#but there are Problems with it so here is me trying to fix them out of love for the series and franchise

[simspaghetti]

Took me a while, but I finally sourced the mods I use for Late Night gameplay - you can find the rest of my EP lists all linked here under ‘Modpack Lists’ :)

Firstly, an important note about Bridgeport performance & mods:

Bridgeport is a notoriously unreliable town, I personally only got it to load once I had a big mod cleanout, but I know other people haven't had problems with this, so it seems to be luck of the draw tbh - if you're going to be playing in Bridgeport, I'd recommend limiting your mods to the bare essentials as much as possible - make sure you don't have a whole bunch of script mods installed at once, as that appears to be a contributing factor, and uninstalling resource-heavy mods such as NRAAS Storyprogression has helped others as well - anyways, good luck & I hope you're able to get it to work!

And as always, if you have any other suggestions of mods I should add to this list, please let me know!

With that disclaimer out of the way, onto my modpack for Late Night! ⬇️

EllaCharmed's Fixed Bridgeport

I've heard mixed things about the world fixes, but Bridgeport is so buggy I couldn't get it to work no matter what I tried (I think my mods folder is too big) - some people said this fix worked for them and it's worth a try if you're having issues!

NRAAS Overwatch

This mod is an essential in any sims 3 save - but especially in Bridgeport as cars / sims tend to get stuck way more often!

Faster Elevator Moving / Loading

This can help reduce lag in cities with elevators as normally they take an age

LN Camera Fix

This fixes the issue with the camera in high-rises going all over the place when you're in tab mode, and allows you to control it better - it also removes camera drift & increases the camera lower / maximum placement This mod is incompatible with Aikea Guinea's lower/no drift camera mod - but it has all the same features as that mod, so you can just replace it!

Ani's SimDrinks / 'Get Drunk' Mod / Drunk Walk Version / PhoebeJaySim's Drunk Mod

Gives your sims moodlets / reckless impulsive interactions / mood buffs depending on how much 'juice' they have at the bar, which makes clubbing much more fun imo - the only thing about Ani's mod that's kind of unrealistic is that the moodlets last 24 hours! But for me, the entertainment factor of my sims turning up to work still drunk from the night before is pretty funny, so the length of the moodlet doesn't bother me :P

The 'Drunk Walk' version makes sims walk with the 'pond walk' from Seasons when they have the 'drunk' buff (I'm not sure if seasons is required for this to work, but it might be!)

PhoebeJaySim's Mod is newer and it has quite a few more interactions available!

LazyDuchess's Lot Population Mod

This one is an essential for any town really - but it's especially good in Bridgeport as it means the clubs and so called 'hot spots' actually have other sims in them instead of being completely empty

Subway Charge

Does what it says on the tin, sims now have to pay a variable amount for a subway journey based on their age

Less Space Needed for playing Bass

Very small fix that reduces routing issues with sims playing the bass

No Stretch 'Children Can' Series

As well as adding a bunch of interactions from other EPs, this mod also allows ur kiddos to play the instruments that come with Late Night, which is my favourite use of this mod (as it makes no sense to me that kids can't learn the piano until they're teenagers!)

Better 'Lifestyle of the Rich & Famous' LTW

Updates this LTW to make the money goal higher and adds in a 5-star celebrity requirement - making it much better for Late Night gameplay

Celebrity Difficulty Mod

Makes becoming a celebrity variably more difficult depending on what version you choose - this also makes the celeb system less annoying as your sims have much less of a chance of accidentially becoming famous This mod also alters what actions are seen as 'disgraceful', so getting divorced or having a child out of wedlock will no longer make your sim be banished from society

Bouncers want bigger bribes

This list is becoming 'how to make your sims lives harder' but that's just how I like to play my game lol I love a struggle - anyway this mod does what it says on the tin - bouncers want higher bribes so your sim genuinely won't be able to get into an exclusive lounge if they're broke (which makes gameplay much more realistic)

Only Papparazzi / Occult can 'Eat Cake' from Cowplant

This mod is really silly, but I love it because it means you can pop a cowplant outside your celebrity houses to act as a bodyguard against paparazzi - which I think is just a really fun feature bc paps are annoying asf and there's not really another way to protect against them lol

🦇Vampire Mods:🦇

sHoNi's Vampire Overhaul

I personally use Bite, Minor Things and Thirst - it alters some things about vampires that used to be small annoyances for me (eg: you now don't have to ask to bite sims, you can just attack them - which makes much more sense!)

