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marxism-leninism-meowism · 1 day ago

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my chronic pain is so much fuckign worse lately and im just so tired. what do i even do at this point

#bearsys speaks #like #i dont even know #i dont know whats going on #my bf broke up with me #my best friend of the better part of a decade cut me off #and they both insist it isnt entirely my fault #but wtf else is it if not my fault #idk!! they wont!!! fucking explain!!!!#and now trump is elected #and every day the future looks even more bleak #and i just miss my friends #i miss them so fucking much #you dont realize how much you need someone in your life until theyre gone i guess #of all my breakups this is absolutely the worst #and losing my friend just before was just....#im just so stressed out and i need a support network but i dont have one and even the tiniest dregs of one that ive managed to cultivate #are falling apart in my hands #and eveyr part of my body hurts so much #evne more than usual #at least its not summertime rn #the only reason im not offing myself immediately is bc its fall and i am mildly pleased with that #and also that would be incredibly fucked up to do to my ex and friend #ahghhh #i love them so much

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batfambrainrotbeloved · 4 months ago

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I have made a fatal error... (I forgot why I stick to energy drinks and not coffee- and now i'm jittery)

This is what I get for bingeing the entire Dungeon Meshi Manga the night before I need to go to the airport :(

#its my own fault #but im being very brave :(#aka im still gonna bitch and moan #because wtf else can I do????#dear god coffee WHYYYY #is this anxiety??#I hate it #I would like to be numb again plz #just cruisin #not THIS #sunny rambles

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steelthroat · 3 months ago

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First time staying at the hotel of a theme park (against my will, but that's a long story) and... it's so weird??????

Like I feel like I am not supposed to be here, how do I put it... it screams luxury but I a... childlike/childish way????

And I feel restless, like something is wrong. Uncanny.

#this vacation is weird #maybe i feel restless because it cost me too much...#little rant here because i am still bitter about this okay...#look 8 days in spain and EVERYTHING: 2 hotels/3 flights/several museums/foods and drinks/souvenirs/transportation/small useless trinkets #cost us like € 800? more or less?#like okay could have been less but that’s a darn good price counting small useless luxuries and good meals right?#i feel no regrets spending that amount of money on *that*#i was one of the people organizing it #i knew where my money went before it went there so if something was a waste of money is my fault right????#BUT THEN #i was thrown into this other small 4 day vacation here at one of the theme parks in italy #first day we arrive fourth we go 2 days at the park and the only things we DON'T pay for are breakfast and dinner #fucking €600 #and I was occupied with my exams when the other person organized this trip so the moment they called me.and said #“okay already anticipated the money it's 600 per person :D��#i cried #liek i am not exaggerating i literally cried because wtf #600 euros I'd have stayed a week in france #I will never let someone else organize a vacation without my supervision ever the fuck again.#steel rambles #*cries* 1200 € for two peple and 2 and 2 days at the theme park+ 2 days of train is not fucking reasonable mate 😭

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beeduoo · 7 months ago

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originnssssss who remembers origins i Loved origins

