#buuuuuuuuuut I do really really want it lol

[iamnotawomanimagod]

If we don't get new Halsey music tomorrow, let's all try to remember to be patient and have faith that the music will come when it's ready

[ebonysplendor]

Infatuation 💰🏞️

TL;DR: What's worse than running away from one psychopath? Running away from six psychopaths. Even worse than that? They're rich psychopaths, with shmonies. Also, can we make a damn plan and stick to it please?!

Game Link: https://aspenglen.itch.io/infatuation

Notable Features: Self-Insert, Customizable (somewhat), Multiple Endings, Multiple LIs, Yandere LIs, 4+ hours of gameplay Spiciness: 2/5 -- It can get a little flirty and a little spicy here and there, but the main "spice" is when there's an unwanted advance from some of the LIs LI(s) Red Flags: 3.8/5 -- Kidnapping, drugging, nonconsensual sexual advances, tied up, branded, verbal abuse, emotional abuse, physical force

Wanna know more? Meh...I say not unless you're at least 16. There's not an age restriction, buuuuuuuuuut I don't feel like anyone's 12-year-old sibling should be playing this. That being said, I can't do much from behind a screen, so let's get into it!

Just a heads up, the game was long as shit, so this review is going to be long as shit;;

Oh hey. Didn't see ya there. Oh this? This is just my first post in about a month. Thought I'd just...sliiiiide on in here, get thangs swangin' again. Lol but no seriously. It has been a pretty crazy month, but I've finally got enough time and rest at the same time to finally make this review, and aha...

Respectfully...I understand that all good things must come to an end, but damn, I really miss that phase where I was running into all the really good visual novels...

That being said, I know what I said, but hear me out! The game isn't...awful...but I didn't really vibe with it. Like, I know why I didn't vibe with it, but I'd rather wait and get into all of that during the review portion. Hopefully, based on the summary I give you, the review and criticism I have will make sense.

Anyways, this game, interestingly enough, is actually a rendition -- am I using that word right? I believe I am...? -- of a story that was written on Wattpad, and don't act all brand new like you don't know what Wattpad is! You know damn well what Wattpad is because here you are playing and reading visual novels and reviews of visual novels about toxic ass men being a (forced) love interest. Don't try to play me. I'm getting distracted though!

So the name of the story on Wattpad, like the game, is Infatuation, and it's about...well actually, I'm gonna give you a summary of what it's about because this visual novel is based off of it! I was going to give the actual story a read after I finished the visual novel but, uh...

Almost a 24 hour read???? Yeah, no thanks, and you'll hopefully understand why I didn't have much motivation to give it a read after my review.

I'm pretty over yapping in the intro, though, so let's head into the actual game, yeah? As per the usual, I'm going to tell you as much about the game as possible without ruining the game itself. Without a better transition sentence, let's get into it!

So boom.

We're on our way to school, and we meet up with our -- quite frankly -- thirsty ass friends. They're pretty much raving about this new group of boys that had just transferred to our school, because, not only are they super rich, they are, apparently, extremely attractive.

We pretty much brush this off, though, because we're not looking for anything romantic. Honestly, we're barely looking for anything platonic; however, we agreed to be their wingman since we're essentially God-tier at picking up men that we don't want.

That being said, by some weird stroke of luck -- or misfortune, considering we know that this is all going to go very left as the story progresses -- we proceed to run into every single one of them. And I mean

every.

single.

frickin.

one.

of.

them.

Well, kinda? The blond one had a class with the blue-haired guy, us, and the bestie. The purple haired one -- even though it's more of a burgundy? -- was in the vicinity after we had pretty much asked the other boys about him because this was the one that the besties were simping over the most. But the rest? Pretty much had a one-on-one moment with all of them, even if one was extremely douchey.

Anyways, we're kind've going about our days and the besties are still thirstin', and, admittedly, we're getting closer to these guys -- too close. One of our other friends -- his name is Hiroko -- pretty much warns us about them because something just seems real sketchy to him about these guys. That being said, we just kind've brush him off, because it's, like, sir? Who are you to talk about someone being sketchy? Like, lmao mans is a full on delinquent with a whole ass gang and a criminal history with the police, and they can't stand his ass.

He's a good sport about it, though, because even though he's like "You're a full blown dumbass for that", he's like "True, true..." and just warns us to be careful around them. Now mind you, his concern is totally fair, because it's discovered later on that they pretty much fucked up this one kid's world -- you'll have to discover how during your own playthrough, though. I ain't tellin' you all that lmao.

Now, fast forwarding a lot here, shit lowkey starts hitting the fan because the bae comes back in town -- not official bae, but still bae -- and conveniently enough, he is the brother of our two besties

Everyone. This is Kenzen; the man that we're pretty sure is gonna be our husband and baby daddy one day, maybe not even in that order, but those things exactly.

Now, the reason why shit starts hitting the fan is because all of a sudden, the school boys are starting to realize that we already have our future husband picked out. Shit proceeds to get super tense once this knowledge it learned, and the boys are start to slowly but slowly lose their shit. Allow me to show you

Exhibit A: A most vicious side-eye competition

Exhibit B: The OG death grip and growl

and Exhibit C: The comply or choose death, but drunken

Oh, and let's just throw this one in for some added flair.

And definitely this one.

And why would we not add this one?

Yep, the fan was pretty much hit with shit so...yeah lmao. Go ahead and give it a go so you can see how we ended up with the most romantic gift of a necklace and a finger.

Lmao I wasn't joking about the finger by the way.

And now to air all of my grievances...

Lol nah, I'm joking, but also...there's a lot to unpack here.

First off, let's talk about the good!

So...our psychopathic LIs. Can we just acknowledge the diversity? Like, you had your pale guy, your dark guy, your tan guy, your fair skin guy, like...? I seriously appreciate that time was taken out to actually make all the LIs look different from each other and not some copy-paste, change the eye color and hair thing. I absolutely LOVED the diversity of the LIs.

Not to mention, the MC is diverse a well! Granted, like typical, we can't really SEE it except in the occasional CG, but it was just dope that there was even an option, ya know?

Also! The concept of the story was actually pretty solid! Some of the things that happened were interesting, and I definitely had a "...Well, damn ._." moment here and there.

Now for the...not so good.

This flowed like a stereotypical Wattpad story. That's obviously no fault of the dev, but, for me, the point of renditions is to take something and make it a little better or give it some extra flair without ruining what the OG creator intended -- that didn't really happen, and that was honestly what bugged me the most out of everything.

I didn't really care that there'd be strings and strings and strings of dialogue before the next choice finally came up nor did I care that, while it appeared to be choice heavy, it was actually just an illusion on choice where it didn't really matter how you responded to certain things; it just was. But yeah, the pacing was...well, let me expose myself a little (don't come after me. I'm a tiny and cozy blog lol)

If you make posts on tumblr, then you know what this is. For those that don't know and/or can't guess what it is, this shows the interaction that my blog gets or my "activity" more accurately. The reason why I brought this out was because...this was how the story's pacing was.

First, it'd be on a steady progression, and then it'd drone on and on and on into a plateau, but then -- out of no where -- shit will randomly escalate and just take off into this fit of drama...but then it'd quickly drop. There was no real flow, and when there was, it'd be super inconsistent. Not to mention, the wishy-washiness of the MC and the unpredictability of the LIs (which duh, right?), the pacing would just take off and then would come to a dead stop. It's like there was no balance between the narration, the drama, and the transitions to the next scene. Like, yeah, you've gotta story tell, obvi, but don't drone on for-- actually I can show you that as well.

Did you notice how long that clip was? Imagine how long it took to read...

That was just straight up narration, and there was multiple times where this happened. Nothing really happening, no choices to make, just straight up narration. Well, no, I lied a little. Things did happen, but once again, it'd come out of no where. It, quite literally, will go from having a normal conversation, and then the yandere side just comes out totally unprovoked. Like? It's honestly more for shock factor than for story, and it got to a point where I was honestly just tired of the game itself and was wanting it to end...but it ended up being 3 hours longer, and I'm not even joking about that. Once again, I can show you.

This was the point I started getting ill with the game but felt that I was towards the end and pushed on to finish it out

This was when I realized that I was clearly wrong about that being "almost the end" and took pretty much another 3 hours to get through.

And yes, for the most part, I played it in one sitting with the exception of when I got me a little snacky snack and went to pee. Oh? You're curious about what time I started playing?

Around 5 hours beforehand...

Notice that that all says 19 June 2024. I have never been so glad to see the ending screen...

It wasn't even because it was bad! It was just. so. extremely. long. And for, what felt like, no reason to be that long. Granted, I could've stopped and saved and came back, but it always felt like I was either getting to the end or to a good part, and it just never came -- not that there wasn't any good parts, but...never mind, I feel like I make it worse the more I try to explain...

Anyways, the game wasn't awful by any means, but it definitely could use some improvement. The whole thing had good potential, the pacing of it really just killed it for me, and had that been better executed? This would've been a great game, but it's honestly just...decent. It had multiple endings, but outside of each of the yandere LIs' ending? I didn't bother trying to get the others.

Even still, while I don't recommend the game, I think it's still worth giving it a casual playthrough! There's plenty of material to read, and there are some interesting parts! Like I said, it's just a pacing issue. Not to mention the MC was pissing me off with that wishy-washy bullshit. Like, bro, survival is at the top of the list. Why are you making a plan and doing the exact opposite of what you were gonna do? Like, what the fuck is you doin'?!

You'll understand it when you play it yourself so...give it a fair try? Here, I'll even put the link here! Heck, and give the dev some encouraging words and, even though I didn't see it, some monetary support! The game itself was honestly fine! It was just the storytelling needed some work, which lowkey isn't even their fault because it was based off of a Wattpad story (I'll link that again here, by the by).

