#Uhhh

[daxhalfawake]

FUCK.

So, I knew some of this bc my step-grandmother-in-law got COVID and insisted it was allergies and was dead from a stroke caused by a weird blood clot that they know is a type that happens in long COVID literally 6 months later. And I got COVID last year, despite doing everything I could not to, because my wife's boss came back to work too soon, without testing negative. I was 5 weeks pregnant. My wife's infection involved mostly wheezing and coughing and shortness of breath. I had a fever of 102°, a migraine, bad congestion and a gross cough. We both had the body aches real bad.

My COVID infection triggered essential hypertension (high blood pressure, I'm 30 [29 when I got COVID] and wasn't eating too poorly then, but I do eat better now). My blood pressure was consistently reading at stroke-risk levels and I had to go on blood pressure meds. I've had several other new or worsening health issues since the infection that my doctors have yet to pinpoint the cause of, but we haven't been focused on the cause because I was very sick and the cause wouldn't be environmental.

But on the neurological/brain damage - I got COVID, had 2 miscarriages, then fell into derealization for 8 months so I thought that was most of it but like there are things I never got with derealization before and that haven't gotten better since coming out of it.

I type a phrase I've been using correctly my entire life and then stare at it bc it looks wrong and I don't know why but I can't send it if it's wrong (spoiler: it has never actually been wrong). I've started using words that I haven't used since high school - problematic ones that I stopped even thinking about using bc they were problematic - and I have been horrified at myself despite most of these words having been used only in my own company. I literally have to remind myself that we don't use that word anymore if it pops into my head because my filters are also off now. My eyes unfocus and I cannot get them to refocus. And I use the wrong words sometimes, words that don't even make sense in reference to the one I need - but that one's getting better. I can't remember things like I used to. Like I have memory issues and have my whole life, don't get me wrong - I'm ADHD and I have cPTSD - but this is different. Because I also have a selective photographic memory and I used to be able to walk myself backwards to find things I put in weird places with ease and now I lose everything for way too long and it triggers autistic meltdowns. My brain fog from my various conditions is significantly worse - to the extent that even on my Adderall, my mind will go completely empty while I am in the middle of speaking a sentence and I will lose my entire train of thought and not be able to remember without prompting from an active listener to the conversation; sometimes not even then.

Literally TONIGHT, in the aftermath of an autistic meltdown I was trying to articulate to my wife why I need more mental processing time in the middle of a conversation, and I mentioned that sometimes I'm trying to keep up with the conversation and her words stop being English to my brain. Not being able to understand words is mentioned in this article from Harvard University, and I have been becoming INCREASINGLY AND INCREDIBLY FRUSTRATED with the fact that I "all of a sudden" started having these episodes where someone is talking to me and their words start out okay and then they flip and it sounds like a garbled mess of sounds, not even words.

I just want to remind people that it’s 2024 and we didn’t “go thru a pandemic” we are “going thru a pandemic” present tense. It is still happening. People are still get sick, still becoming disabled, and still dying. Covid hasn’t gone away and I beg people to not normalize getting sick with it.

[fishonable]

when I first started listening to Malevolent I saw so many redraws of The Kiss and it was so cute !! I had to make one of my own ☺️

I made this sometime during my first listen of s3, back in September maybe?? My designs have definitely changed since then so maybe I’ll redo this another time 🎹💛

[haobae]

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[sketchmre]

two concepts of the same character. the first is a insectoid moth-like shifter/changeling and the second is a fleshy mimicry fairy. both manually draw in their eyelashes/eyebrows/lips/irises/nails

[parklifelithium]

meltpert

[enbeemagical]

!! Ok so I don't remember which book it was where I first read about werewolves who could fully control their transformation and were born not made, I think the novels of the Others? but that's how mine work. The full moon doesn't affect their shifting, they just do it at will (and also, btw, different types of shifter shift differently. Werewolves do it instinctively from birth). considering that, it's definitely inherited lol. Werewolves can't turn anyone else into a werewolf.