Nraas Vampires & Slayers (Storyprogression Module)

Contains a bunch of new 'personalities' for NPC vampires, this basically makes them a bit more dangerous / impactful to the gameplay of your town as NPCs will convert other sims to be vampires etc

Dead People Don't Glow

This stops vampires having that visual 'glow' override that can look kind of weird and yellow/greenish - this mod has been said to work for some peoples games and not others, I have no idea why that is, but it works for me on the most recent patch! I'd recommend putting it in your 'overrides' folder instead of your main 'packages / mods' folder as that appears to make a difference for some if it's not working

Silent Vampire Run & Powers

Turns off the noise for some of the vampire effects - which can get obnoxious / annoying after a while if you're playing with a main sim who's a vampire

Human lifespan for supernatural sims

Some people love the fact that vampires (and other occults) are basically immortal in TS3 - I'm not one of them as I usually play vampires in households with other human sims and it annoys me that they don't age, this mod makes it so that they live a normal lifespan :)

NectarCellar's Vampire CC: Default Replacement Bite & Accessory Fangs

This is not a mod - but I couldn't help but put this CC in here because it really improves the look of Vamps imo!

[a-purple-obsessed-girl]

for my third part of talking about my theories of kpop demon hunters’ future, it’s the turn of the second movie, that should focus on mira and the theme of family:

first thing first: jinu is dead. he’s not coming back to life neither makes the sword sentient. i don’t know about korean spiritual/religious beliefs, so if i say something wrong let me know, but from the movie i got the idea that jinu redeemed himself and freed himself from the corruption of the demon’s king, allowing his soul to move on and became part of the universe (and the honmoon), one with the universe, to become energy, kinda

we know that mira had problems with her family, so that of course will be the main thing: understanding what is family, that goes beyond blood and that sometimes the chosen family will be there when the blood one won’t

so, the idea is that huntr/x got a request to exhibit at some hotel that belongs to mira’s family (i mean, they are rich, surely have some kind of hotel/establishment). of course mira thinks that’s her parents way to reconnect with her (because, yeah, she got over being perceived as the problem child, but she misses her family). but obviously her parents don’t care: they wanted huntr/x just because it’s the most famous group and they want to show their power/riches; still don’t approve of their daughter life’s choice and aren’t particularly happy to be remembered that their daughter is in the group (not that they deny she is their daughter, but if it’s not made super public would be better)

as a contrast, zoey has zero problema regarding her family: they are all supportive. maybe they are at the show and we got to see the difference. maybe there is zoey’s grandma that adopts all three of them as granddaughters (after all they’re zoey’s girlfriends, of course she will adopt them)

and lastly, celine realizes how much she fucked up with rumi, apologizes and tries to fix things. and tells rumi the story about her parents (or maybe she finds rumi’s mother’s diary with the story and she too learns what really happened for the first time)

rumi’s parents story is important for understanding more about demons (that is also a very important part of the movie): rumi’s father was just a (good normal) man that fell in love with her mother, was somehow corrupted by gwi-ma (maybe trying to make a deal to keep his wife safe), hid the patterns from his wife, became a father giving his daughter patterns, ended somehow betraying/ambushing the sunlight sisters, but at the last moment realized what he was doing and stopped, sacrificing himself to try to save his family but unfortunately also his wife died. the important detail is that he didn’t died a demon, because was able to overcame gwi-ma’s influence (kinda like jinu, but before he died)

(maybe here i can make an exception and allow for an appearance from jinu, in a dream, to kinda confirm rumi this story because after dieing he can see sone “soul energy” around rumi and can confirm her that not only she isn’t a mistake, she never was, and actually she is very loved)

so the demon’s hunters part of the story is the girls learning they can stop people to became demons: maybe mira realizes that her brother is showing some patterns because is being tempted by gwi-ma in order to be the perfect son for their parents and feels the pressure, and maybe is envious that mira got out. so mira tries to reason and reconcile with her brother, helping him break free and repairing their relationship

they also realize that a lot of people are in this situation and in the end the girls sang to help them all understand they don’t need to listen to the voice of doubt and self-hatred in them; in this way huntr/x reduces even more gwi-ma influence on the earth

