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âIâm afraid to see whatâs in my head , So I lock it up in my heartâ
rosieâs note: long awaited pazzi series.. letâs hope I can be consistent with these chapters and not forget about after a few weeks.happy ready lovelies âÂˇË ŕź *
warnings: none!
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Iâve never been great with people. Sure, I can hold a conversation, crack a joke, make some friends. But thereâs always this weird distanceâlike Iâm just performing, pretending to be someone Iâm not. The truth is, Iâm not as confident as people think I am. I hate being vulnerable. But she made it easier.
I still remember the first time she reached out to me. Her message popped up on my computer late one night, while I was scrolling through my Blogspotâmy little corner of the internet where I could just⌠breathe. No one knew who I was on there. Just a girl venting about life, school, basketball, and the tangled mess that was my head.
She said sheâd been reading my posts for a while and liked them. She said she didnât have anyone else to talk to, and honestly, I didnât either. So we started messaging. At first, it was just random stuffâhomework, teachers, the usual teenage nonsense.
But soon enough, she started opening up more. Things I never expected to hear. About her family. Her stepdad. The kids at school who made her feel invisible. She told me how her mom remarried, and how everything felt off after that. I didnât know why she was sharing all this with me, someone sheâd never met, someone who was practically a stranger. But there was something about it. Something that made it feel right.
We got into the deeper stuff tooâthe insecurities, the self-doubt, the anger at things we couldnât control. And yeah, I shared my own stuff too. It wasnât the same, but it was close enough. My parents getting divorced. Moving from place to place. The pressure to be perfect all the time. I guess itâs easier when you donât have to show your face. She wasnât some random person to me anymore. She was⌠real.
She called me âher safe space.â And for some reason, I was okay with that. I think I needed her as much as she needed me, even if I couldnât admit it back then. It was like she understood me in a way no one else did.
But the thing is, I never told her who I really was. She didnât need to know I was Paige Bueckers, the basketball player everyone at school thought they knew. She didnât need know I was just a girl trying to figure out where I fit in all of this.
It was just us. She and I. We could be ourselves without pretending. And that felt⌠like a goddamn relief.
But that was the thingâshe was just an anonymous name on a screen. I didnât know who she was either. Not really. I only knew what she shared, what she let me see.
Then came that night. The night I saw her name pop up in the chat, just like always. But this time, it wasnât just her usual message. It was a question. âWhat if we could meet? Like, in real life?â Oh.
I froze. And my stomach did this weird flip.
I didnât know how to answer. I didnât even know if I wanted to. What if she was someone I knew? What if she was someone I was supposed to hate? What if⌠it was her?
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âĄ/â- It's Been A While [III]
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⸠INTERESTS; -mha!shouta aizawa x quirk-using!freader
⸠BACKGROUND; - after an attack at the high school you studied in, you were requested by your work firm and the firm of that school to work as a teacher there for extra security, incase an attack were to occur again to protect the students (and teachers). Unfortunately, it won't be as easy as you expected when you rekindle with old friends, and a specific someone.
⸠WARNINGS; - wc. 4.5k, romantic tension, traumatic disturbances, mentions of medications, bad health history, hallucinations, little bit angsty, haunted by the past, sexual tension, shaking, indecisiveness, confusion, etc.
â¸a.i; - its 6am i sleep, also posting the masterlist for the series whenever I wake up, it should be updated on all of the chapters sooner or later this afternoon (also ik the chapter is so long im sorry i was bored) !!
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âĄ/â- It's Been A While [ II ]
âĄ/â- It's Been A While Masterlist
You sighed as you placed the textbook you were reading back down on your desk your students rushed out of your class. The last bell of the day had rung, and it also seemed like the deadline for your answer to the question Shouta had asked you prior.
His words still rang in your head, you kept both of your hands over the sides of your head, thinking. There was no way you could reject his offer, but there was also no way you could accept it either. Luck was barely on your side knowing that whoever broke into your apartment didn't know your schedule had changed, you couldn't put others in danger.
If anything considered from the heads up your boss had given you last night, whoever or whatever they were must have been after you for two reasons: your status within the embassy, or your quirk. The second reason made much more sense to you however, because if they had wanted you for your title, they would've come to see you much sooner.
Now was a horrible time to even think about or do such a thing, especially since you had to drug yourself up over prescribed medications to even keep your powers and emotions at bay. It's easy for someone to use you for your powers rather than status, honestly that's what you liked so much about the embassy, you barely had to use your quirk.
No one even knew about your quick use of medications to keep yourself at a low after so many losses from your powers. Each time you convinced yourself they were accidents, and honestly, they were, but the number of nightmares you had about the occurrences said otherwise.
Now with everything hitting you all at once you had the option to move in somewhere secure, somewhere safe. You knew Shouta and you knew he was someone who could take care of you, and himself. He was a pro hero for fucks sake, one of the best at that, it can't be as dangerous as you think if you were to accept his offer.
Maybe it'll be a good thing, maybe just maybe this is one of the only opportunities I'll have at being happy or seeing things on the bright side after having such a shit week. Plus, you didn't have to keep paying in cash to stay longer than you intended at the hotel you were planning to stay in.
You stood up from your seat, collecting your belongings from your desk and placing them in your work bag. Determined to find Shouta to speak with him about his offer, unexpectedly you hear a knock coming from your opened doorway to find him standing there.
"Hey" you said softly, glancing back at your desk and grabbing your phone, seeing you had a message. You only turned it off, thinking to yourself you'd answer it later as you placed it in your pocket.
"Hey, I was just stopping by to see if you made up your mind about my offer, it still stands." He replied, his voice heavy as he watched your movements, both of his hands now in his pockets. You looked back at him, now taking him in fully.
He had gotten a lot taller from when you two were this close, of course that was back in high school before you had left. If anything, if you had gotten closer to him, he might as well have towered over you. You only smiled at him and nodded as you threw your bag over your shoulder, placing your hands in your pockets as well.
"I was actually just on my way to go see you about that actually." You began, scanning his face for any reaction from the first half of your statement, only to see nothing but him nodding. "I accept your offer, but I'm not sure I'll be able to thank you enough for it, I have a lot to bring though." You stated, placing a hand out of your pocket and pointing behind you with a smile.
You said softly, you weren't sure if it was the bandages pressed against his collarbone and lower chin that made him put his head down, but you could've sworn he was smiling just now. He'd do that all the time since you two were children, hiding whenever he smiled or laughed, it's good to see that most things haven't changed.
It's almost funny really, how just a few days ago he seemed like he hated you. Was doing everything to avoid you or even speak to you, acting like the grinch almost, and here he was now, with you, smiling because you accepted his offer to move in with him temporarily.
"If it's your bags being too heavy, I can always help you with them and anything else you're bringing. I have plenty of space so you can put your things where you want." He spoke softly, now taking a step towards you, if you were to even move back you would've hit your desk.
You stood your ground and eyed him as he made his way towards you, you only nodded in response. Now gripping on tightly to the bag that weighed down on your shoulder. Your eyes met with Shouta's constantly within seconds, the tension between the two of you becoming thicker with each glance, as you stepped around him to leave you paused.
"If you send me the address to your place I'll stop by later tonight with my things, I need to pack." You said, not even turning to look at him. You needed to get out of that room, and it had to be quick, whatever it was he saw in you to look at you the way you did made you scream internally.
"I don't think I have your new number..." he said as he turned around and watched your state, it's almost as if you could feel him raise a brow, but you didn't dare to turn around and look him in the eyes again.
"My number never changed" you said simply, now turning to the left as your heels clicked. You made your way down the hallway towards the exit and into the parking lot, digging in your pocket to get your car keys. The entire moment the two of you just shared replaying in your head over and over without fail.
As you unlocked your car and took your bag off your shoulder you chewed on your bottom lip. Tossing your bag in the passenger's seat as you sat in the driver's seat, gripping onto the steering wheel for dear life.
This was going to be much more complicated than you expected.
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You scratched your head as you looked at the way you placed your bags within the trunk of your car. It looked so disorganized, but frankly you were too tired to fix them any better, the car ride would've been bumpy regardless, so it didn't matter too much. Just as you were going to close your trunk, your phone vibrated.
You reached in the back pocket of your jeans and pulled it out, seeing a message from Shouta and the person who had messaged you earlier in the afternoon. You closed your trunk and made your way to the driver's seat, locking your car as you sat in the parking lot of the hotel you stayed the night at. Now unlocking your phone and going to messages you saw the message underneath Shouta's from an unknown number, you rose a brow before opening it.
[XXX-XXX-XXXX: I won't let you forget about what you've done to our family]
You felt a twist in your stomach as you read it, already knowing who it was from, one of your old 'accidents' that occurred right after high school. The one that caused you the most grief and nightmares from the tragedy, and the same one that made you quickly cut the deal from being a pro-hero and working full time for the embassy.
Without a second thought you quickly blocked the number, sucking your teeth as you slumped into the seat, tears forming in the corners of your eyes. You quickly swallowed your emotions as you remembered you hadn't answered Shouta's texts, quickly opening it and reading his message.
[Shouta :) : Hey, here's the address XXXX Main St, XXXX ****. Be safe on your trip here, I'll be waiting outside to help with your bags]
You smiled at his text, looking in your rearview mirror at the bags piled up in the trunk. You shook your head and chuckled softly, only hearting his message and pressing on the address that was underlined. It took you straight to the maps app and you followed your GPS to his place, as you followed it you played music from your favorite playlist on the way.
As you got closer and closer to the destination of his place you began to think how it would be. Was it just a two-bedroom apartment or was it something large and cozy like your own apartment. It must depend on the salary he's getting as both a pro hero and as a teacher, in all honesty you had no idea.
He didn't seem like a huge person on decorations or huge flashy things, so you didn't expect much, but when you drove through in the neighborhood you weren't expecting to see such a nice grey tone looking house. When your GPS told you that this was your destination you blinked out of confusion, looking back at the numbers on the house then your phone.
It wasn't wrong, this was definitely your destination, you just weren't expecting all of this. You shook away your thoughts and pulled into the driveway before seeing the garage open as you shut off the car after parking it. As you opened your car door the garage opened fully, revealing Shouta.
Honestly if you hadn't been paying attention you wouldn't have suspected it was him, he looked entirely different than he did a few hours ago. He was built, and you meant it, he was wearing all black, black sweatpants and a black wifebeater. His hair was pulled back into a low ponytail as he kept one hand in his pocket, raising the other one to wave at you.
Thank goodness he did wave at you, because it snapped you out of the little trance you were having of him. There's no way he was hiding all of that in the outfit he wore on the daily with his students and at night on his patrols. As you waved back at him and closed your door to make your way to your trunk you still couldn't wrap your head around it all.
Lost deep in thought you weren't even aware that when you opened your trunk, he was already making his way right behind you. Before you could reach for the first bag in the back his hand grazed yours as he picked it up, then picked up another and threw it over his shoulder.
Your head sunk down slowly as your breath hitched, not wanting to make this more awkward than it already was. You slowly made your way to the side and picked up two much smaller bags and turned to him as he cocked his head to the side, pointing to the house.
"Just follow me and I'll show you where your room is" he said, looking at you, you looked back to the car with a nod quickly. There was no way in hell you two were about to start yet another staring contest, especially now of all times.
As you followed him inside you got a nice view of the house, well the inside anyway, everything was nice and clean. It was honestly pretty bland inside, no sheer pop of color or decors, just furniture that was a sort of marble grey. Anything you could look at or pay attention too other than the handsome sculpted man in front of you would've sufficed.
As you walked down the hallway, you heard him speaking of you having the room entirely to yourself, and the bathroom was just to the side of it. You only hummed in response to his statement as your mind continued to wander, until a sudden question popped up in your head.
"Why are you being so nice to me all of a sudden?" You asked, your question quickly followed by a yawn, to which you covered your mouth with the back of your hand. Shouta placed your bags down in your new room, it was big to say the least, neat and empty. The bed sheets were a tan kind of color, sand almost, along with a cream-colored blanket.
"What do you mean?" He asked, now turning to you and raising a brow as you placed your bags down on your bed, looking around the room to see where you'd place most of your belongings. You looked up at him, taking a glance at his face before walking over to the dresser that was in front of your bed.
"When we first bumped into each other you looked at me like you hated me, now we're here." You said carelessly, looking at your reflection in the mirror as you toyed with your hair for a little, looking over to see him in the mirror as he crossed his arms.
"I've never hated you" he said honestly, you now turned to look at him, in the eyes this time. Seeing the same look he had before, a look of sadness and sorrow. You only hummed in response yet again before opening the empty drawers to your dresser and looking inside them all, planning which draw would hold what.
You only left the room in one swift movement and made your way back to your car and grabbing your last two bags along with your work bag. You closed the trunk as you locked the car and began walking back inside.
Whatever answer he just gave you when you were inside didnât answer your question, you hated how he always beat around the bush. Now you were too tired to argue or pry to get an answer that you wanted from him, you only returned inside through the garage to see him standing in the hallway waiting for you. Without exchanging any words, he just came over to you, taking the bags from your hands in one swift movement and walked into your room, placing them with the others.
âThank youâ you said, removing your phone and keys from your pockets and placing them on your nightstand by your bed. Shouta only shook his head at your words.
âNo need to thank me, follow me so I can show you aroundâ He spoke, now exiting your room and pointing down the hall for you to follow him. You followed behind slowly, turning your gaze back to the walls and floors now, not wanting to look at him knowing how easily your mind wanders.
You wondered how he felt about you, honestly it couldnât be anything bad, he had offered for you to live in his house after hearing of your problems. Even though things ended rocky between the two of you and started again off to a strange start here you were, pushing everything to the side as he gave you a personal house tour.
You couldnât even call this fate, as of right now you had no idea what it was, but whatever it was made you more curious than ever. As the small tour came to an end Shouta had shown you practically everything. The kitchen, living room, his bedroom and your bathroom, it wasnât a lot, but it could be, his home was spacious, and you liked that.
He had even cooked apparently, and you complimented it too. His food was good and honestly you were surprised when he first told you, not expecting him to be the cooking type. Soon after you helped him clean up and stood around as you watched him.
Not to mention to your surprise you felt something pet against the heel of your feet, startling you as you quickly turned around. You were met with a small black cat, meowing at you softly before repeating the same action as before. You only smiled and relaxed, bending over to pet it, your back now facing Shouta.
You grinned as you called it pet names as you continued to pet it before picking it up and reading the collar. âYoyoâ you read and laughed, knowing there was no way Shouta couldâve named her.
âThis was definitely Nemuriâs doing, I think youâre more creative than this.â You laughed turning to Shouta, who was dangerously close to you. Your arm had brushed up against his chest and you knew better than to move. You only turned all of your attention back to Yoyo, as if you hadnât realized what happened.
âYeah, it was, I wasnât sure what to name her, but I had helpâ he replied, placing his hand on the back of his neck and holding it gently as he sighed. You gave Yoyo a small kiss and hug before placing her down back on the floor and standing up again.
Without thinking you turned around and face planted into Shoutaâs side, immediately pulling back and apologizing as you held your head. He only shook his head and apologized as well, placing a hand on your shoulder asking if you were alright. You only nodded and drew your shoulder back, feeling dizzy at the feeling.
He smelled good, too good, like one of those really nice colognes that would catch your attention whenever you went shopping and passed by the menâs section. You were snapped out of your trance when it seemed for a split second someone was standing behind him.
You immediately darted your head to the side, only to see the figure disappear as you frowned. You just brushed it off and turned into the kitchen, checking the time. As you counted how many weeks it had been in your head.
8:36pm
You were late to take one of your medications, your alarm had probably been going off for a while now and you werenât even aware of it. Thankfully you had already eaten so you didnât have to worry about taking it on an empty stomach.
âI have to go, Iâll uh, Iâll be backâ you said with a pause, quickly turning around and making your way back to your room. You quickly shut off the silent alarm that had been ringing on your phone for nearly an hour before grabbing your keys and heading outside.
As you unlocked your car and climbed into the passenger seat to open the glove department you saw a shadow in the rear-view mirror. You turned around slowly only for the figure to yet again disintegrate from your view. You took a deep breath and searched for the bottle you were looking for amongst the junk in the department box, ending your search when you found a bottle labeled âRisperdalâ.
As you cleaned up and closed your glove department box and locked your car you quickly walked back inside. The figure appearing beside you yet again, muttering whispers to you as you ignored it and made your way back to your room digging in your bag.
Your pill cutter where is your pill cutter. Youâre prescribed to only take half of the full number of milligrams the pill had and unfortunately you had already taken the other left over half 3 weeks ago. It was surprising to you almost, you had never taken them so close together before, things like these were only monthly occurrences, but it was getting worse.
You sighed to yourself out of frustration as you couldnât find what you were looking for, your grip on your bottle tightening as the faceless figure taunted you, practically laughing at you through a mouth it had grown out of nowhere.
You made your way back to the kitchen, embarrassment hitting you as you realized you had one of two options. Either hoping Shouta had a pill cutter around somewhere or using a knife to cut it yourself.
He raised his head as he looked up at you after drying his hands when he finished the dishes. Smiling at you softly before seeing something in your hands and raising a brow as you wet your lips and parted them.
âHey um, do you have any pill cutters?â You asked quietly, but loud enough for him to hear, he slowly made his way over to you. He opened the cabinet beside your head filled with medications, as he reached to the top shelf and got a green pill cutter and placed it on the counter.
He then made his way over to his fridge and got a cold-water bottle, placing it next to the cutter. The entire time he kept his eyes on you, only that you werenât looking at him, more or less something behind or around him had your attention.
Your eyes trailed on the figure that now morphed into a teenage girl, one who you had known well in high school. She went around and teased you laughing at Shouta as she grinned at you sinisterly as she spoke, you couldnât hear what she was saying as it all came out as whispers. You knew it wasn't her though, the way her body was so deformed, and her face was twisted proved it was all in your head.
You then looked over to the pill cutter, placing the pill bottle in your hand on the counter before opening it quickly. Then opening the water bottle, shaking slightly as you did so before placing a pill within the tiny machine on the counter.
The girl had now made her way over to you as you placed the device in your hand, clamping your hands down on the button attempting to cut the pill. The more and more she whispered to you and placed her hands on your shoulders the more you trembled, your vision clouded with tears as you chewed on your bottom lip.
Within seconds you felt two large hands overcoming your own, and a firm chest being pressed against your back as you heard a click from the pill cutter. You gasped softly as you were snapped out of your trance for a short while as Shouta took the pill cutter from your hands.
He soon opened the device and took the left half of the pill with one hand, his other one rested on your shoulder. There was absolute silence between the two of you, the only thing making noise was you, your breathing was ragged. He paused as he read the label of your pill bottle, frowning softly before turning his attention back to you.
âCan I trust you to take it yourself or do you need my help?â He asked softly, his body still pressed against yours, you only shook your head in response. You only kept your head down and turned around slightly, the whispers of before echoing in your mind.
Shouta hadnât said anything else, he only lifted your head slightly, his hand grabbing your jaw softly as he looked at you. Itâs as if you werenât even there with him, looking over the side of his shoulder, your mouth still agape. You watched as the deformation of the girl disappeared, her laughter leaving a trail behind.
He took the pill and placed it at your lips, his fingers brushing against your lips focused your attention on him, your eyes now locked with his. You parted your lips even more now, letting the cut pill go past your lips and hit your tongue, the taste bitter as your eyes never left his.
Your eyes were watery was his first thought, the same way they always were whenever you were about to cry. For as long as he knew you it had been that way, youâd squint slightly before letting your eyes water and cry, and he hated it.
He hated how conceited you were, especially with him, and now it hadnât seemed like things had changed much. Even now, years later you were taking on way much more than you could chew, and he always blamed the embassy for it.
The two of you broke eye contact as you were the first to turn around, placing a hand on his chest to push him away softly so you could reach for the water bottle he had gotten you before. You quickly chugged the bottle two thirds of the way down, the bitter taste still in your mouth as you placed the bottle down.
The hand you had on Shoutaâs chest hadnât left, he grabbed it softly, tugging you towards him as you turned around again. You looked at his face, hinted with disappointment and possibly anger as he saw your gaze.
âY/n. Risperdal? What has happened since you joined the embassy?â He said, now bending slightly to reach your eye level, his hands not leaving your arms. You had heard him, but his words werenât as loud as the whispers that were still echoing in your head before you spoke.
âIâm fine, I took it too lateâ you replied slightly, ready to push him off of you, but his grip only tightened, pulling you in closer. Youâre too close to one another, way too close. You weren't sure if your thumping heartbeat was getting louder from the way he held you or the sounds ringing in your mind, but you didn't like it.
Even through the haze of what youâre going through you can tell that this was wrong, even though it felt good, and it made you feel warm inside. You shook your head and pushed him off of you successfully this time as he left you go.
âI said Iâm fine.â You repeated harshly, glaring at him as you watched his sad expression quickly turn angry, glaring back at you in return. Your hand clammy as you squeezed it open and closed again. There was no need for him to care so closely to you as he had before, you two weren't together anymore.
âYouâre still a shitty liar, I guess you havenât changed since when you left.â He responded harshly, you looked to the side and thought back to when you left initially years back. Your expression softening as you took a breath and stopped clamming with your hand.
You only excused yourself and bid yourself goodnight, practically speed walking back your room before slamming the door behind you. Taking all preparations and moving your bags to the side as you got ready for bed, laying underneath the covers with your earphones in listening to your music as you tried to tune out your thoughts before drifting to sleep.
Maybe you were right about putting Shouta in danger by living here, but the danger wasnât from the outside or whoever was after you.
The danger was you.
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Ride 764: Dearest wish
Pag 1
1: The one thing the third year Onoda Sakamichi desires is....?
Pag 2
3: His dearest wish!!
4: Right!!
Pag 3
1: That's definitely Onoda's dearest wish
Pag 4
2: Do your beest
They're so fast!
They move the wind
The jerseys are so brightly colored
3: No no no no
4: That- that's not it
That's not-
Is Sohoku arguing over something!?
Pag 5
1: That- that was just the spur of the moment
I ended up just saying anything
2: That's not my dearest wish at all....
So- uhm
3: Please forget about it, everyone!!
4: No way!!
Yeah
Teh!!
Yep
Yeah
Pag 6
1: That must be our goal this year!! Our third victory in a row!!
Pag 7
1: Yessir!!
On!!
Yeah!!
2: The three day long stage is harsh and long, that's why everyone's strengths will be necessary!!
Yessir!!
3: If we can all unite our strengths and support each other as one...
4: The I'll be able to win brilliantly!! Yeah!!
Just like I did during the prefectural qualification!!
Ohhhh
Tch
Pag 8
1: I'll sprint desperately, Hotshot-san will accompany me, and I'll do a grand finishing dash, just like that day!!
Okay!! You've been saying it over and over again!!
2: You're really a guy who clings to the glory of the past
The prefectural qualification is connected to the Inter High, it's not in the past!!
You're the type of guy I hate the most when you get carried away
Naruko-san was amazing, teh!!
That day, yeah!!
Naruko-san!!
3: Sto-stop iit, you were both amazing that day
4: Come oon... we're in the middle of an important meeting
6: Now that I think about it
Onoda-san's....
7: This is all
Pag 9
1: Can I say one last thing?
2: I also think our goal must be a third consecutive victory
3: There's just one thing I'm curious about we still haven't asked
Onoda-san
5: What's your goal this year?
What are you running in the Inter High for?
6: When I asked you this last year during the first years' race
Pag 10
1: I want to report it
2: You said you wanted to report the victory to your senpai
3: And you
4: Accomplished that
5: Honestly, when I first heard that I thought âwhat is he talking about, that's such a small goalâ
But that day, after the race, when I saw Onoda-san doing it
6: I was shaking
I thought from the bottom of my heart that it was amazing
Pag 11
1: I thought you were super cool
5: Wh- no no
That- I was just reporting, there's nothing cool about it at all, okay
Pag 12
1: So I want to know what your goal is this year
Please tell us what you're thinking about!!
2: Is it âI want to report to that senpai once againâ!?
4: Crowning your third victory in a row as the captain!?
6: Is it the mountain's bib!? Is it winning a stage!?
Please tell us... your goal during the race...
7: or maybe for when the race is over!!
8: A.....
9: No no no
It's nothing- yes, it's nothing!!
Pag 13
1: Onoda's goal....
2: I see, what Onoda-kun wants to do....
3: Now that I think about it....
4: What is it!? You started saying it now, âaâ!!
Is it ârunning as an assistâ!?
5: Does it mean you don't want to bear the last heavy burden!?
No no no no, that's fine, if the situation calls for it I'll do my best
6: That's enough, Issa
7: There are things Onoda-san doesn't want to say too
No, if it can become motivation for the team then he should say it
Pag 14
1: Onoda-san's goal!!
2: But still, Issa!!
I'm telling you, anything is fine!!
Ah, uhm...
3: It's a really personal thing, so.... don't get your hopes up...
But.... that's... always been.... my dearest wish...
4: Dearest wish!!
5: If we run with all we have in this Inter High.... putting together all of our strengths and deliver our jersey to the finish line
6: If we get the best result....
Pag 15
1: No no, I really can't say more than this
3: Say it, everything's fine. I'm curious too
4: Ah.... if we get the best results.... I....
5: I want to reserve a room somewhere...
6: A room?
8: Prepare teacakes
9: Cakes!?
10: Ask for everyone's cooperation...
Pag 16
1: Gather five people
5: It's something I've been imagining.... since before... entering school in my first year.....
7: Even just for one day
8: Even just a few hours after school
Everyone will bring what they like
9: A.....
Oi.... don't tell me you mean.... you
Pag 17
1: I'm thinking of reviving the anime research club!!
Pag 18
5: No way!!
Pag 19
1: And then, there
2: I think I could call Makishima-san, who likes figures
I feel like you've misunderstood something here
3: And Midosuji-kun who likes anime
Would you be able to hold a conversation with him!?
4: Isn't that good!! The best goal!!
5: You'll gather five people in no time!!
6: Kakaka mine will be the first name you write down
7: Amazing
From England and Kyoto....!!
Pag 20
1: I don't really get it, but somehow that fired me up!!
2: That's Onoda-san's dearest wish!!
3: Ah
4: N-no, it's really nothing much, so I take it back...
Revive the anime club!!
Let's do it, for Onoda-san!!
I don't really know what an anime club does, but I'm in!!
Me too!!
5: Yeeah!!
Let's do it!!
Issa, calm down
Pag 21
2: Your goal is to ârevive the anime research club even for just dayâ?
Oi oi, that's such a small
3: but splendid goal!!
4: You managed to unite the club's intentions as one with such bizarre words!!
5: You're really are an unpredictable guy!!
The plate will soon become green
âReal startâ.... the real race will start!!
#yowamushi pedal#yowamushi pedal translations#yowapeda#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 764 ONODA YOU LITTLE WEABOO I LOVE YOU#im so stupid bc this was to be expected OF COURSE THATS HIS DEAREST WISH#but was i expecting it while reading this chapter? honestly no#i love it this manga will go full circle and im already a mess of emotions oh my god#onoda: i want to revive the anime club!!#me: *cries*#onoda could say literally ANYTHING and the other members would absolutely lose it#they get fired up for anything thats onoda-related#they dont even know what an anime club is but theyre excited!! as long as thats what makes onoda happy!!#kaburagi is annoying as usual (affectionate) but at least he got the right spirit saghsdfkasdgf#onoda wanting to invite makishima and midosuji too ahsdsadgad i cant see it ending well lmao#hes so pure i love him#pag 5 last panel is the best thing ever tbh#i love sohoku so much#best team in all sports manga ive ever read
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Controversial take but i watched all of jjk, in subbed, so it had my full attention 100% of the time, and i am of the opinion that it just fucking sucks.
So me and my wife were talking about it, and we were trying to figure out why people like it and we've come up short. I do not understand what's so appealing about this show for so many people. Can someone PLEASE tell me.
#yes the animation is phenominal and honestly i would have stopped watching after the first episode without it#MAPPA creates some beautiful art like just gorgeous#but the constant force-feeding of every minor character's backstory was hellish for me#had me rolling my eyes every time they did it (every three seconds)#the vast majority of characters are unlikable or bland or dead#often all of the above#choso is the only character i actively liked?? like i understand him i reallu do#i liked mahito? he's a freak so that's a given#i liked that one old guy with the weird still frames power#uhhh i like sukuna's weird obsession with ripoff sasuke#edit i member: i liked megumi he deserved better#oh i also REALLY liked nanamin or whatever his name was (it's been a while)#i think yuuji's suicide mission that he didn't think through is super interesting#alright heres my most controversial take of all#i don't care at ALL abt gojo. he's so mid there's like a million characters exactly like him#and he's UGLY why do people say he's attractive bro is UGLY A HELL#the intros are baller tho i sat through them every episode no skipping that shit#gorgeous animation as i'd expect from this studio#like! there's so many little drops of things that i liked about this show! which is why it pissed me off so much every time they did boring#ass exposition dumps on characters that are gonna die in five seconds. or worse-they are gonna live and continue to bore me to tears#and when i tell you i physically couldn't read the manga because of how fucking BORING it is#i got caught up and was like 'okay ill read the manga i kinda like what's currently happening n ive made it this far might as well keep goi#g' nah man i couldn't even read a whole chapter. jjk is king of exposition dumps#i do think the powers and how if you tell your opponent what it is it gets stronger is rad#and it drives me insane because i know they know how to drip-feed information about a character! and when they do that they do it SO WELL!!#but they just force feed you all this information the rest of the time like BRO ITS TOO MUCH SLOW DOWN AND JUST LET THE CHARACTERS DO THEIR#THING AND IT WILL BE MORE SATISFYING#anyways not tagging this because i don't wanna put hate in the main tags#just like. if you see this please explain to me what im missing PLEASE i want to like this show SO bad
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anyhow how the fuck did I miss Kiyanâs tag on AO3 getting over 100 now? Good fucking work team thank you
#txts#surprisingly this isnt a case of#most fics are just him as a side character as far as i can remember#which I honestly wouldnt expect normally but I have been lurking around here long enough to actually expect him to at LEAST have a decently#big enough role when he's involved#i can think of maybe a handful of fics where he rly is 'just' a side character#but it's def not most or even near that#which is even better#the witcher#kiyan#i kinda wish I knew how many chapters and how many words all these together are tbh#bc while most are oneshots or a few chapters#some have many many in them#also idk if shadowys is still up (i dont think so i think it got deleted in november) but to me mentally it's still there#i mean future plans were made so EVENTUALLY it'll return in another form#so to me this is 104 fics at least v-v#anyhow again-thank all you writers for your service#i have....not been reading a lot of the newer ones#YET#because reading takes energy which urgh why#but I do wanna...so....eventually...i will return#i know the unbury crew has written some more as well which i also havent caught up with#which is how you know it's 'bad'#my brain has been overtaken with other shows this year but we are getting back so dw just give it some more time and essays on how much i#love whatever has been written will return v-v
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chapter 1: the debutante a bridgerton!au
pairing ⸺ duke!satoru gojo x fem!reader
summary ⸺ dearest gentle reader, a new season is upon us as the ton gets ready for a season filled with drama, heartbreak, and passion. after being crowned diamond of the season, heir to a dukedom mr. satoru gojo⸺only looking to marry just to secure his inheritance⸺has his sights set on you, the easiest (and most obvious) option. later, when you catch his saying unsavory things about you on a terrace when he least suspected it, you swear to never marry gojo. as london's fashionable set goes through yet another wedding season, will there be hope for scandalous gossip, hate, and thinly veiled insults, or will we witness blooming love and passion?
warnings ⸺ nsfw, enemies to lovers, bridgerton au, angst, fluff, eventual smut, jealousy, misogyny, regency era au, gojo being infuriating, reader also being infuriating, both of them are clueless honestly
chapter summary ⸺ you begin to get ready for your presentation for your debut this season, and satoru steels himself to find a wife. you don't get the reception you'd wanted from some, and satoru will soon curse himself for letting his tongue loose (6.3k)
a/n tired of keeping this in the vault lol so Iâll just post it even if my perfectionist tendencies are screaming at me. thank you so much to @/sinn-clair for beta reading and lexi (@/ayyy-pee) for helping me brainstorm đ
next. the aftermath
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Dearest reader,
Another season comes as the ton descends to London yet again from the countryside. Young ladies and their mamas flock to the modiste in an effort to fluff their feathers to find a match.
The Itadoris are by far one of the most prolific families in the upper echelons of society. The sight of all the children at once⸺Miss Itadori, Lord Choso Itadori, and Mister Yuji Itadori⸺is enough to catch the attention of mamas and young suitors alike. Miss Itadori, making her debut this season, has much to be desired. The debutante is a meek and demure girl, but with many talents indeed. The oldest, Lord Itadori, has a quiet countenance that has ladies and mamas on their toes, counting the days until he finally joins the marriage market. Mister Yuji Itadori is quite the opposite; his physical prowess on horseback riding has had quite a few ladies swooning after.
Furthermore, the heir to the Duke of Gojo is a most interesting character. Although he has not deigned to find a wife during any season yet, This Author has heard whispers that he will be looking for a bride during this one. Â
Lady Mei Mei can certainly be expected to be on the prowl, waiting to sink her teeth into the wealthiestâŚ.