#origins smp #i heard theres been like three failed origins revivals WHAT EVEN HAPPENED i was only there for the first one😅#beeduo #otubbo #oranboo #beeduo fanart #i rewatched some origins streams a little while ago oh my god theyre SO FUNNY #DUDE DOES ANUONE REMMEBER THAT ONE STREAM I COUDLNT FIND RHIS ONE STREAM #IR WAS LIKE THE ONE WHERE TUBBO WAS SINGING SUGAR BY MAROON FIVE and they were being really Funny thay shit h #ad me CRYING in 2021 Please i swear this happened imnot crazy but also they might have been separate streams actuallu i dont rememebr its #been wayyyyyyy too long #BUT IT HAPPENED I PROMISE Sorry i've been gone for a while ive been very busy lots of Things going on went to Six flags then jad a surprise #bday party then i had to buy shoes for prom then Go to prom and also i do figure skating and am out like every day idknt have Time im sorry☹#had a crepe yesterday it was sooooo goood im like learning to drive too that shit is boring as hell my dad kept gettign 😑 bc i couldn't stop #yawning DRIVING IS SO BORING its not my fault😭😭😭😭#ok what else ohhhh. y god i locked in SO HARD for this physics essay u guys dont even knowim getting ONE HUNDRED on that trust i just really #wanted to share ok i love you bge #WAIT ACTUALLT SORRU IM LIKE REMMEBERJNG THE ORIGINS STREAMS K WAYCHED #RANBOO WAS SO FUCKING FUNNT IN THOSE STREAMS TOO LIKE I REMEMBER NIKI WANTED TO SEE THEIR BASE and tubbo was like ooh maybe we can put like #water down here for you niki we need a water system and ranwas like Do we though?I WAD WAYCHING THAT .LIKE DAMMMNNNNNN OM LIKE GIGGLING WRIT #ING THIS RIGHT NOW I CAN HEARTHE CLIP HE DID NOTTT WANT HER IJNTHEIR BASE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#I NEED TO FIDN THAT STREAM WHERE IRS LIKE TOMMY AND JACK A D FHEHRE LOKE TALKING ABOUT DUOS AND THEN JACK SAYS THE MOST OUT OF POCKET SHIT I #VE EVER HEARD LKKE I LITERALLU HAD TK PAUSE. H PHONE AND BURST OUR LAUHJIMG MY JAW WAS ON THE FLOORRRRR DO U GUYS R EME ER WTF IM TLAKING AB #OUT IDK HOW TO FIND THESE STREAMS Oh my god u really Had to be there early 2021 that was liye the funniest era of mt life i wlild be #Tearing up from lauhjimg every day I MISS WAYCHING STREAMS LIVE CHAT WAS SO FUNNY I wishe it was archivedI WISH MORE STREAMERS KEPT CHAT ON #SCREEN i defiently understand why most didn't like Wyd when chats annouing ad hell but also Me 3 years later is interested in what the pub #lic had to say.... ok Now bye

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sqlmn · 1 year ago

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Girl is the daughter to some famous guy and he loves her so so so so so so much and doesn't want her to be involved in fame and scandals. So he hires a bodyguard for her so that she can have some freedom and also NOT be seen with him. And bodyguard is just super chill with the man's gushing and doesn't originally try super hard to befriend the girl. It's a job and he just needs her safe and outta the spotlight.

It's going pretty well and is all fine until his friend shows up. Who looks really angy. And glares a lot. So she assumes this friend is just a punk and the bodyguard is like "oh he's nice. he just looks like that when he's nervous."

So when the bodyguard is like "ok i gotta go talk with your dad meaning I can't walk with you to school but I got permission to let my friend walk with you" and she's like okay. I understand. I'm resigned to my fate of never being independent. And then when the guy is like "I need proof or your dad will kill me" and she agrees, HE BEAMS BECAUSE HE GETS TO LIVE ANOTHER DAY. And he shows her the picture and is like "before I send it, this okay with you?" and she nods. She's never seen him smile like that. Huh.

And now the girl has her very loving dad, her loving mom, her protective and kind bodyguard and his weird (boy)friend. And so she has two separate groups of people that love her and she's really happy.

#my bodyguard isnt my dad #since her classmates never see her dad and only see her with the bg they just are like #your dad is really protective huh and shes like oh yeah 100% not know the misunderstanding #and then later her classmates ask her if her dads gay and shes like no??? and doesnt know what else to say #because her dad loves her mom its a really happy married couple wtf #they dont even KNOW her dad ????#then one is like oh yeah i saw that pink haired guy with him again tho they were buying dinner from a convenience store #and shes like OH YOU MEAN HIM no oh no thats.................. hes more like an uncle ?#and the classmates are like OH OK COOL and then it drops cause they dont care about a gay uncle #the gay dad is the drama topic #so she informs her bg that her classmates think hes gay and the two hear cackling from another room #and bg has to be like OH SHUT IT THIS IS YOUR FAULT BY THE WAY YOURE INVOLVED HERE BY BEING MY FAKE BF #and hes like WOW NOT THE FIRST TIME IVE BEEN ACCUSED OF THIS