it’s super important to me that mira’s parents aren’t the one becoming demons, like maybe gwi-ma tried: tried to guilt one of them like “it’s your fault, your daughter’s like this because of your failing” but them are “no, i did my best, i give her the best education i could, now that’s on her if she choses to do that with her life, i don’t have to blame myself”. so gwi-ma tries to make a deal with the other parent to have back the daughter they wanted, but they too are “she made her choices, terrible choices for sure, and i don’t support them and i don’t want to have to deal with her anymore, but that’s all on her, and i won’t force her to change her mind”. i just want her parents to be terrible parents with their rigid views and values, but not outright terrible people; and maybe by the end they could learn to be a little less rigid with the brother, since he kinda wants to do what his parents want of him, but, like, with less pressure

of course there are songs, and one is mostly sung by mira. also, i would love if mira asks zoey to help her express her feelings through the song: like, kinda explains what she wants to say and then has a dance already coreographed and zoey from here writes down the lyrics while rumi helps with the melody

[presidentkamala]

The stupidity is infuriating. This is the thing that frustrates me the most - MAGA and leftist both love claiming that Hillary and Kamala didn't have policies and just talked about Trump all day. This isn't true. They both talked constantly about their plans in detail and they both had websites detailing those plans just like every other political candidate. This information was accessible to everyone if they chose to look for it and listen. Part of the problem here is the obvious misogyny and racism. But there is another part- they don't fucking listen to anyone. MAGAs are melting down because they "didn't vote for this" when they did. Trump and Repubs openly discussed exactly what they would do in office and it was this. Project 2025 was not a secret. It was discussed by Dems as a disasterous thing. All of this information was readily available to them and discussed regularly. And they voted for it regardless of all of this information being right in front of their faces. Their biggest problem is that they weren't listening and they don't know what policies are. They don't know what will help them and they can't figure out what they need. They don't listen to Trump because he's incomprehensible and no one can understand what the fuck he's saying. It didn't matter that his policies were obviously a disaster because even if he was coherent they wouldn't have understood what he was saying anyway. And they didn't listen to Hillary or Kamala because they can't understand people who are smarter than them. And then they just get bitter and resentful about it. So they lie and say neither of them had policies so they can feel better for being so fucking stupid. They voted for Trump because they assume the straight, white man must be smart, impressive, and strong. They are hyper-critical of the women because they can't fathom that they might be the more capable ones. And people are more willing to believe lies about women then the truth about white men. The voted for Trump on vibes and easily believed lies told about the women not being good enough because they truly believe women are never good enough (the leftists need to stop lying to themselves about this, it's obvious they hate women). Both sides are not the same. And people did in fact vote for this. They were just blinded by ego, insecurity, and stupidity and couldn't figure it out. And I hope this fills them with so much shame and embarrassment. But I also know they are so fucking stupid that they still won't understand even when people explain it with small words and short sentences or use a meme. We can't fix stupid. Especially when they are trying so damn hard to prove that they are right and better than everyone else. MAGAs want to prove that their backwards traditional values where everyone but straight, white men get put in their place is best. And leftists want to prove they have better morals and more progressive ideas. Both want everyone else to fall in line and submit to them. And it cost this country everything because they need to feel right and better than everyone. They could have just fucking done 10 minutes of research looking up what each candidate said about issues that were important to them. That's all they fucking had to do. But they watched dumb videos by uneducated influencers and repeated what they said instead. It should teach them that straight white men are not immediately the good guy or the smart one. But it won't. They still won't fucking let go of that mindset. And it's why I don't feel sorry for them. I have never seen a group of people more in need of humbling.

Every SINGLEEEE lie they bleat out after the fact is so so so so so insultingly easy to disprove and dispel. PERIODTTT anon ESP what you said abt maga and leftists both needing to be at the top of hierarchy and requiring submission from everyone else and for everyone else to fall in line.

And even more than the stupid its like the pig-headedness and childish refusal to admit fault!!!!!! And to be brave enough to face up to the consequences.....

[lpetersonwrites]

Okay, so. Around 2019, I realized that I hadn't read a book by an author of color for fun in at least a decade. My school reading lists had been more diverse than average, and I hadn't had a ton of time for leisure reading in high school and college, but the leisure reading I had managed to fit in had only included books by white authors.

When I realized this, it was a big YIKES moment. But staying stuck in shame wasn't going to help the situation, so I did what I try to do as often as possible when I'm experiencing shame: I asked, "What am I going to do about this?" I couldn't change the past. I couldn't go back in time and make sure I read a diverse range of books prior to 2019. But what I could do, and what I have done in the time since, was deliberately seek out books by authors of color.

