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amiableness Ā· 1 day ago
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yes babes! writers asking for interaction isnā€™t us trying to fish for compliments, itā€™s because we want to share in that excited, giddy feeling! we want to build connections in our fandom! and interacting is how you make friends! i wouldnā€™t be friends with any of my mutuals if it wasnā€™t for one of us interacting with the other <3
I think there's something that needs to be said about encouraging readers to leave feedback.
For me it's not about "tell me my writing is amazing and stroke my ego"
It's more about "please engage with me so that I can experience your joy secondhand and foster a connection with you"
I understand that not everyone wants this in their reading experience, some people are shy and a million other reasons why maybe someone wouldn't want to engage and that's perfectly fine!
But what I'm trying to steer away from is being a passive content creator with passive consumers. What I want to steer toward is fostering a community that is essential to fandom. I want to see your reactions because it makes me feel like I'm a part of something.
On encouraging reblogs ā€”
I understand that not everyone is comfortable reblogging, especially explicit content. This is ok!
But just consider that the only reason you were able to enjoy a fic or fanart is because someone else shared it, and by not sharing it yourself you are potentially robbing someone else of the opportunity to enjoy it as much as you did.
As OPs our reach only goes so far and this website relies on reblogs in order for anything to truly get seen by a wider audience.
So that's really it! That's why I encourage these two things at the end of every story I post. Not because I'm trying to be demanding and "make people feel bad" if they don't do it.
I know most other social media sites encourage mindless content consumption and that's just the way of the world nowadays, but I am from a time when community was at the heart of fandom and I just don't want to lose that.
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amiableness Ā· 1 day ago
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hereā€™s to link to the picnic!
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amiableness Ā· 1 day ago
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eeee omg!! i got so excited to see this! i love this so much and i love you!! šŸ¤
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šŸ„§ - Make a fic reblog account to reblog all your favorites fics. This keeps all your favorite fics organized and means so much to writers!
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amiableness Ā· 1 day ago
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just to be clear! my positivity picnic is just suggestions! you donā€™t have to do all of them, i definitely donā€™t! or any at all if you donā€™t want to. i made it for those who arenā€™t sure where to begin with interacting or those who donā€™t interact at all. because interacting with works in fandoms keep it alive! so i figured having a list of ideas would be helpful.
this is not targeted at anyone. if you already interact, great! iā€™m not saying you arenā€™t doing enough, just giving ideas for those who want them <3
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amiableness Ā· 1 day ago
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Elinaā€™s 4k celebration ; Positivity Picnic <3
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First off, thank you so much for 4k! I can't wrap my head around the fact that so many of you decided to follow me, and I can't say thank you enough for being here. Since most, if not all of you, are following me to read fics, I thought it would be fitting to find ways to spread love to other fanfic writers.
Just as fanfics are free, so is your interactionā€”and it means more than you know. To show your support, choose a few food items to bring to our picnic:
If you participate, let me know here! Or you can tag me in something <3
šŸ° - Leave a comment on a fic youā€™ve enjoyed. I challenge you to comment what you loved specifically about it, itā€™s nice feedback for writers!
šŸ„— - Reblog a fic with a quote that you loved and why you loved it or how it made you feel
šŸ - Send an ask (anon or not!) and ask a writer a question about one of their works
šŸ„§ - Make a fic reblog account to reblog all your favorites fics. This keeps all your favorite fics organized and means so much to writers!
šŸ“- Make a masterlist of all your favorite works. I promise you that it makes an authors day when theyā€™re included on one of these lists!
šŸ’ - Send an ask to a writer about one of their works. These are my favorite to receive because then you can freak out over something together!
šŸ„– - Get creative with your reblogs! Add memes and/or tell them how their writing made you feel. Reblogs with allll your thoughts about the work is a writers love language!
šŸÆ- Make a mood board for a fic! Iā€™ve seen people in others fandoms make these for their favorite works, so if this is something youā€™re into, share it!
šŸ„Ø - Art of a scene or character from a fic! Same with mood boards, if youā€™re into it, it might be fun to share it with an author. I promise you that theyā€™ll love it
Why we need interaction:
Iā€™ve noticed so many fanfic writers feeling discouraged due to a lack of interaction with their works. At the same time, Iā€™ve come across polls and anon asks where readers admit they donā€™t understand why interaction mattersā€”or even find it annoying when writers ask for it. But hereā€™s the thing: writers have every right to ask for interaction.
We spend hours working on every detailā€”perfecting lines, mapping out scenes, changing dialogue until it flows just right. Itā€™s a lot of work and while we donā€™t get paid for it, those reblogs, comments, or asks? In an odd way, itā€™s almost like getting paid. The interaction is the reward for your hard work. And really, it means so much to know that someone took five minutes out of their day to share their thoughts after youā€™ve spent hours on a fic.
So, if you think interacting with fanfic is pointless or too much effort, maybe fanfiction isnā€™t for you.
The fanfic community is so much better with interaction. Iā€™ve seen so many mutals leave over the years because of lack of interaction, so if you enjoy someoneā€™s work, tell them. I know many of you have thought, ā€œMy comment or reblog wonā€™t make a difference,ā€ but you couldnā€™t be more wrong. It makes a huge impact.
Now that my rant is over, if you have any more ideas, let me know and Iā€™ll add them! <3
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amiableness Ā· 2 days ago
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omg thank you all for the love on peonies part 5 so far!! i canā€™t tell you how much i appreciate it šŸ„¹šŸ¤Ž
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amiableness Ā· 2 days ago
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babes šŸ˜­ i love you so much and thank you for going through emotional hell with me as i wrote this chapter. i donā€™t know whatā€™d id do with you!
Peonies ; part five
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Pairing: Theo Nott x Fem!Reader
Summary: Everything is a mess after Mattheo visits the infirmary.
Word Count: 3833
Warnings: Unrequited love. The chapter is just full on angst, honestly. Mentions of drugging? Y/n is used once. Let me know if thereā€™s more!
A/N šŸ’Œ This is short and mainly focuses on Mattheo, but the next (and final!) chapter will be even more satisfying because of it. Even though a lot of you are mad at Mattheo, hopefully this makes up for it. As usual thank you to @moonpascal for reading and giving me feedback, I don't know what I'd do without you.
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ā€œI donā€™t understand. He seemed fine when I left.ā€ Theo mutters under his breath, his voice tense and barely audible over the sharp echo of your hurried footsteps bouncing off the stone walls as the three of you head to the infirmary.
ā€œI donā€™t know,ā€ Pansy sighs, her voice low and laced with frustration. ā€œEverything seemed normal when I first got there, but then he justā€¦ snapped. It didnā€™t seem like anyone had said anything to set him off; everyone looked just as shocked as I was. He was so worked upā€”angry, completely irrationalā€”that we all decided to take him to the infirmary. We thought maybe heā€™d hit his head or something.ā€
ā€œBut he didnā€™t.ā€ You mutter, a sinking feeling settling in your stomach as Pansyā€™s words echo in your mind. A love potion. Veronicaā€™s been giving him a love potion. The thought replays, each repetition tightening the knot in your chest.
ā€œNo. It didnā€™t take long for Madam Pomfrey to realize heā€™d been given a love potion. One so badly brewed that itā€™s been fucking with his emotions.ā€
Pansy shakes her head, her expression twisted in frustration. ā€œVeronica came in, putting on her best worried girlfriend act. When I first confronted her about a love potion, she played innocent, swearing up and down sheā€™d never hurt him because she ā€˜lovedā€™ him.ā€ Pansy scoffs, anger simmering in her eyes. ā€œBut after enough yelling, she finally admitted it. Sheā€™d been giving him a potion, and things only went wrong because she tried to make it strongerā€”his feelings had started shifting, and she couldnā€™t stand it.ā€
A wave of sickness washes over youā€”anger and frustration curling together in a tight knot. For a moment, you consider darting to the right, heading straight for the restrooms to lose control in private, but you force yourself to steady your breath. This isnā€™t the time to fall apart.
