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sorry ive stopped the count (my queue) it should start running back up in a couple of days. im mourning deadass
#to all the creators putting up work i see it on the dash im liking it im kissing it and it will get reblogged#but rn it holds a heavy strain in my heart to properly queue in anything#<333#treating this multifandom blog like a motherfucking journal im so sorry for the followers who have no idea wtf im talking about#but you should bc its a big deal
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you still resent nancy and jonathan for getting together???? for “hurting steve’s feelings”??? despite the fact that he verbally supported their relationship like 2 hours after seeing them together. this from a season that released 6 fucking years ago. a season prior to him saying that he was NOT in love with nancy anymore. do you want me to call shawn levy and tell him of your dilemma. bestie do you need to rewatch the source material
#ppl will use ANY excuse to hate nancy and jonathan to prop steve* up#their flanderised ‘pwecious little babygirl’ steve who is a delicate little flower who’s still butthurt over his high school breakup#albeit s4 did completely surrender to this bs characterisation bc the duffers don’t know how to write a storyline for steve that doesn’t#involve him being a lovestruck loser nowadays. SAD#get me in that writers room i could give him something good thats not egregiously repetitive#funny that the post that sparked this was an ANTI MURRAY FANFIC?????? in 2023. bc him suggesting jon+nancy should be together was unfair to#fuckin STEVE??????#1) murray is literally a jokey funnyguy character. he’s a little guy it’s his birthday he makes risotto studies martial arts is a conspiracy#theorist who daydrinks and snores on airplanes. he’s SO unserious#if u want to hate on him thats fine good for u whatever but do it for. normal reasons. like encouraging teenagers to drink and have sex in#his bunker. like he was not normal for that i get it i used to kinda dislike him for that too but like. its literally not meant 2 be#that big of a deal. nothing matters there’s no point the show hasn’t been genuinely good for six years nothing matters go outside go to bed#anyways. happy 3 AM everyone im going to sleep love and what have you on planet earth#stranger things#nancy wheeler#steve harrington#jonathan byers#mine
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banging my head into a wall trying to make friends as a dms guy when everybody else in the world likes talking through posts.
#i know people like it because talking thru posts is like more casual and like a discord server#BUT I HATE DISCORD SERVERS TOO BECAUSE ITS HARD FOR ME TO TALK THERE TOO#im a private guy okay i feel shy having a public conversation... like how i make wiener hug me in my car bc im too shy to do that in public#i love dms... i should make like a public guide on how i show im interested in friendship because my signals never work bc theyre too light#if i follow you that is the equivalent to me kissing you directly on the mouth and begging you to play games with me and its not a joke#if i say i recognize you and dont tell you i hate you then that means i like you#following is a big deal for me because its like how some people are casual about hugs and some arent. im not casual about following#i will like someone and still not follow them. i only follow if i actively am begging to be friends or we already are established friends#i think that when i say acquatiance to most people that is what theyd say a friend is#while when i say friend to most people thats what theyd say close friend is#because i like my acquaintances a lot and would vouch for them and enjoy talking to them when i do#its just i think that when i say acquaintance it gives them the impression i dont enjoy conversing much even though i do#average robooty diary entry post with a bunch of bullshit in the tags
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i actually really enjoy wewh
though im not sure if its the actual quest you play i enjoy so much or rather the idea of it
like i love the change from typical gameplay, i like the inquisitor being put in a situation where they have to navigate politics (bc that rly does makes sense as the leader of a force that ends up with so much political power, its good to actually have to see that!) i like seeing all the companions put into this setting
that said i also get why a lot of ppl dont like it. the repetative eavesdropping, the timed approval deductions
#i do think court approval should have been a bit more... idk integral? you need it to unlock a couple options for the ending but really...#as long as you dont hit 0 its not that big of a deal#maybe my ideal would be making it even more convoluted and ridiculous bc these are supposed to be orlesians#also id love more ability to play dress up. even tho i am actually partial to the nutcracker outfit (if not the color scheme)#im just easily swayed by military dress uniforms i guess#also getting to see josie's sister is a real treat theyre so cute#meredith plays dragon age#also why doesnt vivienne have pretty much any approval changes throughout this quest??? i dont even mean in regards to who ends up in power#but like. she should 100% have opinions abt how you navigate this whole thing and interact with the court#she should have approved of the inquisitor confronting florian in front of everyone i think