One of the keys to doing this, as has been pointed out by many other people before now, is to read books in genres and categories you already like. I do think there are times when it's important to learn more about a topic by reading nonfiction, but if your main goal is to diversify your reading list, stick to types of books you know you enjoy, especially at first. If you like horror, find authors of color (or disabled authors, or trans authors, or whatever type of author you're trying to read more of) who write horror. If you hate horror, don't start by reading horror by diverse authors, because you'll probably hate it! There is no one singular book that everyone needs to read to become a good person or whatever. And if you associate reading books by diverse authors with reading genres you hate, that's going to disincentivize you from reading diverse authors. So find a genre you like and read a diverse range of authors within that genre.

Basically, what I'm saying is that I used to be one of the people who would have used tags like the ones screenshotted above. And now I'm not. And if you haven't read any books by Black women, you can start now! Doing better going forward is more effective at fixing the problem than staying stuck in a shame spiral is. Here are some books I've enjoyed that are by Black women, sorted by category, if you'd like a place to start.

Middle Grade Fiction

The Addy series by Connie Porter: This is a six-book series written as a tie-in for the American Girl doll franchise. In the first book, Addy escapes slavery along with her mother, and the series follows their lives as free people in the North. I appreciate the research that went into the book and the way that the books portray slavery as horrific in a way that still considers the age of the intended audience.

I've read three books in the Dear America series that are by Black women, two by Patricia McKissack and one by Joyce Hansen. The titles are A Picture of Freedom: The Diary of Clotee, a Slave Girl; Color Me Dark: The Diary of Nellie Lee Love, The Great Migration North; and I Thought My Soul Would Rise and Fly: The Diary of Patsy, a Freed Girl. I read these books in elementary school, so I don't have super clear memories of them, but I loved the Dear America series to the point where it was my special interest in fifth grade, and I'm really glad that the publisher made sure that books about Black girls were written by Black women. These books were good introductions to some key parts of American history that got glossed over in school, especially the Great Migration.

Young Adult Fiction

Color Me In by Natasha Diaz is about a biracial Black Jewish girl whose Jewish dad just left her Black mom for his white secretary. The protagonist is trying to connect more with her Black cousins and community while also going through the process of preparing for a (late) bat mitzvah. I found the book deeply emotionally resonant.

Little and Lion by Brandy Colbert is also about a Black Jewish girl, but in this case, the protagonist's Black mom married a Jewish man following the death of her husband, and the protagonist and her mom converted after that. The book is largely about the protagonist coming out as bisexual while trying to keep her bipolar stepbrother from destroying his own life. It's really intense but also really well done.

The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas is about a Black girl who sees her friend murdered by the cops and has to navigate working for change while processing her grief. This book is also very intense, but it has so many important things to say.

Let's Talk about Love by Claire Kann is about a young, asexual biromantic Black woman who has a summer job at the local library and is falling for her Japanese American coworker while trying to decide what to do with her life. As an asexual biromantic person myself, it was lovely to see that orientation represented, and the story was very sweet.

If It Makes You Happy, also by Claire Kann, is about a young, fat, queer Black woman working at her grandmother's diner for the summer and navigating a queerplatonic relationship with her white ungirlfriend, Kara, while also falling for a charming Black boy named Dallas. It's the first time I've read polyamorous rep in a YA book, and I really enjoyed it. Something I'll say about Claire Kann is that she has a very particular way of writing Black parents and grandparents having high expectations for their children/grandchildren, and that was a harder part of both of her books for me emotionally.

So Many Beginnings by Bethany Morrow is a retelling of Little Women, set in a freedpeople's colony during the Civil War. The book is extremely well researched, and I learned a lot by reading it. It's also a gorgeous tale about family, how different sisters can be, and how many different kinds of dreams are valid.

Adult Fiction

Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston is an American classic about a young Black woman in the Jim Crow South growing up, leaving home, falling in love, and encountering hardship. Hurston wrote in the first half of the twentieth century, and she's revered for a reason.

The Thing around Your Neck by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie is a short story collection about being Nigerian, both growing up in Nigeria and living as an immigrant in the US. It's poignant and funny, and I found it especially interesting to learn about Nigeria and how the United States looks from a Nigerian woman's perspective.