⸝ LADY WHISTLEDOWNâS SOCIETY PAPERS
âSeriously?â Choso scrunched his nose in displeasure. âWhy would ladies want someone whoâs quiet? I use it to convey my displeasure, not to be charming.â
On the other hand, the other brother relaxed on the opposite couch, proud. âI knew I looked good on horseback,â Yuji remarked smugly. âYou and my dear sister are clearly jealous of how appealing my muscles look while Iâm grabbing the reins.â
âThose ladies clearly hadnât seen you drop yourself in dung when you were younger. Or the face you make when you are so oddly concentrated. As if you just stepped into a chamber pot.â
Before Yuji could come up with a snide remark to his older brother, the two heard an incessant pacing leading up to the doors of the drawing room they sat in. The door slammed opened to reveal their mother⸺Lady Itadori⸺with a hand to her face in clear distress.
Choso and Yuji exchanged glances before Choso calmly set down the single-page newspaper he was reading. âWhat is the matter, mother?â
Lady Itadori moaned and sat down on a chair raggedly. âYour sister is the matter. I fear the queen will have reviewed every person in London before your sister leaves her room.â
Before Choso could get a word in, Yuji suddenly stood up. âThis is a serious matter, mother. After all, she should be punctual to her debut. I will go fetch her.â
âWait, Yuji!â Choso and Lady Itadori followed Yuji to the grand staircase of the Itadori manor. Hurriedly, they reached the foot of the stairs to see Yuji tilting his head back to take a deep breath.
âSISTER!â Yuji had his palms up to his face, as if to amplify his already booming scream. âYOU! MUST! MAKE! HASTE!â After the quite of bit noise he'd made, he cleared his throat, looking to the side to see his dumbfounded mother and brother, and shrugged. âWell, someoneâs got to the job.â
Then, the brothers and their mother look up to see a peek of white and a âMiss, be careful with the hem!â You, at the top of the staircase, grab the front of your ivory dress, with your maids helping you with the train, as you start stepping down the staircase with an irritated frown. âMust you always be such a nuisance, brother?â Traversing down the stairs until your family members were visible, all you saw were dumbfounded and tense expressions. After enduring hours of painting your face and dealing with your maid Nobaraâs fussing over your coiffure, you wished for a more fond reaction. Annoyed, you stomped your way past them to the exit, where the carriage was waiting for you four.
âDear!â your mother exclaimed, rushing to your side and taking your hand as you reached the door. Her eyes, filled with concern, met yours as she nervously asked, âHow are you feeling? I know this is a momentous day for you, but remember, youâve always excelled in your lessons. Itâs only natural that youâll win the queenâs approval, dear.â
âYes, Mother, of course,â you sighed. âIt is just such a hectic day.â
âBut you shall dazzle them.â Choso comes behind you, patting your back gently in his reassuring, elderly brother ways. With a proud smile, he says, âThe gentlemen are not prepared for your entrance this season.âÂ
âIndeed! They will be none the wiser to your snark, sister.â You see Yuji coming up on your other side, offering his elbow. You tentatively take it, eyeing him sourly as he continues, âI am simply elated that Mamaâs attention will be on you, rather me.â
You reach to smack him on the head, eliciting an "Ow!" from Yuji just as your mother approaches next to him, frowning. "Of course, Yuji. But it wonât be long before I have to chase after you for your tutorâs complaints about your lack of proficiency⸺"
Yuji interjects hastily. "Well! Would you look at the time? The Queen is waiting!"Â
"I'm surprised the gossip pamphlet didn't mention how much of a rake you are," Lord Geto mused, taking a sip of brandy. At his right, Duke Nanami was stoic as always, focusing on the tastes the gin was bringing to his mouth rather than the two older men beside him.
"I'm severely offended you would even imply such a thing," Mister Satoru Gojo put a hand on his chest, feigning offense. Rather than a gin in his hand, Satoru preferred drinking water lest his mouth spilled something even more notorious than his signature calculative icy blue eyes.
He continued. "Honestly, I don't understand this whole Whistledown business. Some might even say the ton holds her words more in regards than the Holy Bible!"
"You're diverting the matter at hand, Gojo," Nanami took his tired eyes off of his drink to look at Satoru. "As the heir and first son, have your parents not urged you to cease your foolishness? There is a limit to the rakish behavior one can exhibit in your position.â
"Yes," Satoru sighed, "They have. That's precisely why I'm looking for a bride."
There was a silence in which Satoru looked up from his glass to see Kento and Suguruâs mouths agape. "What?"
Suguru leaned closer to Satoru, as if to inspect his countenance unsure if he was jesting or not. "So, is it actually true? You're going to get tied down?"
Nanami wrinkled his nose in disapproval. "Must you say it like that? Marriage isn't imprisonment, you know."
Gojo sighed. "Nanami, Nanami. It's clear that one year that separates us in age has also left a gap in experience." Nanami felt a vein pop as Satoru irritatedly continued in his know-it-all voice. "Marriage is an end. The dead end, in fact. It is when you are abroad in Paris, basking in all the fine entertainment and wooing ladies until you realize you are out of funds. Out of money. Marriage is coming home not to go out and drink, but to a wife that has endless needs of you and children that will have frustrating phases of life. An end to pleasure and an end of all jest."
Kento and Suguru exchanged a glance before Suguru asked, "So why are you looking for a wife?"
Satoru looked dejectedly at them, crossing his arms. "My parents insisted. Said they would freeze my funds and kick me out if I didn't get serious about my future." He continued on his desperate rambling, leaning back in his chair. "I don't understand. Must I have a wife to "get serious" in life? Iâm serious about all the fucking mergers and dubious finances my father invests in! Look how well I managed his bets!"
"You know, Satoru, your outlook on marriage is awfully pessimistic," Suguru put down his glass to lean back as well, crossing his arms in seriousness. "Don't you wish for a love match?"
"That sounds ridiculous. Love matches are just a passing fancy young ladies have when reading their ridiculous romance novels."
"Well, of course you think that." Kento deadpanned. "No respectable lady in their right mind would fall for you and your attitude."
"Nanami, you wound me."
Suguru glanced at Satoru with concern. "My dear friend, you are making this harder for yourself than it ought to be."
Satoru groaned. "I came here for jest, not to receive words of so-called wisdom. I assure you both, all is well." He looked at both of his friends. "I do not need to be assured. I simply am looking for a woman fine enough to be my wife to appease my parents and their concerns of continuing on the line and handling the dukedom but for a woman so reserved that she'd respect my wishes and isn't so miserable. Or needy." Satoru shrugged. "I would believe these to be respectable requirements for a wife."
Suguru looked at him with mild displeasure. "It sounds like you are looking for a horse to ride, not a woman you would spend the rest of your life with."
Standing up, Satoru moved behind Kento and Suguru to give them a hearty slap on the back. "Trust me, my dear, dear friends. I will find what I am looking for and drink myself silly for the rest of my life!"
"You don't drink." Kento sighed.
"Never mind, you! Sir, more drinks!" Satoru grinned. "Here's to the bachelor life!"
The three men raised their glasses for the toast. Yet, only one of them contained thin water.
You restlessly arranged the feathers in your coiffure and adjusted the fabric essentially squeezing the breath out of your lungs to accentuate your bust. The palace waiting room was stuffy as ever as debutantes and their mamas fluttered across the room in an effort to catch the smallest of flaws on their person.
Before the Queen did, that is.
"Your feathers are fine, dear. Take deep breaths for me." Your mother raised her hands, prompting you to take a breath in and out as her hands lowered.
You gave her your practiced smile and curtsy to which your mother laid a hand on the small of your back in both approval and reassurance. With the other, she grabbed your own and rubbed comforting circles in the junction of your index finger and your thumb. "You have always excelled in your lessons, my dear. I could not be prouder of the woman you are becoming." She sniffed, and you smiled in appreciation. "The Queen will love you, I am sure of it."
You laughed. "Mama, that is what all these ladies think."
âBut none of these ladies have poured in the determination you have, my dear.â Your mother holds your head gently by the cheeks. âYour character and proficiency⸺I am sure the Queen will see the promising young lady that I am proud to call my daughter.â
You felt a lump in your throat. While you appreciated your motherâs words, you could not help but think of the significance of this day. You almost felt dizzy thinking about messing up in front of the Queen; if you didn't find a suitable match as a result, what would become of you?Â
Suddenly, there was some fanfare from the main room. "Now, presenting Miss Itadori and the Right Honourable Lady Itadori." Your heart jumped out of your throat as you heard the call for you and your mother to walk up.Â
"Let's go, my dear." With a fond kiss to your temple, your mother led you by the hand to the center of the tall and ornate doors that opened to reveal the Queen and her audience. You couldn't help but notice that your mother's hand held a reassuring, yet tight vice.Â
When the doors opened, your vision blurred. Your heartbeat got faster, and all you could register was the stares. What felt like a million pairs of eyes blinking upon you, scanning your coiffure, garments, and carefully painted face. While the gossiping widows and mamas whispered amongst themselves, some gentlemen scanned you up and down in clear assessment of your constitution. A distinct smell of tobacco and vanilla wafted through the air, and you took an imperceptible breath in as you steeled yourself before putting your practiced, signature smile.Â
A memory from your childhood flashed before you.
"She is excelling in her studies," your tutor had said, discussing your performance with your mother in the drawing room. You, sitting beside them, had fidgeted nervously with your small hands clasped in your lap, sitting as straight as you could manage.
"What must she do to improve?" your mother inquired, her eyes sharp with concern.
"Madame," your tutor had said, turning his gaze towards you with a knowing look. "Your daughter is quite nearly flawless. She is of my most exceptional students; her obedience and composure are unparalleled, even at such a tender age." He then fixed his eyes back on your mother with an authoritative intensity. "But there is one element that will truly distinguish her as a diamond."
Your mother had leaned forward, abandoning her tea in anticipation. "What is it?"
"Her smile."
As you flash your smile to the room, you could feel the people in the room going silent. Your smile was what helped you focus and keep your eyes on the prize: impressing the queen. Smiling in the most innocent and demure way you could possibly muster, you straighten your posture as you advance towards the queen, your eyes serene and your expression a masterful display of delicate charm.
The stares of the ton were on your back, but all you focused on was the harmony of your countenance. Chin up, you reminded yourself. Everyone in this room is my prey, and I am the predator.Â
When you and your mother reached the foot of the Queen's throne, you dipped into the deepest curtsy you had to offer, keeping your eyes on the ground as you minimized your smile to a more polite and respectful one. You stayed there for as long as the Queen was silent.
Then, a rustling of fabric as the room silently gasped. The Queen was stepping towards you, and you felt a gloved hand take your chin. Not daring to breathe or rise from your genuflection by even an inch, you forced your body to stay in position as your face was raised to look at the Queenâs.
Her booming, yet regal, voice echoed throughout the room. âYou, my dear. Perfect.â She then addressed the room. âI have found my diamond!â
The declaration sent a wave of murmurs through the gathered crowd. You could feel hundreds of eyes on you as you slowly rose from your curtsy, your heart pounding in your chest. Your eyes instinctively sought your motherâs, who looked at you with pride and a hint of warning.
âKeep smiling, my dear,â she whispers into your ear. âThey are staring now, more than ever.â
Your mother was right, upon reflection. There were eyes observing you far more diligently than they had before. In particular, a pair of icy and brilliant blue ones.Â
âChoso, not today.â Your mother sighed. âI am not ignorant of your overprotective tendencies, especially towards your younger sister and brother.â
Choso was fully frowning in displeasure, arms crossed as he observed your mother, Yuji, and yourself board the carriage. âMother. Sister is the diamond of the season. The men will be after her like hungry vultures!â
âWell, vultures have a tendency to eat freshly decayed carrion. When you get rid of those dark circles and donât look like dead meat, you can join us.â
Choso protested further, stopping the doorman from closing the carriage door. âBut, Mother⸺â
âYuji, close the door. Your brother will join us when learns to get sleep and not work on those ledgers overnight.â As per your motherâs instructions, Yuji closes the door on him. As the carriage rolls out of your manor and into the London streets, you blow a mocking kiss to your brother, who is now brewing at the doorstep.
âPhew! Good riddance,â Your mother fanned herself. âI need this night with you, alone. God knows how many suitors will be warded off with that horrid glare of his.â
You laughed softly, leaning back against the plush cushions of the carriage. âI suppose itâs a small price to pay for a bit of peace.â
You and your mother were wrong; your brother should have been there.Â
Upon your arrival, you were followed by stares, whispers, and men. Bachelors appeared in droves, eager to engage in conversation, each drawn by your newly anointed title as the diamond of the season. After paying your respects to the Queen, you found yourself swept into a whirlwind of attention, each dance and conversation a testament to the allure your status had brought.
As you navigated the crowd with practiced grace, Yuji, ever the observant and cheeky sibling, leaned in close to you and murmured, âI must say, youâve outdone yourself. Theyâre practically circling like hawks. Do you think weâll need to hire a guard just to keep them at bay?â
You gave him a wry smile, barely concealing your exasperation. âOh, Yuji, youâre so dramatic. Theyâre just eager to make their introductions.â
Yuji snickered and nodded towards a particularly earnest-looking gentleman who seemed to be making a concerted effort to catch your attention. âWell, if this is what the season looks like, I might have to prepare myself for a front-row seat to a parade of besotted suitors. Just donât let them all think youâre here to catch them; we wouldnât want them getting the wrong idea.â
Your mother, overhearing Yujiâs jest, gave a light laugh and shook her head. âOh, Yuji, you and your theatrics. Just make sure youâre ready to fend off any advances that come your way.â
âWhat?â Youâve never seen Yujiâs smile drop so fast. As if on cue, there were mamas and maidens closer to Yujiâs age that were approaching, as if a pack, and he looked at you in panic. âAre they coming towards us? Sister, youâve got to⸺â
âMister Itadori,â It appeared it was too late. A pack of young ladies were right next to you, fluttering their fans and lashes and giggling. âWhistledown has praised you quite well in this last issue.â
Help, Yuji mouthed, but you merely winked in response. The young ladies had effectively formed a barrier around you, offering a temporary reprieve from the throng of eager suitors. Sensing an opportunity, you decided to seize the moment and discreetly made your way towards the punch table. Â
The cool, refreshing scent of the punch greeted you as you approached, offering a welcome contrast to the bustling, heated atmosphere of the ballroom. You filled a glass with the fruity, aromatic beverage and took a moment to savor the brief solitude.As soon as you took a deep breath in, savoring your newfound freedom, you felt a presence next to you at the punch table. âMiss Itadori.â
Upon turning, you were met with the infallible smirk of Naoya Zenâin. You had indeed heard⸺and read, in Whistledown⸺that his family adopted nontraditional ways of determining the winner of the family inheritance and leadership. While Lord Zenâin wasnât guaranteed to be the heir, he definitely was one of the top contenders. You assessed him further, taking in his arrogant demeanor as he reached down to give you a kiss on your hand. Rather wet, you thought in disgust. Â
But you hid it well, fluttering your lashes up at him. âMister Zenâin! I am flattered to be acquainted with you today. How do you find todayâs ball?â
âRather well, of course.â He reached to scoop some punch for himself. âI enjoy meeting all the young ladies and dancing with them, of course. Ever in search of my perfect bride.â
You forced an artificial giggle. âOf course. Iâm sure all the ladies that have talked to you have been charmed, as am I.â
He swelled, exactly you expected, as you stroked his ego. âBut none of these ladies are as valuable as you, my diamond.â To your displeasure, he took a step closer to you, discreetly tracing his finger from your upper arm to where your dance card resided. âMay I have your next dance? I have been perfecting my dance skill to the point all my brothers are envious of my prowess!â He barked out a laugh. âIn fact, I beat them in horse riding years ago, andâŚâ Â
While Naoya kept talking, you merely fluttered your fan over your face in mock interest. You were really starting to mourn your short-founded freedom, wanting a respite from the self obsessed young man. For some reason, you could smell the same distinctive perfume of expensive tobacco and painfully sweet vanilla you had smelled in your presentation, like a warning. Realizing you were drifting off into space with the heady fragrance, you made sure to tune into his ramblings once more.
For some reason⸺that you were growing to find uncomfortable⸺he still had his hand on your dance card. You felt the previously faint aroma growing stronger by the second. âOf course, I am soon to be the heir of the Zenâin name⸺â
A flamboyant and mischievous laugh cut through the air. âNaoya, you amuse me.â To your alarm, a young man steps to the right of you. From what you can see on the side of his face, his head sports brilliant white hair and his eyes are focused on the bachelor in front of you, who is now displeased and openly glaring at the man beside you.
âGojo, I⸺â
âFunny that you talk about the Zenâin inheritance, Naoya.â The man⸺Gojo⸺scratched his chin in faux puzzlement while cockily smiling. âLast time I checked, Naobito was discussing handing it over to Megumi over pall-mall!â
Naoya was clearly growing more and more distressed. âFather wouldnât dare to hand that child with a whore of a mother⸺â
Gojo clicked his tongue, outwardly showing a nonchalant smile, but you could noticeably see his eyes darken. âThatâs no way to talk in front of a lady, Naoya, and certainly not of a mother. Besides, Mister Zenâin, didnât Megumi save your family from the edge of poverty?â
Naoyaâs nostrils flared. Clearly at the end of his wit, he did a small bow towards you as he swiftly exited your proximity. You blinked, partially processing the conversation that happened as well as the fact that you were now alone with this Gojo. Turning, you prepared your signature smile, the act you had been presenting for countless of young bachelors today. However, what made you stop in your tracks was his eyes.
Even the pure Englishmen you had met in London didnât possess eyes like his. They were intense and vividly blue, flashing with judgment and calculation. His face, though strikingly pretty and slightly more feminine than others, seemed carefully constructed to mask his true thoughts. His white lashes contrasted sharply with his hair as he blinked.
And then it hit you. This was the heir of the Gojo dukedom, Satoru Gojo. Known as a capital R Rake for reasons unknown to you (Nobara just insisted he was), you could see elegance and arrogance exuding off of him, yet another noble with an ego as big as his wallet. You recall, then, what Whistledown had wrote about him⸺that he has never shown interest in marriage before today.
It was only after he blinked once more that you realized he was waiting for some response to an introuction you didn't catch. In a panicked flurry, you curtsied and said, âMy apologies, Mister Gojo. I fear I havenât had the pleasure of making your acquaintance. Miss Itadori, pleased to meet you.â
Gojoâs smile widened, his blue eyes twinkling with an almost imperceptible amusement. âA pleasure indeed, Miss Itadori.â He returned your curtsy with an elegant nod, his voice smooth and teasing. âI must say, you handle yourself with admirable grace amidst such a tumultuous crowd, my diamond.â
âThank you, Mr. Gojo,â you replied, attempting to regain your composure as you took a sip of your punch. âI do try my best to navigate these social minefields.â
He chuckled softly, the sound light and charming. âIndeed. Though it seems youâve had quite the evening already, judging by your rapid responses to Lord Zenâinâs advances.â
You raised an eyebrow, trying to draw a hint of a smile on your lips. âIt appears youâve been observing closely. Are you always so keenly aware of your surroundings, Mister Gojo?â
âOnly when I find the scene particularly entertaining,â he said, his gaze shifting to watch the guests around the ballroom. âAnd tonight, the spectacle is quite extraordinary. I must admit, you are a refreshing change from the usual parade of predictable manners.â
âPredictable?â you asked, your curiosity somewhat piqued. âDo you find most of the guests here lacking in originality?â
âPerhaps not lacking, but certainly not as intriguing,â he replied with a playful grin. âTake, for instance, Mister Zenâin. A man of considerable ambition, no doubt, but with a flair for the dramatic that grows tiresome rather quickly.â
You nodded in agreement. âYes, he certainly has a penchant for self-promotion. But then, one could argue that every gentleman here has his own brand of theatrics.â
âTrue,â Gojo said, tilting his head slightly. âBut what I find most fascinating is how youâve managed to stand out amidst this display of pomp and circumstance. Itâs not every day one encounters someone who seems so effortlessly poised, even in the face of such overt competition.â
âFlattery will get you everywhere, Mister Gojo,â you said with a light laugh. âBut I assure you, my composure is a carefully cultivated skill, not merely a natural state.â
âAh, then I must commend your efforts,â Gojo said, his eyes gleaming. âIt is a rare talent to maintain such grace under pressure. If I may be so bold, might I request the honor of a dance with you this evening? I promise to provide a diversion from the usual pretenses.â
You hesitated for a moment, weighing the potential benefits of engaging further with this intriguing man against the immediate demands of the evening. Finally, you offered him a meek smile. "Of course. I shall be delighted to dance this waltz with you."
Pleased, he guided you to the center of the ballroom, your hand elegantly placed in his. You couldnât help but feel a sense of triumph as you noticed Lady Mei Meiâs envious glances and the heated stares from other young ladies.
Gojo positioned his hand on your waist as you both assumed the proper stance for the dance. âSo, how are you enjoying your night? I trust youâre finding pleasure amidst the horde of suitors the Queen has so graciously provided.â
You smiled demurely, carefully maneuvering around him. âWell, my lord, I am very grateful to the Queen for her blessing this season.â You took a delicate step, noting Gojoâs amused smile. âHowever, it is quite tiring to meet so many people. Repeating my preferences for the countryside or the city can become rather exhausting.â
Gojoâs smile widened as he guided you through a graceful turn. âAnd which do you prefer?â
âI would argue that the city is preferable when I feel lonely,â you said, gliding with him. âYet the countryside is ideal for moments of solitude and reflection. Naturally, it also serves as a lovely setting for fond memories with a future husband.â
âWhat do you enjoy doing in nature?â.
âEmbroidering or practicing the pianoforte,â you replied, making sure to display a wistful smile. âThere is something particularly enchanting about playing the piano with the door open, letting nature's melody blend with the music.â
âDo you have any other talents or skills?â Gojo inquired as you both continued your dance.
âYes,â you said, âI am fond of reading and immersing myself in literature. I also have a passion for the arts and languages.â
âWhich languages do you speak?â he asked, guiding you through a series of intricate steps.
âI am well-versed in the classics⸺Latin and Greek. Iâve also picked up some French and Spanish, when I was yearning to follow my older brother through Europe for years.â
âWhat about literature? What do you enjoy reading?â Gojo pressed, his eyes never leaving yours.
Your smile grew slightly strained as you felt the conversation veer towards an uncomfortable territory. You felt as if the duke was interviewing you for review of your admission into an academic institution rather than holding conversation. âI enjoy Byron, sir,â you said carefully.
Gojo hummed in approval. âAnd here I was, thinking all ladies were engrossed in Whistledown.â
âAh, well,â you feigned a sigh, your smile tight. âGossip has its charm for a lady, sometimes.â
âFor men, too, I must admit,â Gojo said, tilting his head towards his group of friends. âBut I must confess, it is rather unpleasant when the gossip circulates that I am a rake.â
That's because they're true, you whore. "I guess it's up to the smarter individuals in society to discern the truth from the slander."
Gojoâs eyes twinkled with amusement as he guided you through the final steps of the dance. âIndeed, it seems wisdom and discernment are valuable traits in navigating the labyrinth of societyâs gossip.â
You nodded. âQuite so. It is the discerning few who see beyond the surface and recognize the true character of a person.â
As the music swelled to its concluding notes, Gojo drew you closer, his gaze fixed on you with a calculative expression. âAnd what is it that you seek to convey through your own character, Miss Itadori? In a world full of pretense, what do you wish to be known for?â
You maintained your practiced smile. "Mister Gojo, in a world where appearances often speak louder than words, I find it best to embody grace and humility. I hope to be seen as a gentle and devoted companion, one who supports and uplifts those around her.â
Gojoâs smile only sharpened, and you couldnât help but shake the feeling of somehow being calculated, observed, even hunted as he offered, âA noble aspiration. It is refreshing to encounter someone who values authenticity amidst the artifice.â
As the final strains of the waltz came to an end, Gojo escorted you back to your starting position. He bowed deeply, his eyes never leaving yours. âThank you for the dance, Miss Itadori. It has been an evening of unexpected delights.â
You curtsied in return, your eyes meeting his with a demure and sincere expression. âThe pleasure was mine, my lord. I am honored to have had this opportunity.â
With a final, charming smile, Gojo stepped back, giving you a nod. âUntil we meet again, Miss Itadori. Enjoy the rest of your evening.â
After Gojo had taken his leave, you found yourself once again surrounded by a steady stream of suitors eager to engage you in conversation. You indulged a few with polite discourse, your smile unwavering as you navigated the well-trodden paths of societal pleasantries. Despite your best efforts, fatigue began to set in, and you soon reached your limit.
Deciding to take a brief respite, you excused yourself with practiced grace. You made your way discreetly to the veranda, seeking solace and a breath of fresh air away from the relentless din of the ballroom. As you stepped out into the cool night air, the sound of the revelry faded to a distant murmur, replaced by the gentle rustle of leaves and the faint scent of blooming flowers.
With your mind fresh and clear from the suffocating revelry, you couldn't help but reflect back on the night. With the Queen deeming you as the diamond of the season, you knew your mother and Choso had been appeased. Of course, tomorrow was going to be a long morning; judging by the sheer number of young men approaching you today, you knew many of them would be visiting your drawing room to converse with you and gain the approval of your brother.
There were some suitors that stood out. Lord Ino seemed to take genuine interest in what you had to say, but Mister Fushiguro had both interest and quiet respect that you couldn't help but think was ideal for a marriage. After all, you just wanted a peaceful life after securing yourself and your family. While brief, you had conversed a bit with both Duke Nanami and Lord Geto, but it had been interrupted by some of their friends inviting them onto the terrace. You were sure Naoya wouldn't bother showing his face tomorrow.
That left him. Blue eyes. You couldn't help but think you had heard about him somewhere.Â
Gojo.
Even though you couldn't recall much other than his rakish tendencies, the future title of Duke was certainly attractive and respectable. He wasn't so bad; with dashing looks, you couldn't help but simply think that a pretty face wouldn't be bad to look at for all those years. You snickered to yourself at your sheer display of vanity in your thoughts.
If you had to think of the most vain reasons to justify your suitors, Mister Gojo would definitely top your list of the most handsome of men. With a sturdy and healthy build, you could notice the years of dedication he must put in to maintain his athleticism. Perhaps archery, you thought. Those shoulders were definitely wide for days. Or maybe horse riding. He definitely seemed to fill in his pants with his thighs.
However, it was impossible to ignore his mischievous nature. You couldn't imagine a man such as the future Duke showing any outward display of affection, and all your interactions⸺from him outwitting Naoya, to interviewing you under the pretense of dancing⸺have always had him either besting or calculating the other converser. He definitely had a superiority complex, you rolled your eyes. Clearly, your display of the simple and stupid maiden pleased him. You wondered if he treated all the other ladies with the same level of disrespect and evaluation.
Deciding you were too far into the gardens, you turned the opposite direction to join the revelry once more in fear of attracting strange rumors about your presence in the gardens late at night. As soon as you got closer and closer to the ballroom, you heard voices.
"Ah, but there is the diamond, of course."Â
You perked up, interested in knowing who was talking about you. The voices seemed to be coming from the entrance between the terrace and the ballroom. "Of course, I understand why the Queen has deemed her so." Crouching, you aimed to discreetly hide behind a large trimmed bush in such a manner that if someone were to be passing by, you wouldnât appear suspicious.Â
Another voice chimed in. âShe is beautiful. Not in the salacious way Lady Mei Mei is, but in a more authentic and innocent way.âÂ
âI fear the ladies nowadays are salacious⸺hungry for suitors with money and power⸺so it only makes sense that the ladies appear that way. But the diamond; she is different.â
A slap, as if someone was affectionately patted on the back for attention. âYes, yes. But let the man of the night give us his assessment. After all, he is the one who is here tonight with us, finding a wife, when no one who had ever talked to him would ever think he would be doing such a thing.â
âWell, of course. It wouldnât take a fool to know that marriage is basically imprisonment.â You could discern the speakerâs wry tone. âThe goal here is to appease my parents, and my ticket to that is the diamond.â
âWell, get on with it,â a voice pressed, rather impatiently. âWhatâs your assessment?â
âA bit simpleminded.â Some feeling struck your lungs, as you recognized that it was Gojoâs voice that was speaking. You swallowed, your heart pounding as you waited for more harsh words to torrent upon you. âHas no opinions of substance that should cause conflict. Sheâs perfectly fine for a wife. I shall begin courting her and will soon propose⸺"
You didnât hear the rest because you soon found yourself dashing in the opposite direction, towards an alternate entrance to the ballroom. You couldnât bear to hear any of the more degrading and embarrassing things Gojo had to say about you as you slowed your pace to a fast walk.Â
With the main entrance to the ballroom in sight, you thought about the other gentlemen⸺if you could even call them that⸺that must be present, conversing with Gojo. How widespread are these assessments of you? Do all gentlemen think you stupid? However, your thoughts are interrupted when you bump into someone, rather hard.
âAre you alright?â
You look up, putting a hand to your bosom as you try to catch your breath. You see Duke Nanamiâs face in close proximity, as he furrows his brow in light worry. Youâre clutching your forearms as you are heaving, trying to get oriented. âYes,â you heave. âYes, Your Grace.âÂ
Nanami clearly didnât accept your assurance as he helped you stand to your full height. âIs there anything wrong?â
âNo, no, I assure you; I am quite alri⸺â
âSister! There you are!â Yuji comes up from behind Nanami, and both of you turn to look at him. âIâve been looking for you! The punch here is terrible, some of the mamas here are horribly intoxicated. Do you know Mei Meiâs mother just admit⸺â he cuts himself off as he observes Nanami, whoâs still touching your arms, with wide eyes. âDi⸺Did I interrupt something?â
âNO, you didnât.â You burst out, not wanting yet another man leaving with an unfavorable expression of you tonight. You and Nanami both take a step back to distance yourselves, and he clears his throat.
âGood night, Miss Itadori. Mister Itadori.â He gives you both curt bows as he makes his way past to his carriage.
Yuji blinks. âOookay. Anyways. Mei Meiâs mother just barfed on top of Naoya as she was buttering him up. I must admit, Mei Mei and Naoya make a formidable match in being intolera⸺â
You could feel yourself filtering Yuji out as you thought about the gentlemenâs gossip from earlier. While you werenât exactly surprised that Gojo appraised you as a pawn, you couldnât help but be a little offended that he could talk behind your back. Whoâs to predict the other naive ladies that would be subject to his callous and calculative behavior?
 There was only one conclusion to be drawn that you swear to remember for the rest of the season: Gojo was not a man of honor, and you were not going to be one of his victims.Â
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Ice-Head Gill was a fun little introductory read for a first chapter. The storyboarding could definitely use some polishing but beyond that I think it has some decent promise to.
Fingers crossed it doesnât crash and burn like Red Hood and Earthchild did nor go full GOTTA GO FAST like Ginka and Gluna decided to do right out the gate.
#manga#armi reads manga#r/manga seems to be divided on this first chapter#i'm not sure where they're getting the 'too much text' complaint from tho...?#like i honestly didn't get that impression while reading it#besides there being quite a number of miniature panels but again that's a storyboarding issue#but this is its own thing so i'm not expecting it to dump walls of info text like hxh does#also re 'nO pOweR sYStEM' well yeah no shit there isn't one (yet) we just got the first chapter sit down lol#i'll stick around for the ride#so here's hoping we get more interesting character designs
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let me keep you company
a/n: a wee break from the doom & gloom of wtssf! it's unedited so i want no flack for that thank u <3 enjoy <3 wc: 5.1k whoops synopsis: You're studying in Velaris and a certain Shadowsinger catches your eyes in more than one way. It takes a while to realise the shadow keeping you company means more than you expect.
For the record, you had never met a Shadowsinger before.
You'd never even seen one. Sure, youâd read about them briefly in your studies and almost every Fae in Prythian had heard about them in whispers and rumours.
Rumours that increased more so when a Shadowsinger rose to become a hand for the Highlord, his own personal spy. Then became the spymaster of the entire Night Court for the next Highlord.
But beyond gossip and unfinished chapters within the scripts of your libraries, the knowledge of Shadowsingers is far limited. Theyâre rare. For all you know, Shadowsingerâs are a ghostâ moving as a shadow, disappearing in and out of the darkness of the world.
You had never met a Shadowsinger beforeâso it makes sense that you hadn't an ounce of a clue what to expect.
Staring at him now, 6 feet something of pure muscle, you're a bit embarrassed at your own surprise.
Because he's probablyâ no definitelyâ the most beautiful Fae you've ever laid eyes on. His hair is tousled and dark, his glorious tan skin that's mostly hidden beneath the black of his fighter leathers, and his amber eyes that laid on you for only one long moment. Breathtaking is the only adequate word for him.
All that beauty and he's a Shadowsinger.
And it's not like you thought he wouldn't be like, well, any other Fae. But also... you kinda did? Mother, you should've known Freya was tricking you when she said they were all just shadow-y corporeal forms.
But she's also not entirely wrong there. There are dozens of wispy shadows that hover around him in constant motion, dipping and flying around his shoulders and if you look close enough, you can see how he seems to ripple at the edges. Shadows blur the edge of his very being.
You wonder if he can disappear into them all together, if that was one of the abilities granted with them. Does he control them? He must, you think, if the title is Shadowsinger.
But looking at him now, his beautiful face turned to face the Highlord you should definitely be listening to, they flit about almost absentmindedly, as though they have a mind of their own.
One curls up by his ear and you watch it, fascinated, more and more questions springing up in your mindâ what do they feel like on skin? Do they make any noise? Is that what they're doing now? Talking toâ
A sharp elbow jabs into your side, making you jump.
Your head whips to the side, an instinctive scowl almost overtaking your face before you plaster it over with a smile, realising your mistake. Your mentor, Sergei, clears his throat and smiles awkwardly ahead at Rhysand. You blink and take another moment to realise you've been asked a question.