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“hey so there’s been a bunch of exposures recently but we’re gonna have the volunteer party this week bc it’s outdoors so we’ll be fine. yeah it’s a bunch of people all talking maskless face to face in relatively close proximity but we’re outside so any transmission would of course be impossible” be so fucking for real
#i love this place i love volunteering there. they have air purifiers around the center and tell people in no other words that if they’re#feeling unwell in the slightest they shouldn’t come in. they’re offering free tests to anyone exposed. they’re doing so much more than so#many other places and a lot of times it’s a place im able to relax a bit#but im just. exhausted. a week from tomorrow will be the three year anniversary of my dad dying from covid so im already in a bad place#plus covid in general is a trigger for me because. yknow. i watched it slowly strangle the life from my father until he was a grey#breathless husk who couldn’t walk three steps or say three words without panting. and that was when we made him go to the hospital#and then the next time he came home it was just his ashes in a bag#but it’s been four years. five if you count the early cases that popped up in 2019. and we’re still dealing with this shit#im just tired of it. im too exhausted to have a full sobbing shaking breakdown so ive gone to the other end of the spectrum and just feel#heavy and hollow. i should probably have a big cry but i don’t have the tears or energy#vent tw#im just hoping my n95 and the air purifiers were enough to keep me from contracting it at all. the worry is the n95 could’ve been loose and#sometimes the metal on the nose loosens slightly but the mask was pretty new overall so im hoping it worked to its full capacity and kept#out any covid molecules so that i didn’t contract any#only time will tell i suppose. in the mean time#im just praying a lot bc that’s the only control i have. i will be saying the shema whenever i get too stressed about it
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there is this tiktok that i have saved from last week when there were only like 4 gas stations open here and every time i remember it i just. the video was filmed literally right behind my apartment. i drive that road almost DAILY. i can literally see those signs FROM MY BED. that's MY HOME.
#its really one of those 'you think it could never happen to you' things#and in my defense it SHOULD have never happened to me bc there shouldn't ever BE hurricanes here#but like#there are so many videos out there now that I've seen and am just like yeah. i know where that is. i drive down that road often.#ive been there. i live there.#and its terrifying cus as big as my city is is only famous for like 2 things so it is never like. ANYWHERE.#and now I've seen it all over.#anyway im not sharing the tiktok for obvious reasons but. yeah.#really of you search for any videos of the gas lines in ga in the last week you'll basically see what I'm talking about anyway#im sorry i will shut up about it at some point but we're STILL dealing with it here so. i need to vent occasionally.#and my family is also dealing with it still so i can only vent to then so much.#one of my sisters JUST got power back and the other 2 haven't yet and its been more than a week now.#i was VERY FUCKING LUCKY to have gotten mine back on Monday#shh ac
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once again i get annoyed that i am so different from the average person because ppl make assumptions about me that are so untrue and get on my nerves HGSDJKL yesterday in the kitchen the lady was talking about how she and her husband are starting a hobby farm and i brought up how i'd love to have a sheep farm and looked into the logistics of it a year or two ago (before realizing how unattainable it would be lol i do not have the money to start that. plus now i am unfortunately disabled in a way that would make it nigh impossible to run). and immediately she said to me "oh you'd have to be okay with butchering the sheep though" expecting me to get all uncomfortable and i was just like "...yeah? i know? i actually do a bit of taxidermy work at home, and have looked into working in the funeral industry in the past" and she was so surprised and intrigued by the taxidermy stuff hdsgjkl like......
idk i just get frustrated when ppl automatically assume that i am unable to do smth or that i'll be put off by smth and then they act on that assumption in their behaviour towards me. i know it's nothing personal but i do feel like oftentimes it is misogyny-based since I am read as being a woman by anybody who knows me in any capacity more than just Strangers and less than "you are someone I feel wholly safe with" (because then i'd share that i am in fact not a woman lmfao). and it just irritates me because I feel like if I were a man then people wouldn't bring up the whole "oh you'd have to KILL animals !!!" whenever i talk about how i've always wanted to work on a farm, or they wouldn't assume I'm afraid of bugs, or they wouldn't assume I am grossed out by dead things, etc etc etc. i just hate the differences in behaviour and assumptions.
