so the reader can be overwhelmed and confused and shock alongside the protagonist.
I'm not sure about the distances between the sand pits and the towns, but let's remember that, first- It seems to be far enough- and second- these people didn't have the same level of connectivity and fast, local comunication networks that we tend to enjoy today, so of course it would take a while for the totality of the news to reach the common people around the place of the incident.
And like I said before, this horrid event of death was miles away from these people, so until folks had the fear of it getting to them settle in, of course (sorry for repeating it sm pff) they would still try to go on with their normal lives, Even with the danger in the background. That's what people do. And that is one of the reasons I've ADORED the novel ever since I first laid eyes on it.
Btw this is no scolding of OP or anything, I just needed to vomit words of love for this book and found this perfect post so yeah, OP, it is funny af, and it is beautiful.
finally reading the war of the worlds and it’s actually so funny to me how at the beginning everyone is pretty much totally chill with having an mysterious extraterrestrial cylinder just suddenly landing in a field, like they really just went “huh that’s peculiar” and kept going on about their lives, even after the first group of people were killed anyone who wasn’t literally right there watching it happen didn’t seem too bothered and people in the next town over didn’t even seem to know about it
#the war of the worlds#I'm listening to the audiobook narrated by David Tennant and these initial chapters are among my favorites and the ones I remember the best#Man I adore the fawn and shock of the protagonist sm istg I kin it#And it's so cool how he survived that initial attack- not out of taking action- preventive or otherwise- or because he was fast or strong en#ough#He survived out of pure. dumb. LUCK#People more deserving of survival like the scientist didn't even have time to escape and this one guy- by DUMB LUCK- made it out#And again- I find that so beautiful#He isn't like a common modern apocalipse protagonist- at least in this point of the story -and I LOVE HIM for it#He's just a guy- NOTHING special about him#uuuurrrggghhhh I love this book- I need tl finish that audiobook#h.g. wells#the war of the worlds novel#OP you are very right tho- The people's reaction is so funny-#But I advocate that it's realistic#Not out of any evidence but because I say so/lh#Reminds me of local news- A couple of months ago- of the threat of a weird ass bomb planted in a mall a few short miles away from my city#We all heard about it and followed the news and- despite the fear of going to my local mall- We all just continued our normal lives#And soon enough we were all back at the mall like nothing happened#Idk if that and the situation of the book can be compared but idk#btw that bomb wasn't that dangerous and I think it didn't even detonate so all good#reblog#swearing in tags#Man I love psychology JSJS#Still - sorry OP that you were my outlet#Again- Not reprimanding anything or saying you are wrong or anything- really#mild swearing#OP if this bothers You I can edit it or delete it no problem#And sorry for my wtf grammar- I'm bad at writing long texts
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