"I'mâ I'm sorry, could you repeat that?" You try not to sound as mousy as you feel but the question comes out as a squeak anyway. He is the Highlord of the Night Court after all. You suddenly feel very foolish for being so easily distracted.
Thankfully, Rhysand regards you with an easy smile. He's leaned back in his chair, relaxed, and his violet eyes dance with humour as he flicks his gaze over to where you had just been staring.
"That's alright. Azriel is a piece of eye candy, I can't blame you for staring," He all but purrs, a hint of mirth pulling at his lips as he casts another glance at his Spymaster. You're taken aback by the casualness of his words.
Rhysand continues. "I was only saying that for the duration of your stay, you'll be hosted in one of my homes, the House of Wind. You aren't afraid of heights, are you?"
A smidge of fear pinches at your stomach because, honestly, you aren't overly keen on the idea. But you know better than to turn down the generosity of a Highlord.
You take another glance at the wings of his Spymaster and General and pray that it's not too high up.
"Not... much." You answer honestly.
There's a chuckle from the side of the room and your head swings around at the noise. It's not the Shadowsinger, though he looks as though he's politely trying not to smile, his chin ducked. It's the General, just as beautiful as his brother but in that more rugged way.
He flexes his wings out a bit, showing off their mighty wingspan. "We'll rid you of that fear in no time."
You try for a smile but it might be closer to a grimace.
"Fantastic." You say, not managing to put all your enthusiasm into the word like you hoped.
Another sharp jab of Sergei's elbow in your side. The Shadowsinger, Azriel, huffs a quiet laugh, his amber eyes flashing up to steal another look at you. You try your best not to fluster.
It's going to be a long two months.
â
As Sergei's apprentice, you're expected to shadow him through his allowed time within Velaris.
Which means if he goes to the library, you go to the library.
There's just one problem; the library is down in the city and your temporary home is up in the mountain. The quickest way down is with wings.
Rhysandâ or just Rhys as he had told you to call himâ had relayed the information that you could ask either Cassian or Azriel to escort you if you didn't wish to take the stairs.
Cassian, the General, had been the one to fly you down and back the first couple of times you had asked and you weren't in any particular hurry to relive the experience.
Cassian was nice and he was more than friendly but seemingly incapable of understanding any fear of heights. You weren't sure if that was just the only way to flyâ swooping and dropping fast enough to make you shriekâ but it certainly seemed to be Cassian's way.
Which leaves you with the option of either asking the Shadowsinger or taking the stairs.
You get down about two hundred steps before you start to regret your decision. But, also, how in the Cauldron were you supposed to ask him to take you? (Never mind that you had asked Cassian quite easily, albeit very nervously.)
Oh, hi Shadowsinger who I can't stop staring at for both your abilities and your handsome faceâcare to sweep me into your arms and carry me places?
As if, you snort to yourself.
You take the thousand stairs all the way to the bottom and trot towards the enormous library, pretending your thighs aren't aching with overuse or that you're out of breath. Thankfully, the library itself isn't too far from the House of Wind, carved into the same side of the mountain.
As expected, Sergei is less than pleased with your tardiness.
"Sorry," The word rushes out of you in a wheeze, probably too loud for the library, as you scuttle in the entrance. A few priestesses turn their heads to look at you and you cringe, raising your hands in apology. "Sorry, I'm sorry,"
You focus back on your mentor and try to catch your breath, all while you explain. "I took the stairs and it tookâ" You huff out a breath. "âway longer than I thought."
Sergei's face softens a bit at your explanation, his face taking on a pitiful smile. "Still not enjoying the flying?"
"You are?" You ask in response. The thought of Sergei, your old-Fae mentor, swept up in Cassian's arms as he dips and dives makes you chuckle just a bit.
Sergei shakes his head as if to change the topic of conversation, deciding you've wasted enough time already. He turns, beginning to head further into the library and you follow behind him closely, eager to brush over your early morning fumble. The cavernous structure within the mountain yawns out ahead of you and you get all of two moments to wonder just how deep down it goes, whenâ
"You did not ask for a ride this morning."
Azriel steps up beside you, seemingly from nowhere, his steps falling in time with yours with ease. You jump, startled, and your footsteps falter for a moment. You're relieved to say that you only make one embarrassing noise in your surprise.
"Iâ oh, it'sâ I mean, I just..." You trail off, feeling flustered. "...like to walk."
You chance a glance up at him. He's wearing that same polite expression from yesterday, as though he's trying not to laugh and you get too caught up in the swirlings of his shadows to remember to be properly embarrassed. Both of you walk in tandem behind Sergei, slowly descending into the lower levels of the library.
"If you insist," He says, his voice low. It sends something warm down your spine and you pray he doesn't notice how your body temperature is definitely climbing.
His amber eyes pin you with another look, his lips twitching into a small smile. "However, if Cassian is giving you trouble, I would be happy to provide a smoother ride."
You flounder for a moment. You don't want to get anyone in trouble.
"Iâ he's not giving me trouble," You stammer.
Azriel smiles a little wider as if he can tell how polite you're trying to be. He slows to a meander and you realise only after you walk past him, it's because Sergei has stopped himself, turning down one of the many aisles.
You skid yourself to a halt and turn back, praying your flaming face isn't as obvious as it feels. You're not entirely sure if Azriel is accompanying you today but you're sure that Sergei would've mentioned it if he was.
You dip your head in a strange, awkward bow motion. Then point to the aisle Sergei disappeared into.
"I'll be... going this way."
Azriel's smile grows, like you've told a joke, and he ducks his head. He peers up at you through his dark lashes and you wonder if anyone's ever told him how damn beautiful he is. Probably. You're probably the last in a long line of people. Mother, his eyes though.
"If you don't wish to make the hike the other way," He murmurs.
He extends one of his hands and you watch the dozen shadows swarm around it, one of them separating from the pack to dive to the ground. It shoots forward and spins around your ankle, almost happily. "Just let the shadow know. I would be happy to assist."
When you look back up, heâs already gone without a sound. You try not to look so surprisedâ youâve seen someone winnow before but youâre almost certain that the way Azriel moved about silently was something else altogether.
âY/n!â Sergeiâs voice echoes down the shelves, reminding you that youâre still late. You throw a quick glance around to check but it's fruitless; you canât see the Shadowsinger anywhere.
You turn and bustle down the aisle quickly, not wanting to keep Sergei any longer. It takes only a second to notice the sole, black shadow that dances along behind you.
Guess you have company.
â
Okay, so, the shadows are definitely their own little guys.
Mainly because you canât imagine how Azriel would be controlling them when heâs nowhere in sight.
And this one shadow is being awfully helpful.
The first time you drop your quill, knocking it to the ground as you lean over one of the many intricately carved desks, trying to reach another book, you donât even notice it fall to the ground.
In fact, you have no idea how many times itâs picked up your fallen quill that youâve undoubtedly knocked over countless timesâ only that it had given you the fright of your life to have it hover before your face, gripped only by the wispy shadow Azriel left with you.
âHoly shit!â You gasp, your loud voice echoing in the quietness of the library.
Sergei's head whips up, his eyes narrowing at the intruding sound with evident disapproval. You quickly snatch the quill out of mid-air and sink down in your seat. Gods, the echoes in here were doing you no favours.
âSorry,â You whisper. Your eyes dart down to the shadow that retreated to your side, flickering around your ankle more wildly. âEr, thanks.â
It feels a bit silly to give thanks to something youâre not sure can hear you. But you figure if it can pick up your quill, you're better off using your manners.
Sergei gives you a somewhat bewildered look and you try to appease him with an awkward smile. It works enough for him to continue his work but not without one more lingering glance of worry in your direction. Great. You're talking to shadows and your old-man mentor thinks you're a bit nuts.
The shadow continues its helpful endeavours, following you when you head down different aisles at Sergei's request. It dances across the shelves, dissolving occasionally just to puff back up somewhere else, pulling your attention this way and that. It's playful. Friendly.
You deduce by the end of the day that you know even less about Shadowsinger's than you had thought. The abilities and personality of just one shadow are uncanny; like a silent friend keeping you company. You imagine that Azriel rarely gets lonely with as many as he has. Maybe you'll ask him.
When Sergei and you wind back up the staircases and he dismisses you for the evening, heading into the city for his own further business, you stand at the mouth of the library and ponder if you'll be brave enough to summon the Shadowsinger.
The shadow is still with you, circling your wrist absently. You peer down at it and think of all those stairs. Somewhat nervously, you raise your hand and try to be as casual as possible about talking to a shadow on your hand.
"Hi." You start, trying not to feel foolish. "Um, well, I guess I'm done for the day. Couldâ could you, if he's not busy that is, uh, let Azriel know? I don't mind waiting if he is."
The shadow zips off barely before you can finish your sentence and your head swings to watch it go, disappearing somewhere to your left.
You can't help but be a little amazed at its speedâit must be an incredible networking system to have a thousand little spies running around for you. No wonder almost all Shadowsingers tend to end up in the same line of work, you think to yourself, still peering in the direction of the shadow whenâ
"Y/n."
Even though he's said your name soft and quiet, Azriel still manages to take you by surprise. You jump and turn, all in one motion.
"Mother!" Your hand holds over your chest, relief curling in at the sides as your fright ebbs away. "That was fast."
"You called," Azriel responds, as if it's the easiest thing in the world. He gives you an almost shy smile.
It makes you fluster a bit and you gesture to the exit awkwardly and wordlessly, if only so you don't have to come up with a response to his intense and endearing answer.
Together, you wander out from the library and creep towards the edge of Velaris. It's a beautiful city and more than deserving of its title, especially when viewed from the House of Wind. You turn and cast your eyes up the mountainside, your familiar nervous fear pitching up from your stomach.
Then you look at the warrior beside you, tall enough that he's got what feels like more than a head's height on you, with his wings reaching above even his own head. His jaw is sharp and his eyes are already on you as your gaze trails up his face. Fuck. He's really pretty.
Now you're nervous for an entirely different reason.
"We can still take the stairs if you wish," He says, his hand sweeping back to the path you had followed along this morning. His shadows move with his hands, a black vortex that whirls around and around. "I'd be more than happy to keep you company."
Mother, he's not helping you in the slightest, being so perfectly nice to you. You regard the stairs and think back to how many hours it took before your thighs stopped achingâand that was on the way down.
"No, we can- we can try flying again." You say, nodding to yourself as if it'll help quell your fear. It takes another moment to realise that means you'll be bundled up in his strong arms, held against his broad chest and you feel a little shiver run through your body at the thought.
Azriel notices it too, his eyebrows knitting together in concern. "You're sure?" He checks.
You nod, not meeting his eyes, trying to keep your nerve. Flying is already something you're not keen on. Flying whilst being swept up in the arms of a Shadowsinger who you think is the most beautiful Fae you've ever seen? You send a silent prayer to the Mother that you don't do something embarrassing, like puking down his front.
"Let me know if you're uncomfortable at any time," He says softly and then he bends his knees slightly, one of his scarred hands resting on your lower back as the other scoops beneath your knees. He lifts you as though you weigh nothing.
It's impossible not to flush as you get nestled against his firm chest, your hands panicking for a moment as you try to think of a normal place to put them. Around his neck? On his chest? Either of them feels far too intimate for a man you've known only a week.
"You don't have to but I would suggest holding on," Azriel comments with a smile, his chest vibrating with the words. You nod, agreeing with him, but don't make a move to do so, only holding your hands out in front of you to indicate you're not sure where to put them.
The shadows adorning his shoulders move on their own, their friendly presence easing your nerves as they slither down to circle around your wrists. There's a gentle tug and you let them move your hands til they're wrapped around Azriel's neck, moving you much closer in the process.
Gods, your faces are close together. Another couple of inches and you could probably press your lips to his perfect onesâa thought that makes you fluster all over again. Was he getting prettier every time you saw him? For not the first time, you thank the Mother that it was Rhys with the daemaeti gift and not Azriel.
"Ready?" He checks, which is sweet. Cassian had just shot up into the sky the first time, without any warning.
You grip your arms around his neck a little tighter and then nod. "Ready," You say, quieter than intended.
You catch just a moment of Azriel's demure smile, your heart swooping at the sight, before you're both launched into the sky with one flap of his wings.
The noise that escapes you is one you're less than proud of, a squawky sound noise of panic that you bury into Azriel's neck. You expect him to laugh like Cassian had, not meanly but playfully, but instead Azriel's arms just tighten around you. As if he was assuring you that he would not let you fall.
By the time you're up at the House of Wind, Azriel making a far more graceful descent than his brother, you're less freaked out and more ready to point some accusatory fingers in the face of the Night Court's General.
That bastard had been fucking with you! The flight with Azriel proved as much, considering how much calmer and smoother it had been. You couldn't help but say as much as you were placed down from Azriel's hold, glad to be back on solid ground.
"I have some words for Cassian, Mother above," You ramble, straightening out your rumpled clothes from the flight. "Did he think I was kidding when I said I was afraid?"
Azriel smiles at your fieriness, his shadows calmer than they were in flight, moving about lazily. His eyes take a fleeting glance at the house behind you before focusing intently back on you.
"Cassian can have a strange sense of humour at times. He means well." He says. Then he grins. "I should like to see you tell him offâ not enough people do."
You hmph. "Maybe I will."
You suddenly realise the closeness between you and Azriel, close enough to feel the warmth of his body. His scent of cedar and mist swirls around you, tantalizing and alluring in a way you've never known before. You take a step back to contain yourself.
"Iâuh, well, thank you very much." You say, as sweet as you can. "For the ride."
Your eyes catch on one of his dozen shadows and you smile, observing them for a moment. "And the shadow. It was excellent company."
Azriel brightens, an expression of surprise crossing his face before he schools it away. He smiles, brazen and breathtaking. When he speaks, he sounds a little disbelieving. "You like them?"
You nod quickly, noticing how one of his shadows has snuck off again and circulates your ankle speedily. You laugh at the ticklish feeling of it against your skin.
"They're incredible." You breathe, meaning every word. "I imagine you must've geâ"
"Apologies, y/n." A smooth voice cuts in, Rhys stepping up somewhere behind you and stealing both of your attention. He dressed in more casual clothes than you last saw, but not quite Azriel's fighting leathers. "Azriel here is needed for some brief business. Do you mind if I borrow him?"
The way he poses the question, as if Azriel is yours, does something wonky to your heart. You flounder for a moment, stepping back and waving your hand in the direction of the Shadowsinger.
"Of- of course, by all means." You trip over the words and hope you don't sound too eager to escape his company. That couldn't be more untrue.
You turn back to Azriel and fix him with a smile, hoping it's not as nervous as you feel. "I'll... see you around?"
Azriel steals a glance to the side where Rhys awaits before he nods with another reserved smile. Hold on, is that pink on his cheeks?
"Let me know if you need any more help getting to and from the library. I'd be happy to assist."
And then with a quick nod to you, he walks off to join Rhys, his wings tucked in tight, careful to not nudge you. You watch them go, unable to stop yourself from letting your eyes wander down. Damn, all that training did wonders. What was that saying? Hate to watch 'em go, love to watch them leave.
Ahead, Rhys abruptly laughs and peers back over his shoulder, letting you exactly how well you had shielded those thoughts. You flush and scurry into the house as if it'll save you from the embarrassment of what's just happened. You only hope he won't pass the message on to Azriel.
â
It continues like that for the rest of the week.
Azriel carries you down the height of the mountain and leaves you with a promise that if you need anything, you can tell the shadow and he'll come to find you.
The shadow keeps its usual playful company. Beyond retrieving your dropped quills, it helpfully turns the pages of books for you. When you're focused on what you're writing, it nudges back any loose strands of hair. Once it even brings you a flower from Mother knows where. One single Lily of the Valley, left resting on your desk.
It makes you wonder; are all Shadowsinger's shadows like this? You can't help but imagine these niceties are shaped by Azriel's own soft nature.
Today, whilst you study in the vast caverns of the library, you get an unexpected visitor.
As you take your time scanning through the books in one of the vast aisles, you realise the Fae coming down from the other end of the aisle is none other than the Highlady herself.
"Feyre!" You greet warmly. The two of you had met before when she had taken duties in your home court and if it weren't too bold, you'd say you consider yourself good friends. Feyre smiles, glowing like moonlight, as she realises who it is.
"Y/n," She says your name sweetly and her hug is just as such. She pulls away, ready to inquire about your studies when she spots the trailing shadow behind you.
"Making friends, I see," She comments. Her eyebrows raise almost teasingly as if she's made a certain insinuation. You take a moment to notice what she's referencing.
"It's nice," You say, a defensive lilt to your tone. You hold out your hand and the shadow jumps at the opportunity to skitter around it playfully. "It's like a little friend."
Feyre smiles at your words but chuckles a little. "Except Azriel is anything but little."
You pause at her words, glancing down at the shadow and back up at Feyre. "What do you mean? I thoughtâ they're not- I mean, aren't they...?â
You trail off, unsure of how to word the question you're trying to ask. Feyre smiles, her gray eyes glittering with mirth as she realises what you're figuring out.
"They're all his. Azriel's. He controls them." She tilts her head a bit, watching the shadow that drifts about your hand and wrist. "True, they roam a bit on their own but... Not like this."
"Oh," You murmur, thinking back to that first day in the library.
The playful shadow that lead you back and forth, picking up your quill and turning your pages. It was him, all along.
Something immeasurably warm starts to glow in your chest, a thread that loops through your heart and sends the valves into overdrive. Its warmth grows, something molten hot beginning to bleed in your chestâ and it feels wonderful. It feels right.
"Oh," You gasp as you figure it out.
Feyre grins, watching you piece together what the rest of the inner circle has clued together from the very first day. She stands to the side and gestures to the entrance of the library with a tilt of her head.
"Go on then," She urges you.
For a moment, you think back to Sergei who sent you hunting for a certain manuscript Cauldron knows how long ago but the thought is washed away in an instant. You can feel it now, the strong tug in your chest. The connection that binds you to another.
You stride past Feyre, giving a quick thanks! and all but run up the spiral staircases, heading for the entrance. The shadow pings along with you and as you near the top, you look down at it and say through huffed breaths, "You better go get him."
He's waiting by the time you get there.
Against the setting sun, for a moment there's only the silhouette of himâ a warrior with tall wings, the edges of him rippling like a mirage. He might just be one; an oasis in your life, the answer that you've been searching for for centuries. You can't believe you didn't notice.
Your footsteps echo on the marble as you march right up to him and Azriel watches you closely the whole time, his amber eyes soft but his expression hinting at his nervousness. Gods, he's wonderful. You can't believe he gets to be yours and you get to be his.
"How long have you known?" You ask because it's the first thing on your mind. You're nearly panting from the exhilaration of your sudden exercise, from the dawning future that's blooming right in front of you. He's your mate. Gods, how could you have missed it?
Azriel smiles, that same tentative one that's been driving you crazy all week. His wings give a little shake behind him, a giveaway of his nerves.
"I... suspected from the beginning." He chooses his words carefully, wary of how you might respond.
You can't help your little gasp, feeling even more of a fool. You curse, ducking your head before you glare back up at him, no real heat in your gaze. You have the urge to give him a little shove, just for keeping you in the dark.
"And you didn't think to tell me?"
One of his shadows spins up unexpectedly, dancing across your shoulders and tickling your cheeks gently. You startle in surprise but something sweeter curls up in your chest at the tenderness of its touch.
"Believe me," Azriel says with a quiet chuckle, his amber eyes darting over your face intensely. "I've been trying."
You melt. Eyes locked with his, you move slowly, letting your arms drift up to drape around his neck like they've done every morning and evening since he began flying you around. You realise acutely that Cassian's behaviour, his shoddy flying, had likely been on purpose. You laugh a little, eyes creasing shut in pure euphoria.
Azriel's hands find your waist and you can feel the slight tremble in them.
"In my defense," You murmur, pushing up on your toes. You're close, so close, your lips hovering just an inch from a kissâhis shadows go wild around you both. It makes you grin. "I had never met a Shadowsinger before."
"Yeah?" Azriel breathes shakily. "Disappointed?"
He says it like a joke but you can hear the note of sincerity in his tone. His hidden worry that he isn't all you dreamed of. It's nearly laughable how wrong he is.
This close you can see his long lashes and every shade of brown in his eyes. You wonder if you'll ever get used to how beautiful he is. Part of you hopes you never do.
"Not in the slightest," You say, nearly a whisper.
Then his lips are on yours, pillowy soft skin against yours, and it feels like coming home. He kisses you, kisses you, kisses you til you're breathless and the glow in your chest could rival the sun in its warmth.
He kisses you and every atom in your body hums and fizzes and comes to life â and all you can do is hold him tight and kiss him back, just as fiercely.
Breaking the kiss to catch your breath, you pant and grin brazenly at Azriel, at your mate, happier than you've ever been. Faintly, you realise that you won't be heading home when the two months of your study are up after all.
Not when you have a man who looks at you so reverently, who kisses you like there's oxygen hidden in the plush of your lips, who holds you like there's nothing more precious in the world.
Not when you know that home is right here, in front of you.
#YIPPEE! written in like... 3 days#no editing less go#love it or leave it#a break from all the doom and gloom of wtssf#azriel#azriel shadowsinger#azriel x reader#azriel shadowsinger x reader#azriel x you#acotar fanfiction#azriel fic#azriel fanfic#azriel acotar#azriel shadowsinger x you#sloane writes
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I am floored. Wow. What a finale!! Now thatâs what I call stranger danger lmao! I have never seen the show it was inspired from so I really had no idea what to expect! This was an amazing suspenseful journey. Thank you so much for your work! I loved reading it! đ
Strangers (Chapter Ten)
Strangers from Hell AU
Series Masterlist
pairing: ot7 x reader
genre: yandere, horror/thriller
word count: 6.7k
warnings (lmk if i missed anything!): unreliable narrator, murder, mature themes, minor character death, obsessive/possessive behavior, emotional manipulation, stalking, bullying, violence against women, blood and injuries, mc has some self-deprecating thoughts, mc is lowkey in denial.
The day stretched on for what felt like hours but in reality was only about two before the sun had finally begun to set. The weather had been so weird, bright and sunny despite the dark clouds looming in the background. Something told you that the storm you sensed coming previously was finally about to arrive - just in time, too.
You had stared out the window of the hotel as Nayeon paced on the floor in front of the bed. She had been mumbling things here and there, reaching for her phone a few times before ultimately changing her mind. She didnât like to be out of control of the situation, that much you could tell. You had never seen your best friend so stressed - not even during exam week - and you have to admit you didnât like it. She had always been so sure of herself for as long as you had known her. If anything, this just emphasized the seriousness of the situation.
Youâre sure you probably looked too blasĂŠ about the situation, a blank expression on your face as you rested your head on your knees. The truth was you just felt numb, having gone through so many emotions these past days already. This past month had taken a tremendous toll on you, the lack of sleep and stress finally catching up to you. You had no idea what the outcome would be after tonight but you found it hard to care. Jail almost sounded better than whatever awaited you both at the residence, but you werenât exactly ready to go running to the police station right now anyway. Besides, you didnât want to find out what Namjoon would do if you went against his wishes.
âFuck it, Iâm calling them.â Nayeon finally broke, picking her phone up off the bed and swiping at it.
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#and now for my scheduled tag screaming#disappointed but not surprised by nayeon trying to turn yn into the policeâŚjust for jihoon mind you#though now we know she pretty much hated yn this whole time like wowâŚshe really let it all out and DIDNT expect to get stabbed#did she and jihoon deserve death objectively and morally no but am I satisfied by their death yes lmao#honestly nayeon blaming yn for their situation when the gag is her and jihoon probably could have avoided dying by being upfront w her#and cutting ties w her therefore avoiding namjoon and companyâs wrath#but they saw they were cheating and said ew no đŞđŞđŞ the long game is over and we want justice for yn NOW#so really nayeon and jihoon did this to themselves I try to justify as obviously these STRANGERS are murderers out of their mind#also jungkook breaking the door down w an axe smoking made me think of the shining! đ I wish I had photoshop lmao!#just like Noona! youâre back!! :D and he doesnt think thatâs horrifying lmfao#and the revelation yn had about strangersâŚshout-out to that old man on the bus on chapter oneâŚsorry yn#and how yn looked at her situation in a new light like omg I was in this dingy apartment hanging out w these SEVEN STRANGERS for a month?!#and how they all came together justâŚgod it must be rough to be yn. im guessing they tried to find their missing piece w first girl and soomi#and that didnât work CLEARLY#detective lee too never stood a chance#yn seeing Hobi shift first hand too like đ sorry heâs just like the rest of them!!#and letâs not forget the best/biggest moment of all when yn realizes sheâs the one who stabbed nayeon#cinematic marvelous show stopping spectacular lmao all the good words!! she ran to Taehyung bc she needed to do it herself lmfao#like MOVE TAE ILL SHOW THIS BITCH A FUCKING VIRUS!!!!#and the fact the guys had to pull her off from her like security!! she was out of it!!#and them comforting her while tying her up and BREAKING HER ANKLE OH GOD#THAT REALLY SOUNDS LIKE HELL đ#so my money was right in fact and Taehyung and Namjoon are indeed the most fucked up of the bunch -throws confetti- âŚyaaayâŚđĽ˛#also yoongi didnât even hesitate he just slit jihoons throat !! horror movie !!#the whole bit namjoon said talking about yns anger. it was always there and never left that really hit thinking back on all the chapters#crazy yn rise !! i like this yn very much and it was such a treat reading her#she was refreshing and interesting to read!! and tbh hindsight is 20/20 girl itâs okay!! i probably wouldnât catch on either til itâs too l8#Iâm sad to see itâs over but Iâm so happy I got to read this to the end!!#thank you again for this story!! i will be thinking about it for quite some time!! it has been so fun reading this from chapter one!#Iâm hoping youâre having a great start to your new year!!
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[SUMMARY: Joel catches you reading smut. ]
Smut, age difference
(Post outbreak)
âItâs nothinâ to be embarrassed about, darlinââ he stepped closer as you clutched your book tighter.
âIâm not embarrassedâ you lied, of course you were. The man you had just been fantasizing about caught the very sexual things you were reading.â
When Tommyâs older brother had arrived, you didnât know what to expect. Tommy was a close friend of your fatherâs who recently passed away, he promised you that he would do his part in keeping you safe and letting you stay with him. He had never really mentioned having a brother and so you were curious to see who this man was. You had only heard the rumors going around, Maria informed you they were privately having a drink together and catching up
âIs he nice?â You asked curiously as Maria helped you clean the kitchen.
âIâve only heard things about him from Tommy, havenât had a chance to be around him long enough to see what heâs like for myself.â
Just as she finished her sentence the doors opened with Tommy walking in first. Following behind was a man you figured to be his brother. The man had thick waves like Tommy, with hints of grey. He was handsome just like his brother but you could see a very big difference simply in the eyes.
âThis is my older brother, Joelâ Tommy introduced him to you . For the first time since he walked into the room his eyes locked with yours with a polite nod.
âNice to meet youâ you spoke softly.
He would be lying to himself if he said he didnât find you attractive the second he laid eyes on you. But Joel could tell you were young and he had never even thought of being with someone around your age and so he ignored the attraction. Being with anyone was honestly the last thing on his mind.
âIâm gonna continue showinâ Joel around, introducing him to othersâ Tommy looked at both you and Maria before walking out. The second you turned to Maria she could already tell you liked him by the way you had been blushing.
âOh no, honey. Joel is a no goâ
âWhat?â
âI see that look in your eye and trust me that ainât the way you wanna goâ
âYou donât even know him, said so yourself!â You chuckled in disbelief by her response.
âWell, Iâve heard enough things to know thatâs not what you want nor what you need.â
Joel cleared his throat turning back at the door he had just walked out of.
âWhoâs-â before he could finish, Tommy turned and stopped him right in his tracks.
âThatâs a daughter of a close friend of mine. Sheâs only twenty two and just lost her dadâŚdonât -â
âI wasnât thinkinâ about anything like that. Just a simple questionââ Joel responded defensively.
âBesides, I ainât the one whoâs been known for hookinâ up with college girlsâ Tommy couldnât help but laugh at Joelâs comment.
âTimes have changed huhâ
âSure haveâ Joel uttered as Tommy continued on the tour of where he would be staying before leaving with him a few sweats and t shirts.
Later that night you found yourself having trouble to sleep and so you did as you usually would when trying to sleep.
Read a book.
It wasnât just any book, a book filled with romance and erotic sex. Your guilty pleasure in things youâve found over time and would hide away. When everyone was asleep youâd sit in the living room where it was cooler, by yourself on the couch lost in each chapter until that night you found yourself not alone.
The sound of a door opening causing you to quickly sit up from the comfortable position you were in to find Tommyâs brother Joel coming out of his room.
âSorry, I thought no one was upâ
âItâs fine, I was just gonna go to my room-â you closed your book noticing he seemed a bit restless.
âYa donât gotta leave, itâs fine. I just-â he seemed to get lost in what he wanted to say, not knowing where he was going.
âAdjusting to your first night hereâ you continued for him.
âIâm used to movinâ around, just hasnât been this peaceful in a whileâ he explained. An awkward silence followed as you stood still before you sighed.
âWanna have a drink with me?â Your unexpected offer making him furrow his brows.
âI donât think-â
âIâm over twenty one. Not that it mattersâ you laughed.
âI donât usually drink but one glass isnât gonna hurtâ you continued as you found your way to the bar. Placing your book down on the table you turned your back to him as you grabbed two glasses. Joel quietly followed, stopping at the table to take a look at the book you were reading. As you searched for the bottle of whiskey Joel curiously opened the book on the page you were on. His eyes quickly finding the vulgar words you read, realizing you were reading porn. A quick glance at a detailed sentence of a womanâs breasts bouncing in a manâs face making him clear his throat and quickly close the book.
âFound itâ he looked up to find you bent over reaching for the bottle. Just as you turned to him he adjusted his eyes and rubbed the back of his neck as you began to pour.
âYou sure you should be doinâ thisâ he leaned on the bar as you stood on the other side.
âWhat are you gonna do? Tell Tommy?â You teased followed with a laugh.
âIâm not a little girl, Joel. Iâve had plenty of drinks beforeâ he stood silent as you looked at him. You seemed so innocent, too innocent to be reading about fucking. The sentence in the book crossing his mind again as you took a sip of your drink causing his eyes to slowly find their way to your breasts that were covered by a thin t shirt you wore. He wondered if you pictured yourself in these stories and thatâs when he found himself wondering what your breasts looked like.
âArenât you gonna drink it?â Your voice making him quickly look up as he felt his cock begin to swell up. Without saying a word he quickly chugged down his drink and stood up, thankful that the bar was between the both of you leaving you unaware of the erection he had pushing against his sweats.
âYou ok?â You asked.
âMhm, goinâ ta bedâ he quickly turned away walking back to his room as you stood a bit confused. Feeling as if you may have said something wrong or offended him in some way, you shrugged it off and went back to reading. Joel lay in bed knowing you were just outside probably still reading that fucking porn. The more he thought about it the more he wanted to burst. Trying to ignore it he turned over in bed trying to shut his eyes hoping his hard on would just go away but of course it didnât. Cursing at himself he turned on his back staring at the ceiling. What would be the harm in jerking himself off to you just once? Itâs not like you would know. Untying his sweats he pushed his pants down far to expose his cock. Spitting on his hand he began to stroke himself, closing his eyes thinking about you. Picturing you asking him to fuck you, picturing how your body must feel. Joel continued for some time, his imagination wandering as he began to breathe heavily feeling himself about to cum. His hand moving faster, his lips apart, a vein bulging out of his neck just as he came heavily all over his hand.
He moaned deeply pressing his lips together tightly looking down out of breath as his hand stroked his shaft once more. Throwing his head back he sighed, he wasnât proud of himself but he fucking needed that.
The next morning you sat at the breakfast table talking with Maria, you hadnât told her about seeing Joel in the middle of the night but you found yourself thinking about it.
You found yourself thinking about him.
Joel walked into the living room to find you at the table next to Maria, the two of you seemed very into whatever you were talking about.
âWell good morningâ Maria greeted him as he stood by the table. You couldnât help but notice he was dressed in a jacket ready to go out into the cold.
âMorninâ, whereâs Tommy?â
âIâll go get him so he can show you whatâs in store for todayâ she smiled before leaving the room as you awkwardly sat across from him taking a sip from your mug. Looking to the side he cleared his throat before the sound of your voice caught his attention.
âHowâd you sleep?â
âGoodâ he stared at you for a moment remembering what he had done last night. Remembering the images he had of you in his head and how it made him feel.
âDo you want coffee? Found some of the bestâ You asked softly.
âSureâ he watched as you stood up and turned around, his eyes dropping right to your ass. A part of him not understanding himself, he knew you were young, he never looked at a woman your age this way before. The silence was awkward, you could feel his eyes on you with your back to him.
âShit-â you dropped the cup on the floor breaking it into four large pieces. He quickly walked towards you, crouching to your level.
âItâs fine, I got it. Just clumsy sometimesâ the two of you unexpectedly grabbing one piece together. His hand over yours, the touch of your skin intensifying his desire for you just as Tommy walked into the room with Maria. Quickly you both stood up looking away from one another as Tommy furrowed his brows.
âWhat happened here?â
âI dropped it by accident, sorry Tommy. Iâll pick it upâ you grabbed a broom as Tommy shrugged.
âThatâs alright. Joel-â his eyes turned to his brother.
âThereâs a few things I want to show you today, letâs get goingâ Joel nodded and followed his brother out of the room while Maria stood by the door squinting her eyes at you.
âMmmhmâ
You rolled your eyes at her playfully before she walked away leaving you alone.