Packs are based around family units, like real wolves! however I took some uh liberties, this is not a 1:1 with real wolves. Like real wolves, a pack is typically led by the parental units and includes their cubs HOWEVER bc these are people and therefore everything can get more complicated, a pack can be started by Not Two Mated Wolves, so like. Three mates (hello polyam). Or 2-3 who aren't mates but just best friends (qpr anyone). When a pair/group of werewolves start a new pack, they choose a packname for themselves (new surname). they still stay close to their old pack but top priority is the new one

Also, werewolves love their family and their kids. Just, so much. More family. Bonus family. Extra kids. (they have like this sense of pack, and if you get emotionally close enough to a werewolf oops you're part of their pack now). Like Batman

This werewolf pack is made up of two parents, their three biological kids, and four found kids (including Des). There's another werewolf later on who married a human, adopted a vampire, and her sense of who is her pack is definitely broader than her nuclear family aaaand saying more might veer into spoiler territory oop

In conclusion: Werewolves!

lemme try this again

Hey Tumblr! I'm writing a book. It's 102k words (and counting) of pure queer fantasy and a year's worth of emotions.

It's about a queer kid finding community and support, and then stepping up to defend the people they love. And it's about falling in love and finding yourself, and it's about trust, and connection, and responsibility, and trying to do good in the world. It is also about gay.

Blurb thing:

Destiny has always been alone, self-isolating so that no one will find out about her magic, the same power that she watched a little girl dragged away for nine years ago. Then she meets Vida, a beautiful fae whose kiss sparks something inside her, and Destiny chooses to follow her.

She's not expecting Vida's family to be a werewolf pack. Or that they'll be so welcoming— she was told werewolves are monsters, after all. She's definitely not expecting them to become her own family.

But when Destiny begins to change, it's the wolves who accept him for who he is. And it's the wolves who are the first to see Destiny's magic and swear to protect them, no matter what. And it's up to Destiny to decide what that looks like.

Even if it means changing the world.

(yes the pronoun shifts in the almost-last paragraph were intentional)

And now a quote:

“Don’t you ever want to do something you’re not supposed to? Love the wrong way, be the wrong person, want the wrong things?”

If this sounds like your cup of tea, rb and let me know! I'm not sure when I'll start posting it, there's still a few edits I need to get done, but encouragement will definitely make that happen sooner~

[lousylambsblog]

its like christmas up in here

edit: holly's ugly sweater is supposed to say pretty who? but i couldnt fit it

[popatochisssp]

Hey what—

—ah

[labeanzsz]

Okay y’all! We got Turbo picking his nose too hard and the Hatsune Miku fangirl that he cannot stand!

[stoutguts]

Not COD related (for once) but—

This music is such a banger, gets me so hyped. 🔥

School fight ahh camera apologies 💀💀💀

Why is BW literally perfect, why was it so peak???

I need to post about Pokémon more, it's just as big (maybe even bigger) of a special interest than COD

[redsea8me]

Woah, how cool is this?? My Side Effects AU now a fic you can read wherever…

[spiralingemptyness]

Shit

I’ll post the rest of the drawings in a different post, but this are the ones based on this bullshit

why cant my brain follow others au… or canon. bc now i gotta actually make shit up and connect the dots, this is why i dont write fanfic… but i do fucking comics i have yet to post.

Until Dawn

the three endings for josh: wendigo, dead, and thanks to the remake alive

so following the alive route, my brain went ‘what if he’s still alive, but chills with Hannah, trying to find a way to cure her’… which ik he’d probably get murked if this actually happend but its an au alr and its mine so shush.

so Josh is still up on the mountain, not a wendigo (bc his dead’s sister’s ghost who he thinks is his hallucination tells him not to (ig)), with Hannah, who is still a wendigo…. They live together in the mines… idfk fully… im working on it, im working on it.

[vesselvindicate]

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[jofiah]

Call me burger the. the way I court her... pound her

[rystiel]

i’m sensing a trend