The Space between Worlds by Micaiah Johnson is a sci-fi novel about a world where there are over 300 Earths in alternate dimensions that are similar enough to travel to, but you can only travel to other Earths if the version of you who's from there is dead, so people who are dead in most dimensions are recruited to work as world-hoppers. The book follows a queer world-hopper who is dead in all but a handful of dimensions as she uncovers and tries to stop a sinister plot. I haven't been giving trigger warnings for most of these books, but this book has a lot of graphic violence, including some graphic intimate partner violence that really got to me, so I figured I should note it. I still think it's worth reading, but bear the violence in mind.

The Binti series by Nnedi Okorafor is an Afro-futuristic sci-fi series about a mathematically gifted girl who survives an alien massacre on her way to the best university in the universe. The series grapples with the interplay of futuristic technology with indigenous African practices and knowledge, as well as cultural prejudice not only between humans and other humans but also between aliens and humans.

Graphic Novels

Check, Please! by Ngozi Ukazu is my first entry on this list with a non-Black protagonist. It follows a gay white Southern college hockey player as he overcomes his PTSD-related block against being checked, bakes a truly ridiculous number of pies, and falls for his anxious bisexual Quebecois captain. It's so sweet and funny and captivating, and although both the leads are white, the ensemble cast is pretty diverse.

Bunt!: Striking Out on Financial Aid, also by Ngozi Ukazu, is a comedy about an art student trying to get a scholarship to cover her tuition by using a long-forgotten rule saying that student athletes on teams that win at least one game in a season get full scholarships. It is, in large part, a commentary on the cost of college and the things people do out of desperation to pay for an education, but it's also funny and romantic.

Memoir

The Days of Rondo by Evelyn Fairbanks is a memoir about growing up in the historically Black Rondo neighborhood in St. Paul, Minnesota, in the decades before the neighborhood was destroyed by freeway construction. I grew up in St. Paul and went to school in Rondo, so this book was an important part of my education about local history and my immediate surroundings.

Dust Tracks on a Road by Zora Neale Hurston is Hurston's autobiography about her life as a writer and anthropologist, growing up in poverty in the rural Jim Crow South, becoming an integral part of the Harlem renaissance, and all the work she did afterward. This is the kind of book that really rewards close reading, and I'm glad that I read it in an International Baccalaureate class that specialized in paying extremely close attention to the text.

You'll Never Believe What Happened to Lacey: Crazy Stories about Racism by Amber Ruffin and Lacey Lamar is a comedy memoir that uses humor to get at the absurd and brazen nature of American racism. Amber Ruffin is a comedian, and she co-wrote the book with and about her sister Lacey Lamar. It's not the only book that I think people should read about racism, but it's an easy place to start.

Becoming by Michelle Obama is Michelle Obama's memoir that begins with her childhood, growing up with her parents and her brother, and continues through her college days at Princeton, her work in Chicago's legal and nonprofit sectors, all the way to her husband, Barack's, political career in Illinois, the US Senate, and the White House. It's extremely well written, and I loved it.

Sociology and/or Religion

The New Jim Crow: Mass Incarceration in the Age of Colorblindness by Michelle Alexander is a book about the criminalization of Black folks and the use of incarceration as a means of racial control in the United States. I'm very glad I was assigned to read it in college. It made me look at a lot of things differently, and I wound up doing my senior project on mass incarceration.

Stand Your Ground: Black Bodies and the Justice of God by Kelly Brown Douglas is a book that traces the theological roots of what she calls "stand-your-ground culture"--the idea that white people have a right to be anywhere they want to be, while Black people are potential trespassers everywhere they go--back to ancient Rome and Renaissance England, prior to the British colonization of North America, and then follows that thread through the writings of figures like Thomas Jefferson all the way up to the murder of Trayvon Martin. It's masterful scholarship.

Call to Allyship: Preparing Your Congregation for Leaders of Color, edited by Angela T. !Khabeb, is a book by multiple authors, all of whom are church professionals of color, about how the white congregations they work with can be less racist to them. Angela !Khabeb is another sister of Amber Ruffin and Lacey Lamar, which is an interesting connection. Only some of the chapters in this book are by Black women, but Angela !Khabeb is a Black woman and was the one who pulled the project together and wrote both the introduction and the conclusion, so I'm including it.

hello fellow non-Black tumblr users. welcome to my saw trap. if you'd like to leave, please name one (1) Black woman author who is not Maya Angelou, Toni Morrison, bell hooks, Octavia Butler, or N.K. Jemisin. bonus points if she's published a book in the last five years.