Okay, this review is about to be the same length as the game. I'm going to go ahead and head out of here. Just to reiterate, the game is free! Giving it a casual playthrough never hurts! I mean, what've you got to lose except about 4 - 6 hours?

Okay, really, I'm out of here now! Remember! Drink water, don't be dumb, and hope to see you around~!

Infatuation

[morningmask27]

Have you had any writing ideas lately that you'd like to talk about?

it's a bit of a challenging time to be creative right now, as I have exams coming up to murderize me soon (I'll be at it for the entirety of June, what a wonderful life)

buuuuuuuuuut that never keeps me from being creative, I just can't justify doing it a lot lol

but yeah, I've been tooling around with a few things here and there; one of them a little drabble I wrote one night that I'll add under the cut

aside from that it's mostly me having some ideas and the desire to do them, but university really isn't forgiving, so I can't really spare that many hours to write something anymore. now I do see myself maybe writing a drabble or two a bit later in June if I find a moment, but writing is just a bit too much commitment for me to casually do during exams

She entered her cave silently. It was empty aside from her; she would know if someone else was in there. Stone Claws rarely ever dare to follow her all the way in, which made her feel somewhat more safe at least. She laid down in the back and looked at the scars on her flanks. 

She and the Stone Claws had had many fights in the past and that she was still alive was barely short of a miracle. Each line marring her body was there because she survived. Often it did mean a Stone Claw or two died, or even a few of their followers; those small stubborn cowards. Show your teeth and they turn around with their tails between their legs. She huffed, it hurt. Last time she encountered Stone Claws they got a bad hit on her neck. It was healing nicely, but could sting at sharp movements or actions. 

Droplets dripped down the teeth of the cave, forming small pools on the floor. She felt tired all of a sudden, just tired. It had been many winters since she had joined this world, so it wasn’t unusual. 

Many winters indeed; many winters since her mom took care of her and her siblings. Back then she rarely had some alone time. She and her siblings got in many troubles and the elders often scolded them for their latest ingenious stunt, but she would never regret it. Not any of it. 

She had wished to enjoy this life too, of complaining about the frolicking youngsters, but she was alone. She prefers her alone time, but it had been so long since she had seen a young one, since she had seen anyone at all. It must have been a season or two at least, and they were always scared or wounded. Stone Claws on their traces. 

One of her old friends she did save by ambushing the lone Stone Claw on the hunt; a little overzealous youngster, just like she had been, but she had survived and they had not. Was it luck? Was it just how life works? Did they have that small bit of too much audacity that led them to their death? She would never know. Stone Claws are mysterious creatures to her, just like she must be to them. She and the rest of her kin. 

But since that last wounded friend of hers she hadn’t seen anyone anymore. It began becoming more and more worrying, but she had always wanted to keep that for the smarter members of her family; she wasn’t the type to worry, she’d rather live life and see what comes. 

The tiredness was taking more of a toll on her. She wondered if it’d be a good idea to take a nap now. Stone Claws like hunting during the day, but this cave should still be safe enough and she was hidden in the back of the cave. Stone Claws, with their miserable sense of smell, would probably not even sense her in there. 

She laid her head down and closed her eyes. The dripping of the droplets sounded louder until they could be mistaken for steps. Small steps of a young one. Had any of her kin been hiding in this cave the whole time? Why didn’t they join her earlier then? 

She tried to raise her head, but it felt too heavy. She couldn’t even open her eyes anymore, but she did feel a little shape pressing against her. It felt odd, but oddly comforting at the same time. She wanted to see the little shape, but it was all dark and heavy. All of it except the little one next to her, purring happily at the warmth she shared with them. She enjoyed the source of joy, letting it doze her off little by little until she felt her body fully fall into a deep slumber. 

The darkness disappeared all of a sudden. She felt lighter and freer. More than she had been in a while. She lifted her head and turned to see the small cub nestled at her flank. It smiled at her with the same starry smile she remembers so fondly. 

“Hi sis! You ready to play?” they asked, leaping up ready for their next exploit. Their tail swished in the air playfully and curved in that way that was so undeniably them. She smoothly stood up, leaving the dead weight she carried behind and followed her sibling out of the cave. She would probably not have a lot of alone time anymore now. 

[siroetosu]

grand x files rewatch post round 2 babyyyyyyyyy

episode 2: deep throat

honestly, this episode is kind of a skip for me. I watched it like 4 days ago and I already can't remember what happened in it. it does of course lay down important groundwork with the introduction of deep throat, and we get to see sweaty running Mulder which is cool. also, the stoned teenagers are great and I love Mulder and Scully's little quips about "if I were that stoned" lmao these clowns

episode 3: squeeze

this is by far my most rewatched individual episode, which I think is probably not a unique experience. probably because it feels like a really good starter ep to show other people, a classic, typically structured and well written, sort of emblematic episode. Mulder and Scully have a good foundation down already in their rapport, and we understand how important they are becoming to each other. this episode contains probably my favorite ever moment in the entire show, as I remember it, where Scully calls Mulder out for acting territorial, and he reaches out and adjusts her necklace as he says, yes of course, how could I not be? LIIIIIIIKKKEEEEEE omfg she's trying to keep it profesh by implying he's territorial about his work but he cuts right through the bs with that response and says, yes and, I'm territorial over you. GAAAHHHHGGGGG of course this episode also contains an iconic and actually kind of scary monster (with an incredible performance from that actor I gotta say), really great ~spooky~ atmosphere overall, balanced with moments of comedy as Mulder gives us some of his best one-liners of all time ("do you think I'm spooky?" and "is there anyway I can get it off my fingers quickly without betraying my cool exterior?" to name a couple). also, holy fuck, we get to see Mulder literally racing to save Scully's life at the end which is hot and sexy and fun, and also Scully being a huge badass and holding the guy off until Mulder arrives. buuuuuuuuuut he does not simply swoop in and rescue her, she really saves herself and he comes in at the last moment to finish the job; they are a team, a unit, a partnership, perfectly exemplified by Mulder slapping on one handcuff, and Scully quickly closing the other around the radiator. (maybe faucet? I forget exactly but whatever lol)

episode 4: conduit

when the motorcycle bartender man pulled back his hair and showed us that absolutely sick prosthetic I literally clapped my hands and said into my empty living room "this guy rocks." sickest one off character so far. also I love how detailed the costumes are in this bar scene, it's cool to see such variety in contrast to the FBI beige suit extras. also I feel like we get some of the first really good acting moments from DD. okay that sounds rude but we all know how he is. that moment in the car where Scully first suggests the connection to his sister... the look he gives her is subtle, nuanced, and very telling. buuuuuuuut then we have the moment at the end where he's crying in the church. maybe crying is just not his strong suit and I do not blame him. and it's a wide shot anyway so who really cares. also PHEW that voiceover tho, the first instance of "I want to believe," that gave me chills. a very well written little button for that episode and further insight into Mulder's character

[noaltbruh]

y-yandere Ghiaccio with female reader?👁👁

Oh, I don't usually write for La squadra....

BUUUUUUUUUUT I WILL GLADLY MAKE AN EXCEPTION FOR YOU ^^ and because he's my favourite minor villain in the entire show, but don't tell anyone.

TW: Mention of physical and emotional abuse.

Yandere Ghiaccio x female reader hcs

-While of course, one of the main traits of yanderes is to be overprotective of their darling, Ghiaccio shows this behavior even more than the average one. He doesn't bother trying to hide his obsession for you, and no, he won't in any way try to sugarcoat it. (Sorry :( )

If you try to disobey him, either two things will happen. He'll lock you inside your room and freeze every possible exit to put you in time out, but since he still 'loves' you, he'll let you have something to entertain yourself with.

Now, if you've been REALLY bad, let's say, trying to run away from him, he'll use White album to freeze parts of your body, stopping you from leaving him. And get ready to listen to another one of his angry rants and monologues in which he tells you why he loves you so much, and why you're being a fool trying to escape.

Also, if you try go talk back, he'll probably either freeze your mouth too, or slap you until you don't shut up.

He is j-e-a-l-o-u-s, you heard me? Every time you go outside, there's a 90% possibility that he's with you, or he's spying you from afar. He absolutely won't hesitate to cuss the living hell out of whoever is looking in your direction. You're kinda used to it by now, so you don't even try to stop him lol.

He's okay with leaving you around most members of La Squadra. Risotto and Prosciutto know better than to even think about making a move on you, Gelato and Sorbetto are dating, and Pesci...He's Pesci, c'mon.

There's no way in the entire universe he's ever letting you hang out with Formaggio, Illuso or Melone though.

If you've had a bad day, and you've been behaving well, he'll bring you ice skating. If you don't know how to skate, he'll gladly teach you, and hold your hands suuuuper tight (maybe a bit too much) to make sure you won't trip.

Even after you learn he still insists on holding your hand lmao.

If you ever were to neglect yourself, either because of the situation with him, or because you're just feeling down, he'll angrily lecture you about why you shouldn't under any circumstances keep up with this behavior.

"How many damn times do I have to tell you?! SEI BELLISSIMA, CAZZO, you have to stop acting like it's nothing and take care of yourself! And then you have the courage to ask me why you belong to me, can't you see le condizioni di merda you end up in if I'm not here?!"

He's probably brushing your hair while spouting all this.

You like to steal his glasses while he's asleep or in the shower, he gets super annoyed by it, but he lets you keep them for a while because you seem to be having fun. He can't see anything without them though, so he has no clue of how you look like with those things on.

After an argument, or another failed attempt at escaping, he refuses to leave or give you time to cool off (lol-), his only objective is to go back to you smiling as soon as possible, even if you just want to be alone and seeing him only pisses you off even more.