For a brief, unsettling moment, you wonder if thatā€™s why he confessed his feelings for youā€”not because he meant it, but because of the love potionā€™s influence. The thought stirs something confusing and hollow inside you, but now isnā€™t the time to untangle it. As you step into the infirmary, nerves coil tight in your stomach, but Theoā€™s hand slips into yours giving a reassuring squeeze, soothing you. Youā€™re grateful for the touchā€”itā€™s the only thing keeping your anxiety from overwhelming you entirely.
ā€œHow is he?ā€ Pansy asks, her voice tense as she strides ahead of you and Theo, reaching out to take Blaiseā€™s hand. Draco and Enzo are there too, still in their practice clothes, looking out of place in the sterile, quiet room. Madam Pomfrey is nowhere in sight, but your eyes immediately catch the vial on the table next to himā€”whatever it is, itā€™s been left there, untouched for now.
You glance at Draco, casually leaning against a pillar near Mattheoā€™s bed, and Enzo, perched on the edge of the bed parallel to him. Neither of them looks particularly worried, which eases some of the tension in your chest. In fact, Draco seems to be listening intently as Enzo quietly details the reasons heā€™s been feeling off about Veronica.Ā 
Then you finally allow your eyes to shift to the bed, where Mattheo lies back, his curls a wild tangle against the pillow. Dark circles shadow his eyes, and you canā€™t help but wonder if the love potion is to blame. His brow is furrowed, his gaze fixed on Enzo with a look of confusion, as though heā€™s struggling to piece something together.
ā€œA little out of it,ā€ Blaise says with a gentle smile, his eyes softening. ā€œPomfrey gave him something to counteract the potion.ā€ He glances over Pansyā€™s head and spots you, offering a sympathetic smile your way. ā€œHeā€™s been asking for you.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t know..ā€ You trail off, your voice barely above a whisper, unsure of how Mattheo will react to seeing you. The last couple of months had clearly been tense and distant between you twoā€”what was stopping him from starting another argument? The last thing he needed right now was more stress. But at the end of the day, he was your friendā€”he had been for years. What kind of friend would you be if you turned down his request to see you, especially when he asked for you specifically?
But it's too late to make a decisionā€”Mattheoā€™s eyes shift, locking onto you. Itā€™s immediate, the way he sits up slightly, his eyes brightening with recognition, and a loopy smile forming on his lips. ā€œHi, my love,ā€ he says, his voice soft and warm as if nothing else matters in the room.Ā 
Draco and Enzo both turn their heads toward you and for a moment, you stand frozen, your lips parted as you scramble for the right words.Ā 
My love.Ā 
Itā€™s hard to know how to respond to that, and your friends donā€™t seem any more certain, their eyes darting nervously toward Theo as they exchange uneasy glances.
You take a step forward, letting go of Theoā€™s hand as you approach the edge of Mattheoā€™s bed. A twinge of guilt runs through you as you release his hand, but you push it aside, not wanting Mattheo to see the two of you together yet. Not in this state.
ā€œHi,ā€ you murmur, your voice soft. Theo watches as Mattheo pats the spot next to him, an unspoken plea in his gesture, hoping youā€™ll come and lie beside him. Theo praysā€”desperatelyā€”that you wonā€™t, that youā€™ll stay exactly where you are. It already hurts more than he can bear to have you let go of his hand, but if you climb into bed with Mattheo, itā€™ll feel like youā€™ve ripped his heart from his chest. And the thought of Mattheo calling you ā€˜my loveā€™ā€”he canā€™t even bring himself to think about it.
ā€œThe love potion must still be lingering in his system,ā€ Draco mutters, his gaze flicking toward Theo. ā€œThat explains why heā€™s been so jealous of you two. Veronica messed up the potion so badly, he ended up falling for Y/n instead.ā€
The rhythmic click of Madam Pomfreyā€™s shoes fills the room as she enters. ā€œThe effects of the love potion have worn off, Mr. Malfoy,ā€ she says crisply, her voice professional. ā€œWhatever he says now is simply how he truly feels.ā€ With a swift movement, she places a bowl on the bedside table, setting a cool cloth on Mattheoā€™s forehead with a practical, ā€œFor the fever.ā€
Mattheo flinches at the shock of the cool, damp cloth on his forehead, shooting Madam Pomfrey an irritated look, which she ignores entirely.
ā€œFever?ā€ Enzo questions, and she gives a swift nod.
ā€œAs I mentioned, the effects have worn off,ā€ she explains, ā€œbut his body still needs time to purge the potion from his system, which is why he has a fever. It should break by morning, and heā€™ll be back to himself.ā€
Madam Pomfrey dips the cloth back into the water, preparing to place it on Mattheoā€™s forehead again, but he turns his head, ducking away. Her gaze shifts to you, and she extends the cloth with a small, knowing smile. ā€œPerhaps it would be best if you handled this.ā€
Part of you wants to tell her you canā€™t. It feels wrong to tend to Mattheo, especially with Theo standing right there. A few months ago, youā€™d have agreed without a second thought. But things are different nowā€”distant and messy in ways you donā€™t quite understand. Still, with Madam Pomfrey watching you so expectantly and now Mattheoā€™s gaze fixed intently on you, saying no feels impossible.
So, you step forward, taking the cloth from her hand before carefully settling onto the edge of his bed. Leaning in, you dab his forehead gently, your movements cautious and deliberate. Mattheo watches you intently, but you keep your gaze firmly on the task, avoiding his eyes as you work.Ā 
ā€œYou know,ā€ Mattheo murmurs, his voice soft and a little slurred, ā€œI think youā€™re perfect.ā€ For a moment, you freeze, your eyes darting to meet his.
ā€œOh.ā€ Itā€™s all you manage, the word slipping out as you quickly refocus on dabbing his forehead, ignoring the warmth spreading through your veins. Embarrassment prickles over you, knowing your friends are standing there, their whispered reactions confirming they heard every word Mattheo said. But when you glance up and catch Theoā€™s expression, your heart sinksā€”he heard it too.
Theo meets your gaze, and you silently hope he understandsā€”youā€™re sorry. Sorry that youā€™re the one Mattheo wants right now, and that if you could pass this task to Enzo, you would. But guilt tugs at you, knowing that Mattheoā€™s emotions have been chaotic because of the love potion. Could you truly hold his actions against him?
Mattheoā€™s fingers brush lightly against your wrist, drawing your attention back to him. His gaze is unwavering, soft with a raw vulnerability that youā€™ve rarely seen in him. ā€œYouā€™re so perfect,ā€ He repeats. ā€œAnd Iā€™ve only ever wanted to be good enough for you.ā€ His fingers brush against your skin, and you freezeā€”shock, guilt, and frustration rising within you. You swallow it all down, forcing yourself to keep calm as you murmur for him to rest, resuming your task of blotting his forehead.
Theo watches as you continue to take care of Mattheo, who continues to brush his fingers against your free hand as he looks up at you as if youā€™re the only girl heā€™s ever loved. A wave of nausea rises in Theo as he watches his best friend touch you, gaze at you as if youā€™re an angelā€”the girl he loves so fiercely it hurts. His jaw clenches, a subconscious effort to keep his mouth shut and prevent himself from snapping at Mattheo to keep his hands off you. He knows he has no right to be jealousā€”not when you were never truly his to begin with.
The thought hits him so hard and painfully that he feels like he canā€™t breathe. Without a word, he turns and walks out of the infirmary, and no matter how badly he wants to turn and look at you, he doesnā€™t.