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coffeeandcalligraphy · 8 months ago

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jeremiah and reeve in canon meetup WHENNNNN

#+ LONAN & JEREMIAH MEETUP WHENNNNNNN #sorry to sideblog ppl who are now seeing these thoughts TWICE LMAO #but THE WAYYY JEREMIAH AND REEVE WOULD LOVEEEE EACH OTHERRRR #HARRISONNNN YOU FUCK !!! lmao my fault sorry BUT ALSO #lonan would admire and enjoy jeremiah's company so much like he would like that man #he would be like harrison wtf why did you choose me lmaooo #how can I canonically get jeremiah to meet both lonan and reeve #he could realistically meet reeve if he's ever idk... in fucking new york (guess Who Else is there)#waitttt jeremiah post breakup novella in new york #why am I literally just coming up with ideas for the novellas I've already written #body back = me and my ex are living in the same city we broke up in #we cannot do this again. OR CAN WE!!!!!!!!#I love novellas I could write these for the rest of my life #TAG ESSAY OVER OKKKK #wait editing to add it is actually 20 million times more plausible that jeremiah and lonan meet considering #THEY BOTH LIVE IN DOWNTOWN LAS VEGAS

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musical-chick-13 · 11 months ago

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So the problem is. That I don't want to call Ten-cubed "fourteen." I think Ncuti should be. Fourteen. He IS fourteen.

But if I want to talk about Ncuti's specific incarnation of this character. And make it clear that I am talking about him. I will have to call him "Fifteen." But doing that means that everyone involved in this ridiculous naming decision wins.

#maybe we call him 'gatwa!doctor' ??#kind of like we do with the masters #(and we've done this with other doctors too like war and ruth so it's not like there's no precedent)#(then again this will change ALL the numbers going forward. like whoever's after gatwa will '''officially''' be sixteen & so on & so forth)#WHY DOES THE SAME ACTOR GET TWO NUMBERS. ONE OF THOSE WASN'T EVEN A FULL RUN. WTF RUSSELL #like I'm willing to say that maybe. MAYBE. there wasn't active malicious intent. but holy shit the optics are SO bad.#genuinely I am still mad about this and I will be forever #I promise I am not trying to make this one (1) writer man into my parasocial enemy there are plenty of other people I could do that with #who deserve it more. I just get...tired.#like really it's the fact that everyone interpreted the past 2 eras in the WORST faith possible and STRAIGHT-OUT MADE UP THINGS TO COMPLAIN #ABOUT THAT WERE NOT CANON. but there's SO little impulse to criticize ANYTHING regarding russel or dt's 70000 incarnations #which. that discrepancy/hypocrisy isn't COMPLETELY the show's fault. but that. unfortunately. doesn't make it any less annoying.#there was something else I was going to say but I deleted it for being a bit TOO salty #mel screams about The Weird Little Space Show again

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twistedappletree · 5 months ago

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justttttt as i predicted, the new girl finally flaked out completely 🙃

#and on a day when i have SO MUCH SHIT TO DO #i literally had everything scheduled for today that i couldn’t do during the week bc of work #like #i can’t cancel any of this i need to get it done #and i hate to do that to my client but brooo if she fucking listened to me in the first place #and don’t give her 20 million chances #we wouldn’t be in this situation 😭#also i have my date tonight and i am NOT canceling that #i’m sick of having to cancel shit bc of other people’s incompetence fr #i have a fucking life i have things to do just like everyone else #haven’t answered any of my clients calls or texts bc i’m so fucking annoyed lmao goddd #why does no one EVER LISTEN TO ME ABOUT THIS SHIT #i knew she wasn’t going to fucking work out i KNEW there were gonna be problems #the minute she started demanding money and showing up over an hour late bc she was drunk af #like no it’s not my goddamn fault you kept giving her chance after chance #apple babble 🍎#non fandom #jfc idk wtf is up with the world or the ppl in it but it’s such a goddamn mess fr