Since this takes place in a 'everyone survives' scenario, I think that after the events of Vento Aureo, Giorno made sure to pay La Squadra properly for their missions, which means that they have access to a lot of money now. Do you know what that means? More presents for you, obviously ヾ(*´∀｀*)ﾉ

He's not good at picking something he "thought you would like", so if the two of you are ever hanging out, and you look at that one thing in a shop's window even for a sec, you can be sure that Ghiaccio will buy it for you before you can even open your mouth to say anything.

If you're feeling sad for whatever reason, he'll probably activate his Stand and let you play with his cat ears.

Now, does he want children? The answer is...Meh, he has too much of a short temper to handle babies. You two will probably adopt like, 20 cats or something. He lets you name all of them, except for a particular one that reminded him of you for some reason, he called it Fulmine (´,,•ω•,,)

If you're not Italian, he'll gladly help you out with learning his language, even though lessons with him...They might be as pleasant as Fugo's. Also he'll probably get distracted while explaining and start talking about grammar rules in other languages he considers stupid.

If he's had a long day, I could totally see him resting his head on your laps while still annoyingly mumbling about why he's so mad. You do manage to calm him down though, and he might even fall asleep in that position.

"Ti amo tanto, gattina~"

AHHHHHHH SORRY IF THIS IS OUT OF CHARACTER, IT'S LITERALLY THE FIRST TIME I WRITE ABOUT SOMEONE THAT ISN'T PART OF THE BUCCI GANG (;_;)

[izukult]

haiykuu boys react to a long distance partner surprising them

characters: hinata, kageyama, oikawa, sugawara, nishinoya, tsukishima

established relationship | warnings: swearing, my fan behavior, why are my head canons so long in this gd it’s like a tiny story without structure

hinata shōyō

-SUNSHINE BOY (i went crazy for this one i’m so sorry)

-you were sugawara’s old middle school penpal which turned online friend

-so obviously you’d heard about his volleyball team and the new first year star players

-and one thing led to another where he introduced you to hinata

-actually you were facetiming suga and you saw hinata and told your old friend you thought the tangerine boy was cute and then koushi “accidentally” put you in a gc together

-you and hinata have been dating for about four months

-you’ve heard everything to a t, including small little remarks from tsukishima to every toss, kill, and miss your boyfriend and kageyama managed

-side note but it’s so cute this boy is so whipped for you if you don’t respond for a certain amount of time he’ll find some dumb excuse to talk to suga just so he can shift the convo to making sure you’re safe

-anyway

-so you’re going to meet suga finally

-like FINALLY you’re so excited

-but you’re also boutta see your boyfriend!!!!!!

-buuuuuuuuuut your boyfriend didn’t know

-so it’s safe to say you were a little nervous about it

-you made suga swear up and down that he wouldn’t tell any of his teammates that you specifically were coming, but he did ask to make sure it was okay to have a semi open practice

-so you’re standing outside the volleyball gym with sugawara, backpack with hinatas favorite snacks over your shoulder. practice had already started so suga was late, but he still stood outside with you and let you prepare yourself

-you felt like you were about to throw up even though that’s shoyo’s thing

-suga walks in before you and you follow shortly after, holding in a sharp breath.

-there he was. standing on the other side of the gym, talking to who you knew as kageyama

-he hadn’t seen you yet, but other member of karasuno had

-”yoo who’s this hottie” bald, flirtatious, you had to assume its tanaka

-hinata was in the middle of jumping for a spike when he saw you, and he froze and fell to the ground, stumbling to keep his balance

-the gym got quiet at the tangerines reaction, but he was just staring at you.

-and then he was doing that “woosh” run he always told you about and before you knew it his arms were around your waist and his head was buried in your shoulder.

-everyone (literally EVERYONE) was looking at you two but you just laughed and placed a hand in his hair (which, holy fuck, is soft)

-you mouthed an apology to suga and he shrugged you off, and focused your attention back on the boy in front of you

he pulled back just enough to look at you, leaving his hands to rest on your back. his eyes were filled with tears (cute) and he offered you a smile.

“you’re here” his voice was quiet, for once, but it didn’t have any lag this time. and it was so fucking beautiful.

“i’m here.” you nodded, eyes scanning the features of his face. he chuckled lightly, a tear falling to his cheek as he shook his head.

“you’re so pretty.” his voice was watery and he moved his head back in your shoulder before you could utter a compliment back.

-he stayed attached to you for like minutes okay and this man completely ignored the teasing of his classmates.

-eventually you tried to pull him off you so he could get on with practice (and so you could watch him practice) but he refused to get off

-”bubs. babe. honey. you gotta get up”

-”hey hey hey, what about showing me a cool spike?”

-”i am literally asking you to do your favorite thing in the world sho,”

-”new favorite thing is holding you.”

-YOUR HEART

-eventually you did get him off of you and he practiced the HARDEST he had

-after practice he introduced you to everyone as his girlfriend even though you’d literally been introduced to them like an hour before

-his eyes stay on you and he constantly tells you how pretty you are face to face and how you smell good and how soft your hands are

-it would sound stalkerish if you werent whipped

-its ok hes whipped too

kageyama tobio

-no idea how youd meet this mf online

-maybe some volleyball forum or like arguing over which setter was betting in youtube comments

-or if you know nothing about volleyball,,,,

-i have no fucking clue BUT

-he doesnt mind long distance honestly

-he doesnt have to get worried about completely embarrassing himself and he never has to make like physical moves

-but he does wish he could hold your hand sometimes.

-but he ignores it🙄

-so you are like obsessed w this bitch u r in love w him🤢🤢

-and ur a good 90% sure he luv u too

-so you plan a trip to him

-you do it all out. you talk to his mom, you find the cheapest hotel that’s perfect distance between his house and his school bc ur just that cool

-and you even make up an excuse to kageyama for why you won’t be on your phone during the flight

-you know he’s gonna be at practice bc you know his schedule cos gf things

-you stocked up on banana milk (aka you brought like four)

-you hit him up yknow yknow

- “hey bubs i’m back<3 how’s practice going?” you’re literally standing outside the gym but you want to make sure you’re not coming in at a bad time

-after like three minutes he texted u “good:). just got done with a practice set.”

-so now you’re going and you’re excited and you’re Nervous

-you open the door and you’re met with a rly tall guy with a headband on

-“hi, can i help you?”

-“uh, is kageyama here?” and he turns his head, and you follow his eyes, and there he is

-and he’s already staring at you

-a ball is lightly held in his hands

-if anyone who didn’t know him saw him they would genuinely think he’s angry

-but it was kinda the same look he’d give you when you talked about things you cared about on facetime

-so maybe that’s love? 😳😳😳

you give him a little wave

-“sup kags”

-he’s just staring

-blankly staring

-which you should’ve expected

-“sorry, are you mad? i should’ve told you i was coming, that’s my bad i just thought i could surprise you and it would be really nice and then you wouldn’t be stressed out sorry-“

-literally why are you saying all this all of his teammates just like “wtf”

-he shook his head quickly and opened his mouth to say no but just continued to stare

-“i- uh- you want to watch me set?”

-you LAUGH. and i mean LAUGH girly and he just turns all kinds of red and you know his team is gonna be on him for that

-“yea! if that’s like, allowed?” daichi doesn’t care so you are literally balling

-you watch him play and like at first he’s REALLY awful like rly bad but then he kind of tunes everything out (i.e. you) and gets back in his groove

-afterwards he comes over to you and asks you what you think and he’s looking at you like this is normal but you can tell he’s shaking and he kisses your forehead REALLY REALLY FAST and mumbles a quiet “i’m glad you’re here”

-he opens up w affection more along the trip

-he appreciates the banana milk. sm.

-from then on out he constantly brags ab having a gf to the team

oikawa tooru

-he suspects smth is up to be honest

-he’s like “ohhh shawty gon do sum😫”

-(he doesn’t fucking call you shawty)

-but to be fair he figured more like you were gonna send him smth rather than send yourself

-surprise again he’s AT PRACTICE who would’ve guessed

-but this time you come at the end of practice because seijoh has like set schedules and oikawa tells you everything so

-you’re just standing by the door waiting for him to come out, ignoring the literal group of girls forming at the end of the hall knowing dAmn well they are your bf’s fangirls

-oh well

-you hear his voice before you actually see him

-he’s giving someone tips on their serves and you hear someone make a snide remark at him and you only assume its iwa

-he’s in the middle of a sentence and he just stops.

-there’s a good couple of seconds where he completely loses composure

-which is not tooru like

-you took a step closer and smiled

-”is this the oikawa tooru fanclub?”

-”nah it’s actually the oilykawa hate club” it’s the same voice from earlier and it’s definitely iwa

-you laugh a little and keep looking at your boyfriend

-”that’s even better”

-he just walks up to you and gives you a real, genuine smile

-pushes a piece of hair behind your ear

-and KISSES u

-EPIC MOMENT GAMERS

-”what are you doing here, pretty? come to see me play? if so, i hate to break it to you, but you’re late”

-you just roll your eyes and kiss him again

-once you two are alone he literally cries

-LMAO

sugawara koushi

-literally the only one who can keep his cool out of all these mfs (aside from tsukishima)

-however, when you show up to his practice wearing the hoodie he sent you like two months earlier, he lost his shit

-you set it up with daichi and everything beforehand.

-(and daichi literally made sure suga would look like a setting genius the day you showed up)

-he had just made a really good set when you walked in and you clapped

-”nice one, koushi”

-he looks at you like 😦 & is just like “you- what- you’re- how- why?”