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By the next morning, Mattheo is back to himselfā€”at least, thatā€™s what everyoneā€™s been saying. Theo knows this because itā€™s all anyone can talk about. Heā€™s not sure how the news spread so fast, but heā€™s willing to bet Pansy had something to do with it. Not intentionally, of course; he just knows she tends to speak loudly when sheā€™s worked up, and heā€™s been aware of her suspicions about Veronica for months. Youā€™d told him all about how Pansy had been convinced something was off with Veronica, but you hadnā€™t wanted to get into the details.
After spending the entire morning catching snippets of gossip, Theo decided the library would be his refuge for some peace and quiet. For a while, the back corner had offered him just thatā€”until two girls settled on the other side of the bookshelf. Unfortunately, that meant he could hear every word they said, and it didn't take long for their chatter to break the silence he'd been craving.
ā€œDid you hear about Mattheo Riddle?ā€ An eager voice asked, accompanied by the screech of a chair being dragged out.
ā€œYou mean how his girlfriend slipped him a love potion?ā€ Came the bored reply, the words dripping with indifference.
ā€œUh huh,ā€ Theo pictures the first girl nodding. ā€œIā€™m not surprised though.ā€
ā€œAmelia,ā€ The second voice sighed. ā€œThatā€™s an awful thing to say.ā€
ā€œI just mean because even when he was with Veronica, he was still chasing after Y/n.ā€ Theo feels his stomach drop, the urge to get up and leave washing over him. He starts to pack his bag, his movements quick and automatic, but then their next words slow his movements. He freezes, his hands stilling midairā€”heā€™s listening closely now.
ā€œI thought she was dating Theo Nott.ā€ The second girl speaks, her voice tinged with confusion, clearly already tired of the conversation.
ā€œI think thatā€™s just a rumor.ā€ Amelia denies, and even though she's technically right, Theo feels a surge of defensiveness rise within him.
ā€œOh,ā€ Girl two murmurs. ā€œI couldā€™ve sworn they were.ā€
Amelia hums, ā€œNo, I think sheā€™ll end up with Mattheo.ā€
That pushes Theo into motion. He hastily stuffs everything into his bag, determination flooding through him, though his stomach twists with nerves. He has to tell you how he feels. He wants a chanceā€”even if you choose Mattheo, at least heā€™ll never have to wonder what might have been between you two.
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When Theo finally spots you, he wishes heā€™d stayed in the library. Youā€™re sitting on one of the couches, your back turned to him, but he can tell by the open book beside youā€”left unreadā€”that youā€™ve long since lost focus. But that isnā€™t what bothers him.
No, the real problem is Mattheo, seated right beside you, facing you fully, his gaze intense and longing, ā€œPlease, love.ā€
ā€œMattheoā€”ā€
ā€œIf thereā€™s even a part of you that feels something for me, just give me a chance,ā€ Mattheo says, his voice low, edging closer to you. Theoā€™s stomach tightens as he watches. ā€œI know I shouldā€™ve told you soonerā€”before any of this.ā€
ā€œIt hasnā€™t even been twenty-four hours,ā€ you murmur, your eyes drifting to Mattheo. ā€œI think you need to focus on resting, clearing your head before we can figure any of this out.ā€
ā€œIā€™ve got a clear head, love,ā€ he insists, his voice steady despite the weight of it all. You sigh, your gaze dropping for a moment.Ā 
ā€œHonestly,ā€ he continues, his words softer, ā€œyouā€™re the only thing Iā€™ve ever been clear-headed about.ā€
You fall silent for a moment, your gaze fixed on the flickering flames in the fireplace. Theo watches Mattheo watch you, a quiet tension in the air. Heā€™s thankful for the shadows that stretch across the room, hiding his frame, because if they didnā€™t, Mattheo would no doubt see him standing there.
Mattheo whispers your name, his voice heavy with longing and desperation, the sound so raw it nearly knocks Theo off balanceā€”mirroring the same ache that's tearing through him. ā€œIf you were mineā€¦ā€ Mattheo pauses, his gaze locked on yours. ā€œI swear, Iā€™d never give you a reason to regret it.ā€
Theo fights the overwhelming urge to make himself known, to grab your hand and plead with you to choose him instead. Heā€™d fall to his knees and beg if it meant even the slightest chance with youā€”though he knows youā€™d never have to ask. Heā€™d do it willingly, without hesitation, dropping down and promising you the world if only youā€™d agree to be his.Ā 
He wants to tell you to remember these past few months, to think of last nightā€™s kiss. To tell you heā€™s certain he fell in love with you the moment he saw youā€”that every vision he has of the future has you at the center of it.
But instead, he watches, a cold sense of dread settling in his chest, as you slowly reach out and intertwine your fingers with Mattheoā€™s. You donā€™t say anything, but itā€™s clear to him that words arenā€™t necessaryā€”because at this moment, he realizes he has never stood a chance.
It was always going to be Mattheo.
It feels like a cruel echo of last nightā€”that same sinking realization that no matter how hard he tries, heā€™ll never be what you want. It feels like he canā€™t get a proper breath in, so he turns and leaves, unwilling to stay and hear just how deeply your heart belongs to Mattheo.
He hadnā€™t seen your face, but if he had, he wouldā€™ve noticed the unease and discomfort in your expression as you turn to look at Mattheo, preparing yourself to turn him down as gently as possible.
ā€œMattheo, I canā€™t,ā€ you whisper, your voice soft but steady as you squeeze his hand. The words come slowly, carefully, as if youā€™re afraid of shattering him. ā€œI really canā€™t, and Iā€™m sorry.ā€
He swallows hard, his jaw tightening as he looks away, frustration flickering in his eyes. When his gaze returns to you, itā€™s filled with a quiet vulnerability. ā€œIf Iā€™d made a moveā€¦ before all of this,ā€ he asks softly, ā€œwould you have said yes?ā€
ā€œYes,ā€ you admit softly. He sits up straighter, and you can already see the determination flickering in his eyes, ready to argue, ready to convince you. But you press on before he can speak. ā€œBut everything is different, Mattheoā€”Veronica, us drifting apart...ā€ You pause, your voice faltering. ā€œ...Theo.ā€ You roll your lips together, trying to suppress the wave of emotion that just saying Theoā€™s name stirs inside you.
Mattheo sighs, a subtle shake of his head as his gaze drops to your intertwined fingers, his thumb grazing the back of your hand. He watches it with a quiet intensity, as if heā€™s trying to memorize the feel of it, and your heart cracks at the sight, the ache of it almost too much to bear.
ā€œIā€™m sure you knew,ā€ You start, embarrassment coloring your tone. ā€œFor the longest time, I had feelings for you. I spent so much time hopingā€”wishingā€”that you'd feel the same. That you'd stop with the one-night stands and realize that you wanted me just as much as I wanted you. I was convinced, you know? Convinced that because I understood you better than anyone, or at least I thought I did, that youā€™d finally feel safe enough with me to let me in.ā€
ā€œBut I did,ā€ he says, his voice thick with regret. ā€œThe whole time, I wanted you. But Gods, the way Theoā€™s always looked at you... I couldnā€™t make a move. I knew it would tear him apart if we got together. So I waited, told myself I was giving him time to make his moveā€”but he never did. I built myself up, so many times, ready to ask you out, to make you mine. But then Iā€™d always freeze, thinking, ā€˜What if things donā€™t work out?ā€™ And Iā€™d lose both of my best friends.ā€
He shakes his head, refusing to meet your gaze. ā€œBut then Veronica started giving me that potion, and Iā€”I had feelings for her, but every time Iā€™d see you, it was like thatā€™s all I could focus on. And then suddenly, youā€™re with Theo, holding his hand, spending the night with him, and it felt like I was losing my mind. It hurt, seeing you with him. And maybe itā€™s selfish, but I had to know, had to see if there was any chance left with you. Because watching you two together made me realize that what I was really afraid of was losing you completely.ā€
Youā€™re at a loss for words, your mind failing to catch up to the fact that Theo has feelings for you- and he has for years. So you offer Mattheo a weak, sad smile, the tears gathering at your lashes threatening to spill over. He squeezes your hand, and you sigh, squeezing it back. Youā€™re both sat in the quiet common room, except for your occasional sniffle, for who knows how long, holding each others hand and watching the flames dance.