#this isn't a ''i shouldnt have to deal with misogyny bc im nonbinary''#this is a ''nobody should have to deal with misogyny because its stupid and wrong and harmful''#also i am aware that working with already dead things is different than killing the thing myself#it would be difficult at first probably but it not an evil thing to do so i would figure out how to cope with it#i've grown up with an indigenous perspective on hunting and everything#i've been around hunters a lot of my life#so i dont think it'd be impossible for me to do lol#i have a pretty good grasp on my abilities! physically mentally emotionally. if i thought it would be impossible i wouldnt have that dream#because death is a very present part of farming! that is just the way it goes! if you work with life you will have death around you too#they go hand in hand yknow?#sickness and death and health and life ... big old circle that goes around and around#anyways. idk. that just irritated me a lot yesterday. i get frustrated with those assumptions that ppl make#pippen needs 2nd breakfast#animal death
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for some reason you have to be 23 to get a tooth implant so i NEEEEEEEEDDDD this one tooth to hold out for a year and a month. but on the other hand i kinda want it out of my mouth. but am i brave enough (hashtag girl) to live with a very visibly missing tooth. is the question.
#tmi if tooth or body stuff freaks you out but the reason i have that tooth there is because it was stuck in my gums#and i was still freaking it with my babytooth but also there was this experimental surgery that would be free#if i did it before i turned 16#where they basically pulled the baby tooth excavated the tooth from my gums then took the roots out (? is that how u say that?)#and then see if it fuzed with my jaw bone or not. Dear Reader It Has Not.#its literally hanging on by the grace of god and also my gum alone#which is like reasonably enough it would not be that big of a deal if my tooth hadn't started eating itself from the inside out#like ok i get that this is all very gross stuff but listen i live with this and i genuinely am wondering if i should just get it pulled#cause there is like. a hole in my tooth. like from the top. and the top ridge of said tooth is fully exposed on the outside#(its also understandably quite wobbly btw)#and anyway its just nasty cause stuff gets stuck and also the teeth neighbouring it hurt sometimes bc the gum's pulled back#and its a bit yellow and super visible in my smile and like i could just get it pulled.#and then i'd have to tough it out for a year and however long it'd take me to finance the replacement. or i'd grow not to mind it#and keep it like that forever.#IDK. im just getting tired of it and all this is brought on by the simple fact that i think a bit of broken tooth is stuck in the gap#(doesnt hurt obv bc its DENERVED thats the word in english its denerved but it is like annoying)
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ok last personal rant ive ranted a million times before. last of the night not of ever.
when i say "oh this isnt gonna happen" im not being negative brother im making a neutral statement hello??? i dont need a Be Positive spiel its unnecessary man IM GOOD. RELAX.
#i said oh i dont expect ill get an interview for the jobs i applied for this round so its fine#and my folks are instantly down my throat like omg don't say that dont even think it!! youll totally get it!!!!#guys its fine...this is nawt a big deal lol#and then im saying like oh i want to do all the parks ive wanted to see since i was a kid now even if it's impractical#bc im not coming back to northam#and theyre like no omg dont say that you can you will!!!#girl no im saying i will be spending my money (in 5 years when i have earnt any again) on other things#i have other things i want to do and see thats what i mean. relax. i don't need your positive spin!! my god!#my ma is very reasonably and logically telling me maybe i should skip nyc bc its fuckoff expensive#and i can use that money for shipping my shit back or whatever else i need#which is true! shes right!!#but i wont have the chance to come back for a while probably if ever yknow and i just want to go#i dont care. i know its stupid as FUCK trust me i know. but i love that city and i want to make the absolutely idiotic decision to go. sorry
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updating the list of names I'll answer to on my other blog without providing any kind of context feels like tradition at this point
#i'll tell you guys tho bc it's not like. a big deal. literally it's just how i sign letters i send to a friend#we both go thru names like clothes through a washing machine but i sign off with jester more often than not now bc its fun#tbh i should take valens off and replace it with shades or sunglasses but valens is fun#me 🤝 valens: being way out of our depths#also it's following in tradition of all those old ancient rome forums where people picked a roman name lmao#i decided if i had to pick one i'd go for an emperor BUT i picked the one that everyone considers a fuck up so it balances out
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Tbh? I still feel so out of my depth whenever I try to write Bill. For whatever reason it doesn't come naturally to me like writing Ford does. Every time one of y'all has thoughts on Bill's characterization or writes something Bill-centric I'm mentally taking so many notes