[farenmaddox]

my next Destiel hot take be upon ye

I often see the following idea presented, with only slight changes to wording: "Dean wants Cas to choose to stay (choose Dean) vs. Cas just wants to be asked to stay (to be chosen by Dean), but neither of them can say that and therefore it is the inherent tragedy of their love."

I could be wrong, but I think a lot of this interpretation stems from this part of the script in 15x09, "The Trap."

DEAN: I know you're sorry, Cas. About Bel, about Mom. CAS: I was talking about Jack. I already apologized to you. You just refused to hear it. DEAN: Sorry I brought it up. Maybe if you didn't just up and leave us. CAS: You didn't give me a choice. You couldn't forgive me. And you couldn't move on. You were too angry. I left, but you didn't stop me.

I think this actually speaks to the fact that Dean usually does try to stop Cas from leaving, and that he didn't is what was different this time. Because Dean always seeks a way to forgive Cas, even if it means compromising his own worldview ("Dude, if anybody else – I mean anybody – pulled that kind of crap, I would stab them in their neck on principle.") Dean does, regularly and repeatedly, try to bring Cas in from the cold. He does, regularly and repeatedly, tell Cas what he means to him.

I need you, I'm glad you're here, I'd rather have you, check your messages, I'm not leaving without you, why didn't you wait for me, you've got one job to do and that's to heal, you're the best friend we've ever had, never do that again, let's go home. Etc.

Cas is not waiting to be asked to stay; HE HAS BEEN ASKED. It's in this specific and particular instance that Dean doesn't ask. And that's the problem. It implies that Dean has finally had enough of the way Cas doesn't treat Dean as a partner the way that Dean treats Cas as one. Cas has regularly shown a tendency to go away and try to take care of their big problems alone, without communicating, and come back with proof that he's more than the mistakes he's made-- not for Dean, but for himself. Dean's aware that Cas has this issue! He acknowledges it especially in s12 - "And he's so desperate for a win right now, he can't even see straight." Dean is usually very sympathetic to it even though it drives him absolutely crazy.

Mary's death is not at all Cas's fault, of course. But the fact that Cas ditched them and went to seek help from God and the angels again when he didn't know what to do about Jack -- instead of talking to Dean about it -- is the part that I think pushed Dean over the edge. The fixed point in their relationship - that Dean will always forgive Cas when he runs off to try to save the day - turns out to not be as fixed as either of them thought it was. And to really twist the knife, Dean questions whether his feelings for Cas are even real. I don't think Dean actually believes Chuck has forced him to have feelings for Cas (familial or otherwise), but it reminds me of the way Dean says Jack isn't family in "Unity" - he doesn't truly believe that, but he has to find a way to emotionally justify making an impossible choice between which members of his family he loves more. Cutting out Cas, cutting out Jack, because he is actually literally at his mental and emotional breaking point and there has to be a justification to get Dean through it.

I think the inherent tragedy is a lot more in the fact that Dean wants Cas to stay and Cas just can't do that. You can't remove the noble knight from his natural habitat of questing; he'll waste away. They have incompatible self-esteem issues. Dean needs to feel more important than the mission in order to believe he's loved, and Cas needs to complete missions to prove himself worthy of love. They're fucking idiots, your honor.

[talentforlying]

♠ — IF YOU WERE A DEITY, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR DOMAIN?

WISDOM AND KNOWLEDGE. you are the divine guardian of truths both knowable and unknowable, of all words and languages spoken and unspoken. much like Death itself, you are perhaps one of the least understood of all deities, and yet the secrets you hold are highly sought after by scientists, philosophers, and theologians alike.

the origin of all innovation, your realm is the source of crucial advances in architecture, agriculture, political governance, and military strategy which have allowed many civilizations to become a dominant force in the mortal realm. your domain may also include the forces of magic and mysticism, and many cautionary tales exist among mortals of those who have unwittingly destroyed themselves or lost their minds in the reckless pursuit of mysteries and technology far beyond their comprehension.

your mythological equivalents are greece’s athena, egypt’s thoth, mesopotamia’s enki, and india’s ganesha.

tagged by: @eladead thank you!! tagging: @asteritm, @n1cap, @normaltothemax (any muse), @agentharkness, @demidritch, @whcwashe, @compatiissante, @devilscheck, @h3xappeal + @1carri0n (any muse), @outlawiism, @handgiven (any muse), and you!