Mattheo clears his throat, a slight tension in his shoulders as he glances over at you, ā€œWhen are you going to tell him you love him?ā€
You hesitate, a knot forming in your throat as your words trip over themselves. ā€œI donā€™tā€”Iā€™m notā€¦ā€ You falter, but Mattheo sends you a knowing look. ā€œItā€™s just... too soon.ā€
ā€œItā€™s not.ā€ His voice is firm.Ā 
ā€œHow do you know?ā€ The question slips from your lips before you can stop it, and immediately, guilt lances through you. It feels wrong to ask, especially after heā€™s just laid his feelings bare.
ā€œBecause heā€™s been in love with you for years,ā€ Mattheo smiles, but itā€™s nothing youā€™ve ever seen from him before. ā€œTrust me, itā€™s not going to be too soon for him to hear.ā€
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Heā€™s on his way to practice when your voice cuts through the quiet hum of the common room, calling his name. His stomach sinks, the realization hitting hardā€”heā€™s going to have to face you after days of successfully keeping his distance. Reluctantly, he turns toward you, and there you are, seated comfortably in one of the plush chairs near the fire. A sweet smile on your lips, and resting on your lap is a bookā€”likely the same one he noticed you holding when you were talking to Mattheo. That puts a bitter taste in his mouth.
Thereā€™s something different about you. His gaze lingers, tracing the way the soft flicker of the flames paints your features in warm, golden light. You look gorgeous, as always, but thereā€™s an unmistakable lightness about you now, a brightness that wasnā€™t there before. A taunting thought creeps into his mind: this is his doing. You look happierā€”because youā€™ve finally gotten everything youā€™ve ever wanted. Mattheo Riddle.
ā€œI havenā€™t seen you much.ā€ You say, leaning forward as he slowly walks towards you.
He shrugs, slipping his hands into his pockets with a casual ease that doesnā€™t quite match the tension in his voice. ā€œYeah, Iā€™ve got a lot going on.ā€
You knew this already. Every time you asked the boys about him, there was always a new excuse for why he hadnā€™t been around: Heā€™s behind on his assignments. Heā€™s gotten detention. He isnā€™t feeling well. Heā€™s taking a nap.Ā 
ā€œSo Iā€™ve heard.ā€ You say lightly, teasingly. ā€œI actually wanted to know if you wanted to go to Hogsmeade, since we didnā€™t last time.ā€ A soft smile curves at the memory of him taking you to the flower field.
You saw the look on his face that day, the way he was clearly bothered by you taking care of Mattheo. But you figured spending time together would be the perfect opportunity to set things straight. To tell him it meant nothing, that you turned Mattheo down, and that all you truly want is him. Itā€™s a surprisingly good feeling, better than you imagined, knowing that Mattheo is aware of your feelings for Theoā€”and that he actually encouraged you to go for it.
His eyes meet yours briefly before darting away, and he rakes a hand through his hair, a nervous edge to the motion. ā€œOh, uh... I canā€™t.ā€
ā€œOh, okay.ā€ You respond, your voice barely hiding the disappointment. An awkward silence settles between you, and Theo avoids your gaze, leaving you sitting there, a little wounded.
ā€œActually, dolcezza,ā€ he says softly, and your heart flutters at the familiar nickname, hope sparking in your chest. But then his next words land like a blow. ā€œI canā€™t spend time with you anymore.ā€
Your heart sinks, the statement feels like a bucket of cold water to the face. ā€œWhat?ā€ you whisper, your voice barely audible.
ā€œIā€™m glad youā€™re happy,ā€ he continues, his tone heavy with sincerity, ā€œbut I canā€™t be around you the way we were before. Not when youā€™re with him.ā€
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Peonies ; part five
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Pairing: Theo Nott x Fem!Reader
Summary: Everything is a mess after Mattheo visits the infirmary.
Word Count: 3833
Warnings: Unrequited love. The chapter is just full on angst, honestly. Mentions of drugging? Y/n is used once. Let me know if thereā€™s more!
A/N šŸ’Œ This is short and mainly focuses on Mattheo, but the next (and final!) chapter will be even more satisfying because of it. Even though a lot of you are mad at Mattheo, hopefully this makes up for it. As usual thank you to @moonpascal for reading and giving me feedback, I don't know what I'd do without you.
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ā€œI donā€™t understand. He seemed fine when I left.ā€ Theo mutters under his breath, his voice tense and barely audible over the sharp echo of your hurried footsteps bouncing off the stone walls as the three of you head to the infirmary.
ā€œI donā€™t know,ā€ Pansy sighs, her voice low and laced with frustration. ā€œEverything seemed normal when I first got there, but then he justā€¦ snapped. It didnā€™t seem like anyone had said anything to set him off; everyone looked just as shocked as I was. He was so worked upā€”angry, completely irrationalā€”that we all decided to take him to the infirmary. We thought maybe heā€™d hit his head or something.ā€
ā€œBut he didnā€™t.ā€ You mutter, a sinking feeling settling in your stomach as Pansyā€™s words echo in your mind. A love potion. Veronicaā€™s been giving him a love potion. The thought replays, each repetition tightening the knot in your chest.
ā€œNo. It didnā€™t take long for Madam Pomfrey to realize heā€™d been given a love potion. One so badly brewed that itā€™s been fucking with his emotions.ā€
Pansy shakes her head, her expression twisted in frustration. ā€œVeronica came in, putting on her best worried girlfriend act. When I first confronted her about a love potion, she played innocent, swearing up and down sheā€™d never hurt him because she ā€˜lovedā€™ him.ā€ Pansy scoffs, anger simmering in her eyes. ā€œBut after enough yelling, she finally admitted it. Sheā€™d been giving him a potion, and things only went wrong because she tried to make it strongerā€”his feelings had started shifting, and she couldnā€™t stand it.ā€
A wave of sickness washes over youā€”anger and frustration curling together in a tight knot. For a moment, you consider darting to the right, heading straight for the restrooms to lose control in private, but you force yourself to steady your breath. This isnā€™t the time to fall apart.
For a brief, unsettling moment, you wonder if thatā€™s why he confessed his feelings for youā€”not because he meant it, but because of the love potionā€™s influence. The thought stirs something confusing and hollow inside you, but now isnā€™t the time to untangle it. As you step into the infirmary, nerves coil tight in your stomach, but Theoā€™s hand slips into yours giving a reassuring squeeze, soothing you. Youā€™re grateful for the touchā€”itā€™s the only thing keeping your anxiety from overwhelming you entirely.
ā€œHow is he?ā€ Pansy asks, her voice tense as she strides ahead of you and Theo, reaching out to take Blaiseā€™s hand. Draco and Enzo are there too, still in their practice clothes, looking out of place in the sterile, quiet room. Madam Pomfrey is nowhere in sight, but your eyes immediately catch the vial on the table next to himā€”whatever it is, itā€™s been left there, untouched for now.
You glance at Draco, casually leaning against a pillar near Mattheoā€™s bed, and Enzo, perched on the edge of the bed parallel to him. Neither of them looks particularly worried, which eases some of the tension in your chest. In fact, Draco seems to be listening intently as Enzo quietly details the reasons heā€™s been feeling off about Veronica.Ā 
Then you finally allow your eyes to shift to the bed, where Mattheo lies back, his curls a wild tangle against the pillow. Dark circles shadow his eyes, and you canā€™t help but wonder if the love potion is to blame. His brow is furrowed, his gaze fixed on Enzo with a look of confusion, as though heā€™s struggling to piece something together.