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v-arbellanaris · 2 years ago

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im going to scream i've just had to pay two months worth of health insurance in one go because of my STUPID FUCKING BANK'S NEW AUTODEBIT BS and i just paid for jack's meds and full bloodwork for all my cats this month and the fucking contract for the exterminators because of the fucking roach problem and it's only the 8th and my next paycheck only comes in on the 27th and i still have to pay to get to work daily bc i dont fucking drive and FOOD and [muffled screaming]

#im not like FLAT BROKE but im fucking pissed off!!!!!#why the fuck did i have to call the insurance people to check wtf is going on and why do i have to pay it in one go THIS month when its not #my fucking fault the autodebit didnt work it's the BANK'S NEW POLICY which you should have been informed about and would know better than m #me #im so fucking annoyed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont like having to count each fucking copper and the whole point of this job is #im not supposed to be living basically paycheck to paycheck but i feel like i am still and i want to fucking cry #AND my dad owes me money. a lot of money. that he still hasn't paid back #and when im like ''hey im running low this month because of xyz can you pay me back at least half first'' suddenly im being calculating #im fucking ANNOYEDDDD #sorry for ranting here but everyone else is going thru shit atm so im just venting here

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sincerity--extreme · 1 year ago

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I just... I just read that the Barbie movie "wants to end marriages and families"... On the same comment section I also read that "the movie only wants to sell the idea no man is good"... Well, I don't know about you guys but I'm even more excited now

#seriously wtf #I know I haven't watched the movie but I've read tons of critics from the actual critics and so far they all said the movie was magnificent #And we all know most of those people are men #And people I know went to watch #A group of 5 with 4 man and 1 woman and they said that #The movie was even better than they expected even though they already had hight expectation #So... This necessity to complain... Where is that coming from my dudes?#What's wrong?#Just calm down #Maybe your marriage is ending because you suck and not because of a movie #And to the other guy #Maybe you're just an insufferable person that belives you're better than everyone else simply because you're a man #That's not the movie's fault either #Just go get therapy so you can be a better person and meet nice people #Barbie #barbie 2023

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perenlop · 2 years ago

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packaging job is mostly just lowkey and fun for me when its just logging things but sometimes when im behind the counter i want to bite things

#''hi when did you get your package'' ''i dunno'' ''oh can you check?'' ''not really.'' ''oh uh... can we have your card so i can check?''#''no i dont have one'' ''ok whats your name then'' they give the name ''oh its not in the last three weeks. what is the box number?''#''*snappy* um im getting this for someone else so i cant check ok?'' ''. okay. well i can check if your friend is in the log system''#''overdramatic sigh and can hear her snickering to her friends as im trying to find her''#''she is not in the system at all apparently'' ''oh she got her FINAL reminder like 2 weeks ago''#''... we might not have it then but i can check'' ''REALLY? wtf''#''ok no we dont have it'' ''wtf man. you seriously get rid of them???'' (again its been two weeks since she got the FINAL reminder''#which doesnt get sent until several weeks later)#like if u came here with the actual info that i needed which is available on everyones card we get #and ur friend didnt wait literally what i think is a couple of months to get their package which is easily accessible #u would have gotten that! like how is that my fault dude. ugh

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conditionvarietysilence · 11 days ago

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why the fuck did i just see a fucking video of a cat gettin electrocuted

#okay kinda my fault for scrolling on the for you thing but like. There was nothing else the video was four seconds. What. Why.#Like holy shit wtf #I'm literally just like completely baffled what the absolute fuck

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herefortheships · 1 month ago

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I don't know what possessed me to eat instant ramen tonight. Anyway, I'm glad I had a few braincells active and decided to only eat about half of it and discard most of the broth 💀.