[dailyralsei]

thinking about this comic again. heh. allow me to textdump something i talked about with someone else in my replies on another site plus some new brain thoughts... biiig big text dump under the cut

ralsei likes to keep everything proper and in order in terms of roles: in chapter 1 he's stern about susie's misbehavior when she should be kinder as a hero, because she is "supposed to act like one". when she goes against this predetermined role, he tells her off but didn't realize he was being hurtful in the moment. it's established from then on that susie is the damage dealer with rude buster, ralsei is the support/healer with healprayer, and kris is the tactician with their ACTs. those are their unique abilities. in chapter 2 in the sweet cap n cakes fight, ralsei says kris's unique ability is directing susie and ralsei to ACT, and he likely says this not just because he wants to keep each person's roles unique, but also so everyone feels important and not left out.

at the beginning of the church dark world kris gets badly injured due to the glass and susie tries to heal them but it doesn't help because susie's healing at that point isn't strong enough to make a significant impact. ralsei finds them, presumably actually looking for the final prophecy panel so he knows where it is and to direct susie away from it (he says "where is it" before appearing on screen). susie asks ralsei if he can teach her how to heal better, and in hurrying to heal kris he pushes her aside. after that, ralsei tells susie not to try to heal people on her own not just because she's "not good enough" yet as it was a dire situation, but i believe it's because he knows that it's not her specific assigned job. notice how he says "don't try to fix it /alone/" instead of "you need to learn how to heal better/i can teach you how to heal better". ralsei of course doesn't realize the way he acted was harmful to susie because he's under the impression that everyone has "their thing" and healing is his thing so he should be called to help as he's the healer, and his purpose is especially important to him because he believes being a darkner is all about being useful to lightners. he, specifically, wants to be useful and called for his role because he says it's what makes darkners fulfilled, but i also feel like ralsei in particular has self worth issues more than other darkners, which amplifies his desire to be useful and to be used when needed.

then comes the next instance of ralsei being "the healer" when they all fall down into the dark zone before meeting jackenstein. i wasn't able to add this in the comic because it would have made it longer than it already is, would have included a page about it if i had more time. susie says something like "here kris, let me-" and then ralsei maxheals all of them with one spell. he says something like "everyone feeling better?/everyone okay?" and susie is bothered by this because she is again denied the chance to practice her healing, which we learn is what she's been trying to do ever since she learned how to heal after the jackenstein fight when gerson talks to her. she says "i should just stick to what i'm good at, the hurting people magic", even she knew there was an established "everyone's good at one unique thing and that's why we're all equally important and to stick to our roles"

and then, gerson pushes her to use her healing after she declares quitting so she can believe in herself again. she solves jackenstein's problem by accident, but ralsei doesn't know that until she points out that she was trying to heal the old man. ralsei is surprised that she did it after so many of his failed attempts, and he realizes he's been healing the wrong thing this entire time trying to repeatedly heal jackenstein. he /is/ the healer after all, this is his thing! he's supposed to be the best at healing, he should know how to heal someone that's in pain. but no, the person with the worse healing ability, the /damager/, is the one to solve the problem. iirc when he says "i was wondering why my healing wasn't working" he uses the sad smile portrait (the eyebagless version of that one where he has eyebags and is smiling). when he says "i suppose i was only healing the outside" iirc the dialogue portrait is the surprised neutral, as if pointing out "i guess i was wrong, at the one thing i'm good at doing......". he believes he failed at his role, he didn't fulfill his purpose. and we know how much he clings to his purpose, as if he thinks being useful is the only thing that makes him likeable. he even says "if there's one thing i like about me, it's my face" implying he doesn't like anything about himself, or doesn't see anythimg about himself that is likeable.

i believe ralsei is proud of susie when she maxheals all of them before the titan fight, that's why the page where that happens has him in awe at susie's abilities instead of resenting her. his dialogue portrait is the surprised blush when saying "susie..." because he thinks it's nice that susie is powerful at healing now. in fact i don't think he ever resented susie, just beat himself up for not being "useful enough". he beats himself up for no longer being unique and he believes he is no longer important or needed because of this. and i headcanon that that's why, in the most important fight they've faced so far where you'd need healing the most, that DUALHEAL becomes less and less effective every time it's cast, because ralsei and susie are working together, and ralsei thinks he's a failed healer. the one time ralsei has a significant helping hand with healing, a REAL *DUAL* heal, he falters, because he doesn't feel worthy anymore, because he's not uniquely the best healer and therefore he's not important anymore.