#godsrambles#im in that weird inbetween of knowing when his characterization Feels Right but not knowing how to write him so it feels right#its like that stage in art where your eye for good composition and colors and anatomy improves but you dont know how to actually apply it#what i should do is write some short scenes where he interacts with other people#because most of the fics I've written are 100% his internal thoughts when he is completely alone#which is way easier. takes away at least a few of the layers youd usually have to keep track of with this goddamn guy#the only one i can think of that had bill actually talking to someone else is parhelion. and i KNOW i slightly mischaracterized him in that#made him a lil too Smooth. made his manipulative front a lil too gentle and kind and patient#but since its from fords Very Reverent Rose Tinted Glasses perspective i dont think its that big a deal#and also the more i lean into him Seeming Perfect To Ford the more sinister it is to read with the knowledge of what happens later#which is. so much fun. and im so normal about it#but i still do want to get better at writing him interacting with others#ironically one issue that seems to come up is me being like 'whenever he talks to people they always respond exactly how he expects them to#like subconsicously. in the form of 'they get tricked successfully' or 'they are annoyed and bothered to the extent he was going for'#tfw you cant write a character bc you accidentally have the same innaccurate thought process as him#tags essay#TBH writing him as Too good at manipulation in parhelion is also billcore.#'this is how it happened right. im soooo good at trickery good job me'#if you count 'tricking yourself' then yeah bill youre the best at trickery there ever was
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Can't believe I spent so much time thinking kiku and kinemon were dead... they really got me there...
#damn izo...... can we get back to that i do not care that much about raizo and this guy...#AND WHAT IS GOING ON AROUND THE WORLD??? damn the reverie..... and sabo#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 1063#also the thing i said episodes ago about kaido being luffys foil because he loves fighting and they smile all the time... and then we get#king saying he thinks he is joyboy bc he saved him.... but the difference of those new worlds they imagine and how kaido wants to die and#luffy the complete opposite.... yeah yeah#toko..... and this swordmaker man just adopting little girls... he is the father that stepped up (multipile times)#kaido just having a drink.... he is just having some fun... fighting and drinking... average friday night for him... thats his love language#it is his love language... he said he just accepted him aldjsks i was just saying shit... see he is just having some fun witj his peer#luffy was so confused with all this he got hit akdhsks first person ever to bamboozle him.....#drunk kadio is so fun to watch.... crying about his son escaping and how everything goes wrong ajdkskskk#his impulsivity and like unpredictability just make him better while drunk akdhsksjk luffy should try shrooms if thats what he prefers....#what devil fruit???? also get robin's name out of your mouth!!!!!! OH ZOU!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE#IT'S LUFFYS DEVIL FRUIT.... WHICH HAS ANOTHER NAME....... WONDER WHY HMMM...🤔🤔#also kaido saying luffy likes him too much.... that's another secret fruit JAHSJAHA#episode 1064#zoro just bleeding out on the floor... nvm he died... well... there are other swordsmen.... this looks like an impressionist film#zoro doesnt get it... he is powerless against death....#IZO NOOO!!!! HE GOT STABBED!!! jesus.... MARCO HELP!!! MARCOOOO WHAT IS HE DOING#THE FUCKING CP0 NO!!! WHAT??? well i respect that decision... leave him alone get a job etc. NOOOOO YOU WON'T WIN!!!#do not make a deal with them either... izo.....#love how traffy and kid have each one (1) woman on their crew. its not ooking good on the diversity office#mugiwara no chibi.... exacty..... also how is big mom tired... i mean i get it but damn.... LAW GOT HER!!! YEAAHHH!!! FINISH HER!!!#law needs to cut her to pieces like he did with that guy.... come on.... punk corna DIO??? omg its a bull.... BUT IMPALE HER!!!#well i see progress now at least.... but until kid magnetos her ass idk... law needs to start cutting also.......#episode 1065
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Ive decided trying to draw foreshortening in realism is hell actually
#GRRRRRRRR#BAKR BAKR BARK BARK#BARK BARK BARK BARK#im ok now#i havent done realism in so long so its tricky. i like semi realism and cartoony best but i feel its always good to go back and try realism#to get like. your practice in on anatomy and how things look realistically and then apply it to semi realism or cartoony by exaterating#so its still looks like. anatomically correct in the style its in#which is a big deal to me for my art i like it to flow well as a whole#i like gesture drawings bc of that cuz most of them have the whole body#mostly in motion and you can see how the muscles in the arms and legs stretch with the torso bc the whole thing about gesture drawings is#theyre usually quite exatterated (idk how to spell exatturated sorry :( ) so its usually stretching a whole multitude of different muscles#throughout wherever the motion is coming from and going through: arching your back down to the ground is going to be using some muscles#in both your legs and arms#am i making sense#your bodily anatomy is like a puppet and once you put the pieces together in your head on how to draw them you need to string them together#in harmonic motion#i miht bw making no sense but whatever#my silly ass that hardly does gesture drawings with a reference which i Should. doing a whole ass rant on acurate anatomy smh#but i understand it#somewhat#keep in mind everything im saying here is just for me about my art and about what i want in my art. dont think im sounding nitpicky of how#art should be#im just rnating abt my approach to it#ANWAY ill shut up now#i think i went down several different rabbits trails here