ā€œA little out of it,ā€ Blaise says with a gentle smile, his eyes softening. ā€œPomfrey gave him something to counteract the potion.ā€ He glances over Pansyā€™s head and spots you, offering a sympathetic smile your way. ā€œHeā€™s been asking for you.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t know..ā€ You trail off, your voice barely above a whisper, unsure of how Mattheo will react to seeing you. The last couple of months had clearly been tense and distant between you twoā€”what was stopping him from starting another argument? The last thing he needed right now was more stress. But at the end of the day, he was your friendā€”he had been for years. What kind of friend would you be if you turned down his request to see you, especially when he asked for you specifically?
But it's too late to make a decisionā€”Mattheoā€™s eyes shift, locking onto you. Itā€™s immediate, the way he sits up slightly, his eyes brightening with recognition, and a loopy smile forming on his lips. ā€œHi, my love,ā€ he says, his voice soft and warm as if nothing else matters in the room.Ā 
Draco and Enzo both turn their heads toward you and for a moment, you stand frozen, your lips parted as you scramble for the right words.Ā 
My love.Ā 
Itā€™s hard to know how to respond to that, and your friends donā€™t seem any more certain, their eyes darting nervously toward Theo as they exchange uneasy glances.
You take a step forward, letting go of Theoā€™s hand as you approach the edge of Mattheoā€™s bed. A twinge of guilt runs through you as you release his hand, but you push it aside, not wanting Mattheo to see the two of you together yet. Not in this state.
ā€œHi,ā€ you murmur, your voice soft. Theo watches as Mattheo pats the spot next to him, an unspoken plea in his gesture, hoping youā€™ll come and lie beside him. Theo praysā€”desperatelyā€”that you wonā€™t, that youā€™ll stay exactly where you are. It already hurts more than he can bear to have you let go of his hand, but if you climb into bed with Mattheo, itā€™ll feel like youā€™ve ripped his heart from his chest. And the thought of Mattheo calling you ā€˜my loveā€™ā€”he canā€™t even bring himself to think about it.
ā€œThe love potion must still be lingering in his system,ā€ Draco mutters, his gaze flicking toward Theo. ā€œThat explains why heā€™s been so jealous of you two. Veronica messed up the potion so badly, he ended up falling for Y/n instead.ā€
The rhythmic click of Madam Pomfreyā€™s shoes fills the room as she enters. ā€œThe effects of the love potion have worn off, Mr. Malfoy,ā€ she says crisply, her voice professional. ā€œWhatever he says now is simply how he truly feels.ā€ With a swift movement, she places a bowl on the bedside table, setting a cool cloth on Mattheoā€™s forehead with a practical, ā€œFor the fever.ā€
Mattheo flinches at the shock of the cool, damp cloth on his forehead, shooting Madam Pomfrey an irritated look, which she ignores entirely.
ā€œFever?ā€ Enzo questions, and she gives a swift nod.
ā€œAs I mentioned, the effects have worn off,ā€ she explains, ā€œbut his body still needs time to purge the potion from his system, which is why he has a fever. It should break by morning, and heā€™ll be back to himself.ā€
Madam Pomfrey dips the cloth back into the water, preparing to place it on Mattheoā€™s forehead again, but he turns his head, ducking away. Her gaze shifts to you, and she extends the cloth with a small, knowing smile. ā€œPerhaps it would be best if you handled this.ā€
Part of you wants to tell her you canā€™t. It feels wrong to tend to Mattheo, especially with Theo standing right there. A few months ago, youā€™d have agreed without a second thought. But things are different nowā€”distant and messy in ways you donā€™t quite understand. Still, with Madam Pomfrey watching you so expectantly and now Mattheoā€™s gaze fixed intently on you, saying no feels impossible.
So, you step forward, taking the cloth from her hand before carefully settling onto the edge of his bed. Leaning in, you dab his forehead gently, your movements cautious and deliberate. Mattheo watches you intently, but you keep your gaze firmly on the task, avoiding his eyes as you work.Ā 
ā€œYou know,ā€ Mattheo murmurs, his voice soft and a little slurred, ā€œI think youā€™re perfect.ā€ For a moment, you freeze, your eyes darting to meet his.
ā€œOh.ā€ Itā€™s all you manage, the word slipping out as you quickly refocus on dabbing his forehead, ignoring the warmth spreading through your veins. Embarrassment prickles over you, knowing your friends are standing there, their whispered reactions confirming they heard every word Mattheo said. But when you glance up and catch Theoā€™s expression, your heart sinksā€”he heard it too.
Theo meets your gaze, and you silently hope he understandsā€”youā€™re sorry. Sorry that youā€™re the one Mattheo wants right now, and that if you could pass this task to Enzo, you would. But guilt tugs at you, knowing that Mattheoā€™s emotions have been chaotic because of the love potion. Could you truly hold his actions against him?
Mattheoā€™s fingers brush lightly against your wrist, drawing your attention back to him. His gaze is unwavering, soft with a raw vulnerability that youā€™ve rarely seen in him. ā€œYouā€™re so perfect,ā€ He repeats. ā€œAnd Iā€™ve only ever wanted to be good enough for you.ā€ His fingers brush against your skin, and you freezeā€”shock, guilt, and frustration rising within you. You swallow it all down, forcing yourself to keep calm as you murmur for him to rest, resuming your task of blotting his forehead.
Theo watches as you continue to take care of Mattheo, who continues to brush his fingers against your free hand as he looks up at you as if youā€™re the only girl heā€™s ever loved. A wave of nausea rises in Theo as he watches his best friend touch you, gaze at you as if youā€™re an angelā€”the girl he loves so fiercely it hurts. His jaw clenches, a subconscious effort to keep his mouth shut and prevent himself from snapping at Mattheo to keep his hands off you. He knows he has no right to be jealousā€”not when you were never truly his to begin with.
The thought hits him so hard and painfully that he feels like he canā€™t breathe. Without a word, he turns and walks out of the infirmary, and no matter how badly he wants to turn and look at you, he doesnā€™t.
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By the next morning, Mattheo is back to himselfā€”at least, thatā€™s what everyoneā€™s been saying. Theo knows this because itā€™s all anyone can talk about. Heā€™s not sure how the news spread so fast, but heā€™s willing to bet Pansy had something to do with it. Not intentionally, of course; he just knows she tends to speak loudly when sheā€™s worked up, and heā€™s been aware of her suspicions about Veronica for months. Youā€™d told him all about how Pansy had been convinced something was off with Veronica, but you hadnā€™t wanted to get into the details.
After spending the entire morning catching snippets of gossip, Theo decided the library would be his refuge for some peace and quiet. For a while, the back corner had offered him just thatā€”until two girls settled on the other side of the bookshelf. Unfortunately, that meant he could hear every word they said, and it didn't take long for their chatter to break the silence he'd been craving.
ā€œDid you hear about Mattheo Riddle?ā€ An eager voice asked, accompanied by the screech of a chair being dragged out.
ā€œYou mean how his girlfriend slipped him a love potion?ā€ Came the bored reply, the words dripping with indifference.
ā€œUh huh,ā€ Theo pictures the first girl nodding. ā€œIā€™m not surprised though.ā€
ā€œAmelia,ā€ The second voice sighed. ā€œThatā€™s an awful thing to say.ā€
ā€œI just mean because even when he was with Veronica, he was still chasing after Y/n.ā€ Theo feels his stomach drop, the urge to get up and leave washing over him. He starts to pack his bag, his movements quick and automatic, but then their next words slow his movements. He freezes, his hands stilling midairā€”heā€™s listening closely now.
ā€œI thought she was dating Theo Nott.ā€ The second girl speaks, her voice tinged with confusion, clearly already tired of the conversation.