That evening you helped make dinner with Maria as you usually would a few nights out of the week. Tommy and Joel sat talking together as you and Maria began to bring the food to the table. Joelâs eyes instantly turning between you and his brother with distraction before he quickly stood up to help you with the bowl of food.
âOh thank you, Joelâ you smiled as he set the food down.
âNo, thank you, darlinâ this looks deliciousâ
Tommy and Maria looked at each other for a moment before you and Joel noticed the silence.
âAinât you a gentlemanâ Tommy chuckled as you sat down across Joel. Tommy went on to tell Maria the day he had with his brother not noticing the way his brother was staring at you, not noticing the way you looked at him. You smiled at him making him quickly look down at his food and clear his throat.
âAnd how was your day?â Tommy asked distracting you.
âUm, it was good. Helped make dinner and read my bookâ Joelâs eyes fought to not look up at you. Probably was that damn book you had been reading the night before.
âYeah, Joel. This one over here loves to read, sheâs real smartâ Joel slid his tongue in his inner cheek as he adjusted himself in his seat.
âOh yeah?â He looked directly at you as he took a sip of his water. You could tell by the way he looked at you he was thinking something, yet you couldnât tell what. Had you known that he read the dirty things you were reading you wouldâve understood the look he was giving you.
After dinner Joel and Tommy cleaned up as they continued expressing how satisfied they were with dinner. It had been a while since Joel had a dinner like that, he quickly learned how better Tommy had been living than he had.
âWhere are you two going?â You asked as Maria whispered something to Tommy walking towards the exit.
âWe had a little something planned tonight, the sight of the stars are beautiful close by, we wanted some time together to enjoy themâ you smiled as Tommy excitedly expressed what he had planned.
âWell, enjoy your evening. Iâm gonna go finish reading-â you then turned to Joel.
âIf you need anything and you canât find them, you know where to find meâ you smiled as he nodded.
âThank you, darlinâ. Have a good nightâ you walked to your room and shut the door excited to read your next chapter.
As you began reading your book, the author began to describe a sexual encounter with an older man and younger woman. You couldnât help but think how much the man she described made you think of Joel. Joel was a good looking man and so it was pretty easy to picture him with what you read. You surprised yourself finding yourself getting turned on by Joel with these images in your mind. The story only getting more steamy making you begin to squirm and get hot that you suddenly lay the book flat on your chest.
What the hell were you doing to yourself?
Getting horny at the thought of Tommyâs older brother? You shook your head and stood up needing a glass of water.
Holding your book tight to your chest you walked out to unexpectedly find Joel sitting on the couch.
âI thought you were in your roomâ you pressed your lips together awkwardly as if you werenât just picturing this man naked on top of you.
âIn a bit. You alright?â He asked noticing how flushed you became.
âYeah, just needed some waterâ you nervously placed your book down on the table and walked past him quickly to the counter. He couldnât help but look at the book you left a few feet away from him. Distracted with chugging your water you hadnât noticed Joel stood up curious to take another look at your book. Silently looking up at you to make sure you wouldnât catch him, he quickly turned the book over. His eyebrows furrowed as he focused on the story realizing it was about a forbidden sexual encounter, an older man and younger woman. A man not being able to resist but feed his urge with the young woman. Joel took a deep breath continuing to read it when your voice made him quickly look up.
âWhat are you doing?â You asked slightly embarrassed knowing exactly what was in that book.
âNothinâ I-âyou cut him off quickly taking hold of your book holding it close to your chest. He could tell you were embarrassed.
âWhat? Whatâs wrong with reading romance?â You attempted to save yourself.
âIs that what you call it?â He asked with a slight smirk watching your cheeks turn a darker shade of red.
âItâs nothinâ to be embarrassed about, darlinââ he stepped closer as you clutched your book tighter.
âIâm not embarrassedâ you lied, of course you were. The man you had just been fantasizing about caught the very sexual things you were reading.
âI should get to bed. Goodnightâ you awkwardly moved pasted him until he reached out and caught you by your arm with his fingers. He didnât say a word but the touch of him stopped you in your tracks. In this very moment he knew he was giving into the temptation he had been so strongly feeling.
âWhy donât you tell me what happens next, honeyââ you froze feeling him move so close behind you. Quickly you turned to find him inches away, his eyes hungry with desire just as he reached over and gently took the book from your hands. It was as if you couldnât speak, his energy wasso intimidatingâŚ
Turning the page Joel read a sentence in silence as he slid his tongue over his bottom lip.
âHe couldnât resist any longer, the urge to feel himself inside her he could no longer control-â you felt a tingly sensation between your legs hearing his raspy voice read an erotic sentence. Joel looked up to see you flushed, breathing quickly, your lips apart. He smirked closing the book as he took a step closer but before he could say anything the sound of Tommy entering the room made you jump and instantly snap out of any trance you were in.
âWhat are you guys doing?â He asked curiously as he walked by the bar.
âNothing I-I forgot my book out here and he was just returning it to meâ you quickly grabbed your book and took a step back.
âWell I forgot to bring a nice bottle of whiskey for Maria and I so here I amâ he chuckled reaching below for a bottle as you and Joel locked eyes.
âIâm gonna get to bed, goodnight guysâ you hesitantly took a step back as Joel watched you slowly walk away before Tommy cleared his throat.
âWell, got what I needed, Iâll be back laterâ Tommy grinned before walking out leaving Joel alone with his thoughts.
Leaning your back against the door you felt your heart racing. A part of you wishing Tommy hadnât returned feeling a moment was ruined until you heard a knock on your door.
Slowly opening it you looked up to see Joel with the same look he had just moments ago.
âYa didnât have to leaveâ
âI um-â you began to take a step back stumbling over your own words.
âI had to because-â
âBecause what?â He asked as he took a step forward.
âBecause Tommy and-â
âYou scared of my brother?â He tilted his head, a slight smirk appearing on his lips.
âNoâ you responded defensively.
âYa want me to leave?â
âNoâ a faint whisper escaping your lips as he took another step inside your room closing the door behind him. Slowly taking the book from your grasp and putting it aside, his eyes never leaving yours he closed the distance between you.
âJoel-â
âShhâ he whispered softly as he leaned in and kissed you gently with his arm wrapping around your waist. Your hands falling on his chest slowly brushing up his shoulders as he began to lead you to where you slept. Joel kissed you eagerly, his hands squeezing every part of you until you felt him reach between your bodies and unbutton your pants.
âI donât think we should..â you whispered.
âI wonâtâ he responded leaving you with confusion. But you didnât say a word as you lay back on the bed and watched him pull your pants off. His eyes instantly becoming distracted with your soaked underwear sticking against your lips. Standing between your legs he swallowed silently before he began to unbutton his pants- something you were expecting but became more hesitant for. Reality setting in knowing this was something you definitely should not have been doing. What if Tommy returned looking for him? Or looking for you?
âJoel..â you whispered, he pushed his pants and underwear down as his cock sprung out.
âI just wanna feel you-â he whispered, one hand closing around his shaft while the other hand unexpectedly pulled you to the edge of the bed.
âI-â
âI ainât gonna put it in, Iâm just-â he spoke in a trance as he began sliding himself up against your drenched panties. You could feel how big he was, how hard he was. He watched as your body began to squirm with excitement, your moans pushing him to push himself against you faster. The feel of your pussy lips against his cock making him sweat. His hands tightening on your waist as he watched your arch your back and closed your eyes. Joel wanted to feel more, his cock pulsating as he pulled your panty aside and let his bare cock slide up against your warmth.
âOh-â your eyes opened. His breathing was heavy, his brows furrowed as he focused on his cock sliding against your cunt. He continued to tease you in a way you had never been teased. In that moment you wanted to feel him inside you, Joel fought himself with every ounce of strength he had. Hearing you whimper and dig your nails into the covers beside you only making it harder for him.
âI know baby, I know-â he cried out as he moved faster before unexpectedly slipping inside you. You gasped as he pressed his lips together with a groan at the first feel of being inside you. Neither of you saying a word as he locked eyes with you and continued to fuck you, neither of you caring about anyone else or anything in that moment. Taking in the deep feel of pleasure together as one.
âThis what you like to read about huh?â He panted as his finger tips pressed into your thighs.
âYouâre one naughty- naughty girlâ he bit into his bottom lip moving faster as your moans grew louder. Holding onto the bed you could feel it move with each thrust he made. Grabbing onto your own breasts as a burst of pleasure exploded within you, you screamed out in relief. Watching you cum as you touched yourself made Joel tense up. Holding himself as long as he could, quickly he pulled out just as his cum spilled out of him. Cumming on top of your underwear his knees almost giving out as his hips jerked once more uncontrollably.
âOh my god-â you panted as he leaned over you as cum continued to spill from him.
âShitâ he whispered knowing damn well what he had just done. Breaking his brothers trust was something he never liked to do, fucking a woman your age was something he never thought he would do. He silently turned away fixing his clothes as you awkwardly cleaned yourself up.
âTommy is to know nothinâ about thisâ
âI knowâ you quickly buttoned your pants.
âLook, I mean it honey-â he turned to you.
âYa donât look at me or talk to me in any kinda way in front of my brotherâ
âOkâ you spoke softly, the look in your eyes making him feel slight guilt.
âIâm sorry I just-â
âI know. I donât wanna upset Tommy eitherâŚheâs been great to meâ you whispered.
âLook, we are two adults. We donât have to speak of this againâ you continued.
Joel silently nodded unsure of what to say yet wanting to say more. But before he allowed himself to, he simply walked out of the room.
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Terms & Conditions | Chapter 1
Pairing: Min Yoongi x female reader
Summary: Managing Min Yoongi as one of your encoders during his alternative military service shouldâve been simple. He is quiet, punctualâand can apparently type as fast as he can rap! Not to mention the fact that he is easy on the eyes and keeps wanting to help you. Youâve signed an iron-clad NDA, detailing the full terms and conditions of his temporary employment, so youâre supposed to keep things professional, but what happens if neither of you wants to?
Genre: Fluff, eventual smut, co-workers to lovers, office romance, idol!au
Warnings: Purely speculative regarding Yoongiâs alternative military service and how this is really done in SK, I might include scootergate in a future chapter but please know it will be written sensibly imo and with so much love for our Yoongi (I just wanna protecc him at all costs even thru this silly story!), some cursing, boss/employee relationship sorta but there's no power play involved, reader and Yoongi are within the same age range, tbh nothing too bad in this chapter
Word count:Â 6.3k hehe (approx. 25 mins to read)
Posting date:Â October 9, 2024
Notes: So itâs my birthday, y'all. đ Hope you enjoy this little treat! đAnd let me know if anyone wants to be tagged for future chapters. Just leave a comment. Formatting this better soon, really just wanted to get this out!
Your first meeting with Min Yoongi goes exactly as you expected: awkward as hell.
The day kicked off with some solid foreshadowing.Â
On the subway, you somehow managed to sit directly on someoneâs hand, giving yourself a completely unsolicited grope for breakfast. Awkward.Â
Then you hit your usual cafĂŠ, chatting with your mom on the phone while waiting for your drink. Just as the barista handed over your order, you wrapped up the call with a bright and cheery âlove you!ââonly to realize too late that the barista thought it was meant for him. Awkward.
Things only got weirder from there. As you checked your emails on your phone, you walked straight into a pole, and you made eye contact with a cat who just looked at you, tail swaying, like it was somehow pleased with your suffering.
So naturally, you hoped that your first day with Min Yoongi wouldnât follow the same cursed trend. But, of course, you werenât that lucky.
You can feel the office buzzing with excitement as you step in, but youâve all been told to keep it low-key. Nobody is allowed to make a big deal about him, but in some ways, that just makes it an even bigger deal. Youâve refrained from searching his name on Naver. Itâs enough that you know him as 1/7 of South Koreaâs biggest boyband. You donât need to stalk him because thatâs just gonna make this weird.
Speaking of weird, the female security guard gives you a wink as you clock in, and you return with a simple nod back, because honestly youâre tired of being treated like you wanted this. Like you asked for this âopportunityâ. Some of the girls have called you the "blessed one" to have been chosen to work alongside him in your small, shoebox office. Truthfully, you donât really care as long as he gets the job done.
But you're feeling scared for many reasons you canât quite express, the pressure mostly coming from the fact that every fucking person in this office is so motherfuckinâ wet for this dude. Is he even that hot? Nobody is that hot for real. Unless itâs Cha Eun Woo (you just picked up the new Vogue issue and ooof)ânow that is a different story.
Your throat is dry as hell, and your stomach is in knots. Thereâs no time to freak out though as you just received a ping that heâs on his way.Â
You clear your throat, adjust your stance, and try to appear composed and professional, despite the fact that your insides are churning. You spot your tiny plastic garbage can on the corner of the room, in case you need to hurl, but the garbage lady forgot to line it again for fuckâs sake.
You pull your knit sweater down to cover the tiny belt that holds your linen pants, the only thing holding something together in this room, âcos you are actually spiralingâkind of?
Fuck heâs here.
The doors to your office open, making the little wind chime you hung there tinkle, and you spot the top of his head from behind the pudgy middle-aged guy that walks in front of himâyour boss. Two men flank him, one of them you know as someone from his company, because he was the one doling out NDAs the other day like how they do beef jerky samples in the supermarket. The other, more buff guy, his bodyguard, most likely. Until you know their real names, youâll call them Beef Jerky and Beefy.
Okay, focus.
Min Yoongi finally steps into your line of vision.Â
Dressed in his military uniform, he was quiet, unassuming, expression unreadable. His eyes were pretty sharp, a bit intimidating, like he was thinking about something more important than whatever this is. His hair was a bit messy in the front, but somehow it worked for him. He wasnât huge or anything, just lean and kinda laid-back, with this easy posture that made it seem like he didnât really care who was looking. Honestly, nothing too special.Â
But then, there was his aura, something you couldnât quite ignore. It wasnât flashy or loud, but there was this energy about him, like the room shifted just a little when he walked in. He didnât have to say a damn thing, yet somehow, you found yourself aware of him. It wasnât just his looks. It was the way he carried himself, calm and confident, like he didnât need to prove anything. Must be nice to be rich and powerfulâŚ
âMiss?â Beef Jerky leans to his side to get into your sightline.
Shit, what did he say? Anyway, you shake your head, and proceed to just introduce yourself.
âHello, Iâm the manager,â you bow, perhaps too stiffly. âIâll be overseeing your work during your service here.â
He bows politely, too, eyes briefly meeting yours before looking away. âIâm Min Yoongi, pleasure to meet you,â he says in a tone that feels blunt, almost rehearsed.
Your boss Hyun-woo, who you recently found out is his distant uncle, stands beside him, clapping his shoulder. âYou are in good hands here, Yoongi. Sheâs my best, most trusted employee in this entire office.â
You blush at the compliment, feeling a wave of self-consciousness as you struggle to make the interaction less awkward. You close your fists willing yourself to get a fuckinâ grip.
âI will leave you both to get acquainted.â
Your boss along with the two individuals leave the room. The door closes with a soft click.
Annoyingly, something is stuck in your throat and you clear it with a quick sip from this comically huge-sized tumbler your roommate got for you when you had a pesky bout of UTI last year.
âIâve, uh, prepared your tasks for today.â You gesture to his desk, quickly pulling up the list of assignments on your tablet. You show him his username and password scribbled on a post-it by the monitor. He picks it up and inspects it. You spend time explaining the basics of the work here. Word processing. Nothing to it really. Itâs about efficiency, accuracy, and confidentiality, because of the many private government records that you handle day to day.
âDo you have any questions?â
Crickets.
The office feels larger now, the silence between you echoing awkwardly. âOoo-kay. If you donât have any questions, thatâs fine. But donât hesitate to ask if thereâs anything I can help you with,â you add, hoping to sound approachable but instead sounding robotic, like an email sign off. You wince inwardly.
He just nods again, offering nothing more. He sits and picks up the paper on the top of the file. You guess thatâs your cue to leave. And by leave, you mean round his table so you can sit on yours, the one across from him.
You walk back with this weird stutter in your chest. For a moment, you wonder if he finds you too formal. Itâs not like youâre trying to be intimidating, but professionalism has been your go-to ever since the promotion. And itâs not like you need to wow him with your personality, so you can become fast friends. If the NDA you signed was to be taken to heart, it would be better to not establish any form of relationship with him outside of team lead and team member, what with the exorbitant number of potential violations and potential fines for breaking it.
When his keyboard starts clickety-clacking, dread sinks in your stomach that itâs going to be like this every dayâstrictly business, no small talk, no casual exchanges. Youâre not the most sociable person, but once in a while, you do appreciate a bit of interaction. You sigh internally, returning to your own tasks, trying not to overthink the situation anymore. For now, at least.
Throughout the morning, you cannot help but steal glances at him. Damn, what skin care does he use? He literally looks radiant, like heâs glowing from within. Fuck, you have to look away because this is precisely why they trusted you to take him under your wing. You are a consummate professional, not a creep like the girls from accounting, especially trampy Danbi. You chalk it to unfamiliarity and curiosity, which you know you will quickly overcome. But for now you cut yourself some slack. Obviously, there was a legit celebrity in the room, and he seems to radiate some undeniable aura. It also feels strange to have someone else in this tiny office that youâve occupied alone for so long.
Honestly, youâre still baffled as to why he was assigned to you, specifically. Well, thatâs not entirely true. You know itâs because Hyun-woo has blind trust in you, having seen you as one of his go-to employees. Truth be told, you think he treats you like a niece. Is that weird? Maybe. He lets you assist some of the other artists whoâve come through for personal or one-time projects and you have always delivered for him, never engaging in any office gossip.
But still, you canât shake the feeling of frustration. Why did this have to happen to you? You just got your promotion and were so excited to mentor someone, to be that âcool bossâ you always envisioned. But now youâre stuck with this tempâwhoâs really not a temp but a world-renowned idol. Itâs all so awkward.
Once in a while you catch him yawning, so in a desperate bid to cut through the tension, you ask, âUm, do you like coffee?â
He shifts to sit straighter. âNah, Iâm good. Thank you.â he responds, quickly looking your way and training his eyes back to the screen, hands typing away.
You nod, feeling slightly deflated. âRight. Got it.âÂ
The day drags on, and you canât shake off the feeling of being an over-eager manager trying too hard.Â
Within the first week, you discover very quickly that Yoongi is all about business. He is just here to finish his service as discreetly as possible. He clocks in on time, disappears for an hour for breaks, and clocks out on time as well. You donât know where he disappears during those breaks, but you suspect in Hyun-wooâs office to get more privacy. He barely speaks to you. He greets you with a small bow in the morning and responds with a grunt or a hum. Itâs all very⌠whatever. It is what it is, so you stop trying to be anything but his boring manager. You hand him his tasks every morning, check his output by EOD, like clockwork.
Unfortunately, it was one of those manic Mondays. The pile of documents grows faster than you can manage. Calls keep coming in, requests needing immediate attention, and your desk looks like the utter chaos that is the inside of your brain. You glance at Yoongi across from youâheâs focused, calm, completely unfazed by the sudden rush.
âDo you need help with that?â His voice startles you, low and soft. You honestly even forgot how it sounded, having little to no interaction everyday.
Before you can respond, heâs already pulling the spare chair from the corner and is at your side, sorting through the forms. His hands move with unexpected speed, and soon, the paperwork starts shrinking. You offer a weak smile, trying to appear professional. âThanks. I wasnât expecting today to be so hectic.â
He only nods in response, his focus entirely on the task at hand. You glance at him, noticing for the first time how sharp his features are up closeâdark eyes, cute pointy nose, and freckles dusting some parts of his cheeks. His tongue, pink and moist, peeks out from the side of his lips as he concentrates. Ok, you need to look away RIGHT NOW.
Youâre aware of the attraction most women probably feel for someone like him. Exhibit AâDanbi, who cornered you that morning in the toilet âfor the scoopâ and youâre sick of her. But if youâll be honest, itâs hard not to notice that Yoongi indeed has a⌠pleasant face. But you are a professional. Yes, you are. This whole mysterious, brooding vibe is not going to get to you attracted to him in any way, shape, or form. Youâre his manager. You signed those NDAs. Never mind that his lips are just the perfect shape, pouty, plush⌠and smirking.
Shit. Heâs smirking because youâre caught.
You look away hastily and start opening some random file in your computer and pretend to be immersed reading it. In truth, you need some air, but it would be too damn obvious if you stepped away.
A few minutes pass in silence. Youâve quelled the initial onslaught of hormones and are back to work mode. Youâre happy that he is so efficient and you smile as you get through the initial bulk of paperwork. Youâre starting to relax, getting into the familiar groove of getting a file and processing it, until your fingers accidentally brush against his while reaching for the same folder. The touch is brief, but it sends a jolt through you, your heart stuttering in response. You glance up, half-expecting another awkward moment (because you canât stop feeling like such a fool in front of him), but Yoongi remains composed, as he pulls his hand away and waits for you to take the document.
You do, but your pulse quickens. Just an accident, you tell yourself. He probably didnât even notice. And if he did, he probably doesnât care.
But now, as you continue working side by side, thereâs an unspoken understanding. You realize, despite his quiet demeanor, heâs someone you can rely on, someone who wonât leave you stranded when things get tough. And thatâs actually really nice. Itâs what you wanted when Hyun-woo said you were going to have a team. Granted itâs just the two of you for now, but still, itâs nice to have a partner.
Later in the week, you find yourself in the break room, needing a coffee fix. There was a place down the street with cheap and good coffee, but unfortunately you didnât have the time to pop in with so much work on your desk. So free and awful coffee it is today.Â
You enter just in time to see Yoongi struggling with the coffee machine. You have never seen him anywhere else in the building apart from your office, so this was quite a surprise.Â
âNeed a hand?â you ask tentatively, stepping closer.
âI think I broke it,â he replies, hearing exasperation in his voice for the very first time.Â
âHang on, let me,â you unplug and plug the machine, fiddle with some of the buttons, waiting for it to sputter to life.Â
Youâre leaning against the counter, waiting for the coffee machine to wake up. You know it takes forever, but itâs too familiar at this point. Yoongi stands next to you, his usual quiet self, hands in his pockets.Â
âIâve timed it,â you say dryly, glancing at him. âTwo minutes and forty seconds.â
He watches the machine as if expecting it to hurry up. âBeen here for more than that.â
You smirk. âMaybe itâs on a break.â
He quirks an eyebrow, barely suppressing a smile. âIâll try that excuse next time.â
You hand Yoongi his coffee, mumbles a thanks, and waits for you to finish yours before both of you settle into the break roomâs small table. Itâs past lunch, and you know neither of you have eaten, so you reach for the cold ham and cheese sandwiches stashed in the fridge. âHope you donât mind,â you say, sliding one across to him.
He looks at it for a moment before picking it up. âIâve had worse.â
âHigh praise.â
He takes a bite, chewing thoughtfully. âCould be worse. Could be that coffee.â
You raise your cup in mock agreement. âFair point. Donât even know why I drink this shit. I mean this thing.â You slap a hand over your mouth. Did you just curse in front of your subordinate? Government offices are a stickler for these things, being on the traditional side.
He chuckles at your shocked expression, and teases, âIsnât that a code of conduct violation?â
You gnaw at your lip, suppressing the smile that wants to stretch out, but you fail. âIt is. But youâre no snitch.â
He motions to zip his lips and throws an imaginary key over his shoulder. Dork.
The conversation lingers in that easy rhythm. You talk about the workload, the other departments, nothing too personal. You glance over at him, noticing how more at ease he seems, as if heâs getting used to being hereâaround you.
âHow long have you worked here?â he leans back, stretching his arm out on the back of the chair beside him.
âFive years,â you respond, tapping the side of your lip with a napkin.
âDo you ever get tired of it?â he asks suddenly.
You blink, slightly taken aback by how blunt he is. You clarify, on guard, âTired of what exactly?â
He gestures around. âThe office. The routine.â He keeps his eyes trained on you, which is a rarity as he always seems to be looking at you but never directly like that. Thatâs when you knew his question was sincere. That he wasnât trying to offend you, just trying to get to know you.
You shrug. âSometimes. But itâs not that bad. Besides,â you smile wryly, ânow I have someone to talk shit about this coffee and sandwich with.â
He chuckles, light and throaty, a sound that you realize is tickling something in your brain. âGuess weâre in this shit together now.â
You nod, feeling something warm settle in your chest. The wall between you is thinner now, not entirely gone but close enough to see past.
âSame time tomorrow?â you ask, half-joking, half-hopeful.
He raises an eyebrow, a slight smirk tugging at his lips. âI have two years here. Hope the coffee machine doesnât beat me to my discharge date.â
Two years. The thought makes you smile. You really don't mind spending that amount of time with him. In fact, it kinda made you a little happy.
As you step into your cozy apartment, the familiar scent of home hits you. Your roommateâs been cooking again, so it also smells like galbi jjim. Yummm.
Your place isnât muchâa small two-bedroom in Yongsan youâve shared with Chae since Uniâbut itâs got character. You both moved in when it was bare and bland, but with a little effort and a lot of creativity, youâve turned it into something that actually feels like home. The furniture is mostly Scandi-styleâclean lines, muted tones, and a lot of beigeâbut youâve sprinkled in your own touches everywhere.
Thereâs that round white table you scored second hand, now always topped with whatever flowers Chae picks up from the market, and the rattan pendant light that casts this soft, cozy glow at night. The tiny kitchen still feels big enough when itâs just the two of you, with mismatched mugs stacked up and a bright orange pan hanging on the wall for no real reason other than it looks cool.
In the living room, a hybrid shelf is stuffed with books, vinyls, and random trinkets from all the places youâve been. A Chinese lucky cat sculpture from that street market trip. A polaroid of you two drunk at noraebang, one of many others tucked under the glass coffee table. Trendy prints hang on the wallsâwell, some lean against the walls, because youâve never gotten around to actually hanging them. Itâs perfectly imperfect. Itâs not much, but itâs home.
You hang your bag on the rack by the door and head to the kitchen, where Chae is stirring a pot, hips swaying to the music blaring from her phone. Of course, as she holds a silver spoon, she belts out the lyrics from the BTS song with the same title. And you only know this because she has made you watch some edits to this song that left an impression on you.
The thought of revealing this thing youâve been holding out on her has your stomach in knots. But again, thereâs an NDA involved, and you donât want to violate anything. But just the same, youâre desperate to talk to someone about this strange new development in your life. You just hope you donât regret risking your job by telling her.
âHey, Chae!â you call out, and she turns, beaming at you. âHow was work?â
âBusy as usual,â you reply, grabbing a water bottle from the fridge. âBut I have something to tell you.â
Her eyes sparkle with curiosity. âOoh, do tell!â
You hesitate, but excitement spills out. âI have a new workmate. And you know him.â
âPlease donât tell me itâs one of my exes.â
âNo, no.â You take a quick swig of water and twist its cover back in place.
âFrom Uni?â
You shake your head, water still swirling inside your mouth.
âIs it one of my weird cousins?â
You gulp. âWhat? No! Also we havenât talked about why you gave one of them my number. Heâs blowing up my Kakao.â
She cackles unapologetically, âSorry, I need to get them off my back. So, are you going to tell me who this mysterious person is?â
You breathe out a sigh. âMin Yoongi from BTS.â
Itâs like a bomb explodes in your roommateâs brain. She drops the spoon, and you wince at the clatter. âWhat?! No!â
âYeahâŚâ
âDonât you even joke right now.â
âIâm not!â
âAre you serious???â
You nod, half-amused by her reaction. âYeah, heâs assigned to my department for his service.â
âMin Yoongi?â she repeats, eyes wide, almost breathless. âYou⌠I⌠Do you know how famous he is? Heâs like a fuckinâ national treasure! He has a diplomatic passport and everything, keys to the White House⌠â
You chuckle at her enthusiasm, but you canât help but feel a flutter of excitement. âI mean, I guess? But I signed an NDA. Iâm not supposed to talk about it.â
She pulls you to her room, and you follow, rolling your eyes. Her space is a shrine to Bangtan, shelves lined with albums, posters, and even plushies. Youâve never given her shit for it, because you also had an EXO phase, but you got rid of most of your stuff through ebay when you needed some extra money.
âWait, you have to understand him!â she exclaims, rifling through her collection. âYou need to learn about his music, his artistry. Heâs incredible!â
âHonestly, he has an above average WPM, thatâs all I need to know.â
âWPM?â she asks.
âWords per minute. Heâs an encoder.â
She gives you a WTF look, then shoves her photocard album in your arms.Â
âOpen that,â she tells you before she flops on her bed with a wistful look. âWhat's he like? You have to tell me. I need to live vicariously through you.â
You canât help but laugh at her excitement, flopping down on the bed next to her. âWell, heâs a quick study, very efficient, and also very reserved.â
ââŚand very hot?â she asks, winking.
âChaeee!â you groan, burying your face on one of her plushies, the brown one. âI mean, heâs not⌠bad-looking.â
âNot bad-looking? Girl?! He is sexy as fuck!â she grabs the plush off of your face and you try to school your face to seriousness, but fail.
âI dunno. Itâs just work.â
âJust work?!â she echoes again, eyes sparkling. âYouâre working with a literal genius! Do you know how many girls would kill for this opportunity?â
Donât you know it? Danbi and her crew are still up on your face everyday trying to get any morsel of information youâd be willing to throw their way. You sigh, but smile at her enthusiasm. âAlright, Iâll tell you more. But just remember: NDA.â
When your roommate seems satiated, she leaves you a trail of crumbs that unknowingly leads you to a rabbit hole. Two words, she said mysteriously, before you disappear into your room. âAgust D.â
That night, curiosity gets the better of you. You grab your laptop and fall down said rabbit hole, watching every Agust D music video, concert clip, and interview you can find. With each passing moment, you become more entranced, not just by the music, but by the man behind it. The raw passion in his lyrics, the confidence in his deliveryâit really is quite⌠in Chaeâs words: sexy af.
As the weeks progress, you have graduated from robotic nods to actual smiles. The greetings feel more familiar now, almost like you're becoming friends.Â
You walk into the office, a small smile creeping onto your face as you see Yoongi already at his desk. He looks up and meets your gaze, returning the smile with a scratchy hello. The atmosphere feels lighter today, a far cry from your first awkward encounter.
âReady for another exciting day of paperwork?â you tease, taking your seat.
âDope,â he replies dryly, but thereâs a playful glint in his eye.
Moments later, Yoongiâs head pops from the side of his monitor so that heâs in your view. âUh, I have a bit of a problem with this file,â he says, brows furrowed with a hint of frustration in his tone.
You immediately jump into action, eager to help. âLet me take a look.â
As you move closer to his desk, you canât help but notice the way his fingers move over the keyboard, veiny and strong. Images of him playing âSeesawâ on the guitar flood your mind. How can you unsee that?
You shake your head, trying to refocus. âOkay, letâs seeâŚâ But your brain keeps drifting, and you find yourself more distracted than ever. His mouth, and his deep voice, as he mumbles his troubles with the document, keeps pulling your attention. You try to push the thoughts away, frustration mounting.
âIs this the line you were talking about?â you ask, forcing yourself to concentrate on the screen.
âYeah, thatâs the one. I just canât seem to make sense of it,â he replies, glancing at you.
âLet me justâŚâ You lean closer, your heart racing as his shoulder brushes against yours. You can feel the heat rising to your cheeks.
How can you focus on work when all you can think about is this thing he does with his tongue. It feels impossible.
Yoongi watches you, an amused smile playing on his lips. âYou look like youâre trying to solve a complex equation.â
âHonestly, Iâm starting to think my brain is broken.â
Yoongi glances at you with a smirk. âIf your brain is broken, then mineâs completely fried. I tried to make toast this morning and almost burnt my apartment down.â
You laugh. âMaybe you should stick to Uber eats.â
âAgreed. Itâs safer for everyone involved,â he quips, his eyes sparkling with amusement, before it turns into something slightly more serious. âNot that thereâs anyone else, umm, involved. I, uh, live alone, soâŚâ
His comment makes you smile, and you canât help but feel a rush of warmth at the way he stuttered the last bit out. You donât know what to make of it, so you just left it at that.Â
About to clock out, Yoongi stands from his desk, bag over his shoulder.
âYou know, despite my toast incident, Iâm actually a pretty great cook. That toast was a fluke,â he declares, his tone half-serious, like it has been bothering him for quite some time.
The way he looks worried that you may think he is terrible in the kitchen, is not lost on you. You raise an eyebrow, âIs that so?â
He shifts the bag on his shoulder, narrowing his eyes at you. âYou donât believe me.â
âGive me a taste then,â you say, biting your lip. You made it sound really suggestive, but you canât take it back now. Not when he seems to get it, and he seems kind of into it.
He leans with a playful glint in his eyes, âAlright. Iâll bring kimchi jeon, but you also have to give me a taste.â he pauses, pushing his tongue on the inside of his cheek, before continuing. âOf yourâŚâ
âPasta.â You say, cheeks warm, but voice steady. âFriday?â
He smirks, then heâs out the door.
You bury your face on your palms, smiling like a fool as your heart beats loudly in your chest. What the actual hell is happening?
Itâs Friday afternoon, and the office is quieter than usualâmost of the staff are already winding down, eager for the weekend. You glance at the clock, knowing itâs almost time for the little food showdown youâve been looking forward to all week.
You and Yoongi walk together to the break room, both armed with your dishes. His kimchi jeon and your pasta.Â
You warm your containers in the microwave before you settle down on a corner spot.
âI hope youâre ready to lose,â you tease, sliding the container of Carbonara across the table. Yoongi raises an eyebrow, leaning back in his chair with that infuriatingly calm smirk.