-lol and then he goes on “not why like i’m not happy you’re here just how”

-and all the third years think it’s so funny to be honest, because typically suga can keep his cool

-he eventually gains his cool and shines you one his signature amazing smiles (which, is somehow better face to face)

-omg he goes over to you and once he gets there he turns to his teammates and like

-”this is my s/o!!!”

-mf is BEAMING

-he’s so happy

-you find out right after he gives literally the best hugs ever i live by that and i will die by that

-he doesn’t kiss you til you two are alone

-and its so fucking sweet and personal he puts his forehead on yours and tells you you’re the most beautiful person hes ever seen

-he is literally so in love w you

-ew

-i love him.

nishinoya yü

-ok he’s so loud

-literally the second he gets a gf everyone knows

-he shows the team pictures of you literally anytime one of them will look

-he luvs u

-he is your BIGGEST fan no doubt

-you make a nice meal? he wants to post about it

-you have a nice outfit? he will put it on his story

-you breathe? expect an “omg baby im so proud of u”

-so when you show up, he reacts the way you expect him to

-so like obviously this man isnt checking his phone during practice

-but he puts his phone on dnd and has you as his only favorite contact

-so you can text him if its an emergency during practice

-you know that, he knows it, the team knows it

-he gets the little ping!

-and he’s out the game

-no one is recovering the ball #peaceout

-he jogs over to check because you never text his number during practice bc you respect his passion for volleyball

-the text just says “come outside:))”

-he’s like wtf?? but bitch gonna do what u say😐

-he sees you and he just yells “holy shit” so loud dude

-daichi goes to call him on his language but steps outside and sees the short libero hugging the person they’d all seen in the photos, he just goes quiet

-nishinoya will not shut up as he hugs you

-he’s literally just hyping you up and asking you literally every single detail about how you’re there, where you’re staying, when you’re leaving, how your flight was, everything

-you just kiss his forehead :)

-literally only good vibes

-you guys have such a good trip bruh

-after you leave he literally just cries while looking at pics of you two together

-^ he took so many pics and vids of you pls

tsukishima kei

-unlike the others, you wouldn’t meet him at practice

-you don’t really know his team, nor does he tell you about them outside of mostly complaining

-you do know tadashi, but like you’ve only talked to him in a gc all three of you are in and never like alone

-you did not tell him you were coming because you’re 100% convinced he would’ve accidentally told tsuki even though he can keep his own shit secret lol

-you just show up at his door when you know he’s home

-and he’s texting you as you’re there and he had actually had a moderately rough day so you told him you were gonna order him food from his favorite restaurant

-which, technically wasn’t a lie you just had to make an extra stop

-you knock on his door (once you’ve prepared yourself because you honestly have no idea how he’s going to react)

-and he opens it ready to give a half hearted thank you to some delivery guy

-but instead his s/o

-he just stares at you

-he looks like a fish

-after like fifteen seconds you decide to try to break the ice bc you are nervous

-”delivery here for uh one…” you pretend to look at the paper, you’re doin a whole skit here “one dumb bitch. are you dumb bitch?”

-he just rolls his eyes and shoves your head

-he walks back but he leaves the door open

-”take your shoes off”

-he’s not even looking at you smh but you smile so fucking wide bc that’s the kind of reaction you were honestly hoping for

-(what you don’t know is he will literally break his whole hard exterior act if he looks at you right now and he is not ready for that)

-you put the food on the table and move to stand next to him

-and after a bit he finally looks at you

-and you look at him

-and you smile

-and he does too,, kind of

-(which is so fucking cute,)

-and you just keep starin at him and bite your lip to keep from grinning

-and after a couple minutes you clear your throat

-”can i hug you?”

-bro he’s so fucking whipped he doesnt even answer he just wraps his arms around you and puts his head on top of yours

-and he mumbles a thank you and its so fucking SWEET

-he does open up more the longer you’re there and u have a very good trip mwah in luv

[thenamesblurrito]

Roster: Sunstorm (text only)

good news! Sunstorm is currently a wip! bad news! he’s currently a wip in the “snap victims.clip” file along with others like Overlord and Shockblast! i definitely need to rework him so don’t consider this sketch final lol

he’s from the Safeguard Aerie like Starscream, Thundercracker, and Skywarp, transferred there with his own trine Bitstream and Hotlink from Protihex. Hotlink didn’t pass the JAAT entrance exams, and Bitstream didn’t want to apply, so Sunstorm doesn’t have his closest siblings with him. he’s doing great, though, he really enjoys the Academy and the people there. he’s one of Blurr and Makeshift’s roommates, and has made fast friends with Riptide, Aileron, and Sideways. one of the most encouraging things about the Academy for him is how it teaches religion and validates faith without using it as a tool of functionist control and guilt tripping. as someone whose faith is deeply important to him, Sunstorm has gotten used to being disappointed in priests and temple staff, but faculty like Star Saber and Wing are a breath of fresh air. overall, he’s a pretty nice kid

buuuuuuuuuut it only takes brief exposure to a power beyond his control to change that for the worse... 😬

[dingdongrumba]

Naegami!

Ah yes, my other OTP, thank you anon for this opportunity

who reaches out to new neighbors

Byakuya wouldn’t be caught DEAD socializing without a clear purpose, once again, leave it to Naegi to drag his boyfriend around

Makoto: Byakuya we live in a SOCIETY

who remembers to buy healthy food

Makoto forgets a lot of things, that includes buying the healthy food lmao. That being said Byakuya doesn’t really buy it as much as he reminds Makoto to do it himself, that, or get somebody else to do it lmao

who remembers to buy junk food

Makoto freely and carelessly tosses junk food into the shopping cart lmao, he gets things when he sees them. BUUUUUUUUUUT Byakuya’s the one that regularly restocks Makoto’s favorite snacks so he never runs out

who fixes the oven when it breaks

Makoto broke it. Byakuya sighs and calls someone to help lololol, maybe Makoto learns to fix it himself eventually so they stop having to hire people

who waters the plants/feeds their pet(s)

Definitely Makoto. They’re menial tasks that Byakuya has no interest in taking care of himself. Plus it makes Makoto happy, so why even bother taking that little bit of happiness away from him? He looks super cute while doing it too

who wakes up earlier

Byakuya hands down, he has a strict schedule to follow and he doesn’t skip it. Ever. Makoto thinks he might be an alien.

who makes the bed

Assuming Makoto is already up, I actually think it would be Byakuya in this case!! He likes the tidiness and he doesn’t mind this one piece of “labor”

who makes the coffee

This isn’t even a headcanon this is just f a c t s. It’s Byakuya, obviously, he fucking needs that dirty bean water every day or he will be the actual demon incarnate all day

who burns breakfast

One time Byakuya because no one else was available and he was in a hurry so he was forced to cook breakfast and let’s just say he’s learned to go hungry for an hour or two ever since that day lmAO

how do they let each other know they’re leaving the house

Byakuya: Makoto. I’m leaving.

Makoto: Okay!! Have a good day at work!! *give him at least 3 kisses*

Byakuya doesn’t want to admit he only makes sure to tell him properly because he likes how overenthusiastic Makoto is with his kisses

If Makoto is the one living he just gives him a quick peck on the cheek and waves lol

how do they greet each other when one of them gets home

Byakuya simply announces his arrival while Makoto comes inside and gives him a tight hug

who brings home little gifts like flowers/chocolates more often

I think Makoto might bring more stuff for both of them while Byakuya might think more about getting things so the house looks pretty! Also he buys Makoto clothes. Lots of them. He likes to see his boyfriend well dressed

who picks the movie for movie night

Byakuya is the kind of person that doesn’t suggest anything but will criticize every option you give him lmAO. So Makoto is the one that picks, but it takes them forever before finally settling on one.

their favorite kind of movie to watch

At first Byakuya will only watch like, award-winning movies and shit like that but eventually he encounters the joy of watching Makoto laugh to stupid romcom movies and suddenly that’s all they watch anymore lMAO

who first suggests a pillow fort

IT’S OBVIOUSLY MAKOTO!!! Byakuya sighs and rolls his eyes but Makoto is so excited, he’s not going to ruin that for him. At the end they both have a pretty good time so Byakuya is glad he accepted, bless

who builds the pillow fort

Makoto as well, but Byakuya does end up helping him too

who tries to distract the other during the movie

Neither. Makoto is already super distracting on his own lmAO, it’s Byakuya the one that ends up initiating all the contact and cuddles, he doesn’t even do it on purpose. Makoto is just,,,, there watching the movie and Byakuya just wHAMS GOES AND KISSES HIM

who falls asleep first

Makoto hands down. Byakuya is tired all the time but he’s used to staying up late and overworking. Meanwhile Makoto has a lot of energy but when it drains? It drains quickly, he falls asleep immediately

who is big spoon/little spoon

Again, based solely on heights, Makoto is the little spoon most of the time but???? sometimes Byakuya is fast asleep and Makoto can’t help but come and spoon his handsome boyfriend. One time Byakuya woke up during it and he decided it was Not Bad so they stayed like that for a while

[idontreadheartbeats]

Just a quick update for my Anamnesis readers:

While my betas are combing through some chapters of my BigBang fic (top-secret 🤫🤐), y’all, I PROMISE I am working SO HARD to get you an update in the next week or so bc it is *killing* me that you can’t read any of this yet 😭😭😭

You can expect six scenes + the small intro, about four of which have deeply emotional heart-to-heart dialogue between characters bc that is my KRYPTONITE buuuuuuuuuut it also takes me the longest to write so... that’s why it’s taken a minute 😐

But I assure you, YOU WILL BE FED, at least until the next update, and only La knows when that’ll happen what with me buried in BigBang shenanigans and whatnot (but at least that delay will have warning I suppose lol).