ā€œI think thatā€™s just a rumor.ā€ Amelia denies, and even though she's technically right, Theo feels a surge of defensiveness rise within him.
ā€œOh,ā€ Girl two murmurs. ā€œI couldā€™ve sworn they were.ā€
Amelia hums, ā€œNo, I think sheā€™ll end up with Mattheo.ā€
That pushes Theo into motion. He hastily stuffs everything into his bag, determination flooding through him, though his stomach twists with nerves. He has to tell you how he feels. He wants a chanceā€”even if you choose Mattheo, at least heā€™ll never have to wonder what might have been between you two.
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When Theo finally spots you, he wishes heā€™d stayed in the library. Youā€™re sitting on one of the couches, your back turned to him, but he can tell by the open book beside youā€”left unreadā€”that youā€™ve long since lost focus. But that isnā€™t what bothers him.
No, the real problem is Mattheo, seated right beside you, facing you fully, his gaze intense and longing, ā€œPlease, love.ā€
ā€œMattheoā€”ā€
ā€œIf thereā€™s even a part of you that feels something for me, just give me a chance,ā€ Mattheo says, his voice low, edging closer to you. Theoā€™s stomach tightens as he watches. ā€œI know I shouldā€™ve told you soonerā€”before any of this.ā€
ā€œIt hasnā€™t even been twenty-four hours,ā€ you murmur, your eyes drifting to Mattheo. ā€œI think you need to focus on resting, clearing your head before we can figure any of this out.ā€
ā€œIā€™ve got a clear head, love,ā€ he insists, his voice steady despite the weight of it all. You sigh, your gaze dropping for a moment.Ā 
ā€œHonestly,ā€ he continues, his words softer, ā€œyouā€™re the only thing Iā€™ve ever been clear-headed about.ā€
You fall silent for a moment, your gaze fixed on the flickering flames in the fireplace. Theo watches Mattheo watch you, a quiet tension in the air. Heā€™s thankful for the shadows that stretch across the room, hiding his frame, because if they didnā€™t, Mattheo would no doubt see him standing there.
Mattheo whispers your name, his voice heavy with longing and desperation, the sound so raw it nearly knocks Theo off balanceā€”mirroring the same ache that's tearing through him. ā€œIf you were mineā€¦ā€ Mattheo pauses, his gaze locked on yours. ā€œI swear, Iā€™d never give you a reason to regret it.ā€
Theo fights the overwhelming urge to make himself known, to grab your hand and plead with you to choose him instead. Heā€™d fall to his knees and beg if it meant even the slightest chance with youā€”though he knows youā€™d never have to ask. Heā€™d do it willingly, without hesitation, dropping down and promising you the world if only youā€™d agree to be his.Ā 
He wants to tell you to remember these past few months, to think of last nightā€™s kiss. To tell you heā€™s certain he fell in love with you the moment he saw youā€”that every vision he has of the future has you at the center of it.
But instead, he watches, a cold sense of dread settling in his chest, as you slowly reach out and intertwine your fingers with Mattheoā€™s. You donā€™t say anything, but itā€™s clear to him that words arenā€™t necessaryā€”because at this moment, he realizes he has never stood a chance.
It was always going to be Mattheo.
It feels like a cruel echo of last nightā€”that same sinking realization that no matter how hard he tries, heā€™ll never be what you want. It feels like he canā€™t get a proper breath in, so he turns and leaves, unwilling to stay and hear just how deeply your heart belongs to Mattheo.
He hadnā€™t seen your face, but if he had, he wouldā€™ve noticed the unease and discomfort in your expression as you turn to look at Mattheo, preparing yourself to turn him down as gently as possible.
ā€œMattheo, I canā€™t,ā€ you whisper, your voice soft but steady as you squeeze his hand. The words come slowly, carefully, as if youā€™re afraid of shattering him. ā€œI really canā€™t, and Iā€™m sorry.ā€
He swallows hard, his jaw tightening as he looks away, frustration flickering in his eyes. When his gaze returns to you, itā€™s filled with a quiet vulnerability. ā€œIf Iā€™d made a moveā€¦ before all of this,ā€ he asks softly, ā€œwould you have said yes?ā€
ā€œYes,ā€ you admit softly. He sits up straighter, and you can already see the determination flickering in his eyes, ready to argue, ready to convince you. But you press on before he can speak. ā€œBut everything is different, Mattheoā€”Veronica, us drifting apart...ā€ You pause, your voice faltering. ā€œ...Theo.ā€ You roll your lips together, trying to suppress the wave of emotion that just saying Theoā€™s name stirs inside you.
Mattheo sighs, a subtle shake of his head as his gaze drops to your intertwined fingers, his thumb grazing the back of your hand. He watches it with a quiet intensity, as if heā€™s trying to memorize the feel of it, and your heart cracks at the sight, the ache of it almost too much to bear.
ā€œIā€™m sure you knew,ā€ You start, embarrassment coloring your tone. ā€œFor the longest time, I had feelings for you. I spent so much time hopingā€”wishingā€”that you'd feel the same. That you'd stop with the one-night stands and realize that you wanted me just as much as I wanted you. I was convinced, you know? Convinced that because I understood you better than anyone, or at least I thought I did, that youā€™d finally feel safe enough with me to let me in.ā€
ā€œBut I did,ā€ he says, his voice thick with regret. ā€œThe whole time, I wanted you. But Gods, the way Theoā€™s always looked at you... I couldnā€™t make a move. I knew it would tear him apart if we got together. So I waited, told myself I was giving him time to make his moveā€”but he never did. I built myself up, so many times, ready to ask you out, to make you mine. But then Iā€™d always freeze, thinking, ā€˜What if things donā€™t work out?ā€™ And Iā€™d lose both of my best friends.ā€
He shakes his head, refusing to meet your gaze. ā€œBut then Veronica started giving me that potion, and Iā€”I had feelings for her, but every time Iā€™d see you, it was like thatā€™s all I could focus on. And then suddenly, youā€™re with Theo, holding his hand, spending the night with him, and it felt like I was losing my mind. It hurt, seeing you with him. And maybe itā€™s selfish, but I had to know, had to see if there was any chance left with you. Because watching you two together made me realize that what I was really afraid of was losing you completely.ā€
Youā€™re at a loss for words, your mind failing to catch up to the fact that Theo has feelings for you- and he has for years. So you offer Mattheo a weak, sad smile, the tears gathering at your lashes threatening to spill over. He squeezes your hand, and you sigh, squeezing it back. Youā€™re both sat in the quiet common room, except for your occasional sniffle, for who knows how long, holding each others hand and watching the flames dance.
Mattheo clears his throat, a slight tension in his shoulders as he glances over at you, ā€œWhen are you going to tell him you love him?ā€
You hesitate, a knot forming in your throat as your words trip over themselves. ā€œI donā€™tā€”Iā€™m notā€¦ā€ You falter, but Mattheo sends you a knowing look. ā€œItā€™s just... too soon.ā€
ā€œItā€™s not.ā€ His voice is firm.Ā 
ā€œHow do you know?ā€ The question slips from your lips before you can stop it, and immediately, guilt lances through you. It feels wrong to ask, especially after heā€™s just laid his feelings bare.
ā€œBecause heā€™s been in love with you for years,ā€ Mattheo smiles, but itā€™s nothing youā€™ve ever seen from him before. ā€œTrust me, itā€™s not going to be too soon for him to hear.ā€
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Heā€™s on his way to practice when your voice cuts through the quiet hum of the common room, calling his name. His stomach sinks, the realization hitting hardā€”heā€™s going to have to face you after days of successfully keeping his distance. Reluctantly, he turns toward you, and there you are, seated comfortably in one of the plush chairs near the fire. A sweet smile on your lips, and resting on your lap is a bookā€”likely the same one he noticed you holding when you were talking to Mattheo. That puts a bitter taste in his mouth.