âYou seem confident,â he replies, popping open the lid of his dish. The scent of kimchi fills the room, and you have to admitâit smells incredible.
âSmells good,â you say, trying not to let your surprise show.
âOf course it does. I told you I could cook.â He clips a piece of the jeon with his chopsticks and holds it out to you. âTry it.â
You lean forward, the chopsticks brushing against your lips as you take a bite. The flavors hit you immediatelyâspicy, savory, just the way you like it. You chew slowly, pretending to think it over even though youâre already sold.
âNot bad,â you admit, leaning back with a grin. âBut itâs gonna take more than that to beat my pasta.â
Yoongi scoffs, but thereâs amusement in his eyes as he picks up a fork and twirls it into your pasta. He takes a bite, and you watch him carefully, waiting for his reaction.
He chews, then pauses, glancing up at you through his lashes. âAlright⌠I have to admit,â he says, his tone casual but the look in his eyes a little too serious, âthis is really good.â
You laugh, shaking your head. âThatâs it? Just âreally good?ââ
He leans forward on his elbows, his gaze steady on yours. âFine. Itâs amazing,â he says, his voice softening just a bit, though thereâs a teasing smile on his lips. âBut donât let it go to your head.â
âOh, itâs already there,â you quip, biting back a smile.Â
Yoongi laughs, a sound thatâs more relaxed than usual, and you catch the way his eyes linger on you just a little longer than necessary. âYou know what? Iâll give you this one,â he concedes, sitting back with a defeated sigh, though the smile never leaves his face. âYou win.â
You hoot, then immediately cover your mouth with your hands, remembering you are in your place of business.
He grins as he takes another bite of your Carbonara, forking pieces of bacon straight to his mouth. Thereâs something different in the way heâs looking at you nowâsomething softer, like heâs seeing you in a way he hasnât before. You are thrown for a loop. Maybe itâs the way he keeps sneaking glances at you between bites, or the quiet hum of satisfaction when he takes another forkful of your dish. Whatever it is, you want it and you like it.
You push your chair back, stretching your arms above your head as the day finally comes to a close. Itâs been a long one, but productiveâand surprisingly enjoyable. After sharing lunch with Yoongi earlier, things felt lighter, less awkward. Still, when you glance at the window, seeing the sheets of rain coming down hard, your shoulders sag slightly. Itâs pouring, and you didnât bring an umbrella.
As you slip on your parka after snapping the detachable hoodie on, Yoongi catches your eye, âYouâre not planning to walk in this, are you?â
âI can take the subway,â you say quickly.
Yoongi chuckles, shaking his head as he shows you his keys. âJust let me give you a ride, itâs not a problem.â
You hesitate, but eventually, you sigh. âOkay, sure. Thanks.â
The two of you dash out into the rain, laughing softly as you both get soaked within seconds. By the time youâre in his car, your hair sticks to your forehead, and the chill of your wet clothes clings to your skin.
But youâre glad that youâre finally inside. He blasts the heater and the warmth is immediate, fogging the windows as the downpour intensifies. He fiddles with the stereo as you settle in, and Epik Highâs "Born Hater" comes through his car speakers.
âBorn hater!â You announce, and you catch yourself, embarrassed at the way you had to say the title of the song so emphatically.
âCute,â Yoongi mumbles as he looks at you like he is actually endeared and you think you would catch fire despite being soaked.
âOk hater, whatâs one thing you hate?â He asks as he puts the gear on reverse.
The question is sudden, casual, and it throws you off for a moment. âWhat?â You laugh, furrowing your brow. âLike, what do you mean?â
He shrugs, his grip loose on the steering wheel. âJust one thing you hate. Something small. Whatâs something that drives you crazy?â
His arm moves behind your seat, while one hand takes the wheel and maneuvers the car seamlessly back out of the parking spotâand you donât quite understand why you think that lone action is so sexy. Itâs a miracle youâre still able to think and respond to his simple question. âOkay⌠I hate it when people chew with their mouth open.â
Yoongi chuckles, the sound low and warm. âYeah, Iâm guilty of that.â
âWhat about you?â you ask, feeling more at ease. âWhatâs something you hate?â
Without missing a beat, he grins. âMushrooms. I canât stand them.â
âMushrooms?â You snicker. âWhat, like all of them?â
âAll of them,â he says firmly. âThey taste like dirt.â
âWrong.â You shake your head, laughing. âThey do not. Youâre just picky.â
He turns to you, raising an eyebrow playfully. âNope, Iâm right. Name another thing.â
âPickles,â you say.
âGet out of the car,â he deadpans and you both laugh.
âNot even on pizza? I actually canât eat pizza without it.â
âYeah, itâs still a no for me,â you say, rubbing your palms on your pants.
âAre you still cold?â He asks.
âA little,â you say, your damp clothes still causing a bit of a chill.
At the next stop light he reaches for something in the back seat and places a folded scarf of some sort on your lap. Grateful, you mutter a thanks as BIGBANGâs âHaru Haruâ comes next.
You sigh, smelling his faint cologne on the garment, and melt in your seat as you pull the fabric over your shoulders, âI love this songâŚâ
âMe too,â he says. âI listened to this song a lot when I was in high school.â
âYeah, me too,â you share a smile before his eyes go back on the road as the green light comes. âWhat were you like in school?â you ask.
He raises an eyebrow, considering your question for a second. And his response was blunt, as he tends to be. âWas a loser. Kept to myself. Worked on music when I could. School wasnât really my thing.â
âFigures,â you tease.
He doesnât glance at you, but there was an amused grin playing on his lips. âWhat about you? You look like a popular kid.â
âOh, I was definitely a loser, too. Overachieving student who tried way too hard to please everyone,â you say with a self-deprecating laugh, looking at the pouring rain outside. âI always thought if I did everything right, Iâd end up happy, butâŚâ
â⌠but now?â Yoongi asks, tone softer than youâve ever heard him before.
You hesitate, unsure why this feels like a deeper question than it should. But you wanted to give him some honesty. A tiny piece of you to hold on to if he wants. âNow⌠I donât know. Iâm still figuring it out, I guess.â
âYou will,â he promises, glancing at you in the corner of his eyes and you meet his gaze with a shy smile.
âThanks.â
Silence falls between you. The music fills the space as the rain lets up, and the streets blur outside the window. It feels like a momentâone you donât want to think too hard about, because thinking too hard about anything with him feels dangerous.
He pulls up outside your apartment, the car coming to a smooth stop. You donât move right away, letting the last bit of the song play out as you sit in the warmth of the car.
âThanks for the ride,â you say, finally unbuckling your seatbelt, but your voice feels quieter than usual.
âNo problem.â His eyes meet yours for just a second, and it lingersâlike thereâs something else he wants to say, but doesnât.
You step out into the cool night air, still feeling his gaze on you as you make your way to the door. When you glance back, Yoongi is still parked there, watching you, and just to lighten the mood you call out, "Bye, loser!" He shakes his head with a tiny grin, "Later, loser!" before he finally pulls away.
Your heartâs racing the whole way up the stairs, each step making it louder, faster, like itâs echoing off the walls. You enter your apartment and press a hand to your chest, trying to calm yourself down, but itâs uselessâheâs been stuck in your head since you stepped out of the car. Hell, he's been there for days. You wonder if he could feel the headrush too, all the way from Hannam, where he went completely out of his way just to drop you off.Â
What you donât know is Yoongi, back in his apartment, though a little later, is doing the sameâsitting there, trying to calm his pulse, still thinking about the long drive, and why he didnât mind the distance. And as he lay awake in his large bed, smiling like a lunatic, replaying the moments of the day, he knew there really was only one reason:
He likes you.
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I'm going to be honest
I'm having a genuinely hard time making this post. I've been fighting with it for a couple weeks now, but I think it's time I finally make it.
I'm not having fun on this blog anymore.
It sounds bad, but honestly, it kind of is.
I think a lot of it started from the very beginning with the precedence and expectations I put on myself. I've always tried to respond to every comment I get. Even from the beginning. It's just a polite thing to do since those who leave comments took the time to write out what they think of my fic, even if it's just a keysmash. I've always felt the need to thank those who leave comments or reblog my writing or (now that tumblr has it) replied to my fics. It worked fine before because none of my fics were particularly popular. Even my most popular fic (at that time) didn't get as much attention as CRCB has. I've never had a "big blog" before, nor a fic as popular as CRCB has gotten.
It was fine at first, responding to everyone, engaging with everyone. I was riding that high of omg so many people are reading and enjoying my fic! I've never had anything quite like this before.
Now...it just feels more like a chore. I set this precedence on this blog that I respond to everyone and I know a lot of people have said that they're surprised I responded to them and to everyone, and now I'm getting why a lot of writers don't. I'm exhausted. I feel like I've just been robotically saying the same thing over and over trying to respond to people now. I used to love seeing asks in my inbox and reblogs and replies but now? All I feel is dread because I have to respond to all of those.
Turning anon off was a big help. It lessened the sheer volume of asks I was getting a day. And while I do feel bad for all of my anons who prefer to stay anons, with everything that happened (the multiple incidents) with anon that kind of started to suck the joy out of everything. That paired with the obsessive need to constantly have my inbox cleared and make sure everyone gets a response...I can understand now too why big blogs will have 200+ asks in their inbox. It's hard and it's exhausting and I'm burning out.
First it was the fic that was burning me out. Things have gone on far longer than I planned and I just wasn't prepared for this fic to go on and for a while there it was dragging. I'll admit that. If I could go back, I'd speed up a few things, but it's done, it's posted there's no going back. I kind of hoped I would have the mental capacity to upload more than once a week too, but I just couldn't. I still can't.
I've come to dread posting chapters because I know I'm going to have to reply and respond to everyone. The only thing keeping me posting is the fact that we're in the part of the story I've been excited about since the beginning and also because I keep leaving everyone on cliffhangers and I love torturing y'all with all of them.
So that being said, this is in no way to shame anyone for interacting with me, anyone leaving comments or replies or sending asks. Don't feel bad about doing it please. I appreciate all of you that have engaged with me and it really means so much to me. Honestly, earlier this year, if I didn't have this fic and everyone on this blog, I might not have made it to now. It's been a really rough year and it's still going to be into next year. It's just getting to the point where I need a break.
I've needed a break for a long time. I thought taking days off the blog would help, and it did for a couple of weeks, but now even on the days I'm supposed to be on the blog and engaging, I just find myself queueing stuff up and just being offline most of the day still.
I'm tired. That's the best reason I can give. I'm tired and burned out on life and I'm tired and burned out on this blog.
So...I think I need a break. I need to not keep responding to every single reply and reblog every chapter. I need to not force myself to answer every ask right away, no matter how much I want to. I feel bad, but I know everyone would rather have me here and enjoying the blog than forcing myself to interact to the point where I'm dreading it and just robotically repeating myself over and over with every reply and answer and comment.
I won't be pausing the fic, I won't be not uploading. I'll still be posting chapters, I just might not be interacting as much as I have been. It's just putting such a mental strain on me still, even with anon off, even with days off. And with things getting busier for me, it's going to be too much to try and deal with irl stuff and write and try to be super active on the blog. There's going to come a point where I have to sacrifice the writing or the blog and I'd rather sacrifice the blog to keep myself sane, and also to keep trying to finally get this fic done. I love this fic, don't get me wrong, but I'm just burning out.
I'm already burned out in a lot of ways.
I was planning kinktober this year but honestly I'm considering not doing it because I know interaction is going to be insane and it's going to be a lot to keep up on. Plus trying to write that many fics is hard and I'm not sure I have the ability to do it. I have a few done but now I'm just like...is that something I want to do on top of irl stuff and CRCB.
There's just no joy in it anymore. It's not anyone's fault but mine. I put the pressure on myself, I held myself to that standard for this long despite the fact I knew it was draining me. I've tried to push through when I should have prioritized myself. I feel so guilty not responding to everyone. I feel so guilty being a day or two late responding to everyone.
I want to be here and interacting and responding to things but I just can't bring myself to anymore. It's no one's fault, and this is not a drag on anyone, or an attempt to make anyone feel bad or guilty for interacting or sending asks or anything. I'm just airing out the truth and saying what I need to say because I feel like I've been so robotic and lifeless with my responses these last couple weeks and I feel like I need to explain why. It's nothing anyone has done. It's my fault. It's 100% my fault.
Things have just gotten to be too much and it's my fault for forcing myself to be so active. The social battery has dropped into the negatives. I'm not a social person. I can only handle so much interaction and I've pushed so far beyond that, that things have gotten to this point. I want to be here and I want to have fun and I want to use this as an escape but I just don't feel that way about it anymore. It's a chore for me, a job, something I feel like I have to do and it's my fault that I feel that way. It's my own standards and expectations I set on myself, and my expectations on what I think my followers want and deserve and now I feel like I've gone on too long like this that I can't change things without hurting anyone's feelings. I don't want people to think I'm ignoring them in favor of others because I know there's writers out there that do that. They only respond to a certain group and ignore others that comment and reblog. I don't want to make anyone feel like I'm doing that to them and that's now led me to here.
I'm forcing it and I'm tired.
It's been hard these last few weeks. The life has just been draining and draining continuously. The joy and the love I have for this blog and my followers and the interactions and the fic. The last anon bullshit that happened was just kind of the last nail in the coffin so to speak. The straw that broke the camel's back. Things stopped being fun. It made me feel bad (and not in the guilty way, though that was a part of it) and I'm honestly just over it. I'm over the blog, I'm over interacting, I'm over life at this point. August is a hard month for me and every year it seems to get worse and worse. A lot of it is unrelated to anything online and I was going to make a post about it but honestly I just don't want to. Those that know, know. Those that don't...it doesn't matter.
I'm getting annoyed by the blog, I'm getting annoyed every time I look in my notifications and see an ask or a reply or a comment. I'm getting annoyed by some of my followers and that's not fair to you. Everyone always talks about how nice and kind and patient I am when I'm really not. I'm not the person I present myself to be on this blog, the way I mask myself so I can present myself as being a normal, kind human being. The mask is coming off because I'm so tired I can't keep it up anymore. It's happening here and it's happening in real life. I'm tired and I'm frustrated and I'm angry at a lot of things and the last thing I want is to start taking it out on my followers. You don't deserve that, especially when it's not your fault, it's nothing any of you have done. It's all me.
It's not you, it's me.
So for the sake of not burning this whole thing to the ground, I'm going to take a break. I'm not replying to everyone, I'm not responding to every reblog, I won't reply to every ask I get right away, if at all because sometimes I just don't have anything to say in response and I need to learn that's okay. It's nothing against you. It's not aimed at anyone specifically, I'm just trying to put myself first and stop things from escalating. I need a break and I'm going to do something selfish and I'm going to take it.
Don't apologize because it's not your fault. Don't apologize because you think you might have contributed to this because you didn't. It is no one's fault but my own.
I'm the one that needs to apologize to all of you because I've just not been myself because I've been forcing myself to be someone I'm not. I've been very unfair to a lot of people over the last seven months that this blog has been active and I've held a precedent that is not sustainable in the long run and made everyone believe that I was capable of maintaining that kind of interaction when I'm not.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry I've been putting everyone through this. I'm sorry I've been so detached and robotic and ingenuine. I'm sorry I led everyone to believe I'm someone I'm not. I'm sorry I've dragged this on this long that it's gotten to the point that I have to make this post.
I considered just disappearing but that wouldn't be fair to you either. I don't want to put you through that, so I'm pouring all of my thoughts out and making you read through this fucking novel of a post. If you've made it this far, then congrats I guess. Gold metals to you who bothered reading this far.
Anyway, all of that aside, I'll still be posting chapters. I'll have them scheduled and I'll probably come on and add links places to keep things current. I'll respond and reply and answer asks when I feel like it. You don't have to stop sending them, but just don't expect them to be responded to right away anymore. I'll probably still be here reblogging things I want and doing things when I feel like it.
I just need a few weeks to myself. Time I don't have to care about the blog at all and keeping up with it. Anon will remain off for the sake of keeping asshole trolls away, and also so I don't open tumblr and have 200 asks in my inbox after a week. Sorry to my anons but it's just the way it needs to be right now. Maybe once this break is over and I've dealt with irl stuff, I'll consider putting it back on. I just can't after everything I dealt with recently on anon.
It'll be the same on Ao3, for those that follow here and read there. Comments will probably sit for a while. They won't be answered right away anymore unless I get the energy to burn through them. Even then I won't try to answer them all at once like I did this last weekend.
I'll try to reblog something every day so y'all know I'm alright. I don't want y'all to panic and it's not fair to put you through that, especially those that might not see this or bother reading it. Those that follow simply for the fic and nothing else. I'm here, I'm just not...here.
This week's chapter is in the queue to be posted tomorrow as usual. Chapters will still come out as planned since I'm not stopping writing, just taking a break from the blog itself.
Thank you those of you who stuck through to the end here. I appreciate all of you so much. You have no idea. I'm sorry I let things get to this point and I'm sorry to anyone that I've gotten rude or snappy with because I couldn't be selfish and put myself first. I'm sorry to anyone that got a robotic, repeated response to something they were probably excited to share. I'm sorry I've been so unfair to everyone and I hope you can forgive me.
Take care and I'll talk to everyone when I have the energy to.
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Chapter 2: What A Great Freakinâ Way To Start The Day
Pairing: Soldier Boy x f!reader, Reader POV
Summary: When you decided to work with Butcher and his merry band of supe hunters to take down Homelander, you never expected to be saddled with a sullen, grumpy, jerk like Soldier Boy when the job was done. The more youâre around him the more you hate him, but you canât help but wonder, is he really as big a jerk as you think? Reader is a supe with plant powers. This takes place in an AU about a month after the end of The Boys Season 3, in which Butcher has let Soldier Boy continue to work with him on his team. (I'm real bad at summaries, please forgive me!)
Tropes: Enemies to Lovers (Not in this chapter), Age Difference (Reader is in her 20s), Protective Ben/ Soldier Boy,
Word Count: 5.2K
Warnings: I'm going to label this 18+ because Soldier Boy (he's a warning and everyone knows it), swearing, mentions of sex, sexual innuendo, sexual tension. Ben/Soldier Boy might be a little bit OOC.
Note: This is told from Reader's perspective. Any references to the reader is made using you or your. There is minimal use of y/n. I tried my best to proofread, but nobody's perfect. If you donât like, donât read, but if you do like, youâre my favorite!
Internal monologue is in italics and is in first person.
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The morning begins the same way it always does, with your neighbor Mike blasting "I Will Always Love You" in his apartment at exactly 8 am just as he had each day since you met two years ago. It was the only constant in your life, but at least you didn't have to use an alarm clock anymore. The sound of Mike belting out the lyrics at the top of his lungs was enough to wake everyone in the whole building, including the people on the eighth floor, five stories above him.
But because Mike bought the superâs probably illegally made cologne and because the super was dating Mikeâs mother, something that made you regret supe hearing very much, it never stopped despite the numerous complaints.
Then again it was Annie's favorite thing about sleeping over, she liked to scream the lyrics back at the wall and jump on your bed like a crazy banshee. Honestly you hoped that it would stop after Ben had pretended to be your boyfriend, that Mike would finally figure it out and give up.
Guess not.
You sit up in your bed, stretching your hands over your head while humming the chorus under your breath, but you were more of an ABBA fan. If Mike had decided to serenade you with "Take A Chance On Me" or even Aretha Franklin's "You're All I Need to Get By," you might have looked at him differently.
The memory of the dream of his mullet smothering you in your sleep momentarily passes over your mind, causing a shudder to travel down your spine. Or maybe not.
Your bedroom was similar to your living room, covered in plants. Trailing jasmine and bougainvillea blanketed the wall behind your bed in deep red and white, budding lavender, lilac, and honeysuckle sat in pots along the top of your dresser, and a blush colored rose bush, that never went out of bloom, stood proudly in the corner. The only difference was that there were two large piles of books almost as tall as your ceiling, some old some new, braced beside the rose bush like Roman columns. You kept trying to remember to buy a bookshelf, but each time you thought about going to pick one up, Butcher usually called and asked you to help out. Both piles were covered almost completely in pothos and more hung from the brick walls above your only window, that opened the floor length pale yellow curtains with a flick of your hand.
An annoyed purring sound greets your ears as the honeyed light from the now open window wisps over your covers. Bean, your cat, stalks up from the end of the bed, his yellowed eyes narrowed with annoyance at being woken up so early while his charcoal gray coat turns lighter in the brilliant sunlight. Last night he had been in your bedroom when you got home, which meant that he hadn't been around Ben when he came in.
A good thing, because Bean hated just about everyone except Butcher, which you thought was weird. But whenever Butcher dropped by to talk to you Bean always came over to look for rubs, while hissing at anyone who tried to interrupt them. Hughie was actually afraid of Bean, and because Bean was a cat he immediately picked up on this and purposely would jump on the couch next to Annie so Hughie couldn't sit there, Bean also followed after Hughie to the bathroom and waited outside the door to swipe at his ankles whenever he would come out.
But you didn't love him any less.
He puts his paw on your thigh lightly extending his claws to get your attention.
"Oh are you talking to me now?" You smile, rubbing him behind the ears. "I thought you were angry because I woke you up?"
He purrs and pushes his chunky gray head against your hand, but startles when the song switches to "My Heart Will Go On" which causes Mike's mother to join in to his karaoke session.
I'd move if my apartment wasn't so damn cheap.
"Maybe they should take the show on the road. Huh buddy?"
Bean purrs his response while pushing his head further into your hand.
His mom wasn't that bad of a singer, in fact, you thought that you remembered eavesdropping on a conversation between her and the super when she talked about a career as a cabaret singer a while ago.
"Come on, let's see if Gramps killed any of my plants." You smile down at your cat. "If he did I'm going to turn him into a tree."
Bean purrs in agreement.
You get out of bed, adjusting your shirt back down over your shorts before walking to the door with Bean following behind you. You step out into the cool hallway, with more enthusiasm than usual as you try to escape the butchering of the Titanic's soundtrack and collide into something warm and wet.
It takes you exactly seven seconds to realize that the warm, wet, thing that your face is currently stuck to, is in-fact Ben's chest, his shirtless chest. Why he's standing in the hallway outside your door, soaking wet and wearing a towel you have no idea. All you know is that your face is physically laying against the warm flesh of his pectoral muscles.
"Why are you NAKED?" You scream as you peel yourself off of him and turn your gaze away. Your face felt so warm that it was like you'd been standing in front of a volcano for too long and you were sure that you had blushed to the roots of your hair.
You'd only seen him without his shirt on once, when the door to his bedroom was cracked at the apartment he shared with the rest of the group. But it was from the back and you had been walking by to go to the bathroom, and you hadn't lookedâŚ
Well, you may have stopped for a second to admire the powerful muscles on his muscular back and maybe thought about waiting for him to turn around so you could see if the front was as good as the back⌠but you hadn't.
And he certainly hadn't been soaking wet then, and it made you hate him more now, because no one should look as good as he does soaking wet. You personally knew that you looked like a drowned poodle whenever you stepped out of the shower, but him? Soldier Boy looks like he just finished filming a shampoo commercial.
You could see it in your head, him standing under a crystal blue waterfall with the water splashing against weathered rocks before running through his soft brown hair, curving around his broad shoulders, down his toned stomach straight down to his-
NO. Not gonna go there. You could feel your skin heating in embarrassment, almost as if you thought he could read your mind.
"I'm not naked doll, I mean I could be if you wanted me to." He smirks as he hears your heartbeat begin to pick up and reaches for the end of his towel. The towel that was almost too small to wrap around his waist and left very little to the imagination.
"NO!" You shout holding up a hand to stop him, but again brush the front of his chest.
Fuck, you could zest a lemon on those abs.
"Are you sure?" Ben smiles wider, taking a step forward. He's so close that you can smell your grapefruit mint shampoo on him and feel the humidity and warmth of his body as he stands there. For some reason the fact that he used your shampoo, and smelled like your soap, made you feel warm and tingly. It was almost hypnotic. You hated how much you liked it. "Because you're turning that cute little red color you always do whenever I'm around, and your heartbeat is kinda fast."
"No. I don't." You grit your teeth together. "Why are you standing outside of my door naked?"
"Maybe I was waiting for you to come out." His hand presses against the doorway next to your head. "You know, I already took a shower, but if you wanted I'd be happy to get back in with you."
"No thanks. I don't need a shower and I wouldn't shower with you if it was the last shower on earth and I hadn't bathed in forty years." You purse your lips. "Oh right, that happened to you."
Ben frowns at your mention of his time in Russia. You didn't often tease him about being trapped in a lab, you knew that it was a sore spot for him. Plus you'd seen the footage of exactly what those doctors did to him and it was enough to make you want to book a one way ticket to Russia and personally show them what happened when a tree got shoved up your ass.
You open your mouth to apologize.
"I was going to ask if you have any other clothes here. Mine are still wet from last night." He raises an eyebrow, but the humor is gone from his eyes.
"Oh. Um. I can take a look." You turn and walk into your bedroom, trying not to feel awkward about bringing up the lab.
He was a jerk, but he didn't deserve a reminder of how shitty the last forty years have been.
Truthfully, you weren't sure if you had anything that would fit him. Ben was a lot bigger than you, taller and broader. You usually did wear things that were a little big for you, but you didn't think that Ben would fit in any of them.
Maybe I have something from when my brother was here last time.
Darren often dropped by when he was in the city visiting his friends or had a new "business" venture. The ones that never seemed to last and the friends that always seemed happy to spend the moan you "loaned" him for his "best idea yet" as he always phrased it. But he hadn't been by in at least a year.
"It's really green in here too." You hear Ben say under his breath.
You didn't think that he was going to follow you into your room, you thought he was going to stay in the hallway, but no, he had followed you. And he made the room feel even smaller than it was with his broad shoulders and over six foot stature.
The sunlight from the window glinted off his still wet chest and it made your throat uncomfortably tight. For the love of chocolate pudding, WHY does he look so good all the time?
"You can wait in the hall-"
"Wanted to see your bedroom." He smirks. "Though I think that you wanted to show it to me last night-"
You ignore him and turn back to your chest of drawers while Mike and his mother switch to "What Makes You Beautiful" by One Direction. You wince as they begin.
"Do they always do that?" Ben asks.
"Yep. Since I moved in." You sigh, shuffling through your t-shirts.
"He's really got it bad Sweetheart. Maybe you should throw him a bone. Kinda seems like the poor guy needs to get some ass-"
"If it's any of your business- which it's not- I do not like him that way."
"Well they're a little loud." You feel Ben take a step closer to you. "But I bet you and I could give them a run for their money. We are in your bedroom after all, might as well make the most of it."
"I didn't know that you liked Karaoke. I'll keep that in mind for you 105th birthday party."
"What? No I meant-"
Bean purrs loudly from his position on your bed and you wait for the telltale sound of Ben shooing him away when Bean tries to puncture Ben's impenetrable skin with his claws, but it doesn't come.
You glance over your shoulder. Are you kidding me?
Bean is sitting on your white plush comforter, rubbing up against Ben's hand, purring while Ben scratches him behind the ears.
Traitor.
"Didn't know you had a cat." Ben says continuing to stroke his hand down Bean's spine, who stands up and turns so Ben can have a better angle.
"I didn't peg you for a cat person. Kinda ruins the whole all-American Man image you have going on."
He shrugs. "I like dogs more, but I don't hate cats. Usually they don't like me very much."
"I wonder why that is." You grumble watching Bean lean into Ben's hand again. "His name is Bean."
"Bean? Why?"
"Because when I got him I was trying to grow green beans in the linen closet and he would sit outside the door and screech until I gave him a green bean to play with."
"You were trying to grow green beans in the linen closet?"
"Yeah. Seemed like a good idea, but they like the bathroom more-" You finally find the oversized Led Zeppelin shirt your brother left the last time he crashed at your apartment and a pair of jeans. "A lot of my plants like the bathroom more actually."
"I was going to ask you why the bathroom floor and wall was squishy."
"It's moss. It thrives in humid environments." You hold out the clothes for him.
"Uh-huh." He frowns at the clothes for a minute. "So you're saying you wouldn't want a guy to serenade you like that?" Ben nods his head towards your bedroom wall, just as Mike and his mother begin to belt out the chorus. "Thought girls liked sappy shit."
"I'm not a fan of One Direction."
"Right. You like ABBA more." Ben turns towards your door to go back to the bathroom to change.
Shock momentarily spikes in your chest. "How did you know that?"
He freezes as if you caught him doing something bad, turning slightly towards you. "Um- well, you hum their songs a lot."
"When?" You cross your arms over your chest.
"Whenever you're on stake outs. Sometimes when you're reading those files or waiting for Annie at the apartment." He shrugs. âWhen you were walking last night you were humming âFernando.â"
He noticed that?
"How long exactly were you following me?"
"Long enough." He raises an eyebrow. "Are you trying to keep me talking because you want me to change in here? Because I would be more than happy to drop this towel and show you what a real man looks like Sweetheart."
"Don't flatter yourself Gramps. If you drop that towel the only thing that'll happen is Bean will think you brought him a green bean to play with." You roll your eyes. "Now get out of my room. I have to change."
Ben begins to say something, but the vines hanging above the door push him out into the hall and shut the door behind him.
That felt good.
After you put on a white t-shirt, your favorite pair of jean overalls and your dark green converse, you make your way out into the living room. Ben is there, lounging on your couch like he owns it. Heâs wearing the jeans and t-shirt you gave him, but you can't help but notice how the clothes are just a little too small for him. The way his muscles pull at the t-shirt, the way the jeans hug his thighs and butt-
He's getting way too comfortable here. You think to yourself to avoid the thought of how good he looks on your couch. How it almost feels natural that he's sitting here in your living room, inhabiting your space.
"So what's for breakfast doll face?" He leans his head back to gaze at you with a mischievous smile that makes a warm tingle travel down the length of your spine.
"Well, I'm going to have oatmeal and you're going to have whatever you want I guess?"
His eyes darken. "Whatever I want?"
"Calm down Gramps I meant that there's cereal in the cabinet." You roll your eyes to avoid thinking about the kiss last night and then thinking about how it felt for your body to be pressed against his in the hallway when you ran into him. Which inevitably leads back to the waterfall fantasy and-
No. No. Not going to do that. Not with him. He's just good at getting women into bed, he doesn't care about you. You think about how he remembered that you liked ABBA. That doesn't mean anything. He doesn't see me as anything more than a conquest and he probably remembered that because he's changing tactics and trying not to act like a creep.
âYouâre not going to pour me a bowl?â His smirk pulls down in an attractive pout.
âI think itâs simple enough for your little brain to do.â You donât turn around from the kitchen cabinets, grabbing a raspberry from the refrigerator and popping it in your mouth. For some reason you noticed that whatever you grew tasted better than anything you bought at the grocery store. You hoped that it didnât mean that your powers supercharged whatever you grew and that it was actually radioactive or something.Â
Because thatâs exactly what I need, to turn bright green.Â
âThereâs nothing little about me doll.âÂ
âCanât you ever have a conversation with someone without it revolving around sex?â You grumble banging around in your cabinets to find your instant oatmeal.Â
It was a valid point and you were tired of getting whiplash every time Ben acted caring and then flipping back to horny manchild.
âWhereâs the fun in that?â Ben laughs. He stands from the couch and makes his way into your kitchen.
It was hard not to notice how small each room in your apartment looked with him in it. His head was only a foot below the ceiling, not to mention the kitchen was only composed of six cabinets, a small sink, a microwave shoved into a corner, a stove top, and a refrigerator that only came up to Benâs shoulders. Your bathroom was worse, sometimes the shower was small even for you and you didnât know how Ben fit in there.Â
He probably had to duck down to stand under the shower head.Â
And then as you thought that, the image of Ben standing under a waterfall comes creeping back, making the strawberry plant on top of the fridge, the raspberry vines, and the blackberry vines covering your refridgerator burst into bloom.
Thankfully Ben didnât notice, because he was rooting through the white top cabinet in the corner for one of the cereal boxes.Â
Iâd never hear the end of it if he saw that happen.Â
You glare at the plants in question, eyes shifting to a deep green as the flowers develop into fresh fruit to cover your slip.Â
Ben pulls out a box of Lucky Charms, but frowns at Lucky on the front cover, who is throwing a handful of marshmallow charms into the air around him.Â
Guess he's not a fan.
 âIf Iâd known you were going to sleep on my couch I would have gotten Bran flakes and prunes for you.â You smirk as you pour water over the oats in the bowl before placing it in the microwave to cook. âI know people your age need that kind of thing sometimes. Gets the bowel moving.â
âMake fun of my age all you want.â Ben steps around you to grab the almost empty bottle of milk from your refrigerator. âOne day youâll be happy to find out just how experienced I am.â
âKeep dreaming.â
His dark eyes meet yours. âYouâre all I dream about baby.â
You can feel his breath on the side of your neck from how close he is to you, the kitchen seems smaller than it ever has, and he leans forward, sensing your hesitation. One of his hands goes on the kitchen counter to your right, the other places the milk down and then braces on the counter to your left caging you against him.Â
âDo any of your lines actually work?â You say, throat tight.
âYouâd be surprised.â He smirks wider, green eyes sliding up and down your body.Â
 The air in the kitchen electrifies, something passing through the air between the two of you that makes you feel like your heart is going to burst out of your chest. His eyes are softer green now, reminding you of the color of fresh leaves on an oak tree in spring, bright, strong, and full of life. His body is pressed gently against yours, the strong muscles of his abdomen laying on your hips, muscular arms making sure that you don't walk away.