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so ig butch is synonymous to trans men to ya'll now huh
#welp looks like its time to hit the ol dusty trail#i dont identify as butch and i will eat you if you force that label on to me owo🔪#you fellow trans man reading this who id's as butch: good for you! im happy for you! I however dont identify that way#and i dont think the label 'butch' should be seen as an alternative to 'trans men'.#please hows about you dont force an identity on to me that cis society has tried to. an identity i dont want nor that i identify#with in any capacity 😌#oh how unique of you to force an identity on to me that cis people want to force on me 😌😌😌😌😌 totally original#heres an idea: let trans men decide for themselves how they want to identify motherfucker!#maybe the reason yall dont think 'infantalization' is a big deal is bc yall do it too and hate ever seeing urself as doing something wrong#i can choose my own identity fucker. i dont need your help nor did i fucking ask. get the fuck out of my way before i cut you
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oh my god. i just saw some of my OLD OLD digital art like before i made my art blog and holy fuck. suddenly faith in myself completely restored
#this is why its vital to save your old art like you can get yourself so down and be like wtf am i doing this for im not improving#nothing like seeing something you made 4 years ago to bonk you on the head and make you see sense#ofc im not improving AS fast as i could be bc i dont draw enough but still#now my priority should be to become faster like its absolutely necessary. it already was years ago#i just checked how long it took me to draw my latest post and ill tell you. those two drawings took me 39 FUCKING HOURS#like that is absolutely unacceptable. no 'just go at your own pace' or anything no. that should not happen and i need to fix it#hopefully there is an actionable plan and advice out there ill have to look <3#waah im so sad it seems the steady trickling in of notes has stopped finally. i was so close to getting my first drawing with over 200 notes#im sorry if this is shallow but it is a big deal to me#im so thankful for the notes i did get tho! it is my most well received drawing ever and that makes me happy
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It’s difficult to not feel discouraged sometimes when your partner is also an artist and happens to be faster than you in every conceivable way
This doesn’t bother me often because everyone is different and comparing production time and skill against each other or anyone is detrimental mostly and its ok to have your own workflow
but it does weigh on me vaguely sometimes sometimes that she can finish 2-3 full coloured pieces within a week and ive been painfully scratching out the same number but theyre only sketches that ill never revisit within a month
None of this actually matters in the long run, it just makes me feel bad on occasion
#like i should be doing more#im very sorry for complaining so much online#i just dont really have any other way to express myself#i know some of you have generously and kindly reached out to me to offer an ear#but my fatal flaw is i cant talk to anyone about my problems i just idk it was beaten into me that none of it matter#matters or my problems arent a big deal and i know ots healthy to think actuallt my problems are worth talking about or a big deal#but its hard to change a behaviour that was kinda literally beaten jnto you that talking about stuff likw this is a waste of time#i guess i just feel bad that i could do more and i dont because i dont want to#but i also want to if that makes any sense at all#i suppose it also doesnt help that alot of the work im doing right now i actually sorta hate like none of it is good to me personally#i want to stop being toxic towards myself#i just wanna stop hating me and who i am and what i do every step of the way#but that mean little voice inside me is like ahh. it wont shut up#I always say i need a break or more time but what am i gonna do with it#doing nothing at all isnt fulfilling#it sounds. sad like what teenager me did and i dont want to be or feel like that ever again but its fuckjng hard#this is so woe is me#im a liar bc i say the main text doesnt bother me but it bothers me alot im very envious of her speed prolificness and drive to create#and i have none like thats so unfair#this makes me sound ultra bitter god fucking damn it#i want to go to sleep and genuinely never fucking wake up again#please im done i just dont want to
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