Thereā€™s something different about you. His gaze lingers, tracing the way the soft flicker of the flames paints your features in warm, golden light. You look gorgeous, as always, but thereā€™s an unmistakable lightness about you now, a brightness that wasnā€™t there before. A taunting thought creeps into his mind: this is his doing. You look happierā€”because youā€™ve finally gotten everything youā€™ve ever wanted. Mattheo Riddle.
ā€œI havenā€™t seen you much.ā€ You say, leaning forward as he slowly walks towards you.
He shrugs, slipping his hands into his pockets with a casual ease that doesnā€™t quite match the tension in his voice. ā€œYeah, Iā€™ve got a lot going on.ā€
You knew this already. Every time you asked the boys about him, there was always a new excuse for why he hadnā€™t been around: Heā€™s behind on his assignments. Heā€™s gotten detention. He isnā€™t feeling well. Heā€™s taking a nap.Ā 
ā€œSo Iā€™ve heard.ā€ You say lightly, teasingly. ā€œI actually wanted to know if you wanted to go to Hogsmeade, since we didnā€™t last time.ā€ A soft smile curves at the memory of him taking you to the flower field.
You saw the look on his face that day, the way he was clearly bothered by you taking care of Mattheo. But you figured spending time together would be the perfect opportunity to set things straight. To tell him it meant nothing, that you turned Mattheo down, and that all you truly want is him. Itā€™s a surprisingly good feeling, better than you imagined, knowing that Mattheo is aware of your feelings for Theoā€”and that he actually encouraged you to go for it.
His eyes meet yours briefly before darting away, and he rakes a hand through his hair, a nervous edge to the motion. ā€œOh, uh... I canā€™t.ā€
ā€œOh, okay.ā€ You respond, your voice barely hiding the disappointment. An awkward silence settles between you, and Theo avoids your gaze, leaving you sitting there, a little wounded.
ā€œActually, dolcezza,ā€ he says softly, and your heart flutters at the familiar nickname, hope sparking in your chest. But then his next words land like a blow. ā€œI canā€™t spend time with you anymore.ā€
Your heart sinks, the statement feels like a bucket of cold water to the face. ā€œWhat?ā€ you whisper, your voice barely audible.
ā€œIā€™m glad youā€™re happy,ā€ he continues, his tone heavy with sincerity, ā€œbut I canā€™t be around you the way we were before. Not when youā€™re with him.ā€
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gonna post peonies part 5 soon! but thereā€™s not a lot of theo in it, just a heads up šŸ¤
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this is just a very detailed rant/psa i have about people tagging things. so please ignore if you donā€™t wanna see a rude side of me šŸ˜ŠšŸ©µ
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please please please for the love of fucking everything stop tagging x reader to every post. i am so tired of seeing ocs and memes in the x reader tag. (mood boards are the exception for me)
also incorrectly tagging your stories!! please stop tagging harry potter x reader for every damn fic. harry potter is no where near your story. i canā€™t find one fic of him. ā€œitā€™s the fandomā€ donā€™t care. stop. tag it as hp.
especially for the slytherin boys. i love my boys but itā€™s a mess. trying to find lorenzo b. x reader and all i get is mattheo and theo. they flood the tags and lorenzo is a mere whisper in a fic. i donā€™t care if the characters in your tags are in your story. if im not kissing, fucking them, or in a relationship -keep it out of the tags
memes! omg the memes! do i love memes? fuck yes! am i looking for them in the reader tag? fuck to the no! i tried reading a new character in a new fandom recently, and the first 20 post were memes!
i get you want others to find your stuff but it really just pisses people off. iā€™ve blocked numerous people doing this. iā€™m sorry. am i being dramatic? probably.
next the ocs!! i donā€™t care if the reader has a backstory and everything. as long as they donā€™t have a name (besides a nickname is ok) or describes their body. anything else is free game. iā€™ve seen multiple stories where itā€™s all ā€œnamesless ocā€ in the description and its tagged x reader. itā€™s not an x reader!!! oc has blue eyes, well i definitely donā€™t. get it out of the reader section.
you will get better engagement if you tag appropriately
thank you for coming to my ted talk
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iā€™m realizing that my positivity event isnā€™t really an event because iā€™m not posting something daily, itā€™s basically just ways to support writers in general. but with a theme??
so hopefully it still works and people want to interact <3
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BABES IDEK WHAT TO SAY TO YOU BECAUSE THIS IS PERFECT
But when your gaze settled upon the player, he wasnā€™t in the same gear from on the ice. Oh no. he was now in a tight under-armor top, showing off his muscular and toned torso along with a pair of black sweatpants. Freshly out of the shower, his brown locks clung to his forehead. The smell of his body wash was rich and intoxicating as it wafted all around you. Fuck me.
this visual??? fuck me is right. i donā€™t know what to do with myself, this is so hot omg. i would give up everything i have to see this in real life. and the tension? perfection. hockey!theo has me wrapped around this finger
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Thin Ice
Theodore Nott x Reader
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Summary: Your friends drag you to a hockey game, but halfway through you lock eyes with Theo. You canā€™t help but feel a strong pull toward him. Deciding to shoot your shot with the player.
Warnings: 18+, MDNI, SMUT, Chars 18+, Hockey AU, flirting, tons of tension, explicit language, hockey!theo, dom!theo
A/N: Starting this series for my babe @amiableness I hope you enjoy it because this is just the start! Also BIG shoutout to my girl @westcanaan82 for the hockey!theo render. Definitely go Check out her page because she makes me DROOOOL
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The arena was packed, and the noise was overwhelming as you sat in your seat, begrudgingly dragged there by your friends. You were scrolling through your phone, totally uninterested in the game unfolding before you.
But thenā€¦ it seemed out of nowhere. A tall and muscular figure on the ice caught your attention. Fuck heā€™s hot. It was player number 13, Theo, whose piercing eyes were fixed on you through his helmet.
You felt a smirk growing on your lips before he nodded his head up at you and skated along the ice. Shuffling a puck with his hockey stick with ease. The game going on. Fuck maybe this game isnā€™t too boring. You held your phone in your hand but your gaze settled on him on the ice. Suddenly gaining an interest in this sport.
After he shot a puck into the goal he pumped his fist in the air but you swore he looked over at you. Throwing you a flirty wink. And trust me, he fucking did. At this point, Theodore was trying to show off for you. Hoping he would get your attention. Craving your attention.
The game ended, and his team had won the match. But after all the eyefucking you two did you wanted to stay back in hopes to see that same player. ā€œIā€™ll catch up with you guys later!ā€ Your friends gave you a knowing look while they walked out. You slowly moved around the now quiet arena.
A few minutes later, you started to feel defeated, thinking he mustā€™ve left but thatā€™s when you heard a low and deep Italian accent. ā€œI noticed you in the crowdā€¦Seemed to be pretty glued to that phone of yours.ā€
Bright cherry red painted across your cheeks as you turned around. Quickly tucking your phone away in your purse, you gave the hockey player a small sheepish smile. ā€œUhā€¦Yeah, sorryā€¦Itā€™s just not really my thing I guess.ā€
But when your gaze settled upon the player, he wasnā€™t in the same gear from on the ice. Oh no. he was now in a tight under-armor top, showing off his muscular and toned torso along with a pair of black sweatpants. Freshly out of the shower, his brown locks clung to his forehead. The smell of his body wash was rich and intoxicating as it wafted all around you. Fuck me.