You try not to think again about how good he looks in your apartment, how calm and relaxed he seems when heâs away from Butcher and not wearing his uniform.Â
Standing here in your apartment, he looked normal, human. Sometimes it was hard to remember that you were, when you could do what you did, when you saw him get hit with a car and shove it away with one hand.Â
He was still ridiculously attractive, the kind of attractive that youâd read in romance novels and in classic Roman literature, the kind of beautiful that people wrote poetry about, the kind of ruggedly handsome that made smart girls stupid.Â
You were really feeling that last one. Because you were desperately trying to hold on to your dream of being with someone that understood every part of you, but Ben was making it hard.
It wasnât that the idea of sleeping with him was terrible. It wasnât. It was far from terrible it was the idea of having sex without feelings that you didnât like. You didnât want to sleep with him because you knew that he only saw you as something to be possessed not as an equal or someone he cared about. Soldier Boy only cared about himself, that was apparent.
Heâs only interested in you because you havenât given in. You think to yourself. It's all about the thrill of the chase, nothing else. I'm worth more than that. I'm worth more than one night.
âIn fact, I think itâs working on you doll.â Ben leans down towards you so close you can feel his words in the air between your faces, his eyes searching yours as if waiting for you to say no.
That made you pause. Ben didnât seem to be the type of man who was patient. Youâd walked in on him making out with numerous women on the couch back at the apartment he shared with the rest of the team, saw how he took control, saw how he didnât seem to wait for them to say no or really say anything at all. Not to mention one time when you walked into the shared apartment and could hear Ben with one of his "dates" in his bedroom. Nothing about that seemed patient at all.
But this Ben standing in your kitchen was different. He was almost smiling, dark hair still damp from the shower curling on his forehead, the t-shirt damp around the collar, jeans a dark blue, and the smell of your shampoo fills your senses again all over again. It made you wish for this person all the time. The one that you could see yourself falling in love with, not the racist, sexist, and inappropriate jerk that seemed to dominate his persona at all other parts of the day.
Funny, the only time youâd ever seen Ben like this, was when the two of you were alone- well sometimes- other times he annoyed you without end and made you want to jump out a window.Â
But why? Why only around me?
The feeling in your chest grows. It jumps from synapse to synapse, pulses along your skin, buzzes in your blood, tangles through your hair, and radiates through the air like a sound wave. Your eyes drift down to his lips remembering exactly what it was like to kiss him last night. How he seemed to consume you whole, how everything else fell away, how Ben curled himself around you, how he-
Your cell phone rings, breaking through the moment, and making you remember exactly why you didnât want to give in to Ben and remember the kind of person he was.Â
You push him away and pull your cellphone out of your pocket. Butcher's photo and name appear on the screen.
Shit.
"Hey Butch, what's up?" You look away from Ben, forcing yourself to calm your racing heart.
Ben perks up at the mention of Butcherâs name.
âDo you have any idea where Soldier Boy is?â
âSoldier Boy?â
âSeems like our blunt smoking man out of time has vanished. Been trying to text him all bloody morning.â
At least he doesnât know that Ben is here. Thatâs good. Iâd never hear the end of it if-
Ben snatches the phone from your hand and holds it up to his ear. âWhat the fuck do you want?â
The softness was gone, his eyes had hardened again, and the spell was broken. Ben was no longer relaxed, his shoulders were tensed and guarded, jaw set.
It didnât take a genius to know that Ben didnât like Butcher. Sometimes you wondered why Ben decided to stay.
Probably because the alternative was being frozen like Han Solo next to his son.
When Ben had knocked Homelander out, you hadnât believed it, and despite Benâs arguing Butcher wanted to keep Homelander a supe, and just put him on ice. You had no idea why, especially since Butcher had been gunning for him forever, but had the sneakiest suspicion that it was because of Ryan.
But you didn't blame Butcher for that, watching your father get killed in front of you seemed traumatic, not to mention Ryan was still reeling from watching his mother die.
You turn back to your microwave to pull out your bowl of oatmeal with a groan.
Now Butcherâs going to mock me endlessly about going home with Soldier Boy. We didnât do anything! WellâŚ
Your mind flits back to the searing kiss you shared and to five seconds ago when whatever the hell just happened.
âYou want me to meet you in fucking Jersey?â Ben laughs.
You choose not to eavesdrop on the conversation, instead you busy yourself with sprinkling brown sugar onto your breakfast and plucking a few more raspberries from the vines.
âFine.â Ben almost growls before holding out the phone to you. âHe wants to talk to you.â
Of course he does. Maybe I can pretend to lose the signal with a piece of paper or a candy wrapper.
âHello-â
âYou crazy wanker.â Butcher chuckles into the phone. âGuess your night was a little more exciting than mine eh? Oi Hughie, you owe me a tener!â He shouts to Hughie who you can guess is sitting nearby.
âWhat? Heâs with y/n! No way!â You hear Hughie shout back, muffled but there.
Damn it heâs gonna tell Annie. She's going to start sending me pictures of babies photoshopped in supe suits.
âYou guys were betting that he was here?!â You shout making eye contact with Ben who only smirks before he busies himself with getting a bowl for his cereal.
âHe left about two minutes after you did. Said some bullshit about a smoke break.â Butcher is smiling and you know it. âHow was he? Was he as good as all the girls say?" Butcher coos on the other side of the line.
âNothing happened-â
âSure it didnât Cherie!â You hear Frenchie crow. âHopefully you got to relieve some of that tension no?â
âI hate all of you.â You grumble, and before Butcher can say anything else you hang up the phone and glare at Ben. âThis is your fault.â
âWhat do you mean sweetheart?â
âYou just had to follow me home!â
âYou shouldnât have been walking out there alone.â
âI do it all the time!â
âNot anymore.â
âWhat is that supposed to mean?â
âIâm not going to let you walk around alone in the middle of the night.â
"Like hell. I don't need a babysitter!"
"I think you do-"
"No I don't. In fact why are you still here? Why haven't you left?" You shout, snatching your bowl of oatmeal before moving to the wobbly kitchen table that you smooshed up against a window that looks out onto your fire escape.
"Because I tend to like morning sex. It's a great way to start the day. Thought you'd be interested." Ben winks as he sits across from you, barely fitting in the wooden chair.
Your phone buzzes where it sits on the table beside your bowl. When you flip it over, you see the text from Annie.
Annie: YOU SLEPT WITH SOLDIER BOY?!!!!
You: I'm not going to dignify that with a response.
Annie: That's a yes. TELL ME EVERYTHING!!!
You sigh and shovel a spoonful of oatmeal into your mouth, eyes drifting up to the top of your phone screen focusing on the time.
"SHIT! I'm late for work!" You shout before shoving as much oatmeal as you can into your mouth.
"Work?" Ben looks up from his bowl of cereal confused as you begin to run around the room.
The half-eaten bowl of oatmeal falls into the sink with a resounding crash, Bean's cat food lands haphazardly in his bright green food dish, and you practically run to your tote bag that hangs on a peg by your front door.
"I told you. I work at a plant shop." You glance back at your barren coffee maker mournfully. The thought of trying to get through the day without coffee seemed impossible, not to mention you didnât have time to grab one on the way to work from your favorite shop just around the corner.
"I thought you were joking."
"No. Some of us have to work for a living." You run your fingers through your hair quickly pulling it back in a loose ponytail.
"You should leave your hair down." Ben says from the table watching you.
"What?"
"It's prettier when it's down."
"I don't have time for your misogynistic comments. Come on let's go."
"What?"
"I'm not going to leave you here in my apartment alone. You don't have a key."
"You could give me yours-"
"HA. No that's not going to happen. Come on." You tug on his muscular arm, trying to get him up out of the chair, but he barely moves.
âYou know you could call out of work and we could spend the day in bed.â He smiles, eyes tracing your figure. âI mean you look good baby, but I think you'd look even better naked. Plus, Butcher and the rest of those fuckers already think we slept together so we might as well-â
âNot a chance Gramps. Either get up out of the chair and leave through the door or leave through the window. Itâs your choice and I have no qualms with throwing you down to the street. But please don't make me do that because I can't afford a new window."
Ben rolls his eyes, but finally gets up to follow you. He actually tries to open the door for you, but you place your hand on his chest.
âNah uh uh. Bowl in the sink. Iâm not going to clean up after you.â
Ben sighs and mumbles something under his breath thatâs lost in Mikeâs inhuman screech of âLove on Top.â
Yeah. What a great fucking way to start the day.
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Melting Point | P.SH | CH.9 (fin.)
brother's rival!sunghoon x fem!reader warnings: angst(ish), fluff, smut (mdni), masturbation (m.), confrontation, not many warning this chapter since it's the finale, anything i missed lmk! ch. 9 synopsis: nationals are underway and everything hangs in the balance for you as you watch sunghoon and minhee compete. just before the competition, sunghoon gets an unexpected visitor and makes some life decisions. wc: 15.1k previous | masterlist a/n: hi! i can't believe this is the end. i genuinely will never be able to thank each one of you for the love you have given this series. honestly, i didn't expect this series to do that well considering it's a hefty amount, but all of you have been so lovely and supportive! i hope this ending does melting point justice and ties everything up for you all. i will miss mp fridays and ynhoon more than anything but it just means i can work on something new <3 ilysm and thank you again!
Sunghoonâs alarm blares from the hotelâs bedside table, startling him from his peaceful sleep. He tries to twist and turn off the annoying noise but your grip on him stops his movements, your head burying itself into his chest as you stir, your legs tightening around his as a sleep-induced protest to have him stay beside you.
Smiling down at you, he gently pushes you from his body, careful not to fully wake you while he turns off the alarm from his phone. Luckily, youâre so exhausted from the night beforeâs activities that you simply roll to your side and sink further into the fluffy pillow.
The time on Sunghoonâs phone reads 6am, a horribly early start for such a long day. He digs the soles of his palms into his eyes trying to rid any sleepiness from them in an attempt to wake up. Knowing he has to get prepared for today, he begrudgingly flicks the covers off of his body and sits up at the edge of the bed.
He turns to face you, happily pouting at your sleeping figure. Right now, Sunghoon is the most content he has ever been before a competition and it was all thanks to you. Last night, relaxing with you and Minhee watching TV, fucking you into the morning, and cradling you in his arms as you softly snored on his chest, it was all so perfect. Finally, he felt like his life had some form of normality to it; he felt the same way last night as he used to when his dad took him for food at that cafe youâve grown to love so much. Heâs finally found happiness like he only dreamed of.
Placing the covers back over you as he stands up, Sunghoon quickly makes his way to the bathroom, careful not to trip over the mess on the floor; there is something about hotel rooms that just makes him a slob, the entire place covered in his stuff which could easily be put away.
The bathroom light flickers as he presses the switch, the white light a little too bright for his liking but he has to make do. Inspecting his face in the mirror, he sees a light in his eyes that flashes back to him, a testament to his happiness. If this was a typical competition morning, he would be stressed, the weight of perfection placed on his shoulders by his mother the only thing he truly felt. The constant need to impress and be the best at what he does drained him more than he realised, until you came along he would grit and bear it, trying to keep everyone happy.
But you, you made him realise that you will always be proud of him as long as he does his best and is happy with himself; a desperate structure he needed in his life.
Grinning from ear to ear, he turns on the shower and waits for the water to heat up, using his hand as an indicator. He strips off his boxers and steps in carefully - the last time he brazenly walked into a hotel shower he nearly fell ass first, legs flailing to keep him up right and that is the last thing he needs to happen.Â
The water is perfect as it cascades over his body, each droplet trickles down his form like a mini blanket, hugging him with warmth. He doesnât mind winter much, being born in December and all, but he does dislike the coldness. Irony isnât lost on him, he understands that his whole life has been around a freezing cold ice rink, yet recently, he has been finding it more and more difficult to withstand the cold air.
Probably because he was so accustomed to your warmth now.
For some reason today, more than most days, he canât shake his mind off you; probably because there is so much at stake today and youâre the only thing that calms down his anxious mind.
After Minhee explained about your mother and her gambling, he knew from then that he had to shield you from it all. He wants to respect your wishes and perform to his best ability, but the nagging part of his heart that lives to protect you is telling him to disobey your request, to just lose the competition on purpose anyway.
Minhee is good, spectacular even, Sunghoon canât and wonât deny that, but is he really first-place ready? This all must be gnawing at your brother, swaying his head and making him lose focus, Sunghoon knows it would do that to him. And who is to say another figure skater wonât be better than both of them? Was the bet just for Minhee to win over Sunghoon in points or the whole competition? He wishes he got some clarity on that as he ponders all the possible outcomes of today.
All he has to do is lose to Minhee, thatâs the safest option.Â
Squirting some of the hotel soap onto his hands, he glides them all over his torso and chest, rubbing in the suds to wash him clean. Selfishly, he wants to wake you up and have you wash him as you have done so many times before; your nimble hands trailing over his v-line and his toned stomach, always resulting in your back against the tiles while he fucks into you, serving to create a vicious cycle of cleaning one another of your sex only to dirty yourselves up again. The recollection of your soaped-up tits only adds to his yearning for you, but you are so exhausted from yesterday that he needs to leave you be, settling for his memories and hand.
His hand falls to his semi-hard cock as he turns his body to face the showerhead, stroking his shaft a few times, using the pressure from the water to add another layer of pleasure.Â
Tipping his head back, he opens his mouth as he squeezes his length at the base before pumping a little more determinedly. He knows he doesnât have lots of time but he canât help himself, every thought of you bouncing on his cock and the primal moans that escape your mouth every time he hits that sweet spot inside you.Â
Biting his lip, he jerks himself off faster, trying to keep quiet but the feeling is too good, he canât help but speak to himself as he imagines you in here with him, âShit, Y/N, so fucking good,â he whispers, the base in his voice being lost behind the hum of the shower.
He angles his cock perfectly so some of the water stream hits directly onto his slit, giving him the same sensation as when the tip of your tongue swirls around his head, dipping into him as you stare into his eyes.
âJesus Christ,â Sunghoon breathes out, placing his spare hand on the wall to steady himself as he thrusts harder into his hand, searching for a quick release.Â
Since you came into his life he has started to question how he ever got off without at least the thought of you. The way you touch him, the way you make him feel, itâs like nothing he has ever known before. He hasnâtt tell you that when you rode him in his car for the first time that he genuinely wondered if he had even had sex before you, the way your walls gripped at his cock suddenly made him forget every person he had ever been with.
All he remembers is you.
When he nearly lost you because of your mum, he didnât know what to do. Of course, he was mad about the skate and that you lied, but without you there with him, even for a few days, it was enough for him to lose any sense of being; it was as if all his limbs had been torn away from his body. Since the day you came home to him, he vowed never to let you go, and he wonât.
Quickening the pace, Sunghoon is close to the edge, ready to spill his seed down the shower drain. His wet chest heaves up and down as his balls shiver with the ache of release, âY/N, just like that, baby. So fucking good,â he moans, hoping his voice doesnât carry into the hotel bedroom.Â
His wrist works harder as he inhales through gritted teeth, his brain running through every orgasm youâve ever had so that he can feel like heâs cumming with you.
âShit, shit,â he groans, the first spurts of his cum shooting against the wall, some already being rinsed down the drain. He chants your name a few times, muttering how much he loves you under his breath as he slowly comes down from his climax.
If only it was you he was cumming inside, painting your walls white.Â
Shaking his head, he rids himself of any more dirty thoughts of you, scared he might have to spend another 10 minutes under the water. Turning the faucet, he changes the water to a cooler temperature while he tries to calm the thumping in his chest and the throbbing in his cock.Â
Once he is done with the competition, heâs going to take you over and over on the bed, cumming as many times as possible, whether inside you, on you, or wherever his desire leads.
Sunghoon turns the shower off, cleans the remnants of his mess, and steps out, wrapping a towel around his slim waist, the imprint of his now softening cock still pressed against it. You would drool if you saw him like this, you always had a thing for your boyfriend when he came straight out of a shower. There is something about the way his body glistens and how his hair sticks to his face that just turns you on. Perhaps itâs because itâs akin to how he looks after hours of fucking you silly.
After completing his skincare routine and brushing his teeth, he saunters back into the room where you are still sound asleep. He breathes a sigh of relief that he didnât wake you despite his constant mewling of your name.Â
Dropping the towel next to his suitcase, he rummages for his usual training gear before slipping into it with ease, each movement he makes is calculated, being careful not to reach a high decibel and wake you. He gathers his competition essentials such as costume, skates, and makeup, slowly zipping his bag once he has double and triple-checked it.
He steals a glance at you before tip-toeing over to your side of the bed. His hand reaches to pet your hair gently, framing it around your face to rid it from your eyes. With a soft kiss on your forehead, he smiles fondly, âI love you, baby.â His words fall on sleeping ears but he says them anyway, hoping they somehow wiggle their way into the peaceful dream youâre having.
Sunghoon heads out of the hotel room, picking up his key from the door and shutting it softly behind him. Just as the door clicks, he hears the same noise from up the hallway. He turns his head to see Minhee coming from your room, hair wet and a singular star pimple patch on his chin; the same brand you buy for yourself.Â
Now that heâs looking at your brother, he really studies how similar you both are; same nose, same posture, and even your walk is the same.Â
Minhee approaches Sunghoon with a timid wave and adjusts the gym bag securely onto his shoulder, âHey, Iâm guessing sheâs in there?â he asks, already knowing the answer.
âYeah,â Sunghoon nods, still whispering out of habit from this morning, âWeâŚyou were snoring so loud last night, Y/N couldnât sleep,â he offers as an excuse as to why Minhee woke up alone this morning.Â
Itâs a pathetic excuse but Sunghoon couldnât in his right mind tell him that they left to go back to his room and fuck because Sunghoon was way too horny to keep it in his pants. Some boundaries just cannot be crossed, plus, does any brother want to know that only a few doors down their sister was getting pounded into oblivion? The answer to that is always no.
Minhee holds his hand up in front of Sunghoon, âMate, shut up, weâre both 20 and Iâm not an idiot,â his face turns to disgust despite trying to come across as mature. A shiver runs down his spine at the conversation, not wanting to progress it any further.
Fortunately for him, neither does Sunghoon, âAre you ready for today?â he asks as they walk together to the lift.Â
Taking a deep breath in contemplation, Minhee finally nods, âYeah, I think so,â he pauses, pushing the elevator button. He is nervous, this grand plan of his only working if he does his absolute best with no mistakes; all he has to do is perform with the same tenacity as the run-through. He turns to his competitor and braces a smile, âHey, thanks for doing this, Sunghoon. I know after everything thatâs happened between us I shouldnât be asking you to do me a favour like this,â he says sheepishly.
It was a lot to ask of his then-rival, to be so bold and ask Sunghoon to throw a first place just to save Minheeâs ass after he nearly destroyed his career, no one in their right mind should have agreed. But Sunghoon, despite everything, was as understanding as ever.Â
Your brother wasnât accustomed to Sunghoonâs caring nature, Minheeâs impression of him up until this point was his enemy and what the media perceived him as, not the Sunghoon you knew, so when Sunghoon agreed, albeit a tad apprehensive, he was taken aback.
âIâll do anything for her,â Sunghoon states clearly, his voice firm with determination, âAnd you, man. I canât imagine what your mum has put you through up until now,â he admits. It was true that he was willing to do literally anything for you, but it was also true that he wanted to do this for Minhee as well. The more Sunghoon thought about it, it wasnât Minheeâs fault for all this drama, it was all your mumâs fault. He couldnât keep a grudge against someone who was only trying to protect their sister; if it was him, he would have done the same.
Minhee flashes a smile and light-heartedly punches Sunghoonâs shoulder, âGetting all gushy over me now, huh, Park?â he chuckles as the boy in front of him rolls his eyes in fake annoyance. Turning slightly serious, Minhee continues, âY/N is my first priority in this world and to be honest, I didnât care about winning until all this mess,â he confesses, a hint of anger pointed towards your mother in his voice.
âSheâs mine too, Minhee. Just do your best out there and weâll figure out the rest. I got you, man,â he smiles once again, hoping his sincerity comes through in his words. The lift bell dings as it arrives at their floor, and both skaters descend down to the lobby, on their way to the practice rink.Â
As they make their way across the street to the ice rink, the reporters are back on their case, shouting useless questions with zero substance. Sunghoon places an arm over Minheeâs shoulder, his lips against his ear, âWanna hold hands? Really give them something to talk about?â he laughs, pulling him in tighter to his side.Â
The flashes go rapid at the gesture, âI donât think we need to, Sunghoon. I think they might have already married us off,â Minhee says as his eyes focus on crossing the road, being the eyes for both of them as Sunghoon plays up to the camera.
âCâmon then, baby, we donât want to be late for our warm-up.â Both of them laugh loudly, as they walk into the arena, ready to finally take to the ice.
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The practice rink buzzes with anticipation as aspiring champions gather, each determined to claim National Gold. The distinct scent of ice and rubber immediately greets Minhee and Sunghoon as they step inside, a familiar aroma that stirs memories of countless hours spent honing their skills on the ice.
All eyes are on them, curiously following their every move. Unaffected by the attention, Minhee and Sunghoon enter together while exhibiting camaraderie and confidence. They chuckle lightheartedly at the hubbub outside, their laid-back demeanour in sharp contrast to the intensity of the upcoming competition.Â
Wonyoung waves at both of them as she skates around the rink, happy that her Belmore buddies are finally there to join her.Â
With Minhee spending a lot of time at the rink, he and Wonyoung have secretly become vast friends, even going as far as to help one another out when they cross paths. Your brother didnât have many friends on the ice, the nature of the competition is a lonely one, so it was refreshing to get close to a fellow figure skater. And one as pretty as Wonyoung was simply a bonus.
As Minhee waves back eagerly, Sunghoon raises his eyebrow sceptically, âYouâre cheating on me already? Did our 5-second wedding outside mean nothing to you?â he jibs at him, nudging his âloverâ with his shoulder.
âWhat are you talking about?â Minhee asks, never taking his eyes off Wonyoung.
âYouâve got a thing for Wonnie,â he says as a statement rather than a query, already certain of Minheeâs feelings towards the female skater.
Minhee snaps his face to meet Sunghoonâs gaze, âShe lets you call her that?â his face shines a brighter shade of red as he realises what he just said, âI mean no. Weâre friends, nothing more.â Despite Minheeâs protests, Sunghoon doesnât buy it, only wishing to poke fun at him further.
âHey, no judgment here, sheâs pretty,â he places a hand on his new friendâs shoulder, âYâknow, sheâs single, right? She broke up with that Ricky kid a few months ago,â he informs him.
Minhee nods sadly, âYeah, she said in passing that she wasnât getting involved with another figure skater.âÂ
Wonyoung and Ricky lasted a whole 4 months before calling it quits, not exactly heartbreak material, but enough for her to swear off any man that adorns a skate, at least for the time being.
Noticing Minheeâs slumped body language, Sunghoon tries his best to give him some encouragement, âTrue, but you have one thing that he doesnât,â he says, dancing his bushy eyebrows up and down.
Minhee tilts his head, âWhat?â
âYouâre older and youâre about to be a Nationals Champion. Iâd say thatâs pretty hot, hmm? I mean look at me,â he gestures to himself smugly, âThatâs how I got your sister.â
âMate, donât compare Wonyoung to my sister, youâre making this weird,â he cringes at the thought.
As they both watch Wonyoung practice her toe loops, Minhee spots someone at the corner of his eye, dragging his attention away from his not-so-secret-and-completley-obvious-crush, to the woman walking towards them.
Minhee elbows Sunghoon to grab his attention, eyes pointed towards Mrs. Park as she approaches them both, face void of any emotion.
Sunghoonâs whole body freezes, the last person he expected to see today was his mother; she hasnât bothered to contact him since their big argument.Â
The thing is, Sunghoon had debated whether to reach out and try and fix the relationship they had, knowing that his dad would be so mad if he didnât at least attempt to mend things with her. But it also wasnât solely his responsibility, she could have texted him or showed up to one of his scheduled practices, he knows she still gets the notifications in her calendar.
Despite not knowing what transpired between the Parks, Minhee knows he needs to make himself scarce, âIâll see you out there, yeah?â he faces Sunghoon whose sole attention is on his mum as she stands in front of him.
âYeah, Iâll be on the ice in a minute. Grab me a rack?â still, Sunghoonâs eyes never leave his mother even as he speaks to Minhee.Â
The other boy pats his back as he goes to the changing rooms, leaving the pair to have what can only be described as a staring contest.
âWhy are you here?â Sunghoon asks, tone laced with agitation and defiance. He couldnât be civil to her, not when she insulted and belittled you so easily. Although her suspicions of foul play were correct, she blamed you without knowing anything or gathering any evidence against you. He canât stand for it, not then and not now.Â
And then there were her careless words about his deceased father, words that still reverberated in Sunghoon's mind. The idea that his own father would be ashamed of him was a wound that cut deeper than any other, a wound he was still grappling to heal.Â
âI came to wish you luck,â she states, voice as monotonous as ever.
Her son crosses his arms, body language standoffish as he goes to speak, âI donât need your luck. I donât need your guidance or anything. I fired you, or was that not clear?â he hisses.
âYou canât fire me from being your mother. I still care about you,â she retorts. There is only a hint of emotion in her voice, otherwise, Sunhgoon is looking at his typical stoic mother. If he is to believe anything she says right now, she would need to show some form of depth.
Sunghoon sucks his teeth, âI have a new family now, I really donât need you,â he states calmly despite the bubbling anger that is rising from his chest. He saw you, and now Minhee, as his found family, people he can rely on and trust without question which is more than he can say about the woman standing a mere 50cm away from him.Â
Since she has been out of his life, he has felt so free of most negative emotions. The mini panic attack he had the day he kicked her out of the house was enough for him to step back and re-evaluate their relationship. No one in the world should make anyone feel as little as she made him feel that day, so he vowed never to let anyone do that to him again.
âI canât make you forgive me for how Iâve acted over the years, I donât expect you to, but I would like to make peace,â she confesses.
Confused, Sunghoon leans back, his arms loosening from their knot slightly, âYou had weeks to do that, why pick today of all days?â
Sunghoonâs mother shifts uncomfortably, a sense of awkwardness lingering in the air as she chooses an arguably inappropriate moment to broach the sensitive topic, "Sunghoon, I only want what is best for you," she begins tentatively, her voice tinged with a hint of regret, "And I know it may not seem like it, but I do care about you. Your father was the one with a paternal instinct; what I lacked in love, he made up for."
Her words hang heavy in the air, prompting Sunghoon to pause and reflect. It's a rare occurrence for his mother to admit fault or express any form of emotional vulnerability, leaving him at a loss for how to respond, this was all new to him, a road he didnât know how to navigate.
âWhen your father died, I was left to shoulder the weight of showing you love when I couldnât find it in myself to love you the way you deserved. It sounds cold and I can only apologise for feeling this way, but I think explaining this to you will make you hate me less, maybe even forgive me.â
"So that's it then?" he burst out, his voice edged with bitterness, "You're telling me you never loved me? That showing me any form of love was a burden? And you expect me to hate you less? Youâve got some nerve.â Itâs amazing to Sunghoon how she can stand there and say this to her own son, asking for him to forgive her. His anger simmered, a storm raging within him as he struggled to comprehend his mother's words.
âItâs not that I donât love you itâs just-â
âYou are my mother, youâre supposed to love your child unconditionally, no excuses,â Sunghoon's voice pierced the thick air, full of despair and rage. Every fibre of his being shouted for justice, for the love he had sought but never got.
However, as he locked eyes with his mother, a harsh realisation came over him like a tsunami smashing on the coast. He realised with terrible clarity that demanding empathy from someone who lacked the ability to care was a lost cause.
In this moment, a profound shift occurred within Sunghoon. It was a silent acknowledgement, a decision made in the depths of his soul. He refused to play the endless game of seeking validation from someone incapable of offering it. He refused to subject himself to further anguish in a cycle destined for disappointment.
"I'm done," he declared softly, his words carrying the weight of finality, âI have never been happier with you out of my life. I have people who love me, I donât need you anymore, these past few weeks have shown me that.â
His mother looks aghast at her sonâs statement, feeling her own sense of betrayal right now. She had come here looking for reconciliation but instead, she only got kicked to the curb once again. The damage of the past had already been done.Â
âSunghoon, please donât shut me out. Iâm trying to learn to be the mother you deserve,â she pleads with him, mustering up any way to make him forgive her.
He watches as her face washes over with something he had never seen before, sorrow perhaps. It twinges his heart to see anyone upset, but she canât scribble out the past with one sign of regret. If she had approached this conversation differently, he may have seen eye to eye with her but saying she found it hard to love him wasnât the best way to broach the subject of redemption.
Itâs not in Sunghoonâs nature not to be a little understanding, he does know that some people lack the emotional intelligence to form loving relationships. But that isnât the type of person he needs in his life right now, not in his formative years. He needs more people like you, people who love him and make it look easy, not burdensome.
Stepping closer to her, he gives her one more look over, âWhen I have kids, I will give them all the love you should have given me,â he spits at her, yet his heart is heavy with the realisation that he has lost both his parents.
âWait!â she shouts, holding onto his arm.
Sunghoon's muscles tensed as his mother's grip tightened on his arm, her desperation palpable. He hesitated, torn between the desire to break free from her grasp and the lingering flicker of compassion within him.
"What?" he demanded, his voice tinged with frustration and exhaustion, "What more could you possibly have to say?"
His mother's gaze wavered, a mix of remorse and longing clouding her features. "I know I've failed you, Sunghoon," she whispered, her voice finally trembling with emotion, "But please, give me a chance to make things right. I may not have been the mother you needed, but I want to try. I want to be there for you, to support you in any way I can. Iâm working on myself, please believe me."
As Sunghoon grappled with the weight of his mother's plea, a tumultuous storm raged within him. Each word she uttered clawed at his resolve, tugging at the fragile threads of forgiveness he dared to entertain.
He met her gaze, searching for any hint of sincerity amidst the tangled web of emotions. And as he looked into her eyes, he saw a vulnerability he had never witnessed before - a vulnerability that mirrored his own.
With a heavy sigh, Sunghoon gently removed his mother's hand from his arm. "I need time," he said softly, his voice laced with uncertainty. He didnât know if this was the right choice, to at least not burn the bridge to his mother completely, but as he looked at her now, he felt his dad in his ear, begging him to at least consider mending the relationship.
Was there a chance for redemption, for reconciliation, buried beneath the layers of hurt and resentment? Or was this merely another chapter in their tumultuous relationship, destined to end in further heartache and disappointment? Sunghoon isnât sure, but heâll try.
With a heavy heart, Sunghoon stamps down his decision - one born from a fragile balance of trepidation and tentative optimism, "I need to think about this, all of it. I have people to consider, including myself, before I can even entertain the idea of letting you back into my life." he confessed, his voice trembling.
Sunghoon's mother nodded, her eyes shimmering with gratitude and a glimmer of hope. "I understand," she whispered, her voice barely above a breath, "Take all the time you need. I'll be here, waiting. Good luck today."
His mother gives him one final nod before retreating, leaving Sunghoon with his decision. He sits with the echoes of his mother's plea - a silent promise to confront the demons of their past and forge a new path forward, one step at a time. And though the journey would be fraught with obstacles, he clung to the belief that amidst the pain and turmoil, there lay the possibility of redemption - a chance to rewrite the story of their fractured relationship and embrace forgiveness.Â
It was either the most foolish thing he had ever done or the start of his healing journey.Â
Making his way to the locker room, he sees Minhee lacing up his skates, weaving the strings around each of the eyelets. Sunghoon takes the moment to look at him and wonder how Minhee feels about his own damaged relationship with his mum. Was it as conflicting for him or was the decision to rid his mother from your family easy?
Sunghoon sits down on the saved seat next to Minhee, leaning back against the wall, his head thumping.
âYou okay?â Minhee asks tentatively, not wanting to poke the bear.
âYeah,â Sunghoon opens his eyes to gaze at Minhee, âCan I ask you something?â Nodding, Minhee sits up straight, awaiting the impending question, âYour mum, was it easy to, like, disown her?â Itâs a strange question to ask someone but he hopes that Minheeâs answer will give him some clarity into his own situation.Â
Minhee ponders, never having really thought about it before, âI think it was, I mean, she put Y/N in danger, treated us both like shit, and blamed me for a lot of things that I didnât have any control over. Emotionally, I think me and Y/N were both detached from her, which made it easy.â
Sitting with Minheeâs words, Sunghoon realises that the reason he finds it so hard to let go of the relationship with his mum is because he does care about her. She was cold and cruel, but never harmed him in any way. Her actions werenât one of a mother but in comparison to you and Minheeâs mum, she was at least a smidge better.Â
Each mother strives for her kid to succeed, but the stark contrast resides in the motives driving their acts. While Sunghoon's mother pushed him to achieve out of a genuine desire for his success, Minhee's mother's obsession with propelling him to the top sprang from her own selfish gain.
Watching Sunghoon wrestle with his inner turmoil, Minhee places a comforting hand on his shoulder, "I may not fully understand what's happening between you and your mum, but from one disappointing son to another," he says with a soft smile, attempting to lighten the heavy atmosphere, âIf there is a chance to fix your relationship, take it. As much as Iâm happy my bitch of a mother wonât be in my life anymore, it doesnât mean I donât wish things were different. If you and your mum can sort it out, do it.âÂ
Minheeâs speech is comforting, freeing Sunghoon of some of the tension in his body regarding the situation with his mother. Itâs always a risk to forgive someone or give them a second chance, but it can also lead to stronger relationships.
In this moment, Sunghoon can at least say his mother is willing to try and redeem herself, unlike some mums in the world. Itâs the bare minimum, but itâs a start.
"Thanks, Minhee," Sunghoon says, offering a grateful smile, "Do we kiss now, or?"