Feel free to commiserate with me the in the reblogs about difficulties with any of the following banes of my writing existence:

Subtext

Dialogue

Subtext in dialogue

Scene pacing

Hitting emotional beats

Avoiding melodrama

Internal conflict

Really, anything at all having to do with abstractions (i.e. the inner emotional states you want to say but can’t 🤐)

[musicrunsthroughmysoul]

I was tagged by @wakeupyoungmen to make one of those Picrew things (tbh I’d attempted to do quite a few of them that I saw as they crossed my dash before buuuuuuuuuut I wasn’t comfortable with any of them that I came up with!). Thanks for the tag!

I don’t really feel like tagging anyone especially because I’m not personally a fan of mine or even trying these things, LOL, so...if you want to share yours, though, that’d be cool! (Make sure you link back to the actual image maker, though, so the original artist gets credit. ♥)

[pacificwanderer]

If Disney was like, "Hey, you get to decide what happens in a six minute sensual - romantic - sexual - steamy scene with Rey and Ben/Kylo. What will it be?" Describe please. I need to know.

HAH, I about choked on my water because I’m so far outside of Disney-appropriate it’s laughable.

The good thing about Adam is that he can make just about anything sensual, even when they objectively shouldn’t be (You do? Ah, you do. WHAT THE FUCK, ADAM. I’ll take that phrase to my grave).

Honestly, though? I’d love to see Ben and Rey having to work together, preferably to build something (LIGHTSABER, though I’m not getting my hopes up EVEN though I WANT IT), or even just talking about the kind of inane bullshit that most couples talk about throughout the day (which probably won’t happen given that every line is weighed and measured and, as this isn’t Taran//tino, I don’t imagine there will be many inane conversations).

Or I’d probably go with what I did go with in my (really need to finish) fanfic, which is having the bond just kind of pop into place when it’s super inconvenient, like when they’re both sleeping.

Rey’s too tired to be pissed and Ben’s too afraid to move. 

Somehow, during their sleep, they’d entangled at just about every point possible which simultaneously thrills and horrifies Ben. Her body feels so slight against his, even though he knows how strong she is.

He really is a monster, in every way, and he can’t stop the wave of self-revulsion from washing over him as he waits and waits and waits for her to wake up to tell him how much she hates him.

The moments tick by and he’s waiting for the shoe to drop, for her to wake up and break their connection, but she doesn’t--and she does wake up. She blinks blearily at him before settling back down, head on his chest, hand fisted in the blankets at his side.

Ben feels hot and cold and frightful and exultant--everything and nothing, all at once. Is it too much to hope that she needs this as badly as he does?

“Ben,” she murmurs, and he loves the way the sleepiness makes her voice sound.

“Yes?”

“Stop thinking so much. Just... go to sleep.”

“Difficult to manage, given that you’re wrapped around me,” he replies. He didn’t mean to be snarky, but somehow, he can’t help teasing her a little.

Rey huffs against his chest. “Speak for yourself,” she says with a wiggle and all at once, Ben realizes just intimately they are connected--their bodies and minds entangled until it was hard to discern where one person ended and the other began.

“Rey,” he chokes as her laugh puffs against his chest.

“Don’t mess with me, Solo. You can’t win with a scavenger that’s used to making the best out of the worst.”

“Is this the worst?” he asks, though his gut clenches as he anticipates her answer.

“No. But it’s not the best, either. So, stop thinking so much and go to sleep.”

There’s a subtle power to her command, and as Ben feels his eyes growing heavy, he wonders whether she knows that her words carried the weight of the Force with them. He could resist it, he was trained to do that kind of thing, but he doesn’t want to.

He’d keep her and this moment in his heart for the rest of his days, and as sleep claims him, Ben realizes that it is the first time in a long time where he’s felt at peace.

It was all thanks to her. She is remarkable. His scavenger. His Rey.

And though he doesn’t deserve her, that doesn’t stop him from wanting. And though he knows it is impossible, that doesn’t stop him from wishing for more.

Instead of nightmares, he dreams--of her, of bright moments in the past, of what was yet to come, as something strange and wondrous bloomed in his heart: hope.

HAHAHAHA I have like a billion pounds of work to do, but I couldn’t resist having some fun here. 

BUUUUUUUUUUT I doubt it’ll happen. Though we did get an Ani//dala bedroom scene SO I CAN DREAM (they were married, it’s very different as far as Disney is concerned LOL).

Cheers, Nonnie!

[coralsgrimes]

"And again, I can see peeps wanting to see Benny buuuuuuuuuut true that I have no idea who would want to see fairy queen? (...) mystery to me but if she doing it that means she either is making money OR it is supposed to raise her status somehow?"

Yeah, that was my thoughts too. Idk if status is the right word, but it's certainly some sort of self promotion. Showcasing her talents, really putting herself out there, broadening her horizon etc. Just like the Broadway show this spring/summer, this is just another way of trying to make fetch happen. But we all know fetch isn't going to happen... I don't think she'll be making much more than pocket change, but considering the entertainment business, money isn't the only form of currency. She might be taking a hit financially, but probably considers it worth it if it lands her another few gigs (on stage or on a yacht - she had a recent trip to Jeddah, Saudi Arabia, for The Red Sea Film Festival , god knows how and why she got an invite- one theme/event was women in cinema, and wtf was she doing there, with her straight to video hallmark crap? Sure as hell wasn't for her contributions to great cinema!)

Sorry about the rant:/

🌸💮

Rants are kind of our thing here soooooo

Anyways yeee idk she moved to NY now right? She trying to make it big there now cuz she already has her desert yoga cult on the west coast. Maybe the NY folks are not into meditation and cleaning tea? Who knows lol she's an artist now, a real deal or something x.x

Respect is the word imma looking for I think 🧚🏻‍♀️

[txemrn]

NO WAY! I literally thought that's why you put a gif of Kermie! BAHAHAHAHA! You had a feeling! Your Spidey-senses... 😉

Girl... the baby obsession is insane. And you know? I get it. I really do. I feel like we have all been taught this traditional progression of life: boy meets girl; boy falls in love with girl; boy proposes to girl; boy married girl; boy has a baby with girl. We look at a couple, and suggest, "You know what would make you better? A baby." lol And actually, it's not true.

Now of course, Riley's situation is VERY different in that she and Liam are to solidify the Rys's bloodline to the throne through an heir (and then have back-ups, "spares"). Someone on here could probably teach us both, but realistically, I wonder how long they would wait to have an heir if there was a problem. It's still awful, especially to a woman who wants something so, so badly.

LOL Whenever I write TRR pregnancy stuff, I like to throw Savannah in there because in my HC, she probably had some many problems, but she didn't die, so they're not problems in her world (THESE PATIENTS EXIST... 😡)

I love Liam and Riley so much. I was chatting with @sfb123, and I told her I think I like attacking them so much (ie killing Liam) is because their dire need for one another, the loss of love is so fucking tragic, yet in a way, it shows the depth of a love I personally want. That probably sounds so weird, and I wouldn't wish death on anyone and their SO (obviously), but in those moments, it's not about the cutesy cuddles and the touching faces and kissing pulse points... it's literally the life being stolen from someone, and the giant, bleeding hole that person leaves when they're gone.

You really just woke up and chose violence, didn't you?

I was talking to one of my girlfriends, and she asked if I killed the prince recently (LOL), and I so I read her that line you wrote, and we died laughing for a good while!

At the same time... EEP! I'm sorry! I blame these sad, sad TikToks. The song alone "Wounded" is quite sad, so I already knew I Was going to have to write about infertility, but I watched this awfully tragic story ... and I had one word: Liam. LOL

This was definitely a rough story to write, so I don't really expect anyone to be like, "I enjoyed that so much" lol. I actually got ready to publish it, and thought, "No one really should read this... unless that like sadness and darkness." Shoot, even I was crying while writing the last half of the story.

BUUUUUUUUUUT I hope you know how much I love you, and how much I love your support! Thank you so much for taking this awful journey with me, and thank you for such a sweet reblog! *hugs*

Wounded

Book: TRR/TRH Post-series

Pairing: Liam Rys x MC (Riley Brooks-Rys)

Word count: ~2500

Song Inspo: "Wounded" - Maddie Wilson

Warning: for mature audience only; the TW are the plot twists in this story; if you are not sure if you want to read this and/or you are a fairly sensitive reader (nothing wrong with that!), scroll to the very end of this post (right above the tags) for a more specific list of TW

A/N: I am SUPER pumped to be participating in week 9 of @choicesflashfics prompt challenge! I chose prompt #3: “I don’t know what I thought was going to happen, but this was definitely not it.” The prompt will be in bold.

A/N 2: Most of the characters and some of the plot points belong to our friends at Pixelberry; HUGE thanks to my dear friend (and birthday girl) @sfb123 for pre-reading this for me. Please excuse my errors! Also, if you are curious about Royal Roulette: it's a fun little challenge you can do anytime for yourself! Take your music and hit mix! Take the first song that pops up, and use it as a muse for a fic! No need to credit me, but do tag me if you do it because I LOVE reading other RR!

~🖤~

(Present)

It's just past 8PM, and I find myself in the tiled coffin of my personal sanctuary: my shower. The balmy steam hides the evidence of my swollen, tear-stained cheeks, my own words replaced by wails of mercy. The sweltering water stings across my porcelain skin, the unbearable discomfort distracting from the emptiness, the nothingness of my shattered, lifeless heart.

Today. Of all days, why today?

If only my body didn't complicate things... 