#For context I have crohn's disease and this kinda junk food really hurts my digestive tract #It's all my fault it was even here though I got a random ramen craving and got a few paks at the supermarket #I just didn't know wtf to eat tonight bc it's supposed to be my “cooking free day” 😅#but whenever it's not my turn to cook I always end up eating whatever crap I find because no one else cooks #there are four people in this house mind you 🙃

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battywitch · 3 months ago

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#i hate myself so fucking much wtf is wrong with me #there's one person who almost never seems to actually understand what I'm saying despite being possibly the smartest person I've ever known #and. like. sometimes i have to clarify things for everyone else sure #and sometimes that is definitely entirely my fault because of migraine/brain fog/whatever making it difficult to find the precise language #this is so frustrating and honestly feels like I'm being mentally/emotionally tortured #i don't know what I'm doing wrong #I'm apparently always giving either too much or not enough info or not the right info or the info they want #and i keep repeating myself then clarifying then clarifying then clarifying and #i get nowhere #then i end up crying (i usually to to avoid crying in front of anyone though so i try to go to the bathroom for that)#i don't understand why this is so hard and keeps happening #(this isn't. like. a new person in my life. we know each other very well and have for like 20 years now)#(but the frequency with which this is occurring has dramatically increased over the last few years i think)#this is just. so. exhausting. and i hate that i can not seem to fix myself

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steampoweredskeleton · 4 months ago

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#delete later #ya know im really annoyed at the progression of my joint stuff. like i know that this is a bad patch but im kinda pissed #bc its not like this for anyone else in my family #though i guess im also lucky bc my mum just broke bones in her foot constantly instead #so i dont have that. sje burst a tendon in her thumb a couple ywars ago and that looks not fun. but also im 24 abd she was 52 #soooo still wtf why is my shit fucking up. i mean its probably partly my fault bc i donr take the best care of ky joints #but i know shr didnt either. just. frustrating.#more mobility again today. could brush my teeth properly. and can finally make a fist. my thumbs and wrists are unhappy #and that one finger joint is still sore abd swollen to the touch but that is the one i fucked ip before so probs still a recovering #strain. just. aching now. abd weakness. washing my hair took all the strength i had. so thats a lil depressing. been looking #at assistive stuff like things that mske handles thicker and proper wrist support for desks. just feels a bit shit looking at this #at 24. just. kinda sucks. cant do my physio properly so my knees and ankles are complaining too now. just bullshit all the way down #sigh. got good food coming tomorrow. thats exciting. and maybe can do SOME things this weekend #also my friend's bday gifts have nearly all arrived and that shits exciting. i love buying ppl things. and met my savings #goal. hey look at me being productive and effective even when in pain and pissed off. yay me!

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fazcinatingblog · 4 months ago

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Went to the toilet for the first time today at 2pm (Colleening), got out and Sophia had called so I rang her back and she's like "have you got any invoices out??? What have you done all day????"

#well Sophia first i arrived early and decided to get an up & go #then i walked to the petbarn and watched the little fishies swimming around #oh my god Tumblr the FISH some of them were shaking their tails around and one looked at me and shook its head as if to say don't go to work #they were so cute #i want one #got in at ten to 9 and Sophia rang and she's like 'where were you???' because I'm usually much earlier like wtf Sophia #Just did filing all day and God knows what else and i don't even know and #she rang me after 5pm & I'd left but I'd just sent her an invoice $200 less than it should've been so i expected her to yell at me #but no she was yelling about what's his face #what's his face who knew i had a cold and cut up oranges for me to eat #what's his face who puts on a Taylor playlist in the car and gets me to guess the song #'what's this one?' me: you belong with me; him: what was that????#what's his face who holds my hand and kisses my cheek and NO TUMBLR SHUT UP I'M NOT FALLING FOR HIM JESUS CHRIST #Sophia yelling on the phone to me to not send out any tax returns done by him unless they've been checked by her first #because apparently he made a lot of mistakes in the job he sent for review last week and Sophia was really mad and then #she texted me later to say sorry she yelled at me and that she was in a bad mood and it wasn't my fault and awww 🥰🥰🥰🥰#she was in a bad mood all day and when i told her that a $4000 cheque came in she's like 'that makes me feel better'#so money does equal happiness #oh Tumblr the Woolworths guy brought his daughter in today omg she's so cute

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