Minhee lets out a snort of laughter, playfully pushing his friend away. "Save those lips for the other Kang sibling, please," he teases, rising to his feet and balancing on his skates. "Although if you ever get bored of herâŚ"
With an exaggerated wink, Minhee saunters out of the locker room, leaving Sunghoon feeling lighter and more at ease. This was exactly the conversation Sunghoon needed, Minhee was the unexpected friend he needed.Â
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You exchange the biting chill of the winter for the bustling ice rink as you step inside the venue. The vibrant atmosphere envelops you like a warm embrace. Excitement crackles in the air, mingling with the sounds of blades slicing through the ice and the chatter of eager spectators. With Nationals in full swing, anticipation pulses through the crowd as they await the next performances.
You arrived early to ensure you caught Minhee before his turn on the ice. As the women's event concludes, leaving only three skaters left, the arena buzzes with energy
Navigating through the throngs of people, your eyes scan the crowded rink for any sign of your brother. The busy venue makes it tough to find him, and you donât even know what he is wearing. To be fair, he probably wouldnât be out in the open arena, but rather residing backstage as he awaits the start of the menâs competition.
You walk up to one of the event staff and ask if you can go backstage to see Minhee, but of course, he doesnât let you, âSorry, Miss. Only skaters and coaches are allowed back there,â he says sternly. At least heâs doing his job, you suppose.
"Luckily for her, she's with me, right, Y/N?" Coach Kim's smile is infectious, and you nod eagerly, grateful for his timely intervention.
"Yes, that's right," you chime in, your mind racing to concoct a plausible explanation. "I'm a... a meditator! Yes, a meditator. I help the competitors find their zen before going on stage." You realise your impromptu lie sounds feeble, but you press on, hoping to convince the staff member.
The staff eyes you both sceptically, his scrutiny unnerving, "Then why do you have a family badge?" he questions, his tone heavy with suspicion.
Feeling the weight of his scrutiny, you look to Coach Kim for support, silently pleading for assistance in salvaging the situation.
Coach Kim steps in smoothly, his easy smile never faltering, "Ah, you see, Y/N is an important member of our team so she is practically family. Her position as a meditator is critical to my skaterâs performance. She calms and focuses him before he goes out to the rink."
You give Coach Kim an appreciative look, quietly thanking him for his fast thinking. The staff member appears to examine his thoughts for a time before nodding in agreement.
"Alright then, you can go through," the staff member concedes, standing aside to allow you and Coach Kim access to the backstage area.
You walk beside Coach Kim, thanking him over and over again for getting you in. You didnât just want to see Minhee to wish him luck, you had a surprise for him and Sunghoon, âYouâre the best coach, has anyone told you that?â you beam at him.
Laughing, he nods, âA few times, yes, usually you or Minhee when you both want something,â Coach Kim points in front of you, âHeâs in there.â
âThanks, Coach!â you go to wave him off but he stops you in your tracks by gently grabbing your shoulder.
âY/N, Minhee told me about your mum,â he sighs, troubled by the information. Surely Minhee didnât tell him about the gambling or the skate incident, so what could he possibly know? âIâll be candid when I say that I never enjoyed your mumâs company, not for my sake, but for yours and Minheeâs. Her deciding to leave you both high and dry like this is unforgivable,â his voice laces with disgust.
Coach Kim obviously only knows a twisted version of the events that went down recently, Minhee clearly careful with his phrasing.Â
âI just want to say, if you both ever need anything at all, a place to live, some extra work, a homecooked meal, whatever it is, you come and find me, okay?â His offer is generous.
To be honest, you hadnât thought about the repercussions of your mother no longer being by your side. Where would you and Minhee live now? How would you manage to make ends meet without her support? The questions swirl around in your mind, each one more daunting than the last.
âYou and Minhee, youâre both strong kids. I have faith that everything will work out for you, so donât think too much about it. Just enjoy today,â he says as if reading your anxious mind.Â
Coach Kim's reassurance offers a glimmer of hope amidst the uncertainty. His belief in your strength and resilience reminds you that you're not alone in this, that there are people who care about your well-being and are willing to help you navigate the challenges ahead.
With a final ruffle in your hair, Coach Kim leaves you in the corridor, his words of encouragement resonating in your ears. It was nice to have his support, it makes you feel like maybe you and Minhee had a support system all along, all you had to do was shed your poison of a mother.
Your feet carry you to the door to the locker room, chapping it rapidly. You canât wait to see him and wish him luck. Although your apprehension weighs strongly regarding the skate and how important it is for him to win, not just for his pride but also for your safety and future.
You havenât had a lot of time to come to terms with how much trouble you could be in if your brother loses this competition; the foolish bets your mum has made in your name, taking money from some shady guys to make them, and how youâre somehow on the firing line in this situation - itâs a lot to deal with mentally.
Telling Sunghoon to just skate to the best of his abilities wasnât because you arenât scared of what could happen, you just wanted Minhee to know that he can win this on his own, no cheating, no Sunghoon letting him win, absolutely no interferences. After everything that has transpired with your mum, he needed this.
Of course, you need to be safe, if these bets fall short and youâre left with the debt, you can say goodbye to university and any of your tiny savings. If the men are as brute as Minhee made them out to be, youâre fucked with no way out of it.
Curiosity got the better of you this morning and you checked the odds for Minhee winning this competition which was 15:1. According to Minhee, she put on ÂŁ50,000 which would mean she would get 750k. Itâs more money than you could imagine having in your entire life and it makes you angry that not only has your mum put you in danger but that you wouldnât see a penny of it.
The money isnât important to you but the fact that she was essentially putting money above her own daughter's safety is a crazy, rage-inducing thought that you donât think you will ever get over. How could you? And to make Minhee feel like he couldnât win on his abilities alone? She has destroyed both of your self-worth and confidence over the years.
So today, your sole focus is on being there for Minhee, rooting for him and believing in his ability to shine as the extraordinary skater you know him to be.Â
As you knock again, you hear rustling around as someone comes to answer the door. The metal swings open to reveal your boyfriend, hair dishevelled as if heâs just combed his fingers through it and his costume twisted.
âBaby, what are you doing here?â he asks, poking his head out the door to check if anyone saw you coming backstage. Quickly, he pulls you in, âHow did you sneak past?â
Your eyes swiftly trace the room to see the skaters all getting ready, some in just their boxers and others applying the last sparkles of their body mist. One guy is strutting around with tighty whities, leaving nothing to the imagination.
Sunghoon notices your eyes stuck to something before swivelling his head to catch sight of the well-endowed man, âSweets donât make me knock fuck out of every guy in this room,â he warns as one of his hands pinches your chin to drag your eyes away from the half-naked men and focus on him.
Honestly, the tint of jealousy etching onto his face is so hot, you wonder if you should start oggling at others more often. Sunghoon raises his brows, waiting for you to explain, âSorry, Hoonie. Iâve never seen so many guys in their underwear before,â you try to use it as an excuse, as if the unfamiliar sight warrants your interest but Sunghoon isnât buying it.
âIt will be the last time you see it, I can promise you that,â he scoffs, taking your hand and pulling you towards the back of the room, clear out of everyoneâs line of sight, or more, everyone out of your sight.
He places you so your back is against the sea of skaters, âSo what are you doing here?â he asks again, this time a little more playfully, âWant a quickie before I go on?â he leans down to your lips, kissing you softly, âI can bend you over and show all these losers who you belong to.â
Shivers run across your spine as he kisses you, his tongue sweeping into your mouth. Someone walks by behind you and Sunghoon pulls you closer to him, eyeing the boy as he devours you in front of him.
Sunghoon was only half joking about fucking you in the middle of the locker room for everyone to see. He wanted everyone to know you were his and only his and no one should even look at you for longer than a second. If anyone dares to stare too long, heâll make sure they canât ever look at anything again through the black eyes and blood.
You give into his kiss and press your body against his, your tongues licking one another as you moan into his mouth.
âYouâre both disgusting. Are you seriously going to fuck in a locker room with loads of people around?â Minhee comes up behind you, arms crossed as you and Sunghoon separate your bodies from one another.
"Wouldn't be the first time," Sunghoon murmurs into your ear, his lips brushing against your lobe as he reminisces about the countless intimate moments you've shared in Belmore. Suppressing a laugh, you feel a playful squeeze on your ass from Sunghoon, much to your brother's chagrin.
Minhee recoils, his expression contorted in disgust, "Guys, I might vomit if you keep grinding on each other while I'm right here," he pleads, his voice tinged with both embarrassment and humour.
With an affectionate eye-roll, you approach Minhee and envelop him in a tight hug, "Sorry, we forgot that displaying affection around you is considered a crime," you quip, injecting a touch of playful banter into the moment.
Minhee feigns annoyance, but you can see a hint of a smile tugging at the corners of his lips, "I have a weak stomach," he retorts, trying to maintain his composure despite the teasing. As he lets go of your embrace, he notices something Sunghoon failed to, âWhatâs that?â
He points to the rolled-up A3 piece of card in your left hand. Through Sunghoonâs displays of affection, itâs slightly bashed at the edges but no real damage has been done.
âOh! I made you both something,â you scurry around, pushing Minhee to stand next to Sunghoon as you unravel the white card, âTa-da!â
While they were gone this morning, you took it upon yourself to make a sign. Typically, you always make a sign for Minhee at each competition, so the gesture is nothing new, however, this time, you had two people to support.
Sunghoon and Minhee both resemble puppies as they tilt their head in curiosity, reading the sign.
âMinhoon?â your brother reads out, âIs thatâŚâ
âItâs both your names merged! I thought it would be fun to support my two boys together this time,â you smile widely, holding your artwork proudly.
The sign took you approximately an hour and a half to complete, ensuring that each of their personalities was represented perfectly. On Minhee's side, you incorporated his favourite colour combination of black and blue, adorned with stickers of stars, Pochacco, and dainty white bows. This aesthetic is quintessentially Minhee, and he adores it, especially because you add a star for every gold he's earned.
On Sunghoon's side, you opted for a sleek white and black backdrop, accentuated with pink hearts to symbolise the number of months you've been together. To complete the symmetry, you included two little pictures of Tuxedosam, perfectly mirroring each side of the sign.
As you step back to admire your handiwork, you can't help but feel a sense of satisfaction knowing that you've captured the essence of both Minhee and Sunghoon in this thoughtful gesture.
Minhee and Sunghoon exchange a glance before erupting into laughter, the absurdity of the earlier debacle and their playful charade of a secret love affair only amplifying the hilarity of the situation.
However, your heart sinks as you mistake their laughter for mockery. A small pout forms on your lips as you gaze at them, hurt evident in your eyes. "Is it not good?" you ask, your voice tinged with disappointment.
Instantly, Sunghoon and Minhee's laughter fades, replaced by a solemn expression as they see the hurt reflected in your eyes. Without hesitation, Minhee reaches out, his voice gentle as he reassures you, "No, no, Bubs, we love it, don't we, Sunghoon?" He looks to his friend, who nods earnestly in agreement. "See? We were just laughing about something else earlier," Minhee explains softly, wrapping an arm around you for comfort.
Feeling reassured by Minhee's words and his comforting embrace, you let out a relieved sigh, the tension easing from your shoulders. "Oh," you say, a small smile returning to your lips as you realise your misunderstanding. "Well, as long as you both like it, that's what matters."
Sunghoon nods in agreement, his expression sincere. "It's perfect, Sweets. Thank you so much" he says softly, his hand finding yours and giving it a reassuring squeeze. This is Sunghoonâs first sign brought by someone he loves and he could not be more thankful that the first one was handmade by the love of his life.
âCâmere,â Minhee wraps his other arm around Sunghoon, forming the three of you in a huddle, âWhatever happens today, I just want you both to know that I really am sorry for everything thatâs gone on and I would take it all back,â he says sadly, knowing that his actions have caused distress and pain to the one person he loves in the world.
âI wouldnât,â Sunghoon says suddenly, causing you and Minhee to look at him, âI donât know, I think this has just brought us closer together, who wouldnât want that outcome?â
Nodding, you both agree with his sentiment. This troubled time has been a rollercoaster but youâve found strength in one another through it all. Would you wish your motherâs implications werenât a part of it all? Sure, but look at the three of you now. Youâve bonded in ways you would never think possible.
And your boyfriend and brother are becoming friends, that is all you could ask for in a situation like this.
Minhee stares into Sunghoonâs eyes as he tries to communicate with him. He doesnât know you know about their plan, and he certainly doesnât know about you requesting Sunghoon to go against your brotherâs wishes.
Nodding once as if answering Minheeâs internal question, Sunghoon steps back, sighing, âNow can one of you please help me with this costume? Iâm tangled at the back and I donât know how,â he begs, turning to show his dilemma.
âMate, youâve got your arm inside out,â Minhee says with a snort, solving the problem with one gentle pull of the sleeve and turning it the right way around. He buttons it up for him at the back before slapping his back roughly, âOkay, I gotta go, Iâm on in 30 minutes and I wanna see what itâs like out there.â
âGood luck, Minhee,â Sunghoon says, a smile on his face as he brings him in for a hug, âDo well,â he squeezes him tighter.
Reciprocating his hug, Minhee smiles, âYou too. And watch that skate,â he jokes as he pulls away to hug you next.
Sunghoon playfully huffs and crosses his arms, "Not funny, okay? It's too soon," he retorts, a smirk tugging at his lips. Despite the jest, there's a genuine camaraderie between them, a shared understanding of each other's quirks and humour.
You playfully punch Minhee's arm for his remark, eliciting a laugh from him before he waves you both off, heading towards the side of the rink to prepare for his performance.
As Minhee disappears from view, you're left alone with Sunghoon once again. He picks up the sign, a fond smile gracing his features, "I've always wanted one of these," he admits wistfully, his gaze lingering on the sign with a mixture of appreciation and affection.
You smile at Sunghoon's words, touched by his genuine sentiment, "I'm glad you like it," you say softly, stepping closer to him and resting your hand on his arm, "I wanted to do something special for you, sorry it was tied in with Minhee but I always make him a sign so,â you explain, stroking his forearm.
âI donât care, I love it regardless because you made it.â Sunghoonâs eyes reflect warmth and gratitude as he gently places the sign against the wall.
âI promise, next competition when itâs just you, Iâll make one for only you,â you beam up at him, fixing his tussled hair as best as you can, leaving a kiss on his nose. Sunghoon looks deeply at you as if coming to a realisation about something, but you miss it, too busy focusing on the parting of his hair.Â
He holds your hips as you reach up to fix the back, his fingers squeezing you tightly as his heart flutters at the simple gesture. With the nape of your neck bare and in teasing Sunghoon, he leans down and places soft kisses upon it, savouring this moment.
The sudden affection makes you close your eyes, your hands now leaving his hair to hug him around his shoulders. His heart is thumping so loud you can hear it.
âAre you nervous?â you ask, nuzzling your nose into his hair. He doesnât verbally respond, opting for a quick shake of the head but you can feel it in your bones that he is lying, his body betraying him, âYou donât have to be. Everything will work out whatever way the universe intends.â
Removing himself from you, Sunghoon gazes into your eyes once again except this time theyâre filled with doubt. He is petrified of this skate because he knows if he accidentally wins, youâre in danger and that scares him because the threat is much more than he can handle. He doesnât want to go against your request but for your health and safety, he will, he just has to do it sneakily so no one is mad at him. âYou are going to do great, everything will be fine, and no offence but I really do think Minhee can win this,â you reiterate the words youâve been saying to him since yesterday, only further proving your belief in your brother.
Sunghoon nods, but there's a hint of resignation in his gesture. "I wish I had someone like you in my corner while I was growing up," he confesses, a bitter laugh escaping his lips as he looks away. His gaze flickers to the ground, weighed down by the weight of his past.
"You did have someone â your dad," you remind him gently, reaching out to bring his forehead to touch yours. "And you still do. He's been watching over you this whole time, and he is so proud of you."
Sunghoon closes his eyes, allowing your comforting words to wash over him like a soothing balm. In that moment of vulnerability, he finds solace in the warmth of your embrace, the love and support you offer serves as motivation to keep you safe.
He nudges your nose with his as he speaks in a hushed tone, âAre you proud of me?â
For years it was his parentâs love and pride he fought for, his father giving it up so easily in comparison to his mother, but now itâs only you who he needs reassurance and love from. Sunghoon wants to make you proud in every way he possibly can.
Your eyes sparkle with love for him, âSunghoon, my body is bursting with how proud you have made me. There is not a fibre of my being that isnât proud of you,â you try to convey your genuity, knowing he needs to hear it most right now.
Sunghoon's heart swells at your words, a wave of relief coming over him as he hears the sincerity in your voice. Your unconditional support means everything to him, and in that moment, he feels a sense of peace knowing that he has you by his side.
Tears well up in his eyes as he pulls you into a tight embrace, cherishing the warmth and comfort of your presence. "Thank you," he whispers hoarsely, his voice filled with emotion. "I don't know what I would do without you. I love you so much, Y/N. I feel like I canât breathe without you.â
As you hold Sunghoon tightly, his words sinking deep into your heart, you feel overwhelmed by the depth of your love for him. Tears prick at the corners of your eyes, mirroring his own, as you realise just how deeply intertwined your lives have become.
"I love you too, Sunghoon," you whisper back, your voice barely audible, but filled with unwavering conviction, "You're my everything and I promise you, you donât have to worry. I'll always be here for you, through every moment, every challenge. You're not alone, and you never will be,â you whisper into his ear.
With those words, you offer him the reassurance and comfort he needs, your promise of unwavering support echoing in the space between you. In this embrace, you find solace in each other's arms, knowing that together, you can weather any storm that comes your way.
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Settling into your seat in the designated family and friends area, you turn your attention towards the entrance of the rink, where Minhee is seen stretching. His expression is a mix of anticipation and apprehension, the weight of expectations palpable on his shoulders.
Minhee may have struck a deal with Sunghoon to secure a win, but with that agreement comes the added pressure of not making any mistakes. One wrong move could unravel everything, turning his carefully laid plans into chaos. As he prepares to take the ice, the intensity of the moment hangs heavy in the air.
Flicking his blade protectors off, Minhee glides onto the ice, circling the rink to warm up and familiarise himself with the surface beneath his skates. Amidst the whirlwind of emotions, his mind is filled with positive affirmations, each one a silent plea for a flawless performance.
With every lap, he pushes himself to perfection, knowing that this is his moment to shine. All he has to do is skate flawlessly, and everything will fall into place. Yet, despite the gravity of the situation, he tries to brush off the pressure with a casual "no pressure."
You watch him with a mixture of pride and hope, wishing you could convey your unwavering belief in him. You long for him to channel that same sparkle and determination that captivated everyone during his run-through at Belmore. As he takes his position in the middle of the rink, you silently send him all the positive energy and support you can muster, hoping some of it can be injected into him as he performs.
Shutting his eyes, the music begins and a hush falls over the audience, anticipation crackling in the air like electricity. With each breath, he channels his nerves into focus, his determination evident in the set of his jaw and the fire in his eyes.
Minhee launches into his routine with precision and grace. His movements are fluid, each step and turn executed with meticulous precision as he glides effortlessly across the ice. The audience is glued to him from the start, paying close attention following his every movement with rapt concentration. Minhee pushes himself to new heights with each jump and spin, blending his skills with his artistry, only making your heart swell with immense pride.
You hold your breath, slowly hiding your face behind the sign that you made as you know which part of his routine is coming next.
As the music crescendos, Minhee approaches the most difficult part: the quadruple axel, the one move he has based this whole routine on. He takes a deep breath, collects his strength, and throws himself into the air, spinning faster and faster until he completes four full rotations before landing with perfect elegance, leaving the audience breathless.
Standing up in amazement, you tuck your sign under your arm and clasp your hands, knowing itâs impolite to scream out of pure joy when an athlete is competing. Minheeâs quadruple axel today might have been the best youâve seen in your entire life; the move is deemed one of the most difficult to accomplish and he just made it look like he does it every other Saturday.
Minhee expertly transitions into the last section of his performance, his confidence surging as he executes each element with accuracy and delicacy. His movements are filled with emotion, and his passion shines through in every beautiful gesture as he narrates a tale with each stride. He knows now is a straight run of easy manoeuvres he carefully choreographed to make sure the axle was the shining star of the performance.
It also means he can finally spare you a glance as he finds you in the crowd, a smile creeping on his face as he sees you standing with pride. You look hopeful that he might win and with your backing, thatâs all he needs. He wishes he could win this without Sunghoon performing with the intent of losing, but he still has time to achieve that - your safety is all that matters.
As the music fades to its final notes, Minhee brings his performance to conclusion, his arms outstretched in triumph as he basks in the adulation of the crowd. The cheers that erupt from them are so loud you swear the glass might break. You can see the commentators also getting up in excitement, clearly enthralled by his performance.Â
And when Minhee makes his last bow, a sense of fulfilment sweeps over you, knowing that he had not only met, but exceeded all expectations that he and others had set for himself.Â
Gliding off the ice, he is met with the bone-crushing embrace of Coach Kim who adorns a wide smile on his face and tears in his eyes. The weight of their shared journey is evident in the strength of their embrace and Coach Kim's words of praise and encouragement are lost in the roar of the crowd, but the pride shining in his eyes says it all.
You want to be at Minhee's side, to share in the excitement of his triumph and to lavish him with praise. However, as you watch from the sidelines, witnessing Coach Kim and Coach Lee wrap him in a cocoon of love and praise, you can find comfort in knowing that he is receiving the ovation and admiration he deserves.
Minhee's heart expands with pride and delight, filling his chest with an incredible sensation of accomplishment. The excitement of the moment envelopes him like a warm hug, putting him on cloud 9.Â
Coach Kim leads him to the seating area where he must sit to see his final score. You sit with ease, knowing that this will be his highest mark to date, an accomplishment in itself.
As Minhee awaits the display of his scores, a nervous energy pulses through him, his heart pounding in his chest with anticipation. Every muscle in his body tenses as he fixates on the screen, his breath caught in his throat as he waits for the verdict of his performance.
Then, in a flurry of movement, the numbers appear on the screen, each category receiving high points for technicality and artistry, and Minhee's eyes widen in disbelief. The numbers on the screen read 298.5, causing both you and Minheeâs faces to mimic one another despite being on opposite ends of the arena.
Having never before topped a score of 213.74 - an incredible accomplishment in and of itself - his new record catapults him to a whole new level, putting him alongside figure skating giants like Nathan Chen and Yuzuru Hanyu.
You donât even think Sunghoon has scored that well before.
Minhee stands frozen for a moment, absorbing the weight of his achievement, before a radiant smile breaks across his face. It's a culmination of years of dedication, sacrifice, and unwavering determination.
âFuck me!â he shouts, jumping up to hug Coach Kim once again. There are more elegant ways to celebrate than swearing on national television, but you canât blame him for being completely besotted with himself.
The crowdâs cheers die down and the atmosphere returns to a calm-like state, only chatter filling the silence as people discuss their amazement over your brother's skating. You could not be more proud of him if you tried.
Now you just need to wait for Sunghoon, hoping the tremendous score Minhee got would serve as enough influence to just do his best and not throw it for the sake of your motherâs stupid consequences.Â
An hour passes after Minhee's electrifying performance, the energy in the arena is crackling with excitement as the crowd eagerly awaits Sunghoon's turn on the ice. He is the golden boy of the figure skating world, and there is a lot of pressure on him to succeed, however, if he fails this one time, no one will be able to blame him or bat an eye at it; the score your brother set is almost impossible to beat.
You sit on the edge of your seat, your heart pounding in your chest as you watch him lumber up, his movements cautious as he tests his ankle to ensure it's ready for his performance.
He glides onto the ice, warming up with some jumps and simple stretches. His ankle, still tender from the previous injury, protests with each turn and twist, but Sunghoon pushes through the pain. This was a 2-minute and 40-second skate, itâll be over in a flash and he just has to get through it.Â
Sunghoon wonât admit it to you, or anyone for that matter, but being in front of all these people is terrifying him. The last time he performed this skate, in this outfit, in front of this many people, was the day he snapped his ankle. Not only the injury from it but the emotional damage it caused was hard to live with, and now itâs almost as if he is living that day all over again.
He glances around the family area to find you, sitting in your seat with adoration spread across your entire face. Itâs like you have him under a spell, how his worries and fears seem to melt away as his eyes meet yours; the love between you casts a blanket of protection over his worries, the thoughts of making a complete full of himself gone so quickly, simply because of the sparkle in your eye.
Sunghoon skates over to your side, flashing you his beautiful smile, your favourite canines on full display. He looks so beautiful right now, the pressure normally placed on his shoulders by his mother has now vanished. This is the first competition he has participated in without the nagging of being perfect gnawing in his brain.
Itâs comforting to know that even when he loses today, he has someone to run to who will show him love and appreciation for his efforts.Â
However, the words of his mother's promise from their earlier conversation twirl in his brain. Sunghoon wonders if they really could reconcile through all of this, after everything theyâve been through. He wanted love and his mother couldnât provide him with that. But maybe she really is willing to make an effort, perhaps all they needed was some time to mend their relationship.
Once Nationals is over heâll deal with that, but for now, he needs to focus. He might be set to lose but he will be damned if he comes anything but second.
Taking a deep breath, Sunghoon puts his arm in the air, gearing up for his performance as he stands in position. He looks like a vision in his costume, the spotlight on him makes the jewels shine brighter and the silhouette of his trimmed figure under the shirt is more evident than the first time you saw him in it. Rina had a talent for creating clothes but perhaps she should consider a career in designing skating costumes.
As the haunting melody of "Ocean Eyes" by Billie Eilish fills the arena, Sunghoon begins his routine. You donât realise youâre holding your breath and your hands are clasped so tight together that theyâre turning white. You want him to do well, to show everyone that even with an injury still looming under his taped up ankle, he is still miles above the rest.
Sunghoon launches into a flawless triple axel as the music swells, his body soaring through the air with precision and grace. He lands it clean, a small smile on his face despite his ankle pulsing. He hadnât realised how sore it had been over the past few days, perhaps all that rehearsal time and coming back too early had finally done some damage. But that doesnât matter right now, what matters is finishing the routine.
And to have fun.
With each beautiful turn and twist, Sunghoon's is reviving a passion that had laid dormant for far too long. It's a revelation, a flashback to his old self, a child consumed by the pure excitement of skating.
In the rink, he's letting go of his inhibitions and embracing the moment, a contrast to the stoicism that has defined almost all of his past competitions. The judges can see it too, with the joy he is showcasing through each glide of his blades across the ice, they are mesmerised. This is the Sunghoon that the people fell in love with, the skater that made them proud.
When he reaches the finale of his skate, performing a stunning combination spin that leaves the audience breathless, Sunghoon realises he has accomplished something far better than any medal or acclaim could ever provide. In this moment of perfect bliss, he reconnects with his passion, purpose, and the simple joy of skating.
You had shown him how to love skating again throughout your relationship, now added with the lack of pressure to win, he can finally breathe.
Heâs home.
You are the first one to stand up, applauding your man for his flawless skate. It was perfect, he was perfect. The crowd follows suit, cheering and yelling as he bows, letting the praise wash over his body. You could not be prouder of him, the tears in your eyes are a testament to your feelings.
This is your first time seeing him in competition as his girlfriend which probably adds to the swelling of your heart, but itâs more than that. You have been a fan of Sunghoon for a lot longer and as a fan, there is nothing more fulfilling than seeing your favourite person achieve something, even if the accomplishment is happiness, you want him to be bathed in it.
However, with Sunghoon performing possibly one of his best skates in the past couple of years, it does set in the back of your mind that he still has to lose. You told him to go out there and give it everything he has but now the moment is getting closer and closer to determining your fate, youâre a little on edge.
Youâre trying not to think about it because you know Minhee has done amazing and if he truly does beat Sunghoon today, you can breathe easy knowing you made the right call and that Minhee did this all on his own.Â
Your brother needs this.
Sunghoon stands straight and skates around the rink, lapping up the crowd's adoration. Youâre too caught up in your head you almost forget your surprise for him; it wasnât just the sign that you had planned.
Traditionally, skaters get things thrown into the ring; plushies, roses, the whole lot. Minhee was partial to receiving little dog plushies and yellow sunflowers - the perfect accompaniment to his brand. And Sunghoon would always receive roses and penguin toys, but you wanted to throw something that as he saw it on the ice, he would know instantly that it was from you.
Delving into your bag, your fingers close around the familiar packaging of Haribos. With a proud smile, you launch them onto the pristine ice, a playful gesture laden with significance. For you and Sunghoon, the colourful sweeties hold a special place in your hearts.
It was a reminder of not only you but of his dad. Itâs something so silly but sacred to you both, the first knot in your invisible string. His father had been the bridge to connect you both when you were younger and if he could see you both now, he would be filled with unfiltered happiness.
Gliding gracefully toward your side, he spots the sweets nestled within the sea of roses and looks up at you, his eyes widening in glee.
With the Haribos clutched to his chest, he silently mouths 'I love you,' to which you reciprocate with a beaming grin, watching fondly as he skates back towards the rink's exit.
Coach Lee is the first to greet him, ruffling his hair and patting him on the shoulder as he sings his praises. Itâs a little strange not seeing his mother there but Sunghoon doesnât seem to mind, too busy basking in the love from his coach.Â
Walking to the couch area, he sits and awaits his score. It just has to be under 298.5, thatâs all it has to be. He grips the packet of sweets tight as he rethinks his whole performance. Perhaps he skated a little too well and that scared him because that can only mean youâre in danger of having those men after you.Â
He can defend you from a hockey player, but against a literal loan shark, he's out of his depth with that one.
As the scores begin to round up on the giant screen, your heart races with anticipation. Each number revealed feels like a drumbeat, echoing the beating of your heart. Usually, you would be begging it to slow down, your heart typically adorning a rapid pace in events like these, yet it is so still you think it might stop. It only seems to beat as each individual score is revealed.
Sunghoon is the same, fondling the Haribos like a stress ball as he sees the high scores, some seem higher than Minheeâs which nearly puts him into cardiac arrest. If he wins over Minhee, he might vomit all over his coach.
Then - as if the world has stopped - the final score flashes on the screen and materialises itself before you and Sunghoon.Â
Gasping, you drop your sign and shoot up, mouth hung open as your eyes stay glued to the numbers before you.
296.21
Minhee won.
Minhee won.
âOh my god,â you whisper to yourself, a smile splits your cheeks and your knees shake under you. Your brother won, through all his hard work and determination, he beat Sunghoon. And not only that, he bet him with his highest score to match. Sunghoonâs performance was awe-inducing, clearly indicated by the momentous score he just received, yet Minhee still managed to overtake him.
As Coach Lee offers Sunghoon a consoling pat on the shoulder, the atmosphere is thick with tension. Yet, Sunghoon can't feign disappointment. At this moment, there's only one thought racing through his mind.
You're safe.
Once the commotion settles down around the arena, the final scoreboard is unveiled to reveal your two boys at the top, miles above the others. Itâs a moment you never want to forget, seeing their names beside one another with their respective medals makes you feel a happiness that you know comes few and far between.
The staff set up the podiums on the ice which are soon to hold your brother and boyfriend in pride of place. This is new, theyâve been battling each other for the top spot their entire careers yet this one feels slightly different.
Perhaps itâs because if your mother holds her end of the bargain, youâre free of the debt that you didnât even create and she is hopefully nowhere to be seen after today. You want to be sad about it, but regardless of how strange it will be to no longer have her there, youâre thankful that Minhee can be free of her burden and you free of her deceit.Â
You watch on as Minhee and Sunghoon skate to their places, carefully stepping on the white boxes as the triumphant music plays through the speakers. They have done so well, much better than anyone could have anticipated.
With each medal ceremoniusly placed around their necks, the weight of the accomplishment settles upon Minhee. He thinks about what this means for you both and tears well up in his eyes.Â
Youâre both going to have to start from scratch and find a new home to call yours. But he is also going to the Olympics, something he has dreamed of since he was a little boy, something you have wanted for him since he incessantly started talking about it.Â
His heart is filled with bittersweet symphonies as he looks ahead but he knows one thing is for certain - he will make sure youâre both happy.
âYou can cry, yâknow,â Sunghoon whispers beside him, placing a hand on his shoulder and squeezing tight. When Sunghoon won his first National Gold, he wept like a baby in front of everyone and the pictures snapped became memes on Twitter by the next day.
Sniffling back his emotions, Minhee shakes his head. He refuses to let the floodgates open, fearing he won't be able to stem the tide once it begins. Each tear would symbolise the myriad of emotions he's bottled up over the past few months.
Instead, Minhee leans in close to Sunghoon, his words a soft murmur against his ear. "When I asked you to throw it, I didn't mean by the skin of your teeth. I almost lost," his voice carries a hint of frustration, though it's tempered by the overwhelming happiness of their victory.
Though Minhee is elated at the win, there's a simmering undercurrent of anger towards Sunghoon for nearly jeopardizing their chance to resolve the situation.
"But you didn't," Sunghoon responds with a playful grin, though Minhee finds little amusement in the situation. With a sigh, Sunghoon explains, "Y/N asked me not to, okay? You've known her your whole life, you understand how hard it is to say no to her."
Your brother can't help but agree; there's an undeniable sway you hold over others. Minhee nods, straightening up as the photographer captures a few shots of the medalists.
Turning to face Minhee, the silver medalist offers reassurance once the pictures have been taken, "You did this on your own, that's all she wanted, okay? You have a sister who believes in you more than anything else in the world. In a way, it's her trust in you that propelled you to this moment. People would do anything for that kind of support," Sunghoon whispers the last sentence, acknowledging the depth of his own longing for such unwavering belief.