okay more brain thoughts time!! not specifically about the comic but i wanted to ramble so here you go

another thing, at the start of chapter 4 he mentions developing his own fears. at the end of chapter 3 he gives that horrible "pep talk" to tenna about darkners all going obsolete eventually and i think one of his fears is just that; even if he says it's supposed to go that way he's still terrified of it. he doesn't want to be thrown away. he doesn't want to be alone again.

he says at the beginning that he's been waiting "his whole life" for the heroes to arrive. then in chapter 2 he says "it's been ever so long", then susie says "we've only been gone a day" and he says something like "oh! that is, short, isn't it?" as if a day feels like AGES to him, very likely because he got created mere days before chapter 1 takes place. could have even been created the same day as chapter 1 because another lightner would have found the supply closet dark fountain easily if it was around for longer than a week. and it's also sadder to think that he felt like it was such a long time because he had nothing to do but prepare for the heroes alone, sit and wait alone, practice giving tutorials alone, rehearsing his summary of the prophecy alone... hiding his face, because he wasn't sure if the heroes would like it, because he didn't know if there's anything likeable about himself... he probably would have never taken that cloak off if it weren't for susie.......

now i'm going on a tangent but since i believe noelle was supposed to be the second hero and susie is the girl in "at last, the girl" if susie wasn't late, if alphys said kris and noelle should get the chalk, if noelle was the one to enter the dark world with kris, ralsei really would have never taken that cloak off. noelle wouldn't have told him to, because she likely wouldn't have been so blunt towards ralsei like susie was. that's why he's cloaked in the prophecy murals. GODDDDDDD

okay that's enough rambling.... they gotta kill me man. instead of brain, there is ralsei.

the healer ( all 11 pages + 2 new bonus pages )

this is a comic i made based on chapter 4, where ralsei is noticeably protective over the ability to heal against susie. what really pushed me to make the comic was learning that DUALHEAL in the final boss battle of chapter 4 gets worse every time you cast it, and at first i couldn't understand why ralsei was being a bit mean towards susie. when i learned about the thing with DUALHEAL, it clicked.

thank you for reading :) let me know what you think! i love reading comments and tags!!! it's my favorite part of posting on tumblr!!

[snekdood]

"bullying works" you sure? bc it kinda makes me think you should lose everything and die and that i wouldn't care/might even laugh when anything bad happens to you ever

[ssruis]

Going through a straight up comical amount of irritating situations to get the stupid 4* guaranteed ticket from the welcome to sekai campaign. It Will Be Mine.

[bitter-rose-blooming]

the anxiety is kicking in! How do I make myself prettier and quieter and nicer and normaller

[phagodyke]

the way this scene w caiman reassuring nikaido in v21 parallels that one w nikaido reassuring caiman back in v10 and its basically the first time theyre properly reunited in the wholeass 10 volumes since then.... brb sniffling + sobbing

[vaguehotels]

hey just a reminder that sometimes you have to accept that you’re going to have to have feelings without a filter, and you’re going to have to tell people that you care about them, and you’re going to have to start saying i love you. if you want affection and love and adoration you cannot close yourself off forever and ever. keep up your walls as you must to protect yourself but not forever. and if you feel like you can’t ever let them down then i’m sorry. i hope you find someone that makes you feel safe enough to start saying and feeling these things.

[ilovecoffeeandchemistry]

ooooh i woke up in a bad mood and it's so hard not to be a bitch about it

[sodaliteskull]

I don't know if it's because Mercury is in the gatorade, or because Uranus is squaring up with some other celestial bodies, but I have had

A WEEK

that has left be quite drained, so I'm going to be playing catch-up with my feed today!

[realnielsbohr]

i hate being stressed about like. things that are actually stressful. normally i could be like "all is well 😌it will be ok no matter what" or whatever but i genuinely cant do that here. if i dont get this sorted out im genuinely fucked

[cats-in-the-clouds]

my sister got engaged and we’re all really happy for her but my bitter rain cloud of a dad (who naturally she told last) is giving her a bit of passive aggressive grief about it despite her boyfriend being like the best man of our generation (presumably either because he’s not catholic or because my dad sees them as young dumb unemployed people who aren’t ready for marriage or because he’s mad he barely has any real love with his own wife or something). so like pray for us? i wish i knew what to do