If only my body did what it was supposed to do…

If only my body did what I was crowned to do…

Liam and I have spent over six years testing every last inch of my body for an answer. The simple answer is polycystic ovarian syndrome… if only life were that simple…

------

(Yesterday)

"PCOS isn't what it used to be, though. There are so many women living with it–myself included!" Savannah takes another bite of cake, and I've never been more grateful in all my life for the reprieve from her voice. This is my fourth time hearing this speech about PCOS, and how the diagnosis is taken 'too seriously'. I mean, afterall, we are at her baby shower for Beaumont baby number two. And three. "They gave me the same talk, blah blah blah, percent this and that, and after taking Clomid for only two months," she smiles joyfully, massaging her rounded belly.

I fake a smile, shoveling some fruit salad in my mouth in hopes of keeping my sharp tongue quiet. I'm happy for her; I really am. .

But she's also never lost a baby. Or three.

Two months? 'Only' two months? God…

Liam and I have been prescribed every drug on the market to conceive; we've even tried more natural, holistic remedies, like crushed up superfoods and tree roots, tiny needles being stuck in my eyelids and in between my toes, religious relics and crystals

God, if you've never experienced humility before, the struggle with infertility will strip you bare of any pride left in your body, and after six different specialists, we finally resorted to my biggest–our biggest fear: in vitro fertilization.

But, IVF might actually be the answer to our infertility story.

As Savannah answers more intrusive pregnancy questions about her own body from our close family and friends, my mind disengages. Shielding the bright sun from my eyes, I look across the palace's heavily-decorated back lawn. Soft petal pink and pearl-colored balloons litter the divine scenery.  Signage that boasts kitschy baby phrases seem to be multiplying before my eyes. 

I feel a sudden shift in the atmosphere, one that is making me feel– I don't know… funny? I don't feel like myself. In fact, I'm starting to feel slightly ill.

An abrupt piercing shrill of pressure shoots through my temples as my breathing quickens. A trickle of sweat courses down my back as everything begins to spin wildly around me. The laughter of the group of women I'm with becomes sinister and terrifying.  

I need to get out of here…

"What an exquisite group of lovely ladies!"  

Leo Rys, my ever-charming, newly-divorced brother-in-law. He is well-trained in managing a crowd, but the heart-throb is a master at wooing a very specific demographic: women. 

Case in point. 

"Sav," he tenderly takes her hand in his, "you look absolutely radiant. Where is that foolish husband of yours, leaving your beautiful self alone–" he slows down his flirting rampage, and I instantly look up, making contact with those familiar Rys crystal-blue eyes. He mouths, 'Are you okay?' before taking out his phone, no doubt to text Liam. "'Scuse me, ladies," Leo nods with a forced, jubilant grin. 

With a skip in his step, my brother-in-law takes a knee while placing a tender touch on my clammy arm. "You're looking a little green there, sis," his lips curl softly as he pushes back my careless wisps.

"Kermit the Frog did warn us that it's not easy being green,'' I chuckle. The vibrations of my voice soothe my slightly queasy stomach. I relax further into my chair, fanning myself as I pull my oversize sunglasses over my eyes. "I'm fine," I grin cheekily, welcoming a sudden cool breeze over my skin.

His phone chimes. "Eh… negatory," he snickers under his breath, holding out his hand for me to take it. "The queen has been summoned to his majesty's presence." 

Damnit, what did he say to him?

"You better not be making my husband worry about me–"

"Someone needs to keep an eye on your bad self," Leo jokingly winks. "C'mon."

And maybe it was a good thing for me to get away from those women, to get away from this party and out of the sun. I do have a lot on my mind as well–too much actually. Enough to make anyone unwell. 

I hate exiting groups earlier than expected.  I just… I just know the inevitable will happen when I leave: they will talk about Liam and me. Worse, they will look at us as if… as if we're wounded.

Gone are the days of hailing us as the 'it' couple… 

Gone are the days of discussing our bright future…

Gosh, I really don't feel all too well as I stand up with Leo's assistance, but we make it inside the palace to a secluded sunroom. Bracing myself, I ease into a lounge chair while Leo helps me prop up my feet.

He really is a kind man, much like Liam. I hope he knows how much his return to Cordonia has meant to us as a family, especially his brother. Sure, we have staff that can help us with the countless doctor's appointments and emergency trips to the hospital, but these are intimate times that should be spent with family. And I'm glad it's with Leo.

"Are you okay, love?"  Liam appears at the opposite end of the quarters. Worry is etched across his face as he slowly saunters to my side. "I got here as soon as I–"

I wave my hands in the air. "I'm fine, babe. I think I just got a little overheated," I playfully roll my eyes. 

He lets out a slow exhale, wiping the perspiration off of my forehead. "You know better–"

"I know, I know," I raise my hands in surrender as he kisses my head. He's always watching me closely, so carefully, especially with so many hormones pumping through my veins.

"I'll leave you two alone," Leo clicks his tongue as he casually shoves his fists into his khaki shorts. "Text me."

Liam stops him, leaning in closely to whisper, "Grab us some seltzers please. And crackers." Leo nods as Liam makes himself comfortable next to me. 

I sit up, adjusting the pillows around my husband before I quickly find the crook of his arm. My crook. By the time I am settled, my gaze is happily met by his.

God, I love him. 

Even after all of this time, he still looks at me like I'm the only woman in the room. He doesn't see my shortcomings as a wife or as a queen. He sees me… and still loves me. 

I study his face, counting the fine lines around his eyes. He's beautiful, but this has taken quite the toll on us, aging us both. I reach up to caress the perfectly smooth skin of his jaw, my thumb tracing over his dry lips.

He pulls my hand from his face, peppering the inside of my wrist with sweet kisses. He finally rests my palm on his chest, weaving his finger through mine. 

I hate that it takes loss to make us appreciate life more, but watching each rise and fall of our hands reminds me that right now, in this moment, we have each other. And each heartbeat, each breath is to be cherished.

Suddenly, we hear a voice clear behind us. "Are you not well, your majesty?"  Gretchen, our part-time nurse, carries a tray of snacks and seltzers into the sunroom.

"Oh, Ms. Gretchen," I quickly wipe away my tears, brightening to her approach. "We're fine." 

She is an older woman who actually helped care for Liam's mother in her pregnancies, and also for his father in the end. Liam trusts her, and he thought hiring her would be immensely helpful to us right now. 

And he was right; she's been a perfect angel. I don't know what I would've done without her help.

"Leo told me what happened." She pulls up an end table, setting the wooden tray down. "It’s too early for your medicine, but I figured some refreshing snacks might be in order."

"Mmmm," I hum with approval as Liam helps me sit up. "This looks absolutely perfect. Thank you."

Gretchen kindly bows before excusing herself.

I grab a piece of toast, spreading some fresh apple-butter on top. "Have you eaten today?" I pass him a ginger ale as I take a sip of my drink. 

I abruptly stop fumbling with the tray when I feel his steely-stare boring holes into me. I glance once, then twice as I watch a large Cheshire grin crawl across his mouth.

"What?" I chuckle as I take a bite of my toast. "You have trouble written all over that face."

He wiggles his eyebrows as he pulls me safely back into his arms, our lips instantly meeting. His tongue swipes eagerly in my mouth. "Baby!" I squeal, pushing back from him as I wipe the corners of my mouth.

He snickers, swiping his thumb across his lips before sucking on it. "Mmmm," he quietly moans, "just what I thought."  I raise my eyebrows in curiosity. "That's the best damn apple-butter I've ever tasted." He tenderly squeezes my bottom as I claim his lips again. And again.

I love this man.

I rest my head back on his chest, listening to the deep thrumming of his heart. My home. We lay in perfect silence, watching the shadows shift throughout the afternoon glow.

But as the sun sinks lower into the earth, I feel my body cling tighter to Liam.

"What are you thinking?" he whispers gravelly.

Damn him. He knows me too well. I reposition myself, sitting up on my side. My eyes begin to sting as tears threaten to fall.  I grip his shirt as his fingertips lightly trace the freckles on the back of my arm.

"About tomorrow," I quietly exhale.

"The doctor's appointment?" He drops his hands to my lower abdomen, giving it a hopeful caress.

Overwhelmed with emotion, I can only nod my head, my breath hitching in my chest as I nuzzle into his shoulder.  

Damnit, why us? 

"Riley," he croons, enveloping his arms around me. His fingertips become lost in my waves as his lips press intimately against the shell of my ear.

"I–I'm so scared, baby," I whisper, my voice rattled with hoarseness as I wrap my arms around him.

"Shhh," he pulls me closer.  He gently rocks my body, a hand tracing soft figure-eights across me back. "Me too."

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It's early. Liam and I sit in the doctor's office, waiting for her to return with our test results so we can form the next plan of action for our family. 

I've been sick most of the morning, my nerves getting the best of me. But Liam remains steadfast, my rock. He's been reassuring me all morning, wiping my anxious tears away. He refuses to let go of my hand. 

A child needs a father like him; this can't be the end of our journey. It… it just can't be.

We hear a click, and Dr. Nguyen walks into the room with a thick file folder. I can't read her as she takes a seat, but suddenly, I see my husband's knee begin to anxiously bounce.

She finally makes eye contact with us, revealing her swollen, red eyes as if she's been crying for days. She clears her throat, dabbing at her cheeks. "Your majesties, I–" she stops to gain control of herself. “I don’t know what I thought was going to happen, but this was definitely not it.”

Her voice trails off as a subtle ringing forms in my ears, and suddenly, everything seems to be moving in slow motion. Liam let's go of my hand; he rests his elbows on his knees, burying his face in his hands.

I take a deep breath, shaking my head. What just happened? I've missed something. I frantically look between my husband and his oncologist. "I–I'm sorry. What?"

"I'm sorry, your majesty," she swallows back the lump in her throat having to deliver the news again. "The cancer? It–it didn't respond to the treatment. And from his scan last week, there are new spots on his kidneys, liver and lungs."