ā€œNot your thing, huh? What is your thing then?ā€
Theo asked, his taunting tone hinting with flirtatiousness. Feeling the way your heart skipped from his words. His deep voice. Fucking hell. You hesitated for a moment, your fingers anxiously playing with the rings you wore. ā€œI donā€™t knowā€¦Readingā€¦Movies.ā€
Replying to the Italian, he ran a hand through his wavy hair, slicking it back and giving you a charming smile. ā€œA reader. Interestingā€¦.ā€ Theodore said in the same teasing tone before sticking out his hand and you matched him, giving your own and shaking it. The second your hands met, a spark pulsated through your body.
ā€œNott. Theodore Nott. But you can call me Theo, Cara.ā€
The charming accent rolled off his tongue smoothly as you both exchanged names. You crossed your arms over your chest, shifting your weight to one leg. Bringing your confidence out. Something you always had. ā€œAnywaysā€¦Whatā€™s interesting about me reading?ā€ You asked, giving him a bratty little grin.
Theo cocked an eyebrow, scoffing under his breath as he took a step before you. Eyeing you up and down fully. ā€œAh, Iā€™m not sure. Just interestingā€¦What do you like to read?ā€ He questioned as he casually leaned closer toward you.
You tried to focus but his voice, his words were so smooth it sent little shivers down your spine. "Ummā€¦ mostly romanceā€” Stuff like that." You mentally chastised yourself for sounding so fucking cliche. He seemed very interested in youā€¦Maybe even so much so that you could get some hockey player action.
Theo gave you a lazy smile and your heart fluttered, feeling the tension building between you both. "Romance, huh? Thatā€™s fitting." You raised an eyebrow, confused. What the fuck was he on about? ā€œWhat do you mean?ā€
He shrugged, leaning even closer towards you. ā€œYou look like the romantic typeā€¦.Softā€¦sweetā€” Yā€™know?.ā€ Your cheeks burned again. Was he flirting with you? This couldnā€™t possibly be real. This was something out of the novels youā€™d read.
ā€œOhā€” Thanks I guess?ā€ A sea of giggles freed from your lush lips. The same ones Theoā€™s eyes were burning into now. He stalked toward you as you walked back until you were pinned against the white brick wall of the ice rink.
He carefully took a strand of your hair, wrapping it around his pointer finger while his tongue poked the inside of his cheek. ā€œCan I get the pretty girl's number, hm?ā€ He asked, remaining not only charming butā€¦ cocky. Drawing you to him even more.
It seemed that your confidence exuded his own to creep out. But fuck did you like it. A confident man like this? Damn. ā€œHuhā€¦Iā€™m not sure. Can you?ā€ Teasing him right back you subtly bit your lower lip to fight back the giggles that wanted to escape from within.
ā€œFuckinā€™ tease. Isnā€™t that right?ā€
Theodore now pinned both of his hands above your head, practically towering over your tiny frame. ā€œPerhaps just a little bitā€¦ā€ Breathing out your words, your gaze danced along with his ocean eyes. Feeling your heart thump hard against your chest.
ā€œI like a teaseā€¦A challengeā€¦ā€ His tone now held something of mischief, giving him a different vibe. And fuck, your whole body was fucking feeling it. ā€œYeah?ā€ You asked, bringing out more of your sultry tone, keeping your lips slightly parted as you glanced down to his own.
That was it. Theo was going to come in hot. Make his move. Smash his lips to yours. But just as he was millimeters away from ravishing you a loud shout was heard. ā€œā€”Nott! Back in the locker room!ā€ His fucking coach. What a cock block. Theo rolled his eyes and cursed in Italian under his breath.
ā€œWe arenā€™t finished hereā€¦ā€ He replied to you lowly, throwing up his pointer finger to his couch. He reached into his pocket. Pulling out a pen and taking your arm. Feeling the tickle of his scribbling, He wrote something on it as you sat there dumbfounded.
Once he was done, you scanned over your forearm. In sloppy handwriting was written his number followed by ā€œText me, Tesoro ;)ā€ giggling at his little winky face as you nodded your head.
With that, he walked off with his coach to the locker room. That night you got home thinking of everything and anything that could have happened if his damn trainer didnā€™t interrupt you two. Thatā€™s when you decided to send him a flirty yet risky textā€¦
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Ahhhh the start of hockey!theo šŸ’šŸ„…ā›øļø
Really hope yā€™all enjoyed im too excited to continue on with this au! ATP I have so many and STILL have some In the back of my mind help lol
As always asks and requests are open my sweet peas šŸ’‹
Divider pinned in my masterlistšŸŒ™
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amiableness Ā· 3 days ago
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hereā€™s my very unorganized rant about the hockey game i went to. which then turns into my feral thoughts about hockey!theo/mattheo <3
- i could not care less about a sport. but i could not keep my eyes off the ice. ive already looked into getting tickets again. and is it for the actual sport? absolutely not
- our seats were right behind the players, so i got a front row view of these gorgeous ass men. why did no one tell me hockey players are so hot?? why did no one let me know??
- the fighting. i was not prepared for this. iā€™ve read this in my hockey romances and figured it was exaggerated but no oh my god. and tell me why i was so turned on by it??
- all i could think about was hockey!theo or hockey!mattheo starting a fight with a player on the opposite team because they said something about their girl. oh god, or theo and mattheo (who are on the same team) get in a fight because they both want the same girl
- but god the roughness of it. i want to be manhandled by a hockey!theo or mattheo (theyā€™re interchangeable). they way heā€™d bend you over after a horrible game and take all his frustrations out on you. after the stadium is empty and you can moan as loud as you want. and the way his grunts would echo?? lord. the way heā€™d pull your hair as he fucked you from behind and remind you that youā€™re all his while your wear his jersey. god, and all the muscles from years of playing the sport? (i fear i could write a 10k more on all the things i pictured but im already nervous posting this as it is lmao)
- and lastly i would like to say i made eye contact with one of the players and im not ashamed to admit that i freaked out internally over it
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amiableness Ā· 3 days ago
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Hey there šžš„š¢š§šš! Im just stopping by to ask you when you are going to continue the šØš§šž šØšŸ š®š¬ series? Also have I already asked you this? I have no idea. Love you šžš„š¢š§šš!
i honestly donā€™t know, whenever the inspiration strikes. i want to finish peonies and the enzo one shot before i continue it, but i havenā€™t given it much thought. love you <3
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amiableness Ā· 3 days ago
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oh my goodness šŸ„¹
thank you so so much! reading this reblog made me so giddy, i canā€™t tell you how much it means to have someone feel this way about my work! iā€™m so honored that my fics comfort you. it seriously makes me feel so accomplished! <3
Dad!James Potter x Bsf!Reader Masterlist
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read these in order for the story to make the most sense!
pining era
ā˜¼ james realizes that he views reader as henryā€™s mum
ā˜¼ james getting turned on by reader being mistaken for henryā€™s mum
ā˜¼ how henryā€™s mum broke up with james
ā˜¼ jealous james sends henry to stop a man flirting with you
ā˜¼ james comes home reader and henry after working late
ā˜¼ james goes to readerā€™s apartment for help when henry is sick
ā˜¼ reader goes on a blind date
ā˜¼ reader is upset when her friends say she should stop acting like henry's mum, james comforts her
ā˜¼ james comes home to reader and henry in his bed (read before the smut)
ā˜¼ james and reader sleep together for the first time [18+]
couple era
ā˜¼ james can't contain himself around reader the next morning
ā˜¼ reader runs into henry's mum at the grocery store
ā˜¼ reader and james get caught making out
ā˜¼ james gets turned on when reader calls herself henry's mum
ā˜¼ henry gives reader a flower, taking after his dad
ā˜¼ henry gets glasses and james & reader are emotional
ā˜¼ james calls himself reader's husband impulsively when jealous
ā˜¼ reader and james try for a baby [18+]
some works contain 18+ content, read the titles carefully!
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amiableness Ā· 3 days ago
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itā€™s been two days and iā€™ve already read four hockey romances šŸ˜Ŗ
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