Minhee knows he is lucky to have you in his corner. Often, he wonders what it would have been like to not have you by his side, and looking at Sunghoonâs dejected face now, he sees what itâs like.
âYou have her too, Sunghoon. Sheâs got enough room in her heart for both of us, to watch us both succeed,â Minhee smiles softly, nudging his old rival with his arm, âJust donât steal her from me, sheâs all I have now.â
âYouâre wrong,â Sunghoon wraps his arm around his newfound friend, âYouâve got me! Some would say thatâs better than Y/N,â he exclaims with enthusiasm.
Rolling his eyes, Minhee fights a smile as he pushes Sunghoon off of him, a laugh escaping his lips. Sunghoon will fit right into his life, that much heâs certain of now.
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You stand amidst the bustling crowd, eagerly awaiting the arrival of your boyfriend and brother. The arena is alive with excitement, vibrant with the chatter of spectators praising both Sunghoon and Minhee's impressive performances.
As people stream past you, caught up in the post-competition buzz, you can't help but feel a swell of pride washing over you. It's almost as if you were the one receiving the accolades, so deeply invested are you in their success.
Then, you spot them making their way towards you, their medals gleaming proudly around their necks even as they've already changed into their regular clothes. To be fair, if you had won a gold or silver medal, you know you wouldn't ever want to take it off either.
With a quickening of your heart, you jog up to meet them halfway, your body colliding with Minheeâs as you hug him tight, squeezing him so hard that he could pop. But instead of complaining, he reciprocates with the same amount of enthusiasm.
âI canât believe I won,â he says quietly, scared that if he says it too loud someone will pull him from this dream he is living in.
"I knew you could do it, Mini,â you mutter into his chest, your face squashed against him.Â
Kissing the crown of your head, he pushes you away, âSunghoon told me you know about everything, what I asked him to do for me,â he says almost ashamed, holding your head close to his chest so you canât see his face. He doesnât want you to think less of him for having to beg Sunghoon to help him get you out of this mess you were unknowingly a part of, âHe also told me that you told him to go against my plan.â
âI believed in you, Minhee,â you finally fight to pull your head from his embrace, gazing into his eyes as you try to project the belief you have onto him, âI knew you could do this on your own. No underhanded tactics, just you and your skates. I have always believed in you like that,â you pout as you see the words sink into his brain, a soft glow rushing over his face as your words instil him wil self-belief.
âThank you, Bubs, for always being here for me,â he closes his eyes, a determined expression painting his features, âIf she tries to come back and hurt you in any way or if she doesnât keep her word I will do everything in my power to make sure youâre safe,â he says, speaking about your mother. It was hard for him to even call her that anymore.
Minhee says the words with conviction as he stares deep into your eyes. In some weird way, your mother's shenanigans have helped you and Minhee grow a bond stronger than ever before, something that should be deemed impossible, yet here you are.Â
Feeling the warmth of Minhee's embrace, you nod against his chest, your words a solemn promise, "Me too. I'll make sure you're living the life you want, the life you deserve."
The sentiment hangs in the air between you, a shared understanding of the depth of your commitment to each other's happiness and fulfillment. For a few precious moments, you simply hold onto each other, drawing strength from the connection you share as siblings.
But as your boyfriend coughs softly, attempting to subtly regain your attention, you gently pull away from Minhee's embrace, though the warmth of his presence lingers with you.Â
Turning towards your boyfriend with a reassuring smile, âAre you jealous youâre not getting attention?â
You finally throw yourself into Sunghoon's arms, a wide grin spreading across your face as you greet him with a deep, passionate kiss. Youâre so full of love that if you donât pass it onto him through your tongue sweeping into his mouth, you might implode.
As you break away, a sense of elation fills the air around you. Sunghoon's arms wrap tightly around you, pulling you close as if he never wants to let you go. His eyes sparkle with pride and affection, mirroring your own emotions.
"You did amazing, Hoonie," you whisper, holding onto him tighter as you pass your affection from your body to his. "Thank you so much." Your gratitude flows freely, a testament to your appreciation for his trust in your judgment that Minhee was more than capable of succeeding on his own.
Sunghoon sets you down gently, his hand cupping your cheek as he places a feather-light kiss on your nose, "You're welcome, Sweets," he murmurs affectionately, "Although, I did get a bollocking from Minhee back in the locker room," he adds with a laugh.
Minhee grunts, crossing his arms in mock annoyance, "Well, he deserved it, skating so well and all that," he says with a playful pout, eliciting laughter from you and Sunghoon.
"I'll take the compliment, Baby," Sunghoon retorts, making exaggerated kissy faces at Minhee, the playful banter between the two filling the air with warmth and joy.
âYeah yeah, look, can you stop hogging my manager for a minute,â Minhee rolls his eyes as he speaks.
But youâre confused by his statement, "Manager?" you repeat sceptically, withdrawing from Sunghoon's embrace to face your brother directly, "What do you mean, manager?"
Minhee shrugs nonchalantly, but you can see the flicker of anticipation in his eyes, "Well, Mum's no longer in the picture, so I'm in need of a manager. And I thought you would be perfect," he explains, his words carrying a mix of hope and excitement.
The weight of his request settles heavily on your shoulders. You've never managed anything more than closing up shop at work, and the idea of being in charge of Minhee's entire career feels overwhelming. Even though youâre at Uni studying Events Management, it wasnât exactly heavy on the management part, it certainly hasnât equipped you with the skills to handle such responsibility.
Minhee senses your hesitation, and he steps closer, his expression earnest. "Bubs, I trust you more than anyone else in the world," he says softly, his voice pleading, "And just think of all the travelling you'll get to do, all the contacts you'll make. Please, Y/N. I can't go to the Olympics without you."
The mention of the Olympics sends a shiver of excitement down your spine. The event is being held in Paris this year which is a dream destination you've longed to visit since you were a little girl, and the opportunity to be a part of Minhee's journey to the Olympics fills you with both fear and exhilaration.
"Manager?" you repeat, still trying to wrap your head around the idea. The thought of being responsible for Minhee's career is daunting, but his trust in you is undeniable.
Minhee nods, his eyes searching yours for any sign of hesitation, "Yeah, manager," he confirms, his voice tinged with hope. His confirmation of words hit you with a newfound gravity, you realise just how much this means to him. The thought of being by his side, supporting him on his journey fills you with a sense of purpose.
"Okay," you say finally, your voice steady despite the flutter of nerves in your stomach, "I'll do it. I'll be your manager."
A wide smile breaks across Minhee's face, relief flooding his features. He pulls you into a tight hug, his gratitude palpable.
"Thank you, Y/N," he murmurs against your hair, "You won't regret it, I promise."Â
Minhee pulls back from the embrace, his enthusiasm obvious, and you can't help but feel a burst of determination rush through you. You're going to attempt to be the best manager this world has ever seen. But when the reality of your new responsibility settles in, a question arises in the back of your mind.
"What about you, Sunghoon?" you inquire, turning to face your boyfriend, "What are you going to do now that you don't have a manager either?"
Sunghoon shrugs casually, though there's a hint of uncertainty in his eyes, "I'm figuring it out," he replies with a nonchalant smile, "I donât know if I really need one."
You can sense the unease lurking beneath his easygoing facade, and it tugs at your heartstrings. While Minhee's proposition has filled you with a sense of purpose, you can't help but worry about Sunghoon navigating the uncertain waters of his career without the support of a manager.
But before you can voice your concerns, Sunghoon reaches out, squeezing your hand reassuringly, "Don't worry about me, Sweets," he says, his voice soft but resolute. "I'll find my way, just like you and Minhee will."
He has a weird look on his face as he rattles his brain, wondering whether to let the next words slip out of his mouth. You stand patiently waiting for him to speak.
âI uh, I think the Olympics is going to be my last big competition,â he says quietly but the words ring in your and Minheeâs ears as your expressions fall into disbelief.
"What do you mean?" you reply, your voice laced with concern. The idea of Sunghoon giving up skating, the very thing he's dedicated his life to, feels unfathomable to you. After all the years of relentless training and unwavering determination, it seems unthinkable that he would consider walking away from it all.
Sunghoon had thought about it for a while, about giving up this life for a more simplistic one but the plunge always seemed too deep. But skating today without worry or fear and no pressure to win, gave him the courage to take the jump.
âIâm gonna ask Coach Kim if I can study under him and coach the kids. Iâve enjoyed doing it when I can and I think it could be good for me,â he explains.
"But this is your dream, Sunghoon," you protest softly, unable to shake the feeling of disbelief, "You've worked so hard for this."
Sunghoon shakes his head, offering you a gentle smile as he squeezes your hand in reassurance, "I found my dream," he says earnestly, his gaze softening as he looks at you, "And it's not about winning first place at competitions. I donât need to chase anything else when everything I need is in front of me.â
You could melt at his words, the depth of his love and contentment washing over you like a comforting embrace. Sunghoon's clarity and conviction fill you with a sense of awe and admiration, even as you grapple with the weight of his decision.Â
In that moment, you realise just how much love this man has for you and how grateful you are to have him by your side. Although you need to make sure this is exactly what he wants.
"But what about all the years of hard work?" you find yourself asking, unable to shake off the concern that gnaws at your heart, "You've sacrificed so much to get to where you are."
Sunghoon's gaze softens, his thumb gently tracing circles on the back of your hand, "It wasn't all for nothing, Y/N," he reassures you, his voice tender, "Every moment on the ice, every win and loss, has led me here, to this realisation. I wouldn't trade any of it for the world."
You want to cry as a fan and mourn the loss of one of the best skaters in the industry, but as his other half, you are so immensely proud of him for following his heart and not just doing what others tell him to do.
"And besides," Sunghoon continues, a playful glint dancing in his eyes, "I'll still be skating, just in a different capacity. And who knows? Maybe I'll even finally teach you to do an axel.â
"In her dreams!" Minhee interjects with a booming laugh, breaking into your warm moment with his characteristic humour.
You shoot your brother a playful glare, flipping him off, but your attention remains firmly fixed on Sunghoon, "Okay, if this is what you want, I'll support you," you say, your voice filled with unwavering commitment.
Sunghoon's smile widens at your words, a wave of gratitude washing over him. "Thank you, Sweets," he murmurs, his voice soft with emotion as he pulls you closer, "I love you so fucking much, Y/N."
"I love you too, Hoonie," you reply, your heart swelling with love. "Forever."Â
With Minhee's career taking off and Sunghoon embarking on a new journey, you can't help but feel a sense of excitement for what the future holds. Everything has fallen into place, it just took reaching melting point to figure it all out.Â
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Peonies ; part four
Pairing: Theo Nott x Fem!Reader
Summary: Mattheo is in an awful mood after the party while Theo takes reader to the peony field.
Word Count: 4772
Warnings: Unrequited love & Mattheo and Theo get into it. Reader overthinks for a little bit. Mentions of drugging? One mention of Y/n. Let me know if thereâs more!
A/N đ I can't tell you how nervous I am to post this, I feel like it's not my best work. But regardless, I hope you guys enjoy this chapter. As usual thank you to @moonpascal for reading, helping me with ideas, and just providing support and comfort. I love you endlessly!
SERIES MASTERLIST <3
âDid something happen last night between you and Mattheo?â Pansy asks, throwing the door open with an expectant look. Despite your low mood, you canât help but crack a tiny smile at the sight of herâhair a tousled mess, mascara smudged beneath her eyes. Sheâs the perfect picture of someone who had way too much fun last night.
âIs there any particular reason youâre asking?â You reply cautiously, eyes following her as she saunters over and slips into bed beside you. She gives the blanket a hard tug, leaving you to huff in irritation when she claims more than her fair share.
âBecause I heard him and Veronica fighting. I didnât catch much, but I did hear your name.â Pansy looks you over, taking in your rumpled clothes and tired eyes. Youâre not in much better shape than she is, and she can't tell if itâs the lingering effects of last nightâs drinks or the aftermath of whatever happened with Mattheo.
âMerlin,â you sigh, rolling your eyes and sinking deeper into the warmth of your bed. You havenât moved since Theo left about twenty minutes ago, and youâre not sure if youâll find the energy to do so anytime soon. Honestly, the idea of staying curled up here is more tempting than you'd like to admit. âWe got into it again last night.â
âAgain?â Pansy raises an eyebrow, shifting to face you.
âApparently, he does care.â Your voice is dripping with sarcasm and frustration.
âHe told you that?â Pansy shifts so quickly itâs as if youâve shocked her. Both of you know very well that Mattheo isnât the type to open up about what heâs feeling. Years of watching him around his parents taught you whyâwith how many times you had seen them scold him for even a flicker of emotion, it was no wonder he kept everything locked up.
You sigh, staring up at the ceiling, âHe said he wanted me to admit I have feelings for him too.â Pansy's eyes widen, her mouth falling open as she stares at you in disbelief.
âFeeling for him too?â She echoes, and you finally turn to meet her eyes with a weak nod. Your best friend sits there for a moment, studying your face carefully before choosing her next words. She knows she has a nasty habit of saying the first thing on her mind without considering that it might not be what you need to hear.
Pansy sits up, grabbing the pillow she was using and hugging it to her chest as she stares at you impatiently. Sheâs waiting to hear if youâve finally told the boy youâve been head over heels for, for years, that you like him too. âWell? Did you?â
âI couldnât do it.â
âPlease, tell me itâs for the reason Iâm thinking.â She all but begs, her eyes wide with hope.
You let out a weary sigh. âI donât know when I stopped having feelings for him, Pans. I didnât even realize Iâd lost them until he asked me to tell him I felt the same, and there was just...â
âJust..?â Pansy prompts gently.
A pause hangs between you as you search for the right words.
You hardly slept last night; your mind raced with thoughts of the past few months, trying to pinpoint when and how your feelings faded so quietly. You had liked Mattheo for so long, even convinced yourself that maybe you even loved him. But how could you truly love someone who was so closed off? Sure, he turned to you when he was struggling, but that didnât mean he ever shared what he was feeling. He liked your presence and relied on you to be there whenever he needed support, but he never trusted you enough to truly let you in.
Not in the way you wanted, at least.
If he wasnât comfortable with his own emotions, there was no way he would be able to handle yours. Maybe that was the heart of itâthe realization that he would never fully open up to you, and that had kept you from falling in love with him. And maybe that was the best thing that could have happened, no matter how painful or uncomfortable it was to come to terms with at the beginning.
Then there was Theo. Who had promised to help you get over Mattheo, and from that moment on, he was there for you without hesitation. He held your hand whenever you needed it, and honestly, you had begun to lean on him a bit too muchâbeing close to him had become your favorite feeling. He never made it feel like supporting you was a chore; instead, he made it seem like something he had always longed to do.
In truth, everything had changed for you. Spending time with Theo was no longer just a way to distract yourself from Mattheo; it became where you wanted to be. Being around him made you feel safe and accepted in a way you hadnât realized you craved.
And that was absolutely terrifying.
You sit up abruptly, fully facing Pansy, âWhen you said that you thought Theo would give me everything if I let him, did you mean that?â
âBabes,â she begins, sending you a soft smile. âIâve always thought you would be good for Mattheo. You bring something out in him; heâs happiest when heâs around you. Veronica seemed to make him happy at firstââ she adds with a snortââbut nowhere near the level you do.â
âBut with TheoâŚâ Pansy trails off. âIâve never seen you so happyâand not the kind of happy you were with Mattheo. Itâs not the relief of him not having a one-night stand or flirting with you a bit bolder at a party. Itâs genuine happiness; youâre truly yourself. Theo brings out a different side of you, and you do that for him, too.â
Glancing over at the vase of red peonies, battling the tightness in your throat and the sting in your eyes. You decide youâd rather not spend the day in bed.
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Since last night, Theo has been struggling to push away the thought that maybe the idea of you having feelings for him isnât so far-fetched. Especially after youâd implied that the two of you were together to the girl whoâd tried to flirt with him. The way youâd intertwined your fingers with his, staking a silent claim that he was off-limits, had left him reeling. There was no way youâd be so possessive if you didnât feel the same. At least, thatâs what heâd been telling himself all morning.
And then there was the way you hadnât been able to answer Mattheo about your feelings. Theoâs whole heart had been in his throat as he waited for you to tell Mattheo that you did have feelings for him, that youâd had them for years. But you hadnât answered.
In a way, though, you had, hadnât you? Youâd pushed past Mattheo without a word and gone straight to him.
âAre you coming with us to Hogsmeade or not?â Enzo nudges Theo, pulling him out of his thoughts. The boys had all planned to go to Hogsmeade together this weekend, a plan set firmly in stone since last weekend. But when Theo saw you this morning, he couldnât hold back. On impulse, he asked if you wanted to spend some time together, suggestingâalmost shylyâthat he could finally show you where heâd been getting the peonies.
âNo, Iâve got plans.â Theo shrugs, and Draco sends him an irritated look from the opposite couch.
âWe made plans.â Draco huffs, clearly agitated with the change. He always hated it when the boys ditched at the last second.
âSomething came up.â Theo sighs, hoping that heâll let it go quickly. Heâs well aware that Mattheo should be coming down the stairs at any second. Enzo had told them that he was taking forever to get ready, probably hungover from last night.Â
âYou mean your girl.â Blaise corrects, and Draco looks disgusted. His head swings back to look at Theo.
âYouâre ditching us for her? Mate, thatâs pathetic.â Draco scoffs. âShe isnât even your girlfriend.â
âSheâs pretty damn close.â Blaise points out, and Theo tries his best to ignore the feeling that jolts through him when he thinks of you as his girlfriend.
He doesnât have a chance to say anythingânot that he would haveâbefore Mattheo walks over to join the group. He claps a hand on Dracoâs shoulder, only for Draco to shrug him off irritably. âCâmon,â Mattheo says, his tone leaving no room for argument.
As the others rise, stretching and adjusting their robes, Theo remains seated, gaze fixed on the fireplace in front of him. Mattheo pauses, giving him a puzzled look, one brow lifting in question. âYouâre not coming?â
âNo.â Theo answers curtly, clearly uninterested in extending the conversation. The truth is, he hasn't spoken to Mattheo in quite a while, and when they do, itâs nothing but tensionâa quiet frustration simmering beneath each exchange.
Mattheoâs curiosity sharpens. âWhy not?â
âHeâs got plans with his girl,â Draco interjects with a roll of his eyes, impatience seeping into his voice. âNow, can we go? Weâve waited long enough for you as it is.â
âWait. Hold on,â Mattheo turns to face him fully, and Draco huffs when he realizes theyâre not going to be leaving any time soon. âYour girl?â
âYou know what he means.â Blaise interjects calmly, his eyes shifting to Mattheo as he watches tension coil through his stance.
Mattheo gives a casual shrug, though his jaw tightens. âNo, Blaise, I really donât.â
Theo huffs, rolling his eyes as he stands, making to push past. âWhy the hell do you even care?â
Mattheoâs hand snaps out, stopping him mid-step. âYou know why I care.â
Theoâs gaze darkens, voice low. âOh, you mean because of your feelings for her?â He shakes his head in disbelief. âDoes your girlfriend know that you told Y/n youâve always liked her?â
Theoâs eyes flicker over Mattheoâs shoulder, catching the shared looks between Blaise, Enzo, and Draco. Thereâs no shock in their expressionsâonly a knowing look as if theyâd been bracing for this moment all along. Itâs unsettling, the way they seem almost resigned, like theyâve seen the tension building between him and Mattheo from a mile away.
Mattheo scoffs, an edge of irritation slipping into his voice. âDid she go and tell you everything I said?â
Theo raises a brow, âNo, I overheard you. But even if she did, what does it matter to you?â
Matteo narrows his eyes, âBecause I care about her.â
âBullshit. If you cared about her, you wouldnât have put her in that position last night.â
âI care about her more than you think.â Mattheo bites out, and the boys watch carefully as Mattheo takes another step forward.
âRight,â Theo scoffs, âYou care so much you went and found yourself another girl.â
Theo sees it before Mattheo even speaksâthe subtle shift in his expression, the tightening of his jaw, the flicker of defensiveness flashing in his eyes. âI wasnât ready toââ
âSo you werenât ready for her? But you were for Veronica? I donât get it. You canât just expect her to always be there when you finally figure out what you want.â
Mattheo laughs in disbelief, âI wasnât waiting, Iââ
âThen what the hell were you doing?â Theoâs voice sharpens. âYou had years to tell her how you felt, and you didnât say anything. Then you get a girlfriend, she starts spending time with me, and all of a sudden, you care? Leave her alone and quit messing with her.â
âIâm not fucking messing with herââ
âYou are. Youâve been doing it for years.â Theoâs eyes flash with frustration, and suddenly he feels the urge to make it clear that he wants youâthat he always has, and Mattheo isnât the only one. âShe deserves better than someone who canât make up their mind. She deserves to be someoneâs first choice.â
Mattheoâs expression hardens and his tone drops. âAnd thatâs you?â
Theo doesnât have the chance to answer, because Veronicaâs shriek causes both their heads to snap in her direction, âMatty!â
Theo watches as Mattheo steps back, anger giving way to frustration, a quiet curse slipping from his lips at the sight of his girlfriend. Veronica strides forward, pushing right past Blaise and Enzo without a second glance. Blaise shoots her an agitated look, irritation flashing in his eyes as she barrels through.
âI thought you said you guys were going to Hogsmeade.â Veronica smiles, reaching out to take Mattheoâs hand, but he subtly pulls away, dodging her touch with a flicker of impatience in his eyes.
âWe are.â He grumbles under his breath, but Veronica keeps smiling sweetly, unfazed, as if her boyfriend hadnât just blatantly brushed off her attempt to hold his hand. Mattheo turns to leave, muttering something to the boys, likely a brief comment about their plans.
Theo watches as an agitated Mattheo strides out of the common room, with the boys trailing behind him. But the boys glance back at Theo, their expressions a mix of caution and confusion. Theo turns to leave as well, but Veronicaâs voice stops him, soft and pointed, just loud enough for him to hear.
âYou should tell your girlfriend that last night was a mistake,â she murmurs, a sympathetic smile tugging at her lips. âMattheo thought she was me; you know how he gets after a few too many drinks.â
Theo thinks about correcting her, letting her know that he doesnât really know what she means at all. From what he saw last night, Mattheo was tipsyânot that drunkâand Theo has had enough years of experience to tell the difference. But instead, he shrugs it off, deciding heâd rather find you than spend any more time in the common room.
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âHogsmeade is that way.â You say, a bit confused, gesturing in the opposite direction as you walk beside Theo.
âI know.â He replies simply, his gaze flickering back to the trail that youâve never gone down before. Honestly, you had no idea it even existed. Itâs evident that this path isnât used often, as moss and grass have claimed most of the walkway. Vibrant wildflowers dot the sides, their colors brightening the greenery around them.Â
Heâs been quiet for most of the walk, which feels strange; youâre not used to this side of him. The more time youâve spent with Theo, the more heâs opened upâsharing memories of his late mum, the weight of his fatherâs expectations, and his hopes for the future. These walks, where you slowly unravel each otherâs stories, have become your thing, something that only the two of you share.
You frown slightly, glancing at him as you try to piece it together. âBut I thought you said you got the flowers from a shop.â
âI never said that.â Theoâs lips curve into that soft, gentle smile that never fails to send your stomach into a flutter. âI said Iâd take you with me the next time I went to get some. I never said it was in Hogsmeade.â
It takes you a second, too enamored with the view in front of you for it all to click. The walk isnât long, but as you continue down the path, you spot a patch of red ahead. It stands out against the greenery, a cluster of flowers blooming a pretty, vibrant hue. You canât quite tell what kind they are, but when you glance at Theo, you notice the way his eyes flicker nervously, and it suddenly feels like youâre walking toward something important.
But then it hits you all at once: âTheyâre peonies.â
On instinct, you grab Theoâs hand, giving it a playful tug to urge him along toward the blooms. He lets out a soft laugh at your enthusiasm, and a warmth fills you as his earlier mood seems to lift, the tension in his shoulders fading.
When you reach the edge of the flower field, you pause, still holding Theoâs hand as your gaze lingers over the vibrant blooms stretching out before you. Theo glances at you, heart beating a little faster as he wonders what youâre thinking, but he brushes aside his nerves and releases your hand, shrugging off his jacket to lay it carefully on the ground. You murmur to him, urging him not to squish any of the flowers, and Theo smiles, his expression softening as he gently reassures you that he wonât.
There isnât much room on his jacket, so you find yourself pressed against Theoâs sideâthough you donât mind in the slightest. Heâs leaned back on his hands, while you sit cross-legged beside him.
The quiet is soothing, broken only by the soft chatter of birds and the occasional hum of an insect drifting from flower to flower. The warmth of the sun on your skin feels heavenly, its heat a welcome contrast to the long, cold months that have passed.
âIs this why you left? The first night you stayed with me?â You ask, glancing to the right to watch his reaction.Â
From where youâre seated, you can see how the sunlight catches every small detail of his face, highlighting any imperfections. Thereâs the faint mole on his cheekbone, his dark lashes that youâre secretly jealous of, and the thin scar along his chin from when he fell off his broom as a kid. Another mark splits through his browâa scar whose origin he could never quite remember, but has always just been there. It tugs at you, knowing you can recall the origins of his faded scars. It might seem trivial, but it means heâs let you in, sharing parts of himself that not everyone gets to see.
Theo nods, âI had to go early in the morning to give them to Pansy. With practice later, it was the only chance I could.â
A smile creeps onto your face as you imagine Theo, slightly awkward but determined, handing over the bundle of flowers and the little card to Pansy, who no doubt teased him relentlessly. Youâd had wondered how she noticed that Theo was different with you, especially when most of your time together was just the two of you. But now, hearing this, you understand perfectly how she recognized a side of him that only seems to surface around you.
âI didnât want to leave, yâknow.â Theo continues, finally glancing over at you, and the effect is instantâthose watercolor eyes meet yours, sending a flutter through your stomach as you instinctively lean closer, feeling yourself melt into his side.
âThe flowers made up for it,â you tease, a soft smile tugging at your lips. âAside from you, they were the only thing that made me feel better.â
âYeah?â Theo glances down at you, tucked into his side, a satisfied smile tugging at his lips. Hearing you say the flowers meant something to you eases any nerves he hadâbecause they were never just a way to cheer you up. They were his quiet, unspoken way of telling you that he was there, that he cared. And that, despite your feelings for Mattheo, he was an option too.
âYeah.â You confirm.
For the rest of the afternoon, you and Theo sat together, talking about whatever came to mind as you picked flowers. You gathered a few, but mostly you watched as Theo picked the ones he liked the most, adding to the small bundle that sat between you both. Watching him carefully select the prettiest flowers, knowing he was going to give them to you, made something shift inside you. If you hadnât fully realized your feelings before, you were certain of them now.
You lost track of time with Theo, but eventually, he had to leave for practice. He handed you the freshly picked flowers and walked you back to the castle, stalling as if reluctant to say goodbye. In the end, you pressed a soft kiss to his cheek and murmured a quiet âthank you.â You didnât want to say goodbye either, but you couldnât bring yourself to be the reason Theo might get into trouble.
It wasnât until you got back to your dorm, leaning against the door with a giddy squeal, the flowers pressed to your chest, their scent lingering in the air, that the realization hit you. You shouldâve kissed him. The thought made your stomach dip with excitement, and for a fleeting moment, you entertained the idea of running after him, catching him just before practice, and kissing him. Absentmindedly, your hand rises to trace your lips, lost in your racing thoughts.Â
Youâre so caught up in the moment that you donât notice Pansy at her desk, watching you with an amused look.
âYou look like you had a good time.â Pansy smirks as you startle and send her a look before pushing away from the door.
âPansy, Iâm fucked.â You whine and she lets out a loud laugh.
âYou were from the second he stayed the night with you.â You pause for a moment, letting the realization settle in, and as it does, you know sheâs right. You couldnât remember the last time you felt so safe with someoneânot in the way you did that night. Sure, you felt safe with Mattheo, but it wasnât the same. It didnât compare to the way you felt when you were with Theo.
âDid you know heâs been picking me flowers?â You ask instead, setting the new bundle onto your desk before turning to face Pansy.Â
âOh, I knew.â Pansy hums, a knowing smile tugging at her lips.Â
âHow did I not notice?â You wonder aloud.Â
âYou were a little distracted.â Pansy shrugs, and you nod in agreement.
After Pansy tells you sheâs meeting Blaise after practice, you briefly wonder if you should go with her. You sit on your bed, lost in thought, weighing the decision, but before you can make up your mind, Pansy is already gone.
As much as you want to see Theo, you hesitate, not wanting to assume that today meant as much to him as it did for you. Itâs clear from the fact heâs been picking you flowers that he has feelings for you, but you donât want to get ahead of yourself or risk ruining something before it has a chance to begin. So, you stay in your dorm, trying to focus on an assignment youâve been putting off for far too long, though your mind keeps drifting back to him.
So when you hear the knock, your heart skips a beat, and before you can think, you're off your bed and rushing to the door. You know exactly who is on the other side and your stomach flutters in anticipation. You pause just before opening it, taking a deep breath to calm the flutter of nerves in your stomach, willing yourself to appear composed.Â
You pull the door open, forcing a casual smile as you try to sound unaffected. âHi,â you say, though your voice betrays the excitement simmering just beneath the surface.
Theo stands in front of you, one hand holding onto the doorframe. His hair is a tousled mess, and his cheeks are flushedâwhether from practice or the rush of seemingly running here, you canât quite tell.
And when he looks up at you, heâs out of breath and looks downright impatient, âIâm sorry.â
âYouâre sorry?â You pause, thrown off and completely caught off guard. That was not what you expected him to say, and your mind spirals into the worst possible conclusions. Was he regretting what happened earlier? Apologizing for showing you the flowers, or for picking some for you? Giving you flowers at all? Maybe his feelings for you werenât strong enough, or perhaps he only thought he had them? The thought that it could be too soon after your feelings for Mattheo crossed your mind, even though youâd started moving on from him months ago, gnaws at you.
âIâm sorry,â he repeats, releasing the doorframe and stepping forward, one step, then another. He pauses, giving you a moment to pull away if you need to, but you stay rooted to the spot, unable to move. Theo stands so close now that you have to tilt your head back slightly to meet his gaze. He reaches up, and your breath catches when his thumb gently brushes against your cheek, his hand settling just below your ear. His voice is quiet, but the weight of his words makes your heart stutter. âI shouldâve kissed you, dolcezza.â
He doesnât give you a chance to respond, his thumb tracing slow, deliberate circles on your skin as he steps even closer, his breath warm against your cheek. His words tumble out in a rush, desperate and raw. âAll through practice, all I could think about was you. The moment I walked away, I just wanted to turn around and kiss you.â His voice drops to a whisper, low and thick with a longing that sends shivers down your spine.
You murmur his name softly, but heâs barely listening, his gaze intense as he leans in slightly, his lips just inches from yours. âFuck, you've been on my mind for monthsâyears, if I'm being honest. I feel like Iâm losing my mind, wondering if you feel even a fraction of what I do.â His hand still lingers at your cheek, his thumb brushing against your skin, the warmth of his touch sending a tremor through you as if heâs waiting for somethingâwaiting for you to say what heâs too afraid to ask.
Itâs you who closes the distance, your lips meeting his in a sudden, fervent kiss that catches him off guard, pulling a surprised moan from deep in his throat. His body reacts instantly, his free hand snaking around your waist, pulling you closer, pressing you against him. The sound he makes causes a rush of warmth to flood your veins. Heâs hardly touched, and youâre already too warm, and your knees threaten to buckle beneath you. You let him guide you backward, the pressure of his hand firm against your back until your steps falter just inside your dorm. Every inch of him feels like fire against your skin, and your previous worries fade into nothing.
Once youâre inside, he kicks the door closed with a thud but the sound barely registers. Without any hesitation, he presses you back against the door, his body close enough that you can feel the heat radiating off him. But you want him closer. So much closer. One hand rests flat against the door beside your head, while the other cups your cheek, his thumb brushing gently over your skin. Then, itâs him who leans in, his lips meeting yours in a slow, deliberate kiss that deepens with an aching intensity. Thereâs no rush nowâjust an overwhelming wave of longing, a perfect culmination of the emotions youâve both held back. Your head spins, your heart races, and youâre certain that if you could take your temperature in this moment, it would be burning hot.
But then, slowly, he pulls back just enough to break the kiss, his breath heavy and uneven. His forehead rests against yours for a moment, both of you struggling to catch your breath. You feel the urge to close the distance between you again, to press your lips to his, because thereâs something about the way Theo kisses that leaves you breathless, already craving more. But then again, maybe itâs just himâthe way his touch makes a thrill course through you.
âI wanted you to kiss me before you leftââ
The door jolts against your back, halting you mid-sentence as Pansyâs voice cuts through the moment. âWhat the hell? Open the door.â You hold your breath, hoping that if you stay silent, she might forget the whole thing and simply go away.
But thatâs wishful thinking: âBabes. Please open the door."
âI thought you were hanging out with Blaise.â You call back, stealing a glance at Theo, whose expression mirrors your own surprise. Before leaving practice, heâd told Blaise to keep Pansy distractedâhe wanted time with you because he had planned on telling you exactly how he felt about you.
âItâs about Mattheo.â Your brows raise is surprise at the intensity in Pansyâs voice and you fling open the door without another thought.
âWhatâs wrong?â Theo stands behind you, watching the way your face turns nervous.
âVeronicaâs been giving him a love potion,â she says softly, her eyes studying your face as it twists in disbelief. âHeâs in the infirmary... and heâs asking for you.â
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