I blink a couple of times, feeling as though I don't know what all of this means. Because it can't possibly mean what I think she is saying.

He's not dying. He can't be dying…

"So," I swallow thickly, "you have a plan. Right?"

"Well," the physician folds her hands on the desk. "We… can… make him as comfortable as possible–"

"I'm sorry," I interrupt. "Are you–are you saying that my husband...?" I pause as I gasp for a morsel of air. "The love of my life is, that he... he's–?" I clamp my hand over my mouth. No, I can't-- I refuse to say it.

But through the blur of my tears, I see the truth.

She’s nodding.

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(Present)

"Riley?"

I break from my thoughts as I turn towards the deep voice. There at the entrance to the shower towers the most handsome man I have ever seen… or will ever see. His golden curls have been gone for months; he and his best friends shaved their heads when he first started chemotherapy a year ago. His shoulders are still broad, but with his colon resection and loss of appetite, he's thinned out quite a bit.

He is weaker; his skin has weathered.  But he's still my Liam. Even in all of this, he remains my North Star, my hope and my strength.

Which is why I can't get out of the shower. Not yet.

He flashes me a crooked smile, handing me a towel. "C'mon, love," he turns off the shower.

I carefully stand up, wrapping the towel around my damp body.  Liam extends his large hand towards me, my petite grip finding his palm. He leads me out of the shower and twirls me into an embrace, my back against his chest.

He buries kisses into my hair and across my shoulders. "I need you," he lovingly growls.

Then he tenderly drops his hands to my growing, pregnant belly. "And I need you too, my little peanut."

My poor husband… how do I do this?

Without warning, a rush of agony roars around my 22-week abdomen, the abrupt sharp pain causing me to double-over. I grab onto the sink in front of me as I groan from the intense throbbing.

This can't be happening.

"Riley?" Liam steps out of the bathroom, and hollers down the hallway. "Leo! We need help!" He takes me back into his arms. "What is it? What's wrong?"

The pain subsides, and I begin to sob. I can't look at him. 

Today. Of all days, why today?

"Liam," I choke out , "my water broke."

~🖤~

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TRIGGER WARNINGS: discussion of infertility; discussion of cancer; insinuation of a major character death; miscarriage

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[crystalsoul16]

RFA + Minor Trio: Video Games

So I got bored, and being the Mystic Messenger obsessed game addict that I am, my mind wandered to wondering what sorts of video games the RFA would play, like types or genres and some examples (aside from LOLOL in Yoosung’s case of course lol), which led to making this headcanon post. Of course, these are all just my personal headcanons, and I would love to hear what thoughts you guys have for this subject! Sharing headcanons is fun~!! Sorry this got kinda long tho lol I guess I got carried away ^^;;;

Note: If you’re on the mobile app and only see Yoosung’s section, copy and paste the post’s URL into your mobile web browser. That should fix it~

💚YOOSUNG💚

Well we all know that he’s addicted to LOLOL, and probably plays or has tried other MMOs. As perfect as those are for him, I’m looking at other types of games for this. Otherwise it’s too easy lol

Plays RPGs and adventure games the most

When he can make a custom character, his preferred classes are knight or warrior classes, but he’s also open to playing as mages

Definitely the kind of player that picks up every. Single. Side quest. Because he wants to help everyone

Need a certain number of rarely dropped items? No problem!

Want to deliver an item to someone who’s not even a two minute walk away? He’s on it!

Got a super difficult optional boss that you want dead that can–and will–display the Game Over screen multiple times, and you’re offering a class-specific item he can’t use as a reward? Sign him the fuck up!

Unless they want something he doesn’t agree with… -gives Skyrim’s Blades the side-eye-

No matter how hard he tries, he just can’t bring himself to play the “asshole/aggressive character” style

“Sure, this assassin was hired by that one traitor who wants us dead, my party is totally against letting him live since he might try to kill us again, and we have absolutely no reason to trust him aside from his seemingly honest answers which he could have just fabricated to save himself, so logic seems to point at killing him to be safe…………buuuuuuuuuut he could be a helpful party member and then no one has to die!”

Also, he loves games that encourage interaction with other players!

“People think that you don’t get any friends if you play games… but you get tons!” TRUTH!!!

So yeah, games with interaction are great!

Honestly MMORPGs are fucking perfect for him and and that’s why he’s addicted to LOLOL! lol seriously dude game with me plz

Really likes Pokemon for the sense of community with trades and battles and such

Totally attempted to make a competitive team at some point

Whenever new games are announced, he and Seven figure out who gets what version so they can trade version exclusives and such

Can never beat Seven in a battle tho… The one rival battle he can never win T^T

Also this guy is a Kirby fan fight me on this

♥ZEN♥

Not a lot of time for gaming with his schedule, but he doesn’t mind using them to wind down or as a distraction when he has the time or feels really stressed out (and if working out doesn’t help first)

He’s a fan of the more cinematic or story driven games, like Shadow of the Colossus, Heavy Rain, and The Last of Us

Knowing this, Yoosung recommended some Telltale games to him

Zen got hooked. The Wolf Among Us is probably his favorite

Plus their episodic releases really work with his schedule, with each episode lasting about 2 hours, give or take. So if he starts on a fully released one, he can do one episode a day until he’s done

Sometimes he and Yoosung will talk about how their stories went or what choices they made

“Wait, you knew what ‘Glass him’ meant???”

“Of course I did, Yoosung, that’s why I didn’t choose it! What did you think it meant?”

“I thought it meant giving him a drink, not smashing the glass in his face!!!”

“lol well now you know in case they use it again!”

“T_T”

Also, I’m sure this likely goes without saying, but this man is damn good at DDR style games or Pump it Up I guess cuz Korea but you get my point. Good luck trying to beat him lol

I mean, first off, he’s clearly got great rhythm considering his job

And second, great form of aerobic exercise! So why not?

Might try to get Yoosung into exercising more by tricking convincing him to play this with him

He’s definitely a “freestyle” sorta player, doin’ all sorts of flashy moves

Also, I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s been asked to do voice work for a game

Maybe a dating sim…

💜JUMIN💜

Okay, let’s get the obvious out of the way. This man definitely plays Neko Atsume and no force in this universe can convince me otherwise. It’s about cats and you really only play it in very short intervals through the day, which works with his schedule. It’s perfect for him. Moving on 

With his busy schedule due to running a company and whatnot, there really isn’t a lot of time for him to sit down to play video games despite owning a couple of systems apparently. It might be days or weeks between play sessions. So casual games are more his thing

Okay so, hear me out. Animal Crossing New Leaf

You’re in charge of a village and what gets built where, gotta manage your finances with paying off your house and having new structures and businesses built, sometimes schedule meetings visits with the villagers, cat villagers

NOTHING BUT CAT VILLAGERS

Questions Tom Nook’s business strategy regarding the house

“Why have the house expanded before they pay for it? A customer could easily betray your trust that way by never paying you for the final expansion. Paying ahead of time as you do with the exterior customizations would be wiser.”

“Jumin it’s just a game… ;;;;;;” 

Probably made Jaehee get a copy of the game to make some tasks easier

“Assistant Kang, you have perfect oranges in your village, yes?”

“Yes, though why are you asking me right now? Don’t you have a meeting in five minutes?”

“I’m passing the time, and Mitzy requested an orange.”

“Don’t you have regular oranges to give her?”

“Of course, but Mitzy deserves no less than a perfect orange.” plus he still needs her picture, and prefect fruit will help with that

-_-;;; “……I don’t think I can get one to you before the meeting, but I can have a full basket ready for you after you’re done.”

“That will do.”

Also, do not let this man play Minecraft

Remember, this is the guy who made fucking blueprints when he was told to draw a house when he was a little kid. He would definitely get carried away like that in Minecraft 

Like in the tutorial when they tell you to make a house? Basically just a simple box with a door? pffft, nah. That won’t do

He would probably end up building the most elaborate cube-based house you could possibly imagine and leave you wondering how the fuck he had the free time to build that

“Firstly you need a nice foyer to leave a good first impression. A standard house should have at least two bedrooms, though three would be ideal. And a living room and a kitchen are both necessary, of course. I suppose a library or office is optional, but they make a great addition. Getting enough colored wool proved to be difficult, but adding some color with carpets keeps the house from looking bland and–”

“Jumin it’s just the tutorial! You just need a one room house with a door and a bed!”

“That’s not a house, though. That’s a shed with a bed.”

-facepalm-

might use it to help plan out layouts for new buildings

💛JAEHEE💛

Man, most of these guys really don’t have time for gaming, huh?

Jaehee probably has the least amount of free time for gaming tho. Poor Baehee barely has time to sleep :c

She’s honestly really not that into games tho, so this doesn’t bother her. There are much more productive things she can do in her spare time like get some sleep jfc let the woman get enough sleep for once plz!!

Though if Zen did do a voice in a game she would play it in a heartbeat, or look up a playthrough at the very least. Nowhere near the same as seeing him actually acting up on a stage of course, but surely he can do a great performance solely with his voice!

Like Jumin, casual games that you can put down for long periods of time would suit her best

Actually ends up liking Animal Crossing more than she thought she would or wants to admit

She loves how the villagers are always happy to see her and always rooting for her, and she absolutely adores Isabelle

Probably has a Brewster plush or figure somewhere in her cafe

While I don’t think she’d actually play them, I can imagine her being REALLY good at fighting games

Just takes her a quick look through those lengthy combo lists and she’s got that shit memorized, and with a few practice rounds she can kick your ass with perfect wins before you even know what hit you

But of course, she probably wouldn’t play them, so you don’t have to worry about that :)

❤️️707❤️️

Yay, someone with some time to game!

Actually no, that’s a lie, but he procrastinates on his work a lot, so he has game time

Anything that’s humorous or gives him a chance to be a jackass would be his shit

Sometimes you just need the stupid humor of a goat flying through the air in ragdoll mode to help you get through the day, y'know?

He also enjoys puzzle games to exercise his mind, and racing games for obvious reasons he can go fast without risking his babies’ safety lol

Okay so in Yoosung’s route, he mentions playing GTO (assumed to be a knockoff of GTA), which makes sense for him because cars and high jinks, but with that in mind you know what he’d really get a kick out of?

Saints Row, especially Saints Row IV, cuz that one has hacking elements, and you get superpowers, and you gotta save people and shit. Sounds great for the Defender of Justice, no? The comedy and great music selection is a bonus, really c:

As for being a jackass… Be cautious if you invite him to play Mario Party with you.

He will purposely aim for the Chance Time spaces just to watch everyone else freak out about it, and he will aim for stealing your stars and often succeeds

He’s also really fuckin’ good at Mario Kart. Do not challenge him unless you like being hit by blue shells and other such items

Also, Battleblock Theater. Great puzzle platformer, good humor, and in co-op mode, a great chance to be an ass!! Much to Yoosung’s dismay lol

“Seven, stop throwing me into the water!! And stop blowing me up! We won’t get the time bonus at this rate!”

“lolol who cares, seeing you get mad is worth it~”

A grumpy Yoosung later got revenge by shoving 707’s character into the water

they laugh about it later lol

💙V💙

Guys, this poor man can’t see well at all. Like, he can only see a little bit out of his left eye. That kinda makes video games a challenge for him

That being said…idk he probably liked Pokemon Snap when he could see

Okay seriously this time, imagining he can see well and his life isn’t shit. He’d be a big fan of games that are about exploration and have stunning views or a unique art style

He’d probably really like Okami, Unravel, and Journey

Ori and the Blind Forest! Get it? Cuz he’s.........into artistic games and that game is really fuckin’ pretty

and he’s bli--

Also Firewatch. That game is fucking gorgeous. He would take so many screenshots in that one plus there’s a camera feature in the game lol

Also imagine him and Jumin playing Animal Crossing together and tell me that’s not the cutest shit

It’s a cute and light-hearted game, which I feel like he’d be into, he can play it on his 3DS when travelling, and it’s something he could play with his best buddy~ I’m down for this

Oh shit sudden thought

Okay hear me out! In an attempt to try to get closer to Yoosung, V asks him to teach him how to play LOLOL. Yoo might be a little hesitant at first but eventually agrees to it and holy shit it actually goes well and yay they’re bonding!

And damn V does a great job as a support mage

Of course V can’t play much due to travelling for work, but they try to schedule play times around that and make it work out. And during his travels, if V comes across a location that reminds him of some scenery seen in the game, he sends a picture of it to Yoosung and can this be a thing? I want this to be a thing because I need more Yoosung and V fluff in my life okay sorry for the ramble MOVING ON

seriously tho he probably really liked Pokemon Snap as a kid

💔SAERAN💔

Look me in the eyes and tell me this guy doesn’t rage quit

Like Michael Jones Rage Quit levels of rage quit

That first one is definitely him and Seven

Otherwise he’s pretty much silent when playing

As for games he’d like, anything that’ll let him blow off some steam, like shooters or fighting games

Need a partner for CoD Zombies? Or need someone to co-op Resident Evil with? Well, he’s not much of a multiplayer sorta guy, but if you can convince him then you’re set cuz he’d be damn good at those! 

And Multi-man Smash mode in Smash Bros is very therapeutic to him

Especially when his brother gets on his nerves

Which is often…

You can tell he’s really pissed off when he breaks out Mortal Kombat > ->;;;;;

Also, I can’t help but think that he’d be pretty good at the Guitar Hero and Rock Band games

As in “really fucking close to 100%-ing Through the Fire and the Flames on Expert mode in GH3” pretty good

Seriously his hacker hands are probably really fuckin’ fast I’m sure he could pull it off

Though when his bro sets up a “Family Game Night” and you know he would totally do that at some point or some sort of gaming get-together and sets up Rock Band, Saeran usually prefers to play the drums

holy shit drummer Saeran tho

Oh yes, thinking of gaming nights, if you thought Sev was a monster at Mario Kart, hoo boy, Saeran can be pretty ruthless himself

Except he usually saves all of his blue shells and other misery-inducing items for his bro

In a way he’d be your ally if you get stuck behind Seven

But when they need to team up, like for a 2v2 minigame in Mario Party, you are done

Those two working together make a lethal combination that you could never hope to defeat

I blame twin magic

💘VANDERWOOD💘️

So, hear me out. Card games

They probably play casual card games like Solitaire, Spider Solitaire, Hearts, etc on their phone to pass time

And they come across as a decent strategist to me, considering their job

And card games tend to focus very heavily on strategy

So card-based games like Shadowverse and (don’t laugh) Yu-Gi-Oh and such are probably up their alley

They’d also be really good tactical games like Disgaea

But for the most part they just favor those simple card games like Solitaire. They have too much to do to focus on other such games

Not that Seven hasn’t tried to drag them into gaming with him!

They only agreed to it when they thought Seven would get back to work after a quick game of Mario Kart or Smash Bros or something

Would lose on purpose to make the game go faster

Sev would know though and try to force them into another round

“This time with feeling!”

（；¬＿¬) “…Alright, fine…..”

Another victory for 707

“Okay, you won again, now back to work.”

“Oh come on, one more! You looked like you were having fun that time! Sorta kinda!”

-Vanderwood pulls out taser-

;;;;;;; “Right, back to work! Understood!”

Was definitely having fun tho. Don’t tell Seven

[callsignbaphomet]

13, 19, 23

13. Do you have any troublemaker OCs?Adam Sawyer. I don't talk too much about them because I'm still working out a few kinks and doing some research on ADHD since Adam was diagnosed with ADHD when he was a small child. BUUUUUUUUUUT that is not why they are a troublemaker. At all.Thing about Adam is that they are a prankster and will never hesitate to pull a prank on anyone. Ever. They do however know what limits should never be crossed and in the end everybody gets a good laugh out of it all even if their friends and co-workers kinda wanna knock them out sometimes. They kinda never take things too seriously like for example a bomb is set to go off in 5 minutes and while everyone is in a panic they just shrug it off and disarm it because they're the best explosives expert in the world...according to them. Though he does deserve that credit.Also very much a Junkrat main lolAlso also one of the few "born" werewolves in my group of werewolves.19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and why):Had answered this with Jelani once so now let's go with Loke, Jelani's big brother.I actually had no plans to develop Loke at all, in fact, no one would've known Jelani had an older brother until Jelani's story arc where the antagonist would have killed Loke just to hurt Jelani and make him lose control. But out of curiosity I decided to draw him and really liked what he looked like and to make matters better I gave him a personality and didn't stop lolLoke still dies in J's story arc when he pushes Jelani out of the way and gets shot instead and from that idea I developed him even more to the point where Loke is probably the most important person in J's life. So sure, he dies but he gets brought back because in all honesty Jelani needs him and I didn't have the heart to kill him off and was kinda head over heels with the character.Before Loke I didn't really have any characters that were like him. Really friendly, supportive and sunshiny. You know, too pure, too good for this world. So Loke and what I had in mind for him fit perfectly together. Not to mention that I absolutely 100% abhor the "brother against brother" trope and I wanted the complete opposite with them. I wanted him to be very loving towards his younger brother and painfully overprotective which he often exaggerates to the point where god help whoever so much as looks at Jelani wrong. That level of overprotectiveness has also landed him in grave danger though he doesn't care as long as his brother is safe. Also referring to Jelani as his half-brother and Sanaa as his step-mother will most likely get the person in very hot water. As far as he is concerned Sanaa is his mother and Jelani is his brother. None of that half or step bullshit.(Loke's from a previous marriage but he never met his mother as she took off when he was a week old. He basically grew up with Sanaa as the only mother he knew.)So I made Loke out to be very supportive, very loving, very friendly and I needed a character within the ace spectrum because I didn't have any aces. I now have plenty more ace spectrum OCs.So the character grew into a sort of "big brother" figure for many other characters since Loke is the oldest of the "main" characters (1,160 as of 2017 C.E.).I admit I went a little overboard at one point with certain personalities and Loke completely stood out. Besides being friendly and supportive and acting as a big brother to most he is also that one character that everyone has something nice to say about and is honestly very liked by many if not by all.So overall Loke's a little ball of fluffy sunshine who really loves people and respects them, loves his family especially his younger brother, loves his friends and co-workers, is a little bit sensitive but not to the point where he'll cry about everything like his dad. Best sniper in Legion since before him there were no expert marksman and dedicated snipers. Also very respectful, he's over 1,000 years older than his uncle but that is still his uncle and he respects him, he's also the same age as his aunt but that doesn't mean he doesn't respect her like you would an elder family member. Point is ball of fluffy sunshine.Which is why I had so much fun breaking him down after his assault and it pretty much affected everyone especially Jelani after he found out Loke agreed to endure the assault so it wouldn't happen to Jelani since the attackers were actually after him instead of Loke :)))))But overall yes, Loke is also a very important character and with him I managed to develop other OCs and certain aspects.23. Introduce an OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would look like:Angelus!Physically he hasn't changed much if at all. Probably in terms of weight making him skinnier and making him a lot more feminine than before.I also doubled his scars and made them a little more pronounced and messed up. Also made him shorter because quite honestly I'm a slut for height differences in couples. He's now 5'11" and Jelani is 6'7". I think I added more piercings? I gotta check my notes 'cause I'm not 100% sure. And made him a little bit more pale and darkened his eyes (brown) slightly to match his grandfather's.